#all these emotions I've written about and now im suddenly like

[haeryna]

OH MY GOD BAEEEE

i literally love your satosugu fic so much IM SCREAMING LIKE UGHH ITS SO GOOD AJDJWJS

like im not over exaggerating it hurts so good like i swear you know how to hit us hard 😭

i love your writing style and the way that we can feel the characters emotions (or maybe thats just me being sensitive..? IM JOKING BAE) like i can imagine how hurt reader is by satosugu leaving her and how mad satosugu are at themselves for leaving her too LIKE UGHHHH

and readers thoughts are completely valid because satosugu left without explanation, basically deserting her and then suddenly they come back?? like i’d be so hurt and mad that they’re back BUT ALSOO when she got called princess? i feel like part of her just wanted to cave especially when she was being held like that but then the other part of her was fighting, reminding herself how badly she was hurt LIKE OH MY GOD YOU ARE SO GOOD AT THIS I LOVE YOUR WRITING AAAA

and for satosugu their reason for leaving and not contacting was also completely valid !! i love that we get to see how much they miss reader and how upset they were that they left but also their reason for leaving? literally GUT WRENCHING. Yes they love reader as much as they love each other but they had to get out of there for their own safety and it just hurts so good 😭 AND THE WAY THAT THEY STILL LOVE HER TOO IT HURTS SO GOOD LIKE WHAT THE FUCK WHY ARE YOU SO GOOD AT WRITING IT MAKES ME SOB— okay but really the way that they never stopped loving her shows how much they truly loved her in the first place because even though reader thinks she means nothing to them she was the only person that they could ever love the way they love each other, oh my god and when they find out she never left and how she’s been alone for the past 5 years i can’t even imagine the guilt and hurt they felt. i can’t even when Suguru finds her letters like the pain he must’ve felt? The way he slowly saw through the letters as the girl they left behind changed, BUT THE WAY THAT THEY WILL NEVER LOVE HER ANY LESS. Also when Satoru notices how reader has changed physically like i just KNOW he wanted to burst into tears, seeing the people you love so frail and vulnerable is a pain that you can never forget so imagining how Satoru felt coming back after years only to find her looking like that must’ve been so painful for him. DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THE PART WHERE HE SAYS HOW HE FORGOT WHAT IT FELT LIKE TO BE WITH HER LIKE OH MY GOD STOP IT RIGHT NOW. Like even though reader doesn’t even want to be in the same room as him he can’t help but feel alive because she’s just always had that affect on him like oh my god i literally want to bawl. Okay but also Suguru writing all of his songs for her 😭 I can’t help but wonder if he still has the guitar she thrifted for him? Also the part about Satoru’s makeup artist? “She’ll never do it like you” IM ACTUALLY SOBBING.

I love the way you write so much, it’s so real and has so much emotion. As a theater kid this entire fic is so good for character analysis like I LOVE analyzing characters and the way you write them just makes it even more fun ! I love the way that each character is actually complex and how their emotions feel real LIEK OH YMGNDODQJDHJWNS

(omg i didn’t realize how like jumbled up this all is im so sorry 😭)

I can’t wait for more to be revealed about their relationship! take your time writing the next chapter 💗

ANON PLEASE I WANT TO PUT YOU IN A LITTLE JAR WITH A BOW AND KEEP YOU SAFE YOU'RE SO SWEET AND KIND AND I LOVE YOU !! let's get married. rn. but PLEASE i was sitting here squealing and kicking my feet and looking at this ask every five minutes...i'm so glad you love it :') it makes me feel so happy that you feel like i've written them to a depth that you feel like you can analyze them!!

just for you bae, some little snippets that may or may not get woven into the main story: (suggestive but not explicit!!)

suguru keeps the old guitar you thrifted him. he actually bought a special case for it, so that even with all the damage, it'll still remain strong. there's a metaphor in that, he thinks, in the way that he'll only bring it out when he's writing a song that's meant for you. they're all meant for you, so he finds himself bringing it out constantly. he refuses to try the demos that the studio sends over, of metal and rock, because it feels cheap and artificial.

satoru keeps you and his lockscreen. it's a photo of you and suguru standing together, backs towards the camera. suguru is mid-laugh, and your eyes are shining. sukuna used to give him shit for it, until choso stepped in, recognizing the wistful love in satoru's eyes every time he'd see it.

the first time they were intimate together in their shitty apartment somewhere in seoul, suguru calls out your name. satoru says nothing of it. in turn, suguru pretends not to notice when satoru calls for you in his sleep.

kenji is dissatisfied. in a small town like yours, classmates have paired up left and right. you were meant for him, he believed. but now that satoru and suguru are back, and you're about to leave, he'd rather clip your wings than let them have you. if he can't have you, then he'd rather let you take the fall.

shoko is bemused, in a sad sort of way. she knows she can't interfere. that, and her girlfriend hates satoru with a burning passion, so she doesn't want to start any fires there.

(utahime will never forgive how satoru had made fun of her when she'd taken a particularly nasty fall during a dance practice. they weren't even in the same industry for god's sake. utahime does not care.)

you're exhausted. money is thin. you've given up on your dreams of a musical career. the notebooks of sheet music and lyrics lay aimlessly on your floor. you pretend like you realize the bleakness of your life. in reality, when you can't sleep, you find yourself scribbling words and melodies.

satoru and suguru tried, once. to replace you. to find someone else. they couldn't even seriously stomach the idea before they gave up and went back to pathetically looking at old photos of you. one of the first things they got when they made it big was a professional album done of all the photos they had of you.

(shoko laughed until she cried when she heard about it, before smacking satosugu and telling them to "go talk to her and do something about it, dumbasses.")

ALSO DO NOT APOLOGIZE FOR THE RAMBLE!! i adored it and i hope to see you around nonnie, take care of yourself <33 i hope my other fics will be able to allow you to analyze the characters as well; the next chapter will be a doozy considering how badly i want to make it realistic but there's a lot of thought that goes into that hnghh. i hope you have a lovely day/night bby!!

#strawberry picking🍓⋆𐙚₊˚⊹♡ #idol!satoru gojo #rockstar!suguru geto #literally shaking in my chair #you like my writing??? #you like me??? #omfg !! kisses you

[httpjeonlicious]

✨ 💖 my favorite jungkook ffs 💖 ✨

—> the ones i’m recommending are definitely worth reading!! I’ve read these more than TWICE and i’m still obsessed 😌 --> ALL OF THESE FICS ARE 18+ MINORS DO NOT INTERACT --> show love and appreciation to the authors

—> if y’all have any recs lmk 😭

-_- i have to much free time -_- ─── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ───── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ───── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ───── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ─────── [key] ✿ - fluff ✮ - smut ⚡︎ - angst

1999 | jjk (m) by tattookoo ✿ ✮ ⚡︎ (childhood neighbors to friends to lovers)

summary: the year was 1999. boybands were wearing all-white outfits, everybody wanted an ibook or a tamagotchi, tlc didn’t want no scrubs, fight club was playing in movie theaters and you became jeon jungkook’s fake girlfriend in order to fix his reputation.

2002 | jjk (m) by tattookoo ✿ ✮ ⚡︎ (est relationship au)

summary: the year was 2002. kelly clarkson won the first season of american idol, mtv had everybody glued to their tvs, von dutch was the brand, people were total losers if they didn’t quote shrek or harry potter and you broke the distance with your pro athlete boyfriend, jungkook.

related drabbles -> may 18 | tiny

my note:

i highly recommend reading 1999 (and the related drabbles) this story is in my top 10. i've probably read the story like 4 times now... (im not even joking). both jk and y/n have a special place in my heart. i absolutely adore all the characters in the story. its so well written *chefs kiss* i truly hope you enjoy it like i did ♡ YALL I CANNOT FIND THIS FIC ANYMORE. IF U KNOW WHAT HAPPENED PLEASE LMK 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

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next couple of recommendations are mostly gonna be from @thvhoe because i love all her stories so much. all these stories are amazing, creative, stunning, all of the above.... they literally are the definition of chefs kiss 🤌🏻 bon appetit b1tch3s ♡♡♡ :) send her love and kisses &lt;;/3

Fight Or Flight|jjk (m) ✿ ✮ by thvhoe (best friends brother)

summary: You want to disappear and sink into the ground—we're talking code red. As a result of the horrible events of accidentally sending your nudes to your best friend's brother, your life appears to change drastically. Beautiful, arrogant, and quickly developing into a star fighter—many factors should prevent you from falling for Jeon Jungkook. For years, you've kept your feelings for him a secret. Yet, ever since he has seen you in your underwear, it can become difficult to conceal your emotions when you see him practically daily.

Our Not So Secret Secret|jjk (m) ✿ ✮ by thvhoe (college AU)

summary: When someone learns that Jungkook has been secretly keeping a puppy in his room despite not being allowed to, he turns to ask the only other person who knows about his secret for help. And suddenly you two—who had long been bitter enemies—get very close. (i re-read this story at least twice a month this is literally amazing. highly recommend this one!!!!!)

IN THE SEOM MASTERPOST|jjk (m) ✿ ✮ ⚡︎ by thvhoe (college AU)

summary: Always the friend, never the girlfriend. Jeon Jungkook doesn't date. At least that's what he thought until he met you, a chemistry student who seemed to have it all—except for love. Meeting at a mutual friends frat party, you hit it off right away. However, due to both of your stubbornness, it has never progressed beyond being friends with benefits. The annual camping trip with your friend group was supposed to be the turning point in your relationship with Jungkook. But what happens when your best friend of 18 years unexpectedly comes back from Busan and confesses to you, further complicating matters?

MUSCLE PIG|jjk (m) ✮ by thvhoe

summary: Your winter blues lead you to join a gym, where you encounter a person you'd prefer to avoid. However, because the odds are never in your favor, you wind up running into him. Eventually, one thing leads to another, and...

THE LAW OF ATTRACTION MINI SERIES| jjk (m) ✿ ✮ ⚡︎ by thvhoe (Lawyer Millionaire Jungkook x Student apprentice Reader)

summary: Being the most prominent attorney in South Korea, Jeon Jungkook enjoys the fame, wealth, and marriage that go along with it. Although Jungkook realizes that he may have taken life too quickly and needs to slow down a bit, he finds solace in the daughter of his Boss.

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CHAPTER 2

CHAPTER 3

CHAPTER 4

Don't Blame Me|jjk (m) ✿ ✮ ⚡︎ by thvhoe (Neighbours to lovers AU)

summary: Jungkook is known for his good looks and is often described by your friends as "daddy material." Funny enough, he actually was a daddy. The daddy of the baby girl you babysit every Saturday. Working as a nanny for the world's grumpiest single dad should have been easy, but you can't keep your eyes off him. He's handsome, a little arrogant, with broad shoulders and strong tattooed arms. And when he decides he can't keep his hands off of you. Who are you to resist?

SPICY 'N SWEET MASTERPOST|jjk (m) ✿ ✮ ⚡︎ by thvhoe (Boxer Jungkook x shy ballerina Reader)

my note: im currently reading this mini series and let me tell u, this is so good. idk if its bc its boxer jk x ballerina y/n BUT ITS SOO GOOD. this is currently an ongoing series but its definitely worth the wait

summary: Jeon Jungkook is the perfect guy… to piss off your parents. He’s buff, inked up and the definition of their worst nightmare but hey, when love comes knocking on your door there’s not much you can do. It’s not like you planned on falling for him… it just kind of happened, and honestly, you're not even mad about it. Not at all.

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#bts #jeon jungkook #jungkook #bts jungkook #jungkook fluff #jungkook x reader #drabble #idol! jk x reader #jungkook angst #jungkook fanfic #jungkook masterlist #bts fanfic #my recs

[sublimecatgalaxy]

hi! im going to actually send this request in. i’ve typed in like 10 of them but i’ve been too anxious to actually hit “ask” LMAO

request: john murphy but any character is fine, fluff/angst, one bed trope, (20) “why do u feel the need to specify we’re just friends?”

I'm so sorry for not replying for so long, shit has been h e c t i c.

