#i just cannot handle it

[rythyme]

is anyone gonna tell f1 tumblr that the first ever live action omegaverse show is a sports drama about gay racecar drivers. because that feels like something they'd want to know.

#did they intentionally schedule the premiere the same day as the las vegas gran prix #bc if so that's SO funny #''happy race day! here's episode 1! i know we said it wasn't omegaverse but um. we lied ❤️'' #f1 #las vegas gp #las vegas gp 2023 #formula 1 #pit babe the series #lgbt drama #thai drama #pit babe #sorry i just cannot handle this in silence. if I'm gonna lose my mind over this then I'm taking you all down with me #omegaverse #theo.txt #100 #500 #1k #pbts #2k

[inkskinned]

you were raised in comparison.

it wasn't always obvious (well. except for the times that it was), but you internalized it young. you had to eat what you didn't like, other people are going hungry, and you should be grateful. you had to suck it up and walk on the twisted ankle, it wasn't broken, you were just being a baby. you were never actually suffering, people obviously had it worse than you did.

you had a roof over your head - imagine! with the way you behaved, with how you talked back to your parents? you're lucky they didn't kick you out on your ass. they had friends who had to deal with that. hell, you have friends who had to deal with that. and how dare you imply your father isn't there for you - just because he doesn't ever actually talk to you and just because he's completely emotionally checked out of your life doesn't mean you're not fucking lucky. think about your cousins, who don't even get to speak to their dad. so what if yours has a mean streak; is aggressive and rude. at least you have a father to be rude to you.

you really think you're hurting? you were raised in a home! you had access to clean water! you never so much as came close to experiencing a real problem. sure, okay. you have this "mental illness" thing, but teenagers are always depressed, right. it's a phase, you'll move on with your life.

what do you mean you feel burnt out at work. what do you mean you mean you never "formed healthy coping mechanisms?" we raised you better than that. you were supposed to just shoulder through things. to hold yourself to high expectations. "burning out" is for people with real jobs and real stress. burnout is for people who have sick kids and people who have high-paying jobs and people who are actually experiencing something difficult. recently you almost cried because you couldn't find your fucking car keys. you just have lost your sense of gratitude, and honestly, we're kind of hurt. we tell you we love you, isn't that enough? if you want us to stick around, you need to be better about proving it. you need to shut up about how your mental health is ruined.

it could be worse! what if you were actually experiencing executive dysfunction. if you were really actually sick, would you even be able to look at things on the internet about it? you just spend too much time on webMD. you just like to freak yourself out and feel like you belong to something. you just like playing the victim. this is always how you have been - you've always been so fucking dramatic. you have no idea how good you have it - you're too fucking sensitive.

you were like, maybe too good of a kid. unwilling to make a real fuss. and the whole time - the little points, the little validations - they went unnoticed. it isn't that you were looking for love, specifically - more like you'd just wanted any one person to actually listen. that was all you'd really need. you just needed to be witnessed. it wasn't that you couldn't withstand the burden, but you did want to know that anyone was watching. these days, you are so accustomed to the idea of comparison - you don't even think you belong in your own communities. someone always fits better than you do. you're always the outlier. they made these places safe, and then you go in, and you are just not... quite the same way that would actually-fit.

you watch the little white ocean of your numbness lap at your ankles. the tide has been coming in for a while, you need to do something about it. what you want to do is take a nap. what you want to do is develop some kind of time machine - it's not like you want your life to stop, not completely, but it would really nice if you could just get everything to freeze, just for a little while, just until you're finished resting. but at least you're not the worst you've been. at least you have anything. you're so fucking lucky. do you have any concept of the amount of global suffering?

a little ant dies at the side of your kitchen sink. you look at its strange chitinous body and think - if you could just somehow convince yourself it is enough, it will finally be enough and you can be happy. no changes will have to be made. you just need to remember what you could lose. what is still precious to you.

you can't stop staring at the ant. you could be an ant instead of a person, that is how lucky you are. it's just - you didn't know the name of the ant, did you. it's just - ants spend their whole life working, and never complain. never pull the car over to weep.

it's just - when it died, it curled up into a tight little ball.

something kind of uncomfortable: you do that when you sleep.

