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dragondawdles · 2 months

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did a piece in the LU server's gift exchange ! something of survival and reunions and smug little shadowguys

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koinotame · 1 month

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quick apology fic to xiao for missing his bday </3 which doubles as a character study of xiao and an exploration of how you as the player interact with the self aware characters in self aware au

it’s been a couple of weeks since you last used him.

or has it only been several days? whether it’s days or years, it all feels like the blink of an eye to him. the flow of time is somewhat of a nebulous concept for someone like him, especially since you first appeared.

it doesn’t matter. however long you take to come back, xiao will wait dutifully for you.

he spends most of his time when you’re not making use of him subjugating threats around liyue and fighting off any unwanted foes. perhaps you’ll come back faster if the area is freer of enemies. you’re kind, after all. you seem much happier when it’s peaceful.

lately, when there’s no demons for him to quell, he’s found himself returning to the same spot on wangshu inn’s upper balcony. it’s the spot you always drop him off at before disappearing. it’s not the place at the top of the inn’s roof he’d pick on his own, though you do sometimes take him up there as well.

you’re not actually there, but if he closes his eyes it almost feels like you are.

his birthday was a couple days ago. as usual, the traveller had suggested he write you a letter. as usual, he wasn’t sure what he could possibly convey to you that you would be happy to receive.

the traveller insisted anything from him would make you happy, but xiao doubts that.

it’s easier when you’re here. it’s easier when you’re here and he can submit himself entirely to you and doesn’t have to think for himself.

he’s been dreaming more lately, particularly of you. he doesn’t know what you look like, and after he wakes up he can never quite remember what you looked like in his dreams.

waking up after dreaming of you is always hard for xiao. it’s shameful how badly he wants to go back to dreaming of doing such mundane things with you, and it’s disgraceful how long it takes him to pick himself back up afterwards.

he wonders if you’d like doing dull things like that with someone like him.

he wonders if he deserves that.

probably not.

he left the letter at the railing of that same—your—spot, along with a serving of his almond tofu (he might not like dreaming, but he hopes your dreams are as sweet as his have been lately), some dream solvent (the traveller had mentioned you seemed to want more) and a small bundle of qixing (you frequently go out of your way to collect it).

you never touch it.

…after a couple days, he decided to move the offering to his room. it stays there, on his windowsill where the sun touches it in a way that reminds him of your warmth, untouched.

it doesn’t matter, he tells himself. he’ll wait for you for as long as you want. even if another thousand years pass before you appear again, he’ll continue his duty and wait.

and then he blinks and suddenly finds himself in front of the adventurer’s guild in the court of fontaine.

another blink and he’s back at wangshu inn, this time heading towards the kitchen. the familiar aura of your possession fills him with a warmth he doesn’t think exists outside of you. he zones out for what feels no longer than a couple seconds, and suddenly there’s thirty servings of almond tofu in front of him.

your mood drops.

dissatisfaction seeps through you and into him. something deep in his gut squirms.

you set a large amount of sweet flowers to boil, then seem to fuss with something he can’t quite see or grasp. smiley yanxiao gives him a curious look, but doesn’t (cannot) comment any further.

in another couple of seconds—your teleportation hardly fazed him when you first started using him, let alone now when he’s so used to your presence—he’s in front of the liyuean general goods store. you buy up the entire stock of milk, and only milk.

your mood hasn’t improved. if anything, you seem even more downcast.

the milk dissipates as soon as it’s been bought, safely held in your near infinite storage.

he’s behind mondstadt’s hotel next, jumping down the railing and towards the local general goods store. again, you buy up all the milk. next you head for the good hunter (is that what it’s called? he thinks that’s what the traveller called it some time ago) and purchase as much of their sugar as you can.

tendrils of something truly unpleasant move upwards and wrap around his neck.

he finds himself in wangshu inn’s kitchen again. barely any of the sweet flowers have been processed, but you take the two packs of sugar anyway. you put him to work immediately.

usually, he finds the process of cooking much to tedious and drawn out. with you, he doesn’t mind.

