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hella1975 · 9 months

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BOOMSTIE! i saw this last night and was like 'i fully cannot answer rn bc i have SO much to say and my sister will kill me for tapping away at my laptop so much at 1am' lmao. god. where do i start. you are one of my favourite people in this whole stinking world and you're one of if not my actual best friend (and im not someone who believes in having a best friend so that's a lot). you know things about me that no one else in the world knows. you have brought secrets out of me that i kept to torture myself and you held them gently and said im good in spite of it, kind in spite of it. i dont know what you see in me even now but you have so much love inside you and it seems to never run out, even when you think you have nothing left to give you're still kind. you asked me on the roadtrip 'would it be so terrible to be soft? to live softly?' and i said yes not because i believe it but because it scares me. me, who's the loud, stubborn one of our dynamic, the fighter to your calmness, and yet you are indisputably braver than me. you love people. you try try try even if and when it hurts. you dont let them scare you off. you retreat to lick your wounds and come back with love to spare. it's the trying that makes me adore you, because we both know it isnt perfect. sometimes you try and it doesnt work. sometimes you try and it comes out messy. sometimes you try and the very act of trying shuts you down and overwhelms you. but you pick yourself back up regardless. you are just so fucking determined to be out in this world and be out in it as wholly as you possibly can and that's not always possible but you want it anyway, will fight for it anyway. wounded and unsure you will fight for it and you inspire the fuck out of me because i get hurt one (1) time and immediately shut off and pull back, but not you. i know having your heart on your sleeve has got you hurt and you maybe even resent that side of yourself, but i dont. i resent the people that dont treat you nicely, but i'll never resent that part of you. you listen to me. you talk to me. you make me laugh. you put up with me when i isolate for weeks at a time. you're the first person in my life to treat me consistently and unconditionally gently, without anger or expectation, and ive snapped at you countless times because of it, rejected it, pushed you away, sometimes im even mean in response to your gentleness with the direct intention of getting you to give up on me, and despite every fucking thing you've stuck by me regardless. i cant count how many conversations we've had where you've painstakingly got me to open up and halfway through, hell sometimes even mid-sentence, it gets too much for me and i go 'this is stupid im not talking about this anymore' and i wait for you to get frustrated, impatient - all things you're entitled to. but you don't. every single time, you look at me softly and go 'okay, what are you having for lunch today?' and that's just how you are. you can't not do that for people. you can't not love your friends with every inch of you. you don't take half-measures. your biggest battle and most consistent struggle is your abundance of love and the way it hurts you back. i think that says a lot.

#hi guys did u know id kill murder maim for boomstie ☝️ that's my rotten soldier #ask #ask game

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land-of-classpects-and-analysis · 3 years

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hey man!! I really love your classpect analyses. the way you write is phenomenal and it really helps me understand so much more abt classpects overall!! your knight of heart one was particularly enlightening ^^ I was wondering if you perhaps had the time to do witch of heart? im struggling with deciding on a class rn and I think comparing it to your knight of heart analysis might help >u< thanks so much, have a good day/night!! <3

Hehehe oh it was ENLIGHTENING huh Anon? Wink wonk /light-hearted /joking around

But eeeeee thank you!! I’m absolutely happy to hear that you enjoy my writing style, and that my analysis has helped quite a bit!

Unfortunately I can’t exactly do a full banger of a Witch of Heart analysis right now because of the way I have my whole schedule and what not, but lucky enough for you I already have written up a sneak peek type of analysis from a month or so ago! I do hope it will suffice enough until Fate and Randomness eventually fish Witch of Heart fully from this ocean of Classpects!

The Witch of Heart is someone who could be quite a nasty person if they so desire. They are certain in who they are as a person, having already found their sense of self by being in an environment that allowed for it to form and be shaped. One could even argue that this could lead to the Witch believing themself to be a better, more superior person because of it - perhaps rivaling that of a Maid or Heir of Heart. However, if they were to be moved into a different environment, the Witch of Heart would most likely be rather quick in changing their tune. At first, the Witch of Heart may show themself to be a cutesy, innocent, kind-hearted soul who simply wants to help others find out their own identities and who they are. While they may have good intentions, if the Witch of Heart were to feel as though their efforts were not being appreciated or that their skills were being misused, taken advantage of, or downplayed, then they would not hesitate to continue playing the personality of a kind individual while also plotting to manipulate and twist the arm and soul, literal or otherwise, of the person who they believe has wronged them.

Manipulating the Heart, the soul, the self could be a tool both helpful and horrifying to those who witness the true power of the Witch of Heart. By words alone, they could take someone and make them question who they are, doubt everything they have known and believed, and perhaps even betray or change their own morals. To be on the good side of the Witch of Heart is to have a strong ally, one who may be more than willing to prevent any freak accidents by talking down a person from doing something bad. If words won’t suffice such restless spirits, though, then they will use their own minds and seemingly supernatural abilities, capable of honing in on their target’s own Heart and molding it to their liking. To be on the bad side of the Witch of Heart is to fear for yourself, as well as your Self, often leading to a large sense of paranoia as to who you are or even what you are. Who knows? Maybe the Witch of Heart never placed a hand on your Heart in the first place, and it was all in your silly little head.

