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sadisthetic · 1 year

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alarmingly long hanahaki au jaya. i hurt jay quite a bit in this. this is a product of 4 straight days of insanity. im SO ILL. ABOUT JAYA. IF YOU MAKE IT TO THE END OF THIS. I COMMEND YOU. THANK YOU FOR YOUR TIME IN ADVANCE.

once again adapted from a twitter thread. its. like 165 tweets long. yeah. yeah. im lazy so its gonna be mostly copy pasted and lightly edited so if it sounds like im talking to myself I WAS. AND I WAS DOING IT FOR FOUR DAYS.

anyways heres the start.

so hanahaki.... jaya.... season 3...... jay is absolutely the guy who gets hanahaki theres absolutely no doubt about that like absolutely none. but the world building tho... how should i handle it.... i want it to be canon compliantish. and more importantly. when should i give him symptoms. what would be most interesting

sure. i could give him hanahaki after he find out about nyas perfect match. but haha

what if he get petals earlier tho.

he doesnt understand why at first, why jay starts coughing up petals, he and nya are dating and in love. there shouldnt be any reason for it. its not bad yet so he just ignores it really hard or thinks he mustve gotten a weird strain because theres now way he has normal hanahaki because theres No Way! haha

so when he hears the truth there in his parents trailer, the roots around his lungs constrict and he cant tell the pain apart from his heart breaking in two. his chest hurts so much and he sees cole and just goes ballistic

just imagine. what thats like for him. hes mad but its a secondary response to the heartbreak. hes had signs literally inside all along but to actually find out? like this? jay cant take it

haha. the double date would suck so much HAHA. he holds it in through the whole duration of the movie but when its over he vomits full flowers in the bathroom

ive been mulling over the worldbuilding of hanahaki in this au of mine. i thinking i want it to be a departure from the standard hanahaki worldbuilding thats in fics. just slightly. mostly regarding the fatality and maybe treatments........ i think i want jay to have hanahaki the whole time until skybound. and so i think im gonna have to make hanahaki nonlethal. but kinda like chronic pain. if you cant let go of that love

im partially adopting another fics worldbuilding but i like the idea you can recover on your own if you simply fall out of love. its easier and less damaging the earlier you give up on the love. the roots atrophy and fade and theres not that much scarring. you can easily recover

but you know...... its jay. hes not gonna let it go. he cant. he loves nya.... i think he hides his affliction tho... because he knows nya doesnt want to get back together. and he doesnt want to look you know.... pathetic? desperate? overly clingy?

“you still hasnt gotten over nya?” “dude come on.” “give it up.” he doesnt want to hear it from the others. because he doesnt want to.

but also he wants to save face in front of nya. hes scared itll drive her even further away. his heart cant take more of that. this distance hurts enough

so for months.............. he suffers the pain of one sided love. quietly. pretending that nothing is wrong and that jay is okay with them just being friends. of course jay could choose to surgically remove the hanahaki.... but he doesnt want to do that

i think im gonna keep a bit of the amnesia worldbuilding standard fics have. but im not gonna have it so that artificially removing the hanahaki makes you forget the person you love. no.... just the love that you felt. i think jay doesnt want to lose his love for nya..... also not being able to fall in love with nya scares him. hes just that fucking attached to her. he has it bad man. dude has attachment issues. hes so clingy.

anyways. jay chooses to suffer. because hes that badly in love

jay self medicates on over the counter cough suppressants thats meant for the cold and more normal sickness. works surprisingly well. not ideal tho. he also fills his pockets with cough drops and sometimes makes himself sick when he accidentally eats too much on bad days

he gets sick of them. the sweet icky taste and menthol nausea but he doesnt have that many better ways to deal. its just a temporary fix too. considering that coughing is his body's natural way to get rid of the petals. and hes just letting them sit in his lungs

periodically he has to stay hunched over a trashcan to clear out the petals and yes its an awful experience every time. it becomes routine. the petals scratch his throat on the way out and he gets into tea to soothe the irritation. he becomes a regular at mistake's

in general, his ability to breathe starts to decline and he gets winded so much more easily. the plants in his chest limit his airflow and also steals the oxygen from his lungs. his chest is tight always and aches like theres thick needles lodged in his chest. those are the roots

usually its manageable. but it becomes harder to fight. battles usually end up leaving him wheezing. one of the guys teases him about it. that hes slacking and getting out of shape. he sidesteps that convo tho and brushes them off. he certainly cant be honest

im a sadist so im gonna making him pass out after one fairly vigorous battle. one which he has to push himself harder to make it out alive. so hard that his lungs cant keep up with the rest of his body and even when he gets himself to a safe corner or clearing, no amount of breaths is enough and he just blacks out. he eventually comes to a worried face shaking him awake. ill figure out who and when this is set later. either way they just assume jay got knocked out even though they cant find any wounds. theyre relieved he seems fine

but that was very bad. super duper bad for jay tho. he cant let that happen again. but these kinds of things are out of his control tho. but he just has to deal.

things comes to a head in skybound. i think itll be most dramatic if nya finds out in the lighthouse. after she rescues them and they successfully flee. when they settle and in moment jay cant hide he coughs out a gross mass of petals

and nya has a slow step by step realization of the implications. but before all that happens tho. nadakhan. i dont think he knew jay had hanahaki when he first targeted him. maybe. this point might change

but as it is, for the thought i have, nadakhan learns when jays meds wears off, and hes not even able to pop in a cough drop his mouth. and he vomits a messy slurry of petals onto the wooden floorboards of the deck. its EXTREMELY FUNNY to nadakhan, he mocks jay for it! he has hanahaki! that is so tragic! to think jay has known his love was utterly unrequited and yet he tried so hard to win her back. but it was all a hopeless, desperate, pathetic endeavor. so nya truly doesnt love jay, hm? so shes single and free for the taking. no hard feelings, then, when they marry

up on the ship, he coughs up so many flowers. he doesnt get enough sleep from the persistent coughing. and passes out multiple times, for a collection of reasons. from being knocked out, exhaustion, apnea, running out of breath after several matches of scrap n tap

i think it would be really sad and pathetic if there one incident where he chokes on a flower. and he cant cough it out and he thinks gonna die for reals. a pirate helps him out only to add insult to injury (and to torment him more to pull a wish out of him, hes better off alive than dead)

when hes rescued by his friends, theres no flowers around so none of his friends suspect. jay manages to keep the petals in his mouth, catching them behind his teeth, and swallows them back in. he coughs pretty bad but they all think he just got really sick. he looks awful after all

but thats of course only up until the lighthouse. ive been contemplating about how nya handles it all...... how she feels......... what is the most satisfying route here is much more trickier to figure out than just a fixit skybound au.......

feelings are trickier and much more loaded........ the revelation certainly isnt going to be an easy thing for nya to swallow..... but lighthouse talk has so much potential....... jay might be honest for once..... because he has to be.... forced to be!

ngl lighthouse part of skybound has been super elevated in my head by favorite skybound fic so my perceptions of it and my own take on it for this au is probably going to be influenced by that. not in the sense im copying scenes but in the sense of like. oh yeah writer IS right, lighthouse ep TOTALLY has the massive potential for big feels and honesty. and revealing trauma/hurt feels. anyways. let me talk a bit about nya and the little dilemma i have.....

so like...... nyas part in the story is so tricky to handle.... because she entirely determines the ending of this story. much more so than in the original canon.....

because the crux of this story is the love between nya and jay... the lack of thereof from nya and the undying love from jay. hanahaki. unrequited love. the story is not just about jay making mistakes and being flawed as a person and being tested as a person and learning and growing his mistakes

in this au, the focus is specifically on his love for nya and how hes willing to hang onto it for so long despite how much it literally hurts him. love hurts. its barely even worth it. but to jay it is. this story is driven by his love. however how it ends all depends on nya.....

and heres the thing.... i know the way the "romance" in skybound was resolved was..... whats the word..... forced? it was insufficiently developed.... i cant recall the exact word i wanna use but it was just. tacked on. nyas change of heart kinda came out of nowhere....

nyas line in the lighthouse before she pushed jay through the portal is honestly inconsistent with her characterization that season up to the point. shes really didnt seem like she loved jay back at all. its entirely because the writers didnt write in those feelings

it takes a bit of creative thinking and interpretation to make jays and nyas get together at the end of the season work. you have to fill in the gaps of the romance yourself if you want it and want it to make sense and have it be satisfying

what i do for my fix it interpretation of canon is that nya didnt actually stop loving jay entirely in s3 breakup arc. instead i choose to think is that nyas desire for independence simply grew stronger enough to eclipse her love for jay

also i like to think nya liked jay more casually than he loves her so it was easier to break off their relationship. if youve seen my dream divorce ot3 slowburn get together break up get together fic (concept) (that only exactly two people know what im talking about). and also string of fate au. ESPECIALLY IN STRING OF FATE AU. then you know. my take on them. ANYWAYS.

the problem i have for this au is that i cant do that. i cant use that same interpretation to have them get together again. it doesnt work. because in this au.........nya really did fall out of love for jay. and having them get together again just like canon isnt.......satisfying

its tricky..... because to make nya fall in love with jay now after she learns he has hanahaki..... if im not careful ill be doing the same thing that the writers are doing. writing a careless romance solely because i want them to be together

and i DO want them to be together again.... but it requires a considerate approach if i really do want it. here..... the situation is this..... nya finds out jays has truly been in love with her for months STILL. and its bad enough he got hanahaki. i think she might feel uncomfortable about that. its unwanted love you know? being the object of someones desires still after you long broke up with them. she has moved on but jay hasnt? its super awkward for her...... but also...............

jay knows that. nya isnt stupid. she realizes that jay knows that and thats exactly why he kept it from her in the first place....... shes also uncomfortable because... jay is suffering because of her. she broke it off with him but its not like she doesnt care about jay

no she still does. jay is still someone important to her. hes not just some ex. hes still a friend.... and her heart aches seeing jay suffer. her heart twists realizing that jay has been suffering this whole time on his own and she had no idea.

and it was out of consideration for her. its not entirely her fault jay has hanahaki..... but also she does feel a little bit responsible. sure jay messed up a lot recently and all of it is because he wanted to get back together with her and she doesnt like that.... but also..

learning about it put some things into perspective for her. like shes uncomfortable but jay has been hurt and is genuinely hurting still and she doesnt want to hurt him more and she wants to be gentle. so she starts thinking first. before she proceeds to deal with feelings

and so she starts really thinking about it. she was mad. she was mad jay kept so many secrets from them and endangered them all. and that he was STILL attached to her after all this time. shes still a little mad about that but also its subsiding a bit now....

if she really thinks about it.... jay had been respecting their break and her boundaries up until recently. in fact she only found out now, months later. jay actually did do a pretty good job of hiding those feelings. and not only that... his hanahaki.

that. she doesnt fucking understand how jay kept that a secret. ITS HANAHAKI. HOW DID HE HIDE IT FROM EVERYONE. ITS THE MOST VISIBLE DISEASE. maybe she did notice jay smothering a cough or clearing his throat every so often but to think it was hanahaki this entire time......

....when did it start even...? she can only assume that it was around their breakup. they eventually have a talk. a really important one that jay cant run away from. it takes a bit for jay to be fully honest and tell her that he started spitting petals when they were still together

she becomes mortified by that fact. and what that means. and she gains a bit of perspective of how the perfect match debacle looked from jays perspective. she really was.... a terrible girlfriend during all that huh.... to nya it felt like a clean break..... but to jay.... it left him pretty raw.

it didnt hit nya until know how much jay was hurt by the breakup even without considering the hanahaki. jay still loves her despite her cheating on him and making him fight over her because she couldnt decide? it seems that jay doesnt even care about that. doesnt even think she was a terrible girlfriend at the end of their relationship when she very much was. something is deeply wrong with jay (he loves her too much). jay hadnt been the best...... he had been really selfish and self centered. esp with the whole wish thing

but she comes to a realization that she was being really self centered too. its unfair for her to criticize jay for that when the very beginning of it all was because of nyas own selfishness. its unfair for jay to break up over something so stupid like a match making machine

of course part of it was still on jay. he should have still let go. you cant have a relationship in which only one person is in love. but.... she couldve gone about it in a better way. a way that wouldnt have hurt jay so much at the very least

he has apologized for everything involving nadakhan and keeping secrets.... maybe taking on more blame than he should.... nya owes jay an apology too. so at the very least she gives him a proper one. for her own faults

but she doesnt know how to fix jays hanahaki tho...... and to be honest? neither does jay. he tells her this. despite everything he didnt want to force her to love him. he didnt want to guilt her back into a relationship. he didnt want her to give him her pity also

thats part of the reason why he kept it a secret. he wanted to *win* her back. make himself more appealing so that nya would love him again. jay was super misguided in his approach and didnt understand why exactly nya broke up with him in the first place

but thats what he wanted... nyas genuine love. (im ignoring a tiny chip of canon for this. or im considering it a moment of weakness (jays dismay when he learns he cant wish for love). creative interpretation is that seeing his future in the mirror made him too hopeful and a bit desperate) anyways. jay is a hopeless romantic. who is extremely lovelorn. also hes chronically ill like literally. cut him a little slack

anyways anyways. i dont want nya to just get back together with him right after finding out about his hanahaki. its bad romance. it wont taste good. it wont be genuine.........

as it is...... of course theres multiple options................ but they arent all happy. and i do feel like. a story like this does need a happy ending..... it would be too sad if it remains unresolved. im just gonna talk about the ends that kinda suck first

most unsatisfying but technically still very plausible end: a standstill. nya cant do anything to help. she wants to but she cant return jays love. jay understands but decides keep living with the hanahaki. the two of them keep living in this awkward status quo, knowing.

eventually jays hanahaki gets too much for him to handle and he either dies or nya/the others take matters into their own hands and without his consent, send him to surgery bc hes dying. unethical maybe but they want him to live

its super awkward after that.... but things return to normal and they all forget about it except for nya, where it lays heavy in her mind forever. if he dies its just tragedy. i dont want this kinda of end

a potential good neutral end however can be one in which jay tries his best to simply move on. try to process his one sided love into something... different somehow. because he accepts that nya has fallen out of love with him. he has long accepted that.

but they talk........... and a lot happens (being pushed into the portal, the rest of skybound). and jay has a realization too. nya may not love him in the same way.... it doesnt mean she doesnt love him. she still cares deeply.....