#writeblr #warm up #my dad was actively doing bad shit to us and we STILL were told we were lucky . and to a point i do think im lucky #i just think also there's somethin to be said about like. how about we stop using comparison to dismiss ppls individual struggles #yes there are people who have no perspective. for the reference tho having perspective actually made me really unwilling to get help #for what was a serious and debilitating mental health issue. bc i thought i didnt DESERVE IT #and i would rather have 600 ppl who aren't THAT bad get help and get heard and get seen #than make any 1 kid. do the math that i did: look at the world that is dying and the people who are hurting and say #''oh. okay. others have it worse. they are probably better people than i am. i am being unreasonable. i cannot ask for help #i am not good. i am taking too much space. i am not worth saving.'' #bc our WHOLE lives we are taught a scarcity mindset - that you can 'steal' from someone. so that instead of changing a system that doesn't #actually offer fair support to everyone #we put the impetus on the individual to just... demand less. #and here's something - there are probably ppl who think i DIDNT deserve to get help #bc i DID have it better than other people #and something about that is ... so sickening. bc i think all of us in some way at some point WILL need help. #we were supposed to make communities. we were supposed to offer our hands. we were supposed to raise the barn #instead we said: it could be worse. now handle it yourself

[mochasucculent]

She!!

Image description courtesy of @anistarrose: digital art of Luz from The Owl House in her Titan form. Instead of her witchy clothes, she wears a t-shirt and green overalls, with claws poking out from her sandals. She's leaping in the air with Stringbean's staff in one hand, laughing and channeling a spell. End description.

#the owl house #toh #luz noceda #titan luz #toh spoilers #the owl house spoilers #titan!luz #obviously very inspired by dana's art of titan luz with casual clothes over top lol #i thought it'd be funny to have the claws poking outta the berks #fanart #for some reason (tumblr cannot handle basic post functions) i was having trouble adding the description as alt id on the image #so for this one i guess we just get a description in the post body for now lol #thanks anistarrose for the description!

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Welcome to the Dungeons of Fear and Hunger.

#Fear and Hunger #D'arce Cataliss #Cahara #Ragnvaldr #Enki Ankarian #Unlike Dungeon Meshi - I cannot in good faith recommend this game to a broad audience. #My background with F&H goes as follows: I am hanging out with a friend. He says “hey try this game I've been playing.” I say “Okay!” #I have never heard of this game. I pick the mercenary. I go through 5 min of character history and background. I am mauled to death by dogs #It took me 4 resets to even get in the dungeon. But I finally get there. I am caught by a guard. He cuts off all but one of my limbs #I am forced to crawl around in a blood and corpse pit until the game tells me 'give up idiot'. #I reset. I am mauled by dogs again. I realize this is not for me but I am intrigued enough to go home and watch some playthroughs #And WOW what an interesting game it is! I really do appreciate games that blend their design philosophy with the theme it wants to set #This is a game about fear and hunger. And persevering. And penis (my god is there a lot of penis) #I recommend this to people who like extremely challenging games and can handle the many *content warnings* within this series #If the idea of Bloodborne/eldenring and undertale having a little RPG maker baby sounds appealing to you - give it a shot #It's made by ONE GUY and it's a great horror game. I am just really bad at it. #My friends just enjoy putting me in situations where I scream and yell. We don't talk about the corn mazes. Or the other horror game nights #Apparently I'm funny when I'm Scared! #As people who follow me on twitter might know; I am deep in the pits of this series right now. I will be back with more art.

[yrfemmehusband]

Anyone else going through that point of the year where the weather changes so ur chronic illness(es) have decided to set your body on fire

#yesterday i had trouble walking for the first time in a few weeks #a seven hr shift just wiped me out i cannot handle the winter! #chronic pain #chronic illness #disability #cripple punk

[whaliiwatching]

kaleidoscopic crush

#spider man: across the spider verse #pavitr prabhakar #gwen stacy #spider noir #spider punk #hobie brown #noirpunk #so. maybe i went a bit insane #i like poetry a regular amount i promise #this might be one of my favorite things i’ve ever made #first time drawing pav & gwen! they turned out—uh. okay! #the universes & noir himself get brighter as he acclimates :) #treacle (tart) means sweetheart in cockney rhyming slang #bc i cant fucking help myself lol #noir is so in love……….. just like we all are sdfkjhg #mans CANNOT handle how pretty hobie is in his element #to the anon who gave me the idea: thank you so much oh my gods #cw eyestrain #just in case #there is so much going on lol

[shittywriterbrain]

i will never be normal about the you wear fine things well scene. i will pause that shit five times and rewatch it again and again and rant at my screen about every single thought going on in ed's head and how fucking perfect the music and taika's acting are

#actually no kidding i have gone insane over this scene every time i watched it #the fucking little piano melody when ed looks up at stede is just AAH perfect #our flag means death #ofmd #god i just watched it again and #someone take away my space bar. i cannot be trusted with the space bar. i WILL pause it right after ed looks up bc the music in sync with #the acting is just too much for my little brain to handle #im losing my mind over this

[woe-is-tuli]

Coachella 2024 - Ateez: Seonghwa

#ateez #coachella #seonghwa #no because why was he lookin like that for for what reason. already my dang bias what more do you want huhh?? #for the love of god will someone put this man on a dang runway #i love when they just go all in on stage changing choreography and everything i love it and yet i cannot handle it #park seonghwa #kpop #에이티즈 #atiny #ateez gifs #kq entertainment #에이티니 #8 makes 1 team #성화 #seonghwa gifs #coachella ateez #chellateez

[bludragongal]

Hey, all! Happy Pride and BLM! I'm going to be auctioning off some copies of Scarlet & Blue with original artwork! All proceeds will be donated to The Bail Project!

