#he loves you this much

[ravenswritingblog]

Kento's thoughts: his lover is not okay.

you look inconsolable, and my help is futile.

your blank expression tells me more than your words could ever do.

“i feel nothing.” you said, “i'm shattered to the point of being nullified.”

i listened, attentively, as if the solution could be found in your words, as if your soul breaking, empty voice could contain the key to solve every single one of your problems.

something, selfish and greedy of protagonism, was thrumming in the back of my head hoping that key would bring my name.

am i not good enough to make you happy?

but i knew better, i knew much better than that.

you've been troubled all your life, you never had anything even nearly related to happiness.

“i was just a kid.” you tell me.

i tried to take your suffering away from you, but just like a curse, it has gotten attached to you and it just wouldn't leave you.

and it made me feel so powerless, knowing that even with all my experience, i will never be able to exorcise the pain within you.

you, with the warmest smile, the coolest personality, the greatest taste, the many interesting hobbies, the incredible amount of fun facts.. and the biggest amount of anger i've ever seen.

it was all you had left.

“there's nothing anymore here, you feel it?”

you brought my hand on your chest, right where your heart was beating. it's warm, but cold.

you look fine: your face has no trace of sadness, or any other negative emotions. but there's a couple of wrinkles where they're not supposed to be.

your smile lines have become so evident, even when you're not smiling.

how much do you have in that body of yours that it's still kept undisclosed? what's the amount of sadness you bring within yourself since you were just 12?

you don't remember the last time you were able to cry.

i remember how it left an impression on me, when i asked you to be my lifetime lover, and not a tear left your eyes. i saw your expression change into a moved one and you were happy, undoubtedly so, but you never cried, not a single time.

“i'm so sorry” you keep repeating to me, as if it's your fault. “i wish i could cry, i wish i could show you the pain that i can't feel anymore”

“and i wish i could cure you of this illness, i wish i could snap my fingers and make you feel okay” i quickly replied, “you have nothing to apologise for”

you're everything i have left.

i told you about my best friend, about geto, about gojo, about me. i told you about my first job, and then i told you about the one i ran away from. you listened to me, i saw the worry and empathy in your eyes grow more and more with each word i spoke, like my thoughts were gold flowing your way, as if all those things were to be kept in a chest and guarded by a dragon.

god, im such a nerd.

but you love it. i told you about how much i loved to play with legos as a kid, i told you about my favourite character i played with on street fighter, the hours i spent organising my yu-gi-oh cards, and all the band posters in my room.

and you loved it. you told me that you were so glad you met me, someone with your same interests.

we listen to metal music together, and while you dance all around the room, i look at you.

you're so beautiful.

you're the most beautiful person in the world.

but that's so cliché! my mind tells me, but i ignore it: you're the most beautiful person in the world.

the love on your face when you give me a crown made with sticky notes; the tiktok videos you send me with those little drawn bunnies doing silly things, with the caption "it's so us"; the expression you make when you want to convince me to do my makeup; the "babe i think you'd love this song!”.

you love me, and i feel it.

i feel so loved, i feel so wanted. and i'm so proud of being yours, i'm so happy to say you're mine, that you're my lover, that the ring on your finger was mine to give you.

and i love you, i love you with every single ounce of my body, i love you how the leaves love the trees enough to sacrifice themselves so the tree can live. i love you, i love you so much.

but that is not enough to make you happy now.

it's not enough to make your heart be overflowing with all the emotions that a human has.

you let me read your diary once, that you kept since you were 15. it was horrifying.

a kid should never feel this way.

i asked you if i could write down some things you had written there, with the promise of never letting anyone see them. you said yes.

— i want to crack my ribcage open and rip myself apart.

— i knew my skin, that wrapped my frame, wasn't made to play this game, and then i saw them, torch in hand, he laid it out, what he had planned, and then i said, i'll take the grave, please don't send them on my way.

