#i wish i was living under a rock

[daydadahlias]

hold up who’s perola??? am i living under a rock or something 😭

ashton's girlfriend

#pigeon #anon #i wish i was living under a rock #we're not going to speculate about aNYTHING we are not going to pass around OPINIONS #ok?? #but perola is his girlfriend. she's a painter. and she has a hairless cat

[tev-the-random]

So the thing that gets me about Starlo — the thing that really gets me — is how much this guy hates himself.

It's not something you notice the first time you're playing, because he's so confident and enthusiastic. He'd almost be cool if he wasn't such a dork. But after replaying the game with the context of where he came from, — and I'll admit, after reading some very interesting, in-depth fanfics and analysis about him, I'll try to link them if I find them again — his character becomes a bit... blurred. How much of this is Starlo, and how much of it is North Star?

Because- because the whole point of his sheriff persona is that he gets to be someone else, isn't it? When he's out there rootin' and tootin', acting out his hero fantasies and trying to imitate the characters from the westerns he admires, he becomes someone much cooler than himself. North Star is everything Starlo wishes he was: the fearless leader, the cunning cowboy, the confident sheriff who saves lives and wrangles bandits and hangs out with humans. Not just some nobody farmer who could disappear in the corn field without anyone noticing, not the son who wastes his time on daydreams.

He craves praise so deeply. That's the big difference between Star and Papyrus, I think, because Papyrus is just so unapologetically himself, while Star... he starts spending more and more time with this mask of greatness he made himself. Because people like North Star. Not Starlo.

North Star is a real sheriff. Not Starlo.

North Star is the one who brings help and hope and fun to monsters. Not Starlo.

North Star is the one worthy of being appreciated. Not Starlo.

And like... he wants to be liked so badly. So much effort is put into making sure North Star is good enough that Starlo tends to assume people hate him. He assumes his parents hate his life choices (they don't; they're proud of him and know he cares), he assumes Clover will laugh at him when he shows his face to them (they don't; despite everything, it's still him), he assumes the reason he fell out with his friends is because he wasn't a good enough sheriff (he knows damn well it wasn't actually Clover's fault, he's not THAT stupid. But he's still desperately grasping at the last pieces of his shattered persona, so if he just works harder, if he does what a real sheriff does and captures this human, then everything will be alright, won't it?)

I really wish we could have gotten more insight on Starlo's relationships and personality before the whole Wild East thing consumed him. Ceroba and the Feisty Five say they miss the old Starlo, but we never really get to know who the old Starlo was. And I don't think he knows either.

Wake the hell up, Star. People started liking you before you were North Star. Go eat some corn and calm down.

Point is, the impostor syndrome goes hard and that's such a mood. He was supposed to be the cool and silly cowboy guy, what the fuck–

#at first I thought Star was like my polar opposite #because he's clearly an extrovert and I'm so introverted I might as well live under a rock #but after staring at him for long enough i think it's more like... #two sides of the same coin #running away from yourself eh? wishing you were enough eh? #he's such a wet cat #I'm insane about this game don't mind me #rabid and feral #they need therapy your honour #of course this is just my interpretation of it though #i'm not projecting you're projecting #Undertale Yellow #UTY #Starlo uty #North Star #welcome to my TEV Talk

[if-mirrormine]

screaming & sobbing into my pillow rn

#i watched fleabag for the first time #and i know what youre thinking #alli its been literal years how have you gone so long without watching it #I DONT KNOW OK #i live under a rock #and i just so happen to like it #but this show #...i dont like the way its made me feel #and yet i wish it was longer #idk what to do with myself now #i think im going to go lay in a dark room #listen to frank ocean #and cry #thank you for your time #alli talks

[copepods]

frankly unfair of the universe that i was not born as an eel. or perhaps a worm.

#text #i just want to live under a rock and devour small animals. i don’t want to write essays #essays i procrastinated on for 3 weeks. essays i should have finished 4 days ago. #god i wish i was a fucking slimy tube with jaws rn.