But here! I hope you like it, I've never written anything for John before but he does have a soft spot in my heart.

When John and I realized that there was no getting out of the lighthouse, we both went through a variety of emotions- including all five stages of grief. And where I struggled with bargaining and depression, he was nothing but angry for the first few days.

I understand that it's possibly the worst situation we ever could've gotten ourselves into and curiosity definitely killed the cat in this situation. We weren't mentally prepared to be stuck together for an unforeseeable amount of time but, at least in my eyes, he wasn't the worst person to be trapped with.

But as a week or two passed, we both realized that we weren't getting out and we just kind of settled. We ate and slept in our own areas of the bunker, we talked occasionally but we really didn't go out of our way to have conversations regarding our situation or the outside world.

You'd never believe us if we told you we've been friends for years because right now, we can't be any closer than strangers.

"Hey." My head whips around from my solitaire match to see him standing above me, a bashful smile on his lips as he shoves his hands into his pockets. "Can't sleep?"

"Me? Sleep- no." I huff, reaching up to rub my eyes tiredly, a yawn leaving me as I fall back onto the couch. He stands over me, leaning into the couch as his eyes flicker over me, his lips tugging down into a small frown.

"Anythin' you, uh, need to talk about? Get off your chest?" His offer makes me weary, my brows pulling together in confusion with a sarcastic scoff.

"So now you wanna talk?" His eyes roll at my jest but it makes me angry that he's suddenly cooperative after so long of just dealing with my presence. He sneaks around the slide of the couch, sitting down on the arm rest as he gives me a small shrug.

"No, I want you to sleep." He mutters, looking down at his hands as I blink dumbly at him. "Startin' to worry about you. You've been up the last few nights too." I know he's right, I haven't slept in days and there's no reason why. Maybe it's because I can hear John screaming every night from the nightmares that are flashing through his mind, maybe it's because I want nothing more than to reach out to him, to offer comfort.

Or maybe it's because I'm trapped with him.

"I just haven't been very comfortable-"

"Then take the bed-"

"No because if I take the bed, you're going to be all grumpy. God forbid you don't get your beauty sleep." I huff but instead of getting angry, he laughs loudly and tosses his arms up in the air.

"Oh my go- shut up, take the bed, share it with me. I don't care. You need to sleep." He chuckles, reaching forward to grab my hands in his, pulling me off of the couch and up. I look up at him with a tilted look, squinting my eyes at him as his eyes shift back and forth between mine.

"You wanna share the bed?" I ask simply, but his offer makes my chest feel a bit lighter and my overall sense of fear lessen a bit. The thought of curling up beside him, talking to him, feeling close to him like we used to be- it sounds comforting which is something we both need.

"You act like you haven't thought about it." He flirts, sending me a wink as he pulls me back towards the bedroom, swaying our arms in between us as I snort.

"Shut it, Murphy." He grins wickedly, his tired eyes softening as he looks over his shoulder at the bed and he cradles the back of my head and pushes me past him gently. "I'm taking the right side, don't argue and don't touch me." I shove him out of the way with a loud giggle, tossing myself down onto the bed as it coddles my sore, tense muscles.

"You got it." He smiles, pulling his shirt over his head as he flicks off the lights, just in time to shield the flustered look on my face, my eyes immediately averting from him.

He slips down next to me with a relieved sigh, not bothering to give me another look as he slips under the blankets and it takes me a moment to follow him, slipping timidly beneath the sheets. I curl up onto my side without another word, cradling my knees to my chest as John shifts behind me.

I feel his presence behind me, his back only inches from me but then I feel his hand move beneath the blankets and rest on my waist. He scoots towards me, close enough for me to feel his breath on the back of my neck.

"You're touching me." I mutter, craning my neck to look back at him as a small smile stretches across his lips, his hair falling in his face.

"I know." He whispers, his head bobbing in a nod as his chin moves to rest on my shoulder. "Do you want me to stop?" He asks, brows furrowing in confusion as his hand lifts tentatively from my side but I just move back into him.

"No thank you." He relaxes against me, the weight of his chest against me making my heart rate calm and spinning thoughts slow a bit. For the first time in weeks, I actually begin to feel sleepy, my heavy and sore eyes finally shutting as he whispers.

"We're friends, Y/n. Coulda just told me you needed me." He hums, soothing his hand up the expanse of my waist, down to my hip.

“Why do you feel the need to specify we’re just friends?” I ask, slowly flipping around in my spot to look at him, my hands instinctively reaching out to rest on his chest, drawing circles on his pale skin.

"Well then what are we?" He asks with a small smirk on his lips and I can't fight the smile that takes over my expression, my eyes bashfully flickering away from him.

"I don't know- more than that, I think." I mumble nervously, my eyes fluttering shut as he laughs and tugs me into his chest.

"Yeah? Well, looks like we've got plenty of time together to figure that shit out."

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#john #john x reader #john murphy #john murphy x reader #the 100 #the 100 fic

[csprslvt]

you and i, and her. pt.12

Chapter 11

Summary: It takes almost losing Ellie for reader to learn how to love, but Ellie was okay with that, as long as you stayed with her.

Warnings: Fluff, lovey dovey bullshit, swearing and foul language. A chapter that is easy on the heart before shit goes down. Reader once again, doesn't deserve Ellie. But she loves you anyways.

You clung to Ellie until you were embarrassed and let go. But she seemed to enjoy your display of affection, she hesitated when you unraveled your arms from around her neck. You parted but her hands were still around your waist until they awkwardly pulled away from you entirely.

“So you really were bitten?”

“A long time ago. When I was like 14, It healed and scarred and I covered it up.”

You looked down at Ellies tattooed arm, reaching out and gently grabbing it, tracing the ink. She let you. It was like she wanted every touch from you that she could possibly get. Now, while the two of you sat in a comfortable quiet you really wanted to tell her everything. Tell her about the WLF, about Abby, about the locket you still wore, about how sorry you were that you had chosen someone else who left you over Ellie who had only supported you. You didn't deserve Ellie. You wanted to hide in her arms and apologize over and over. You felt so guilty it was eating you up inside.  

“Ellie”

“Hm?”

“I'm sorry” you mumbled, fingers tracing her tattoo, you looked down at it. Eye contact was suddenly difficult. But Ellie wasn't having that, she grabbed your chin and tilted you up to look at her. The concern in her eyes melted your soul entirely

“What are you sorry for?”

“Ellie, I'm not a good person.” 

She was holding you with both of her hands now stroking your cheeks, your own arm fell into your lap.

“What do you mean y/n? You're my best friend.” 

Oh the tone in her voice, so full of love made you want to cry.

“I've done some horrible things all because I was stuck on someone but I don't wanna be stuck on her anymore… I want to be a better person, and I want to be a good person.”

“Y/n you are a good person.” Ellie was confused, where was this certain outburst coming from?

“Ellie, you make me want to be better.” you whispered, “ I just want you. I just wanna be with you” 

“Do you mean that?”

The look you gave her was so genuine she felt like she was crumbling, all her walls of defense being knocked down just for you.

 She didn't need words after that, instead she pulled you closer, she hesitated before her gaze fluttered down to your lips. She leaned in and she kissed you. In that moment everything bad and evil fell away. It was just so full of Ellie,her slightly rough hands holding you softly, her scent of clean laundry and gunpowder replacing the overwhelming sensation of pine that you once held close to your heart, the feeling of warmth spreading everywhere she touched. Wrapping your arms around her neck, you have never kissed anyone so desperately, so passionately so full of emotion and vulnerability. As if to communicate through showing affection. Every bit of love and care you had was put into that kiss and when she pulled away you were both breathless.

But when Ellie mistook the dazed look in your eyes with regret and she panicked.

“Im sorry, oh my god, Im-”

“Shhh, shut up.” You told her before kissing her again. This time it was gentle, careful, and sweet. You pulled away, foreheads touching, brushing her hair behind her ear.

“I've wanted to do that for a long time, I just didn't realize that you wanted it too.” Ellie said with a happy, relaxed expression

“I didn't know I wanted to until you did it.”  

“I didn't expect to make a move.”

“I know, your a total loser who can hardly talk to girls”

“Only pretty girls, like you”

You wrinkled your nose in disgust, “Ellie, that was a horrible attempt at flirting.”

She chuckled, kissing your wrinkled nose. “ Well I tried”

“Don't do it again.”

“Okay y/n” 

She was so happy, it was written all over her face. You made her happy. You could only hope it would stay that way at least for now you could enjoy a little extra time with her before it all fell apart. Right now you shoved those thoughts away, you were so full of Ellie. She made herself a  home inside your heart without even realizing it. You needed her, you wanted her. And she felt the same way about you.

You explored the theater, moving hand in hand. Hers rubbing little movements into your knuckles.Sometimes she would take your entwined fingers and kiss the back of your hand. She was so entirely adoring of you. And that fact made your heart soar. 

Ellie, Ellie, Ellie. 

She appeared in every corner of your mind, and it took almost thinking you'd lose her to see it. But she took you over like some sort of lovesick disease that could not be stopped. So you took a deep breath and let it happen. You let yourself love her. And you let yourself let go of any and all hesitation. You were grateful to your first love for all her lessons and trials and tribulations but it was time to move on. And maybe if you did, Ellie would still want you at the end of this.

Walking into a large room with a big screen Ellie took you onto the stage. You grabbed her hands and set them on your waist, resting yours on her shoulders. You already knew what she was up to;

“I was gonna say, may I have this dance, but you beat me too it” She grinned

“I knew what you were thinking pulling me up here”

It was a sweet moment, it was nice to leave every worry behind and sway with Ellie to non existent music. It made your mind so empty, only able to look and admire her. You leaned close to her and she held you, breathing you in and letting her own hands wander your back, rubbing your shoulders. She was just so caring, it showed in every touch, every look, every stare. It was impossible not to fall for someone like that.

“Y/n?”

“Yes?”

“Promise me you'll stay with me.”

Without hesitation, you answered.

“I promise.”

“I've lost everyone I have ever loved, but I can't lose you. Stay with me”

“I'm with you as long as you want me.”

“I would never not want you.”

You could only hope that was true.

“Then you don't have to worry about me.”

Ellie let go of all her tension and simply held you. You said you wouldn't go anywhere and she believes you. That was enough for her. 

Eventually you pulled a part and went back to focus on the plan. The plan you dreaded so deeply. This entire time you worried about how this would end. You didn't know if you could stomach having the love of your present kill the one of your past. But you would have to hope that Ellie would leave this delusion that avenging Joel would make her happy. It wouldn't. Only healing could save her.

You gathered all your supplies and spread it out. Taking note of what was running low. Ellie was still doting on you, she was mystified. Totally taken with you. She was careful with your things and sat close enough that your knees brushed together, one of her hands rested on her thigh while you spoke.

“Where do we go from here?”

“Honestly I'm not sure, I heard something about Hillcrest…”

Ellie took out her map and pointed,

“This is where the TV station was…” she pointed and crossed out several areas on the map, places you had been.

“They have numerous locations.” her fingered circled Hillcrest, “There are some here I need to take care of.”

“Then we go tomorrow?”

“We go tomorrow”

“I will be ready as long as you are” You'd told her, she smiled

“Thank you y/n.”

“Always”

No matter what, you would always want Ellie, always be there waiting even when she ultimately didn't want you anymore. If only you had known, how soon that would really be.

#ellie tlou2 #angst #ellie x reader #gaming #the last of us 2 #abby x reader #eventual smut #abby anderson #fem reader #ellie williams #fluff

[hrts4hanniehae]

Kpop Self Insert Oc || Act I

i've written out a lot of this oc thing for a while now so i'll post them in parts LOL. like a refresher btwn clutch chpters cuz im still struggling to figure out how to do group chats...

3 Apr 2022 - Dreamscapes Album Release!

Oneiria is on a talk show 1 hour before the release of the album. 

Interviewer~ Are you all excited? This is your first full album!

Soyeon~ We are. We’ve all worked very hard for this moment.

Interviewer~ Okay, Astra, please tell me about the concept of this album.