you seem a bit more satisfied this time, and xiao finds himself ashamed of having made a few more of his specialty dish instead of only regular almond tofu like you’d wanted him to.

while you seem a bit happier now, he still finds himself in front of inazuma’s goods store. again, you buy all the milk. you talk to the restaurant owner up the stairs afterwards. some confusion creeps into him through you, but it doesn’t last long.

he’s in sumeru next. more milk makes its way into your inventory, and you visit the local tavern for good measure, though this time you don’t buy anything at all.

exiting the building, you seem to notice there’s a stove just outside of it and walk over in excitement… and straight into the clay oven.

a sharp pang of panic shoots through him and he jerks backwards. it takes him a second to realise it’s your panic.

immediately, you pull the astrologer from mondstadt out and have her set down her little hydro puppet. you then walk him through it, which does absolutely nothing except soak his clothes.

your panic doesn’t subside.

i’m sorry.

he blinks and finds himself in front of dihua marsh’s statue of the seven, the fire and the tinge it brought with it disappearing in seconds.

it’s rare to be able to make out what you’re actually saying as opposed to just feeling your vague emotions and intentions. are you that worried about him not performing up to standard with this little damage?

he’s yours to use. a little singe like that would never hold him back.

you don’t bother with fontaine.

something like shame curls up his body and makes a home near his ears.

soon after, he’s back at the inn’s kitchen again. yanxiao doesn’t even look in his direction this time as he gets back to work under your guidance, making even more almond tofu. he makes sure to take greater care to avoid displeasing you again.

your mood doesn’t pick up this time, but you seem to have calmed down a little. he’s not sure why (or what use you could possibly have for so much almond tofu), but it’s a small comfort.

part of him wishes he could be there with you properly to comfort you, but he knows better.

he might be your formidable weapon, but that’s all he is. he has no false illusions about his role or purpose to you, no matter how much he wishes he could be the one you turn to for comfort. he isn’t suited to something so delicate. he’s accepted that a long time ago.

your dejection doesn’t retract, even as you move him around a bit more.

then you sit him down at a table at the inn’s terrace and pull out a plate of his specialty.

your presence lingers for a bit, envelops him like a gentle dream, then falls through the cracks of his existence and disappears.

happy birthday, xiao.

he wonders if he deserves this much effort from you for something as inconsequential as his birthday.

probably not.

he hopes he’ll dream of this next.

#yandere #yandere x reader #x reader #genshin impact #yandere genshin impact #self aware au #self aware genshin #sagau #xiao #'character study' i say and then worry this is perhaps too ooc #i mean. ultimately. self aware and/or yan characters are going to be a bit ooc. but like within the realm of that #this isn't super yandere but you know. tags there just in case #writing the base of this took like an hour max. editing it took me like three lol #i do think i'm actually fairly happy with the end result though for once so yay #<- jinxing myself here

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phuuca · 1 month

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Sebek Zigvolt - 6/7

Werewolf Subspecies: Vancouver Coastal Sea Wolf

Sebek Zigvolt has an interesting relationship with his status as a werewolf, especially since he's been suppressing his transformations ever since he was a child. While he's not ashamed of his werwolf lineage, he's not exactly happy with it either. He feels the same way about his Fae lineage as well, but finds himself closer to his werewolf side since he's been the victim of the cold-shoulder, bullying, and harassment from his fellow Fae.

The chronic pain from suppressing his werewolf transformations and instincts has started to subside since he was welcomed into the Ramshackle Pack. He's become more in-tune with himself and has started to figure out who he his outside of his relationship with the other Diasomnians. Although, with this barrier between his werewolf tendencies and his appearance growing thinner, he has accidentally become more animalistic in his behaviors. Teething, growling, affectionate nipping, and sporadic, playful wrestling matches are the most common (nobody is mad about it though).

