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chipsonthemenu · 10 months

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tell me about your headcanons!!

EHEWHEEHHE HI AURORA THANK YOU FOR LETTING ME YELL

okay so basic list stuff:

chip: he/him transmasc greyaroace bi and has. some sort of back problems. also his pinkie that i keep forgetting about! also adhd too bro has 0 attention span /pos

jay: she/they transfem bisexual and BBBAD KNEE....thought she had this in canon but i might be mixing them up with mari omori.....occasional mobility aids that ollie helped her decorate :3

gil: any pronouns agender aroace but is very down for qprs. autism as hell <3 also probably other stuff i cant think of rn OH GLASSES GIL FR

ollie: THEY/THEM GENDERQUEER UNLABELLED SCREAMING IT FROM THE ROOFTOPS THE LITTLE BOY THE KEEP ONNTHE SHIP IS A GENDERNEUTRAL TERM DO YOU SEE MY VISION. also probably needs glasses. to me. and heavily adhd n autism

drey: they/them nb unlebelled nblm. gots their arms yk 👍 also kinda strikes me at nd in some way fight me on this

gryffon: okay. hear me out. they/he/she nb panromantic asexual. please. do you see my vision. also their arm and autism. gryffon is autism do you hear me.

finn: he/she genderfluid pansexual bro is a whore. also love the idea of fully mute finn and she is autism as FUCK DO YOU HEAR MEEEE

earl: nobody escapes from my queerness beam not even earl. he/him cismasc bisexual. bad back bad knees uses a cane. old man shit but also he hits people with the cane and uses it when making juice sometimes. ollie put fruit stickers all over it once and he actually kinda likes it but will never say that

queen: MY LOVE. MY ONE AND ONLY. ANY PRONOUNS PANGENDER AROACE. THEY HAVE AUTISM AND TICS (IM BLANKING ON WHAT THATS CALLED) AND STRIKES ME AS SOMEONE WHO NEEDS MOBILITY AIDS BUT I DONT KNOW WHAT FOR. XE ARE JUST LIKE ME FR AND I LOVE HER WITH EVERYTHING IN MY BEING

lizzie: she/her transfem lesbian. shit vision not jusy due to her eye but just in general. refuses to wear glasses

caspian: they/he libramasc achillean demisexual :) sssooooo many jrwi characters strike me as mobility aid users despite me not being one and caspian is no exceptionnnnnnn to this

john: sorry bee but. he/him cismasc VERY VERY GAY. MARSHALL JOHN IS A MAN LIKER. ALSO VERY AUTISM AND ADHD

niklaus: throwing in motherfucker too because i do have stuff. she/they/lun/he transfem genderfluid bisexual. thats it

i thibk thats everyone i wanted to yell about lmk OH FUCK ALPHONSE

alphonse: dont care. doing the silly. it/they/he agender aroace i do not care if they are the boat now it deserved better and he gets my headcanons

okay thats everyone i think thank you for letting me scream <3

LIED. LIED SO BAD.

jaz: JASMINE DRAAAAKE <3 he/they transmasc gay with autism and why do i see him having a prosthetic arm. no idea why okay i think thats ACTUALLY everyone now

edyn: she/e cisfem sapphic HOW DID I ALMOST FORGET HERRRRR

ensa: omg her. they/she transfem nb lesbain asexual. got her prosthetic leg and probably adhd

kira: SHE/THEY TRANSFEM SAPPHIC KIRA IS A WOMAN KISSER mwa love her

okay. goodbye fr this time i promise

wait no i wanna do the apoth crew too as an apotheosis enjoyer

peter: they/he transmasc demiboy with so much autism that likes men. also probably post-campaign cane user the shit they went through can fuck someone up

rumi: any pronouns genderfluid pansexual. there is some sort of thing i think they have (i dont think its imposter syndrome) but its something about never actually seeing herself because changeling shit yk idk

thanatos: it/they unlabelled :) doesnt need labels doesnt want em :)

OKAY. I THINK THATS IT FUCK EXANDROTH RESPECTFULLY OKAY WAHOO HOPE YOU ENJOYED MY UNGODLY LONG POST

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bookishtheaterlover7 · 5 months

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Hi all one of bookies friends here.

Everyone needs to calm down

Look at the facts.

Video- showed her without ANY ring a lot

Video-could he be anymore obvious with his left

hand.

Everytime he does or has something come out she does something. This time she shot herself in the hand twice.

And no I no longer find Chris attractive. If your team real i dont care. I just dont like seeing my friends on here who are team or get all worked up bwcause its nothing. It is for nothing we've, proven its fake.

How many holes can you put into a hot air balloon before it can't fly anymore?

To the GP (genaral public) they are married so right after all it was exposed the rings are fake. teams are gunna have to do or try and do clean up for a while. We knew this was going to happen. I expect to see shit about one flying here or the other flying there or they both fly to meet each other. I mean how many roumers in 2 days can start about who is where? It just

makes it look worse and more comical. A real couple wouldnt do damage control at all. Just because a website publishes an article doesn't mean it's a website that reports news or the truth. Remember People mag, US weekly etc is are still mags they use click bait. Don't freak out everytime you hear a rumor that she flew here or did this or that . The fact is its been de bunked disproven if they choose to continue on with the PR BS thats on them a lot of fans are not playing along any more. Im.not playjng along anymore im done with it. I saw a post in instagram that sums everything us well it said

"I am on team PR. But if he wants people

to believe he's with her, then we should

just leave him to it. It's true he owes

us nothing but we also don't owe him

our support anymore."

What point is there to get upset or nervous or anxious over something just because there a rumor about a plane ride. If you wanna believe theres a plane ride maybe its to sign a new contract that this shit is over.

You know its fake i know its fake. And you know what they showed they were gifts from cartier. Maybe her team would shse poney up the money to get cz versions. Frankly it would be even funnier.

We dont owe chris anything.

If you feel silly or stupid or being duped by thibking he was a better man than he is dont be, everyone was. It only goes to show the man could've had awards by now if he picked better scripts

Clean up is gunna happen. WE HAVE SEEN IT. the less you play into it the faster itll be over with.

But dont let this distract you or upset you from a joyus holiday season or take away any happiness you're experiencing or could be experiencing. Focus on something positive and happy. At the very least i saw a blog with a debate about who qas hotter Sam or Castiel. Now THAT is some shit worth arguing about. Not an airheaded Nazi

Thank you, my dear An🫶n.

Honestly, this is a serious wakeup call to a lot. That ring debacle/exposure is something to note, and it could be the sign to many of being done.

