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#happier w this one than with the one i posted last night
luthiery · 1 year
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saturn (1636), peter paul rubens // eat your young (2023), hozier
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Hey! I absolutely love your writing! could you maybe write something about Tom x reader. Where she’s working with Josh on a new film? So him and Rachel go to visit on set and he’s a fan? I feel that would be so cute 🥹🫶
Little Visit || Tom Blyth x actress!reader
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A/n: look at these lil cute gifs I made of Tom, Josh and Rachel 🥹 I love their friendship. And thank you Anon for this request! I imagined them filming Lady Chatterley’s Lover !!! Reading this back, it’s adorable. 3/4? Fics I’m planning to post today!
Warnings: none :)
Wc: 695
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Divider by @pommecita
“Andddd cut!” The director calls out as you let out a sigh of relief, stretching your body as a loud groan escapes your lips. After an exhausting day of non stop filming of your solo scenes, all you felt doing was crashing into the comfort of your bed in your trailer and face time your boyfriend Tom.
As you pack up your things that your brought along with you, Stacey, your assistant, comes up to you. “You have a few visitors,” She says in a sing song voice as you immediately furrow your eyebrows.
“Really?” You say as she hums. You sling your tote bag over your shoulder and follow her as you put your hair into a hair clip. From afar, you could see two guys, one with familiar hair.
You immediately smile knowing who it was as you hurriedly walk to them, a bounce in your step. You open your arms as you squeal seeing the two of them. “Hey sweetheart,” Tom says as you engulf the two in a tight hug.
You wrap your arms around Tom and Josh’s body as the wrap theirs around your frame, both of them rubbing your back knowing how much you love it when people do that.
Although you saw Josh practically everyday because you two were the main characters to the movie you were filming, you were still so happy to see him after a day of not hearing his jokes.
And of course, you were beyond happy seeing Tom again. The last time you saw him in person was 2 weeks ago when he came down to set to visit. Although you were absolutely tired and wished nothing but to shower and lay in bed, seeing your boyfriend and best friend was even better.
You rock the two side to side as you all laugh. As you pull back, you hear a feminine voice call out. “Y/n!” The boys look back as you look in between them. Your eyes lit up, “Rachel!” You squeal as you both run to each other. You had not seen Rachel in the longest time, probably 2 months after the world promo tour came to an end for tbosas.
“She looks happier to see her than us, huh?” Josh jokes as Tom laughs, digging his hands in his pockets as he watches the two of you embrace in a hug, nearly falling over in the process as Josh snaps a few photos of the two of you.
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You walked hand in hand with Tom to your trailer, Josh and Rachel behind the two of you. “I’m going to shower, I’ll be back,” You announced as you kiss Tom’s lips before disappearing in your bathroom. The hot water immediately relaxed your bones as you let out a light moan at the feeling.
You came out in your silk pyjamas as it was slowly turning dark outside. The four of you chilled in your trailer, catching up with things before Rachel and Josh decide to go back to his trailer for the night.
“I’ve missed you,” A slight pout makes it your lips as you go on your tippy toes, hooking your arms around Tom’s neck as he breathes your scent that he missed in. “I know, I missed you too,” He mumbles in your hair.
You sit on your boyfriend’s lap as the two of you go through your camera roll from past month or so since you started filming the new movie with Josh.
You tell him the stories behind the pictures as he would watch you intently, a smile on his lips at the sight of you so engrossed in it. “Oh and this one, I was sneezing so much that my eyes were becoming watery so the director decided to start filming the sad scenes,” You laugh as you recall the daisies that Josh would present to you made you highly allergic.
Tom smiles at you lovingly, thinking how lucky he was to have you. “What?” You shyly smile, feeling his stare. “Nothing, you’re just so adorable,” He admits, pulling you to his chest as you let out a small giggle as he kisses your forehead.
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Audience of One pt.3
Satoru x fem!reader x Suguru
˗ˏˋ ꒰ ♡ ꒱ ˎˊ˗
Word count: 6.5k
Series Summary: When Suguru first walked in on you and Satoru having sex, it was an accident. But he couldn't say the same about every time after that. He's under the impression that this habit of his is a secret. But you and Satoru have known this whole time and didn't plan on letting Suguru know anytime soon.
pt.3 Info: MDNI 18+, fem!reader, PiV sex, unprotected sex, voyeurism, threesome/throuple, cuck Gojo, hair pulling, morning sex, squirting, praise/degradation kink, spanking, begging, pet names (princess, baby, love, etc), established relationship w Gojo, aftercare, basically 90% porn 10% fluff, Gojo teaching Geto how to fuck you, Geto is no longer shy
pt.1 pt.2 pt.4
˚₊ · »-♡→ I know I said I'd post pt.3 yesterday, but I panicked and rewrote like half of it (oops lol). BUT- I'm much happier w this version 🛐
Also not sure if this would be a good place to end?? or if more parts would be wanted ¿ I would be more than happy to turn this into a series and I even have a pt.4 in the works, but I also don't want this to feel dragged on yk. Please lmk your thoughts because I am incapable of making my own decisions (ノ ° 益 °) ノ
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Early hours of the morning came, and the first one awake was Geto. He looked down at you and his breath caught in his throat.
You looked so peaceful.
So angelic.
He couldn't help but press a soft kiss to your forehead.
His mind wandered to last night and he smiled. Everything was perfect. The feeling of your bare body was warm and inviting, and having you pressed against him sent sparks down his spine. Geto had never felt this way before.
He could get used to this.
"Hey," a sleepy voice whispered from beside him, startling him out of his trance.
Geto turned to see a very disheveled Gojo looking at him through half closed eyes, "Hey,"
Gojo’s attention shifted to your resting figure, still curled up against Geto's chest. He couldn't help the smirk that spread across his face.
"She's really out," he whispered with a small chuckle.
"Yeah," Geto replied, "we wore her out."
"Damn right we did," Gojo smiled proudly, "I'd like to see how long it takes to wear her out next time," Geto's eyebrows raised at the mention of a 'next time.'
Seeing the surprised expression, Gojo smiled and reached over, and landed a playful punch on Geto's shoulder, "I meant it when I said you're welcome anytime- In fact, I was thinking, would you want to do this again? Not just the sex, I mean, I that part too, but like, all of it. Hanging out and stuff," he clarified, a hint of embarrassment in his voice, “It just seems like there’s good chemistry between us,” he added trying to explain his reasoning with a gesture that circled the three of you.
Geto thought for a moment, contemplating his answer.
Last night was the best night of his life. And he didn't want it to end. He wanted to be able to feel your warmth against him again and again. To be able to see your beauty, and to experience all the joy and happiness that came along with it.
The events of last night unlocked something deep within him. His desires had surpassed mere lust, and turned into something more. Something deeper.
Something genuine.
And with that revelation, Geto decided to take a leap of faith. "I'd like that," he replied, a bit of nervous enthusiasm coming out in his tone.
Smirking, Gojo nodded and moved to brush stray pieces of hair out of your sleeping face. "Great. Well, I guess we'll have to have a real conversation about this once she's up," he nodded down at you, "but for now, we should probably get some more sleep."
"Yeah," Geto nodded, a smile creeping onto his lips.
With that, the two men fell back into a comfortable slumber, their arms gently wrapped around you.
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A few hours later your eyes began to flutter open, thick with blurriness from the heavy sleep you were just in.
Once your vision cleared, you were met with the sight of Gojo's sleeping figure beside you. His hair was a mess, sticking out in every direction. The sunlight was peeking through the curtains, casting a glow on his bare skin.
Turning to your left, Geto lay fast asleep. His features were relaxed, and his mouth hung slightly open. You couldn't help but admire his beauty.
You couldn't believe how lucky you were. Laying between these gods that walked among men.
You didn't want this moment to end.
Lifting yourself slightly to yawn and stretch, you accidentally hit Geto in the face, waking him. "Oops- I’m so sorry!" you giggled and flashed him an apologetic smile.
"It’s okay, beautiful," seemingly unphased by your elbow making contact his forehead, he smiled, leaning down to press a kiss on your cheek, “Good morning,”
The gesture was unexpectedly warm and sweet. Not that Geto had never been sweet to you before, but this just felt… different. Like it carried a new weight behind it.
You smiled and leaned into the kiss, "Morning," you murmured back, your voice still laced with sleep.
Geto's heart skipped a beat at the sight of your smile. He just couldn’t get over the warmth you radiated.
You felt a hand slide up your side and rest on your waist. "And what about me?" Gojo pouted.
Turning to face him you placed a soft kiss on his lips and mumbled into it, "Hello, baby," He hummed in satisfaction and scooted in closer, not wanting to leave even the slightest gap between you.
“How did you sleep?” Geto asked while massaging your neck that was tense after the events of last night.
"Mmm, so good," you replied, letting out a small sigh as the tension left your shoulders. You could practically feel the aches melting and your muscles turning to malleable putty under his touch.
"I'm glad," he smiled, continuing to rub his thumb into the knots of your skin.
"And you?" You asked, turning to look at him.
"Wonderfully," he smiled, his hands not stopping their massage. You couldn't help the way your cheeks heated up from this simple interaction.
God, his man was truly a treasure.
Gojo watched the interaction and felt a warmth spread through his chest. He liked seeing that you brought out Geto's soft side, and he knew that you enjoyed it too. The three of you stayed like that for a few minutes, silently enjoying each other's company.
Then, Gojo let out a dramatic sigh, and broke the silence.
"Hey, so," he started, looking between you and his friend, "Suguru and I talked earlier," Your brow furrowed at the tone in his voice. He sounded nervous.
Perking up, you raised a brow at him, "Oh?" You questioned.
"Mhm, we had a very productive conversation," Gojo continued, "while you were asleep," he clarified, "and, we think that, well, we- um, the three of us should hang out. Like, outside of sex. Or during. Or after. I mean- not like a requirement, just an option, if you're comfortable," he rambled.
You blinked.
Your face twisted with confusion as you tried to process his words. "Toru, what are you talking about?" you questioned, needing clarification.
"I want to date you too," Geto cut to the chase, his voice surprisingly steady and confident, "you would be with both of us. At the same time."
You stared at him.
Your brain was blank.
You breathed out a surprised, "Oh," The thought of it was interesting and foreign, though, not unwelcome.
"Only if you're comfortable with it," Gojo quickly added, "we know it's a bit... unconventional."
"A bit?" you asked sarcastically with a small laugh.
Gojo laughed and nodded, "Okay, a lot," he admitted, "but, we talked, and we agree. We want this," he said, motioning between the three of you, "Geto has clearly developed something for you, and vice versa. And I figured what better solution than adding Suguru to our relationship?"
You sat in silence for a few moments, mulling over the situation.
"It wouldn't be weird to you?" you asked Gojo with a concerned expression, "sharing me with your best friend?"
"Not if it's Suguru," he replied without hesitation, "we know each other well, and I trust him with my life. Plus- if it was, I would have never been able to enjoy the sight of my best friend eating out the woman I love, right?" he added with a teasing smirk, referencing the events of last night.
Your eyes widened and your cheeks flushed with embarrassment, "Satoru!" you scolded.
Gojo laughed and pulled you in for a quick kiss. "It's true," he whispered against your lips.
Turning to Geto, you gave him a questioning glance, "And you're okay with this?" you asked, wanting to make sure he was certain.
"Yes," he answered without a moment of hesitation.
"You would really want this?" you questioned, "It wouldn't be weird for you?"
Geto let out a chuckle, "I wouldn't be offering if it was weird for me. I'm not going to lie, it's a little unconventional," he stated, "but, I would love the chance to be with you- even if it's not the traditional way," his confession caused a wave of butterflies to erupt in your stomach.
You thought for some time. The two men waited patiently, knowing that you would need a few minutes to process everything.
Assessments of the situation swirled in your mind. You loved Gojo and the life you had with him. And you wouldn’t want to do anything to jeopardize it. But they both seemed so certain. They said they trusted each other, and if that was the case then why shouldn't you?
And on top of that, you couldn’t deny how Geto made you feel. Last night was clearly more than a one time deal. It was deeper than just sex, it was intimate. The way he touched you and admired you all night had chills running down your spine from just thinking about it.
The more you thought about it, the more appealing the idea became.
Being able to be with both of them was a dream come true. They were both kind, generous, and made you feel like the most precious thing in the world.
"If you aren't comfortable with this-" Gojo began, but was quickly cut off.
"I want to," you said quietly, "but what if something goes wrong?"
Gojo and Geto exchanged a quick look and burst out laughing.
That was certainly not the response you were expecting when airing your worries. "What's so funny?!" You asked, a bit irritated that they were laughing at your valid concerns.
"Baby," Gojo chuckled, "have you not seen the shit we've been through together? We'll be fine.”
Crossing your arms in defense you Looked between the two of them, "But still- What if you guys get jealous, or something goes wrong and we stop talking, or- or-"
Pressing a finger to your lips, Gojo silenced your anxious ramblings, "Shh, baby," he whispered sweetly with a reassuring smile, "We've got each other's backs. Plus, I'll kick Suguru's ass if he makes you upset," he joked.
Geto laughed and nodded, "I'd do the same," he added, causing a small giggle to slip past your lips.
You gave them an unsure smile, "I know you say that nothing will happen, but what if something does?" you countered, looking between them for an answer.
Gojo took your hands in his and looked you dead in the eyes. "Nothing will go wrong," he said, his voice now serious and full of promise.
"I'll make sure of it," he stated, a fire in his eyes, "Suguru will too."
A heavy sigh escaped your lips and you turned to Geto with a silent question in your eyes. "I'm not gonna let either of us fuck this up," he affirmed, reading the concern behind your gaze.
"We want to make this work," Gojo added, "And besides, do you really think I would put the best pussy of my life at risk?" He squeezed your side, making you let out a giggle.
You gave him a playful shove, "Shut up, idiot,"
"It's true!" He laughed and caught your wrist, pulling you in and placing a kiss on your temple.
"He's right though," Geto smirked, "last night was the best experience of my life. And that’s saying a lot considering I didn’t even fuck you."
Your cheeks heated and you let out a flustered laugh, "So you're in this for the sex, is that what I'm hearing?" you teased, poking Geto in the ribs.
He caught your hand and pulled it to his lips, planting a kiss on your knuckles. "No, sweet girl, its more than that." he said, looking down at you with a tender smile, "I'm in this for you- you know that."
The way his tone softened and his eyes gleamed was enough to make you melt.
And without wasting another moment you looked between the two men and nodded, "I'm in," you stated confidently, "if the two of you are."
Both their faces lit up at your confirmation, and the smile on their faces was bright enough to blind a person.
"Hell yeah!" Gojo cheered and wrapped his arms around you, "we're gonna make this work," he said, placing kisses all over your face. Geto smiled and joined, littering kisses down your neck.
And just like that all previous worries were melted away from the tingles that rippled across your skin after each new kiss. You giggled and melted into both sets of arms that caressed and embraced you gently.
Slowly, their sweet kisses began to get more rough. More hungry.
The way their hands roamed your body and their lips nipped at your flesh sent a spark of excitement through you.
"You're gonna be all ours, aren't you, princess?" Gojo purred into your ear.
A small whimper slipped past your lips as his breath fanned your neck, sending a shiver down your spine. "Mhm," you hummed, your eyes becoming heavy with lust.
Geto's fingers traced your collarbones, moving further down and stopping just above your breast.
"And I'm gonna take such good care of you, give you everything you want," Geto promised, "you're mine too now."
His possessive words sent a jolt of heat straight to your cunt and you arched into his touch.
"Yours," you mumbled, too drunk off their affection to register what was being said.
They both let out satisfied hums.
Gojo's hands slid down your body, his fingertips grazing your nipples, before resting on your waist. "Our perfect girl," Gojo murmured and pressed a kiss to your shoulder, "you're so beautiful."
Geto's fingers dipped down into your cleavage, squeezing your breasts gently, and his lips found yours. "So obedient," he mumbled into the kiss.
You whimpered against his lips. The feeling of their hands all over your body and their praises filling your ears was intoxicating.
"Mm, fuck," Gojo groaned, grinding his erection on your ass.
Gasping into the kiss, your eyes widened and turned to him "Satoru," you whined.
"Shh, Princess," he shushed, his hands gripping your waist, "be a good girl and keep kissing Suguru while I play with you,"
Your breath hitched, but you nodded and turned back to Geto, who was looking at you with a dark lust in his eyes. And instantly, Geto's warm lips were back on yours. They felt soft and plump, like velvet pillows, and you couldn't help but melt into the sensation.
"Good girl," Gojo praised, his hands moving further down your body.
You whimpered when his hands came into contact with the bare skin of your thighs, his touch sending chills through your body.
Gojo leaned down and planted a kiss on your shoulder, then continued peppering kisses along the sensitive skin of your neck, "We're gonna keep you nice and happy, baby," Gojo promised, the vertebration of the words on your neck tickling you lightly.
Your mind was blank. All you could do was moan and let them explore your body. Geto's tongue was slowly swirling around your own. His movements were slow and gentle, taking the time to savor the feeling.
Rocking into Geto's thigh, you chased the pressure, hoping it would satiate the throbbing in your cunt.
Geto's grip tightened on your tits and he pulled back slightly, just enough to break the kiss and allow a string of spit to hang between your mouths. "This desperate already?" he smirked, his thumbs rubbing circles into the hard buds of your nipples.
"Always," Gojo smirked, "she's such a needy little slut,"
You whined and rolled your hips, the need between your thighs growing more apparent with every passing moment.
Geto's eyes flicked down to your mouth, which was parted and breathing heavier, then back up to your eyes. The sight made his cock twitch, and his gaze darkened, "Fuck, that's so hot," Geto groaned, his dick already hard. His hands moved downward to your hips, gripping to hold you still, "Be patient for us, princess."
Gojo continued his kisses along the length of your neck, his lips brushing against your skin, sending goosebumps up your arms. "She loves hearing us praise her," Gojo smirked, "she's always so desperate for any sort of validation. Drives her wild,"
The truth in his words made you whine and looked at Geto, who was staring down at you with lust-filled eyes. "Is that so?" He asked, his hands moving to cup your face.
"Yes," you breathed, leaning into his touch.
His attention turned back to Gojo, "And does she like to be degraded too?" He asked, curious, but already knew the answer.
Gojo opened his mouth to respond, but was cut off from a whimper that escaped your lips. You bit your lip, cheeks flushing with embarrassment as you avoided their eye contact.
A mischievous smirk formed on Geto's lips, "Oh?" He tilted your chin up and looked down at you, "Look at me," he demanded.
You did as instructed, your heart skipping a beat when you met his gaze.
"Tell me," he began, his thumb running over your bottom lip, "do you like being treated like a little slut?"
His question caused a rush of heat to run through your body. You could hear the blood rushing in your ears, and you could swear that your arousal was now dripping onto the sheets beneath you.
Gojo couldn't help the chuckle that slipped past his lips. Your obvious reaction to Geto's words was adorable.
"I'll take that as a yes," Geto smirked, his eyes not leaving yours as he pushed his thumb past your lips. "Although, I guess I shouldn't expect anything more from the dirty slut who would let me watch her boyfriend fuck her for months."
The humiliation that coursed through you was overwhelming, and yet, you felt more aroused than ever before. You closed your eyes and took Geto's thumb into your mouth, swirling your tongue around the digit and letting out a moan.
