don’t you love when you’re casually reading a random poem and suddenly come across a line that burrows into your bones and becomes the definition of your heart for the next 17 years
hi....scrapped wip again. im rlly not built for color. yap incoming
sorry my productivity tanked my 7 year old laptop is nearing its final breath and im just stalling buying a new one as long as possible to not violate the boycott but she (laptop) is making this shit DIFFICULT
im gnna be so honest w yall i havent had the drive to do shit all lately like. i need dopamine kicks to function but nothings working for some reason ??? i bought a jjk book and i fucking love jjk so i should be excited but im ??? not????? fucked up how that works
Okay, but I'm still thinking about the way the show had Buck refer to Eddie as his best friend twice in the last two episodes when the last time that happened was during the tsunami. Because I feel like that proves what I've been saying that Buck put Eddie in a box, labeled it "best friend" somewhere during season 2 and then never looked too close at it again. BUT we don't have an equivalent scene for Eddie. And I'm starting to think that maybe Eddie doesn't have Buck filled under anything. I think Buck exists in his own category in Eddie's brain. I kinda wanna say that faced with the question, Eddie would lean towards partner, but I feel like it would be a "for lack of a better word" moment or out of habit with the fact that they are partners in the job. I don't think Eddie knows how to qualify who Buck is for him. I think Buck exists in his brain and in there he's just there as Buck. I don't even think the words "best friend" would cross his mind. He's Buck. And he loves the guy. And that's it. I don't think he's ever looked that closely to who Buck is to him. Like never. Buck won him over with the Carla thing, and that put Buck in a position Eddie couldn't compare to something he knew, so he just didn't qualify it. And this is gonna come up. I don't think Buck using "best friend" is just about adding to the "it was never about Eddie" thing and drawing a line. I keep going back to the idea of Chris getting hurt and Eddie just grabbing Buck and saying "we're his parents" on instinct and that creating a moment of panic for both of them. But I need them to force Eddie to say who Buck is to him. Like, really. I need it.
No one told me that once I started writing my own fanfic and drawing my own fanart I wouldn't have any more time to read fanfic myself and I deeply resent that.
i really hope sabo doesn't dare to light up sanji's cigarette because i couldn't handle another boy getting killed by the fate of being extremely gay with sanji