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beels-burger-babe · 3 years

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All is Fair in Dice and War

***Soooo, @bagelsinatoaster I love this request. However, you didn't specify which board game and as I am a huge nerd I decided to take some creative liberties and combine this with another idea I've been meaning to write which is: MC introducing the demon bros to Dungeons and Dragons. I certainly had fun with this and I hope you like it!*** Summary: Leviathan's world is flipped upside down when MC tells him there is a game that basically allows him to be the Lord of Shadows in real life!! He demands that his brothers join him as MC introduces them all to the chaotic shit show that is Dungeons & Dragons. For once, it was a peaceful day in the House of Lamentation. Lucifer was lounging in the living room with a cursed record playing softly in the background. For once, Satan had willingly joined him and was sitting by the fireplace, thumbing through a book on the human world. Belphie had been passed out on the couch when he arrived and was still laying there with an impressive puddle of drool collecting near his mouth. Even Asmodeus and Beel had joined in, with Asmodeus gently humming to himself as he painted his nails and Beelzebub happily munching on a snack as he enjoyed the sight of his family getting along. Yes. It was perfectly quiet and peaceful, and Lucifer didn't even have any traces of his regular migraine. But of course, nothing good lasts forever. Everyone jumped as the door slammed open and a wide-eyed Leviathan dragged you into the room. The two you very closely followed by Mammon loudly complaining. "Oi! You're gonna hurt them! Cut it out, Levi!" Lucifer sighed and closed his eyes, momentarily mourning the peace that he had just barely begun to enjoy, and closed his book. "Leviathan, let MC go. What are you freaking out about this time?" Lucifer regretted asking the moment the words left his mouth. Levi looked at it with the expression he only ever got when his limited edition Ruri-Chan merch arrived; his eyes were wide and glittering with excitement while his face bore a grin so large that Lucifer was surprised it didn't rip his skin. The third-born was practically vibrating as he let go of your wrist and pushed you forward. "Tell them! Tell them about the game!"

You laughed at Levi's excitement and casually rubbed your wrist. "I was just telling Leviathan about a game that we play in the human world called Dungeons and Dragons-" "You get to make a fantasy world that everyone plays in, and everyone makes characters. You can be a wizard and cast spells against a huge monster! Or a war hero fighter that has been betrayed by his brother! Or a noble knight who is looking for his lost kingdom! And the best part is that it's real!" Levi interrupted, nearly jumping in place as stars danced in his eyes. You put your hands out towards him to try and calm him a bit. "Well, not entirely real. It is played in person, but it's a role play tabletop game, meaning it mostly relies on the players' imagination. That is unless you have thousands of dollars to spend on 3D maps and figurines of your characters." Levi's eyes grew even wider, if possible, as he started shaking his hands up and down. "I CAN HAVE A FIGURINE OF A CHARACTER THAT I MADE?! GAAAAAAAAAHH!" A pillow flew across the room and hit Levi square in the face as a now awake Belphegor glared at him. "Will. You. Shut. Up?" the Avatar of Sloth hissed as a dark dangerous aura grew around him. Beel gently patted his twin's head in hopes of calming him. Leviathan pouted as he noticed no one else seemed to be getting excited about it. "C-Come on guys! This isn't even a video game! It's a thing that we can all do together and personalize it to be something that everyone will like. It'll be fun! Right MC?" You nodded as you gently tossed Belphie's pillow back over to him. "Yeah. I love D&D. I played it all the time in the human world. There's action, suspense, and even romance if you really wanted it," a couple of the brothers perked up at that. "I could put together a one-shot for you guys to try it out if you'd like? I'll help you make your characters, and we can all get together for an evening and play it sometime in a couple weeks." The room went quiet as everyone thought it over. Most of them had no interest in the game itself, but if it was organized by you... "I'm in," Beel decided with a nod. "I think it will be fun. All of us trying something new; it could be neat." Satan casually flipped a page in his book, "The creative aspect of it is definitely appealing. We'd be the masters of our own fate, and that most certainly piques my interest." Asmodeus smirked as he put the cap on his nail polish. "And you said it could be whatever we want? My, one might say that this game could help our wildest fantasies come true~" he made sure to wink at you as he giggled. Belphie, who had only just got back his pillow, scrunched up his face in disgust and launched it at Asmo. "Don't make this weird Asmo," he looked over at you and shrugged, "So long as you do all the work in putting together the character thing, sure. Why not?" Mammon looked over at you from the corner of his eye. "Ya mean to tell me, that you can make it so I'm some awesome, rich, and powerful prince?" Asmo scoffed as he pushed the pillow off his lap. "Please Mammon, even the world of make-believe has its limitations." Mammon blushed as he growled at his brother. You just chuckled and teasingly elbowed his side. "Don't listen to him, Mammon. There is a set amount of how much money you start out with depending on your class and background, but I'm sure we can find something that will make you happy." The second-born blushed even more as he grumbled quietly under his breath. Lucifer tilted his head in thought. "I suppose that if everyone else is playing, naturally I must as well," he stood and began to make his way to his office. "I look forward to seeing what you come up with MC." The next two weeks were spent planning and carefully figuring out the details of the one-shot and the characters that everyone was going to play. Levi was, of course, the first one who came to you to build his character. The two of you spent hours going through the Player's Handbook and sourcebooks to find the perfect build to recreate the Lord of Shadows. In the end, you put