Jisoo~ Truthfully, this album wasn’t planned to be released so soon. So the concept is a musical journey through the spontaneous creativity of the members and me, the producer, capturing moments of inspiration and turning them into beautiful songs. It’s an artistic expression of the creative process and the ability to release music that touches the heart without needing a specific reason. 

Interviewer~ So the production was spontaneous?

Jisoo~ Yeah, pretty much.

Interviewer~ Alright. Tell me about the individual tracks!

Jiho~ The title track “Divine” is a song that dives into the awestruck emotions of looking at something you made that has succeeded. In our case, “Oneriophilia”

Soyeon~ We also have our first Chinese track “云”, meaning Cloud. I think it’s a new fact to our fans, but Jisoo and I are Half-Chinese. My Chinese name is Jin Yumei and Jisoo’s is Jin Wei.

Interviewer~ Wow! That’s something new we’ve learnt today! Viewers, get ready. The 5-minute countdown begins now.

10 Apr 2022 - Minseok’s 18th birthday!

19 Apr 2022 - Dreamscapes, Seoul Concert Incident

The incident happens as Soyeon begins singing the chorus of “Echoes”.  

Soyeon~ Seoroege daheul ttaekkaji. Nega isseo naneun nal chaja.

Suddenly an unknown object is thrown at her head. 

Soyeon~ EGh-choes in the night, we’re taking flight. Jeonopi nalaga. Binnaneun sesangeuro, dudeundudeun simjang ttwieo. [Continues dancing as if nothing happened] 

The crowd looks around for the culprit but can’t find her. Blood trickles down her forehead, staining her white costume.

The performance carries on and when the song ends, Soyeon excuses herself from the stage and the group takes an intermission. 

10 Minutes later, the other three members return without Soyeon and continue the performances after they tell the crowd that Soyeon will be going to the hospital.

Pledis Entertainment’s Official Statement

Subject: Incident at Oneiria's Concert and Kim Soyeon's Health Update

Dear Oneiria Fans and the General Public,

We would like to address an unfortunate incident that occurred during one of Oneiria's recent concerts, “Dreamscapes”. We are deeply saddened to inform you that, during this event, a hard object was thrown at our beloved artist, Kim Soyeon, resulting in a severe injury. As a result of this incident, Kim Soyeon received four stitches on her forehead, and we would like to inform you that the object missed her eye by a mere 2 millimetres.

We want to stress our utmost concern for the well-being and safety of our artists, including Kim Soyeon. We condemn any behaviour that puts the safety and health of our idols in jeopardy. It is our top priority to create a safe and secure environment for both our artists and their fans during performances and events.

As a response to this incident, we have decided to take the following actions:

Increased Security Measures: We will be enhancing security measures at all future concerts and events, ensuring that the safety of our artists and fans is of the highest priority.

Cancellation of Upcoming Fan Meets: Out of genuine concern for the safety of our idols, we have made the difficult decision to cancel all upcoming fan meet events. We understand the importance of fan interactions, but our artists' well-being must be safeguarded.

Cooperation with Authorities: We are fully cooperating with the local authorities in their investigations of this incident. We urge anyone who may have video footage or information related to the incident to contact us by email at [Email Address]. Your assistance is crucial in helping us determine the responsible party.

We firmly believe that such behaviour not only jeopardizes the health and safety of our artists but also goes against the principles of respect and support that our artists and their fans stand for.

Pledis Entertainment is deeply committed to the safety and well-being of our artists, and we will take all necessary measures to prevent such incidents from happening in the future. We thank you for your understanding and continued support.

Sincerely,

Pledis Entertainment

12-19 May 2022 - Seoul-Gangnam Fansign Event

Oneiria’s first fan sign! All who paid to go to the fan sign were given limited edition photobooks and PCs.

Soyeon~ I’d like to thank everyone who came to this event. You mean the world to us. For everyone asking about my injury, it’s healing up nicely and the doctors said there wouldn’t be scarring. 

Jisoo~ Let’s begin the fan sign!!

Fans gave many gifts to the various members of Oneiria, including headbands and accessories. One fan even gave them all matching “Oneiria” themed phone chams which Oneiria immediately put onto their phones. Then there was one iconic gift that birthed the most popular Jiho photo ever. A fan had given him a cat ear headband which he wore throughout the fan sign. At one point, he began to feel tired and scrunched up his nose as he yawned to prevent opening his mouth.

The camera took photos and the picture went viral, boosting Oneiria’s popularity even further. 

Jiho became known as the golden cat of K-pop.

5 June 2022 - Dino and Soyeon’s interviews

This happened a month after the Event Performance. (5 June 2022)

Interviewer~ Welcome, everyone! We have two incredibly talented idols here today, Dino from Seventeen and Soyeon from Oneiria. How does it feel to be here together for an interview?

Dino~ Thanks for having us! It’s exciting to be here with Soyeon.

Soyeon~ It’s a great opportunity to connect with our fans.

Interviewer~ You’re both known for your incredible talents, but not many people are aware of your newfound close friendship. How did you two first meet?

Dino~ Well… it was actually at a music show backstage a while back. I saw Soyeon-ah and was a bit starstruck because I admire her work so much. Her raw vocal abilities are rare.

Soyeon~ Yeah, we had a short conversation, and it turned out we shared some interests and hobbies. So, we exchanged contact information, and our friendship grew from there. It helped that we were from the same company too.

Interviewer~ That’s wonderful! It’s always great when artists can connect on a personal level. Are there any memorable moments you’d like to share from your time together so far?

Dino~ We’ve had some great late-night conversations about music and life. Soyeon is not just an amazing artist but also a great person to talk to.

Soyeon~ I remember one time when Dino came to our practice studio. He showed me some dance moves and taught me a bit about choreography. It was a fun experience.

Dino~ I just happened to be passing by and saw Oneiria learning one of our choreographies, so I decided to join in.

Twitter blew up.

A lot of Star Sailors and Carats began to speculate that the two were falling in love. Increasingly so when an unedited clip of Dino and Soyeon backstage was leaked. At this time they were not together, nor had they had the previous interview. 

Interviewer~ Now that we’ve heard about Soyeon’s admiration for Seventeen and especially Dino, I’d like to know more about your first meeting. How did it happen?

Soyeon~ Well, it was at one of our music show appearances. Seventeen was there, and we were all backstage. I couldn’t believe my eyes when I saw Dino-oppa just a few feet away.

Jisoo~ She was practically glowing.

Soyeon~ Jisoo. I went up to Dino and introduced myself. He was so friendly and welcoming. We talked for a bit, and then I asked if I could call him “oppa.” To be less formal, of course.

Minseok~ [Nudging Soyeon] She was starstruck, like in all those K-dramas.

Interviewer~ It’s wonderful to see such a supportive atmosphere in the K-pop community!

Separately… 

Dino~ [Grinning] I remember that moment. It was nice meeting Soyeon-ah and the Oneiria members. They're so talented, and it's an honour to have fellow artists look up to us. So, of course, I said yes to being called “oppa.” In all honesty, being the maknae of my group, I’d forgotten what it was like to be called “hyung” or “Oppa”

Interviewer~ We’ve heard about the heartwarming moment when Soyeon started calling Dino “Oppa.” Now, let’s talk about the playful side. So, Dino, how did your fellow Seventeen members react when they heard about it?

Dino~ They couldn’t let it slide.

Mingyu~ Yeah, we started copying how Chan said, “Soyeon-ah.”

Seungkwan~ It became a thing for a while.

Jeonghan~ I think I even heard some “Soyeon-ah” echoes in the dorm.

Dino~ It’s cruel…

Wonwoo~ [Smirking] It was all in good fun. We couldn’t resist joining in.

DK~ [Joining in the playful mood] It became a running joke. Even our managers joined in!

Hoshi~ [Teasing relentlessly] Chan, maybe we should all start calling you “Dino-oppa.”

The8~ [With a mischievous smile] Dino-oppa, let's try it for real.

Jeonghan~ [Teasing] It’s all in good spirits, Dino-ya.

Scoups~ [Smirking] We’re just keeping you humble.

Dino~ [Amused] You guys are impossible, you know that?

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#kpop oc #oc #kpop x oc #svt x oc #svt oc #dino x oc

[reilliane]

I really love your Tyranny series. I thought that it would be different from other villain series that there would be no one she will end up with because she would die at one of the person who serves her. Like Alatus, Diluc, or Kazuha. A realistic ending and not a love-hate idealistic forced romance upon those mentioned.

I thought that maybe it's because she's a tyrant, even if she's really pretty HAHAHAHAH. She committed crimes, killed bystanders where she ordered Kazuha to do it as he's her dog at this point, though he can do nothing about it. Nor I can feel his emotions after those killings hence why I cannot understand her stand in his heart even though he wants to know her more other than his innocent curiosity.

And as you know, Alatus. His morals and pride would never allow himself to fall for her. I think that a person who values his pride is not an easy one to bend. He's honorable and the romance between them, is uh, I think kinda forced?

Lastly, Diluc, he's being forced to a marriage though our Queen has a reason. It's kinda sus if he gradually fall for someone who's trying to keep him beside her for amusement. Like a kidnapped person falling for a kidnapper.

I can understand if Childe and the Queen had some small romance and talk, but still not her end-game as she keeps scowling at him (and yes I vote for him).

But other than that, I don't know why I feel this way. Or I am getting a deja vu feeling after they made Raiden from an Archon Villainess to her first Story Quest which is basically a dating sim that it disappointed me greatly.

But other than those, I think that the Queen really did great at managing her kingdom. Just that I felt that those romance are forced as she is someone who would no need anyone by her side but pawns to discard. Yes, I think of her very highly as a character who's a tyrant.

I still really like it and would still read it though no matter what the ending(s) are.

I feel like I've committed a crime by telling this as I forgot that you write x reader stories. You can disregard this message. BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Oh dear oh dear ~ I'm actually quite glad you approached me on this! I like that you're attuned to their personalities.

I'm assuming you're relatively new and so, wasn't there when I initially talked about Tyranny and the ending it would get.

Because I completely understand! I thought of the story, after all, and thought of the relationships really well. Ain't no way I'm about to shove "love MC GRRR" down their throats, nono :")

Cauuuuse, yes with the way Tyranny!MC is written it really screams 'I NEED NO MAN!' other than as source of leisure 🥴

NOW BUCKLE UP ITS TIME TO READ AN IN DEPTH- THING! This is long, and will be a pleasant read for those who want to know more about MC/LIs.

And MC's complicated reign. In general. As well as my writing... in general KSHDAJKHDSA

This ask is just too good to pass up!

I have a TLDR utc, but there's a looooong, long message too-

TL;DR: Trust me, the plot is nowhere near the half of the whole. There are plenty of stuff to go through, plenty to reveal (boy im still excited for that) and that includes proper development! Tyranny is a fic where morality is the center of conflict. I don't intend, for example, Alatus/Diluc (who loathes MC) to fall for her so suddenly. As a fanfic writer I strive to write the characters accordingly! There is no 'kiss kiss fall in love mwAH!' especially in the Tyranny universe. It may be difficult to see it for now, but trust me when I say that the endings will be realistic. There's one true ending for the conclusion of the fic. True, in this case meaning it is the canon ending, and separate bonus endings (aka the 'routes', think of this as an alternate world where Tyranny is a world of mercy) for the characters.

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Now of course, even if this is a fanfiction and may not be as realistic as, well, reality (lol) I still aim to reflect realism when it comes to a character's emotions.

I can go ham with plots and twists but I take emotions and relationships seriously. No kissing on the first date! lmao

You'd see that in Fleur too. Fleur!MC is all 'marry me!' and flirty, but nothing ever happens from 0 to 100. So far it's only Fleur!Kazuha who has expressed interest in a date aside from Venti (hello roommate??/j)

Aether? Maybe. Xiao? Zero.

(Of course, that's Fleur as in the fic, not the arts and comics/omake that are set up as comedic/'harem' on purpose)

Happens too in my SMITE book! It has a sub genre of romance but in the 70+ chapters that there are, nothing vastly romantic has ever happened because? Smite!MC has no time for it.

