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yyxandere · 6 months

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Hello! I have a small idea about the attitude of several yanderes from the Tojo clan towards their darling (this will be drastic and inexperienced, be careful 🤺):

Daigo, during his idle period, may take you for granted, neglecting you, but after Kiryu knocked some sense into him and became chairman, he began to greatly regret his behavior in the past. Therefore, he tries in every possible way to make amends to you like a beaten puppy. Mine tries to help him with this, looking for all the information about you and keeping an eye on you, reporting all the details to his master. If Daigo finds out that some men are too close to you, he will "convince" you to behave more decently (if they are lucky enough to survive).

Nishikiyama is not shy about showing his affection for you by giving you gifts or taking you on dates to expensive restaurants. Such an obvious braggart for you both before the events of Kiwami and after. He rarely takes his eyes off you, so I don’t rely on myself for a particularly long time.

Kiryu is so awkward when it comes to expressing his feelings, but he really tries! Oh, how he loves it when you spend time with the children! The way you take care of them even including Haruka just makes his heart swell with respect and love for you. In addition, Kamurocho is rich in all sorts of places for entertainment such as bowling alleys, game clubs and especially vending machines with plush toys. So you two are definitely not bored.

Kashiwagi may seem callous and cold at first glance, especially in Yakuza 0, but this is only at first glance. He expresses his concern when no one is looking. Did you leave after preparing food for him? He devoured it in a short period of time like a man possessed. Were you offended by some idiot? Don't worry, he's already kicked his ass. Do you want something? Everything is settled, the desired item is already on your coffee table! But over time, he becomes more open about his feelings towards you, becoming softer and more relaxed. Imagine his indescribable gratitude and happiness when you still agreed to be with him even after he left the Tojo clan. He is completely yours, your honor!

-ˋˏSINCERELY YOURS. . . ->

Anon. I will kiss you on your sweet, delectable lips right now. CAUSE THIS ASK IS HEAVEN SENT.

It’s been so long since I played Yakuza, so if the characters are OOC then please forgive me cuz it’s really been a long time (ノωヽ)

YOU ARE SO RIGHT ON DAIGO'S PART IT'S AMAZING!!!!!

Daigo in his early day would definitely be an asshole to you, he won't lay a finger on them but he would definitely ignore his you. Daigo loves them all right, but after what happened (Him and Ryuji), his pride is shattered and because of that he acted more of an asshole and of yes, in that period of time he really took you for granted, but when Kiryu saw or heard of what was happening (maybe you and Daigo still in a relationship, no kidnapping yet) Kiryu would absolutely slam him and like what you said knock some sense into him, he will give Daigo an ear of how to treat you properly.

After he became chairman, Daigo grew into a much more level-headed person, he thought more logically and more of a decent person rather than a brute. It wasn't easy for him, but he finally managed to learn better ways to approach you. However, you were always very cautious around him since he has been so cruel in the past, he knows. So he started to pay attention and he is trying to get closer to you. And he is making progress by spending time with you even if it's a fraction of time. Let's say even if he tries to spend time with you it doesn't work because you can't really seem to love him anymore because of his past. Then he got that part covered, you are now dating one of the strongest Yakuza clan in Kamurucho, hell even if you leave the city, the Tojo clan's reputation and influence is everywhere, so no matter where you are you're always going to be found, plus is it not for the better if you stay with him rather then leave? If you leave Daigo you won't have any protections against other Yakuza rivals, plus he is a whole new man mostly for you.

And since he is the new head of the Tojo clan he will have many men on his side, and one of the most loyal of them all is Mine. he is absolutely devoted to Daigo and will do anything to keep him happy, so if Daigo requested him to set up cameras, Mine would obey his command without hesitation. Daigo need information about the friend you were hanging out with? Bam, he has all of their records, their family, their last hospital check, their messages, whatever Daigo needs is there. Daigo's schedule may be full but if he does manage to make time, be prepared to be snuggled with love and riches. You've been eyeing that bag for a while now? He will come inside the store with you grab it and give it to you THEN pay for it and whoever decides to even harm you both on your outing, their ass be prepared for an ass whooping of a night and after that maybe if they are still conscience he will call one of his men to deal with the random thug. Most of all, Daigo now as a chairman will be more soft and loving towards you, like you said anon, like a puppy.

UGH MY FAVORITE KOI TATTOOED MAN NISHKIII :(((( (i just really wanna hug him bro)

Now Nishki was never afraid to show his love, it was like he was always in that honeymoon phase in the relationship, always bringing you flowers, you and him going out on walks or him giving them chocolates, you kept on telling him many times that he shouldn't do all of this, but he disagrees. St first you thought that it was only a phase in the relationship, but nope, many months in and he still does it, and slowly it's getting quite overbearing, even if you ask Nishki to give you some space, Niski is going to look at you with eyes like a beaten puppy and so ever since you have not said anything, worrying that you might hurt Nishki's feelings. Nishki is a huge romantic, he would always hold your bags and all and he would always pester you about living in the same apartment as him, you told him that it was too quick, Nishki at first would give you some space, but that wouldn't stop him from asking over and over again.

Now if we go the Nishki who is a different man than before, it's now like talking to a different person, Nishki before was a romantic wherever you went, he would always give you kisses and whatnot, but our blood-stained Nishki doesn't, don't get him wrong he loves you dearly but now it is a WHOLE different level. Remember you don't want to live in the same house as him? Too bad, he doesn't even ask the question, your'e already at his house with high security, so make sure that you will never leave. Nishki had been through hell and back, losing his brother, being compared to him, swallowing his own pride in front of his men, and the cherry on top, the passing of his dead sister. Nishki grew more paranoid, he became selfish he is like a feral dog protecting a bone or such, he is fuming and ready to blow someone's head off if they EVEN think to take you away from him, his keeping you captive is like a defense mechanism after all the things he went through, screaming and yelling won't do anything, it is much better to be quiet and do whatever he wants rather then be starved or slapped by him.

Can't make a post without mentioning my GOAT!!!!

Ah, Kiryu. The Dragon of Dojima is such an honorable and respectable person, the art that was placed on his back signifies the power and strength he holds, everyone knows his name in the city of Kamurucho or the dark underground, he is what a man wants to be, strong, respected and cold- wait is that him with a person holding their hands?! And in a closer look, HE IS BLUSHING?!!!

Jokes aside, our main man, Kiryu is an absolute oddball, he's a strong and composed man and can manage to have a clear line of thinking even in a dire situation, but whenever you near, or even hold his hands, inside of him, he is FLUSTRED, let us just hope that you're oblivious to that or else this man will go in a blushing state, good thing that Kiryu doesn't show to many expressions and just shows a stoic one. Like you said noonie, he really tries to show that he really loves you, Kiryu knows that he can be kind of bad when it comes to FULLY expressing what he wants to express, so he does a lot of acts of service, he regularly listens to your problem he even tries to learn how to cooks so you won't ever eat anything unhealthy.

Now if this is the time when Kiryu has Haruka, that's when things start getting interesting. Kiryu desires a normal life, especially a domestic one, he doesn't care who wheres the apron not, and he doesn't care at least you're happy, heck he would be content if he is a stay-at-home husband, and while you work, every time you went back home after a long day you would smell newly cooked food and steamed rice ready, while Haruka helps Kiryu with preparings the plates, but of course if you want to take a bath first, the tub is already filled with warm water its really your choice. Kiryu trusts you, that you won't go away or leave cause of Haruka, You heard what happened to Haruka and Kiryu knows your kind heart and in that moment knew that you won't ever leave Haruka or him, such thoughts could make you feel guilt for the rest of your life., you'll be another parental figure to Haruka no matter what.

Still, on the idea of domestic Kiryu, I would imagine all three of you go to a family outing or some such, maybe a weekend when you guys are in the park eating picnics or even the nearby arcades, both Haruka and Kiryu are gaming nerds. If ever Haruka wins a plushie from a vending machine, she will give it to you and the scene always makes Kiryu's heart flutter since Kiryu is a family man, if there was someone who would be foolish enough to hurt his family (even if you guys aren't married yet) he will show them that living in the Yakuza for many years showed him many different punching techniques…

Now…for my favorite old man……

Devotion. That's one word to describe Kashiwagi when it comes to your love.

You know how much he cares because even after all of those years with you he never lost the way his heart beats faster or his cheeks burn red, because of you, because of what you did and made of him, it is hard to imagine the day where he doesn't feel your presence, your heartbeat in his ears. When you first met him he was cold, and his piercing gaze was frightening, but with some kind of miracle both of you decided to see each other, he became softer, of course, but is still cold and stern when it comes to the Yakuza business, but at home or whenever yall meet, hell ease up his worries. I highly doubt that anyone would even dare stand where ever you are when beside you is a menacing man, who they do NOT wanna fuck with. He is very overprotective of you especially when he is a high-ranked officer, so there are going to be many enemies just waiting to strike against you.

And oh lord, whenever you do such domestic things like, make him coffee, give him his bento, or even kiss him after a long day doing shady business, he will just become putty on your hands, your hands are like magic to him and I feel like his men know about you, so whenever you visit Kashiwagi whenever he's in a bad mood he will immediately lighten up keep his voice to a minimum to not scare you.

After he left the Yakuza, he would do more acts that he had to restrain because he was in the Yakuza, most of the time he would kiss you (on the cheek only) when there were few people around. You also bet your ass that yall are gonna get married, he always dreamt of marrying you when you both became a thing muttering your name with his last name or better yet both of you having kids of your own. So when both of you were married he was crying his eyes out man, seeing you in a white shiromuku (traditional Japanese wedding dress) just comforts something in him and the ring on your finger signifies the love you both have for each other. If you ever have a kid (biologically or adopted) he would give them all the love there is, he might be a stern father but he has his sweet and soft moments with them (I find him having a girl). Like Kiryu, he is a family man, and whoever touches his small family must know that this man was in the Yakuza and knows his way to pummel people to the ground.

UGH YAKUZA MEN ARE THE DEATH OF ME, I GOT A BIT CARRIED AWAY SORRY FOR THAT ANON, BUT YOUR ASK WAS SO FUN TO WRITE TBH!!!! SO PLEASE DON'T BE SHY AND SEND MORE IF YOU WANT TO!!!!

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qtssvnwoo · 2 years

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Fancy Clothes-Ron Weasley

warnings: kinda rushed cause i have a headace. not really proof read, fluff that made me personally recoil at how cheesy it is

a/n: As i said, this is rushed so please bear with me here

word count: 798

It was common knowledge that the Weasleys weren’t precisely the wealthiest family. Molly had to provide for seven kids along with the help of her husband of course, so having nine mouths to feed, including hers, was a struggle at times but she had always managed.

And Ron really admired his mother for that, that even in the harder times she still prepared hot food for all of them. But because of this, when Ron started dating you, he felt like he needed to provide for you.

He would do all the things his mom and sister had taught him, like opening doors, making you tea when you feel sick, reassuring you, and all of the above, Ron would do whatever he could to make you happy. But as your relationship got more serious, and your one-year anniversary was coming up, Ron really realized something, he did not own a lot of money.

Of course, he knew this all along. But, seeing boyfriends get their girlfriends expensive bracelets, and necklaces for their one year, and even for birthdays made Ron feel insecure.

Leading to him sitting in his room at the burrow, while all his siblings laughed and joked downstairs, he was stuck with the overbearing feeling of thinking he isn’t good enough. You noticed his demeanor change suddenly, and made your way up to his room, knocking on the slightly open door before entering.

“Ron? Are you okay?” You inquired, stepping forward before closing the door behind you. Ron looked up for a second to give you a half smile before nodding his head, only to return to staring at his hands, refusing to make full eye contact with you. You of course knew better, choosing to sit next to him on the edge of the bed while taking his hand in yours and rubbing small figures on the back of his hand.

“Be honest with me Ron.” You pushed. You knew it wasn’t always the best idea to push him, he could get explosive sometimes, but right now? This felt like something that needed an answer.

“I can’t buy you anything too expensive.” He answered, making your eyebrows grow together in confusion.

“I mean, I can’t buy you a lot of nice things. I don’t have a lot of extra money and I just…” He stopped himself before taking his hand away from yours and folding them in his lap. “Can you forgive me?” He asked, which made you worried.

“For what may I ask?”

“For not being able to buy you fancy clothes, or fancy anniversary gifts.” You felt like your heart had been ripped out of your chest at these words.

“Ron-”

“You’ve been with me through everything, you’ve loved me through everything. All you’ve done for me is just…I can’t express in words how much it means to me. How can you love me even though I can’t promise the world to you like other boyfriends.”

You stared at Ron for a moment, surprised by his sudden outburst of insecurity before you placed a hand on his cheek and looked at him with those love-struck eyes he just loved so much.

“I can love you because love doesn’t show itself to people in the forms of materialistic things. You show me so much love through the little things, and for me, that’s enough.” Ron sighed and dramatically threw himself backward onto the bed, looking up at the ceiling in a way to avoid eye contact with you, but also as a way to possibly find answers.

Ron felt stupid, he knew that you loved him but in another way, he didn’t exactly know. He felt conflicted and you could see that in the way his eyes aimlessly stared at the ceiling, expecting an answer to his many questions. You sighed and laid down next to him, letting him wrap an arm around your shoulder and cuddling into his side.

“I love you, even if you can’t get me fancy things Ron.”

“I love you too darling, but I’m still going to try to get you something fancy.” You laughed at his antics and looked up at him, you caught his eyes looking down at you and you smiled again before leaning up and kissing him softly as a way to show what you meant. Ron smiled into the kiss and rolled over so he was on top of you, he held your face in his hands as he broke away from the kiss, letting his eyes stay lingering on yours before lowering himself down and laying on your chest.

You knew you couldn’t explain to Ron how much you loved him, but you knew that through small gestures such as this one, comforting him when he needed it, it might just be enough.

#Ron Weasley #ronald weasley #ron weasly imagine #ronald weasley imagin #ron x reader #ron x y/n #Harry Potter #harry potter drabble #ron weasley fluff #ron x reader fluff #harry potter x reader #harry potter x reader fluff #ron x yn

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darkficsyouneveraskedfor · 2 years

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Worlds Collide

Request: I wish Andy would save his reader from her parents.

Warnings: this is a dark drabble and will include elements such as noncon, age gap, and coercion. Not all elements are explicitly flagged, proceed at your own risk.

Note on Sleepover Drabbles: keep in mind that these drabbles may not align with the overall storyline of the Campus AU as they will focus on matching characterisation to given requests.

I would truly appreciate any thoughts and reblogs on these drabbles in spirit of the sleepover. Hope you are having a wonderful weekend and thank you for joining me!

“You would’ve loved Barcelona,” your mother gives a derisive look in your cupboards, “oh, honey, all this sodium,” she takes out a packet of ramen, “do we need to hire you a chef again?”

“Mom, no,” you plead, “it’s fine.”

“Your father would have a heart attack if he saw all this. We pay very good money for you to have a private dorm but honey, you have to take care of yourself. We’re not going to be able to coddle you forever,” she reprimands. “And he is so sorry he had to fly out so quickly.”

You frown and hug yourself. This is what happens. You don’t see your parents for months, then they lecture you for hours about everything you’ve done wrong in their absence. Yet, you can’t argue. They pay for everything, they fund your existence, even if they resent it. You know they do; their trips, their focus on careers, you are just a regrettable obstacle they throw money at.

Your phone vibes but you ignore it. Too much screen time and she’ll start again. She takes a plastic bag and starts shoving food into it.

“Mom, what are you doing?”

“We’re going to get rid of all this and get you some fresh organic veggies,” she declares, “and they sell this boxed soup, it keeps very well–”

Another vibe. You bring your hand to your neck and tap your fingers. Her incessant nitpicking drives you to madness but the equally persistent shaking of your phone isn’t helping. It buzzes on the table as she babbles on about a Mediterranean diet.

You start to pace. You hate when she does this. You remember the exercises the therapist taught you. Yes, that was another expense, another way of shrugging off their parenthood. Obviously, you need counseling if you’re crying into your textbooks. Not a break, never, because you can never stop overachieving.

