#even if you are lonely for a while

[frostedmelone]

There's so many people I've met on the internet through the years that are always so used to people being cruel or rude to them and when I'm nice they always say they love being around me but it just makes me so...... sad. Like everyone deserves someone who is genuinely kind to them and yeah joking around and being mean to your pals is fine when you respect boundaries but when it's a constant thing it just weirds me out. I love being nice to people. I love spreading kindness. What do you get from being a huge jackass to everyone, including people who you claim to be very close to? I dunno.

Everyone deserves to be loved by their friends!! It's one of my favorite things to make my friends smile and make them feel good about themselves. It feels like everyone is always so ready to put their friends down for a joke. I love lifting mine up!!! Maybe it's just me. But I am a lover at heart.

#talking #might delete soon its just random thoughts #i have had so many people in my life even just randoms gush to me about how its jarring how i dont make fun of them for their interests #like it takes every fibre of my being to not immediately say drop whoever is making fun of you this much #that me being nice to you is such a monumental event #i am begging people to stop giving horrible and mean people the time of day and realize you will find something much better in due time #even if you are lonely for a while #because i would much rather be lonely than constantly crying and feeling like less of a person due to some asshole who doesnt know when #to quit #i've had people in my life who would tell me im just too sensitive #maybe i am!!!! but why is that a bad thing to be sensitive and to be emotional. why are we so obsessed with being horrible and rude #okay yapfest over see yall next year

[maddymoreau]

Thinking about how Diavolo’s feelings transcend time and how in the Nightbringer UR+ card Demon Lord’s Castle Tour this conversation happens.

When asked, “Do you wish to see your father?”

Diavolo responds:

“I suppose I do . . .” isn’t the typical reaction to how a child would feel about wanting to see their parent. Especially when said parent has essentially been in a coma for a year.

Along with how Diavolo describe his father.

It makes more sense why when you learn in Lesson 56 how Diavolo was treated by him growing up.

Diavolo can tell when others are lying but is unable to understand his father’s intentions.

Diavolo mentions that he lived a very sheltered life growing up. That from a young age his father never allowed him a chance to talk to anyone outside the castle.

His childhood friend was Mephistopheles. A demon literally RAISED to be his friend. Putting a barrier between the two because Mephistopheles would put Diavolo on a pedestal.

The isolating childhood he experienced riddled with his strict father constantly scolding him.

Despite everything MC is so important to him he wants to see his father again so we can meet.

#Demons and Humans can’t get married even in the present so it adds an extra layer him wanting to introduce us. #There’s a lot more you could add onto this (please do I’d love to hear other’s thoughts). #Like how Diavolo’s childhood affected him just look at the way he describes himself: #“The truth is I am a child in a way. A child who spends his time alone and never gets to do anything interesting.” #A lot of Diavolo’s poor behavior while not excused comes from his childhood. #How Diavolo admits to using his position to force others to do what he wants. Along with how he doesn’t like sharing. #Diavolo’s insecurities in his friendships with others. #Mainly Lucifer and Barbatos which makes sense with how they happened. #IE Forcing Barbatos to become his butler and the oath/deal with Lucifer regarding Lilith. #It’s clear Diavolo is very lonely and carrying a heavy burden. #I like that MCs presence is helping him change into a better person. #Also I don’t think Diavolo hates his father their relationship just isn’t good and very complicated. #Diavolo is such a wonderful character if you have any in-depth posts about him please tag me I’d love to read them!!! #I AM FILLED WITH SAPPY THOUGHTS ABOUT DIAVOLO TONIGHT!!!! #Obey Me #Obey Me Spoiler #Obey Me Nightbringer #OMSWD #Obey Me Diavolo #Diavolo #MaddyMajolish #Is it obvious I can’t sleep because I’m riddled with Blorbo thoughts

[greencarnation]

eleven is fascinating to me because he came right off the back of tens horrible traumatic breakdown after he lost everything and he immediately tried to establish himself as the opposite of that. he is funny and goofy and almost childlike, and he bulldozes on in his adventures with amy like nothing happened at all. but then something happens and his masks slips and it's like oh! the core of this man is still anger. he is so so angry all of the time and this façade is the only thing stopping him from being consumed by it. he isn't over any of it and he hasn't moved on. he is wearing a fez and laughing but under that all that exists is age old anger and grief and it is going to consume him