You were helpless to the words coming from Geto's mouth, and there was nothing you wanted more than to be completely submissive to him. It was clear to them that this new way that Geto spoke to you was making you dizzy with lust.
"Oh, you like how Suguru is talking to you right now, don’t you, princess?" Gojo smirked, watching your reactions, "He's always so polite, so gentle with you. It's a nice change, huh? Seeing him be a little mean."
You nodded and moaned around Geto's thumb, which was still resting on your tongue.
Gojo was right, you did enjoy the new change. The way Geto looked down at you with a dark glint in his eyes, his usually sweet and caring demeanor nowhere to be seen, was driving you crazy. You wanted nothing more than to be dominated by him.
To be completely and utterly destroyed by him.
"What do you think, princess? Should we have Suguru fuck you? Let him see what a dirty, slutty, cum dump, you are firsthand?" Gojo cooed, his hands roaming up and down your thighs.
You whined, and Geto withdrew his thumb, a string of saliva still connecting it to your lips. "Is that what you want?"
”Please," you begged with an embarrassing urgency, "please, please, please, let him fuck me." you turned to Gojo, who was already beginning to stroke his cock with his free hand.
"Please," you repeated, looking up at Geto with a pleading expression, "I need it, please."
"Oh, you need it, do you?" Geto cooed, "Such a pathetic little slut, begging for my cock, and you don't even know how good I can fuck you," he teased, looking down at you with a patronizing smirk.
You whimpered and looked up at him, desperation clear on your face, "Show me," you begged, "please, show me how good you can fuck me."
The corner of his mouth lifted into a smirk, "Well, since you're asking so nicely," he said, "Get on your back. Now." His demanding voice took you by surprise and you immediately followed his instructions.
You untangled your legs from his and laid back, looking up at him with wide, innocent, eyes.
"Good girl," Gojo praised, sitting beside you. He pushed your legs apart and dipped his fingers between your folds. He rubbed his hand sloppily, for his pleasure only, the goal being to collect your juices. Then, he brought it to his dick, using it to help his jerk off.
"So wet," he said, pumping his dick with your slick.
"Toru," you pleaded, arching into his touch that was no longer there.
"Shh, just sit back and let me watch Suguru fuck you, princess," Gojo soothed, his thumb running circles around his slit, mixing your wetness with his pre-cum.
The room felt like it was spinning around you, and the only thing grounding you was getting touched in the place you needed it most.
Geto positioned himself between your legs and placed his cock on your clit. You could feel the hot, throbbing, length rest on your sensitive bud and it made you shudder.
Geto's hand gripped your thigh and he spread you wider, taking in the sight before him. "God, I'm never going to get tired of that view," Geto sighed.
"Just wait until you're in her," Gojo smirked, admiring your glistening slick rub onto Geto's shaft.
He let out a hum and slid his cock between your folds, coating his dick in your wetness. You moaned, your breath hitching as the head brushed against your entrance.
Seeing how needy you were getting, Gojo moved his free hand down and spread your lips, exposing your dripping hole for Geto's viewing.
"So pretty," Geto praised, his tip prodding at your entrance.
You were soaking wet and more than ready for him, and when he slowly pushed in, a loud groan ripped through his throat as he inched deeper into your warmth.
"Oh, god, so tight," he praised, his hips pausing halfway to give you time to adjust, "so perfect."
Your hands balled into fists and you moaned loudly, the feeling of him filling you up was so overwhelming, but in the best way possible.
"Isn't she?" Gojo asked, leaning in to press kisses against your neck, "you're perfect, aren't you? The perfect little fuck toy for us, and us only- Say it."
As he continued to slowly slide in, Geto kept his eyes trained on yours, not wanting to miss a second of your reactions.
Heat rose to your cheeks under his gaze, embarrassment evident in your expression. "I- I'm," you stuttered, a small whine slipping past your lips before you could get the words out.
"Use your words," Geto commanded through clenched teeth, his grip on your thighs tightening as your cunt pulsed around him.
You whimpered and nodded, trying to collect yourself. "I- I'm a perfect fuck toy," you choked out, a mixture of craving and shame washing over you, "yours- just for the two of you,"
"Fuck- Yes, you are," Geto praised, bottoming out and giving you a few moments to adjust. You whined and clenched around him, feeling fuller than ever before.
After your muscles relaxed, you rocked lightly against Geto's cock, to show you were ready for him. Though, just that small movement had you seeing stars as his tip hit your g-spot.
Your mouth opened in a silent scream and your nails dug into the sheets, gripping tightly.
"Oh, did I find it already?" he asked patronizingly, his voice laced with sarcasm, "You must be so sensitive," You could do nothing but whimper and nod, not being able to form words.
"Fuck, do that again," Geto demanded.
You followed his instructions and rocked against him, moaning at the sensation. "Holy shit," Geto gasped, his eyes rolling back as you squeezed his cock.
Gojo watched with wide eyes, his hand slowly stroking his cock as he watched the scene unfold before him. "How does she feel?" Gojo asked with a chuckle. He already knew the answer.
Geto moaned, slowly starting to roll his hips, "Fucking heavenly," You felt a wave of satisfaction wash over you, knowing that Geto was enjoying your pussy just as much as you enjoyed his dick.
"So warm and tight," he added, picking up his pace, "I could fuck her all day,"
"Please," you whimpered, "fuck me all day,"
A satisfied smile crossed Geto's face, and without a word, he started to thrust into you at a steady pace. You gasped, feeling his cock fill you up with each push. Your walls tightened around him, trying to pull him deeper.
"Fuck," Geto groaned, "Such a greedy fucking pussy, doesn't want to let me go."
You whimpered and wrapped your legs around him, pulling him closer. His hands grabbed onto your waist and his fingers dug into the plush flesh. The room filled with the sounds of skin slapping against skin, and your moans and whimpers grew louder and louder.
"Mm, look at her," Gojo cooed, "she's so fucking desperate."
"Mhm" you breathed out nodding and looking up at Geto, who was watching your every move. He looked absolutely breathtaking. His hair was a mess, his face was flushed, and his eyes were filled with desire. The sight of him looking down at you like that made your heartbeat quicken.
"You love having my cock buried deep inside of you, don't you?" he asked.
You nodded vigorously, unable to form any words, but the way your hips met his every thrust and the sounds that came out of you told him all he needed to know.
"Oh?" Geto smirked, "You need more? Fucking impatient little slut- You need me to fuck you harder?"
"Yes, please, please, please," you begged, your head falling back against the pillow.
"Such a good girl," he praised, his hand moving to rest on your lower stomach, "such a polite little whore for my cock."
He pushed lightly onto your abdomen while fucking deep into you. The pressure from his hand was foreign and had you squirming and whimpering, biting your lip to hold in your cries of pleasure.
"Fuck, fuck, fuck, there! There!" You screamed, "Please, don't stop!"
Geto smirked and leaned forward, "Look at me," he demanded, his voice firm.
Your eyes shot open, not even realizing they had been closed. You stared up at him and his lust filled eyes, a look you had never seen before on his face. The sight made you instantly moan and your eyes began to roll back involuntarily.
"Keep your eyes on me," he commanded, emphasizing each word with a hard thrust.
Your jaw fell slack, and a strangled moan slipped past your lips as pleasure coursed through your veins. "S- sorry," you stuttered.
Gojo groaned and his fist picked up pace, jerking his dick in tandem with Geto's movements. "It's okay, baby, you're doing so good," he whispered, leaning forward and brushing the hair out of your face, "so good for us."
Geto's pace continued and the heat in the pit of your stomach began to build dangerously fast. "Fuck, Sugu- I- I-" you stuttered, struggling to form a coherent sentence.
"You're so close already, aren't you?" He cooed, his eyes not leaving yours.
You nodded, and a loud whine slipped past your lips as Geto's hips started to pick up speed. "Fuck," he groaned, "fuck, you're squeezing me so good, baby,"
"Gonna- Gonna cum," you managed to say through heavy breaths and muffled moans.
In response, the hand on your stomach pushed slightly deeper, and that's what threw you over the edge. The pressure had your toes curling and your back arching upwards followed by a strangled scream on your lips as you came hard.
Your vision went white, and a ringing filled your ears.
"Oh, fuck," Gojo groaned, watching your legs shake and your face display your ecstasy.
"Shit," Geto groaned, "keep cumming for me, baby, just like that- fuck!"
Gojo smirked and leaned back, admiring his two lovers. "God, the two of you are so fucking hot," he said, his hand working furiously to match the pace that Geto was now setting.
You could barely register what he said, too overwhelmed by the waves of pleasure crashing through your body. The warmth from deep in your core had overflowed, somehow finding its release- and soaking everything around you in the process.
Geto moaned loudly and looked down at your pussy, Gojo eyes followed, widening and jaw dropping.
"Holy shit," Gojo breathed out, "She's squirting," he said in awe, "fuck- I didn't even know she could do that."
Your juices were flowing freely, coating Geto's cock, balls, and the bed beneath you in a thick layer. It was as if a flood gate had opened and your arousal was pouring out of you.
"Oh, god, oh, god," Geto repeated, "you're squirting on my cock," he groaned and picked up his pace, fucking you through your orgasm, "so good, fuck- So fucking perfect."
Your mind was blank, all you could do was babble and moan, letting Geto fuck you as you rode out the last waves of your orgasm.
"Fuck," Geto growled, his hips began to stutter. "Go on, Suguru," Gojo urged, nearing his own climax, "cum in her."
Geto looked down at you, the glazed over expression on your face was enough to send him over the edge. With a final thrust he bottomed out and painted your walls with his seed, the sensation pulling a long moan from both of your lips.
You could feel his warmth spill into you, filling you up and coating your walls, and causing a brain numbing tingle to run up your spine.
Gojo wasn't far behind, his own cum coating his hand and abdomen. He pumped his shaft as the last few drops landed on his stomach. "Holy shit," he breathed out, leaning back and letting the orgasm wash over him.
"Fuck," Geto groaned, his head dropping to the crook of your neck. Both of you were completely spent, not even bothering to move or say a word. The only sounds in the room were the heavy breathing and racing heartbeats.
You could feel Geto's warm breath against your skin as he took a few deep breaths. You brought a hand up and gently ran it through his hair, scratching his scalp lightly.
The gesture was simple, but it made his heart melt, grounding him from the high he just experienced.
"That was fucking hot," Gojo praised, "You're both so fucking sexy. I loved seeing you two together."
"So good, my beautiful, perfect, angel," he continued, placing kisses on your forehead and cheek, "you did so well,"
You turned to him and smiled lazily, enjoying the praise. Geto looked up and admired your blissed out expression. "You look so pretty like this, sweetheart," he murmured, pressing a kiss to your cheek, "so gorgeous."
You leaned into his touch and hummed, your eyes fluttering, half lidded in tranquility.
Gojo chuckled and placed a kiss on your temple, "Don't get too comfortable, princess, we still need to clean up."
"I'm not leaving this bed," you mumbled, closing your eyes completely and nuzzling into the pillow.
"You're so spoiled," he chuckled and turned to his friend, "Help me out here, man."
"Sorry, baby," Geto apologized, kissing your nose, "he's right, we need to get you cleaned up," You groaned and nodded, accepting defeat. Geto slowly pulled out and stood up.
"Come here, my sweet, precious, girl," Gojo said, lifting you off the bed, bridal style, "Let's go take care of you."
You giggled and wrapped your arms around his neck. "M'kay," you replied, resting your head on his chest. Gojo carried you into the bathroom, and Geto followed closely behind. He sat you down on the toilet and you leaned against the wall, closing your eyes.
Once Geto entered, he turned on the bath faucet and waited for the water to warm.
"Do you wanna use a bath bomb, princess?" Gojo offered, reaching into the cabinet under the sink. "Ooh yes, please," you nodded opening your eyes with a tired smile on your lips.
A bright grin spread across Gojo's face from seeing you perk up, "Okay!" He exclaimed, grabbing one of your favorites and tossing it into the bath.
The sweet smell of citrus quickly filled the air, and the sight of the bubble bath and colorful fizzies had you feeling relaxed like never before.
Geto shut the water off and walked over to you. He knelt down and cupped your cheek, his thumb running over the soft skin. "How are you feeling, sweet girl?" He asked, a small smile on his lips.
You hummed and leaned into his touch, "Amazing," you replied.
He chuckled and kissed your forehead, "Good."
After all of the residue made its way out of you, you cleaned up and Gojo lifted you into the bath. He settled in behind you, wrapping his arms around you, and pulling you back to his chest.
"Is the temperature okay, princess?" Geto asked, sitting in the opposite side of the tub.
You hummed, closing your eyes and resting your head on Gojo's chest. "Perfect,"
"Good, we want you to be comfortable," Geto said, smiling.
"Thank you," you mumbled, snuggling into Gojo's chest.
It was a little crammed and you guys probably should have showered beforehand, but in that moment it was perfect and everything you could ever need.
The three of you had become comfortable and content.
As if that's how things had always been
Gojo was playing with the bubbles and making shapes with them on top of your head, while Geto was helping to wash the sweat off of your skin, his fingertips running gently along the curves of your body.
It felt so normal and domestic, and that's exactly what you had always wanted.
"So, how does this feel?" Gojo asked, reaching behind him to grab a loofah, "Is it weird? Being the meat in a Gojo and Geto sandwich?"
You choked on your breath and your eyes shot open, "Ew! It wasn't weird until you said that! Gross," you said, giggling and shaking your head.
"Yeah, Satoru, why'd you have to word it like that?" Geto asked, chuckling and chastising his friend.
"Oh, come on, don't be like that. It was funny!" Gojo laughed, running the loofah across your back, "Now answer the question."
"No, it doesn't feel weird," you replied, a smile on your lips, "I mean, yeah, we haven't done a lot yet, but I'm happy, and I like being with both of you."
"Yeah," Gojo agreed, "it's different, obviously, but, I'm glad it's the three of us. I love the dynamic, it feels like... home. Like the three of us were always meant to be together. Me and my two favorite people!" He threw his arms around your neck, his hands falling just above your chest.
You looked at Geto and he had the most genuine, loving smile on his face. "I couldn't agree more," he said, reaching out to take your hand in his. His hand was warm and comforting, and the way his thumb was rubbing circles into the skin had a warm tingle running up your arm.
Gojo was right, it did feel like home.
A warm, safe, comforting, home.
It was a strange situation, one that you never would have imagined yourself in. But at the same time you knew that the three of you would be able to make it work.
The three of you stayed in the bath for a little while longer, laughing, teasing, and joking, and eventually Gojo and Geto switched places. When the water began to get cold and the bubbles began to disappear, Gojo lifted you out of the bath and brought you back to the bed.
He gently laid you down and dried you off, pressing kisses all over your skin.
Geto emerged from the bathroom and watched the two of you. He could see how much Gojo cared for you, and how you trusted and loved him. It was a sight that made his heart flutter and he could only hope to have that deep of a connection with you one day.
"You're so cute," Gojo cooed, placing the towel over your head and rubbing it gently.
"Toru," you whined, the feeling tickling your scalp, "you're going to make my hair frizzy!"
"Shhh, let me enjoy this," he chuckled, moving the towel and planting a kiss on your forehead, "I love taking care of you, and seeing you so relaxed. Plus, I think your hair is adorable no matter what, and I know Sugu does too,"
Turning to Geto in the doorway, you pouted and tilted your head to Gojo, "Help me out here," you pleaded.
Geto couldn't help but smile. "He's right, sweet girl," he chuckled, walking towards the bed, "I think your hair is gorgeous no matter what," He pulled you into his chest for an embrace, but then scruffled your hair, catching you off guard.
"Hey!" You yelped, pulling away from him and trying to flatten your hair, "not you too!"
They both let out a laugh. "Sorry, baby," Geto apologized, leaning forward and pressing a kiss on the crown of your head.
"Traitor," you mumbled, earning a chuckle from Gojo and Geto.
"I'm gonna get dressed, I'll be right back," Geto said, reluctantly pulling away from the scene, "then, how about I make us a late breakfast?" You nodded and gave him a small smile.
"I knew there was a good reason to keep you around," Gojo teased, earning a slap on the shoulder from Geto before he walked off, "Ouch! Hey!"
Laughing you shook your head at Gojo's dramatic performance of pretending to be hurt by rubbing his shoulder, "I'm so wounded," he joked, flopping onto the bed beside you, "you're gonna have to kiss it better," he winked with a smirk.
"Maybe later," you giggled, giving him a peck on the cheek.
"Fine, fine," he scoffed, rolling his eyes and sitting up.
He smiled as he jumped off the bed and threw on a pair of sweatpants, "Come on, baby," he said, holding a hand out for you, "I'll pick out an outfit for you." You happily accepted and followed him over to your dresser, ready to start your day.
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Hey I saw your spider verse post on makeup, could you do one with the like the opposite effect? Like I don’t wear a lot of makeup (mostly because I am lazy lol) but maybe the Spider verse sees them with makeup for the first time?
Thanks! Have a lovely day! Xoxo
Don’t forget to eat, drink water, and get rest!!!!
seeing you with makeup for the first time
characters: miles morales (earth-1610), miguel o’hara, hobie brown, gwen stacy, pavitr prabhakar
notes: thanks for requesting and for ur kind words! ur the first one to send me a request so that’s :)) this is basically the opposite of my other post about them seeing you without makeup for the first time. so sorry if this isn’t want you wanted! i did more of a spin on this than the previous one lol #creativefreedom (not proofread sorry)
warnings: none lol
Prom was an extravagant event at Brooklyn Visions Academy, so Miles immediately knew that you were going to go all out for it. Though, he was a bit happy that you told him you didn’t want him to do some over the top promposal. Miles may be well-versed in subjects like art and physics, but his mind went blank when it came to stuff like that. Miles was really anxious about coming to pick you up, as your dad was super protective of you, but his own father gave him a pep-talk. He felt much better. When he saw you in your glamorous dress/suit, he was taken aback almost instantly. He’d never seen you in such magnificent makeup before. He felt…. bewitched. “W-wow,” He stuttered. “You look…. great.” He found himself at a loss for words. Your heart stuttered, and you felt like you’d never been happier. “You’re not too bad yourself,” You giggled. The way you smiled that day made Miles glad he got it in a picture.
Miguel knew that he shouldn’t get involved with one of his subordinates, especially if they were new, but he wanted to break the rules as soon as he saw you. You were…. beautiful, to say the least. The way your makeup perfectly complemented the color of your eyes and skin was glorious. Naturally, you were a bit shy because of your newness, so Jessica accompanied you on your first day with the permission of Miguel. He was very glad someone he was close to was helping you so he could get another good look at you. He felt a bit perverted, like a voyeur, but you were just so… alluring. The smile you radiantly gave him as you shook his hand for the first time was addicting. He wanted to know more about you, even if you were just meant to be a secretary to Jessica. Maybe it wouldn’t be too bad if he asked you out for coffee? It couldn’t be, right? He’d just have to make sure Lyla wouldn’t find out about it, as he wasn’t looking forward to being made fun of for weeks.