together a human fighter that you gave a couple magic items to make Levi's vision really come to life. It seemed basic, but for the Lord of Shadows, it was perfect. The moment the two of you finished, Levi dove to his computer and ordered a custom-made mini that looked exactly like his character. Satan was genuinely interested in the game, especially after he learned about all the lore and rules behind the different classes and races. You had just been chilling in your room one day when the door burst open. Satan stood there with wide eyes holding a copy of Volo's Guide to Monsters. "MC, why didn't you tell me there are cat people?!" You chuckled, knowing exactly where this was going. "They're called tabaxi, but yeah, they're basically cat people. Would you like to play as one?" He scoffed and snapped the book shut. "Is that even a question? Of course, I'm playing as one." After some discussion and bouncing back and forth between classes a couple of times, Satan settled on a tabaxi druid; that way he not only looked like a cat, but he could speak to them as well. After a few days of you spending time with his brothers focusing on getting their characters ready, Mammon came to you wanting the coolest, most epic character ever. At first, it was clear that he wasn't fully invested in the process, but as he saw the customizable options and all the cool stuff that his character could have, you got his attention. You ended up designing a golden teifling rogue (you tried to tell Mammon that teifling usually wasn't yellow, but he gave you such a sad look that you couldn't say no) that was decked out with piercings and gems all over its horns and tail. He tried to act like he wasn't that excited about it, but one day during class you caught him doodling what looked like a stick figure version of the character on his sheet with a big smile on his face. Asmodeus came in shortly after Mammon finished,

insisting on having the most charming and beautiful character there was. You tapped your chin at the request. "I mean, stereotypically bards are extremely charming and...well seductive...almost too seductive. But that's only thei-" Asmo had hearts in his eyes before you could even finish. "That's what I want to be!" You sighed and made a mental note not to include any dragons in the session as you marked Asmo down to be an elven bard and helped him create his character sheet. You hadn't heard anything from Lucifer for nearly that entire first week, until one day as you were lounging in the living room, he walked in holding a stack of resource books. "Ah, MC. I've been looking for you. I wanted to inform you that I will be playing a half-elf multiclassing as a paladin and hex-blade warlock." You blinked at him as he put all the books down in front of you. "O-Oh. Would you like help putting together your character sheet?" He just grinned and began to make his way out of the room once more. "I've already done it. I must admit that this was quite a bit more interesting than I thought it would be," and with that he was gone, leaving you to try and figure out what had just happened. With only a few days left until the one-shot, you had to go find the twins and get them to make their characters. Beel apologized like crazy for you having to track him in down in order to get his character made. The poor guy was in the middle of peak Fangol season and had completely forgotten. Once the two of you sat down in the kitchen with an empty character sheet in one hand and snacks in the other, Beel gave you his full attention. He put a lot of thought in his character and wanted to make it really good since he appreciated that you were doing something that they could all do as a family. He bashfully decided to play a halfling. Not only did the little creatures share his love for food, but he thought it would be neat to try being small for once. His class was also a surprise. After carefully flipping through all of the class options, he had eventually settled on a cleric. "They're the healers, right? This way I can help the others if someone gets hurt." You gave him a huge hug then and there. Belphegore, on the other hand, was not so easy to work with. "Belphie, come on. Just flip through the book and choose something!" He groaned into his pillow and rolled onto his side to glare at you. "I told you I would play if you did all the work for me. Me flipping through a book is work. It's not happening." After an entire hour of trying to get him to cooperate, you gave up. In retaliation you made his character a goblin barbarian, just to drive in the fact of how much of a brat he was acting like.

Finally, the day came for you all to play the one-shot, and much like you expected, it was complete and utter chaos. You had tried to maintain some structure and keep everyone on track, but it was hopeless. Levi and Satan were taking the game seriously and, Diavolo bless them, were the only reason their party was making any progress. Mammon was trying to pick-pocket every non-player character that they met while Asmo distracted them by flirting. This worked great for them until Mammon got caught and would've died from the resulting injuries if it wasn't for Beel. Speaking of Beel, the poor fella was trying his best to do well in the game but kept getting confused by all the rules and different stats and modifiers. Belphegor spent most of his time, trying to explain it to his twin, but in the end, Beel accidentally ate his dice and Belphie passed out on his shoulder. And then there was Lucifer. He had been mostly quiet the entire game. Surprisingly, he let Levi and Satan take the charge in any investigations and puzzle-based interactions, but he did so with a smirk. You had a funny feeling in your stomach that he was up to something, and you were right. It was the final boss. Satan and Levi were on the edge of their seats, having worked so hard to get the party to this point. You smiled, knowing that one of the best parts of D&D was finally taking down the big bad. In this case, you had prepared a beholder for them to fight. It would be no easy task. The fight should have required them to work together in an epic battle of wits, magic and melee attacks. Only, when everyone rolled initiative, Lucifer went first. The eldest smiled as his eyes sparked menacingly. "For my bonus action, I'd like to use my hex blade's curse on it, which allows me to add my plus four proficiency bonus to all damage, and makes any rolls of nineteen or twenty critical hits. I will then use my long sword with divine smite at third level to attack him and attack him again using my extra attack," barely giving you time to process what he said, Lucifer rolled his dice twice. "And that would be a nineteen and a natural twenty, meaning they're both criticals due to the curse. That should hit, yes?" "Wha-" You could only watch as Lucifer, now with twice the amount of damage due to his critical rolls pulled out a disgusting number of dice and rolled them all. And of course, with his luck, they all rolled high. "So that's 90 points of damage plus the extra damage from the curse and the bonus from my duelist ability per attack, brings this 102 points," he smugly perched his chin on top of his hands as the table gaped at him. You gulped and looked down at the beholder's character sheet, "Y-You just took o-over half of his hit points in one round..." His grin widened at the information, "What, like it's hard?" You never got the chance to finish the game, as Satan burst into his demon form and pounced on Lucifer, the eldest laughing like a mad man, while Levi tore up his character sheet in a fit of jealous rage. Levi never asked to play with everyone again after that. ***This was just so self-indulgent and I just- I loved it. It combined two of my favourite things and I have never been happier. This was more crack than fluff, but either way, it was fun and I hope you nerds out there enjoyed it 🥰 Thanks again for the request @bagelsinatoaster!*** Taglist: @mimik248 @roseytoesy @ester-is-here

