#angst logan sanders

[imhere-imqueer-ilikedeer]

Logan doesn't repress because he was taught to.

He represses because he feel like he needs to.

Hw feels emotion, but it's kind of muted to very dull, small emotions. He's sure he's sure he has deeper emotions, but he's repressed so thoroughly that even he can't feel them.

He's felt big emotions before. A few times, if it got too much. All that emotion, when you aren't used to it, gets overwhelming. It's easier to just not feel it, than to bring it out an deal with it.

Because if he acknowledge it, it gets bigger. And the bigger it gets, the more it shows. The more it shows, the more he hates it.

He can't stand people's comfort. Just let him be sad, and ignore him while he does it. Let him sit there, let him lick his wounds in private. But that is not human nature. Human nature is to comfort.

He despise comforting people. They tell him something is wrong, they tell him it is ok, they tell him to feel the emotion. Then the emotion gets bigger, and he feels it more. He shows it more.

When he show it, he gets a kind of emotion hangover. Two hours later, two days later, he remembers the emotion he showed. And that is an embarrassment he never wants to feel again.

he'd rather stay on top of the emotion. Press it down. Nip it in the bud. Just avoid that spiral all together.

Because sharing his emotion doesn't make it better. It only leads to more emotion. It only gets worse.

He doesn't repress emotion because he was taught to.

He represses emotion because he needs to.

#logan sanders #fic #kinda #one shot #angst #tss logan #thomas sanders #sanders sides #repression #tw repression #tw emotion #angst logan sanders #herequeerdeerrobin

[randomnerd737]

I was thinking about the 5 year anniversary video and

it is interesting to me how Patton kind of decided for Logan what his role in the "family" would be. all the other sides chose it themselves, but he didn't get to.

even when he actively objects it's played for laughs and never addressed. this happened too when Patton revealed his name for him, and I just think it's interesting to note that after all these years, Logan still never gets to decide anything when it comes to Thomas, or even himself, to an extent. it's just kind of decided for him and he is expected to just go along with it, similar to how it was when Thomas dyed his hair.

ik it's mainly a "haha wine mom" moment, but that doesn't take away from how angsty it gets when you think about it.

#btw this is not meant as a judgement of Thomas as a creator #I just think it is an interesting character dynamic that leads to lots of angst #and seeing it shown so well and clearly is a treat #this also isn't Patton hate #I don't think he has any bad intentions #I think he is just a bit oblivious to how much his actions affect Logan #this is more of a general light sides not being the best to him thing #sanders sides #logan sanders #ts logan #logan angst #tw angst #tw alcohol #tw alchoholism mention #sasi #thomas sanders

[will-die-for-janus]

Logan thinking Virgil didn’t care enough to put any effort into his gift AND thinking it’s because something is wrong with him and need to re-evaluate

but then him finding out Virgil made something incredibly thoughtful that appeals to his interests specifically

bonus: Virgil being so mad over Janus implying he put no thought into his gift

#i wanna cry just thinking about it bro #at least he got a happy surprised at the end :] #nillatalks #sanders sides #thomas sanders #thatsthat24 #ts sanders sides #new sanders sides #logan sanders #logan angst #ts logan #ts virgil #virgil sanders

[let-roman-bite-someone]

thinking about how Virgil probably understands how Logan is feeling right now. how Logan feels like no one wants him around anymore, no one values his opinions, the other sides occassionally villanize him or act like he's the problem; and Virgil gets it. he knows exactly how it feels.

and that's why he doesn't make a big deal out of Logan jumping to conclusions about his present. it probably hurt Virgil to see Logan immediately assume that he didn't care enough to prepare a good present but in the end, all Virgil says is “and you thought I would just get you a newspaper”.

because he's been in this exact position before and in that moment, it was Logan who gave him some believable assurance that he is not unwanted, that his presence means something to the rest of them.

so when Logan jumps to a conclusion and assumes that Virgil doesn't like him all that much, Virgil doesn't take it personally. he's just returning the favor.

