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melishade · 9 months

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Attack on Prime Peaceful Timeline: Ymir's Cybertronian name

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Peaceful Timeline Pilot

Herbalist Name: Solveig

Because I can't stop talking about the Peaceful Timeline, because its the only time anyone can really be happy.

So! If you remember from this ask, I gave Maria a Cybertronian name called "Firelight". However I've been struggling to give Ymir a Cybertronian name of her own. But with some tremendous help from @letslipthehounds and @legitconcrusher Ymir's Cybertronian is going to be *drumroll*

IronSpark!

Seriously, you two, thank you so much for providing me with the help. I appreciate it.

So! How did Ymir come up with that name?!

Well, backtrack to Maria picking out the name Firelight for herself. Ymir sees how excited Maria is, and talks to Optimus and Megatron when Maria's gone to bed. She explains that she wants another name for herself, a Cybertronian name. Because Ymir isn't her real name. When she was taken from her home, she was forced to forget her name and was only called 'slave'. Once she had value, the king gave her the name Ymir, and his last name Fritz.

Which by the way, pisses the fuck out of Megatron! Frag, he wished he could've killed him!

Optimus keeps his own emotions in check for Ymir and offers to help Ymir find a name. However, no matter how hard she tries, she can't find one for herself. It sends her for a loop. Kind of makes her feels worthless in a sense. She hates the fact that her identity keeps getting tied back to him and she doesn't want that. But it takes too long for her to figure out something that's right and...she kind of gives up on it for a while.

And Megatron confronts her on it, because the two end up seeing each other as kindred spirits. He bluntly asks her why she hasn't picked a name for herself, and Ymir explains that she can't do it. She just can't. Megatron retorts by saying that she can. She's just limiting herself.

But Ymir retorts by saying that she just can't decide. She's not like her daughter. She's not like her strong-willed, passionate, daughter, who looks at the world with such life. She doesn't believe herself to be strong. She still sees herself as weak.

"Maria, albeit strong, is also innocent," Megatron reminded, "And between the three of us, it's better to keep her innocence as long as possible."

Ymir turned her gaze to the outside, watching Optimus entertain Maria. He was trying to teach her how to be gentle with some of the ladybugs flying in the area, holding a ladybug on the tip on his fingers.

"Meanwhile, you were given a terrible situation, but you were able to muster up the courage to leave," Megatron proclaimed.

Ymir shook her head, writing in her notebook and showing it to him. "I had power beyond my understanding, but instead of leaving when I got it, I served someone who only saw value in me as property and mistook it for love. I wasn't able to leave until Optimus showed up."

"Perhaps," Megatron agreed, "But you were no doubt a child when all of that happened to you. You had no one and nothing to begin with. Optimus didn't force you to come with him. He offered you a choice, and you mustered up the strength to go with him into a life of uncertainty and freedom. That's more courage and strength than I've seen out of the few humans that I've interacted with."

Megatron placed a hand on Ymir's shoulder. "You chose to forge your own path and freedom, and despite everything that's happened to you, you still find it in your spark to be kind. You shouldn't discredit yourself like that."

Megatron made a slip up when he said spark, but it does reignite Ymir's passion on the topic and gives her ideas. She stays up at night and comes up with the name 'IronSpark': strength and a strong heart. The next morning, during breakfast, Ymir slips Optimus a simple piece of paper, and Optimus opens it to see that it's the names she's chosen for herself. Optimus is a little bit confused, but he sees how nervous Ymir is, drinking her tea from her cup. Optimus takes her hand in his own and speaks.

"It is a pleasure to meet you, IronSpark,"

And Ymir starts laughing a little with relief, because it just felt like home. It was a piece of herself that she had managed to regain. Her own independence.

Now a few things:

-Unlike with Maria, where Optimus kind of differentiates between the two names, Optimus just straight up called Ymir 'IronSpark' in the house, because its the name she chose and it wasn't forced on her.

-Megatron praises her while Maria is just excited and thinks her Mama's new name is so cool.

-The whole 'Cybertronian name not allowed in the village' rule still stands, and everyone's not happy about it. But rules are rules.

But seriously, thank you Slips and Legit! You guys really helped me out you are the best! Now, if you'll excuse me, I have to write about Oshern and Ymir finding love again because no one has asked me about it, so I gotta write about it myself! It's been sitting in my head for months!

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class1akids · 2 years

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If you have seen the sneak peek of chapter 360 can you give us your opinion of what you think will happen? I was have read if he gets saved by the Big 3 (not sure if that’s true or just a theory) mainly I just wanted to get your take on the upcoming chapter! I have been following for a while and I love how you talk about each chapter!!

The whole chapter is out, as well as the summary, so if you are willing to spoil yourself, you can find out exactly what happens. I've also already written quite a lot about it - if you check my bnha 360 tag.

Last chapter, when fandom fell into despair, I said that I didn't believe this was the end of Bakugou's involvement in the fight (as the core of his character is never to give up) and that how HK handles what is coming is going to be an indication for me for the rest of the story.

The one thing I was adamantly against is rage!Deku come in, see the desperate state Kacchan is in and use that as emotional catalyst to beat Shigaraki.

Let me explain why I didn't want that:

"I'm sorry I said something so awful"

We had the Villain Hunt arc which concluded basically by saying that Deku can't do this alone, he needs to accept others, he needs to accept people with less power than him staking their lives out of their own free will to help him and trust that they can handle themselves. If Bakugou here had to be bailed out by Deku specifically, it would have proven right Deku's fears that the others can't keep up with him. You know the exact thing he even apologized for as an awful thing to say, because it also would have proven everyone right who ridiculed and stomped over quirkless Deku's dreams. The entire narrative question of the story about who can be a hero.

2. Wait but isn't it exactly what happened? Bakugou had to be saved...

Bakugou having to be saved by the team is not problematic - because that precisely shows both Bakugou's teamplay philosophy from back in JTA (I'll have your backs and when I'm in trouble you'll save me) and also how hero society has grown and changed since Ch 1 when the heroes stood around waiting for someone with the right power to save Bakugou (or you know nobody helping Tenko), while now they all work together to get him back.

3. "Control your heart"

I don't know if you have noticed, but since the endgame fight started, everyone who had a part in it so far got taunted by the villains, putting them face-to-face with their worst fears, guilts, inadequacies. And raising to the bait gets you beaten. All those words were wielded as weapons - targeting their hearts.