she cares about him a lot as a friend. that love is still worth something. its..... its more than what jay thought nya felt about him. it honestly felt like their relationship get demoted all the way down back to acquaintances, at best coworkers. not technically. they were still friends. but jay felt a yawning distance between them after the break up. its one part nya distancing herself from jay after that whole disaster. its also another part jay keeping his distance so that nya doesnt learn about his hanahaki

whatever talk between them was either just ninja business, surface level casual conversations, or small talk. it was awkward but only when they dwelled on it... (and jay did dwell on it) but in the lighthouse they actually talk Talked about things... about them. and jay learns

nya sacrifices herself to save jay in the lighthouse and he realizes that he still matters to her. the everpresent tightness in his chest doesnt leave but it.... loosens. and he breathes easier for the first time in a while

he still wishes that nya and him could get together romantically. but something about his feelings changes. he feels less lovelorn somehow. his heart still yearns a little. but somehow he feels more okay. he hurts less

and once time turns back and jay and nya share this secret and finally properly reconcile after everything is done. the pain in his chest abates more and more as time goes on. hes not sure if hes exactly cured. but he can live without hurting now somehow

he learns how to live with his unrequited love. and more importantly he doesnt need his love to be requited anymore. because love is love you know? she doesnt love him romantically but she does still love him. and thats still good

they were always a little mismatched in their feelings for each other anyways. jay isnt settling for lesser. nyas love for him now is just different not less. and jay accepts that. and hes content that they managed to fix them. their relationship. hes okay and happy

his own feelings... he doesnt know if they changed themselves also like nyas has. he doesnt feel like his love has changed. but the nature of it mightve become more ambiguous. and it doesnt matter anyways. he loves nya and that will never change

hmmmm i think this became less of a neutral end and more just an unrequited good end. and accidentally poured so much aro juice into it oh my god? i had a good requited end thought up kinda also before this end i just talked about the end first bc i wanted to talk about requited end last

i kinda came to really like good unrequited end........ im still gonna talk about good requited end tho. i kinda want opinions about which end is narratively the best..... even though i only have a confident audience of two

i think requited end is a bit more dramatic..... nya really doesnt know what to do. she broke it off with jay. she wants to fix him. she really wishes he didnt get hanahaki for *her* of all people....

whats so great about her anyways that he would live like this for months on end be just ok with it. she thinks if she was in jays shoes she would long moved on. she doesnt get what is worth the pain and risk

either way she doesnt want to date him out of pity. she distinctly has a feeling that wouldnt actually fix anything. and probably jay doesnt want that too. but also she cant fabricate love

she feels suffocated by just the prospect and it reminds nya about why she dumped jay in the first place. this whole thing reminds nya why she dumped him. jays love was always too much for her. smothering. of course he gets hanahaki. why is she even surprised. if anyone would, its jay. she doesnt want to resent him for it though. hes hurting because of it. and he spared it from nya up to this point and she only found out because jay couldnt help it. who knows how much longer he wouldve kept this secret

but as is. she doesnt know what to do. so they stay in the lighthouse awkwardly together. they were honest with each other but now what? .....actually. curing hanahaki can come later. they gotta focus on saving their friends and all of ninjago first before they can deal with them

HHMMMMMMMM....... i think despite knowing about how much jay love her.... she doesnt really... Get It. HOW he loves her i mean. quantity vs quality. when they were first dating, to her it was really casual. in my mind jay was first attracted to nya shallowly too

but then he fell deeper. more genuinely. and that contributed to a greater discrepancy between their level of affection. nya for the most part has been believing that jays obsession with her is because hes just too clingy and attached. and like he is. but.... its like the product of the intensity of the emotion you know? his love for her manifested in jay in a way that put nya off a little. contributed to the reason why nya dumped him all those months ago.... having a heart to heart gave her some perspective on what it has been like for jay but

thats different from Understanding you know? comprehending... seeing the depth... anyways... so jay had been acting too chivalrous up to that point right? and then nya learns about jays hanahaki and chalks up his behavior to him overcompensating...... a symptom even

nya thinks its just jay trying his best to win her back. she doesnt really have that many reasons to think otherwise. its whats consistent. this all happened because jay wanted them to get together again. whatever, she has decided that shes going to forgive jay for all that, needless acts of chivalry included. even tho. she really doesnt like that. calls it a force of habit and puts it aside. for more Important Things like taking care of jay and taking nadakhan Down

but then they get found and theyre scrambling fast to prepare for the attack and counterattack. they manage to fall into a frantic but familiar routine of collaborative repairs and fixes and asides from jays incessant coughing reminding nya that things are pretty awful.... its nice

she doesnt get to feel that way for long tho. their haven is raided and their prep wasnt enough, theyre struggling, theres way too many pirates and its just the two of them against what feels like an army and theyre on the way to losing and nadakhan is nowhere to be found

they try to stick together to have each others backs but they get separated anyways and they start doing even worse. im changing up the action scene btw. nya manages sweep a bunch of pirates away but doubloon is one of the ones that could actually put up a fight

meanwhile jay isnt fairing very well and maybe worse because he was already injured and also his hanahaki makes it really hard. he fights for his breath trying to hold his own. he gets fucking smashed by dogshank through the floor onto the stairwell below. all the air is knocked from him

and he legitimately cant breathe for a solid moment. hes wheezing and he coughs hard enough to vomit. he doesnt have his breath back when he looks up and sees nya panicking at the sight of him and shes distracted and jay sees doubloon take an opening

jay doesnt even breathe when he instantly fires a lightning bolt from prone towards doubloon. and hes already up and sprinting to nyas side to fill her blindspot.

hes on the cusp of an asthma attack, he can feel it, but he doesnt have the time to worry about it (as if he had any control over it) his chest is tight and his breaths are too shallow and it hurts but he pushes through it to protect nya. hes slipping though

assaulted from all sides, between doubloon and dogshank and all the pirates, jay knows theyre going to lose. mostly because of him. hes dragging the two of them down and why did he ever think the two of them had the chance and why did he ever think that nadakhan would even come (hes not gonna this turned into a full divergence now) and even if he wasnt flagging hard now, he can feel it his chest that hes going to pass out if this goes on for any longer and leave nya to fend for himself and get them both captured and he cant let that happen.

nya is at her wits fucking end she can feel them losing too and nya refuses to think about how at this rate both of them are going down, but she wont let them. but, among the harsh clangs of weapons, the rush of floods, and the cracks of lightning at jays fingertips,

through all this discord, at this proximity she can hear jays struggled breaths and its the most terrifying sound in the world. then suddenly shes shoved to the side and hears a crash and a cry and when nya looks jays sliced through by doubloons sword

then something glows by her feet and nya realizes what jay did. he broke the teapot. clutching at his wound, jay gives nya a strained smile. he says "sorry" and kicks her in before she can object. before the portal closes she watches jay take a stand only to be subdued

she lands in the junkyard with a bad tumble. she just lies in the dust and dirt in shock. it happened too fast. jay sacrificed himself for her? jay risked himself even though he was the one who needed protecting and got himself hurt to pull that stunt.

and now hes in their clutches again. rage begins to well up. why! why?! why did jay do that?! is he stupid! there had to be a better way, they couldve escaped together and regrouped! tears begin to well up as well. nya gets up and smashes a bunch of junk

jays parents come out after that. and nya realizes where she is for the first time and forces herself to calm down. she sorts out her feelings over ednas soup after shes pulled into the trailer.....

at first she doesnt get it. shes too upset to think about it. she vents to jays parents about what he did. "why did he do that?" and it was meant to be a rhetorical question for herself but edna gives her an answer thats way too simple.

"because he loves you."

and nya is hit with another rude realization. shes been having too many of those

jay..... loves her. deeply. truly loves her genuinely, more than he cares about himself. its not just lingering attachment. its a deeper, more sincere love than nya could ever fathomed. nya knew how much jay loved her. but at the same time she didnt. she didnt get how he loved her

she feels a way about that. all this time jay loved her this bad? bad enough to catch hanahaki, bad enough to keep his hanahaki, bad enough to hide it. bad enough to *wish* for her love, to suffer, ang to get hurt for her...

she thinks he loves her bad enough to die for her. she really feels a way about that. her heart starts beating fast. she doesnt want to put together why. she kinda wants to cry.

why was she so mean to him... sometimes he deserved the little things he had coming but why was she so harsh. why did she fall out of love with him..... well she knows but also.... she was really unfair to him huh. jay wasnt perfect and he was too much but... she doesnt know.

all she knows is she feels a lot of regrets right now.. and moved by jay what did for her... along with this third unplaceable feeling.

(she started falling in love again)

its a slow gradual thing tho. nya doesnt place it immediately. she doesnt think she wanted to after she broke up with him herself. didnt even think it was possible.

but eventually nya feels very embarrassed by it when she realizes. because 1) oh my god shes falling in love with him after falling out of love and dumping him? is she shameless? and also 2) flustered because shes For Reals in love this time now beyond the casual kind of love she held for him before. this realizaton doesnt happen anytime soon. probs a good amount of time after everything resolves

so for narrative purposes i swapped jays and nyas roles for this last part of the story only. i think its safe to say jay is not treated kindly when he reboards the ship. in fact i think theyre even crueler for letting nya get away. before he was just roughed up to play with him

a form of coercion to get him to make his last wish. this time theyre taking it out on jay as punishment. nya assembles a rescue party like jay does in canon and somehow rescues jay and she hates the state that she finds him hes in

i think he'll be easier to rescue than nya because hes not like.... nadakhans bride. but wait..... WAIT NO IT COULD HARDER BECAUSE THEY COULD SET HIM UP AS BAIT FOR NYA TO COME GET HIM.... FUCK CURSE MY WHUMP DRIVEN BRAIN!!!!!!!!!! ITLL BE SO MUCH HARDER TO GET HIM LIKE THIS BUT—

THE IMAGE OF JAY BEING TIED/STRUNG UP IN PLAIN VIEW.... fuck. figuring it out is too hard and i dont even need to figure it out for the romance do i like goddammit. fucking sequencing..... maybe they get their friends out of the sword first.... somehow.

as for how they beat nadakhan..... i havent thought up a good way. i dont think it should go the same way as canon. i want nya to actually have her agency and not take it away again after ive given it to her.

i however dont know what jays wish should be. thats like so hard to figure out. this end is a significance divergence from canon. oh also jay has been thoroughly gagged so he cant say his wish. and also maybe because the pirates got sick of his coughing. nadakhans goal for torturing jay has changed.

he doesnt want him to break and submit and wish himself away anymore. he has better use in making sure nya comes to him. well he can still break him. its extra motivation. an incentive for nya to be a bit more faster and careless in her desperation to save him. he just shuts jay up also.

also im a sadist. anyways back to defeating nadakhan.... its a little tough ngl! for me and for nya! because this story has diverged so considerably. it cant have the same climax as canon. it just doesnt work. not even when theyre roleswapped

nya cant make a wish. she doesnt have anymore wishes. or hmm maybe she does have one left like jay does in this timeline but i dunno.... technically i could do that bc nya used up her wishes in only stupid ways so its not that hard of a change.

it changes their game plan in the lighthouse just a bit but in this version nadakhan doesnt even show up so story wise its a nonfactor. they both couldve made a wish and stopped things. but they dont get the chance to do that.

but either way nya having a wish is an option, not something thats set in stone. also i think nya gets a hold of the venom. either jay had passed it to her when he pushed her into the portal or it stayed on his person and was confiscated and nya obtained it because clancee told her about it. which ever works. man is jay doing rough in this au. hes suffering so many consequences....i think as hes bound and helpless, hes gonna have a lot of thoughts... and a lot of regrets

he wishes he never kept secrets, he wishes he didnt make things worse.... i think he wishes nya doesnt come and rescue him. because if she does and she gets captured and nadakhan marries her for infinite wishes then itll all be his fault. again. because nya risked herself for him

so jay hopes nya doesnt come. he wants her to be safe even if it means hes forever captured. its better than the worst case scenario.

but a tiny tiny tiny part of jay that is wishful does hope that he is rescued. because hes weak. he selfishly wants nya to save him

he shouldve learned by now that his desire for nya doesnt do him any good. but the part thats terrible and in love still wishes for better. he wants to be saved. he wants to be forgiven. he wants to fix things. he doesnt want to hurt anymore.

he thinks he can accept nya never loving him again. but he wants to stop aching in his chest. but he cant let go of his love. at this point its a part of who he is. so even though hes resigned to suffer and part of him foolishly hopes. he wishes

but jay doesnt get it. nya HAS forgiven him. she wishes she has never hurt jay like she did and if she could she would take it back. shes determined to fix things one way or any other. she has to save him or shes the worst. jay never deserved *all* of this.

once she saves him shes going to fix them. somehow.

and somehow they do. with a wish i cannot fucking figure out so SPARE ME. but i think... they dont go back in time. things arent undone and theres damage everywhere. so much repairs to be done. and theres a start to everything

i think i forgot to mention but at the end of unrequited good end, which honestly i think friendship end is a more fitting name, jay and nya hug at the end of skybound when time rolls back. no kiss. i think the same happens at the end of requited end too. time doesnt roll back but they have moment... hug.. but still no kiss. not yet. nya hasnt realized her feelings are changing. actually she might it takes a bit for them to develop. jay and nya start having a very honest relationship with each other tho

nya doesnt want to ignore jays hanahaki and jay comes to a similar conclusion as friendship/unrequited end. he realizes nya still cares for him A Lot as a friend, she cared so much she risked everything to walk into nadakhans trap guns blazin. and he doesnt want to jeopardize their friendship by distancing himself.

he wants things to be normal between them despite his hanahaki. and the funny thing is that... in this end, jays hanahaki gets somewhat more manageable too.... but its for a different reason in this au. lol. lol. because his feelings are becoming requited.

his hanahaki isnt suddenly gone one day because nyas feelings are so ambiguous tho. and when she does finally realize that shes fallen for jay. she actually goes into a bit of denial. for a mix of reasons.

its not because nya doesnt want to cure jay of his hanahaki. she just didnt think thats a thing that can happen. falling in love again. she was also so very sure that she didnt have feelings for jay anymore before so its also a pride thing she has going on. subconsciously, she doesnt want to take things back because shes stubborn.

and its also one part nya feeling like shes doing jay a little bit dirty somehow (her brain making her overthink in a twisted way) and that she wouldve been toying with jays feelings if she returns them now. after all this time has passed.

is she that fickle? (its not her being fickle) and nya cant quite place why she has feelings for jay again. nya feels like jay probably deserves someone better than her, someone who hasnt hurt him so bad.

nya has trouble understanding herself so she thinks shes being flaky and worries her feelings are flaky also and she doesnt want to hurt jay again with such uncertain feelings. i am making nya feel so fucking complicated and conflicted. FEELINGS ARE OFTEN AS SUCH!!!

but despite nya's internal turmoil, her feelings for jay are very genuine. she might think they are arbitrary but thats not quite the case. well her love is arbitrary as any other love is. but anyways. she fell again because jay did win her over, not even when he was trying to.

his sincere love... his dedication. when nya saw it in a different light it was attractive to her. she appreciates that jay loves her the way he does now. also before (the breakup) her love for jay was a bit shallow. it was just that casual. but now what she feels for jay is more genuine. and more equal. eventually she sorts it out. there might be some of romantic drama to get her to get there though. a bit more accidental hurt.

i had the tangential thought that jay might tell nya that his hanahaki is getting better causing her to go "on no". jays finally letting go of his feelings over for her and nya doesnt want to mess that up. hes finally recovering when she catching feelings again?

of course this would happen to her. shes glad but shes wistful she missed her chance at having a boyfriend who truly cares about her like jay does.... serves her right. .... nya is an idiot lol... jays is getting better bc of her skdjhtrglksdj. anyways

eventually... they talk. and sort it all out. all the hurt and feelings and love. nya opens up and confesses and jay cries about it lol. because this is all he had ever wanted ever since he fell in love with nya. the elation he feels is unparalleled. and tightness in his chest finally vanishes all together and he feels better than he has in ages. of course he says yes. he tells nya things to erase her doubts. and it took a lot of trouble to get here but theyre here now. together again for reals. and neither of them can believe it.