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mimisempai · 3 years

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I love you more than I have ever found a way to say to you 2/3

Summary:

Loki would like to express his feelings to Mobius but doesn’t know how to do it, he finds a sympathetic ear in Miss Minutes, without knowing that Mobius is suffering from the same problem…

Chapitre 1/3 - Chapter 2/3 - Chapitre 3/3

A little story, of love, of friendship, of two idiots in love…

https://archiveofourown.org/works/32351812

3804 words - Rating G

"Good job Loki!" Mobius smiled at Loki before continuing, "I'm really going to believe you're trying to steal my job," and then he headed for his office.

On the way, he thought about the weeks that had passed since they had taken over the TVA and completely restructured it. Loki had settled in incredibly well and was completely invested in his job as a TVA agent. Mobius wanted to tell him more often how proud he was of him, but he didn't want to sound condescending.

What amazed him even more was how well they had both fitted in with each other. For two beings as different as they were, the life together was going pretty well.

Mobius found it quite amusing, even touching, every time Loki was confronted with ordinary things, such as doing the dishes or putting away the laundry. Loki, god of mischief, adapting to a domestic life, what an incredible concept! Moreover, although Loki was now allowed to use magic without restriction, he preferred to do without.

When Mobius decided to use Loki to catch Sylvie a few months ago, he never thought they would get that far, and yet here they were. Loki had managed to get into his heart, without even having to use one of his tricks. But what Mobius never expected was that his affection would be returned.

Loki seemed to be very fond of him, but Mobius always feared the day when he would realize that he could do better, much better. That's why Mobius hadn't told him. Loki deserved to be free, and Mobius didn't want to be the ball and chain that held him back.

Sitting at his desk, he let out a sigh and shook his head as if to chase away his gloomy thoughts.

"What a sigh! It looks like you're carrying the weight of the world on your shoulders!"

"Sylvie!" The young woman was leaning in the doorway.

"Tired of married life already?" asked Sylvie impishly. She stepped forward and sat down on one of the armchairs opposite Mobius.

This had been the second surprise, the friendship he had formed with the one who had been his nemesis for years, when he had been a pawn on Ravonna's chessboard. Loki had told him that there was nothing surprising about it, because not only did Mobius' caring nature make him capable of forming bonds with anyone, but since Sylvie was theoretically another Loki, it was only natural that some of their common traits would have allowed Mobius and the young woman to form this bond.

"Tired of married life? It would be quite the opposite."

"That's perfect then!"

"It'll only be harder when he leaves." muttered Mobius softly.

"Huh?"

"Don't play dumb, you heard me just fine."

Sylvie leaned forward and replied genuinely surprised, "Oh I heard you very well, but I'd like to know what makes you think Loki is going to leave?"

"Everything! Look at me and look at him! What do I have that would hold someone like Loki back? I'm just a plain person, nothing extraordinary. "

Sylvie pretended to tear her hair out, "No, but really, you are the dumbest couple of idiots in the universe! Loki doesn't care about any of this, do you realize that the day you first told Loki that you didn't see him as a villain, you tied him to you for life?!"

Mobius protested, "That's gratitude, not am-"

"Shut up you idiot! You know what Loki once told me? That the day you asked him to help you catch me, he was ready to follow you, and you know why? Because it was the first time he had the possibility of a relationship not based on lies. You knew everything about him and you didn't lie to him about what you wanted. For Loki, that's extremely precious. You didn't see him after you were pruned, I did. He was devastated, Mobius! Devastated! I really thought I couldn't reach him. You don't feel that kind of emotion for someone you want to leave!"

Mobius protested again, more weakly, "but that was different, the context was different, he didn't have enough perspective to assess the situation objectively. Now that he has time to think, he'll quickly realize that he could have someone better."

Sylvie interrupted him again, "You're just a moron. You're not going to be like everyone else before you, deciding what's best for him, are you? You freed him from his destiny, so let him make his own choices!"

Mobius muttered, "But what if that choice isn't me?"

"I wonder why I'm wasting my time, it's not even me you should be talking to about this!"

She stood up abruptly, "Come on, come with me! And no discussion!"

"But-"

"No discussion I said!"

He surrendered and followed her. Seeing that they were coming near Loki's office, he stopped and said, "No Sylvie!"

"Shut up and follow me!"

He reluctantly followed her, not being at all ready for this kind of conversation. They arrived at the half-open door, she turned and motioned for him to be quiet. Loki's voice reached his ears.

"But it's true! I swear! It makes me want to take off those jeans every time!"

"Lokiiii! That's enough!" Miss Minutes gave him a little kick and Loki laughed out loud.

Mobius behind Sylvie could not see them well, but he heard perfectly what Miss Minutes said, "Loki, tell Mobius, tell him everything you just told me, I don't know any person in the world who wouldn't like to hear everything you just told me."