And if they aren't, well, I'm happy to partially become the blog that becomes a nostalgic stop for old Chris, Chris Evans before he was a shit person in a shit relationship with a shit person, and Chris Evans Characters Appreciation and absolute SIMPING!!! Oh, and the occasional Albitch hate post, because I still hate her 😆

I'm even thinking it's time to add more Fandoms to my roster. Marvel characters are high on that list. So are book discussions, because I am enjoying that as well 😁

We'll see. The world is my oyster now, especially with that big bomb that fell into our laps, as well as the fact I'm on break and about to undergo the busiest month of my life!!!

It's going to be filled with holiday cheer, family love, Christmas shopping, reconnecting with everyone, and focusing on improving the one love that came back a few months ago, after years... Writing 😊

So, my beautiful weirdos, can we PLEASE take steps towards something new? I think we could use some respite after months, maybe even years of PR Debunking Hell... 🫶

Also, there are certain topics that I don't want to be discussed on here. Because I don't feel comfortable being in the middle of any debate whatsoever (you can ask my dearest friends on here, they know I hate politics and avoid discussing, and eventually debating it, as much as possible). Until my next post, Beloveds 🤗

#An🫶n asks #thank you!#booky reacts #chris evans #chris evans fandom #still a place to hate Albitch.#booky answers #on to new horizons #Happy 25 Days Before Christmas to those who celebrate it Bitchez!!!!#Happy Hanukkah as well... don't know when but figured #I should embrace different cultures on here 😁#DON'T AT ME ABOUT THE WAR EITHER

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echosofmyself · 1 year

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sometimes i thibk you would prefer ifi just disappeared. would it even matter anyway? no one would care if im gone. eveeyone would move on. my new friends would be fine, they barely know me. my once closer than a sister doesnt care anymore. my best friend would be fine. bit sad, but its not like we're that close anyway. thegirls would also be ok. they might hurt at first but i dont see them truly caring in the long run. and my family would be better, wouldnt they. hteyll have a new baby so they can just forget all about me. i feel so outside of everything. i felle like, im at a party, and everyone around me is having fun and im seeing it tru a glass. they wouldnt care if i left, if i disapppeared, if i went away because in the end, no one really needs me and if no one needs me then theres no point for me to be here. i simply exist to be used and used and discarted and the sencond im drained then who would want me. i can dream and fantasize but the turth is, no one cares about me. no one will ever love me the way i want to be loved, not just because i dont allow myself but because theres so much better im out there. i'm the typoe people might look at and say "yea someday someone will care because why wouldnt they but its just not me" but when everyone looks at you that way then no one stays to csre. i leaned when i was 18, that they might like my perosnality and even my looks, but no one will stay for the true person i am inside. no one will care for me as soon as i truly open up and as much as i hate overly dramatic "broken" people the truth is i am one just like that. my prime has passed without me even utilizing it. i just float around eith noting to care about. this was the best year of my life anyet i still feel like this. and yet im still useless and full of flaws and all i want to do is go home and sleep forever. it must be marvelous, to be able to go to sleep and be in such a state for the rest of my life. no worries, no letting down people, no forcing myself to be this or that and to go against my nature, just me in my purest state: dead-like. ~ to feel inthe outside what i feel inside is to just let this indifference take me. my whole bosy is endlessly filled with the indifference of life, and i'll argue that that's the worse thing to feel. When you hate life, you let your emontions take place, and you hate something becuase u believe its possible to change it and yet you arent able. to feel misery of life means at one point you had something of value in it and simply miss it dearly. all these are still horriblethings to feel, and yet indiffernece is the worse. because when ure indifferent, you dony cate how unjust it all is, you dont care about what might have been taken from you or what might have been, you simply..dont care. You simply do as your told because that simple command is th elast thing keeping you attached to this world and you even stop that, stop pretending you care about something, then theres truly nothinb.- no ire, resentment or sadness- attaching you to this world. you could leave today or tommrow and it would make so difference. Nothing ever does, in the end. does it really matter what i do with my life, if theres no one there- including ymself- to see it? having any achievements in my life feels like a never ending cycle, the one where u did the coolest cartwheel as a child but your parents werent looking, and only hum when you call for them. They dont even look at you, no matter what you do, and just keep on with their talk. a never ending life of not seen cartwheels feels so draining, only made worse when people later ask you why arent you doig htem more and why cant you make them better. whats the point n looking if they arent improving? whats the point of paying attention to you if you arent what i wanted you to be?

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axolot-of-ideas · 3 years

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you ever get those fucking uhhh initials soulmate or like what this name’s initials thinking about you

i think they’re honestly a bit dumb-

*sobs over one where my ex’s initials were in and is accurate to mine so i wanna hope its true*

#i also realized they can have the same initials-#since trans and multiple names-#but also all of them could fit???#and im sobbing-#…i really hope they still love me- or at least still care-#i’ve just wanted to be cared for all of my life- i dont want to thibk that because of my problems that i made the first people i truly belie #ved cared about me leave and not care about me anymore…#i know dragon said he didn’t have any feelings really and im just me to him- but does he care? or am i just nothing to him now? not even a #friend just someone on his dash?- i dont like that idea…. i wanna text him but therapist said have him text you first-#and i dont think me saying that will change anything- sinve i dont think he reads these posts- especially not the tags-#just i miss the both of them- and im sorry- but im growing and i’ve learned #i hope you two did too #and i hope you still care

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lordtonic · 3 years

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oh boy 5 am time for me to appreciate life

#sigh #i just thibk life is really beautiful idk it makes me emotional..#like one day u experienced rain for the first time..or u ate something for the first time...#even of it didnt mean anything to you it was still the first time you did that thing...and you mightve loved it so much #you wait for the next time you get to experience it...#or how as being we love to create...#i find that so amazing about us #we create new words and music and drawings and clothes #we can project ourselves onto things that dont have our feelings and care for it like a plant or a stuffed animal #because we want to connect with it so badly it doesnt even matter what others think of it #that we're made naked but we dress ourselves up it plain or extravagant ways that we look at and go this is me and i love this

