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dovrt · 2 days

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There are five parts to this story. Five people. Like the points of a star. Five stories. Four families. Five very, very traumatized kids. Though they weren't just kids at the end of it, that's how they started.

Regulus doesn't know when it all went wrong. When everything went to the dogs. Maybe it was when he begged Kreacher to leave without him. Maybe it was when he stepped into the cave with a fake locket in hand. Maybe it was when the Dark lord asked for Kreacher specifically. Maybe it was when he got the mark burned on his arm, more of a brand than a tattoo. Maybe it was when James Potter left and all the light seemed to leave his world. Maybe it was when his brother left their home. Maybe it was before that, when they were just kids. Maybe his tragedy was written far before he was born.

Whatever the reason. He was the first to die. Certainly not the last.

So he should be the narrator. It's something poetic, he thinks. The dead watching over the living. He was the first to go and like idiots, his friends followed.

The first time Regulus Black met Evan and Pandora Rosier, he was four. Sirius was five and disruptive already. He could never sit still. Evan and Pandora could.

And though four year old Regulus held his brother in the highest regard, he also wished for peace and quiet sometimes. He was also a rule following little shit. So if his mother said he had to get to know the children of other pureblood families, that is what he intended to do.

Regulus was fascinated by Evan and Pandora the first time he met them. There was just some other-worldly quality to them. As if they hadn't been meant to live on Earth at all.

And though they shared the same features with the rest of their family- meticulously styles blond hair and blue eyes, they didn't look like they quite belonged there either.

Evan Rosier had always been an enigma, someone entirely impossible to miss even if one was trying. And believe him, at first, Regulus tried. If Pandora was the rose, Evan was the bush. Guarded, prickly, but once he opened up, there was no telling when he would shut up.

Regulus grew fond of his annoying rants about any and every topic.

They never did talk about their parents. that was a forbidden topic. What happened in a family stayed in a family. No matter how close the Rosiers and the Blacks were, no matter if they were actually related.

Evan saw the marks on Regulus' pale skin. Regulus saw Evan flinch when his father raised his voice. Pandora saw Regulus shrink into the corner. Regulus saw her dissociate when it all got too much.

Pandora Rosier, named after a tragedy. She had told him the myth behind her name the first time they met. It felt jarring having a four year old casually say something so tragic without blinking. Regulus grew to like her queer habits, her strange stories and her ways.

Like Regulus, their paths were set in stone. Evan would grow and have to take over from his father. He would be betrothed and marry whichever pureblood his parents chose for him.

Regulus found cracks in his acts sometimes. His father did too. Little flinches, little frowns and scowls. He never spoke up, never said anything, but made it abundantly clear he never wanted any of that.

Pandora would have to marry some pureblood as well. The best suitor their parents could find, anyone that could strengthen their ties and keep their blood pure. She had suggested getting married to Regulus once as a joke and the three of them laughed all afternoon long.

Regulus knew he wasn't normal by the time he was seven or eight. When his eyes lingered on the boys his age at the balls. He would sail though the room with Pandora in his arms, trying his best not to step on her toes as they danced. But his eyes would seek out others. Even Evan at a point (they laughed about it later when they got older).

Regulus had known about the Dark Lord far before he stepped foot into Hogwarts. The wizard was like a dark shadow over him and his family. But merely a shadow, or so Regulus thought when he was younger. A boogey man in the shadows parents told children about to scare them into obedience.

As such, before he was eleven, Regulus had only known one type of people. The ones like his family. Pureblood, racist, rich assholes his brother despised so much.

It had been made abundantly clear to him that he wasn't his brother and he should never even try to be. After the disappointment of him getting sorted into Gryffindor, his parents had started to give up him.

Which still left Regulus in their clutches.

Regulus met Barty Crouch Jr in the line to get sorted. With their names so close in alphabetical order, they ended up right after one another.

But there was something that transcended their meeting. Something inevitable. Like two stars hurtling toward each other across the universe, finally exploding in a fiery supernova.

Barty Crouch jr was insane. That is the first impression Regulus remembered having of him. Even though he was a pureblood, Regulus had been told by his parents he was of the lesser kind. His father, a muggleborn sympathizer, which made him of the same category as the muggles. Filthy and disgusting.

Regulus tried to limit their interaction. But it was impossible to ignore Barty. Not because he had something profound to say or because he was magnetic. But simply because he talked a lot.

It was sometimes like he stole all the light in the room he walked into and put it over himself until there was nothing else to see but him. Until people had no choice but to look at him.

Regulus despised that about him at first. He and Evan gossiped under their covers about him in their first year after they had all been sorted together.

Just because they were all in one dorm did not necessarily mean they would have to be friends. So Regulus and Evan stuck together, with Pandora who would walk over from her Ravenclaw table over to their Slytherin one occasionally.

Barty tried to force his way into their little group, but they were pretty tight knit. Evan took his hatred for Barty Crouch jr as seriously as his father's for muggles.

Until one day when a girl sitting next to them laughed.

Regulus had first thought of Dorcas Meadowes as someone unimportant solely because she wasn't one of them, not from a pureblood family and not rich and certainly not a blood purist.

Sometimes, he thought he wouldn't be who he was if it wasn't for Dorcas Meadowes. She was witty and charming, quick to bite back and poke fun. She never took their insults to heart, going so far as to insult them back.

Pandora befriended her first. Then Evan who got dragged into it by his sister and then eventually, yes, even Regulus.

Barty Crouch jr was the first boy Regulus ever kissed. He promptly turned around and walked out of their dorm the moment they separated, his heart beating so fast in his chest he had thought it would fall out.

He hated Barty, like Evan did. Hated him because he did things like that, wrapped Regulus around his finger with pretty words and batting his eyelashes and then kissed him. He hated Barty because he pulled Regulus deeper and deeper into a hell Regulus knew he couldn't escape.

It was second year when Regulus first saw Barty with a bruise on his jaw that he wasn't bragging about. He was quiet, which was uncharted territory for Barty. And so, despite all his common sense telling him not to, Regulus became friends with Barty.

Dorcas never bought into the whole blood supremacy, her parents weren't like theirs. Regulus was so jealous of her, though he'd never admit that aloud. Dorcas didn't have to pledge her allegiance to the dark lord, never had to suffer through dinner with families like his, never had the fear that perforated every single inch of Regulus.

