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genericpuff · 1 year

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Lore Olympus is morally bankrupt and I will no longer be giving it the gift of my time or thought.

Okay, this is gonna be a long one, and VERY heated (and melodramatic ngl), and I apologize in advance if my thoughts are scattered, but I'm just ... I've been left with so many horrible thoughts since last night's update (Ep 230) and I'm realizing that I can't keep doing this.

There are comics that I love. There are comics that I used to love but have since grown to dislike due to a dip in quality or simply losing interest. And then, there are comics that have become so fundamentally awful down to their core that, when I go back to read from the beginning, I wonder how I missed the signs of these things in the first place.

And those are the comics I can't bring myself to even give attention to in any regard because it feels like I'm committing some sort of hate crime in doing so.

This is where I stand with LO. With each passing week, I grow more weary of new episodes, and I wonder if there's any point to analyzing it, critiquing it, or whatever have you when it's obvious such a feat is pointless - because there's nothing there to critique, there's nothing there to discuss, the ONLY thing that becomes more obvious with each passing week is how low Rachel is willing to stoop as a creator and as a person.

I try not to direct actual hate towards these creators. I try and focus on their writing, their art, the execution of their ideas, separate from their existence as individuals because it's how I'd want and expect people to analyze and critique my own work.

But with Rachel, it's becoming increasingly obvious that drawing that line is impossible. That "separating the art from the artist" can only apply for so long when the artist's own deeply-rooted issues are baked into the foundation of their work. It's the equivalent of trying to criticize something like Harry Potter - you can't do it without acknowledging the very anti-Semitic elephant in the room, because to do so would be turning a blind eye to Rowling's irresponsibility as a creator with a platform and the injustices she's done to the communities she's hurt in her endeavors.

For weeks now, Rachel and her circle of goons and yes men have been sneaking into our communities, into our conversations had in confidence, and implementing their own versions of "getting back" at the haters through the comic itself and through how its marketed. Almost every single social media post, video, and retconned plot point that's cropped up the last few weeks has been in direct response to things said in the subreddits, the Discord groups, the Facebook groups, everything that they don't consider "positive" enough. When we point these things out in isolation, it makes us look paranoid, but I promise you, we're taking notice of the things Rachel does and says and portrays in her work and it all adds up to be an incredibly twisted picture of her way of doubling down.

Persephone suddenly becoming Avatar: The Last Airbender? We've discussed it at length in our LO-focused circles prior to that reveal.

The sudden retcon of Eros/Aphrodite being able to "detect and control" virginity through Persephone PSA-lecturing about the "hegemony" of virginity? A direct response to people discussing the nature of Eros' powers.

The reveal that Persephone never had sex with Hades despite all the build-up that Rachel did leading up to what was obviously going to be a sex scene? A direct response to people discussing how it felt rushed for Persephone to suddenly be ready to jump in bed with Hades while showing very little growth in her healing in the actual comic.

Rachel constantly posting pics about how "hard" she's working? A response to our figuring out her buffer is 2-3 weeks ahead at any given time and she's clearly rushing things out the door.

The list goes on but I can assure you, the signs are there that Rachel reads these things and, instead of analyzing what people are saying, digs her heels in further and doubles down. We already know she's done this before, it's been stated in interviews where she's gone ahead and over-saturated character colors and made the art WORSE to 'get back' at people who criticized the comic's art style. Like I said, these things in isolation might seem paranoid, but there is a very clear history of how Rachel responds to criticism and discussion - ripping off her nose to spite her face - that goes waaay back to S1 that gives these suspicions far more validity.

She's snuck into our groups, our communities, and is absolutely violating the reader/creator dynamic. This is a woman who's tried to brigade control of FB groups away from their admins so she could micromanage them (see: Broseidon's Palace of Fishposting). This is a woman who will have her mods kick or mute anyone who shows an inkling of distaste for new episodes in her Discord and FB groups. This is a woman who's fully unapologetic in how controlling, manipulative, and downright abusive she can be towards her own audience.

We have literally had to implement new security measures in our own Discord groups in an attempt to keep her and her cronies out, and yet still it feels like there are things she's doing that are direct responses to what we've said and discussed, on a VERY specific level. And the fact that, even if she's no longer in our space, we have to worry about that sort of thing? It's an abusive reader-creator relationship that is creating paranoia in our community members and sucking the fun out of it all. We shouldn't have to fear a creator or their mods sneaking into our groups to stir up trouble. It's so incredibly invasive and disgusting and it makes me fear for our more involved users who come to our spaces for community, for acceptance, for love and support. We're not just people who trash on LO, we're people who have bonded over our frustrations for it and that's a bond that is now existing beyond LO. These are safe spaces that we've attempted to create and Rachel is feverishly violating them and attempting to rip them apart from the inside.

I'm done. I'm fucking done tiptoeing around the "separating the art from the artist" fence-sitting bullshit when it comes to how people criticize this comic and its creator. LO is a festering pool of misery and misogyny and so is its creator. I can't even be bothered to hate it, I literally do not give a shit. I'm tired of it. It's making me miserable. And it's not worth giving it my time, my energy, or my efforts anymore. Rachel does not deserve my clicks. She does not deserve my follows. She does not deserve the essays that I pour my time and heart into.

I'm not going to be reading LO any further. Not even free episodes. I will be unsubscribing from the comic. I will be unfollowing her socials. My only connection to LO at this point will be through Rekindled and the communities I've partaken in and fostered - Rachel can't destroy the friendships I've made through her work, for better and for worse, as much as she might like to try. I'm cutting off the infection at the source.

I will be answering the remaining asks that are in my inbox that pertain to LO specifically, but after that, I will no longer be devoting this blog purely to LO analysis. It's Rekindled, LO-inspired fan work, and Greek myth content only. I cannot continue to give Lore Olympus attention through my own attempts to analyze it, critique it, and partake in it, because to do so would be to continue sacrificing my own mental health and values as a webcomic consumer and creator, and giving it attention that it does not deserve. It does not deserve even a sliver of admiration or even nostalgia from me, because it has done absolutely nothing to earn it.

As for Rekindled, well. I hope you know the potential of Lore Olympus - and the part of the fandom that has been worn down and disappointed week after week after week - is mine now. I'm taking it. Rachel clearly can't be trusted with the messages and stories that this shit fire of a comic is based on. Lore Olympus is cancelled, Rachel is cancelled. I will unapologetically be hyping up Rekindled, I want it to be good and I'm going to ensure that it does what Rachel couldn't. It's the least I can fucking do for this amazing community that I've gotten to know and felt welcome and accepted in through and through. She and her work do not have any sort of relevance or control in my life anymore. She can make LO all she wants, but in my mind, it does not exist and does not deserve an inkling of attention, it belongs in the same dumpster as Harry Potter, 50 Shades/After, and Empress Theresa.

Rachel may have robbed me of my love for Lore Olympus but she cannot take what I have planned for Rekindled. When I started the comic, I wasn't doing it as any sort of flex on Rachel. I wasn't doing it to "get back" at her or to prove I could "do better". It was a fan project that I was making out of love for what once was, for what I had hoped would be LO. And it still is that - but prepare yourselves, because you're about to see a real Dread Queen arc, not of pettiness, not of unwarranted cruelty, but of justice.

It would be the height of hubris to claim that I can do anything better than another creator, but when the work that Rekindled is based on is a literal dumpster fire of misogyny, sexism, and classism, is it really so hard to make something better? Even the most bare minimum ideas and writing can accomplish more than LO has in the last 2 years at this point. Any of you could do what I'm doing, and I encourage you to do so. Let spite be your motivator. You do not need to be a contracted webcomic creator to create something that will make you happier than LO. Make your fanfiction. Make your panel edits. Create your re-tellings. I will gladly bask in them.

Rachel, I want you to know, you cannot count this as a win, as much as you likely see it as such in your mind. This is your own platform you're systematically destroying, readers who used to love you and your work who you're pushing away with your childish nonsense. The worst we'll have is losing something we like and moving onto something new. You have more to lose. You have more to be worried about as the face of this steaming pile of garbage. You are the one who's going to have to explain to Webtoons why your comic is on fire, why your fanbase is divided, why LO is one of the most dunked on comics alongside Boyfriends and True Beauty, simply because you couldn't have the humility to recognize the glaring issues in your comic and simply do better. Internalize it all you want that you think it's just because you're "popular", but I assure you, people will still despise you, your platform, and your work long after LO has ended and been replaced by the next big thing.

And I assure you, those replacements will be creating out of spite for the damage you've caused. Myself included.

May your every attempt at success and relevance from hence forward be mired by mediocrity and misery for your own putrid creations.

We'll all be doing just fine over here.

#anti lore olympus #antiloreolympus #lore olympus critical #lo critical

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ntls-24722 · 8 months

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fritz finally gets to try his jacket on :>

Originally, curly antennae meant that Comet was flustered, but i... always draw curly antennae, out of habit. So instead they coil up!

also fritz would try to eat comet's face at least once now that his jaws have been given the size and flexibility to open that wide.

Random thing I keep forgetting about Fritz? His eyes are just little rectangles underneath the glasses that i constantly forget to make explicit that they're glasses.

Despite being in someone else's body, they're reminiscent of the eyes he used to have before the unsuccessful attempt at bringing back Yasmin (context in pics)

Despite having Lucas' soul, he has no memories of being Lucas, nor any memories before he was "resurrected."

But because of his new memories and new life, he acts nothing like Lucas. He's someone else now.

(quite a literal approach to the trans experience of "being in the wrong body," huh.)

(unrelated but also, he DIY'd his top surgery and made a homemade, custom guillotine to chop those melons right off. He almost died.)

Bonus: very shitty and indecipherable sketches of Comet's "new" vocal organs, a weird bundle of flesh pipes. I've put a lot of thought into how he'd sound, not much thought into how he'd make that sound. Even though once I made this post I realized a 4-sectioned syrinx does accomplish the deed of singing 4 notes at once just fine, So I accomplished.... like... nothing, doing this.

Though, I really need to figure out an organ for Bass. I always imagined he'd have a Whole Different Thing for that, but I never drew it. That and percussion, though I imagined his molars might be made a certain way so it'd make a noise when he snapped his jaws at something but. I'm not sure how. I know he has a speaker built in but he's a MUSIC man. I feel like it would be cool if he was able to make music off of pure Body Weirdness

fritz dance

#also he has a socket in his back that makes electricity for his custom speaker to read #even without the speaker it can make some interesting noise #Like a tesla coil #ntls-24722 #djmm #not even putting Dj Music Man #its all fritz and comet.#mostly fritz.#but. he's been “music manned” and there was a djmm in some capacity #so #(almost) daily music man #Comet #Fritz

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dotster001 · 11 months

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Hello! Could I request a Twisted Wonderland romantic match up?

I'm very short and quiet so people tend to call me a cat and I'm able to scare them very easily haha. I am a major introvert, and have many hyper fixations some are poisonous plants, murder mysteries, and special effects make-up. I'm pretty touchy feely and tend to have a protective streak due to being the oldest sibling, I dye my hair often and paint my nails new colors every week. I'm very talkative around people I know, I enjoy quite a few genres of music such as otacore, pop rock, and late nighties early 2000s rock. I love LED lights, writing and reading.

Event Closed

I match you with Cater Diamond.