Hobie loved it when you attended his concerts, so when you came with makeup inspired by his own, he went wild. He found himself being much more clingy than usual, wanting to get a good look at your pretty face and hold you. It meant so much to him that you were involved in his music career… so many people in his life had dismissed it, or had told him to get a “real job”, so your support mattered so much to him. Hobie complimented you multiple times, each comment more sweet than the last, and so by the end of the night you were beaming. The firm kiss you’d given him backstage after his show had ended was something he wouldn’t trade the world for. It was so satisfying, so lovely, so…. you. He loved you. Hesitantly, Hobie asked you if he could walk you to your apartment. When you said yes, he found himself even more ecstatic than before. You were very tired after his show, and so was he, so you both took turns cleaning each others makeup off. You took your time, your hands gentle and benign. Hobie’s hands were a bit rough because of all of his calluses, so he was careful. “Thank you,” he’d whispered to you sincerely later in the night. “I love you.”
Gwen had done your makeup for you, and the way it turned out made her very happy. You looked absolutely incredible, and she almost wanted to dramatically drop her jaw to make you laugh the way she liked. The two of you were supposed to go to Miles’ state championship basketball game, so you both wanted to look nice for pictures later. Gwen spent a lot of time meticulously doing your makeup, wanting it to be exactly tailored to your taste. Any mistakes she’d made she’d immediately wipe off and start again. Excitedly, Gwen had you twirl around in your nice dress and makeup in a mini-fashion show. “You look beautiful,” she told you. Her voice was warm and genuine, her smile heartfelt. That night, after you’d gotten home, she’d kissed your soft lips tenderly, telling you how much she loved you. “Every time I look at you, you seem to get even more beautiful. I’m glad that in this universe, we’re happy together.”
Birthdays were really important to Pavitr’s family, so you wanted to go all out for it. You planned a perfect surprise party with his wonderful auntie. It was really hard to keep it a secret, but it eventually worked out. You were glad you never told him about it because of the joyous look on his face when he realized what was going on. Privately, he gave you a kind kiss and a warm hug, telling you how happy he was. The smile on his face was absolutely adorable and you wanted to squeeze him but you didn’t, not wanting to embarrass him. It didn’t take Pavitr long to compliment you on how beautiful you looked, especially with your amazing makeup. Mushy words were uttered that night, making you both cringe and smile at the same time. It was marvelous. His family had whispered to his aunt asking you when you were to be married, and she just shrugged happily. “Young love,” she muttered. It reminded her of when she was Pavitr’s age.
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Spellbound
Leon Kennedy x Fem! Witch! Reader
Word Count: 2224
Warnings: sickeningly sweet fluff
Finally finished it! This fic has been in the works for months. Mainly because of writer's block and general executive dysfunction. It's definitely happier than my last fic, but I do also have another angst fic coming. This is my second time ever posting a fic on Tumblr, so please be gentle with any critique ;w; I hope you all enjoy!! Fic under the cut!!
Although this particular piece isn't NFSW, minors DO NOT INTERACT with my content.
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You danced around the apartment you shared with your boyfriend, waving around a little stick of incense as the smoke wafted into the room. He scrunched up his nose at the smell, but stared at you affectionately from the doorway. The music you had playing only enhanced the mood as you finally set the incense in the holder before walking into the kitchen and setting it on the windowsill. You were in a good mood today, wiggling your hips as you washed the dishes, getting ready to cook dinner for the two of you.
Leon walked up behind you and wrapped his arms around your waist, nuzzling his head into the crook of your neck and inhaling the scent of your shampoo. You swayed a little more dramatically as you felt his touch, humming along to the song that carried through the house as you spun around.
"Hey, baby," he said softly, "What's got you feelin' so good this afternoon?"
"Getting some new supplies in the mail," you reply. "Bought some stuff online from a small business that I've been waiting on for a while."
"What kind of supplies?" Leon asked, confused.
"You'll see." You giggled at his cluelessness. "I'll teach you everything you need to know once it's here."
"Aw, come on, babe you're killin' me," he groaned. "Just tell me."
"Nope." You stand firm as you finish washing the dishes from earlier that day, taking one of the pots and putting it on the stove for pasta. "You'll have to wait, baby."
He finally let it go and sat down at the dining table, watching as you worked your magic. You bent down into a lower cabinet, pulling out a mason jar full of water with writing scribbled on the lid, and poured it into the pot. Leon raised an eyebrow. Why would you need to jar water? Why was it labeled? Did it have something in it? How did he not see it in the cabinet before?
“Hey…What’s up with the jar?” He asked, curiosity ever-so-present in his voice.
“Oh, this?” You held up the now empty jar. “It’s a little bit of moon water I made last full moon.”
He let your explanation sit with him for a beat, but he was still confused.
“I-…Moon water?” You let out another giggle.
“Yeah, baby. Moon water. You put water in a clear container and let it sit outside at night during whatever moon phase you wanna make it in.”
He chuckled, shaking his head as you provided more information.
“And what’s that supposed to do?” He pressed further.
“Depends on the phase.” You answered nonchalantly, turning back around to salt the water in the pot before adding in the spaghetti noodles. Leon scoffed, giving a smirk and shaking his head even when you couldn’t see him. But you could hear it in his voice.
“I call bullshit.” He started. “You really expect me to believe that you think moonlight has some magical powers? Come on, babe.”
“I know it doesn’t…not in the way you’re thinking, at least,” you replied, now sounding almost sad. “I know, it sounds crazy, doesn’t it?”
Leon immediately backtracked, taking note of how belittled you appeared to feel.
“Wait- no, I’m sorry, I…” He sighed, trying to find the words. “It’s just…an unfamiliar idea to me is all. I don’t mean to make you feel bad about it, hon.”
“Well…if you do it again I’m not gonna teach you,” you huffed, pulling cheese and a carton of heavy cream out of the fridge. You grabbed another pot, thought for a moment, and then put it back, deciding against making more dishes for yourself to clean. You turned to the windowsill, where the now spent incense lay in a pile of ash on its holder, next to the herbs you had in little flowerpots.
You plucked a few leaves of each. All for taste, as well as practising your craft. Rosemary, thyme and basil for love, oregano to strengthen the bond with your partner, garlic and parsley for protection, a little bit of onion powder for good health, salt and pepper to purify your energy, and a sprinkle of (common) sage to dispel negativity. You laid everything out on the nearby cutting board, wiping your hands and turning to the pot of noodles. The strainer was already in the sink, and you grabbed a measuring cup to fill it with some of the starchy water before dumping the rest down the drain, the noodles caught in the metal colander.
That same pot was used just moments later. You threw it back on the burner, quickly turning down the heat and throwing in just enough pasta water to cover the bottom. You were just about to pick up the block of cheese to grate it when Leon stood up from his chair, taking it from you and giving you a kiss on the cheek before grating it himself.
“Can’t have you doing everything by yourself, love.” It was your turn to scoff now.
“That was literally the only thing I had left,” you told him, eyebrows raised as you crossed your arms.
He shrugged.
“Just thought I should take care of the rest.”
“You’re an ass,” you playfully smacked his shoulder.
“You know you love me.” He looked up briefly from his task, grinning.
Soon enough, dinner was finished and the two of you curled up on the couch with full bellies, deciding to leave the dishes to be dealt with in the morning. The two of you took turns flicking through your usual channels, but nothing good was on tonight. You even flicked through some streaming networks, but to your dismay, still couldn’t find anything you hadn’t already finished or were even interested in starting.
“Hey…How about I give you a reading?” You asked, clasping your hands together and raising them to your mouth as you smiled, waiting for his response.
“First moon water, now the…card…thing?” He answered your question with another before giving a sigh. “Sure, why not.”
As soon as he gave his seemingly reluctant approval, you hopped up off the couch and quickly walked to the altar in the corner of the room. You’d done most of the decorating, seeing as Leon rarely had time (even when he was home) to worry about the aesthetics of his living space. He’d wondered what was up with all of the suns, moons and stars, the occasional seashell here and there, and just chalked it up to you having an eccentric taste– which, to be honest, wasn’t that far off. The wall above the altar was full of dried flowers, some from bouquets that Leon bought you, others foraged. If he was being honest, at first he thought they looked kind of creepy, but over time he learned to like it. He thought it was cute that you kept the flowers he bought you, figuring you putting them on display was your way of showing appreciation for his affection. Small animal bones and crystals were arranged carefully on the altar, along with candles of varying sizes and colors– some burned down a bit more than others– and little trinkets he’d brought home from missions as well.
Leon watched as you opened the drawer and pulled out a deck of tarot cards, taking in your excitement. He loved making you happy, even if it meant doing something he was a little skeptical about. He couldn’t help but crack a smile as he saw your own, affection filling his gaze as you plopped back down on the couch.
You pulled out the deck of cards and a notepad from its box, set the notebook down, and began to shuffle.
“Wait…Tarot readings tell you your past, present, and future, right?” Leon asked, bows furrowing quizzically.
“Not necessarily,” you explained. “Most readings will give you advice about a current situation. It might tell you what will happen if you don’t take that advice, though,”
“So…you’re giving me life advice…with cards?” He shot out another question. “Am I getting that right?”
“Well…yeah, pretty much.” You shrugged. “There’s different kind of readings, too. Financial readings, love readings, career readings…”
“Let’s just start with a general one, yeah?” Leon suggested, a bit nervous about being able to retain all that information.
“Alright…I’ll shuffle, you tell me when to stop, and I’ll pull a card. We’ll do that for a basic three card spread.” You picked up the pace, shuffling only a few cards around when Leon told you to pull the first card. You pulled it away from the deck and placed it on the coffee table in front of you. You shuffled again, a bit longer this time, rinse and repeat.
One by one, you turn the cards over. 
“Wait, this one’s upside down…” Leon reached over to turn the card around, but you gently pushed his hand away.
“It’s supposed to be, babe. It has a meaning that way, too.” You turned the rest of the cards over. “King of Swords in reverse…Three of Cups…and Strength.”
“King of swords, and strength, huh? I must be a pretty macho man.” He chuckled.
“Well…The King of Swords in reverse can mean that you’re…impulsive or manipulative, kind of just…irrational,” you corrected him, treading lightly on your words and trying not to upset him.
“Irrational? Manipulative? When have I ever been manipulative?” his tone was defensive.
“Shush, don’t take it so personally, babe. They’re just cards.”
“Okay…what about the other two?” Leon huffed.
“Three of Cups represents happiness or overcoming some kind of hardship,” you turn to him, awaiting another response.
“Definitely have had a few of those,” he chuckled, calming down. “Alright, and the last one?”
“Strength represents…well, strength of course, and that you’re compassionate, patient, and that you can keep a cool head under pressure. Well, most of the time, seeing as you have the King of Swords in reverse as well.”
“Huh…well I guess that’s pretty accurate,” he said with a click of his tongue. “Can…I do one for you?”
“Of course!” You answered. “I can teach you how to read them, it’ll be fun!”
“Sure, okay. What’s next, you teach me spells?” He asked jokingly.
“I can!” Leon laughed briefly at your answer, before realizing you were serious.
You pulled up a website with a list of the meanings for the cards, and shoved the three cards from the previous reading back into the deck. You then handed the deck to Leon, having seen him shuffle cards before and knowing he was fairly good at it. He made a show of it, knowing you liked to watch as his skilled fingers cut the deck and shuffled effortlessly.
“How you want me to deal ‘em, pretty girl?” He smirked, finishing up when the first card fell out of the deck.
“You can do it however you feel is best, Leon,” you said. Leon nodded, opting to just pull the next two cards from the top. “I was thinking of asking about how things would work out between us, though.”
“Do you really need cards to tell you that?” Leon asked. “I’m sure we’ll be fine. Let’s see…”
He flipped the first card over.
“The moon…What’s the moon gotta do with us?”
“Ooh…The Moon…” you repeat, your tone seeming to imply to him that the meaning was a bad one. “Complicated romance, uncertainty about love.”
Leon’s face dropped before he frantically turned over the next two cards,
“High priestess and queen of wands…”
“Keep patient, calm exterior with inner passion, intimacy…And for the Queen of Wands…an independent, cheerful and confident lover and… openness in the relationship.”
“And…What would that mean altogether?” Leon tilted is head with curiosity, his pretty blue eyes full of worry.
“Well, to me, it means that what we have is a bit hard to figure out at first, but if we stay patient with each other and communicate calmly, we’ll be okay.” You tilt your head back at him mockingly before continuing. “What’s the matter, mister? I thought you didn’t believe in this kind of stuff?”
“Pssh, I don’t” Leon scoffs. “Just…wanted to quiz you.”
“Mhm…sure, let’s go with that, love.” You shove the cards back into the deck and give him a kiss on the cheek before standing up to put the cards back on your altar. Leon goes through the collection of dvds on the shelf underneath the tv, and eventually pulls out something that looks like a shitty romcom. You raise an eyebrow at him.
“What? Don’t like it?” he asks.
“Never been a romcom kinda gal, you know that, Lee.” You reply.
“Fine, what do you wanna watch, then?”
“Let’s just play a game together or something.”
“Alright, but I’ll just watch you.”
Soon enough, after a couple hours of trying to figure out a puzzle, you finally got tired (and frustrated) enough to go to bed. You took a quick shower, changed into some pajamas, and climbed into bed next to Leon. He pulled you closer, noses brushing together as you tangled your legs with his own.
“I love you,” Leon whispered.
“Even if you think my witchy stuff is silly?” you asked, giving him puppy dog eyes.
“Of course, baby.” Leon kissed your forehead as the two of you closed your eyes and finally drifted off to sleep.
“I love you too Leon. So much."
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CHAPTER THIRTEEN || CLOSURE
SYPNOSIS (of chapter). in which you thought you were getting better.
SYPNOSIS (of series). breaking up with your first love was heartbreaking, but not as heartbreaking as getting invited to his wedding after years of not seeing him. that is, until things seem to be easier when you encounter a certain guest, who could end up being more than just a blooming friend to you.
CHARACTERS. kamisato ayato, diluc ragnvindr, and thoma (w/ gn!reader)
CONTENT. fluff/angst/no-comfort, swearing (dropped the f-bomb 3 times), mentions of violence (almost getting hit/slapped), sh1nsuke 🤢🤢🤢, mentions of yelling, mentions of threats, mentions of jeanluc, reader is an emotional person
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WORD COUNT. 6.4k words
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POST-SCRIPT. AAAAA after 3-4 weeks, i finally updated !! super sorry for the delay, ill try and see if i can publish the next one next week during school (no promises tho) 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️
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The next day after all has happened, Zhongli noticed how you seem to be… happier. 
You really weren’t lying when you told him last night that you and Diluc have been getting along pretty well, because you surely never seem to take your eyes off of your phone as you type out responses to your newly found friend the whole time in the hotel room. 
By the time you take your eyes off your phone is when you came out of the hotel room to do your activities for the day, such as eating breakfast, taking a stroll around the garden once more, visiting the convenience store once again, hanging out with a friend of yours by Good Hunter, and so on. 
The thing is, all of these had one thing in common. 
Besides a certain experience, you kept seeing a certain red-haired man to the point where it’s no longer a coincidence. Do you two just really have the same schedule or something? 
As you lined up for the buffet with your plate in hand, you were tempted to grab your phone and check if you received any message from a certain man, still smiling from enjoying your last conversation with him on the phone. 
It wasn’t until you hear someone clearing his throat behind you when you turn around from recognizing it, causing your eyes to brighten at the sight of the familiar man you’ve been talking to for the past hour earlier. 
“Diluc!” You greeted happily. 
“( Name ).” He greeted, also pleasantly surprised.
“I thought you were out for work already! Didn’t you mention you often go to Angel’s Share early?” You ask curiously. 
He nodded in response. “I do. Just not today it seems, I have something important to do today.” 
The two of you started picking your foods by the time the food is now displayed in front of you after taking a step forward, choosing what you want to eat for breakfast all the while chatting with Diluc – a major difference a few days ago when you and the man were suffering from the awkward silence between you two. 
Turns out, Diluc supposedly had a plus one, but the person wasn’t able to make it due to not having time, hence how he finds himself being alone. Today, however, is the day when the plus one visits the hotel just to greet the wedding couple and wish them well, who will be leaving tomorrow for their honeymoon. 
You’re curious to know who his plus one is, but you wouldn’t be surprised if it’s someone as important and highly regarded as him. 
Once you two finished picking your meal at the same time, you started heading towards where Zhongli is, who’s waiting for you to come at last. You paid no mind how Diluc is following you, perhaps he’s heading towards his table as well that’s in the same direction as yours. 
“You could sit with me and Zhongli if you want. You two seem to know each other back then before we visited your establishment.” You offered with a smile, carefully holding your plate in fear of dropping it. 
He shakes his head. “Oh I’ll be alright. Mr. Zhongli has visited Mondstadt back then a few times and would come by for a nice tea and brunch. Though, he tends to have his chatty friend with him whenever he does.” 
You can’t help but grin when he mentioned the chatty friend. “You mean Venti?” 
Diluc nodded. “Yes. He usually comes around to drink a lot of alcohol. It’s a miracle he didn’t get any sickness from drinking so much.” 
You visibly imagine Venti drinking lots of alcohol, causing you to laugh at the thought. “Well I’m not surprised to hear that. He seems the kind to do that.” 
Before you knew it, you’re finally at your table, causing you to stop your tracks instantly and bid Diluc goodbye before sitting on your seat. If it weren’t for you noticing Zhongli waving at you as well as Diluc slowing down his walk, you would’ve not noticed the fact that you almost walked past your table thanks to you being distracted with your conversation.
“Let’s talk again next time. Enjoy your meal, Diluc.” You said as you watched Diluc giving you an acknowledged nod before walking away to where his table is. 
By the time Diluc is long far away, Zhongli decides to speak up after taking a sip of his tea. “You know, I was starting to think you were too busy being indecisive on your food, but I suppose I was wrong.” He said with amusement. 
You chuckled, picking up your eating utensils. “Consider yourself lucky that I wasn’t in the mood to eat seafood, lest I decide to tease you with it.” 
You feel satisfied seeing the cringe look on his face, grinning to yourself as you take a bite of your food. 
After eating breakfast, you and Zhongli went back to your hotel room and got ready for your first activity. While your friend is getting ready to go somewhere, you decided to go visit the convenience store to buy some snacks. 
You wanted to try something new this time, so you decided to choose snacks that are from Mondstadt instead of Liyue or Inazuma. Of course, you wouldn’t forget the ones Zhongli wanted, particularly another certain drink. 
“It’s a non-alcoholic drink called Fruits of the Festival.” He says as he zips his bag that contains the things he needed. “Venti recommended that we drink some now that there are a lot of them in stock for the celebration of the upcoming Weinlesefest festival.” 
With that in mind, perhaps you should’ve taken into consideration that the drink would possibly be out of stock soon , because by the time you encounter the aisle that supposedly contains the Fruits of the Festival, there was only one bottle left.
Just as you’re about to take the bottle, you didn’t notice how someone else was reaching out to it as well, causing your hand to touch his. 
Surprised, you look at the person who’s getting the same item as you, only to be even more surprised when you realize who it is. 
“...Diluc?” 
“( Name )?” 
You can’t help but let out a laugh, not believing that you saw your friend again coincidentally. “Oh wow, I didn’t expect to see you here! Are you trying to get this one?” You asked, gesturing to the drink you’re still touching. 