they hold hands. and they finally kiss

I THINK. THATS THE END OF REQUITED END. WOULD YOU BELIEVE THAT MY THOUGHTS FOR THIS END WERE INITIALLY MUCH SHORTER, SHORTER THAN, UNREQUITED/FRIENDSHIP END? ON GOD. WHAT HAPPENED. ITS BECAUSE I FELT LIKE REQUITED END REALLY NEEDED FULLY BEAT OUT DEVELOPMENT. OR ELSE I COULDNT BE SATISFIED WITH IT. IM A LITTLE EMBARRASSED BY WHAT I CAME UP WITH FEELS KINDA SAPPY BUT I CANT TELL IF IT IS. IM ARO. THIS ISNT MY HOME TURF. BUT I WANTED REQUITED END TO BE ACTUALLY VIABLE WITHOUT FEELING FORCED.... I WANTED TO BE AS SATISFIED WITH THIS AS I AM FOR UNREQUITED END. AND ENDED UP NEEDING TO PUT IN 100 TIMES THE WORK SDJKTUFHIGTLSDKJ. I THINK I ACCOMPLISHED WHAT I WANTED THO...... I THINK ITS OKAY..........

okay. im finally picking flowers. ive been thinking about it a bit while i wrote this whole thing. it wasnt a priority. but i do wanna pick some flowers that fit this story....

had the thought that depending on the end of this au (... i have aus within my au huh....) jay actually has different flowers. different meanings and symbolism.

i want jays primary flower to be an anemone for the record. “forsaken love”. nods. thats pretty representative of jays love for like. 3 seasons. also.... shares a name with the ocean animal. water... small connection with nya... not directly representative of her but it does a little. anemone has a few other meanings as well and i think those can fit too depending on the end. but the primary meaning im using is forsaken love (apparently its specifically the red and pink ones that mean this. please do note all these flower language resources are pretty inconsistent from each other)

tragic death end- anemone (specifically red- also means death), red poppy (remembrance in death), red spider lily (am i going too ham with the death flowers? yes. would jay see this as an ill omen? definitely. however. symbolism. also this bouquet is just So red. with blood lol)

tragic lost love (surgery) end- anemone, yellow chrysanthemums (broken/slighted love), black dahlia (betrayal), narcissus (unrequited love, selfishness), rue (regret), i would add forget me nots if i didnt think it doesnt fit with the colors

friendship/unrequited end- anemone, yellow rose (bros the meaning of the yellow rose is so fucking loaded LMAO. friendship, infidelity (nya), undying love? the wiki sure lists a lot), dandelion (overcoming hardship, growth, hope, and healing, friendship)

requited end- anemone, sea lavender (remembrance/memory, sympathy, i love you), sea holly (independence (nya) and attraction (jay)). okay so i dunno if a bouquet of these would look good together per se but.... ocean theme.... and also i wanted the flowers to rep both jay and nya in meanings.... since this is the end in which theyre together after all....

flower language is fucking hard. but i cant NOT put sincere thought into it. its fucking hanahaki i feel like i Gotta. btw these arent 100% set in stone i might change my mind about them? but i do really like anemone tho.... and tangential thought hgtjbnfjkghl sea holly would be fucking AWFUL for jay to cough up. esp when he starts spitting full flowers. those look like they hurt. just like what its like to love nya (lol). flower that would definitely make him cough blood

anyways..... if you made it to the end of this..... thank you.... this post is literally over 7600 words. thats like a long one shot. this is more like a fic outline tho. anyways anyways.... madness legit descended upon me while i wrote this all. i hope you enjoyed. i did this for my self satisfaction but if other people enjoyed this also i kinda wanna know

holds up a glass. cheers to jays suffering and heartbreak

(og thread here)

#ninjago talk #oh also. if you read all this. tell me which ending you like....#jem.txt #..... feel like i need a tag for this kind of stuff but what....#my concepts #thatll do #jaya #ninjago #im holding back on character tags i cant do that im embarrassed as is

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sequinsmile-x · 1 year

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Emotional Motion Sickness

Emily takes the kids to the park, and things don't go to plan.

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Look I don't know where this came from. I was in a car by myself for 8 hours today with nothing but my thoughts, and wrote this in a services station and then when I got home.

So...here we are haha

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Words: 3.5k

Warnings: Mentions of anxiety

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Emily yawns, rhythmically patting her daughter’s back as she slept against her chest, the newborn right in the middle of her morning nap. Sleep had become a rare commodity in the Hotchner household for everyone except Evie and Jack, the decision to make the young boy's bedroom the furthest away from theirs seeming smarter than ever now the baby cried throughout the night. Emily was the most tired she had ever been, but also the happiest. The most anxious. The most afraid she’d somehow get it all wrong. Her hormones made everything feel sharper, more intense than she thought was possible. Moved to tears over the tiniest thing that she would have once gotten mad at herself for.

“Emily,” Jack says, appearing out of seemingly nowhere next to her on the couch. She winces, wondering if it will wake Evie, and she briefly pauses patting the baby’s back only for nothing to happen, so she carries on, “Sorry.” He stage whispers, almost talking louder than he had done before.

“Nothing to apologise for sweetie,” she replies, smiling at him, “Are you ok?”

“I’m bored.”

She smiles sympathetically at him, immediate guilt that she was somehow letting him down flooding through her, “I’m sorry, what do you want to do?”

He looks like he’s really thinking about it as if he hadn’t walked into the room with a plan. A tactic that Aaron liked to claim he’d picked up from her, adamant that he’d never done it before she joined their family.

“Can we go to the park?”

She hesitates, immediately feeling absurd for the brief anxiety that floods through her at the mere thought of it. Evie was only three weeks old, a tiny dot of a thing who only slept in the arms of one of her parents, or secure against their chest. Aaron had only just gone back to work this week, and Emily found herself grateful that the team hadn’t caught a case yet, that she was still yet to spend a night alone with both kids.

“Jack…”

“Please, Emily,” he says, his eyes wide, almost cartoonish as he silently begs her “I’ll be good.”

“You’re always good, honey,” she replies, adjusting Evie against her so she can reach out for him with one hand, ruffling his hair in a way that never failed to make him laugh.

It wasn’t that she couldn’t manage taking Evie out without Aaron around, she knew she could. But everything felt new. Things she’d done countless times before were the same but different, new things to consider now she had a tiny person utterly reliant on her for absolutely everything. She thinks about saying no but then feels guilty as Jack looks so hopeful at the prospect of it, of getting out of the house for an afternoon. He’d been so good since they’d brought Evie home, understanding that she needed more attention than him at times. So she smiles at him as she adjusts her hold on the baby, and she nods.

“Of course sweetheart,” she replies, “Just as soon as your sister wakes up from her nap.”

The beaming smile that spreads over his face is worth all the anxiety that bubbles in her stomach.

___

She can’t help but smile at the sight of Jack running around with a few other kids, his laughter letting her know she’d made the right choice to come here despite her initial reservations. Jack kept running over to her every few minutes to check on her and Evie, clearly taking Aaron’s comment as he left for work to look after them to heart.

She hears a familiar cry coming from the stroller next to the bench she’s settled on, and she immediately looks at her daughter, standing up so she can lift Evie into her arms. She kisses the side of her head as she sits back down, holding her close.

“You’re ok, sweet girl,” she says, kissing her head again, “You’re probably hungry, huh? You’re always hungry.” She adjusts her shirt and bra, and smiles as Evie starts to eat, scrunching her nose up slightly at the still, at times, strange sensation.

Once she’s satisfied Evie is ok she looks back up to check on Jack, pleased to see him still having fun. He looks over and waves at her, and she makes sure Evie is secured to her with one arm before she waves back, silently letting him know they were ok.

“Excuse me, ma’am.”

She looks up at the sound of a stranger's voice, unconsciously holding her daughter a little closer as her eyes meet those of the man standing over her. His eyebrows furrowed together, his fury easy to read even if she wasn’t a profiler.

“Can I help you?” She asks, ensuring to keep her voice even.

“You shouldn’t be doing that in public,” he replies, his frown somehow deepening as he crossed his arms over his chest.

“Doing what?” She asks, and he frowns pointing at Evie nursing, and Emily can’t stop the scoff that escapes as she realises what he’s talking about. Irritation bubbling under her skin at the absurdity of it. “Feeding my baby?”

“There are children in this park,” he says, pointing towards the group of kids that included Jack, and she nods slowly.

“I know, one of the ones over there is mine,” she replies, vulnerability spreading through her despite how she stands her ground with him, her cheeks close to burning with embarrassment she refused to feel, knowing she had nothing to be embarrassed about. “I need to feed her.”

“You should at least cover up,” he demands, pointing at Evie, who was still blissfully eating, the soft touch of her hand against Emily’s skin one of the only things keeping her grounded.

“Do you cover your face when you eat?” She asks, her anger briefly getting the better of her, “Maybe you should,” she mutters as she looks back down at Evie briefly before looking at him again, not allowing herself to be phased when he stands a little closer, his jaw clenched.

“What did you say to me, you bitch?”

“You need to back off,” she says, staring him down.

“Why?” He smirks, looking her up and down, “What are you going to do about it?”

“You’re lucky I’m holding a baby, or you’d already be on the floor wondering if you’ll ever be able to have any of your own,” she replies, her mouth working quicker than her brain, sounding much more sure of herself than she felt. She was highly aware that if she stood up too quickly she still winced, her body still recovering from giving birth less than a month ago.

He looks shocked by what she says and scoffs, “Some mother you are,” he practically spits at her, his disapproval clear as he shakes his head as he walks off muttering loud enough for her to hear, “Disgusting.”

It takes a moment for her to realise he’s gone, only snapping out of it when Evie pulls away from her, grunting as she does so, the noises quickly turning into a cry. All of the fight, the anger, drains out of Emily all at once, replaced by the familiar anxiety that she was doing this all wrong, sadness creeping up the back of her neck.

“Sorry, baby,” Emily says, adjusting her clothing as she rests Evie against her shoulder, gently rubbing circles on her back. She swallows thickly around the lump that has formed in her throat, and she turns her head to kiss the side of Evie’s, “Momma is sorry.”

She hears the familiar sound of Jack’s sneakers hitting the path and blows out a steady breath before she looks up at him, forcing a smile she’s sure even he can see through.

“Are you ok Emily?” He asks, his eyebrows furrowing in a way that makes him look exactly like Aaron. “That man was shouting so loudly I could hear him all the way over there.”

“I’m fine sweetie, I promise,” she replies, feeling the shake to her smile as Evie burps against her, “We’ll go home soon though, ok?”

Jack nods slowly as if he doesn’t believe her, before he walks back towards his friends to say goodbye.

She cries the moment they get home, Jack distracted by a video game he usually wasn’t allowed to play in the middle of the day and Evie fast asleep in her arms.

___

Aaron can tell something is wrong as soon as he enters the house, a slight tension in the air that immediately makes him worry. Guilt that he was home later than he would like settling over him as he looks at the dishes from dinner in the sink and half a casserole that Jessica had made and put in the fridge on the counter.

Emily insists she’s fine, despite the obvious sadness shining in her eyes, and the tension in her jaw. She hands him Evie almost as soon as he puts his bag down, going for a shower and some much needed time alone.

He smiles down at his daughter, her wide dark eyes staring up at him, and is once again overwhelmed with the love he feels for her. He lifts her up so he can kiss the dark hair on top of her head, the scent of the baby shampoo that he’d watched Emily agonise over in the store in the weeks before Evie’s birth filling his senses.

“Come on princess,” he says, settling her into the crook of one of his arms, his hand underneath her as he makes sure her head is supported by his elbow, “Let's go see what your brother is up to.”

He heads upstairs to his son’s bedroom and knocks on his door before walking in, smiling at Jack sitting up in his bed, a book in his lap.

“Hi Dad!”

“Hi buddy,” he says, walking over and sitting on the edge of his bed, “Evie insisted on coming to say goodnight before your bedtime.”

Jack rolls his eyes at him, somehow looking exactly like Emily as he does so, “Evie is a baby, Dad. She can’t talk,” he hesitates for a moment before looking back up at Aaron, “Where’s Emily?”

“She’s just in the shower,” Aaron answers, not missing how nervous Jack looks, “Is everything ok?”

“She was sad earlier,” Jack replies, frowning at the memory of it, “We went to the park, and I was playing and I heard a man being mean to her.”

Aaron tenses as his suspicion about something being wrong is confirmed. He clenches his jaw as anger floods through him at the mere thought of it being down to a stranger.

“What did he say?”

Jack shrugs, “I don’t know, I just heard him yelling. And you and Emily always say we should never yell.”

Aaron chuckles slightly at that, “You’re right buddy, you shouldn’t. And you said she was sad?” He says, gently prodding for more information from his son, wanting to make sure he could talk to Emily about it with as much information as possible.

Jack sighs, looking like he had the weight of the world on his shoulders, “She cried when we got home,” he explains, “I was extra good all evening though, I promise.”

Aaron shifts forward to pull his son into a hug, “I know, buddy,” he says, smiling at Jack when he pulls away, “Thank you for telling me.”

“We’ve got to look after Emily and Evie,” Jack says seriously and Aaron laughs, knowing his wife would kill him if she found out that's what he’d told their son.

“Exactly, buddy.”

___

She feels better after her shower, her muscles and her mood soothed by the hot water in equal measure.

She dresses into her pjyamas quickly, smiling as she hears Aaron speaking to Evie through the closed door of the ensuite. The deep timber of his voice had the same effect on their daughter as it did on her. Comforting and calming, a balm to anything that hurt her. She dumps her towels on the floor instead of hanging them up to dry, not caring that Aaron would surely comment it later, needing nothing more than to be with them.

Aaron turns to look at her as the door opens, a soft smile on his face and Evie in his arms.

“Look Evie, it’s Mommy.”

Emily smiles and walks over to them, leaning against Aaron as he wraps the arm he isn’t holding the baby with around her. He kisses her forehead as she puts her arm around her back, smiling down at Evie.

“Is she ok?” Emily asks, gently tracing a finger over her daughter’s cheek.

“She’s fine, hasn’t made a noise once.”

Emily chuckles humourlessly, “Good to know it’s just me she does it for,” she pulls back to look up at him, stamping a quick kiss to his lips before she pulls away, “How was work?”

“Boring without you there,” he replies honestly, watching as she sits on the edge of the bed, “How was your day?”

She freezes slightly, not missing the almost over the top curiosity to his voice, “It was fine. We went to the park.”

He waits for a moment, but he knows she won’t tell him. That if it wasn’t for Jack it was unlikely she’d ever tell him what happened at the park.

“Jack told me you were upset,” he says carefully, he looks down at Evie and sees she’s asleep, so he carefully walks over to the bassinet on Emily’s side of the bed and lays her down as he continues to talk, “Something about a man yelling at you?”

