#because of brain damage

[indigo6f00ff]

need to share an experience i had 30 minutes ago

(edit: thanks to @walks-the-ages for providing and reminding me to put alt text, sorry it slips my mind alot lol)

#my hands are still shaking to be quite honest i could not put a lot of effort into this. #but like. brain. why did you do that #literally i have been like hopelessly obsessed with de nonstop thinking abt it for the past couple of days it is Scaring me #it is terminal its soooo fucking chronic #disco elysium #kim kitsuragi #for anyone who wants to know i bumped into some guys car that was stopped for a school bus. i think my brain errored and thought #my foot was fully pressing down on the brake pedal but it wasnt. #i am like 99.99 percent sure neither of us had any major damage to our cars but we still filed a police report just in case #because insurance do be a bitch. dudes back bumper was scratched lightly and my front license plate has a dent now #also literally my first ever car accident that ive had ever yippee yay

[literallyaflame]

okay. listen. if you ever find yourself falling into a new ideological circle, pay attention. if you notice that you’re among people who define themselves as part of an “in-group” with a pre-prepared human “enemy” to constantly rail against—if everyone fantasizes about the mental state of these loathsome monsters, if they participate in witch hunts or (perhaps worse) poke bears and court harassment on purpose to comfort each other over—get the fuck out. you haven’t been enlightened to some grand conspiracy, there are no evil “enemies” or “degenerates” trying to rip apart the fabric of society, and you do not have the moral duty to “enlighten” anyone to whatever you think the “truth” is. it’s neither safe nor normal to spend hours of your day fighting with strangers on the internet

a lot of people wear this shit like a badge of honor, but it’s also not normal to hide your “in-group” status as a form of martyrdom, relishing when the “enemy” slips up around you. it’s comforting in the moment, but in the long run, you’re alienating yourself from the world outside of your bubble. the more you alienate yourself, the more vulnerable and lonely you become, and the harder it is to reject the comfort of belonging to the “in-group”

i’m writing this from the perspective of someone who grew up in a cesspool of awful, cult-like rural churches—which is its own situation—but i see similar shit happening in online communities all the time, both within and 800 miles outside of my own ideological principles. yes, every toxicass radfem i block seems to be trapped in a version of this vicious cycle, but i also see it happening in random queer circles and niche fandom communities. no one is immune, not even me. i’ve watched people fall into this shit and never make it out. be careful

#some ideologies come pre-baked with this nonsense #because they naturally revolve around an in-group and an out-group #but i swear to god people will start acting like this over fucking #anime shipping wars #which probably seems harmless to most people #but those communities skew very young #and i have no doubt that it can be psychologically damaging #no matter how inconsequential it seems to my jaded 26 year old brain #me when i make a post

[frickerdoodle]

Mild act 2 Durge spoilies

My Dark Urge has been vehemently denying any thoughts of bloodlust to their companions and has hiddentheir evil deeds whenever possible (threw a certain body in the river and played dumb about where they went, for example) so imagine my shock when everyone knew about his deep dark secret after the most harrowing night of his life.

#the dark urge #bg3 #baldurs gate 3 #astarion ancunin #comic #astarion #My durge is a tiefling named “Nice” and its his virtue name which i think is funny #He's fully fallen for Astarion's act because the brain damage made him naive #Astarion tolerates it for the canon reasons but I'm pretty sure Nice writes just real dogshit poetry about him

[la-pheacienne]

I'm reading the lord of the rings and I'm once again amazed at how... good most characters are. Like, they are genuinely good people. They are a bunch of kindhearted, gracious, caring people, coming together under adverse circumstances and trying to figure things out and find a solution and support each other through it all. Like Frodo and Sam meet Faramir and Faramir is a bit suspicious at first and kind of implies Frodo may be a spy, and then when he hears his story and he's like Frodo, I pressed you so hard at first. Forgive me! It was unwise in such an hour and place. And this blows.my.mind. He wasn't even particularly mean or threatening to him in the beginning, he's just such a kind, considerate man, recognizing the kindness and honesty of another man. And they're all like that. Even Gollum starts slowly changing (for a short while) when he encounters Frodo because that's the thing about kindness and humility and grace, they are contagious. They transform people, even a creature like Gollum cannot be immune to that. Like, you may consider all this simple and basic and I get it but, hear me out. It is quite rare to see that in modern media and it is also pretty difficult to pull off in a way that is not corny and simplistic. It is mind blowing that you actually don't have to present the entire palette of human cruelty and vice in order to tell a compelling story, contrary to popular belief. Lotr does the exact opposite, and it is just beautiful and it warms my heart. Especially taking into consideration tolkien's pretty grim growing-up experience, him being a double orphan without a home, raised between an orphanage and a priest and having no family apart from his brother and then the war and then he almost dies and then he's poor as hell and then a second war and it all makes sense somehow. He writes to his wife who is also an orphan two days before the marriage "the next few years will bring us joy and content and love and sweetness such as could not be if we hadn't first been two homeless children and had found one another after long waiting" and, yes, yes! The love and sweetness just radiate from his work, the entire lotr series is a little radiant bubble of hope and love and grace that he imagined in his head to deal with a dismal reality and then he just gave that to the world, and isn't that what imagination and art is all about after all?