His lover's voice sounded sad as he said, "But what do I have to offer him? I am not a good person for him. And I'm still waiting for the day when he can't stand my kind anymore and tells me I have to leave."

"A couple of idiots, that's what I'm saying." said Sylvie loudly before Mobius could stop her.

Loki shouted, "Sylvie?!" then turned around and shocked, shouted again, "Mobius?"

Sylvie opened the door fully, pushed Mobius into the office and with her hands on her hips said curtly, "I've done my part of the job, come on Mimi, we'll let those two idiots talk.Two true kings of communication."

"I'm coming." The little clock jumped toward her.

Sylvie closed the door saying, "Lock up behind you guys, wouldn't want anyone to stumble upon you in a compromising situation!"

"Sylvie!"

Both she and Miss Minutes laughed as they heard the outraged shouting of the two men behind the door followed by the unmistakable sound of a lock being closed.

#lokius fic #loki series #loki #mobius m mobius #moki #wowki #timefrost #loki x mobius #established relationship #feelings #sylvie laufeydottir

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darkspellmaster · 4 years

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I've never played the games but I'm curious to know if there really is a significant difference between game Alucard and show Alucard. The reason I ask this is because some of the criticisms I've seen in regards to S3 is how some people didn't like how they've butchered Alucard's character and that they fear that the writers are going to turn him evil at some point due to the trauma. I don't think he will because that would royally tick off the fans of the games but who knows at this point.

I’m so late on replying to these because of my job!

So this is an interesting topic to me because of how the character of Alucard evolved and what he’s become in regard to Castlevania and it’s history, and the history of known dampirers in general. And how Warren Ellis tends to tell stories, since he’s the one writing this story.

I suppose I should start all the way back with who Alucard was and where he came from.

The character of Alucard, at least within the Castlevania lore, really started way back in Castlevania III and was no where near the character we know and love now. This was back in 1989 and Castlevania was still going on the theme of Universal Horror monsters of the 1940s and 1950s. So way back when in 1943 Universal put out a movie called Son of Dracula, where the main character was the son of Dracula named, you guessed it, Alucard. (However in this case he’s not really Dracula’s kid, rather he’s Dracula himself.) It’s pretty clear that Konami wanted to use the idea of dracula having a kid for this game, but I digress.

So the first version of Alucard was from the game and was designed by T. Fujimoto and I. Urata.

Alucard in this case was designed to be a mirror image of his father and a vampire. The idea here was to create a character that while a monster was someone that could be seen as an ally as well. During this time his personality was still sort of not fully created as his main goal was the opposition of his father and the other members of those that served him by infiltrating the underground. In Castlevania III Alucard’s personality is shown to be far more amiable and warm.

His tone here is very different. He’s more invested in dealing with with father, befriending Trevor with a handshake, and later versions of Alucard are more quiet and calm, this one is ready to go and get his father. So early forms of Alucard show him to be a more open and warrior character, but also at the end of the game on Alucard’s route, it’s clear that he feels guilty about killing his father, which brings up one of the aspects of him that moved into the later versions of the character.

The next version of Alucard that comes up, and leads into the Change of Character is the 1997 Symphony of the Night. The design of his character took a drastic change in the hands of Ayami Kojima, who restyled Alucard into the blonde gothic character we have now (of note, this was her first big gig, and Captain N gave him the blonde hair in 1993, though that is non cannon), which mirrored the change in Alucard’s personality.

Gone was the more stylized monster movie look of the smirking character that you see above, instead Director/Producer Koji Igarashi changed up his personality. While Castlevania 3 Alucard was more or less a “Let’s go get him” possibly upbeat person, Igarashi turned him more into a brooding, bitter pessimistic person who believed his blood was cursed and that he was doomed to forever fight and deal with the actions of his father. While his aloofness and coolness come off as curt, it’s holding back a more traumatic personal history that he doesn’t want to burden on others. He’s quick to throw away allies to keep them safe, and at the same time, takes on challenges to protect those he loves. He tends to be very antisocial at points for fear of being hurt again, yet, he’s willing to save humans and befriend them as his mother’s words stuck with him.

Alucard in a lot of ways is the dark brooding trauma guy with the heart of gold. This is how most people see him, since Symphony of the Night became a huge deal for most people and how they percive Alucard. As a character he’s someone who loves and cares for others, and wants to protect humans, and sees those who act like his father as dangerous and in the wrong.

The major differences in Alucard in the Show and Alucard of the game fall down to a few things.

1. Alucard in the games is less innocent than Alucard in the show. He’s far more cunning a person. He’s a Batman type, having a plan for everything and being alive a lot longer than what he is in the show. Where as Alucard in the show is far more of an innocent person who is only a late teenager, maybe 20 years at most coming up, and has not experienced much in the world yet. The indication, unlike game Alucard, is that Lisa helped raise him until recently.

2. Unlike game Alucard, Show Alucard seems to be more against the idea of Humans hunting monsters. The problem is that as a character, he tends to find the monsters of the world vile, and rather see them dead than alive at all. While the show does keep true to his guilt issue, it seems more like Alucard in the game is far more invested in the death of his Father and understands that it needs to be done because Dracula in the games is a far more sinister figure than what we have now in show, who seems more based on his later Lament of Innocent’s game depiction (a man that is pushed to chose to do something horrible in order to punish what he believes is the one that wronged him in taking his wife away). So there is a key difference there.