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chnsfairy · 4 years

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#i really want death more than anything rn lmao #............::::........ well #its more like ;;#im tired .... all the time ....#nothing is really interesting anymore and i feel like im waking up everyday just to wake up #i dont feel like i have much of a reason to do anything anymore so i dont do anything ;; and its so stupid because im clearly losing friends #i never get invited anywhere anymore ..... andvthe few times that i am i usually say no cause i never seem to have enough energy #everyday feels like a repitition of the last and im so bored of existing at this point wouldntvit just be better if i didnt ;;;#everything feels like a dream .... like it isnt real anymore and im really losing focus on everything i used to love #but whrn im with my family or friends i seem normal #to them i seem normal at least ;; i feel nothing like that ;; sometimes i dont think im feeling anything #even thoufh im smiling and laughing i dont feel alive anymore and im really not sure what to do at this point #talking to people makes my head hurt .. thinking about this stuff makes me feel sick ... sleeping seems to be the only 'real' thing at #this point #i never tell people this because saying this outloud makes it sound fake and plastic and i just feel so stupid #i dont see myself in the future .... i dont even see myself graduating at this point ...#i tell my parents i love learning and having challenges in school ... i thibk that used to be the case but now everything my teachers are #telling me just seems to be going in one ear and out the other .... i get great grades but i dont care ... cause theyre never good enough #the only passions i seem to have is photographhy and film but ... i cant seem to put any time or energy into either subjects ...#sometimes i feel like skz are the onlybpeople keeping me grounded at this point ... even so sometimes even they seem unreal to me #... out of my grasp ... like a story i keep telling myself so i can feel happy #but then of course chan goes live and even just for a little bit everything feels ok ...#everything is starting to feel like a memory ... as if im already dead and i dont know how to explaij it because im gonna wakevup and have #to put a smile on my fave for my family ... even though its getting tiring talking to them as well #i want to cry and scream and i think abt doing so but then iay here unable to #its not that i feel numb im just pretty sure at this point im living in a long long repetitive dream #anyway i could go on and im sorry if u took the time out of ur day tovread this #might delete

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sapphic-luthor · 2 years

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i thibk you are the first person i’ve heard say johnny d is not the victim. it’s got me thinking, have i been fkn brainwashed by all the media i see???? it’s so hard in these situations because statistics say amber will be the victim. but she might not be. but she might also be. gah, i wish the truth was easy to uncover.

gonna answer this under the cut and please god everyone this is not an invitation for discourse

i’m not going to do the whole “but the evidence this!! and this tiktok!! and this meme!!!” bullshit because abuse and domestic violence are not, in any capacity, the sort of things that can be packaged into little tweets or meme videos designed specifically for engagement. and more importantly, the case is really just that: a legal case that’s in the hands of the court, that ultimately has nothing to do with you or i.

but what does have to do with me as a woman and as a lesbian is the way the media frenzy of this case is warping the public consciousness when talking about trauma and abuse. i really, really, urge you to take a look at what sort of information is being shared and by whom, and what sort narrative theyre trying to push— you will find blatant misogyny spurring a LOT of this conversation.

i do think its important to say that nobody on twitter or tiktok or making rant videos on youtube with big bright clickbait icons should be considered a source of truth of information regarding what was obviously an extremely volatile interpersonal relationship between two people who absolutely none of us know personally, and whose celebrity statuses directly affect the publics made-up perception of their characters.

misogynists salivate over the myth of the wrongly accused man. look at how many people are instantaneously accusing women like megan thee stallion (who literally got shot!) and evan rachel wood (who was kidnapped, tortured, branded, and repeatedly assaulted on camera in a music video that’s still on youtube to this fucking day) of lying or attention seeking or whatever, because they can’t bear to imagine the accused men as the monsters they are. look at the pass people give r kelly and chris brown!

abuse allegations are, by their nature, extremely traumatic to share and often extremely intimately tied up in ptsd, guilt, shame, memory loss, you name it. i don’t know what’s going to happen in this defamation case, and i almost don’t care because i dont respect the US legal system at all. but i do know that none of the disastrous effects or realities of abuse on a victim should ever be turned into content, and the next time you see a tiktok like “here’s a picture of amber heard SMILING a day AFTER she LIED about xyz!!!” with a backyardigans theme song or what the hell ever i want you to really consider the way women and their suffering are so often turned into caricatures by the public, the way women are never, ever, fucking believed regardless of if they have evidence or witnesses or whatever, and also maybe why the venn diagram of people who don’t believe other victims and who insist JD is innocent is a literal circle.

#i also really want you to take a moment when youre sharing information or opinions or tweets or whatever and consider:#‘if i had friends or loved ones who have been abused- would the stuff i’m sharing now make them feel safe?’#‘would somebody trust me to believe them if they came to me with their traumatic experiences?’ because that’s the real heartbreak of it all #is abuse survivors everywhere are watching the people in their lives take terrifying stances over this case #and theyre learning who they can’t put faith in anymore #answered #anonymous #tw abuse #please do not come into my inbox to debate i have absolutely no interest. i dont care about these rich people i care about survivors

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rinofwater · 5 years

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Okay, I think I figured out part of my problem lately. I'm just not really sure what to do from here now acknowledging it...

#personal #rin struggles #ex talks #so #my thibking i was okau with the breakup has blown up in my face lately and its been really hard to cope #i think the blowing up inotially stemmed from him forgetting to answer a text i sent him #and i had texted him because i was in a good mood and wanted to share that with someone and he was the first person i thought of #and obviously he has no obligation to me now (he didnt even really have one to me when we were seeing each other)#so it shouldnt have upset me so much #but i guess it was like the last straw for this shakey temple of indifference i had constructed myself?#i mean ive been upset that hes acting like nothing happened between us but then again ive been acting like that when hes around too so #and of course all the feelings of not being good enough come crashing down around me and i guess it manifested as anger?#and sad too of course #but also anger #which is weird because i forgave him pretty much as soon as it happened #whatever his actions were his intentions were good and its not like he was horrible to me #and i really dont want to be angry ay him because i care about him and he doesnt deserve it #i also hate the person i am when im angry because i always do something awful when im angry #i still want him in my life if he wants to stay (and he insisted that he liked me platonically even if he wasnt sure about romantically)#(so maybe? the staying friends thing was his idea though it did come off the back of me admitting my fear of abandonment)#(so maybe he felt lime he had to because he felt guilty idk i sure hope not because then ill feel guilty)#its really fucking hard to keep someone in your life when you lash out im anger at them so im going to try my best not to #i think hes expecting it though and maybe thats why it seems like hes avoiding me #although him avoiding me woukd implybthat he actually cared enough to consciously keep me away #and i dont necessarily buy that...