[deus-ex-mona]

t h e trip awaits~~~~~~~~~~

#guess who managed to bribe the family onto a birthday trip to the cup noodle museum~? >this fool!!!!< #but my proposal to visit the cup noodle museum every day of the trip was rejected :( sads #but c’mon mans i’m paying for the flights and hotel i deserve my cup noods every day right~~~? #though my mother did say that she’d pay for d i s n e y l a n d and d i s n e y s e a for her trip contribution #and im just like. th. they’re different places????? (lives under a rock) #but anyways phase 1 of trapping my bro overseas so that he’ll have no choice but to wish me happy birthday this year is a g o!!!!!!!! #my bank account feels lighter but my excitement levels could n o t be any higher!!!!! heck yeaaaa mans let’s go to the cup noodle museum!!!! #though. when i told my coworkers that i was going to take a trip to visit the cup noodle museum… they all called me stupid in so many ways… #there’s no way that i like cup noodles too much right…? #i like cup noodles a normal amount i swear………….. #cup noodles are just. really rad yk~~~~? they come in so many different sizes and varieties!!!! and there’s a nood for every occasion!!! #there are fried nood varieties (yakisoba/mi goreng types) and there are ~fancy~ bowl noods too!!!!!!! #cup noodles are the best~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ #cup noodles the loml <333333333333333 #they won’t betray you by boiling over either!!!!!!!!!!! just add hot water and it’ll do all the work!!!!!! #remind me to get my coworkers souvenirs from the cup noodle museum… and maybe d i s n e y l a nd too. maybe. #inedible blubbering

[immamapletreekid]

playing pokemon black... started tearing up at skyarrow bridge

#THE SKYARROW BRIDGE THEME MAKES ME SO EMOTIONAL BUT IM NOT EVEN SURE WHY????? #POKEMKN MAKES ME SO EMOTIONAL AND I DO KNOW WHY!!!!! #god i wish i could have played it growing up... i have a ds but no actual cartridge and pokemon gamws sell for crazy amounts #i want to olay it on the ds for the full experience #one of my goals in life is to have my own copies of pokemon bw and platinum... #pokemon makes me cry. i love pokemon i love running around collectijg friends and battling cool people #idk i think 7 year old me tjougjt it was so cool how adults in games were so much kinder and cooler tjan real life adults #imagine being a gym leader and archeologist?!?!?!! a member od the elite four who fucking. shoots a guy w hyper beam point blank #i love lance hes insane #IMAGINE BEING CHAMPION OF HOENN! BEING HEIR TO THE LARGEST COMPANY IN HOENN! AND BEING A ROCK ENTHUSIAST WHO CAN SPEND HIS DAYS TRAVELLIMG T #HE WORLD LOOKING FOR RARE STONES!!! STEVEN STONE IS LIVING THE LIFE I WANT #but also i get so sad bc. when i first got into pokemon i was several years younger than the protags #when i first watched pokeani i was younger than ash!!!!! and now i am old :( #never going to br able to go back to spending summer vacation curled up at home going through 7 volumes of pokespe a day... #never goijg to be able to waych anipoke during winter break under a pillow fort again... #never goijg to be ahle to experience listening to n's farewell and the striaton city theme and skyarrow bridge theme and eterna forest and #littleroot town and nimbasa city and cianwood city and #so many other pieces for the first time again #rambling finished i guess first days of class make me cranky and sad #going ti go back to playijg pokemon black again...going to walk around castelia city and scream #rambling about stuff #rambling about pokemon

[clockworkreapers]

for the anon in my ask box sending me a screenshot of an ask: idk what to say you probs have the wrong person here- that or I just dont know why you sent it to me. While I'd like to help , Im not in that server I dont think I ever have been I just run alternian empire and vibe in fantroll spaces (I actually tend to avoid mainly homestuck spaces). I think that is something you should bring up with admins and mods from that server specifically or just leave. Im not sure who the mods are there or the admins and I dont have much power to do anything- Im like completely unrelated to this idk how I even could do anything. The only thing I can do is have domain over my own servers, im sorry that has happened- I'd just leave tbh, irl stuff has no place in fantroll spaces.