Emily sighs, her elbows dropping to her knees as she leans forward, “Jack told you?”

Aaron joins her on the edge of the bed, close enough that she can feel him, but he purposely doesn’t touch her.

“He was worried.”

“It was nothing really, it’s fine,” she says, smiling tightly at him in an attempt to brush it off that she knows won’t work as she’s saying it.

“Em.”

He doesn’t say anything else, simply waiting her out. He knew he had already pushed enough, that she needed to tell him the rest on her own terms.

“I was feeding Evie,” she says quietly, clearing her throat as she does so, frustrated at herself for the way it immediately feels tight, and for the tears she can feel pressing at the back of her eyes, “And this guy had a problem with that.”

“He what?” Aaron asks, his anger rising, the thought of someone daring to approach his wife and speak to her like that enough to make him want to hunt him down.

“He told me I should cover up,” she smiles at him, and it shakes a little, “So I told him he should cover his face.”

He chuckles at that, shaking his head at her, “Sweetheart.”

“I can assure you, I wasn’t wrong,” she quips, her smile genuine for a second before it fades again, her chin trembling as she prepares to tell him the rest of it, “And then he called me a bitch and said I’m a bad mother.”

He’s so angry it takes him a few seconds to realise she’s started crying, snapped out of his silent fury as she leans forward and presses the heels of her hands into her eyes as she tries to stay quiet, not wanting to wake up Evie.

“Oh sweetheart,” he says, pulling her into him and enveloping her in his embrace. She curls up into his side, her face pressed into his shoulder as she grabs a fistful of his shirt, anchoring herself to him, “I’ve got you, I’m right here.”

It takes a few minutes for her to calm down, and when she does she barely pulls away, moving just enough to wipe at her face.

“Fucking hormones,” she gripes, “I feel like I cry at everything,” she wipes at her face again, “I cried at how cute she looked in that outfit Penelope got her this morning.”

He smiles softly, kissing the top of her head before he grabs her chin, tilting her head so she’s looking up at him.

“If I was there I’d have killed that guy.”

“Good thing you weren’t really,” she replies, cupping his cheek and running her thumb over his skin, “I don’t fancy being a single mother whilst you’re in prison.”

“I’d have got away with it,” he grumbles, and she chuckles at him, her eyes still shining.

“If it makes you feel better, I did threaten him and his ability to procreate.”

He smiles, shaking his head at her, “That actually does make me feel better,” he pauses, simply staring at her for a moment before he carries on, “You know he’s wrong don’t you? You’re an excellent mother. The best.”

Her smile shakes again as she shrugs slightly, “I don’t know, sometimes I feel like I’m just making it all up as I go. When Jack asked to go to the park earlier I almost said no, because I was unsure about getting them out of the house by myself. I used to be a fucking spy, I worked undercover for years, but all of a sudden I can’t get a baby and a kid out of the house without doubting myself. It’s ridiculous.”

“Em, sweetheart, you were still pregnant a month ago. You’re adjusting, and we’ve barely slept in three weeks,” he tucks some of her hair behind her ear, “You need to stop being so hard on yourself.”

She nods, smiling as he leans forward to kiss her forehead, “I love you.”

“I love you too,” he replies, kissing her forehead a second time, hoping that pressing his love directly into her skin would go some way to making her believe she deserved it, “And so do the kids. They’re both lucky to have you as a mother.”

She groans as she pulls back, sniffing as she lightly slaps his shoulder, “For fuck sake Aaron, I’d only just stopped crying.”

___

He is still furious the following morning. Righteous anger thrumming under his skin, the need to protect his wife, his family, fuelling the fire. He immediately goes to Penelope’s office, his briefcase still in hand as he knocks and pushes the door open.

She turns around, her eyes wide as she takes in the sight of her boss, his expression somehow sterner than usual.

“Hotch? What’s wrong?” She asks, rolling slightly closer to him on her chair. “Is this about the background check I did on Henry’s new karate teacher? Because I-”

“No it’s…” he drifts off, briefly distracted by her words registering in his head, “Should it be about that?”

Penelope stares at him for a moment before shaking her head. “No. Definitely not.”

There’s a beat of silence before he carries on, choosing to ignore what she’d said. “There’s a park near our house, can you check to see if you can get CCTV from there? At about midday yesterday.”

“Of course,” she turns back to her computer, a curious look on her face and typescript furiously, “what am I looking for?”

“Emily took the kids yesterday.”

“Oh, how is my adorable little niece doing?” Penelope asks, flicking through CCTV cameras until she lands on one that’s positioned over a bench, Emily and Evie in full view. “There they are,” she says, cutting off any opportunity for him to answer her previous question, “They are so cute.”

“Can you fast forward a little?” Aaron asks, a smile flicking across his face at the blurry footage of his wife and their newborn daughter. Emily’s care and love for Evie clear even in the slightly distorted images.

“Of course,” Penelope says, her curiosity deepening as they watch Jack run back and forth a couple of times before a man neither of them recognises walks up to Emily as she holds Evie to her chest, obviously feeding her.

“That’s it,” Aaron says, grateful when Penelope pauses the footage, “Any chance you can get his info?”

Penelope nods, “I can do anything,” her eyes flick back and forth between Aaron and the screen, “What did this guy do?”

He sighs as he stands up, clenching his fist at his side as his anger flares up again.

“He upset her,” he says, playing it down a little, knowing his wife wouldn’t thank him for telling anyone that she’d cried, twice, over the incident, “He shouted at her for feeding Evie in public.”

Penelope’s mouth hangs open, her outrage clear.

“That jerk,” she exclaims, her eyes narrowed as she turns back to the screen as if her disdain would be felt by the man. “Want me to destroy his life?”

Aaron smiles at that, “Not quite that extreme, but…” he leans in, as if he could be overheard, like allowing himself this definite abuse of power would get found out, “maybe make things really inconvenient for him for a couple of days.”

“Consider his credit cards blocked and his phone out of service,” she says, turning back to her computer as she types with purpose.

“Thanks, Garcia,” he turns to leave, before stopping to look back at her, “And-”

“It’s just between us, Sir,” she says, winking at him before she goes back to the job at hand. He nods gratefully at her before turning and leaving her office, feeling much better than he had when he arrived.

It’s the only secret Penelope Garcia ever keeps.

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thattargboy · 1 year

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What’s your perspective on the fight at Driftmark?

Short answer: I don’t blame Aemond (or. I blame him a little because disrespect, but the kid lost an eye so he gets sympathy points), I especially don’t blame Rhaena or Baela, they did nothing wrong 🥰. I kinda blame Luke and Jace because they were the ones with the knife, but mostly their parents because why was no one watching these kids???? Should there not have been a guard outside their rooms or something????

Very long and repetitive answer: I understand that as soon as Laena died Vhagar was a free dragon, and “technically” Rhaena had no claim over her. That doesn’t change the fact that she was an eight year old girl who has just lost her mother (who had ordered that dragon to kill her and that definitely factors in), so I understand why she felt entitled to try to claim her and why she hadn’t attempted it yet.

So yeah needless to say, claiming Vhagar during the night of the funeral was very disrespectful on Aemond’s part. Does it make sense why he did it? Absolutely. He was like 10 (?12?) being bullied by his big brother and his nephews and he wanted to prove himself by claiming the oldest and biggest dragon in the world because It Be Like That, and yeah he was technically right in like that Rhaena “should have” tried to claim Vhagar. But like I said. Eight year old girl at her mom’s funeral. And also Rhaena understands what it feels like to feel inadequate over lacking a dragon so really Aemond what’s your play?

Also we have no idea that Vhagar would have even accepted Rhaena if she did try to claim her, but honestly I think she would have. No real reason there other than vibes so feel free to disagree.

Ultimately, Baela, Rhaena, Luke and Jace should have gone to guards or their parents if they thought something was going on with Vhagar but then again they were kids so I don’t blame for not doing so, and I think we all have taken something into our own hands when we kids that we should have went to adults for (I do however blame their parents for not having anyone watching them and instead banging on the beach at his wife’s funeral). But like. They weren’t being watched and they took things into their own hands, like kids do, and they reacted very emotionally and got into a fight (and no, 4v1 is not fair, but also they are all like 12 and under. I know y’all have seen playground fights like that in your youth. If they were older I’d be like oh yeah fuck all four of them), like kids do.

And honestly if Aemond didn’t lose an eye I probably would just be like “haha little shit got what he deserves,” because like. Not to sound like Bobby B here cuz fuck that guy but. Kids fight. It’s a thing they do because like emotional regulation is undeveloped and all over the place. It’s over. (Thinking about it because that scene was an obvious parallel to the one in GoT, making that comparison with Cersei and Alicent is both genius and fills me with rage)

But to get back on track, Aemond did lose an eye, and y’know permanent mutilation and a scuffle between cousins (and uncle/nephews) are two very different things.

Jace never should have brought the knife and honestly for once I can’t really see the kid logic there. I guess I can compare it to like being a kid and thinking you hear a burglar and instead of waking up your parents you grab a bat (okay now I’m seeing the kid logic, Jace you’re free to go. Still why did he even have a dagger in the first place kid’s like 9???)

And then there’s Luke, who I’m giving some leniency because he’s the youngest, but again even a 7 year old knows better then to cut a boy’s eye out.

Like yeah from his perspective Aemond was about to brain his brother with a rock so yeah I kinda get it. But us as viewers are not 7 year olds in the middle of a fight, and we could see that Aemond was not moving, and really Luke should have been able to see that too but also, need I say it again? A kid in the middle of a fight. I honestly kinda thought it looked like Aemond was gonna put it down but no one else seems to think that so I’m just gonna assume I’m wrong

Ultimately what I think the problem was no one was punished. Back to sounding like Bobby B because obviously none of the kids should have tortured (or sharply questioned) or lost an eye as compensation (really girlie, charging with his knife is iconic but very stupid). But to bring it back to the playground thing, if that was fight in an elementary school all of those kids would have been getting in trouble.

Instead Viserys threatened his wife and children over the truth. So. Yeah. Fuck all the adults in that situation.

(Also I do understand and sympathize with both Alicent and Rhaenyra in that scene. Alicent’s son has been made permanently disabled and no one is on her side not even the child’s father, it makes sense that she kinda snapped, and yes even though it is the truth, calling her children bastards puts their lives and their inheritance in danger, of course they’re both going to try and protect their children it’s what mothers do. Understandable and sympathetic, and even justifiable doesn’t mean they were exactly in the right however.)

Westeros needs some sort of man price, at the very least Luke should have been made to apologize (and then apologize again when he’s older and actually means it instead of laughing at the pig) and in a world where we got more episodes and they emphasized that this is a family we’re watching tear itself apart I would have liked to seen Aemond at least try to put water under the bridge with Rhaena and only Rhaena (and maybe Baela but she wasn’t really involved) when they’re older.

(Like maybe if we got to see Aegon and Helaena’s wedding, and Rhaenyra’s family was invited. That could’ve been cool.)

All that said (and sorry for saying so much), the way everything played out makes sense and I wouldn’t change it except like I said with like older Aemond and Rhaena attempting to make amends before shit hits the fan.

#just endlessly chanting they were children this is their parents’ fault #also why does a 9 year old boy have a dagger in the first place??#whooooo gave this to him? why does he have it?#im blaming viserys because I can /j (and I don’t think Rhaenyra would give her son a dagger so someone else had to)#rhaena targaryen #aemond targaryen #baela targaryen #jacaerys velaryon #lucerys velaryon #driftmark #green councilor #vhagar #anti viserys i targaryen #team green #team black #I feel like both sides would hate me for this #this could be a hundred times more eloquent but I don’t really care #rhaena has never done anything wrong in her life ever

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I have only seen the clip thus far, but Eddie saying, “I think so.” to Kim after she asks him if Shannon was the love of his life!?!?!?!?

Not to be a bitch about it, but is Tim aware of what he and his staff are writing!? I don’t know if he was around when Eddie said going on dates with women feels like he’s being forced to perform, but the fact that instead of retconning that and having him say something like, “Yeah, she was, and I’ve been forcing myself to makeup for what I lost by pretending another woman could fill the hole she left.” he chose, “I think so, but I didn’t know it at the time.”

Bullshit. I’m calling bullshit. Yes, I may end up eating my words, but that answer only further adds to the canon fact that Eddie Diaz has no idea what his feelings for Shannon are or were. When Eddie first came into the show they had a chance to write them compelling and hash it out, but they killed Shannon off. Fair enough, it happens in most dramas anyway. But to then have Eddie go through relationship after relationship where he panics or feels like he has to fake it to make it through, then have him date his dead wife’s doppelgänger despite having a girlfriend!?!?!?

It’s giving “throw a dart at the board and see what sticks”. It’s giving no sensible resolution, because what do you mean Eddie thinks Shannon was the love of his life? Why doesn’t he know by now!? Him choosing to pursue Kim despite knowing she looks like Shannon, should have given him the answer. Why would they choose to make him unsure?

I’m rambling, and it could very well be pointless because again, I haven’t watched the episode yet, but that clip pissed me off, lol. Because if Eddie isn’t going to be queer and realize all his uncertainty is because he never loved Shannon to begin with, and was instead forcing himself to pretend to be in love since heterosexuality is what was expected of him, then I don’t know what to expect, and I’m not sure it’ll be worth all this drama.

Because Marisol will either forgive him or leave him, but it won’t be interesting either way. If she forgives him, then nothing changes, does it? He’s still in a poorly written relationship with a woman the writers don’t know what to do with. If she leaves him, he’ll be single and likely end up in a new relationship with a new woman by the end of s8. If Eddie does not end this season realizing he is also queer, even if he doesn’t act on it and chooses to continue pushing it down in s8, then his entire arc was pointless, because what is the other option?

Or are we supposed to pretend like spending an entire season on him finally moving on from Shannon was good writing, FIVE SEASONS AFTER HER DEATH? Don’t get me wrong, had they actually done it well, I’d be fine. Grief takes time and Tim was clearly pulling on past season threads, but an emotional affair with a doppelgänger that takes place over two and half episodes, only after he has a silly little heehee haha arc about not wanting to have sex with Marisol because she was a nun for like a hot second.

No, because even remembering that pisses me off! How did we go from “I have catholic guilt and can no longer fuck my hot girlfriend— whom invented already fucked at least once— because she was a wannabe nun some odd years ago.” to “I am broken inside and sought out my dead wife’s look-a-like to gain emotional closure.”

If this isn’t leading to a queer Eddie storyline, then he better be single and an absolute emotional disaster by the end of this episode and he struggles with something worthwhile. Losing Chris to his parents because Chris saw Kim and feels betrayed or something. Anything, I beg!

#911 abc #eddie diaz

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Sayo's Route: Maniac Epilogue

Sayo's Route Masterlist

-Sayo knocks on the door of the Mukami manor. Ruki opens the door

Sayo: Hey, Ruki. How have you been?

Ruki: I’ve been fine, thanks. I didn’t know you were coming over today.

Sayo: It was sort of last minute. Sorry Kou didn’t tell you…

Ruki: It’s fine. Would you like to join us for dinner? I was about to start cooking.

Sayo: Sure, if that’s alright with you.