There’s a knock at the door. You freeze. Your mother looks over and you try to act like nothing happened.

“You’re expecting company?” she asks.

“No, it’s probably just my neighbour. It’s fine.”

The rapping comes again. She strides towards you.

“Mom, it’s fine–”

“Don’t be rude, I’d love to meet your neighbour. You never introduce me to any of your friends.”

“Really, she just always complains about any noise, it’s not worth it,” you lie as you follow her and swipe up your phone. Shit. Andy’s name fills the notifications bubbling across the screen. “Mom, just ignore–”

She opens the door and flinches in surprise. You deflate with knowing as she blinks dumbly and looks back at you as you hover behind her.

“Um, hello,” she chirps, “I think maybe you have the wrong door,” she smiles at Andy. As you look between them, it sinks in how fucked it all is. He’s not far off her own age.

“No,” his brows furrow and he looks at you, “you must be the mother.”

“Professor,” you say between your fingers, “please…”

“Professor?” your mother turns to you, “oh, oh, yes, you must be here to tutor her? Or maybe, some career guidance–”

“Ha,” his mother slants, “not exactly. We have a date,” he checks his watch.

You don’t. You don’t have a date because you told him your parents were coming. That argument hadn’t ended well for you but you thought it was enough to hold him off.

“Date?” she curls her lip, “no, that’s not possible. She’s… nineteen.”

“She’s an adult,” he says calmly.

“That is a clear conflict of interest. You teach law, you must be aware–”

“She is no longer in my class so no, it’s not.”

You slip your fingers into your mouth and bite down, panic swelling in your chest. Your eyes tear up in humiliation. No one knows about you and Professor Barber. No one. But you’re mother finding out, the disappointment in her eyes and voice, it’s too much.

“How old are you?” she snarls, “is this what you do as a professor? Prey on your students?”

“Not at all. In fact, I take care of her,” he says defiantly, “because no one else does.”

“Excuse me–”

“I know about your trip to Barcelona, you left her alone at Christmas. I know she never gets an answer when she calls you, I know that you have your assistant organise every part of your interaction with her,” Andy grips the door frame, “I know she needs someone and it’s not you.”

“Please,” you gasp as you cradle your cheeks, “go–”

“Sir, we are practical. Atheists. We do not celebrate Christina holidays. She has everything she requires.”

“How would you know? How long has it been since you saw her? Seven months.”

She blusters and looks at you, “are you fucking him? Really?” Your mother shocks you with her profanity.

“Mom, please–”

“Your father is going to be so disappointed,” she flicks her lashes dramatically.

“You and your husband should be disappointed in yourselves,” Andy declares, “now, if you’re done making your obligatory act of parenthood to your daughter, we are late.”

“She’s not going with you–”

“Are you going to stop us?” Andy drops his arm and steps closer, looming over her as she leans back in fear.

“Are you threatening me?” she utters.

“Hardly, I haven’t made any declaration of intent towards your harm,” he defines clearly, “I’ve asked a question.”

“You won’t go with him,” she turns to you and pushes the door blindly.

Andy stops it with his fist, the door quivering at his strength as he keeps it from closing.

“Honey,” he speaks to you, “get your purse.”

You stare at him and refuse to look at your mom. As much as you dread your mother’s disapproval, you fear him more. You scurry away and grab your purse and jacket. As you go back to the door, your mother watches in disbelief.

“You go with him and me and your father will be severely reevaluating your funding,” she warns.

“She’s a smart girl, she’ll find a way,” Andy insists as he reaches for you and guides you out into the hall, “besides, like I said, I take care of her.”

#andy barber #dark andy barber #dark!andy barber #defending jacob #drabble #dark drabble #dark!drabble #campus au #au #campus sleepover

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drfoxweyman · 9 months

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State of personal affairs (IMPORTANT)

(TL;DR will be towards the bottom for those who don’t wanna read my ramblings, but I’d prefer you did since this is important.) Hey everyone, hope you’re all doing well, I’ll cut to the point by saying that I am not. For the past… We’ll say couple of months I’ve been on something of a mental health spiral, and it hasn’t really gotten any better save for my time at the Con. Which was a nice, but very brief reprieve. The whys of this dip in my well being are pretty varied, and some of it I’m not really able to talk about, whether for personal reasons or respect for others. But to put it broadly, work has been stressful, home has been stressful, my health has been stressful, everything has been stressful, and as it stands I don’t think I can keep up with things right now. So I’m taking a small break from working on commissions, and allowing myself a bit more breathing room when it comes to my streams (which is to say the next few streams may be much smaller scale, more chill chatting streams.)

Now before any of you who commissioned me recently panic: With my current comms I will still be updating you guys, just at a slower rate than normal, I don’t intend to leave you guys in the lurch. But if by the time I’m done with them I still feel this bad, I probably won’t reopen my queue like I’ve been doing nonstop for the past while now. At least if I can financially help it… Streams like I said are gonna be a bit more lax. I’ll probably finish Pinkie Tower, but after that? I dunno, chatting and maybe some light doodling. Dunno how this will affect Sinner’s Saturday since some kind of income would be nice, but this week we’re definitely doing something different, just have to figure out what. And yes, I still owe you guys that Discord movie night, we’ll be doing that soon. As for how long this time off is gonna be? No clue, it might only be a few days honestly, but the longest I’m giving myself is two weeks cause I just can’t afford any longer than that. And speaking of “affording”, it’s time for literally my least favourite part of the job. The shilling™️. I probably won’t really be making much if any money during this period, so if you ever wanted to support my work with a nice tip. Now would be the time. You have no idea how much even a small tip of a few dollars can help.https://ko-fi.com/foxweyman I’m not gonna sugar coat this folks. I make peanuts on my work. That’s no one’s fault, it's just the nature of being both a small artist and streamer, it’s something I’ve come to peace with as a fact of my career choices. But that doesn’t mean it doesn’t stress me out. Part of why I can never usually take breaks at all is because I literally can’t afford to.

I have rent to pay, phone bills, internet, electricity bills, hormone pills, pet expenses including; food, potential vet visits, toys, poo bags, cat litter, etc. I have to have money saved up incase of an emergency whether personal or work related (computer parts need replacing, tablet needs replacing etc), then there's house expenses; food, toilet paper, cleaning supplies; replacing anything we need etc. It’s a lot, even with our packed house.

The only reason I'm able to go to Furnal Equinox or Canfurence is because I start saving up money month after month after month as a treat to myself, and even when there I tend to bring my work so I can get my commission queue done faster and reopen them again as soon as the con is done.

I’ve been told to raise my prices but let’s be honest, I’m not at the level where I can charge hundreds upon hundreds of dollars for pieces, and while this may be a pessimistic view of my work, I probably won’t be able to any time soon. Same with stream goals, I don’t feel like there’s much I can offer right now that would be worth $500 goals or something.

I’d open a merch shop or something but that would be even more stressful upkeep, and again let’s be real. My reach isn’t big enough for that and you can only sell the same merch to the same customer base for so long.

I apologize if it seems like I’m ragging on about the money, but of all the things I’m dealing with it’s the easiest to talk about because it’s something I think at least a few of you can relate to. That and the more personal troubles cut a bit deeper and I’m not sure I even really wanna talk about them because I don’t like dragging you guys down with me. We’ve made an awesome little community and I don’t need to be hurting you with my problems. Is that the healthiest way of looking at it? No probably not but there it is.

Above all that though I just want some more time to myself and the people I care about, not fretting every second that “I could be working” or “I could be monetizing this”, instead of focusing on improving my mental health so I can be a better creator for you guys, and a better person for me. I wanna draw for myself again,even if it’s just low stakes doodles or barely cohesive comic pages, or hell even just to work on my poor draftwomanship .I wanna let myself play some games and not think “Oh I have to stream this”, every time I do. I wanna be able to go out with my loved ones and not constantly be thinking “WHY AM I NOT WORKING ON COMMISSIONS???”

So TL;DR taking a light break, not sure how long exactly, will keep current customers in the loop, streams aren’t going anywhere but may be a bit different, please tip to the ko-fi so I can stay afloat during this time https://ko-fi.com/foxweyman

For those that read through, thank you so much, it means the world that you care enough about my mental health to drudge through my ravings. You’re truly the best part of this job. A wonderful community that I can just chat and be honest with, I can laugh and joke with you all without fear or anxiety. That’s exceedingly rare these days and I couldn’t be more appreciative of you lot.

That in mind, this took awhile to write, my hands are hurting, and I wanna go lie down, maybe allow myself a good cry. Thanks everyone. <3

- Blaire,“Drfoxweyman”

#real life #irl #important #text psot #long #rambling #art #artist #streamer #support #kofi #ko fi support #mental health

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bernardisgross · 1 year

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Warning for : tca, eating disorder, depression

this is just a block of babbling

Today i chopped lots of veggies to freeze and cook later ! I’m exhausted rn but so happy ^^ ! I had a bit of extra money this month thanks to my employer being scared of gov retribution and finally giving us our yearly bonus ^^ so i went out several times this week to buy lots of food !!! Yesterday was such a nice day i went downtown with my cart and walked for three hours from one shop to the other then back home to get special imported groceries i can’t find near me. I’m planning on doing some meal prep again ! wow ... haven’t doing that in a long while ! I used to do that a lot in uni (back then i was unemployed and i got so extra careful with groceries when i started living in dorms which lasted for humm ?? 4 years ??) and especially when i was living in japan. I was EXTRA super poor back then so i had all these pre-portioned stuff i had cooked myself in the freezer (thank goodness i had a freezer in my dorm room °_°) and thanks to that i could get a meal a day. But i was also eating the same chicken/kimchi/veggies/shirataki/rice meal everyday. I got so tiiiired of the prepping and eating the same thing when i came home, i couldn’t do that anymore ! It’s been four-five years and i’m still feeling sick from the “idea” of being limited in what i can eat.

I got sick twice this month and i totally know it’s because my body’s weak from overworking myself with work/shop/work/commission/event, lack of sleep and not eating well enough. Well ! can’t go back in time ! This weekend i went to work feeling so bad and everybody could see how pathetic i was haha but they were all nice so it’s ok! glad i didn’t miss (*is poor*). Anyways, twice is too much u_u *big sigh* so i’ll be more careful in the future ! Can’t say i’ll eat well everyday but next shop opening or something, i’ll be sure to plan nutritious stuff in advance !

Because the problem here is mainly that i don’t wanna cook nor plan groceries :/ . Oh i still have an appetite, i don’t think i can get rid of it LOL it’s in my genes at this point to love food and love eating ! i just don’t feel like doing it anymore and i have a very convenient supermarket right round the corner of my street so °_° .. just picking what i feel like eating when i do even if it’s not a proper meal ! I’ve had a sandwich phase recently, i ate so many of the pre-made disgusting sandwiches TOT !!!!!!!! i don’t like ready-made stuff but boy was i eating these sandwiches !!! so convenient, didn’t take me any time ! I’ve grown tired of them thank goodness ...

I talked with a friend and coworker who’s pretty much going through the same and it’s nice to have someone else near who you can mention it to bc it can easily put you in a tight spot, ppl (and i include myself) are often quick to worry and thus chastise you for bad “habits”. I know it’s out of love but it’s tiring nonetheless. It’s nice to have someone understand it’s not a habit and that whatever you’re eating it’s ok, as long as you’re eating !!!!! That’s the 1st step and it’s great !

Something else is that i eat very differently from what i used to ! i still eat meat and fish but only cook fish from time to time. I only eat meat if i eat from a restaurant (or if i buy disgusting triangle sandwiches 🙄), i don’t wanna cook it anymore. Trying to stop eating it completely but i know it takes time and i do have a “weak” body. So all that to say that everything i’m used to cook (and i used to looove cooking for myself) well .. is kinda out of the party now huh... it’s not hard to make the same dishes without the meat though, but sometimes i’m really like :I ok .. something’s amiss but i don’t have like.. tofu in the fridge. ALSO i’m a lazy person ;9 and i don’t like inconveniences

also food is hella expensive.... bro..... the corpos... they’re out of control.......... the price of things in the stores .. °_° bro.. u ok ??? they really said “then, starve”

Also wanna mention i’m only able to think about this and actually putting in the work in gathering ingredients etc bc i’m not doing anything else. Like, this is the moment, it’s now or never ! I’m in a slow period with work so i’m just .. well doing nothing (RESTING!!!!) which allows me to actually try to cook ! Also mentioning that i’ve still been eating random stuff during that last few days of hunting and gathering HAHAHA (bread...bo-bun from the shop, apples, bananas, bro i can’t even remember what i ate on monday and tuesday ?????) so .. prepping’s great but let’s see if i actually take stuff out of the freezer and heat them ;9

une affaire... à suivre 😎

#all is well dw !!!!#nanabim

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hello~~~its me~~~~

*makes an angry but cute expression* YN: ahhhh~ I can't cut my ties with my friend that easily *pouts*… he's only going to stay for about 2 days so don't worry let's just say it's easier for him to steal you from me than the other way around… hehe ~ by your joy it seems like you won the lottery *starts laughing* hmm… what do I want to eat? Why don't we order one thing and share it, we can try a lot of things like this… *eating* why are you so intimidated by other men? Don't get me wrong, it's just that you… I don't know… I mean like look at you with that fancy suit being someone important… *at least he's cute* Well, your conditions seem fair, mine are that you will do everything, everything to give my mother the best treatment, even if she needs to go to the moon, just do your part, and another thing for me… -they sit in a bench next to a children's playground - you know that college is expensive, if you can put that in the contract *looking at the ground* I want to graduate and work, I also don't want to live forever being dependent on someone *looks at him * if I can afford my college- OH YOU'RE NOT INVOLVED WITH THE MAFIA, RIGHT? I DON'T WANT CONFUSE WITH OTHER GANGS! a *serious expression* how will this work? I work 2 jobs including Saturdays so basically I can only see you like this after work or on Sundays…

ARHHH he's so… the love of my life hehe❤️🥺~~ maybe I like the idea of YN being funnier🤭🤭🤭, and taking her mother and college as her life priorities👈👈, she kind of accepted it out of desperation and the debts she's been making because of college, I imagine her to be serious but not always and she always uses ''being funny'' to escape reality😇😇 Could it be that he likes her more fun and bright way?😇 oh Christmas 🎄in my family is THE EVENT! I like the food but I don't like putting things away after a lot of work and it's always snowing and I feel very cold I want the cold but not the snow at first it's cool but then it gets really slushy, and there's ice on the sidewalks☃️⛄❄️☃️⛄❄️ ⚠️⚠️Even though I like his jealousy, I also like cute moments, let me ask u: does he celebrate his birthday?⚠️⚠️

“ well, you are surprisingly domestic I didn’t know if you expect you to be so humble yn.. I thought you would be bratty, but how wrong was I.. don’t worry I’ll do everything in my power. I can to have your mother receive the best treatment and get better soon.. don’t worry about her now that you’re with me, just pay attention to me, and only me and I am not INTIMIDATED BY MEN I JUST LOVE YOU AND I DON’T WANT TO LOSE YOU. OK I AM POSSESSIVE POSSESSIVE IS THE BETTER WORD. ENJOY YOUR FOOD AND SHUT UP.”

I don’t think so, that he celebrates his birthday

#ask: tpol!jungkook #oh my God it sounds so fun I love festive seasons you know it must feel so good

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Fingernails Chapter 1

Hello all, my first time posting fanfiction since 2014 (lmao!) All fics will be posted on AO3 and will be posted there 1st! Below is the link to it on AO3. Happy reading and please remember to interact and reblog!

https://archiveofourown.org/works/41220963

Fingernails

V rummaged around the cabinet underneath the sink looking for a very specific plastic tub. Between working any gig that she could get her hands on and trying to find a way to evict her brain parasite without dying, V had almost no downtime. A point she has made very clear to said parasite many times and was now regretting that.

“Jesus, V. How many times have you said ‘We don’t have time for this, we can’t stop, I gotta take this gig, blah blah fuckin’ blah.’ Now you’re painting your nails like some corpocunt”, Johnny taunted.