He hums in agreement. “Don’t worry, I could always get the other one.” He said, about to let go until you immediately let go of it. 
“Ah no, no, no! It’s better if you take this one since it’s the last one. Consider it a payment for letting me have the grape juice last time.” You said with a laugh, gesturing to the man to take the drink.
He shakes his head, letting go of the drink. “It’s fine, you can take it. I wouldn’t want you to miss out tasting something such as the Fruits of the Festival.”
You refuse to get the drink. “Oh come on, it’s better if you’re the one who’ll get this.” 
“No, no. It’s fine.” 
“Just get it, Diluc.” 
“I prefer you getting it.”
“No you–”
Suddenly, someone else takes the drink in front of the two of you, causing you to flinch in surprise. 
“Brother Albedo! Is this blue drink the one you’re talking about?” A little girl with a red dress says before running towards where her brother is with the drink in hand, leaving you and Diluc stunned. 
“...”
“...”
You can’t help but laugh. “Oh man, this reminds me of what happened back then.” You said, remembering the way you and Diluc fell into the same situation and kept insisting on who’s taking the drink.
His lips twitch upward. “Likewise. We really have come a long way after that.” 
You nodded in agreement with a smile. “We have. Though it’s really a shame none of us got the drink. I’m sure they’ll restock soon.” 
“We can visit tomorrow if you’d like.” Diluc offers. “I’m sure my plus one will be asking to go visit the store to buy some together, you can join us.” 
You shake your head. “Ah, no need! I wouldn’t want to bother you catching up with whoever your plus one is. I’m sure I’ll eventually be able to try it when I hang out with my friend later.” 
He nods in understanding. “Very well then. I hope you’ll enjoy the drink. If you somehow weren’t able to drink it, you could always visit Angel’s Share. It’ll be available today or tomorrow.” 
Your eyes brighten, remembering the delightful establishment. Now that you think about it, you do miss their drinks there – so it wouldn’t exactly hurt to go there before you and Zhongli leave to the airport. “Alright, I’ll keep that in mind. Thanks again, Diluc.” 
“See you next time, ( Name ).” 
Then you two parted ways, unaware that next time is very much later. 
After coming back to the hotel from the convenience store, you were itching to go visit the garden after passing by the entrance. Perhaps it wouldn’t hurt to wait there for your friend instead of here when it’s time for you two to hang out.
Which is what led you to immediately get ready for your hangout once you finished unpacking the things you bought from the store.
“How do I look?�� You ask Zhongli as you come out from the bathroom, now fully dressed for your brunch. “Do I look alright?” 
You watched as your friend looked away from his book, looking at your outfit carefully before nodding in confirmation with a smile. “Yes, you look great.” 
You sigh in relief, grabbing your bag from your bed to start packing up your things. “That’s good. What will you be doing while I’m gone?” 
Zhongli shrugs in response. “I don’t have any plans for today, but a walk around the garden would be nice later.” 
“Alright. I’ll be back in a while.” You said, checking your phone for any messages (from a certain man) before putting it inside your bag. 
“Have fun, ( Name ). Don’t forget to tell Diluc I said hi.” He said with a chuckle, remembering what you told him about the wine tycoon today. 
Your mouth opens agape. “Wow– Alright, whatever. Have fun too, Zhongli.” 
As you zip your bag closed after getting all the things you need, you immediately head towards the door. Maybe I should try taking pictures of some of the scenery, You thought to yourself. 
Fortunately the trip to the garden didn’t take long, and by the time you entered the hotel’s beautiful garden, you delightfully inhaled the fresh air. Thank Celestia it’s a good day today, you thought, looking around your surroundings. 
As you walk around the area trying to find a place to sit on, you bring out your phone to take a few pictures. You were so fascinated with how each flower looked amazing in the pictures you took – with the lightning and atmosphere bringing ethereal energy to your pictures.
While admiring the pictures you took, you didn’t notice a person walking towards the same direction as you, causing you to accidentally bump into them. 
“Ah, so sorry!” You said with a yelp, maintaining your balance. “I didn’t mean to bump into you–” Your eyes widens when you realize who you bump into. 
“The apologies are all mine, I should’ve watched where I was goin–” The red-haired man’s words slowly trail off when he hears your voice, now realizing who’s in front of him.
“..Diluc?” 
“( Name )?” 
You let out a laugh once more. “Oh wow, I can’t believe this! I’m starting to think this isn’t a coincidence now – since when have you started visiting the garden?” 
“Just now. I wanted to see what it looks like during the daytime. What brings you here as well?” 
“Ah, I wanted to take a stroll around the garden while waiting for my friend to come and pick me up so we can go have brunch. This place is really beautiful, isn’t it?” You replied, keeping your phone aside. 
He hums in agreement. “It is.” 
You then thought of something. “Wanna walk around the place together while I’m waiting for my friend?” You asked. 
“I don’t mind.” He said with a nod. 
And so, you two continued where you left off from last night in the garden, talking about Weinlesefest as you wait for your friend to come. 
Throughout the stroll, Diluc explained to you all the things you needed to know about the upcoming festival. Apparently, the Weinlesefest festival is more about making new wine as they invite their Archon to drink with everyone. So it makes sense that someone like Diluc, whose entire business and establishment is famous for the amazing wine, is currently thinking of something that could make good wine.
He also explained about what you could do if you participate in the festival, particularly visit Springvale and explore around the place since it’s where the festival will be held. Ah, just hearing all the things you could do and eat made you want to consider extending your stay, but alas, you think one week in one of your favorite regions is enough for you. Besides, even if you decide to extend your stay, only Celestia knows what would happen to you once you’re back to work. 
While you converse with your friend, you couldn’t help but notice the way he looks as though there’s something in his mind. You didn’t find the guts to ask him though, thinking you’re meddling into his business if you do so. Still, you’re a bit concerned that something bad happened and you want to at least help – it’s the least you can do for everything he did for you. 
Before you could bring up and ask what’s on his mind, you hear someone calling out your name. 
“ ( Name )! Over here!” Your eyes light up when you hear the familiar voice of your friend, causing you and Diluc to turn around and look at the person who’s calling you. 
“Thoma, there you are!” You greeted, walking towards the blonde-haired man who’s also walking towards you. “And here I thought you weren’t gonna show up any time soon, what took you so long?” 
Thoma spreads his arms wide as you give him a hug. “Aw man, I’m sorry for being late! I was busy helping Ayato out with preparing for his next trip, I didn’t notice that I was about to be late.” He explains. The two of you quickly separate each other from your hug.
He looks at where Diluc is, causing him to stand up straight and offer the tycoon his hand. “Hello! You must be the infamous Diluc Ragnvindr. A pleasure to meet you!” He says with a smile. 
Diluc didn’t hesitate to shake Thoma’s hand, giving him an acknowledged nod. “Likewise. I would like to congratulate you for your efforts in this wedding, it’s truly amazing.” 
The blonde-haired man lets out a bashful laugh. “Oh you’re too kind, Mr. Ragnvindr! I hope I wasn’t bothering you two, did I?” 
You hesitantly look at Diluc, who remains the same expression as always, before looking back at your friend with a smile. “Ah not really. We were just talking about the Weinlesefest festival until we heard you.” 
“That’s good to hear. I’m a bit disappointed that I won't be able to experience the festival though.” Thoma lets out a sigh. “Oh well, there’s nothing we can do about it. Mind if I take ( Name ) away, Mr. Ragnvindr?” 
Diluc nodded in response. “Of course since that’s what they’re here for. I’ll see you next time once again, ( Name ).” 
You gave the red-haired man a grateful smile. “See you next time, Diluc. It was fun talking to you!” 
The purpose of your brunch with Thoma is simple. Catch up with one another, talk about the things you’ve missed in Inazuma while you talk about the things he missed in your trip. 
So why, why do you feel so bothered? 
Despite being able to listen to your dear friend and keep up with your conversation, your mind lingers on Diluc. You’re still worried about how he seems to be out of it back in the garden – is it perhaps because of how he needs to think of a new wine? 
“You know, I’m glad you and Ayato had spoken to one another about what happened back then.” Thoma confesses, causing you to be taken back by surprise. “I hope you won’t be offended with what I have to say but.. You look happier than before.” 
You raise your eyebrows from his words. Happier? 
“I… I didn’t notice that.” You replied, letting out a small laugh. “Am I really that happy because of how me and Ayato have resolved?” 
Thoma lets out a small laugh as well. “Well, that’s just my guess. Did something else happen that made you happier than that?” He asks. 
You took a second to think about it. It’s true that ever since you and Ayato have made up, everything's been going a bit well for you, but then again, it’s sort of weird how you’re a lot happier about it than normal. 
Is it… really just because of that? 
Seeing how you hesitated, Thoma’s eyes slightly widened in surprise. “Wait, did something actually happen?” 
You look away from Thoma, a bit flustered. “I-I really don’t know either!” 
“Really?”
“Yeah!” 
“Then… It’s not about someone, is it?” 
You begin to scratch the back of your head. “Well… I did become friends with Diluc…? That’s the only thing that happened besides me and Ayato talking each other out about what happened.” You said, looking at your friend while you fiddled with your fingers. “He’s fun to talk to, I’ll admit. I had a lot of fun for the past few days thanks to him.” 
The blonde haired man nods in agreement. “I can tell. Every time I look at you during the bachelor and reception, you look like you’re having fun talking to him,” He then lets out a laugh. “It honestly reminded me of back then when you and Ayato were still pining for each other.” 
You look at him in confusion, still smiling. “Huh? What do you mean?” 
“Well for starters, it’s the way you’re looking and talking to him. You always pay attention to him and everything he says that you don’t focus on eating your food or your surroundings much — I was able to see you while I was hosting the bachelor party.” He explains. “...Of course, I’m sure you don’t see Mr. Ragnvindr that way though, right?” 
You slowly glance down at your food, processing his words carefully. 
…Huh. 
You didn’t notice how Thoma’s face slightly fell from how you didn’t answer his question. “...You don’t see him that way, right?” He repeats. 
You want to answer yes, but something is holding you back. You don’t understand, you don’t really see Diluc that way right? You two are just friends – and yes, there were some moments between you two whereas your new friend made you feel… things – but that’s normal, right?
This feeling… Isn’t surely the same as what you felt towards Ayato back then, is it?
Then again… When was the last time you had fallen in love? 
You wipe your now sweaty palms on your lap, starting to feel a bit conflicted from your thoughts and feelings. Even if you are in love with him, how could you even deal with it? How can you even face him knowing your feelings? What if you end up being heartbroken? 
But if you aren’t in love with him, why does that make you feel.. Unsatisfied? 
You can’t help but think about him, and you realize you’ve always been thinking about him for the past few days. He makes you happy obviously, there’s never a dull moment with him besides when you two first interacted with one another, and he’s understanding and gentle. The gentle look he gives you as he respectfully treats you well makes you feel… something.
He also treats you equally and always manage to get along with you despite your differences to one another. Not to mention how you always smile whenever you think of him, something that Zhongli had pointed out one time — and how you couldn’t help but always get excited at the thought of what’s to come for you and Diluc the next day—
Oh.
Oh.
Meanwhile, Thoma tries to think of a way to change topics. “It’s alright if you’re unsure, ( Name ).”
“No, no, it’s fine.” You quickly reassured your friend. “I just.. Didn’t realize it until you pointed it out.” 
“So.. you do love him, do you?” 
You stayed silent for a few seconds, unsure how to break it to him. “...He makes me feel things no one has made me feel for a long time.” 
“…Does he make you happy?”
You nodded in response. “He makes me the happiest I can be.” He made me realize there’s always a chance, a chance to love. You thought.
Thoma hums in understanding. “I see. Then I hope you get something good from rhat.” 
You smile gratefully. “Thank you. Though, I feel bad our conversation went this way, we were just laughing a few minutes ago.” 
He quickly lets out a small laugh. “Oh it’s no problem. At least you found something you didn’t know, right?” 
You nodded. “Yeah, thanks again, Thoma.” 
“Anything for you, ( Name ).” 
You decided to try and change the topic, clearing your throat. “Uh, anyways, wanna share Good Hunter’s newest dessert together?” 
Thoma nods with a smile. “Fine, but you better not finish everything in one go.” 
“Hey!” 
It took perhaps another hour before you and Thoma decided to get the bill and get out of the restaurant. Unfortunately, your friend won’t be able to join you in going back inside Goth Grand Hotel once he drops you off, telling you how he has some things to do for Ayato and Chisato before they go off to their honeymoon destination. 
As you enter the hotel lobby, you can’t help but think back about what happened during your brunch with Thoma. What will happen between you and Diluc now? Will you still act the same as before, aware that your feelings for him are possibly more than platonic?
While thinking, you didn’t notice someone behind you heading towards you until you felt them harshly gripping onto one of your shoulders.
You turn around, wondering who on Earth would be so rude to do such a thing, only for your eyes to widen when you realize who it is. 
“Good afternoon, Mx. ( Last Name ).” Shinsuke greeted you with a smile that’s obviously fake. “I apologize for bothering you on this fine day,” A lie, “but I must request you to come with me somewhere more private.” 
You hesitated for a moment, knowing the risk if you said yes. But even so, who’s to say what could happen if you turn down his request? 
You look around the area, trying to look for someone who can notice your troubled situation and help you, only to unfortunately find no one around. If only you could’ve convinced Thoma to escort you back to your hotel room…
“...I suppose I could spare some time for a chat.” You said, trying to act calm. 
You suddenly feel an eerie presence looming behind you, causing you to glance at your back and see a few bodyguards standing behind you – as if to prevent you from running away. Unlike the ones who were stationed for the wedding events, these particular guards were foreign, with strange but somewhat familiar symbols on their brooches. You could tell they’re not like the bodyguards you’ve seen.
“Perfect.” Shinsuke comments, and you start to regret accepting his offer. “Come with me.” 
Without letting you reply at all, the man turns and starts walking, causing the bodyguards behind you to shove you in order for you to follow, leaving you no choice but to oblige. 
On your way, you hoped that you would at least encounter one of your friends, frantically glancing around the hotel lobby looking for a familiar face. Unfortunately, you finally arrived at what you assume is a private room. 
You’re going to be alone with Shinsuke and these scary bodyguards. 
“Before we can go in, I have one more thing to request of you.” Shinsuke spoke up before he could open the door. “Take your bag away and give it to one of the guards.” 
Your eyes widens, hesitantly looking at the bodyguards behind you, who all remain unfazed and emotionless. Slowly, you take out your bag from your body and pass it to one of the guards. 
“Don’t worry, they won’t open your bag and look through your things if that’s what you’re worried about. We just need to make sure you won't try to... record anything and break our privacy.” Shinsuke said in a nice tone, as if that’s enough to reassure you in this situation. “Let’s go inside now.”
You feel fear crawling up on your spine as you enter the room, unsure of what’s going to happen to you. 
The room is a conference room, with multiple chairs surrounding one long table as one of them is situated by the end of it; you assume that chair is where he’ll be seated. 
“Go sit down here.” He says, pulling back a seat that’s right in the middle. “We have a few things to talk about, it won’t be long, don’t worry.” 
Swallowing down the lump in your throat, you carefully went to where the seat is, trying to contain your frantic breathing in order to hide your fear. The bodyguards that were following you both are situated outside.
By the time you sit down is when Shinsuke starts talking, not sitting down on a chair. “Now that we’re in a more private area, let’s start talking, shall we?” 
You nodded slowly. “..Is there a problem, Mr. Hiiragi?” You ask carefully.
He laughs, starting to walk slowly around you. “Straight to the point, I like that.” He comments. “Yes, there is a problem, Mx. ( Last Name ). I'm sure you remember our conversation yesterday.” 
Your breath hitches; he proceeds to explain more. “You see, this wedding is a very precious event to the Hiiragi Clan. Everyone thinks the lovely couple is perfect like straight out of a fairytale, so I like to keep it that way.” You watch as he brushes one of the chairs as he walks by. Did he find out about you and Ayato? 
“So when someone reported to me that they caught sight of you walking back inside the bachelor party venue together with the bride – who didn’t bother hiding the fact that she was crying – I have to make sure all’s well.” He adds. 
His eyes then narrow. “I hope you understand where I’m coming from, and I fear that you might take the opportunity to taint the Hiiragi name and accuse that Chisato is unhappily married to Kamisato Ayato.” 
You shook your head frantically. “N-No, I wouldn’t dare to do such a thing to my friends.” 
“How should I know if you’re telling the truth? And before I knew it, the media would talk about how Chisato had unwillingly married the CEO of the Yashiro Company because of you and your schemes!” 
“I am telling the truth, Mr. Hiiragi! I wish nothing but happiness for the couple.” 
“As if that’s enough to do so.” He lets out a “tsk”, glaring down at you. “I have no choice but to get rid of you. Who knows when you will eventually risk tearing down my reputation!” 
You gasp aloud, immediately standing up from your seat. “Get rid of me?! But Mr. Hiiragi, that’s too much! I haven’t done anything ever since the bachelor party happened–”
“You dare to raise your voice on me!? Did you forget your place, or shall I remind you?!” He exclaims. You panic when he suddenly storms towards you, his hand slowly raises up to hit you. 
Suddenly, the door opens, causing the man to stop himself from hitting you and look at the intruder. 
“Was I interrupting something?”  
Your eyes brighten when you recognize the person’s voice, and you look at the intruder who’s standing by the doorway. 
“O-Oh, Mr. Ragnvindr!” Shinsuke spoke, his tone is now nice and kind unlike a few seconds ago. “What a lovely surprise. I was just having a special meeting with Mx. ( Last Name ) regarding the wedding–”
“I’m here to talk about your pesky bodyguards who aren’t doing their job right” Diluc spoke, his voice dark and cold – a big comparison to his gentle tone when he talks to you. “I was just passing by when they suddenly confronted me and dared to lay a hand on me for no reason.” 
You saw the way Shinsuke’s eyes widened, his eyebrows furrowing. “What?! How unprofessional of them! Where are they now?” 
Diluc opens the door wide. “Feel free to go check on them. I had to defend myself since they tried to fight me. Had this happened to someone else, I fear an innocent person would get hurt by their recklessness.” He scolded Shinsuke, who hesitated from his offer to check on the bodyguards. 
The elder man glances at you, causing you to freeze up from his glare. “This isn’t over yet.” He mouths before looking back at the red-haired man. “I apologize sincerely on behalf of my bodyguards. I’ll make sure it won’t happen ever again.” 
“Good. Now leave.” 
Begrudgingly, Shinsuke heads out from the conference room. By the time the CEO is out of your sight, Diluc looks in your direction.
You feel your shoulders starting to relax. “Diluc.”
His eyes softened. “( Name ).” He then gestures to you to come with him. “Come with me. Let’s get you out of here.” 
When you come out of the conference room with Diluc being by your side, you’re surprised to see the sight of Shinsuke standing over the bodyguards on the ground, some groaning out in pain while some were out cold. Just what did Diluc do to them? 
You dare not to question it, you’re just grateful that he saved you from Shinsuke. 
As soon as you two are somewhere where most people don’t come to in the lobby, you let out a breath you didn’t know you’re holding. 
“Are you alright?” Diluc asks worryingly, giving you your bag you didn’t know he was holding. “What happened back there?” 