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ilajue · 3 years

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i think habing an eyepatch would be cool i want to be a purate good eth ing im not a cyclopse because then it would make me blind lol krinios can never be a pirate they just started using hethey pronouns thats oretty cool i know peolem put theor pronouns in theur location on twt but my location has heen eeby deeby so long that ove gotten attached and i dont want to change it plus id knt want peopke to refer to me and also i pick fights with elons wierd nerda on twt enough that ut woukd be easy qmmo for them i dont thibk not having labled pronouns makes me a bad person its just not somthibg i want because im kinda figuring out gender rn yk i feel pressured to di ut because i want to nake trans peopke feel safe but also it doesnt seem like that big of a deal but akso i dobt want peolle to send ne hate because even tho it doenst rky bother me ut is uncomfy to delete death threats from your dms whixg is what i did today but mf also xalled me slurs publically so hes been blicked and reported. peolle rly go so far to defend their investments on twt the crypro community is fucking insane imagine getting so pissed off that some kid is making fun of your waifu muskrat and your favorite cryptocurrency "cummies" that you harrass them for an hour wuth death threats lol no life anywyas one experience i will never forget is one time in 6th grade it was 3am and a car drove past my house playibg loud mucic but it wasnt party kusoc or anything it was eliza hamilton singing burn wtf why where thy ey pumping that i remember being excited at the time becaud ei really liked hamilton but looking bqck that dhitd confusing i like hamolton i thinkbthat thr music is good but lin manuel mirands voice irritates me and also some parts of that play where pretty racist plus the setting of the play was also not gold for poc extras i think i saw a testemony from an extra about it i was gonna read but it was long ajd i got distracted. becaus of that i try not to listen to the musoc on spotify but also at the end of the day im onky one perskn and a spotify stream is like a quarter of a cent and also even if i was listening on youtube im still givong profut to yoytube and whatever fucked up company thats advertizing their child labor made products to me bro if we had no child labor laws today thry would absoltuley never be put in place. i want a motorcycle because i think i would look cool but also i dont want to get hit by a car yk why do peopke want to pee when they gear rubnibg water whats the wvolutionary benfit to that like did monkes see water abd be like yah i want to contaminate thzt so bad. also why isnt there a shit version of that how come we dont have a sound that induces shit like the brown note i liked that epidode of south park it was the first episode i saw and it was funny but i saw it with my dad and he taljied about the revolutionary animation of southpark and how it was super techbologicakky advaced fot thr time and i didnt pay attention vecaue i didnt care but south park is cool i dont trust peolle who say its their favorite show tho vecause thry are probobly very bad at picking up on the sarvasm of it yk the song in southpark movir got nominated for the song version of the oscars and the three dude crators got incredibly high as showed up in dresses they walked so thst harry styles could run the song was avout hating canada it sgould have won also the guy in the pibk dress looks good he kinda popped off look up the pictures anyways damn bro its betime i dont thy ink anyone read this :]

#hmm thought dump #how braingo #long post

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harley-style · 5 years

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so ive been in spiderio/mystery spider / quenpete hell

And theres this,,,really, really messed up a/b/o plot bunny that wont get the fuck outta my brain. If anyone wants to write it go ahead. Bc i sure wont

Peter is an omega, beck is an alpha

The start goes off like ffh

But the train scene ends up different

Instead of train scene, the moment beck traps peter in an illusion he has this wicked idea

"what if i made peter my mate" which yknow, is allowed bc there are still lotsa not perfectly cut for omegas law in the world. Like

Beck can just hold peter down and mark him. Then mate him for like a few hours then hes done. Peters his now. And the law cant do anythibg about it bc?? U cant break mated pairs

So peter hates beck. Thats a given. But he knows beck is never gonna leave him alone anymore

I should explain the abo dynamics in this. Omegas have this gland in their bodies that when alphas bite it, the alphas can secrete a toxin that is seriously very paralytic to omegas, even out of heat. Alphas can go apeshit if their mate is in danger so its perfectly acceptable for them to keep their omegas under lock and key. When paralysed,the omegas feel like a sense of safety and security from the bite bc of a chemical reaction of the bite gland and the paralytic toxin alphas excrete.

Thats why peter realizes he cant escape beck anymore since hes becks omega.

Our bby gets depressed and shit especially since beck keeps peter weak and paralysed every time beck has to go away because he doesnt want his omego going anhwhere he just wants peter to stay pliant and meek in bed for like, the rest of their lives

But peter is stubborn as fuck. If he cant tear beck a new one the normal way, hell do it another way

So he spends the rest of his life tracking and recording every piece of evidence beck gives him and compiles it into one massive case

He conspires with EDITH on this, who is all too happy to help.

He tips the police off and he gets arrested but so is beck so he's fine

Peter contracts some kind of disease

Also at this point peter's just really gone he isnt happy anymore hes sad angry and bitter and mostly apathetic

He commits suicde

But did you thibk it was over? Haha bitch

Peter wakes up like years in the past right before he gets the spider bite

Hes happy ben's back but like. He doesnt give quite as nuch of a fuck as he used to.

May and ben are really worried like wtf happened to their boy but peter wont talk and tells them honestly something happened that he never wants to tell them about but agrees to a therapist

The therapist they get is a super loveable dude and he takes the time travelling peter in stride

Also hes abjectly horrified to hear what the kid has gone through

Okay moving on peter meets ned again but now theres this kid named miles morales

Yes im going down that route shut up

Miles becomes the neighborhood spiderman and hes not great at hiding it. Peter helps out

It should be noted here that peter is still that angry bitter apathetic man from the last timeline. He got better and still cares for people hes just very done with emotions in general. Also he's numb inside so.

But anyways he helps miles and ned but hes like that cynical bastard who helps in the most unconventional way possible

He also runs into tony stark

There are feelings there

But peter tries to avoid tony and toss miles at him

But miles isnt tony's jam, though the kids great. Tony just tosses him at rhodes and calls it a day (rhodey loves miles and would adopt him in a heartbeat)

peter however, intrigues tony. He keeps pestering the kid until peter just tells him to get away before he can hurt tony which kinda confused tony bc he thought peter hated him for him but to find out that peter was just scared of hurting him...well now tony wants to kill a bitch

The only person who could make peter shpw emotion is tony, actually. May and ben practically adopt tony into their home

Oh yeah bens alive

Bc peter doesnt sneak out as much and tells ben and may when hes coming back and where he is

Also gives a lotta updates (which is honestly just a disguise for peter's fear of never hearong from ben or mag ever again he has to know theyre there and theyre safe)

But yeah basically the ending is peter finds out becks also back and is out to get him

Endgame harley/ peter dont ask me how i just want some keener parker action pls

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caps-clever-girl · 5 years

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i just rly rly want nebula to be adopted into tony’s ironfam

• she and tony play games like they did while they were stranded, and he teaches her all kinds of new ones. she never allows him to let her win, even the ones shes awful at, because that is no way to learn. tony lets her help him in the lab; he asks for her input on things because he knows she has a lot of knowledge on this stuff she clearly hasn’t had the chance to show before, and he teaches her so much that she doesnt know. they spend long hours talking about differences between technology and the differences and advancements between cultures. he teaches her about earth, she tells him of all he things shes seen on different planets. she befriends the bots, because they are easy to understand, once you get used to how they communicate, and are judgement-free and infinately easier to interract with than people. tony becomes as much of a paternal figure for her as he does a friend - not that she has any idea. thanos is her only idea of a paternal figure, after all.