#i do think that this pit of anger was eventually covered and soothed by the ponds #but he didn't adress it and he couldn't even look at it until he was twelve #when he stopped pushing back and repressing everything and finally allowed himself to exist as he was #but ok listen #its all layed out in the first 3 episodes of season 5 and in the way amy sees him #episode 1. here is the new doctor he is energetic and reeling and fun #episode 2. the space whale comparison. here is the new doctor. he is unthinkably ancient and almost godlike but he is so so kind #and patient and good. he is ancient and lonely but he can't stand to see children cry. so the doctor helps people #episode 3. daleks. the doctor is a soldier. these are his age old enemies. he wants them dead and he will stop at nothing #all logic and reason vanish. he is hitting the dalek with a pipe and yelling his head off while amy watches in horror #like obviously we know why but amy didnt #this is not a sane or rational man he is unstable and angry #and in that episode he was stripped back to what he largely is: hate #you would make a good dalek ect ect ect #anyway 3 episodes with 3 very distinct and equally definitely traits layed out like: here you go #i don't like elevens era much but those first 3 episodes were great #doctor who #eleven #amy #eleventh doctor #matt smith #dr who #dw #i mean idk this is what river literally had to spell out for him #eleven was careening completely out of control #how long til doctor means warrior indeed? #mine

[eat-rock]

“nobody understands me” but not in the “edgy suffering from teenager syndrome mad at mom” kind of way, but the “lonely isolating young adult realization that the specific combination of mental illnesses and past experiences i’ve had have resulted in a pattern of behaviors that are often misinterpreted and misconstrued by others” type of way

#maybe it’s the mental illness but boy howdy do i feel like an outsider #as a teenager it’s usually the feeling that everybody else is a stick in the mud and stupider than you kind of stuff #now i’m feeling like everybody else is a real person while i’m only partially a person #like there’s so much of myself missing and i can’t seem to relate with anybody else #it’s lonely feeling like nobody would understand how my brain works even if i tried to explain it to them #idk how to tag this but i hope anybody else can relate #actually neurodivergent #actually neurodiverse #adhd #actually adhd #ocd #mental illness #mentally ill #neurodivergent #👁‍🗨 #🌀

[topnotchquark]

Nico saying that Lewis gives his daughters boxes of presents every Christmas just got caught in my mind.

Imagine you were a mixed race boy born in Hertfordshire, different from everyone else around you. Bullied in school, being raised by your father to compete in a sport where money is very much of essence and you and your family do not have a lot of it. And then you meet this other boy who comes from the kind of life you dream to live one day. You're friends and fierce competitors. You find solace in each other. You visit Monaco for the first time with your friend, dreaming up the life you will have when you make it, when you beat out of the mould that the world thought it could capture you in.

And then you two grow through the ranks and you're at the pinnacle of your sport and you have what it takes to win and the world recognises that you can win. And you win. You win with your friend and fiercest competitor by your side fighting with you for those wins, and this fighting ruins something something that was valuable to both of you when you were still innocent and unsullied by life.

But despite everything that went into the doing and undoing of this relationship, you still realise that this person you once called a friend has a life and family beyond your bitter dynamic. He has children, and children need love and affection and good memories. And you're a better man now so you understand that. So you make sure the kids get gifts on Christmas. And you make sure of it every year. Afterall, if you met someone you loved deeply when you were both kids, wouldn't you feel a pang of nostalgia when they had kids. Wouldn't you try to extend the warmth that you couldn't find for your friend to his children. Afterall, whatever happens during childhood basically remains with you forever.