Regulus and Evan had to join. They had no other choice. It was allegiance or death. It caused the first rift between them and the girls. Barty, Regulus still thinks, just joined to defy his father. Or it might have something to do with the longing glances he shared with Evan, their silent beds at night, almost as if spells had been cast to keep eavesdroppers away, their clandestine meetings, their disshelved looks as they emerged from rooms alone.

In any case, knowing their story doesn't change the ending. Regulus still lost the love of his life. He still went against the dark lord. He still died. All for nothing.

The last time he saw Evan Rosier, he had a feeling his best friend knew. Evan kept the conversation going, bringing random topics as if desperate to keep Regulus talking to him, as if that could delay the inevitable, as if he could steal time to keep his best friend a little longer.

Regulus lingered in his doorway a moment longer than needed.

The last time he saw Pandora, he sobbed in her arms. He clung like she was the only constant in his life. He sobbed in her arms like she was who Sirius was supposed to be for him.

And she held him without complaint. She sobbed with him, begging him not to go.

Regulus did not linger in her doorway.

If there was anyone who could have convinced him not to do what he was planning to, it was her.

The last time he saw Dorcas, they had a fight. Regulus wanted to shake her by her shoulders. I'm going to die. He wanted to yell at her. I'm going to die, please don't let these be my last words to you. Please don't remember me like this.

Coward, she called him.

The word replayed in his head all the way to the cave.

I'm trying to be brave. He wanted to tell her. He wanted to tell James.

The last time he saw Barty, they got drunk. Just two kids, laughing and giggling among themselves. Regulus was tempted to tell him what he was going to do. He didn't.

He'd find out from the papers like the others.

Barty, eyes half lidded, that troublemaker smile on his face that Regulus had hated at first, sat back and pulled out a box from his pocket.

I'm going to ask him to marry me. He said. I don't care if the preacher doesn't marry us, I'll carve his heart out for Evan. I'll carve my own out for him.

Barty was just the sort of deranged who actually would.

Regulus lingered in his doorway, staring at a passed out Barty. He walked back in, kissed his hair, closed the ring box in his hand and put it back in his pocket before he left.

Barty didn't ask Evan to marry him. Not after Regulus never came back to them. Not after they both kept waiting for their star.

Dorcas wailed like Regulus had never heard her. She clutched her chest, her lover holding her like she could protect her from the evils of the world. And Dorcas collapsed in her arms.

And Regulus knew they were all broken far before that day.

Pandora didn't cry. She didn't laugh from that day on either.

Evan died next. A battle that too. Just the sort of dramatics Barty loved. Regulus watched it all play out.

Barty was too headstrong, too obsessed with going against his father, even if it meant being on opposite sides of the wand.

He was angry, so angry. He didn't know how Regulus died, or what he died doing. Maybe he thought Regulus died because of the other side. Whatever the reason, he took his anger out on others, on anyone not Death Eaters.

He was grinning one moment, using the Cruciatus curse on some ministry employee. He was laughing, oh gods, what had they come to?

He looked away, searching for the love of his life. Evan was halfway across the room, locked in a duel with Alastor Moody. Evan was a strong wizard, Barty knew, so he laughed when Evan blasted the guy's face, blowing nearly a chunk of his face off.

Moody had lost and eye, Barty was so proud of his lover, and Evan laughed as he looked at Barty.

Evan had a ring in his pocket now. Barty's was in a box full of Regulus' things. Maybe in another life, Evan could have asked him only for Barty to pull his ring out. They'd cry and laugh as they slid their rings on.

Instead, in the split second it took for Evan to look at Barty, in love, distracted, Moody sent a killing curse. It hit him straight in the chest. Evan was dead before the grin was wiped off Barty's face.

Dorcas died next. She never did talk to Barty ever again. Not when he came sobbing on her doorstep, on his knees. He lost everything. And so had she.

Marlene had just been killed the week before. Barty pleaded and begged, told her it was Peter Pettigrew who killed her. Dorcas did not believe him.

The Dark lord himself had to kill her.

And then there were two.

Pandora died soon after. Regulus was glad she at least got to have a husband, someone she loved. Her parents were dead, her brother also gone, and her best friends. All dead. She had a daughter, a small bundle of joy with hair so blond it was almost white and with the same curiosity in her eyes Pandora always had.

It was good. Until one day it wasn't.

And Barty was left alone, to wander for years. The only one left.

He didn't join them in the after life. But the Dementor kiss isn't what stole his soul. He had died far before his mortal body did.

He died when Regulus did. He died when Evan did. He died when Dorcas did. And he died when Pandora did. So when it was his time to leave. There was nothing left in him.

#marauders #regulus black #dead gay wizards #hogwarts #slytherin skittles #barty crouch junior #dorcas meadowes #pandora #evan rosier #jegulus #rosekiller #dorlene #james potter #starchaser #the marauders #sirius black

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bleedingichorhearts · 3 days

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So um... can you pretty please write some post-nails Angron? Or Post-nails worldeater, I'm not picky if you don't write for primarchs! It doesn't have to be NSFW or anything of course, but it can be if you want.

So many thanks, I need these sad, sad people.

𝕬𝖚𝖙𝖍𝖔𝖗: Little anon, I shall indulge your need for these tragic men. However, I would love to do Post-Nails Angron if I didn’t feel like I about absolutely butcher his character and any other characters of WH30k-WH40k. Plus, I don’t know their lore much, but I got some books on the fandom I've been meaning to read. Suggestions on books will are welcomed since I’m practically new to this fandom. Maybe one of these days I will test my writing on a Primarch? But until then I’m going to use my World Eater Spartak for this one.

𝕿𝖆𝖌𝖌𝖊𝖉: @kit-williams, @egrets-not-regrets, @bispecsual, @gallifreyianrosearkytiorsusan, @sleepyfan-blog.

𝚃𝚛𝚊𝚗𝚜𝚕𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗:

Маленький мир - Little world - (Russian)

TW // Yandere Themes, Fluff.

Taking Spartak to the Apothecary was no easy task for you. He didn't like moving from place to place very much, considering your many escapades with him. It gets him all grouchy and sometimes unreasonable when you want to bring him somewhere.