Shouto (whose new power required perfect concentration / meditative state) got told by Touya how he was their father's half-baked little puppet who will never amount to anything and kept being rejected by his brother.

Hawks was taunted for losing his wings / becoming worthless.

Endeavor got taunted by letting his sons fight each other, and when that didn't work, AFO pulled out the Touya's body card (and Endeavor went down when he lost his head).

Jirou and Tokoyami were called weak gnats

You get the pattern...

Which to me meant two things: (1) Bakugou needed to prove that he really faced and conquered his worst fears (that he's weak, not as great as everyone told, that he's the stepping stone for Deku, that he has no chance to become no. 1.) and is able to stand up mentally in face of those fears and continue to give his best (2) if everyone else needs to control their hearts and fears, Deku shouldn't (again) win by rage.

So the new chapter's direction feels really good to me, because Bakugou after that soul-crushing, brutal and absolutely humiliating beatdown is controlling his heart. He's focused, he hasn't lost his faith that a path to victory can be found, he hasn't lost his will to fight. A power-gap is not the end of the road, it means having to find other ways (like early Deku who could only keep up by quirk analysis, teamwork and creativity). We see Bakugou vulnerable and hurt - but he hasn't given up. How could he? That's who he is. That's his image of All Might - the one who never gives up, no matter how hard.

4. "But with his broken arms"

So this was one of the biggest problems last chapter - how can Bakugou keep fighting and contributing (even if he won't give up) when one of his arms are broken, essentially depriving him of half his quirk.

My response to this was that Deku was allowed to fight in such situation (most famously in the Muscular fight - where both his arms were broken, his 100% OFA hits shrugged off, yet he managed to keep on with his broken arms and somehow surpass his max).

So for Bakugou, there were 3 possible paths: (1) same as Muscular!Deku - getting to keep on fighting with a broken body (2) a quirk awakening removing the limitation of his quirk (3) finding an entirely different path to victory (such as a fight inside the vestige realm or a team strategy).

I feel like the way implied in the end of the chapter is a mix of everything. BJ will stitch up Bakugou's arm. He seems to have a quirk awakening that would allow him produce explosions from other body parts than just his palms, opening up more options for him. And he seems to have spotted a weakness to exploit in Shigaraki. And as far as I'm concerned - that's a good way to go - playing into all of Bakugou's arc.

5. "It doesn't matter, he can't win against Shigaraki. He's Deku's villain"

Again, to me this is not an issue. Bakugou can get a win / make a difference while simultaneously Deku can still have a lot left to done.

I don't know if you noticed, but none of the villains are done. Toga has the Twice clones up her sleeve, Dabi's chest is glowing, AFO is rewinding. I'm sure even if they beat ShigAFO, a new boss-form will come. And Deku's role in any case is about saving Shigaraki (giving rise to a possible conflict between Bakugou and Deku or alternatively, to showcase their relationship where Bakugou, the one who almost died at Shigaraki's hands will be the one to back Deku up, displaying his trust in Deku's way) so he can help them destroy AFO.

So I'm very optimistic with how this chapter played out. It's reinforcing the themes I want to see and it gives Bakugou to stand on his own feet to complete his own arc (that's the stage we are at). The resolution of the important bonds will come after - and I'm sure it will come. Bakugou and Deku will talk, will fight, will support and save each other. I'm sure of it. But this would have been the wrong time.

#c1a asks #bnha 360 #bnha manga spoilers #bnha manga leaks #c1a reads bnha #bnha meta #bakugou katsuki

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petalsoffarose · 9 months

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July 21st

I went to your house yesterday. Kinda begged to come over truthfully. You asked if I wanted to, [Redacted] couldn't so you were already going to cancel. Then I got invited over. We went swimming for a little and then into your house for cuddles.

I waited until your grandma was gone to join you on the bean bag. Shortly, following your lead, we made our way up to your room and had sex. Then we went back down stairs to cuddle and nap. You had an alarm set you 8:00 and when it went off you asked if I was ready to go home. All I did was make a noise and cuddle closer. You gave me 10 more minutes.

Sometime later I heard a noise and looked over to see you looking at me. There was another noise made and you got up to look. Then I heard your grandmother and you helped her carry bags in. After a few seconds you didn't come downstairs so I walked up. It was just your grandma there and I couldn't just turn around. I asked if she needed help and we talked for a second. Then she goes “What’s your name? Oh your [Redacted]!” It feels weird redacting my own name. We walked out to your car and you told me that you didn't know if she was aware we broke up. Then you told me that she called your phone three times and you didn't remember anything. That you didn't remember getting up or where you met her. Worried that she could have looked into the basement and seen us cuddling. You then questioned how my 10 extra minutes led to 45.

On the way home you asked me something about the guys on my phone. Quoting [Redacted]'s name and the black guy. I texted you before I fell asleep something that I was on my mind for a while now. "Give me the same grace that you want(ed) me to give you." You asked for context and I explained. You said you could be turn down Diana's to work on yourself and get back with me. I explained what if that's what I am doing? You gave me a long, long answer. "That logic doesn't apply I feel like because I'm the one that broke up and u still wanted a relationship. if we both were cool breaking up then and had that thought process if we wanna work on ourselves and see what life has for us and figure ourselves out. While doin that if anybody approaches us we turn down because still keeping hope" Blah Blah Blah "For me I dont think Im mature enough for a relationship so why rush into one j because. For u it may be u are turning down people because u are still hopeful for us to get back together." I didn't respond. Partly because what I would say would be disrespectful and I wouldn't want to hear you say that to me. Also because it's fucking worthless sometimes to say certain things to you.

I wasn't cool with breaking up right. I told you so many fucking times in that conversation that you have a point. We both have things we need to work on. I agreed. You need to learn not to be a scared little bitch and I need to learn to say no and stand up for myself more. I know you aren't mature enough [Redacted]. I looked you in your fucking eyes and told you I don't think you ever loved me. I told you that I could look you in your face and tell you that I didn't feel important to you and you still canceled our plans. You don't have to convince me that you aren't mature enough for a relationship [Redacted]. It tears my fucking heart out but I know. I think you forget that I the one you treated terribly while you were in a relationship you aren't ready for.

