#healing too I guess

[finleycannotdraw]

trying out a different brush pen for coloring!! this is a scene from chapter 10 of With All the Hope and All the Doubt by QueenScarletTheKing on ao3 :) it’s part 2 of a series, and I highly recommend checking it out for a fun au, hilarious and emotional writing, the boys being dumb, nimona being a cat, and a great journey of how anxiety is different depending on how you’ve lived!!!

not gonna lie, I drew the kitchen the way I’ve been picturing it in the fic but I have no idea if it’s accurate

#nimona #nimona 2023 #nimona art #ballister boldheart #ambrosius goldenloin #ballister x ambrosius #goldenheart #fanart of fanfiction #finley cannot draw #so crazy how the Nimona hyperfixation is like. taking over my life #I thought for sure good omens would bulldoze it #I guess nimona is healing my inner child?? and honestly healing my current self too #anyways. #watch it if you haven’t. read this fic if you haven’t.

[umeji-writes]

Okay, but let's talk about Balam's hair for a hot second

(Yes, it may have become one of my fixations) You know, the guy not only cut it radically - and we know it's because of Iruma - he also let it grow back, and now he grooms it much better than before. Why? While my wishful thinking headcanon is that Kalego offered to brush it after they declared their feelings for each other (they are definitely introduced as best friends, but c'mon, look at them here)

...I also recognize this is not canon, so it can't be the actual reason. So I was wondering: why this difference? IMO it signifies personal growth, but what caused it, if Iruma led to the haircut? And then it hit me. Meeting Iruma, again - but in a deeper way than I thought at first. According to Balam's own words, he decided to cut his hair to appear more approachable. But why not brush it and style it as he's doing now? Everything we know about Balam's past points to him being treated like a weirdo and marginalized, not only because he likes picture books, he was also hyperfixated with the existence of humans.

This went on all his life, from bullies at school to his own students. He was likely wounded, full of self doubt and possibly shame, so he withdrew into himself, and his hair was messy because why bother if people avoid you anyway. So imagine finally having tangible proof that you were right all along. That's life changing, not only because of the discovery itself - it can make you reevaluate your whole story, and yourself. A radical cut was a logical thing to do, to break with the past. But why letting the hair grow back then? I speculate that Balam is most comfortable with long hair after all, and he feels more like himself this way (I mean, he had medium-to-long hair in all flashbacks). I like to think that his personal grooming is a metaphor for his newly found self confidence and self love: he can be himself to the fullest, he likes the demon he is, and he's not afraid of showing it to everyone else now, by making his hair prettier. He was right all along, and everybody else can shut it.

Such a small detail in the grand scheme of things, yet enormous for the single character. I love this manga so much ♡

#m!ik #mairimashita! iruma kun #mairuma #welcome to demon school iruma kun #iruma kun #balam #balam sensei #m!ik balam #balam shichirou #shichikal #manga analysis #m!ik analysis #so i wrote the first draft for this post one month ago #i wanted to show a wip for my hair brushing fanart before sharing this #little did i know that thanks to balam's hair i would have had a breakthrough for my own gender in some weeks lmao #apparently i think about it a lot #so i guess iruma healed not only balam but me too #thanks buddy #butterfly effect #of course the explanation could simply be that nishi changed her mind and went back to long hair #but idk #she writes really well and usually puts down the bases for future developments tens of chapters before #so i doubt this is random #let me know what you think

[uncanny-tranny]

So much love and recognition to the people who don't know how they feel about recovering. To the people whose scars are fading away, and there's a sinking feeling, despite knowing that it's a good thing. To the people who miss when they were "worse," when they felt "broken." To the people who mourn losing their coping mechanisms, even the ones that were destructive, scary, or unpleasant. To those who feel guilty they're healing because their past self wasn't ready.

Whatever it is, there is nothing wrong with any of those feelings. It's a natural reaction, something you don't have ultimate control over. There is nothing shameful about yourself, and I admire the strength it takes to recognize how you feel, even the parts that do feel like the "wrong" reaction to a Good Thing.