Ruki: I’m sure the others will be happy you are joining us too. Kou is upstairs in his room, I believe.

Sayo: Thanks! I’m looking forward to your cooking. Do you want help? I’m sure Kou will be fine for a bit if so.

Ruki: Fufu…I’ll be fine, but thank you.

-Sayo goes upstairs and knocks on Kou’s door

Kou: Sayo-chan? Come in~!

-She opens the door. Kou is sitting on his bed, flipping through a magazine

Sayo: Whatcha looking at?

Kou: Wanna see? Come look with me!

-She sits down next to him. She recognizes it as a volume of a fashion magazine Rena used to read

Sayo: My friend liked these ones. She had a period like two years ago when she would buy clothes to try to match some of the outfits she saw in them.

Kou: Haha really? Have you ever done anything like that?

Sayo: Fufu…No, I didn’t have the money for shopping sprees. I was raised in a church, after all.

Kou: Hm? Really?

Sayo: Have I really never told you about that?

Kou: Nope, I never would have guessed.

Sayo: Well, I was rarely there. The nuns had an issue with the way I acted. They tried discipline at first, but it only made me want to rebel more, so they gave up and wanted me out of the way after a while. So I spent all my free time away from the church. I was usually with my friends, but I would also go to places like the library a lot when they were busy.

Kou: So did your parents work there?

Sayo: No, I’m an orphan. I don’t know anything about my parents. Just that they abandoned me there when I was a baby.

Kou: Really…?

Sayo: Yeah. Are you surprised?

Kou: A little…You probably don’t know either, but I met Ruki, Yuma, and Azusa at an orphanage…We aren’t blood related.

Sayo: But they’re still your brothers…The people you choose as your family can be stronger than actual blood ties. I feel the same way about my friends back home.

Kou: Even though you don’t live there anymore?

Sayo: Absolutely. We’ve always been there for each other. That makes them family in my book. Maybe I see it that way because I don’t have parents or anything like that, but still.

-Kou smiles, taking her hand in his

Kou: I don’t think there’s anything wrong with that. The four of us probably understand it better than anyone else could…

*Timeskip*

-There’s a knock on Kou’s bedroom door

Azusa: Kou…Ruki says dinner is ready.

Kou: Coming!

-The two get up to join Azusa

Azusa: Ah…Hello, Sayo…

Sayo: Hi, Azusa.

Azusa: You’re joining us…for dinner?

Sayo: Yeah, Ruki invited me.

Azusa: That…makes me happy.

-The three walk down to the dining room. Ruki has already set out the food. He and Yuma are waiting

Yuma: Hey, Sayo. Ruki didn’t say you were coming.

Ruki: You didn’t gather that from the extra seating arrangement?

Yuma: Che…

Sayo: Fufu…Hey, Yuma. Hope you guys don’t mind me crashing dinner.

Yuma: ‘Course not. Ya ask me, you should come ‘round more often.

Kou: Yeah! You aren’t here nearly enough!

Sayo: I am trying to come more often. It’s just a question of when I can sneak away and if someone comes to drag me back…

Ruki: You know you are more than welcome. Just don’t put yourself in danger. I heard you had to stop Ayato and Laito from getting into a fight with Kou the other day.

Sayo: Well, yeah…but that was nothing. I stepped in before it could get dangerous.

Kou: I wouldn’t have let her get hurt in the first place!

Yuma: You better not.

Sayo: Fufu…You sound like a protective older brother, Yuma.

Yuma: Hehe…Ya think?

Kou: You’re mine, so he basically is, you know? You pretty much have three older brothers now~

Azusa: Having a little sister…? Fufu…How nice…

Ruki: Fufu…She is a rather troublesome little sister, isn’t she?

Yuma: Hehe…Got that right.

-She can’t help but smile

(Three older brothers, huh…? That doesn’t sound too bad…)

Sayo: Hey, who says I’m troublesome?

Kou: Ahaha! You’ve been trouble ever since we met you!

Sayo: Fufu…You don’t hold your punches, do you?

Ruki: I do believe the Sakamakis would agree you have been causing them trouble with how you have been talking to us as well, don’t you think?

Sayo: You didn’t have to bring them into this…It’s not my fault they want to be possessive.

-The four brothers exchange glances before chuckling

Sayo: I don’t even want to know what just happened…

Kou: It’s totally your fault that they’re possessive, Sayo-chan. But it’s adorable how clueless you are~

-He pats her head a few times, but she swats away his hand

Sayo: Hey! I’m not clueless.

Azusa: Fufu…It is cute…

Kou: Right?

Sayo: Ugh…

Ruki: Fufu…Get used to it. This is how brothers are.

Sayo: Haah…You guys are lucky you’re easy to get along with.

*Timeskip*

-Sayo is on her way home from the Mukami manor. She stops at a phone booth after making sure she isn’t being followed

Lei: Hello?

Sayo: Hey, Lei. It’s Sayo. Just calling for the monthly check in.

Lei: Hey, Sayo! I’ve got great news! Plan Escape Shitty Marriage is a go. My aunt has a room for you!

Sayo: …!

-To be continued

#diabolik lovers oc #diabolik lovers #sayori makina #kou mukami #yuma mukami #ruki mukami #azusa mukami #diabolik lovers fanfiction #sayo's route

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philosophygirl · 11 months

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Night Raven College Co-Ed AU: Introduction

The headmage’s office was damp and crowded, as it usually was, with the odd faculty of Night Raven College. The portraits limply floated in the air, disappointed with their surroundings.

Crowley slammed his hands down on his desk.

“I have been thinking, ever since we let in those misfits in the Ramshackle dorm… we still have much to do with the school. So, I have decided! The sole effort to gain our reputation back, and revitalize Night Raven College!”

The other staff blinked drearily at him. The school was going downhill after the four overblot incidents of the fall semester. Parents were already complaining, students withdrawing in droves. It wasn’t long until news outlets picked it up, ruining any chance they had at beating Royal Sword Academy’s reputation.

“For the first time in hundreds of years, we shall make Night Raven co-ed!"

The room fell silent. The teachers looked at each other uneasily. It was nothing short of a surprise for a school steeped in tradition.

Trein cleared his throat.

“Uh, Headmage. We have many young and developing mages here. Wouldn't that be a… distraction for our existing students?"

Crowley began to laugh. “Oh, Trein, you're joking, surely?"

Trein’s left eye twitched.

“Haven't you noticed? Half of our student body is blatantly homosexual. You don't go to an all boy's school to meet girls, do you? Haha. And even if I’m wrong, this is our chance to finally beat Royal Sword Academy at one thing: being progressive."

Crewel spoke up. “Headmage-“

“You're not a misogynist, are you?" Crowley folded his arms and glared judgingly at the room. “Speak now if you are a misogynist.”

The room was silent.

“Good! So this will be effective immediately, and starting next semester our school will open its doors to young female magicians.”

“But sir,” Vargas said, “we don’t have the capacity to make such a huge change — we don’t have enough rooms or the appropriate staff or—“

“Tsk, tsk, tsk, Vargas. Perhaps you underestimate the abilities of a magical school. Need I remind you that each dorm exists in a pocket dimension and, because I’m so very kind, you can leave all construction to me, the headmage. That is all! Meeting adjourned! Oh, and Sam, don’t forget to pass this on to your friends.”

“But of course,” Sam replied.

The rest of the staff stomped out.

“Great! Now we will turn this bountiful school year around, indeed!”

—

The news was out by the next day. Mayumi Mousel of Ramshackle dorm, whom everyone affectionately called “Yuu,” was the first to break it to the freshmen.

“What?” stuttered Ace. “That… that doesn’t make sense. In the middle of the school year? Am I gonna have to share the dorm with a girl? I can’t – I didn’t sign up for this!”

“Imagine hundreds of Yuus running around the school,” Deuce groaned. “Absolute chaos. No offense, Yuu.”

Mayumi shrugged. “I guess if they let Grim and I in, the school is already co-ed.”

“I’m just no good with girls,” sighed Deuce, pinching the bridge of his nose. Mayumi got the impression that Deuce has never really interacted with a member of the opposite sex other than his mother. “I mean, uh, you don’t count, Yuu, you’re like, normal –”

“There better not be any more Grims,” suddenly spat Grim, resting on Mayumi’s shoulder. “We’ll have to square up. There can only be one…”

He hissed lightly, which was really not threatening at all, considering how tiny he was.

“I don’t think that’ll happen,” laughed Mayumi, giving him a reassuring pat on the head. “But, anyway, I think it’s a good thing, right? There’s no real reason for the best magical schools to be male-only.”

“Yeah, of course,” said the blue-haired freshman. “I’m just… concerned.”

He looked to the ground, nervous, as if the floor could speak for him.

“Oh my God, that’s it.” Ace grinned. “Deuce is scared of being beaten by a girl. Sports, school, fights. He’ll lose everything if a girl is better at him than something.”

“That’s not it.” Deuce’s reddening face already portrayed that Ace was correct. “Okay, maybe once in middle school, a girl threw me to the ground, but we were already fighting and she was pretty scary. Taller than me.”

Ace beamed. “So you’re afraid of girls,” he teased.

“OF COURSE I’M NOT!”

“You are, too.”

“CAULDRON, I SUMMON THEE!”

The bickering continued as the news was overheard, and spread, whispers down the hall…

–

Malleus had this wonderful object humans called a “smartphone.” The child of man was saved in his “contacts” list so she could send letters to him electronically at will.

And, even without being native to this world, the child of man had grasped it quickly. She claimed to have already been fluent in technology due to coming from a land in her home world called “Japan” which already had smartphones. Truly, it was amazing that even humans in other universes developed such grand technology independently.

Malleus, on the other hand, was still struggling to figure it out. He knew there was a home-button (that did not, to his disappointment, teleport him home) and a button to place the device in an eternal sleep until he chose to wake it up again. But he was still unsure how to use all of the glowing pictures on the screen connected to each other.

New message from: Child of Man

Child of Man: omg tsunotaro look at this

[link attached]

Child of Man: you better not get jealous of all the new students D’X

This puzzled Malleus. He was looking at the screen, but he was unsure how the random string of dots and words connected to what the human was talking about. So, he did what he usually did in these situations, which was bring it to Lilia and have the old man figure it out for him.

“Ah, Malleus, this is called a ‘hyperlink,”” the bat fae smiled warmly, holding Malleus’ phone in his comfortable chair in the Diasomnia lounge. “If you click on it, it’ll take you to different web pages. This one takes you to a news article.”

“A news article?” Malleus placed a hand to his chin. “...How precious. They have found a way to encapsulate newspapers. And these can also be distributed at will?”

Lilia wasn’t answering, though. His eyes were frozen on the screen, staring at the news headline.

ESTEEMED ALL-BOYS MAGICAL SCHOOL NIGHT RAVEN COLLEGE CONFIRMS PLAN TO WELCOME GIRLS AND BECOME FULLY CO-EDUCATIONAL; CHANGES WITHIN DAYS

That… that was odd. Malleus had never seen Lilia look so terrified in his very long life. Only when the bat fae talked about his days in the war had he seen such a face, and only briefly.

“Lilia, are you alright?” he blinked suddenly, acutely aware that something was wrong. “It seems to say that Night Raven will be co-educational by Monday…Quite unexpected indeed. Does this… mean something dire?”

With a shaking hand, Lilia handed Malleus his phone. After a long silence, Lilia swallowed and spoke.

“Her.”

Malleus crossed his arms. “Who are you talking about?”

Lilia stared off into the distance. “She’ll be here, won’t she?”

“I beg your pardon?”

Lilia locked eyes with the young prince. He was pale and wide-eyed, and unnerved Malleus greatly. Malleus was generally not nervous, but if Lilia was nervous, that was more than enough reason to be nervous himself. Generally Malleus tended not to pry when the man who raised him brought up his past. It was not his place to question his elders, this he learned a long time ago. Especially for one as long-lived and wise as Lilia, older fae tended to have such ample life experience, that, by comparison, he was akin to a child who had never left his hometown.

“I’ve never spoken about her to you, have I?” Lilia breathed, and realized how many things about his life he had buried. “No. Of course I didn’t…Of course I wouldn’t.”

Malleus knew when Lilia was far gone, deep in his own thoughts. “It is okay if it brings up bad memories, and you do not have to tell me, but I am wondering —”

“Her name is Fey Sterling.” Malleus was silent for a moment, waiting for Lilia to take a breath deep enough to continue. “We have a… long history together. And more likely than not, she will be at this school very soon.”

#this is mostly self indulgent i just think it would be funny #“OH GOD MY TOXIC EX IS GOING TO SHOW UP” - lilia #twst #nrc co-ed au #fey sterling #lilia vanrouge #yuu insert #mayumi mousel #twst oc #not tagging everyone idc #twst fic #?#i guess

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3. screenshot or description of the worst take you've seen on tumblr

I'll be honest, I don't involve myself in the drama of the fandom so if it's a take I wouldn't agree with, odds are that I didn't see it as I don't actively seek out things that don't interest me. I will say this, and I'll say it carefully: If you want to look at Billy as a tragic character because of his traumatic life, that's fine, but that doesn't excuse everything he did. He's an inherently complex character and it's possible to hate that someone is racist and also hate that that person was abused. I don't know if that really answered the question or not, but it's a take of my own.

6. which ship fans are the most annoying?

Honestly all of us 😂 We all annoy each other for different reasons. I will say that nothing has made me more angry than the Steve/Eddie vs the Chrissy/ Eddie thing. It's not even how the fans of either interact with each other, it's the fact that Joseph and Grace have been dragged into it. They're actors playing a role and shouldn't have to play mediators for fans. They definitely shouldn't receive hate or backlash either.

8. common fandom opinion that everyone is wrong about

Specific to Steddie shippers: That Eddie is perfect or Steve is perfect. They're both loveable doofuses that absolutely don't know conflict resolution. It's definitely not all pet names and snuggles but massive arguments and silent treatments.

9. worst part of canon

God I could go on for so long that you would almost believe that I don't like the show.

I think ultimately it's that up until this season there hasn't really felt like high stakes or consequences. Steve and Robin were tortured and left with just bruises and a shock blanket. The injuries the characters have sustained would leave someone sidetracked and bedbound in the real world but they constantly shake it off. It's like the only consequences occur when necessary to the plot. Steve gets bitten by bats and strangled twice: Let's tie a shirt around his waist and have him get dizzy once. Eddie gets bitten by bats: Kill him for sad value.

16. you can't understand why so many people like this thing (characterization, trope, headcanon, etc)

Mike

No haha... Unless...

I'm really not into Kas!Eddie or vampire Eddie. I'm all for bringing him back and if that's the way that the Duffers want to do it: Great! It's a sound theory and it makes sense to the plot, it's just not something I am really into when I'm reading things like fanfiction.

22. your favorite part of canon that everyone else ignores

Here's a plot twist: I'm not going to talk about Steve or Eddie for this one.