You slowly grab your bag from him, avoiding his gaze. “I… I don’t know.. He just took me to that room and threatened me for something that happened in the bachelor party. I wouldn’t dare to do that to my friends.” You clench your teeth at the audacity the cruel CEO has. “I’m just grateful you were able to come by before something happened. How did you know I was there?” 
“I saw one of the guards holding your bag.” He answers honestly. “I recognized it was the one you were carrying when we were taking a stroll around the garden, so I had to investigate. Did they hurt you?” 
You shook your head. “Mr. Hiiragi was about to, but you made it in time before he could hurt me.” 
Diluc’s eyes slightly widened, before quickly narrowing his eyes at the thought that someone would dare to hurt you. “How dare he.. I knew he wasn’t good news.” 
“It’s fine… None of us could’ve predicted he would do something like this.” You mumbled. It was technically a lie, you knew someone like Shinsuke would do this, but you didn’t want your friend to be worried and angry. “Thank you for your help, Diluc. I owe you a lot.” 
“Anything for you.” He replied. He suddenly puts a hand on your shoulder in an attempt to comfort you, causing your heart to start beating fast while your cheeks begin to warm up from his words and gestures.  “You don’t owe me anything. Just… be more careful, I don’t want you to get hurt by someone as cruel and despicable as him.” 
You nodded slowly, your mouth twitching upwards. “I’ll try.” 
“Were you heading towards your room?” He asks, and you hum softly in response. “I could escort you back there if you’d like. Just in case Mr. Hiiragi dares to come to you again.” 
You shook your head. “Oh I don’t want to bother you. I think I can go back on my own.” 
“I insist. It would hurt me if something bad happens to you again when I could’ve helped you.” He insists. “Come.” 
“...Thank you again, Diluc.” You spoke softly before the two of you started heading towards the elevator area that’s across the hotel lobby from where you are.
The two of you didn’t say a word to one another while you’re walking, but you didn’t mind. You were still shaken up by what happened. Who knows when Shinsuke will try to bother you again? What if he comes to Liyue and ruins your life? 
“Will you be alright, ( Name )?” He suddenly asks, causing your worrisome thoughts to fade away from his voice. 
Before you could say anything, someone suddenly called Diluc’s name. 
“Diluc?” 
You look around the area to look for the person who was calling your friend, spotting a woman standing not too far away from where you and Diluc are with her eyes brightening. 
“There you are! I was looking around for you.” She spoke, walking towards you two with a smile on her face. “Did you just get out of the hotel room?” 
You can’t help but admire the woman who’s now standing in front of you two. She’s quite beautiful, you admit. Is she perhaps a friend of Diluc? Or an acquaintance of his in the business world? 
Or… Is she his plus one? 
Diluc shakes his head. “No, I just happened to come across a friend of mine and got distracted. Did you wait for too long?” 
The woman shakes her head as well, smiling reassuringly. “Ah no, don’t worry. I just entered the hotel.” She then looks at you. “Hello, what’s your name?” She asks you politely, causing your eyes to widen a bit in surprise. 
“Oh uhm.. My name is ( Name ) ( Last Name ). It’s a pleasure to meet you, Ms…?” 
“You can call me Jean. Thank you for keeping Diluc company while I was gone. I feel bad that I wasn’t able to attend the wedding.” Jean said. 
Ah, so she is his plus one. 
You try to ignore a strange feeling bubbling in your chest. “It’s no problem, I’m glad I’m friends with someone like Diluc. I had a lot of fun and learned a lot more about Mondstadt thanks to him.” 
Jean giggles, a tune that’s so sweet in your ears. “I’m glad my fiancé made a friend. I hope I’ll get to know you more, ( Name ).”
You felt like your heart dropped when you heard what Jean called Diluc, your face almost fell. 
Fiancé? 
“...O-Oh, you guys are engaged?” You asked, stunned from your realization. 
Jean instantly covers her mouth. “Oh, my bad.” 
“It’s alright, Jean.” Diluc reassures her, you saw the way he looks at her. It’s different than the way he looks at you. “I was meaning to invite them to the wedding before they leave for Liyue.” 
Jean sighs in relief, then looks at you with an apologetic smile. “I apologize for the shock. But yes, me and Diluc are set to be married in December. We haven’t announced our engagement to the public yet so we’d appreciate it if you could keep it a secret until it’s announced. I’ll make sure to give you an invitation tomorrow if that’s fine with you!” 
You felt sick, swallowing the sour taste of heartbreak in your throat. “Of course! I’m honored I’m invited to your wedding. Congratulations on your engagement.” 
You’re too caught up with the sudden news that you didn’t notice the way Diluc looks at you in concern.
Jean didn’t notice either, still smiling happily. “Great, I hope we’ll talk again next time. I’m afraid Diluc and I have to go now to meet Mr. and Mrs. Kamisato before they leave. I hope you’ll enjoy your stay in Mondstadt until you leave! Shall we, Diluc?” 
The red-haired man hesitantly looks at you, and you remembered how he was supposed to escort you. You feel selfish for wanting him to go with you, but you knew your place. 
“Go.” You mouth to Diluc with a reassuringly small smile, despite your heart wanting him to stay. “I’ll see you two next time. It’s nice to meet you as well, Jean.”
“...See you next time, ( Name ).” Diluc spoke up before walking towards Jean. 
Without another word, you turn away and walk back to where you’re supposed to be going. Away from Shinsuke, from your heartbreak, 
And away from Diluc. Your first love for the first time in 4 years. 
You tried your best to hold onto your facade that everything’s normal and okay as you’re on your way back to the hotel room rushedly, your heart racing and lips shaking from what just happened. 
You aren’t sure if you were overwhelmed by what happened between you and Shinsuke, or from the unrequited love between you and Diluc. 
You should’ve known he wouldn’t be single. You should’ve known he was taken by someone as beautiful and amazing as Jean. You should’ve remained oblivious to your feelings towards him,
You should’ve known he would never see you that way.
By the time you enter the room and close the door behind you, you knelt down on the ground and let out a sob, dropping your bag as you cover your face with your hands. 
Fuck, fuck, fuck! 
Everything hurts. Everything is too much. You feel like you’re being burned inside as your heart aches deeply. You feel like you want to jump off a cliff and land in an ocean, never to be seen again. Why did you had to find out you’re in love when you found out your love is unrequited? Why is this happening to you? What did you do in your past life to deserve such cruelty? 
You were so busy crying that you didn’t notice Zhongli walking towards you in concern. Words didn’t exchange between you two, but your friend knew what to do. He always comforts you whenever you cry about Ayato after drinking too much back then, reassuring you that you’ll eventually move on someday. 
He kneels down beside you, wrapping an arm around your shoulder comfortingly. You didn’t hesitate to lean your head on his shoulder as a result, continuing to let out your wails and tears. 
“I fell in love, but he… He belongs to another. Why does this always happen to me?” You sobbed. 
Zhongli slowly pulls you closer to him. “I do not know.”
You let out another sob, closing your eyes shut. “It hurts.” 
He closes his eyes as well, his heart aches at the sound of your cries. “I know.” 
That day, you didn’t look at your phone anymore to see if he sent you a message. Spending the rest of your time engulfed in heartbreak as your dearest friend comforts you. 
Just when you thought you were willing to fall in love, that chance was once again out of your reach.
It’s true he made you realize there’s always a chance, a chance to love.
Just not a chance to love him.
Somewhere by the hotel’s parking lot, someone is going through the same thing as you.
Thoma leans against the steering wheel of his car, exhaling deeply as he closes his eyes.
He knew he’d never have the chance to win your heart, yet it still hurts to think that you’re now in love with someone else. Don’t get him wrong, he’s truly happy for you — especially knowing that you have never bothered trying to give love a chance again and never had a date with anyone since the break up.
He just wished it was him you had fallen in love with, even though it sounds as impossible as going to outer space in this life.
But nevertheless, it wasn’t the fact that his love for you stayed strong and you still see him as just a friend—
It was the fact that you’re in love with a man who’s out of your reach.
Thoma didn’t know what to think when he learned you love Diluc. He wanted to be happy for you — he knows the man has a good heart after hearing so many good things about him — but he knew you’re going to be heartbroken when you learned about his secret engagement with one of the most powerful and well-respected women in Mondstadt.
There’s nothing he can do about it. He can only hope you’d get through the same pain you felt back then.
Thoma lets out a sigh, leaning back up from the steering wheel.
Even if he cannot provide it, the blonde-haired man just wished that someday, you’d love someone who loves you too, with nothing that can stop you both,
Unlike the men you fell in love with.
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DAN’S NOTES
(1) diluc isn’t leading reader on nor was he flirting with them. chapter 14 will explain his side as well as his feelings towards reader. (see my response to this ask here for more details)
(2) i understand if you’re willing to drop the series, but it’s better if you keep it to yourself if you intend to insult this series or me. if you’re planning to send ask about the problem of this chapter, make sure to read my responses regarding asks about this situation because i dont really want to repeat myself again.
(3) i apologize for the disappointment if you expected reader to end up with diluc as well as for not adding it in the warnings about jeanluc being mentioned — i made another version of this storyline where they do end up together, which is versadies’s version ( look at the links ) to make it up to you guys :>>
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callmemrskenway · 2 years
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(This is my second request of the same ask because i forgot to request it to be headcanons in the first sorry)
So i read your posts on how the LMK characters would react if the reader was in an isekai scenario and i loved it. It did make me wonder how you think the same characters would react if the reader decided they wanted to stay? Maybe the reader feels guilty but this is the first place they’ve been truly happy in a long time and don’t have many people caring about them back at home. Kind of a “What if what should be my home doesn’t sound like home anymore?” Situation. Whether you write about this or not I want you to know I loved your writing :)
OKAY SO I AM OBSESSED WITH THIS REQUEST SO I AM EXCITED BC I DEFINETLY WANTED TO DO A FOLLOW UP WITH THIS REQUEST. However, I sadly kinda lost motivation to write for Spider Queen and Red Son so I might just post theirs separately a little longer down the line!
Qí Xiǎotiān/MK:
MK never broke his promise to you, even after falling in love with you. He was easily distracted but he always came through. No matter how many false leads he followed, no matter how hopeless it was starting to look, he never gave up because it was for you. Even if it meant giving you up, he knew it'd be too selfish of him to not keep his word no matter how badly he wanted to keep you here. Your happiness is was important to him.
So when he found out about a portal that was created by using old and ancient magic back before the days of even Monkey King, he knew he had to get ready to say goodbye. Even now as he stood behind you with teary eyes trying to hide them as you stood in front of the portal that only opened every insane amount of years, it was just hard to accept that this might be the last time he sees you. At least he'd always have the memories you two made.
"No." He hears you say.
MK furrowed his brows and looked at you, puzzled.
"No? What do you mean 'no'?" He frowned, a selfish hope in his heart but it was too good to be true, "(Y/n), we don't know how long that portal is gonna stay open for! This could be your last chance, if you don't go right now, you'll be here forever-"
He was cut off when you ran and hugged him, your arms around his waist and your face in the crook of his neck.
"You mean, I'll be with you, forever." You corrected, your voice sounded like you were also close to tears. MK was stunned for a moment but then melted in your embrace like he always did and hugged you back but his eyes were still on the portal: "...But...this is your only chance for you to go home."
Moving your arms away from his waist, you cupped his face in your hands and stared into his eyes with your (e/c) ones, tears began to firm but not out of sadness. Out of love, pure tender love that made his knees weak and his heart race just as fast when he first realized he was falling for you.
"MK, I'm already home when I'm with you." You confessed, bringing his lips to yours and kissing him.
Kissing you back with nothing short of happiness, he hugged you by the waist and lifted you into the air to spin you, his head resting on your chest and holding onto you as tight as possible. Never wanting to let you go.
Headcanons:
- Okay so after you guys get away from the place where the portal was, everyone at Pigsy's was so surprised but but immediately became happy once they saw you.
- Sandy hugged you and nearly started bawling his eyes out. Pigsy acted like he wasn't all that happy but he gives you the dad-est hug ever. Tang claimed that he knew you were gonna come back but, GOD, HE WAS HE SO RELIEVED HE WAS RIGHT AND HE HUGS YOU AND TELLS YOU NEVER TO DO THAT AGAIN. Mei just squeals and joins the group hug happy that her other bestie isn't gonna leave her!
- But no one is more happier than MK, who hasn't let go of you the entire night. His hand always holding yours and if he isn't holding it, he's got a hand around your waist.
- He can't believe that you chose to stay with him but he isn't complaining and is so happy you did and he works twice as hard to make sure you don't EVER regret that choice!
- Even when he wakes up and your cuddled up next to him, he's in happy disbelief and hugs you so hard you wake up startled but soften when you look at MK, who happily exclaims, "YAY! YOU'RE STILL HERE!"
- "Of course I am, MK. Like I said, you ARE my home." You tell him gently as you press a kiss to his forehead.
- IT FEELS SO RELIEVING KNOWING YOU'RE GONNA STAY WITH HIM AND KNOWS THAT YOUR TIME ISN'T GONNA BE AS SHORT AS HE THOUGHT.
- He truly is a lucky man. How many people get the powers of the Monkey King and find a love that's so strong that they'd give up going to their world to stay with him?
- The next day he takes you on a date, just to spend a whole day with you and bask in your presence. You giggle as he holds your hand and excitedly gives you a run down of the day.
- You remind him he doesn't have to worry anymore because you're staying with him and he tells you that's exactly WHY he has to spend time with you, because now he's fear from the sudden dread that he might have to let you go at some point.
Monkey King/ Sun Wukong
He can't remember the last time he felt such pain in his heart. Wukong has faced the wrath of many powerful enemies and even felt the betrayal of his own brother but this...this hurt more than the isolation he faced being trapped underneath a mountain for 500 years. He holds you in his arms for what he thinks is the last time. He doesn't want to let you go, he wants to beg and plead for you to stay, he wants to go with you but sadly, the spell he had found was incomplete and unstable. It was safe enough for one person to through, he knew that for sure, but it might just break the realities between both his world and yours if he tried to go with you.
It was almost worth it just to not let you go. Almost.
"I guess...this is goodbye." He finally says, his arms tighten around you, gently. He couldn't stand the thought of hurting you.
You sniffle and look at the portal that he conjured with the spell before slowly looking back at him. He gives you a reassuring smile that he'll be fine and that you can go, only for his heart to break a little once more as you stare at the portal.
"What...what if it isn't?" You finally speak up, "What if I don't go?"
Wukong blinks at your words before frowning again, "(Y/n), please, you-"
"Wukong, there's nothing for me in that world. It doesn't have all this magic, it doesn't have the same wonder, and it doesn't have...it doesn't have you." You explained, smiling at him with a growing blush on your face.
"(Y/n), before I completely freak out, I need to know, are you sure?" He asked, his hands now on your shoulders.
The moment you nod your head yes, he's bringing you into a hug and peppering your face with kisses. Tears are mixed in with every kiss and you can't tell if its yours or his but you don't mind as you laugh and giggle and wrap your arms around his neck as he continues to repeat the phrases: "THANK YOU!", "YOU WON'T REGRET THIS", AND "I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!" between each and every kiss.
"I love you too, silly monkey.~"
Headcanons:
- LITERALLY KISSES YOU FOR A FEW HOURS BECAUSE HE'S SO RELIEVED HE DOESN'T HAVE TO LET YOU GO.
- Absolutely is 10x more lazier and wants to spend his days relaxing and having you by his side, and hey, he doesn't have to find you a way home during his downtime because YOU'RE STAYING WITH HIM.
- He does however get a bit more clingy with you because KEEP IN MIND, HE WAS PREPARED TO LOSE YOU FOREVER. Now that he's not gonna lose you forever, you still have to assure him of that by petting him SO LOVE HIM UP.
- OKAY BUT HIS LIL MONKEY'S MISSING YOU AS MUCH AS HE DID AND WERE VERY SAD WHEN THEY THOUGHT YOU WERE GONNA LEAVE🥺
- BUT THEN YOU COME BACK AND THEY'RE CHEERING AND THEY HUG YOU AND YOU GIGGLE AND LAUGH BECAUSE MONKEY CUDDLE PILE.
- He's glad the little guys missed you as much as he did but now he gets pouty because they all try to take up as much of your time as possible and that has him SHOOK because, um, yeah he likes his monkey buddies BUT HE ALSO LIKES HIS TIME WITH YOU SO SCOOT.
- Okay but he is also kinda worried about the fact that you are mortal and is worried you two will get torn apart so he will have to bring up that topic up later but for now, he'll just enjoy the fact you stayed.
- Takes you on little mini-adventures with him, he may be retired but he's also still the Monkey King and a huge reason why you love Wukong is that he never makes the day boring.
- More clingy in his sleep because he sometimes gets bad dreams you might be taken from him but then you turn in your spot to face him and kiss his forehead and his expression goes from "about to cry from a bad dream" to "the cutest most precious sleepy smile ever"
- He's so glad you didn't leave him, even if you're home life back in your home world wasn't that perfect, but he will make sure that you'll have a better life with him. Because that's how he feels when he's with you.
Liu Er Mihou/Macaque:
Macaque laid alone on the lair he once called a home. Of course, it wasn't really a home until you came along. He frowned as he laid on his side and curled into a ball, noticing that it was colder without you there to play with his fur or to kiss him goodnight. He regrets not saying "goodbye" to you, closing his eyes and trying not to imagine you having already walked through that portal back to your own world and seeing he wasn't there. Or maybe you were happy that he wasn't there, he couldn't blame you if you were. He had manipulated you, decieved you, and used you when you were in a vulnerable situation.
He lied about knowing a way back to your world and he lied about wanting to help you. Then he wanted to be selfish, to keep you from going home because you made him feel something other than hatred and vengance, you made him feel loved. Maybe that's why he let you go so easily when Wukong told you that he had found a way to get you back to your world. His ears flinched as he remembered the way Wukong exposed Macaque for the liar he was. The lair you trusted. God, he couldn't get your face out of his head as you stared at him with hurt eyes.
"Macaque."
Great, now he was already hearing your voice.
"MACAQUE!" The voice repeated, louder.
The dark furred simian sat up, and when he did, his golden eyes were shocked to see you standing in front of him. Your arms crossed and your expression stoic, but you were there nonetheless.
"...You didn't leave?"
"You didn't say goodbye."
Headcanons:
- Obviously you have to talk to him about just LYING to you and he admits to everything but promises no more lies, and then reached out for you. You saved him the time and hugged him.
- You explain that when you left with Wukong, it was more out of anger that perhaps everything you experienced with Macaque was a lie but even as you road on Wukong's cloud, he could sense that you didn't actually want to leave and also, even said that not everything about your relationship with Macaque was a lie.
- This surprised Macaque because: 1. Was he really down bad for you THAT visibly? and 2. Wukong was actually a bit selfless enough to help him out??
- Either way, you get a few things straight. No more lying, no more just leaving you without any explanation, and that its gonna take a while for him to earn your trust. All of which are understandable and that Macaque agrees to as long as you never leave with Wukong like that again because he was scared that his brother had TRULY taken everything away from him.
- Ngl he wants to cry so hard right now like, you chose to stay with him and not leave him alone but it would've really helped if you told HIM THAT YOU WERE GONNA STAY- but then he checks himself when he remembers he didn't tell YOU everything.
