#almost didn’t get this one out

[magicianenthusiast]

Inktober Day 29: Massive

#almost didn’t get this one out #but I’m not falling on day 29 out of 31 #Inktober 2023 #bnha #mha #my hero academia #league of villains #shigaraki tomura #my art #and yes I KNOW shigaraki didn’t have his cape when he fought machia but I don’t CARE

[justgleekout]

Sunday morning sleeping in <3

#my art #glee #klaine #kurt hummel #blaine anderson #fanart #I almost didn’t wanna colour this one but I like the way it turned out #a good little lighting practice #honestly I have no clue if the light beam from the blinds is actually correct but iiii don’t care #you get the vibe #also I should really follow their example and catch some zs #its 4am what am I doinggg #thats what happens when you start a drawing at 11pm #smh #they are so soft thoughhh #I really missed them #and I’ve been wanting them as close as possible #also ive been loving the watercolour look lately #it actually makes me hate colouring a lot less haha #I can be messier #and it looks so softttt #and I like them soft <33 #(well.. apart from like… ;) #okay I need to shut up and go to bed #good night and enjoy foks! <333

[decaffeinatedpartymuggoop]

Okay, we all know being a demigod is a shit position. Its scary and gets you killed in really nasty ways. But I feel like being a Big Three Kid has to be the shitiest position in all the shit positions.

Like, imagine being Thalia Grace. Your dad is king of the gods, lord of the skies. Led a war to get rid of a tyrant. And the only thing you get is his scorned wife AND brother, who both try to kill you (with one technically succeeding), a drunk of a mother, and brother who you thought was dead. Oh, wait, he’s not dead! No instead he was used as an offering to appease your dad’s wife and help fight in a war and prevent mass destruction.

Or maybe you can imagine being Percy. Son of the sea god, the stormbringer, the earthshaker. You get to live with a disgusting, abusive man for around 6 years. Who smells like literal shit. All because your scent as a demigod is too strong, BECAUSE of who your father is. You see things that you aren’t supposed to see and do things that people can’t do and go years thinking something is wrong with you. That your the problem. Then you get to the one place where you’re supposed to be save. But! Here is the kicker! You’re not! Your uncles hate you and you’ve been accused of stealing a symbol of power. A series of events that will kick off a war, and guess what. You’re a center point for it. Welcome to Camp Half-Blood.

Mhm, but then there’s Hazel. Daughter Pluto, god of the underworld and riches. But that doesn’t really change anything does it? She’s still living in 1930s America, in a red state. One where confederate flags still hang if you go deep enough into the city. She go to a school where the kids are supposed to be just like her! They still don’t like her tho. She’s got no idea who your father is, only that he left her with a parting gift. Only it’s not really a gift. Sure, she can pull rubies and diamonds from the earth, all worth millions. But anyone who’s ever gonna touch it will die. She lives with her mother, a woman gone so mad with greed it kills her. And Hazel, by the way. Laying dead Alaska, inhaling oil. But it doesn’t end there! She can’t have her mother suffering for eternity, can she? The answer is no. Hazel gets to spend the next 70 years in the Fields of Asphodel. It still doesn’t end! Because when she’s brought back to life, she gets to fight in a war against giants, her sad story seemingly never ending.

Nico’s a son of one of the Big Three, one of the most ancient and most powerful. But most people look at him as something bad, something not worth taking a second glance at. Something too look away from, mostly. He’s from the 30s, spent years in a magical time casino with only his sister at his side. She doesn’t stay for long though, she dies soon after they discover their heritage. And he doesn’t remember his mother much, a name without a face. A face without a name. He survived an attempted assassination at 2, though it wouldn’t be the only time his was life was threatened. He clings to his sister, even though she’s dead. He’s the son of the god of the underworld, is he not? There had to be a way, and there is. Only she won’t talk to him, she seems more concerned with communicating with the guy who got her killed instead. She chooses rebirth, and he decides to lay it to rest. She’s not coming back, and he has a war to fight in. (He gets stuck in a jar and forcibly outed a few years later, but that’s a lot to get into for now.)

