#i feel so down rn

[that-agender-from-pluto]

Happy birthday to me

This year as a gift the universe gave me worse depression

yay

#in all honesty though #i feel so down rn #bc i know I've just spent another year miserable in a body i hate #and a name i hate #and just in general not being out #it fucking sucks #birthday vent #vent

[aphel1on]

i have such a love for characters who descend into madness or villainy out of deep, deep empathy. characters who fundamentally cannot cope with the cruel realities they find themselves in and blow up about it in spectacular fashion. fallen angel type characters with tears of outrage in their eyes. characters who break before they bend, and break so badly they splatter blood all over their noble ideals. every variation on it gets me so good

#getou suguru #kaneki ken #abyss twin #i know there are others who im not thinking of rn #feel free to reblog with more examples #aphelion.txt #tropes #WAIT I REMEMBERED MORE #jaina proudmoore #dimitri alexandre blaiddyd #phosphophyllite #i just spent like half an hour trying to find this on tv tropes but it must be. Too specific of a thing i have in mind bc #I just kept finding similar and related but too broad categories #despair event horizon. fallen hero. well intentioned extremist. etc etc etc #like specifically i'm talking about when the character's EMPATHY is the CRUX of the problem. sosooo crunchyjuicytasty #edit: #also just know that i am reading every tag on this post #and enthusiastically scribbling down the names i dont recognizr #so i can check out their series later #edit 2 wow this post blew up 🫡 godspeed fellow villain likers #the amount of people tagging this as 'me lmao' is concerning to me #wwx #how did i fucking forget this was also yllz era wwx

[reimeichan]

Signs of having DID that I ignored (note that these are not exclusively signs of DID but they were for me):

I don't have amnesia, that's just short term memory loss because I have ADHD!

I actually have a very good memory, I'm great at memorizing things (what do you mean that's not the same thing)

sure it may seem like my mood changes drastically but I've read online that's common in people with ADHD! it's hard for us to regulate our emotions!

so what if I have different preferences from time to time? that's normal right? like when your mood changes you may prefer different foods? what do you mean that's not the same as going from "I hate spicy foods" one day to "omg I LOVE spicy foods!" the next?

yeah okay I tend to space out in the middle of conversations then come back to and need you to remind me what you said for the past 10 seconds or so. that's just my ADHD inattentiveness. what do you mean that I only do this when stressed. what do you mean that's a form of dissociation.

speaking of dissociation, sure sometimes I feel like I'm watching myself say and do things without my own input but that's just because I was tired/stressed out

yeah sometimes I go on autopilot. my autopilot seems to have its own agenda sometimes though. weird.

sure I changed usernames a *few* times but isn't that pretty common? yeah I also wanted to change how I presented online and also my pronouns and stuff but again isn't it common for people to want to start over sometimes?

*making multiple accounts to play the same game because I play the game differently on different accounts and don't want to mess things up on one account*

oh yes, I'm genderfluid! I say that because my gender absolutely changes from moment to moment and sure it seems kinda tied to other aspects of myself like color preferences and energy levels and personality traits but I'm pretty sure that's just par for the course with genderfluidity?

"you're so different when you're around your parents vs when you're at school/work vs when you're hanging out with friends!" yeah that's called being a complex person we all have different masks we wear in different social situations and I'm no different even if it seems more extreme for me

"how was school/work/the hang-out/going to visit your parents?" I don't know I'm tired and have a giant headache and can't remember

"you said this to me the other day and it made me feel <x>" what????? I literally have no memory of this and that's so incredibly out of character for me wtf I would never do that I was probably just really stressed out and tired and had no filter on.

#did #dissociative identity disorder #actually did #actuallydid #did osdd #osddid #cdd #there's like. so much more but I have therapy right now and honestly this is a pretty good list #by green #by gray #by purple #putting this here in case other people may see this and relate and not feel as alone in their own journeys #we're going through a denial spike rn so it was helpful for us to write some of this stuff down

[temeyes]

sigh,, more suckyshima,,,

#ashahsah i'm actually in a bad mood rn so i drew tsukki again to calm down......... sowee to my cod bitches </3 #i think i'm going back to my haikyuu era?? im not really sure!! still feeling things out #my art #2024 #haikyuu #haikyuu!! #hq #hq!! #tsukishima kei #kei tsukishima #tsukki #haikyuu tsukishima #haikyuu tsukki #art #fanart #digital art #digital drawing #sketch #doodle #anime #manga