#phuuca's art #twst werewolf au #werewolves #sebek zigvolt #twst sebek #twst #twisted wonderland #twst fanart #fanart #art #digital art #digital artwork #firealpaca #firealpaca art #reference sheet #I don't want to fucking talk about the trouble sebek gave me #I had to redo his scales 3 times and recolor his scales twice #I'm super happy with the end result though #crocodile werewolf boy is a cool idea actually

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travelingneuritis · 4 months

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Look it’s Shen Yuan!! From ch. 4 of Heartbreak and Other Foreplay, in which Luo Binghe confronts the electrifying miracle of opening himself up to love after a lifetime alone, and Shen Yuan learns about a cool spider.

Art is gouache on watercolor paper. Now seems like a funny time to mention I am red-green color blind. If this is a huge mess don’t tell me lol

#luo binghe is getting slapped in the face with shen yuan's shen yuan-ness every day and it hurts #my scanner had a lot of trouble with the color balance in this so i had to do lots of post-production to make it look like the painting #also i didn't sleep at all last night and finished this at 7a #i'm in hell (:#worth it though i'm happy with the end result #svsss fanart #svsss fanfiction #shen yuan #my art #HaOF

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liliumdragomir · 1 year

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“To go wrong in one's own way is better than to go right in someone else's.” ― Fyodor Dostoyevsky

Bungou Stray Dogs | Fyodor Dostoyevsky & Nikolai Gogol @animangacreators - Challenge: Winter 2023

#Colored Manga #Bungou Stray Dogs #Fyodor Dostoyevsky #Nikolai Gogol #Manga Coloring #animangacreator challenge #Manga #Anime #animanga #dailyanime #anisource #animangaboys #BSD #Not sure if I'm happy with the end result though...#But neither sure what is the part that bothers me

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dazais-guardian-angel · 8 months

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Y'all, I think I've figured it out. Operating on the assumption that the finale is indeed an alternate timeline from the manga, then someone could have written on a page of the Book to rewrite reality to lead to the events of the finale sometime during season 5's events. In other words, this would explain the INCONSISTENCIES with things that were established or at least heavily implied/assumed prior and in the manga: Chuuya being a real vampire and not in control, nothing being planned, Dazai giving sincere speeches, Dazai really being shot and saying his "last words", Fyodor's hand not being injured, soukoku not killing Fyodor while in Meursault because they literally couldn't and Dazai needing Sigma to discover Fyodor's secrets because of that, Fukuchi's goal not being one that relied on Fukuzawa being alive since he clearly intended to kill him, etc etc too many more to count

Events and explanations in the finale feeling so contradictory and out of place, and characters feeling so ooc and not acknowledging any discrepancies, makes perfect sense if you consider that, up until a certain point, this was our canon timeline — until someone rewrote the ending of the arc with the Book, starting with Fyodor injuring his hand...! We only have one example of the Book being used to majorly rewrite reality in the manga, and when that happened, the main players — the ADA members — were aware that reality was changed, even though they did have memories of the new rewritten reality. BUT, Nikolai was unaware of this during that scene, and so also were all law enforcement because of the clause written on the page accounting for that, so what if the same thing could happen in this instance, to prevent all our characters in the finale from being aware that things had changed? We literally saw someone writing Nikolai's dialogue for him; imagine someone doing that during Dazai's final speech in the episode, and during all the rest of it! I don't know who this would be, but possibly a mysterious third party who got a hold of a different page from the Book somewhere and wrote things to turn out this way, because they wanted the ADA to win against Fukuchi and Fyodor? Maybe even because... this is the only way they can win?

Remember Atsushi asserting this plan, and how silly and too simple it sounded? What if someone else ended up doing just that, writing their own simple outcome for the ADA to win (as a narrative of course, which is probably why it had to start with the major catalyst of, again, Fyodor injuring his hand)? Additionally, if that's what happened, maybe the ending of the finale is a sort of side effect to the Book being used improperly in this way, leading to a destabilization of the timeline or a mishmash of other timelines into the anime one, leading to the alternate Fukuchi and Akutagawa we see there?