Jason Grace is a pillar of New Rome, their golden boy, their American boy. He’s a son of Jupiter, a natural born leader. He’s been at camp for as long as he can remember, he wants to be praetor soon. He’s had a rocky start, but maybe he’ll be one of the lucky ones. Retire a veteran and live a long life with Reyna in New Rome. Only that never happened. He has no idea where he is, there’s a girl holding his hand, and she’s cute but it feels wrong. They get attacked and people come in and call him a Greek demigod, familiar, yes, but still wrong. It doesn’t feel right. It doesn’t put things into perspective the way it does for Piper and Leo. He’s goes to a quest to rescue Hera, the name sounds wrong. He nearly dies but at least he remembers who he is. He spends the next 6 months trying to get back home, even though he isn’t too sure on where or what home is. He gets there, eventually, but it doesn’t stop there. He’s dragged on quests and battles and fights in the war but at least he survives it, he’s still there. Apollo needs help, he and Piper give him aid. He gets dumped. He doesn’t get to he a veteran in New Rome. Not with Reyna, not with Piper, not with anybody. He doesn’t get kids or grandkids. No, he gets shot down, another demigod buried.

You could be any one of them, really. Pick your poison, but I guarantee you won’t like any of them. Spending years trying to find a place where you belong, where you feel safe. Only for it to never come.

Percy, who, if you really look at the books, isn’t really all that well liked until he’s at least 2 years into camp. Only to then be sidelined because the courages, brave, fearless daughter of Zeus is back from the dead. Nico, the son of one of the most feared and hated gods. Who has death written all over him, who excludes it so much animals can smell it and humans can sense it, who’s been ostracized and pushed off to the side since he was 10. Hazel, who was treated like disease as soon as she stepped foot on camp soil. Who’s gone her whole life looked as something that’s cursed, that will only bring misfortune, a bad omen.

Shit positions, all of them.

#Hazel and Jason make my head spin #also jaosn and Percy #I like how they both in a way didn’t want glory or to be some hero #i don’t think Jason mentions it much but they kids and grandkids mention in BOO is very telling #Percy’s is from the musical but whatever we all know the musical is canon #and show Percy thinking something is wrong with him and that he needs a mental evaluation of some kind is #everything #I’m making that canon now #I’d love to get a Thalia book #a trilogy maybe #first book is her with her mom and Jason + Luke and Annabeth on the run #ending with her dying #2nd book takes place after her resurrection and during the the war #final book is life with the hunters #and how she found peace in a world designed for her to struggle #I feel like out of all of them big three kids she’s the only one who got her happy ending #and in the fandom the hunters have gotten the reputation of being where Rick puts characters that can’t be shipped with anyone #but I really don’t think it’s the case with her #she’s also one of the only demigods where I think her story has come to a close #like it’s done #Percy’s story is almost done too #Nico and Hazel I feel aren’t quite there yet #percy jackson #thalia grace #hazel levesque #jason grace #nico di angelo #pjo hoo toa #heroes of olympus #percy jackon and the olympians

[seagull-scribbles]

If I don’t survive the night,

If I make it to the morning-

#tmnt 2003 #casey jones #raphael splinterson #does this count as 03 when it is technically the reboot #TMNT turtles forever #rasey #don’t get me wrong this can be platonic but I’m mentally Ill so I’m tagging the ship regardless #me and my friend watched this like 7 months ago but urgh the bit where raph goes back shouting for Casey and Leo has to grab his shoulder #to lead him out of harms way……urgh #couldn’t stop thinking about it and really wanted to draw them hugging #have done a rasey gift for my friend and almost did 03 hugging but I didn’t something else so #had to get this out my system regardless #shoutout to ray Leo and Rena for letting me pester you while I did this #one one month left of 2023….unreal…. #i just think when raph gets casey back audience be damned hell give him the biggest tightest hug he can #theyre just peas in a pod in this version just so completely in sync and inseperable #i cant cope im ugly crying over this #i wish i was good with words