[ph-cutie]

top 10 reasons you should NEVER visit revachol

#gah i tried to draw them more small and bitsy so i could focus more on vibe and shape instead of getting bogged down in the little #details of their faces. i did get pretty bogged at some points but i still like how these came out #ok i wanted to draw the faction leaders and the cops and maybe the churchpeople too but i just dont. feel like it rn #so maybe ill do a part two some day #disco elysium #my art #extravagances #harry du bois #kim kitsuragi #cuno #ruby the instigator #klaasje amandou #elizabeth beaufort #ikk rubys hair is supposed to just be red but it just looks nicer with brown in it </3

[genshin-impact-updates]

Happy Birthday, Layla!

"I wonder what my birthday stars are saying this year... Oh no, not this again! I came out here for a break, not to start doing even more calculations!"

#genshin impact #genshin impact updates #genshin impact news #official #official art #birthday art #layla genshin impact #i don't feel like tracking down her other chibis rn so you'll get them when my usual source posts them

[becca-e-barnes]

Sub Bucky and a breeding kink 💀 dead unlived it's one of my favourite things 😌

This is pretty high up there on my list of dream fantasies 🥵 these are two of my biggest weaknesses, don't even look at me rn

One of life's greatest joys is cuddling with the other person's head resting on your chest so you can play with their hair and rub their shoulders. I love that shit, having someone else's body weight on you is so comforting.

I imagine that's something Bucky would really enjoy too. It's so soft and sweet and tender and getting to feel cared for would really appeal to him.

But that's up until his hands work their way under your top, up over your bare skin so he's able to cup your breasts and bury his face between them while he's getting his hair played with. Life's pleasures don't get much simpler than that.

After a few moments he shifts slightly, tugging the neckline of your shirt out of the way to give himself space to kiss and nip your skin. All of a sudden he's desperate and it's beautiful to watch.

"Please." He whispers between frantic kisses, flicking his tongue over the stiff peak of your nipple before engulfing it with his warm, eager mouth.

"Please, what?" You tease, tugging on his hair just a little for emphasis.

He groans, frustrated by his own lack of coherence, pulling his mouth from your nipple. "Please let me put a baby in you."

That's not what you were expecting but fuck, he makes it sound pretty appealing.

"Bucky-" You begin but he cuts you off, giving your other nipple the same attention as he gave the first. God, that's distracting.

"You'd make. Such. A pretty. Mommy." He whispers, kissing his way down your body until he reaches the bottom seam of your top. From there, he pulls it off, letting it fall to the floor before removing the rest of your clothes.

"You'd look so pretty with a little baby bump." His huge hand rests on your bare tummy, imaging how your body would change.

"I want it, Buck." You mean it too. It doesn't sound like such a bad idea when he's taking his clothes off.

"I know you want it." He groans, rubbing the tip of his dick against your soaked core. "Y-you're so wet."

He presses his hips forward, sliding inside you and you can't explain it but you swear it feels different this time.

"Don't even think about pulling out." You cup his face in your hands, keeping his eyes on you and you almost worry he's going to fuck himself senseless into you. "I want you to make me a mommy. You're going to give me every single drop of cum and when it starts to drip out of me, you're going to fuck it back in."

His head falls onto your shoulder, sobbing a pathetic moan against your already hot skin. The pace of his thrusts matches his need, his hips slamming into yours and when he finally gives in, he cums inside you with your legs clamped around his waist, making sure he couldn't pull out even if he wanted to.