V rolled her eyes and placed the tub of nail goodies on the counter, accidentally spooking Nibbles from her nap in the sink bowl. “First of all, I said we had very little time to relax. So we have some,” V smirked at Johnny and continued after soothing the poor cat. “And corpocunts wouldn’t paint their own nails, they get color-changing nail implants or some shit. At the very least, they’d pay someone to do it for them. God forbid they actually lift a finger.”

Johnny snorted out a laugh at that and materialized a fake cigarette. He puffed on it for a bit while he watched V pick out a nail color and gather her tools. “You know what I’m about to ask next,” He said, moving closer to the merc and tossing out the digital cig butt.

That was the ‘fun’ part of sharing a mind. It was more than what Vik said of becoming one person, it was knowing and feeling everything about each other. Including what they were about to say to the other person. They figured out at some point that if they focused hard enough they could hide things from each other. However, it wasn’t a passive thing to do - it took actual effort and so most things passed between the two connected minds.

“It’s…hard to explain why I like taking care of my nails. After all that crap with the Voodoo Boys, you know how important my mom was to me. We used to paint our nails together all the time before…well you know,” She let out a sigh before pushing those emotions to the side. “Plus nail polish and shitty drug store makeup were stupidly easy to klep when I was with the Bakkers,” V grinned proudly.

Johnny gave V a small smile, “Ya know talking to you sometimes is more depressing than kicking a puppy with progeria. Now grab a nail color and let’s watch some shitty TV, Samurai.”

And V did just that. She grabbed a dark purple color that had flakes of slivery glitter swirling around in it and flicked on the TV. Watson Whore. Neither of them liked modern TV, the corpo propaganda wasn’t even hidden and the acting was worse than atrocious. However, V would sometimes indulge in a guilty pleasure of consuming really really awful weeknight dramas. She would only catch every other episode so she had no fucking clue what was going on. Right now the lead girl was in a really expensive-looking bikini and sobbing over some hunk of a guy with a crazy amount of stab wounds.

“I swear if Maxtec or some other corpo comes bursting in to save her night, I’m taking over and changing the channel,” Johnny grumbled as he popped up next to V.

“If I smoke a cig or two will you shut up?”

“Yes.”

V lit one up and started puffing on it. She started by cleaning the old polish off and clipping her nails as the nicotine entered her bloodstream. Johnny finally seemed to settle down. A weird sense of peace also settled in - or peace as much as Night City would allow. It was funny in a way. Just a few hours ago, V was dodging bullets and separating Tyger heads from their bodies. The scratch she made was disappointing, to say the least, only a little over 6K eddies for all that work. Enough for rent and some food at least but not much else. So a nail day was much needed to say the least.

She lifted up a nail file and inspected it. It was an old metal one that was starting to dull on one side. V was too comfy to get up a grab a new one, plus Nibbles decided her lap made a much better bed. She flipped it over to the other side and started filing away. While she enjoyed taking care of her nails, she wasn’t creative and just shaped them into the standard oval shape. Being a merc doesn’t allow for nail creativity anyway.

V ashed the cig as she grabbed the cuticle oil next. She poured a generous amount on each nail bed and massaged it in. She rubbed the oil in slowly, both to actually let it absorb into the nail bed but the act also released the soreness from her overworked digits. V paused and briefly wondered if the oil could smooth out the callouses on her hands. Her trigger finger was…bad. That didn’t even start describing some of her scars. Hell, the road rash down her leg was horrific when she wiped out on a sketchy-ass bike when she was 17.

“Oh come on it's not that bad!”

“Jesus fuck!” V jumped hard, no longer relaxed and neither was the cat. The oil bottle swiped across her knuckles (she’d find out if cuticle oil would help after all) and landed on the coffee table, “I thought you said you shut up?” V leveled a look at him and stamped out the dying cigarette. Even Nibbles seemed to give the digital ghost a look before deciding her food bowl was much more interesting.

He smirked, bastard enjoys messing with her. “Pipe down, I got bored. Plus when did you get so concerned about looks?”

“Johnny, I think it’s fair to say anyone in NC is obsessed with looks. Kinda the first part of the battle when it comes to decent street cred.”

“Heh, I guess not everyone is blessed being able to look this good this easily,” With his signature grin, he leaned back and folded his hands behind his head. The only thing V could think of is that if Johnny is going to be in the passenger seat much longer, Vik would have to give her some blood pressure meds along with those blockers.

Instead, V just shook her head and lit a 2nd cigarette. She briefly considered fixing herself a drink, they were taking time to relax for once, but as much as the digital brain parasite annoyed her… He’s definitely grown on her. A part of her wonders if that was the relic rewiring her brain or if they were actually getting along. Rouge and Johnny never shared a brain (Thank God, even if that would be the most entertaining thing of the century.) and they meshed well in their own way. Sort of.

‘Nope…’ V thought to herself. Tonight is supposed to be relaxing and following that line of thought is the opposite. To remedy that, she grabbed the chosen nail polish color and unscrewed the cap. The familiar chemical smell that comes with any bottle of nail polish flooded her senses. Most hate the smell or at least think it’s too strong, but V loved it. Could it be because that smell was present during a time of her life when things were safe and ok? Probably, but right now it was as effective as synth-lavender.

V is no nail tech but she knows a few tips and tricks from years of nail care. She dipped the brush in the swirling liquid and pressed it on the bottom of her thumbnail. Not all the way down though, don’t want to flood the cuticle. She then smoothly and gently pulled the brush up to the tip and angled it so it would cover the edge of the nail. Always wrap the tip.

“That’s what I’ve said for years,” said Johnny. V at first wanted to berate him but couldn’t help but laugh.

V repeated the motions until the thumbnail was covered. The purple and silver glitter complimented each other nicely. She held it to the light. It made it sparkle brilliantly and the purple shimmer with an iridescent flare. She hummed to herself in approval and continued on to the next fingernail. V entered almost a meditative state as she focused on covering each nail, not noticing her parasite was watching intently as she went along. The two minds were finally relaxed and contented for once.

The episode of Watson Whore ended as V finished the last stroke on her pinky finger. There were a few mistakes where she accidentally got some paint on the skin around the nail but overall, her fingernails gleamed. Besides those bits would wash off in the shower. She grinned and looked over at Johnny. Much to V’s surprise, he was also admiring her nails. She expected a joke or a comment but instead…

“Ok damn. I’ll admit it V, I’m impressed,” He said while gesturing for her to show off her other hand.

V was flabbergasted for a second before composing herself, “Too bad you’re a ghost or I could make you look so pretty,” She joked.

“Tell ya what, we both somehow make it out of this… You can paint my nails, V.”

“Wait, what? Really?!”

“I’d cross my heart but I’m fuckin’ dead.”

“Even the gaudiest, loudest shade of neon green?”

“V, I know I’m an asshole but be reasonable.”

She laughed a true and deep laugh, feeling in a great mood for a rare time, “Fine. I think a nice shade of blue would look hella nice on you.”

“I’ll hold you to it, Samurai,” Johnny said as he dematerialized for the night to some dark corner of her mind.

For a moment, V almost missed the presence of Silverhand until she realized it was almost 1 in the morning. She placed all her nail goodies back in the tub and then under the sink. Nibbles was already a step ahead of her and was curled up asleep next to V’s pillow. Still feeling relaxed and just in a good mood for once, V slid under the covers and sunk into the bed. V drifted off to the sound of Nibbles purring up a storm. Of course, there would always be the lingering stress of what tomorrow would bring in Night City that any resident has but tonight things are ok. In fact, they were so ok that the nightmares left them alone as well.

#fanfic #cyberpunk 2077 #cp2077 #johnny silverhand #v #fem!V #f!v #Johnny silverhand/V #johnny silverhand x v #v x johnny #tw smoking #fluff #tw mentions of violence #tw gun mention #mercuryposts #nomad!v #nomad v

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Jihyo x Reader- “Push & Pull”

HAPPY 7K READS TO THIS BOOK! THANK YOU GUYS SO MUCH!💕

After taking a break to the first person POV, we're gonna return it back in this story!

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-JIHYO'S POV-

Another day, another same experience over and over again inside the campus of Seoul International High School.

It's currently lunchtime and me including my three other friends were walking into this hallway that for us, it looks like we are attending a glamorous event where we are the VIPs or superstars entering by walking onto the red carpet.

And the media would be the students around here.

Yes, they're watching us again through every step or move we make in front of them since we are the most famous students in the school, especially me and the other one who's with me right now.

Let me introduce us first.

The girl in front of me, Minatozaki Sana, is the class president of Section A, the highest-ranking section of the highest grade period in the entire school. She has long black hime-style hair and a beautiful, squirrel-like face. She is, in fact, a senior like us. I must add that she has a very lively personality. It happens very infrequently for me to see her without a smile every day.

The girl sporting a long black straight hair with very white pale skin walking beside President Sana is Kim Dahyun, the Vice President of our section aka Section A. Unlike Sana, she is more serious and less fun. She can smile or laugh but only if it's needed, based from what she said before; but still she's still good to be friends with.

So in a sense, we are also the role models that everyone has been admiring, but we are less effective than the class leaders.

I am aware of this because, as the muse, I occasionally instead having many men to approach me and ask me out on dates, but I politely deny each one.

Because my heart has been already by this one person I hated the most. Well... only because of making me feel this way.

Kang Y/N. The escort of the class and one of the smartest students in the whole campus. Why do I need to let others take a move at me when I'm only attracted anyways to this boy already.

He's just so handsome, cute, responsible, hardworking... everything to describe on being how good of a student he is. He's what the ideal man I always wanted to be so yeah, right now all I can do is to secretly look at him lovingly.

Secret, because I don't want himto know about this; not only because the "dating rumors" of us has spread around the campus but also you'll see later why.

After we walked to the hallway, we took a turn and went straight inside the canteen; taking a seats for one another and they all sat with their prepared hone made lunch inside their lunchboxes or tupperware. We prayed before starting to eat.

Sana drew YN's interest as we were eating, and YN continued to watch what Sana was eating. Why is it, did she like Sana's food? I just remain mute as I listen to them chatting to each other because that is what I'm trying to figure out.

YN: "Sana, is that Wagyu meat?"

Sana: "Yup! My mom made it for me", she said as she stabbed the meat and slowly raised his arm to allow him trying it.

YN: "Oh... that's expensive and rare right? I mean... I've seen some of it on the internet and it says likewise."

Sana: "It is true. My mother only got this from our top-notch chefs that serves our family who gets ingredients at a very private market only exclusive for rich families like ours."

Dahyun: "You never tasted one, YN?", she raised her eybrow as she asked Y/N.

YN: "Y- Yeah... that's why I'm curious. I- I don't know the taste.", Even though I'm not totally focused on him, I briefly caught him looking away. I assumed that he was embarrassed to say it, which naturally made me feel awful for him. "They said it's delicious."

Sana then slightly pushed her lunchbox near to YN and presented it's contents to him. Sana: "Oh, here! Take some! It's really good.", she said and that completely made me raise my head and look at them intently.

Sana then took some of her wagyu meat and there she feeds YN with it. I felt completely jealous. YN HAS HANDS, WHY DOES SHE EVEN NEED TO DO THAT.

I started thinking that I should not let myself unable to do it just because I don't have wagyu meat in my lunch that YN is curious about. As much as I wanted to buy YN as many wagyu meat as he wants, no. I should do something already right now. Something that will end up being better still than what YN is gonna receive!

Then I looked at my own lunch and I caught at glimpse at something that made an idea brighten up in my mind.

That's right! SHRIMP! Yes, I remember that YN used to say that he loves shrimps!

So to not make myself completely obvious that I'm feeling uncomfortable having this sight in front of me that might end up looking like a misunderstanding, I also gently pushed forward my lunchbox where YN can also be able to see clearly.

Sana: "How is it?", she asked YN and there I started munching one shrimp as I'm about to start my plan.

YN: "Wow it is really tasty! Thanks Sana!", YN smiled at her. OH, I HOPE I COULD GET ONE TOO, BUT WIDER THAN SANA!

Sana: "You're welcome YN! Just tell me if you want to have some again, I'll make our chefs cook again for us!", Sana giggled.

Jihyo: "Mmmmm this shrimp is so good~~~", I acted like I'm so into this delicious taste of my shrimp so that I could get YN's attention and have him turn it to me. But as I waited for his response, what I received was something I'm not expecting at and much worse... IT WAS TOO FAST.

YN: "Oh hey, you can take one from mine too."

DID HE JUST... NO.

HE JUST NEVERMINDED MY SLIGHT FLEX OF HIS FAVORITE IN MY LUNCH?!

He was too much focused right now on his unique experience that he's having because of Sana that's why I was unable to distract him.

Sana: "Okie dokie!", she answered and then Sana took one bacon from YN's lunch and I watched her bite it with my eyes having a deadly piercing stare. Agh, she got the chance but I'm not!

Sana: "Mmmm the bacon is so crispy!", she said while chewing the food in her mouth. I turned pale just watching at her.

"Good bye, Sana. I hate you. Starting today, don't even acknowledge me as your friend... because I don't want traitors in my life... like you. You pathetic sneaky little seducive snake.", I started to say it all in my mind as I curse her while I'm having flashbacks of our memories.

YN: "Ooh, Jihyo! Is that shrimps? Can I get-", YN asked me next about my food but instead of allowing him to do so, I slapped his hand away before he was about to snatch one. I don't know why, I just felt like not doing it anymore. I can't even match the way how Sana feeds YN although I would've love to do it for him.

Jihyo: "You already had Sana's, no need to take mine. Don't be greedy, dumbass.", I just rolled my eyes at him while speaking bluntly.

YN: "Okay, chill.", YN just giggled which makes me irritate more cause I feel being teased about my defeat. "Too bad, I was about to offer you my food too if you could've just let me."

What he just say? Is he serious? Wait, no. I need to hold on. If I accepted his offer, that would mean something different especially because I already rejected his. That would look like I'm really soft for YN and NO! I CAN'T LET EVERYONE THINK DIFFERENT ABOUT WHAT I MIGHT DO.

Dahyun: "You hear that, Jihyo unnie? Cmon, give him too.", Dahyun said as she tried to push me more from him. I stood straight still on my position, not letting myself submit more. What if he sense something different to me? I'm scared at what he might do when founds out about it.

Jihyo: "S-so what? That I could have some from h-his too? No! I'm okay with m-my food now.", then I rushed eating my lunch so that I could escape this tenseful moment.

YN: "Just let him, Dubu. It's fine.", he said. I noticed that his voice was kinda... disappointed... sad? I don't know. I starting to think that what if he....

THIRD PERSON POV

Yes. Although you had originally intended to avoid receiving one from Jihyo alone, you are genuinely anticipating receiving one from her as well.

Although what you did with Sana earlier was real, you played pranks on Jihyo to see whether she would feel bad about it and take action. which was giving you her lunch, which included your favorite shrimp. If she did that, you may probably assume that Jihyo was jealous and imitated Sana's actions, which she actually did, but you wouldn't know that because Jihyo canceled it in its place.

Unfortunately, you would have seen Jihyo's pouting face if you had dared to look her in the eye.

But still, you thought that Jihyo felt something wrong about what you and Sana did when you tried to get one from her lunch, only to receive a scolding from the mom of the group instead.

In the end, you and Sana both lost in this war of love you too are having.

War of love where the two of you are battling secretly, pushing and pulling one another onto who's gonna take the first move and confess his or her feelings for the other, because both of you are scared to do it voluntarily due to each others' fears.

Dahyun: "Hey guys, I think we should head back now to the class.", Dahyun said after she took a peek at her watch. "We still have more time. Is it good if we use it to review more before our test today?"

All of you agreed after and left the cafeteria as you and Jihyo felt both defeated.

Few hours later, the class ended and the test results has been revealed. You and Sana got the highest scores, Dahyun also has high score while Jihyo has the lowest among the group, but still having a good passing score.

You noticed that Jihyo wasn't impressed and thought that she's having a bad mood, he wanted to cheer her. You did it in a normal way, like how a friend should be there to help their fellow friend through their bad times, but ofcourse with a mix of slight impressing yourself to her.