#bungou stray dogs #meta #THIS MAKES SO MUCH FUCKING SENSE AND EXPLAINS SO MUCH I'M GOING TO SCREAM #i guess this is sort of a foregone conclusion that the Book is the result of this timeline #since we ALREADY KNOW the different timelines are a result of the Book s;dlkfkgfkdlsl #but it only just occurred to me of the Book being used like. MID-PLOT #THE FINALE REALLY IS JUST BAD FANFICTION LITERALLY LMAOOOOOOOO #A BONES EMPLOYEE GOT ISEKAI'D INTO THE BSD UNIVERSE AND REALLY FUCKING WANTED THAT HAPPY ENDING FOR S5 IN 24 MINUTES COME HELL OR HIGH WATE #AND GOT ONE OF THE PAGES AND JUST WROTE IT THEMSELVES!!!!!! 😂😂😂😭😭😭🤣🤣🤣#they'd had enough of the people slandering their anime adaptation. they said oh we'll REALLY give you something to cry about #BUT THAT WOULD EXPLAIN WHY CHARACTERS FEEL OOC!! IF THEIR DIALOGUE WAS WRITTEN FOR THEM VIA THE BOOK!!! AAAAAAAAHHHHH #....what if it's Dazai. What if Dazai wrote this ending just like he wrote the Beast timeline. What then—#I guess Beast in and of itself is one massive example of things being rewritten and no one but the writer (Dazai) remembering/being aware #that they were ever different #so.......... it's not impossible despite what we saw with Sunday Tragedy #i'm telling you though i've connected the dots #if things go differently in the upcoming chapters #and we see that other Fukuchi and we find out about someone using the Book i'm going to LOSE MY MINDDDDDD

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yujeong · 2 months

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For a writing prompt, how about Pete and his grandmother, post-canon? It could be Vegas/Pete + Macau + Pete's grandmother as well or any combination you want ^_^

I wonder how his grandmother would react to seeing a Pete she both knows and one who has been changed. How would Pete walk the line between the truth she deserves to know and the pain he wants to preserve her from? There are so many unique tensions between them that I'd love to see you explore <3

My beautiful friend, how kind of you to send me this prompt ❤️ Pete and his relationship with his grandma has occupied my thoughts many, many times, so this is an incredible chance to explore them. You already know this, but for the rest who will read it, the following will be part of a bigger fic I intend to write someday, which I had presented briefly here: aka, Pete will be teaching Vegas boxing post-canon, despite both of their better judgements. Here, Pete's grandmother finds out about it 😌 It's a very rough draft and very incomplete, but I hope you enjoy it nonetheless 🥰 ------------------------------------------------------------------------------ "Pete, dear, you're adding too many peppers." The pan made a sizzling sound when he added the fifth pepper into the mix, ignoring his grandma's comment. "Don't worry, grandma. It's fine. It's not too spicy," he said, adding another one just because. He heard a deep sigh coming from the laptop placed on the counter next to him. A smile appeared on his lips. "For you and me it isn't, but you know how the city boys are." "I know," Pete agreed, "I'm preparing this for them. Macau will be fine, he's taken this as a challenge." "That young man and his bravado," his grandma sighed again. "Sometimes, I worry he'll get himself into real trouble one day." "You and me both, grandma," Pete said and shook his head at the memories that resurfaced. It couldn't really be described as sadness, this feeling that overtook him. More like fondness mixed with melancholy. Macau had been through a lot this past year and Vegas' recklessness lately was making it worse. Not that Pete could exactly blame him for it.