Here's a comprehensive list of little things that I love that don't get enough conversation:

1. Ted Wheeler's little comments

2. Murray Mother Fucking Bauman

3. Joyce's (Winona's) eyebrows

4. The dedication to the fact that it's 10 pm and none of the parents know where their children are and don't ask

5. Erica and Dustin's friendship/ the passing of the DnD torch onto the next gen

6. The inclusion of Holly

7. Steve's plaid walls and car picture

8. Nancy "New Hair Every Season" Wheeler

9. Eddie having pretzels and weed in his lunch box

10. The sibling dynamics

11. Steve's butt in those jeans

12. Dustin's quirky style never changing and his mother who loves him so dearly.

Quite literally I could go all day but this would be the longest post.

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1, Hi!! I used to come by years ago, I absolutely loved, and still do!, your blog, its a fantastic place, so many interesting stuff, it really is like an archive for me haha I don't have much to add, only some shower thoughts if you don't mind me. I never had the chance to dump them on anyone o(-(

omg, hi there!!!!

first of all, thank you for the sweet message! i'm glad you used to like this blog so long ago and still do now 🥺 i haven't really talked much about dgm those past few years so i'm really touched that you think so despite it all, and more than that i'm just really glad that you can still go back to the archives of this blog and have fun!! i'm really glad to have you here!!

Answering the rest of the asks under the cut <3

ooh you mean this page?

it's really too ambiguous so i guess it's mostly that there's nothing really to theorize per se, especially since in the next page Allen remembers a bit of Nea, so i would assume the "?" we all had turned into "oh it's probably one of the Campbell twins".

But mhmm i'm rereading the bit and yeah, considering Nea introduces himself in his memory on the next page it could be probably someone whom Allen knew before that time.

And as a "PastA was a Bookman apprentice" truther, i do feel like his clothes there are reminiscent of what young!Lavi used to wear as well.

Honestly i could perhaps see Bookman Senior being the one holding him like that. Like.... I feel like we can interpret everything we want about that but i feel like Bookman Senior particularly reminding Lavi to not form attachment and even being a bit cold toward him at times could be direct reactions from the reasons he lost his previous apprentice. What if he was too soft with his previous apprentice, what if it made the apprentice care too much about the people making history so much so it got him involved? As such, i could imagine it be Bookman Sr genuinely being emotional with PastA, the type of affection that doomed him, and that now Bookman Sr is less willing to give out.

Or, like you said, it could be anyone else. A parent, a friend, anything. I could imagine it being a family member of some kind though, considering how much this arc is specially about Allen getting adopted by Mana and how much Nea still haunts him. In a sense Nea is the thing that keeps getting in between Allen and his family, so to have this flashback interrupted by Nea could be an extension of that, of the family he turned his back on when Nea entered his life.

i didn't think about it much but i could see it. or. well. I can fit my theories into this single panel so LMAO.

I don't think you're wrong, especially seeing the Alma arc. Tbh i'm still thinking and haunted by this arc specifically because well, I was there Gandalf ect, i was there when dgm was at the height of its popularity in 2008/2009, i remembered how many shounen fans were really into the saga and would be widely homophobic to the notion of any of those characters being possibly gay, and i remember very, very clearly the moment the plot point of Alma being Kanda's love interest dropped, unambiguously, and how much of an uproar it was. I remember people jumping ship THERE, before the manga even went on hiatus.

And i swear i remember Hoshino mentioning that her health really started to become worse when she had to fight her editors for what she wanted, and that the Alma arc was one of those. She had to set it up in such a way that her editors couldn't take it away from her, by having Kanda set up on finding Alma early in the story, building up the Alma arc, and only then later in the arc going ":) well Alma is the love Kanda is looking for. And i can't take it back without ruining this entire arc. so what do we do."

and it DID cost to the series at this point, it WAS something that got a lot of pushbacks.

Nowadays i feel like Hoshino is probably more free to do whatever she wants, esp since there's been more casually gay rep in shounen ever since, but at the time, i remember it causing a huge stir in the fanbase.

And hell i remember at the time the people who were translating the manga after it got out of hiatus in 2015 or so was a huge popular manga website where a lot of casual shounen readers were tuning in, and i still remember seeing hundreds of homophobic takes in the comments at the time, especially regarding Kanda. A lot of casual shounen fans have completely wrote of the series because Hoshino "let her BL lenses stain the series" and that therefore for them they can only read the newer dynamics with that lenses, especially when Kanda is involved.

(and it doesn't help Kanda was like. THE symbol of masculinity for the guys i met in the shounen fandoms at the time. The fact he was the one who got this plotline got them PISSED because they were projecting this idea on Kanda and i could still see it in the mid 10s.)

I think Hoshino is well happy writing Shounen, but she doesn't mind also talking about any sort of love into it, she did mention she wanted to show what her definition of love (in all of its form, not just romantic) was in her story, so i think it's an extension of that. But Hoshino did pretty much fight for Kanda to have his relationship with Alma. I'm honestly inclined to believe Alma had to die as a compromise to the fact she basically set up a lovestory her editors could not possibly cut.

But her editors causing her problems have been at the root of any clunky dgm plotpoints anyway. The Destroyer of Time's prophecy came from her editors. Allen was a transwoman in the first draft and was changed to a cisguy because her editors argued "no one would care if a female MC was to cry, so we need Allen to be a boy for it to count". her editors told her to cut down appearances of the Earl while Hoshino always wanted to have him as a main character (which is likely why now that she has more freedom thanks to her new deal, we've been getting full arcs focusing on him). Her editors pushed her to change Lenalee away from the character she wanted her to be. So long and so forth.

Honestly i still look back at the Alma arc in awe because it truly was Hoshino putting her foot down and making sure her editors would not be able to change her vision this time and i still admire it.

but man sometimes i mourn for the story DGM could have been if the editors haven't constantly been restraining her. Obviously, there's always moment an editor helps out in pacing a story or helping some focus, but with dgm you can sense on some point how some elements just. didn't really help out Hoshino's vision and it's so sad.

Nowadays it seems her editors are giving her more freedom, and it's about time. It's just so damn sad that it came when her health has become too fragile because of the constant strain that has been on her in part because of her old editors.

I for one am looking forward to see where it's going and i will be patient, but yeah. Can't wait to see how that goes either.

It's nice to hear those thoughts though so if you feel like rambling more, the inbox is opened!

Take care and thank you for the sweet message <3

#ichafantalks dgm #ichareply #anonymous

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tiz-chan · 2 years

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It’s probably really late! I wanted to ask do you think Clive will regret not being about to protect Joshua and his kingdom?

Haha, yeah probably. Plus I go to bed early unless it's a weekend. 🥲 I have my queue posting for me between 7-10, so that's when you can tell I'm getting relaxed / ready for bed. 😴

omg why do you hurt me like this???

I would be absolutely shocked if he didn't feel that way. From what we can tell, primarily on the Awakening trailer, Clive is not only Joshua's big brother, but also his literal 'shield.'

I get the impression that Clive takes his duty pretty seriously, too. Not only as a (possibly) protective big brother, but because Clive might have an inferiority complex. I imagine he felt like a failure, being the first son and all, who let his parents down by not inheriting the Eikon.

Clive must have worked very hard to get where he did by the age of 15. He must have gotten sick of feeling like the 'failure' of the family, desperate to seek out something he could do and feel worthy through it. And not just for himself. I figure he might have been a bit eager to make his parents acknowledge / be proud of him, too??

15 year old Clive will be a good boy(TM). But even before everything goes to shit, I feel like he will still be quite complex. He might have a darker / uglier side to him, where he may or may not feel even just a prickle of envy towards Joshua for having inherited Phoenix when he couldn't.

Don't get me wrong though. I think feeling that way would only make Clive feel more frustrated - more so with himself, then anything. Hell, maybe he'd partially hate himself for it.

So imagine how it would feel to accomplish so much after feeling so inferior, only to have your entire life flipped upside down in a mere night.

Clive will be devastated.

20-something year old Clive will be broodier because of it. And we already know that he's thirsty for some vengeance, which is understandable. Anger is a common crutch for coping with grief. But that same anger could reflect back at him, too. I imagine he would replay what he could've done differently in his head again and again. Perhaps even blame himself for not being strong enough, regardless of whether there really was anything he could've done or not.

Not being able to protect the things that mattered is probably his biggest regret, for sure. Not only did he fail to become Phoenix's Dominant, but he failed as Joshua's shield and older brother, too. He failed his parents. Failed the entire kingdom, even.

Everything he ever accomplished amounted to nothing, and he only ever let other people down.

I'm hoping that 30-something year old Clive will be able to put those broken pieces back together, and sort of mature / find some peace despite all of the horror this game will most definitely put him through. But depending on how things go, I could also see him hit an unhinged, sort of rock-bottom before things get better, too.

Well, I mean, assuming things do get better...

#omg #i got carried away #im so sorry #you get me talking about clive and i could go on for hours #final fantasy xvi #final fantasy 16 #ffxvi #ff16 #clive rosfield #joshua rosfield #words

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Sorry if you're tired of MP comparisons, but i just want to say that clever's death, when compared to sharptongue's, really shows why shartongue as a character just doesn't work. they basically fill the same role in their respective stories (older family member who stands up for the abused mc & who is nicer than the mc's abusive parents) but clever was overall more impactful to the story than sharptongue. clever's death is the reason why hope left he family & became a traveler. sharptongue's death didn't really do anything except make nothing sad, which she already was, make powerstrike get angry with nothing, which was already happening, and tell nothing a little bit of a prophecy, which rain & ghost would've done anyways. there was really no reason for sharptongue to die except to further torture nothing, but her death doesn't change nothing at all (oh boy does nothing's name make these sentences confusing!). she didn't even offer nothing a better name! and yeah both sharptongue and clever allowed an evil lion to join their pride, but clever didn't know jasper was evil at the time whereas sharptongue did! i could go on but it's hard to explain everything in a tumblr ask. basically, clever is better than sharptongue in every way. she's a much better example of the "non abusive older family member" trope

Oh no worries. We knew comparisons were gonna happen going into this haha that's ultimately my problem with Sharptongue. Even tho she was literally the reason bad things continued happening to Nothing, she's meant to be this strong encouraging figure in her life. She literally says shes all alone after shes gone, like sorry I don't think you're missing a whole lot, considering she single-handedly allowed her father and brother's murderer to have power over the pride. And then proceeded to have a flimsy excuse to allow it like "If he doesnt [keep his promise] he'll have defied the gods!" Like ooh big deal lol he just happened to be stupidly superstitious, it wasn't like it was a good defense. But in the next episode it's switched around and Powerstrike is now the wrong one, like why lol why not have her continue to be wrong and have Powerstrike be the voice of reason? If they'd just gone all the way and made Sharptongue the villain instead of Powerstrike, her character might have made a bit more sense because ultimately - regardless of what the creator intended - her inaction pretty much doomed Nothing to grow up with her attempted murderer. Which is all kinds of fucked up and something an uncaring, traditionalist villain would pull. Yet, we're meant to idolise Sharptongue because she's 'nice' while she does this? Yikes. And her suggesting Nothing take the name Hobblestep is... woof. Like how is that helpful. How is that doing anything that doesn't just continue ableist abuse. Why is a frown the biggest objection she had to any of Nothings treatment. And you're right to her absolute uselessness when it comes to the plot. She doesn't actually do anything but enable conflict (which goes ignored) and die from Mystery Illness-itis. I can't even get on board with Nothing being sad about her death. Tho it was unintentionally hilarious. Even tho I would've liked to expand her presence, I'm glad Clever is a good antithesis to Sharptongue even with not as much screen time as I would've preferred. - Cat

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Hii this is super random and I’ll try to keep it brief but I could use some advice please.

I recently got my first job, which is watching my niece while my sister is at work/school for her nursing degree. My niece is three and I absolutely adore spending time with her. We’ve gotten really close while I’ve been babysitting, and most days when it’s time for me to leave she tells me I’m not allowed to go. It really is nearly the perfect job!

There is however one thing that makes me really anxious about the whole situation, I have an absolutely horrendous time trying to get her to eat. I watch her generally from around 8am to 3pm on days that I work. She is usually having breakfast when I arrive and if I’m lucky she’ll eat about half. Then lunch rolls around and it’s an accomplishment if she will even eat anything. I mean even a few bites of food feels celebration worthy most days. And a lot of the time all I can get her to eat is little snacky junk( I know food is morally neutral not saying junk food is wrong but I feel bad all she’s eating is like cookies and chips instead of an actual lunch)

What kills me is that she will tell me she’s hungry. She tells me that her tummy is hurting because she’s hungry, but then when I suggest that she should eat something, she doesn’t want to. No matter what I suggest, her favorite foods, I’ll offer to order her a whole ass pizza and she is just not interested. She just wants to carry on playing. As someone with an ed and a very toxic relationship with food and body image(I am working on it, slowly)I am never going to force her to eat if she doesn’t want to. I feel awful that she’s going hungry some days, but I’m not sure what else to do?

I’ve talked to my sister about this, but she wasn’t really concerned. She basically said that El(my niece) is just a toddler who’s too busy playing to worry about food. She told me that El generally doesn’t have a big appetite anyway, but that she’ll go looking for snacks if she gets hungry enough. She also said that as long as El seems happy and comfortable throughout the day it’s nothing to worry about and I’m not doing anything wrong. El is not her first child, so she does have experience in this department that I don’t.

I just feel like I’m not taking good care of my niece because she’s going hungry some days. The only thing I can reliably get her to consume without fail is chocolate milk, which obviously one cannot live off. Any words of wisdom for me? Is my sister right should I try not to stress so much about it?

Hi there!

Oh, that's lovely that you are getting on so well with your niece! ❤️ Toddlers can be very hard work, haha, but she sounds like a wonderful little girl!

I think almost every parent will be familiar with the food issues you're describing, and don't worry, it definitely isn't your fault. It's super, super common for children, especially younger children, to be very picky eaters and eat very little. I have one child who has always eaten everything, veggies and all, and one child who is picky and eats like a tiny baby bird. Same upbringing, same weaning process, just different children.

Here are some things that could help, though different things work for different children, and nothing is a miracle method that will transform her into a great eater. Your sister is not wrong, by the way, generally children will eat enough to keep themselves alive. lol But it is important to encourage a healthy relationship with food. So, here are some tips.

Talk to her about what the food is good for. "You know what's in here? Vitamins! Do you know what those are? Your body is growing, so it needs vitamins to keep making you bigger and stronger. etc." Really get into the explanations, children are curious! Ask her if she remembers being a little baby, show her pictures of herself when she was tiny, explain that her hair grew, her bones grew, her teeth grew, her arms and legs grew long all because of the nutrients in the food she eats. Point out which vegetables and fruit are good for what. "Wow, you know what this carrot does? It's super good for your eyes, it will give you super vision if you eat enough!" (it's okay to exaggerate just a little, playfully, haha)

Equally, talk about food that is bad for her. Not in a "we can never have this" way, but "oof, if we eat a lot of this the sugar will make us go 'aaahahahaha' and then, you'll get really tired and grumpy, did you know? Sugar is energy, but it only lasts a little bit and if you eat too much it can hurt your teeth and your blood!" Or equally that, I don't know, bread has some nutrients but not all the good ones she needs.