YN: "Jihyo, what's wrong? You good?", you asked Jihyo worriedly. You didn't know that Jihyo secretly appreciated it.

Dahyun: "You don't look happy, unnie? Your scores were pretty high though?"

Jihyo: "I-It's not about my score... It's just that I'm f-frustrated about some questions because I haven't read it all before the test but I forgot it. It costs my questions missed points.",

Sana: "Aww cheer up unnie! We all do experience that sometimes and it's normal.", she patted Jihyo's shoulder, making the younger look at her with a feeling of warmth for her comfort. "So, chill and don't scold yourself too much."

Dahyun: "Sana's right, unnie.", she slowly nodded. "We got to go now, guys. Hey Sana, the meeting remember?"

Sana: "Oh yeah, see you guys tomorrow!"

YN and Jihyo: "Bye!", you two waved at them before slowly vanishing in your sight. Now that it's just you and her remaining, you decided to continue what you're doing for her since you let your other friends comfort Jihyo too.

YN: "Stop worrying about it, Jihyo."

Jihyo: "W-what are you talking about?", she stuttered asking. She was actually confused what are you pointing at, was it what happened at the cafeteria earlier where she failed lending you her food or was it the test.

YN: "Uhh, the test? Why?", you said, clarifying her.

Jihyo: "O-oh... well I'm not anymore. It's a relief already that I still got a high score.", she said, wearing a fake smile. But being as her friend (and your crush) whose observing her so well that made you know about her so much, that didn't made you pass it.

YN: "Who am I?"

Jihyo: "Eh?"

YN: "I know you heard me, you ain't deaf Ji.", you just hoped she ain't thinking if you are mad at her for being too serious.

Jihyo: "Agh, fine. Yeah, you're YN LN."

YN: "And?"

Jihyo: "Uhh classmate? Friend?"

"Still hurts.", you winced deep inside in pain when she said that f-word. That was always a confirmation to you so far on how she only sees you, even though you didn't know that she was lying.

YN: "There you go. That means since I'm your friend, you can't just lie while being too obvious.", Jihyo gulped, thinking if you are referring something again. "The inappopriate mood is still there, Ji."

Jihyo: "And? As if you'll do anything about it.", she said. She was actually expecting something from you, and she waits for it.

YN: "What if I told you, I can? You can expect some help for me, you know?", you said, adding another points to your impression which Jihyo truely liked but still she tried exploring more.

Jihyo: "B-but... I might disturb your time, YN. There's no n-"

YN: "Would I even lend you some hand if I think of you like that?", you said. Jihyo secretly felt touched at it.

Jihyo: "Weekends?", she asked you, relieved that she accepted it and appreciated your help.

YN: "Sounds good to me.", you smiled.

Jihyo: "Okay, I guess I should meet you then.", she said. "Don't be late, pabo!"

YN: "Got it! Don't worry, I won't make it into a boring tutor lesson.", you chuckled.

Jihyo: "No need to try, I can only describe it just being with you already.", she pursed her lips which you found very cute whenever she does that.

YN: "Pft. Who are you kidding, Jihyo?", you wheezed. "If that so, then why bother accepting my offer?", you smirked at her, making her blush and gulp, nervous that she got cornered.

Jihyo: "I-it's because I NEEDED THE HELP, PABO! AGH YOU'RE SO IRRITATING!", she pushed you slightly to move out of the way. "BYE!"

YN: "HAHAHAHA!", you laughed loudly behind her who's blushing intensely. "She's so cute.", you mumbled to yourself.

Meanwhile, while Jihyo is walking away from you, she was mumbling something to herself too about what she did. Jihyo: "Did he felt bad about it though? I guess I should not make it think about it like that. Oh no, h-he might hate me. I got to do something about it."

In the end, you and Jihyo won because you successfully made her impressed and appreciate your help while on the other hand she made you do something about her problem.

-SATURDAY, 4 DAYS LATER- (YOUR POV)

YN: "Overall, your score is 18/20 which is great!", I said, nodding my head with my lower lip pouting. "Not perfect but atleast you proved that you still understand everything."

Jihyo: "The lesson became easier because of you, YN.", she said, praising me. Well, I didn't know that she already started doing her plan for today which is to lessen her coldness at me and let herself go to the flow with my mood today so that she can make me not think about what she said few days ago that i'm "boring", even though I actually didn't mind it anyways.

Jihyo: "I wasn't wrong at all that I let you do the help."

YN: "Told you. And also I just don't want to disappoint you thats why and it seems that I didn't.", I said to her.

Jihyo: "Yeah you are.", Jihyo sheepishly smiled. "Okay enough talking, can we go out now? I've been dying for it."

YN: "Sure. It's free time anyways, let's go.", I said as I wanted to spend more time with her anyways, which I didn't know that Jihyo wanted it too.

When we got outside, we initially headed to the sidewalk to wait for the stoplight to turn green and allow us to cross the street, but something drew my attention and I briefly left her side.

YN: "Hey, Ji.", I said to her after I returned, keeping my hands which is holding sometimes to prevent her from knowing what it is.

Jihyo: "Where did you go? You got me worried.", She spoke a little louder to me, but I didn't notice any evident emotion. She seemed more concerned and uneasy than I had thought, which made me feel horrible for what I had done. I had to do it so I could pull off this little surprise for her. " I thought you disappeared and leave me here looking for you like an idiot.", She sighed. She grabbed my wrist and gave it a light shake, which made me blush. She was complaining about it, and I was praying that I wouldn't lose it at how adorable she was. I had no idea that she was deliberately doing it.

YN: "My bad, I just went there to... grab you some reward from yours truly.", then I showed the object I'm hiding behind my back which was a new large sized milkshake that has Jihyo's favorite flavor in it: caramel.

Jihyo: "W-woah...", her eyes sparkled when she saw it. Guess that's clear for me to indicate that she liked it.

YN: "That's for successfully completing our first tutorial for today and for having that good score earlier.", She grinned in response to my smile and turned her head away. I noticed she was quite red and visibly moved by what I did. That motivated me to keep doing my hardest to win her over in order to continue developing her affections for me.

YN: " We won't know what might be the next time so... there. With your favorite flavor. Wait, did I got it right?"

Jihyo: "Yeah, you are. It tastes delicious, YN. Thanks.", she said after taking a sip and releasing a satisfied and refreshed sigh.

After that, we crossed the street and went next to the karaoke machine. There, we began singing some of the songs we wanted to sing while simultaneously praising one another.

We were about to run out of time for our spot, so I took some game out of my pocket to make a fair decision.

YN: "Alright, rock paper scissors on who's gonna sing the last song.", I started to close my hand and form it like a "rock" and lay it on my other open hand.

Jihyo: "You shouldn't challenged me with that, YN. We both know you'll lose anyway.", she let out a smug expression.

YN: "Uh huh, then show me what you got and make me.",

We played 3 rounds and in the end Jihyo won with a 3-1 tally. I just pouted in defeat which I didn't know that she found it adorable and funny at the same time.

Jihyo: "HA! SEE! I TOLD YOU!", She began mocking and teasing me when she won, and I allowed her since I deserved it nevertheless because I also thought I was a loser at the game despite my best efforts to improve.

YN: "Yeah fine, easy there loudmouth. You won. I know.", Jihyo just continued laughing at me which made me laugh too due to how contagious it is. Well, I mean... just seeing her happy makes me feel the same too because that's what I always wanted for her.

Jihyo: "Just sit there and wait more.", I just followed her while she cleared her throat as she waits for her song to start.

YN: "It's cool. You deserve to sing more, not me since you have a more beautiful voice.", She genuinely blushed when I complimented her, and the rapid heartbeat she had from my praise prevented her from singing the song's first two words.

Lastly, we went to an open public soccer field where we took one of the free spots here. Jihyo and I share both favorite sport also by the way.

YN: "GOALLLLLLL!!!!! FINALLY A PAYBACK!", I said as I shouted in victory when I defeated her in our round, 5-3 in tally right after I made the soccer ball hit the net.

But I quickly stopped my celebration when I noticed that Jihyo was holding her hand in pain as she has her body curled up to endure the pain.

YN: "Hey, what's wrong?", I ran through her for help.

Jihyo: "My hand. Just got bumped badly by the ball after I failed to catch it.", she said while having that wincing expression in her face.

YN: "Here. Give me your hand.", then she followed as she slowly let me touch her hand gently. What I did next was to begin massaging it while blowing air on it, which Jihyo found to be soothing that gave her chills all over her body.

I just keep doing it because I know that it is calming her down and that it is genuinely working.

YN: "Did that lessen the pain for a while?", I asked her.

Jihyo: "Y-yeah."

YN: "Good. My father did that to me before when I was a child and it worked... so I thought I should do the same care he did from me to you.", I said. I slowly raised my head upwards which made me caught her eyes staring at me, thus making us both locked at it as we ended up in silence to take some time adoring each other in this moment.

Our heart beating went rapidly and butterflies all over our stomach as I looked at our hand holding together.

As much as I wanted to make it last, I can't because I broke the silence between us because I thought it would make her feel awkward about it and it would also make my feelings for her way too obvious. However, I have no idea that she also wanted to keep us being like this for a while deep down.

YN: "U-uhmm.. Th- the sun is setting down, we should go home now before it goes dark.", I said to her after humming to bring us back into our senses.

Jihyo: "Ye-yeah you're right. My parents might start looking for me.", She said as she swiftly released her grip on my hand. I kind of frowned since I assumed she didn't enjoy how our hands were placed at each other while we remained in the center of a quiet atmosphere.

In the end, I won because I successfully impressed her again while hers was none because she didn't even need to do her plan since it was already solved.

The next day, I arrived at the class and shared something when I approached the group whose talking together at Dahyun's spot.

Sana: "WHAT?!", the president squirrel exclaimed as her reaction to what I shared to them.

Dahyun: "Oh so that's why you don't share an update in your account anymore.", the serious tofu said. What I told them actually was about my social media account being hacked which I can't open it anymore.

Jihyo: "What's wrong with their pathetic selves about enjoying stealing other people's prorperties?", she said in an annoyed tone, which was her way to express her distaste about what happened to me. " It sucks that you won't even know who might be the hacker is. Also, why bother someone for that app, as if they could do anything more in there psh."

YN: "It's fine. I'm getting bored using it anyways so... I tried a new app and created a new account there!", then I showed to them my cellphone as the screen was presenting something to them which was my newly created account but this time it's in Instagram. The three went shocked.

Sana: "Woah! You have one now too?"

Dahyun: "That's perfect for you. You like posting pictures more."

YN: "Can I add you guys?"

SaiDa: "Sure!"

We both followed each other after while Jihyo was waiting for her turn. She was actually back to her cold self today after that plan of hers last Saturday already ended.

-JIHYO'S POV-

Sana: "OMG WHEN WAS THIS PICTURE, YN?", she gasped at what she saw in her screen. That made me curious about what is she talking about.

YN: "Last vacation."

Sana: "GAAAAHHHH YOU CHOSE THE PERFECT PROFILE PIC! YOU'RE SO HOT HERE!"

"E-Eh? W-what does she mean with that? I-is YN topless there? I mean, I would love to see it but no need to rush. I'll be going next to Dahyun anyways.", my thoughts as my eyes widened open at what Sana said. That made me gulp and was trying to control myself steadily, keeping myself patient to find out what she's looking at.

Dahyun: "You're right, Sana unnie. Don't be shocked if many girls are about to follow and simp for you YN like they always use to.", Dahyun said, agreeing to what our President said. I keep on trying my best to contain myself, not knowing that I'm slightly shaking impatiently. I WANT TO SEE IT SO BAD! I WANT TO FALL FOR YN MORE THAN ANY GIRLS OUT THERE!

Little did I know that he was planning not to ask for my account next as he's waiting to see what I'm gonna do about it.

YN was about to start a new topic for us talk about when Sana spoke that made him get interrupted.

Sana: "Hey, Jihyo. You have one too right?", I noticed YN glared at him too which both of us became nervous about it.

Jihyo: "O-oh, yeah."

Sana: "Want to add YN?", she asked me. Oh, no. Oh, no this is what I'm talking about. No, after hearing what Sana had to say regarding the intriguing photo of YN, I made the decision not to ask for YN's account. I reasoned that they might think that I want YN's account in order to look at it myself.

Knowing that I am the class's muse and that there is a dating rumor involving YN, which Sana and Dahyun are also aware of, I was concerned that people could see the situation incorrectly. that I would secretly admire him even more after I eventually had his Instagram account and could simply stare at his attractive face whenever I wanted.

Jihyo: "No. He doesn't seem to care about me.", I said, pretending that I'm sulking so that I can point on who's gonna do the sharing of account first back at hkm and escape this trap I had in.

"Look, he didn't even asked me. The truth is going very clear to me now that he doesn't really treat me as a true friend.", I said as long as I can in a very disappointed tone while throwing YN a sassy glance

Fortunately, that was enough for him to back down and apologize to me for what he had done because he believed that if he did not, he would lose my account, which he also badly wanted.

YN: "Hey Jihyo, I'm sorry. I really thought you don't have one since you're criticizing the app.", he said as he's scratching his nape.

Jihyo: "Why? Don't I have any rights to express my opinion?", I said to him bluntly as I keep on secretly teasing him.

YN: "N-no that's not what I'm implying, okay? I'm sorry, can I add yours?"

YES! OMG, I FINALLY HAVE IT!

Jihyo: "Fine.", As we exchanged, I gave him my account and he got his. I was acting quietly, but YN, Dahyun, and Sana were unaware that I was actually itching to burst with joy and pleasure.

I promptly went to the notifications after receiving YN's account and opened it. There, I noticed YN's photo and his profile, which instantly made me blush madly.YN WAS ON A BEACH AND HAD A POSE WHERE HE WAS FREAKING STROKING HIS WET HAIR WHILE WEARING A SOAKED WET WHITE SANDO THAT SLIGHTLY REVEALS HER PERFECTLY BUILT MUSCULAR BODY.

I can't helped it but to just stare at the picture. while having my face all completely reddened and my heart was beating rapidly and loudly like drums being hit with full force by the drummers. The picture that made Sana's compliment justifies at what she saw through it.

Sana: "OMOOOOOO~ I knew it, youll be the same as us too.", Sana said as she stood beside me which made me awakened back to the reality, covering my cellphone quick like a flash.

Jihyo: "H-huh, what are you saying?", I said, trying to be denial while my embarassment is completely attacking me so hard.

Sana: "But wow, your cheeks are so red, are you blushing?", she looked even closer to me, leaning her face closer beside my face and went on to poke my warming cheeks with her finger. "What is this, is the muse becoming one of the escort's admirers now too?", she teasingly smirked.

Dahyun: "You've been staring at his profile too almost reaching a minute as if you can't get off your eyes out at it.", Dahyun stated with a smug look on his face. It's obvious that they're both making fun of me right now. They noticed it, oh no! HOW SHOULD I RESPOND?

I can't think clearly because of my fear over how to stop them from having narrowly-focused thoughts.

I saw that YN was simply observing us. He seemed to have no idea what the heck is going on, but I was unaware that he was actually enjoying it so much that I am now being overtly affectionate with him. He only wants me to officially CONFESS it after that.

Jihyo: "I-ITS NOT WHAT YOU THINK GUYS OKAY? JEEZ CALM YOUR ASSES, I- IT DOESNT MEAN THAT WAY, IM JUST SHOCKED THAT HE HAS AN ACCOUNT IN THIS APP AND YES I ALSO ADMIT YN LOOKS GREAT HERE BUT THATS IT! I'M JUST PRAISING HIM AS A FRIEND WHO'S JUST POINTING OUT THE TRUTH!", I bursted out my defense to explain my own side. I don't care if they're gonna believe it or not but I just hope that they won't provoke me more because they won't gonna like what might happen next and what can I do next.

MEANWHILE YN: "Friend... Welp, I was wrong about my thoughts again, I guess."