• nebula finds it difficult to get along with pepper at first. pepper is very welcoming, but she is also very different from nebula, especially in terms of femininity. in the past, all the women nebula has come into contact with were either hardened like herself, quiet or gruff or in some ways broken, or they were people in her way. its... an adjustment to hang around a woman who isnt gamora. nebula finds it difficult to talk to her at first and a lot of their initial interraction consists of pepper reaching out and not getting much back, because nebs doesnt know how to react. eventually though she settles down and learns how to talk to her, and discovers that its nice to talk to someone who isnt constantly surrounded by war and death. but there is still a steel to pepper, and a sharp, strategic mind. once nebula discovers that, everything becomes a lot easier. there are enough similarities for her to have some footing, but enough differences to be a relief.

• she and rhodey bond over their disabilities and assistful gear. they talk body mods, sometimes, and nebula gives him options for implants, if he wants. most of the time though, its just chill. she appreciates his style of humour and his intelligence, and the fact that he thibks tony is as big a dumbass as she does. plus lets be real “oh so he’s an idiot” won her over pretty much there and then.

• she comes into contact with peter a lot, and eventually becomes that really weird aunt-type person who comes to care for this exceptionally stupid human child. she has no clie whatsoever about how to bond with him, and they dont talk much. or at least, nebula doesnt. but peter gets that for the most part and happily talks enough for two untill shes comfortable enough to join in more. they bond over talking shop, and nebula ends up getting pretty protective of the kid, even though she watched him fall over trying to tie his shoelaces and nearly give himself a concussion yesterday.

• happy is also part of the Take The Piss Out Of Tony squad alongside rhodey. she doesnt think they have much to talk about at first, aside from their fierce protective feelings for peter - which they’re obviously not going to talk about. she warms to him though, and finds that not having anything to talk about means they can talk about Anything. then start small, at first, just the odd question every now and then, but after a while they have hours long coversations over a casual drink just chatting about random stuff. its nice to have a friend who’s not nececerily for something; happy doesn’t fit a role - not for anything other than ‘friend’, and she didnt realise she was missing that until she had it.

#marvel #avengers #nebula #tony stark #dad!tony #peter parker #spiderman #happy hogan #pepper potts #james rhodes #rhodey #txt #hc #squeak.txt

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rewrentless · 5 years

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Taz Balance Quotes

I have no idea how long ive been working on this, between 2 and 7 months but finally ive made a list of memorable quotes /quotes that made me chuckle

-Any you driads down to clown

-That was my grandfathers haunch

-Everyone needs a barry bluejeans!

-You shouldnt had your dog jump up my ass! I dont think my dog could fit in an ass! You havent seen this ass

-Eat me barry

-If you were making a peanut butter and jelly sandwich and you dropped some jelly on the counter are you gonna take a knife and just start cutting at it you dumb son of a bitch??

-she thinks my tractors sexy and i think im no longer welcome here

-hello hello welcome to my caev

-abraca fuck you

-hey you calm the fuck down sir theres no yelling at fantasy Costco!

-its like a bag of holding but for ass

-merle i can see 3/4 to 4/5 of your entire butt

-the railsplitter passes through the tree like a baseball bat passing through a ghost

-youve solved my shrek puzzle

-a witch kissed me and cursed me so that anytime anybody yells a secret word i have to attend to their every need and that word is my fucking name jenkins

-infinite bean!!!

-i got a murder wall in my brain!

-time-pon! The time travelling tampon!

-lord steven q fletcher esquire the goldfish the third

-'yeah he really beat me in a test of wits and wagers' and winks at taako over and over just winking

- hey baby i love your tendrils

-i got here a few minutes ago and i can not take my eyes off you i looked at you across the square 60 feet away and i said do not be chopping on this baby

-you and the box both drink poison and you survive but the box has died. With that the box pops open

-does everyone get that i have an elevator fetish at this point?

-griffen we gotta fight some weeds at floor 20!

-my names not jerry its ... jerrieeeeee

-but listen guys now i gotta take a poop, you know like a poop like a real emergent poop

-'your name ... of course ... is... taako. Sike thats just mine say my name!' i cast magic missile

-so youre sayin we eat him

-youre all beautiful butterflake snowflies

-im actually a mongoose meow

-and inside the envelopes there is 200 gold pieces ‘thanks for these shitty jangly envelopes’

-i hand her a coupon for one free backrub

-magnus this is the nightmare scenario

-hot diggity shit that is a baller cookie

-i made you guys chairs for your new digs and if you lift up the cushion it doubles as an indoor toilet

-davenport read the room!

-mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm davenport

-i start to very subtly and very easily cry

-last time i was in an elevator vines tried to eat my dick

-the late merle highchurch rolled a 5

-’youre a god!’ I definately am

-youre not stupid youre beautiful

-its kinda ridiculous how many pies we got our toes in

-your mother would swaddle you young taako baby taako and just sing to you oh shit sweet flip oh dip sweet flip my little nugget

-god liiiieed to me

-magnus can kiss my kenny chesney tattoo

-you found her?!

-hey thug whats your name im about to tentacle your dick?

-if travis cant move his legs then i shall create his legs!

-im just an elevator climb on in ma belly!

-press ma buttons from inside a me

-if you wanted to lure me in there you shoulda stayed handsome ma fella

-'i tap it with the gluttons fork and i swallow it' 'what the f uck'

-ive got to switch between different accents to trick my prey

-when that day comes little man oh when that day comes i will summon whatever powers i still have at my disposal that you have not sipphoned away from me and i will take all of my canny and all of my cunning and all arcanas still within my reach and i will use it to strike you down little man

-dungeons and dragons and daddies

-fantasy shorts fantasy shorts fantasy shorts fantasy shorts!

-i cast zone of truth!

-junebug

-this chair smells like grandmas

-this scene is memorable to you now but in the moment you werent thinking im going to remember everything about this moment

-inifate bag of boys

-if it had flesh then it would be a bag of skin full of fucking goo

-"how do you not have a six it comes with every board game?" "My daughter..." "eats them for power??"

-because in wonderland... there is no healing (shit eating grin)

-liches get stitches

-son of a lich

-you built the fucking door out of wood shit wood

-bad luck

-ill be having my body back you undead fuck

-sturdy. denim. and blue

-i have updated my list of people i trust and things i believe to no one and nothing

-those are the arms that have held my wife

-i cant fight i cant protect i cant do anything in this body

- i saw seven birds

-the twins, the lover, the protecter, the lonely journal keeper, the peacemaker and the wordless one

-i dont know but i feel like i trust you

-dont let them erase me magnus

-how could you forget lup

-nerd alert!

-greg grimaldis you owe me $15 and i aim to collect

-i have to believe that im gonna get those $15 back from greg fucking grimaldis

-the one thing we do have is the thing that people in love rarely ever have enough of and its time

-I dont know about in love its only been... 21 years

-are you my friend?