[lekoppadraws]

Hoot Hoot

#toh #the owl house #toh comic #emerald entrails #hunter toh #eda clawthorne #lilith clawthorne #darius toh #willow park #gus porter #viney toh #skara toh #hooty toh #honestly I spent way too long on this one and it. messed up my characterization a bit #I originally figured Gus would be onboard with defending Hunter along with the rest of the Emerald Entrails #but very cautious (/jealous) of him getting close to Willow #that head cannon went right out the window after Labyrinth Runners aired #almost didn’t post after that but I figured it’s still kinda funny so here we are

[akkivee]

hayama-san looked checked out these few days for the live so i’m not surprised he messed up in the end lol but the venue actually didn’t have a/c running so i was a bit worried some of that was the heat frying his brain ☹️☹️☹️💜💜💜

#this is vee speaking #like i was forged in the fires of hell so i could deal lol but that first day i think some of the haziness stemmed from that heated venue #very thankful no one passed out but i could tell vibes were keeping a lot of us up #it was funny tho lmao when hayama-san just didn’t start singing we ALL started screaming at him LOL #sakakihara-san and takeuchi-san kicking at him for getting caught sleeping was cute lmao #BUT THEY WERE SUPPORTING IN THE END KII-KUNS AD LIB HAD ME CRYING I ALMOST FORGOT 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜 #THEY ARE FAMILYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

[seraphicalsuccubus]

oh no I smoked too much weed and gave myself zoomies both from the excitement from my new peak pro and the excitement from the new weed itself and def smoked way more than I should have and probs will continue to smoke more than I should because of this double dose of excitement until I finally just pass out after days of hardly sleeping recently lmao

but ANYWAYS before that happens !!! I currently have the strongest urge to go wreck people in fucking battlegrounds to level one of my assorted disc priests and because like …. ever since I got 100k honorable kills achieve, I’ve wanted that goddamn fucking ‘the Bloodthirsty’ title from the 250k honorable kills achieve and I was farming that before I stopped having the drive to game a few months back.

so let’s see how queues go at 2am on a fucking Wednesday morning, I wonder if I’ll give up before I find a bracket with fast pvp queues tonight tbh. it’s more likely I’ll end up pugging a raid on my mistweaver main if it takes too long to get into a battleground just to preoccupy myself for a bit and try to get a chance at trinkets and shit lmao

#this is huge tho I haven’t WANTED to game enough to drag my laptop out and play in MONTHS #I logged in for the first time in ages the other day and I had so much fun in my battlegrounds I didn’t even realize we were winning #I was just having a fucking blast being a healer and a menace because I’m playing a disc priest rn of course lmao #and now I want to game again so bad but like mindlessly and bgs are mindless to me I guess??? #like they’re so easy and all muscle memory and hardly take any thought so I think I could function enough to fuck some people up for a bit #or raiding Amirdrassil on LFR or normal. also pretty mindless even when pugging groups and all that. #everything’s usually one shot one kill or like 2 shots per kill max because people learn from their mistakes !!! #but like as a healer I know my shit so it’s just mindless (except for Larodar ((MY BELOVED)) because I LOVE that fight and get super into it #his dialogue is just too fuckin good and the voice??? truly chefs kiss like perfect voice casting #almost as fantastic as Sire Denathrius tbh and that’s like the big vocally satisfying one for me LMAO #this tag rant went on a wild roller coaster what the fuck I am so sorry for anyone who read these #I’m trying to read them back and I can’t even understand my fucking thought process LMFAO

[llumimoon]

Sorry for no comic two weeks in a row, have a little Dot to keep u company in exchange <3

#dndads #doodle dot au #cal draws #dungeons and daddies #the doodler #I really like this outfit for them lol I think it’s gonna be their main one from now on #its almost finals so I’ve been a lil busy with school stuff so I’ve only got the time to draw on the weekends #so it’s kinda panned out that I’ve been drawing other stuff and didn’t get the chance to get a page done lol

[mars-ipan]

GODDD.