3. The biggest one. Alucard in game would not pike someone. Again as a more cunning person, and more pessimistic, he would be suspect of the two new hunters. He’d never allow them to get that close until he knew what they were up to, and even then he would not sleep the way he does in the show. Even if they attack him, he’d more likely use magic to send them flying out of the castle. Not to mention the fact that the castle is a living thing in the games, and changes based on who is in control of it. So naturally it would not allow for anyone to harm the son of it’s owner (Dracula) so it would have kicked them out, and Alucard would know that. Alucard is a person who sees the good in humanity, preaching it to others who see them as monsters. He feels they have a hard lot in life and that because of their shorter life span they should be pitied and felt more sympathetic towards. Above all, Alucard would not use his father’s tactics. Rather he would probably bury them in the ground over displaying their corpses for all to see.

This is where Ellis’s writing comes into play. To make it make sense for why Alucard would go to sleep for 300 years, he needed to give him a reason. What better reason then being traumatically assaulted and harmed by those you think care for you. My guess is that Warren probably will play up the “tempted by darkness” trope and then in the end comes back to the light, only to seal himself to make sure that he never is hurt again.

The reason why so many are worried about Alucard is because of how this last season is making him look. Not only foolish for being so trustworthy, even though in the last two seasons he wasn’t, and then allowing himself to follow his father’s belief. This is in conflict to the mirror image that Dracula and Alucard are supposed to hold up to one another. Alucard should not become a monster, he’s a hero, and needs to be seen that way.

#alucard castlevania #castlevania #castlevania season 3 #castlevania curse of dracula #castlevania iii #castlevania iii: dracula's curse #netflix castlevania #adrian tepes

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jimjamthehorrorman · 4 years

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Unconditional Love

This was the first time you let the big man in the mask around your dog. You were anxious because she was jumpy and you don't know how HE will react to HER.

You bought a beautiful Husky three years ago, prior to your move to Texas. You wanted a "guard dog" but you ended up with a sassy, lazy dog who steals crackers from the counter when you aren't looking. She's absolutely a sweetheart to everyone she meets in your little town, but she is afraid of masks and intimidating people. Halloween is her least favorite time of year and everyone knows because while you're handing out candy to the few kids around, there's a deep bellowing bark coming from the windows on your porch.

You met the Sawyers when you picked up a side job at their gas and barbeque shack about thirteen miles down the way. Drayton was a blessing, overly polite and insistent upon you working as little as possible.

"Y/N, you oughta head on home now and get you some rest you're looking awful weak."

"No, I'm alright! I've only got about an hour left and I wanted to lock up with you-" you felt as weak as he thinks you look. You'd been sick all day, lightheaded and spiraling. "-It's fine, I'm fine!"

Drayton looked you up and down.

"Alright. Just don't come crying to me when I catch you sleeping on the job!" He chuckled as he started taking the meat off of the hooks inside the glass case.

"Taking it home to the family?" He never talked about his family and you were curious. You could not keep yourself from asking. Everything was such a mystery, hell, you didn't even know the man who sat outside washing the cars that came for gas.

He stuttered, holding the back of his neck like a child caught in a lie. "H-Ha! I've got to feed grandpa and my brothers. They usually go hunting for their meat but no one can resist my barbeque! It's the best meat-" He smiled coyly. "-Anyhow, you need to head on home young m/w. I've got my brother coming up to pick up some firewood from behind the shack. He's a skittish fella and not real good at talkin so I don't want to embarrass him. Now head on out! Tomorrow we'll make a big jar of Sun Tea to sell and I'll save some for us. It's gonna be hot as hell out!"

He nearly shoved you out the door. It's obvious either you looked like you were DYING or he had a BIG SECRET to hide.

"Alright, I'll head out. Tell the boys I said hello!"

He smiled and shut the door behind you. You started to hop in your truck and realized your keys were still inside.

"Shit."

You tried to slide in the backdoor before Drayton saw you were there, but getting back out of the truck you felt awful dizzy and fell to the ground on the way in. You felt yourself falling in and out of consciousness and the as you finally start to lose the battle, you hear a rattling.

You lose the fight and the next thing you remember is waking to the face of a dissapointed and fuzzy Drayton helping you out of your own truck with a man with a very deformed face, but maybe it was just your eyes.

The deformed man was incredibly tall and squealed like a child as he sat you on the porch swing. He patted your face to try to fully wake you. A man with a strange mark on his face drove Drayton's truck all the way here.

"What a fall huh?! Rough fall, hard fall. You must be tired or something. He/Her/They must be dying. Looks sick, pale like Grandpa."

"Nubbins, you and Bubba help Y/N into the house. They're my best employee so you better not screw this one up! If you drop them I'll beat the tar out of you fools!"

You could tell Drayton was serious. Who knew he appreciated you that much.

Barking eminated from the house. A horrible screech. You knew that sound.

"DON'T OPEN THE DOOR!"

"What?" Drayton looked confused.

"I'll go in on my own. I'll go lay down don't worry about me. Thanks boys I really appreciate the help but you can't come in. I've got a dog that might eat you alive!" You hurriedly told them, finding your way to the door in the dark. "I'll see you tomorrow Drayton! I'll see you boys again sometime soon!"

They all stood in disbelief on the porch as you slammed the door and turned the light on so they could get to the truck safely. Your dog met you at the door and she was PISSED. Not only did you keep her from seeing guests, but you're late and she's hungry.

"Sorry -pet name-, I'll get you some food."