I also know that I told you I wasn't ready for another relationship. I didn't tell you I don't want to date someone until I get a car. I haven't told you that I don't want to date this you. I'm so mad at you. It's worthless to talk to you sometimes because you don't listen, because it doesn't change things, because I don't know what I technically told you. I don't know if I told you something or if it's something that I deemed pointless and bit my tongue on. I can't get mad at you for something I didn't tell you.

I don't know what I've told you or not. I do know I'm starting to resent you.

#Petalsoffarose #petals #letter to an ex #storytime #exboyfriend #Healing #Breakup #Feelings #Relationship #writing #gene

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eevyerndracaneon · 1 year

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Hey, I don't mean to intrude or anything, being a stranger on the internet and all. Don't feel the need to answer this ask or anything but, I just hope you can hear me out and maybe something I say can help a bit... I've seen some of your posts today, I'm sorry you're going through the ringer. I've got a good couple of friends who deal with the very similar struggles and whatnot, so I just wanted to say pretty much what I always tell them regarding some of what you're feeling. I dunno your specific situation, and I know a lot of things are way more difficult to just outright fix than some people will say it is, so I'll keep this more general. And some of what I will say you might already know, but I feel they bear repeating. First off, your worth as a person is not tied to your ability to make money, or work a job or anything like that. You are a person, and that makes you valuable. No person or thing can ever take that from you. Second, never feel bad about wanting to interact with your friends and loved ones. Even if you're in a bad mood, I'm sure they'd love to spend time with you. Social needs are just as important as any other need, so do not feel guilty of them, and don't hole yourself up if that's not what you need right now. A friend of mine (and I do also to an extent) does this all the time and after they always reflect that it only hurt them.

Third, I'm sorry about whatever issues you're dealing with, with family or otherwise, I know how difficult that can be. There are no easy solutions, but, like, you just gotta keep carrying on, you know? Even if there's no option out today, there might be one down the road. On a lighter note, I think your art style is charming! I think you could get some commission work if that's something you wanted to do, it's less on your skill and more on confidence and a bit of luck, I think. Even if today sucks, it doesn't define you tomorrow and not all days will be like this. None of what you're going through defines you or your worth as a person. You've got this, and your friends and loved ones have your back. Keep on being you, A concerned stranger

ah right i did vent really hard on here huh, thanks for sending this out-

i've been vague overall with my posts bc im just going thru it today so some of what you've said doesn't apply but i can't fault you for it, since i didn't rly explain anything

i've tried for a few years now to have art as a job that i could maybe help pay for rent with if i ever moved out, but i just didn't get enough comms to even get to that point. u-u i'd LOVE to just draw for money but it just didn't rly work out the way i expected. maybe i'll give it another shot, i dunno (I'd have to increase my prices again for 2023....)

the house i live in rn is the one belonging to my partner's family. so i live with my partner. my boyfriend is long distance (i'm polyam if that hasn't come across with some of my posts) and i desperately wish i could live with him as well. my partner's family is amiable, but not exactly super friendly or welcoming. especially not if i was openly trans. (they have a trans daughter but refuse to treat her with respect so she cut herself out of their life years ago) my life is kinda trapped in my partner's room, in a corner, so i really don't feel like i have a home. it sucks, but at least im surviving and have a roof over my head and food to eat and warmth in the cold and cool in the heat.

you're completely right on the social front. i think a lot of us forget this. my boyfriend and a friend of mine both reached out to me an hour or so ago bc they were worried abt how i wasnt around like, at all, and i basically got the same thing from them. "its okay to be around, we can try cheering you up"

and finally the big one. i understand capitalism is trash for making us all think we need to make money to deserve life. i hate that i need to make money to be able to live on my own. luckily im not sitting here thinking im worthless solely bc i cant get a job or make money. but i need money to get a place to live in on my own, apartments need rent, houses need mortgage payments, and then food and bills and all that crap. i need a job for that to get pulled off. and i've been trying to get a job! i've been applying to places since the beginning of december! but no place has accepted me. i've gotten like three interviews. nothing else. its just really infuriating. all of my friends, even my boyfriend, are getting new opportunities, new places to live, new goals new motivations new everything. and im just kinda stuck.

today was really hard. all of these feelings welled up over the past half a year and i think just finally crushed me into the dirt today.

so its just kind of a sad day. im doing what i can now to make it better even if only by a little bit. but oof.

thank you anon for popping in and checking up on me, it means a lot <3

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redphlox · 3 years

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Tenko's tears; Touya's wounded inner child

As I've mentioned before, crying serves various purposes, two of which include emotional regulation and forming social connections. Tears signal "I'm sad and I need help" and usually elicit concern from others. But, for Touya and Tenko, tears didn't fulfill these needs. When Tenko cried, the adults around him tried to distract him from his pain or change how he responded to his abuse instead of defending him or confronting his father Kotaro. They meant well, but in the end it didn't help Tenko and he felt alone. No one validated his pain; he was seen, but he wasn't helped. The same thing happened to Touya, who was seen crying, and crying, and crying, but his parents refused to acknowledge the root cause of his pain because it would mean facing their own mistakes. His tears, his cries for help, never got him the help he needed and never made him feel better.

Even as adults, Dabi and Shigaraki weren't listened to because they didn't display socially acceptable feelings such as sorrow or regret, and they weren't dealing with their trauma in a socially acceptable way, like crying. Shigaraki told Endeavor, in front of Deku and Bakugo, that heroes only hurt their families, but it wasn't until Deku saw a glimpse of Tenko that Deku decided Shigaraki was worth saving because little Tenko’s tears humanized him and made him relatable.

While this is a turning point in the manga, the way it came about insinuates that certain unspoken conditions exist that need to be filled before victimhood can be validated or someone is deemed worthy of help. Not everyone is equal, and not everyone's pain will be good enough in hero society. This warrants the questions the League of Villains keep asking: who are heroes here to save? Who is it that needs saving? Where do you draw the line? Are villains not people too?

This new plot point of Deku being moved by Tenko’s tears also brings into light how isolating and demonizing it is for Dabi not being physically able to cry. He compensates for this – because remember, crying regulates your emotions, and if you can’t cry you turn to other coping mechanisms for self-soothing – by telling himself and others that he doesn’t care about anything or anyone. He copes with his emotions by smiling and grinning, by not getting too attached. He takes an offensive approach through keeping a distance from people by insulting them and being rude. However, his quirk’s link to his emotions betrays him and exposes his true feelings: his flames became hotter after Twice died and his flames turned white while confronting Endeavor. Dabi, despite everything, still cares and feels deeply.