NOW back onto Tyranny-

If you read the genres listed for it (tyranny) in the 'Observatory' there's no romance at all; it's angst, action, fluff. I take labels/genres to heart. That mirrors into the narrative itself.

Romance is just a smol bonus, a sub genre if you will. It's unlisted because it's not a priority. (Whereas if you look at 'Absconder', there's a romance tag because it includes AbyssPrince!Aether & he's regarded as MC's lover)

Surely you've noticed that, despite the LIs being LIs (really, in the first place there only are 'LIs' because as you said, I'm an 'x reader' writer :D), there aren't any solid, blooming relationships with MC at all aside from what is already present.

Which is resigned fealty.

Kazuha is merely following MC's orders and so are Alatus/Xingqiu/Bennett. They're doing only the absolute bare minimum.

(Well, Kazuha has a more intricate reason- still, there are no mentions about him ever feeling something akin to love. Just pity.)

No one ever smiles around her, either, only Albedo/Childe/Zhongli (he barely even does), who were more linked with her when she still wasn't a Queen.

Heck even Diluc only humors this because his life is literally aligned with hers and he plans to break that.

They loathe MC to the core (Alatus/Diluc).

And the others aside from Childe are on neutral grounds (well Xingqiu hates her too lol) for reasons.

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1. Murder of the og royal family and villagers who were the cause of her siblings' death aside, MC is one heck of a complicated Queen.

The aristocrats she sent to the gallows were corrupt thieves/traitors who'd leak info about the Crown to other Kingdoms, and the criminals she hung were those who don't deserve a second chance. Really, the only time she spilled red out of her own leisure was that time with the villagers.. Not like that's good either.

She liked sending criminals to the gallows and the only time it was stopped was when Zhongli returned to take over the seat of Justiciar (judge) in the court.

2. She leads Khemia well. It's been mentioned that Khemia has prospered even more and military power has upped after she became Queen. Even the Knights are paid well.

The bit about 'being unfriendly' with other nations (note: Kuni, etc) is a problem long before she was even crowned. Yet, trade is good.

She lets the kingdom's traditions continue, aka the festivals. She just doesn't participate in them aside for a few. Yknow, 'eh go do whatever but dont rope me in it'.

It's also been stated that she holds audiences! Literally anyone can be granted, though its a rarity since they're afraid of her ahfjajcja

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Such are the reasons. They're extreme and immoral, blown out of proportion. She's not the most merciful, but still she does things for the Kingdom.

Other casualties done by Childe are those who are a threat to her. A normal thing for a sovereign, assassination.

Xingqiu dislikes Albedo for aiding Rhine and MC in their quest to take the throne, but could tolerate him well enough because the reality is that, again, murder aside- it's no joke that Khemia has advanced.

It's also been stated in Conqueror that Kuni and Khemia are on thin ice (on the verge of probable war) yet MC is not initiating nor provoking the former. In fact, she went to Kuni (Queen's Retinue) to allay the bad blood between the two Kingdoms and even graciously welcomed Scaramouche when he came to her.

It's what stunned all the most; the nobles in house Khemia took their seats (Duke/Queen) seriously.

I don't condone MC's acts, but these reasons are just one of the many as to why several are torn with her as a ruler. Yes, she's such a wicked person, but she doesn't do things without basis.

Remember that time when she came to a public event instead of Albedo and was, to the surprise/fear of the public, amicable with the children.

Complicated thoughts from LIs are shown in their voicelines 'About the Queen'. I could go on and on about this but this will get too long lmao.

Fluster? Embarrassment? All those they only show when MC does something that warrants it (e.g. flirt), because it's a natural reaction.

Lmao when Alatus gets flustered because of her he absolutely HATES IT AJDJAJCJAJX like seriously, I don't think there ever is a Tyranny short with Alatus as an appearing character that doesn't include at least one mention where he goes 'UGH I HATE THE QUEEN SMMMM' or 'how long am i supposed to put up with this' 😆

And Kazuha. It's been implied that he knew of her way before she became Queen, knew way more.

He does not tolerate MC's actions (no one does- except for Childe HDJAJFWI) but does them because he intends to find something out. And the only way to do that was to stick by her side.

In most of Alatus/Diluc's POVs he thinks of her as a monster. Kazuha didn't even know that MC could weep until he saw her tearing up ('The Queen was much more human than he thought').

It's quite literally, only Childe/Scara/Zhongli who are interested at MC to some degree.

So do you see it dear? Albeit LIs, there is zero romance at all (again... Except for Childe AAAAAA) because it's impossible for it to grow D:

Now onto the endings ! I've mentioned it in my rambles that are now lost in the masses lol but I'll repeat it no matter how many times.

Tyranny will have one ending at first, the true ending, a realistic one that concludes the fic.

But, as you said it, I'm an 'x reader' writer, so there will still be a second ending (say an alternative, a merciful one) that branches off eventually to routes with specific LIs.

But even then! It's not a whole 'fall in love' route because it's.. insane lol, pacing where -?

And even then, again, romance will not be forced :') I assure you to trust me on this one~

In all of my ficlets where romance is the main focus, nothing wholly romantic happens especially when the characters have just met. Just the occasional tension and the flirting.

Unless of course, it's a pre-established relationship!

With what is presently released for Tyranny now, the concept of having 'romance endings' for the LIs may come off as forced. But, Tyranny is yet to reach half the whole plot, there are many things to uncover.

And whilst those are uncovered, so will the unraveling and development of how the LIs think of MC. It's a whole journey!

An agonizing slow burn. IT'LL BE A SHUCKING HIT IN THE HEART I PROMISE REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE-

Also.. I've hinted that Tyranny.. well, even with that aside, if you know my way of writing in general, nothing really ends happily :)

Those who stand at the pinnacles are the ones who fall the hardest... hehe (resumes evil cackling)

Anyway.... :') yes, just trust me dear JDSHAJDASHJKDHAK

ps. OMG A CHILDE LOVER! He's rejoicing rn, fr frfrfrfr-

#moonlitchat #m-tyranny #a very long ramble asjdhajsdhas

[siswritesyanderes]

i dont know how you can make characters such as phineas flynn and edmund pevensie appealing to read about but you done did. i have to wonder though, what made you suddenly up and think "yk who would make a great yandere? a ginger triangle from a disney cartoon who gets up to silly hijinks with his stepbrother. am i a great writer? yes. yes i am." (im not trying to make fun of you its just such a wild thought that you managed to make work so well and i also needed to make a phineas and ferb joke)

Lol, thank you!

Yeah, I am right there with you about how strange it is. I think part of it is that Phineas is a character I liked a lot when I was younger (Though not a cartoon crush, in the vein of Zuko...probably on account of him being a triangle. 😁 I just liked him a lot.), but also one I consider a little eerie. Like, he's almost unwaveringly cheerful and positive, he's pretty universally well-liked, and the universe he occupies actively contrives for things to work out for him. (I believe Milo Murphy's Law even made it canon that Phineas and Ferb have quantifiable good luck.)

The cheerfulness thing I find fascinating because it kind of plays with expectations for cheerful characters? In a way? Like, he has the vibe of a character who would be written as happy-stupid, but he's objectively brilliant, he's fully aware of other people's motivations (I remember that when I was younger there was a point where I thought Phineas just didn't know Candace was trying to bust him and Ferb, but he explicitly did know, and he just didn't mind or care), and his general happiness, to my recollection, isn't ever used as a means in which other characters walk all over him. The other characters admire and respect him. And then, of course, there's the occasions where he does get angry, which I'm not fully going into right now, but just the fact that he has a full range of emotions but overwhelmingly leans happy, positive, optimistic, confident, etc. suggests a complex inner world, to me.

And since I enjoy yandere characters, it was a short walk for me to go from "This character's behavior and his influence on the world around him intrigue me" to "So, if he were obsessed with somebody, how would that manifest?" Basically, almost any character I find suitably interesting, I've thought of as a yandere. I just don't always follow that train of thought all the way to writing about it, because the outcome isn't always interesting enough to justify the mortifying ordeal of being outwardly the kind of person who would make this character yandere, lol.

#phineas and ferb #yandere phineas flynn #positive feedback

[buckttommy]

YES RYAN GUZMAN QUEER THEORY

okay so eddie and ryan have very similar backstories right? both from texas, seem to have been raised with a very clear (slightly toxic) idea of what “masculinity” is. (if this doesn’t make sense i can expand but i don’t think you want that whole rant) they were raised in a fair intolerable environment (meaning the time they were born/grew up and where they were) as far as men exploring their sexuality went (again- this is definitely making generalizations, but stick with me, and i’m technically not wrong given the timeline of societal progression). so ryan has always seemed to value his masculinity and leans into it more than eddie, because eddie has been written in such a way that he can acknowledge and identify the toxicity of the masculinity that he was raised by, and he doesn’t want chris to have that (something something eddie’s handling of generational trauma makes me wanna cry). so eddie, in a way, is like a slightly more enlightened ryan and i wonder if that’s affected ryan. now- the queer part. eddie, i believe, had his gay realization/acceptance largely because he met buck, and it’s been such a magical (albeit not canonically acknowledged) part of his development as he’s grown to let himself love buck in a deeper, realer, more apparent way. (note: ryan totally had a boy crush on oliver and i do not blame him) so portraying this sort of queer journey has to have at least some impact on ryan, in my opinion. if he is queer, i wonder if playing eddie is helping him accept it or just making him want to repress harder.

i hope that makes sense im sleep deprived and have like a grand total of two functioning braincells

OK I see this and several points have been made, specifically about the Buck/Oliver of it all and the emotional/psychological impact playing a character in the midst of such an emotional queer awakening must have. BUT at the same time, I raise you that I don't actually think Ryan is all that stereotypically toxically masculine !! Based on the... *handwaving* FEW times I've gone through every single post on his instagram, 2015-2017 is very much Ryan in his Random Guy Suddenly Becomes Famous, Wow How Cool Is This phase, but 2017 is when he really starts to like mellow out and become more of an Adult about it. He's introspective and really starts to actually, like, consider what kind of human being he wants to be. Also, he's a mama's boy who paints and writes poetry which does not scream aggressive toxic masculinity to me !!!

Anyway, he only went full gym bro after The Incident (which, if we want to delve into full crack conspiracy theory I believe , was kind of a way to create distance between self vs image but i DIGRESS). In fact, I think it's more likely that Ryan influences Eddie's trajectory rather than the other way around, like, not in the sense that he has an abundant sense of creative control because he doesn't, but in the sense that Ryan digs inside currently existing parts of himself in order to play certain nuances to Eddie Diaz because he's already previously walked those paths before rather than the other way around.

I honestly don't know if this makes sense but this is where we're at on ryanguzmaan dot tumblr dot com tonight !

EDIT: wait ok ii retcon most of this after watchign this interview queer theory anon i think you are Onto Something

#QUEER THEORY ANON I HOPE YOU'RE STILL AROUND #I HAD TO GO TO THE STORE LMAO #jack answers mail

[zooone]

yeah go ahead! ive been reading fanfiction for a while, but I've only written like 5 fics so far and they're all not too good lol

-plant

OKOK!!!;! thank you!! ahsksbdkfndmdnsm i love talking about this kinda stuff

—so, first of all, dont use all caps in dialogue to show shouting or yelling. it makes it look unprofessional and not good to look at. the only time ive done this is during blurbs bc i dont pay attention on the details necessarily, i only care about the story, thats why theyre v short. instead, show that a character is ecstatic or angry instead of using all caps

ex - "WILBUR GET BACK HERE!!!"

better ex - "Wilbur! Get back here!" Y/N shouted, throwing their hand up into the air to show their anger as they chased the tall man from across the field.

essentially, showing the characters emotions through their actions instead more than their words. it really helps both the reader imagine the situation and creates the flow and mood.

