#all day and all night i thinkg about it

[akiranzee]

🦋 • ° ` — “MY BUTTERFLY”

-> PAIRINGS: gn!Hashira!Y/n x Shinobu Kocho -> SUMMARY: A sacrifice should not be wasted. -> WORD COUNT: 2.7k+ -> CONTAINS: MANGA SPOILERS!, angst, talks of abandonment (reader’s backstory), fighting scene (??), angsty reader backstory (i thinkg), kinda emotionless reader (but changed <3), & reader is 19 while shinobu is 18. -> A/N: THE MANGA GOT ME ON MY KNEES WHAT💀💀.

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“Shit- are they alright? We should have gone after and helped them too-”

“With these missing arms? No thank you.” The white haired man groaned, “let’s just hope for the best…”

As you looked outside, it was a mess. Everything was. Oyakata-sama just died, the demons attacked, and then now, all the current hashiras have gone off, with your lover, Shinobu.

Even if everything around you was a mess, your mind only thought of one thing; Shinobu.

Sure, she is a hashira, but we are talking about uppermoons here. Her poisons may not take any effect on them. Or even if it does, the effect will probably take longer.

You looked down at your right, missing your arm. You lost your arm with your battle with Uppermoon 2, but luckily, you managed to survive and get out of there safely. But in exchange was your title as a hashira. And maybe perhaps your sanity.

You were going insane about thinking if Shinobu is alright, or if she’s in danger. Just like Tengen said, hope for the best.

~~~~~

“Don’t slash me while I’m in the middle of absorbing please.” The sounds that Shinobu could hear was Kanao’s scream and douma’s voice as she was slowly getting devoured. That didn’t matter to her though, as she finally avenged her sister’s death. But at what cost? You.

Sure, she’s also worried for her younger sister, but she worried about you more. She regretted for being so weak, for going way too soon, and for leaving you behind. But at least, she managed to execute her plan, sacrificing herself for the better.

She did gave you a hint of what was going to possibly happen, but you probably didn’t understand it all too well.

As the darkness consumed her vision, the blur taking over her sight, her mind was elsewhere, thinking back about the moments you two shared together.

The meals you’d eat together, the walks you’d take together, and the bed you’d both share every night.

The moments the both of you shared was as common as everyone, but to Shinobu, it were the most special things to her after her sister died. But thanks to you and Kanao, she had been able to pull through up until today.

Tears streamed down her cheeks as she remembered the days that you had confessed, where she had teased you a lot, and where you’d laugh to death.

For the last time, it brought a smile to her nonexistent face.

~~~~~

You heard footsteps of people, many of them, hoping one of those were from your lover.

But no; as you greeted them, the nine hashiras that fled over to the battle was now decreased by two who were still unconscious.

You looked and asked over, until you see Kanao, her younger sister.

“H-Hey, Kanao… Where’s Shinobu…?” You asked her nervously, awaiting for a good reply.

But the girl just looked at you with a sad face, and handed you a butterfly hairpin. Not just any butterfly hairpin, but Shinobu’s butterfly hairpin.

She slowly shaked her head as she was being dragged gently to the butterfly mansion, and you could tell; for the first time, the both of you felt the same.

Shinobu, your lover, was now gone. The cruelest part about it though, is that, you never got to say goodbye. And that you were not there to help her.

She probably suffered, didn’t she? All these years of being a hashira, you know this was what she had been after all those times — killing the Uppermoon 2.

And she did that successfully; everyone did a great job, defeating the demons and all. You should be happy right? But in exchange of that was the sacrifice of your loved one.

To you, nobody mattered more than Shinobu.

~~~~~

3 years ago, your crow ranted about how you carelessly attacked that lowermoon, but that’s okay since you’ve survived, right? Yes you did but you now have a lot of injuries.

So now, you have to go to the butterfly mansion and get treated.

In there, it was empty. Surprisingly. But there were 3 little short girls who happily accompanied you to a bed, and asked you to lay down.

You had to wait for 3 minutes for the insect hashira to arrive, and get you treated.

Honestly, you don’t get the point in getting wrapped up in bandages when in the end, you know you’ll get more and more injuries in the future.

Your whole life, you were abandoned and no one took care of you. Except for the people in butterfly mansion though, they were kind souls who deserved better than this world.

Yes, the people in there did tend to your wounds and treated you well, but no one ever asked “are you okay?” or “how are you?”

~~~~~

“Oh my, are you okay?” Hearing that, a smooth, relaxing voice asked you, and for the first time, you felt as if someone knew about your existence.

You slowly nodded, as she sat down and started rubbing ointments and wrapped bandages around your wounds. And as she did, you looked at her intently, and you realized, that she was quite a beauty.

“I’ll melt if you keep staring at me like that, you know?” She teased, as you looked away immediately, seemingly embarrassed to have been caught staring, more so getting teased.

And that’s where it started, you and Shinobu’s first-but-far-from-last meeting, as in every mission you go, you get new wounds, but luckily, Shinobu is there to help.

And as time passed by, you grew yourself enjoying her company, or feeling comfort in her presence.

You were falling for her. But you didn’t know yet, because this is the first time you’ve ever felt this way to someone.

Because all your life, you were neglected and abandoned, that you thought your life had no value anymore, that’s why you took on this hellish job.

But now, you don’t regret it. Because finally, finally, for the first time, someone finally cared how you are.

But it didn’t end there — the both of you would visit each other from time to time, give each other gifts, and sometimes, when you guys have time to spare, you would take a stroll at a park, where thousands of butterflies hang out.

Despite your cold personality, it was kind of unique for you to like butterflies.

You liked how they fly in peace, making no noises, and how they were so beautifully made — especially their wings, having unique and rare color mixture and patterns.

Especially this woman right beside you right now, black was the color of her hair with vivid violet accents at the tips of her tresses, and her haori, the pattern and color was incredibly and creatively made.

~~~~~

It was quite a surprise, really. That both you and Shinobu was assigned to take on a mission together. But you didn’t complain, and neither did she. As you both get to spend more time than usual.

Upon walking up to the forest, you both talked about nonsense, irrelevant things that you both enjoy.

But as soon as the both of you went in deeper and deeper to the forest, you realized, something was wrong. And so did Shinobu.

It seemed as if this was the route you had taken a while ago, and then you’re back here.

You looked around, trying to look for the demon, as this might be their blood demon art, and you have stepped into it unknowingly.

Unknown to you, as you turned around, you saw the demon lunging towards the both of you, but as expected of a hashira, Shinobu only stabbed the demon, then its skin turned violet, then disintegrated.

You were about to compliment her, when all of a sudden, the trees started to move around and separate the both of you.

Oh, lord, this is bad, isn’t it? Surely, you're the target, as you were a lower rank. But you’re here to prove your worth, aren’t you?

Three demons lunged at you at the same time, almost hitting you, but luckily, you dodged right on time. You unsheathed your sword, and ran towards the demons, activating your breathing style, and effortlessly killing them.

But that wasn’t enough. More and more came, and you did your best trying to fend them off. But unfortunately, your best wasn’t enough.

Your breathing style was not made for long-ranged attacks, and you were not used to being outnumbered. You managed to dodge majority of their attacks, but some just so happened to have gotten a hit on you.

One at your right cheek, at your left arm, and at your right leg. Good thing though, is that they didn’t manage to go any deeper and hit some vital spots. The best thing though is that Shinobu finally showed up and came to your rescue.

As you looked up, you couldn’t help but be fascinated by the beauty she held, especially when she flew like a butterfly under the moon, whilst you completely ignore about the ongoing battle between the both of you and the demons.

She swang her sword and stabbed them effortlessly, much better than you did, and as she did so, she looked like a butterfly dancing around.

As you were still in your trance, Shinobu called you out, and as you came back to earth, you realized, your faces were inches away.

You stumbled back with panic, as Shinobu just looked at you with confusion, asking you, “are you okay?” while extending a helping hand towards you.

You hesitantly took her hand, but when you did, you felt her skin so rough but gentle.

You looked down at her, as she was shorter than you were, watching her as she checked up on all the wounds you got.

It was unusual, but this was the first time you saw her have a worried look in her face. You’ve heard it from your fellow demon slayers after all, that after her sister’s death, she was not the same anymore.

It was as if she wore a mask after her sister’s death, a mask that only expressed happiness. But to you, slowly but surely, in your line of sight, the mask was slowly fading away.

~~~~~

The both of you returned to the butterfly mansion, as she hurriedly assisted you to lay down the bed and get some ointment and bandages.

You were amazed, despite her small feature, she didn’t had any wounds nor dealt with any damage. But you, who was quite bigger than her, is now laying here, in this bed.

Ever since the day you were abandoned and neglected, you found everything no value at all. But now, unbeknownst to you, Shinobu became your motivation and inspiration to give yourself some value you deserve.

And ever since that day, the both of you grew closer and closer, even to the day you were promoted as a hashira.

For the first time in your life, you never felt this proud for something you have achieved. Or maybe it’s not because of the achievement, but maybe because of the reaction you saw.

As soon as Shinobu heard about your promotion, she glimmered and smiled brightly at you, giving you the warmest hug you have ever received in your whole life.

Maybe that’s why. Maybe because you’ve finally impressed the person you love.

Due to your past, you had a hard time realizing your feelings. But overtime, you learned that you have unlocked a new feeling, called “love”, thanks to a certain boy with black hair with burgundy tips, named Tanjiro.

But to be honest, for once in your life, you felt safe near Shinobu. It was as if everytime you were beside her, you knew for a fact that you were not gonna get hurt.

Maybe that’s what love is. Love made you feel this way.

~~~~~

As the seasons passed, you found yourself suffocating under your own feelings. Tanjiro has been supporting you and telling you that it’s okay to let your feelings out and confess.

You wanted to, but at the same time, you were afraid. Afraid of getting abandoned and neglected once again.

But since Tanjiro has been the best wingman here, you had no choice but to give in.

In this world, all of you know, everybody knows, that life will not last long. That life ends either peacefully, or painfully. Living in this world taught everyone that. That no matter how much you’ve tried to live, surviving was the hardest. Especially in your line of work, where you fend off those men eating creatures to protect the clueless people who thought living and surviving was easy.

That’s why, to this moment, if Shinobu ever rejects you, then it’s okay. Because you know deep down… that you’re not gonna last long. And so does she.

~~~~~

As you opened your eyes, you realized you were laying down in the futon, with your sight being watery.

“Ah, you’re awake, that’s good.” The white haired man smiled with a pity look in his eyes, as he leaned at the doorframe.

“What… happened?” You slowly stood up, rubbing your eyes, as your fingers got wet.

“Must be a hell of a dream that you’ve forgotten.” Tengen commented as he saw your tears dripping down your cheeks.

Right now, you’re feeling a new feeling. But this time, it wasn’t as nice as “love”. This new feeling hurted. It hurts so bad, you feel like your heart broke to a million pieces. You felt your eyes water once again, your throat dry, and you had a hard time breathing.

You looked down at the thing you were holding on; Shinobu’s butterfly hairclip.

Ah… yeah, that’s right. She’s dead.

You wanted to close your eyes, and go back to the memories you had dreamt of. You wanted to join her, to be with her, to pull and hug her to your arms forever.

You blame yourself, you really do. You thought that maybe if your right arm hadn’t been chopped off, then maybe, you would’ve been there to help her and share her burden.

But now, it was all too late. She was no longer here, was she? As tears prickled and spilt down your eyes once more, you quickly covered your mouth, trying to endure the sob that’s been forcing itself to come out.

Tengen looked at you with only pity in his eyes.

~~~~~

“Seriously? No one has seen Y/n? Where the hell-” As Tengen looked around asking for you, he looked at a direction to see something peculiar.

Seppuku. To end one’s life by cutting off the neck. But in your case, you were all alone. You held your katana to your throat, as tears dripped down to your cheeks, because you can no longer carry the burden.

Thinking the memories both you and Shinobu shared, you closed your eyes, and hoped for the best.

“You really think Shinobu would be happy to know you did that?” You whipped your head towards Tengen, leaning against a pole, looking at you with pity.

“I think Shinobu and the others did their best defeating the demons. And I think they do not want their sacrifices to go to waste. Shinobu may not be so strong compared to others, but I think she tried her best out there. I think that the reason to why she volunteered to go out there was to help stop the evil from spreading. To help make and turn the world to a better place. A place where we would finally get to live peacefully, where we don’t have to think about fighting and surviving the demons. But specifically, I think her reason was to make you live a better life.” As Tengen stopped, you also stopped and rethought your choices. You didn’t know what to do anymore, you didn’t know what was right or wrong anymore. You were hesitating. But that last sentence struck something to you.

If Shinobu really did sacrifice herself for you, you wouldn’t want her sacrifice to go in vain, would you?

You set the katana down, and sobbed.

Tengen slowly walked towards you, putting a hand on your back, softly patting you.

Tengen saw the way you hesitated, he wanted to tell you more than that, that she really did sacrifice herself for you to live peacefully, a life where she too, desired. But Tengen couldn’t, as he promised her that you will be the only one who will not know about her plan. Because she knows very well, that you’d try to stop her, or feel that you were getting abandoned once again. She didn’t want that, nor did she want to leave you. But it was the only way to give you a better life to live.