I know what you're thinking. "Dot, why would you pair a major introvert with a hyper extrovert?" Well, my precious anon, it is precisely because of those differences. Both of you get to have experiences that neither of you would have ever had without the other! Plus by the time you're dating, your obviously in the stage where you're comfy with him, and talk a lot. And he's enjoyed earning that from you. It's been rewarding to work so hard on a relationship, because now he knows it's a solid one that won't disappear into a cloud of smoke.

The pda between the two of you. Oh sevens. The two of you are equally touchy feely, so it can range anywhere from holding hands, to full on kissing. It's not all that uncommon for people to find Cater scrolling through magicam while laying his head in your lap.

He totally starts dying his hair with you. Not matching colors per se, but complimentary colors. However, he does ask you to paint his nails matching colors to yours. He likes to take pics that show off the matching colors, and post them on his magicam with a cringy comment about true love. He never mentions the nails himself, just smugly waits for his followers to bring it up.

He wants you at every performance the music club does (which aren't that many) and he always dedicates a song to you, while pointing at you and saying something like "this one's for you babe!" Hope you enjoy that kind of thing. Because Kalim has started dedicating songs to you too, due to the fact that he didn't understand it was meant to be a romantic thing.

He also calls you a cat, btw. When you do something silly goofy, or pout at him, he'll call you his little kitty. "Aw, is my little kitty sad? It's okay, I'll give you a treat. 😁" The "treat" is usually him getting cuddled.

"The butler did it," you said confidently.

"How could you possibly know that already? The movie only just started!"

"I just know."

Cater looked up from his phone with a scowl. It was a trending new murder mystery, and Cater was live magicamming the two of your thoughts on the movie. The ending was a highly protected secret, with magic used to ensure that no one spoiled the ending. However, guessing was excluded from this.

"You know part of the fun comes from not being able to figure it out," he muttered, tapping away on his phone, probably about to post how he was pretty sure you were right.

"Look, I've watched so many of these that I'm basically a master detective!"

"Yeah yeah," he held up his phone, making sure to get your confident smile, and his pout, before continuing to type.

"What lies are you telling them about me?"

"My little kitty is a spoilsport."

"Take it back!"

"Never!"

#twisted wonderland #matchups #1.5k followers #twisted wonderland x reader #cater diamond #cater diamond x reader

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its-the-3nd · 2 months

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I can post this here because she wont see this. I met a woman and we started talking/working towards a relationship. I bought this couples necklace to ask her out with. Her favorite animal is a bear, hence the necklace. I'm the big bear, she's the little bear. Unfortunately, right before they arrived and I had the chance to ask, she decided she just wants to be friends (for now hopefully). She has a lot going on in life and isn't ready for a relationship quite yet. There's other stuff but that's the gist of it. We kind of left on a question mark, so there's still a chance we start moving back towards a relationship. Of course I'd love nothing more than that, but ultimately it's up to her and what she wants. I respect her feelings and emotions immensely, so I just want her to be happy and do what she wants. I'm sure deep down she knows my thoughts on it, but I haven't talked about them. Every conversation we've had on the topic (two times), I've just reinforced that I want what she wants, that I understand how she feels and I'm here for her in whatever capacity she wants me to be. In saying all this, I made this post just because I love this necklace. I want nothing more than to one day be able to actually give it to her, and to finally make her my official girlfriend. She is the most amazing girl I've ever met. Never have I clicked with anyone as easily as I did with her. Everything just felt right and natural. I've never thought much on the idea of soulmates, but after meeting her, I can tell she's mine. She's the only person I want to spend the rest of my life with. I want to get to know all of her. I want to build a life with her. I want to grow old with her. She's just so perfect, and all my fears and demons just vanish when I'm with her. My anxiety goes away and I feel confident. The me that's been hidden for so long comes out when I'm with her. She brings out the best me in me. God I really hope she comes back, I adore her so much. Sorry not sorry just wanted to post a pic of the cute necklace and gush over a girl who I may never be with, but has my entire heart and soul wrapped around her finger.

#love #hopelessly in love #cute #necklace #sad thoughts

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golbrocklovely · 9 months

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Aww I really I hope snc would still do it explore new places around the world!…but let’s see what they will do! :)

what i heard about Elton is that he wanted to show Colby wrist?! , , destroyed Colby car?! And he also wanted to do a prank to Sam but it’s didn’t turn out well because he started bleeding?! , idk if all of this is true! 😅

I’m also a bit scared for them to go to the conjuring house! I hope it’s will turn out well!… but I still can’t wait what they will do these month and the hell week!

Also have you seen Sam new pictures when they where in Tokyo omg!

i mean, it's always possible that they will at some point. but i think it also depends whether or not they feel like a) changing up their style once again and or b) if things like that are trending/would get them more views then what they get now.

as for what elton did… those aren't quite right. first, elton never made colby show his wrist/sh scars. colby doesn't have those and has never done that. this literally never happened. there is no proof, but for some reason someone started the rumor on tiktok. i've been in the fandom since 2018, i'm telling you rn if it had happened, it wouldn't have taken until 2022 (which is when that rumor started popping up) for some fan to finally say something. not to mention, any time anyone brings that up they have no proof and then claim "it was deleted" which… if that's the case, how would you know it happened then??

that one particular rumor always pisses me off, bc there is plenty of shit to not like elton for, but that one just isn't true at all.

elton did destroy colby's car for a prank, but a lot of fans think that that wasn't actually his car, just one that looked like it. it's one of those things where the prank was a bit extreme but knowing how elton operates, it's possible it didn't happen. he's had to in the past "apologize" (bc elton doesn't really do that in all honesty) for lying about pranks or faking paranormal videos so… who knows for certain.

and yeah, he did a prank where he had a huge hand come down from above and it smacked sam in the face, and sam at that time was biting his lip or something and so when it hit him, he started bleeding from how hard he bit down.

if you want to know why a lot of really don't like elton, this and this will explain it. also, still to this day elton does things that sorta shade snc, like blocking out their names from comments, allegedly getting them blocked from going to places he went to first, and redoing a whole tfil series with someone else that he did originally with snc years back.

also above all else, he literally got banned from the conjuring house for a while until it finally got a new owner. idk how the fuck you get banned from a house that has literal demons in it, but elton did. like, if that wasn't proof enough that he's an asshole idk what is lol

speaking of, i'm scared for them to go to the conjuring house too. that place is freaky as hell, and you can feel that thru the camera. hopefully they sage themselves to hell and back before, during, and after go there. and yeah i'm excited for them to post their other investigations as soon as they can.

and i did see his pics. he looks lovely :)

#ask #personal #sam and colby #elton castee

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alienrascal · 7 months

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Hello I bring my OC Venatrix for viewing 👉👈

She's originally my Cyberpunk 2077 V that I played like ... a year ago? (leftmost, first pic) and was like the first one that actually 'clicked' for me visually as 'oh yeah this is my canon Streetkid origin V'. Fast forward to this year and I had started making tattoo mods in the sims and though 'huh what if I made her tattoo from scratch in cyberpunk though' and uuuuuuuuuh I kind of went off the modding deep end lol?

Like what started as really custom, meaningful tattoos for her (because I am a shit for symbolism so it had to happen) turned into custom eyes, custom lip texture, rebuilding her hair from scratch (and then going a but insane with making it curly actually) by myself with absolutely no knowledge of Blender or modding tools in the first place. I also ended up putting her in Baldur's Gate (no literally, that is the head mesh ported over lol) because honestly she's my third 'angry goth energy' OC and I'm just 'how about we just stick to the same one'. So yeah she's my modding blorbo I guess??

I am super thankful for her for that because I always wanted to be in the games industry, originally I studied game design before life and disability things 😦 ... but this has kind of given me some of that back, being able to see something I made and just go 'I DID THAT!' has been really nice and healing for me. (Like even comparing her to the 'old' version with other mods I'm just ... wow. I did so much.)

I don't care that she's technically a 'game' OC or whatever, all I know is I'm the most inspired I've been creatively in a long time and I'm pushing myself to learn things I always thought would be too hard and complicated for someone like me.

Instead I'm out here deconstructing Baldur's Gate 3's annoyingly complicated texture system and reconstructing it in blender just so I can have the option of doing 3D renders of my blorbos.

Like shit man! I've learned so much in only a few months and I am kind of hype about that! And it's all thanks to this beloved angry little goth ball of wrath (who I picture as a Tasmanian devil or something, just creature energy to me haha).

I will draw her ... someday. But pretty content with just learning all this new shit right now.

So uh that's Venatrix 🥺

YEAAHHHH!! bruhh I love Venatrix, and especially love seeing your modding journey and discussions. Literally hop on Tumblr and just wonder what cool stuff imma be seeing!

pov you see me react to a chipped-chimera post

I think in any case, seeing someone convert their oc into a 3d space is incredibly cool. ESPECIALLY that you changed the games model to fit her!! less gooo!!

Though I'm really glad that she's been helping you out, ocs are our little brain gremlins that I truthfully think are there to sort the clothes and do the chores while we're away. Sometimes they pick us up when we're not well enough to keep at it, we never really forget them either; so they're always vibing out.

I'm so glad to read this and honestly hyped for any and all Karlach/Ven 🤝 consider me interested, taggable, and yell-able about it

#others ocs #THANK YOUU FOR SENDING IN KEERYY

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setsugekka · 11 months

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Ϟ- honestly the first time I’ve felt this way when reading your work was when I first read paradise lost ch. 7 when mc realized seonghwa sent that video to hongjoong:

“You slowly look back up and towards Seonghwa, still silently perched in the kitchen — watching you, but with nothing to say. Slowly, he brings his hand from the side of his arm to take a sip of the beverage…

But not before ever so gently tipping it towards you.

Cheers, indeed. And 'fuck you, too.’”

when I first read that my jaw was on the floor, I wanted to skin him alive and I had to exit out the pic for a bit before I could continue reading. I mean ik yeah “boo mc we hate your pussy” but revenge porn?? Brutal

✹- I’ve been meaning to ask for a while what is it that got you into writing and how did you improve your writing skills to what they are now?

⊞- not a prediction, but something youve mentioned before the jjk/wooyoung crossover fit (if you ever decide to do it, you know I am rsvp’d, 1st in line, 🪑, all of the above)

♫- cots! (bc I never got to read it 🥲)

oh and this one! ✦

💗💗

sorry i sent a lot i love ask games 🫶🏾

PLEASE, i love that you're willing to play along with my insanity 💗

ϟ tell me what moment/scene in [fic] made you sicko in the window.jpg to read and i’ll tell you which scene made me feel that way to write

FJGDJFJG THAT PART!!! yeah, you're so valid for that. truth be told, i wasn't sure i even wanted to do it but i really felt like it drove the point of everything home too well not to 😶 as for what scene i've written that made me feel that way? hmmmm...there's a lot of them coming up in atarashii tbh fdkgdffg so i'm excited for when more of that gets posted. probably the most i've ever felt that was the ending of ruined king though, because most everyone felt very sure it was going to go one way and i was basking in Knowing.