#and nico's perspective of the same is just #being bullied as a child and being profoundly lonely till you find this friend who is in many ways the yardstick for performance #and even when you go through all this rancidity and the love has almost evaporated down to bare bones politeness #you know there is something that remains deep down #and so he gets your kids Christmas gifts each year #both their childhoods were sites of pain and both of them found something with each other #and lewis honours that by being a positive presence in nico's childrens' lives #albeit from a distance #and of course we're no strangers to how much Nico loves his kids #you can bet if Lewis had kids Nico would do that same #sorry this caught in my heart a little #I knew he had been giving presents for a while and I always thought of that as very beautiful but seeing it on the tl made me remember #man #love haunts you in such peculiar ways forever #brocedes #lewis hamiton #nico rosberg #f1 #formula 1

[idrilearfalas]

If Marvel has a heart the series will end with Mobius and Loki driving together a jet ski, laughing and teasing each other but clearly in love, and then the camera will move to Sylvie, watching from a distance, someone next to her we don't see yet.

And she tells them, "You see? I wasn't lying"

And the camera shows this other person and it's our Thor (audience goes OMG), teared up but with a smile on his face saying, "You weren't. He really is happy"

#lokius #loki #and obviously you realize that loki and Mobius have built a life together #maybe Sylvie even say something about how disgustingly in love they are #and she is secretly happy about it #but feels also lonely #and Thor senses this and invites her to go with him #'you're my sister after all' #and they go off to save the universe #while Loki and Mobius get their happy ending

[toxiccaves]

just a few doodles since its been a lil bit

#transformers #iron leaguer #topjoy #doodle #despite losing my job ive been busily starting to try studying stuff instead. and its distracting lol #and then its only been a little while but even doodling out these felt so difficult wth. had to work through it for a moment there #anyway. lil bit obsessed with wind up toy rumble n frenzy cuz i started thinkin abt old man tinkerer soundwave #with his marionette lazer beak n what have you. and thinking of the tragic lonely old man building his toy family. im fine (cries) #anyway time to forget to look for work OR draw and play stardoo update

[quietwingsinthesky]

thinks about the master & the doctor cuddling thinks about them cuddling thinks about them cuddling thinks about them cuddlign thinks-

#its a vrry specific flavor of cuddling its like. #its exhausted. first of all. and its lonely. #its the kind of cuddling that starts because one of you literally flopped on top of the other and wouldnt move #and then started squirming to become an even bigger hiderance than they already were if they were being ignored #its a puppy pile of two. they are in the weirdest most uncomfortable looking positions imaginable #you look at them and you think ‘this is how glass sculptures would cuddle if glass sculptures had feelings and were touch-starved’ #its a cuddle that might end with one of them putting the other in a full body lock for whatever reason. either to keep them from running #or because they had a nightmare. they do have nightmares you know. and they aren’t fun to sleep next to. the best comfort is a good defense #its the kind of cuddling where one of them is awake for too long. breathing slowly so they dont disturb their partner and staring. #memorizing. taking note of every difference since last time. #its the kind of cuddling where even if you walked in on them at a point where while they were asleep theyd scooted apart and weren’t #touching anymore. you’d still notice that they’re practically mirror images. curled up the same way and facing each other. until one of them #kicks in their sleep and disturbs the illusion. but still. #you get me? #and also theres biting.

[mamawasatesttube]

do you ever think about how kon got drugged to the point of inability to think clearly and then enslaved for Two Fucking Months and then we just never mentioned that again? that is, except for when he went back to visit and help out the guys who enslaved and drugged him because he was lonely enough to befriend them after they said oh sowwy we didn't know you were a person uwu. i think about this a normal amount

#rimi talks #sorry yeah im thinking about That Fucking Arc again alsdhfkjds #if i had a nickel for every time kon got enslaved to be used as a trophy fighter for someone's entertainment while he was 16 years old... #...i'd have two nickels. which isn't a lot but it's kind of strange that it happened twice ! #but at least the time with kossak didn't involve keeping him DRUGGED TO COMPLACENCY the entire time holy fuck #and was also MUCH shorter than TWO GODDAMN MONTHS #genuinely i think. like that arc is ridiculous in a lot of ways but if i take anything from it #it's that a) kon is so fucking lonely he will befriend people who have treated him Atrociously if they just go oh im sowwy #and also b) i just don't think he'll ever handle any mind-altering substances well after that. even if he represses it and thinks he's fine #its such a bonkers fucking insane arc but if you actually think about it its so incredibly fucked up???? #and so much of it (like. so much else in sb94) is treated as humorous #but is in fact horrifying in implication. kon girlies we stay winning (kon gets fucked up but its fine bc its funny right)!!!!