#marzivents #to preface. i am SLIGHTLY buzzed. as in i have had a single mimosa almost an hour ago #today there has been a… weird??? energy with the family?? #my mom and dad are on two different frequencies today but like they’re managing so whatever #my brother and i have been normal i suppose #but we’ve been all together for a little bit to celebrate the new uear and such #clock hits 12. we celebrate. everybody has One mimosa. not a lot at all #that buzz hits me and i’m hanging out. i’m feeling good! #my brother says something or other and we start the motions of one of our go-to sibling disagreements you know the type #and my mother cuts me off says like ‘let’s all relax’ or whatever. i didn’t feel that angry but like?? sure? fine whatever #we stop and i move on. once again not a huge deal to me #then my dad does smth or other. my mom’s been razzing him all day so i decide alright i will also razz him. a little lighthearted teasing #it is NOTHING different from what i normally do. just slightly more frequent #and my dad goes ‘i can’t have an opinion on anything huh?’ and i- committed to the bit- go ‘no <3’ with a smile on my face #like i am simply wanting to fuck around!! the way you do with friends! that is all i am doing! #i get in some other thing with my brother for like .2 seconds before my mom tells us to ‘stop fighting’ again. alright cool #this sort of thing continues. and the air in the room becomes super tense for some goddamn reason??? #eventually my dad heads to the garage and my brother follows. while they’re gone my mom tells me i need to cool it and i’m being aggressive #i???? huh???? what??? #i was gonna turn to HER and crack a joke like ‘how do you get them to understand that loud doesn’t mean angry?’ #because that’s an issue SHE has all the damn time! i was gonna turn to her and bond! but she says that before i can even start to #so my attempt to ease the remaining tension in the room is dead on arrival. in fact the room is even TENSER #maybe it was the champagne or smth but it just fucking got to me. i shut up and turn away and start trying to collect myself #i’m realizing two things. 1- my emotions are less in my control right now and i cannot collect myself here. 2- I Need To Fucking Scream #so i silently pack up and head to my room. my mom knows better and asks no questions #as i was typing this post my brother walks in. i shoo him out without words but he tries to ask questions so i just repeat until he gets it #i feel fucking insane. what the fuck did i DO???? i literally was just fucking razzing. i do that all the time #and sure. i was louder. and yeah it was probably slightly more razzing than i normally would. but i DO NOT FUCKING GET how those two things #would cause as MUCH of a reaction as they did!!! like. i . hello??? #the rest is in the replies bc i am out of tags but i am not out of feelings

[applecherry108]

Yooo about your au!

As an olny child I tend to keep things mostly to myself thinking 'Yeah I can handle this alone' when I actually can't- does that happen to Leo too?

Alsooo- One of my friends who has siblings and took care of them basically always- but the thing is, they tend to become very childish whenever there is anyone old or mature enough to keep them in check around. Like they are very responsible and all but the momment there is a parent figure around they are a child.

Could this happen to Leo? Like take care for example: Mickey

But the momment anyone slightly older is around he just goes on 'time to be a child mode'

Sorry for rambling but I really like your au! ^^

I’ve been thinking about it as I solidify what Leo is actually like in this au, and… Leo wouldn’t actually put everything everything on his shoulders. Because he meets April way earlier than he did in canon (he’s maybe…5-8 when he meets her?), so he actually thinks of himself as a younger brother rather than an older one. He knows he has brothers but given how they were essentially separated at birth, he doesn’t know anything about them. What they look like, how they act, what their age order is. Honestly, he probably subconsciously thinks of himself as the baby of the family bc their presence is always looming over them.