He just doesn't want to go anywhere. He is fine where he just is, basking in your presence once more. Nuzzling into your stomach with his beefy arms wrapped around you, inhaling your scent. Your small being relaxing the nails he had when they should be raging at him for continuously bloodshed, but they never pained him when you were around. You were like his personal Apothecary yourself. Cooling the butchers nails off of him.

He hums when you gently drag your fingers over his metal nails in his head, his head shifting from your stomach to look up at you with half lidded, golden eyes. Studying your rather tense looking features. Your eyes looking beyond the walls of his nest, eyebrows scrunched up to a degree. You were thinking deeply of something that was worrying you.

Had... had he done something wrong? Had someone else done something wrong to his Маленький мир? Why did she looks so stressed with him? He hasn't done anything to make her think so... worriedly. The nails in his head dig a little; he ignores it.

"My Маленький мир, what is wrong?" He lowly croons up to his bonded, snapping her out of her thoughts, her eyes glancing down at him then away from him. Her mouth opening and closing in hesitance to tell him her thoughts.

He huffs when he lifts himself up from your stomach, his scarred arms moving beside you. The dip in the couch he makes with his weight dragging you down underneath him, his arms keeping you there, underneath him on the Astarte's-sized couch as he casts a shadow over your from. His eyes never moving away from you as you continue to struggle to voice out your thoughts to him. Your body shuffling a little back from him.

His nails dig at him again, his eyes narrowing. Were these thoughts about him? Someone else? You don't seem too keen on tell him so, unlike when he wants to pry something out of you.

"Маленький мир, please, tell me what is wrong." He asks nicely, gently putting his hand underneath her chin and tilting it up to him. Making her pretty little eyes filled with worry look up at him. "Do not avoid me."

"I-I'm not." She stutters at him, his eyebrow lifting up in questioning. She always had something up her sleeve to avoid him with. So what was she thinking of then? Unless she was lying to him, but her tounge speaks truth. He knows it. So, what was she hesitant to him about?

“What makes you hesitate, my Маленький мир.” He asks, his head coming forward to press against her forehead, calming his prickling nails. Khorne, he doesn’t know what he’ll do without her graceful touch.

“I’m… afraid you won’t like what I have to say.” She admits, a tone of worry lacing her words. The light scent of her fear becoming known to him.

He immediately nuzzles against her head, purring and cooing at his Маленький мир. Shifting his body where he curls over his little bonded, engulfing her with his body. His nose nuzzling in the crook of her neck. An awkward position for him, but his instinct to destroy that sliver of fear she has with him coming it fast and strong. His Маленький мир should not be afraid him. It’s not what he wants. He’s supposed to protect you. Not have you fear him.

“Khorne, Маленький мир.” He starts, his Russian accent coming out. “If I didn’t want to hear your pretty voice every day, I wouldn’t have pursued you.”

“I wouldn’t have brought you back to my nest.” He rumbles, kissing the side of her neck before pulling back to press their foreheads together, quietly purring. “Я бы не любил тебя, маленький мир.(I wouldn’t love you, little world.)”

“I… was just wondering if you were up for the nail removal.” She reveals her worry’s. Her hands coming up to drag her fingers around one of many scars on his arm. Nervous for his reaction.

“The butchers nails?” He questions, leaning back up as she winces beneath him, giving him a singular nod to him.

He hums, he has heard of this… removal or surgery before by other wandering World Eaters or Apothecaries mentioning it to him. Saying how it would give them much relief, even out in battle. Saying, without the pain of the nails it gaves them a much better thinking process, to strategize their opponents next move. Something he considers sometimes with his Маленький мир.

How is he to know he’ll return back to his Маленький мир if the pain of the nails suffocate him? How is he to know the next move of his opponent if all he could think about was pain? He knows that part of him scares his little bonded. Perhaps, it would be better if he agrees with this offer? His Маленький мир would be able to trace his head correctly then.

Khorne, but with the nails he provides much more strength with the pain edging him on to behead his enemies. To leave their blood staining the ground from where he would battle, but that scares his little Маленький мир. He knows it.

“I don’t think I would mind.” He speaks after a moment of thinking. If he did have them removed it doesn’t change much of him drastically. He would still fight for his Маленький мир for every ounce of blood left in him. A Blood Angel would have to drink him dry if he were to fall.

“You wouldn’t?” His Маленький мир looks up at him questionably. Shuffling back up on the couch to finally look at him properly; not avoiding him.

“No. I wouldn’t.” He confirms again to his little bonded. Watching how she perks up a little. His Маленький мир clearly liking his choice of words.

“Are you willing to go through it?” She questions him, still unsure with his answer and it put a small grin on his face. Such a worrying little thing.

“For you.” He responds, leaning back down to nuzzle into her neck, softly inhaling her relaxed scent. No more laced fear in it as she wraps her arms around his neck. “I am willing, for you.”

His Маленький мир nuzzles into his neck this time, making him softly trill out to her and kiss her soft cheek. His arms wrapping around her small figure and engulfing her once more with his body.

The surgery was hard and time consuming for the Apothecary’s to make sure his appointment was a success. His big frame having the affects of trying to remove a needle from the hay stack with the smaller nails in his brain, but with much patience and masters of the Apothecary. The surgery was a proud success.

Spartak almost eagerly awaits for his discharge from the apothecary. Wanting to return to his little bonded as soon as possible. Having done this without her knowledge, but the thought clearly made her feel more at ease with the nails gone. Cuddling with him and making no attempt to escape him, not like she could.

Once the Apothecary deems Spartak healed a ready to wander off to wherever he likes. He doesn’t hesitate to leave the base like he had a mission on mind. Never once hesitating in his tracks to go back to his nest where his Маленький мир should be.

Though, he can feel this spoken relief of the removal of what the nails did to him. It never yelled back at him or pushed him to do things he might regret later… It made him feel like his much younger self, before he had the nails before the Horus Heresy began. Before he was even a battle-brother. A sudden feeling made his gut drop and rise.

He… he needs his little bonded, his Маленький мир right now. He needs her comfort. Her scent to wrap around him as he nuzzles into her plush skin.