✹ wildcard - I’ve been meaning to ask for a while what is it that got you into writing and how did you improve your writing skills to what they are now?

oooh, good question!

so, really, i've been dabbling in writing fic for a long time. on and off, really short bursts. back in 2019 i wrote a little bit for exo and nct on ao3 but i guess i got bored, just fell off from it again. then the pandemic hit and my bestie and i got into stray kids so we started reading a whole metric fuckton of fic on here together as a bonding activity cuz we didn't really have much else to do. eventually there came a point where i was just sort of like..."i feel like i can do this," so i made a blog and wrote some short, horny lil ficlets mostly for her/us and posted them, not really expecting anyone to even read them, much less start following me for more. but that's exactly what happened LMAO. but i was bored and crazy inspired so i was just cranking out a crazy amount of fic.

which i guess naturally segues into the improvement side of things and i think the biggest factor in that is just writing. writing a shit ton. i was reading a lot of fic then as well and no doubt that helped but i really think it was the writing that really pushed me along. i realized pretty soon after starting that i wanted to do longer, more plot-focused fics and my desire to grow and improve and challenge myself has always been imbedded in doing this. it was always sort of a question with each new project of "can i pull this off if i do X."

one of the first examples of this was harbinger, which was my first sort of horror/fantasy fic, and i think doing that really leveled up my ability just by itself. i was writing paradise lost while doing that, and then afterwards i did project d, which is one of my favorite fics and i think even to this day is some of my best work! after that is when i took on the massive challenge of doing city of the sky, which, those of you who were with me on the old blog while i was doing it know that was full of horrors and trials and tribulations but it was a massive challenge to take on and while i hated doing that fic and wasn't really happy with it while it was happening, i look back at it really fondly (and am now pissed i lost so much of it in the move like an idiot 😒).

all of this to say: challenge is growth. all of my challenges have been pretty self-sustained, i've always wanted to push the boundaries of what i'm able to do and i've been willing to fall flat on my face if i fail, but i think that's how one improves sometimes? like, i think there is validity in writing just because you feel like it and it doesn't have to be some massive undertaking of becoming the best and greatest or whatever but a lot of the joy for me is the challenge, so as long as i am finding new ways to push myself, and maybe even fail and suck at something, then i'll probably still be writing, learning, hopefully getting better, and most importantly, having fun.

⊞ send a prediction for a fic i’ll write in the future - not a prediction, but something youve mentioned before the jjk/wooyoung crossover fit (if you ever decide to do it, you know I am rsvp’d, 1st in line, 🪑, all of the above)

this is so funny because i have a wip doc of a jjk fic (though it has nothing to do with kpop) that i started and then just. have not touched since. i realized i struggle to have the same inventive drive writing stuff that isn't rpf because i really enjoy the freedom of not having a "canon" to adhere to. i can write these men as anything and no one can tell me shit about it being "out of character" because they're effectively just face claims and none of us know what they're really like anyway, where as writing gojo is like...okay, we all know who and how gojo is 😭😭😭 but who knows! i can never say i'll never write something, the wip is still sitting there and season 2 is coming out so...who knows!

♫ send a fic and i’ll make a 3-5 song playlist for you - city of the sky

OH THIS IS HARD BUT FUN. (sorry you never got to read it 😭😭)

I'm a Pop - Chanmina

Blooming - Band-Maid

RIOT - Raise A Suilen

２１世紀型行進曲 - miyavi

✦ what was your easiest fic to write & your hardest?

hmmm, city of the sky definitely the hardest by far LMAO there were so many struggles and i realized less than halfway through that i hated writing action scenes...in a fic all about fighting and action. oops. easiest...maybe atarashii? it's pretty straight forward with the debauchery so i didn't have to think all that hard about it jkdfdghjdf.

THANKS FOR PLAYING WITH ME 🥰🥰🥰🥰

#☕ ask #ask game 📝

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catb-fics · 2 years

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(anon from the '15 day till Cardiff' post:)

The fact I thought this day would never come...these past years I've even said I wouldn't ever be able to see them because it would leave me in the biggest state🤣 But I cant pass an opportunity like this! Im so grateful🙏🏻 but at the same time SHITTING myselfff😵‍💫

I'm travelling from Leicester, gonna be a 4 hour train journey😵 it's bloody worth it though! Heading down the day before to explore Cardiff Central abit and so we can get down early on the Friday:)

Its gonna be one of the biggest spiritual experiences thus far in my life. (It sounds dramatic but I've been through alot of shit and discovered the lids in my darkest place and they've brought me so much joy and passion back in my life)

May be M.I.A for a week after but will sure send a big ask telling my experience and will send you pics/vids on private message so you can share them😊

I wish the whole catfish tumblr/insta community could go together, we are all kind of on the same wavelength when it comes to catfish and the emotions they (especially Van) bring us.

Make sure ya'll send me strength to get out of it as sane and stable as I can😅

Love your blog, for me it's the safest catfish space on here and out of other platforms tbh...thank you my lovely❤️

Hello lovely! A fellow Midlands gal ❤️

Aww thank you for being on my blog. This is such a sweet and heart-warming ask. I’m so happy that discovering the band has brought you so much happiness, I hope life is treating you much better nowadays. And it’s not dramatic at all!

I’m sure you’re going to have a wonderful time, an experience of a lifetime. I hope you get a good spot at the show and I cannot wait to hear all about it and I’d be more than happy to share any of your pics/videos etc. I’ve never been to Cardiff myself but heard it’s lovely so enjoy your time after/before the show too.

Ahhh I think these 2 days of the shows are gonna be so emotional for catb fans 😭

Take care and sending you loads of positive vibes. Stay safe 💕 xxx

#catb asks #cardiff

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indefinitelyjaded · 2 months

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Whew. (Super Sim Update)

SO. MUCH. PROGRESS.

I am officially DONE with all Base Game Skills, Aspirations*, AND Careers!

(*Not the Family ones that require children to age up into Young Adults/have children... but soon!)

I'm also done with the Outdoor Retreat Aspirations and Skills! (That's far less of an accomplishment, considering there's only one of each, and you (almost) have to max the Herbalism skill to complete the Aspiration.)

So, now it's time to Get to Work. (Ha! I'm hilarious.) Stella already mastered the Baking and Photography skills a loooong time ago, so that's already done. I started her in the Detective career first, since that's the only active career I've never played before. Like I mentioned in my last Super Sim Update post, Stella went back to University to get a couple more relevant degrees, to make these careers go by more quickly. So thanks to her Distinguished Degree in Psychology, she started at Level 8 and just maxed the career. I haven't decided if we'll do the Doctor or Scientist career next; I've played both before, and are the Scientist career animations still bugged? I'm leaning toward Doctor, because I think I've only played through that one once before, whereas I know I've done the Scientist career a couple times.

The biggest changes/most progress has been with the family.

The twins are still living with Cousin India, who had a baby with some rando... once it ages up into an infant, I can go into their household and check the family tree to see what's up with that. ANYWAY, the twins aged up into teens, so I'm considering bringing them back to my household, since they can take care of themselves now.

Tinsley looks a lot like Stella, and Tate looks pretty similar to Cade -- like, to the point that it was difficult to do Tate's CAS and make him look like a different person than Cade.

Speaking of Cade, he's coming along nicely with his Minor-Super Sim goals. Obviously, since he's now a teen also, he completed all the Childhood skills and aspirations, as well as Scouts. (He did as much of the Drama Club activity as he could as a kid, but you can't max that until you're a Teen.) As a Teen, he has maxed the Drama Club, Cheer Team, Chess Team, and Football Team activities; he's currently on the Computer Team, and is Level 2, so almost done. I'm not having him do the Simfluencer or Video Game Streamer "side hustle" careers, since those can also be done by Adults. As far as Aspirations go, Cade has finished the Drama Llama and Goal Oriented ones, and is currently working on Admired Icon and Live Fast -- I think he will probably finish the latter one first, but I'm kind of going back and forth at the same time, to try to get them done more quickly.

I'm also pleased to report that Prom seems to be actually working in this save! Which I'm really excited about, because I literally never got to see it until now. At Cade's first prom, his half-sister, Emma (Dexter's daughter), was crowned Prom Royalty!

(I wish the photobooth pictures saved to the Screenshots or somewhere, because they took a really cute/funny pic together in the booth!)

At Cade's second prom, he exchanged promise rings with his girlfriend, Luna Villareal:

(Should Luna be (at least) a Young Adult by now, given that she was a Teen when I started this save file? Yes. Did I age her down in CAS, because she and Cade met once and hit it off, then she aged up the next day? Also yes. Look, I told you in post one that I was playing a little fast and loose with the rules.)

Cade also made a new bff at this prom: Orange Bailey-Moon, who is (a) still famous and (b) now literally (prom) royalty:

I do want to get Cade crowned prom royalty before he graduates, which is all the more reason to bring his siblings home -- votes that I can control! (Besides, India has her own kid to take care of now.)

My plan is for Cade and Luna to get engaged and married pretty much immediately upon Cade's aging up into a Young Adult. (Even though I aged Luna down in CAS, she's still significantly older than Cade, according to MC Command Center.) The sooner they get married, the sooner they can create the requisite grandchildren for Stella's aspiration.

Speaking of Stella's aspiration, I don't currently have her working on one. Since there are none with Get to Work, the next one will be the ones added to Spa Day in the refresh... except those Aspirations are the whole gameplay of the pack. So it feels wrong to work on those before finishing the Get to Work careers.

And speaking of the Get to Work careers: since there's no tutorial-type aspiration tied to Retail, and it doesn't have levels like a traditional career... I haven't decide how I'm going to handle that. I may not bother with it at all, because I've played with Retail stores before (and they're a PITA). Still deciding for sure, though.

#sims 4 #sims 4 gameplay #sims4 #sims 4 super sim #super sim challenge #sims 4 cc #sims 4 custom content #ts4 simblr #sims 4 simblr #sims 4 screenshots #simblr

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peanutpinet · 2 years

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You're Our World, Our Universe (NCT 2021 yandere)

A/N: hi!! I'm at it again with another fanfic, well ever since dreamies posted their GLITCH MODE teaser pics, I'm already planning for a motorcycle gang fanfic for them, but we'll see. Anyways, this fanfic will be my first yandere fanfic. Please don't hate on me by how bad I'm going to write this yandere fanfic.

I've always wanted to try to write a yandere fanfic but didn't know who and about what until I read this fanfic by @mymoodwriting!! If you haven't read their fanfic, well here are the links to them!!

Link to Who Is Sticker: pt.1 & pt.2 (A/N: these two fanfics is just damn 🤌🏼🤌🏼🤌🏼)

Warnings: slight yandere behaviour (mainly obsession and manipulative behaviour) and your author being a crap in description and yandere writing :D

Main neos: my ult bias, my bias and my love-HATE bias :]

Your POV

“Owww, my head. Where the heck am I? Is this some sort of prank?! Johnny, Mark!! This isn’t funny!! Neos!! You guys know that I don’t like being in pitch darkness alone when my hearing senses are sharp” you rambled on in the darkroom

“Welcome player” you heard a random voice announced

“Computer? System?” you questioned

“Well aren’t you a smart one? Yes, I’m the master control of this escape room that you and the others are in” The computer announced

“Es-escape room you say?! B-but I was asleep...Anyways, about the others. Who exactly are the others? How many are there? 7? 9? 18? 23?” you questioned

“You’re also a nosy one, aren’t you? How about you go through your first mission? You’re a multi-lingual girl, correct? Why don’t you complete all the tongue twisters on this screen” the computer mentioned as a bright screen suddenly popped up

“If you complete all the tongue twisters, I’ll bring the electricity back and you get to choose your preferred language and are free to change the language whenever you’d like” the computer added on

Within seconds, you managed to go through all the tongue twisters with ease and just like the computer turned all the electricity back on. Scanning the room, you noticed that you were actually in the control panel of the place. Multiple screens are right in front of you along with a whole control keyboard. Before you go any further, you decided to use English as the primary language because that’s your prime language. Once that was settled, you went over all the monitors, figured out the system, and saw all the security cameras turned on.