"Pete, the temperature is too high, lower the heat a bit," his grandma suddenly said, snapping him out of his thoughts. It was fascinating how she could understand these things without being able to see the meal being prepared. Pete had placed the laptop at an angle that only showed his torso and the kitchen table behind him, his face hidden completely from view. If he did that on purpose, it simply couldn't be proven in any way. He slowly turned the dial to lower the temperature as he was told, then stretched his arm to grab a wooden spoon with which he started scraping the bottom of the pan, making sure the mix wouldn't get burned. "Hm, I think it's almost done, it only-" "Pete." He stopped talking. He knew that tone. He had made a mistake. "Show me your hands." Fuck. She saw the marks. "I'm cooking grandma, what-" "Stop what you're doing and show me your hands right now." He tried not showing his discomfort as he lowered the heat even more and presented his open palms to the screen. He could see his grandma's wrinkled face, her frown deep and concerning. This was going to be hell. Pete tried avoiding showing his knuckles, but it was impossible; she insisted on seeing every single part of Pete's hands. He always hated when she did that. "Have you started boxing again?" Pete was so thankful she couldn't see the expression on his face. He wasn't sure he would be able to hide the dread he was feeling as he heard the question. "It's just some light exercise, grandma," he said and hoped his voice wasn't betraying him. "Vegas just wanted to be more active and-" "Vegas made you start boxing again?" Another mistake. Pete shouldn't have mentioned Vegas at all, he was such an idiot. He hoped Vegas would understand, when he found out. "Vegas didn't make me do anything." It wasn't a lie. It had been Pete's choice. He had made a lot of those recently. "Pete," his grandma said again, but this time, instead of angry, she sounded sad. Concerned. "If you need money, maybe you could talk to Mr. Tankhun. He could give you your old job back or find you a new one." "I won't fight," Pete yelled, feeling his blood boil at the mention of his old boss. He checked himself before continuing to speak, making sure he sounded unbothered. "Grandma, I won't do any matches. I'm simply teaching Vegas some basic moves and that's it." "Show me your face." A pause. "What?" "I need to see your face, Pete." His heart was thumping in his ears. He didn't want to be seen right now. He almost said so, before an energetic Macau entered the room and addressed him. "P'Pete, what are you making? Oh hi, grandma!" He ran over to the counter and lowered his body to see her clearly. Pete could tell she wasn't happy she lost the chance to see Pete's face, but she hid her displeasure immediately and smiled brightly at Macau, asking him how his day had been so far and if he had any plans for the rest of it. Pete internally sighed and returned to his cooking, his hand trembling as he was scraping the bottom of the pan with a little more force than necessary.

#I'm not that happy with how this came out but I keep telling myself that's not the *point* of me asking for prompts so #here you go #I lovelovelove all the implications around Pete's relationship with his grandma #I love thinking about it #I loved writing about it too even though I'm not satisfied with the end result #Hope it's enjoyable to read #Thank you again my friend I greatly appreciate it #kinnporche the series #pete saengtham #writers asks

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bigbrainbiology · 11 months

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My take on human dragon Zelda <3

Also my draft and lineart ->

#fanart #legend of zelda #tears of the kingdom #totk spoilers #tears of the kindom spoilers #zelda #digital art #my art #I wanted to draw long hair bc well #thousands of years being a dragon translated into hair length XD #I tried using the HB pencil brush for this lineart and-#NEVER again #but I'm really happy how the lineart ended up looking though!#I get my uni results very soon now TvT #F e a r #and then me and my sister will be graduating in a few weeks ahhhhhh #anyway happy July guys let's all hope this month is good

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carebird · 2 months

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[Phenomenon]

Aim for Shangri-La ♪

It's a shame that the full version of phenomenon is so short. I am really jealous of the characters in I7 for being able to watch the musical.

#idolish7 #yaotome gaku #tsunashi ryunosuke #ainana #my art #I've drawn Ryu twice before but I'm never happy with the result for some reason -.-#Gak ended up to my liking though

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satari-raine · 7 months

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My graduate thesis - after (somehow) successfully defending it last week to my committee team - just got officially accepted by my school. Time to become a blanket burrito and (try to) sleep forever out of relief that it's finally finished.

#Satari rambles #Hi there and howdy #I have occasionally poked in on here to talk about the whole graduate school thing #I'm just so glad it's done now #One of my committee members had to observe my teacher last night for class and he announced I had successfully defended it last week #And I don't know #Just seeing him and the other members and then my classmates proud #Got a little emotional #Even if it still feels surreal to have written as much as I did and even if I have some conflicting feelings about the end result #Since I did a creative fictional thesis #But I really am happy it's done and I'm almost done with school #(Granted I'm scared for what comes after especially with finding work right now among other things but that's for later)#But yeah #This has been the usual Satari is a dork who rambles in the tag night (even though it's only the afternoon right now)#Please tip your service staff #Have a wonderful timezone everyone #Also my committee head bought me some books to celebrate and oh my gosh I love that woman #She's so dang kind and it was really touching #People are so wonderful sometimes #I hope I can give some of that wonder back even if as a fraction