The Venoms will both come as a set, so you could get two books! I will also be restocking my store after the auctions are concluded, so if you're unable to get a special art, you can still get a copy.

Stay tuned for more info!

#art #spider-man #spiderverse #fanart #I did NOT choose to add a maturity label #Social media just cannot handle how hot VenoMJ is #Your bots cannot handle her leggums #Cowards

[ghouljams]

Can we get uhhhh

Faekonig reacting to liebling dropping the mask being tender or genuinely affectionate after a moment of anxious vulnerability for the first time around him, maybe something from trying to figure out how to manage the store has her break down a little?

The first time Liebling dropped her mask around König? Yeah it would have to be something related to the store or her personal life.

Tw: for a full on panic attack, also squint and you miss it abandonment issues, + shitty exes

You can feel the edges of an anxiety attack creeping in. Your stomach hurts, nausea rolling through you hard enough to make you wonder if your spontaneously caught a stomach bug. You check your phone, biting the inside of your cheek hard enough to bruise. Your fingers hover over your keyboard. You type and delete, type and delete. Set your phone down and rock on your heels as you lean against the counter.

It's suddenly too bright and too loud in the shop. You can feel your bones. You can feel your clothes rub against your skin like sand paper. You can feel your heart squeeze painfully behind your rapidly constricting ribs. You check your phone again, look at the time. Not even a minute since you last checked it. You open your phone again, sure you'll type something this time. Text your ex and ask them to fucking stop.

Your fingers- your hands shake, your screen unreadable behind the static buzzing in front of your eyes. You can't breathe. You want to curl up in a ball in a dark corner, and also you want to run, and also you sort of feel like you're actually dying? You set your phone face down on the counter and push the door open to the back of the shop as quickly as you can manage.

You can feel the eyes of your fae customers follow you. Monsters ready to pounce at the slightest sign of weakness. Probably aiming to eat you alive, bones and all. Your whole shop will probably be burgled while you're stuffing yourself into a corner behind one of the inventory shelves in the back. Then you'll be broke and dead. Your two least favorite things to be. At least back here no one can see you pull your knees to your chest and cry.

You heave in a breath, shuddering before your whole chest hiccups on a sob and suddenly the waterworks are flowing. God, everything is so bad. Your shop is overrun with monsters, your friends don't want to hang out with you anymore because you see monsters everywhere you turn, your ex is talking about your nudes on Twitter, you own a whole ass store that you don't want and taxes are so complicated!! You sob into your hands, trying to feel less like your skeleton is trying to shake its way out of your skin, like your heart has completely stopped beating. Hell, you barely can breath enough to sob with how tight your chest is.

There's a soft click as the door to the shop latches, you don't hear it over your absolute despair. You do hear the soft rustle of fabric as König sits down next to you. Feel his hands as they grip your shoulders and pull you out of your fetal position to rest against his chest. He curls around you like a huge protective teddybear, arms and legs bracketing you(small and safe and warm) with his lips pressed to the top of your head. You don't know if he pumps you full of his warm calming magic or if it's the way your ear presses against his chest but his heartbeat fills your perception. Steady, even, slow and calm.

"It's alright Schatz, I have you," he murmurs into your hair. You grip his shirt and press closer, curl up into your ball again and let him squeeze you tight. He keeps repeating it, that you're safe, you're alright, he's here and won't let you go. Everything you've always hated to be told, everything you've never believed. König doesn't lie, can't lie. You think that's why his voice settles you so well.

You hate crying in front of people, hate feeling so powerless, so worthless, around other people. So, why are you letting König comfort you?

He smells good, like dirt and crisp autumn air, like dead leaves and rain. You press your nose against him and breathe. You don't know why it's OK for König to be here, maybe it's because he seems to actually care for you, maybe it's because you can't string together a thought long enough to tell him to leave, but he's helping. You stay like this for a while, wrapped up in König's arms, breathing in his scent, listening to his heartbeat. Just until you don't feel like you're dying.

"Don't tell anyone I cried," you mumble, trying not to wipe your nose on his shirt, probably your least favorite part of crying.

"Your heart rate was too elevated for just tears," he tells you evenly, smart-ass.

"Don't tell anyone that either." You take a quiet moment for yourself, fingers toying with a loose string on König's shirt. "Can we stay like this for a while?" You almost hope he doesn't hear you, pathetic. König nods, you can the way it moves your head a little as well.