#warhammer 40k #space marine husbandry sentience #fanfiction #x reader #reader insert #space marine #space marine x reader #adeptus astartes #adeptus astartes x reader #oc: spartak #world eaters #tw: yandere #softy? possibly.#I’m a sucker for forehead on forehead kisses and eskimo kisses #he misses the old days

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vivitalks · 3 days

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we don't talk about it enough but duck and billy's relationship in amnesty is truly a tragic one.

imagine: you rescue a mindless drone. you save his life, you give him autonomy, you give him language. you teach him trust. you protect him at your own expense. you name him billy. he knows three words in your language, and one is your name. you promise to keep him safe, and he betrays his programming to help you in return. he defies everything he was designed to do in order to aid you.

you save him from being a drone, but in doing so, you kill him. he was never supposed to be here this long. you gave him freedom at the cost of rapid decay, and now he's dying. and if he could just go back to his home planet, he would live, but he doesn't want to. because you're here. duck newton, his first friend, his savior, his guardian. you showed him that there is a better way to live - with free will, with pizza and playstations.

he's damned if he stays and damned if he goes. but you can't watch him suffer. that's not who you are. you're duck newton, local beefcake, defender of the disadvantaged. so you wait until he's engrossed in his video game - in humanity, in freedom of choice - and you strike him down out of mercy.

billy reverts to his original form: a four-armed being of light, once a drone, now a friend. he's beginning to disintegrate, but he has unfinished business here. he never finished his video game. and you give him one last gift of mercy: you lie to him. don't worry, you tell him - that character you're worried about? she's fine in the end. no, i know it seems bleak now, but she turns out okay.

you can't give him anything else, so you give him hope. it's the same thing he gave to you, all those months ago when you saved him.

#the adventure zone #the adventure zone amnesty #taz #taz amnesty #duck newton #this user is normal about duck newton. NORMAL ABOUT DUCK NEWTON #this time around i did not cry at ned's death but yknow what i DID cry at? BILLY DEATH SCENE!#also i had to research ff7/aerith in order to accurately write this post and guys the plot of amnesty seems to have some things in common #and aerith in particular or at least the way she dies seems to be very similar to billy's sitch #then again i dont play video games and idfk anything #so dont come for me #stuff #i know billy comes back and saves the day but EVEN STILL #this post is not supposed to be a shippy thing is anyone even out there shipping duck/billy i doubt it #that'd be WILD. but anyway. no this is just about the intense loyalty from an alien goatman and his savior duck newton

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mamawasatesttube · 3 days

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Do you have any comic recommendations for someone who’s trying to get more into Kon and the other teen heroes?

sure thing!! sorry i took a while to answer this, i've been travelling and wanted to actually sit down and take the time to get you links to some lists :)

so for the young justice team in general, here's a reading list of all the peripheral stories and tie-ins that go along with young justice (1998)! yj98 is probably the easiest place to start if you don't really know any of them.

for cassie, since she doesn't have any long solos like the boys do, here's a list of all of her appearances.

i also have a list of all of tim's appearances, but i know that bc he has So Fucking Many it can be pretty overwhelming, so for tim i'd mostly just rec his solo, robin (1993)! that is still pretty long but it is a Good story about his overall character arc and i rly love it so i will just rec the entirety, but i can also go through and find my fav arcs if you prefer a smaller selection sdkjfh

i don't have on-hand a similar list for bart yet but for him i will just say Read Impulse (1995). Do It. Impulse (1995) Is The Comic Of All Time. it's not that long comparatively (as in, less than 100 issues) and it's just suuuch a good story!!!

AND FOR KON: firstly here's a list of all HIS appearances. but also let me get on my soapbox really quick and say once again that i love superboy (1994)!!!! reign of the supermen is kon's origin story, which is probably easiest to read as a tpb (it follows the events of the death of superman), and then superboy '94 follows his further adventures. if you aren't aware, there is grooming and heavily implied statutory rape in this comic that gets... pretty excused by the narrative as being like. haha teen boys like adult women! and that sucks but also makes for a fascinating, tragic, accidental look at the way vulnerable kids get exploited from so many angles.

as for the general konmic reading experience, if getting into Every Single Appearance is (understandably!) too much at first, i also once wrote up this post about the major points to hit!

#answers #thealchemistal #i hope all this helps and happy reading!

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katsco · 16 hours

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orpheus and eurydice: a dbd essay

Orpheus and Eurydice is a tragic love story, they call it love at first sight and marry after Orpheus returns from an expedition but she unfortunately dies from a snake bite. Orpheus travels to the underworld and begs Hades to let him take Eurydice back with him, Hades agrees but on the condition that Orpheus cannot look at her until they are both back into the light and so their journey begins. Orpheus relies on Eurydice's footsteps alone to know she is following him and after a long journey they finally make it out, however Orpheus turns to look at Eurydice too early as she had not made it into the light yet which leads to her being taken back into the underworld forever.

Charles, without knowing the entire story, compares him and Edwin to this tragic tale. As they are travelling out of hell, Edwin stops him to confess his love which lead Charles to asking it this were 'one of those Orpheus and Eurydice' moments to which Edwin has to explain it ended in tragedy and Charles to reveal he never finished it.

Despite Charles having never finished this story he knew the main parts: Orpheus and Eurydice were in love, Orpheus would travel to the underworld to bring her back, Orpheus couldn't handle being apart from Eurydice and that Hades allows Orpheus to bring Eurydice back. Charles knew all of this, and with him and Edwin standing on the stairs to Hell, couldn't help but compare their situation to that or Orpheus and Eurydice.

Charles didn't fully understand his own feelings at this point but he knew that there was no one he loved more than Edwin, no one else he would go to Hell for and that no one is more important to him than Edwin, and so it only made sense that he bring up the one love story he knew could relate, the love story where Orpheus travels to the underworld just for Eurydice, the story in which Orpheus can't bear to be without his one true love he will do anything to bring her back. This in many ways suggest that even without Charles fully understanding it, he truly loves Edwin in the same way Edwin loves him.