-what brings me joy is... life. I think you can find joy anywhere in life i thibk its a concious choice i think you choose joy in life and no matter how bad things are no matter how crummy no matter how dark no matter how many times some guy named john kills your ass you find joy. I’ve found joy, honest to God, getting to know you. I’ve found joy playing chess with you. I have enjoyed - i haven’ t enjoyed you know, getting my ass killed, but i find joy in whatever I do. I don’t always do things right, and I don’t always do things smart, and I don’t always do a character voice, but whatever i do, i find joy in it. Because at the end of the day, that’s all you got. It’s looking back on the joy you had, and the joy you found, and the joy you gave other people

-soon you will call us ascendent

-kiss my ass you sanctimonious bastard

-huh. I feel sad

-its not perfect but its the best i can do

-our capacity for love increases with each person we cross paths with throughout our lives and with each moment we spend with those people but too often we neglect that part of ourselves in favour of others and by the time we realize just how importnat it is we find ourselves with fewer folks around to practice with but the seven of you have something that nobody else ever had time all the time in the world time enough to grow indescribely close time enough to learn how to care for each other how to allow yourselves to be caref for and in the case of barry and lup time enough to fall deeply and truely in love

-there was romance in every measure and longing in every note

-have we not earned a little wrath?

-i made it

-you are my heart you know that right?

-sometimes there arent right decisions sometimes theres just decisions

-when someone leaves your life those exits are not made equal. Some are beautiful and poetic and satisfying others are abrupt and unfair but most are just unremarkable, unintentional clumsy

-back soon

-who?

-taako kill me

-you fucking took everything from me

-understand this, i have nothing and i don’t give a shit. The world is ending and i don’t care

-phantasmal and resplendent

-youre dating the grim reaper?!

-ill take one taco with extra destiny

-i tell the trees when to shed their leaves and i make every piece of fruit taste the way that it tastes and i taught every blade of grass in the ground where to grow did you really think i had forgotten about you?

-im not your pan but you will always be my merle

-i run over and im already kissing him this is ridiculous

-I want to warm up my face i dont want it to be cold and weird

-whats up ghostrider

-i met god no big deal

-lets save the world and 420 blaze it

-hear that babe? We’re legends

-youre going to have to fight and… youre gonna win!

-you hear it now too dont you? The song is now yours, just as the story has always been yours and with this final piece your understanding of these impossible events is complete. Like i said before, youre ready now, darkness surrounds you but be not afraid, after all youre going to win, we know that much but that is the limit of my knowledge. Youre all caught up now, whatever happens next, well, we’ll just have to find out together

-you boys know the best of the fantasy costo? Free samples

-we won

-youre going to be amazing

-it takes time as all difficult and important things do, for the world to recover from what was done to it that day. But it does recover, and not just that, it thrives.

-im about to smooch your fucking brains out babe

-one small criticism, i think you may have forgotten to make it taste good

-‘youre kinda full of dog shit sometimes’ thats what it was i forgot i did include dog shit

-i should mention my boyfriend is death

-if you will all excuse me i have… to shit

-i tried to make you proud

-we see you one last time as magnus rushes in

-even happier days were to come, because that was the world that you made, that was the ending you earned

#taz #taz balance #taz quotes #taako taaco #magnus burnsides #merle highchurch #lup taaco #barry bluejeans #lucretia #davenport

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tumblunni · 5 years

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What do you guys think about the names Dustin and Darcy for my protagonists in Let's Go?

Cos i really wanted to play the co op mode thing by myself, just so i can pretend this role in the plot is filled by two siblings and have a bit of fun roleplaying that. But i dunno yet how the co-op works and whether you'd be able to customize the avatar of the second player or if its just the default trainer? Or can you only play co-op if you have two separate games? Im planning to buy the other version anyway once i get more money, so it could be fun to play my first version with sibling one and then the second playthru is sibling two's turn to shine!

Oh and the whole reason i wanted to do this is cos i wanna try out the customization features to make some ocs now that there's no competitive online stuff unless you pay a subscription fee (LOL NO THANKS). Like..i always felt like i HAD to make my character me in xy/sumo/usum, otherwise its like lying online? But of course i cant actually make me because theres no nonbinary option or even remotely ambiguous outfits for either gender. And you cant have wild hair colours while i dye my hair 24/7 irl lol. Its silly cos like 95% of the gym leaders and other characters ingame have anime hair colours yet the player has to be normal? So yeah i cpuldnt really enjoy making this innacurate defanged version of myself yet i didnt feel like i was allowed to just make up a new character either. Closest i could do was give myself white hair like my old trainersona when i was 12, lol. I mean i guess thats my 'real hair colour' underneath the dye right now, if you think about it that way?

OH GOD PIKACHU CAN HAVE A LITTLE TUXEDO AND BOWLER HAT HOLY FUCK IM SORRY TO INTERRUPT THIS BUT I WAS WATCHING THE IGN REVIEW AND THEY SHOWED PIKA BOWLER HAT PLEASE GO GOOGLE THAT VIDEO JUST FOR THAT 1 SECOND OF NEW FOOTAGE OF MY BEAUTIFUL CLASSY BOYE