Prepare food with her! Let her help you put things in a pot/bowl, cut something soft, count out small pieces of fruit or whatever you can think of. Stir the pot, turn on the oven, anything that makes her feel like she is making the food.

Always insist, gently but firmly, that she takes at least one bite of something she says she doesn't want to eat. "Just try, and if you don't like it, you don't have to eat more".

Talk about her body and her tummy as if they have feelings (and they do, but you know what I mean). "Hey, well done for eating that! Your tummy is going: Yay, yay! Vitamins for meee!" Or: "Your body is going 'aww, feed meee, give me food so I can grow big and strong, pleeaaase!" Don't overdo the latter, it's a bit guilt-trippy, I'd recommend only a little bit of it.

Try her with different textures and levels of flavour. Maybe she doesn't like mushy, soft things and prefers to gnaw on a raw carrot but gags at a soft, cooked one. Just try. "Look, did you know you can eat this without cooking it? Try, it's crunchy! Bunnies like to eat this." (pretend to be a bunny, or really any animal, like monkey for bananas...) Try serving, say, pasta with just butter instead of tomato sauce if maybe she just doesn't like strong flavours. Maybe she doesn't like her food mixed together, as well. Try serving the components separate.

Agree on a number of bites when the meal starts. "We've got to feed your tummy, your body needs to grow! I tell you what, let's have five bites. One for mummy, one for daddy, one for grandma, one for grandpa and one for me, okay? And that's it.”

Like I said, none of these things are miracles and don't expect immediate results. Just keep at it, she will be listening to what you are saying, even if she doesn't react at first. It will slowly sink in and leave am impression.

Also, maybe she likes smoothies! Try making fruit smoothies with almond milk or regular milk, one banana, some berries and honey to make it sweet! (You can even blend in a bit of spinach if she turns out to like them, she won't taste it, though she may be suspicious of the green, but you know, talk it up to her like 'this will make you extra strong!')

Good luck, and let me know how you get on! 💪🏻

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certified-cix-hellbeast · 1 year

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WHAT'S UP GAMERS

i said that this would be primarily a cix fan account and then the first work of mine that i post is not cix smh im a disgrace forgive me fix's

thjis shit has been withering away in my storage for like two years and i can tell it's that old because there are proper capitals. i haven't looked at it since july 2020. and i don't think i will after this. Haha! it's a monsta x fanfiction that is based off of and inspired by their dramarama mv because i was absolutely obsessed with the song and its storyline. i have no fukin clue where i was going with it <3

i'm generally pretty embarrassed of my older works from at least a year ago lord help me but! i dont know any of u ppl and i am completely fine with crying myself to sleep tonight over this so it's all gucci

it seems like this was going to be hyungwon x wonho pairing but idk wtf i was thinking tbh i am probably never going to finish it or think about it ever again <3

i hope u enjoy! thx lov u

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Four watches.

He had four watches.

He actually never thought of ever giving them away at first. He wanted to keep them to himself, hidden away from the world to never have another touch or see them. It was never meant to be handled by anyone who didn't deserve it. It wasn't smart that way. The wrong hands could be seen from the wrong eyes, and the wrong eyes could lead to the wrong words meeting the wrong ears. The less that knew of this privilege, the better. Besides, he didn’t want tainted hands to rust the precious metal anyways.

So he concealed the watches in a cheap wooden box for years. Nothing special - no lock or code. Because it wasn't special. He didn't want it to seem special to him, so he left it on a shelf in plain sight too. He was playing smart. He was playing safe.

To be fair, he didn't want to take up this responsibility to begin with. It was never handed down from generation to generation, and it wasn't created to be. It was just something his father miraculously invented for his own enjoyment. Then when his parents passed away abruptly in a tragic car accident that involved the three of them, he really wanted to turn back time. He almost blamed himself for being the sole survivor. It wasn't careful, the way he took over what his father used to do. It was driven by grief. The invention is still very new.

Sadly, being new and different has its disadvantages. Everyone is terrified of the power which comes from it. Because they are scared, of course, measures must be taken to ease the fear.

Time skipping is illegal.

He wouldn't have cared much back then. But now, it nearly made Hyungwon want to scream.

He didn't, though. He stayed calm, cool and collected, like he always did, with the same passive, unreadable expression. He acted like any other civilian - relieved that the police finally took action. He acted like he wasn't a time skipper himself. It only had become apparent and known because of his father, who was overexcited and cocky with it. His father skipped all around the town - boasted to everyone he knew. Even made copies of the watches for others to have. Like the domino effect, one person knew, and then that person told another, and it continued until it was heard from authorities. Then the authorities sent out secret agents.

Those secret agents seem to be everywhere.

Hyungwon has learned, now, where their blind spots are.

One blind spot is a single-room hideaway in which he resides. It is his home. His safe haven. His sanctuary. Everything that is inside it is his, and his only, except for the watches. No one else has set foot in it but him and the watches. The only things in there that hold any significance are the watches.

It's always about the watches.

And as he realizes this, Hyungwon thinks that maybe - just maybe - he should finally take a look at them.

So he did. The box which he hadn't touched or even remotely thought about for years was off of its shelf and onto his desk. Back then, he wouldn't have made it this far with the watches. He would have never thought to touch or wear them. He didn't want the burden of being an heir to such a thing, but lately things have more than prodded at his mind. He found himself glancing at the box more often than not these days, and he wanted to know why. So he opened the box and took out the first watch he saw.

The glass was shattered - no doubt the rest of it was broken too. He precisely remembered this one, and the memories that followed it, like it was haunted by a ghost. Plagued by some kind of evil. Back then, he would've choked up at the sight. He was better now. This was the watch his father wore when he died. It was the only broken one amongst the rest, and the only to hold such a weight of emotions. But Hyungwon didn't feel that weight anymore.

Instead, he found a purpose. A desire to fix it.

And maybe, Hyungwon thought, just maybe, it might be time to give the others away too.

Hyungwon knew it would be difficult, choosing who he decided was worthy enough to wield something so special. He gathered together parts and tools, splaying them all across his desk which used to be so neat. He didn't mind it anymore. In between fixing his father's old watch, he went out more often. He observed from afar, a skill that he excelled in, as he was always so silent and attentive. When he came home, he went straight back to the broken watch. Eventually he stopped counting the days that went by - he was almost embarrassed at how long it was taking him.

It was late at night now. Hyungwon had just gotten home; after throwing his jacket, keys and wallet onto his unmade bed, he plopped himself down onto his chair. He picked up a tool and immediately resumed back to the work he left on his desk. It hadn't been that long since he started before he heard a dull thud. He paused, and then heard it again, quickly learning that it was a knock at his door.

"I-I'm sorry. Are-are you Hyungwon? Chae Hyungwon?"

He looked down towards the voice of a slightly disheveled man with short raven-colored hair and bangs that were damp against his forehead. His dark, wide eyes stared up at him, filled with a sense of distress. Hyungwon kept the door cracked enough for his head to fit through and that was it.

"Did you follow me here?" Hyungwon questioned warily.

Then those dark eyes looked away in shame, "Uh, yeah, I'm sorry. I need- I need your help."

"My help? Why mine?"

"Your father," the man started, before bringing his tone down to a soft murmur, "He was a time traveller, right?"

Hyungwon couldn't control the sharpness in his response, "Time skipper."

"So it's true?"

Hyungwon then realized that he had basically confirmed the other's suspicions. There was silence for a time, as Hyungwon pondered his next course of action - whether to trust the guy or not. He figured he looked innocent enough to, but he didn't fail to catch how big and well-muscled his arms were. It was obvious that Hyungwon would be no match against a fist fight with the man, especially with his own lanky stature. Finally, he just rolled his eyes, throwing the thought away and opening the door enough to allow the other inside.

To the taller's surprise, the stranger didn't comment on how small and unhomely it seemed in there as he invited himself to take a seat on the bed. Hyungwon did notice, though, how his gaze had settled on his desk for just a bit too long. Hyungwon probably thought more of it than he should, almost believing that he would try to take a watch then run with it. Instead, the man looked away, towards Hyungwon to follow his every move.

"I'm Lee Hoseok - just call me Wonho."

Hyungwon sat down at his desk, heaving a sigh, "Why are you here, Wonho?"

"Well, I- uh," he swallowed thickly before continuing, "I was hoping you had an extra watch. And if I could… borrow it."

"Borrow? A watch?"

Wonho was squirming in his spot, tripping over words before finally getting something out, "To meet a friend I have. Back… back in time. We were very close, and then we got separated… used to visit him so we could practice Kumdo."

"How did you two get separated?"

"I… I used to be a time skipper, until I got caught." the visitor grew quieter, "Took my watch and everything."

It was silent, silent and tense from the stranger's perspective. Hyungwon's stare never wavered as he thought long and hard about the man in front of him, begging for his assistance, basically. Then he slowly turned his head to stare at his watches - his oh, so precious watches - which still resided in the open box sat atop his desk. Then he looked back, staring into lost, pleading eyes.

"Please…" Wonho breathed, "You have no idea how long I've been looking for you."

Hyungwon murmured, "How long?"

He had told him that he was searching for months - almost a year even. In the comfort of Hyungwon's hideaway, which avoided all eyes and ears except for those inside the room, he listened to the stranger intently, nodding every so often in understanding. Wonho told him about how his father was a friend of Hyungwon's father, and he had given him a watch as a gift. It was then eventually handed down to Wonho, who met his friend, Hyunwoo, with it. The conversation branched off when he began talking about Hyunwoo.

"He was very… patient… and gentle," Wonho spoke thoughtfully, "He's the reason I got into Kumdo. Turns out he's a pretty good instructor, too."

"Until you were caught?"

"Until I was caught." he nodded sadly, "Two men, they held me down, ripped the watch right off of my wrist and then left."

Soon after, Hyungwon was returning the favor by telling the other about himself. He told him about how bold his father had been upon coming across the invention of time skipping. How famous he became for such a thing, and that he knew lots of people, while Hyungwon was quite the opposite growing up. Because of that, though, many people also didn't like his father - he would find himself in trouble occasionally. Hyungwon remembered when his father had gotten beaten up because he wouldn't give away the blueprints of the watch he created. His father saw Hyungwon as the perfect watch-bearer, though he would turn down the opportunity as he wasn't interested then. Hyungwon almost despised the idea of carrying such a power, and didn't like the responsibility of it.

"Only my father knows how to make these," Hyungwon said while gazing down at the watch in his grasp, "It's dying out as soon as it became known."

"Do you want it to die out?"

"Not exactly," he murmured, "I just don't mind if it does."

By the end of their conversation, they could pretty much consider themselves as friends. It was strange to Hyungwon, as he let him in so easily just because they had similar backgrounds, but it wasn't like either of them were complaining.

"You can have it."

Wonho blinked, "What?"

"You can have the watch."

"I… really?"

There was certainly no way Hyungwon could turn back now, but somehow he knew that he wouldn't regret the decision, after seeing how the other lit up like nothing else. So he gave him a watch. Took it out of the box carefully, thumbing at the cool metal with a long look before handing it out. Wonho accepted it just as gently, to the taller's appreciation.

"Take care of it, and stay safe." Hyungwon said.

Wonho smiled, "I will."

Before anything else, the visitor disappeared out of thin air.

Hyongwon had already assumed that he wouldn't see the man again, and he didn't mind that thought too much. He wasn't a very talkative guy - not entirely antisocial or awkward, but rather indifferent about anything that comes at him. He didn't exactly thrive off of having and keeping a relationship of any sort. Not that he didn't try to keep one, it just hasn't always worked out too well for him. So he's basically learned to just take whatever life will give at this point.

Weeks passed since his encounter with Wonho, and only little progress has been made with his father's broken watch. He begins debating on whether he should just give up or not after his first mild breakdown. It's early in the afternoon when this happens. He finds himself growing increasingly frustrated as he picks and prods at the object, wondering what more he could do. This is also when he wishes he had asked his father to teach him the ways of time skipping, back when he was alive. Hyungwon never really thought that he would be in this position though.

But why was he, though? Why did he feel so drawn to the stupid thing?

He finally lets out a yell, dropping everything back down on the desk. He pushed himself away from the scene, hunching over in his seat with his head in his hands. This was supposed to help him cool off; instead, his mind continued to pester him. It reminded him of the car crash, his parents laying lifeless against the dashboard. He hadn't thought about the incident in years, hadn't thought about how broke and lost he was. He realizes just now, as a single tear falls past his cheek, that he still feels a little bit lost.

"Ah, s-sorry- uh, H-Hyungwon-ah?"

Hyungwon's head shot up to the voice, eyes widening and mouth agape at the man standing before him. Wonho.

#fanfic #monsta x #hyungwon #monsta x wonho #monsta x hyungwon #mx wonho #mx hyungwon #kpop #kpop boys #creative writing #writing #chae hyungwon #wonho #aaaaaaaaaaaa #<3333 #fanfiction #kpop fanfic #kpop fanfiction

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wild-karrde · 2 years

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Currently rereading in command!! Also just remembered that whatever is specifically wrong with my brain when Chuck mused about finding “that mechanic” before O66 my brain immediately went “Star Wars dream couple” and I’m SO curious if you ah w any random head cannons or musings. (Also GOD I love your little family you’ve created 😭😭😭)

Awwww shucks! I'm glad you think it's worth re-reading (and will be interested to see how you like the v2.0 haha). And the mechanic I had in my mind is a completely different character from Senna (not necessarily fully formed, but she has a few details that I've got bouncing around in my brain), but that is a THOUGHT hahahaha. I think Chuck and Senna would kill each other in a relationship because those are two stubborn people with STRONG opinions about things hahahaha. She'd be pissed because he wouldn't let her touch his fighter, and I'd bet they'd argue about it constantly. Parent Chuck is more adaptable, but Clone Wars Pilot Chuck absolutely had a certain way of doing things (much like Senna does), and I think they'd be at each other's throats too much to date.

In the "Karrdeverse" (still feels pretentious to call it that myself lol) imagine Chuck may have been in the Jedi Temple garages a lot of the times Senna was, but she was likely either under a ship tinkering away or just had her nose in her datapad, so they've absolutely bumped into one another before, but she has no memory of it whatsoever. She probably mumbled an apology at him without looking up from her datapad. Chuck was probably going 1000 miles an hour and just told her to watch where she was going before hustling off to the next thing.

One day, at the Yavin base, Senna makes an offhand comment about how there was a mechanic at the Temple garage she could never find because always was off somewhere hooking up with a hotshot pilot in a supply closet. Chuck splutters into his drink, and suddenly his face is on fire. He admits to nothing.