Charles and Edwin's story almost goes backwards to Orpheus and Eurydice's, They meet each other in their deaths but they immediately decide that they want to spend eternity with each other and so they spend thirty years together before Edwin is tragically dragged back to Hell. This leads Charles to bargain so he can go to Hell and save Edwin which then leads to Edwin confessing his love on the stairs of Hell. The stories share many similarities but also a fair few differences, the key one being theirs ends happily while Orpheus' and Eurydice's ends tragically, and so it only makes sense that they were compared to each other.

Edwin loves Charles with his entire being, Charles is the best person he knows and is the only person he seems to truly feel comfortable around, they met just after Edwin escaped Hell and despite him not believing he's good with people he very quickly grew on Charles. A lot of Edwin's story revolves around him figuring out his own emotions, his attraction to boys but more importantly what love is for him. He grew up in a time period where public displays of affection, even with a man and woman, were frowned upon and then he died at age sixteen and was stuck in Hell for seventy years. Edwin doesn't know what love is or what it means to him and so a lot of his storyline follows along him figuring it all out. He grows to find out that he is in love with his best friend and he needs him to know, he knows there's a chance doesn't feel the same but he still needs him to know.

Edwin knows the story and Orpheus and Eurydice, he knows it ends tragically but he also knows that it is still a love story. He knows all of this and he listens to Charles, immediately after he confesses his love, compare them two too that story. Edwin knows Charles doesn't feel the same, or at least not yet, but he also knows that Charles compared them to one of the greatest tragic love stories and so while Charles may not replicate the feelings he at least knows that Charles values him just as much as he values Charles.

Charles comes from a time period where being queer was more of a thing but still not widely accepted, he lived at a time where they existed but they were still often the victims of hate crimes and he grew up during the AIDS pandemic so being queer wasn't the best thing still. He also unfortunately grew up with an abusive dad who wanted Charles to be perfect, Charles would promise his dad he would do better and be better so it's no wonder that Charles doesn't fully understand his own feelings. Charles is most likely bisexual but he has yet to figure out his feeling regarding that and yet he still compared him and Edwin to one of the most famous tragic love stories.

Charles may not completely understand his feelings but he does know that Edwin is 'the most important person in the world' to him, that he is the only one he would ever go to hell for and so to him it was a perfect story to compare them too. Charles proceeds to tell Edwin they have 'literally forever to figure out the rest' because while he doesn't claim to be in love with Edwin back he knows how important Edwin is to him and he knows that there is something else to it.

Orpehus and Eurydice were soulmates, they were made for each other and Orpheus could not bear to live without Eurydice which led to him travelling to the underworld for her. Edwin ad Charles are soulmates, they met at the worst times in each others lives/deaths and they chose to spend eternity with each other all the same, they knew the couldn't live without each other and so Charles travels to Hell just to bring Edwin back.

these two stories have so many similarities its almost impossible not to connect them, two people who are made for each other, who cannot live without each other and who are prepared to go to great lengths just got be with each other once again.

along with similarities they're also so different. They're both tragic loves stories but in different ways, Orpheus and Eurydice ends tragically meanwhile Edwin and Charles begin tragically. Orpheus and Eurydice are separated by death meanwhile Charles and edwin are brought together by it.

Orpheus and Eurydice are the perfect tragic love story to compare Edwin and Charles to because it's the only one that really encapsulates their story so well. Charles has a lot to figure out in terms of his feelings but he knows for sure that he loves Edwin and that he couldn't live without him and so he travels to Hell just to bring him back and lucky for him he succeeds.

#dead boy detectives #edwin payne #edwin paine #charles rowland #painland #paynland #dbd #orpheus and eurydice #i am hoping this all makes sense #i am not one to proof read #and this took an hour #I had to shorten it from my original version though #so be thankful #dead boy detectives brain rot is a little too strong

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actually I love Tentoo and he is the Doctor and it was the only ending for Rose that worked and it is a huge gift to be able to have the man she loves grow old with her, they were always heading for that, y'all be quiet. I 100% understand the angst but it's okay, they're okay, good ending-

#did you want her to...not end up with the doctor?#she ended up with the doctor. she ended up with the doctor and they get to AGE together #they get to have a real honest relationship the way they both always genuinely wanted #it's hard that the full time lord version has to carry on without her but that is the way that character's story ALWAYS goes #the doctor does not get to keep ANYONE. it would be a different show if he did #meanwhile there is a version of that same face of his - the one that was MADE for love? particularly born out of love for ROSE? the one 1/2 #2/2 that always wanted a FAMILY? and stability? and a normal life? the tenth doctor longed for that specifically because of rose #now he gets to have it AND be part-human so he doesn't have to watch her get old. he gets old WITH HER #and they're canonically growing their own Tardis so you don't even have to be sad that they're not adventuring in time and space as usual #because they ARE. it's the kindest ending for either character. and if the full time lord hadn't left without either of them-#-he would have had to lose them eventually. lose Rose because she's human? hello? painful? but instead he was selfless and left her-#-with a proper happy ending. which she CHOSE to have so you can't be like “he tricked her!” she chose to kiss one of them and it was Tentoo #they are the same man. Rose won in this scenario.#and I GET IT I am with Billie Piper I think it will always feel a little off that she was left with Tentoo and not the full time lord #I understand. it still makes me a little sad. but I know it's a good ending writing-wise. really the ONLY ending.#yes I know about the popular idea of Immortal!Rose or Bad Wolf Rose or whatever and that's cute and all BUT - it's not a GOOD thing #it's not PREFERABLE to be immortal. Rose doesn't want to live forever. she wants to be with the man she LOVES forever.#she doesn't want to not die or adventure for all time. she wants to be there to hold his hand. and when Tentoo is born she gets THAT!#Immortal!Rose is tragic. the Doctor would not wish the burden of immortality on the woman he loves HELLO #anyway #I ship timepetals. that includes Tentoo/Rose. because he is the doctor #so there #I have more thoughts on Tentoo specifically but I digress #maybe if provoked in an Ask or something idk #doctorrose #timepetals #opinion piece #tenrose #tentoo #handy