“Well, maybe it was right for you to be the one stuck in this control room” the computer pointed out

“I mean, I’m quite a curious soul. Anyways, let’s find the neos shall we” I smirked, going through the security cameras one by one

It took some time to navigate through the monitors and finally find the neos. However, even if they weren’t alone, they were all spread out from each other. After another amount of time passed by of trying to figure out the layout of the place, how to work the mic, occasionally the computer would make comments here and there.

“Why do you tire yourself out when you could’ve asked” the computer pointed out

“More like you’ll probably make me do another assessment which might take longer. Plus, with this way, I can easily navigate around whenever I’d like rather than relying on you. And, ta-da, got it. Hello? Mork?! Is that you? Oh, and Renjun as well? No, I can’t hear you but I can see you. So umm, wave your hand if you can hear me. Naisu. I’m at the control panel, not sure where it is but I’m trying to map out the whole layout of this place. I can navigate you towards the other neos that are also in this place. So, hang on tight alright!!” I answered the computer and then helped Mark and Renjun to go through the place and find the rest of the neos

It took a while but you finally managed to direct all the neos that were all in the place; which apparently is not all of the neos. Even the combination of all of the neos that are together is an NCT U unit that has never been together. Well, there were more than 9 members in the place. A total of 11 NCT members, Taeyong, Johnny, Kun, Doyoung, Ten, Jaehyun, Mark, Renjun, Haechan, Jaemin, and Yangyang.

Looking past that, you told the neos to try and find some clues to help get us out while you find a way to get out of the control room because, after piecing together all the places through the security camera, you didn’t find any place where the control room might be.

Sighing, you went out of your seat and actually tried to open both the doors in the room. But of course, it wouldn’t be that easy. One door required an access card to open while the other door required a code. You tried to look around for any clues to what might be the code or places where one might put the access key but nothing. You even knocked on the walls, hoping to find some sort of secret compartment. But instead, you noticed that all the walls are quite hollow, meaning that there wasn’t really anything beyond the walls that trapped you.

“Yo, talking computer. Does this place have an electricity generator?” you questioned, gathering the map you made, stationary and additional equipment you found in the room like a flashlight, a lighter, some empty notebooks and put them into a random bag you round

“Of course it does. But it requires kinetic energy and it is widely spread all over the place. You’d have to generate it together in order for it to actually work” the computer answer

“Kay, thanks for that. Where exactly is it spread out?” you questioned, looking through the security cameras one last time

“Now, that wouldn’t be fair, would it?” the computer replied

“Point taken. It’s fine, I found several winding gears anyways. Random but there are emergency exits in this place, right? Just in case if anything were to happen?” you asked

“I wouldn’t get my hopes a bit too high. This escape room is rather, advance if you will. It’s more computer and technology involved” the computer reminded

“You got a point there. However, every technology, electric appliances can’t really repair themselves. NEOS!! Go grab any sort of light source you can find. Flashlight, lighters, matchsticks. Also, grab some tools if you will. Anything as self-defence or something you think would be useful. After you’re done, signal me, alright? And make sure you all stay together. I’m going to go and find you guys!!” you announced through the mic and immediately, the neos did what I told them to do

“What do you actually plan on doing?” the computer questioned as you prepare yourself for what you’re about to do

“Well, it’s time to go back to B.C, don’t you think? Before computers. I’ll talk to you once we turn the generator back on! Wish me luck computer” you mentioned, taking the chair and destroying the control panel which resulted in a power outage

Someone’s POV

“Well I’ll be. She’s rather an ‘out of the box’ kind of person, don’t you guys think so?” Johnny pointed out

“Looks like we underestimated her even when she doesn’t know it yet” Doyoung added on

“Dammit, we were so close. Like, it was just within our reach” Renjun sighed

“Patience guys. We can’t let ourselves be known just yet. But at the same time, we gotta make sure that our babygirl doesn’t get ahead of herself. Wouldn’t want her to accidentally hurt herself or worse, have her running back to her neos before anything. Plus, there’s nothing wrong with letting them have their reunion. It won’t be long until it’s our turn to have her all to ourselves. Especially when they don’t treat her well” Jaehyun reminded

“You’re only saying that because your flirt of a twin hasn’t made a move at all. Just admit it hyung. You’re jealous of yourself ahahaha” Haechan teased as Jaehyun “playfully” choked him

“His twin isn’t the only one like that. But to be fair, I don’t blame my twin. You just want to get them at the right time cause when you do, they’ll be all yours. They probably have some sort of bro code anyways” Jaemin added on

“Or, they just don’t know how to share. Anyways, have we connected again? Mark? Ten?” Johnny asked as the two gave a thumbs up

“Excellent. Let’s give our girl some help, shall we? Time to make sure that she’s not hurt or anything. Can’t have her going through anymore pain than she already is” Jaehyun pointed out

“You say that as if you’ve watched her throughout her whole life or something” Haechan pointed out

“Enough. All of you. You can have all the fun you’d like once we actually get her. Help her whatever you can but don’t make it too obvious. She’s a curious one with a wild imagination. She’s anywhere but dumb. Who knows, she might’ve slowly picked on the weird things already. So don’t any of you mess around because she’ll most likely notice them. And pay attention to those boys. They might not be as dumb as we think they are” Taeyong instructed as everyone went back to work

Back to Your POV

Once the electricity was out, you took the flashlight and head towards the door with the code on it. Your reasoning is that you guys might be able to find an access card later on; but the code is not easy to deal with. So, you decided to leave the door with the code open wide just in case if you all needed a place to talk. Taking a deep breath you finally took a step out of the room but was met with another door :D

“You’ve gotta be...Are you for reals right now?! Ughhh” you groaned, looking at the door and the lock which was similar to a suitcase lock, it required some sort of code

Looking around the small space you have, you saw a paper with some of the neos’ face and their code (A/N: basically the NCT 2021 code like Jaemin would be JMNCT21 but just use the JMNCT). The clue was that it was a member who didn’t participate in NCT 2021 but participated in the year dream content. You immediately knew that it was Winwin.

After another time pass of figuring out Winwin’s code if he joined NCT 2021, you finally unlocked the door. However, because the door was heavier, you had to give a hard push but lucky enough, someone from the other side must’ve noticed that you were trying to open the door and helped you open it, making it lighter. And once it was fully opened, you were met with the neos. Happy to see them, you didn’t think twice about diving into their embraces.

“You guys!! Omg that was so scary” you exclaimed, hugging Johnny since he was the first member so saw

“Thank goodness you’re okay. Nothing happened to you, right? Were you in there the whole time? Alone?” Johnny asked as the neos also come and questioned your well-being

“Yeah, it was just me in there. But I’m fine. That sorta explains why I couldn’t hear any of you or knew where the control room was in the map. Hold on, lemme just mark this so I remember” you mentioned, pulling out the map that you drew and marked the control room

Once that was done, you told the neos about several of the winding gears that you would need to work on in order to get the generator up and working. Because there were 4 winding gears, everyone was divided into groups of 3 with you joining Jaehyun and Jaemin. With that everyone split up and went to find the winding gears that you pointed out.

Walking through the place with Jaehyun and Jaemin, you couldn’t help but have an off feeling about the place. You swear that you were seeing things but you were sure that you saw a small source of light that must’ve come from a security camera. You didn’t realise how long you spaced out until Jaehyun called out to you, asking if you were alright, a chill ran down your spine the second Jaehyun got a grip of your shoulders.

“Huh? Sorry, I was just thinking bout things. Plus, I know the electricity is out but is it normal to feel cold? Your hands are quite cold too” you mentioned, taking Jaehyun’s hands in yours

“Are they? Are you sure that you weren’t in the control room for too long on your own, c’mere” Jaehyun replied, wrapping his arm around your shoulder

Not long after, the three of you and the other neos have found all the winding gears. Taeyong then counted till three so all of you could wind them all together which in return, the electricity started to flicker back on; along with the super computer.

“Took you long enough” the computer pointed out, the neos were slightly startled

“It’s just the computer of this place. Anyways, yo computer, how do we exactly get out of this place?” you questioned

“Well, that won’t be fun if we just tell you, now would it? But since you’ve impressed us, we’ll give you some hints. How about we first introduce you to the escape room. Say Hello to the Future. This place will test both your brains and brawns. So, prepare yourself because the fun has only started” the computer announced as the neos and I looked around

For the next who knows how long you and the neos have been there, you all looked for clues, solving puzzles, moving to another room, solving more puzzles and even slowly understanding the background story of the escape room. Which you somewhat figured that story was people from another dimension was trapped in your dimension because their interdimensional travel machine broke down and this escape room is basically the people of this dimension helping to fix their interdimensional travel machine.

You and the neos have gone through multiple obstacles and the final part before you could exit the room was to actually fix their interdimensional travel machine, set the settings correctly and then the door to escape will be unlocked. But the problem with this was that the machine was on the other side of the room that you and the neos were in. In addition, the door that was automatic couldn’t work properly, meaning that you had to try and rip both doors apart. But when that didn’t work, you notice that there was an air vent that connected the room you were in and the room that you needed to go to.

Despite the neos being worried since you were practically the only one that could fit in the air vent, you told them that the door is see-through so they could always help however they could since they could still talk to you. Once you were in the air vent, you slowly crawled and opened the hatch and tried to drop down with the neos looking scared. But eventually, you landed safely and went over towards the control panel to fix things and get the hell out of the place.

“That’s right, just a little more and we can finally get the hell out of here, babygirl” you heard Jaehyun mentioned and immediately, stopped whatever it was you were doing

“(Y/n)...w-what happened? Is everything okay?” Mark asked, grabbing all the neos attention

“Hey computer. Correct me if I’m wrong but when I umm destroyed that control room, all electricity of this entire escape room should be out, right? Like, even the security cameras, right?” you questioned, not bothered about the neos wondering why you haven’t finished the final task

“That would be correct. That control room would be the source of all the other electricity in the place. Including the security cameras” the computer answered

“And when the generator was generating the electricity back, everything should slowly booted back up, right?” you questioned again

“That would also be correct...” the computer answered but you immediately interrupted

“But you came back almost instantly. As if you were already waiting or something. Not to mention, no offence to any of the neos here and all but all these clues, puzzles, they’re all very similar to my high school science assignments and tests. And while several of the neos are smart, I doubt that you’re able to pick up on Chemical names, titration, kinetic energy, etc that quickly. And to top it all off?” you stated, looking at Jaehyun dead straight in the eyes

“Jaehyun never calls me babygirl. Especially in public” you confronted, your eyes never left whoever this Jaehyun lookalike’s

“What a clever girl you are, babygirl” Jaehyun stated, the edge of his lips turned upwards and a sinister smirk was formed

“I may not be the smartest person but I know for a fact that when you reboot electric appliances, no matter how advance they are, it still takes time. And Jae never calls me babygirl. Well at least, not in public” you confronted both the computer and this Jaehyun lookalike

“Aww, don’t say that about yourself sweetheart. We all know that you’re smart. I mean, you solved all the problems we set up. Well, they were designed for you so we expected nothing less” this Jaehyun replied, the neos started to question him

“Who the hell are you? Were you leading us to a death path? What the hell were you talking about?! We designed for (Y/N)?! Who are WE?!” The neos all confronted this Jaehyun lookalike

“Looks like your boys picked it up a little late, don’t you think?” this Jaehyun smirk, his eyes never leaving yours

“It’s 11 against 1, tell us what actually is this place?! What is this thing that you’re making us complete?! Also, where’s Jaehyun?! NCT, NCT 127 Jaehyun?! My Jaehyun” you growled, this Jaehyun just chuckled and walked through the see-through door, his clothes suddenly changed and now he was right in front of you

Seeing this Jaehyun suddenly walked through the door, you and the neos were startled; especially you, since this Jaehyun was practically inches away from you. The neos that saw this knew that they had to do something. But when Haechan tried to walk through, he instead hit the door, making this Jaehyun laugh.