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creative-little-bean · 2 years

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Hi!! You’re lesbian-in-leather, yes? If so, do you mind terribly drawing Olivia Caliban for me? I’d die of happiness <3

Yes, it is me!! Hello!!! I am very sorry that it took me so long to respond, I forgot how much time it can take me to draw and also I had some Life Things to attend to, but here you go! Olivia Caliban, my beloved:

(Initially I was going to colour her in but then it took me this long just to do the lineart and I wanted to respond lmao. Might post a coloured-in version later though!)

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ialwaysknewyouwerepunk · 5 months

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#given a chance is a story based on my real childhood friendship #so i wanna rewrite it and make it into a proper novel #but i warped the real story to make the fic make more sense for h and l #while obvs the real story is so fucking complex and i also gave a bunch of gaps in my memory bc i was a literal child #And it goes super deep bc i made some painful mistakes #as a kid and teen #but i seriously deeply cared about this person and i'm so sad with how the real story went #so i am rewriting it still to have a happy ending #but fucking hell i need to dig DEEP to get this story right #and i really want to get it right #so i'm basically having to go and erase made-up scenes i invented for the fic #and remember the actual events #but i still kept it gay so i added that aspect bc i do think my own behavior back then was a result of me not understanding myself #not understanding my gender #and how i liked this boy but i didn't like it when he treated me like a girl even though he did like me and and and anddddd #so yeah #WHEW #big deep intense story #i need to time when i write tbh bc it's like i descend into the recesses of my brain when i do #and i need to crawl back out every time in order to be a normal person again #aaaaahhhhhhhhwel #let's hope i can make this into what i know it could be #my posts

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sassyfever · 1 year

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I see a lot of people say that Phos is the black sheep because they have empathy and compassion that other gems lack; But I absolutely disagree with that, Phos has about the same emotional range as any other gem. Phos is an outlier because they are not content with being complacent and ignorant.

#also the idea that non phos gems don't have any empathy isn't even true anyway #dia rutile padpa euclase and cairn have been shown to display a bit of empathy just to name a FEW #empathy is a neutral trait anyway #it's literally just understanding or feeling what someone else is #in fact i'd peg lack of empathy as one of phos' main flaws #it's the main reason most of their relationships failed at least #because they were unable to put themselves in others shoes and understand them #phos struggles a lot in understanding others who don't share their same view #they are absolutely very compassionate though #back to the 'ignorance is bliss' factor #gems like to sweep problems under a rug and pretend it's not there #this has shown to naturally end up badly #however they are able to find a sense of happiness in that denial stage #phos isn't #they want results #they want improvements #they want to find out all the secrets #they hate being left in the dark #this is the main reason phos is unable to find that 'happiness' or however you want to word it #Not that I'm trying to say Phos should have been 'content with what they had' or whatever that bullshit is #they had so many reasons to be unsatisfied #i wouldn't have been either #but it is true that that inablitiy to be satisfied is one of the main causes of their distress #even baby phos was very unhappy #they were just not traumatized yet is all ahahaha #houseki no kuni #hnk #lotl #land of the lustrous #phos

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sunisalee2020 · 8 months

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#obviously judges are being political when judging in gymnastics #obviously they cheat or are heavily influenced for giving good scores for the host nation or for their favourite gymnasts #Paris 2024 is happening next year and it's kind of obvious what is going on #sometime it's not the judges but the organizations like IOC who decides placements as well.#I don't know how to feel about this because we are all hypocrites and the best should absolutely win #but sometimes it doesn't happen because of politics or preference. lots of money and investment is also involved.#I'm not saying everything is completely rigged because some absolutely win fairly #In the end gymnastics is subjective and it's easy to cheat the judging. Let's not all be naive here.#I have to admit that sometimes I'm happy with the results even if I found it to not be the right placement.#Though I do find that it's getting harder for the judges and top organizations to rig things. Gymnastics is more fair than figure skating.#q

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emberwhite · 4 months

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I spent the last 11 months working with my illustrator, Marta, to make the children's book of my dreams. We were able to get every detail just the way I wanted, and I'm very happy with the final result. She is the best person I have ever worked with, and I mean, just look at those colors!