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uselessnbee · 5 months

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what i wish people would also explore more when it comes to Percy is the other side of his feelings about his mom about family and his childhood but this fandom is too afraid to paint Sally even in the slightest bad light (even if it's not bad just acknowledging her flaws because she's a human being and not perfect) that no one will touch on that subject. like yes Sally is the best mom but she also isn't and that's the thing! She isn't perfect! but she tried her best but her best still got Percy hurt and it isn't her fault at all but that's the tragedy of it. i want Percy's feelings about this explored. how he grew up with a loving mom but an abusive step father. how his step father would humiliate him and call him stupid but then his mom soothed him and told him he's not the things Gabe calls him. how Gabe would hurt him and Sally would be there to make him happy and loved but at the same time she stayed with him. i want Percy's feelings explored about how he knows his mother loves him but her absence still hurt him. she would work so much to have money to raise him she did that for him but at the same time it meant Percy was left alone or with Gabe. Sally gave up so much for him, she sent him away to protect him but at the same time he was sent away from his mom. she's the only parent he has because his father is absent and Gabe is not actually a parental figure at all but she's also often absent in his life too and that must have left him with such mixed feelings because it's not all black and white! Sally's love protected him but also hurt him. Percy loves his mom so so so much but there's also this deep-seated bitterness and hurt and anger he never let himself feel and then the guilt for having those feelings because his mom loves him he knows that and she gave up so much for him and she married a monster that abused her to protect him, he knows that but it doesn't make it hurt any less. the mess his emotions are because he knows his mom suffered for him and did it from her love for him but he still desperately wishes she never married that monster that he wouldn't have to have the childhood he had with him that he wouldn't have to live with the trauma he was left with. this all is exactly what makes their relationship so fascinating and also heartbreaking.

or the idea of Percy having weird mixed feelings after Estelle is born because that's his little sister and he loves her with his whole heart and would do anything for her and wants only the best for her but there's also this little jealous monster deep down that wonders why she gets to have a loving mom and a loving dad and a happy normal life but he never got that. why does she deserve it but not him? why couldn't he have that too? doesn't he deserve that too? he was just a child too so why why why??? and then the guilt of feeling that way too it makes me want to scream. emotions are fucking messy and they can be really ugly and they can make you hate yourself and there's no way Percy's feelings aren't a mess when it comes to this and i want to see it explored so badly!

and with Sally too! her feelings about Percy because she did so much and tried her best but sometimes unfortunately your best isn't good enough and it still got her beloved son hurt and she hates it and feels so guilty but she just has to live with that but she can't help to wish it was different. that their lives would be different. better. normal. she can't help but to wish she didn't have to do the things she's done, didn't have to suffer so much just to protect her child. can't help to wish she didn't have to worry so much, didn't have to be so scared about Percy, didn't have to be terrified that one day he won't come back home to her, that she won't be able to hold her son anymore because he will be gone, she just wishes he didn't have to suffer so much, she just wishes and wishes and wishes

and i just wish people weren't so afraid to explore this because it's so heartwrenching and yes if you want something do it yourself but unfortunately i cannot write nor am i able to handle this topic in a way it deserves so i am left only with rambling about it on here thank you

#i am not trying to victim blame or anything i love Sally and she did her best and didn't deserve any of the crap life gave her #but there's just something so tragic about the fact that she married a vile man and suffered abuse to protect her son #just for her decision to hurt him anyways just in a different way but the only other option would probably be Percy ending up dead #so she can't really truly regret it but she just wishes those weren't their only options #that she didn't have to do this just so that her child could stay alive #thinking about it makes me go feral #they had no choice but to suffer there was no way for their lives to be without this much hurt and trauma and it's terrible #and they didn't deserve it but there was so much love too #but the horrible thing is that that love just wasn't enough to save them from all that pain and i need to be sedated bye #percy jackson #sally jackson #pjo #hoo #percy and sally #percy jackon and the olympians #whatever you do don't think about a six years old lonely Percy sitting in a corner waiting for his mom to come back home from work #and he knows she loves him but he misses her so much when she spends so much time in work and that hurts #don't think about a ten years old Percy being sent away to a boarding school and he knows his mom loves him #but what if she's sending him away because he's just too much? or not enough? and what if she doesn't want him anymore?#and he knows that's not true but what if?#i'm thinking it #okay i think that's enough

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junebugtwin · 10 months

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even while it was happening, you knew it wasn't going to last

#parahumans #worm #lisa wilbourn #tattletale #feeling BAD about my girl lisa in the club tonite #i am convinced she is the most tragic main character in worm #which is a bold statement i know #but i just cant handle even thinking about her shit FOR REAL #she knew the cops and robbers shit was bullshit! from the very beginning!#of course she did! Coil fucking forced her to work for him at gunpoint and she totally understands that #if she doesn't do what he wants shes going to end up in a torturebasement!!#she knew aall of taylors funny little problems n Issues from the start! she tried SO hard to keep her alive and at least a little happy #struggling and clinging and digging in her claws as she watches this girl somehow get Worse(?)#and every time taylor takes a step towards the void guess who sees it in excruciating detail even when taylor can't/wont!!!!#and in the end it doesn't matter!! all her schemes and plans don't amount for shit!! she doesn't save the girl!#she doesn't save the girl.#my art

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lnsfawwi · 7 months

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Bucky was second in command for the Commandos therefore should've planned strategy with SSR as much as Steve. yet there's zero indication that the SSR personales knew Bucky well enough to even call him by his name??

Peggy has never addressed Bucky directly, even after his death Peggy used 'your friend' in her conversation with Steve. that's, if not avoidance out of jealousy of his relationship with Steve, detachment. there's no personal relationship between Bucky and her. plus Howard Stark calling him 'sergeant Barnes' which literally couldn't have been more impersonal.

the only logical conclusion is that the Commandos never spent time socializing with Peggy and Stark, they probably didn't even meet all that often cuz they were going around Europe fighting Hydra while SSR stayed behind doing their own stuff. Then how can Peggy possibly be the person Steve couldn't get over with, let along have any long lasting impact on him when they've barely spent time together?

popcorn movies are thoughtless and get criticized for this precise reason. the plot doesn't have to be properly developed bc audiences are conditioned to think certain ways and they complete the story in their head for the movie. 'oh that's a classic setup for romance, of course the hero falls in love with her.'

the thing is, it doesn't make sense, and when it doesn't, it shouldn't.

steggy is what happens when you let this thoughtlessness dictates how you percee a trope in a movie.

she never should've been the 'love of my life' for Steve. she simply couldn't have been. THEY BARELY KNEW EACH OTHER ffs.