#trust me the post was just as vague guys im not stickin my nose in other peoples stuff #also i can see your gmail for the anon that sent the screenshot btw #idk what your doing but uh id just leave #i also live under a rock i dont know what goes on in discord servers that i dont run or participate in #im just a random person on the internet all i can do is wish you luck thats sadly out of my range of influence #ill probs delete this later cuz i dont even know what that was about

[eggmeralda]

can never describe enough how excited I am for the inevitable 2010s revival of the future

(also this turned into a massive ramble accidentally?)

#like i know there are already kids being like ''i wish i was a teenager in 2014 😭'' but i mean like #you know how like the past 5 years have been so 80s inspired #and also 90s #and how the 90s were really into the 60s #and i cannot wait for all the awful aesthetics that were everywhere when i was 12 to come back #bc i'm curious how it'll look. bc obviously it won't be like. the 2010s are back #it'll be this romanticised idea of the 2010s and i wonder which parts will be rejected and which parts you'll see Everywhere #god i feel like there needs to be a new Thing that causes the need for nostalgia #e.g. in the 70s when punk and indie started as a response to the way music was getting so. idk. complicated or whatever #or like kind of inaccessible to do yourself. like dgmw prog rock slaps disco slaps etc. but not everyone could just. do that #and then punk happened and it was so simplified like no long guitar solos or whatever it was so stripped down. and same with indie #not to ramble about what was in my dissertation but early indie was SO 60s influenced it was unreal. and. it was the nostalgia..... #and then i guess with punk there was new wave and post punk and then new romantics and synthpop and things got synthier and then idk #the 80s were so electronic which. again it slaps. but then it got to a point that it was Too Much again that there needed to be a Return #to the past and stuff. so then grunge and britpop and other stuff happened #and idek it always seems to be there's a new music genre or new subculture that evolves over a few years into different things #before getting too much and the next generation wants to go back so they make a new genre. which then evolves and the cycle goes on #but (at least from what I've seen. which probably isn't a lot bc i live under a rock) there doesn't seem to be anything New lately? #everything's all revivals of older genres now. like i haven't seen any new equivalent to emo or britpop or punk or beat or rock n roll etc #like a thing that Changes the timeline. and i was reading this essay about the new beatles song saying how we don't need a new beatles song #even though the new song's still cool it was kind of saying like everything nowadays is recycled and nothing is shocking anymore #like nostalgia is so big now. with all the film remakes and stuff like that. there is nooTHING NEWLY NEW. IDEK. I am rambling so much #just thinking about many things. this was sparked bc i listened to twilight by cover drive and it literally transported me back to year 7 #and that led to early 10s nostalgia and by the time that comes back into fashion will the nostalgia problem be worse or will something have #happened within that time. like a new punk or something. tbf i guess a lot of what I'm talking about is to do with rock and i mean #there's rap and stuff which i don't listen to a lot of so idk maybe there's stuff going on there which i don't know about. but then #i want there to be something i Do know about. like something you can't escape. kids are all dressing like this and listening to this and #we WILL hear about it. new proper subculture that isn't just a week long tiktok trend. ykw i blame tiktok for all of this lol #but yeah. holy shit tag limit #ramble

[bitbrumal]

you ever think about how kaeya is constantly on guard, scared, & simply -- not okay. that regardless how good he gets at handling all the threats he anticipates, that does not give him the power to make himself feel safe. just prepared. just capable. & it is something alike safe, it really is ----- but absolutely not the thing itself.

anyway all he truly craves is to just feel safe again & he lowkey highkey wishes he’d never felt it. that the ragnvindrs were less kind.       it was easier when he didn’t know what he was missing.