“Don’t bother. You all can’t do what I just did” this Jaehyun chuckled “Now, your Jaehyun, you were saying? Last time I checked, you weren’t together, yet. Well, I’m an NCT, NCT 127 Jaehyun. I would also go to several NCT U units as well. The difference is that I’m smarter than your so-called Jaehyun” Jaehyun stated, the neos tried to open the door, destroy it and all

“Where is he? If you’re not our Jaehyun, then where is he?! What do you want from me?!” you questioned, trying to sound tough but in reality, you were shaking, the fear of what this Jaehyun might do to you is getting to you

“My twin? Well, I supposed I should use the term, me but in your dimension? He’s not here. But don’t worry, I’m here. And to answer your second question. We want you. I want you” Jaehyun stated, his hands slammed on the table, each was on your sides, trapping you between him and the control behind you

“I, I’m not a property. Plus, if you’re a different dimension Jaehyun, there should also be a different dimension of me. Why don’t you find her instead” you fought back, looking away from his gaze

“Why? Why do you resist so much, babygirl? You in our dimension is not like you. Just like I’m not your so-called Jaehyun. Why should you settle for less when you can have more? You have so much potential, so much unattended emotions, why settle for someone who doesn’t see that?” Jaehyun whispered in your ear, stroking your cheek lovingly when you unconsciously slapped him

“You really are something aren’t you (Y/N)” Jaehyun growled, his stare not so loving anymore

The sound of the slap echoed around the room and most probably outside where the neos were since they stopped banging and looked at the situation nervously. You yourself were worried about what this Jaehyun could do to you considering he mentioned that he helped set up this place and the puzzles you solved. Your heartbeat didn’t slow down; instead, it got faster as this Jaehyun suddenly forcefully grabbed your chin, making you look at him. There was no gentleness to his gesture nor eyes.

“You should’ve been a bit nicer while I was still patient” Jaehyun growled, gripping your chin a bit tightly

“Ya!! Hands off unless you want to cause anymore trouble” all of you heard Jaemin spoke. But when you took a glance, you noticed that it wasn’t the Jaemin you were with. It was a Jaemin that must’ve come from the same dimension as the Jaehyun in front of you

“You always have to ruin the fun, don’t you, Jaemin?” Jaehyun stated, glancing over his shoulder as his dimension Jaemin walked past the Jaemin you were with and the other neos, walking through the door just like what Jaehyun did

“I mean, can you blame her for acting the way she did? She has a thing with your twin” Jaemin pointed out, while Jaehyun let his grip on your chin go; everyone was carefully watching the two interact

“Did you really have to point that out? What about your own twin? I thought he also has a thing for her?” Jaehyun argued

“His feelings are not my problem. Now back away from her before the others start to come. You know how impatient all of them are” Jaemin argued back, looking at you “How are you, sweetheart? I know that those neos haven’t been treating you well. No matter. We’ll soon get you out of here and treat you as you deserve” the other dimension Jaemin mentioned

“Don’t listen to him, (Y/N)!!” you heard your Jaemin shouted

“Ahh right. Forgot that they were still here. Why did we bring this many, again? You know what, why don’t you all just go and leave (Y/N) with us. We’ll take care of her better than any of you could” NCT Universe Jaemin proposed

“Like hell!! She’s not from your dimension! So just leave her alone and go back to your own dimension” Jaemin growled, facing with his lookalike

“You know, we’ve planned this whole thing for months now. Whatever plan you think you have to get out of here with her isn’t going to work. I mean, we created this place for her, not you. Why do you think that she’s the only one that could crawl in the air vent? Did you really think that it was all just a coincidence?” NCT Universe Jaemin scoffed (A/N: I decided to call the other dimension NCT Universe since there's like two Jaemin)

“How about the two of you leave? I’m clearly not interested even though it sounds cool on going to another dimension. Plus, this whole thing is just a dream. It’s basically a dream-like simulator. None of this is real. That’s why every screen, monitor, glass, didn’t show our reflection. That’s why Jaehyun’s hands were cold. The whole place is cold even though the electricity was out. All we have to do is wake up. You both aren’t real” you pointed out, both Jaehyun and Jaemin chuckled

“You really are a smart girl, aren’t you? But unfortunately, you’re not quite there yet” NCT Universe Jaemin pointed out as he and Jaehyun walked closer to you

“Sure, this might be all in ‘our head’. But let’s remind you the fact that we made this whole simulation in the first place. Getting out won’t be that easy, love. Cause you and your so-called boys won’t just be dealing with the two of us. Our very own neos got our back” Jaehyun smirked, sending shivers down your spine

“W-what or who exactly are you both?!” you demanded

“This is exactly why we decided to go after you in the first place. Not only were you very cute, but you have one of a brain. Science major in high school but an arts degree. Always curious and always wanting to know things” Jaehyun pointed out

“Well, to actually answer your question is that we’re also neos, NCT if that’s what you call them here. We’re from another dimension. An alternate universe, per say. In our universe, NCT isn’t just what we call ourselves, our organisation. It’s an actual city. Neo CiTy. NCT also stands for Neo Culture Technology. Only, we took the Culture and Technology quite literally” NCT Universe Jaemin added

“Even if you guys are real and are actually from a different dimension, this is still just a dream. We can always wake up. You underestimate a human’s survival instinct” you growled back, Jaehyun slamming his hand right by your side

“Oh baby, you underestimate our technology. You can’t escape your dream that easily. Afterall, we’ve planned this for months. You really think we’d come to you without a plan from A-Z? We’re not letting you slip out of our grasp that easily” Jaehyun barked back

“Yeah right. You think your feelings are going to last? All of this is just some small obsession. You’ll all eventually get tired of me and in the end, you’ll ditch me and eventually bring me back to my own dimension” you tried to argue back at them when Jaemin suddenly caressed your cheek

“Aww, I think you’re underestimating our feelings. You think when we say months, we’ve only watched you for a month or two? Plus, who’s to say that your boys are the only ones that can like you within a month or two? We’ve been watching you for half a year now. Plus, none of your so-called boys has the balls to confess or anything? Quite pathetic. C’mon, let’s be real, at least 1/4 of you must’ve had feelings for her, right?” Jaemin growled at the neos while Jaehyun stood in front of you, cupping both your cheeks

“How about I give you a glimpse of what you actually deserve” Jaehyun whispered, leaning closer

As Jaehyun leaned closer, you could feel your breathing getting heavier, the neos on the other were trying to call out to you but their cries and pleas fall deaf to you as Jaemin made a wall pop up, covering the neos sight from ours. The closer Jaehyun got to you, the heavier your eyelids felt and before you knew it, you instinctively put your hands on Jaehyun’s chest, trying to prevent him from getting any closer but he was still stronger. Instead of fighting it, your hands moved upwards and were now wrapped around his neck, making him smirk victoriously.

“That’s right babygirl, you just relax. We’ll take care of everything” Jaehyun whispered as you slightly pulled him closer

“Jae...you’re so...gullible” you whispered and instantly kicked his chest, making Jaehyun fall backwards as Jaemin tried to help him

While Jaemin was trying to help Jaehyun, you took the opportunity and grabbed whatever heavy object you could and destroyed the control panel which you thought might be the reason why you were all trapped in this “dream world”, which you were right.

Within seconds, you jolted from your bed. Taking deep breaths, you scan the room and a sigh of relief washed over as you realised that you were in your room. Immediately, you took your phone and contacted the neos that were with you in that “dream world”, asking all of them the same thing; whether or not did they experience a weird dream like yours, trying your best to roughly describe it.

Once you got the confirmation that they experienced the same dream like yours, you asked them if you could come over and stay with them since you were rather scared to be on your own right now. Despite it being early in the morning (like 5am), you quickly got your jacket and things and headed to the neos’ dorm.

Arriving at the 127 dorm, you were welcomed by Johnny and Haechan whom you instantly hugged. All of you went towards the living room and was greeted by the other 127 members that were in the area with you. Taeyong offered you his room while he goes to sleep with another member but you told him that you don’t mind sleeping on the couch. However, Taeyong insisted and you just don’t have the strength to fight. Agreeing, you followed to his room and laid down on his bed, telling him how grateful you were to him for allowing you to stay. That is, until you heard the click on his door.

“Well, I’d do anything for you, babygirl” Taeyong stated, a smirk formed on his lips as he walked closer to you A/N: I KNOW I KNOW, I'M STILL CRAPPY AND YANDERE STUFF BUT I WILL "TRY" BETTER NEXT TIME!! I HOPE THAT YOU ALL HAVE A GOOD WEEK!! SEE Y'ALL IN PROBABLY DREAMIES MOTORCYCLE GANG FANFIC EITHER END OF THIS WEEK OR EARLY NEXT WEEK :] xoxo Vinet

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non-binaryzombie · 3 years

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𝔏𝔬𝔳𝔢𝔰𝔦𝔠𝔨

Summary: Jake is a little bit obsessed with you, he needs to know more about you, going beyond what you show on the internet, but his biggest problem now is making you understand that he owns you, and that no one is taking you away from him.

Characters: Jake x reader (a little bit of Darkness too cuz, you know that I love him)

Warnings: Yandere Jake, stalking, possessiveness, lovesick, obsession, not exactly a happy ending, angst, language, use of straw (sorry turtles)

Word count: 2672

A/N: Here it is! I hope you don't hate me for it, I changed the name to fit more with the story, but the context is the same :)

(Most of my pics/gifs come from Pinterest, if I use a photo that belongs to you and you don't like it, please contact me and we'll take care of it)

Fascinating, that's the word Jake would use to describe you if he had to, he could spend hours trying to decipher you, trying to understand how are you able to like him without even seeing his face, without even knowing who he really was? You just know what he allows you to, but you've never been nosy, if you ask something to him and he says that he can't tell you, you just put it aside, not wanting to bother; and that's one of the things he most admires in you, the fact that you're so curious and yet, when he doesn't want to tell you something, you just try to let it go, making a mental note about the things you shouldn't ask, at least not over the phone.

Ever since you helped Jake to find Hannah, he've been more and more interested in you, how did you manage to help him to find his half-sister, and at the same time made him fall in love with you? Something he never thought would happen, suddenly from a time to another, he saw himself in love with someone who he thought be just someone that would help him to find his sister, just a means to an end.