#anti steggy #steve rogers #fuck marvel #even if she didn't like Bucky for whatever reason #there's no way Stark didn't like him either #not when Bucky's character is canonly a charmer #imagine endgame!Steve buys Peggy flowers and she is actually allergic #cuz THEY DONT REALLY KNOW EACH OTHER AT ALL #this ship only makes sense bc it's how romance in movies works and ppl accept this w/o critical thinking #captain america #bucky barnes #not to mention she never was supposed to be the loml for Steve bc Steve was designed to be thrown into 21st century #Peggy was always meant to be the what could've been #that tragic lost love #so even if you accept her as the love interest in catfa #endgame still doesn't make sense #anti endgame

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miabrown007 · 2 months

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going crazy about kaz brekker hours

#HE'S JUST *screams into a pillow*#Inej wants him to be better she NEEDS him to be better and shed his armour and be emotionall vulnerable and honest to her #and every time he tries it life delivers a right hook into his solar plexus and knocks him to hell and back #and time and time again he is made to come to the incorrect conclusion that being vulnerable and soft and caring about anyone ever #is a mistake and a weakness that he isn't allowed that he doesn't deserve #and his only way of getting what he wants and keeping the people he loves safe is if he becomes something that can't love them #like life just continues to punish him for having any kind of feelings #and he can only love them if he kills the part of himself that loves them. like COME ON MAN #i'm literally unwell about this kid (KID HE'S FUCKING 17 LET HIM LIVE)#someone sedate me (well actually don't i need to start reading CK tonight)#Kaz I Am Ruin And Ruination Brekker #and it's so tragic because he has come such a long way during SoC and when Inej asks him to be hers you know he can't do it. he would like #to but he's unable of it like his walls are still built up so high.#and it's fair of her to ask because she needs that and keeping her always at arms length is not viable of Kaz but also that's all he can #currently give her. that's his all and it's not enough and my heart is breaking for them ohmygod #they make me think so much of felonies love square I'LL EAT GLASS #okay. anyway. finished six of crows. i'm normal about them.#mia's reading

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leofrith · 1 year

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once again thinking about how eivor is pretty stoic about death throughout most of the game up until hamtunscire, at which point she's suddenly reacting more emotionally than we've ever seen her. she's screaming for soma and she's crying over hunwald, and she sounds like she's straight up dissociating her way through that conversation with guthrum before the funeral. and she's never really reacted emotionally in that way before with the exception of her openly crying over ceolbert's tomb because this is the first time she's watched loved ones die without the comfort that comes from knowing she will see them again in valhalla. because she no longer believes in a valhalla. i am going to scream <3

#i am unwell!!!#and i mean i suppose you can argue that she's grown closer to all of these people by this point which is why it hits harder #but to me it seems that eivor's reaction to the death surrounding her is closely tied to her relationship with her faith #she's shaken because she is no longer confident in an afterlife!! she is no longer confident that she will see her loved ones again!!!!!#she is no longer confident that the gods exist!!! her entire worldview has shifted!!!#and the game doesn't address that enough because the post launch content addresses NOTHING!!!!#okay maybe not strictly true because i think SoP touches on it a bit but not nearly enough #anyway this also would explain why ceolbert hits her particularly hard so early on because yes he's too young innocent and it's tragic #but she also knows there is no hope of her seeing him again #perhaps i am talking out of my ass but i am Thinkingggg #ac valhalla #eivor varinsdottir #eivor varinsdóttir #ky posts text

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live-at-fortune-city · 8 months

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Look through my past and you'll see All the lies I've lied And why I'm justified

#warrior cats #warriors #wc art #wc fanart #mapleshade #mapleshade's vengeance #target4alterego.png #debating on tagging the reeds as characters #if you know you know!!#lyrics taken from justified from dead rising 1 #maple's story is so... so fucked #i feel like there's better writeups about the inherent everything in mapleshade's story and depiction and whatnot #i think there's an inherent tragedy in her story that is only perpetuated because of how maple like. is as a person #i could talk abt how the warrior code bit IS flawed and unjustly harms everyone involved in it (except for the toms. which is really bad)#that doesn't justify the murders. but i don't think her kits should've been exiled and drowned yaknow??#she's a very compelling character in that she overeacts and is violence and is unreliable and i kinda wish that was all she was.#just a tragic horror story about a mother with nothing left to lose taking her anger out on those she deemed wronged her #i probably got some of that wrong but w/e. i like that murder kitty

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lesbianphan · 5 months

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if I may be honest for a minute, this christmas is gonna be entirely weird to me (I already cried once) cause I basically have no family left (the ones I do don't spend time with me lol) and for the first time I can remember in life, I'm not making a christmas meal for my family and lots of desserts and doing my best to keep everyone entertained and even though it was super stressful, I already miss it. I'll be strong cause it's all that's left for me.

#gonna spend it with my second family which is my best friends family #he's throwing his first christmas party at his place so I won't be alone #he always makes sure I have somewhere to go #but I miss grandma #at this point she'd have a lot of stuff prepared and we'd be spending all day together working on recipes and making sure everything was go #good lmao #she couldn't help me last year cause she was already sick and it was so hard but I still made our christmas meal #didn't know it would be the last one #so yeah hard day for me cause my dad who was the family I had left decided that his priority is his new wife and left me he barely visits #or talks to me #so it's like he exists but also he doesn't cause he's being the happiest he's ever been #no regard for the daughter he forgot he cared about lol typical #anyway my life is tragic but I'll do my best to keep going even if it's out of spite #personal #usually I'd post shit like this on the main blog instead but meh gonna change it up this once #been using this one more #thank you dan and phil for giving me something to look forward to today

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achingly-shy · 5 months

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thinking about everyone hating on sabine for giving baylan the map and choosing ezra over the safety of the galaxy....like did we all just forget "EVERYTHING i did was for FAMILY for MANDALORE"

#like i absolutely love when people take something soooo important to a character and just ignore it #sabine cares about her family so much and ezra is family to her hera is family to her kanan was family to her zeb is family to her chopper #is family to her even jacen is now family to her #the ghost crew is her family!!!! especially since they wrote her bio family out of the narrative (still upset about that one though)#and obviously i emphasized 'mandalore' because it's emphasized in the quote obviously that doesn't have anything to do with ezra #but like if we're going to be hating on something from the ahsoka series #let's not hate on sabine's actions let's hate on arguably trash writing (in the majority of places)#but!!!! her giving baylan the map is not trash writing in my opinion because it makes sense!! it's what she would do!! it's what any of the #would do for each other in the end!! hell it's what i would do for any member of the ghost crew <3 #geo rambles #sabine wren #don't know what exactly prompted me to go on a full rant here but i was watching drew gooden's sw video and he had some takes so it #got me thinking about all this again #also sometimes characters have to make tragic choices that doom everyone else to save the people they love and i think that is fucking #poetic and cinema and chef's kiss and i eat it up every time

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just-an-enby-lemon · 1 year

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Cluemaster: Hey, bro, I know I never call...