So, how is Dabi supposed to be seen and understood and saved if he can’t prove that he has feelings if he can't cry? Why would he even want to cry, since crying never helped him? All Touya did from the age of four was cry for help, literally, and yet he was ignored and neglected. It wasn't Shigaraki's words that moved Deku, it was the unintended display of emotion through crying, which is something Dabi can't do even if he wanted because his tear ducts are burnt as a result of being so heartbroken over his father not showing up to Sekoto Peak. The irony is ugly and upsetting to witness – overwhelming feelings of abandonment and worthlessness almost killed Dabi ten years ago and now, when the story implies he desperately needs to cry to be seen, he can't, and therefore he's still alone and will continue to be alone.

But wait – he cries tears of blood, doesn’t he?

I think that if he’s caught in a vulnerable place, if the right people (Natsuo) meet him or if he is finally validated and seen and understood (Shouto), those tears of blood would come out and he’d finally be eligible (as gross as that sounds) for salvation, for understanding, for sympathy like Shigaraki. Feelings serve as evidence to society that villains are human too, and Dabi must first be considered a human. It seems that salvation, like the attention Touya received from his father, is conditional. Touya's wounded inner child and status as an abuse survivor will be the ticket to his redemption IF he can be vulnerable and express his pain physically to the younger generation of heroes, because talking about his past hasn't helped and won't help. Even now, as noted in 304, people still weren't sure why he became a villain even though he literally explained why in his pre-recorded broadcast. Dabi, or his inner child, has to show evidence he is still emotionally suffering because his words won't suffice for society or heroes. Honestly, this framing is personally distressing and frustrating because it pushes a bad victim vs good victim mentality, especially in light of Rei commenting that Shouto, who she burnt and forgave her nonetheless, is their family's hero.

Don't get me wrong. Shouto has done nothing wrong to warrant this suffering, and I think it's great that Deku is determined to save everyone within his reach. This makes sense as his role as protagonist. With that said, it's unsettling to me how drastically different he's reacting to Shigaraki compared to how he responded to Dabi by comparing him to Endeavor and implying Dabi is worse for not trying to be better. Before anyone jumps down my throat, I know Deku intervened because he was worried about Shouto, and that Deku is 16 and young. My point is that the narrative and the writing is setting up a problematic view of victims by having the main character nitpick who deserves to be saved based on this societal construct that people must first qualify or prove themselves. Shigaraki shouldn't have had to show his trauma receipts or be relatable for Deku to want to save him. Shigaraki didn’t even expose his inner child on purpose – Deku caught a glimpse of that without Shigaraki’s intention.

Let me say this another way. Imagine if you had to present yourself as sympathetic to a firefighter, an ambulance worker, or a doctor before receiving their help. It would be unprofessional and highly unethical for these professionals to turn you down because you don't fit the image of someone who needs help, someone who's not "sick" enough, whose house isn't burning hot enough, whose injuries aren't "bad" enough. So why do heroes, as a group of public servants, have these unwritten rules and preconceived notions about what a victim looks like? I understand that people are more likely to provide services if you're nice to them (you catch more flies with honey, etc) and that everyone has biases etc, but this isn't a core value of the helping professions or public servants. It's unethical to discriminate and assign varying levels of care based on how someone treats you or others around them. People in need are people in need, and that's that.

As of now, it seems like the manga is on route to support the League's complaints by supplying evidence that their disillusionment with society isn't unfounded - even Twice, who died crying at the hands of a hero part of the older generation, was not considered a person before he was considered a villain. But maybe if he had come across a hero from the younger generation, someone who recognized his tears as human despite his criminal record, he wouldn't have met the fate he did. It seems that the older generation of heroes don't take tears or emotions into account, which is why Tenko and Touya were shrugged off. But the younger generation will go out of their way to help anyone who needs help, but only if they prove themselves or make themselves sympathetic.

#bnha #dabi #touya todoroki #shigaraki tomura #tenko shimura #my meta #Bnha 305 #Bnha 306 #Bnha spoilers #Twice #jin bubaigawara #My meta #Green lad

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love101imagines · 4 years

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Here for you

(sinan | imagine)

request: could u please write a fic w prompts 3,11,23 for Sinan? maybe with him wanting y/n to tell him about her problems, so he can help, but she doesn't want to bother him with it

tags: @sinanfails @zaynlikfalls @girl-looking-out-window @imtoolazytothinkofacoolname

prompts used: 3. It's getting late, I'm not letting you walk home alone. 11. You have to stop running away from your problems. 23. Why are you crying?

"Then that's all set, I'll take with Tuncay tomorrow and (Y/N)...(Y/N)?" Osman repeated himself, nudging you with his arm.

You snapped out of your trance and looked around to find five concerned faces.

"Are you alright?" Işik asked, her voice laced with her usual worry. "What were you thinking about?"

You gave them a small smile hoping they wouldn't ask any more questions. "Yeah, I'm fine. So, you'll talk with Tuncay and Işik and I will go with Burcu, right?"

It didn't take them long to return back at the main topic, concluding with the next plan to avoid their expulsion. The rest soon left, you staying behind to help Sinan with all the leftover cans.

"Are you okay?" He asked after you two picked up every cushion and fixed the chairs a bit.

You only hummed in agreement, quickly glancing at your watch and biting your lower lip once you noticed how late it was. "Fuck, my parents are working and they can't pick me up. I better get going, I'll see you tomorrow."

Before you could even grab your bag, Sinan was already standing up from his seat. "It's getting late, I'm not letting you walk home alone."

You rolled your eyes. "I live five blocks away. You don't have to."

"I don't mind." He quickly replied before opening the door for you.

You sighed, your mind on all the things you would have to do once you arrived home, but now, you tried to focus on the comfortable silence that lingered between you and the boy.

You two had been friends for a while, meeting because you lived close to each other and would ride the ferry every day together. But still, when he almost got expelled and he needed your help to make your teacher fall in love, you two became closer. And you knew he could see right through you.

It wasn't that you didn't trust him, and you knew him too well to know that he wouldn't judge you or something, but you didn't want to be a burden. He already had too much on his plate, the expulsion, his family issues, his alcoholism, and the way everything he said was taken the wrong way.

"Do you want me to stop by your house tomorrow? We have a Maths test so we can review the topics before going to school." You offered once you two stopped in front of your house.