#can you tell i'm extremely emotional about these two?? #i love their friendship so much #sanders sides #thomas sanders #sanders sides logan #logan sanders #virgil sanders #sasi #tss #patton sanders #logan ts #logan angst #ts logan #tss logan #logan tss #virgil tss #sanders sides virgil #ts virgil #virgil ts #tss virgil #thomas sanders sides #virgil angst #sanders sides meta #sanders sides angst #sanders sides theory #analogical #left brain bois #logan #virgil

[orbmanson7]

Have some Logan angst doodles from my sketchbook

And a doodle from the yet-to-be-released 'comfort' chapter of my fic, Malfunction

And here's a little happy Logan with some implied angst, as well 👌

#logan angst #logan sanders #ts logan #orb cant draw #doodles #sanders sides #might make some of these into stickers bc i havent done that in a while #that last one under the readmore is an oofuri reference #in case anyone was wondering

[logan-the-artist]

‘cause no one knows what you know that you feel

no one knows who you are…

#soul of steam by leo. #my art #drawing #art #sketch #sanders sides #sanders sides fanart #log’s art #logan sanders #ts logic #tss logan #logic sanders #tss logic #ts orange side #orange side #ts orange #logan angst #Spotify

[doggocake]

Sadness?

POV: Janus ↓ God forbid you feel upset! HOW DARE YOU!!! Such a waste of one's time to- CRY? we don't have all day. just shove those feeling deep down, and stop feeling sorry for yourself~ In short... I really love this little fella :>

#sanders sides #digital art #fanart #sanders sides fanart #art #logan sanders #silly doodles #pastel aesthetic #angst #logan sanders angst

[part-time-zombie]

I kinda can't stop thinking about this hold on...

Remus is upset because he's being ignored (something logan can understand and relate to) and decides to make sure logan knows how he feels about that. We all know logan has already been ignored by everyone else and is still upset by it, but remus is doing it now deliberately to upset him.

Logan defends himself, saying that remus (and himself as well maybe...) shouldn't be ignored at all. He tries to explain that he wasn't ignoring remus, but merely trying to make sure thomas finished his chores uninterrupted, but remus isn't having it.

He continues to ignore logan, not listening to or believing what he's saying, and frankly I don't think I can blame him.

Almost every time remus practically begged for any sort of interaction from logan, who is arguably the only side who doesn't roll their eyes or flinch at him, he was shut down and put away.

I get that remus finds entertainment in many ways logan may find odd or even juvenile, but you have to admit he must feel awfully lonely right now to do anything for a reaction from him.

The best he gets is either a condescending remark or a patronizing dismissal, even though I'd argue he's been trying to help thomas as well for this whole episode (forcing him to confront his fear of loneliness so he can better manage how he deals with isolation)

He wants to help, and he wants logan to at least acknowledge if not appreciate that, but by the time logan decides to actually say anything about it, remus is already fed up and over it, and ready to give him a taste of his own medicine by ignoring him.

When logan snaps, and starts to fight for recognition, remus relents because now he feels they're both on even footing now. Now they've both reduced themselves to begging for attention, but they're also begging the wrong people and they both know it.

I'm not saying logan was in the wrong here, in fact I understand his motivations and am not holding it against him, but I'm also saying that what remus is doing here is more than just some petty tantrum, it's a calculated confrontation they both need to have.