[unamazing-sheep21]

The Traveler's loneliness

When you REALLY think about it, The Traveler themselves is one of ( if not) the most heartbreaking character in all of Genshin Impact I'm so serious. They barely have any genuine friend they can share or is willing to listen to their problems with. They never do this with Paimon because they know what they're worried and scared about is far too heavy for her to handle. Like in the Sumeru quest in the first dream they're cannonicaly deathly afraid that their family bond with their twin isn't enough to bring them back together. They always make time to listen to and help their friends ( and ENEMIES sometimes, i.e Scaramouche) go through their struggles but not one of them ever ask The Traveler how they're doing. Not one of them steps up and is as earnestly willing to help the Traveler as they did everyone else. And like.. that's so heartbreaking. We've never even seen them cry.

Even after saving/help saving five countries they're only barely an inch to finding what's going on with their sibling. The only person who could possibly understand them , and is consequently the one leading the group that's causing all the trouble for her Teyvatian friends. On TOP of that there's the fact that they'll always be an outsider no matter how much they do for Teyvat. The fact that they actually love Teyvat so much but can never connect with it the way everyone around them does. ( My headcannon is that Traveler does all these things not just because they think it's right but also because they don't want to be useless to Teyvat, and that they don't want to be hated and singled out just for being an outsider). And on TOP on top of that Traveler has been lied to and manipulated and betrayed and looked down upon more times than they can count even by people they call friends ( Kaeya, Zhong Li, Childe, Raiden etc etc).

And furthermore it's canon that they're slowly loosing their mind from all of this. Look at the Caribert quest, and the recent Lantern Right trailer where they're eating with their sibling, their crazy dreams about their twin where it seems like they're there with them. LIKE UUUUGH. Aether/Lumine is actually SUCH an interesting and complex character they make me SICK.

#genshin impact #genshin fanart #lumine #aether #genshin traveler #no joke her loneliness isn't actually far off from Furina's #they're so similar as characters actually have you guys noticed that #they're both not lonely in the physical sense but in the sense that they have no one to rely on or talk to #while they help other people at the expense of themselves all the time #they're not a perfect person at all even though they're so heroic #love them for that

[daily-hanamura]

#p4 #p4g #persona 4 #persona 4 golden #hanamura yosuke #yosuke hanamura #HEY DO YOU GUYS EVER THINK ABOUT HOW POST CANON YOSUKE STILL CLEARLY HAS SUCH A GOOD RELATIONSHIP WITH NANAKO #the way nanako readily sits in betwn dojima and yosuke like its normal even though shes seeing her big bro again for the first time in mths #the way shes comfortable leaning over and asking yosuke things #like it wasnt even asking teddie even though teddie would be the friend like im just. #yosuke being a substitute for yu while he was going on and making sure nanako wasnt being too lonely??? #playing the big brother role for her as well because he knows yu would be worried about nanako and that nanako would be left to herself agn #and i just. I JUST!! the game consistently keeps hinting to us about how close yosuke is to the dojima household over and over again #they did it in p4d when dojima asked yosuke to pass a message on to yu (when he could have just texted?? or called?????) #like souyo or not (in my case yes) like theres just so much evidence that yosukes kept in close contact #its not even as simple as just a matter of him chaperoning teddie because hes obviously hanging around enough #that dojima and nanako both trust him immensely #like. they get it. THEY ALL GET IT #!!!!!!!

[ladynicte]

Just finished reading the Mark of Athena and just started reading the House of Hades and man, can you imagine being Hazel during all this, especially talking about Nico.

Hazel is displaced in time, Nico is the only other person who can possibly understand that, Hazel has lived in both The Underworld and then back in the surface, Nico is the only other person who has done that, Hazel is a Child of Pluto, Nico is the only other Child of The Underworld left.

Hazel only shares being seen as a bad omen, and a bringer of bad news everywhere with Nico. They share having scary powers that seem capable of only bringing pain.

Children of Neptune are only seen as bad signs on New Rome, but they aren't there anymore.

At the end, Nico is effectively the only family that Hazel has left.

She never had a present dad of any sort, she still doesn't, she didn't have any siblings back then, and her abusive mother died together with her 70 years ago.