#asks answered <3 #becca writes spice #anon #sub!bucky #subby bucky #this is one of those fantasies that's nice in my head #I think I'd like to be at that point in my life but it's absolutely not where I'm at rn #maybe some day tho #I started writing a new series yesterday #making a lil moodboard #excited to post the concept #can't decide if I want each chapter to feel like a continuation of the one before #or if I want the chapters to be more detached from each other with time passing in between #might actually space it out over a weekend? #I took my lil granny out for lunch today and she's just the cutest #she usually comes up to ours for Sunday lunch but my parents were out this weekend #so I made her dinner last night and took it down to her and I asked if she wanted to go out for Sunday lunch for a change #she made me book the table right there in front of her so she'd be able to look forward to it 🥺 #I sat with her for over an hour yesterday evening and she smiled nearly the whole time #she's too cute I swear

[avisisisis]

Honkai Star Rail is officially the funniest game Hoyoverse has ever made

#they outdid themselves with this one fr #why was the trailblazer so obssessed with trashcans #“bro you're so romantic!” #“beg me then~” #“i feel bad for this world. first the stellaron and now you” #“beep! beep! beep! your mom's an antiquity” #the closet 💀 #“die! you hotel devil!” #“sit down [on a toilet] and flush” #bronseele's interactions. they're so gay and funny #i love this game already #there's more but i can't remember them rn #honkai star rail #hsr #trailblazer #stelle #caelus #star rail #bronseele #hoyoverse #mihoyo

[ezlo-x]

Guys…its 12am but…I have a question abt my au

What type of fish/sea animal do you guys see Ganondorf and Nabooru?

Cuz Im doing this fun little race swap thing that dungeon meshi did but I’m having such a hard time figuring out the gang’s zora counterparts. (Tarú is a humpback whale zora and Skall is based off the River Zora btw <3)

#been feeling a little down and stressed im sorta failing a class but im trying so hard to pick it up to at least a C (I have a D) #txt #ALSO I AM DOING THE KIDS ALSO NOT JUST THE GROWN UPS HEE HEE #i might adjust a few things w this one rn

[druid-boy-punk]

scoop

#im just a lil obsessed with laios with a plush stomach rn #it’s not obvious but i will enforce my (slightly) chubby laios propaganda #my art #dungeon meshi #laios touden #chilchuk tims #chilaios #modern au #also based off promises but i didn’t finish until later today so it didn’t make into the previous post about it ;w; #plus i don’t like @ ppl too often #feels like i’m daring a god to strike me down a lil bit #the tags are my dairy now sorry tumblerinas #Spotify

[baker-chan-senpai]

just some fluffy serirei for the soul

#serirei #serizawa katsuya #reigen arataka #mob psycho 100 #mob psycho #mp100 #i've been feeling pretty down lately and they're the one thing keeping me sane rn #at this point i can say that drawing them is better therapy than going to therapy #don't take my word for it tho please go to therapy we all know you need it #art #digital art #ALSO I REACHED OVER 800 FOLLOWERS AT SOME POINT WHILE I WASN'T PAYING ATTENTION?? THANK YOU SO MUCHH??? #<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

[uncanny-tranny]

Every time you think, "Oh, I don't have [x condition], I'm basically cured!" that is the devil talking. You aren't cured, you are likely going through periods of your symptoms waning. Don't cease whatever you're doing to help yourself, like medication, for instance, because it's likely you still have the conditions or symptoms, even if you aren't noticing them as frequently or severely.

#disability #this is a callout post about myself #i genuinely thought my GAD was cured because my symtoms had lessened significantly since i've transitioned #turns out my anxiety is just as killer and awful - it's just muted slightly #i am currently laying down with my brain convinced that i'm About To Have a Heart Attack #(and not in the fun demi lovato kind of way) #(that song is a little over a decade old... what the bingle) #anyway please don't do what i do whenever i experience ANY level of symptoms getting better because it will shock you... #...when those symptoms come back and remind you that you Do Indeed have [x condition] #i now know how a wolf girl feels when they say they are Actually Feral because that's how i feel rn 💀 #even I'M not immune to the idea that the things i suffer from are things that can Disappear Magically 😭 #it's wishful thinking and almost like... imposter syndrome because you're *so* desperate to prove to yourself you're Fine or A Faker #and you become hyperfixated on picking every tiny little waxing and waning of symptoms like you're a fortune teller #and honestly it's really stiffling and it's a lot of work to kill the cop in your head that says you are secretly Not All That Affected... #...that you're either exaggerating to the Extreme or you're just a bored faker who's trying to Get Attention (bad somehow)

[pineappical]

in light of tedtrent becoming so real, im also jumping on the tedtrent epilogue 😊

there's just no way ted wouldn't keep in touch with the others (and have weekly zoom meetings just like in the christmas special) and I just love the thought of the whole team having reunions once in a while.