~~~~~

“Ah! Y/n-san! You’re finally here, where have you been last night?” Tanjiro asked, as he handed you a basket full of fruits. “Here, it’s for you.”

“Ah… thank you.” You gave him your best smile and bowed down, heading towards your estate.

“Last night, I think I’ve made the decision I wouldn’t regret.” You smiled as you said so, stopping in your tracks.

“Oh? What decision?” The young man tilted his head in confusion, but you simply smiled and looked at him as you turned around,

“To not let her sacrifice go to waste.”

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[goonerjoon]

hii can may i request EXO reaction to their s/o leaving a lipstick mark somewhere on their face or neck and they dont notice it until someone else pointed it out?😂 who would immediately wipe it out in embarrassment and who would smugly shows it off?

Minseok

Minseok would be embarrassed but would laugh along with everyone before running off to the bathroom scrubbing it off him. He'd hastily text you asking why you hadn't told him it was there?

"Minseok hyung you've got a hm mark I guess?" Sehun poked at his neck the lipstick catching on his fingertip, bringing it up to the others face to show him.

"Haha well you know how it is!" The rest of them snorted patting him on the back, but all Minseok could thinkg about was how dead you were when he got home.

Junmyeon

Junmyeon would be faux smug but when no one's looking he'd start blushing but he'd leave the mark because he didn't want you to think that he didn't like it. He'd take various pictures for you throughout telling you how much he liked it and how you should give him more when he gets home.

"Nice mark hyung where'd you get it?" Yixing ran his finger along Junmyeon's neck swiping a bit of the lipstick there away.

"Hm, where do you think?" Junmyeon smirked walking off as the other members whooped and hollered behind him.

Yixing

Yixing wouldn't care but would probably tease you about it, saying, "did you get a little excited baobei?" But when he got you alone he'd leave just as many marks on you.

"Woah Yiyi where'd you get that?" Minseok stared at the back of Yixing's neck that was literred in red lipstick marks.

"Where do you think? Baobei couldn't help themselves." Yixing smirked pushing at one of the marks on his collarbone.

Baekhyun

Baekhyun would be smug about it trying to show off wanting to show all the guys just how much action he's getting. Everyone would be more than annoyed by the end of the day but that's just Baekhyun.

"You see it huh you see it?" Baekhyun pointed at his throat lipstick was smeared from his jawline downwards.

"Yes Baekhyun we see it." Junmyeon crossed his arms over his chest sighing rolling his eyes at the other shenanigans.

"Bet you're jealous!" Baekhyun stuck his tongue out at him before running off to send you a message about how cool you made him today.

Chanyeol

Chanyeol would be shocked having had no idea it was even there, his ears would turn red, and he'd start to rub at his neck desperate to get rid of it. Once it was completely gone he'd be red through the rest of the day far too embarrassed.

"Ears still red huh Chanyeollie? Are we really that embarrassed?" Minseok tugged at his ear cooing at him as Chanyeol pulled away.

"So what huh?" Everyone giggled at him watching as he ran further ahead to get away from the teasing.

Kyungsoo

Kyungsoo would walk around with it not because he's being smug but because he doesn't care, or at least he's trying to act like he doesn't. He'd sneak off to go wipe it away giving you a dirty look for not telling him sooner it was there.

"Ooh looks like you had fun Kyungsoo!" Baekhyun pointed at the lipstick smeared across his neck while the rest of the members laughed.

"Mm more than you've ever done." He looked right at you glaring before walking off, you knew you were in for a wild night.

Jongin

Jongin would be embarrassed as well rubbing his sleeve against the mark only smearing it further, but after reassurance from everyone, he'd stop and embrace it making jokes about it as well.

"So Nini what'd you do earlier today hm?" Chanyeol smirked wiping at the lipstick marks decorating Jongin's neck.

"Nothing!" He rubbed and rubbed at his neck turning more red as he continued, everyone giggled around him pulling his arm away from the mark.

Sehun

Sehun wouldn't care ignoring everyone as they teased him about it, he'd roll his eyes while walking off. But later on he'd act all cute and cuddly with you asking if you'd leave more on him.

"Our baby's all grown up!" Baekhyun hugged Sehun from behind cooing, Sehun pushed out of his hold glaring at him.

"I've been grown up." He rolled his eyes walking away from his hyungs while they laughed behind him.

#exo yixing #exo #exo kai #sehun #xiumin #chanyeol #kim minseok #suho #exo chanyeol #exo baekhyun #exo sehun #exo reactions #reactions #exo do #minseok #jongin #dokyungsoo #exo suho #junmyeon #kim junmyeon

[pinkseas]

[parasocial bestie] GOOD MORNIGNG BESTIEE I HOPE U HAD A NICE REST AND SLEEBP if not i kick the exhaustion away beats it to the ground in a pulp yuou will nawt. tire my bestie ever again ANYWAY i hope youll have a nice day too 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 i was writing sumn but the thought was like a week old amd im just clenching my fist shaking unable to get back to that lil cathartic moment so i can Have That Feel i was jusgt THINKGING just cryign for xiao and zl right now yes that was the thoght i coulda flood u the them then i flood u the lumine i wusz thinking again about her and functional pants. god the makeover idea is such a game changer to me like YKNOWWWWW <- writhing screaming on the floor cannot sort out their thoughts well rm but still wanna greet the bestie euutjahehfikshfhehfh

ABOUT UR BIG FIC PROGRESS ITS OK ASF youre still going great YOU REACHED THE 45K MILESTONE and stretching it more which is shtill ok!!! with me and work things do trail outta ur mind a lot on things u Want to think about yknow cus priorities :((( like i wanna stay there and just dream abt my blorbos and have the same scene looping in my head on repeat 738374 times a day..... thinking like 30 mins straight of the same idea and going ehe what does bestie think abt this its so messy i shud get it well constructed so i can write more walls of text for them HEHE and i MISS THATTTT MY BRAIN IS SO NON FUNCTIONAL RN THE ASK I WANNA WRITE TO U IS SITTIN THERE UNFINISHED. LIKE I WANNA LAY A WHOLE TUB OF WATER OF FAMILIAL XIAO ZHOGNLI TO U SO BAD RN and a side of pants lmi agenda flushed emoji flushed emoji like yknow............

U CAUGHT ME AS IM WORKING ON THE FIC >:))))))) i was soooooo skull emoji last night and now i am awake and SO DETERMINED !!!!!!! to at least get these last couple of scenes figured out im so srs i am GOING to have every scene at least partially written by the end of the day today i can feel it. 8 hour shift is nothing but a tiny interruption it is like childs play to me just another obstacle in the way of my beautiful beautiful xiaolumi.

I DID SLEEP WELL THANK UUUUUUUUUUUUUUU and i am also still tired so i very much appreciate the exhaustion being beaten to death ily so bad that made me giggle sm I HOPE UR DAY TODAY WAS WONDERFUL AND I HOPE UR ABLE TO GET SOME GOOD SLEEP SOON <3333333333333333333

100% understand the feeling of having like that Moment that Specific Feeling And Emotion while writing smth and sometimes pausing or needing to come back to it and then the emotion isnt rly as there and its so hard to capture again i LOVE when inspiration strikes at those moments but i hate having to finish it later :sob:

U CAN ALWAYS FLOOD ME W/ ANYTHING AT ALL EVER eyes and ears so wide open all the time always and YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS THE MAKEOVER the fact that there's just ENDLESS potential for her style and what she would or wouldnt like and then fighty stuff vs comfort stuff vs casual stuff smnfmfngmnfbmnb dies. dies. lumi <33333333333

I ABSO9LUTELY GETR THAT TOO us when our brains are so good at being nonfunctional its okay it will return in due time and then.... then i will get the whole tub of water then i will get the side of pants lumi agenda and it will be so wonderful and glorious i have no doubt whatsoever

#parasocial bestie tag #ILYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY #omg omg ive been bugging like EVERYONE abt this but i havent told u........ #got. a handful of such silly little genshin charms in #and i am OBSESSED with them ill have to show u asap THEYRE SO GOOD #i did nawt get lumi or ayaka bc i didnt like their designs as much which is so sad bc they're two of the faves but THE ONES I DID GET.... #explodes. dies. explodes AND dies #<- girl who literally promised herself she would NOT get a genshin ita bag she'd just buy prints no charms or pins #and then. after months. These Specific Charms finally broke her #soooooo much money spent on genshin and cosplay and con stuff what's a little more smile <- her bank account is sobbing #but if i keep getting fawking EIGHT HOUR SHIFTS ON WEEKENDS ALL SUMMER itll be fine anyways ^_^

[nessalibritannia]

Writing another Post about my gf. Just have basically no one to talk about it. Sad i know. But i dont know how tp handle it differnetly. I dont want people to think bad of her that are also her friends we barely have not shared friends if not no one. I had such a blast of s day no matter the circumstances i Was so happy bc i had my first day at my internship and i choose q good place and my teacher is so nice the other students are kinda not but that was not too bad at least one can take me there by car.. i had to get up pretty early though and have kinda been exhausted after work and also felt like just napping and taking pain medication. My gf and me wanted to order food bc i felt too exhausted to cook but she offered to still make smth bc of my pain and me being maybe not able to eat too much of the take out. I said okay maybe we can have date night this weekend instead order food watch a movie and play some games. But instead of her reacting happy about the offer she just slapped it down with "you dont have time anyways" pretending i am always gone bc if the internship and university i am a lot busy and i know that also had some times where i had to cancel our plans bc some appointment was appearing suddenly after we agreed already on a date etc. But yeah i still take time for her and she should be happy that i do especially when i am that busy. I thought it was really offensive that she just pretended to know better about my plans myself and that i would cancel all the plans even the ones i suggested. Which is bullshit. I feel really hurt that she thinks that the dates mean nothing to me. I just thinkg that i can not change some things and have to cancel then. Not that its my plan to do so. But i have to. And i expected a bit of... care too? I am really busy but it is also stressful for me. And it will be over at some point too but i think its really upsetting that she Ruins my day and does not even see she did wrong even though i told her that i have unkversity but will be back in the afternoon and it would easily be enough for date night and even though she said yes she did not know about that. She does not see herself at fault or apologize for it. What should i do.... ? (We by the way did not order dinner which also left me snackless bc of my pain i will not cook so i just went to bed bc i have to get up early again tomorrow and sleep without dinner)

#am i the asshole #reddit aita #relationship struggles #relationshipproblems

[recentanimenews]

The Rising of the Shield Hero S2 – 04 – Part of the Gang

The night after the battle, Rishia tells the rest of the party how she and her parents lived happy unassuming lives as poor nobles until a neighboring noble abducted her as payment for debts unfairly levied against her family. She thought she was a goner, but was rescued by Itsuki, who exposed the evil noble. Ever since, Rishia has vowed to repay the Bow Hero (also, she’s probably in love with the guy…I mean look at that face.)

Naofumi’s party, along with Ost, Eclair, and Elrasla, take it upon themselves to finish off the Spirit Tortoise by traveling onto its headless body and finding its weak spot. On the way, Ost wonders why all of the soldiers are saluting and praising her when she’s technically a servant of the Tortoise. The answer is simple: because she fought alongside them, and saved their lives.

After hours of traveling through dense fog with no weak spots in sight, Naofumi decides to stop and camp for the night. While Raph and Filo sleep together, Rishia admits to Ost that she’s a little jealous of their sisterly bond as she was an only child. But throughout the episode and especially here, Ost serves as a big sister figure.

Ost assures Rishia that even though she’s no longer in the Bow Hero’s party—and maybe precisely because she isn’t—she’s able to accomplish something for his sake. The next morning, when they meet up with Queen Mirelia at a village decimated by the Tortoise awakening, Ost provides a soothing presence for Rishia, who is not used to being around such death.

After being comforted by Ost, Rishia pays it forward by telling an also-distraught Raphtalia that she doesn’t have to “get used to” death an destruction. That’s after Mirelia leads Naofumi’s gang to a large dilapidated shrine further within the Tortoise’s back, into which they all brave despite the constant risk of total collapse.

Once there, and there is an ancient language written on the wall to translate, Rishia really comes into her own, both in enthusiasm and competence. Naofumi wonders if from now on she should focus on honing her scholarly skills, but Elrasla tells Naofumi that might yet be a waste of Rishia’s potential, which remains as yet untapped. She then comes upon some writing she can’t ready easily, which Naofumi immediately identifies as Japanese.

Mirelia calls it the “hero’s alphabet”, and while some of it is worn away or obscured, he can make out something about breaking a seventh seal. When the shrine collapses, Ost finally remembers something important: the key to defeating the Tortoise is to travel within its body.

Naofumi prepares to head in with Raph, Filo, and Ost, asking Eclair and Elrasla to keep the armies together should thinkgs go sideways. He’s ready to ask Rishia to stay behind as well, but she refuses: she’s a member of his party; where he goes, she goes.

It’s a brave, bold gesture by someone who, along with Ost, have become my favorite characters in this second season. That said, when she heads into the dark and spooky “large intestine” of the Tortoise, she still needs Ost by her side to keep her wits about her.