Nico as a half-brother is everything that Hazel has left in that department.

And then, before she even gets back to Camp Jupiter, she's already told that he has been kidnapped, and she doesn't know where, but she's too busy fighting to keep her city going, and her friends alive.

Then, when she's finally allowed to actually think about her missing brother for more than two seconds, and she lets her friends know because they are supposed to be her friends, they are all supposed to be on the same side, that her brother has been kidnapped, some of them don't even want to go save him.

And Hazel is told that her brother's life, her only family's life, just isn't worth the risk until Nico proves himself to be vital for the quest.

Whenever Hazel shows herself annoyed at how they are all treating Nico's kidnapping as something that can be dealt with later that isn't that crucial or primordial or important, that they can just come over last minute and free him.

They just sorta wave her off, and give her plain apologies. They reassure her at times for sure, but there must be something so isolating and maddening about being treated like what you are worried about isn't real.

They try to make her feel better because they care for her, but none of them are seeing what she's seeing, none of them are processing that her only family might just die in a couple of days, and her friends keep forgetting they are even supposed to be saving him.

There's nobody else in that ship who can understand what Hazel is going through.

The rest of the seven are constantly gambling with Nico's life, and saying, well hopefully we will be there in time, and if we aren't, well, don't think about it too much.

For which, Hazel has got no other choice, but to nod and go along with it, because it's either arriving just in the nick of time to save her brother, or not arriving at all.

Eventually, when she finally does see her brother again, Nico is painfully thin, with deep purple eyebags, and a faraway gaze, deadly pale, having issues walking and eating and even just talking.

Hazel's brother went through Tartarus without her even knowing and he came back with a part of him completely broken off, beyond salvaging.

And nobody else cares.

Just so lonely, to be the only person who cares. Having something so so important to you that nobody else sees in any way. So lonely being the only person defending what you care about.

#just that scene where Nico gets thrown off and a bunch of stuff falls on top of his head and he can't even get up and Hazel tells Leo to #not worry and go on ahead cuz shes gonna tend to nico and his only thought is uh she must be crazy if she thinks im going back for the #creepy di angelo i got bigger things to care about like i was so so angry at him during that #nico di angelo #hazel lavesque #the seven #pjo #luna's meta #like that's what i think that whole thing must have felt like just lonely and condescending being told to calm down like you are the one #exxagerating while everybody else dismisses what you care about time and time again

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

You ever think about what's gonna happen when the Welcome Home website updates in December? Hopefully, at least for what I think, we'll get to see the fabled Julierella! Or any visual parts of the show in general. Probably something fit for the holiday spirit.

Maybe wondering about their relatives and loved ones living outside the neighborhood, and the fact that the residents haven't left to see them in some time.

Stuff like that! Maybe even some new recipes!

i try not to think about it or i'll become so nervoucited that i'll get nauseous

#the fact that its a psychological horror brings my excitement #from 'ohhhh i cant wait!!!' #to Im Genuinely Deeply Nervous AND Deeply Excited. #welcome home stresses me the fuck out but... in a good way? somehow??? #still i dont wanna think about whats to come or my entire day will be lost to pacing & staring at a wall w/ a racing heart #it probably will be housewarming themed - if thats still the in-universe version of christmas for the neighborhood #but yeah! so stoked im anxious! yeehaw! #whatever happens im going to go absolutely fucking Feral #also theres an element of 'i cant even imagine. anything could happen. things will happen that ive never even considered' #rambles from the bog #yk actually a thought ive had #is if i start streaming. before the update #maybe... i could stream the update. #yk me and any of you who join checking it out for the first time and looking for secrets #could be fun! if! emphasis on if!! #could be nice. cause like... idk about you guys but i dont have irl friends to sit down and check it out with #the updates are fun but a little lonely for me! its just me in my room wishing i could share the First Time Excitement yk yk #just. something for me to consider aiming for! #oh my god i just realized ill probably be working #i swear to god if the update drops while im at work im just gonna quit and walk out the door #ohhhh now im nervous about that happening... heres hoping it wont... #lmao who am i kidding! given my luck's track record that absolutely Will happen

[kissmefriendly]