But then they meet. And it’s weird. Raph is bigger than him, Donnie’s more mature than him, but yeah. Then there’s Mikey. And given how he and Mikey were separated (comic in progress lol), I think he’d be very very protective of him. Except this Mikey doesn’t need protecting? If anyone needs it, it’s their two “older” brothers who grew up relatively sheltered all things considered. And maybe that’s where Serious Leader Leo kicks in, because he kind of finally gets it, that his family needs protecting. He needs to take care of them and he had the only parent that prepared him for that.

But he’d definitely be suuuuuper awkward around the other parents at first. 😂 It took a long time for him and Splinter to mend their own relationship but even then Leo has never had….a real adult figure? And given all the terrible things he’s heard about Mama and Draxum and The Foot Clan, he wouldn’t be able to go full Babey mode for quite a while around them. That being said, even with his family back together and 4 additional parents in the mix, the moment Big Sister April walks in he goes FULL baby brother mode. 😂😂

#April is still April but her and Leo’s relationship is a lot more like canon Leo and Raph #splinter does eventually step up but for the first few years leo is almost fending for himself and then April becomes his primary caregiver #she teaches him how to read they go shopping together they just hang out and have fun and she helps set them up in the ‘condemned’ apartment #above hers… 🥺 she’s even the one who leads to his name. he didn’t…..have a name. before he met April. not even Blue (or green). just….. #‘my son’ 😢 #a lot of what she doesn’t isn’t exactly mothering Leo per say more like. calling splinter out on his bullshit. #she also gets formal ninja training with Leo tho so that’s cool #she’s also very encouraging of his goofball antics and him just….being a kid. #apple talks #parent trap au #rottmnt

[sapphicsnzs]

im so grateful for this corner of the internet where i can just get my frustrations out

#self obs #i will delete this later but i just need to get it out #i told my two best friends about how i got rejected and they both were just like move on lol #like i don’t think they realize how awful i feel right now like literally that was my dream and im scared im never gonna be able to do it #i also somehow have to tell my parents and that’s a whole different problem #my parents are already up my ass about me quitinh my job for no reason #well basically i think they’re trying to get me to move home for the summer which doesn’t make sense to quit my job i’ve been working at #for almost a year to come back and get a job for a month #but like i can’t think of another reason that my parents would randomly want me to quit my job #so i’m stressed about that and now i also have to tell them i got rejected and now i can’t start the part of my degree that i need for my #fucking job and fuck i’m so stressed and don’t know what to do #and im just like so embarrassed and everyone is acting like its not a big deal even tho like if i apply again i probably won’t even get it #because i didn’t even make it past the interview phase and anyways im just so upset with myself and everything #i like actually thought my life was turning around and i was gonna be happy finally but nope #anyways this is just me sobbing and trying to let out my frustrations because no one will actually listen or validate that i’m upset #whatever im gonna go drink some wine and probably pass out on the floor of my room

[songtwo]

idk i think my bf might be developing a drinking problem and i just don’t know what to do…..

#it’s been going on for a couple of months now but he promised he would stop and he had been doing well until today…. #and it’s like. on one hand i never wanted to be w an alcoholic and i told him straight so he promised it would stop #but on the other hand i can’t just abandon him #and it’s like we used to go out a lot and party but like. that was it but ever since he met this guy he just gets lost when he drinks w him #and the thing was he got like aggressive like he didn’t do anything to me and i can’t really explain it but he just wasn’t himself #and like. we talked about it a million times and it’s not like it happens every week #it’s been like 5 times since december #but 3 have been on the past month alone #and two weeks ago it got bad like he almost got into an accident #and like i’m not even physically w him anymore like we really only see each other once a week since i moved #and from the very first time it happened i told him i couldn’t be w him if it kept happening #and after that incident two weeks ago he swore it was the last time but it just happened again #by the way he and that guy get wasted it really is a miracle they get home alive #and like. idk what to do #i really don’t want to be w someone like this #and i hate feeling like this like if i were to think only about myself i don’t want this i hate feeling like this #but i also can’t abandon him #like not even bc i would miss him or whatever i just wouldn’t feel good leaving him alone #but like i don’t want to live like this #maybe i’ll ask for some time to just figure things out #but it’s gonna suck so bad bc we were supposed to see kendrick lamar next week and then we already had plans for his bday and omfg #i don’t wanna leave but i don’t want things to be like this either #and i asked him to stop and gave him multiple chances but idk #i just don’t know what to do #i love him endlessly but i need to put myself first but i can’t abandon him:( #and our 1.5 anniversary was also next week….. #but i think time is the sanest and safest thing right now

[everythingwasalreadypicked]

Hazel godly parent swap idea!!!