#mental health #self harm tw #self harm mention tw #sh tw #mental health recovery #mental health support #i love you i love you i love you #i admire you and empathize with you and want to be your fellow man. i want to share this wold *with* you #and that includes sharing a world that you aren't sure you deserve or are ready for #the world can wait. humans have been here for hundreds of thousands of years. it can wait #when i think about all this what makes me feel better is remembering how many billions of people have lived #and it makes me feel better to know that there has never been a problem too big to have - to uniquely awful #i have my own conflicted feelings about this because objectively i am healing #but it feels like i have boarded on land after surviving the worst trip to sea ever... #...a trip that was plagued with my ship being flung through hurricanes and lightnight and i'm only manning a sailboat... #...and i have found land and that land is good... #...but my legs feel like they will give out underneath me because this is solid land that i have never stood on... #...and you get used to the constant seasickness and sealegs and wondering *how* you'll make it out - If you will... #...the peace feels like a ruse at times because all you've known was chaos. but it's a good ruse and a comfortable one #and so you learn i guess to sink into the comfort like a spft feather pillow

[zivvis]

guy who crossed the country just to buy a necklace instantly gets roasted by the guy he bought the necklace for

genuinely tho this line got me so good. like yes I thought it would be that easy but I'm so glad it isn't! feels like gore wouldn't even be gore if his romance started with or hinged on a piece of jewelry

#i can't tell yet if he still says it even when you have an established relationship but in some ways it'd be even funnier if he did #gore skyrim #skyrim gore #gore mod #he's so quickly become my favorite follower out of any game i've ever played #thank you for using your magical (?) nose to tell me when its falmer i hate those guys #and for taking me on your healing journey :') has actually been helpful irl #also yazrikh is here too i guess for tagging purposes

[samarecharm]

I miss goro. Bring his bitchass back

#chattin #thinking of him in strikers is funny #local hermit and murderer out in the sun and living free #i think he would like sophia. not a whole lot but like. maybe hes a lil attached #thinkin about him having to be in a camper w the thieves is so funny #my mans is NOT sleeping in that fucking tent. hes finding some rocks to huddle under for warmth #but also. him and makoto riding up front #hes prob got his license too so they share driving duties #this is purely based off of my hcs for him since i didnt play royal but still wanted him alive #maybe his connections w shido also make him a suspect? i dunno #so by saes suggestion; he begrudgingly goes along w them #i think. it would be healing for him to see monarchs and their reasons for being so cruel #to know that they were in a bad place and acted out maliciously bc of it #and to see them grapple w the consequences of their actions #they did awful things even if they thought it was worth it. and now they have to start over #and guess what; life doesnt just end or stop; they gotta keep going #obviously this would make goro gag and block it out. he would hate it. #but it would still be healing #the guy at the boiler room who believed that maybe…..he could change……..hes still there

[lazycranberrydoodles]

phone studies 🎉 you know the tan line from either ruoye or the cursed shackle would be AWFUL

#i have so much love in my heart for tgcf fanartists but if i see one more twink xie lian im gonna lose it #xie lian has no scars cause godhood heals them all #hua cheng has many - lots of stuff from before he died #including his death wound (which i guess was a sword to the chest because jun wu stabs him there later) #and then he has an additional one on his eye and his top scars #idc. eming being born after he tore out his eye #and then being doubly a part of his own blood / self transformation/determination because he used it for top surgery #is funny and also VERY on theme #[waves hands vaguely] people who like men are welcome to go bananas on this one #me rubbing my hands together and laughing evilly when i get to use my figure drawing skills on my blorbos #btw a good reference for xie lians body type is ufc fighters #not too bulky its functional fitness built to kick ass and lift stuff #i also personally think both of hualian would gain weight after getting together cause theyd start eating more meals :) #edited cause i forgot his tattoo LMAO #tgcf #my art #hua cheng #xie lian #hualian #study #tian guan ci fu #mxtx #hob #heaven official's blessing #figure drawing

[puppyeared]

i wrote this as a joke because I wanted to strangle a guy watching tiktoks without headphones on the bus, but im genuinely disturbed that we've gotten to a point where convenience comes first. and it depresses me even more that its used to justify and monetize greed

#like we have so many ways of doing things that could help us in the long run but because we're told it requires more work we just cant #its too resource intensive. or maybe its too much to maintain. we have to overlook benefits so money can go into more important things #we teach each other to do things a certain way so it works for everyone but who was it convenient for first? what abt who it might hurt? #i have to wonder if the rules our current system uses is worth listening to or following if it doesnt have our best interests in mind. u an #me and the ppl around us.. would we be better off if i ate my meals knowing the person who grew it wanted to feed others the way they could #feed themselves? and that isnt to say we're going to be happy doing it but i guess satisfied that its helping someone instead of quietly #accepting that itll eventually go in the dumpster behind a grocery store because it stopped looking appetizing or it wasnt on sale anymore #what about building homes so we can shelter each other? what if we were satisfied with what we did because we knew it would be paid back #with kindness? isnt that what we evolved to do?? heal each others bones and tell stories and help each other?? #why dont houses come with solar panels or generators unless we find a way to make people pay to use the sun? why is our pooled money used #to fund genocides instead of education and hospitals? whose interests and convenience came first when we started this?? #i wont pretend to know the answer because i dont. but we all know we're miserable and im sorry to say that i cant see myself fighting #for a world that wont fight for me too. why do we work if we cant live from it?? why did they stop us from plucking more teeth from our #bosses until they could build more walls around themselves and then go back to underpaying us?? #im so tired. i cant even imagine making it to age 70 #yapping #vent