You poured the bag of kibble quickly and clumsily, half of it on the floor. She could tell you were off and after she ate she climbed up on the couch and laid beside you. It was a long night for you both.

---

It had been two weeks since the incident, Drayton laughs it off that he went through all the trouble to take you home and make sure you were safe. Perhaps he had invested interest in your health, perhaps he had no friends but you and the gas guy. Either way he appreciated you. A lot.

"Y/N, I'm making dinner tonight do you want to back here this evenin'? Now you don't have to come, and you don't have to feel pressured to come over but I wanted to have you over. Just remember to feed your vicious pup before you come!" He chuckled, clearly nervous.

Shit, does Drayton like you?

"Now don't you worry this isn't a romantic thing, no, my brothers and I wanted you over to be sure you're eating good. You living there alone, you ought to have you a good meal!"

He wants you to come back to the gas station for dinner? What's wrong with his house? Doesn't matter, you won't turn down homemade food. You've been living off of cheap pot pies and snack foods. Your stomach rumbles at the thought of fresh steak and vegetables.

"I'll be here! Don't you worry." As the words escape your lips he gives you a huge smile and waves you off.

You feed your pup, give her a good pet and head out the door.

The sound of sizzling comes from the kitchen, but Drayton is sitting beside you.

"Who's our chef tonight, Drayton?"

He looks at you smiling ear to ear.

"My youngest brother Bubba wanted to make sure you eat well. He felt so bad about you being sick and all that he made you something special."

The boy with the strange birthmark comes out of the back room smiling. He's so strange and erratic that it's almost comedic.

"Bubba makes good food! Normally Drayton is 'The Cook' but tonight me and Bubba made some good meat! Not quite headcheese or anything real tasty but we got some good uh.. some good steaks! Yeah steaks!"

You laugh. Drayton makes a face at him real fast thinking you didn't see. You did.

Your stomach growls, the smell from the tiny kitchen is alluring. Savory, like good meat with flavorful spices.

"Nubbins go tell your brother our guest is getting hungry! I knew I shoulda made dinner you two bafoons!"

Nubbins blows a raspberry at Drayton and runs into the kitchen, he yells at Bubba and you hear a grumble.

Nubbins returns a moment later with a bunch of full plates. Steaks, potatoes, greens, hell even a pan of brownies. As you're perusing the food, a large man in a painted mask and suit comes walking out of the kitchen, barely clearing the door frame.

He's looking you over and honestly you aren't sure if you're frightened or bashful. A tall and burly man just made you dinner and yet you sit in silence trying to make out the face behind the mask. When he sits down across from you, you can barely see facial hair poking out of the side of his mask.

You bet he's cute under there, you're practically sure of it. When he looks back at you, you smile sheepishly and start eating.

Wow, he has some beautiful eyes behind that.

"I love your mask, Bubba." You were nervous. Flirting with a literal mystery, also your boss's brother.

Bubba hid his face in his hands and made little noises. Drayton chuckled.

"You made his day Y/N, he damn well may never take that thing off!"

---

Dinner last night was great, and you shared some eye contact with a presumably handsome masked man.

Drayton picked up on this, as your face was as red as the lips on his mask. You entered work with a smile on your face, until Drayton smiled back. Your heart sank nervously. What if you lose your job? What if he hates you for it? He grabs your hand.

"I think my brother may like you. He's not a talker and he's not too keen on people, but you're different. Anyone else woulda looked at his mask and said 'oh hell what a freak' but you were very kind to him. He'd been bothering me all night and morning to ask if you'd have him over to see your dog. See we've only had pigs and chickens and cows. Poor boy has never seen a pet type'a animal."

Oh god this is moving fast. You aren't sure how that's gonna go.

"I don't know Drayton, she's not good around strangers... especially ones who have such a... strange look."

Drayton frowns. You feel sick to your stomach. Not like the night you forgot to eat and passed out, but like guilt was building up inside and about to explode.

"Okay okay... I'll try to get her to work with me. Can you bring him over this afternoon? I know we close early today so that would work,...right?" You feel yourself pulling at the edges of your shirt. You're nervous she might hurt him and then Drayton would absolutely KILL you.

"I'll bring him up and take him around to the back porch, you just have him home after dark. People don't take kindly to a giant with two faces." He smiles.

---

You are in a panic. Your dog is already stirred up, she can sense the fear and is acting up in rebuttal. You hear a knock at the back door.

Oh god it's them.

They're here.

The dog.

You put her on a leash and keep her inside, meeting the giant man outside.

"Hey Bubba! How are yo-" he lifts you into a tight hug when you close the door behind you. He is squealing and laughing in joy. He's wearing his suit and mask from the other night. The one you said you liked. "-ou! Wow you're strong big guy! The pup is inside and she's a little wild today.. I'll bring her out here. No one should see us in the side yard. Okay? Just stay right here!"

You can tell he's as nervous as you are. When he sat you down he gave you a look that said "I'm alright!" But.. You weren't so sure.

When she barked coming out the door he held his ears. You tried to quiet her down but relentlessly she barked and howled in the sight of this massive man.

He didn't know anything else to do so he began to whistle and coo at her.

She quieted down, practically crawling up to him. He held his hand out and she snapped like she was trying to bite and instead of jumping back he just cooed louder. Eventually she started to smell him, walking around him in circles.

Please don't hurt one another. That's all you want is for them to be civil.

Then it happened.

She PULLED until you couldn't hold her leash and you screamed. You closed your eyes and waited for the worst.