—another similar thing to this is italicizing too many things in dialogue. especially in arguments.

ex - "I just can't stand you, anymore, Y/N! It's like you're a completely different person compared to when I first met you. I can't even get a single moment to myself anymore!" Wilbur shouted.

now, dont get me wrong, italicizing things to show emphasis is good! but its when you overuse it is when it isnt.

better ex - "I just can't stand you, anymore, Y/N!" Wilbur screamed, balling his hands up into fists. His voice shook with emotion as he continued to yell, his words echoing off the walls. "It's- It's like you're a completely different person compared to when I first met you!"

Wilbur's face scrunched up in anger. His shoulders tensed up as he continued once more to cry. "It's like I can't get a single moment to myself anymore!"

as you can see, its much longer because i tried to show that he was hurt with his actions, not italicizing his words!! this is a really really good thing to look at when you need to show emotion!

—another huge thing is to just not use all of those y/f/c or y/f/f or whatever they stand for, yknow? it just gets really confusing to understand and it doesnt look pretty. give y/n a personality whilst also making them relatable, if that makes sense.

—and also, this should be a given, but just know proper grammar. its so difficult to read a fic that looks like it was made by a literal 9 year old, and it just looks really unprofessional.

—im guilty of this one and im trying to get better, but make the paragraphs look pretty! not as in with colours or something, but with word choice. if you pull yourself away and squint at the screen and the words are repetitive, it probably wont roll lf the tongue well.

ex - You sighed. You stumbled into your chair, you were careful to not cause too much noise. You heard a slight screech of the chair against your floorboards. You clicked the mouse a ton. You made sure to have your headphones plugged into your pc.

as you can see, "you" is used a ton. again, i am v v guilty of doing this but im trying to get better haha

better ex - You let out a long, drawn out sigh. Careful not to cause too much noise, your legs stumbled slightly onto the chair. The neighbors below you were always extemely strict on how loud you could be, especially at night. A slight screech from the chair could be heard as well as the clicking of the mouse. Making sure that the headphones were firmly plugged in, you continued.

when writing, you can space out these "you"s and repetitive words with backstory or just describing things further. it really helps out especially if you write in 2nd person, and "you" is like the only option.

—DONT. USE. "SUDDENLY". i am guilty of this one too, but sometimes not saying suddenly makes it more sudden.

—build tension! especially during high stress situations or arguments, emphasize the characters feelings underneath this tension to establish the mood.

—this is more of something youd find on wattpad, but just dont put those "author notes" in the middle of things. theyre just a huge distraction, it really just ruins the plot, and its just generally unprofessional.

ex - Wilbur drove out of the parking spot. His features glistened amazingly in the sunlight, the crevices of rays hitting his skin at the most perfect places ever while he drove through the blissful city. (a/n i dont think wilbur can drive LOLOL XDDD just pretend he can in this XDD)

i exaggerated that a lot but you get what i mean

—make the dialogue sound like what the character would actually say. its difficult to get it down to the T of what someone would actually say in the situation, but just make it appropriate. for example, wilbur doesnt usually call people "bitch" in most settings (keyword most, the only ever time ive seen him call someone a bitch was when they asked "who drinks from a mason jar?" in which he apologized quickly for). he usually goes with "prick" or something along the lines of that.

—just generally make it worth reading. dont make it so short that one would read it in like 2 seconds, make it long and something that the reader will think about for a long time. im guilty of making shorter ones, but you can elongate fics by adding background context or describing a bit more.

—analogies are your best friend!!! they help so much with someone trying to visualize what they read

—show who's speaking as best as you can (this can be done with actions too), especially when there's multiple people involved.

ex -

"Tommy!"

"What? I'm not wrong!"

"Please- Oh my goodness."

"I swear to God, Tommy, I'm gonna punch you."

"Tommy- behave yourself!"

could you even tell who was speaking? probably not.

better ex -

"Tommy!" you shouted at his comment, placing a hand to your opened mouth in shock.

The boy lifted his shoulders in a shrug, throwing his opened hands in the air in defense. "What? I'm not wrong!"

"Please- Oh my goodness," you pinched the bridge of your nose, squinting downwards.

"I swear to God, Tommy," Wilbur began, fists tightening. "I'm gonna punch you."

Phil stammered. "Tommy- Behave yourself!"

did you even know phil was there before you read the better example? probably not. doing this to dialogue helps with clearing things up, and it makes it look nicer and longer. of course, you dont need to do this with every single piece of dialogue (especially if theres only 2 characters)

an example of this would be

Under the stars and moonlight, Wilbur smiled at Y/N. His eyes reflected the beautiful sky. Y/N ruffled his hair as he gripped at her hips.

"You're so beautiful," Wilbur whispered, looking down fondly at his lover.

Y/N giggled. "No, you are."

"What? I'm not nearly half as amazing as you are!"

"Shush! Yes, you are."

with the last two pieces of dialogue, i didnt need to show who was talking since the two characters had already been established, and it was shown that they were going back and forth, (meaning Y/N couldn't have said "What? I'm not nearly half as amazing as you are!")

—you can make stories longer and more impactful by adding a background. how did the two meet? and how will their amazing friendship impact their ongoing, secretive love for the other?

in "he was your best friend, after all" i tried to show emphasis on how great Y/N and wilbur's friendship was, and what would happen if Y/N eventually told wilbur their feelings.

—this one is one my mom taught me when i was little! (shes a writer too)

when you have an idea, type it out. just let your imagination go wild, and DO NOT REREAD IT. just type type type until youre done. take breaks, of course, just dont reread it yet!

then, take a longer break. take a nap, get some water, play some games, go on a walk, just anything to get your mind off of it,,, then, when you're ready, this is when you reread it, or proofread, or fix up things.

this helps w motivation. sometimes when i reread my work when its not done i think it sounds stupid and i give up. DONT GIVE UP!!!! i promise you, it will turn out great, you just need patience.

this is all i can think of now but yeah!! im not a super epic pro at writing, far from it actually. but i hope these help :))

#alsosorrythistooksolongtoanswerrrehfndnm #talking #rambling #writing tips

[cornellcawcaw]

[Awkward moment when the ask sends before you're done typing 😔]- the ao3 reloads were often successful, especially while I was at school. I could have sworn you all were conspiring to update at the same time.

Now the actual rest of the thing

I loved all the emotional turns and twists, the visual distinctions with a lot of the characters, the suspense, everything. Grey-streaks Mike was a genius decision, actually, the ball of stress that he is.

The mike v mike coma bit was so <3. I want to carry it in my pocket at all times, if that makes sense.

The way William actually caught on was great. Him dying? Wonderful.

The way the gang stayed together during the move to Cali was a nice touch and I hope they live their best life out there.

Whatever else, if anything, you have in store writing-wise, I can't wait to see it (take as long as you need actually. A break after writing a fic that long is understandable)

Aahah yeah!!!the ask was faster than u were ahejkfbwkd

Also- really??? All at the same time??? Thats honestly crazy I never knew, apparently fanfic authors are just all wired the same way ahdhahsh

I'm so so glad u think that!!! I usually have problems with suspense and characterization and am better on the sheer idea finding of the writing process so this is really great to hear!!! Grey streaks Mike is something I was SO excited about, bc I thought like. This guy is absolutely stressed 24/7 from everything going on PLUS is in a living body for the first time in decades PLUS carries more guilt than any other character I've ever written, so I wanted there to be some kind of health related consequence. The grey streaks seemed like the most interesting one!!!! AND IM EVEN HAPPIER THAT U LIKED THE MIKE V MIKE BIT! I had the idea so suddenly and it means everything to me bc honestly I'm still convinced that he really did need someone/something to push him into not harming himself any more and forgiving himself..

Also yeah!.I strongly believe that William would notice certain things and would put the clues together. Mike also struggled hiding some stuff in general, so it felt like the right thing to do to have William catch on. :D glad u like the ending!!!

I'm actually working on a story of my own at the moment! Might return to the Guiding Lights "Universe" soon tho, there's a few things I might wanna put in little one shots. See if ppl are actually still interested haha

(And yeah man, I remember finishing the fic and just. Not touching my writing app for like. A week or something. I was taking a whole break for real aidjskxjskdhs)

[cinnamon-bunni]

Day 7: Flowers

very short, but oh well ;; it isn't the best thing i've written, but writing Don's sisters (well more specifically one out of the three) is very fun and im happy to finally post something with at least one of them <3 Read it on Ao3! Word count: 813

“You need to stop this madness.” All Eduardo did was enter the dainty little flower shop, and he was immediately met with his sister’s voice, dripping with venom.

He paused at the entrance. “Last I checked, I haven’t done a single thing wrong.”

“Eduardo,” she growled, “do you see this shit?” She waved her arms frantically over at a pile of many, many bouquets. All of which were made of red, vibrant roses. “Do you know how many there are?”

He counted. “What, six bouquets? Isn’t that what you make on a slow day?”

“Plus the other fifteen in the back,” she hissed. Isabel rushed out from behind the counter, and over to the entrance, just to push an accusing finger into his chest. “Which accumulates to a total of twenty-one orders. In one day–more specifically in four hours!”

He couldn’t help but smile. “I can’t apologize for being so popular, Isa.”

“Yeah, but you can pay for making me do all this fucking work.” She gave a long sigh, as she moved away, defeated. “Honestly, I have to work day-in and day-out on these orders, working until I pass out and my hands are cramping, but all you have to do is look pretty for the cameras and get beat-up by a seventeen-year old.” Eduardo decided against telling Isabel the fact that he too constantly injures his hands while boxing, or the fact that he had, in fact, got knocked out plenty of times in the ring. 

“And it’s like, ‘oh, Isabel! Sweet and mature Isabel, can you handle the shop today?’ and then they completely forget I even exist! I swear, all they ever do is put me to work and never give me time for myself. It’s almost as if they forget I exist, or that all I’m here is to just do the work for them.”

Eduardo sighed. He shook his head as he crossed his arms over his chest.

“You want me to take care of the orders for you, don’t you?” Suddenly, Isabel’s attitude changed like a flick from a lightswitch, as she clasped her hands together in a pleading position and shut her eyes tight.

 “Please? Pleasepleaseplease please do this for me?”

“No.”

“Oh come on Eddie! Not even after that tear-jerking lament of being a forgotten middle child?”

“You seem to forget that I’m a middle child, too.”

“No, a fake one. We’ve been over this before. I’m the true middle child.”

“This is certainly not helping your case, by the way.” Isabel gave a dramatic groan, which made Eduardo’s corners of his mouth twitch into a smile.

“No fair! I promised my friends I would go out with them tonight, but then Mamá told me about all of the orders, that we need to do something with them since they’re all dressed to you–thanks for that, by the way–and now I’m gonna have to de-thorn them, cut off stems, organize them, wrap them up, and add all the final touches requested in the order. Do you know how long that’ll take me?”

“Majority of the night–?”

“Majority of the night! Eddie, please do this, just this once?” He stared down at her sister as he contemplated. 

“You do know that I just got back home yesterday, right? A long flight from the States and dealing with the jetlag and time zone difference really takes a toll on your body.” Because apparently having a six-hour difference made it difficult to function, or fix your internal clock to go back to normal.

“Yeah, but I had to work overtime for a week straight, and I’m going to kill myself if I have to do it one more time. So please? I promise I’ll make it up to you!”

Isabel looked up at him with tired, pleading eyes. Her fingers were no doubt calloused from how much work and stress she puts them under, but even then, she balled them up with such emotion and power that made it clear how much it meant to her.

“Fine,” Eduardo sighed, finally caving in, “I’ll cover for you just this once.”

Isabel let out an excited gasp. “Wait, really?”

“Really.”

“Oh my God! Thank you thank you thank you! Have I mentioned that you’re my favorite sibling?”

“Yes, but a reminder is always appreciated.” Suddenly, out of nowhere, Isabel gave him a tight hug. He instinctively put his arms around her in response.

“I promise I’ll make it up to, I swear.”

“You better,” he huffed with feigned annoyance. “I’m sacrificing my night for you.”

“I know, I know. But thank you.” She pushed herself off of him, and, with a smile, untied her apron and threw it over the counter. “See you later!” She ran out the front door in a rush, and a giant smile on her face.