That’s when the party suddenly encounters what appear to be three adventurers who claim to have been sent by the queen. Nobody buys that, and when Raph uses anti-mirage magic to nullify their disguises, they’re revealed to be Naofumi’s old pals L’Arc, Therese…and Glass. Now they’re not a trio you come across any ol’ day in a giant turtle colon!

By: magicalchurlsukui

#Anime #News #RABUJOI – An Anime Blog

[careously]

fit check

#dream #dream fanart #dreamwastaken #my art #once again promoting the mirror selfie agenda #all day and all night i thinkg about it

[n0ct0urn1quet]

@fuckshitassbitchcockballs bestie. hunny. i ate too fast and now my tummy hurtse :( u should come take care of me and kis my stomache :((((

#bro cmere and kis me itll helpe me feele better :(((( #also haha hey speaking of which ik i already talked abt this earlier but i am Habbie jus thiknignng about u beinmg here... #and like bro. if i were to get like a tummy ache or a headache while ur here then like !!!!! u can take care of me :') #like bro jus thikn abt it. we stay up all night jus laughing n talking to each other and like . whenever i stay up all nigth i always #have a headache the next day so like. bro. if that happens then jus imagine us waking up the next morning #and us jus chillin in bed together n jus cuddling n snuggling n just bein chill with each other #i can be like 'bro can u get me some aspirin' and u would b like 'of course bro' #idk maybe that sounds weird its jus soemthing i thninkg abt a lot. i just. i like thiknging abt u taking care of me when im sick #or when im juts not feelin great in general #like bro think abt it. jus thinke. me having cramps n feeling nauseous so u jus let me lay in bed n u get me aspirin n ice packs n stuffe #and u jus make sure im all comfy and cosy and stuff like that #and like u could jus let me lay on ur tiddies n u can keep me nice n coole (cause. i get rly Hot whenever im On My Thing. idk why #i just get like rly sweaty n hot and uncomfy) #but like bro we can jus snuggle together and maybe watch something and maybe i could hav a chew necklace and i could stim with ur #hands as a distraction or something mayb......idk i think thatd be nice #i just like thinkging abt u taking care of me cause. ykno. im not used to being taken care of #like not to be edgy or anything but u kno how my mom is <3 n my dad was kinda the same way so like #im just not used to being taken care of by Anyone when im sick. im used to ppl jus bein like 'oh ur fine just get up ur fine' #so idk itll just be nice for u to be. yknow. Not Like That. itll b nice for u to take care of me n do Things for me to helpe me feel better

[nctsjiho]

A Special Gift

warnings: none

era: Spring 2020

❀ Jungwoo wasn’t planning to give JiHo the gift he got her quite yet, but when she spotted him with it, he couldn’t help but give it to her already

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It wasn’t unusual for JiHo to hang out in the other boys’ dorms. It was actually quite the opposite actually. Even though she seemed to like her quiet, alone time, the boys had figured out she liked to have someone around. That doesn’t mean she has to talk to anyone, but just having the knowledge that someone is close seemed to bring her comfort.

That’s why Jungwoo wasn’t at all surprised to see JiHo casually lounging on his roommate’s bed. With her phone in hand she seemed to be keeping herself occupied, making it so that she didn’t notice Jungwoo walking in through the already opened door.

“What are you doing here?” JiHo could almost hear the playful smile on his lips. She peered over her phone and sent him a smile of her own. “I was bored.” Jungwoo nodded without thought, but laughed once he made sense of the situation. “You were bored, so you came over to lay down on Jaehyun’s bed instead of joining the boys to play FIFA in the living room?” JiHo only nodded, trying to suppress her giggles knowing fully well how ridiculous her logic was. Jungwoo knew JiHo longer than a day however, so he didn’t question her actions.

While the younger of the two redirected her focus back to her phone, Jungwoo got back to looking for the borrowed headphones he needed to return to Taeyong. As he opened the last shelf of the wonky storage unit in the room, he was met with the small blush coloured box. A simple white ribbon was tied around it.

Jungwoo’s hands gravitated towards it and before he even noticed he was holding it, JiHo spoke, “What’s that?” Jungwoo’s head turned to see JiHo trying to look over his shoulder. She isn’t the most curious person out there, but when she noticed the sudden silence after Jungwoo almost tore the place down looking for the headphones - if she knew he was looking for them she would’ve pointed out that the were on top of Jaehyun’s keyboard - JiHo couldn’t help but see what had gotten him so quiet.

“Ow-” Suddenly a little flustered, Jungwoo moved to sit next to JiHo on Jaehyun’s bed and handed over the box. “I got this for you.” His flustered puppy-like expression made JiHo smile as she took the small box from him - it felt heavier than she thought it would be. “You know my birthday isn’t for a while right?” She joked but thanked him nonetheless and started to unravel the white ribbon.

Once freed of the ribbon and carefully opened - the box felt expensive so JiHo wanted to be careful - the luxury brand name revealed itself to JiHo.

Jungwoo carefully watched JiHo’s face for her reaction. His heart had started beating out of nervousness ever since JiHo caught him with the gift he wasn’t ready to give her yet. Praying to all that was good, that the younger girl would appreciate it. So when JiHo smiled once more, all Jungwoo’s nerves started to calm.

“Do you like it?” Though relieved that there was no sign of repulsion, he was still sceptical if JiHo actually liked his gift or she was just being nice. It was in fact the first time someone bought JiHo a perfume.

“It’s the same as yours.” She giggled, but it wasn’t at all like she was making fun of it, rather she found it cute. “I know… It’s just that,” Jungwoo gulped and focussed his eyes on the pretty perfume bottle. “Every time you come by, you always use it. So I thought you’d like it.” He finished before looking JiHo in the eye. “Of course I like it! But you didn’t have to buy me it.” She confessed. “Or did you just hate the fact I kept on using yours?”

Jungwoo’s eyes widened and he rapidly shook his head from side to side. “No! I just thought you’d like it.” Not wanting to tease him further JiHo just thanked him again, promising she’d use the perfume until it ran out.

A few moments passed by before Jaehyun entered the room. His eyes immediately fell on the perfume bottle he was all too familiar with seeing his roommate use pretty often. Only this time, it looked unused. “Oh- Isn’t that the same as yours, Jungwoo?” The two occupying his bed nodded in response.

“JiHo must really like the way I smell, because she’s always using mine. So in case she ever misses me, she can use it.” JiHo gasped dumbfounded, and eyed Jungwoo who was just grinning at her. Jaehyun held back his laughter as he watched JiHo push his roommate by the arm. “Yah! I don’t like you that much.” “So that means you do like me?” Using his charming eyes and smile, Jungwoo leaned in closer to JiHo causing her to get completely flustered. “N-No. Agh!” JiHo pushed the boy aside before turning to Jaehyun. “Tell him that he’s too full of himself right now.”

Jaehyun smirked, deciding he liked that Jungwoo was making the youngest flustered and wanting to join in himself. “I don’t know JiHo, those times you told me Jungwoo was pretty and handsome tell me otherwise.” A gasp escaped JiHo’s lips once more, prompting her to grab her stuff and walk to the door. “I’m not going to sit here and take your slander. Not today!”

Watching JiHo storm off - probably to go sit with Yuta or Taeil - the two boys fell into laughter and shared a high five, happy they succeeded in teasing JiHo once again.

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[whatdoesshedotothem]

Thursday 7 September 1837

7 55

11 35

fine morning but dull F56° now at 8 ¾ am breakfast with A- at 9 in about ½ hour – long since we have breakfasted regularly tête-à-tête  - Townend the horse-dealer came to look at the 2 bays Hotspur ‘a very plain horse’ and Buffler putting out a curb (just above coronet, inside, offhird leg) thought I should not get more than £30 for the 2 – would take them to Howden fair for me and sell them as well as he could – would shew me a bill of expense tolls and keep – hay 1/6 a night and corn 1/. and about 1/. worth more during the day = 3/6 per day – and would want 20/. a piece for selling them – I said that was very fair – told him what the horses had cost me price and expense and ditto of breaking – he brought a chesnut horse aetatis 5 price 30 guineas – had almost taken the chesnut for the 2 bays but did not like him on seeing him – chesnut, low condition and not good action of his hindlegs – but good high shoulder – said I did not like his action – would keep my 2 bays and T- to come a few days before Howden fair to see if I had not sold the horses – if not, to trim them up for the fair – explained what I wanted for A-any colour but gray (liked chesnut the next least) and from 13 ½ to 13 hands and from 5 to 7 years old – advised me to ask £40 for the two bays, - even if I took less – would not like to buy the ponies now – advised my giving them a winters’ run out – might perhaps make £40 of them in the spring – would not want much hay or any corn till taken up – Mrs. Day (Franks’ wife) sent me the 2 keys of her house at Mytham early this morning – gone to live in the new bank – one of Mr. Haighs’ houses – to the back – at £5 per annum – sometime with Townend – about 10 came the wood for Leeds that Blythe bought on Saturday – some for Little Marsh – oak logs and a few planks for Shibden hall. out about till came in at 12 50 – Mr. Harper had Booth and was to have luncheon at 1 ½ - left him saying I would see him at 2 – wrote the above of today till now 1 ½ - wrote and gave to Mr. Harper note to ‘Mr. Brown artist York’ to say Mrs. Lister sorry and ashamed to have let his prospectus of the work he is going to publish lie so long on my writing table – unanswered A- and I both of us anxious for his success – considered ourselves on his list of subscriber from the time of promising our names about 2 years ago – with Mr. Harper from 2 to 5 – settled everything Mr. Parker at Harrogate – H- saw Mr. Adam – lucky – A- has not so good an opinion of Mr. Carr as P- has A- thinks C- is trying to do the best he can for himself (in fact, to frighten Mr. Rayner into terms and stay at the Swan!) – I thinkg A- is more right than P- I proposed C-‘s keeping on the coaches to convenience me for a month or 2 to be at Northgate but then said I if he once gets into the house, query, will he go on, and on, and stay there? – surprised to find that Messrs. P- and A- considered this a matter of course! I said P- must know I had no idea of this kind – for I had only talked of C-‘s keeping on the coaches for me at the Swan – it seems C- had told P- and A- he valued the ground of the coaches at £600 – P- told me he (P-) thought it would be worth a few hundreds – but never hinted at £600 tho’ he probably knew it at that moment! – H- proposed consulting Mr. Barber of York -who would let his understrappers (Mr. Dobron in particular) help and value for us – Mr. B- might perhaps help us to some proper person to put into the hotel – H- will be in York on Monday next, and will write me word what B- says. whatever proposal C- makes to get it in writing – H- thinks the coaches may be with £600 – has no fear of the hotel paying very well by and by – explained about the cattle market and Mr. Littles’ visit – said I had nearly made up my mind to have nothing to do with the cattle market – H- said he was sure it would not pay, and seemed well satisfied at my giving up all thought of it – but said I should keep my determination to myself and merely if a deputation came to me, decline the terms offered – saw that they wanted to fasten me before the act was got for the New road to Keighley – I would wait the event of this – this new road thro’ my property into Orange street would be a great advantage to my property – the area of the York cattle market = 3 acres – mentioned my wish to have only 2 joiners after the end of October and to get Blythe out of the house – to let me know what time the hall will take 2 men to finish and what time the tower will take – the tower top room to be done first – Harrison of Grimsby near the hall and a man in London (name not remembered) the only 2 men for making a stable clock or clock to be fixed in the laundry gable –

Arnold, of the strand, who makes chronometers for the admiralty man G- would get a watch of H- gave me all Booths’ bills up to midsummer last –

H- put me in good spirits enough about the hotel – I hope he will get me thro’ with it pretty tolerably – had just written the last 33 lines at 5 35 – then out in spite of rain which had just come on till 6 50 – just looked round to see what had been done – the top step of the turret set – the paving of the carriage court finished this morning – Baldwin here dressing the slates that came off the old saddle room – Edward Waddington and Robert and John Sharpe at the walling under the lime tree all today and yesterday and began the afternoon of Tuesday I think – vide – James and Mark Sharpe began yesterday evening preparing pulling down wall, and this morning got stuff removed and began building the pillars of the garden gates removed to the new road to the hot-houses – Parkinson and all his men at the top terrace wall Robert and Richard the York Joiners planning up stuff all today and yesterday for the Lodge gates – Henry Rile flooring west tower low closet – William – at the little dressing room quondam china or egg closet – stood some time talking to Robert Mann under the masons’ shed (his men sloping down wheat-field slope of road along the laundry court wall and taking soil off for the embankment in the old paddock) – very heavy rain when I came in at 6 50 – A- had returned about 6, and did not get wet – dressed – dinner at 7 10 – A- and I enjoyed our tête-à-tête – coffee – we came upstairs at 9 35 – she went to bed – I wrote the last 13 lines till 10 ¼ at which hour F53° - fine day but dull till about (after) 5 then light rain which came on heavily between 6 and 7 and continued for sometime – fair I think now at 10 ¼ pm sat reading the gentleman’s magazine of this month till 11 -

[ladylarena]

Triangle Madness - True Beauty.

It’s a long wait to the next episode and I am doing what I do best - obsess. Otaku style. 