— i could pull the steering wheel

— the very existence of the self is the seeking of a pain that has never seen beginning nor end.

these were the most impressive to me. you had so much within yourself and i never knew, i never knew the heartbreak you've been carrying for so long.

i'm scared to touch you, i'm scared to break you.

you talk to me in the most normal tone ever, because you tell me that “even if i wanted to i can't feel bad, or sad, or anything other than angry. i only get angry.”

i feel something in my stomach that i can't describe.

my vision gets blurry, and my heart skips a bit.

fear?

do you still love me?

an irrational thought comes to my head as soon as you open up to me. if you feel nothing, does it mean you don't feel anything for me anymore?

before i can ever formulate any sentence, your hands cup my face, and you kiss my forehead.

“please don't cry my baby, i can't stand it when you're sad, it makes me feel so bad” you pouted.

i sniffled. your fingertips are cold, but i still melt with your touch, feeling immediately reassured.

“i'm sorry, i just.. i think i got so caught up in how you felt that i felt it myself.”

“then i'll take it that your tears are just the ones i wish i could cry.” you smile.

“yes, that could be an idea.” i smile black. i kiss your lips. i hold you close.

you snuggle a bit more on the couch, until we're practically glued together. your socks and your favourite blanket, covering the both of us, is making this so cozy. i take a deep breath, and i let it all out.

we're okay.

you're gonna be okay, because i'm gonna make it so. i wanna see you feel. i wanna see you cry all the tears you want. i wanna see you abandon that diary of yours and let it rot in the back of your wardrobe where you keep it hidden, with all those terrible things, i want you to forget about it because you'll be so happy you won't have anything bad to write in there anymore.

i wanna put everything back in your ribcage the way it's supposed to be.

“babe, can we go to the movies later? there's a movie I wanna watch” you ask me, about to fall asleep.

it's 2pm, we finished lunch just an hour ago.

“sure, love.” i kiss your forehead.

as long as i wish i could do all of those things right now, i know it takes time. i'm going to protect you, love. i'm gonna protect you like i could never protect my loved ones. i'm going to give all myself in order to keep you, my source of happiness, with me forever.

i love you. so much.

#this was such a.. #i was throwing up words #this is for every sad nanami stan out there #he loves you this much #jjk #jujutsu kaisen #nanami kento #jujutsu kaisen nanami kento #kento nanami #kento nanami jujutsu kaisen

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

The math just adds up!

#dungeon meshi #falin touden #marcille donato #farcille #I always loved how chapter 27 ends with them both so bloody and 28 starts with them in the bath. #not just because of how iconic the bathtub moment is but because you know they had to scrap off so much gore first. #I think everyone in the party took a very long and methodical bath but Falin was basically *all* blood*. #Being covered in blood is one of those 'just girly things' that women deserve to stop being shamed about. #I just don't think Chilchuck is progressive enough. He probably made them take a bath first B*/ #Okay jestering aside I want to just highlight - #The magnitude of Marcille's joy at seeing her dearest friend again! Of holding her and sharing her presence in the same room! #Something about this reunion feels like a beautiful dream you are afraid of waking up from...

[phantom-of-the-501st]

Remember that this is not the proof that they love each other

That was a last-ditch attempt from Crowley to get Aziraphale to stay

This is the proof that they love each other

Their love wasn't just made real because they kissed

It always existed

#i will argue this point til my dying breath #they always loved each other #if you think the kiss was the only proof #then i adviae you to reexamine the relationship #the kiss wasn't romantic anyway #it was desperate and painful #it was a last ditch effort from crowley because he loves aziraphale so much #but it was not the confession #he'd already confessed his feelings #the kiss was never necessary to do that #good omens #ineffable husbands #aziracrow #crowley #aziraphale #good omens spoilers #go2 spoilers

[hiding-under-the-willow]

Quite possibly the funniest shit I have ever seen in my life

#atlas.art #artists on tumblr #mcyt #hermitcraft #hermitcraft 10 #xisumavoid #xisuma #mumbo jumbo #hermitcraft mumbo #grian #implied at least lol #i forgot how much I love my xisuma design he was so fun to draw here #not pictured here: xisuma's absolutely unhinged scream immediately after this and grian screeching 'YOU SAID HAVE FAITH' over and over agai

[saelrum]

"Was I sweet once?"