#i literally wrote this because faramir said 'forgive me' #like that was the inspiration here #terminal brain damage don't mind me #BUT #i have a point #i do! #i am cringe but i am free #i love these books so much #i love this man so much #lotr #the two towers #frodo baggins #faramir #gollum #the lord of the rings #aspa rambles #tolkien #aspa reads tolkien

[sugarcoatednightshade]

thinking about how Humans Are Space Orcs stories always talk about how indestructible humans are, our endurance, our ability to withstand common poisons, etc. and thats all well and good, its really fun to read, but it gets repetitive after a while because we aren't all like that.

And that got me thinking about why this trope is so common in the first place, and the conclusion I came to is actually kind of obvious if you think about it. Not everyone is allowed to go into space. This is true now, with the number of physical restrictions placed on astronauts (including height limits), but I imagine it's just as strict in some imaginary future where humans are first coming into contact with alien species. Because in that case there will definitely be military personnel alongside any possible diplomatic parties.

And I imagine that all interactions aliens have ever had up until this point have been with trained personnel. Even basic military troops conform to this standard, to some degree. So aliens meet us and they're shocked and horrified to discover that we have no obvious weaknesses, we're all either crazy smart or crazy strong (still always a little crazy, academia and war will do that to you), and not only that but we like, literally all the same height so there's no way to tell any of us apart.

And Humans Are Death Worlders stories spread throughout the galaxy. Years or decades or centuries of interspecies suspicion and hostilities preventing any alien from setting foot/claw/limb/appendage/etc. on Earth until slowly more beings are allowed to come through. And not just diplomats who keep to government buildings, but tourists. Exchange students. Temporary visitors granted permission to go wherever they please, so they go out in search of 'real terran culture' and what do they find?

Humans with innate heart defects that prevent them from drinking caffeine. Humans with chronic pain and chronic fatigue who lack the boundless endurance humans are supposedly famous for. Humans too tall or too short or too fat to be allowed into space. Humans who are so scared of the world they need to take pills just to function. Humans with IBS who can't stand spicy foods, capsaicin really is poison to them. Lactose intolerance and celiac disease, my god all the autoimmune disorders out there, humans who struggle to function because their own bodies fight them. Humans who bruise easily and take too long to heal. Humans who sustained one too many concussions and now struggle to talk and read and write. Humans who've had strokes. Humans who were born unable to talk or hear or speak, and humans who through some accident lost that ability later.

Aliens visit Earth, and do you know what they find? Humanity, in all its wholeness.

#humans are space orcs #humans in space #earth is a deathworld #earth is space australia #tagging this so that ppl can find it even though the space shit i write about always feels like its in direct opposition to all the pop tag #also my biggest pet peeve in all of writing - all writing. everywhere. not just in fanfic but books and tv and movies too - is when people #write off an injury by saying something like 'oh nothing bad just a couple of scratches some bruising and a minor concussion' like girl WHA #MiNOr ConCuSSioN is such an oxymoron and I hate it so fucking much. like i dont care how minor it was thats still brain damage. #especially when the same character does this more than once. like im sorry ms. but uh. you can no longer read. or talk eloquently. sorry #evidence: my brother has had two 'minor' concussions and now cannot read write or speak without tremendous effort. And like its totally #ruined my ability to watch action shows/movies because now i just sit there and count how many concussions there characters are getting #after a certain point it becomes totally impossible to believe that these guys are able to function. (still fun to watch tho im not a hater

[popcornhee]

#james fleamont potter #james potter #he wears contacts in my modern au #because he does lots of sporty shit #violent stuff #glasses would probably push down to his brain #give him brain damage #marauders fanart #marauders #prongs

[yikes-ajax]

I dont have a clever and witty sarcastic comment tonight, I just think she's cute

#my brain isnt working rn its 3am ive been reading fanfics while hyperventilating over the irreparable damage i managed with my limited life #tee hee im just kinda feeling moody tonight 🤪 #somebody please ban me from tumblr between 1am to 11am i do not function as a stable person between those times #i schedule my mental breakdowns they work really well with my schedule #its multitasking cause I'll already be up from insomnia its really efficient in the grand scheme of things #ah i love the fact that nobody can stop me from writing the most deranged shit in the tags of a cute cat pic <3 #animals #petblr #cat #cat life #cat lovers #catblr #my cat #cat photos #cat pictures #cats of tumblr #calico #calico cat #OH UH THATS WHAT I WAS SUPPOSED TO SAY FOR AMERICANS THE REASON IM SAYING ITS NIGHT WHEN THIS IS POSTED DURING THE DAY IS BECAUSE ITS QUEUED #i queue most stuff because i dont usually have the energy or time to be active at good times #i get little bursts of post motivation and dont wanna flood my 9 followers (at least 6 are dirty bots) with my bs #im just a dumbass that never tags shit