Kiteman: You did drunk call me that one time.

Cluemaster: I already said I was sorry for spreading around that you were in love with your kite and calling you to brag about it. As you said I was hella drunk and angry your weird ass podcast somehow now has the same level of fans as my old gameshow. Who the fuck cares that much about kites? Or C list vilany?

Kiteman: Did you just call to remind me why I hate you?

Cluemaster: Of course not, Chucky boy, your my favorite lil bro.

Kiteman: Arthur... I'm your only brother.

Cluemaster: Yeah? You're still my favorite.

Kiteman: Okay. Fine. What do you want?

Cluemaster: You're good with kids right?

Kiteman: Oh do you want me to babysit little Steph? I haven't see her since she was a baby! That'll be soo much fun!

Cluemaster: Oh, no, no. She is too old for a babysitter. I kindda called 'cause I need your advice.

Kiteman: Sure. Go on.

Cluemaster: How would you stop a prank war between your teen daugther and your bussiness partner that happens to be living at your house?

Kiteman: Woah. Define prank war?

Cluemaster: Like they just being annoying with each other... like non-stop Shrek music and painting one of her walls green?

Kiteman: Are you working with a child, Artie?

Cluemaster: No. Childrem are not really good at puzzle robberies.

Kiteman: So who the hell is in a prank war with your fourteen year old daugther? Is it that Polka Dot weirdo?

Cluemaster: ... Riddler.

Kiteman: Be honest, Arthur.

Cluemaster: I am!

Kiteman: Why the fuck would he work with you? Didn't he like was brought on to one of your trials and tried to sue you for being a copycat?

Cluemaster: No idea. I don't really remember all my trials.

Kiteman: Fair. Still isn't he like an actual treat? Like Batman actually tries to be always involved in his crimes instead of just sending a Robin or a cop kindda treat? Or hangs out with Cooblepot and Harley Quinn and fucking Catwoman and even Scarecrow and Joker kindda treat?

Cluemaster: Yes, so what?

Kiteman: He is waaay above your league. How the fuck do you got him to work with you?

Cluemaster: He is working for me because he recognizes my genius.

Kiteman: *sarcasm* Yeah, sure. At least it explains why I've been hearing that your plans don't totally suck anymore.

Cluemaster: Will you help me or not?

Kiteman: Anything for little Steph. But seriusly bro, the guy is a mentally instable killer, he is real Arkham loonie, A-lister and all this shit are you sure is safe to have him living with you? Specially if he and Stephanie are fighting!? She is just a kid! What if this prank war thing escalates and next thing she is in saw type death trap or something?

Cluemaster: Well than help me not to! I can't just kick him out, do you know how much I've been proffiting later?

Kiteman: And also he is an instable killer that used to hate you and wouldn't react well to being kicked out?

Cluemaster: Yeah, this too. Look I think you're overestimating the guy. He is smart and all and he can take a punch but I could take him out real easy in a one on one. He screamed like a little girl when he found a roach in the kitchem. I think I'll be fine.

Kiteman: Sure, you do you.... Maybe.... you could just.... help them find something they have in common? A TV show they like or something. It used yo work with us. They will bond over the thing and forget they hate each other for a bit.

Cluemaster: See was it that hard to help me?

*Chuck hangs up*

[Three months later]

Cluemaster: Chuck! I need help!

Kiteman: Can you call in another time? I'm bowlling with the guys, Calendar Man and Condiment King cannot win a second time, one weird rap about their love conquering all was ENOUGHT.

Cluemaster: Is about the whole prank war between Nygma and Stephanie thing.

Kiteman: Oh. So I guess my advice didn't work.

Cluemaster: No, no, it did. It worked way to well actually.

Kiteman: *worried* That sounds bad.

Cluemaster: Yeah... it happened that the thing they had in common was that they really hate me.

#this might be the start of a brown family au #because i have a lot of feelings about them #for me kiteman is actually a pretty chill down to earth guy besides the whole kite crimes thing #and instead of the tragic backstory were his kid died in the dumbest riddler plan ever #he just always wanted to have a family but he is too akward and has some nd coding and didn't had the chance yet #so he wants to bond with steph because she is his niece and all #but he and arthur don't have a good or stable relationship and he haven't been there for steph and she doesn't even know about him #so he is just afraid of talking to her #he and arthur started fighting because their parents divorced when they were 13/15 and they stayed with different parents #also while i preffer charlie a lot Cluemaster is a B Lister here while Kiteman is a C/D Lister #Kiteman is friends with all Gotham C-listers with the exception of Polka Dot Man because they just don't hang in the same places #they have some misinformation about each other and think the other is a freak but they would be pals if they meet #cluemaster hangs with b listers and non gothamite c listers #chuck actually got relieved after the last bit cause he imagine grooming or steph becaming a killer or smt real bad #he actually likes Riddler a bit after that because sibbling rivalry and because he is starting to realize Arthur is a shitty dad #Eddie did try to sue Arthur in Arthur's first trial #he was called to testimony why Arthur shouldn't go to Arkham and it was when he discovered that you can't copyright a criminal mo #it was also his first time on trial cause some rogues are considered unfit to stand trial and he is one of them #riddler #edward nygma #stephanie brown #arthur brown #cluemaster #kiteman #chuck brown #cheatday is @sillymanwithocs ship I'm just borowing it

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