#sanders sides #logan sanders #remus sanders #ts logan #ts remus #angst #analysis #hear me out #thomas sanders

[rambling-prince-thoughts]

rewatching selfishness vs selflessness for the 100th time in a row and there’s this one detail that i always notice. it hurts like a bitch every time i see it too.

in the scene where janus is questioning logan, he obviously takes advantage of the fact that logan had been forgotten by thomas and the rest of the sides when they all entered the courtroom scenario in the first place. logan was (rightfully and obviously) shocked to notice that they were enacting the scenario without him, logic, the person who would undoubtedly be the most excited to do so and would have the most knowledge about courtroom procedures.

but there is the moment where he says that there’s “always room for him” and janus responds with, “i know, that’s what i said! but patton insisted we leave you alone” and that moment sticks with me whenever i watch this episode.

logan immediately turns to look at patton with a surprised, hurt look on his face because he can’t believe that patton would say something like that about him. it’s true that him and patton don’t usually see eye to eye on things, but patton does value his input and they resolved most of their issues during the earlier stages of the sanders sides videos (although not completely).

i find that interesting because whenever janus targets logan, he always makes it a point to draw attention to the fact that logan isn’t very well liked, mostly because he embodies logic and claims not to feel anything, unlike the rest of the sides (who as thomas once put it, are too zany or relatable). he even calls out logan for this during the events of svs.

his “oh, of course you don’t” is dripping with sarcasm and janus is the lord of the lies, he would know when someone is lying. keeping that aside, it was obvious that a few minutes ago, janus’ lie about patton disregarding logan’s usefulness during the courtroom scenario hurt logan, so much so that it was visible on his face. roman’s comment of “did you see the look on his face?” was a nod to that.

so logan, in saying that he doesn’t feel anything, is lying about his own feelings.

additionally, it’s not the first time janus has used patton specifically to counteract logan and lie to him. the whole episode of “can LYING be good?” featured janus, disguised as patton, playing to logan’s likings via patton’s charm. it was evident from the first minute that logan appeared onscreen.

after that, he simply had patton reference famous philosophers, and logan clearly admired that because he seemed to be quite happy about it, even though virgil immediately became suspicious.

janus picked up on the fact that logan didn’t believe that patton would ever try to hurt him on purpose, and at least patton wouldn’t exclude him from things. that patton would listen to him. which makes it all the more sad that in svs redux, when logan said that philosophers would not agree with patton (after patton asked for his input), patton took the easy way out and pulled logan out of the situation.

it’s also why logan ignored patton when he tried to offer comfort after logan reappeared and said “i’m just here to deliver one last fact, then i will do you all a favour and spare you my company.” in fact, he ended up yelling over patton so he could get his point across and actually be heard.

i love logan and patton’s duo, and i really hope they resolve this during logan’s arc. in the meantime, sending love to our logical boy because he needs it.

(an unofficial part two to this post is now up, delving a little more into logan and patton’s relationship. i’ve hyperfixated on the glasses gays at this point /hj)

#sanders sides #rambling prince thoughts #logicality #logan angst #logan sanders #patton sanders #janus sanders #selfishness vs selflessness #logan really needs a break #someone please give him a hug too while you’re at it #the nerd is trying his best and we love him for it

[blackoutbugza]

euh i never draw logan with his hair down

@maxphilippa for you 👉👈

#hahahahahah starts crying #sanders sides #ts sides #thomas sanders #my art #fanart #logan sanders #sasi #sasi art #ts logan #sanders sides angst #sanders sides spoilers #sanders sides fanart

[royall-ass]

i was rewatching svs and i love how janus just yells hes such a silly guy in that episode

#sanders sides #sanders sides fanart #tss fanart #patton sanders #patton sanders fanart #tss patton #tss patton fanart #i cant draw tears i know they suck #this isnt angst unless u want it to be #i just saw something silly on pinterest #pretend hes in the courtroom during svs #this is the real reason logan wanted to be the lawyer #cuz patton is to emotional

[intrulogical]

if the word hate was engraved on each nanoangstrom of those hundreds of millions of miles, it would not equal the one billionth of the hate i feel for humans at this micro instant. for you. hate. hate

#sanders sides #logan sanders #logan sanders angst #thomas sanders #art #ts fanart #my art #some traditional art ! #eyestrain tw

[randomnerd737]

Logan: you know that one time I said repression was bad and didn't work?

Thomas: yeah...?