This love triangle has me upside down and inside out. I am not a fan of love triangles on principle. I don’t like them and I find them a waste of time. I’m also never one to suffer from SLS. There was one time, just one time, where I did -Heirs. Aside from that never. 

So this drama, and my partiality for HSJ is very different for me.

There are number of “intrigues” that confuse me and give me dangerous hopes. 

(1) The scenes that involve all 3 are so strange because normally if there is a third party disrupter, the third that has no chance in hell, and the camera will always focus on the reaction of the ML when the SL and FL are interacting. The SL is solely a foil for the “main” love story and is there to make ppl realize their love and such. HSJ is not here for that. In fact, LSH knew how he felt before HSJ started stirring the pot. It’s also canon that HSJ really only started messing with IJG because LSH clearly liked her. 

Here we see a lot of HSJ and IJG interacting without the benefit of LSH’s presence. In fact there is a lot that happens that makes me think she is attracted to HSJ and most definitely enjoys the banter, dare I say the outright flirting. There was a line that that they crossed at some point. I can’t say when, but they are full on flirting with each other by end of episode 6. She gives as good as she gets, and there are few moments that I just love: 

(a) When she took a picture of him on his bike and he showed her the face mask picture. And she chased after him. 

(b) When she stole his key right out of his pocket and ran. And he chased after her. 

(c) When he gave her the key and she was going after him. LSH interrupted and she made to shake him off and tried to chase after HSJ again. HSJ distracts her as LSH pointed out.

(e) The moment when they fell together after he teased her about the toilet paper tail. They fell, he “saved” her and they both just stared. He wide-eyed and genuinely. She just shocked, possibly being moved by the look on his face or just in plain shock. Either way, she only head butted him out of the way when people started oooooo-ing in the background. 

(f) When she went to karaoke and LSH tagged along. This was pre-foiled date night. Pre-LSH being an a-hole. She overhears HSJ singing and thinkgs to herself, how beautiful. Then immediately after she spots HSJ’s bike and decides to start kicking it. When he shows up and she spots another potential fight, instead of letting HSJ just drive off, she insists on taking him around the corner. What follows is some more running around with him, and she essentially ditches LSH. He even waits for outside her place. Like HSJ noted. Like what is that even? 

Sidenote - LSH then follows and gets into the fight these two managed to evade. And it’s still not public knowledge that he gave chase that day, to no avail. I wonder what if any significance this has. 

(2) There is the strong possibility that IJG is being used as a foil to develop HSJ’s character and set the course for a new trajectory for him. But if so, does it have to be so charged between HSJ and her? And between HSJ and LSH because of her? Isn’t here enough between the two boys? 

(3) Maybe she is the common denominator that will bring them together. The fight scene at the end of episode 6 and the two boys working together is an example. But that scene did so much more. It showed me that LSH is the hero as far as the show is concerned. But then it also showed me that HSJ is falling hard. And it showed me that IJG has eyes for LSH. But then in the background, I’m just like, she was brought there because of a speculative relationship between her and HSJ. I know it’s a weird point to keep hitting on. But some of the background motivations are interesting because they have nothing to do with LSH. Like the helmet and like those “bad guys” thinking she was HSJ’s gf. Like HSJ’s sister. They have intimacies that he is not a party to. And neither does he get the benefit of the details, so we don’t even get much of a reaction. Only him just staring while these two go at it. And every so often he grabs her hand or threatens HSJ. Idk, it seems weak. Like they’re stalling so that HSJ can catch up to LSH. Just a thought. 

(4) LSH and HSJ’s conversations get me thinking too. Two particular conversations: 

(a) HSJ to LSH: do you like her? LSH returns to HSJ: do you like her? And then HSJ just scoffs and laughs at LSH. 

(b) LSH confesses that he likes IJG, and HSJ’s reaction is “Do you want me to congratulate you?” 

It’s a strange choice of words and reaction from HSJ. As if to point out a difference and perhaps even a flaw in LSH’s behaviour. In the first conversation I felt like, yes LSH, just say yes dammit! You like her. And in the second, I felt like, we are being shown rather than be told, the difference in these two’s approach to love. 

(5) The past couple episodes, 5 & 6, the scenes between HSJ and IJG and LSH and IJG are almost balanced. She sees HSJ’s underwear, rawrs at him adorably for the first time, and then goes to have dinner with LSH and her family. The show is developing both ships so rapidly and simultaneously that I am confused, because here is the kicker - LSH had a very good head start, and yet HSJ has caught up in my eyes. The screen-time he is getting is no joke. In comparison to our other main lead, the fourth, Sujin, I mean, what is happening even?

(6) What I see is a legitimate love triangle. One in which both ships are fantastic options. There is no “bad” non-deserver between the two boys. Just two different and yet both really great options. If TvN doesn’t want us to see HSJ as a potential love interest, then why spend now 4 episodes stoking the fire between HSJ and IJG. Why set up the most amazing love triangle I have seen in kdrama history, only to outright tell me that HSJ poses no threat? Like don’t you want me to enjoy the suspense you’ve worked hard to create? With a love triangle like this, shouldn’t who she ends up with be a well-kept secret?

(7) Let’s just say HSJ doesn’t stand a change in hell, and that LSH is the guy for her. What else is there in the remaining episodes? Because we are just about 1-2 episodes away from LSH and IJG entering a relationship. It can and will happen any moment. What then? How many episodes could they spend on problems? Compare this to ID Gangnam Beauty, the romance was clear and yet slow. The ML’s feelings were clear, and the FL liked him too. Yes, it took them a while, but only because the pacing of the show was such. The pacing here is quite different. 

(8) One last very minor point. This is a well-written fluffy show. Fluffy, but good. For the past couple episodes we’ve seen IJG leave behind her old self a bit. For her date she went into her closet and scoffed at her metal-rock tshirts. The girl we met in episode 1 has evolved. You could say that she is becoming vain or boy-obsessed. I would say she is just entering another phase in life. I find it interesting that the first version of her is who LSH met. Maybe it’s just not enough time to assess. It’s only been a couple episodes. It’s not like she needs to go to the comic book store everyday. 

Colour me confused. Truly. 

#true beauty #jugeong #seojun #suho #true beauty kdrama #love triangle kdrama

[musubiki]

yall know what im kind of a sucker for though??????? arranged marriage aus. like i always thinkg about a fantasy/feudal arranged marriage between lime and mochi where they either barely knew each other or not at all, and theyre just kind of thrown into a warm domestic life decided by their families and its super awkward at first??? 

where lime has a super cool/dangerous like bounty/monster hunting job or something whereas mochi helps out around the village as an odd apothecary or something, and every day he comes home to his awkward cute wife who he just met a few days ago and is trying to be cool and not weird and trying to impress her but ends up acting like a huge dork at every other turn??

and mochi spends time trying to be a good wife and now has to be a good homemaker as well as a like potion maker thing and don't dishonor the family so she just has to put up with it, but at least he's handsome and nice right?? and his family is kind prestigious so that's not too bad

and lime is really nice and gentle to her because he knows shes kinda scared/nervous about this whole thing so he doesn't pressure her into sleeping with him/together or being too touchy with her until she's more okay with it (besides light teasing), so they just live together and slowly become more comfortable around each other, just like going grocery shopping or eating dinner mochi made late at night or watching the sunset in the backyard together after a particularly tiring day, and just being there to support each other through their weird daily lives

and then they end up getting crushes on each other which everyone teases them about, especially limes friends because hoho dude shes your WIFE what do you need a crush on her for??? and having sweet romantic moments that both of them enjoy more than they would ever say. like mochi would stay the night in his room during big storms. or heal his arm up after some acid slim monster latched onto him at work. and lime would start to plant soft kisses on her forehead before he goes to work in the morning. and after a hard day he would crawl in her bed, tired and worn out, and when she asks how his day was he says “better now that youre here.” and mochi would mess up like 10 different potions because shes too distracted thinking about her stupid husband. and lime on the job daydreaming about going home to his beautiful wife. just HHHHHHHHHHHHHHH [CLENCHES FIST] ARRANGED MARRIAGE AU!!!!!

#text #delete later #long post #au #arranged marriage au #the misc adventures of mochi and lime #limochi #i think about this au a lot #i LOVEW STUPID ARRANGED MARRIAGE AUS WHERE THEY FALL IN LOVE AFTERTHEYRE ALREADY MARRIED!!!!! #DORKS!!!!!!!!!!!

[cowboyguts-moved]

tell me about your new ocs ^^

so any and all artwork i show you is done by @shit-stains (: 

everyone listed is from a made up oregon beach town called Mystic Overhang infamous for its creepy bottomless lakes and a cliff that leans over the pacific called Mystic Overhang. the town is full of mysterious happenings and unexplained missing persons and something downright evil is going on under their noses..but more on that another time ha ha. the story takes place in 1989. and i just realized this is basically just IT but i didn’t exactly mean for that…they definitely are not plagued by a killer clown.

Church Shelton (my oc) is 17/18. His mom had him too young and didn’t want to have to raised him, frankly, so she ended up leaving him on the stairs of a synagogue. His biological family is Jewish even though Church doesn’t grow up with religion and didn’t even know he was Jewish, because Josiah (Jo), tristan’s oc, was about 2 years old when he and his mom came by and saw a baby crying on the steps and the boy wanted to keep him and name him Church because he thought it was a regular christian church and… it’s cute. And through a ton of convincing and considerations, his mom agrees to care for Church and adopt him. Its a simplistic way of putting it, but there’s a lot that goes into it. He and Jo grow up as brothers and Jo takes such good care of him (: sometimes he has to be a parent to Church even though he’s only two years older, especially when their mom gets UHHH murdered during a robbery in their own house… ……….and they come home and find her at about 12 and 10 years old and Jo makes the decision that they’re not going to tell anyone and risk him living with his father and Church being placed in foster care. so they run away and become street kids for 4 years. When they’re older, 14 and 16, they get caught for stealing when they weren’t careful enough and the social workers put them in foster care, seeing as Jo’s dad is very unfit. They stay there until Jo aged out at 18 and got guardianship of Church after getting them a place to live, that’s a long complex process as well… and was obligated to care for him and provide income and stuff and they live together, just them two in a trailer, for awhile.

Church’s whole thing is that he loves to read and write. He reads so many books and he’s not great at first and is in remedial classes, but then he advances a shit ton with how hard he tries and how much he wants his love for English to succeed. Uh he has narcolepsy!!! Meaning he has a lot of daytime sleepiness, falls asleep frequently in the day and has bad insomnia at night and this hinders him a lot. In some cases his narcolepsy comes with cataplexy, this is when he has muscle weakness/paralysis caused by strong emotion like excitement and laugher. His brother Jo helps him a lot through that. I theorize that it happened because of a natural immune issue he has, which was most prevalent when they were living on the streets. 

Church is really funny and sweet and sarcastic. He’s such a cute boy and everyone in their town LOVES him just cause he’s so charming. he gets really cynical and depressed sometimes and can be mean when he wants to be, however and it’s his biggest downfall. He’s a bit of pyro he loves to set shit on fire. Oh, and he has a southern accent (: he loves to eat too, he’s always down for snacks. He’s bisexual but he doesn’t really call it that, he doesn’t take much note of his own sexuality, he does what he does. He works at an amusement park most of the time and has to put up with Jo constantly coming to his work when he gets lonely and riding the roller coaster he’s operating. Then when he graduates he goes to University of Oregon and has a bit of a big depressive self destructive path he follows and ends up overdosing on drugs on what of his partying nights, he self harms by being uncaring and his many intrusive thoughts about his mother dying and his huge fear of not seeing the world and being too dumb and poor to get an opportunity to really live. He’s put in the hospital and goes to rehab and Jo is there with him every step of the way. He’s so sweet and caring and worries about him but Church is a little belligerent sometimes. He wants to get better and be better for everyone and himself, and he does through a long emotional school break. He doesn’t end up going to his previous college again but he transfers and gets in the Columbia in new york for his English degree (: he lives in an apartment with his boyfriend Mason. 

Church is white, 5′7 and he’s stout and chubby. He’s got green eyes, freckles, a piggy nose, big sunburnt cheeks, and auburn hair, mostly shaved into a curly mohawk. and he got a fat ass and killer thighs. 