and going back to trent's arc in s3, the sunflowers conversation, "And your daughter?" "She's never been happier." I think it could go the same for ted.. we've never really properly saw how henry felt about his dad being in london, it's always other people that told ted his son misses him, who's to say henry would rather see his dad happy because that in turn would make him happy too? he was there to win the whole thing, right? I just know ted’s story isn’t done yet when he still hasn’t learned to let others take care of him in return and who else to pair him with than the man who blew up his career because a man was nice to him (and also because they were so. so cruel for the fakeout tedbecca scenes for that finale) 🥺

I'm no writer so just pretend these are snapshots of a slow burn fic where ted visits london for their team reunion and slowly realizes that trent has a crush on him and they kiss about it 💛

#ted lasso #trent crimm #tedependent #ted lasso fanart #tedtrent #ted x trent #I HAVE SOOOOOO MUCH MORE THOUGHTS ABOUT THIS BTW its just that its 4am rn and i cannot type down my thoughts for the life of me </3 #im just so not over that ending and how weird it felt for ted to end his story like that.. not like he can turn back to michelle since #dr. jacob is right there.. i want this man to feel loved and cared for and actually have a place he knows he can call home and that was #richmond for me.. to the family we were born with. and to the family we make along the way etc etc etc #ted lasso spoilers #<- FORGOT ABOUT THAT. #i can finally say i loved the ending for all the callbacks and stuff but I NEED THIS MAN TO BE HELDDDD!!!!! *everything explodes around me* #he even went back there WITHOUT BEARD :( his bestfriend for sooo long who was there for all their ups and downs. i dont like beard and jane #being together but the fact ted didnt even go to their wedding too like ...??! what is going onnnn #also graying lasso is just something so indulgent for me . hush #pn.art #JUST YKNOW!!! I HOPE YALL UNDERSTAND WHAT IM SAYING ITS REALLY REALLY LATE I PROBABLY SHOULDVE WAITED TILL LATER TO POST THIS BUT JAHJVAKDG #my memory is really bad too so i could also be misremembering scenes and im too eepy to check the scenes i had in mind so u_u #ALSO apologies that its taking me sooo long to draw things i recently joined a mc server and ive been playing it all day and night HFSJGFSH #im sooo scared of making these type of posts because i dont have the balls to make the wrong choices in other people's eyes but GRAAH!!!!! #<- i love tedtrent bUT WHAT IF PEOPLE THINK IM CRINGGGEEEE!!!!! #THATS ALL.... i have more drawings in mind that ill get around to later.. for now goodnight <3

[burnyourtrains]

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This means reposting without permission. Feeding into ai. Taking as your own. Not giving credit to the artist. Posting things that aren't yours in the first place. Etc.

This goes for fanart, original pieces from the artist, writing, gifsets - anything someone took the time to make.

Stop stealing art

#stop stealing art #stop reposting others art #art #anti ai #anti assholes #i thought tumblr understood it better than other platforms. but apparently fucking not #if i see one more piece of art that i think is beautiful. only to scroll down and see taken from so and so on Instagram. #i am going to Throttle someone #i am looking at the acotar fandom specifically rn. I'm just trying to enjoy more about the books. only to find that everything has been #reposted from somewhere else. most of the time they at least credit the artist. but dude it isn't Yours to repost #my post #clearly i feel strongly and passionately about this topic

[the-phantom-peach]

i’m being a big girl about it okay

anyways, small important message in tags ⬇️

#this is abt zelda btw #if you ever wondered what real pain feels like #im kidding but srs in that im still backlogged on asks bc I don’t have time to answer them in the way I want to #same with comms #im putting a lot of effort to my career rn so I’ll slow down posting for now #I’ll be gone for a bit but I appreciate the love in all the notes #see ya soon! #peachie mumbles

[satans-knitwear]

I put some fishnets on!!

Treat me ~ Tip Me ~ More of me

#fishnet friday #I managed to put some fishnets on today and I am very proud of myself. #Happy fishnet Friday to all those who may celebrate ✨ #I am so exhausted and worn down rn but at least im a little bit delicious. I put my pjs over this instead of actual clothes #At least until I feel like taking some more pics 😂 #satans knitwear #alt pinup #pinup girl #pretty lingerie #fishnet lingerie #cheeky