So, instead of Pluto, it's Trivia.(Hecate) But not just any child of Trivia, one of those murdered by the gods at the Battle of Manhattan. (Cough cough the massacre of Titan army demigods who cough) So she still comes back from the dead, she is just not from decades ago.

This creates problems for her as 1) Trivia is a virgin goddess, 2) if the Romans find out she is ex-Ta she is dead, 3) if the gods find out she is alive she is dead, 4) she knows who Percy Jackson is but can't tell anything without giving herself away.

#Hazel being one of the few children of Hecate that didn’t go to fields of punishment #but instead she was still in asphodel #her replacing the place of Al with Nico #who got her out of the Underworld #she has no idea where Al is #but she saw most of her sibs getting dragged by furies #oh no what will Octavian blackmail her with if she doesn't have the gem curse (hint hint it's the Ta stuff) #anyways wouldn't it be cool if at least one(1) member of the Seven was a child of a minor god #it's almost like children of the minor gods not being recognised caused problems right Rick?! #pjo #hazel levesque #hecate pjo #pjo au #Hazel godly parent swap au #Trivia!Hazel

[dai-nana-han-agenda]

What's your response to people saying Sasuke viewing Team 7 as his family is “unrealistic” because they only knew each other for a few months?

Ouuu I’m sorry this is such a late response, I was drafting it out and I totally forgot to finish it!

Figuring out the timeline of Naruto is HELL, but from what I gather, Sasuke was a part of Team 7 for about a year. For plot purposes, we don’t really see how Team 7 bonds, but we know they basically meet up / train / go on missions every day. During the Wave arc, Kakashi gives the whole “abandoning your teammates makes you worse than scum” speech to a group of impressionable 12 year olds. Not only that, he’s been drilling the idea of teamwork since the very first meeting. On top of all that, it’s established at the academy that it’s essential for teams to gel if they want to survive on the field (the team becomes your second family, wink wink.)

Considering all of that, no I don’t think it’s unrealistic to believe that Sasuke begins to cherish Team 7 (something that is CANONICALLY proven, and I’ll prove it after this.) His time with his team provides structure, routine, and an escape from his relentless thoughts abt revenge (and if there’s one thing I know, kids need routine and structure, even if regrettably, that comes from being a fucking child soldier.) Team 7 becomes Sasuke’s support system. I’m not pulling this out of my ass btw - after seeing Itachi again, Sasuke himself acknowledges that because he spent so much time being with his team, he forgot abt his revenge (for clarification cos I’m too lazy to find the manga page, this is when Kisame and Itachi come after Naruto while he’s training w Jiraiya.)

During the invasion arc / Naruto’s fight against Gaara, Sasuke calls Naruto and Sakura his “precious comrades.” (Even without the words, if you read the manga, it’s clear from Sasuke’s body language that he cares about/is very protective over his team.) When Kakashi is trying to convince Sasuke to forget about his revenge, Naruto and Sakura are the people he thinks about.

Somewhere between the formation of Team 7 and Sasuke’s defection, Naruto and Sakura have become important people to Sasuke, so much so that the thought of leaving them behind almost convinces him to stay (but of course, in the end, his hatred for Itachi and need for revenge wins over.)