#hc ✦ kaeya #which is why galactia's zhongli rocks his whole entire world #& also why he is cripplingly dependent on the idea of a) past with diluc b) present/future with diluc being at least a little bit sometimes #MAYBE that good again.... #sad littol boy. it's like damn he could handle almost literally any problem you could throw at him. #oh wouldn't necessarily win but he's your MAN he's the guy you want in your corner if you'r trying to do .. anything difficult #but be okay ? feel okay ? no. #he has always needed a home & never had one he could trust. it's still all he wants; what he wants more than ANYTHING #.........................not sure if 'except independence/control'. like if you'd go into the extreme of making him a puppet would he pick t #his one thing I MEAN... he'll find some other way or let himself think he will. #but yeah i think for survival he wants self-control & as wish to actually LIVE it's a home. #zhongli who is both extremely capable/powerful AND loving/safe: #;DFLKJA;LSDKFJASLDKFJ IT'S REALLY NO WONDER MY BOY FELL ON HIS FACE FOR THIS GUY ok i'm fine i'm ok #becca getting slid in here every time kaeya's true bottom of his heart under the dregs of all his rotting hopes & wishes dreams come up

[malwarewolf404]

I love reading about older philosophies and religions we didn’t really get to cover in college-level philosophy and religion because looking back at traditional Gnosticism as someone who was raised Christian is like.

Okay so Gnostics essentially believe there is a bigger secret god behind Yahweh who is an all encompassing whole of all aspects from which divine good flows and Yahweh still exists but perhaps as a more malicious deity who created the world with intrinsic conflict and suffering. Work. Like that’s legitimately fierce.

#I really wish we knew more about gnosticism it sounds so based #the last surviving place of worship that uses traditions from antiquity is in Iraq #Which if you haven’t been living under a rock is a grim telling of what happened to the others

[p33p33p00p00]

🫵 5, 6 and 8 for the music ask game :]

ask game

5. i think Maybe the fact that gerard way made peni parker? but i dont know if thats actually "little known" or not. i think one that is actually little known is the fact nastya and nick from ic3peak live in the woods because it helps them focus more on their music

6. ic3peak, against me, nine inch nails, and the crane wives probably? the answer changes Alot but for now its these 4 🔥

8. i think it has to be pop music. i think it might be self explanatory for why its a guilty pleasure. Maybe

#nobody i've told knew gerard made peni parker which is why im counting it as lesser known. but to be fair i dont know alot of people #and i only have like. Two friends that actively listen to mcr. so. yea idk if its actually lesser known or if i just live under a rock or #something lol #alsoo i hope you dont mind that im using the tags to ramble about ic3peak but like. god i wish they were more popular than they are #like yea they arent like. Unpopular but im pretty sure the reason their most popular songs are Their Most Popular Songs is because #of the animation meme community. i like. never see anyone talk about their music outside of like. death no more fairytale and trrst #once again that may just be me living under a rock but like. idk. all of their music videos have over 1mil views on their channel but i #still rarely hear anything about them and its so </3 </3 </3 #i was gonna try to elaborate in length on why i think pop music is my biggest guilty pleasure but i think just saying 'its the #default genre' succeeds enough. uhh #yea #ask game #asks #askbox

[nomaishuttle]

i wanttt poppyseed bagel and i want it from native bagel NOW. but unfortunately my beautiful darling native bagel is 5 billion lightyears away.

#not 2 brag but its ranked among the top 50 bagel shops nation wide by oh so many ppl. not 2 brag or anything............... #I WANT HER SO BAD POPPYSEED BAGEL.. sigh i miss berea my faorite town on this beautiful earth.. they should put berea in washington so i ca #go there. rn.nd get a bagel from nativebagel #i wish i lived in Berea. i would attend berea college and drink Coffee at BC&T. I would eat bagels at native bagel and i would hike the #pinnacles. i would smoke weed with my friend ollie by dead mans tunnel where allegedly like a gang killed a guy and hid him in a tunnel #but straight up thats so fake but it is a rly fun smoking spot. i would skip rocks under the bridge in the hiking trail by my school. etc. #sry for doxxing myself but it isnt rly even bc idk anybody who lives there anymore we have alll moved. i live in wa now quite different fro #berea ky LOL.