Hmph. Well, one night of work wouldn’t hurt anyone.

#punch out #punch out!! #punch out wii #don flamenco #oc isabel #comfortember #comfortember 2022

[leejihoonownsmyheart]

HELP I WANTED TO ASK YOU REAL GENTLE REAL SWEET WHY YOU DIDNT JUST CHECK MY NAME FROM THE COMMENTS ON YOUR FIC BUT THEN I REALISED THAT I NEVER REALLY MENTIONED ANYTHING IN THOSE COMMENTS ABOUT BEING THE WRITER OF THE OTHER FICS THAT WOULD HELP YOU JOIN THE DOTS EHRJEJFJDUDS IM SO SORRY??? I LEGIT THOUGHT THAT YOU'D HAVE KNOWN FROM THEREEEE

WHICH BRINGS ME TO THE NEXT POINT- I KEPT YOU IN THE DARK FOR A YEAR? I KEPT YOU WAITING THAT LONG? I CHECKED AND THE FIRST ASK I SENT YOU WAS ANSWERED LAST YEAR ON JULY 14 😭😭😭😭😭 IT'S BEEN MORE THAN A FULL YEAR SUENRKSKDKDKDSKA

Third: omg us in july is truly a miracle because turns out that you posted your fic in july 2016

FOURTH!? SEVEN YEARS???? IT'S BEEN ONE FULL YEAR SINCE I FIRSTFOUND THIS BLOG OF YOURS SO THAT MAKES IT SEVEN YEARS THAT WE'VE "KNOWN" EACH OTHER??? IM GOING TO SCREAM BECAUSE YOU KNOW WHAT???

Fifth- that friend from whose fic you found me is one of my besties and I've known her for 8 years minus ONE DAY 🥺🥺🥺 tomorrow (based on timezones) is our anniversary and AHHHHHH GOD THATS MY LONGEST FRIENDSHIP THAT I STILL KEEP UP WITH. to think that I've known YOU for seven... omg?

Sixth! You detective! You are so cool

Seven !! Dw about finding my old tumblr LOOOOLLL I did mean to delete it but am just lazy and avoidant,,, but it's okay really! Not an invasion of privacy considering /my/ behaviour with your blogs JDAJDJSJDJSKSKDKA your "invasion" of my privacy is warranted LMAO let's catch each other up on our misadventures 🥳 jkjk

Eight- although yes I dont use that account anymore and have had four more since then 💀💀💀💀 I planned to contact you through the fourth, you see 🤡 (god this clown emoji looks terrifying on my phone I hate it suddenly, it's NIGHTTIME i dont want clown nightmares even if I'm not scared of them 😭 hard to be scared of something you've never seen before except in a mirror shdhfjdndnjsksa)

NINE - YOU WERE SUBSCRIBED TO ME?!?!!?!??!! SHAJSJSJDJSJSJSA HELPPPPPP?? OHMYGOD? YOURE ONE OF THOSE 66 PEOPLE... WAHHHHHH IM SO EMOTIONAL

Ten- "HAHA DW YOU DONT HAVE TO TALK TO ME IF YOU DONT WANT TO HAHA" these haha's killed my soul a little OF COURSE I want to talk to you I'm just SHIT at having energy for conversations lately (for like 3 years now LMFAOOOO) BUT THATS NO EXCUSE !!!!!!!!!!!

omg i didn't know you hurt your foot 😭 is that why you're bedridden?? SENDING YOU GOOD HEALING VIBES SJDJDJSJS I hurt my feet too because i got overenthusiastic with exercise 💀💀 and then just skipped a day like no MY STREAK! But they're fine rn I guess, maybe the rest was good ehrjejdjsjsa

omg I'm a proper carat 🥺🥺🥺 am I a proper carat if I barely know their songs because I'm fond of them but I probably don't know more than ten songs DHEJEHSHDNSKS??? Help. I must be an improper carat (can you tell I have dumb jokes)

THIRTEEN! I realised after seven entire years that your name basically translates to cheese on toast. That was a revelation. I hope you've brien well. Yes. I actually just did that.

Fourteen- caratumblr abo verse.... I havent written smut for two years and I havent even been writing but this was such a tempting offer JRJERJSJDJ LMAOOOO I'll support you in your endeavours 😌🥳🤩🥰

Fifteen - also same I LOVE SENDING ASKS DISKSKSKS

Ok this was a long ask hehe whoops <3 enjoy your day! I hope you have a good one!!! I think our timezones are far apart so I must zzz now ❤ I think I covered everything I wanted to say rn!!

--- spn anon (oh look! This can double as point number seventeen 🤩)

YOU KNOW IM KINDA ANNOYED I DIDNT FIGURE THIS PUT A YEAR AGO LIKE…. What the fuck was a doing all those other times i tried it wasn’t THAT difficult to find… this is ridiculous i’m so dumb sigh

A FULL YEAR OH MY GOD…. THATS INSANE…. But SEVEN YEARS FOR US?! THAT WOULD BE MY LONGEST ONLINE RELATIONSHIP. I would never EVER imagine that any online relationship I would find would transcend fandoms ESPECIALLY NOT SO DRASTICALLY as going from supernatural to kpop and ao3 to tumblr… what a migration… seven YEARS… damn that means we only just missed our anniversary haha

HAHA SAM 🫵 SCARED OF CLOWNS although tbh… clowns are fucking terrifying… THERE WAS THIS SCARE IN NORTH CAROLINA WHERE THERE WERE CLOWNS IN THE WOODS FOR A WHILE BRO IM STILL SCARED OVER IT

I WAS SUBSCRIBED TO YOU!! OBVIOUSLY I REALLY LIKED YOUR WRITING CAUSE I HAVE NEVER WRITTEN ANYTHING BASED OFF ANYTHING EVER AGAIN

DONT BE STRESSED ABOUT MY HAHAS THEY ARENT LIKE haha… 🥲 THEYRE LIKE REALLY HAHA THATS SO FUNNY LIKE REALLY ENTHUSIASTIC HAHAS AND NO THATS A PERFECTLY FINE EXCUSE i just went through a phase where i didn’t want to talk to anyone so i GET IT

I think that if seventeen brings you any type of comfort you’re a carat, no matter if you listen to one song or all of them. You know their names, that’s MUCH more than i knew when i knew that amount of songs. So i think you qualify as one, even if you don’t go further into liking them or listening to their music

BUT STOP YOUR JOKES ARE SO FUNNY YOU ARE GENUINELY SO FUNNY

YES CAPTAINBRIEONTOAST IS LIKE THE MOST CLEVER THING I’VE EVER COME UP WITH LIKE IT’S DEVASTATING TO ME THAT I AM NOW SOMETHING ELSE… people on this blog don’t even know my roots… WHO I WAS BEFORE (that’s probably a good thing) I actually only started going by brie even offline when i gave myself the captainbrieontoast name for writing. I HAVE BRIEN WELL 🤣

Come on sam… dad’s on a hunting trip and hasn’t been home in a few days…. DUST OFF YOUR SMUT WRITING SKILLS I can’t do this without you 😫 (just kidding don’t feel pressured) what if i actually did do a caratumblr abo verse collab that would be crazy i don’t think i have the confidence or influence to start that alone

I HOPE YOU SLEEP WELL!!! I’LL TALK TO YOU LATER!! I just woke up (but it’s almost 4pm where i am and i should’ve woken up sooner)

#b: spn days anon #YOURE SO FUN TO TALK TO HAHA

[running-with-kn1ves]

what if seth finally kills the darling and starts to regret it? they were tasty, but if he had just restrained himself they would still be there, and their last words wouldn't have been so.. emotionless. they were hollow at the end, and now he feels hollow too...

Ooh! honestly anon im so glad ppl are enjoying seth-- i see he isn't a big hit so I'm glad that my boy's getting some love :D I think he's the most violent Yan i've written (besides 1 more that i haven't posted on here.)

Hmm... Seth has very low empathy/sympathy levels, so honestly-- i think it would take him a minute to realize what he's done. Like yeah.. he knows he's been taking bits and pieces of his darling, but those were just chunks. His darling wasn't ENTIRELY gone when he took their legs away; just like- a fourth was ripped clean off. And he was ok with that! He desires a darling who wants what he wants, he admires them from afar, and has some semblance of understanding pain. But, he's continued his... peculiar eating habits for years now, and a little bit of crying and screaming on his darling's end wouldn't shake him.

His first thought after his darling was gone, would to be to visit the basement. The idea that they're gone is in his head, and he understands it. but it still hasn't registered. Seeing that empty cage and the blood stains on the table is just a little reminder that begins to push him. He's feeling grief; he doesn't understand it quite yet, but is slowly processing the realization of how he won't be able to talk to or comfort his darling anymore.

He'd rather stick to the memories of them laughing in the office and their breath on his on that first date... He enjoys seeing other's pain but only at a certain time; its almost like a libido. his affections for darling are different than his bloodlust. Seth likes to be in the moment for bloodlust rather than fantasize about it, so their last words wouldn't even be thought of until a random moment of subconscious purity. He'd be cleaning his tools, working on tomorrow's office assignments, or another miscellaneous task, and then suddenly-- that perfect person would come into his mind. His darling's last words would most certainly be hateful, hollow, and shallow. I imagine its a moment of incredible exhaustion on both ends. Darling is utterly mangled, slowly perishing due to the lack of blood in their system, rag having fallen out of their mouth minutes ago. They'd be on the brink of visiting death, before shooting Seth a hateful glare, promising vengeance.

"I hope you go through the same thing you've done to me."

Darling had already screamed so many "I hate you's" and "go die's" that Seth never really believed them-- all his victims acted the same way. Who wouldn't in a time of heightened emotions? That's all it was. But those words.. it made him become less numb to the pain he'd put his darling through. Realizing it wasn't love that they felt after the procedures, but continuous hate. They had never felt anything for him, even that first date was a sham in his mind. He'd deeply regret killing them off-- he intended to do it eventually, but on his own accord, not the measly incident of so much blood loss. It was a shock to him, having them ripped away without his consent. The irony, he realized how much despair he'd caused the one meal that was truly worthy.

Seth regrets not paying enough attention and love to his darling, but he doesn't regret ripping away their limbs. He craved that flesh, and nothing but a darling truly worthy would satisfy that hunger. It was an honor in his mind to be served. He saw them as good enough to swallow, to nourish him, to become a part of him, how could someone deny such a wonderful proposal? But realizing that darling never wanted such an opportunity; that's what hurts him.

#yandere #maleyandere #cannibal #cannibalism #cannibal yandere #yandere cannibal #yandere x reader #self insert #reader insert #x reader #gn reader #y/n #yancore #yandere aesthetic #yanderecore #writing #original character #yandere oc

[sparring-spirals]

edit: this post now contains a majority of my C2 metas! For C3 metas, I've started up a new tag #my meta, and will be using that to track, until i give in and make a meta masterpost for all campaigns.

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With the end of the campaign looming, I am giving in and making a deeply, deeply self indulgent post. And, assuming the readmore works and this doesn't screw up people's dashes, pinning it.

I present to you: a sorted list of some of my favorite metas that I've written over the course of the *second campaign.

This blog was started because I had Thoughts about Jester and her backstory and wanted to share them, and while recently I haven't been able to sit down and actually write any in depth meta for a hot minute, I'll be damned if I don't get to sit down and appreciate the campaign. And my roots. This is only the metas I wrote because a compilation of my favorite metas that other people wrote would be. Unreasonably long. (But maybe I should do it anyway?)

(My roots are: i have so many feelings and words about these wonderful characters and everyone is going to hear them whether they asked for them or not)

Sorted, under the cut, and random addendums about each because I couldn't resist. Please know that me not writing meta about characters doesn't mean I don't love them. I love all of them fiercely and aggressively, but can only find words for some of them.

JESTER

this blog started with jester meta and to stay true to that there's kind of a disproportionate amount of meta for her. Its fine though! Like I always say, Love Is Stored In The Jester.