On a slightly more serious note, I just wanna post this before the final entry, not counting the epilogue. I’m so, so thankful for Dracula Daily. It’s been an absolute blast beginning to end, reading discourse, seeing the jokes and memes and all the art, reading theories and reactions. And getting to be apart of that! Reading this book again in this format was a hell of an experience but the fact that I didn’t do it alone, I don’t know. We’ve all gotten to experience this book in a new way in real time together. I love that. And I hope that it won’t be just a one-off event, either. And even if it is? But this? It’s been wonderful. So, thank you to everyone for collectively going nuts over a 130 year old novel. Thank you for posting and making those artworks and memes and analyses. Reminds you you’re human and not stuck and alone.

#sorry for being emotional lol #but seriously #I didn’t exactly make new friends or connections #I’m not exactly someone people like seeing post etc etc #but you know what? I got to be in the same room as a bunch of strangers while we all shared an experience #on a personal note #I looked forward to DD everyday because irl I’m pretty isolated #even online I’m isolated this is my 5th or 6th blog. and it was just nice to feel apart of a group #and yeah we still have the epilogue and all but tbh #idk I don’t want it to end #I don’t wanna go back to being alone #I loved talking about this book with y’all I loved seeing your art and theories #it was exciting! #I read this book when I was 8 and my mum had never read it and my brother was too young to #so reading has always been very lonely #but this? this was amazing #and I really don’t want that to end #it’s less about the book itself and more about the people I’ve read it with #which I guess is rather at the heart of the book #dracula daily #dracula #so long and goodnight #lol

[spop-romanticizes-abuse]

Adora: *Is about to die to save the universe*

Catra: “Fuck you, Adora! You’re so fucking selfish! I can’t believe you’d rather DIE than fuck me!” *Leaves Adora to die*

Catra, not 5 seconds later: “WHY WON’T ADORA JUST FUCK ME?!?!”🥺😭😿😿

LMAO PLS THIS MADE ME CACKLE

#fr though like catra was being so irrational?? #like girlie what do you want adora to do?? #make out with you while the world ends and everyone fucking dies? #“it doesnt have to be you” well would you do it then catra? #she didn't even have a better solution she was just making everything about herself again #“adora is going to die? BUT I'M SO LONELY 🥺🥺 ADORA DOESN'T LOVE ME BOOHOO” #spop critical #spop #spop salt #spop discourse #spop criticism #she ra #anti catradora #anti catra #spop catra #anti c//a #antic//a #anticatra #anticatradora

[felicitywilds]

also slowly turning around in my brain how rose said she was going to stay with the doctor forever, and then later donna says the same thing (to martha!! the doctor doesnt even hear or know!!! it would make him so happy but hurt him so much if he did!!!!!!), and then when she tells the doctor shes going home in sontaran stratagem he immediately assumes it means shes leaving him for good and accepts it but also launches into all the things he still wanted to show her.

and i know its played for a joke like haha silly martian thats not what i meant! but this is the same man who, when he needed to turn human, loved someone SO DEEP AND HARD that he didnt think he'd ever fall in love again. ever. even with his memory erased. so when you take that moment of "oh you're just popping home for a visit" and like ACTUALLY look at it you're like. this man gets so so so attached to people, and is so incredibly scarred by losing these people he loves that he has no choice but to let them go when they want to leave on good terms, because he knows how bad it could get for them if they stay, no matter how much he wants them to stay.

anyway donna's forever and rose's forever are just different flavors of the same "i need you as much as you need me, so im in it for the long haul, bad stuff included" and its chefs kiss

#doctor who #dw #nuwho #donna noble #rose tyler #tenth doctor #by me #dont skip nine #i just. i have so many thoughts about donna i cant even get them all down #ill probably need another post about this #but i just LOVE how much she takes those classic Rose Things and turns them on their heads #donna travels with the doctor bc she has nothing else just like rose did #but while rose traveled so he wouldnt be lonely and through that company he learned to be humane #donna travels with him to keep him humane and through that company he starts to heal from his grief of being lonely #if that makes sense #when rose was there he always did things for HER and it was so dangerous for both of them and scarred them more than it could have #and now with donna its like nah man do it for THEM. you cant live for your companions. you gotta live for you and the people you save #ok i think im done now