But now, here he is, watching you from the window of the café you're in, he knows that he shouldn't, what would you think if you found out that he've been following you? He is pretty sure that 'happiness' would not be the right feeling, but he had no choice, he wanted- no, he needed to know more about you, and this time the internet wouldn't help him, for some reason you're really reserved, unlikely the most people at your age, you have social medias, of course but you rarely post something about yourself at them, the most interesting thing that the hacker could find about you was your school records and not surprisingly your track record is perfect, you never got bad grades, you never got into trouble, you are simply flawless. It makes him question, it's impossible for someone to be so perfect, you're sweet, kind, innocent and you always want the best for everyone no matter how bad someone has done you; you always forgive them. But you have flaws, everyone has, and that's what he's trying to find out, what are you hiding from everyone? And how are you so good at hiding it?

His blue eyes getting darker when he sees you hugging a man, who is he? And why do you look so happy to see him? You two talk a little before sitting down in one of the tables close to the window, the waitress soon come and both of you place your orders. The black-hair boy on the outside quickly grab his phone, sending you a message, just a 'Hi Y/N :)' waiting to see if you're going to answer him, he sees you pick up the phone and look at it for a few seconds before putting it back in your your pocket, did you just ignore his message? Okay, now he has no other choice then go inside.

And there he goes, entering the place and thankfully he could seat somewhere that you couldn't see you, but he could listen to everything, pretending to be doing something important on the phone. He orders a black coffee, nothing more. Soon you and the tall man started to talk while he paid attention to every single word.

"I am glad that we were able to meet, Y/N" he says with a grin on his face

"Wow, you really talk like this even in person, I thought that it was just you way to text" a giggle escaped your lips

"What do you mean?" he tilted his head

"You just, talk like you are in a really important dinner with the queen" you say resting your cheek against your hand while looking at him

"I think I never stopped to notice the way I speak, is this a nuisance for you?" he asked and you quickly shacked your hands

"Oh, no! That's not what I meant, I happen to like it, actually" he looked relieved

"You are really observant aren't you?" you smiled

"You'd be surprised how many times I've heard this" the girl came back with your orders and you thanked her with a gentle smile

"So, I haven't seen you in the forum lately" he took a sip of his latte

"Of course you've noticed" you giggle playing with your milkshake straw "I should have predicted" he let out a light laugh through his nose

"Is there a especial reason for that?"

"Well if I am being honest, lately I have been too tired to even scroll through the forum" you looked down playing with your fingers on the table

"It’s okay, you don't have to talk if you don't want to" he said putting his hand next to yours

"No, it’s just-" a sight left your mouth "Do you ever feel that everything around you is slowly becoming tiresome? How if the slightest effort to follow your routine makes you tired?" he nodded, you are not sure if he really understands you, or if he is just trying to make you feel better, but you continue "But for a few seconds, something makes you step out of your comfort zone, makes you hope again, but then it ends and everything becomes monotonous and boring again" you didn't even realized that your fingers are now entwined with his, you feel your face turn red and quickly let go of his hand "I-I'm sorry, I didn't mean to bother you" the hand that was holding his is now between your legs pressed against the soft upholstery of the seat you are on, and the other on the straw of your milkshake bringing it to your mouth.

"You don't have to apologize, Y/N, it’s okay you know that you can trust me" he said straightening his posture

"Yeah, I know, Dark, and I thank you for that, but I don't really want to bother you with this, we're here to have a good time" you smiled, and he nodded

"Let's chance the topic then. How about the guy you told me about? Are you two a couple?" you felt your face turn red again

"Jake? Well, not exactly, it's complicated" 'Not exactly? Of course, we are a couple' the hacker thought with himself

"Complicated?" Darkness asked encouraged you to continue

"Hum, none of us really made a official dating request, y'know?" Jake never thought about it that way, he really has to put a ring in your finger for you to know that you are his?

"But you like him, don't you?" he looked straight into your eyes, like he was trying to guess what was happening in your head

"Yeah, we haven't said 'I love you' yet, but, I really like him, and I think that he likes me too, it's just..." you paused lettings out a sigh "He is not really good at showing how he feels, he is not good at talking at all" you giggle

"Then why don't you take the first step?" he asked confused

"I'm afraid of being rejected." the man sitting in front of you looked surprised, so did the one sitting behind you

"Why would he reject you? You are amazing, anyone would be lucky to have you." a shy smile appears on your lips

"I just, don't think he has time for a relationship, he's constantly busy and moving, because of work" you completed

"Well, this is really a misfortune, but you know I'll always be here for you, don't you?" he said picking your hand

"Yes, I know, and I can say the same to you" he gave you a smirk "Why are your hands so big?" he laughed

"You really know how to change the subject very quickly don't you?" you smiled at him.

The man sitting in the table behind you got up putting the money on the table and got out of the café as fast as he entered, what made him bump into someone that he quickly ignored making his way back to the motel he was staying at, he was angry, how dare this random guy even touch you? Say that he's going to be there for you, you don't need anyone else, you have him, you may don't know it, but you are his, he always makes time to talk to you, and now you say that it’s not enough? You even dare to consider that he's going to reject you? What more he needs to do for you to be sure that he wants a relationship with you? When he finally arrived at his room, he slammed the door shut, sitting in front of the computer, trying to calm down, breathing heavy. He knows exactly what he must do for you to know that you belong to him.

You threw yourself on the bed, with a smile on your face, the day with Darkness was better than you expected, he is not all serious personally, or you just have the ability of making him less keyed up, your phone buzzed on your pocket and you grab it quickly not so surprising it was Jessy 'Hey, how was your little date?' you giggled after answering her 'Not a date Jessy, but it was really good to be honest' Jessy was incredibly supportive when you said you were going to meet your forum-friend 'I'll want to hear everything about it tomorrow' ' Don't worry, I'll tell you everything'. Soon you remembered that Jake texted you early and dialed his number wondering whether or not to call him, you bite your bottom lip before working up your courage, clicking the green button and bringing the cell phone to your ear, settling down on the bed, you start to wonder if this is a good idea right away thinking about just hanging up and pretending it was an accident, but as soon as the call is answered you feel your body tense up.

"Hum, hi" you say shyly "Sorry I haven't texted you earlier, I was kinda busy"

"It's okay" his deep voice make your whole-body shiver "How are you?" he asked

"I'm good, how about you?" why do you feel so awkward?

"Good" he says and keeps silent 'god, why is it so hard?' you thought while trying to think something to say

"I-" you are interrupted by his voice

"What were you doing?" he asked, and you frowned your eyebrows

"What?"

"You said you were busy, what with?" you blinked a few time before answering him

"I went out with a friend" you said and heard a 'hum' coming from him on the other side of the phone "Are you mad?" you asked apprehensively

"Why would I be?" his voice makes you feel butterflies in your stomach

"I don't know, we haven't talked the whole day, and you seem, rough" he sighed

"It wasn't my intention, I’m sorry"

"Don't worry" you heard someone knock at the door

“Oh, wait a minute there’s someone at the door” you said getting up, and walking towards the noise opening it, just to see a black hair boy standing there, with his phone on his ear

"okay" he said before giving you a little smile, your eyes widened and you felt your body freeze

"Jake?" you ask and he nods, that's all that he needs to do to see you quickly hug him tight, he looked a little surprised but then he just wrap his arms around you, feeling the good smell of your hair, you two stayed there for a while hugging in the doorway.

When you finally looked up at him your eyes were full of teas, happiness tears, but that didn't stop Jake of push the tears away

"What are you doing here? I thought you were with Lilly" you said pulling him inside and closing the door

"I've come to see you" he said looking at you

"You could have warned me, you know, I would have at least organized this a little bit" you say scratching the back of your neck shyly

"Then it wouldn't be a surprise" he says putting his backpack on the sofa "And it's not that messy at all" you two sat on the bed, your face is so red it looks like you're going to explode

"I have something for you" he says taking a little box of his pocket, opening it and revealing two rings your eyes widen and you quickly look up at him

"Are you serious?" you ask and he nods

"So, what do you say?" he smiles

"Jake, I-I don't know..." his smile disappeared and he looked at you confused

"What?" that's what you wanted a ring, an official request, wasn't it? Then why are you rejecting him?

"It's just- I like you, I really do!" you say as you see his reaction

"Then why don't you want to be with me?" he looks sad

"That's not what I said, I mean, you're wanted Jake, by FBI and by another hackers, I know that there's a lot of things that you don't tell me, I know that you're just trying to protect me but, I can't keep in the dark just trusting that you are doing the right thing" no, he's not sad, he's angry, he closed the box tightly, making you flinch

"Okay, look I don't need a fucking ring to prove that we are together, I just bought it because that's what you wanted, you are mine, and I don't care who the fuck is coming after me, I won't let anyone be on our way, you don't have to worry about it" you blinked a few times trying to process what he just said, he sighed putting his hand on your cheek "I love you, Y/N" he smiled again

"I'm not a pet, Jake, you don't own me" you took his hand off

"I think you should leave now" you said looking away

"I won't leave you" he said firmly

"Are you even listening to yourself?!" you said getting up "This is not love, Jake" he got up standing in front of you, the difference between your highs makes you feel intimidated

"I am lovesick, Y/N, can you blame me?" he says getting closer making you step back "I can't stop thinking about you everything that you say or do makes me love you more, I want you, I need you, why can't you understand that?" you now see yourself trapped between him and the wall behind you

"You're not lovesick, you're just sick, you are fucking obsessed! I would never be with someone who acts the way you're acting right now" instant regret

"If I can't have you, no one can, and I'll make sure of that, my love" he muttered taking his cell phone out of his pocket and showing it to you, your eyes widened

"What the fuck is wrong with you?! Let him go!" Darkness was tied to a chair with a cloth over his mouth, he didn't look hurt

"I'll let him go, when you accept to stay with me, otherwise, I'll kill him." you can feel the tears wetting your face

"You sick motherfucker" he pretended to be hurt

"You better choose your words better Y/N, I can kill him in just a snap" you looked at the picture again

"Fine, just let him go" he grinned as he put his cell phone away, he took the rings again and offered them to you, you looked at him before picking the ring and put it on your finger, he did the same

"You won't regret it, my love" he says pulling you closer and kissing you 'I already did' you thought with yourself.

#duskwood fanfiction #duskwood darkness #duskwood everbyte #duskwood jake x mc #incorrect duskwood quotes #duskwood mc #duskwood jake x player #jake x reader #duskwood

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go-learn-esperanto · 2 years

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Survey answers until now:

This was so fun. There are a lot of answers and that's pretty pog! I'm not gonna include everyone but I assure you I've been reading all of them.

Edit: the resolution was awful. Sorry about that. Updated version now! :)

Now the text answers my beloved <3

Here are some of my favourites!

Mumza. On accident.

How do you cosplay on accident? 👁️👁️

Phil and say it's Urahara

200 IQ play right here

none but i wanted to tell you its not much better. im going as a Supernatural character smh

We really are on Tumblr.com

im doing rivals duo with my friend =]

cc!Ranboo basically. now it just sounds weird. I mean who dresses up as irl celebrities and not the roles they play? man. it just sounds cringe now

I'm gonna throw on a green hoodie, say I'm dream and call it a day B)

Put a plastic plate on it too and it's complete

I have a half-made Ranboo cosplay, but I'm also too old lol

DO IT. I don't care. Even if it's just for you to wear at home. Do it. Nobody it's too old to dress as things they like!

tubbo :D (not 2 self promo but ill be posting pics @starbug.png on insta 👀)

Check them out! :)

There's a bunch of Wilbur/Ghostbur cosplayers. I love you and the Grisn cosplayer very parasocially.