"As long as you need Liebling, any time you need. I won't let anything hurt you." Big promises, you think, ignoring the weight it settles in your chest.

#könig x reader #könig #könig x you #oc: liebling #tw panic attack #tw abandonment #cod x reader #really dont know what to say about this except that liebling is not as put together as she likes to think #and that she has had some real bad luck with relationships #every day i realize how good love is to her and how much liebling needs the sort of ride or die that Love embodies #and also like queen you cannot be small and vulnerable around König it just makes him love you more #the man cant handle it

[joifee]

Lil fairy boy put the f into fwhip (the f stands for fairy and fail and gosh he died again)

#fwhip #fwhip fanart #new life smp #new life smp spoilers #nlsmp #joifeeart #joifeepixel #i reaaally hope he stays longer on that life because i cannot handle him dying again #i dont want him out first #but he just keeps failing

[conjectureand-gloom]

so let’s get something straight: if i cover my ears because i cannot stand the sound of someone chewing, im being rude. so i don’t cover my ears and instead end up in tears, and im being dramatic and im an attention seeker. so i move away from whoever it is who is chewing, and im being disrespectful and making that person feel bad, so clearly im a horribly selfish person. so i blast music to drown out the sound of somebody chewing, but its rude to listen to music at the dinner table, so obviously i have no manners and im a horrible person. how can i win this???

#personal #vent #the first few times i had to move away because i couldn’t handle the sound‚ my parents yelled at me and i ended up in tears anyway #but genuinely there is no way to win this #there is no way to handle my own issues without being told that i’m a horrible person #i swear i have some form of misophonia because i seriously cannot hear chewing without wanting to kill that person and then myself #misophonia #neurodivergent #anyway i’m defs not neurotypical let’s just say that

[yea-baiyi]

someone just posted this quote and it just hit me that it wasn’t that nobody loved xie lian after knowing how far he’d fallen and everything he’d done. it was xie lian who was too terrified to lean on them and share what he was going through, or he tried and they didn’t have the full context to understand him, and it just made xie lian feel more alone which made him push them away even more. he had feng xin and mu qing the whole time and they never ever stopped loving him even when they saw him falter and fail. and it wasn’t that hua cheng was unique in loving him anyway but it was hua cheng that happened to be present for all of xie lian’s worst moments and none of it made him love xie lian any less, and hua cheng is not the exception to the rule but the proof that xie lian was always loveable and always deserving and always loved despite despite despite. and after finding hua cheng he opens his heart up to his friends once again and accepts their love back into his life when he had shut it all out for centuries. i am in TEARS rn when i said i can’t think about feng xin and mu qing this is one of the reasons why

#tgcf #tgcf meta #meta stuff #fengqing #xianle trio #yelling is a love language #idk i just came across something someone posted on twitter and saw this quote #and it just SENT ME #i still just cannot think about fengqing ok ok ok my asexual ass can’t handle it #they loved xie lian so much both of them did and they never stopped #all those arguments. hundreds of years of anger. all that rage just misplaced grief. which was just love with nowhere to go. #i am in TEARS over them

[heartscrypt]

i keep making these instead of actual content god help me

#twst #twisted wonderland #twst meme #twisted wonderland meme #cater diamond #vil schoenheit #deuce spade #jade leech #riddle rosehearts #azul ashengrotto #jamil viper #jamiazu #azujami #jade x riddle #img post #tbh i dont actually ship jade n riddle #the concept is just really funny to me #(riddle after one week of dating jade) we have to break up i literally cannot handle the idea of floyd as my brother in law #they could be friendly exes if i really tried in my brain but i dont actually see them together #and of course the jamiazu propaganda is here. Again #i cant resist its in my veins

[dizzybizz]

incoherent mumbling and whimpering and sobbing and-

#i just cant catch a break man- #first ch100 of tbhk and now this?? in one day???? youre trying to kill me #this is very messy bc i physically cannot handle anything more rn #i am in shambles and AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAUGHhHHHH #WEEEEEEEEEEEEHWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEH😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #i didnt know what to title this help how do i encapsulate my thoughts into a title wtf man omfg #also this is probs inspired by chippuyons piece for ep9?? i couldnt tell u tbh i drew this in a haze but shout out to him frfr #buddy daddies #buddy daddy spoilers #miri unasaka #kazuki kurusu #rei suwa #uhm #misaki unasaka #shes like a pixel but shes there trust me #fanart #my art #alright i need to fucking go do something- anything.... pls 😭😭😭😭

[panevanbuckley]

max really needs to stop being so shippable with everyone on the grid

#like i cannot handle this anymore #watching f1 is basically just watching how many times max can flirt with other drivers #f1 #japanese gp 2023 #formula 1 #max verstappen #lestappen #norstappen #maxiel #malex #or whatever the hell max and alex's ship name is #and whatever oscar x max is too