Once your heart had slowed to near silence, you heard chuckling and the sound of your dog panting.

"Bubba! I think she likes you!" You yelled with a shaky voice. You were still nervous but he was having a great time and so was she. He was petting her and she didn't even care he had a mask on. Hell, she even licked him! You were in the clear, and you had never felt so relieved in your life.

This big man was petting your dog and having a blast, and just watching and hearing him laugh... You were too.

Damn. He's pretty cute.

(This is my first time trying to write a fic so I apologise for it's length and content 😂😂😂)

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𝙶𝚛𝚎𝚎𝚍𝚢 : 𝚃𝚒𝚖𝚘𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚎 𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚕𝚊𝚖𝚎𝚝

↳ 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘥 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘵 : 1512 (without lyrics)

↳ 𝘴𝘺𝘯𝘰𝘱𝘴𝘪𝘴 : you don’t wanna be greedy but can’t imagine Timothee with anyone else but yourself and confessing your feelings to him

↳ 𝘢𝘶𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘳𝘴 𝘯𝘰𝘵𝘦 : hey guys ! So basically if you live under a rock, prettymuch are being exposed for sexual assault, racism and other things and so it’ll be a little difficult making imagines for nick but yeah, I’m still deciding whether not to give up his writings after this series but yeah, enjoy ! :)

↳ 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘮𝘦 : nasa

Boy, you give me feelings, never felt before

I'm making it obvious by knocking at your door

I know that I'm coming tonight

You know I'm coming tonight

Don't want to deny it anymore

Me and Timothee had been friends for a while and everytime we were in the same environment, it just made me want to spend time with him even more, if it’s in a crowded room or just the two of us. He was always smiling whenever our friend group did something, he just made my world a little brighter with not only his bright white teeth but the genuine happiness radiating from him.

Tonight, our friends were together in one of their apartments and it was dark with mood lighting changing colours every now and then. Timothee was coming and so beforehand, I decided to talk to one of my close friends in the clique. I whisper to her “can I talk to you for a minute?”. She nods with a puzzled face. We make our way to one of the bedrooms and I await for her to enter the room before closing the door.

I say before telling her the reason of her escape from the party “before I tell you this, don’t tell anyone this, ok?” As I lay out my pinky sticking out as she interlocks her pinky with mine. He ly out a deep breath and say “well-“ and smile at her. “I think I like Timothee and I don’t know what to do, if I should tell him or make hints-“. She interrupts as she answers passionately “follow your heart y/n. Besides, you wanna make sure you’re comfortable if you tell him. Maybe Timothee would like that, just being upfront and besides, he won’t hold it against you, he’s not like that” while holding the ends of my fingers, like a mother talking to her daughter about something important.

Baby, you got lucky cause you're rocking with the best

And I'm greedy

'Cause I'm so greedy

'Cause I'm so

Somehow, I had to pluck up the courage to tell Timothee and besides, I’ve never done something like this. When I start getting comfortable with the idea, I immediately think of the other factors, like what if he wants somebody in the industry or isn’t liking me like that. My mind and body then become more tense and more uptight, resulting in worrying and fidgeting.

When I exit the bedroom, I enter the main room where all our friends where and the main event of the night, Timothee. When I fully enter the room, Timothee makes a smile at me and I do the same as I turn to my friend from before and she makes a face raising her eyebrows. I laugh silently and plant my eyes on the floor alerting myself that I don’t want to embarrass myself, especially tonight.

My attention is stolen as the mood coloured lights switch into a new vibrant ambience and a burst of laughter exits one corner of the room. I sat myself down beside my friend from before and she comes closer to my ear and whispers “you’ll be fine y/n, besides, he’s your friend” and moves back with a smile on her face.

I don't need a phone call

Got nothing to say

I'ma tell you when it's over

Got no games to play

You know that I'm coming tonight

I know I'm coming tonight

I just need to get this out the way, oh baby!

I waited till the perfect moment to pull aside Timothee in order to get a accurate response from him. I take a breath before lift myself off the ground and walk over to Timothee and ask him “hey, can I talk to you for a sec?”. He smiles and replies in a high and gentle tone “yeah, sure” before he stands up following me. The walk towards the same room was daunting and almost like a make or break moment.

Before we enter the room fully, I make sure the door was shut before anyone was coming in while I was spilling my guts out. While shutting the door, he asks “have I done anything to offend you? If so, I’m so-“. I brush off his sentence and for a split second, I admire his caring nature. I respond assuringly “no, not at all”. He breaths out of relief and looks back at you.

I take a deep breath in and out and start “so, I know we’re friends and I don’t want to make you feel weird or make you feel anything like that. So, I feel like I should be honest with you and I know that this is between us. But basically, I think I’m gaining feelings for you.” I look at him as he does the same and I let out a deep breath. His stare is a bit blank as I start to worry what he’s thinking.

Been in this state of mind

Been in this state of mind, oh yeah

I add “I know but if you wanna go with someone in the Industry or whatever but... I thought I’d tell you I’m into you”. He gives me a muted smile and makes a effort to say “you know, y/n, you are a lovely person and just having a good energy but I’m a little overwhelmed I think but, I mean.. you’re feelings aren’t anything to be ashamed of but I’m just a little shocked that this something you felt”.

I look at him as he does the same with me and he tries to put together what else to say as his former sentence was a little bit of puzzle piece. There was a feeling of a awkward silent tension yet this wasn’t addressed. I try to make my conversation starter from before seem better as I say “I know this is new but I don’t wanna feel .. greedy but I just want to make sure that you are ok and that our friendship isn’t.. you know.. tarnished”.