[buckyalpine]

Reader that always cries/tries not to cry. As someone who has been yelled at for crying and who is extra sensitive, I live for the angst where the reader struggles to hold their emotions followed by all the fluff, comfort and reassurance.

-

"But-it feels like you don't care Bucky!"

"I told you I was busy y/n!" Bucky sighed out of frustration, running his fingers through his short locks, "You know how stressful this job is, it's not like I cancel our dates on purpose"

You couldn't help but feel a tinge of neglect as you stood in front of your boyfriend, fully dressed for your date only for him to text you that it would have to happen another night.

Again.

"I haven't seen you in weeks. You go for days without answering your phone. I only call you because I care about you, I love you" You could already feel the warning signs making their way throughout your body. Your throat felt tight making it difficult to swallow. Your eyes stung with fresh tears. Your nose felt warm, threatening to sniffle.

"Yeah I get that," He scoffed, shaking his head in annoyance. "I just don't know if you understand how much I have to do in a day"

"I'm not stupid Bucky" Your voice started to crack, feeling worse for adding to his stress as your own emotions started to crumble. You wanted to hold it together, to have one conversation where you didn't break but-

"But you don't get it- c'mon y/n, don't cry" Bucky bit out, the words coming out harsher than he intended, not realizing how much it would upset you. You bit your lip harder to keep your chin from trembling, fat tears threatening to slip out the more you tried to blink them back. Your throat ached, constricting your neck more and more.

"I-I'm s-sorry" You choked out, hating yourself even more for getting emotional, the frustration evident in your voice. You harshly wiped your face between hiccups, letting out a frustrated groan. Bucky blinked, his previous annoyance replaced with regret seeing how upset you were with yourself.

"I-I don't mean t-to cry" You dug your nails into your palms to try and get yourself together, your body betraying you wish a fresh wave of tears only making you feel worse, "I don't want to!"

Your body trembled, your arms moving to hug yourself in an attempt to hide away, squeezing yourself together to gain some semblance of control. Bucky cursed internally, now pissed at himself for losing his patience when you were only upset for not being able to see him. You never asked for much; the only thing you wanted was to spend time with him and recently he hadn't been doing that either.

"Hey-no-baby shhh, c'mere" Bucky pulled you to his chest, pressing his lips to the top of your head, rubbing your back up and down to calm your labored breaths. "Its not you angel, its me. I'm the one whose sorry, I shouldn't have spoken like that to you or said that, I'm sorry sweet girl"

"I-c-cry for-for everything" Your voice cracked into a defeated sob, embarrassed over how easily you broke down to tears, a new wave streaming down your face, wetting the front of his Henley. Bucky picked you up in his arms, carrying you over to bed where he could place you in his lap, cradling you to his body. "I h-hate it"

"My sweet, sensitive baby" Bucky cooed as he continued to cuddle you, rocking you in his arms while you got your breathing under control. "I'm sorry babygirl"

"I just missed you" You sniffled, clutching onto his dogtags while he kissed your temple repeatedly, stroking your hair.

"You have every right to be upset. I should be lucky my girl loves me so much, you don't even ask for a lot. I'm sorry I've been neglecting and cancelling on you so much, m'gonna take some time off so I can love on you properly"

You smiled into his chest, your body finally starting to relax, following the rise and fall of his chest.

"I'm sorry I cry so much- Bucky tipped your face up, pressing his lips against yours to stop your rambling.

"No, you cry as much as you want with me, I love that about you, okay?" He looked at your sincerely, meaning every word.

"But-

"You cry because you care. I love that you care so much. I love that cute little animal videos make you emotional. I love how deeply you feel for others. Fuck, I love how much you love me. I'll never meet anyone else who loves and cares for others the way you do. Don't ever change baby, you cry all you want"

You let out a small sniffle at his words making him chuckle, swiping his thumb across your cheek to wipe the tear the slipped out.

"What if it annoys you" you pouted while Bucky playfully pondered your question, pecking your lips again.

"Hmm, then you send Steve to beat me up. I promise he'll run at the chance at any given moment. Call Sam in too and get comfy with those fuzzy peaches you love so much"

"You sure?"