His beautiful big dumb brother Jo Shelton (tristan’s oc) has a story that is obviously parallel to church’s, but i think it’s important to mention that he’s kinda slow, slow thinkin’ and a bit hyper…and an asshole to everyone but the ones he really loves like church, he’s as sweet as he can be with him. he loves working on cars and he has a beautiful truck that he put a lot of work into..that is until he crashed it horribly while drunk driving after he got into a fight with church when church was in the hospital recovering from his overdose. and he got mild temporary brain damage… so…and then had to spend 6 months in jail for a DUI. that really fuck him up for a good while! and that’s a huge dent in their lives.

but anyway lol… he also loves to meet chicks and do speed dating.. and he hooks up with a wide variety of girls, he’s not picky at all and doesn’t believe in types, he just loves dominant women. he does have one important stable girlfriend for awhile named Rosa that he met at his grocery store job! he spilled spaghetti sauce on her white shoes (: and they were truly in love and dated for 3 years until it became dangerous for her to be with him because one of her weird ass fuckinnnn dangerous ex boyfriends got out of prison and she didnt think he would be safe if they remained together and it’s devastating for him and hinder him for a good while. he kinda fills that void by becoming a big brother figure to church’s biological sister Jude, who is 12 and in need of good old fashion josiah guidance. jo has that natural dumb dad vibe to him. (by the way..church’s mother reenters church’s life very briefly and that’s why jude and church meet and jude eventually lives locally to the boys because she moves in with Her real dad.) Later jo works at a mechanic shop and his ultimate goal is to open his own! uh also haha important detail..jo struggles with his sexuality and on the low meets up with dudes in alleys and lets them smash cause he’s a big bottom so. and he has sorta of thing for someone he met in the mess of foster care, just one of the kids he hung out with in passing, and his names Riley and they meet up later on when they’re older and fuck around a bit.

jo is 6′3 and he has golden honey hair and blue eyes and he’s freckly and has some beauty marks on his face. he’s pretty darn hairy..and he kinda smells. he’s a real country bo. he’s super skinny and hes got huuuge hands!

here’s jo and church (:

Mason Uley (mine), Church’s boyfriend, doesn’t meet church until he’s 22 and Mason is 13, and is a rich boy who’s siblings all died in one way or another…JDBSJD he’s the only child left and he is very neglected by his parents because of their coldness and grief and little regard for caring for their last kid. They’re never home and they ignore him completely which leaves him in search for attention in all sorts of wrong ways and he acts out. He does motocross at the local track. He loves rap music and is very embarrassing about it considering he’s very white..he loves flexin’ with that name brand clothing and shoes and wears skate shirts even though he doesnt skate which is a big smelly whatever but in general he’s a big poser. but its fine because we love him and its apart of his charm. He has a slight limp because at 13 he shattered his ankle and it never healed right. He loves Church very much and they’re SUPERR gross and lovey, their dynamic is so adorable, as you can imagine his goofy ass and church’s more dry sarcasm. He wants to be an architect and goes to college for that at Columbia later. He’s smart and has a very dry kind of humor and he hates Jo until he’s forced not to because of their mutual love for Church. He’s 1000% gay. He has blond hair and he looks like a 90s heart throb and Jo affectionately calls him “faggot” more than his name.

i dont have a Current drawing of mason all i got are old ones that tristan doesnt really like l o l

Okay……….. and then there’s Lewis. he’s 18. His full name is Aloysius St. Lawrence (AL oh wish iss) (mine), and he grew up in a deeply religious cult in northern California where many Horrible things happened to him that I’ll spare the details on but he’s a very traumatized boy and i thinkg about the complexity of him trying to come to grips with it and learning how to live with the immense pain he was dealt with! so. it’s really fun.

he was born with a sorta Purpose, his dads family started this commune, and the dad wasnt at fault, he’s not malicious he’s really sweet and a bit slow and is often mistreated, he’s forced to have relations with lewis’ mom, who was sort of a nomadic runaway girl perfect for procreation after she got caught in the entanglement of this commune business in california. theyre both really young when they have lewis and his twin sister, lewis being prime because he’s the Male. lewis grew up believing all kids in the commune were his siblings and so he never realized the one girl he’d see all the time was his biological sister. so bascially they take lewis from the mom, say he’s not only her child but the communities child, just how it is with all kids, and she betrays the commune in a way i havent figured out and goes beserk because obviously everyone there is insane and shes exiled and lewis, all the while has no idea shes his mother. so great childhood… full of hard labor and sleeping in a room with rows of beds and dreaming about a woman and not knowing why, not knowing its because shes your mom (: haha

In 6th grade he’s finally allowed to go to a school with other boys because before this he was homeschooled and his world was reduced to the confinements of his commune. He goes to a spooky and prestigious boarding school in southern Oregon and wears a uniform. The place is really huge and brick and creepy but it feels like paradise with this freedom he finally gets to some extent and he’s learning how to function as a regular boy, although he finds it kind of impossible. 

CHRIS!!!!! Is his roommate at this boarding school in 6th grade. Chris is a very goofy lovesick boy who believes heavily in the energies of the earth and charging his crystals his hippie mother gave him and he paints his nails black and pushes the rules of the dress code every single day and tends to break it completely. He’s a punk who loves to piss adults off. He was forced to go there by his very strict abusive father and there he meets sweet sweet Lewis (:

Lewis has never had a friend like Chris and he doesn’t know how to successfully keep one and it’s a really stressful emotional cycle of enduring the weekends at the commune and coming back to school and to Chris amongst all the happy boys that lead mostly normal lives. Chris sort of realizes that he has feelings for boys in this time and has strange urges to hold Lewis’ hand and kiss him and stuff, but he refuses to truly acknowledge his feelings about who he is.  but he does, in fact, hold his hand and Lewis lets him and they’ll just hang out for hours in their room holding hands and talking about silly stuff. They come to be really close and mean a lot to each other, chris invite him over to his house on the weekends and lewis sneaks off with him, risking being punished because he didn’t go back with one of the Father’s or Brother’s of his commune. Chris and lewis are very adorable and they play with makeup together in chris’s room and eat snacks and explore mystic overhang and chris teaches him about the ways of modern life. in 7th grade they grow apart when they don’t share a room or anymore and Chris gets involved with different people, starts smoking weed and eventually gets with a guy in 8th grade hhhh… and Lewis focuses really hard in class and it’s sorta the end of that. 

When chris gets expelled in 8th grade they don’t see each other anymore, the only departing thing being chris’s journal that he gave to lewis before he was escorted off the premises, and in it is filled with entries about him. this journal was taken and destroyed at his commune by one of the Fathers when it was found, though :/ so yes, Lewis goes back to the commune because they plan on keeping him homeschooled for high school but there’s a group of 5 kids and 3 men from the commune that are heading to Nebraska around the time he’s 16, and they force lewis to be the 6th child that accompanies them in their trip. once there, he’s kept in a creepy abandoned house, hardly set up for living in and he’s living with these other children, like an odd family that has to function around one another, him being the oldest of “siblings”. he finds out eventually that they’re there for a weird ritual/sacrifice thing.. probably the most horror-ish horror element i developed for him thus far, its frankly insane and disturbing and theres a lot of layers and rituals they must do and humiliating tasks they must do all for a Grander godly purpose. the sole purpose of it is to reach ultimate redemption in heaven after a sinful life ahahahaa.. so basically the whole time they’re there, they’re trying to accumulate sin by being unloving, disciplinary, neglectful, …uhh…and lewis kept in a dark room, only candles and daylight light the house and they’re severely mistreated and malnourished. Lewis runs away at 18…but, through constant mistreatments of his body he ends up having gangrene in his left leg and has to have it amputated above the knee by a doctor he meets whom he has to give a Favor to as payment because he doesnt have money. and he gets a real shitty wooden prosthetic that isn’t comfortable at all and its not healing right, it’s a bit botched actually.. and he has crutches and that’s how he gets around. He goes back to Oregon to the town Mystic Overhang that Chris is from because remembers the town name vaguely, not even who said it or when he heard it, but he goes there because he doesn’t know many towns, so he decides to settle there and he makes a living prostituting for awhile at an area called Mouth’s Edge. he sees Chris again when Chris pays him for a bj l o l. and Chris recognizes him even though chris is coked out of his mind because he had a really rough night and got his shit kicked in by his dad… and Lewis almost shits himself because someone from his past is back and he’s really paranoid and weird about it cause he just blew one of his only friends he used to have. and he wants Chris to fuck off, but eventually Chris keeps coming back just to talk to him and see what he’s been up to and stuff, cause he still feels this familiar need to protect Lewis that he had back in middle school. He’s very consistent about seeing him and does every single night even when Lewis is working. lewis’ love for him comes gradually, even through chris is in love with him pretty much instantly. It takes a long time for Lewis to want to be touched and held but he lets people do it anyway, including chris, it’s an unhealthy thing he obviously needs therapy ha ha. they don’t officially date until an entire year later

lewis is very sweet boy he’s shy and he has trouble making eye contact. He’s really smart and loves to paint! That’s what he wants to do with life. He’s not gay per se, he doesn’t really feel much romantically unless someone, anyone is kind to him and patient and reeeeeeeally really consistent or else he would probably never fall in love, but any gender has the potential with him. He loves 40s-80s music so much and dances to it really dorky when he thinks no one is looking and Chris has sooooo many records. he loves to rollerskate! and he’s really good at it. he’s pretty damn masculine, more so than chris. and he’s strong (: and he wears ugly clothes that he finds in dumpsters. eventually he gets enrolled in college for art and sees a therapist he grows to love like a dad to be honest.. lewis he dyes his hair a lot (: it’s naturally golden but at first when he’s prostituting its short and purple and then grows out very long and then he cuts it a lil and dyes it pink..orange..etc etc. he’s a hard worker and he gets a job at the Junkyard where he meets his best friend Cody (: 

This is Lewis :) he’s white, 5′4 and he’s soft but strong and handsome and he’s got golden eyes and hair and he’s sweet n freckly.

Chris Russell (tristan’s) is 19… chris is greek and pakistani from his dad and white italian from his mom. he grew up an only child with them in an upper middle class environment because his dad … i don’t even know the legit title but he buys and sells properties for a fancy shmancy company. his mom is just a kindergarten teacher and that’s not a killer wage but. he’s very close to his mom he loves her to pieces, she’s a big stoner hippie (:. his dad on the other hand has always been really disciplinary and cold towards Chris, his dad is straight up abusive though, so there’s no excuses being made for him, but at first he didn’t do it just because he felt like it. he was just raised learning that it was the only effective way to discipline your kid and that it was the dynamic that Worked the best. Chris is a little problem child though, and not so much when he was a kid! he was so sweet and all he wanted to do was wear his mom’s makeup and clothes. he wore clips in his curly hair and pretty skirts and he loved music and being a mama’s boy and he loved her cooking. he loved reading and writing. but he was still abused by his dad, especially for his natural femininity. and as Chris got older he was such a rebel. he’s a mouthy, snarky, blunt little shit that never behaved or was cowered into doing things as his dad wanted. it wasn’t like he wasn’t afraid to get hit or anything but he didn’t show it and constantly provoked it. that’s in his teen years though especially

chris goes in and out of depression and mania constantly after middle school. he’s doing drugs, just weed at first but he’s always always high and he’s a big loner until he meets his Boys in 10th grade (: mikael ben and kylo. his parents divorce when he’s 15. he tries to convince himself he’s not gay and he gets with a girl but the ordeal is humiliating and she spreads the rumor that he was so bad at fingering her and touching her boobies that he must be Gay and so he retaliates by making photo copies of her nude pictures and spreading them. chris has questionable morality. you GOTTA know that about him.. he has problems and he can straight up not be a good person sometimes but overall he really is one and we be loving him or whatever. and he evens out in his 20′s and 30′s so it’s fine. HFSFSS but yeah! after awhile it’s sorta easy just to come out, and then he gets cocky and his gayness bleeds through everything he does. he starts dressing more effeminate again and he fucks around with a lotta guys and is really stupid about his recklessness. he gets into cocaine and gets so fucked up he doesn’t know who he’s banging half the time he just parties and is a big smelly butthead. and around the AIDS crisis no less… dumb ass. by some miracle he doesn’t catch anything or get anything so… this all happens, the worst of it anyway, when he’s 18 and stuff after he has this weird hook up relationship with Mikael his friend and our other OC hsdhbsd. and then he kinda just Takes himself off it after he bumps into Lewis again and goes through his withdrawals and smokes a ton of weed, i mean he’ll never quit that, its fine.

he loves to skateboard! he loves reading and writing. he aces his english classes and was in AP his whole life in that subject. he’s a big debater and critical thinker in those classes and the teachers love him and hate him for that. he writes in his journals constantly and he wants to be a writer someday.. he loves drag. he has a whole persona. her name is Crystal Balls. he’s really fuckin good at it too, he’s good at makeup and tucking and dressing up and caring for his wigs. he’s a big major faggot. he’s a top! even though everyone in the world does not think he is (: he’s a big top. and he can be masculine when he wants. he has masculine body language and a manly voice and he’s a big stoner skater but he can turn on that faggotry whenever he wants and its especially apparent in his Crystal persona. he plays piano and is very good at it (: he’s bipolar clinically but does not take meds (:  he self harms as a result of his polarizing emotions and his home life. he’s the horniest emo anyone will ever meet and legit is addicted to feel-good stuff and has a really addictive personality in general. so weed, food, sex, Lewis, etc. he’s really insecure and he thinks he is BUTT ugly but high key he’s the hottest OC either of us have like he’s just gorgeous that’s all there is to it. and he’ll go back and forth from Damn im fuckin hot to holy fuck i look like my dad i want to wear a ski mask everywhere. its mostly the latter though (: he hates his dad and hates that he looks so much like him. the only thing he likes about himself is his big dick and his legs that are straight up chick legs

here’s chris heh

Cody Glorymoon (mine), Lewis’  best friend, is 20 and she’s very pretty and she has delicate features but she’s big tomboy and works for her dad at the junkyard. she’s a ginger and she’s very tall and slim and she’s a little rough and cynical but she’s super soft and loving and smart.  and she cares for lewis so much that she’s a little in love with him at one point and it hurts her to be that way because she’s having her own sexuality and identity crisis and shes knows they can’t be together. she hates chris…because the girl chris used to date and spread her nudes was her sister and she’s extremely protective of her sister because they grew up very close and had traumatic experiences being put through frequent pageant shows and training as little girls? their mom was a piece of shit and eventually dumped them on their dad who previously was kept away from them. she also, in general, just doesn’t like chris and his personality. he’s a huge douche to her. until she softens for him in later years when she sees him a lot because he’s her best friend’s boyfriend. chris actually needs her help pretending to be his girlfriend in order to please his dad and keep him off his back so he can see lewis on the low… and she does it because she’s the only girl he knows that tolerates him enough and would do it for him and she comes over for dinner and other events hsdfjsdf its really funny watching chris pretend to like her. they grow closer this way and become real friends even though they always have this love/hate dynamic.