[aq2003]

like the important thing you must keep in mind about ten when you see him do literally anything is that he's soooooooooo so so so bad at actually isolating himself from other people. so TERMINALLY bad at it. he thinks to himself "i don't need human connection because everything i do causes pain and destruction to those around me :(" but then he experiences a crumb of human connection and his heart starts to spill out of his chest

#tenth doctor #dr who #doctor who #yeah i say heart singular cuz he said 'i suppose they break my heart' in the next doctor and i have perma brain damage over it #btw. this is why him and martha in the first half of series 3 are Like That. he trusts her deeply but he also doesn't want to form #another deep emotional connection bc look what happened with rose! right! i think partially the reason why he #has his moments of opening up about his past is because he thinks 'well she isn't going to see me again after this' #'i might as well tell her if she asks. it may even scare her off'. this is INSANE. he is INSANE. and he is so fucking STUPID #fool! you are developing a connection with someone!!!!!!! not pushing them away!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #look at what you are doing to martha's self esteem bro!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #10 era

[bowelfly]

forever in love with @salavante's greenbrier mice and their cowls so i had a lot of fun coming up with some of my own

tag yourself i'm the one wearing bottlecaps

#bflyart #salavante #greenbrier #mice #cowls #(these are actually studies i've been doing for a larger piece) #(but its been going super slow because of work and brain damage) #(but i'm super excited to finish it and i think its gonna be good if i can pull it off)

[autism-swagger]

Amanda in Saw X who cheered

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Bonus speedpaint (^_^) peace and love on planet earth

#Mandy my best friend Mandy <333 #with her fuckin 5 head #gave her mismatched pupil sizes because lets be real she probably has some sort of brain damage <3 #please do not judge me for the reverse bear trap. I gave up after a certain point. #my art #amanda young #saw #saw 2004 #saw x #saw franchise #horror tag

[gottagetgogottagetattahere]

with context this page becomes so fucked up on many, many levels

#witch hat atelier #wha #witch hat atelier spoilers #qifrey #olruggio #olrufrey #the fucking horrifying situation that qifrey puts himself and his closest friend through #the irony of olruggio saying its best that secrets shouldn't be pushed after pushing qifrey about his secret #BUT HE DOESN'T REMEMBER ABOUT PUSHING QIFREY ABOUT HIS SECRET #BECAUSE QIFREY FUCKING MINDWIPED HIM ABOUT IT #QIFREY WHAT IF YOU GIVE YOUR BEST FRIEND FUCKING BRAIN DAMAGE I DON'T THINK REPEATEDLY GETTING YOUR MEMORY WIPED IS GOING TO DO GREAT THING #FOR YOUR BEST BUD'S PHYSICAL AND MENTAL HEALTH. DUDE.

[cream-and-five-sugars]

ARE WE READY FOLKS???

original  |  volume 4/5  |  volume 6  |  volume 7

#rwby #rwby edit #rwbyedit #rooster teeth #game grumps #grump it #mp #every time i edit one of these my brain suffers permanent damage because i have to listen to this godforsaken audio SO MANY TIMES #also... no this didn't take 3 years what are you talking about #1k

[trans-queen-administrator]

Every time I reread a bit of worm I love Taylor more, she's incredibly deranged. She decided against having Sundancer and Shatterbird burn down the PRT headquarters with people inside because how many of those people had kids like Dinah? How many Dinah's would be hurt through the butterfly effect like that? Doesn't give a shit about the people, her entire morality is based on Dinah and people who remind her of Dinah. She cares about Dinah and anyone who reminds her of Dinah gets a pass too.

And then 20 seconds later she smashes Vista's nose in with a baton, bashes her ear to make sure she goes down, and shoves capsaicin laced bugs up her nose. "Ohhh what if they have kids who are like Dinah, I don't want to hurt them, they're innocent" Taylor thinks as she brutalizes a girl Dinah's age. Truly no one rationalizes and compartmentalizes like she does

#worm #parahumans #taylor hebert #skitter #Brian fell in love with her because they both gave vista brain damage #true love

[uspiria]

Suicide Club (2001) dir. Sion Sono

#suicide club #sion sono #horrorstills #horroredit #filmedit #horror #2000s #japanese cinema #caps #* #*suicideclub #sorry i have brain damage and made a mistake the first time i posted this lmao #i just deleted the other post because i couldn't edit it when i noticed it and it was bothering me

[mettterro]

#postal #postal dude #art #fanart #digital art #digital illustration #postal 1997 #digital sketch #painting #sketch #postal 2 #postal 1 #postal fanart #postal redux #postal game #postal brain damaged #postal 2 dude #postal 3 #postal 4 #postal dude fanart #postal movie #paradise #travelling #lost paradise #why #because

[veriitasu]

I drew quite a bunch of moths recently....

#veriiart #fate go #fgo #oberon #fate grand order #oberon vortigern #my brain is full with bugs and it's all Oberon #i havent even reached LB6 yet and I WANNA BE THERE HECK #but also not because emotional damage #puts him in my mouth #munch munch munch