He nodded absentmindedly. "Are you sure you're okay? You were zoned out all meeting long."

"I've told you I'm fine, I'll see you tomorrow." You said in a harsher way than you meant to. But still, that was the only way he would drop the subject.

With one coffee in your hand and the other ringing Sinan's bell, you waited patiently in front of his door. Despite downing twice what was recommended of a container of aspirins, you still felt like shit. However, you had a test that day and you wouldn't skip school. You had to go, achieve the best grade, and then continue with that same routine.

"Hi!" You greeted Sinan as enthusiastically as you could, trying to ignore how your head was pounding.

He looked at you a bit confused about why you were wearing your jacket even if it was a sunny day. "Hey."

You didn't waste time and started walking next to him to the ferry, ranting about the latest film you had seen to try to focus on something else.

"Uh, (Y/N)..." He started slowly, your knees touching once you two sat down. "You don't look so well."

You furrowed your brows. "What's that supposed to mean?"

"I mean you're extremely pale." He continued a bit annoyed. "Are you sick? We can stop by the hospital or the nurse's office." He offered.

You shrugged. "No, I'm fine." You brushed it off leaning against the back of your seat. "Now, help me with this, please. I think I understand everything but last night I did the exercises again and..."

"Last night?" He interrupted you, raising a brow. "It was late last night when you left, when did you sleep?"

You didn't answer, standing up from your seat once the ferry reached its stop. "I already told you not to worry about me. Let's go, I don't want to be late."

"You have to stop running away from your problems." He said following you.

Truth be told, you weren't fine. As soon as you finished your test you couldn't keep your eyes open, sleeping during the rest of the lessons with your head on Sinan's bag which was comfortable enough.

That afternoon, even if you were a coughing mess with a blanket draped in your shoulders, you opened your door to find Sinan.

"What are you doing here?" You asked confused, opening the door more so he could enter.

"Işik told me to bring this." He explained following you, his hand carrying a bag with a few pills containers.

He left them on your desk, furrowing his brows at how crowded your room seemed to be with books and school papers on the ground. You didn't seem to mind, returning to your place on your bed, him seating at the end of it.

"Why didn't you say you were sick earlier?" He asked.

"I'm not sick." You replied. "It's probably just allergies."

You could tell he was about to argue with you, but before he could get a word, a cough shaking your body cut you two. He moved closer to you, pressing the back of his hand against your forehead before you instantly pulled away.

"Fuck, you're burning up." He cursed under his breath.

He fumbled with the containers of pills, trying to decipher which one was the right one for you before noticing that you were grabbing a few papers to continue studying.

"No, give me that. You can't study." He scolded you taking the papers out of your hands.

You scoffed. "I still have homework to do and unlike some people, I want to graduate."

"Why are you so focused on that?" He asked with a serious voice. "Highschool is worthless. We'll only be here two more years and everything will be useless." He continued with his emotionless voice.

"Well, I can't think it's useless." You snapped back.

You bit the inside of your cheek to stop yourself. You couldn't tell him about all the pressure from your parents to get the best grades as possible. You couldn't tell him either about the disappointment they expressed whenever you didn't achieve their goals. He already had too much, you knew that.

He handed you an orange pill container. "Where do you have a thermometer?"

With a sigh, you slowly stood up from your bed and walked towards your bathroom. With a thermometer on your mouth, you watched Sinan as he grabbed a small towel before soaking it with cold water.

Your eyes closed as he pressed it against your forehead, hoping it would make you feel better.

"You know you can trust me, right?" He asked softly.

You nodded, your eyes still closed and your body shivering like you were in the middle of winter.

Once you two were sitting back on your bed and enough time had passed, you looked at the thermometer, letting a tired sigh once you couldn't avoid the truth anymore.

"I can't get sick." You mumbled. "We have another test tomorrow, and I have to turn in my Chemistry assignment. God, they won't let me turn it late, and..." You ranted, distress on your face.

"Why are you crying?"

You blinked at him, too caught up with your problems to even notice the trail of tears that were on your face. You quickly rubbed them off, trying not to cry even more once you noticed how concerned Sinan was looking at you.

He swallowed before speaking, his gaze on the floor. "...You know you can tell me if you want. I want to help you." He admitted, taking a chance and using his thumbs to wipe the tears that were left on your face.

With too many emotions to think straight, you hugged him. You clung tightly to his shoulders and burrowed your head into the crook of his neck, only waiting two seconds for him to wrap his arms around your waist, his fingertips rubbing slow circles while you found comfort on the small gesture.

"I'm sorry I didn't tell you." You mumbled, his skin muffling your voice. "I didn't want to bother you."

"I don't think I could ever be bothered by you." He admitted, surprising you by how honest he sounded. "I'm sorry if I ever made you feel that way."

You pulled back a bit, your forehead still leaning against his shoulder. "I don't want you to get sick."

"I don't give a shit about getting sick."

His words made you chuckle, a small smile on your face as you continued like that. A weight was lifted from your shoulders as soon as you accepted that he only wanted to help and that you would never be a burden to him.

#love 101 #love101 #burcu #eda #kerem #osman #sinan #ask 101 #love 101 imagine #love101imagine #isik #aşk101imagine #aşk 101 #aşk 101 imagine #sinanimagine #sinanxreader

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luv4fandoms · 5 years

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No killing tonight-Hamish x Reader

So recently I finished watching the first season of The Order (if you haven't seen it, go watch it!) And I adore Hamish so much, so even though I usually don't take requests, there is a lack of Hamish fics and I needed to help change that. So Nonny request this. I hope you all enjoy it! 😊

Pairings: Hamish Duke x Reader

Warnings: Killing?

Word Count: 1,384

You had met Hamish on your first day of college, something you hadn't been expecting. You had gone to Belgrave to better your education, to better your future...and instead you bump into someone while looking down at a paper to find your class, drop your books, and when they are quickly picked up and handed to you...Met with the most beautiful pair of blue eyes you had ever seen.

"Are you alright?" His deep voice made your pulse quicken, and it took you a moment to find your tongue.

"Y-yes, sorry I wasn't watching where I was going, are you alright?" You asked, causing him to smile and nod.

"No harm done...I haven't seen you before" He stated, his eyes never leaving your face.

"Yeah, I just enrolled"

"You seem a little old for a student...not that there is a certain age for college" He quickly backtracked.