- Like Wukong, he definetly gets a bit more clingy with you except he doesn't realize it. Doing things like wrapping his tail around you im your sleep, holding your hand as you walk side by side with each other and such.
- Still can't get over the fact that you chose to stay with him, like, you picked going back to your world just for HIM!?
- It makes him feel that nice feeling of just being wanted and being loved, something he didn't expect to feel again, but it was nice nonetheless.
- Expect to catch him randomly looking at you and with a loving glint in his eyes a soft smile and when you ask him why he's looking at you, he just says: "I just love you, right now."
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if you’re wondering why I’m having to repost this, or why you were perhaps previously following me but no longer are, please refer to this post. I was able to retrieve this thanks to the very lovely friends who have relentlessly sifted through tumblr archives to recover them, thank you all so much!! ♡
WARNING: spoilers for end of Deathly Hallows Part II, and also some HEAVY angst in this one
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Glass Heart
George’s tired eyes turn to the window, finally seeing the sunlight he had restlessly been waiting for. Sitting up and bed and swinging his legs over the side, George sighs, hanging his head and closing his eyes. He wishes more than anything that he could allow himself to sleep, but he knows what will greet him if he does, and he cant face it, not yet.
Strolling down the hallway, George’s footsteps echo down the eerily quiet flat, setting his teeth on edge. He catches sight of the envelope that he left on the table yesterday. He recognises the handwriting on the front as that of his mother’s, and he knows that it’s a Howler of some kind. Judging by the fact it hasnt exploded, it isnt an angry one, which disappoints George a little. All night he was waiting for that explosion of his mother’s voice, the anger that he would love to hear in response to the pranks that filled his childhood. He’d choose to hear that over his mother’s sadness any day, and due to this Howler not revealing itself as Howler’s typically do, George worries that his mother’s sadness is exactly what is concealed in the envelope.
Unfortunately for George, his selfless love for his family gets the better of him, overtaking his own grief and anguish in order to hear his mother’s words and try to help in whatever way he can. Popping open the seal, George drops the envelope back on the table and leans against the wall, knowing there’s no way he can prepare himself for whatever he’s about to hear.
“Hello George, dear.”
The gaping hole in his heart aches at the softness in his mother’s voice, tears already stinging his eyes.
“I worry about you, up in that flat. Will you come home soon? We miss you terribly, your father and I…it isnt easy, for any of us, but with you not here, it almost feels like-“
His mother is too broken to utter the words that George knows she wants to say. With him not there, it feels like she’s lost both him and Fred.
“(Y/N) misses you terribly, too, you know.”
She changes the subject, the mention of you lifting her spirits even now. You were still back at the Burrow, where you had spent most of your life thus far. That first year at the train station, your muggle parents happened to ask the Weasley’s for help crossing onto the platform that they’d previously denied the mere existence of. Your parents both worked overseas, so even if you hadnt ended up as a witch, you would have been sent to a boarding school of some kind. When the Weasley twins returned home from their first year at Hogwarts to tell their parents all about what a wonderful friend you were to them, and explained that you wouldnt really have a home to go to, they were more than happy to have you stay with them, and you did. On occasion, your parents were home long enough to spend a few days with you, but for the most part, you were the Weasley’s plus one, and you couldnt have been happier.
“Ever since you moved out, she’s been quieter. She wears that old jumper of yours everyday, I have to sneak into her room just to clean it when she’s not home!”
George’s mother laughs, and the sound brings a smile to his face, despite the tears rolling down his cheeks. He didnt know you were still wearing that jumper he gave you after your fourth year. Well, technically he didnt give it to you; Molly accidentally placed it in your laundry pile and when you tried it on, George told you to keep it because it looked better on you anyway.
He last saw you on the worst day of his life, but before that, it had been months since he’d laid eyes on you. Having already moved out of his family home by the time the whole world started to change, he only heard about what had happened to you through what his family told him. Apparently, you’d gone into hiding with your muggle parents, because they were always travelling from place to place and with their absence in your life, nobody working for the dark lord would ever think to look for them. Still, you sent coded letters to the Weasley family by owl whenever you could, wishing them all safety and telling them not to worry about you.
Seeing you that day, running straight for him and stupifying anyone who got in your way, George remembers the feeling of his heart getting caught in his throat. Wrapping his arms around your waist and lifting you off the ground, clinging to each other like it was the last chance you’d ever get to do so, because you didnt know if it would be. Neither of you spoke a word, there wasnt time, in seconds you were placed on the ground and standing back to back, fighting evil from two fronts. He remembers his heart pounding in his chest in the aftermath of holding you close, feeling like he could win the battle singlehandedly because he knew you were safe. That heart is long gone now.
“She’s quieter now…we all are. Your father and I arent sleeping well, and so many nights I’ve walked by her door, hearing her crying, and when I go to check on her, she’s sleeping.”
Fresh, invisible wounds tear through George as he relives all the times he’s heard you cry. In your first year, when you found out your parents wouldnt be able to afford taking time off for Christmas, and Fred and George had to beg their mother to let them stay at Hogwarts with you while they went away to Romania. In your second year, when you were scared that your muggle blood would get you killed in the Chamber of Secrets, and George kept you safe. In your fourth year, when you came up with a cover story to get Fred and George out of trouble and Umbridge forced you to write with a quill that carved the words “I must not lie and think it is brave”, and George very nearly stormed into Umbridge’s office to destroy her, but you clinging to him as you cried held him back. In your seventh year, when Fred and George left Hogwarts to open their shop, and moved out of their family home to live in the flat above it; you cried your eyes out and told George that you loved him, but there wasnt time to explain what that meant. And finally, on the worst day of his life, when you screamed and sobbed beside what was left of Fred.
“She dreams about what we’re afraid to dream about, dear, and she needs you, just as much as you need her.”
If his mother had said such a thing at any other time, George would have disagreed. Before, there was never time to explore whatever it was between you and him. The twins were always off planning new pranks and inventions, and while sometimes you were their accomplice, there was never a moment long enough for you and George to just talk. Every time the twins were around, it was like you were living life at a higher speed, everything happened so fast and it only slowed down when they were gone. They were a force to be reckoned with, and you adored them for that. It was only when George told you about their plans to leave Hogwarts that things really set in for you. Like the Hogwarts train had hit you at full speed, you realised that you had wasted every moment with him, and although those moments had been fun, they could have been so much more, and then he was gone, just like that.
Before, George would have agreed that he was always too busy, too excited about whatever was coming next for him and Fred. His world had slowed down to a speed he didnt like, ever since his other half had gone, just like that.
“I think it would be good for both of you if (Y/N) came to live with you, she’d liven up the flat a bit. Maybe she could even help out with the shop someday! You need her, George.”
He can tell by her voice that Molly Weasley has never been more sure of anything in her life, and George isnt in any position to challenge her on that. Soon enough, he finds himself showered, dressed, and lifting his wand. By no means does he think he’s ready to accept help from anyone, but he will do anything to get out of that flat, and regardless of what his mother really means, he knows that she’s right. He needs you.
Apparating outside the Burrow, George feels miserable. His family home is still in the process of being rebuilt after the war, and seeing it barely standing is almost enough to make him want to turn back, until he hears laughter. From the other side of the front door, George can hear his mother and father actually laughing. It has been months since he’s visited home, and that sound was a forgotten memory even then. Gently pushing the door open so as to cause as little disruption as possible, George steps into his family home. He’s immediately greeted by the sight of you teaching his mother a silly dance in the kitchen, while his father watches, and all of you laugh together. You’re wearing an apron over the jumper George gave you, and splatters of countless ingredients cover it, as well as stain your face in places, but George swears you have never looked more beautiful. The sound of the door closing brings three pairs of eyes to him, and the laughter stops quite suddenly.
Before he even has time to register what’s happening, George is in the arms of his mother, who still manages to hold him even when he’s so much taller than her. His father hugs him next, as tearful as his mother as they embrace the son they were beginning to worry they would lose to grief. Neither of them say anything, they’re too shocked to speak, and they move to stand either side of George so that he can see you.
With Ron living with Hermione, and Ginny living with Harry, it would make sense for you to go and find a place of your own, fly the nest like the rest of them. But you stayed, to care for the people that had cared for you when you needed them, to help them feel a little less lonely.
And there you stand, your hands covering your mouth as tears blur the perfect image of George Weasley standing before you. The first genuine smile he has felt in months wobbles on his face as he stares at you, and unlike the last time you saw him, you dont run at him. You take one careful, unsteady step, and then he strides over to you, wrapping his arms around you and pulling you into his chest.
“Missed you, Georgie.” Your shaky voice reaches his ears, and he feels the shattered fragments of his heart tremble, the fight to bring themselves back together reigniting.
“Missed you too, sweetheart.” George sniffles, and you feel your own fractured heart clench at his words.
Sweetheart, that was something he first called you in your second year, when you were crying in fear of being killed for being muggle born. George had pulled you into his arms and told you “I wont let anything happen to you, sweetheart, promise”, and ever since, he has been your safe place. Every single time he was there when you needed him after that, that is what he would call you.
“What are you doing here?” You question, pulling away from him to wipe your eyes.
Obviously, you’re ecstatic to see him, but if he’s just dropping by to pick something up and leave again, you dont want to get your hopes up.
“I was wondering if you’d like to…move in, with me. Maybe help with the shop, if you’re up to it. Supposed to be a two-person place, after all.” George had planned to chuckle as he said that, but the weight of his own words cause a lump to form in his throat instead, and he can no longer hold your gaze.
He doesnt see the way you cast a worried glance to Molly and Arthur, who both shake their heads and smile at you encouragingly, assuring you they’ll be fine if you choose to go. And he doesnt see the way you look up at him, staring into the anguish that sits deep behind his sad, sad eyes, that are too scared to meet yours.
“It would be my honour, Georgie.” You tell him, causing his head to snap back down to read your face, checking for any sign of doubt, and when he cant find any, he smiles, and you smile right back.
“But first, have you had breakfast? I was just making some.” You gesture to your dirty apron, which has consequently smeared George’s clothes with some stains as a result of the hug you shared.
“I havent eaten, no.” He admits sheepishly, knowing before he’s even finished his sentence that you’re going to give him a disapproving look, and you dont disappoint.
“Well, that’s one thing we’re gonna have to sort out when I go back with you: regular meal times! Routines are important-“ You begin, but George cuts you off by rolling his eyes playfully.
“-because they help make everything feel more manageable, I know.” He finishes your sentence, having heard that phrase from you a thousand times. Glancing at his parents, George knows for a fact that if it hadnt been for you, the two of them would have fallen into the same irregular schedule, ruled over by grief. You saved his parents from that, and in turn, their company saved you. Well, as much as their company could. You were always a little lonely whenever George wasnt around.
Molly and Arthur choose to go and sit outside while George follows you into the kitchen. He leans against the counter, watching as you busy yourself with cooking spells.
“I’ve heard that you’ve formed quite the attachment to that jumper.” He cant help commenting, a cheeky smile on his face as he effortlessly slips back into the flirty banter that the two of you have always had, but something about you doesnt quite feel right.
Looking over your shoulder at George, you sigh dramatically. “Guess you could call me the clingiest witch in the west.”
George chuckles at that, shaking his head. “Nah, not clingy. Utterly adorable, but not clingy.”
You raise an eyebrow. “Oh, utterly adorable, am I?”
George smirks. “Definitely.”
Silence ensues, throwing you both into the sickening realisation that at this point in your flirting, Fred would usually interrupt. Sadness casts her cloak over the two of you, shrouding you in a grey, slow haze.
“Im sorry I didnt save him.”
And there it is. Your words cut through the air like a knife, straight to George’s heart, or rather, the place where it would have been. By no means was your happiness an act, but it was something you exaggerated to help heal his family, it was only a matter of time before its permanence wavered in his presence. George has always been able to see right through you.
“What are you talking about?” He questions carefully, very worried about what you’re going to say next as you fix your gaze on the dishes you’re washing with your bare hands rather than a spell. In the background, your spells continue to cook whatever wondrous breakfast you have planned. Washing up is your chosen distraction, or subtle punishment.
“If I hadnt stayed with you, if I’d gone to find him, I could have- he could still- even if it meant…” You close your eyes, tears slipping down your cheeks and you squeeze your lips inside your mouth to hold back a sob.
“Dont even think that, not for a second.” George’s voice is low, firm, and deadly serious.
You shake your head, eyes opening wide as you stare at him. “I cant stop thinking it, George. I have seen this family in so much pain, people I adore living through such agony every single day, and you disappeared completely! If I’d been with him, if I saved him, if it had been me, none of this would have happened! All of you would have been better off.” You look away from him again, and George takes the single stride necessary to reach you, gently lifting your hands out of the soapy water and grabbing a towel to dry your raw fingers that have been scrubbing through your anxiety-fuelled vent.
“Listen to me, (Y/N). There wont be a day that goes by where I dont miss Freddie.” That’s the first time he’s said his name since that day, it chokes him up immediately. “But I would never, ever want you to trade places with him, to have you gone instead of him. If you had gone, none of us would have been able to hold the rest of us together like you have, like you’ve always done. You are everything, (Y/N), and I wouldnt trade your life for anything, or anyone. I cant even think about a world without you in it-“ George shakes the thought out of his head, tears stinging his eyes as he’s briefly sent to kneeling at your side and holding your cold hand, sobbing and begging you to just open your eyes.
Your warm hands on his face bring him back to the present, your bright eyes staring up into his.
“Im sorry George, I cant imagine a world without you, either.”
Holding your hands against his face, George sniffles. “You’ll never need to.”
A small smile curls in the corner of your mouth, and he cant help mirroring it.
“You and me, we’re gonna get through this, you hear me?” You raise an eyebrow playfully, making George chuckle through his tears.
“Loud and clear, sweetheart, loud and clear.”
And as if by magic, he feels the first shattered piece of his heart slowly slot back into place.
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stealingpotatoes · 8 months
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another ask answering post woah
got a few Long asks last night/yesterday so I'm just gonna answer all in a post instead of taking up everyone's dashes or trying to give small answers!!
featuring some skywalkers apart au, rey skywalker-djarin au, timejump au, and random other star war:
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@just-prime KEEP THE UNHINGED DINLUKE RAMBLES TO A MAXIMUM ACTUALLY!!!
YOU'RE SO RIGHT i hadn't even thought of it like this!!! partly bc I just think of Luke like... not being too unhealthy abt Jedi stuff bc unlike Disney I wouldn't give him a complete personality transplant loll. BUT YEAH!!! Luke being happier and getting that differing perspective would so help him be a better teacher and give everyone less mental health issues!!
also what i'm hearing overall is they can fix ben with:
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@cherrypine6 awww thank you!!! I'm currently not sure, I've got a scene w him written but I really don't know whether I'm keeping it in or not -- guess we're both gonna find out loll!!!
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@mydearestblue LETS GOOOOO high praise thank u <3
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@aberrations-reality OOHHHHHH!!! unfortunately leia's in her normal outfit and it doesn't go down quite like that but OHHHHHHH at the idea,,,
tbh I don't think Palpatine would oppress Naboo culture loads, but I do think he'd put an insane imperial presence there to protect his homeworld even tho it's ultimately doing more harm than good ): ...and higher imperial presence means he's more likely to catch padme w anakin if he ever visits
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@erkhyan I had not!! thank you!! they're eli vanto kinning fr
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thanks for the heads up anon!! i dont think i'll block them bc they seem respectful abt it & tag all their discourse/ don't tag it as characters + i think it's fair anakin maybe one of my faves of all time but ya know, he's a bit of a shit person, i get ppl who don't like him lolll <3 but still thank you for telling me!!! nice to know these things
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theladyofdeath · 2 years
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I Burn For You {Ten}
An A Court of Thorns and Roses fanfiction. Elriel. Period AU. Regency. 19th Century.
Written alongside @snelbz .
Click here to read the summary and for more chapters!
A/N: I'm so sorry that it took me so long to post this! It was a train wreck of a week last week. I hope you've liked this story. We loved writing it. Here's to the final chapter!
Enjoy. :)
T/W: none
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Elain looked at the dining room table that she had spent an hour arranging.
There were six places set, one plate for each adult surrounded by her finest glasses and silverware.
It was the first family dinner she and Azriel had planned with their families in their new home, and Elain was full of nerves and anxiety. After marrying and deciding that they should live a simpler life, both for the benefit of themselves and due to the queen’s reaction to her broken engagement to the Prince of Spring, Azriel had sold his homes and a majority of his useless belongings. The lands his family lorded over shared a border with those of Cassian, and his brother had agreed to absorb them into his own. His lands, his title, their past life in Velaris’ society was always there if they felt like returning, whispers of the Ton be damned. With the profit of the townhouse, they had bought a house on the banks of the Sidra, on the opposite side of the city. They had plenty of room, but their home was nothing too extravagant. 
Perfect.
It was perfect.
Although they had cut back on costs and luxuries, they had kept Azriel’s cook. Neither Elain nor Azriel knew how to make a thing, so they kept his cook as a teacher. As they learned, however, they begged him to cook on nights like tonight.
They would only keep him on until he found another job. Until then, they would dwell in his delicious dishes.
“How much time do I have?”
Elain spun around to find Azriel standing at the threshold, his clothes covered in paint. Despite herself, Elain chuckled. “About half an hour before everyone’s arrival. Enough time for you to clean up and change.”
Azriel suppressed a grin as he crossed his arms and leaned against the doorframe. “Is it necessary that I change? I think I look nice.”
Elain approached her husband and slid her arms around his neck. “As handsome as you are, I must insist that you put on something that has no paint splotches.” She was careful not to press too close, as she was wearing one of her nicest dresses. Most of her clothes had become marred in some way or another by paint or charcoal or some other new medium used to convey her husband’s seemingly endless creativity. He could hardly keep his hands off of her, often stealing kisses whenever no one was looking.
“I suppose I can do that,” he said, pressing a kiss to her forehead. “As long as it’s worth my while later on tonight.”
Elain rolled her eyes, but rose up on her tiptoes to kiss him. “Hush. Now hurry, or your brothers will be here before you’re done and drink all your whiskey.”
This got Azriel moving. He disappeared down the long hall with a mumbled curse at his greedy, expensive liquor loving brothers. Elain watched him go, chuckling to herself.
These first few months of marriage were more amazing than she even could have imagined. Spending every day with the love of her life only made her love him more. She never wanted to be apart from him, missed him when he was gone even for a second. They spent their nights wrapped in each other’s arms until mornings, and spent their days laughing and growing together in harmony. He often would paint in the garden while she continued to create her floral masterpiece. She wanted her garden to be the most breathtaking in all of Prythian. With the land they had, anything was possible.
It was a matter of minutes before Azriel returned to the main floor, washed up and dressed like a respectable gentleman once again. Not the finery he used to wear, but he was happier than he’d ever been.
So when he heard sniffling from the other room, he was not expecting to find Elain to be the one crying.
Immediately, he went to her side, sitting next to her on the settee. “My love, what’s wrong?”
Shaking her head, she dabbed under her eyes. “It’s nothing, I just…” Elain swallowed and met his gaze. “I’ll never dance again.”
Azriel blinked, clearly not following. “Why can’t you ever dance again?”