heres cody and cody giving lewis a smoochie 

here’s some gay and lesbian solidarity between chris and cody

Mikael Taylor (tristan’s) is 19 and one of the boys in Chris and Lewis’s friend group. He’s a foster kid who has really long hair and smokes too much weed because if he doesn’t his adhd gets the best of him. He and church have an on and off thing for quite a while until they break up and church moves away and gets with mason, although mikael is sort of crazy in love with church whether he likes to admit it or not, he’s always sorta waiting for him and mason to be Done even though it takes a long ass time, he really misses his opportunity with him the beginning. He likes to fuck and be with all kinds of different people, though, and commitment is definitely a fear of his (hence the on and off thing with church). He’s really sweet though and he loves lewis to death. Hes funny and outgoing and cool and Everyone likes him. Everyone. He’s got a cool septum piercing and one of those gum piercings right under the lip as well. He’s also huge gauged ears and he wears a beanie and hawaiian shirts with dad shorts and socks and sandals (which are like the only shoes he owns). He’s half native american and half caucasian, he sleeps a lot and he has a huge thing for milfs. (chris and ben’s moms especially)

mikael is 6′4, and pretty lean and has got some muscles. he’s got sharper features and he has green eyes and gross facial hair wispies

Benjamin Jacobs (tristan’s) is 19 and is another one of the boys from the friend group. He’s a big, heavy jock who really enjoys theatre and foootball. He’s from up north, so he has an accent thats quite strong and pretty cliche. He’s got pretty short blonde hair and freckles spread across his soft cheeks. He’s quite angry most of the time and he can be very loud, especially with chris whenever chris is being himself and annoying the shit out of him. He does have a temper but he tries his best to control it around lewis. Oh yeah and he also loves lewis a lot (: he lives in a really nice suburban neighborhood and his home is loudly occupied with his mother, dawn, who is your classic 80’s rhode island mom complete with the big poofy curls and the hoop earrings, and his two brothers and one sister. He has a man cave which is the entire home basement that he and the boys all hang out in 24/7, filled with beanbags a television, a pool table and a blow up doll named Patrisha that chris drew a penis on. Again, he hates chris. ALSO he’s in love with kylo’s sister named Leslies and he pines for her 24/7

ben is big chubby and blond, he’s 6′1 and hes so hot i think he’s so hot bro. he’s juicy he’s a thick quarterback with blue eyes

Kylo Cavillo (tristan’s) is the last member of the boys group. Kylo is a sweet Hispanic boy with vitiligo who has a hard time expressing himself. He’s very excitable and he falls in love with people very easily… he has this weird crush/obsession with chris that’s not talked about within the group much but it can be more than obvious at times even though he denies that he’s gay. He and lewis get along very well and he loves him a lot, they both were deprived of a lot of the modern things like certain tv shows and games and phrases and ways of doing things so they’re able to bond on that fact. Kylo lives at home with his mother and father, who is a big part of the Mystic Overhang Tiburón’s (a gang) and he owns their family restaurant called El Baño HHHDSF which kylo comes to take over himself when he’s older. He has three sisters and he is the youngest of all siblings, so he grew up with girls his entire life and definitely has some femininity to him. He’s very sweet and innocent, though, and means well with all his endeavors. He likes to grease his jet black hair back and wear gold chains with his baseball jerseys and blue jeans. OH he also has epileptic seizures and it’s very scary but mikael knows well how to deal and handle them when they happen because he has experience both with his foster siblings and kylo himself because mikael knew him the longest!

and here’s mister kylo, he is very small about 5′1 and skinny, he has big pretty expressive brown eyes and lil cute mustache and unibrow (:

#ocs #lewis #church #chris #mason #jo #abuse #self harm #drugs #cody #kylo #mikael #ben

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Show me love - Bakugou x reader

Words: 1588

 If I can have one request, please watch the music video first, this will give you whole new look on this story. 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DMg8LwfXdyc

Life with Bakugou Katsuki have never been easy. But what did you expect? He was working as a prohero, so it's normal to have a hard times, right? Right now you weren't sure.

 There’s a notebook on the table You can take it to the store So you won’t forget the groceries anymore

If someone asked you 10 years ago how you see your future, the answer would far away from your "reality". Why? You are in love with Bakugou Katsuki. He's not only number second prohero, right after Deku, but is... was your enemy back then in UA. The fist time you meet each other, on the entrance exam, your surroundings was literally set on fire. Who would except the two of you falling for each other? The difference between your characters was so big that once you get together people were so sceptics about it that they seems to set is as a mission to dissuade this relationship to the both of you. But why would you listen? Back then he was your light, the ray of sunshine in the dark night, a fresh air hundreds of feet under the water. His love, the love he was actually able to show you was your everything. And he, too, seems to feel the same about you. All of the passionate kisses you shares, all of the cuddles, all of the feeling that bloomed inside everytime you looked into his beautiful, beautiful crimson eyes. Was it all fake?

 There’s a rifle in the cabinet that I used to fight a war But to this day, I don’t know what I was fighting for I’m fighting for.

Cold, winter air cares your hair while small, wet snowflakes fall on your cheeks. Yes, winter was lovely, one of your favourite season. Sitting here all you could think about is the days when you've been walking hand in hand with love of your life among snowy, leafless trees. How he used to take handfull of snow and throw it at your head, creating a unique tiara. Even tho it was cold you melted everytime he told you how fucking beautiful you are, with damp hair and rosy cheeks. The moment when his orbs shine brightly after giving you a long kiss. Oh how much you love him. His spiky yet fluffy blond hair, his warm, big hands. The sweet smell of nitroglycerin that follows him everywhere and everytime. His sweet smile, even his attitude, that sometimes was unberable. You loved it all and whole. So why?

 Will you show me love as we get older And I’m falling at your feet After 30 years of service and one to fit our need.

Today he come back late, as usual. How long has it been since the last time he come back before 9 pm? How long has it been since the last time he coma back home and greet you with a smile, like you always do? How long has it been since the last time he actually showed you love? Do you really except this much from him? You've trying, you really did! You remembered to have warm dinner waiting for him, to have a bright smile, so could feel warm inside. But he was grumpier and grumpier with each day. You offered him your love, the warmth of your your body by spreading your arms each time you saw him. Sometimes he returned the hug, sometimes his didn't.

 Show me love as we grow colder Let our love provide the heat That our older bones are missing But our hearts will never meet.

"Katsuki, love, can we talk?", you voice pierced the silence, just like sharp knife.

"What d'ya want, (Y/N)?" He grumped back, just like always. "I dont want anything, Ka-chan, it's just.. it's just that we don't really talk lately.." you tried to sound calm, so he won't notice your sad expression. After all, you really dont want to make him worry.

"Don't you see i just came back? I'm tired as fuck, so leave me alone." And that was it, no spare looks, not even a glance. He just keep his eyes closed, laying on the sofa. But you are not going to give up on him, not after all you've been through together, right? Calm and silent, you tiptoed to the furniture he was laying on, lightly tapping his legs so he would allow you to sit.

"Katsuki, are you alright? As I said, lately we dont really see each other often." "And what did you expected? I'm a prohero, aren't I? I got lots of shit to do, so I can't lay around and do things that don't matter." Remember the oart about staying calm? Well, there it goes.

"But Ka-chan, it not a thing that doesn't matter, that pur relationship I am talking about!" "If u would care about our relationship you would just leave me the fuck alone!" He finally open his eyes, only to scream the last part. Then you saw it, the fire inside his crimson eyes. He doestn't joke, he just want to be alone. Slowly you stand up and walk away, whispering: "Sometimes I wonder if you still even love me." But surprisyngly, he heard you, and what is morem, he decided to give you an answer.

"Ye, sometimes i wonder, too." and this, this cut like a sharp knife too, but through your heart.

 There’s a blanket on the sofa that I used to keep you warm When I find you fast asleep at half past four There’s a record we keep turning that reminds us of our youth But there’s still nothing as beautiful as you.

You ran as fast as you could. So fast your lungs burns with a real fire and your muscles tears apart. But was there even a point in running? It's not like he would hunt after you, it's not that he'll even care. He wanted to be alone, right? So the last thinkg you can do for the love of your lofe is to give him the space he craves so much.

"I'm glad you said that. Now i at least know." You whispered while turning around and walked back to the kitchen and... And what? What now? Seting up your mind you decided to that theres no more place for "us". There are no more us. What is left are only two strangers that just happened to be in the same house. You set the mnicrowave on so the sound will muff your steps. Then, slowly you walked to the door, noticing him still on the couch, not giving a sinle fuck.  Turning toward the door you wiped one single tear while turning the knob. So that's it.

Was it stupid to come here? To a place where where your memories about him will always be alive?

 Will you show me love as we get older And I’m falling at your feet After 30 years of service and one to fit our need.

Suddenly you felt the warmth, and it definitely wasn't hypothermia. Turning around, you notice the crimson stare burning hole in your own (E/C) eyes. "We both are really dumb, aren't we?" Standing up you dumped the blanket he just put on you and started walking ahead, not giving him a spare glance.

For a while you didn't hear any sound, but could smell the choking smoke. Then a sudden boom and... boom, you were nailed to the ground.His hand on your wrists pinned dont by his hands. Turning your head slighty you could see clearly his face, stunning eyes that were wide open, his white teeth that were clenched, his fair skin and the small wrinkles he get from frowning so much. Even now he was frowning, just like he always do. But the expression his look corry was so different from the classical scowl, it was much sadder, more... heartbroken?  Then it hit you, literally. One single tear running down your face, just like before, with the only difference of it not being yours. Katsuki fucking Bakugou was crying.

"I'm such a dick, aren't I? You are always here, and that how i repay you. I'm sorry, (Y/N). I'm so fucking sorry." You wiggled your hands from his grip and rise them to his cheeks, now wet from both his tears and the snow.

"Indeed, you are a dick. The biggest dick i got a chance to meet." you smiled gently. "But i knew it from the start. I knew it the moment you opened your mouth the first time we meet. I knew it when people told me to forget about you, yet why, why no matter what you do I can't stop loving you?" On those words some more tears left his eyes. You wiped them with your thumb.

"I don't fucking deserve you."

"Yeah, I know." And with that, you kissed him.

 Show me love as we grow colder Let our love provide the heat That our older bones are missing But our hearts will never meet.

Life with Bakugou Katsuki have never been easy. But what did you expect? He was working as a prohero, so it's normal to have a hard times. What is important is to get through it, in right and wrong, thick and thin. To sacrifice oneself for the other. Together.