Also the Mumza cosplayers

I got my ex into mcyt a day or so before we broke up because he started to ignore me > - >

Well... That's.

Figured out one of my besties is into it bc I saw a sketch of the Llama Line by L'Targay

One of my irl friends is an OG dsmp fan, she was there the very first stream. It’s just fun to talk to her about stuff.

A group of 17 year old boys called me cringe at the publix selfcheckout bc of my quackity shirt and i laughed so hard that they got confused like. its not bullying if theyre right

This one. This one has to be my favourite. That's the spirit.

There is a girl in my class who I talked to very little. We were supposed to do an assignment based on a hobby we liked, so I chose MINECRFAT. After I presented this, she approached me after class and said she liked my presentation. She showed me some of her dsmp drawings, like the realistic ones based off photos. She fucking amazing at it and they’re incredible

i was having a rlly bad day at school and in maths class(my last hour of the day)my teacher started playing jump in the cadillac and i just started crying

I really don't want to laugh at your suffering but damn that's hilarious from the outside. I hope you're doing better now tho 💜

i showed my mom a ranboo video and accidentally reviled that i stole almost his every one of his speech patterns

In class, a guy compliments my Ranboo hoodie. I look at his hoodie and he’s wearing a Wilbur one. I compliment his as well. A girl nearby stands up and looks at us. She is wearing a Quackity hoodie. Somehow the universe has placed three Dream SMP fans together in the same class. The best part is you would never know we were fans without our merch. We could be anyone. We walk amongst the living

That makes me want to buy merch so bad

last night I wrote penis smp fanfic while sitting right next to my mom who doesn't think I swear. she could have looked at my screen at any time.

Asked “does a historical speech from a minecraft roleplay count?” For a kinetic typography assignment

Wrote a lyrical analysis on the l’manburg theme for a school project

the reason i didn't answer "mumbo jumbo" to the philza's wife question is because mumbo jumbo is too busy being a gay whore in last life. he's gay married but also flirts with every man he comes across

True. Absolutely true.

I literally saw an anti vaxxer on tumblr talking about how it's bad that Tommy and tubbo have to get vaccinated just to see each other irl

!! i have a VERY IMPORTANT FACT: niki nihachu <3 also dsmp women in general,, hannah niki puffy tina collab when pls give it to me its all i want in life,,,,,, also unrelated but im in a musicy mood listen to romance by yoasobi and watch the video trust me its stunning :]

Watched it! Really cool visuals! The music just brings me back to my VOCALOID fandom fase (not that is possible to love the VOCALOID fandom completly though. I definitely haven't.)

I’m making a Wilbur soot animatic based on The Fall by lovejoy and I hope I can get it finished by the 16th !!

Good luck!!! That's awesome!

im in this hellhole more than 1 year how am i still alive akpqpqlajwhoq give money

I have exactly one irl friend who watches dsmp n I'm the one who got her into it >:]

Evil >:]

"Im not gay I just can't read" - Jack Manifold

i just want to know why ranboo was at the red banquet, dressed up and wearing a blindfold . w h y

i can't wait for big lore to come back djfjdkkf

Same

Why must life give its hardest battles to its weakest warriors

Sun Tzu, The Art of War

Please help okay so the problem is "Let P be the set of all people who have ever lived and define a relation R on P as follows: for every r and s that are elements or P, rRs <-> r is an ancestor of s or r =s. Is R a partial order relation? Prove or give a counter example." It's definitely reflexive ince when s=r then s=r which is true. It isn't symmetrical since that would be weird as hell, I mean a grandparent cannot be the grandchild of their own grandchild that would fuck up the family tree even more than the DSMPs but like, how do I prove that mathematically? Like, if rRs and sRr then r = s but "if person A is either a grandparent or the same person as person B and person B is either the grandparent or the same person as person A then person A is person B" just feels like a weird sentence.

Just did the Komaeda checklist for c!Wilbur...

I don't wanna know. (I kinda do actually)

Catch me dual-wielding Hermitcraft and the Dream SMP… call me Hannah Montana cause I’m the best of both worlds

Same. Same. Call me Ariana Griande because I'm a-grian with you.

i just saw a post. soon, we will have enough tommy father figures for a mamma mia! au.

Months before I got into DSMP I had an internet friend interested in it and I was like "lol, nice, but could never be me" because I had gotten out of my 2016-2018 MCYT phase not that long ago at that point and didn't think I'd go back... Well...

ldshadowlady is a goddess amongst us all and we should recognize her as such.

True

HMMM well i messed up my eyeliner which has made me quite sad

Mumbo Jumbo could steal anyone’s wife

I always talk about wanting to bake bread again but I keep procrastinating. Same goes for writing fanfiction and stuff too. I have countless abandoned fics across all of the platforms I'm on, plus about ten that never made it out of Google docs or pure writer. I think I have a bit of a problem lol

I can assure you're not the only one. 👁️👄👁️

We all suffer from the procrastination problem. Don't put yourself down too much ok? You're doing that for yourself and if you don't feel like doing it then you don't feel like doing it. 💜

Wilbur with wings is unappreciated especially when you consider all the cool headcanons you can have for what they'd be like after his revival like skeleton wings or phantom wings or only wings DreamXD can see. Also ghostbur w/ blue melting/ evaporating wings *longing sigh*

That's pretty cool!

I figured out I was fine with any pronouns by brainstorming self insert dream smp fanfic

I have a huge crush on quackity

This one broke me and I don't know why. Every time I look at it I start laughing my ass off.

I got into it because of Woe to the People of Order

Oh, woe to thee, ye people of order

I hope your homes continue to smolder

And that you never rise again

And woe to those that called me a friend~

That's a badass way to join a fandom

I just miss Ghostbur man

Don't we all? (っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ Have some blue

#mcyt #dream smp #dream smp survey #survey #mcytblr #There have been so many more between compiling all of this...#long post

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ruby3818 · 4 years

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I have something I really need to get off my chest that I’ve put off for years now but can’t ignore anymore. Under a read more so you can skip it and tagged #negative so you can block it. Maybe this might clear some things up or at least get my side of the story out there. Please read this before making any decision about me from what you’ve heard from someone else.

I am aware that Cap, who I used to be friends with but had to leave the friendship because of their controllive obsession with me is still saying lies about how I “abandoned them” in public forums. Even going as far as to ask my franticshipping mutuals to block me (how she knows who my mutuals are is anyone's guess since I’ve had her blocked for over three years now??). If you see her do this please stop enabling them!! Over the years people have made her feel ok to get aggressive about my very existence and tell her that they are “valid” for feeling jealousy. All it does is reassure her that it is ok to behave like that and not be held accountable for their actions. Cap does not need validation, she needs help.

I have begged her multiple times over the past few years to leave me alone and stop saying stuff about me on public forums but every time she promises to stop I hear from someone else that they're still doing it. Things like; making up stuff that I apparently said in a dream treated as fact, telling my mutuals to block me, saying that I’ve apparently replaced her, telling everyone that I abandoned her, etc.

Because of her I not only lost them as a friend but every single other friend I had because they either believe the lies or they're scared of upsetting Cap who flies into a rage at the very mention of me.

I really tried to help her and then when the jealousy, gas lighting, violent mood swings and controlling behavior got too much for me and everyone else who tried to help I had to do what was best for both of us and leave the friendship.

I've tried for three years now to be the better person and not talk about what should be our personal problems but it's just blown up in my face with no one believing me or wanting to get involved and everyone enabling them (which is triggering to irl experiences but that's another story).

And I do understand that maybe a lot of this frustration I feel is because of the pattern of people abusing me and then everyone around me forcing me to forgive them and be around them for the sake of their feelings leading to the same damn cycle of me being helpless and feeling like a burden for not putting up with it.. It just sucks that even online I have to deal with it when this should be a safe place away from all that. But I also know what emotional abuse looks like due to irl experiences and I know that this is not acceptable behavior. This is abuse. And the only way to stop an abuser is to get their behavior out in the open and have other people know what they’ve been doing.

It also really sucks that the whole reason I couldn’t stand being friends with her was because I wasn’t allowed to talk to anyone else and if I did they would blow into a rage and yet 3 whole years later I still am not allowed to talk to anyone otherwise I’m “replacing them” leading her to tell any potential new friends to block me (Somehow she is finding out who my new mutuals are on Tumblr, Twitter and Discord and dm’ing them to block me which is what some of these mutuals have come forward to tell me). She still has that control over me and I’m sick of it. I just want to move on.

I hate having to tip toe around the fandom not knowing what they’ve said about me to mutuals. I just want to be able to talk to people and have them know the full story and not some fabricated story of abandonment or random crap I apparently said in a dream of theirs.

As for what they did in the past, here’s my side of the story and why I had to leave the friendship;

They would always get jealous when I talked to other people and threaten to kill them self because "I'm just going to replace them". It became such a constant thing that I couldn’t even talk at all in a public server without there being a big drama about it. They even ended up being banned from Specord for their constant harassment of me.

Whenever I would bring this up and ask her (or beg) to not get upset and let me talk to people they would act like they had no idea what I was talking about and say that my depression is making me think crazy things. Even though other people saw it and I also had screenshots I still believed them because (being mentally ill) I really can't trust myself. I've been gas-lighted by people in my family my whole life so this was too triggering to handle on a daily basis so I needed out of the friendship.

She constantly suicide-baited me into taking her back and then made every conversation we had about suicide and self harm. Whenever she felt bad about something I said to her in a dream or if I talked to someone else she would tell me happily how she cut herself “for me” because it was supposed to show me that she loved me and that she somehow deserved it. The constant talk of suicide became too triggering to my own mental health and struggle with suicidal thought that I had to get out of the relationship.

For so long they would make up lies about how I abandoned them leading me to receive death threats from strangers telling me to kill myself, people blocking me and all my friends no longer talking to me so it doesn't upset them. So in the end they still had that control over me.

They even told me in our last conversation (over two years ago) that they were right for overreacting over me talking to anyone else besides them because I "shouldn't be talking to other people anyway". They even went as far to tell me that they hated how I was "popular" and basically wanted to be like me whilst also destroying me.

I know that I could of been a better friend but with my c-ptsd and her own mental health problems it just became a toxic mix. The very mention of my name or seeing my posts or comments at all just sends her into violent mood-swings. I couldn’t handle being emotionally abused on a daily basis and I needed out of the relationship. And I get that they still have friends that care about them, that’s good! They’re going to need the support if they’re ever going to improve as a person and move on from this.

So what is the point of this post? Well mostly just to get this pent up helplessness out into the open so maybe someone might understand. The other reason is that I am sick to death of having to be known as the bad guy just because I tried to do what I thought was the right thing by walking away. I want to be able to makes friends and not have to worry about Cap finding out and sabotaging it for me. I want the hate asks to stop. I want people who I thought were my friends to stop blocking me because of something they heard.