[thornycanary]

i care them tbh

#deltarune #deltarune chapter 2 #kris dreemurr #ralsei #noelle holiday #susie #susie deltarune #kris deltarune #toby fox #the fun squad #i guess #idk #i consider these four the fun squad #with lancer too #anyways #this took so long but im so proud of this #this was all inspired by that one the boys photoshoot lowkey-ish #my art #fanart #also the thing noelle is holding to her head is ralsei's magic healing pack (totally did not make that up just now)

[gentaroukisaragi]

Mirrorman Episode 13 (1972) / Chojyuu Sentai Liveman ED - Ashita Ni Ikiru Ze! (1988) / Kamen Rider Black Episode 50 (1988) / Kamen Rider Fourze Episode 2 (2011)

To fight for this world means to love it.

#common sayings #this is unrelated to my other post about web weaving tbh #did i put too many flowers in the kamen rider black section? yes. would i change it? absolutely not #there was just something about 1988 and toei studios writing about heroes fighting people they had once loved and who were (voluntarily or #involuntarily) throwing away their humanity #i am always the first to bring up the mirrorman episode but i do feel like i cheating a little with it because Kyotaro got blinded in that #episode and his vision was healed by the end of it which is why he is appreciating the sky #though i guess its still a toku hero loving nature which counts for the purposes of this photoset #long #long post

[sillyfairygarden]

halloweenie costumes 🎃

#my wrist is still healing so im not going crazy on these. but they were silly and fun #thellos art corner #hermitcraft fanart #mcyt fanart #hermitcraft #mcyt #well i guess bigb’s here so its traffic art too. well. im not tagging that tho god bless

[piosplayhouse]

I love Jiang Cheng but I don't rlly want to make him better or worse I kind of just want to put him in a jar an d watch him pickle for a while

#and boil on the radiator #jk for once this isnt a rainbow dash jar post i swear #its a shen jiu jar post. which i guess you might be able to turn into a rainbow dash one if you're that kinda guy but #anyway i think hes the opposite of wwx in a really interesting way where wwx is usually portrayed as self destructive #but in truth his self destruction is all for other people #a la shen yuan #jiang cheng on the other hand will destroy himself if left alone for long enough #he's got too many emotions and none of the capabilities to cope. he's already running himself into the ground #he claws at his scabs so they dont heal hes the snake eating its own tail etc etc #my little specimen #if you made it this far im assuming youre kaya. hi oomfie #mdzs #mo dao zu shi #jiang cheng #jc #gdc #the grandmaster of demonic cultivation

[punkeropercyjackson]

'[Insert feminine term/behavior/fashion/etc here] transcends gender!!!'Well,maybe i wanna be a girl anyway.How about that.Bitch

#genuinely this is one of the most annoying mentalities ever when applied to strangers💀it's always fem stuff too never masc stuff #i'm not a trans woman but i am a biracial black one who was raised by the white side of their family and had ONE girl black friend as a kid #and i'm autistic too so you imagine how deprived of appropriate femininity for someone like me i was and yes i was a big tomboy back then #but now i'm super femme and it brings me so much healing and comfort and fun and even-you guessed it-gender euphoria!!! #which is why i id as transmascfem instead of just transmasc because my womanhood is instrictly tied to literally every part of me #i fucking like that being femme means i'm a girl!!!i'm also a man but i refused to crack for so long because i thought i had to give that up #i got this shoved onto me directly for the first time on a fic about a transfem egg hc too you 'transan///drophobia' bitches are sick #misogyny cw #transmisogyny #transmasc #transmasculine #trans men #demigirl #bigender #genderfluid #femme #femmegender #xenogender #catgender #dragongender #ghostgender #softgirlgender #momgender #autigender #plantgender #transmascfem #trans women #herogender #💌 #summerposting

[uncanny-tranny]

One conversation I remember people having about people who have endured abuse or trauma is the use of survivor versus victim language, and I think a lot of people have misconceptions about the "right" language to use.