Jester is Fine (Spoiler She's Not) the one that started it all. Full mess of thoughts based on her talking about her childhood in episode 8.

Jester is Not A Damsel In Distress initially written after I watched the boat convo, then revisited after 93 (YES that 93).

Jester Doesn't Need To Be Saved bit of a redux of the damsel in distress one, written after the Traveler reveal and the way it shook her up.

Jester ISN'T fine omg a triumphant return to the first meta in light of the convo in 105 and also me being proud about having been right. Hell yeah.

Jester, trickster cleric just an incoherent, deeply emotional word-spew post The Cupcake

Jester, sunshine, godmaker just an incoherent, deeply emotional word-spew post the Artagan Reveal (what a wild three episodes)

what luck an incoherent deeply emotional word spew about the whole mess of the artagan jester fjord moonweaver clusterfuck in 108

Jester, choosing happiness. Jester's love is bright and bold and dangerous and a choice. Jester's love can make gods, and kill them. Kindness is a choice. Love is a choice. Happiness is a choice. And she chooses it, every time. edit: EPISODE 140 SPOILERS (written after That battle)

FJORD

the blog started for jester meta, but I think my Fjord metas were what really cemented it. A slow, meandering curiosity about Fjord suddenly snapped into clarity around episode 61 and I churned out some 3 metas about him during the whole "oh fuck im losing my powers oh god oh god" that cemented him as one of my favorite characters with an arc I am always going to hold near and dear to my heart. I love Fjord and his arc so, so very much. I have a very, very soft spot for the first few metas I wrote for him.

Disguise Self: some fjord meta episode 61, written in a shell shocked state after he first lost his powers

My Take On How Fjord Became An Orc of Many Masks perhaps one of my favorite metas. I won't claim that my read of Fjord is the Only Correct read of Fjord, but every time I read a post or meta about how far Fjord has come, I think about the Fjord described here. I love this half orc, dammit.

What do you want me to do here kind of more of a caleb/fjord study based on one of their conversations, but it always felt like it went hand in hand with the other two.

love near a pool of lava like the best follow up imaginable to the previous few metas, an emotional blurb after the ukatoa lava pool/accent drop/fjord dropping his masks, about fjord reaching his limits, dropping his walls and facades and waiting for the worst, only to be swept up in love instead.

i can give you 1 hit point because fjord by episode 90, 100, is so far from where he started that he is unafraid of incompetence, of being bad at healing, as long as he is supporting his friends. and aahhh <3

never have dignity again most of this is freckledmcree's meta, but some more Thoughts about fjord being unafraid of failure and why that means So Much, dammit.

yall gotta get out of here episode 123, fjord, however briefly, looking out across a field at his crew, thinking they should leave him, hoping that they wont.

BEAU

Most of my better Beau meta is about her relationships with others, but only because I love Beau very deeply and can't always find the right words to express that, dammit.

More On Beau mostly a piggyback off of Yfere's excellent meta about beau, but also some prime Thoughts about Beau and how hard she works to Listen to People, to Respect their humanity and thoughts in a way that people never did for her. good god beau you are lovely.

i hope they're angry some Thoughts after her attempted sacrifice in 93, about how i wanted the m9 to react because they Love Her and What The HELL Beau, We Love You, How Would That Have Been Okay

i have a permit for this rudeness short and sweet- beau being abrasive as part of her tactics. beau is great.

sending this is technically a fanfic and not a meta but I'm very proud of it so its going in here. beau thanks jester for her sendings, emotional talks are had, mud is thrown, yasha really doesn't get how sending works. epilogue spoilers, very vaguely.

BRJEAUS

the brjeaus are so good and i already have two extensive rambles about it,

So, the Brjeaus listen I watched that 32 minute compilation on the brjeaus and drunkenly slammed out a love letter to their friendship and it remains one of my favorite things. That's all I'll say.

Brjeau's (the sequel) a lovely anon gave me an excuse to gush MORE about the brjeau's and what was I gonna do? say no ????

THE GREEN TEAM

i don't write a lot about veth individually, i think others do it much better. BUT the green team dynamic is one of my favorite things.

green team written fairly early on, back in ye olde days of texan fjord and goblin veth, but with just enough insight to find it funny why they got on each other's nerves.

green team (the sequel) again, a lovely anon gave me the excuse to gush about the green team, and getting to revisit the above meta, looking at it in light of how their relationship grew- and stayed the same. good stuff.

NOTT THE BEST DETECTIVE AGENCY

veth and jester love each other so fucking much. just in a clear, plain, deeply chaotic best friends kind of way that you don't find with any other pair, and i adore it.

do you ever think about nott and jester i don't remember what sparked this but I remember thinking so hard about it while walking back from work that i took a wrong turn. they're so good, yall.

the flask situation im always going to hold a small grudge against myself that i never sat down and wrote a meta about the resolution of the flask situation because I Really, Really Loved It. Instead we only have me being :( about the flask situation when it was a problem.

look they just love each other an anon gives me the chance to gush, you're damn right i will

EMPIRE SIBLINGS

i am now deeply, deeply perplexed because it seems despite my immense love for them i very, very rarely wrote out an actual meta for these two. what. thank goodness for the incredible empire siblings meta out there already. anyway let the record show: i love them. so goddamn much. there is an intention there, there is learned love, there is hands on shoulders and stilted apologies and "i have your back, you have mine" and gentle ribbing and holding each other accountable, learning each others edges. I love these two.

caleb telling beau oh my GOD i forgot this post existed, its a VERY early meta from when caleb first spills his backstory to beau and nott, and they were already incredible then. these two. these two.

siblings barely enough for me to qualify it as a meta, much less one i wrote, but, look how emotionally constipated they were at the start :')

dammit beau, no one leaves post the attempted hag deal. bit more of a speculation around the m9 as a whole but it stems from me being emotional about the empire sibs, ok

nerd corruption of all the people to read all the eyeball books, amirite

"have a lovely massage- C. W." me being unreasonably affected by the little note caleb left for the beauyasha date in 126

thank god it was them honestly not even a meta but just, thank god it was the two of them that got eyeballed, eh?

favorite platonic dynamics more of a juxtaposition of beau/Caleb and Beau/Fjord, but also touches on some of my favorite things about the empire sibs, so I'll leave it here. Written after 141, but isn't really spoilery.

edit: ok this is from during c3 but i like it so im putting it here. just more empire sib feels. learning to love. about hard won love. love as respect and pushback and hands on shoulders. yknow.

yet again, it is a CRIME that I don't have more meta for Caleb and Veth, but I think other people cover them beautifully. do i need to explain why their relationship is so, so deeply good? it is. its very good. forehead kisses and fraught, complicated love. bandaged hands and bolts through books. aah.

PARTNERS IN CRIME

you will always have a home here barely meta. short, sweet. full of meaning.

two birds on a wire again, not really a meta, but god this is an excellent amv

TEAM INTROVERT

yasha and caleb were both so quiet with so much guilt and grief and they both came so far. from coaching hugs to deep talks about redemption to spider scritches and a whole tower date. their friendship is so quiet and so lovely :')

thinking about team introvert and hard earned peace just a lotta feelings about yasha and caleb and their journey and them post campaign having quiet nights and gosh.

BLUE GALS

i love beau and jester an unreasonable amount- both together and separately. but apparently, i neglected to write meta for them until things had shifted some. dammit. let the record show that these two love each other. hands during dimension doors, "im a really good liar beau", late night roommate talks. dammit.

beau and jester, and where to go not very cheerful or lovey compared to most of the metas here, but. i still think about it sometimes. they love each other, dammit.

CALEB

I've always liked other people's meta for Caleb better than mine (and the same goes for Veth, Caduceus, and Yasha tbh). Caleb, you wonderful nerdy, orange themed, mischevious wizard. You've come so damn far.

don't want your pockets to be too heavy some thoughts after caleb read cali's letter, in a very family-heavy episode.

YASHA

Unfortunately the height of my love for yasha peaked after I had fallen out of writing meta. But the rage and flowers intertwined with her character are one of my favorite things.

you should reconsider your past decisions emotion dump based on the exchange she has with thoreau in episode 92. get FUckt thoreau.

left behind erm i wrote this after episode 69 and uh sorry sorry sorry sorry

okay, but, kamordah a follow up to the above after the "i fell in love with you in kamordah". technically equally beau and yasha, but. still a good follow up, i think.

VETH

loving and letting go a short meta written after her zuala dream in 105, about yasha and loving and losing and letting go

yasha i just found this one! its nice. nice.

veth is fantastic and powerful and i don't write for her very often because i don't think i'll ever have a grasp on her the way i'd like to, but good god. full of love and protectiveness and teasing and "us vs them" and sideways grins and unapologetic weirdness and a tendency to downplay abilities crossed with a fierce, overwhelming sense of self. gooooooooood shit.

empire sisters technically equally beau and veth, but a good touch on veth nonetheless, i think.

i think travellercon is it some thoughts from post-travelercon when we all didn't know if veth was going to leave

CADUCEUS

i don't really have caduceus meta, and i am appalled. I think I was always waiting for me to have some good words about it, and dammit I waited too long. Other people absolutely have a better read on him and I love reading meta about him, but I cannot, for the life of me, produce it. As a peace offering: some metas I liked for caddy can be found here.

arms length some short and random thoughts on Caduceus when he was still trying to be a wise older mentor to the m9 while Clearly Handling Some Issues, dammit Caduceus.

AND NOW

THE GRAND FINALE

THE MIGHTY NEIN

you weren't prepared for us the m9, as the force of nature that we understand them to be.

true facts some emotions from rumblecusp, because once upon a time they didn't know anything about each other, didn't trust enough to share anything about themselves, and then they were in a circle, relying on each other to remember true facts, saying "if i lose my memory, you know me enough to tell this to me".

spoken support these nerds learning how to ask for things from each other

found family a spread of thoughts from the rumblecusp arc about the Mighty Nein and how, after everything, all their growth they are irrevocably, irreversibly family. in a way that is thoughtless and full of love and meaning, in a way where if you lost all your memories and looked at these people surrounding you in a circle, listing their parents and their names, you would know that they loved you.

final wishes because the mighty nein sharing jokes about their last wishes but also very, very much meaning it, trusting each other to carry things on.

also, for funsies, my found family tag. :)

jk this is the actual finale: two, deeply sappy, deeply emotional posts about love within critical role as a whole. what a wonderful ride. may we all go on it again in campaign 3.

thinking about love in critical role some emotional thoughts during rumblecusp

a date night emotional and sappy after the tower date- not just about beau and yasha, but caleb and beau, and just the love and care through it all.

that's it. allegedly. i've definitely missed some, and if i tried to make a post about all the meta i've read from others that i loved, this would be miles and miles longer. if you made it all the way down here, congrats! I'm flattered. I'm not really expecting anyone to because this is very much a post for me, so i can find my own metas and feelings and love on demand (tumblr why is your search function so inexplicably terrible), but if you are here, let me say that: the CR fandom is the first and possibly only time I'd ever gotten INTO a fandom- producing things, interacting with people, sharing out all the Feelz and Thoughts, and it has been a goddamn gift.

Don't Forget To Love Each Other, hey?

EDIT: new final post from thoughts from the final battle, about love and anger and strength.

love will not always perform miracles, (but sometimes it will). and sometimes the miracle is just you, still standing. thats a miracle too.