I wanted to tell that story of anyone's who ever felt that they didn't belong anywhere. Whether you are a nerd, autistic, queer, trans, a furry, or some combination of the above, it makes for a sad and difficult life. This isn't just my story. This is our story.

I also want to say the month following the book's launch has been very stressful. I have never done this kind of book before, and I didn't know how to get the word out about it. I do have a small publishing business and a full-time job, so I figured let's put my some money into advertising this time. Indie writers will tell you great success stories they've had using Facebook ads, so I started a page and boosting my posts.

Within a first few days, I got a lot of likes and shares and even a few people who requested the book and left great reviews for me. There were also people memeing on how the boy turns into a delicious venison steak at the end of the book. It was all in good fun, though. It honestly made made laugh. Things were great, so I made more posts and increased spending.

But somehow, someway these new posts ended up on the wrong side of the platform. Soon, we saw claims of how the book was perpetuating mental illness, of how this book goes against all of basic biology and logic, and how the lgbtq agenda was corrupting our kids.

This brought out even more people to support the book, so I just let them at it and enjoyed my time reading comments after work. A few days later, then conversation moved from politics to encouraging bullying, accusing others of abusing children, and a competition to who could post the most cruel image. They were just comments, however, and after all, people were still supporting the book.

But then the trolls started organizing. Over night, I got hit with 3 one-star reviews on Amazon. My heart stopped. If your book ever falls below a certain rating, it can be removed, and blocked, and you can receive a strike on your publishing account. All that hard work was about to be deleted, and it was all my fault for posting it in the wrong place.

I panicked, pulled all my posts, and went into hiding, hoping things would die down. I reported the reviews and so did many others, but here's the thing you might have noticed across platforms like Google and Amazon. There are community guidelines that I referenced in my email, but unless people are doing something highly illegal, things are rarely ever taken down on these massive platforms. So those reviews are still there to this day. Once again, it's my fault, and I should have seen it coming.

Luckily, the harassment stopped, and the book is doing better now, at least in the US. The overall rating is still rickety in Europe, Canada, and Australia, so any reviews there help me out quite a lot. I'm currently looking for a new home to post about the book and talk about everything that went into it. I also love to talk about all things books if you ever want to chat. Maybe I'll post a selfie one day, too. Otherwise, the book is still on Amazon, and the full story and illustrations are on YouTube as well if you want to read it for free.

#books #reading #childrens books #lgbtq #lgbtqia #autism #transgender #furry #therian #art #deer #queer #artists on tumblr #creativity #illustration

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egophiliac · 6 months

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SHE'S DONE! after a thousand years, she's finally done! ...or at least I'm done with her! (tumblr please don't absolutely destroy my gifs, I am begging you)

now you know the real reason I haven't been obsessively drawing Meleanor, which is that I was in fact obsessively drawing Meleanor but in secret. plus a little background just for fun!

I am. not super happy with her rig; parts of her proved way more difficult than I expected and I very quickly hit the point of "okay, this is a silly fan project and not something that I'm being paid for or has to be really functional, time to MANUALLY KEY ALL THE VERTICES FOREVER". I think the end result came out pretty okay though! just...don't look too close. :')

I recorded some of the drawing part, so I might put that up later! in the meantime I am going to make her do stupid poses for my own enjoyment!

#art #twisted wonderland #brace yourselves for the spoiler tags #twisted wonderland spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 part 5 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 part 5 spoilers #gif warning #gifs that will yeet an egg into your face warning #(no shadows on the transparent gifs because gif compression eats feathered edges for breakfast)#for once i actually had a think about a couple of animations to do before i started!#don't get me wrong i still wasted a ton of time drawing a bunch of extra hands that will never be used #but you know that's still progress for me #getting to wiggle those little lace fronds around almost made up for the absolute hell the rest of the cape was

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