Logan: ...... well the good news is I was right!

Logan: the bad news is I'm a fucking hypocrite

#sanders sides #logan sanders #thomas sanders #ts logan #logan angst #sanders sides incorrect quotes #incorrect quotes

[let-roman-bite-someone]

I'm rewatching Embarrassing Phases and honestly gotta say,

Frankenstein's monster was a more fitting choice for Logan.

In the original novel, Victor Frankenstein isn't even a doctor. He's a college dropout, who very stupidly decided to play god and try to create life. He never took notes about his experiment, or did any amount of research, the dude literally went graverobbing and decided to create a human being in his college dorm.

And then when the creature turned out to be a little inhuman and scary looking, he immediately abandoned the creature, and decided to mope and moan about the wretched life that he himself had created. He did nothing to stop the creature or protect people from it.

In fact, when he realized that his experiment didn't turn out quite as good as he had hoped, literally the first thing he did was to go and take a nap and let the creature make its way out of the house and cause chaos.

Not to mention, when the creature asked him to create a female creature so it could have some company, instead of simply not giving his new creation reproductive organs, Victor decides to throw a fit at the very last moment because he was scared that the two creatures would reproduce and make monster babies.

This absolutely does not sound like a character Logan would want to dress up as. If he actually met someone like Victor Frankenstein in real life, he would not hesitate to deck them in the jaw full force.

Meanwhile, Frankenstein's monster proved to be not only physically strong but also very intelligent. He quickly learned how to speak, light fire and try to support himself. He learned how to speak French from some books he had found while traveling, and he tried his best to understand and help people. He was curious about the world he was brought into, and was interested in learning more about it. He even tried to reason with his creator, asking him to understand him, only turning "evil" when he truly felt neglected.

This actually has a lot of similarities to Logan who is constantly neglected by Thomas and the other sides. Like the creature, Logan's efforts are ignored and his feelings invalidated. And like the creature, he lashes out when he is repeatedly shut down or overlooked.

While we're on the topic, I do wish Logan had dressed up as the book version of the creature, instead of the pop culture version. In the book, the creature was actually extremely good looking, it was over 6ft and had long luscious hair. Frankenstein had made sure to give it the best features because he wanted to create a perfect human being.

The only problem was that the creature looked a little off, a little uncanny; its skin was pale and yellow (obviously, because it was made from corpses), and it's eyes were also a somewhat unsettling shade of yellow. This is the only reason it is described as ugly and horrendous, mostly by Victor himself.

The creature was not green with bolts on its neck and weird hair. And like I mentioned earlier, it could speak quite eloquently, unlike the pop culture Frankenstein which only communicated in creepy groans.

#i know its not that deep but i have strong feelings about this story and i like to overanalyze #enjoy #sanders sides #thomas sanders #logan sanders #virgil sanders #roman sanders #remus sanders #sasi #tss #patton sanders #janus sanders #logan ts #logan angst #ts logan #logan tss #tss logan #sanders sides meta #thomas sanders sides #frankenstein #frankenstiensmonster #victor frankenstein #adam frankenstein #mary shelley #mary shelly's frankenstein #frankenstein mary shelley #frankenstein's monster #sanders sides analysis #thinking about drawing logan dressed as the original frankenstein's monster now #sanders sides halloween

[orbmanson7]

Pulled out the posca pens again, just for something to do...

#logan sanders #logan angst #orb cant draw #i considered doing more but i genuinely couldnt think of anything to fill the remaining space #hmm #sanders sides

[logan-the-artist]

happy birthday appreciation day, teach!!

@thatsthat24

#it’s the nerd’s birthday 🥹 #you can observe that i love angst by the orange in his eyes JDHFJF #my art #drawing #art #sketch #sanders sides #sanders sides fanart #log's art #logan sanders sides #logan sanders #ts logic #ts logan #thatsthat24 #thomas sanders sides #thomas sanders #happy birthday logan #logic sanders #TSart