okay where was i

Yeah! I think sibling trainers could be a good and unique way to handle a rival! Like having them be your sibling already establishes that rivalry. But it can be a soft and nice rivalry! I wanna go with that fun version rather than the full on angry exaggerated sibling rivalries you often see in kids media. Like i know that some people legit dont get on with their siblings and some people can even have a very gary esque full on rivalry thats sorta 'love to hate' or like..tsundere pretending you hate them. But personally i never had experience with that, i can never relate to those 'tfw u hate ur sibling and theyre always an asshole but lolll u love them anyway' posts. I only got to live with my little sister for a little while due to the catastrophe of abusive parenthood that was my childhood, and i lost contact with her forever when she was very young so i doubt she'd even remember me. *sigh* But like i don't think i only love her so much because i miss her! People say newborns and toddlers are the most bratty so like you'd think if i was gonna ever find her 'annoying' i would have done it back then. I was always just mega proud of her and whenever she'd be 'bratty' i'd be cheering her on and trying to protect her from mom. And when she'd try and pull pranks on me or practise play-fighting or whatever i was just like 'lol thats legit funny' and taking play-falls so she felt better about herself. Like we didnt have much power in that household so i felt like encouraging her pretending to be a wrestler would help her feel like she had some sort of control in some part of her life i guess? And just i wished i was allowed to roughhouse and run around and be all 'unladylike' and just enjoy BEING A KID when i was a kid, yknow? I always had legit fun being with her and legit enjoyed it and was legit proud and legit never annoyed. I just dont understand 'yeah she's annoying but i love her anyway'. I was only ever her rival as a play-rival to help encourage her to like.. Enjoy the things she enjoyed. Feel like someone else cared. I only ever acted like 'ha ha baby stuff yeah sure i hate hanging out with my sister" cos i thought i was SUPPOSED TO. I always felt so guilty doing it and so dissappointed cos id rather hang out with her than be a boring stereotypical teen tbh. I dunno, maybe this isnt typical for siblings and its just a sign of how badly we were raised? I was just real fuckin lonely and absolutely loved having a family member who loved me for the first time since my grandma died. Same reason i always used to act all 'i am too cool i totally am not soft for my lil sister' around my lil sister's dad. I really wanted him to love me too! I used to say swear words at him cos i thougjt he would thibk i was Cool And Adult?? I have soooo many cringe moments from that phase of my childhood. Man it hurts to think that i never actually did get to become that positive influence that protected my sister from my mum and let her know she was loved. Cos i was sent to live with my dad when she was like 5ish? And never saw her again and now im too scared to try and reach out to her again because 1: she probably doesnt even remember me, 2: theres a chance she believes my mum saying i was some horrible asshole who abandoned the family, 3: even bigger chance that contacting her could mean my mum finding me again and big fuckin risk of further abuse. Plus the awkwardness of introducing my trans self when she'd remember me as her sister and all. Sigh! All i can do is hope that her cool dad eventually got custody of her, and that he didnt turn out to be a secret bastard like when i met my own dad. He seemed good, but then again i was just a lil kid and my dad seemed good at first. Sighhhhhh...

SO UMM YEAH WOW I MADE MYSELF SAD

Anyway the point is that whenever i write siblings i'd rather write 100% unapologetic super loving love cos its wish fullfillment for me. This is also why in/cest shipping is a massive beserk button for me, good wholesome family relationships are REAL FUCKIN IMPORTANT and how DARE you corrupt that shit! Some people would fuckin KILL to have that wholesome family!!

Anyway lol thats why i'd like a Wholesome Rivalry for these sibling ocs! Like they challenge each other to contests along the way just for fun, and they react all 'wow my sis is the BEST' when you beat them, so hard feelings at all. And you dont JUST do rival stuff but also sometimes just hang out and have fun cos you missed each other. And if anyone threatens your sibling then THAT is the only time you see the Serious Sibling Power! Rival moments: ha ha lol bet ya cant beat me ooo im a scary villain LOL I CANT KEEP A STRAIGHT FACE HAHA! Giovanni punches your brother: *stony cold death glare from hell as tricksy prank sis turns into an unstoppable vengeance engine* Oh, but also the only other time they'd be serious is in their final battle together! Like most of the 'rivalry' is just competing to make the adventure fun and to help each other get stronger. But if sis/bro ever actually legit said they really want to fight to find out who's the best, and its like..important to help their self confidence, then i think bro/sis would respect that and go all out. Taking a fall and letting them win would be the most disrespectful thing of all! Oh, but i do think there would be one kind of battle like that during the story? Like in one of the more low stakes faux-rival fights the sibling actually does try and let you win, and the challenge is to try and lose against all odds. High stakes super failure battle!!! Imagine the evil team in the background like 'wtf' as these two run the most aggressively slow race of all time! XD

Oh and i kinda thought about different personalities for the two of them based on who you pick? Like i did like that aspect about brendan/may in RSE compared to other 'unpicked option becomes rival' characters in later games that didnt even have one personality let alone two. It just sucks that the personalities they decided to give them were 'female rival is super self concious and thinks youre better than her because youre a boy' and 'male rival is super ego and thinks he's better than you because he's a boy'. Boooo!

So instead of that the personalities i was thinking for these two would be less sexist lol. Male sibling Dustin is basically Wally so far? I need to develop him a bit more to make him a bit distinct, i mean its not like every single shy dude is identical. I'm thinking maybe mix him with all the wasted potential in Brendan? Like in the game they slightly hint at him having the ONE non stereotypical trait of liking cute teddy bears, and that made me think about how much better his whole plot would have been if it actually criticized his sexism and said that he only behaves that way cos he's overcompensating for being bullied for being 'feminine', yknow? And then in the manga they actually DO write him as super feminine, and even as a contest star who loves fashion and dressing up his pokemon! But then GAHHH they present it as some sort of fuckin 'character flaw', like he's shown to be selfish and superficial because of it. And the backstory is that him and the female protagonist used to be 'normal' until a traumatic event. Brendan was a Natural Fighting Prodigy until he saved his female friend from a wild pokemon and was so traumatized that he never wanted to fight again, while she wanted to learn to fight so she'd never need to be protected again. But this is not only presented as Wrong Ways To Be Gender but also like.. Fighting their natural instinct which still comes through?? Like male protag hasnt fought in YEARS yet whenever he's forced to fight he's just magically better at it than female protag who's been practising all these years to become his equal. Ha ha silly girl you can never achieve that! All you get is this patronizing 'well if you just tryyyyy girly things im sure you'll like it' plot and then you get rescued by him in the end because OF COURSE you do. Sigh! I cant believe they made me hate that pairing even more than the games did! So yeah i dont really wanna write Dustin as a jerkass who's secretly got synpathetic motives of internalized homophobia/sexism, cos i feel thats a plot very specific to my perceptuons of Brendan and id basically just have to make Dustin a clone of him and he wouldnt be able to shine on his own merits. Instead i'm just thinking of writing him as a 100% sensitive soul, and he still faces predjudice for not being that bigoted idea of an 'ideal man' but really the fact he doesnt bow down to their demands proves that he's the bravest person here.