YN: "She's right, don't give it another meaning guys.", he said as he swiped his hands back and forth, gesturing the two to cut it off.

If only I could just tell him with all pure confidence and pride that what they're saying is actually true and I didn't wanted to lie at all.

I'm just protecting something that I don't want to be broken at all.

Sana: "Okay sheesh!", Sana said, patting my back to make me calm down but I just stared at her with an annoyed look and sighed heavily. " Wow, God Jihyo forgive us as we've mistaken you from our sins then."

Dahyun: "Don't curse us!", Dahyun said with all fear.

Jihyo: "Aishhh, just stop and go back to your seats kids. Freaking delusionals.", I just ignored them and went on to open my bag and reach out my books for our first subject today.

In the end, YN lost because he was the one who went for my account instead while me resulted with a win because I made him do it, despite with that near- end of my secret feelings I'm having to YN that I experienced.

LATER THAT FOLLOWING NIGHT:

Jihyo: "He's so freaking handsome.", I said as I keep on staring at YN's picture while I'm smiling with my whipped in love expression as I'm taking my break on doing my assignments.

After looking at his picture, I put down my phone and closed my eyes as I thought of something I should do tomorrow when I remembered what happened to me earlier that made me feel very mixed feelings that make me go crazy.

Jihyo: "Look at what you're doing to me, YN. You always making me lose my cool no matter what I do.", I said to myself before letting out a heavy sigh.

Little did I know that in far away, YN was just relaxing in his bedroom by looking at my pictures in my account and complimenting at it while smiling too.

- THE NEXT DAY - (YOUR POV)

My entire day of classes was quite strange and... perplexing.

Jihyo wasn't speaking to me at all. Yes, she was responding to my worries, but she did it in a rather icy manner. She was only responding briefly and in a voice that was clearly exhausted.

However, Jihyo is still flustered and emotionally impacted from yesterday, when she came dangerously close to being discovered for her affections for me, so I have no idea that she is doing this to avoid me for now.That's why she needs to chill out for a while to lessen it down but whenever I keep trying to interact with her through the whole class hours, it only gets worse.

Before we were about to go home, I stopped Jihyo in front of our classroom to try one last time but now is about trying to figure out what's wrong with her today.

YN: "Jihyo."

Jihyo: "What is it?"

YN: "D-do you have a problem with me?"

Jihyo: "No."

YN: "You sure?"

Jihyo: "Yes, I... just don't feel like talking at all."

YN: "Why?"

Jihyo: "Don't worry, we'll go back to normal tomorrow.", she then pulled out her cellphone after we both heard it rang due to a notification. "Bye, my driver just arrive. We still have somewhere to go.", then she just left me quickly as she walked out already from the school.

YN: "Uhh okay, bye Jihyo."

I stopped Jihyo in front of our classroom before we left for home to give it one last shot, by trying to figure out what's wrong with her.

In order to observe her securely make her way home after that, I slowly followed her from behind.

But what I ended up doing left me deeply regretting it.

I continued to watch her, and as the door of the enormous white family car she was driving opened, I saw that she had stopped in front of the school's gate.

It displayed a guy dressed in a school uniform, yet he appeared to attend a different school.

He had his arms extended, letting Jihyo press her body against his and wrap him in a very close hug.

I began to consider the possibility that the reason Jihyo is moving away from me is because someone has already stolen her heart. For the sake of her relationship with this mysterious guy who is also her boyfriend, she might be being cautious about any men she is close to.

YN: "So that's the reason. I could've liked it more if I got the answers from her through words, not actions.", I said as I chuckled bitterly at myself.

They got into the car and started driving away as I took my turn to follow them, all the while thinking that maybe the next day I should keep some distance from Jihyo as a means of relieving the anguish of rejection and jealousy that was filling my heart.

-LATER IN THE AFTERNOON- (JIHYO'S POV)

Sana: "There's still few minutes to go before it falls to nighttime.", Sana said from behind me. It made me return back to being conscious as I turned my head to her.

Jihyo: "What do you mean?", I furrowed my eyebrows.

Sana: "Just kidding. I thought you're excited to greet the nighttime that's why you're waiting for the sky to get dark because of the way you keep on staring outside."

Jihyo: "O-oh. Wait how long am I s-standing here?"

Sana: "Almost 15 minutes I guess?", she shrugged. " I keep on talking and talking then realized that the one I'm talking with is drowning in her thought for me to get her attention.", I just keep being silent to express how guilty I am. "What's wrong, Jihyo? Seeing you turning into this, I can definitely tell something deeply is disturbing your mind. Is it YN?", I just sighed in return to her as a response.

"Answer's obvious, I guess. I knew it, you do like him.", that made me look at Sana, less shock in my face because I also somewhat called it already that she already knows about it, especially that she knows me so much since I'm her very first friend.

But still...

Jihyo: "NO... ONE... WILL... KNOW... ABOUT... THIS.... O- OKAY?! NOT... A... SINGLE.. WORD, SANA.", I said crazily to her ears as I panicked after grabbing her collar and pulling her very close to me, where her head is just beside my face.

Sana: "O-okay, Jihyo jeez... I won't tell it to everyone okay?", she replied as she pushed me away from her to calm me down.

Jihyo: "Yeah... I trust you.", I said, heaving out a sigh.

Sana: "So I'm sensing a love problem, hmm? WELL DON'T WORRY 'CAUSE THE LOVE DETECTIVE IS HERE TO SOLVE IT OUT!", she stated as she introduced herself, rotating her body in an anime-like fashion. She even took one of my hats and wore it in her head to look more like a detective.

"What happened to the two of you? Just like yesterday, you two aren't talking to each other that much, but when it comes to us you guy act normal.", she asked me.

Jihyo: "That's what I'm wondering about, Sana. I promised to him that we'll be talking again after he confronted me and asked about why am I ignoring him."

Sana: "Huh? What did YN do to make you ignore him?", she asked curiously.

Jihyo: "I don't have any problems with him it's just... agh I can't freaking say it.", I said, groaning in frustration while I held my forehead; massaging it.

Sana: "Why don't you just admit that you love YN? I mean... me and Dahyun can see it through you."

Jihyo: "Really?"

Sana: "Yeah. Way too obvious. Out of all the peeps in our group, it's you who has a different way of treatment to YN. It's like... you're avoiding something that might affect you so that what you needed to do is set your guard walls up and protect you from it. Am I right?", I just flinched back because what she said hits straight ahead through me. It's definitely true at all that's why I didn't bother to dodge it anymore since Sana already knows.

As a responded, I only nodded back at her while I slowly bow my head in sadness.

Sana: "And what keeps you from confessing?"

Jihyo: "I'm scared."

Sana: "Aww look at little tough, angsty God Jihyo, hard on the outside but soft on the inside.", she said as she tried to tease me.

Jihyo: "Yahhh! Sana!"

Sana: "Hehe, sorry." She cupped my chin and slowly raised my head to make my face and my eyes to match at her. "But seriously, it won't hurt if you won't try. Although, I suggest the first thing you might do for now is to approach him this time. Be the one who has the motivation to chase, just like what he did yesterday.

You see that even if he didn't get quite clear of an answer to you atleast he has a slightest idea of it to make him relieved. So do the same, Jihyo. Face your fears before it's too late and turn it unexpectedly into your worst nightmare.", she nodded, wanting me to confirm that I'll agree and follow what she adviced to me. I just mouthed an "okay" to her and then she pulled me for a hug, making me feel more her comfort at me.

We both became silent as we watched the clouds disappear as the whole view of the sky turns dark, the moon and the starts slowly starts entering and appearing on our sight.

Our moment was interrupted when Sana's phone vibrated and rang through its notification. She opened it to see what it is.

Sana: "Oh, Dahyun's with him?", she said. I looked at what she's looking at on her phone and there I saw YN's new update in his Instagram account, which has three pictures, one is his solo, second is Dahyun's and third is where my heart slightly felt a stinging pain.

It was a picture of them together, and their faces were very close together, their cheeks touching at one another. I admit, I feel jealous and sad... especially knowing that Dahyun is the first girl too that was featured in YN's new account.

I noticed too that he has a caption on his post stating "Thanks to this tofu who accompanied me! 🤙💞 @dahyunniee "

Jihyo: "I-I see. I'll try, Sana. Thank you.", I said to her, responding to her advise to me once again through words since I intend to follow her advice tomorrow.

I shouldn't always let him do the move. Who am I kidding? I guess I'll have to do it too this time. How could I possibly make him love me if I'm not even trying?

Sana: "Always for my bestfriend.", she smiled at me.

THIRD PERSON POV Meanwhile, what Jihyo doesn't know what you meant in your caption is that, you shared his own love problem too on Dahyun. What's worse is that you actually cried as you remember seeing Jihyo hugging a mysterious guy in front of his very own eyes.

In the end, you lost because you failed to know why Jihyo is ignoring you today which makes you fail to realize if you're impressing her while Jihyo won because she successfully avoided your moves.

-THE NEXT DAY-

Mr. Bang: "Our school's anniversary celebration is coming next week and ne of the student council officers decided that we should make students perform of our own choosing and all of us teachers approved. Since you two are my students who are enormously famous and also for sure, talented... I'm picking you two to participate in the program, is that alright?", our class adviser Mr. Bang announced and asked me and YN as he requested us to stay for a minute before going home to tell us about this.

YN and Jihyo: "Yes, sir."

Ms. Lee: "Okay, good. You may go home now and spend your time preparing what would you two perform for the event."

YN and Jihyo: "Thank you, sir.", Mr. Bang smiled at nodded at us in appreciation. He then gestured for us to walk out of the classroom now.

As we went outside, I called YN 's attention as he just passed me by and walked straight, about to exit the building.

Jihyo: "YN!!!"

YN: "Oh, Jihyo. Why?", he asked me after he turned her body around to face me with his blank expression.

Jihyo: "C-Can I ask you something?", I stuttered at the beginning because I'm starting to get nervous at what I'm gonna do.

YN: "Go ahead. Spill it.", he then walked closer to me and every step he takes makes me heart beat and bump hardly onto my chest.

Jihyo: :Would you mind if I go home with you? M-my family's car won't be for now due to some problems. I don't have anyone else with me.", I asked him sheepishly and hesitantly at the same time as I made my final try to convince him to like me today.

Why? Well, I've strengthened my attempts to follow Sana's suggestion because I suspected that YN was the one avoiding me this time.

As Sana mentioned, our roles from yesterday were completely switched this time.

I tried everything I could to interact with him, but it was all worthless. He wasn't even entertained by my conversation. Yes, I understand that it could be due of what I did to him yesterday, but I specifically informed him that I would act normally with him the next day, which is exactly what I'm doing today.

But what's up with his mood when it comes to me? What is his issue this time that is keeping me from catching up with him today?

YN: "Uhh why me?", he asked me, acting clueless. I don't know why it kinda made me upset on him about this.

Jihyo: "Duh, i'm with you right now whom I'm very close with and it's only you who I know that uses a vehicle as a transport on the way in and out of the school.", I said with a sass and attitude. I'm about to abandon my plan this time since he's being so uncooperative, but I'm trying to hang on because it's karma for me anyway, and also because... Simply said, it's him, YN LN who is my crush and the only guy who has won my heart.

Jihyo: "Why? Are you shy to be with me? You and I, alone together?", I said as tried to tease him just so I can decrease the seriousness we're having today.

YN: "Huh, w-what are you saying?"

Jihyo: "It's true, isn't it? Are you sulking that we haven't talked yesterday?", I asked him, wanting to confirm my guess about the reason of his mood today.

YN: "No."

Jihyo: "Uh huh, but you needed this. What's stopping you now?"

YN: "Can you please just stop teasing me and let's go so that I could be alone now?", his voice raised quite high but the lack of emotion is still audible to his voice.

Jihyo: "I-I'm sorry. I just want to know what's wrong with you."

YN: "Nothing. And don't ask me more, please. I appreciate your concern as a friend but all I want for you right now to do is to let me be alone, okay?", he said to me. I didn't speak more next as I just followed him from behind as we exit the school and ride his bicycle to drive us on our way home.

YN: "Here we are.", he said before pressing the brakes, making us stop in front of the gates of our mansion.

Jihyo: "T-thanks, YN."

YN: "Welcome. Have a nice day ahead."

Jihyo: "Okay, b-be safe. I hope you'll be okay, YN.", That caused him to come to a halt halfway through pedaling his bicycle. I observed he bowed his head for a split second before driving away, leaving me alone in front of our mansion.

I didn't notice that the tears I was holding were spilling out of my eyes as I realized that what I was doing for him wasn't enough to cope with and repay for what I had done to harm his feelings.

I also became panicked, nervous and scared as I remember the times I saw him always sticking with Dahyun earlier, thinking that what if she already went ahead first than me?

What if I'm already getting left out now?

What if my feelings were being obvious again about what I did to him yesterday, that's why he's suddenly getting awkward now having me being close to him?

Or was it because...

.... what if...

... he's developing an admiration and love for Dahyun instead of me?

THIRD PERSON POV

Meanwhile... You instantly stopped and hid through the street post after turning onto another street, watching Jihyo from a distance, hugging that unknown person again.

She stepped out of their embrace to give the guy time to help her wipe away her tears, which you already saw... Perhaps because of what you did.

You didn't wanted to hurt her, and you cried after what you'd done. If only you could tell her freely that you're doing this to rest your heart after suffering too much from what you saw yesterday... which also occurred today.

YN: "You finally saw someone you chose to adore. I think it's for me to surrender and be happy with you instead, even if it'll took some time to move on. Sorry, Jihyo.", you let out a sigh before driving away again with your new decision stuck in your mind, as you thought that this is the only way to lessen the pain you feel.

In the end, you won by successfully avoiding her while Jihyo and Sana lost because she failed to make you share the cause of your problems to her while Sana's advice also failed because you just ignored all of Jihyo's attempts.

-5 DAYS LATER- (YOUR POV)

YN: "I'm gonna be the next to perform, make sure yall will watch okay? Support meeee!", I said to them as I grab my guitar and wear it around me. The school's anniversary event is currently being held right now at our open ground and it's my turn next after this student who is currently performing in the stage.

Sana: "Woohooo!!! Go, YN!"

Dahyun: "Make them go crazy for you, bro!"

Jihyo: "Yeah, but you better support me back too, dummy ok? I'm expecting a repay for this.", She said to me, and all I could do was nod and grin back. I admit that I still find it difficult to get along with her because I'm still in my 'moving on' phase.

But I admit, it makes me still struggle with it because yeah, every time I'm with her, my heart feels a bittersweet feeling all over again, but I'm still trying my best to fight it because I don't want to look like a fool for hoping that I still have a chance for her by keeping myself unrecovered and unbothered with my feelings for her after the immense pain I got.

My name was called next, and everyone cheered, especially the girls for me as the escort as I made my way up to the stage.

I moved closer to the stage as I began to perform, singing "Come Inside Of My Heart" by IV of Spades to the audience who are about to listen to me.

I love you But I don't really show you I'd call you But only if you want me too

Oh, don't you let it stop Oh, I won't let it happen, baby I will never stop But only if you listen to me

Come inside of my heart If you're looking for answers Look at the stars, go a little bit faster Ooh, ooh, hooh-ahh-ooh

As I was ready to finish the song, I looked at Jihyo, who was watching me along with the rest of the audience. I sung the last few lines exactly as my message for her, as I'd always wanted to tell her.

I love you But I don't really show you

Jihyo was the next performer after that. She performed by dancing and singing a song called "Push And Pull" by TWICE, a highly popular girl group in our country. She also had backup dancers, which in my surprise... were Dahyun and Sana, indicating that she really had planned thoroughly for this.

I didn't realize it was her goal to chose that music and dedicate it to me, exactly like what I did.

After she finished performing, our party decided to separate from the crowd and spend some time together on one of the benches under a giant oak tree.

Sana: "Uhh Dahyun, do you want to see those game booths organized by other sections so that we can report it to the council later on?", our president asked the vice who is busy munching her choco pie.

Dahyun: "Oh y-yeah! Let's go. I'm curious about that one which has many student lined up for it."