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pt 2 - james mcfarlane

NEW — weird song (2016) the reaper, put the beat on hold, bones dug up just like the sunflowers in the snow, now deeper into the river of sight, if you go in that cave dont turn out the light, white light shines bright, no stars tonight, behind the vox stack, their singin heart is black, subwayswhislting over my head, thank god i climbed aboard instead, reap what you sew 4x (coda) Heart is black ive been had (ive been had) ive gone mad (ive gone mad) ths is war, (this is war) i told you all this before i beg you, i want you too, write me back heart is black face the facts, art is black, heart is black face the facts, art is black, oohicant stay, (ooh icant stay) cant go your way, (cant go your way) i felt you sweet smack, Your smoke is black (smoke is black) i beg you, i want you too, write me back heart is black face the facts, art is black, Beautiful face she thinks shes alright, butshes out of sight, swim in for a bite, underneath the white light, thining of fashons, and still looking smashing appealing to fools, out of all kinds of schools, lo frequency base, mixed with the acid taste, no it couldnt compare, to your beautiful face. you left a hole in my chest, a better shot than the rest, do you have five minutes, for a warhol screen test, at dawn i see a star burning not lie the rest, cant help but sit and wonder where its going next 4x cant help but sit and wonder where shes going next 4x Blue Haired BelleBlue Haired Belle, hangs around the gates of hellMorning stars get lost, in the flow of your blue sky locksDon’t despair, you’ve been on a track please take care, Come fly with me, its your blue sky that’s pure dont you see. Its alright You, me , everybody,we, see, only moonbeams,comets not so high,eathquakes in the sky,lalalight n short in hight and , nananight and it’s alright,lalalight n short in hight and , nananight and it’s alright, You light the way, through tunnels, try not the scrape, the gunnels,on the right a cave in sight, it’s alright not this timeon the right a cave in sight, it’s alright not this timelalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala lalalalaooooaaaaooooaaaaaooooooooooaaaaooooaaaaaooooooooooaaaaooooaaaaaooooooooooaaaaooooaaaaaoooooo Main Street When you called me up hereIdidnt feel like walkin, Now your sayin to me,youdidnt feel like talkinwhy are we so clumsy,so clumsy with our breadnow you tell me honey, how you keep your stomach fed, always lending yourself out, to the freaks that dot our lives,honey when you gunna shout, at those drones in out beehive,take a walk uptown, to the bucket where they drown,gunna tell them when they get out,to get theiur handouts downtown MorningAt the dawn of a new age,Sun comes up, smell the burning sage,take a step foreward, turn the pagesay goodbye to all those dark dark days, MAking a brew I stare a the fire,stir the pot, and then connect the wires,turn on the amp, the music inspires,got to free my mind from all the cheats and all the liars. Morningdrone You, you know what I mean, when isay,that nothings gunna happen today,and you, you know what imean,wheni tell you it’s just not my scene, you, yeees you, what the hell are we gunnado?and you, the only one you listen to, is a man, by the name of, Lou. We, yeees us three, could make it at a defferentpace,I, know that, it’s a discrace, Lord, take us to another place, So grab your stuff, your record albums,you take the wine, and ill take the guns, and into the ocean, we will go, cause you know, were headed, for the coast,so raise up your glasses, for a toast,ha, which one of us can drink the most,the father, theson, or the holy ghost,and you say that this car can race,but can it take us to that other place, a different side of mother natures face. take me to another place. Nothing drones honey comes from lots of work, sticky feet moving berserkpatterns form in crude beauty, drones fulfill a pointless duty, honey drips, from the hive, golden jkelly feeds their wife, pretty flowers messy home, nothing drones on like the cone, back and forth, in and out, dancing like we use our mouths,the pay is small and so are you, results of that sweetens my tooth, the task is never ending, constantly descending, dripping in the mouths of those not worth defending. Oppenheimer park Rolling down the open road, to the end of the line,end of the world, end of the illusion of time,I go down to the water, and feel the cool surf,hear music in the air and take it for what it’s worth, cant understand why people, could live on so little,when so much goes through them, and through the needle, so hasty, with the selling of their saved souls,the western downtown is bright, blunt, and bold. Walk up and down throughout the day, out of your mind,think of your home nevermore, till the end of timethe loop drones on and on like a broken clock,don’t need to climb the montain, cause your at the top Hastngs is not coming for you, your coming for it,like hell it bewccons like the incline of a pit,the east side, sits a nd people come from near and far,to sit, and sink, into the grass, in oppenheimer park oracle so your torched,your hanging by a thread,don’t scorch, your pretty little head,wishing through your lips that it worntpass,feels like your turning from a liquid to a gas, take a trip right to the edge of your mind, consciousness poured out and left behind,take a break from all the flats and all the sharpd,ride a cloud of nothing, and numb your broken heart To thew edge of your mind, distortion blurrs the line bettweenwhats out there and whats inside, deep in the cave, breath in the cold air,see shadows on the wall,… stare bring news just like homing pigeon,come down, and start a new religion, leave now, and speak out, littereally or metephorical,the knowledge you posess will make you the oracle. Pipe Dream A science experiment gone totally wronga weather balloon with some kind of evil about it,all the kids at school could see it above the horizon,my friends and i knew we’d be better off without it, king kong, walked along high street, where the freaks and thugs call home,if he could reach this floating disaster on time,he knew he would never have to die alone,hethough about it and realised the people wouldntunderstandhe knew their alien nation would turn this ape into a man, darkened minds turn on a dime, revolve in time along thin white linesyin and yang drip from a wolfs fang, one pulls the trigger the other goes band why can we get to the meaningof this philosophy of feeling, how do we break the silence of the checkerboard of violence. Darkened fool has lots of toolsd, dead at the deep end of the pool, boring times and pouring rhyme, the question, is this really mine? why can we get to the meaningof this philosophy of feeling, how do we break the silence of the checkerboard of violence. Psych em out Psychem out like rabid vermin, make em shout a phony sermon,see right through their simple game,right to their core their thoughts of shame, watchem blow upon the fire, rocks explode right on the liar, social change brings end to war, housewife trembles on the floor,backwardsforewards, up and downvoisc encircle all aorund, observeprecieve hear see know learn mirror be, identify possible flaws, of the menace with no causethe time is now, so try to learn how to bend the rules they use to keep you down. Rabbit hole Salvage you mind while it is illuminated, a fire out of control,a cabbage in ttime, right now it is fumigated, wired and housing a soul,badhabbits in line, schedualed to be terminated, inspire you out of your hole, A rabbit , redefined and underrated but higher than ever before, drink up while the tea is hot and bright blue, the flesh of the gods makes it so,3 caps and some stems is all i can do, to see shooting stars upon the snow, think sweetly of me, with emotions so true as yu stand and look through the window,think of thinkgs to do when im gone for good now, waving at the bus watching it go, Im down in the southland, with deep curving valleys and bridges all rusty and crumbling, with grasses all dying and rivers of green and subways whistling under me. a spot on the corner , a 30 dollar gutar, a case and a cigarette too, is all that i need to get usedd to my home and bring my mind closer to you. The last of this song, is all out of place, but the pace rings true to the rule, of the verses before i shut tight the door on the patterns lost and misconstrewen,becauseits all backwards and forewards like this, its in shambles but its not a ruin,the end of this 4 verse song has arrived, to the point you might not clue in. Sea of lights Rockj and rave, through the night,on speed in a sea of lights,jump spin contort thrust,black white pain lust,spent a week there last might, maybe more,steal yourself a holy death crouching by the door cause we all live in sin but it makes music sound new, go out on a limb, and let the world surround you, we rave through the atonal thrusts and the booms,tonight the flowers of evil are in full bloom, Standing there all in white, she sings in the spotlight, in darkness and style, we strum all the whilestanding all in black behind the vox stack, from behind sunglasses, we inspire the masses, cause we all live in sin but it makes music sound new, go out on a limb, and let the world surround you, we rave through the atonal thrusts and the booms,tonight the flowers of evil are in full bloom, Walk and talk it through the park,whiplashgirlchild in the darkrun run run, take a drag shoot your speed while you brag i’ve been orchestrating behind sunglasses,immitatingprodogy, and writer, man, tomboy and a throusand fans zeppelin spotlights on my brain exploding plastic in my veinhypnotyic tones as the propellers drone,mind bending sounds, resonate undreground, dak circles never weed, new york 1963, Chcmysic, velvet freak desensitize alter tweak, no money car moon or sun, sell your blood for heroin,if she ever comes now now, moe beat on that drum now now,pink perfume, mantra neumes silk screen factory tunes superstar test only the best wine coffee speed heroin rest,darkcircl;es never weep, new yourk 1963,theyve been up for weeks, in the white light the tweak, in 63 Skeleton Here we are again, moneys all been spent, you don’t know where hesbeen,hes trying to fend off things that dwell within, hes a skeleton. at the end of days hes been here before he says, narrow in mannyways,hes a skeleton,andidont know where hesgoin, or why he thinks itssnowin, he can see the wind thatsblowin, hes a skeleton, Spotlight Reap what you sew,snakes and poppys in her hair,sun flowers in the snow,make you look like your not so old,it had been so long i could not recall her face,she came outside to meet me though iwas’t her case,nowi sit and wonder if I’m out of place,the memories i had of her, are in outer space Standing all in white, she sings in the spotlight, in darkness and style, we strum all the while,on the odd days I could talk to her,harmony and dissonence, a modern venus in furs,up and down that hallway, rotating the earth,waiting there for hours and hours, for her the quench my thirst. Sweet grass summertime,see the star shine, and i don’t mind revisiting those times,although my mind is blown, i play the drone,saying goodbye while you’re getting stoned. Vicious lips oooooo what to do,iwanna see you too,i think imgoin mad, ooooim not that sad noooi wonder sometimes where you are,what moon what planet under what star,id like to think your not that far, but we both know that trip was hard your vicious lips, eard on the airwaves, waking the dead, from their graves,your sweet, but your toxic, been three weeks since you dropped itI found it in my pocket, your trains comin I cant stop it You Made Me the reaper, put the beat on hold, turns to dust when they turn to dope,promises, he couldntkeep,to save a life, only three feet deep,you’re my catalyst, myonliness, decemberbaby,im the creep you made me,you’re my catalyst, myonliness, decemberbaby,im the creep you made me,the reaper, put the beat on hold, turns to dust when they turn to dope,promises, he couldntkeep,to save a life, only three feet deep,you’re my catalyst, myonliness, decemberbaby,im the creep you made me, Come Back Around JAMES MCFARLANE·FRIDAY, MAY 13, 201610 Reads The process as a whole is always a learning experience like no other. Ultimately, like the brain has a recognition and physical atribute that corresponds with most chemicals in nature (possibly even synthetic chemicals) the psychological functions that a person can aquire are almostordaned and recieved in a timely fashion by the organ and im assuming the subconscious effortlessly and for evolutionary purpose. So I will assume everyones own, (however existential), growth experience is interesting. Having the atribute of spiking and deminishing of at least two of the brains most important chemicals related to experience, and behavior… and the awareness of the (most obvious to you) potential for not only chemical related occurances and their ripple effect, but the behavioral methods that the acute brain, manic brain, almost has a natural function to excercise and use usually either for a better survival or further expansion into astonishing existential and soon to be investigated parapsychological, social behaviors that tend to stick as long as they serve in a new type evolutionary (ie “Counter intuative”, productive and humanistic beavior that the mind eagerly draws in like an antennae recieving and storing up valueable energy. Setting this agenda and also surviving the early episodes, of bipolar, (which are usually the most drastic) are two hurdles to get over, let alone the crude, almost sickening archetectural features in our community hospitals, thats purpose cannot be desguised as heathcare to the human eye. A grossly overused assortment of bondage equipment and isolation chambers (not to mention your absence of any dignifying articles of clothing( also to be moved and set in place on occasion) nowadays plate glass walls, a whole dungeon setup designed by those people involved no less, who really probably care wheather the colour they chose or how their design would function better than the decaying sweat soaked ultimately in our home towns case, my favorite case, dried blood stained, apparenty approved for use by some dr, a single hallway, to alk up and down seemingly endlessly, untill not suprisedby the inevitable dread code white, that is the delight for the predominantly, …listen t me… dominated, by your average practicing as ferociously as they can with as little effort as possible, sociopath and more importantly to re ognise, violent violators psychopaths, who pretymch have the real pl working there stressin over what could possibly be these ppls capabilities, and are alienated inside by this evil thay cannot risk their ,,, virtully anything valuable, like a job or who knows, omg… thats why she left,,,,, so, yaa, these ppl rise like cream, annnnnd they have a really good time eeeehm, .. now nurse practitioners or legends, thir former dominator look like theyve aged, well lets say i was convinced they had beeen using prolongued use on heavy stimulents, like crack. iloldrewaout a blueprint with symboldsfr the patient advocate, neaysi mostly wantd to write and its alot of shit thats gone no doubt as home with ,,,lets say u know like fat cat. what, i was 15, and he was fat then, now hes the last one standing up there that i know of. oh yea… so i would say if u want out, and as of late i thing the design is perfect for the right ppl, socios included, fuckers, but, the dr, they are jst as careless as the security guards who cant hide haw stupid the really are and the odd couple who are revealing that their ok, still, idicovered, ,, maybe not in north bay, but in a proper community, like the city, ………..lost my train,,,, i think that i was getting at how just to be fair and …eyea 50 percent of the staff endowd with the ability to weildstrapps, and are encouraged by their no doubt under educated superiors, to always have the wrist ready to be broken if, now this brings me back,,,, they chokeyou, than comes the bondage that betty page would think is very unatractive, idk,,, the thing is,,, ya the drs, oh waut,, ok…. 1/3 of all of them are,,,, exculding the drs, and the janitors, who if ihaventdiscosedya are always there to pile up on a code white, and i know,, listen to me, no janitor ive met would grab my ass so hard on such a numerous a pile up, i have eyes in theback f my head,,,,,,, italalot,,,,,,, ppl that work so hard tp climb so not that far up the ladder in society, yes, sum of them are costume rocking witchcrftprodiges, who, will, 1 take the whole bunch of guys .. it may have been the forensic unit,,, this little thing is known by ,ppl, ive talked to about the psych who are inderectyl told by their others who work it, and ave stories about the oddity of us. iduno,, alot went down, but,, boring s yea she walks me throught e bysantine conduit iup to the floor, and the police have to walk somewhere behind to uncuff me and ta da, , y o iwanna bring up corporeal action when the best times,,, due to the conditios of bondage uuuuuuuuuuh were strictly through plate glass,,,,, ie. rare appearenced that are pretty much the only way. i really was bloody fucking thirsty 8percent and i mea ya,, when i was younngti chewed up braaaaan and drank my watttaaeer, and drew peace sighnsandd 7 days laterrrrr, after she sumhow managed to get an earbud into my head screaming for any colour you like by pink floyd, and playd the fungsonhggg, badassss. straight jacket. prolly day 4,,,,, i still think cough syrop is good for teenagerswhatver,,m took me to the top. ok… to get offf, the ward do as such; by Ultimately drawin on to no apparent end in crayons complete with nicotine gum (smokes,, the only freedom, not yet a right, that is so hard to get,,,,, and i learned to smoke in side the scarborough general hospitol,,, that room soon became the chamber, i would be locked in, for manny weeks, at different times,, thats where alot also hapened, is where the nude bondage asianfemaldr, ..whati mean i s theatwwhatwuldlou reed say… they never forgave us for nagasaki.,,, newaysive never spent more time in a i also a what appears to be and have bben told by assdocter of the north bay pstychwhi took to court at the hospitol and he got yelled at by a panel while my dad defended him and i ate cookies cus ii was really manic,,,, i also was 15 1/2… he later let me try and commit suicide,, thats a story of a different colour,, sounds like sprockets, idk,, idontwafe war with very real religiossympomatic shat, iuuuuuhm , so,,,, hereswahat krb8tujvcklwelbutrin.,,, ya, it istaken orally it shoul get right to work in three ad a half weeks, if suicidal,,,,, pray, oooir if u cant get dxedrine,, or sum speed beane drink a bottle of childrensgeapecoughsyrup once a day,,,, this acts as a seritonin reuptake inhibitor of a differrentcolour. 2 to 4 hours,,,iu get the mental stimulation,, it reall is a mellow buzz butttttyupppidecare fuck cough syrop…… dexedrineisnt out there and i know it couould really bbe used and they aslso do,, ie. jfk, addisons disease, dexedrine/anphetamine. so,, it will make y0ur 90 year old great aunt we all frogot about over in blind river get up from the abyss of alzheimers and dementia and sing thins is the day that the lord hath made,, ,but with real and concious interaction,,, without memory of course. however,,, she does that,,, did that anyway , but,,, im sure every month not every day,, at least one trial of … iuffingadhd adults can take it,,, why cant she. smeared into the grate of every window and the classy bubble rooom which actually was made with enough pride according to the regionnsid say, to have an even more, almost funny, and certainly battered scratched and spat on bubble for the head psychiatrist t poke his head into every few days. Lets not froget how that scene ended. like my father and grandfather before me who conditioned and alterred the correctiona institutions for fifty fife years now a conmfortablevacatin for psychopaths and whoever, not even the hole could stand up to point blank restraints naked, with your flimsy gown around your chest. at least in the bubble room there was lots of privacy, u know, to each institution their own, glass , bubble blood stained, probably 60 years of ppl that somehow said something that attracted the attention of their nurse, who no doubt vollynteered after printing your file which is most likely epic thick, there is no room for any of their creative stylings in that no, i did just smash the wall into pieces and ya all the insulatin is everywhere, high five and respect from my cute transference mistress, (and a couple others.)