I’ve seen the criticisms and I’ll admit that the execution of Team 7 as a family is not as strong as it could’ve been. But I do think that if you read the manga, you can see Kishimoto’s efforts. And canonically, Sasuke cares deeply about Naruto and Sakura, and anyone who tries to argue against that is wrong 🤷🏻‍♀️

#i always see people say shit like omg nrt and skra don’t rly care abt ssk cos they never actually supported him #like let’s get something straight #nrt and skra supported ssk killing itachi even if they didn’t understand it #what they didn’t support was ssk going off w orochimaru’s psycho ass and being consumed by his hatred #i’m gonna touch on skra and ssk’s relationship specifically bc i feel like nrt & ssk’s is strong on its own #but as much as the fandom shits on skra’s crush on ssk there’s something v innocent/protective abt skra’s love for him #lemme explain: after ssk gets the curse mark skra threatens to tell kakashi abt it. ssk lashes out at her #skra continues to express her concern abt ssk and the way his hatred/desire for revenge is consuming him #when she confronts him before he leaves the village she tells him that getting revenge won’t lead to happiness #this is basically the same discussion kakashi had with sasuke earlier that day #all skra rly wants for ssk is for him to be happy #is that naive? yes probably. but i don’t think her crush on him was as superficial as people make it out to be #let me remind y’all that skra was one of the first people that saw firsthand what the curse mark did to ssk #all she wanted was for him not to fall deeper into that darkness #team 7 has always been compassionate to ssk. they just didn’t want to see him destroyed by his hatred. #which is essentially what almost happens to him in shippuden #I can keep going but for the sake of readability i won’t #team 7 #pro team 7 #dai nana han #ask #thanks for the ask!

[polysyndetonaddictsupportgroup]

Megumi’s life in ur “tsumiki and megumi are seperated” AU is super fucked. Does Gojo secretly put him on supervillain watch. Does he try to give him the worst counselling anyone has ever seen.

Worse he keeps trying to become Megumi’s New Dad and Megumi cannot emphasize enough how much he does not want him to do this. Why does Gojo keep asking him to throw a baseball with him. Why does he keep trying to ruffle his hair.

#Gojo tried to give him The Talk and megumi immediately turned around and tried to walk into traffic #because he’s the funniest motherfucker that ever was in any universe #it’s important to note that Megumi’s life in that AU is super fucked but almost no one knows the scope of it #megumis taking that shit to his grave #hes finally in a better place and he really really does not want anyone else to know about what he considers a really humiliating experience #he hates feeling weak is the thing and no one has ever made him feel weak the way his family did #he didn’t have any power over his own life and it was /humiliating/ #everyone else had normal childhoods and there he was being micromanaged so excessively that he wasn’t allowed to bathe and dress himself jn #until fucking high school. and even then it was only because the Zenin couldn’t hassle him at school #like it’s super obvious to everyone that the Zenin abused him but #no one knows just how bad it was #tsumiki knows he made some kind of deal so the Zenin would take care of her but he refuses to tell her what it was because he doesn’t want #to admit he tried to hurt himself. he doesn’t want her to know how bad it got. #maki knows better than anyone but 1) she doesn’t know most of it and 2) she’s not telling anyone about it either. Megumi’s her boy. she’s #not betraying his already fragile trust by airing out his business to other people #it’s sort of painfully obvious the Zenin used to beat him but no one talks about it. Megumi would shut down if anyone tries #like his life was sort of terrible and he didn’t see it getting better but somehow it did and he just wants the past to die #he wants what happened to be dead and buried and over and he knows it’s far from it but he just. he doesn’t want anyone to know.

[writhe]

jumped into a freezing lake today with friends

#i was the last one in bc i almost didn’t go bc i’m feeling Bad #and i made everyone laugh! #and then i bought my housemate sushi and ice cream bc she’s in the throes of finals #and she and my other housemate sent out their wedding invited today and it was joyous #i got up at 5 did a delivery shift tried to get vaxxed (no walk ins on weekends) #got groceries and then napped and then went to the lake #went home dried off and hiked with frank #and now i am at franks house and we’ll have dinner and take it easy #i wish i could go out but feeling too nervous about covid and too weird for the big world right now #i walked 6 miles again today!