I think a lot of people have this idea that using victim language (e.g., "I was/am a victim of abuse") can send the message that you're perpetually a victim, and that because of that, it is "bad language." However, I think it's more accurate to conceptualize it more so as putting responsibility onto the people who harmed them. Framing yourself as a survivor can feel final and permanent, and some of us aren't ready for that level of definitiveness.

I think we need more acceptance of peoples conception of their experiences. It's okay to say that you were/are a victim, just as it's okay to say you are a survivor. The idea of being a "good" victim/survivor is damaging, and it's harmful to us. It puts the onus on us to think about everybody else's comfort but our own about our own damn trauma

#mental health #mental health advocacy #trauma #abuse #abuse tw #i think we ought to accept where people are currently at in terms of healing pr growth or recovery... #...and that means not idealizing where you think they should be... #...and that includes the language people use to describe themselves and their traumas #victim language is perfectly acceptable because sometimes... you /are/ a victim #and that doesn't feel good to think about but that doesnt make it less worthy of recognition #maybe i look too into this as like... 'not one of the good' trauma endurers #i just hate that some people have taken those discussions to police the language victims and survivors alike use #like i've seen it to where people are like 'dont call yourself a victim of [horroble abuse]! you're a SURVIVOR' #and they do it to i guess encourage us? but it feels condescending and cruel and profoundly crass #ask to tag (genuine)

[punkstylerecovery]

It's not very helpful going to therapists and hearing repeatedly "that's a lot for just you to be dealing with" and "oh, you're getting that [mess] from all sides" with no follow-up advice or anything.

Like, I appreciated it in the beginning but guys, I KNOW I'm in a mess, I know it's a lot for me to deal with alone (that's why i'm HERE), I know I'm stuck with a fuckload of people I'd be better of away from! I need your help dealing with living with it all anyway.

It's like they're reading from a script and I've overloaded their servers and just keep getting the same pre-coded response. It's so frustrating.

#trauma recovery #abuse recovery #punkstyle #I'm just #ive got a new one rn #bc my last one got promoted #and hes nice #but hes also very.... #whats the word #hes not very helpful is what im trying to say #hes kind #but he seems to be like the rest #and just thinks #welp this person has way too much shit #guess im just gonna...listen? and hope it eventually ends #he told me he doesn't really think i can heal until i get out of this house #and im like fhdsaofhsdjalfa #BUT I CANT LEAVE MOTHERFUCER #so like #im just frustrated #ok to reblog or comment or whatever #i'd appreciate any advice if anyone has it T_T

[skunkes]

funny thing is that genuinely canonically talon is bi with an immense preference for women to the point where he cant really imagine any long term stuff with a man... but since ive whisked him away to the brain zone its like ok but what if he was safe and happy with another guyyy and meeeeee 🫶

#talkys #i think he'd also want to be a dad again but uhh not here king sorry #i mean it doesnt actually matter and its helpful for if i outgrow him #its just like with al #like al is a caretaker he wants kids so bad but I Need Him. if i ever outgrow al i can say the differences were too much for him #if i need al forever i can reverse the usual trope and make it so that he changes his mind and chooses me etc etc #i guess the other thing is well technically this wont be long term will it. talon can heal with some mortals that will #die eventually and open the wounds all over again #and finally i guess we currently still dont know if the preference is just a genuine preference #(which is valid) or if its this way because of what he's suffered...i guess we'll find out eventually anyway

[parkercore-69]

thank you J.R.R. Tolkien for writing the most devastating romantic subplot in your lotr books without even realising it

#im talking about sam and frodo sorry everyone #guess who like watched all the extended films and cried #whether you intepret sam and frodo’s love platonically or romantically you have to understand that they are so entwined that it is #devastating nonetheless #the forehead kiss #im on the ground sobbing #dawgs it was such a real depiction of how trauma is irreversible and will change you entirely #frodo baggins #i love him so fucking much guys #i love those little hobbits #samwise gamgee #lord of the rings #i could and most likely will write an essay on this #samfro #dawg sometimes love can be both platonic and romantic as queer love is not to be constrained by heteronormative values #sorry did i read too far into the little fantasy story #dude i was not expecting a story about the horrific effects of war racism and power corrupt addiction when i sat down in front of the telly #jokes on the side frodo looking absolutely miserable at sam’s wedding is so fucking real #i get it’s because he knows he cant move on and he is forever changed by his trauma but also that hobbit gay #his wound from the witch king never healing being a symbolic representation of his trauma FUCKS ME UP #frodo you may have been a whiny bitch at times but like yeah that ring probably did weigh a fuck ton and i was worse on my dofe expedition #i may be fucking too hard with lotr #lotr #teehee