"No it's ok" you laughed, before adding.

"Typical stupid teen, dropped out young, recently decided to get her act together and get a GED and go to college"

"Never too late" he smiled

"I'm Hamish, Hamish Duke" he extended his hand

"(F/n) (L/n)" you replied while taking his hand in yours

"Very nice to meet you Miss (L/n)" he smiled.

You hadn't expected your relationship to blossom as it did, you were just a student, and come to find out, he was a professor. A relationship that probably shouldn't have happened,quickly did, you both were the same age and had so many things in common...except one. Out of everything, the one thing you hadn't expected was Hamish's secret. When he first told you, you simply laughed it off...But when you realized that he was serious you told him you wanted proof...so he gave you it.

That was almost two years ago. You had quickly accepted Tundra, finding him just as protective as Hamish when you insisted on going out on patrols with them. Sure you were human, but you could fight, and often used yourself as a distraction. That being said, there was something about the wolf lifestyle you didn't agree with.

"Please don't kill anyone tonight" you stated while strapping on your backpack, the pack had just heard the sign of bad magic being used and were about to head out.

"No promises" Lillith replied, already stripping out of her clothes. Your eyes went to Hamish who was already removing his shirt.

"It's murder" you told him.

"Indifference to life" he replied, before sighing.

"No promises" and with that they were all out the door. Sighing, you left as well. It didn't take long for you all to find the source of the bad magic, nor did it take long for the bloodshed to start...It was true that the order was powerful and could hurt the pack, but that didn't stop the sight of a throat being ripped out, or a heart being eaten any less upsetting, and watching it happen made thoughts you had tried to keep at bay, come to the front of your mind once more. Hamish...Tundra looked back at you, blood dripping from his snout as he took in your shaking form...why were you shaking? You had seen this before, but tonight, your wide eyes held horror, for the first time in two years you looked at him in absolute terror. He dropped the body, his claws making more slashes as the body slid along them, and he turned fully towards you. He watched your eyes dart to the body before they met his once more...and then you took a step back. He paused for only a moment before stepping towards you, and with every step, you backed further away...before turning and running off into the night. Hamish stood there in shock, his heart breaking at the memory of your face, the way you looked at him like he was...A monster.

A sorrowful howl split the night just as you reached your car back at the pack's house, and although it broke your heart, you left. That all happened a week ago and since then you had been doing everything to avoid Hamish, you still loved him, but that love only made those thoughts louder. Luckily you weren't in Hamish's class, nor did you share any with him. You could easily get away from Lillith, Jack never tried to invade your space, but Randall was a little harder, being your RA and all.

"Talk to him, please (y/n)! I've never seen Hamish like this before" those words ran through your head on repeat, but so did the thoughts and memories of that night. The bell for the end of the day finally rang and you hurried to gather your things and leave, the sooner you were away from the pack the better...But luck seemed to not be on your side today as you felt a hand roughly grab your arm and drag you into an empty classroom. You already knew who it was, but it didn't stop your heart from quickening when you came face to face with Hamish. This would be so much easier if you weren't still hopelessly in love with him.

"You've been avoiding me" he spoke, his tone a mixture of resignation and pleading.

"Have I?" You tried to play dumb, he looked like he hadn't slept much in the past week, and that thought alone was like a knife through your heart.

"Just" he stopped, taking a breath before adding

"Just tell me what I did, please"

"You didn't d-" you started but he interrupted

"Don't lie to me!" You jumped at his outburst, and his eyes met your wide ones, his face falling as he looked at you.

"That's the same way you looked at me that night...are you that afraid of me?"

"No, I'm not afraid of you" you told him, but he simply laughed and shook his head, backing away from you. You took a moment before continuing your thoughts, he deserved to know.

"I'm afraid of him" he stopped and slowly turned to you.

"Tundra? Why?"

"Everytime you go into your, your, wolf mode and kill I feel like...like one day you're going to stop being...you" you explained, tears pricking your eyes while you voiced your fears, it was something you had thought of every time you saw him kill someone, you were afraid for his humanity.

"You already act like you don't value life, murder is just indifference to human life as you put it. What if one day you see…" you stopped, shaking your head as tears run down your cheeks, the lump in your throat made you swallow.

"What if one day I see what love?" He asked, his hands gently holding your arms.

"What if...what if one day you see my life as worthless? What if one day Tundra gets tired of me and just sees me as worthless? Do you have that much control over him? What if one day we have a child and-" he cut you off by pulling you ointo his chest, his arms wrapped tightly around you as you cried and gripped his shirt.

"I would never hurt you" he spoke into your hair.

"Could never hurt you, don't you see that?" He asked as he pulled you away and made you look at him.

"(Y/n)...you're my mate"

"That's an actual thing?" You slightly giggled, wiping your tears.

"I'm a werewolf and you're shocked by us having mates?"

"I guess I'm more shocked about me being yours" you shrugged.

"Why is that so shocking?"

"I don't know, you're you and I'm"

"Amazing, smart, beautiful, wonderful, fierce, strong" he named off causing you to laugh.

"I love you (y/n) and I, nor Tundra would ever hurt you, we will protect you with our life" he said while leaning down, bringing his lips gently to yours, and when he pulled away he added.

"But I'll make sure I don't kill anymore"

"Just not in front of me ok?"

"Just not in front of you" he laughed while grabbing your hand and leading you out of the classroom.

"So...you think about us having kids?" He smiled.

"Shush" you smiled back.

#the order #hamish duke #hamish duke x reader #hamish duke imagine #hamish duke oneshot #hamish duke fanfic #werewolf #the order imagine #the order x reader #the order oneshot #the order fanfic

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positivelypetty · 5 years

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A REALLY long rant on the Joint Training Arc.

Okay, so since the Joint Training Arc is basically done, I thought I would share my various opinions and adress certain issues that A LOT of people had with this arc.

But, before we get into the actual rant, I think I should distinguish the difference between an opinion, criticism and just plain antagonism.

Here is an example of just misinformed toxicity:

This is just being TOXIC!!! You can’t shelter these horrible comments by saying “it’s just an opinion.” Please don’t act like after 4 years of really enthralling writing, he’s now the worst writer ever. Instead, explain why you don’t think this was the best story choice, instead of being clearly misinformed. It’s nothing absolutely terrible, but just a simple example on how people can be so demanding and completely inconsiderate to the creator.