And then I'm thinking maybe the female sibling Darcy is the older one and is a bit "gary ish"? Like eitjer way you still have a friendly and loving siblingness, but she's a bit more of a sass who is tsundere about admitting she loves her bro. But i dont think she's the cold or grumpy sort of tsundere, more like a trickstery tomboy? Bombastic loki jock sis! She can only be a bit abrasive with her bro cos she wants to teach him to be tough even when she's not there to protect him. But sometimes she can mess it up and make him feel like he has to change his personality in order to be tough, rather than letting him know she supports him in being "unmasculine" and just wants to help him find the confidence to stand up to people who bully him for it. Like she feels like she is 'weaker' than him in the sense that she worries too much about what people will think if she expresses her real emotions, yknow? Like theyre both suffering from toxic masculinity! He's suffering from the standard form where men who are too 'soft' are beaten down into that mould. Ans she's suffering from the problem where 'masculine' girls feel like they have to be '100% masculine' in order to be allowed to be themselves at all. Like back when i was a kid and before i came out as trans i always used to try and pretend to like sports ans like..cliche macho shit where you Cant Admit You Care About Your Friends and also i wasnt allowed to like ANY feminine things at all. I had to either follow the stereotype of femininity entirely or follow the opposite stereotype, i wasnt allowed to just reject stereotypes and like what i actually like. So yeah me realizing i wasnt really a girl has led to me embracing more 'girly' things than back when i thought i was one! So i think Darcy would have a similar arc but like..the cis equivelant? Just finds people who arent such judgmental pricks and stops having to conform to either of those stereotypes in order to keep fake friends who dont really give a shit about her. She can have a plot about both forced feminine and masculine stereotypes being equally limiting, rather than that shitty 'being masculine is a prison uwu every woman will be happier embracing her love of makeup' shit. That dominant narrative just made me feel like i was somehow wrong about myself whenever i didnt like 100% Of Sports All The Time, i must be somehow girly if i liked even ONE girly thing yet i needed hundreds of proofs if i wanted to be masculine. And like i wasnt just allowed to be neither! I wasnt allowed to like parts of both! I wasnt allowed to BE GODDAMN TRANS!!! So yeah i dunno if i'd go whole hog and make this character a trans man or a nonbinary person tho? I think she's just actually a cis girl who happens to be sporty and brash and likes a lot of 'masculine' fashion and hobbies. And she's just been made to feel self concious about it, as if she cant possibly REALLY be that unless she likes Every Single Boy Thing and wins at Every Single Challenge. Does anyone else remember that shit too? The girls have to win Every sports game against the boys in order to be 'one of the boys' but if you lose even one of them it somehow proves that you're inferior. Even though the boys lost 50 billion games to you and that doesnt prove theyre inferior! Like man she has sooooo many 'gary rivals' in her school life, thats why she loves going on this adventure with a kind brother rival who actually respects her! So her resolution would just be her staying the same but being more confident about it and saying fuk u to those fake friends. Same as her brother's plot, just they both face different specifics to the way this sexism affects them, yknow?

Oh but yeah when i did finally learn about LGBT stuff and realize i was trans it was Big Amazing cos even in the rare stories about Its Okay To Be Yourself it still left me feeling weirdly empty when the girl decides that yes she does wanna be a girl in the end. So i get that these plots might come off as queerbaiting if i write them badly? I need to make sure to make it clear that these characters 100% want to be seen as this gender and its just other people being fuckfaces and trying to define what their gender has to mean. I think maybe i'll try and mitigate this potential misunderstanding by adding different sorts of lgbt content. And, well, also cos i just want lgbt content in all of my stories because i am lgbt, of course! I'm 100% sure that Darcy is gay, and i think also maybe possibly Dustin is trans? Like, his plot is about being mocked for being a 'feminine' boy, but its also even more personal for him because he's a trans boy and he feels like he needs to change his personality in order to pass/he isnt really real because his personality doesnt fit the stereotypical image of a man. Like if you'd looked at the two of them back when they were identical twins, you probably would have expected Darcy to end up being trans if you were the sort of person who believes those basic ass stereotypes about 'boys who play with barbies and girls who play with trucks'. Or i mean maybe its the other way around and Darcy is a trans girl who still has a 'masculine' personality according to stereotypes? Or even both of them are trans and both face being told that they arent real because they dont fit the perfect stereotype of a trans person according to cis perceptions? Or maybe i'm overcomplicating things with all of this and it'd just muddy the message i guess. I might just keep it to them both being cis but also both of them like girls. And i can always apply my trans and other LGBT headcanons to other characters along their adventure.

Anyway LOL im rambling too much!

#lets go bunni #bunni plays lets go

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I dont know where else to write this down so I'm just gonna send it in. Im a bi ace who's been sexually selfharming for almost 2 years now. My wrist is all fucked up at this point but I have excuses. My mom makes fun of me every time I've tried to confide in her. She said the only person who'd love me was a cripple and that people were not looking for platonic relationships. I hate myself i truly do,,, every friend I've tryed talking too hasnt given a shit either. They'll ask me stupid 1/?

Questions like "well did you like it?" Or any other amount of secually perverse things that theyll concider funny and i hate it. The girl I had a crush on made a long rambling post about how asexual wernt valid and hie they were inherently not lgbt bc they made light of lgbt strugggles. She was the girst girl i had a crush on in my life. I really thought she cared but she didn't. I've tried "fixing myself" for so long and nothing is working and I wish i could just talk to another ace 2/?

Person about what ive been going through but i don't know anyone else on the community. I feel constantly scared and alone and on the verge of tears. Every time i try to stop im faced with more and more people telling me i don't exsist or I'll grow out of it. The only person who ever took me seriously was my sociology teacher. No one else has ever tried to reassure me that I'll find love or even acceptance. Theres so much swirling through my mind rn but its 4am and i havent slept in a while 3/?

Im really really sorry if this is too dark. I just need someone ANYONE who will listen. I thibk im done though....I'm sorry again, I don't want to make you uncomfortable just know im thankful and sorry for venting anonymously 4/4

I think the worst things about parents is that they aren’t willing to take their children seriously, whether they’re lgbtq or not. It’s sad that parents aren’t willing to support their kids when they really do need it. And in all honesty your mom is wrong. People are always looking for platonic relationships. Humans crave human connection and sometimes all we need in life is an amazing friend to stand with us. Platonic relationships are so important because they give support and a presence that you don’t always get from romantic relationships.

As far as having sex goes, a lot of people also don’t understand that you don’t have to enjoy it or want it. There are many many people in life who are just fine living their lives without doing anything remotely sexual, either to themselves or with other people. And that’s fine. That’s beautiful. Those people are beautiful. There’s nothing in the universe, other than close-minded assholes who don’t know what they’re talking about, that has written in stone that even if you don’t want or enjoy sex you have to have it.

Asexual people do belong in the lgbtq community despite what so many people, and your crush, claim. It’s not “making light” of lgbtq struggles when because of those attitudes there are people both inside and outside the community who claim there’s something wrong or broken with us. The same words and attitudes were used and are still used to describe gay people and transgender people.

There is nothing about asexuality that needs fixing. Not in you and not in anyone else.

You are normal as ace. You are beautiful as ace. And you are loved as ace.

This blog was created specifically to offer a welcoming and open-minded place for aces and bis. And there are many asexual, bisexual, and even pansexual people who follow this blog or visit this blog who will welcome and support you and accept you.

You are valid, not just here, but in every other aspect of your life despite what other people have said or may continue to say.

There’s no need to apologize when you come here. There’s no shame in needing somewhere to go. There’s no shame in needing someone to talk to. We are here and we will listen to you.

And there’s no shame in venting on anon. Anonymity gives strength and I”m glad you were brave enough to come here and get this off your chest. Because you are brave.

You’ve already survived so much and you’re amazing.

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