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5am thoughts: theory: Story Of Light

is it called the Story of Light because its Shinee telling us and the whole entire world that they will no longer grief in sadness and that they've moved on and accepted what has happened? I'm sure we all know Shinee may still be sad (and maybe more than that) but what if this whole album is telling us that shinee, that all the members, Minho, Onew, Key, and Taemin are ready to have a new beginning? Like, they're ready to let all the sadness go and accept what has happened and that they will continue to work and grow.

What if You&I was about them talking about Jonghyun? Like, what if this song is about them trying to talk to Jonghyun? And theyre all trying to tell him that its hard when he's gone like they dont know what to do. "I’m the only one hurting, I may look fine I’m not easy, my feelings aren’t for decoration" And like they're all reminiscing their memories with him. All those good times that they're not ready to let go of. "A handful of memories, I laugh and remember every day" (okay the lyrics arent in order but JJJJust lemme finish and fyi, its gonna be a lOoong one). "There are countless stars in my heart, there’s one star that shines painfully I don’t want to grab it but I don’t want it to go out" okay in this part i think they maybe talking about Jonghyun. Maybe the stars represent people and "theres one star that shines painfully" might be Jonghyun. A star... someone really special to them... is hurting deep inside. Maybe Shinee is trying to tell us that although a celebrity or ANY person in general who may seem happy in front of the cameras or may seem happy in the outside in general is actually in deep pain inside. Dealing with self doubt, depression and all that and we just dont know :( "The things I can’t throw away make me smile" this is kinda self explanatory. Jonghyun, someone they love, someone they deeply cherish, someone they can't simply just let go of, someone who can always make them smile. You know? "I know that you’re being honest when you wish me well I’ll let you go easy, don’t think that you’re stepping on me" this is kinda hard to explain haha ahm.. maybe as time passes by, Jonghyun's absence is telling them to let go and move on and maybe they're mad with what he did? I DONT KNOW I DONT MEAN IT LIKE THAT! like mad, like?? how do i explain?? like maybe frustrated?? thats the best word i can think of right now riwjkrs they're frustrated but theyre not gonna blame it on him. like the good friends and brothers they are they will let it go easily.. UGH do i make sense? anyway. "I’ve let myself go to the wind and the rain that’s falling cooly But my feelings aren’t for decoration" okay so this is the part theyve told themselves that they really need yo accept what has happened. and maybe "my feelings arent for decoration" means that whatever they are feeling and whatever they are going through shouldnt be joked about in social media since its a serious matter and well ive seen some haters and some "new kpop fans" talk shit about this issue and honestly 😤 it makes me want to slap a bitch

Anyway

next song > UNDERCOVER

so the lyrics:

"I’m paddling my feet as busily underneath the surface with a calm expression on my face, You don’t know"

have u seen swans? how they paddle their legs under the water to move but above the water they seem so calm? like ballerinas, how their arms and body are always so graceful but their legs do all the work and stuff ¿¿?? okay im comparing the lyrics to swans and ballerinas because what if the boys are trying to tell us Jonghyun's situation and maybe also their's and other people who is suffering the same way? We don't always know what happens when we turn around. We don't always know when they're hurting. It's actually pretty easy to lie and fake a smile now a days so we always have to be careful with our loved ones. we dont always know what they're dealing with and one wrong move can cause a bomb to explode.

"Before the curtains rise, I’m always busy but when I’m standing before you I’m Acting cool"

Maybe theyre telling us that behind the scenes, theyre also suffering with personal or family issues. like every other person, celebrities have problems that they deal with too. they also have feelings. maybe on stage theyre smiling and having so much fun but backstage, theyre suffering? they cant breathe, they're overworked, theyre tired. sometimes they're forced to do things. Honestly for me, the kpop industry is so pressuring. you have to be this or that and if you cant you get criticized for it.

"I can’t let you know the things that are secretly happening now, now is not the time. I wait for the right moment, so that when you’ve realized it it’s too late."

Obviously most idols worry about their fans. Theyre worried when theyre fans are worried. its like a family thing we idol and fans have for each other yknow and maybe thats why sometimes they cant always speak up about whats really going on inside their mind. They cant always talk about it to the public bc sometimes people are so rude and so insensitive and leave comments like, "youre not depressed! youre just overthinking" bullshit, barbara. "you just need to hang out more" hMMmM :// ANYWAY thats why they dont really speak up alot. sometimes they cant even go to a psychiatrist privately because the media is always watching and once its on display, BOOm haters here and there talking bs and obviously WE wouldnt realize unless its TOO LATE!

"Like a black shadow is absorbed into the night, the night I dig deep beyond the consciousness, inside of you I’m Undercover"

I dont know how to begin with this.. its like once theyve hit rock bottom and they feel like nothing is gonna get better amd everything is just dark and gloomy. Maybe this is like the moving on part?? like the beginning of moving on. the depressive episode. And at first theyre just trying to hide everything. Just being undercover.

WAIT OMG OKAY SO MAYBE UNDERCOVER BEFORE YOU&I

so they got depressed over what happened and theyre trying to hide from everybody that theyre okay but theyre not and theyre just undercover. in you&i thats when they start reminiscing about jonghyun and talking to him. telling him they miss him and that for him, they're ready to accept and let go.

OKOK SO THE NEXT SONGS ARE WHEN THEY START BEING POSITIVE AGAIN !! YES GO SHINEE !! OUR STRONG KINGS !!!

so i dont really know the sequence i mean its already fucked up in the beginning so lets just go with whatever !!!

So in GOODEVENING!

"The cozy darkness is lingering far away"

so the 'darkness' or those gloomy days and toxic vibes theyve been surrounding themselves has been slwoly disappearing. they're starting to feel a little better again. <3

"At the tip of the sunset that hangs on the buildings I think of you"

i cant explain this one and note: i havent slept and its 6am but im still trying to make this work. but i think fjksjfks ok sunsets means like the day is "ending" and like before the day ends, they remember their sufferings while they were depressed and all those sad times with Jonghyun, like those times of grief.. they remember it all before starting a new day ¿¿ I DONT KNOW im trying my best to explain it. Its like theyre finally accepting what has happened and is ready to start a new happy day

"Spill out the darkness

Open the night

I wanna see you more, right now, oh"

So the sunsets and the night has come and theyve already accepted whats happend but they want to see Jonghyun in a different light. They want to see their bestfriend and brother as someone who was happy and made others happy. They want to remember Jonghyun as someone who made his parents and everyone around him proud.

"The moonlight is rising

I’m going to you before it’s too late

I’m going to get you

Imagining how surprised you’ll be, I’m going to you

Going to you

Going to you

Without a reason, going to you"

okay this part is like giving someone a hug before they leave for their flight. Like even when hes gone hes not alone and shinee is not alone. like theyre always together. theyll always be together. "imagining how surprised you will be" nrkanfks im thinkg on how to write thus part wo sounding sarcastic. knowing what jonghyun has been through, he might have thought that he was and always will be alone... but the members are there to guide him in his travel to heaven with their prayers and theyre all hoping to surprise him ¿¿ AAAA im sorry if this sounds sarcastic or offensive i REALLY didnt mean it to be that way >·<

literally,for me anway, the whole song is about how theyll always be there for each other. even when the other is far away, it will never stop them from what they are doing. and thats why i love Shinee so much💓

In jump im not gonna add a lot of lyrics since im getting lazier. (lmao you can see my effort fading from you&i until here)

in Jump the song is about them trying to put their pieces together again. They've been broken and torn apart but they're ready to pick theirselves up again.

"I shake my head, brush it off and adjust my heart

I solidly protect my space again"

no one can recover quickly so i guess in this part, they're trying to take things slow. not too fast or anything or else they might make a wrong move and fall back to square one.

"Keep on enduring it

Just close my eyes when it feels futile for no reason"

in this part, theyre still not that strong enough so theyre telling themselves that they should just endure the pain or sadness. if it feels impossible, just close your eyes, believe and trust in yourself. theyve made it this far, why should they quit now?

"Higher, rise higher, fly

There’s the ground beneath your feet

When I travel between the two

Oh yes I feel the freedom

I jump on you, jump on you"

when they finally overcome the fear and sadness and EVERYTHING! they feel the weight lift from their shoulders and finally they feel freedom. overjoyed, they celebrate by jumping¿¿ i guess?? lmAO

"I’m not falling

I’m not wilting

It’s just changes

I turn different

And keep going forward"

this is when they realize that: nothing is going bad. everything is going just fine and everything is great. maybe they havent fully recovered yet but all those depression and pain is finally gone and theyre happy. They're different now and they realize they can finally keep moving forward without feeling to fall back down again.

"Why is that hard Why did I hesitate for such a long time Following my heart away From other people’s eyes I free the feet that were bound I let my imagination loose after a long time The wind is blowing Now I open my eyes and breathe in"

the first 2 lines is probably them asking themsleves, why didnt we do this earlier? they finally followed what their heart wanted instead of being trapped in their own mind and they finally can breathe again. they feel free and loose. they dont feel the heavy chains hanging on their shoulder anymore !

Now I can open my eyes and breathe in.

this is honestly a HUGE step for them. and im so proud?? ugh..

last song: All Day All Night

"All the moments I met you were highlight I don’t regret it, it’s just beautiful"

Theyre remembering Jonghyun more with their happy memories. How his existence highlighted mostly everything in their past. Jonghyun was such a big part of their lives and even if he was gone, they were still happy that he was able to be part of their lives and they were thankful to be a part of his.

"I start to see the world differently Yeah it’s all for you Time starts to emit a light Yeah it’s all for you Our very painful tears The joy that fills ourh hearts All for you, all for you, all for you"

Theyre doing all these wonderful things all for Jonghyun and maybe also for us too and for themselves. "Time starts to emit light" its pretty self explanatory. theyre beginning to see things in a positive way again !! So all of this, this is all for Jonghyun.

"Leave it alone, hold me and my painful scars All of it is the control"

theyre telling us to maybe accept it and move on too. To move on with them. We're all in this together and everything is in control.

So YAAS thats my theory or whatever you call it for SHINEEs album. I really do think the message hidden behind this album is deep and amazing and VERY important. I'm glad SHINEE is able to see things in a new light. Let's just keep loving and supporting them, okay??! So that's it.

The Story Of Light.

The End.

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[the-firebird69]

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