#karrde asks #I am so very excited about this rewrite #and am so hyped you all are just as excited #eeeeeeeee #OC Chuckles #OC Senna Aven #OC Senna Atiniir

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tinyyoungblood · 3 years

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hi!! adore your work love. could you maybe do smth where stark!reader has to get her wisdom teeth out but HATES the dentist so she brings her boyf peter and her dad w her?? and then when they get home the avengers are all waiting with like comical amounts of flowers and stuffed animals and then reader says some funny shiii and thor thinks she’s like dying lol. idk if that made sense but i’m getting my wisdom teeth out soon and i’m scared😭 thank u so so much love u babe

pairing: peter parker x stark!reader

a/n: tysm lovely :,) i rushed through this like my life depended on it, but i hope i’m not too late. either way, i hope you’re okay! it’s frightening but those bad boys gotta go because we don’t need that kind of energy in our lives. enjoy x

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wisdom teeth? more like wisdoom

y/n has to get her wisdom teeth removed and it’s the singular most dreadful thing she’s ever had to do, which says a lot because her dad is tony richling stark

doing dreadful things she doesn’t want to do but still somehow end up doing just because she can is a personality trait at this point

no one really makes a big deal out of it since ~death~ is part of their job description, but y/n is terrified

and when a stark is terrified the only thing that will keep them one step from insanity is researching the hell out of it

that information will be info dumped into every conversation for the next few weeks leading up to the appointment

“y/n you need anything from the store?” "no thanks, did you know the side effects of getting your wisdom teeth out include ✨sudden death or blood clots✨ tho” “……..i have a coupon?”

the day of the appointment, peter comes along and literally doesn’t let go of y/n’s hand. he keeps touching her to let her know that he’s there and it’s so. adorable

he would rest his hand on her knee, gently stroke her back while holding her, or just play with her hair

happy drops them off and he’s too Cool™ for emotions but he knows y/n’s a wreck, so he just fist bumps her with a single nod and she almost breaks down bc it’s really affectionate

y/n is sitting in the dentist chair and genuinely nothing is happening yet, but she’s squeezing peter’s hand like it’s a sponge

peter might have a high pain tolerance but he’s in pain pain and he prays that his hand won’t just explode on him

the dentist notices how peter tries to keep it together and chuckles

“you okay there, son?” “yea it’s fine, had a better time when a building fell on me tho haha” “pardon?” “oh i mean i didn’t have a good time, i just had a better time”

because y/n is running Anxious Town™, the dentist gives her a sedative to help her relax

plus, an injection of local anaesthetic to numb the tooth and surrounding area

she doesn’t feel anything and it’s GREAT

the procedure is quicker than expected and now the real fun begins

she tries to walk but she falls down so peter scoops her up bridal style and happy stays glued at her side

y/n doesn’t mind although she literally doesn’t recognise them and they’re practically strangers to her

but girly sees an opportunity and tries to flirt with peter bc why wouldn’t she

“you’re pretty” *blushes* “why thanks” “you should let your girlfriend know” “i should let her know i’m pretty?” “so you do have a gf? :(” “yea it’s you” “:)”

they stop for gas and peter goes in to get some water for y/n, and in her infinite wisdom, she decides it’s burger time

her mouth is completely numb and she’s practically leaving a trail of drool behind her, but she’d kill for a burger right now

so she wobbles around aimlessly for an hour on some random parking lot as if the ground might just magically open up like a rabbit hole and lead her to five guys

she’s going places. not back to the car. definitely not five guys. they’re closed. but places

peter finally finds her and he’s drenched from head to toe in sweat. he doEsn’T wAnt tO tALk abOut iT tho so she lets him take her to subway instead

normally, she would know that peter’s usual subway order is bread-lettuce-jalapeño

but in her drugged-up state, it had simply slipped her mind so now she’s staring at him like he’d just murdered someone right in front of her

“that- that’s your order?? no meat or anything just bread, lettuce, and a little spice?”

meanwhile at the compound, sam and steve are ordering everyone around bc they want to decorate this place before y/n gets home to surprise her

they take it very seriously too. they’ve watched like one HGTV show and said it’s our time

they finally get home and tony gives y/n a big hug, asking her what took so long

happy tells him that she was keen on getting burgers bc apparently someone has taught her that stressful times call for ~cheeseburgers~

he proceeds to look at tony with a pointed look

tony just shrugs and goes “she was a problem child. we don’t mention her dark past”

she’s swaying on the spot and keeps grinning like a fool and thor just stares at her weirdly before elbowing bruce and whispering loudly,

“what’s wrong with her? is she dying? should i start collecting leaves, i know this remedy—"

no one can tell if y/n is just happy to see the newly decorated home or if she’s just delighted to see everyone but then she goes around hugging the entire team

she doesn’t even acknowledge the sky-high pile of teddy bears and flowers everywhere bc she’s just squeezing everybody

y/n is so high, she just starts to spill all of her feelings about everyone and they’re already so overwhelmed by the hug chain they can’t take this too

“wanda i just want you to know that you’re like my big sister and you’re always taking care of me and i know you and vision are just going to make such good parents one day”

“bucky you absolute PRICK, you FIEND, you’re the best chess player ever and that’ll never change and i wouldn’t be good without you, i hate to say it but you deserve happiness even after you made me lose five times in a row yesterday”

“dad, you’re so strong and smart, even though we’re like never on the same page, you’re always along for the ride, i want to be like you when i grow up, i swear i’m gonna try to be as good to the avengers as you were to us” “aww- wait makes you think i'll be the first to die“

“nat you’re such a bitch about your protein shakes but you’re my best friend and i wouldn’t have it any other way, you can try out as many make up looks on me as you want”

“bruce, brucey, i would live with you in your lab for the rest of my days if i had to, whenever you ask me to hand you stuff i feel useful and important”

“laura’s way out of your league clint i have no idea how the fuck you got her but don’t lose her and i want to be your next child’s godmother”

“steve…we’re your family now. we’re always gonna be your family now. okay?”

“loki you’re not fooling anyone with your attitude, we all know you’re part of the family, you were just misunderstood and messed up bc of your dad–FUCK him by the way–but i realised everyone deserves as many chances as they need because of you”

“sam i would genuinely kill anyone who wronged you, even if they cut you in line at the grocery store, i would knife them no hesitation”

“thor, you poor golden retriever have been through so much, on my way here i made a wish on an eyelash for you bc you deserve better, your postcards always make my day, love you”

she mumbles something to peter that no one else can hear but he blushes and chokes back a sob

y/n orders hot soup and bucky brings it to her but before he even has time to react peter drops everything and ZOOMS across the room in .3 seconds

he barrels into bucky so hard they both go flying, but peter just smoothly rolls out of it and onto his feet like some kind of super ninja

“DUDE WHAT THE HELL” “😠 y/n is not supposed to drink hot liquids 😠”

all of this happens in mere seconds but sam has filmed it all and now slow mo clips go viral online of some mysterious kid knocking over the winter soldier

y/n’s a little in and out after that, but when she fully regains consciousness, she’s on a pile of blankets, surrounded by the team on the floor <3

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let me know if this is actually comforting lmao stay hydrated pals

hc masterlist

#peter parker x reader #peter parker x stark!reader #peter parker x you #peter parker headcanon #peter parker fluff #avengers x you #avenger x reader #avengers headcanon #tony stark headcanons #steve rogers headcanon #natasha romanoff headcanon #thor headcanon #loki headcanon #bucky barnes headcanon #sam wilson headcanon #avengers crack #peter parker concept #peter parker x y/n #avengers x y/n

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Untitled Feralnette Fic Ch. 1

Hiya there anyone who happens upon this first chapter of this fic. I would like to start out by saying that this is my first fanfic ever. I've been wanting to write a fic for the miraculous fandom for a while but I haven't had any inspiration until I stumbled upon this glorious AU created by @bigfatbreak. I highly suggest checking out all of their posts about this au because they are hilarious and genius and about 100 other amazing adjectives that could be used to describe them and their posts. Anyways enough with my rant and let's get on with the fic. ⚠️Slight angst⚠️ ⚠️Swearing⚠️

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When Marinette got home after her and Luka's breakup, all she could do was cry. She wanted to be with him, but her Ladybug duties came first. If lying is a deal breaker for him, then maybe it was best that they ended it now while their relationship was still in its early stages. Still, she couldn't help but feel the loss of her first relationship. She ended up crying for a whole entire day. She just hoped that Hawkmoth(or Shadowmoth or whatever the fuck he wanted to be referred to as this week) wasn't feeling particularly akuma-y today, because she didn't know if she could bottle up all these feelings, even though the world is relying on her ability to do so.

Ugggghhh!! It has been exhausting having to be "happy and perfect Marinette" and "happy and perfect Ladybug" All. The. Time. She's also pretty sure that Hawkmoth had discovered the similarities in her personality as Marinette to Ladybug, and that's why she's been targeted by multiple akumas lately. She has had to have her emotions under control even more than usual. If only there was a way to get Hawkmoth to stop targeting her. Maybe she should just not give a fuck anymore. Haha as if! It couldn't be that easy! Could it?

The more she thinks about it the more it starts to make sense. If she just let herself go completely crazy as Marinette, she would be killing like 10 birds with one stone. She would get hawkmoth off of her trail, she wouldn't have to deal with having to hide her emotions all of the time, she wouldn't have to deal with the added stress of maintaining her perfect persona, she wouldn't have to deal with the stress of Lila's lies taking her friends away if she didn't have friends in the first place, and so much more stress would be taken off of her plate! It was perfect! It might hurt a little at first, but it's for the best in the end. She spent that night planning out her outfit for tomorrow, doing her homework, and going to sleep knowing that, in the morning, François Dupont isn't gonna know what hit them.

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Adrien Agreste had been having a rough week. He had been abandoned on patrol by ladybug, been broken up with by his girlfriend, and was feeling completely and utterly alone. He knows that his lady has been feeling overwhelmed by her guardian duties lately, and that he 100% deserved that verbal lasting that kagami had given him but he couldn't help but feel this way. He was also feeling guilty about lying to kagami and leading her on for so long. After she broke up with him he took some time to assess his feelings for her and realized that he had more of an admiration for her than an infatuation. He definitely didn't feel the same way about her that she felt about him. She told him that she LOVED HIM, and he was so distracted (blinded) by ladybug that he didn't even process her confession. So, he was looking forward to Sunday morning. He cleared his schedule and on that beautiful Sunday morning, he did what he is only allowed to do on very rare occasions: sleep in. Or at least... thats what he had planned on doing.

When Nathalie had knocked on his door that morning Adrien was not in a good mood. He vaguely heard her say something about father wanting him downstairs in some amount of time for something involving a business partners child and some other robotic sounding words that his half asleep brain couldn't process completely.

"I have a cleared schedule this morning, Nathalie. What could father possibly want me for that is more important than my precious sleep?" He asked snappily.

"Your father wants you downstairs to welcome the new guest that will be living in the house for the rest of the school year. You have 15 minutes to make yourself look presentable and I suggest leaving the attitude upstairs," she half informed/half reprimanded him. As she walked away, Adrien reluctantly rose from his nice warm bed and went to go get ready with only one thought racing through his mind: Who could possibly be staying with them?

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Felix Culpa was not looking forward to living at the Agreste mansion for the rest of the school year, but for their parents' sake they would do what they had to. It wasn't all for their parents either, they were also concerned about the strange "dissapearance" of Emilie (who was his aunt in all ways except blood relation) and about the treatment of Adrien since said "disappearance".

You see, Felix Culpa is the heir to the Culpa Fabric Empire. The Culpas have been the sole fabric supplier of the Agreste brand since the very beginning. Felix's mom Diana was best friends with Emilie since their college days. Diana and Emilie made the deal with the two brands because as best friends who are both involved in the same industry, it just made sense to have a business relationship with each other. Diana never really cared for Gabriel as a person, but she could tell that he loved Emilie more than anyone else in the world so she could tolerate him for the sake of her best friend.

When Emilie went missing, Diana was absolutely devastated and tried anything she could to find her. She invested in missing person ads as large as billboards, organized search teams, tried to aid the police in their search for her in any way she could, but there was no leads, no legitimate calls to the number on the billboards, and the search team came up empty handed. While she was doing all of this to try to find her, she couldn't help but be furious over the fact that Gabriel was doing nothing to help in the search. All he did was hole himself up in his oversized mansion and call it a day.

The last straw for Diana was when Gabriel tried to use the "grieving my wife" excuse to try to abuse their business arrangement. That day, she told him that the Culpa brand would no longer be associated with the Agreste brand and that after the new collection is released, he would need to find a new fabric supplier. She knew that the Agreste brand would take a huge hit from having sub-par fabric, but she never thought that Gabriel would try to make up for that fact by using Adrien as a walking mannequin and locking him up in the desolate prison that he calls a home. As soon as she realized that he was doing this she scrambled to find a solution.

That is how Felix ended up here, standing in front of the mansion they would be living in for the next 9 months in exchange for Gabriel getting back into the Culpa brand's good graces. Don't get them wrong, they were excited about being able to be in Paris, home of the most innovative fashion pieces in the world, and about being able to see their honorary cousin Adrien (who wasn't half bad to be around despite him having no backbone whatsoever when it came to anything involving his father) but dealing with Mr. Agreste was definitely one of the low points of this arrangement.

They decided to just get it over with and knocked on the door. It was opened by the man that their cousin affectionately referred to as Gorilla. They nodded a thank you to the man, remembering that he was a man of few words, and proceeded to the bottom of the staircase. Mr. Agreste stood at the top with a very tired looking Adrien a few steps down. Felix wasn't even slightly surprised that this is where he chooses to welcome his guests, looking down on people must give him some sort of power trip or something. It's almost as if he heard the phrase "It's over, Anakin, I have the high ground," and made that his own personal motto. Whatever, let him have the feeling of false power if he wanted it, Felix knows that they have all the power in this situation and they're sure that Gabriel knows it as well.

"Hello Felix," Mr. Agreste greeted them with the same amount of warmth in his voice as liquid nitrogen, "while you are staying in this house you will abide by my rules. Adrien will inform you of them and show you to your room. You will attend school with him in the morning and I'm sure that you already know that you must represent not only the Culpa brand, but also the Agreste as well. I will be in my office working, do not disturb me. Contact Nathalie with any questions that cannot be answered by Adrien." He finished his spiel and left to what Felix assumed was his office space.

"Hello Felix!" Adrien greeted him with as much enthusiasm as he could muster in his sleepy state. "Come with me and I'll show you to your room."

Adrien led Felix to their room and listed all of the rules of the household that they were expected to follow. And... wow. Felix could not believe that their cousin had to live like this. The only social interaction this kid gets is at school and fencing? Pre-approved outings only with people determined socially acceptable by Gabriel? And if he gets even one "B" he isn't even going to be allowed to go to school at all? Felix knew that the living situation was bad for Adrien but know the only question running through their head was: What did they get themselves into??

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And... thats it for chapter 1! Mostly background info at this point, but next chapter will be the class' reaction to feralnette and felinette meeting for the first time. I just want to say thanks again to @bigfatbreak for giving me the inspiration to write a fic for the first time ever. Feel free to leave constructive criticism, I'm always looking to improve, especially at writing since this is my first time posting anything I've written online, so I want to get better so that I can make better content for you guys, gals, and non-binary pals. If anyone wants to be tagged just let me know and I'll make a tag list for ya. :)

#feralnette au #felinette #miraculous ladybug #ml fanfic #adrien agreste #marinette dupain cheng #felix culpa #also in case i havent made this clear enough PLEASE go check out bigfatbreak #they made this fantastic au #i would love any title ideas if anyone has any because if you couldnt tell by my username im super unoriginal and cant make titles #if not it might just end up being untitled feralnette fanfic forever

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