#bg3 fanart #bg3 #baldur's gate iii #baldurs gate 3 #baldurs gate fanart #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 durge #bg3 the dark urge #the dark urge #durge #fanart #digital art #yes #yes he was #he still is if you play redemption #i just... love this white murder baby so much

[oifaaa]

Annabeth is so much stronger then me I'm just saying if my mum got pissed and punished me for something my field trip partner did after i was nothing but the perfect child for the last 5 years meanwhile the guy who actually did the thing got nothing but praise from his dad yeah no Luke wouldn't even have time to ask me if I wanted to fight against the gods I'd already be starting my own revolution

#percy jackson #percy jackon and the olympians #pjo tv show #percy jackson spoilers #pjo spoilers #pjo tv show spoilers #its the double standard #percy has been here for 7 days #and has literally been nothing but a git towards the gods for those 7 days #and yet his dad is sending river spirits to tell him he loves him #annabeth chase #i love you so much #you are so strong #couldn't be me #im too petty #oifaaaposts

[raintides]

the only guy i know how to draw

#baldur's gate 3 #gale dekarios #gale of waterdeep #tara the tressym #THE ONLY GUY I CAN DRAW FROM MEMORY #i love you. i love you so much. heart hands emoji #he is my galewife

[golyadkin]

it's because i wouldn't let you kill the bounty hunter isn't it

#he's so mean 2 me #bg3 #baldurs gate 3 #astarion #bg3 tav #these files were titled 'asstarion' on my computer #that'll show him #managed to redress my finger so i can draw #but seeing as this is my first time drawing asstarion i'm not gonna go full lineart and colour #it was fun though he's got a great face #hate drawing his hair though #sorry you don't want to fuck me astarion #sorry you don't have good taste 😤 #also i gave my tav pure black eyes and now every time he frowns it looks like he's got these big puppydog eyes i love him so much

[ghouljams]

The Ghost distribution system... He really is like a stray cat, or a bear that learns minivans have food in them, he just keeps coming back no matter how many times you try to send him on his way. It doesn't matter how it happens but any scrap of kindness and he just determines he's going to attach himself to you.

Maybe he offers you a hand moving your couch when he passes your place and hears you swearing. You offer him dinner and Ghost has never been the sort to turn down a free meal, so he sticks around. It's weird that he doesn't even pretend to refuse, just takes you up on it immediately and even offers to help cook. You send him home and he's... there again the next day, waiting on your doorstep with a box of pasta asking if you could do anything with it. He's going to come back, he's going to keep coming back.

Maybe it's from meeting you at a bar. He's the biggest guy you can grab when your ex walks in, and somehow he seems approachable despite... well, everything about him. Fake boyfriend for a few hours at the bar is one thing, having him show up the next day to fix your sink because you mentioned offhandedly that it was leaking the night before is another. Having him sit in your kitchen and peal an orange for you because you said you were hungry is really driving home that this guy isn't leaving.

Hell maybe it's just a one night stand that never seems to end. You wake up and Ghost has already made breakfast. The two of you sit at your little table and eat quietly, Ghost scrolling his phone while you eye him warily, trying to figure out his game. He asks what you want to do today and somehow you can't find the right way to ask when he's planning on going home. He just sort of moves in, you realize he's printed a key for himself while you're grabbing groceries. It's nice he offers to pay, but you don't know when having him around became your normal.

Ghost sees you, he wants you, you're his. He's not leaving, he'll come back. He knows that this house has food and warmth, he knows that families forget to tie their trash up off the ground. He's a man of instinct, and you are going to be his perfect match.

#cod x reader #x reader #simon ghost riley #simon ghost riley x reader #ghost x reader #ghost mw2 #simon riley cod #simon riley #simon riley x reader #ghost cod #tbh this is how he ends up with love lol #cod ghost #ghost call of duty #simon riley x you #gn!reader #I know there's a million neighbor!Simon fics but goddamn #I love that shit so much #the man just decides you're his because you share a wall #gets me every time #the ghost distribution system

[soyochii]

Quick doodles before I evaporate.