“At a ball,” she explained as he took her hand, brushing his thumb over her rings. “While it’s nice to be away from the chaos of the ton, I always did love dancing at the parties and balls. And at the time, I didn’t even realize I was dancing my last waltz. That I’d never hear the orchestra ringing around the room again.”
Azriel frowned. “Just because we are not a part of the ton does not mean that you will never dance at a party again.”
“You must think me ridiculous,” she said, wiping her eyes. “Dancing is such a small thing to have lost when we have gained so much more.”
Azriel shook his head. “I understand. Sometimes I am surprised at how much different our way of life is now. But…I still think we did what was right.”
The scrutiny that they would have lived under for the oncoming years surely would not have been worth it.
“I agree,” Elain said, and he knew that she meant it.
He stood and Elain lifted a brow as he held out his hand. There was still paint speckled across his nails.
“May I have this dance?” He asked, quietly, with the smallest of grins. 
Elain laughed quietly. “Our guests will be here soon.”
Azriel’s hand did not lower. “Let them wait.”
Elain’s eyes softened as she rose and placed her hand delicately in his. The jolt of energy and adoration and lust that coursed through her body was every bit as powerful as the first time he held her in his arms and spun her around the room. 
As Azriel’s hand found her waist, he said, “I will always dance with you, Elain, no matter what room we are in or if there is any music at all. If you want to dance, all you have to do is ask.”
As he took her into his arms, dancing far more closely than would have been appropriate at a ball, they both heard a distant knocking.
They both ignored it as Azriel bent his head to press a kiss to his wife’s lips.
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“You truly baked these yourself?”
Elain was doing a horrible job at hiding her smile as she looked at her older sister, who was holding a roll in her hands. “Well, technically, Cook was the one who put them into the oven for me, but I prepared the dough.”
Cassian, already on his third, swallowed his mouth full of bread before nudging Nesta. “This one tried to make toast the other morning. The house still smells of ash.”
Elain’s head fell back as she laughed. “Yes, well, I must say that I have learned a lot. Cook has been patient and is a lovely teacher. Although Nesta is more courageous than I, because I haven’t gone near actually cooking anything. I have learned to prepare a lot, however, and will soon be a true expert.” 
Elain watched as Nesta smiled and took another roll. “Well, I am proud of you, Lainy. This is lovely. The food. Your home. I cannot wait to walk through your gardens. I saw a glimpse coming in.”
“The gardens have a long way to go,” Elain said, and it was Feyre who shook her head.
“Will they ever truly be finished?” her younger sister jested. “If I know you, which I believe I do, you will have every acre of land covered with the most beautiful of plants and still be on a mission to make it larger.”
Azriel looked lovingly at his wife. “She is usually outside before the sun is up and works until it begins to set.” 
Beside him, Nyx babbled something incoherent on Rhysand’s lap. 
“I know, she’s absolutely mad,” Azriel agreed, kissing his nephew on the forehead before picking up his fork and cutting his meat. “It suits her, though.”
“You cannot call me mad,” Elain protested, sitting tall. “You are a tortured artist and far more mad than I.”
“Mad,” Nyx repeated, and everyone laughed as he clapped his chubby little hands. 
They ate their meal in joyful harmony. It was delicious, and Elain hoped that she would be just as good as Cook was one day in preparing and cooking a meal. 
Once their dinner had been devoured, they all settled into the drawing room and got comfortable. Nyx was sound asleep in an armchair, covered in a woven blanket, his little shoes tossed aside while Cassian and Nesta sat together on one settee and Elain and Azriel were snuggled up on the other. Feyre and Rhysand were lounging on the rug in front of the fireplace. Jackets were off and vests were loosened. Nesta’s feet were even bare as they laid across Cassian’s lap. Azriel poured everyone a glass of their finest liquor and left the opened bottle on a table, ready to be poured for seconds. 
“I cannot believe that the social season is about to begin,” Elain noted, looking at Azriel. “Last year’s seems so far away.”
A year. 
A year since Elain had been engaged to Tamlin, a year since she and Azriel had fallen into their love for one another, a year since Azriel had asked for her hand and their lives had changed. 
He leaned down, brushing his lips over her temple, as if he was having the same thoughts. “Yet at the same time, I’d say this year has flown by.”
“Truly,” Cassian said, taking a drink before setting his glass on the side table. He took Nesta’s bare foot into his hands and rubbed it. “Though I will say, I’m glad we don’t have to attend every event this year. We should have convinced you two marry at the end of the season before. Would have saved me quite a few boring evenings last year.”
Azriel snorted, shaking his head, while Nesta smacked her husband in the back of the head.
“Speaking of the upcoming season,” Feyre said, turning to look between her sisters, “have you heard Ianthe has been staying in Spring since the snows melted?”
Just like that, they all fell into the idle gossip the ton was so good at, despite Elain and Azriel’s prior insistence of their disdain for it. Soon, Elain was yawning, leaning her head back against on Azriel’s chest.
Nesta was filling them in on their most recent trip to the vineyard on the outskirts of town, everyone laughing at the shenanigans Cassian always seems to find himself in, when Rhys offered to refill everyone’s glasses. As he sat back down, bottle still in hand, Feyre’s brow furrowed. “I figured the bottle would be empty.”
Rhysand nodded towards the glass on the table in the center of the room as he put the bottle to his lips. “Didn’t have to refill Elain’s. Saved the rest for myself.”
“Thank you for saving my brandy for yourself,” Azriel laughed, tucking a sleepy Elain in tighter.
Rhys and Cassian laughed, but Nesta was looking at the full glass on the table. “Why aren’t you drinking, Elain?”
With a yawn, Elain murmured, “Can’t drink while you’re pregnant.”
The room went completely quiet and the fingers gently stroking Elain’s loose hair went still. It took a moment, but Elain’s smile faltered as she realized the words that had just crept out of her mouth. She hastily sat up and turned to look at her husband who sat there, dumbfounded.
“Pardon?” He croaked, at last. 
The others remained completely silent, their eyes wide.
Elain’s cheeks burned as her hands flew over her mouth. “I did not mean— I did not realize—”
“Elain,” Azriel breathed, and his eyes were bright as he took her hands gently in his. “Are you with child?”
For a moment, Elain forgot that the others were there and a sweet laugh bubbled out of her as emotion consumed her. As she nodded, her eyes lined with tears. “Yes.”
Azriel must have forgotten the others were there, too, because he practically tackled her onto the settee cushions and kissed her longingly. As he did, reminding the couple that they were indeed there, the others were cheering and talking excitedly from where they sat, hugging one another in joy and celebration.
“I did not mean for you to find out like this,” Elain said, once Azriel had sat back up and pulled her near to him. A smile was permanently displayed on his lips. “I meant for it to be far sweeter and…on purpose.”
“When did you find out?” Feyre asked, a brilliant smile on her face.
Tucked into Azriel’s side, Elain looked around at her family’s smiling faces, and told the story of how she’d started to feel ill about a week ago. She’d heard of the blight that had recently hit Winter, though no confirmed cases had popped up in Velaris, but wanted to be sure. While Azriel had been at the Academy the day before, Elain had needed to run some errands.
One of those errands happened to be a stop at the physician.
After another hour or so, once Feyre and Nesta were yawning as well, Elain had bade them goodnight and gone up to bed while Azriel saw them out. When he topped the stairs, he wanted nothing than to curl up in bed with his wife, the mother of his unborn child. He had so much to tell her, how happy he was, how excited her was to be a father.
He had never wanted to be a father, had never expected to experience the joy that came along with it, not after the tragic childhood he’d had.
Elain made him want to be better, to have a legacy to pass on, regardless of the fact that he no longer bore a title to pass on.
Expecting Elain to already be snuggled beneath their heap of blankets, Azriel pushed open the door to the master bedroom to find it dark and quiet, the bed empty. From the far side of the room, where a washroom veered off, flickering lights created shadows through the threshold. He could hear the soft sloshing of water and Elain’s quiet, “Az?”
After closing their door behind him, he slipped off his boots. “Not too tired to take a bath? Surely it could have waited until morning.”
Her quiet laughter greeted him. “Perhaps, but I was cold and the water is so warm. Besides, I worked hard today. It’s nice to relax in a nice warm bath with the lovely scent of lavender surrounding me.”
Azriel’s tunic was already pulled over his head and tossed aside as he crossed the threshold to the washroom and smiled at his wife, who laid beneath the water with her head resting on the edge of the porcelain tub. Bits of lavender floated in the water. The room was lit by candlelight.
She smiled back at him sleepily before lifting a finger in the air and using it to beckon him forward.
Azriel was loosening the buttons of his trousers when Elain said, “I am sorry that I let the news slip to everyone before telling you myself. I truly did want for the reveal to be special.”
Azriel stopped what he was doing to look at Elain, who watched him with a frown. “You’re apologizing? Elain, there’s no need.” He stepped closer to the tub and knelt beside it as his palm rested gingerly against her cheek. She leaned into him. “It was special. Our family was there. And I am so excited.”
Elain swallowed as her eyes grew bright, lined with tears. “I collected that from the way you pounced on me.”
Azriel’s genuine laughter filled the silence. “I could not contain my joy.” He kissed her once, softly. “My beautiful wife is becoming a mother to my child. Nothing has ever made me happier.”
Elain’s hand covered his, still against her cheek. “You will be the most amazing father, my love.” The beat of hesitation was so slight, anyone but Elain or his brothers would have missed it. Her fingers intertwined with his, until her hand held his. “You are not your father, Azriel. You never will be and I would never allow it anyways.”
His eyebrows rose and despite the topic, Azriel found himself chuckling. “You would never allow it?”
She shook her head as he stood, discarding the rest of his clothes until they were in a pile across the room. Elain scooted forward so there was room for him to sit behind her and as she leaned back against his bare chest, his arms went around her. “No, I wouldn’t. I would make sure to keep you in check, but your heart is too good. Your father was a monster and I am glad I never had the chance to meet him.”
Azriel was too, though he’d never admit it. “Then it’s a good thing I have you to put me in my place.”
“Someone has to do it,” she replied with a yawn, settling back in his arms. “It’s a tough job, but I don’t mind.”
With a huff of quiet laughter, he pressed a kiss to the top of her head. The room fell silent for a few minutes and Azriel thought that his wife may have truly fallen asleep when she asked, “Do you want a boy or a girl?”
He’d be so excited about having a child at all that he hadn’t considered the sex of the child until this exact moment. “I…don’t know. What do you want?”
Lifting her hand out of the water, Elain dragged a finger down Azriel’s arm, leaving goosebumps in its wake. “Growing up with two sisters, you’d think I’d want a girl first. That I’d be more comfortable with a girl.” Turning to look at him, Azriel found her eyes lined with tears, a smile on her beautiful face. “But I’m as sick of girls as I can be. As soon as the doctor told me I was pregnant, all I could see in my head was a little boy with your eyes and my smile.”
“My eyes and your smile, is it?” She nodded, and he sighed. “That’s a shame, really.”
Elain blinked, her smile faltering. “Why is it a shame?”
“Because I wouldn’t be disappointed in the slightest, but if I had my way?” His arms tightened around her and his lips found the side of her neck. “I want a little girl, who looks just like you.”
“And if it’s a little girl that looks just like you?” She teased, trying to clear the overwhelming emotion from her voice and failing. “Or a little boy who looks like me?”
Azriel chuckled, the sound muffled by her neck. “No matter what, I will be overjoyed for it is half you and half me.”
“Half you and half me,” she repeated with a content sigh. “I can’t believe we are to be parents. I still cannot believe that I am your wife. That we found our way to one another.” She looked up at him to find him already watching her, eyes soft. “It almost seems too good to be true, this life we are building.”
Azriel nodded, knowing full well what she meant. Most days he spent his time amazed at how his life had come out, after spending so long feeling unworthy of such happiness. Now, he knew he deserved Elain, and she him. They deserved the love they had for another, deserved the happiness that they had found.
“This is only the beginning,” he whispered, his lips pressing softly against the side of her forehead. “We have a whole lifetime together yet.”
“Only the beginning,” Elain repeated with a smile, her eyes falling shut as she clung to her husband. “I cannot wait.”
The washroom fell silent as they sat together in the warm, lavender scented water, each of them dreaming of what the future held.
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yyxgin · 2 years
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— tag game. ☔
recommend 5 or more of your own works that you would rec to someone asking what they should read first & explain a little bit about the work. these can be the most popular, the ones you think are underrated, or your own favorites! then tag five other writers! | tagged by @neo-shitty thanks toffee i love talking about myself! :p
you best believe i AM doing more than 5 because i write for a lot of groups and i truly believe those fics are worth reading!
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seventeen.
sympathy subtraction (chwe vernon). okay so there is NO way im not mentioning this fic. AND im putting it on first place because its literally my child. my longest fic and the fic i hold the closest to my heart. 40k full of undying love for chwe vernon, this is. it also really closely follows my emotions about every single falling-out i've ever had. the perfect slice of life, the perfect coming of age. i shamelessly reread this from time to time from how well written it actually is. i am not afraid to say that i am the biggest fan of my own fic bc oh well. i write the fics i wanna read <3
this february 14th (kim mingyu). okay here's the tea. for a while, i really didnt like this fic and i despised seeing it in my notifications, BUT. it literally has 1k notes so i reread it last night and i literally forgot what this fic was about i kid you not 😭 after reading it again, i came to the conclusion that my writing style in this is actually really good and even though the plot is not anything special, i still think it was really sweet :p
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nct.
happier than ever (huang renjun). a big FAT trauma dump. but i absolutely adore this fic. one of my absolute favorites. i somehow always give renjun the fics where i experience the most trauma lmao i treat writing for this boy like a therapy session. i think it has to do w the fact that i see myself a lot in renjun so it feels safe to write about him in this way :p anywAYS i still love the brother's best friend trope i incorporated in here. its also a fairly popular fic of mine, which is a pleasant surprise! a lot of coming of age/slice of life vibes, fluffy but also absolutely heartbreaking. <3
the borders (huang renjun). AAAAAAA another trauma dump 😭 hits a little less to home than the previous fic does, but still hits nonetheless. inspired by one of my most favorite songs ever! i always wanted to write a fic on this song, even back in my 5sos era, so i am glad i finally did it when writing for nct. handles very difficult themes, so i was a little scared of posting it, as it was the first full nct fic ive ever posted as well :) i said it the first time and i will say it again; handle this fic with care.
and i love her just like that (lee donghyuck). MY MOST POPULAR NCT FIC AND YOU KNOW WHAT? AS IT SHOULD BE. hyuck e2l just hitS 😩😩 i think about this fic at least two times a week when i go play table tennis with my dad. hyuck is a menace and i still wanna make out with him very badly at a ping-pong table. this fic represents just that. also slightly inspired by maniac by nct u bc hyuck ate
just saying (liu yangyang). my writing style in this >>>>> ngl i find myself really funny in this it might just be me but. this fic is top comedy. also i have a yangyang fic in my drafts that deserves to be in this list but i havent posted it yet😔😔😔 not yy being the only non dream member i write for from nct. his impact on me is truly impaccable.
seventeen going under (zhong chenle). another fic that might be difficult to handle and also another sam fender inspired fic. talks about suicide. with this, i wanted to speak up about the rate of male suicides and how we tend to overlook mental issues in men due to toxic masculinity. also, i loved the 'retro' film vibe and the chenji besties interactions i wrote in here<3
hypersonic missiles (na jaemin). bros i didnt expect this fic to get nearly as much attention as it has. idk man i dont really get much to say abt this one, other than the fact that its a sci-fi, which i dont usually write, but i fucking loved writing this it was so much fun i should do more sci-fi
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stray kids.
lee felix's guide to hating you (lee felix). another popular one!! loved every second of writing this. it handles my own feelings and emotions and the fic is very personal to me hihi it also lowkey made my blog "blow up"?? not that its big rn or anything, but i think that most of my followers came from this fic! :)
my only hate, my only love (kim seungmin). bruh there's just something about seungmin that only allows me to write angst for him. i think there's like one (1) fluff that i wrote for him and even that one is a short drabble. im sorry seungmin. 😭 anyways i am a literature hoe and wrote this despite not reading romeo and juliet fully once!! had a lot of fun with it. e2l stays superior (not actually, i prefer f2l but shh)
meet you there (kim seungmin). another heavy one ooof- inspired by sky castle! ngl i am very much in love with kim donghee and he always reminded me of seungmin a bit and i think that's what made me write this fic? 😭 not sure.
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tagging. @koishua @crispy-chan @chogiwow @mellow-midzy @aliceu @multi-kpop-fanfics @decembermoonskz and @tinami (if you come back to tumblr🤍) LETS SPREAD LOVE ABT OUR FICS AND ACT LIKE ARTISTS ON GENIUS EXPLAINING THE LYRICS 😡😡😡
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kastrupmcmillan60 · 1 year
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Here are the Nominees for the 2022 VMAs
MTV has announced the nominees for the Video Music Awards show, which will air on August 28. While it's unclear who will perform this year, here are the artists who are up for the award.
The 2022 VMA nominees include Lil Nas X, Jack Harlow and Kendrick Lamar, who each received seven nominations. Doja Cat, Harry Styles and Harry Styles are next with six each. Five each for Drake, Taylor Swift and Billie Eilish.
The hosts and performers of the show have not yet been announced. Presently, nominee Doja Cat hosted the VMAs last year.
Doja Cat for Woman, Drake featuring Future and Young Thug are the Video of the Year nominees. Harry Styles is nominated for As It Was. Olivia Rodrigo for Brutal and Taylor Swift for All Too Well (10-Minute Version) (Taylor’s version). Here are the nominees:
Nominated nominees for the 2022 VMAs
Video of the Year Doja Cat, Woman
Bad Bunny is the Artist of The Year
Drake
Ed Sheeran
Harry Styles
Jack Harlow
Lil Nas X
Lizzo
Song of the Year Adele, Easy on Me
Best New Artist Baby Keem
Dove Cameron
Gayle
Latto
Maneskin
Seventeen
The Best Push Performance of the Year Griff, One Night
Remi Wolf, Sexy Villain
Nessa Barrett, I Hope Ur Miserable Until Ur Dead
Seventeen, Rock With You
Mae Muller, Better Days
Gayle, abcdefu
Shenseea, R. U That
Omar Apollo, Tamagotchi
Wet Leg, Chaise Longue
Muni Long Baby Boo, Muni Long
Doechii, Persuasive
Best Collaboration Drake ft. Future and Young Thug, Way 2 Sexy
Elton John and Dua Lipa, Cold Heart (PNAU Remix)
Post Malone and The Weeknd, One Right Now
Rosalia ft. Rosalia feat.
Best Pop Billie Eilish, Happier Than Ever
Olivia Rodrigo, Traitor
Best Hip-Hop Eminem and Snoop Dogg, From the D 2 the LBC
Future feat. Minecraft servers Drake and Tems, Wait for U
Latto, Big Energy
Nicki Minaj ft. Lil Baby - Do We Have a Problem?