Sana: "Okiii, let's go!", then she went on to grab Dahyun's hand. They excused themselves for a while and we didn't have any clue at all that they actually both planned this, but haven't shared it through one another for them to team up.

Dahyun: "Go for it, YN.", she mouthed to me before Sana and her turn around and walk away, leaving me and Jihyo alone together.

The atmosphere became very quiet and awkward as we don't even know what to say to each other. She was wiping her sweat with her towel while I'm just leaning my back on the chair while watching the people from the distance having fun together.

YN: "Your performance was great by the way.", I said as I just spoke what was on my mind just to break this deafening silence that surrounds us which I don't want to make us feel uncomfortable by it.

Jihyo: "Oh, t-thanks. Yours too. You successfully made the girls fall for you because of your voice, huh.", she teased me.

YN: "Hehe I can see that. But that's not really my intention.", I shook my head.

Jihyo: "Then what is it? A-are you dedicating it to someone?"

YN: "N-no! WHAT I MEANT IS YOU KNOW... S-SHOWCASING MY TALENTS AND BE PROUD OF MY GIFT! I- I DONT KNOW WHAT YOU'RE THINKING HYOMAS... OR ELSE, ARE YOU CURIOUS ABOUT IT?", I just started to became nervous so I rapid fire blurted out my explaination to avoid my own intention earlier to be revealed.

Jihyo: "H-HUH? WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT PABO! N-NO I'M NOT! DON'T THINK ABOUT THAT IM JEALOUS OR SOMETHING. NOT EVEN GONNA GIVE A CARE ABOUT IT, DUH.", her overprotective and very defensive self of hers is showing again.

YN: "Uh-huh, well it does it sound like you're worried earlier when you asked me about it.", I continued as I took the turn to tease her this time.

Jihyo: "S-SHUT UP! ARE YOU EVEN HEARING YOURSELF, YOU SOUND DELUSIONAL AS IF I HAVE FEELINGS FOR YOU."

YN: "HAHAHAHAHHAHA DO I LOOK LIKE I'M EXPECTING? I'M NOT EVEN INTERESTED AT YOU. WHY DO YOU ALWAYS THINK LIKE THAT ANYWAYS, HUH?", I fought back ay her. She just pinched me in my arm after because of how irritated she was, but secretly it was also for me hurting her feelings.

"OUCH! OKAY OKAY alright i'm gonna stop now. Just kidding, okay?", I begged for her to stop which she did as she just returned back to her silent mode, glaring away from while pouting and crossing her arms. I just chuckled at how cute she is.

YN: "You know, I just... missed this."

Jihyo: "W-what? Y-you missed making fun o-of me?"

YN: "No. Us. Talking like this as if everything is normal again.", that made her slowly look back at me.

Jihyo: "Ahh... yeah, I-I missed it too.", she said as she sheepishly smiled and nodded.

YN: "I'm sorry if I never followed what you said few days ago. Just want to take a break for myself because of some reason."

Jihyo: "No it's alright. It was m-my fault, too.", she shook her head. " I should've t-told you why I am ignoring y-you at that day."

YN: "Shall we take away our worries then?", I smirked at her. "Tell me what's yours and I'll tell mine."

Jihyo: "H-huh?! Y-you should go, first!", she complained.

YN: " Ladies first, sorry."

Jihyo: "B-but you should be taking it like a b-brave man . Are you scared?", she fought back by teasing me too.

YN: "What? No! I told you I'll follow next right. And also, you were the first one who became like that.", I pointed at her, making her gulp because of how guilty she was. I used it as a signal that I successfully checkmated her. " Now that makes sense and you can't argue with that."

Jihyo: "AGH FINE! I'll do it." , she huffed some air before being able to speak again. "Okay, I- I was... angry at that time."

YN: "Mmhhhmm... yeah you were, but... why?"

Jihyo: "Because... I... I..."

MEANWHILE, IN JIHYO'S MIND... "Cmon, say it!"

"Follow what Sana said. I can't just torture myself longer. If I not share what I truly feel for him, there's still a chance that he'll go away slowly from me and get attached to a new girl... to Dahyun.

"No, he's mine. AND THIS IS THE TIME I'LL FIGURE OUT THE ANSWER."

"I.... am..."

YN: "You're what?", I asked her, patiently waiting for her response.

Jihyo:" I LOOKED LIKE I WENT OUT OF THE MOOD BECAUSE YOU KEEP GOING NEAR FROM ME...", she said it loudly which enough for me to flinch back. It really looked like she struggled and fight too hard with herself just to release it. "... and how can my heart even take a break if you keep on doing that. That's how I'm so in love with you, YN.", what she just said made me gasp and widen my eyes as I maintained my frozen and unconscious body, staring at her with pure shock and disbelief.

She confessed to me.

Oh my god, I did it. I made her love me.

But... wait, h-how? N-no, I must listen to her more because after what I've been through it does still feels a bit kinda.......wrong to it?

"You're m-making me go crazy for you. Everyday when I see you being touched by any girls out there who either admires you or not, I panic. Rage. I may be in denial that I don't care about it but only if you know how badly I wanted to snatch you away from them and keep you in my company.", she started expressing to me all what she's been keeping through her heart all along.

YN: "Jihyo...", all I could do was to mutter her name because I'm still taken aback at this moment. This is just so unexpected.

Jihyo: "I'm sorry for all the lies, the despise, and the way I act towards you. I didn't mean it at all, it's just... I need to do it so that you won't get a hint of me keeping all my adoration towards you.", I heard her sniff and that made me look very focusedly at her as she finally had that teardrop came out of her eyes, signifying that her emotions finally got her now.

"Cause I'm scared, that if one day when you found out you... you might, l-leave me because y-you don't see me m-more like this. A-as friends.", she said while she starts to cry in front of me. This sight of her doesn't fail to make me frown and make my heart being clenched because of how sorry she looked being like this.

"That's why my confession today took time to happen cause I don't you to abandon m-me. I need you.", she then went on to hug me as she cried it all through me. Her action made my heart flutter as I feel like I am really important in her life.

"Rejection, yes. I can take it. But please, don't make this as the reason to end our friendship by making a gap between us. Just don't waste my effort of showing my love for you instead.", she said while having a muffled voice because of her face being buried on my shoulder.

YN: "Jihyo...", I called her name, as I started to stroke her short black hair.

Jihyo: "Hmm?", she said after leaning her face close to my rampaging chest due to my fast heart beats.

YN: "I won't."

Jihyo: "How w-would I know if y-you're saying the truth?"

YN: "Then look at me to find out." Jihyo went away from the hug and then she looks at me, revealing her messed up face face due to her tears.

I wasted no time in planting my lips to kiss her passionately.

I kept her near because I wanted her to melt as much as possible in our contact, till she grasped the back of my head and drew me further closer to her face as our lips danced faster together, savoring the taste of our sweetness behind the love we're making us feel for each other.

She lets go off me with a popping sound releasing herself onto me. We both kept a small distance between our faces as I looked at her carefully while cupping her cheek and softly rubbing it with my thumb.

YN: "I always wanted to say this to you, Jihyo. That I love you too. Did you heard my heart beating in a high speed?", she just nodded to me while briefly closing her eyes.

" You're the only one who’s capable of doing that to me. No one else but you. That's why I'm hesitating to give up on making you feel the same as me because... I thought you really just made me prove my fears.

Jihyo: "What makes you afraid, YN?"

YN: "That I wasn't even worthy to be loved.", I smiled painfully at her. "That I do lack something. And it makes me worry that I may be not enough at all to capture someone's heart and make it bloom like a flower. So when I learned that I am definitely falling in love with you, I wanted you to be one who confirm it for me as that day comes that I made you be.

Now that I know you and I has something in common for us to nervous having ended up in this moment, I felt relieved... especially that you proved me all wrong about myself.", I said as my own tears of joy started to flow out through my cheeks.

Jihyo then took her turn to cupped my cheeks while taking out the tears away from my face.

Jihyo:" YN, I want you to remember this from now on. I didn't trusted you to lend my heart and soul because I only feel pity for you. No, I did that because I believe in you. You're more than enough. You are everything to me.", she hummed as she waits for me to answer which I gave him a nod first as my way to thank her in appreciation.

YN: "And I'll continue to be like that while being on your side, cause I aint going away from you. I'll do my best not to left you behind. I will make sure I won't abandon you. Hell, I don't even know if I can't do that when I can't even stand seeing you go far away from me.", we both chuckled after. After that, we both looked at each others' lovingly eyes as I smiled to her before asking this very special question I've been wanting to ask only for her.

YN: "So, Park Jihyo, my muse. I ask you, will you be my girlfriend?"

Jihyo: "Yes, my escort. I would really love you to be my boyfriend.", she showed me her gummy smile after and then seconds later we both pulled each other again for a deep, heartwarming kiss.

YN: "We can work it out, right?"

Jihyo: "Yes, as long as we have ourselves, we'll face our fears together.", I smiled at her as I feel touched through that words.

YN: "You know, I thought you're already taken."

Jihyo: "Yah, why?

YN: "I always see that dude you're always with on a car. If i'm not mistaken I only met your sister so I wonder who's that guy. Then a theory came in to my mi-", before I was about to finish my words she interrupted me with a loud laughter that made me look at her confusedly why she reacted like that.

Jihyo: "HAHAHAHAHHAHA YOU CRIED AT THAT? PABO THAT WAS MY COUSIN.", Jihyo kept laughing hard at me while I just stared in disbelief and embarrassment, knowing that the guy who became the reason for my tears, heartbreak, and jealousy was her cousin all along.

All I wanted right now was for the land I was stepping on to eat me entirely in shame.

YN: "O-oh... really?"

Jihyo: "Yeah you idiot, he was living for now at our mansion since his parents which are my uncle and auntie went abroad for business reasons.", she explained. She then lifts her head a bit higher and looked with her smug expression, smirking at me. "Aww YN's is jealous of me being seen with other men. How cute."

YN: "E-EH? STOP! DO YOU KNOW HOW BADLY I KEEP ON SPACING OUT AS I THOUGHT IM TOO LATE?", I whined but just chuckled and pinched me both in the cheeks as I looked at her like a baby sulking on her mother.

Jihyo: "It's all fine now, YN. I'm only interested at you... after all, I will always prefer to be in love with you anyways, so take that in mind ok?", I just nodded back at her because I went out of words as I'm blushing too hard in front of her. "Actually I thought I don't have any chance also when I saw you and Dahyun in your IG post."

YN: "And you cried?", she just stared at me because I really caught her at that. Already enough for me to take that as an answer, I started wheezing until she also laughed at me too.

Jihyo: "Yaaaahhh!!! YN!", I just playfully hit him in the arm because I actually don't even hate it anyways because I deserved it too.

YN: "Dahyun and I are just "bros" okay? I just wanted to get some advice from her since she already found out that I have a crush on you. Well since we are just neighbors, she came into my place for that. ", I mentioned this to make her understand why Dahyun already has an idea of what's going on between me and Jihyo which I wasn't aware of, Sana already knows something about us too. "And also... she's into Sana by the way.",She stared at me, mouthed "oh?" and gasped then I just signaled her to be silent while she nodded in response.

Sana: "AHH YES, FINALLY. THE TSUNDERES FINALLY GETS IT DONE.", me and Jihyo both had our heart skipped a beat in shock when Sana just appeared out of nowhere with us.

Dahyun: "About time the war of love and the exchanges of pushing and pulling each other has to be stopped. Congrats to both of you!"

Sana: "YEAH!!! I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU TWO! CONGRATSSS TO THE NEW LOVERS!!!", Sana then started cheering for us while Dahyun just kept on clapping while smiling for us.

YN and Jihyo: "T-thanks..."

Dahyun: "Hey, we found a photobooth there by the way! Let's have a picture of us!"

Me, YN and Sana: "Yeah!", we all happily responded to Dahyun's request.

After that, we walked to the photobooth and took four shots as a group, while Jihyo and I took five.

We both grinned as we swapped our solo photos and our first photos as a pair in our phone cases.

When I saw Jihyo's photo, I grinned. I still can't believe she's finally mine and I don't have to worry anything more. I can't help but feel grateful and fortunate to have this girl in my arms right now.

Now I'm encouraged more to do my best on doing my responsibilities as a boyfriend to her, especially by making her laugh, smile and feel my overflowing love in my heart for her.

In the end, even though Sana and Dahyun won by making us two talk while Jihyo lost the war of love we have because she made the first move to confess; we still finally discovered that we both captured each other's hearts mutually as we finally had been able to share our feelings for one another, thus ending us up in this new upgraded relationship we always wanted to have, where it could lead us more to a bright and happy future that awaits us ahead.

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Playing The Numbers

Dear Future Husband,

I hate money.

I mean, obviously I don’t hate what money can get for me, I just hate dealing with it, calculating it, and, well, dealing with it. Did I mention dealing with it?

I’ve had a business idea for a while (several actually, but one in particular) and since I’ve been having some weird stuff happening at work recently, I’ve been putting more time towards the research and development of said business.

And everything is money.

That probably sounds stupid, because it’s a business, so of course it’s about money - net profit is the end goal, so you have to be serious about your expenses and find every possible way to bring in as much cash as you can, or else what was the point in opening the business in the first place?

But at the same time, money is exhausting.

Itemizing everything that would be an expense so I can know how much to get for a start-up business loan is insane.

The business is kind of a hybrid of service and product. Without actually detailing what I’m working on, I’ll use this as an example:

Imagine you have a bar that also offers games. So you could go to just buy some beers and hang out or you could go and learn a new game or join a game.

So you’ve got the drinks and snacks, which are products, and you charge a sitting fee so people can come and play the games.

In this case, you have no idea how popular this will be, right? So you have to guesstimate how many people you think you could get in everyday, maybe more on the weekends and holidays, for party rental, etc. Maybe you even offer classes so people can learn new games.

And you also have to calculate how much of everything you need, so which brands of alcohol are you going to buy, what quantity of each do you need (well, no idea who’s going to order what, and do you even have a stock room big enough to have enough of all the things?), you also need the cups and the glasses and the snacks (which snacks? how many of each?) and the bowls and the coasters and the napkins and the towels and cleaning supplies and purchase all the games and then maybe you invest in a 3d printer in case game pieces go missing and you want to print some replacements, etc.

That doesn’t even include the initial setup of the place, which will most likely have to be redone if the location wasn’t previously a bar or had party rooms, and even if it was a bar before, is it oriented the way you want?

So I’ve been itemizing. So. Many. Things.

Maybe too many things, but thorough is better, no?

At this point, based on pure speculation for how popular my business is going to be (because honestly, who even knows?) my guesstimation is that between “sitting fee” (also membership for people who want to come in regularly and want to save a bit on the “sitting fee”) and “classes” and “party rental” and “drinks and snacks” I can bring in around $400,000 a year in gross profits.

That seems impressive.

As someone who grew up pretty much dirt poor and has never had more than like $1,500 in my bank, and even THAT is a rarity, I can’t even fathom bringing in close to half a million dollars.

But then you have to calculate expenses.

And between lease, payroll, internet, phone, insurance, security, pos system, marketing, bookkeeping, office supplies, food supplies, cleaning supplies, etc, I’m at around $250,000 in expenses without even including loan payback.

And that also doesn’t include renovation of the space, which would depend on location, but still probably have to come out of my pocket.

And I know not all businesses make money the first year. And I know there’s an initial investment of a lot of money that becomes less as time goes on (spending thousands on games but then the games belong to you, so your investment in future games will be less out of pocket annually), but also...

I need to make money.

Some people have the freedom to start and close businesses on a whim, but if I put my time and energy into something like this, I need it to be successful because I literally cannot afford anything else.

I was trying to guesstimate how much money I personally would make from an endeavor such as this, and I conservatively chose $60,000.

First of all, that’s so much money!

Second of all, that’s not enough money.

So let’s discuss why that is.

Let’s start with taxes:

I played with the calculations myself and then used a tax calculator from Forbes and got a different amount in the same price range. Because I could be doing it wrong, let’s use the Forbes amounts.