“Forbidding” Horikoshi from writing is actually ridiculous. He WROTE AND CREATED your “precious sons” that you love so much. So, if you claim that the manga is now utter trash because it doesn’t personally cater to you, please abandon or take a long break from the manga/anime to maybe clear your head. Thank you.

We don’t need any more toxicity in this fandom than we already do.

Now with that said, let’s talk about the arc! (Also keep in mind that these ideas spurred from Reddit so, I decided to expand on it)

1-B vs 1-A situation:

I've been reading a ton of comments too, the good, and the bad and it's fine, everyone has their opinions and that's cool, but for me, it didn't seem it was about who won or lost, it was more about how each class was taught. And this boils down to both Vlad and Aizawa.

Vlad has obviously been pushing his students and their quirks to the max in regards to working in teams. This shines through in all of the fights they all work together very well and know the strengths and weaknesses of each other as well as their enemies. They go into a battle with a plan and are ready to execute the plan flawlessly.

Whereas Aizawa I believe has pushed for more individualist thinking style, and I think this comes from his basis of fighting villains. No one will come to save you, you have to be able to handle yourself whether escaping or defeating. He doesn't coddle his students, and he does push them to the brink as well. What's interesting is Class A has had more hands-on experience. With Aizawa’s teaching style I think they sometimes have a harder time working with one another and they can fall apart with their teamwork. HOWEVER their real-life experience has taught them that the best-laid out plans can not go as plan, and they are able to utilize their 'individual' thinking to fight regardless of a plan falling through.

I found it really interesting and I think there's value in both ways of thinking for Vlad and Aizawa. For Class B, they will have to learn how to abandon a plan that's not working and strategize on the fly, and Class A will have to hone their teamwork for long-running battles.

And let's be honest, these are just kids, pushing their bodies and minds to the limit, I don't find Class B to be 'trash' just because they lost, they still fought hard and worked better together in the long run then Class A. Class B didn't have any dead weight with their battles, everyone was utilized and contributed to all their fights. People are so set on who “won” or who “lost” the battle, that people overlook everyone’s overall individual quirks and techniques. I personally believe that many of the 1-B students were amazing and are forces to be reckoned with. It’s just that 1-A knows how to handle themselves when things don’t to go to plan rather than 1-B (as mentioned before) which gave 1-A the upper-hand in most of the battles, but I can definitely name a few fights where Class A's members were carried by their team.

Now to address the Shinsou thing:

To everyone who was PRESSED that Shinsou didn’t win....

What do you expect from Shinsou? I feel like people were overestimating him. Even with those cloth bindings and his quirk. All you need to do is shut your mouth, grab his cloth bindings (at best he has a few months training) keep focusing on him,restrain him, and boom you're done.(I obviously know it’s not that simple, but basically) I love Shinsou, I really do, but he’s basically Aizawa (I love Aizawa too don’t get me wrong). Aizawa mentioned that it took FIVE YEARS for him to truly master his quirk, and even though since this is the younger generation, so he’ll probably get the hang of it sooner, how long as he really been “training” his quirk under Aizawa? Definitely not long enough for him to go 1v1 with someone who is a close combat fighter. (It really isn’t that shocking that Deku won, he could probably win without Black Whip). Don't get me wrong Shinsou has improved MONUMENTALLY but not to the extent of 1-A who has direct experience in fighting villains. I just think people are mainly mad that 1-B lost is as because they think Shinsou won’t get into the Hero Course. Like chill. One of the main reasons 1-A won in the first match was because of Shinsou, so I think that proves that he is MORE than capable to get in to the Hero Course.

The whole OP Deku thing:

First off, I honestly don't expect him to ever match All Might at his prime in terms of consistent pure raw strength. Deku isn't a giant man of pure muscle, so I don't think he'd be able to go 100 and maintain it like All Might could. Deku is more of a person of different techniques and strategy, rather than brute force. Like, I don't know if Deku is going to be throwing punches that can blow away a city block.

That being said, each generation is getting stronger. Like, Endeavor will be surpassed by Todoroki by the time he graduates (if it even takes that long). Iida is already faster than Gran Torino. In the very beginning of the manga, they mentioned Deku will be the strongest holder of OFA, since it gets stronger each generation. Deku will have formidable rivals if the other strong students also reach their full potential. Hell, those rowdy kids we saw at the makeup exam already had really strong quirks at their young age. Generational power creep means that everybody around Deku will get way stronger than the current pros.

I understand the sentiment that Deku doesn't need more quirks, but Deku's quirk development was already approaching a plateau in terms of being able to fully control what power he could handle. He'd just work on his technique and slowly get stronger and stronger. Sure, he's gonna eventually be able to punch/kick hard enough to shoot himself around in the air, but we've already seen that stuff (plus Bakugo does that too). I know Horikoshi is creative and will develop some cool moves for Deku, but Deku's struggle to control OfA was mostly over. All he had to do wast master OFA steadily and he’ll be good. More quirks means that he may unlock more quirks when he's able to use more %. So instead of reaching 30% and just being X amount stronger physically, he may unlock a new tool to try and master/incorporate into his combat toolkit.

If this is a negative turn for the story, we won't even be able to tell until many, many more chapters are released. We may look back and decide that this was a bad move, but we shouldn't assume that's the case when it was literally introduced TWO WHOLE CHAPTERS AGO. (even though I don’t think it was a bad move AT ALL)

What I hope to see in future Arcs:

I think what fans would really enjoy and we could all use some real Deku character development. Deku’s my favorite character, but I feel like people can’t connect to him as much as someone like Todoroki, because his lack of emotional development. He’s indeed way more confident then he was in the beginning, I still feel like he has low self esteem. Someone needs to tell him that he’s worthy of this mega powerful quirk. ( he needs it 😭)We know so much about him, but rarely see him living his day to day life outside of training, costume updates and the occasional villain attack. Last time we got anything close to development in was only told through Aoyama's development.

These next few chapters will definitely give us something, but only as it relates to One for All. I'd honestly like to know Deku's thoughts about his situation, he seems determined that's for sure. Does he feel stressed, uninformed, unprepared, scared...resentful? We can infer a bunch, I'd just like to see him talk to All Might, Bakugo or his mom about it.