This is a selfish request but I also want people to stand up to her for once and stop her from spreading lies about me in public and feeding her delusions. I want her to know that she can’t bully, manipulate and emotionally abuse people in to a friendship and that she doesn’t get to decide who I can interact with. But mostly I hope that by getting this out in the open maybe this might finally come to an end and we can both move on.

Naturally she’s gone and deleted all of her dm’s with me but I do still have some screen shots that might help people understand. I won’t include any dm’s with other users but my DM’s are open if you need more clarification.

First off her finally agreeing to tell the truth (which she never ended up doing evidentely)

She always worshiped me as someone I wasn’t and thought that she had to be like me to be a successful person but it ended up blowing up into a full blown obsession around being me.

She always said she acknowledged that how she treated me was wrong but she still kept doing it like she couldn’t control herself... I kept thinking that maybe her therapy would help her and we could go back to how it was before but she just kept getting worse with her obsession.

This was the other Cap.. the one that wouldn’t acknowledge what she was doing at all and would tell me I was making it up out of paranoia

These are some screenshots that were sent to me of some of the stuff she was saying about me on other servers?? She would always treat the stuff that I did in her dreams as stuff I actually said but, idk how to control what I say in her dreams?? I would never in my life say this kind of stuff about anyone??

Due to the pic limit I will include other screenshots in a reblog.

If you need any more clarification or just want to talk don’t be afraid to ask. Hopefully this can be cleared up finally and I can be free from her control. She needs to be held accountable for her actions and she needs to move on for the sake of her own mental health as well as for mine.

#negative #tw suicide #tw self harm #tw abuse #my post #cap-cavern #theceoofrusa

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Summary: Winry sat in the optimal place to study in the school cafe for the entire fall semester. Then spring came, and suddenly some self-entitled twit who dressed like off-brand Gerard Way decided it was his territory. He was so not going to get off easy.

Rating: T

Word Count: 1.8k words of coffee shop/college AU with a side of enemies to almost-lovers

A/N: It's finals week, I posted this on Ao3 at almost 5am, and if the rest of the sentence didn't make it obvious, I'm writing from unfortunate experience. Not beta-ed or proofread, although I happened to see one thing to fix when I woke up this morning. Feel my raw power. Rawr.

It wasn't that big a deal.

It kind of really was, though.

Every Thursday morning during the fall semester, Winry sat in the same spot at the same school coffee shop. It was the spot sent by the entire patron pantheon of cram papers. Maybe one person didn't need an entire booth, but it was in the corner, and the tops of the bench seats had opaque plastic barriers that just so happened to be perfect for minimizing excess visual chaos. For the most part, there weren't loud conversations, and the jazz music that came through the speakers helped her tune out people ordering coffee. Add to that the fact that she could use campus flex dollars and not her own bank account that was begging for mercy, and it was the perfect spot to get papers done.

But apparently not this spring.

As soon as Winry walked in, she noticed him in the corner. Some emo wannabe guy on his computer. Probably on Reddit complaining about how women didn't appreciate the amazing pics he sent them on Tinder. Or at least, it was a fair guess based on the sour look on his face. Why did this guy of all people have to steal the holy grail spot? Ugh. She was still gonna get her coffee, darn it.

"You know the deal, Sciezska. Medium roast with a shot of espresso and vanilla creamer."

"On it! You paying in flex?"

"Yeah." She scanned her student ID and lowered her voice. "Who's off-brand Gerard Way in the corner?"

"Who's Ger—"

"The punk kid."

"Ohhh. I can try to get his number for you, if you want."

"No, he looks like a total tool! And not the kind I like dealing with!"

"Which means you think he's hot. I didn't think you were into that type, but you're not wrong."

"For the last time, no, Sciezska! He took my spot! And I'm trying very, very hard to keep this to a stage whisper, but if you keep trying to set me up with some random creep, I won't be able to!"

A distinctly male voice grumbled, "I'm not a creep."

"Keep telling that to the girls on Tinder. I'm sure they'll understand eventually."

"Yeah, and I'll bet if you look at your 'Live, Laugh, Love' sign a little more, you'll understand it eventually." He mumbled something under his breath.

"What was that, Mr. Nice Guy?"

"Lay off, it's eight in the morning. I said the only reason I even have a Tinder account is because my roommate stole my phone while I was going to the bathroom."

"Well, if you didn't want it, why didn't you delete it?"

"Eh, I figured if I really got sick of being single one day, it'd already be there."

"Never would have guessed you were single," Winry said dryly.

"Come on, it's way too early to be rubbing that kind of crap in. Who says I'm not fine with being single anyway?"

Sciezska timidly spoke up. "Medium roast with espresso and vanilla creamer?"

Winry thanked her as red jacket boy continued. "'Edward Elric, Bachelor.' Almost sounds as good as 'Edward Elric, Bachelor of Science.'"

"B.S. degree. Sounds about right."

"About time you stopped acting like I'm an idiot!"

Winry snorted. "That's not what I meant."

"Hey!"

"And with that, I'm going to go find some other spot to write my paper."

Edward, as his name apparently was, scoffed and mumbled something that sounded like "good riddance". Maybe the librarians wouldn't get on her case too much for bringing in coffee.

-----

A week later, Winry walked into the cafe, assuming the circumstances of the previous week were an anomaly. They were not.

"Medium roast with a shot of espresso and vanilla creamer," she grumbled and sulked in the direction of the corner seat.

"Hey, don't start with me again, blondie. I've had a whopping four hours of sleep and I can't promise you'll like what comes out of my mouth."

"We're at a coffee shop. Get some coffee. I can't help it if you're too hung over to be polite."

"Now look, genius. I did not stay up until 4 A.M. working on a stupid chem paper for that sadistic pyromaniac excuse for a professor just for some random chick to accuse me of being hung over."

"Oh."

"Yeah. And for your information, coffee doesn't really help me wake up. It just helps me focus on homework." He lifted up his empty cup and gave it a shake.

"That's the weirdest thing I've ever heard."

"ADHD is a weird thing, and yet, here I am."

"Huh, interesting."

"Now if you'll excuse me, I'm going to pick up where I left off with the same stupid ten page paper I started last night."

"Oh right. Sure," Winry stammered. "Listen, I'm really sorry I just assumed things about you. It was wrong of me, and I'd like to make it up to you, if that's okay."

Edward eyed her suspiciously. "What do you have in mind?"

"Well...I could look over your paper once you're done writing it? I've got a paper of my own to write while I'm waiting, and I can sit right across the table here so you don't have to come get me. I won't try to talk to you or anything. Neither of us need that kind of distraction."

"Alright, alright. Get your coffee and sit down. The girl at the counter's been up there waiting for a good minute or two while you've been at confessional over here."

"Wait, she has?" Winry's eyes widened, and Edward laughed at her expense. He was kind of attractive when he wasn't scowling...wait what? She pouted and got up to retrieve her coffee. When Winry returned, she plopped down on the bench opposite Edward and opened her laptop. Peeking out from behind it, she added, "By the way, I'm Winry. I figured you ought to at least know the name of the person who's proofreading your paper."

"Well, Winry, you're the one who volunteered." The corners of his mouth twitched upward. The two worked on their assignments in silence, occasionally speaking up when necessary.

-----

Edward was in the corner again the next week as well.

"Hey, Edward! Mind if I join you for homework again?"

"Normally, I'd say no, but you didn't bother me too much last week, so you might as well." He turned away slightly.

"Great! Have you gotten your coffee yet? I didn't see a cup, and you got something the last two times."

"Eh, I haven't been here long. If you're going up and getting yours, would you mind ordering a caramel macchiato for me?" He asked, sliding his ID across the table.

"Yeah, no problem. I'll be back in a sec."

She returned and slipped his ID back before pulling out her computer. "Do you have anything for me to look over this time?"

"Not this week. But if you have anything you need looked over, I can do that, too."

"Actually, I do, if you wouldn't mind."

"Winry, I just volunteered. Just send the paper to my school email. Mine's 'elricedwa'," he instructed as he proceeded to spell it.

"Medium roast and a caramel macchiato?" Sciezska called out.

"Coming!" Winry replied and turned to Edward. "I just sent it, so you should be able to start while I'm getting our stuff." Eyes glued to his laptop, Edward gave a thumbs up.

Once she returned with their drinks, Winry sat down and wordlessly set Edward's drink next to him.

"Thanks," he muttered distantly. His lips mirrored the words he was reading. Though his lips weren't plump by any stretch of the imagination, they were shapely. His steely concentration made the air leave Winry's lungs. To top it all off, the first rays of sunlight came through the window just right, hitting Edward's hair in a way that made it positively glow.

What was she thinking? Those were only the sorts of things people thought when they had a crush. She'd only had two positive interactions with him, including this one. ...well, maybe it was a crush. She could certainly do worse than someone with a questionable fashion sense. After all, he worked hard, and he got good grades, if the quality of his writing was any indication. Okay, fine. He was also drop dead gorgeous, if you could see past his clothing choices. Yeah, she had a crush.

"Did you hear anything I just said?"

"...no."

"Figures. I finished reading your paper. It's not bad, I just left a few suggestions for sentence structure. Now I am going to enjoy my caramel macchiato." He took off the lid and breathed in the steam with his eyes closed, nearly drooping into the cup in content. When he opened his eyes slowly, Winry was awestruck by the similarity between the color of his eyes and his drink.

"What?" Edward furrowed his eyebrows.

"Nothing. I didn't say anything. At all. Nope."

"Okay." He shrugged. She reopened the document and went through his suggested edits. Gnawing her lip in concentration, she leaned forward a bit to settle in and tackle the editing.

"...hey, uh, Winry?" Edward gulped. "Are you going to drink your coffee?"

"Oh! Yeah, I almost forgot. Thanks, Edward!" she smiled.

"No–no problem. And you can call me Ed, you know. Most people do. Except for that excuse for a professor that calls me pipsqueak. Can you believe he's my advisor? I mean, come on, I'm a grown man. I'm not that short."

Winry made a poor attempt at containing her laughter. "Okay then, Ed. Prove it. Stand up."

"Fine." He slid out of the booth and stood. Winry followed suit and appraised their respective heights.

"Well, I'd hardly call you tall, but you're at least taller than me by a few inches, for whatever that's worth."

Edward grinned as if he had won some sort of prize. "Time for shorties to sit down now!"

"Watch it now. You're not too far from that label yourself, mister."

They both returned to their positions in the booth and worked steadily for the next hour. At the end of that time, Winry closed her laptop. "Ed, are you okay? You seem distracted."

"ADHD. I'm always distracted," he dismissed.

"No, like, are you sick or something? You did get more than four hours of sleep this time, right?"

"No comment." Ed's mouth twitched. He mumbled barely loud enough to hear, "Wouldn't have mattered anyway."

"Are you sure? If you're not feeling well, I can drive you over to the health center."

"N-no. That's not it." He exhaled, then slid a napkin across the table. His hands trembled slightly. "Anyway, here's my number. In case you need me to look over a paper. Or whatever. I've got a class soon."

Winry blushed, but tucked the napkin in her laptop. "Thanks, Ed. See you next week?"

"Yeah. Next week."

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Winry: This goes with your major, right?

Edward: Blocked

#fma #fma fanfic #503 day #when i wrote it it was probably still 503 day somewhere #edwin #edward elric #winry rockbell #fma sciezska #fma sheska #my writing #my fic #coffee shop au #college au

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