On a salary of $60,000 a year*, I’d be paying around $5,968 to federal taxes and $2,534 to state taxes.

That leaves me with $51,498.

First things first, 10% to tzedaka. That’s $5,149.80 right off the bat.

That leaves me with $46,448.

As soon as I can afford it, I’m moving out of my current situation. I don’t know if I could buy a place right away, but I need space to breathe, so I would look for somewhere to rent in the meantime. Rent in my area has been around $2000/mo lately and going up. So let’s guesstimate $26,000/yr just for rental. (And that’s hoping it’s furnished. If not, I’ll have to pay more to furnish the place.)

That leaves me with $20,348.

Then we have to include utilities. At the very least heat/ac, which in my area is conservatively $2200 annually.

That leaves me with $18,148.

Let’s talk kosher food. Right now I pay a large chunk of the grocery bill and it comes to at least $200/wk. I should probably be rebudgetting and adjusting this, but in the meantime, that’s around $10,400/year just for food for the family. If I lived on my own, I’d guesstimate cutting that at least in half, if not by thirds. So, let’s be go wide here, just to be on the safe side and put it at $5,000 annually.

That leaves me with $13,148.

When it comes to cars, I would need a new one. By new, that means new to me, not actually brand spankin’ new. A lot of places I’ve been looking show that a car lease would be around $475/mo plus a deposit for a car that isn’t even new. Most have contracts for 2+ years, so I’m looking at a minimum of 24 months on a contract. So for one year, that’s still around $5,800.

That leaves me with $7,348.

I have credit cards to pay off that I’m appalled to say have gotten ridiculously high, and although I could do higher payments than usual without paying off the full amount, I would get some major peace of mind. Regardless, if I just paid about $75/mo to each one for the first year, that’s $3,600,

That leaves me with $3,748.

Not to mention if I start making that much per year, my student loans wouldn’t be deferrable anymore and I’d have to start paying those.

And I haven’t even factored in insurance.

This doesn’t include regular toiletries, cleaning supplies, gas, the moving costs to get all my stuff to a new place and/or furnish it with things I don’t have like couches and kitchen utensils... just basic other living expenses.

And without a safety net, I’d be stuck, so I can’t even take that $3,000 and invest it in anything.

$60,000 a year and I’m still barely making it.

That’s insane!

Like, it doesn’t even make sense!

And the thing is, that it’s easy to say “so just don’t _____ for the first year” but let’s play out those scenarios:

Don’t get a new car.

Ok, so I’m either stuck still sharing a vehicle with MotherLivelyHeart (which is an absolute joke - have I told that story?) or I have to uber/lyft all the time, which is also not cost effective. Add to that, I can only share the vehicle if I live in the same general area as MotherLivelyHeart, and that would depend on finding a place within reasonable distance.

Don’t get a new place.

Ok, so I’m stuck in the same position I am right now, with MotherLivelyHeart breathing down my neck all the time. If I’m running a business like this one, I will not be able to function if I’m still living with my mother. She always has “ideas” and feels like my ideas are part hers too, so if I’m making money here, she has to insert herself somehow to make money also. Everything is an idea for money and I need to be able to breathe. I need space. I need the nagging to stop. I need the micromanaging to stop. I need to be self-sufficient.**

Don’t get a new place by yourself - find a roommate.

At the moment, I’m so done with living with people. I don’t want to be beholden to anyone and I don’t want anyone being beholden to me. I don’t want them to be inviting strangers into my space, and I don’t want to have to deal with the dynamics of “who’s been drinking my milk” or “who’s stuff is in the washer when I need it” or “whose turn is it to take out the garbage” or “who didn’t refill the toilet paper” etc. I just need space, especially if I’m running a full time business at the same time. If I were getting married, that would be different, but that’s not even an option while I’m dealing with a startup, so... yeah, no.

And these may seem like excuses, but I know myself and I know that any of those living situations put me in a position of being extra-stressed. And if I’m stressed, I’ll implode and stop going out and stop showing up and stop doing what the business needs and it’ll close, making me not only a public failure, but also still broke.

So it’s exhausting.

I know I need a mentor and I’ve been looking for someone who could guide me, but even something like the Jewish Women Entrepreneurs charge money to be a part of their little gang, when all I need is someone to guide me through this whole thing who has experience and expertise and will help me avoid major pitfalls I can’t even see because I’ve never done this before and don’t even know what to look for. (Is it a vine or a snake? Not a clue.)

So it’s a lot.

But the money isn’t.

Which is insane! (I think I’ve mentioned that already...)

And I know that the net profits are technically also mine and that I wouldn’t even be on the payroll as an employee per se, but at the same time, I need to be able to reinvest most of those profits back into the business and I want to be able to put myself on a reasonable pay scale.

But it’s no wonder people are complaining about inflation and tuition costs and everything. At $60,000 a year, I, as a single person, would barely be making it. And these are with conservative numbers! Odds are some of the taxes would be higher, gas prices fluctuate, I might have to pay for water wherever I live, etc.

There are so many unpredictable contingencies and at the end of the day, I’d still be barely scraping by, despite making significantly more than I do currently.

I know some of these expenses would go away after the first year (like furniture and kitchen utensils are usually a one-time buy), but at the end of the day I’d still be paying almost 1/6 of my take-home in taxes and 10% of that to tzedaka (which would be very exciting because it’s been a long time since I’ve been able to consistently pay 10% of my salary to tzedaka). And still around 55% of my salary to a roof over my head and food on my table.

And what would that mean for my employees!?

I want to pay a livable wage, especially if I can find trustworthy people who will be full time employees at this joint, and I know their expenses are none of my business, but if I manage to find someone able to work for $50,000 a year, is that even a livable wage!? And if I pay them less, will they have to find other jobs to supplement what I’m paying them? And if they’re stressed with multiple jobs, are they the best employees? Would I have to look for college kids who are living at home to work for me? Do I even want to deal with that population of GenZ in the work place?

I know I’m an over-thinker.

I know I stress about the wrong things at the wrong times and all that, but these are genuine concerns of mine.

And this is just the research phase!

I don’t even have an official location or full business plan or appointments for financing or any of that!

But this is all still an investment of time and energy and I need to know that the outcome will be worth it.

I’m hoping it’s all rainbows and sunshine at the other end, but I know better and I need to be at least partially prepared.

It’s also crazy to be making huge plans like this while there’s so much global uncertainty and we’re also supposed to believe that Moshiach is coming today!

Like, why would I be investing time and energy into something here when we’re all going to fly to Israel on the wings of an eagle and live happily ever after there?

And all this as a single woman in my 30s.

My family knows about this business idea, as do a couple of my friends, but I don’t do well when there’s pressure from other people. I can’t handle the expectations and assumptions, so I haven’t told anyone I’ve been doing this kind of work lately.

I just kind of want to do it and then let people know.

So I’m really alone in this.

It would be so amazing to have a partner to bounce ideas off of. It would be so amazing to have a partner to work with. Someone who I could trust with everything from my heart to my money.

But I don’t.

And it’s possible that going through this process will make me enough to be self-sufficient and put me in a better mental health space to be able to open myself up to the possibility of marriage. But all of that is conjecture. I just kind of have to do it.

I just wish I had some kind of decent support system to help me through this right now. It’s very lonely and very stressful and this is before anything is even officially in the works. I can’t imagine how much better/worse it’ll be.

I guess we’ll just have to wait and see.

-LivelyHeart

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*This would come out to about $5000 a month, or $1250 a week. Guesstimating I’ll be working about 60hrs a week, that comes to just under $21/hr. Not a terrible salary, but if I work more hours than that, the $/hr goes down. 70hrs of work/wk puts me at just under $18/hr.

**The crazy thing is, I still do majority of the shopping and cooking. I can have an insane week at work and come home every single day and still have to “forage” for food in the fridge and pantry. Despite living with two other people, if I cook, I cook for everyone, if they cook, they cook for themselves. I cook for myself, I clean for myself, I put gas in the car, I pay for oil changes and repairs... the only benefit to living here is not having to pay rent, though MotherLivelyHeart has initiated conversations previously inferring I should be paying rent despite paying the electric bill, which has been going up. Unrelated, but kind of related, have we discussed how when it’s humid outside, it rains in my room? I’ll have to look back at previous posts to see, because that’s a whole story. And it’s been on-going for like 4-5 years.

#jumblr #frumblr #orthodox #jewish #frum #dating #shidduch dating #shidduch #shadchan #shadchanim #shidduchim #jewish dating #i am the shidduch crisis

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Aaaaaaand we’re back! Gotta admit I diverted from writing for a bit to catch up on Lore Olympus cause I was wayyyy behind. But! Let’s get going shall we?

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Legacy of Spring

Part 2

Tilting his head, Ethan cheered as he won yet another round of his new favorite card game. “I win! That means you get to show me your home.” Getting up, the boy sprinted to go share the news with his mother, his father chuckling at his uncle’s expense.

“Shut up, Castellan. Like you could do any better.” An annoyed glare was shot to the blond as he went about picking up his cards and figurines, sending them back to his desk in his room.

The older man shrugged nonchalantly, a teasing smile on his face. “I’m not saying I could. But Ethan obviously got his skill from someone in the family.” Watching as both wife and son walked from the screen door, bulging backpack on the boy’s shoulders, he sighed. “Watch over him, will you? He’s never left home except to go visit his grandparents.”

A huff escaped the demigod. “Of course I will. He’s my nephew. Besides, if he can handle the Underworld, he can handle a couple days at camp. But I do want to be included in the next one’s life more.” With a teasing smirk, he met the rest of the family. “Ready?”

“I swear to Hades, Nico. If you let a single thing happen to my boy. You won’t even have to worry about my mother.” There was a protective look blazing in her glare as her pride and joy bounced around in anticipation. “Nothing too dangerous, okay? He’s only ten. I don’t care how good the healers are, I don’t want him to have to see them. But if something does happen, I want to be there. Okay? Okay?” Now addressing her son as well, her expression softened when she took in his joy.

“Don’t worry mom, I got this! And if it’s really as cool as Uncle Nic says it is, then maybe maybe I’ll go this summer. But it’s just this weekend. And I’ve got my gift in case anything happens.” Adjusting his backpack, he ran and gave her a hug before doing the same for his dad. “I love you guys!” With a final wave, he and his uncle disappeared into the shadows.

“He’ll be fine.” Pressing a reassuring kiss to her neck, he hummed. “Come on. Let’s get inside.”

Sighing one last time, the woman fiddled with her bracelet, an old nervous tic she had returning once more. “You’re right. He’s a fighter.” Resting her head on his shoulder she followed him into their house, it feeling quiet for the first time in years.

“Okay kid, here we are. Camp Half Blood. The place your parents met. Remember though, don’t go mentioning it. And if someone asks who your parents are, just come find me.” Looking down to make sure he was understood, he started down the path.

Slowly as to give time for his nephew to take everything in, he showed him around. “Down that way are the strawberry fields and the Big House. But you don’t need to worry about going there, just come to me if anything happens.”

When a horn sounded, the boy looked excited. “What’s that mean, Nic?” In his state, he didn’t notice the wings from his shoes start up and help him hover until he reached his uncle’s line of sight.

Sighing, the man shook his head. “That means it’s dinner time. You’ll sit with me. Ignore anyone else, alright?”

Drooping just a bit, the kid nodded and trailed after his uncle, spending the trek asking him questions. Reaching the mess hall once more, he scanned over the crowds of people, curiosity filling him as he took in all the different people and beings.

Sitting down, the boy grinned as all of his favorite foods appeared on the table. Serving a little more than he usually would for himself, he nearly vibrated in his seat. Looking at his cup and whispering, “pink lemonade.” Seeing it was indeed his favorite drink, he beamed brightly. “Awesome.”

Hearing the soft clop of incoming steps, Ethan sipped from his drink, eyes trailing to his uncle. “When’s it our turn to go?”

“Now. Come on.” Smiling down at him, he shot a sharp look at the intruder before leading him to the hearth. “Hades.”

Balancing his plate carefully, the blond whispered as he poured the best parts of his food into the fire. “Gran and gramps. Cerby too.” Smiling, he followed his uncle back to their table much like a duckling. Sitting down, he dug in, a warmth filling him as his prayers were heard.

“Nico. If you could bring your… guest to the Big House after dinner we can go about determining how to confirm his parentage. Until then, he really should be seated at the Hermes table like all new campers.” Chiron stood tall over the table and held a commanding presence. “Perhaps then you could tell us how you came across an unknown demigod before us.”

Much like his unbothered nephew, Nico barely drew his attention away from his food. “I don’t see why that’s needed. This is Ethan, he’s ten. I met his parents during my travels and they agreed to let him come with me to see if he would be claimed since he’s a legacy.”

Almost as if taunting them all, a pair of wings glowed dimly over the boy's head only to be outshone by a skull which was outdone by the light of a pomegranate. The silence in the hall was deafening. And to think it was broken by the child looking up and grinning, a soft “Cool.” leaving his lips.

Quickly taking this into account, Chiron cleared his throat and kneeled, speaking loud enough for everyone to hear. “Hail, Legacy of Persephone, Kore, Goddess of Spring Destroyer of Light and Men. Queen of the Underworld.” Rising he looked between Nico and the boy, a familiar feeling tugging at his gut. “Do meet me after dinner, Nico.” Turning, he left as murmurs broke out amongst the campers.

Almost as if summoned, a group of three different people came to their table and sat down. “So, Nico… Didn’t realize you were one for kids. What’s the story behind that?”

A snort left Ethan as he came to finish his meal. Feeling eyes prodding at him, he glanced at his uncle. “You were right. They are all nosy.”

A smirk tugged at the man’s lips. “You can’t say things like that without pissing people off, brat.” Looking up, he studied the people before shrugging. “He’s not mine if that’s what you’re implying. But he’s family. My nephew, actually.”

Having caught their attention, sea green eyes studied the young boy, trying to piece which children of Persephone he knew that had a thing for a Hermes kid years back because obviously this one had been around for a while. “You’re ten? That’d put you being born… maybe a year after the war with the titans.”

Here is where the kid laughed to himself. “You all are weird.” Glancing at his uncle for permission, he dropped the ball on them. “I was born two months after the final battle. We had to wait until the fall until we could go visit my grandpa.”

Seeing as that was enough to distract them for the night, Nico rose, causing Ethan to do the same. “Come on, brat. Your mom would murder me if I let you stay up too late.” Ruffling his hair, he led the kid away. Once back in their cabin, he watched the kid get ready before going to bed. “Now to deal with the idiots.”

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April

Spring is here and a lot of changes are happening including the weather. This time of year makes me miss my mom the most. She died in April, I haven’t seen her since February 2004. She was visiting the Philippines when she relapsed. We really didn’t expect her to die so suddenly. The week she was supposed to travel back home was when she passed. I was 12, my sisters were 16 and 21. I still had braces. My hair was still blonde.

I remember being on the way to the airport to go to Manila. My sister called my orthodontist to say I wasn’t coming into my appointment and to not charge me for a no show. She was the most responsible out of all of us. They asked her why? She said “because her mom died.” She hung up. That was the moment it was real. When you say it out loud it’s real. This actually happened. We don’t have a mom anymore.

The actual funeral, I felt her dead hand in mine, to give her a letter I wrote to say goodbye, right before they buried her. I don’t even know what I wrote. I never stopped writing or talking, or thinking about her. I wonder things like if she would’ve been proud of me. I do feel like she would’ve really liked my boyfriend as a person and would be happy that I found him. She would’ve really liked all my closest friends and the fact that I chose to live in New York.

I wonder what would’ve been different in my family and my life. Would my parents be happy? There was a lot of unhealthy things going on in the 90’s. I feel like that generation had a lack of education on how to take care of your body and emotions. Her diet, her stress levels, that she never processed her trauma, none of this made her life better. She really started to hate America and wanted us to move to the Philippines where she would have an easier life. My dad being a teacher didn’t want to give up his pension and career. His career in education made her have to stay. So it wasn’t going to happen. She didn’t like things like the prices, taxes, the winter, and all the work she had to do to be here.