In Conclusion:

Honestly, to me,It never seemed to matter who won or lost any of these matches people were gonna complain regardless. When Class A wins they call it predictable and when class B won they say call it BS or plot amor. Even when it’s a draw people got upset saying Todoroki was disappointing. Some people wanted the matches to be fleshed out over a couple of chapters rather than rushed, then a few weeks later complained that it was taking to long. Bakugo wins his match quickly and those same people lose their minds about how they wanted the match to be longer. People complained about Horikoshi not letting the girls shine in battle after the second match, but conveniently forgets Tsuyu was the MVP of the first match and Kendo and Mushroom girl made 1-B win the second match. (AND WE’RE NOT GONNA FORGET HOW URARAKA AND MINA DOMINATED THE MATCH)Then you have the people who say all of 1-B is worthless and then Juzo and Tetsutetsu prove otherwise. Now we have people think Deku is OP but in this new chapter it seems that he much has a limit to using these other abilities but I’m sure that won’t stop the myriad of complaints. Every week the same people come to see the spoilers and complain based off of a fragmented non-contextualized summary of the chapter and wonder why they enjoy the chapter itself less. Maybe going into a chapter with a negative outlook will do that. The part that irks me is that virtually everyone whose binge-read this arc seems to enjoy it only seems to be us week to week readers with a issue. Either way I hope the discussion going into the next arc are far more level-headed constructive than they have been.

I think this will be one of the arcs that played out better once it was animated. Individual panels maybe favored over the anime, but overall pacing will surely favor the anime. Waiting week in and week out, over analyzing every short chapter has really done no favors for fans and Horikoshi.

#mha #my hero academia #boku no hero academia #deku #midoriya izuku #bnha #mha 213 #mha 214 #mha 215 #mha 200-215 #mha 216 #thanks for coming to my ted talk #yall are so annoying #i stg #rant #anime #manga #manga spoliers #bnha spoilers

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queenlovestone · 6 years

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Drama Warning: Some people never grow up.

(2014)

Matt: Hi

Me: Hey

(2015)

Me: Hey, it's been a while. Remember me? How have you been?

Matt: Good

Matt: This is his wife and as a matter of fact Matt said he didn't like you in high school any way. So before you jump in his messages get your facts right.

Me: Well, actually he sent me a friend request and messaged me first, but it's been a while since we talked.

Matt: I don't see where he messaged you and you're not friends anymore because I'm unfriending you I'm sorry get used to it he's not coming back and Id appreciate it if you wouldn't message my husband anymore

Me: Excuse you? It seems you may have a bit of trust issues since you're snooping through his messages, but I assure you Matt is nothing more than an old friend. If he doesn't want to talk to me, then why not let him get on to say that for himself?

Matt: I'm on his account bc he gave me the info that's why and when some random chick messages yeah imma have issues. I'm his wife and he doesn't hide anything from me. So stop asking questions you got no business asking lil girl and sit that ass down before it gets checked. You have no idea what your up against.

Me: There's nothing to be concerned about. Anyway I have better things to do than argue with someone who is clearly irrelevant to my life. Have a good day.

(2017)

-You are now connected on Messenger-

Matt: You messaged him, so obviously it concerns me. I was just stating what he said. If he didn't like you in school why would he want to talk now?

Me: What?

Me: That conversation literally happened over a year ago. I was just having a casual conversation with Matt. Can we not bitch about petty things?

Matt: Ok say what you want to who you want just not my husband and you trifling tramp you haven't seen bitch yet.

Me: I've had enough of you being rude. You've been hostile for a whole year? If you want to continue a friendly conversation then I'm up for it, if not, then don't even bother to reply.

Matt: I wasn't being rude just stating what he said. The first time I sent the message our relationship was new, and my ex husband was worthless and a cheater so I had to get used to having a good man like Matt and I didn't want to lose him to some whore. That's what was with my hostility. Is it too much to ask for you to leave him alone.

Me: If Matt didn't want to talk to me, then he could have just been a mature man and said that to me, or he could just not reply. However, I don't think that's the case. Instead you puppet his account because you're too insecure to let him have friends.

Matt: Wow, I'm not puppeting. As you call it. He knows what is said on it. He usually reads with me. And obviously you're not a real friend if you are going to insult him and tell him he's not a man. You are a trip. You keep on and on. Let it go. Just stop messaging. Your just trying to be a bitch now. So why don't you do us a favor, mind your own business, stop trying to be Facebook police fuck of and just stop bothering us. Your just butt hurt and jealous of me because he didn't like you in school, and sure as hell don't like you now. Just let it be, find something better to do with your pathetic life instead of acting stupid on Facebook and running your mouth. Or do we have to find you and shut your up for good? I certainly have no problem beating down a desperate slut if it means she gets the memo

Me: All I wanted to know was how Matt was doing. This whole thing started because you wanted to come at me in a hostile manner. You say that I keep going on and on, when a WHOLE YEAR has passed and you're still making threats, when I was ready to move on. Also, I never said he wasn't man. I just said that if he really doesn't want to talk to me then he could have been a mature man about it. Please, just end this childish fiasco, I am begging. Again I say,if you don't want to have a friendly conversation then DO NOT reply!!

Matt: The only thing you'll be begging for is for me not to hit you again while Matt and I laugh at how pathetic you are.

Me: I'm going to go.

Matt: Scared now? Just don't reply or you will get the real memo

Me: Okay, here it is. I'm done dealing with you passively. Clearly, you are puppetting his account because you changed his profile picture to a picture of you. He has has even had to make ANOTHER account just to message his friends. I can show you screenshots of him apologizing to me for YOUR behavior and explaining how you don't like any of his friends. I think it's safe to say that most of your problems are self inflicted, considering you try to act like you can control everyone and everything. You're siting here making threats and ready to find and fight a girl just for being friends with your husband. You need to calm the hell down, because the only one who is going to make your man leave is yourself. You're older than be but you're acting like a child. Frankly, I'm not jealous of you, because you have nothing that I want. Acting tough and pushing Matt and his friends around isn't going to keep Matt around. Lying about what Matt says surely isn't going to keep Matt around. You said it yourself, Matt is a good guy. So, start acting like you have a good man in your life, and stop spending your time taunting an baiting his friends into fights. Now if you still want to fight me, you're just proving my point that you're so insecure that you are more willing to waste your time controlling the people in someone's life than actually spending time with that someone.

Matt: I warned you. You did it now.

-Matt is typing-

*Blocks Matt*

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