"I'm sure, doll" Bucky whispered, settling you under the covers with your head on his chest, planning to spend the rest of the day cuddling in bed. "Very sure"

#bucky barnes x you #bucky x reader #bucky barnes #bucky barnes x reader #bucky barnes fluff #bucky barnes x y/n #bucky x y/n #bucky barnes x female reader #bucky barnes x f!reader #bucky barnes fanfiction #bucky barnes angst #bucky angst #bucky barnes x fanfic #bucky barnes fan fic #bucky barnes fan fiction #bucky barnes fanfic #bucky fan fic #bucky fan fiction #bucky fanfic #james bucky buchanan barnes #james buchanan barnes #james bucky barnes #marvel angst #marvel fluff #avengers angst #avengers fluff #marvel fanfic #avengers fanfic #marvel fanfiction #bucky barnes imagine

[lexalovesbooks]

feel sick trying to figure out housing for next year

#i wish i could just live under a rock this is terrible #current roommate is ditching me to go to alaska and good for her! but i now no longer have a roommate for my senior year #aka the year we no longer have guaranteed housing #and everyone else already has their roommate situation figured out because. well. seniors. not much switching around of roommates by then #i'm about to lose my shiiiiiit

[ivynightshade]

fatima aamer bilal, from coffin heart? bury me.

[text id: how did you get so close that i have to dissect you out from under my skin? / memory is a deathbed. remembrance is a grave. the memory of you is a scab that i keep picking so that it scars. a burn, a souvenir, something to claw at that claws back at me. / i refuse to be haunted by something less. / there's a sun-sized ache where your hands used to be. / and now that your place is empty, the blood in my heart pumps around nothing. / nothing. / nothing at all. / senseless circulation. / what am i to live for when i have made my body my casket? / where am i to go from here? / and i always knew longing had another name she wouldn't let me call her by — it's hunger. / my heart grew up to be far more starved than my stomach. / it's the things you learn in your childhood, from the words of your mother, from the hands of your father. / if your teeth do not graze my bones, i do not wish for you to kiss me. / how have i turned gentle love into such devastation? / such greediness? / i carry a coffin for a heart; everything i love must be buried. / plant your garden in the cracks of my skin—mud, gravel, everything. let my blood be water to cater to your needs. / terrible, terrible human, thinks barbarity and love are words of the same meaning. / a mad dog would be a far more gentle lover to the rocks being thrown at him. / and, my dear, i wouldn't ask you to fold me in the pages of your favorite book, just the embedment of fingers between my ribs. / how did you get so close that i have to dissect you out from under my skin? / GET CLOSER.]

#fatima aamer bilal #coffin heart? bury me. #literature #poetry #poeticstories #book quotations #words words words #writings #typography #yearning #longing #pining #unrequited love #dark poetry #dark academia #taylor swift #art #bts #franz kafka #sylvia plath #lana del rey #mitski #fiction #fantasy #web weavings #book qoute #spilled quotes #parent issues #anne brontë #mahmoud darwish

[miengsol]

🎶✨when u get this, list 5 songs u like to listen to, publish. then, send this ask to tag 10 of your favorite followers (positivity is cool)🎶✨

@voxvulgi putting my spotify on blast :'D

but of course sara!!

one. escapism by rebecca sugar. two. back to you by selena gomez. three. choice by choi minho. four. caffeine by kiro akiyama. five. ferris bueller by emei.

#cull the shame ( ooc. ) #know what you're thinking ( about ferre. ) #a tender impulse ( answered. ) #what can we get from this list #basically i live under a rock when it comes to music.... #FJKLSDJFLKSJ #well i didn't care much for the media that two was used in ( bc it was just bad...and insulting too :/ ) but i do like the song #i think of mana and calum in that song a lot actually <3 #as for three....well calum's fc sings it so of course :DD #that and four is weird af but fun if not dark too :/ #and five is what i wish existed back when i was a student JFKLSDJFLKJ :'D #but thank you so much for sending this in sara <3 <3 <3