I guess a lot of people come to America to “make it” and they go back home, but I think it’s difficult when your kids are American, as well as husband, and it’s not so easy to uproot.. Your husband has his job here, and you have too many attachments. I myself dream of living abroad and have my steady relationship and family grounding me all the time to stay home and do all the things I need to do here.

I have to say April 12, 2004 was probably the worst day of my life. Our entire life changed. We had to keep going without her. It wasn’t easy. Things got so bad with drama that I was so determined to come to New York for college. I didn’t care how expensive it was or how hard it was going to be. I had to do it. I had to have a better life, and a chance to escape all the bad memories. I just wanted a new everything and a chance to forget. Not to mention I am a pretty bad driver with anxiety behind the wheel especially on highways, so that made it hard for me to stay in New Jersey. NYC is the only place I know you don’t need a car to survive, really. When I turned 19 I was one of the few people I knew who didn’t get a DUI.

I miss traveling with my parents. I went shopping with them to get our winter home in the Poconos when I was 7. Every time they became more successful was a win. I miss my Mommy Leonie so much. She was an amazing grandmother. She cooked amazing food, loved I love Lucy, danced with me, put curlers in my hair, and was my best friend. She really knew how to take care of a family. I miss being a kid. I miss my family, the way we used to be. Now I’m old enough to start my own family. I don’t even know where the time went. Or how I would develop the capacity to do it.

My mom said don’t make my mistakes make your own. Which is exactly what I did. I can’t even compare our lives. We are so different with different circumstances every step of the way. Even though she died 20 years ago. I still feel like a child on that day who just wanted to see her once last time.

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Posted: 3/15/2024 | March 15th, 2024 Adam, one of my friends from the website Getting Stamped, wrote the guest post that follows. He and his spouse have lived in Milwaukee for a long time, and since I have never been, I asked him to give me some advice on traveling there. I think Milwaukee is underappreciated. I adore it! Situated just 1.5 hours north of Chicago, the largest city in Wisconsin is the ideal size—not too big, not too small. It has excellent sports teams, enjoyable festivals, and delicious food and beverages. Besides, it is cheap. Not to mention the welcoming locals! My spouse and I have lived here for twenty years and the whole time, respectively. We have seen a lot of the world, and we could have settled down anywhere when it came time to start a family. But we choose to come home to Milwaukee, which has so much to offer. If you want to know how to experience it like a local, here are my insider tips: 1. Stay central I highly recommend staying downtown or in the Third Ward. This is where most of the popular attractions are located. The hotels might be slightly more expensive than elsewhere, but you’ll save on transportation costs since everything is walkable. These are two hotels I love: 2. Take advantage of free rides Milwaukee does not have a subway system, but it does have an amazing free streetcar service called the Hop, with numerous stops downtown and around the Third Ward area. Simply hop on and off—no tickets or reservations are needed! The Hop runs every 15 minutes during peak times and every 20 minutes off-peak and on weekends. Click here for the map and schedule. Insider tip: If you are heading to a sporting event, many bars and restaurants offer free shuttles to American Family Field for Brewer baseball games and concerts, Summerfest Grounds for festivals and concerts, Fiserv Forum for Bucks basketball games, and other events around town. 3. Eat like a local You might think Milwaukee’s all beer and cheese (and there is no shortage of those), but the food scene has a lot more to offer. Milwaukee has its own (sometimes quirky) food traditions and staples, like ButterBurgers and frozen custard. It also has some incredible markets where you can enjoy some of the city’s best food from many vendors, all in one place and in a fun and affordable food hall atmosphere. These are two of my favorites: 3rd Street Market Hall: This is a must-visit destination, as it provides a place for tourists and locals alike to enjoy Milwaukee’s diverse cuisine. Here, you will find the aforementioned frozen custard, plus pho, pizza, burgers, artisan sandwiches, tacos, hot dogs, home-cooked meals, ramen, sushi, arepas, and so much more—all at affordable prices. Milwaukee Public Market: Located in the historic Third Ward, this awesome market is the best place to patronize a wide variety of vendors with unique products, food offerings, and drink pairings. It’s a unique spot to experience the flavors of Milwaukee’s culinary scene, all under one roof, and soak in the local culture while shopping or grabbing a bite. 4. Indulge in local delicacies There are a few foods that you need to try that you (maybe for good reason) will not find in many other places. They are unique, tasty, and, overall, pretty affordable! Deep-fried cheese curds—yes, it’s a thing, and they are amazing—order them and thank us later. Lakefront Brewery is our top pick. Frozen custard: It may look like ice cream, but it’s much richer and creamier, with a few extra ingredients. Kopps is the best place for it (and great burgers)—and also one of those places that, if you don’t go, did you even visit Milwaukee? Bratwursts are another Milwaukee staple. Nobody does them at a higher level than Vanguard Restaurant in the Bayview neighborhood. It is best known for its amazing house-made sausages, including vegan options, with many at an affordable price of under $10. In this list, we have only focused on the Milwaukee favorites, but foodies who want to delve

deeper into the culinary scene may also want to check out our full list of the best restaurants in Milwaukee. 5. Explore brewing history While microbreweries aren’t exactly a new trend, Milwaukee has been brewing since before it was cool. At one time, it brewed more beer than any other city in the world. That history is evident all around town in breweries, restaurants, and pubs. Lakefront Brewery offers probably the best brewery tour in the city. It’s a lot more fun than just looking at shiny tanks and sniffing a pungent jar filled with hops. The tour guides are hilarious (some are literally comedians from a local club), and your tour will include four beer samples. This is by far the best value and our personal favorite tour—pplus, the beer hall is a lot of fun. The tours are super popular and sell out on the weekends, so it is advised to purchase tickets in advance. If you want to keep sampling local beers, make sure to check out a few other of my favorite Milwaukee breweries: MobCraft Beer: This brewery offers tours and also has a great taproom with tasty pizzas, as well as really good IPAs and sour beers. Eagle Park Brewing Company: They do not offer tours, but they do have a huge selection of unique sour beers. Good City Brewing: There are two locations: the eastside one offers tours, and the downtown one does not. But the latter is right across the street from Fiserv Forum and a great place for a beer before a game. 6. Do some affordable activities Milwaukee has way more to do than we could squeeze onto this page, but we’ve narrowed it down, focusing on must-do and budget-friendly options (some are even free!): Bradford Beach: This is a sandy park on the shorelines of Lake Michigan. Bring a towel and go for a swim, join in a game of beach volleyball, or grab custard at MooSa’s or lunch at The Dock Waterfront Bar & Grill. Stroll the Milwaukee Riverwalk. Experience the heart of the city and immerse yourself in its culture. Many of Milwaukee’s best shops and restaurants can be found along the three-mile route along both sides of the Milwaukee River. Disc-golf at Milwaukee County Parks: Milwaukee has 11 disc-golf courses—six full ones ($5) and five short-practice ones (free). Bike the Oak Leaf Trail: Milwaukee County offers over 135 miles of trails for cycling, many of which feature scenic views of Lake Michigan. You can find the trail map here. Bronze Fonz: Stop to take a picture with a bronze sculpture of Arthur Fonzarelli, aka the Fonz, from Happy Days (a sitcom about a Milwaukee family in the 1950s). Indoor lawn games at 3rd Street Market Hall: Enjoy a variety of unique restaurants and free indoor games, including giant Jenga, cornhole, shuffleboard, and golf simulators. It’s a fun place, especially when the weather isn’t great! After you’ve scoured this guide, if you need to fill any blank spots in your itinerary, we have an in-depth list covering all of the things to do in Milwaukee. 7. Enjoy free-admission days Some of Milwaukee’s top attractions welcome visitors for free on certain days. Watching the calendar can score you free tickets that otherwise would set your group back hundreds. 8. Chase cheap happy hours For better or worse, the people of Milwaukee enjoy their fun times intertwined with a beer or three. To kick off an exciting night in Milwaukee, head to where the locals go: find a good happy hour or go to a budget-friendly dive bar. McGillycuddy’s: $1 taps, $2 craft beers, $4 rails and mixers, and $5 appetizers (Tuesday–Friday, 3–7 ). Mo’s Irish Pub: $2.72 drafts, $5 wines (Tues–Thurs 4–6pm, Fridays 3–6pm); also free brewery shuttles. Milwaukee Brat House: Happy Hour specials change daily (Mon-Fri 3-6pm). 9. Explore the vibrant public art scene Many places around town have large-scale public art displays that you can visit for free. Most of these pieces are in some of the most fun and trendy areas. These are a couple of our favorites: Black Cat Alley,, one of the largest areas dedicated to public murals,, is located near North Avenue in the Eastside neighborhood.

In addition to the art, you’ll also find great restaurants, breweries, and artisanal shops. Sculpture Milwaukee Annually, this city-funded program displays sculptures by artists from across the world on Wisconsin Avenue. Some are permanent,, and some are changed out every year, so there are always new things to see. Posted: 3/15/2024 | March 15th, 2024 Adam, one of my friends from the website Getting Stamped, wrote the guest post that follows. He and his spouse have lived in Milwaukee for a long time, and since I have never been, I asked him to give me some advice on traveling there. I think Milwaukee is underappreciated. I adore it! Situated just 1.5 hours north of Chicago, the largest city in Wisconsin is the ideal size—not too big, not too small. It has excellent sports teams, enjoyable festivals, and delicious food and beverages. Besides, it is cheap. Not to mention the welcoming locals! My spouse and I have lived here for twenty years and the whole time, respectively. We have seen a lot of the world, and we could have settled down anywhere when it came time to start a family. But we choose to come home to Milwaukee, which has so much to offer. If you want to know how to experience it like a local, here are my insider tips: 1. Stay central I highly recommend staying downtown or in the Third Ward. This is where most of the popular attractions are located. The hotels might be slightly more expensive than elsewhere, but you’ll save on transportation costs since everything is walkable. These are two hotels I love: 2. Take advantage of free rides Milwaukee does not have a subway system, but it does have an amazing free streetcar service called the Hop, with numerous stops downtown and around the Third Ward area. Simply hop on and off—no tickets or reservations are needed! The Hop runs every 15 minutes during peak times and every 20 minutes off-peak and on weekends. Click here for the map and schedule. Insider tip: If you are heading to a sporting event, many bars and restaurants offer free shuttles to American Family Field for Brewer baseball games and concerts, Summerfest Grounds for festivals and concerts, Fiserv Forum for Bucks basketball games, and other events around town. 3. Eat like a local You might think Milwaukee’s all beer and cheese (and there is no shortage of those), but the food scene has a lot more to offer. Milwaukee has its own (sometimes quirky) food traditions and staples, like ButterBurgers and frozen custard. It also has some incredible markets where you can enjoy some of the city’s best food from many vendors, all in one place and in a fun and affordable food hall atmosphere. These are two of my favorites: 3rd Street Market Hall: This is a must-visit destination, as it provides a place for tourists and locals alike to enjoy Milwaukee’s diverse cuisine. Here, you will find the aforementioned frozen custard, plus pho, pizza, burgers, artisan sandwiches, tacos, hot dogs, home-cooked meals, ramen, sushi, arepas, and so much more—all at affordable prices. Milwaukee Public Market: Located in the historic Third Ward, this awesome market is the best place to patronize a wide variety of vendors with unique products, food offerings, and drink pairings. It’s a unique spot to experience the flavors of Milwaukee’s culinary scene, all under one roof, and soak in the local culture while shopping or grabbing a bite. 4. Indulge in local delicacies There are a few foods that you need to try that you (maybe for good reason) will not find in many other places. They are unique, tasty, and, overall, pretty affordable! Deep-fried cheese curds—yes, it’s a thing, and they are amazing—order them and thank us later. Lakefront Brewery is our top pick. Frozen custard: It may look like ice cream, but it’s much richer and creamier, with a few extra ingredients. Kopps is the best place for it (and great burgers)—and also one of those places that, if you don’t go, did you even visit Milwaukee? Bratwursts are another Milwaukee staple.

Nobody does them at a higher level than Vanguard Restaurant in the Bayview neighborhood. It is best known for its amazing house-made sausages, including vegan options, with many at an affordable price of under $10. In this list, we have only focused on the Milwaukee favorites, but foodies who want to delve deeper into the culinary scene may also want to check out our full list of the best restaurants in Milwaukee. 5. Explore brewing history While microbreweries aren’t exactly a new trend, Milwaukee has been brewing since before it was cool. At one time, it brewed more beer than any other city in the world. That history is evident all around town in breweries, restaurants, and pubs. Lakefront Brewery offers probably the best brewery tour in the city. It’s a lot more fun than just looking at shiny tanks and sniffing a pungent jar filled with hops. The tour guides are hilarious (some are literally comedians from a local club), and your tour will include four beer samples. This is by far the best value and our personal favorite tour—pplus, the beer hall is a lot of fun. The tours are super popular and sell out on the weekends, so it is advised to purchase tickets in advance. If you want to keep sampling local beers, make sure to check out a few other of my favorite Milwaukee breweries: MobCraft Beer: This brewery offers tours and also has a great taproom with tasty pizzas, as well as really good IPAs and sour beers. Eagle Park Brewing Company: They do not offer tours, but they do have a huge selection of unique sour beers. Good City Brewing: There are two locations: the eastside one offers tours, and the downtown one does not. But the latter is right across the street from Fiserv Forum and a great place for a beer before a game. 6. Do some affordable activities Milwaukee has way more to do than we could squeeze onto this page, but we’ve narrowed it down, focusing on must-do and budget-friendly options (some are even free!): Bradford Beach: This is a sandy park on the shorelines of Lake Michigan. Bring a towel and go for a swim, join in a game of beach volleyball, or grab custard at MooSa’s or lunch at The Dock Waterfront Bar & Grill. Stroll the Milwaukee Riverwalk. Experience the heart of the city and immerse yourself in its culture. Many of Milwaukee’s best shops and restaurants can be found along the three-mile route along both sides of the Milwaukee River. Disc-golf at Milwaukee County Parks: Milwaukee has 11 disc-golf courses—six full ones ($5) and five short-practice ones (free). Bike the Oak Leaf Trail: Milwaukee County offers over 135 miles of trails for cycling, many of which feature scenic views of Lake Michigan. You can find the trail map here. Bronze Fonz: Stop to take a picture with a bronze sculpture of Arthur Fonzarelli, aka the Fonz, from Happy Days (a sitcom about a Milwaukee family in the 1950s). Indoor lawn games at 3rd Street Market Hall: Enjoy a variety of unique restaurants and free indoor games, including giant Jenga, cornhole, shuffleboard, and golf simulators. It’s a fun place, especially when the weather isn’t great! After you’ve scoured this guide, if you need to fill any blank spots in your itinerary, we have an in-depth list covering all of the things to do in Milwaukee. 7. Enjoy free-admission days Some of Milwaukee’s top attractions welcome visitors for free on certain days. Watching the calendar can score you free tickets that otherwise would set your group back hundreds. 8. Chase cheap happy hours For better or worse, the people of Milwaukee enjoy their fun times intertwined with a beer or three. To kick off an exciting night in Milwaukee, head to where the locals go: find a good happy hour or go to a budget-friendly dive bar. McGillycuddy’s: $1 taps, $2 craft beers, $4 rails and mixers, and $5 appetizers (Tuesday–Friday, 3–7 ). Mo’s Irish Pub: $2.72 drafts, $5 wines (Tues–Thurs 4–6pm, Fridays 3–6pm); also free brewery shuttles. Milwaukee Brat House: Happy Hour specials change daily (Mon-Fri 3-6pm).

9. Explore the vibrant public art scene Many places around town have large-scale public art displays that you can visit for free. Most of these pieces are in some of the most fun and trendy areas. These are a couple of our favorites: Black Cat Alley,, one of the largest areas dedicated to public murals,, is located near North Avenue in the Eastside neighborhood. In addition to the art, you’ll also find great restaurants, breweries, and artisanal shops. Sculpture Milwaukee Annually, this city-funded program displays sculptures by artists from across the world on Wisconsin Avenue. Some are permanent,, and some are changed out every year, so there are always new things to see.

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