Pusha T, Diet Coke
Best Rock Foo Fighters, Love Dies Young
Jack White, Taking Me Back
Muse Willn't Stand Down
Red Hot Chili Peppers, Black Summer
Shinedown, Planet Zero
Three Days Grace, So Called Life
Best Alternative Avril Lavigne with. Blackbear, Love It When You Hate Me
Imagine Dragons and JID, Enemy
Machine Gun Kelly feat. Willow, Emo girl
Maneskin, I Wanna Be Your Slave
Panic! at the Disco, Viva Las Vengeance
Twenty One Pilots, Saturday
Willow and Avril Lavigne Avril Lavigne and Willow. Travis Barker, G R O W
Best Latin Anitta, Envolver
Bad Bunny, Titi Me Pregunto
Becky G and Karol G, Mamiii
Daddy Yankee Remix
Farruko, Pepas
J Balvin and Skrillex, In Da Getto
Best R&B Alicia Keys City of Gods (Part 2)
Chloe, Have Mercy
H.E.R., For Anyone
Summer Walker and SZA and Cardi B, No Love (Extended Version)
The Weeknd, Out of Time
Best K-pop BTS (The Most Beautiful Moment)
Itzy, Loco
Lisa, Lalisa
Seventeen, Hot
Stray Kids, Maniac
Twice, the Feels
Video for Good Kendrick The Heart Part 5
Latto, P*ssy
Lizzo, About Damn Time
Rina Sawayama, This Hell
Stromae, Fils de Joie
Best Metaverse Performance Blackpink The Virtual
Minecraft
Charli XCX
Justin Bieber - An Interactive Virtual Experience | Wave
Rift Tour ft. Ariana Grande | Fortnite
Twenty One Pilots Concert Experience
Best Longform Video Billie Eilish is Happier Than Ever: A Love Note to Los Angeles
Foo Fighters, Studio 666
Kacey Musgraves, Star-Crossed
Madonna, Madame X
Olivia Rodrigo, Driving Home 2 U
Best Cinematography Baby Keem, Kendrick Lamar and Family Ties
Camila Cabello ft. Ed Sheeran, Bam Bam
Kendrick Lamar, N95
Family Ties, Best Direction Baby Keem and Kendrick Lamar
Billie Eilish, Happier Than Ever
Ed Sheeran, Shivers
Best Art Direction Adele, Oh My God
Drake ft. Future and Young Thug, Way 2 Sexy
Kacey Musgraves, Simple Times
Megan Thee Stallion feat. Dua Lipa Sweetest Pie
Best Visual Effects Billie Eilish, Happier Than Ever
My Universe, Coldplay and BTS
Kendrick Lamar, The Heart Part 5
Megan Thee Stallion and Dua Lipa, Sweetest Pie
The Kid Laroi and Justin Bieber, Stay
Best Choreography BTS Permission to Dance
Doja Cat, Woman
FKA twigs ft. The Weeknd, Tears In The Club
Harry Styles, As It Was
Industry Baby, Jack Harlow and Lil Nas X
Normani ft. Cardi B, Wild Side
Best Editing Baby Keem, Kendrick Lamar and Family Ties
Doja Cat, Get into It (Yuh)
Olivia Rodrigo, Brutal
Rosalia, Saoko
Taylor Swift, All Too Well (10-Minute Version) (Taylor’s Version).
The Weeknd, Take my Breath
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When you get this, reply with your favourite five fics that you’ve written, then pass on to at least five other writers. Let’s spread the self-love.
i was tagged by @tightredpants and @elorianna !!! this was actually v fun to do and i loved reading everyone else’s and hearing what you guys think of your own writing :) so interesting and adds a whole new layer to my appreciation of your works 
1: time in a bottle
the story of Alex and Miles’ relationship, told through the myriad of ways to say “I love you” without using such words
my big bang fic! i spent SO long working on this one, coming up w how to use each of the 100 ways to say i love you (though i only used like 30 of them cos all 100 would’ve been insane), planning out how to line the ideas up w their lives, writing and rewriting every scene... i think i rewrote each at least once, most of them more than that, lol. i reread this fic the other night after not having read it in a WHILE and it actually held up for me. i love how it all came together, how full circle the first and last vignettes are, the way you see their relationship develop thru the little snippets over time. it’s my longest fic too which i treat as an accomplishment cos i usually don’t have the stamina to finish a longer idea.
2: you’re my top 100 shows
in a better, happier universe, Miles goes home to Alex after all his shows, and this is probably (hopefully) what happens
UGH i love this one. if time in a bottle hadn’t been a product of so much hard work this would be my favorite of all my fics. it came to me so naturally, i’m not even kidding when i say the entire fic was inspired by one comment a friend of mine at the time made. she was talking about miles’ look and vibe during the coup de grace tour and how the fluffy hair and makeup and everything makes him look very ‘ruffled and soft’ and ‘buzzed and content’ ... no joke those words inspired the whole fic. and they’re of course in there :) i could just see the whole story in my head and i wrote it in one sitting like a maniac. i also just love alex being fully obsessed w miles and miles treating alex like he’s made of glass. hehe. plus i’m weak for middle of the night sleepy sex. so yeah. definitely one of my fav fics of mine.
3: a wonderful week
“It’s been a wonderful week, hasn’t it, Miles?”
my first fic!!! this was so fun to write, i wasn’t even writing it at first with the intention of posting it, i just rewatched that interview and the look on alex’s fucking face when he says it, knowing how all their shows during that wonderful week had gone... ugh. they’re so gay the fic just wrote itself basically
4: never get tired of dancing (with you)
Miles and Alex are both going back on tour this year, and it makes Alex a bit nervous.
this is my most recent fic after not having written in literally years and i’m honestly very pleased with how it turned out. it’s been a hot minute since i’ve written anything and my life has been insane since january but i finally sat down and properly listened to miles’ new album and it just opened the floodgates. i had a vague idea from a while ago for a fic where alex is having a bad day and miles comforts him and i started trying to flesh out that idea but it turned into this fic somehow. i rly enjoy writing alex’s overthinking and miles helping him through it by simplifying the issue alex has made so complex in his head cos it’s what i imagine their dynamic to be irl and i feel like demonstrates why they are so good for each other. they’re v different people but they complement each other so beautifully and clearly would go to the ends of the earth for the other and it just warmed my heart to make a little world for them again ❤️
5: saturn’s return
saturn’s return is when the planet saturn comes back to meet your natal saturn in your late 20s and early 30s. it is a wake-up call, and this is why so many fear it’s sobering realities. if you’ve spent your twenties in a fog, coasting on your youthful charm, it becomes obvious that your foundation is too flimsy for the long haul. sometimes we make life choices before we really know who we are. at saturn’s return, some of these choices are revealed to be out of sync with our true destiny.
ah yes. saturn’s return. this one is very special to me even tho i rarely reread it since it makes me cringe for some reason. i had such a cathartic time writing it, like i wrote the whole thing in a day or two and posted it kind of hastily cos barely a day later i decided it actually wasn’t finished and went and wrote like 8k more words and had to repost it lmao. but i am proud of it, it was a cool concept to build a story around and it also was super validating how well it was received and all the comments i got definitely motivated me to keep writing and made me feel like a part of the little milex bubble on here with you all :)
so yeah :) most of the fic writers i would tag have already done this so i tag whoever wants to do it and specifically my love @yellowloid 🥰
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golbrocklovely · 2 years
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since i got asked about posting some more tweets, here is the rest of colby's tweets from 2018.
i don’t have proof that these are his tweets, but believe me, they are his.
if it’s bold and italicized, it’s someone’s tweet to him.
if it’s in (), that’s just me commenting lol
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Oct. 3 - livin in a fantasy world
Go off!!! modeling?? Is it in his future? Who will know
Oct. 4 - that would be a dream
moments w you last forever
Oct. 6 - “wonder who you’ll love when i die”
@/ColbyBrock what do you want in a girl?
Oct. 9 - best friend
Oct. 10 - even though i’m forgetful af ill always remember moments that were so special to me
the stars don't make me think about you like they used to
Oct. 11 - it’s rare to find people who can handle your soul just right. hold on to those people
Oct. 14 - you know someone’s emo if you can hear their clothes before you see them
Oct. 18 - i’ll never take someone to the movies for our first date..  idk why people do that, i wanna make a moment together that we’d remember forever
someone wrote something but it’s been deleted
right? that’s like middle school dates lmao
Oct. 19 - you ever meet someone who leaves you stunned cause they’re so beautiful? like someone who literally glows and radiates beauty? without even trying? yeah. i met a girl like that today.
(ngl I think about this tweet so often… COLBY BE MUSHY AGAIN ☹ also imagine being the girl this tweet is about…. Im dead)
Oct. 23 - who’s left to trust other than myself ?
Oct. 26 - she’s nothin but trouble. but i like to get in trouble
Oct. 27 - im scared to get too close to anyone
Oct 29 - tonight's one for the books
Oct. 30 - so the cops came last night ... we got fined for HAVING THE BEST HALLOWEEN PARTY IN LA HAHAH
Nov. 1 - her memory haunts me in a perfect, beautiful way
Nov. 2 - i wanna see if i’d suck complete ass at making music
Nov. 4 - timing is everything, and i just wish we didn’t miss our moment
Nov. 9 - i wonder if my old friends from kansas think of me as much as i think of them
i’ve been so much happier recently doing things for myself. putting myself first and what i want before others. it sounds selfish, but sometimes necessary if you’re feelin down
Nov. 13 - things are so different without you in my life
Nov. 17 - some days are easy some days are hard
Nov. 19 - as obvious as this sounds, just want to remind you that YOUR LIFE is controlled by YOU. if you want to change, create, experience, manifest anything .. it’s up to YOU. so easy to forget this sometimes. become the person you want to be
Nov. 20 - i can’t live here forever
Nov. 22 - i love u and i am thankful for u in my life
Nov. 23 - lmao social media LA is like high school
Nov. 25 - i’m gunna be single foreva where the dogs at ?
one time i held a girl's hand, but i got too nervous
Dec. 7 - you’re different and i like that
Dec. 8 - why is it that people only start to care when you don’t ?
Relationships scare me yooo like I don’t even have enough time to devote to myself lol
Dec. 9 - that’s why we wait for a while. nows the time to be single and focus on ourselves
Dec. 12 - with all the insecurities/negativity that derive from social media and the entertainment world present day , i’m so scared for the next gen of kids and what they’re gunna have to deal with
social media is great for many reasons i’m not going to address now,  but also very harmful for mental health. ESPECIALLY for young, impressionable kids who look up to dumbass content creators. us creators forget the impact we have on our fans sometimes.. and that’s terrifying
subconsciously comparing yourself to others constantly, # of likes and followers, being judged for everything you post are all great examples of “the bad” part of social media. SOCIAL MEDIA IS GOING TO BE THE CAUSE OF SO MANY MENTAL HEALTH PROBLEMS IN THE FUTURE
end: not saying you should stop being on social media or supporting creators at all, just PLEASE take breaks if you ever feel that it’s consuming you. too much of anything can destroy you inside. take new tech. at your own pace and don’t get caught up in it all
Dec. 17 - sayin goodbye to all fake friends
Dec. 19 - simple. negativity creates negativity. positivity creates positivity. you decide what you release into the universe. forgive. learn. find yourself in others.
Dec. 24 - some girls on social media act like the cliche popular cheerleaders in highchool �� #foreverstuck
Dec. 26 - sitting next to the most talkative person in the world on my flight back to LA *slowly putting my headphones in*
Dec. 29 - rather waste my days w you
Dec. 30 - damn i’m sad about moving out and we haven’t even moved out yet
Navi’s been sleeping next to me every night. my heart
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whatdoesshedotothem · 2 years
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no kiss bit last night caught two bugs on A- this morning told Lady S- and V- yesterday morning of the table I had seen at Howell and James’s and asked them to go and look at it - they liked it very much but recommended a workbox the one at 9 guineas - Lady S- would not hear of the table - far too much to give - so said V- but the table beautiful - enough - determined to give it without more ado - Had Hutton the tailor at 9 to alter the fit of A-s’ habit and shorten the skirt - Lady Georgiana Fane considered the best rider - St George’s riding school (near the park?) considered the best - recommends Ashmead, 6 mount street, Berkley square for travelling caps - wrote the following to ‘the honourable Miss Stuart 3 Carlton terrace’ to be put into the table - ‘my dear Charlotte I am delighted to have seen you so happy - among the various forms of congratulation that are pouring in upon you, I have certainly not chosen the most portable - but may it be useful, and may it now and then remind you of my affectionate interest in your welfare, and that I hope to see you even happier some years hence, than you are now - affectionately yours. A Lister 26 Dover street Thursday morning’ - had thought last night what to write and composed the latter half of the above while dress this morning post horses again and A- and I out at 10 ½ to 1 ½ - drove immediately to Howell and James’s bought and paid for the table put the above note into it - it was to be done up and cleaned and sent in the curse of 3 or 4 hours - then to Colnaghi’s and then the trouble of the world (our postboy not knowing London and John (Clarke) being raw and dull) to find Baldwin’s gardens (Gray’s Inn Lane) where we expected to find the central national school - a dirty place - a mere parish national school shortly to be given up being too expense - the school master and mistress (man and wife) have £110 a year salary allowed - Mr and Mrs Edward Trot - she on hearing our errand caught at it, and would be glad to be engaged - both of them looked dirty particularly the wife - he might have done for us - but did not like the look of her without cap - glad to get away - then drove to the Herald’s college St Bennets’ hill near St Paul’s - much difficulty to find it - our postboy knows nowhere - the entrance in a narrow street - very bad turning into the cour - 2 officers of the college there ready to answer inquiries - the one who was chief speaker who gave his address and to whom we are to write (gave my own address) was ‘Mr Rogers Harrison Herald’s college Doctors commons’ - began by asking my own pedigree hoped that Mr Radcliffe their Rouge Croix had done all right - his [?] conduct had alarmed his friends in the north - yes! all right but the deaths should be entered - I must write and give the dates, and sign in verifications of the same on my next coming to London - asked Mr Harrison to make out the connection with the Ribblesdales and any other connection he could - then asked about the arms of Walker and set A- to work - the arms borne by the W-s of Waterclough argent a chevron sable changed with 3 garbs or not be found under the name of W- but the Crownest W- arms evidently the original arms of W- varied in many ways - A- to make out what she can and send it to Mr Harrison - thought she could connect herself with a Thomas W- registered in the college as having purchased arms, being of Bow near Stratford Middlesex in 1714 - arms granted 28 January that year - home at 1 ½ - John dined - I sat musing what to write to Lord Stuart de R- about the treasury order - then determined to write nothing till I had seen Mr Bewsher and learnt what it would be best to write - dozed and slept till A- and I out again at 3 - drove about shopping - went to the furniture bazaar adjoining the house and carriage bazaar) in Baker street - the furniture part all in the hands of one person or one firm  - ready money cheap but not thoroughly good? furniture pays 15pc from France - then to Pantheon a new bazaar in Oxford street - very handsome - the pillars and arcades painted on canvass à l’Italienne Mr Harper proposed doing as my great room at Northgate - the effect very good but great care required I see, in stretching the canvass tight enough - see a few undulations in it in some lights - Smirke was the architect - a magnificent room for the purpose - entered from great
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Blenheim? street by a handsome conservatory - picturesque rooms - a good slight sketch by Turner the style of which we were taken with - very large - magnificent pile of building for the purpose - Ensor the druggist in Oxford street had just before told us the things sold there were of inferiority quality so the speculations would not eventually answer - home at 6 ¾ - dinner at 7 - tired - asleep  all the evening till 11 - A- asleep too a little while then writing a little - no tea - very fine day - very hot - F72° in my dressing room at 11 ½ pm
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Hey! 💝anon here.. That was me giving tips earlier.. Been back on Tumblr for just a couple days, clearing out my old account, saying hellos to old online friends. Thank you, so much, for how you inspired my story last year. You motivated me - so much!
The story finished. I adidn’t do a huge amount with Maureen & Lyam’s relationship; they had a few more moments together, bonding & learning to trust & appreciate each other. Their final moment in the story was their first kiss! (I can send a snippet if you’d like?)
I turned 19 last year (so, a bit younger than you I suppose :)) It’s been good, getting offline. It’s given me more time to do other things; learn gardening from an elderly relative, do some singing (on my own lol), spend time with my family, learn about things that interest me.
Anyway. Hope you’re doing okay and taking care of yourself, and you can find ways to make life easier, whatever those ways are. 
I understand about the streaming service thing. My family usually just watch cheap second hand DVDs (charity shop sells 20 DVDs for £1!), and occasionally use the cheaper version of Netflix (with ads). I use Internet Archive (archive.org) for books and films (manly older, lesser known films), it’s free, so that’s a good option. 
And totally, get away from Instagram & TikTok! If you think you’d be happier without it, drop it! People online can be really nasty. I quit looking at Reddit, & basically all comments, last year after I suffered a deep depression (due to peoples’ extremely nasty comments toward a part of lgbt that I identify with) Doing a lot better now. 
IDK, and it’s not my business, but hope something works for you. The best people, the ones worth knowing, are those who appreciate character and kindness over consumerist beauty ideals (I say consumerist cause it’s in my belief that we’re pretty well brainwashed to think “perfect looking” people look good; a way of getting people to keep buying makeup they don’t need and the latest fashions)
Ahh, hope this isn’t too much, I write fast and am only basing this all off a couple posts I saw you made, so I’m real sorry if it’s too much! I’ve got a ton of spare time today so I’m just rambling. 
I can’t be coming back to online socialising like I used to, as it took up so much of my limited spare time last year, so this is a rarity, just to say hello. Hugs 🫂 
💝anon
i literally cried seeing it was you— i was noshing on a gyro, crying alone in the kitchen. I have hereditary depression, so it won't get better. It'll always be there. It's just worse than normal lately. Hoping it'll calm down, I wrote and edited some of my book today.
This is like writing a lovely old pen pal, ah, it's nearly therapeutic. I think of you often. I'm nearing tears as i write this because something about talking to you has felt so homeward bound. I love archive, that's how I watched the clash movie, Rude Boy! I have some unread books I wish to finish, one is kafka and the other is khalil gibran. You should see the khalil gibran book, it has such an ornate cover.
I adopted a cat since we've last spoken, she was beside my neighbours house during a storm. I had been taking out my dog and heard her meowing. When i approached her, she immediately came to me. Oh, her name is Laila, she's a tortoise shell.
I definitely have to agree, we are brainwashed constantly to see aging as a sign of lost beauty. Similarly, we are taught that our bodies are never enough because whatever the trend is— it isn't for a girl with an hourglass body. I told my mother the other night, through lots of tears i have never truly loved myself. I mean, around puberty is when confidence develops, at least in my opinion. I got bullied for my body developing into what it now is. So, you can imagine what eating disorder shit i go through because of it. Only fueled by my mother also having a fucked up perception of body-image as well. I am trying my best to understand that my value is an independent variable from the weight on a scale.
Please send me all the writing you wish to, I remember loving your writing. I started publishing my book, but it's completely different. I had to change everything; it was going nowhere. I couldn't get a plot to stitch together. I was nearly at the point of deleting it. Then, out of the blue, I woke up after some dream and was like— "what if I used tamino as a faceclaim? What if x, y, z?". Soooo, i ended up experimenting with it and i actually followed through on replacing nick (i want to implement him in the new book tbh, i miss him). Ah, i hope you find the time to read the chapters I have published... that is if you want to read them, truly there is no pressure there. Again though; please send me your work.
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