His face now has a sympathetic face as he makes another sentence leave his mouth “y/n, you’re fine and besides I’d rather you tell me than you feel all bottled up and you feeling comfortable. But I get what you mean, feeling greedy almost but y/n, I’ve had worse encounters with girls and let me tell you, you’re no where near their tier of bad” as we both end that with a laugh.

I ain't talking money, I'm just physically obsessed

And I'm greedy

'Cause I'm so greedy

'Cause I'm so greedy, ooh

You know that I'm greedy for love

'Cause I'm so greedy, ooh

You know that I'm greedy for love

'Cause I'm so

Our conversation kept revolving valid feelings, joking about past encounters while in the romantic situation and reassuring the other person that we are fine with each other. The night seemed to go by fast as somebody walked into the room as they shout “heyyy, timmys gettin it on with y/n” which his tone seemed under the influence and a little comedic making me and Timothee silently laugh.

The guy leaves the room with the door opened ajar and makes the talk with Timothee seem sped up as he must’ve wanted to make this seem less awkward and get back to normality within the friend group. He covers the current climate we were in and starts “so basically, y/n, I don’t think of you any differently and while we were speaking, you are cute but” and a laughing sigh leaves his body with his hand on the back of his neck. He continues “but yeah, we could maybe go out some point this week and catch up with each other”.

He later leaves the room as I silently realised that he just asked me on a date... I think. I let myself take a few minutes to calm down from my excitement and seem cool leaving the room to maybe catch his attention. I quickly check my makeup before exiting the area and she was all good. I adjust my outfit as the second it was fine, my foot entered the room, the bold lights making it a little dramatic.

Greedy, I'm greedy, I'm greedy, I'm greedy

I'm greedy, I'm greedy, I'm greedy, I'm greedy for love

The eyes of some people were captivated by me and one of those pairs was Timothee. I always high fived myself internally as that was my goal as I quickly come back to reality and sit next to my friend from before. She asked “so, how was it?”. I smile and reply “better than I thought” as she’s quick to say “I told you so”. I laugh and add “yeah, he was so sweet about it and I think he asked me on a date”.

She readjusts her seating and has a shocked face plastered on her face as she asks “really? No way!” As I nod my head to confirm her question. He smiles as she asks “so, where and what you gonna wear?” As I have a serious face as I continue the questions but to her. “How come your so invested?” As we both laugh. She responds “I’m just excited, thats all. Besides, y’all would make a cute couple.... just saying”.

I raise my hand to deny that statement and to go along with it, I said “no way, he’s just taking me to a coffee place or something simple”. She nods and I add “besides, I don’t wanna seem like those crazy fan girls just cause he’s famous”. She adds “how many people that have I asked me if I know him?”. I state “I think it’s the status of knowing him”. As we continue talking, Timothee walks over and says “I’ll talk to you soon, but yeah, I’m gonna go” as I say “bye” and touch his hand of a gesture of saying bye as he smiles and walks away. Me and my friend are all giddy and are probably gonna talk about this all night.

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I'm queer/nonbinary and just had a kid! She's two weeks old today. :) That's the good part. The bad part is that my company is going under & I was basically laid off right before the baby was born. I have 3 months of paid parental leave through my short-term disability insurance, but then I have no job to go back to. I'm super stressed about finding a job. There's nothing in my field locally, so I'd either have to relocate (w a brand new baby and my partner then job-hunting as well) or start (1)

at entry-level in a different field... with an entry-level salary, which will not be enough to pay mortgage/student loan bills. My emotions are a mess and idk how much of that is my hormones still adjusting post-pregnancy and how much is job stress or depression issues. I started coming out as NB in the last year or so, but now I feel like I need to hide back in the closet. Hard enough job-hunting while a new parent, let alone trans. I'm just stressed the fuck out and needed to vent. Sorry. (2)

Hey! Congrats on the two-week old! That’s a pretty exciting time.

Sorry to hear about your company going under and the whole unexpected job change thing.

I went through an unplanned job search/transition right after Squishy was born. And I too was in the position of considering if/how/when I wanted to be out about my identity in the process - after having invested a lot of work in coming out at my last job. It was definitely stressful, and the timing couldn’t have been worse, and I have to figure out the whole coming out in the workplace thing again, but I landed a job that I’m happy with now, and we made it through.

So yeah, vent away, I totally get where you’re sitting right now. Let yourself feel those emotions.

My advice is this: You will find a new job, and this stressful stuff will be old news in a few months, and the time you got to spend with your baby will be what you remember. I think it’s well worth doing some job-hunting outside of your area so that you can keep in your career path (I very nearly accepted a job hundreds of miles away after Minky was born and was fully willing to make that move with a newborn), but keep your options open and put out a lot of resumes.

I can’t tell you exactly negotiate your non-binary identity in the application/interview process, but I will say that while I didn’t do this for every job, there were a few I applied to where I more directly addressed it or referenced things like my blog where it made sense. I didn’t get any of those jobs (though I doubt me being trans was the deciding factor), but it was a way to at least dip a toe into the water on that process. Ultimately I ended up taking a job where I have to do the coming out thing again, and that’s a pain, but it feels less daunting this time and a little more familiar. Some steps are forward, and some are just a little more sideways. And while I don’t have a crystal ball on how I’ll approach my next job search, my heart tells me I probably won’t be interviewing in guy’s suits for the rest of my career.

Good luck to you, and give that baby a snuggle.

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