EDIT 2.0: im full of emotions after 141 here you go

happy endings technically a meta about happy endings but mostly little vignettes of the mighty nein making space and time for each other in the close and distant future, because of course they will

#the odds of people making it down this entire post is VERY low but HEY thats why its self indulgent :*) #critical role #the mighty nein #meta #character meta #this was honestly a lovely exercise in all of the emotions and love i have for these characters and this campaign. 10/10 #also reminded me that if i ever get my braincells back i still have so much meta left to write. #should i tag everyone for this? i might as well huh #jester lavorre #fjord #beauregard #caleb widogast #veth brenatto #yasha #caduceus clay #spar speaks #meta masterpost #my meta #<-(too lazy to go back and re-tag all my stuff so this will have to do)

[robincantfunction]

requested: yes/no

word count: 725 (another shorter one i'm sorry)

warnings: fem!reader, swearing? i think. quite suggestive at the end- nothing smutty or detailed tho, a tad on the angsty side (someone stop me it's becoming an issue)

lemme know if i missed any <3

summary: y/n goes off the grid and it worries fred, when in reality she's just denying her feelings.

song prompt 3: MINE - awfultune

a/n: in all honesty this isn't my favourite but- there is better one that's already written coming very soon my dear friends

sorry it's late but one will be posted on sunday at the latest

"i don't get what happened you know. it was like, one minute i'm calling her everyday and hugging her all the time, comforting her when i need to, and the next we just aren't talking." fred was confused and upset to say the least "and now i just want to call her all the time, but clearly she want's space" george felt bad for him, although in his mind it was clear what was happening "look god knows you love her, but maybe this is just something out of your control. y/n isn't stupid, i'm sure there's a reason she stopped talking" he knew the reason. y/n couldn't bare to be vulnerable. she never liked showing weakness, she wanted to have no feelings. no strings attached. no nothing. she was just the kind of person who didn't let herself get caught up in what she wants, but what she needs. and in her mind she needed herself. and that was it. george also knew how much she meant to his twin. neither of them would admit it but he so obviously liked her, and there was a very strong possibility she was feeling the same. and when y/n feels weak in anyway, she cuts herself off from the world. even from her best friends.

"in all honesty freddie, i think she likes you. and i think she's feeling guilty about it, and she's probably just trying to get her head around it. you know she doesn't like change" he was right. maybe the 'she likes you' bit wasn't something fred was willing to agree with, for his own sake, but it made sense. it wasn't unlike her to block herself off.

"y/n it's fred. your friend. feelings only get in the way if you let then. people don't have to complete you, but it's ok for them to be there. god knows he tries." hermione was right "yeah but what if i ruin everything? what if he hates me?" the other girl scoffed "have you met fred? he could never hate you. he loves you. more than you are willing to accept might i add. just. talk. to. him."

she picked up the phone and called him, terrified he wouldn't answer. "oh my god. georgie she's calling me. what do i do?!" george looked at him "answer the bloody phone you git" and so he did. "hey y/n/n." she smiled. "hey do you uh, are you free right now?" he nodded to himself before responding "yeah, is everything ok?" she paused for a second "yeah i just- wanna see you, i guess." that made him happy, a little worried, but happy nonetheless.

when they met up, she suddenly forgot about all of her anxious thoughts. because it was him. him. "im - uh. im sorry. i've been a shit person to you and that isn't fair" he shook his head and smiled "y/n i get it. all that matters to me is that you're ok. that's all that will ever matter to me." and for some unknown reason to her, she finally got the courage to kiss him. and so she did. the kiss was slow, neither of them wanted to rush it - especially if there was a chance this was their first and last kiss. but it felt right. that was the best way to describe it. "what was that for?" fred chuckled when they pulled away. "an apology?" they both started laughing, they were ok. from that day on fred vowed that he would call her 'mine' for as long as she'd let him. y/n was worried about losing fred as a friend, what she should have been worried about was losing him in general. because from the moment they met, it was obvious both of them would never last as friends. no. they were always more.

that night was full of undying confessions, represented in many forms. verbal. emotional. physical. heavy breaths and pants, desperate to make up for lost time. desperate to analyse and memorise every single inch of each others bodies. clothes scattered everywhere - to be found in the morning. for once they weren't thinking about what could happen in the future, but what was happening in the present. and what was happening was long overdue. and that was the start, the start of him being hers, her being his. neither cared about anything except the other. 'mine'. that felt right.

#fred weasley fanfic #fred weasley fanfiction #fred weasley fluff #fred weasley imagine #fred weasley oneshot #fred weasley x fem!reader #fred weasley x y/n #fred weasley x you #fred x reader #fred x you #robincantfunctions50ficsfor50songs

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Hello I’m the person who requested “I Don't Go In For Sweets” and...just let me begin by saying thank you from the bottom of my heart, thank you for dedicating your time and your energy to write it, it was absolutely perfect and everything I wanted! I sent you this request the day before a huge exam (yes, instead of studying but that’s another story lol) and surprisingly, you posted the fic a day after I got my results and saw that I passed so it felt a bit like some reward and yeah I know you didn’t do it on purpose but still, it was amazing! Now let’s dive into a deeper analysis (I like to do this but it’s quite long, don’t feel forced to read it, no pressure!)

First, the very beginning: Polly and Tommy’s talk and how can I say this? It was so good, so well written I was actually seeing the scene as clearly as if I was watching the last episode of s3, I could actually hear them talk and see them move and it was too good to even feel like reading! I’m also so grateful you had the idea to bring the impact of Tommy’s mother’s death on him because...it’s not something we see a lot in the show but I’ve always been convinced that he had always been very affected by it and he would never want the same for his son.

Now, the wedding day: “The fact that everything about this wedding was so obscenely different from his first did soothe his guilt a bit” this kind of sums up a lot: Tommy compares all of this situation to what he had and rejoices over the fact it’s not as perfect, as beautiful, as great as what he had with Grace because it makes him feel slightly better, he isn’t betraying her as much as if he was enjoying marrying a new woman but then...she arrives and he can’t help it but find her pretty.

You perfectly showed this inner conflict of always having Grace in mind, always reminding himself of her and how better she was, this is not something he’s doing because he enjoys it but because it’s the best solution.

And of course he makes sure his opinion is known, he doesn’t smile back at the the altar, the big wedding kiss he gave to Grace is here, a simple, almost nonexistent brush on the lips, he doesn’t try to get to know his wife, on their way home, he has this revelatory lapsus “I've already asked the maids to take them up to your-our room” because deep down, it’s not his room or their room, it will only be hers because he won’t sleep in it much and he shows it a moment later when he doesn’t even sleep in the same room as her on their wedding night! I mean the scene where she’s waiting for him all nervous and giggly because she knows what happens...or at least she thinks she knows but then she wakes up alone in the morning, no “husband” in sight. Then comes breakfast, Tommy introduces her to Charlie (who wasn’t even at the wedding!!!) like he would present his new nanny because in a way...that’s what she is. He didn’t marry that girl because he wanted it but because it was something he knew his son needed. I really loved the fact you didn’t make Charlie love reader instantly because as kind hearted as he may be, he’s still a child who suddenly lives with an unknown woman his dad doesn’t even seem to like but one little discussion is enough to make him warm up to her and yeah I liked seeing this, it was very well done!

Then we get to see Tommy couldn’t care less about his wife and a thing kind of stroke me: reader has insomnia sometimes and Tommy doesn’t seem to worry or even think about it, he just sees it as more occasion for her to talk to him and ugh please no! And it shows how detached he can be which is so so in character! Afterwards you wrote about how he didn’t invite her to family meetings and stuff which I think was important to mention and maybe you didn’t think it this way but he keeps her away of very important part of his life: the business and the local bar he spends time with his family which is quite a...special place because that’s where he met Grace, that’s where their story began and family meetings? Inviting her would mean she’s part of their family, they trust her enough to welcome her but 1) he doesn’t really care about her enough to trust her and 2) would grace really have been invited to these meetings? Considering what she did? Definitely not so in not inviting his new wife, he doesn’t give her an advantage of being more welcomed in the family than grace was because, again, she’ll never be enough, she’ll never be grace. And it was so important to show this and you did it so beautifully, so subtly, wow!

The birthday party is also a great way to show that reader has a great relationship with everyone except her own husband and their convo in the office afterwards bluntly stated that. Tommy is so heartless, so cold, so...awful towards the woman he married! I really hated him in this moment because clearly she’s trying, she wants to make things alright but he will not let it, he will push her away no matter how harsh he has to be. And there is no apology, no compassion, nothing, he doesn’t care. He knows how bad his words hurt but he owes nothing to her.

And even when he’s awful to her, she still offer her time and her attention. He comes home completely drunk and considering the way he treated her, she could let him deal with his terrible state alone but she won’t, he’s her husband after all...I really loved how you turned that scene, we can see some of reader’s... I don’t know what to call it but so far, she let him have his space and now, when he rejects her help, she still gives him a hand. And then he compliments her, out of the blue and yeah he’s completely drunk but it feels true. And even better, he apologizes and explains his awful behavior and it was essential to have this! It was essential for reader to hear it from him that she didn’t do anything bad, it wasn’t her fault or anything, he just struggled with understanding what her place was. Even better, she reminds him she doesn’t want to take Grace’s place.

It was everything he needed to understand because right after this, he allows himself to let go a bit and then...a little bit more and again...some more until finally the stables scenes arrives! And my oh my! How much more beautiful could this story get? The fact they bond over something Tommy loves is just...amazing! It allows reader to see a gentle side of him because we all know how Tommy gets whenever he sees a horse, it could and will make any woman fall in love with him. And this scene holds so much...power and emotion, she trusts him enough to let him guide the horse even though she doesn’t know how to ride it and he assures her he won’t let her fall which is so important because he accepts the fact that she trusts him and he want to be worthy of that trust which is a big step because it means he cares. And they have the loveliest moment, just the two of them, no grace clouding his mind, no hatred, no unnecessary talk, just a husband and a wife enjoying the nice weather. He helps her off of the horse and he grabs her waist but he doesn’t feel the need to take off his hand and it shows progress, it shows he enjoys having her close and he looks at her, it’s the first thing that came to his mind, her beauty and now he doesn’t feel guilty about it. He stares at her, he enjoys it and he doesn’t want to stop. And finally because well, this story couldn’t just stop there, it reached a whole new peak in beauty: their real, true first kiss. It doesn’t mean we have a fairytale and happily ever after but it feels like a true promise of better things coming up, the kiss he gave her on their wedding day (as a way to seal their wedding vows) was given...reluctantly to say the least but now, he was promising her to be better in the future and truly respect those vows and it’s just the most perfect ending this story could have! It was just a magnificent, so beautifully well written story I don’t even know what to say anymore (and I think I’ve already said way more than I should be allowed to!) than it was perfect, you’re so talented and I’m so thankful you agreed to write this! I hope I haven’t killed you with my pages of review lol! Have a wonderful day <3

Ps. I didn’t proof read this so sorry for mistakes and nonsensical sentences :)

Hello!

First of all, thank you so much for writing me to tell me how much you appreciated your fic. I really like knowing that the person who requested a specific fic enjoyed it so, It means the world!

And just look at that! I certainly didn’t know anything about your exam, but what a marvelous most serendipitious coincidence! It makes everything seem much more magical, don’t you think? The universe never ceases to amaze me! 🥰

Also, thank you for the analysis. I always like to write things so that they go beyond words in order to convey feelings and stir deeper emotions and I’m so glad you not only perceived them but also liked what I was trying to project!

I too, feel in my bones that Tommy’s mother’s death affected him a lot. Maybe it’s not something that keeps him awake at night (or all nights) but I definitely feel like it is one of the thoughts he keeps on the back of his mind and is constantly nagging him. And polly of course is one of if not the only one who can see it.

As for the wedding and their marriage in general, I did want to show Tommy having this conflict because as we know, our man doesn’t let go of things easily. And like Tatiana Petrovna once said, his fear is freedom. Im not saying that Grace stopped him from being free, but he insisted on staying in the past, and when the reader comes up she’s basically carrying with her this humongous banner that reads FUTURE.

He does think the reader is pretty and he knows that his family accepts her and his son loves her but he doesn’t want to give in, he’s almost afraid of doing it, so what is the easiest thing to do? Push her away. And still when he’s awful to her she helps him because I want to believe she can also look behind the walls he so desperately put up around him. In the end I didn’t want to make it like *poof! They magically fell in love! * but like you said, I wanted it to end with a promise of better things to come.

Again, thank you so much for taking the time to write. I enjoyed analyzing Tommy’s mind with you and I hope you have a lovely day as well!

P.S: Congratulations on your exam results! 🤍💐

#lovely anon #odaanswers