#jjk #geto suguru #satosugu #gojo satoru #Don't look to close these are so rough #“Girl dinner” I say to myself looking at the 500th tiktok edit of sato/sugu actually dry heaving wanting to crumble into dust #jjk is the worst thing ive done for my mental health in a while #anyway I still love them and wish they could have been happy together for a little longer #Didn't get a chance to hug your best friend and tell him how much he means to you in highschool #no biggie just do it in the afterlife #Jkjkjkjjkjkjk Everything is fine #my art #jujutsu kaisen

[casmick-consequences]

lucius' biggest, most genuine smiles always being reserved for pete is something that can be so personal

#HE LOVES THAT BALD MAN SO MUCH #YOU AND ME BOTH MY SPICY LITTLE RAT BOY #ofmd #our flag means death #lucius spriggs #black pete #lupete #ofmd season 2 #ofmd s2

[nipuni]

Silence in the library

A speedpaint video of this will be available at my Patreon on february 1st!

#doctor who #david tennant #tenth doctor #10th doctor #ten #DW #hate how this turned out but #I love Silence in the library/Forest of the dead so much so I don't care #top 3 DW episodes for sure #the whole 'you just killed someone I liked that's not a safe place to stand' #'I'm the doctor and you're in the biggest library in the universe. Look me up' #MAN he was so cool!! and watching the shadows retreat!! #AAA I miss Ten #my art

[chloesimaginationthings]

Michael Afton let his FNAF trauma slip again…

#myart #chloesimagination #comic #michael afton #mike schmidt #ballora #fnaf #fnaf movie #sister location #fnaf fanart #five nights at freddy's #I’m so sorry to Michael Afton once again #my boy just misses his mom #TBH he must have mixed feelings on Ballora #similar to with baby Fredbear and spring Bonnie #it just reminds him too much of his mother despite her not being his mom #Ballora is just based off her from what we know #Mike can actually sympathize here though he also misses his mom #Mikes just get mommy issues it comes with the title #Ballora at least is also sympathetic to this #love you dearly Ballora 🩵 really wanted to draw her again

[contactlessdrivethru]

there is something unique and deeply special about monkey d luffy as a protagonist. he’s overwhelmingly ADORED by the fandom. he’s consistently the most or at least top 3 most popular characters in the whole series. peoples takes about him are gushingly positive. and that’s… really uncommon.

a LOT of fandoms i’ve witnessed or been in have a tendency to favor characters other than the main character. especially in anime. the main characters are often written as a blank slate for readers/watchers to project onto, but that makes them not as interesting and so they don’t get the fan attention.

but luffy is so far from that. and he’s ALWAYS been this way. we love him so much. he’s the heart of the story and the heart of the fandom in every single way. and i think that speaks to how well-written he is as a character. he’s fun and charming and complex and interesting and he makes us laugh and cry and cheer and hope and love. he’s able to inspire so much joy in people, both in his world but also in this one. and i think that’s really special. i feel so grateful to have found this story that means so much to me, and i’m so grateful that luffy exists.

#i’m in a very emotional mood tonight and i was just. musing #about how wonderful our best boy is #and how much true and genuine joy and hope and wisdom he has given me #i feel like i’ve learned so much from him about how to love people #and that’s. freely. enthusiastically. easily and without abandon. #love you monkey d. luffy. you saved my life #one piece #monkey d luffy #one piece meta #personal

[wasyago]

various tango doodles

#hermitcraft #tangotek #my art #sketch #i love drawing human tango so much you guys have no idea.... he's just. he's so... but the creature one is still the most favorite. #also the 3rd sketch of him with glasses..... don't think im gonna draw him with glasses anymore it just doesn't look right #idk why. maybe the forehead being covered or the fact that he doesn't have ears or something. it's just... no #in other news. im really enjoying drawing him with a bit of facial hair! it just adds that little bit of character and maturity #he looks less like a baby and i think that's a good thing #all my previous fanarts now look bald tho 😭

[machinerot]

#my art #you know he was being a little shit #harry du bois #kim kitsuragi #harrykim #disco elysium #disco elysium fanart #this is the first drawing ive managed to finish in over a year (we dont talk about the 3 million wips) #so thank you gay people for getting rid of my art block 🫶 i love you #i didnt use a reference though so apologies if the proportions look a bit wonky but GOD i had so much fun making this #ive missed Enjoying doing art. like actually enjoying the process and not just impatiently rushing for the finished piece #like maybe art IS fun.. #crazy. anyways #this sideblog is brand new so i doubt people will even see this but!! if you do then i should have some more DE art on the way :-)