Meanwhile, manipulating through the Heart is to manipulate through the self, the soul, which leads to someone who could become quite the persuasive person. They are quite similar to the first batch of Witches of Heart, but these are the ones who are far more prone to using more than just their soul to manipulate others. They also will often use their powers far more sparingly, because while they may still have fun manipulating the occasional person in whatever means necessary, to do so through one’s own self can become quite exhausting. However, it is during these moments of rest that the Witch of Heart will often do the most self-reflection, but most importantly will try to learn how they can weaponize their Heart more acutely and flawlessly, crafting themself to be someone of mystery yet also of allure. A flame for all the foolish moths who believe them to be a source of kindness and gentle warmth.

One of the biggest threats to the Witch of Heart is that, while although they do have a strong sense as to who they are, even they are not immune to their own powers of manipulating. They are like the chameleons of Witches, as well as Heart-bound; capable of blending in to their surroundings and the people around them - a metaphorical shapeshifter, if you will. It is because of this gift - this supposed blessing - that a curse will inevitably befall the Witch if they are not careful in how many colors they proudly hoard and collect for them. Living a double life is one thing, but to live 30+ lives is another mess that would overwhelm anyone. If the Witch of Heart is not careful in how they use this power, then their sense of self will begin to slip through their fingers until, inevitably, they fall over the edge and into the ocean that is the Soul - the Heart. This is to say that they will have become so overpowered by their Aspect that they will be doomed to drown in all of the false identities they made for themself, never knowing exactly how they are. After well, when one is caught in the ravenous waves of the ocean, it can be difficult to tell up from down or even left from right. It can be difficult to remember who you really are when even the people around you do not know and cannot help save you.

It is a fear shared amongst many Witches of Heart, but it is one that not all of them share. Not that one’s opinion matters on such a thing, as it is a fate - a beast - always on the prowl, waiting to come and snatch away any Witch of Heart who became far too greedy.

Hope this helps to add at least a little bit of insight into how Witches of Heart work!! Thanks a bunch again for the kind words, Anon!

#Mage Musings #not a full analysis #Witch of Heart Preview

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little-ellysha · 3 years

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deep inside me expecting this result but also not and this is not the end of my diploma yet but this is my biggest achievement for this year, life. ive always been an average student. not too smart and also not too stupid. my only target after i finished my paper was only 3.60 and above because i thought i screwed my paper. i counted every possibility of me getting an A but its quite hard. thats why i didnt actually expecting this result. i didnt get the expected reactions or wishes from my families. but i hope deep inside them, theyre proud of me. i cant expect much since im the only one who knew how hard i work for this, how many times i cried stressing about my test my assignments. i thought i couldnt make it. so i need to be there for myself, im proud of you elly, you did a really great job. youve worked so hard. i know it. i saw, feel, hear everything. i was so struggling between classes, taking care of my lil brother, satisfying my family with the eldest daughter's roles. its hard. it really is. i struggled to find time to study but also want an enough rest of sleep. and also alhamdulillah, i cannot achieve this if not by Allah's wills. i knew i havent been a good slaves to Allah. i lack a lot of things. sometimes i forgot to thank Him. but He still made it easier for me. thank you, Allah. thank you so much. you watched, listen my struggles, my pain, my happiness. i will try to be a better person, better slave to you. thank you to myself for believing in me. you didnt give up. you almost did but you get up again. im proud of you sayang.

cheers to more accomplishments, elly.

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dontbesoweirdkira · 4 years

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Hi there! Just found your blog and I like it so far. Btw being Present Mics favorite student headcanons were amazing, as a bnha nerd may I request a part 2 where Mic meets readers parents and other stuff? Sorry if my English is bad.

A/N:Thank you so much for liking my blog and choosing to request, that means a whole lot! I got you with the Present Mic headcanons, please let me know if you want any more Present Mic stuff i’m here. I’m sorry this request took so long to come out, i was busy with a few thing please love me

-So i would feel this year would be a lot of fun, just like last year but the only difference being you are working harder towards your hero license and school is becoming much more difficult. This means that you have to up your game with your quirk skills and tactics while staying on top of your studies. You are stressed to say the least.

-Like i said previously present Mic knows when you are having a hard time, believe it or not he is quite attentive and super smart so he quickly asses the situation and realizes a few things. He sees you’re struggling with your quirk and school so he takes matters into his own hands.

-He offers to train you and offers extra help with school to you, he only wants to see you succeed even if that means sacrificing his free time.

-”oh- no no Mr.Hizashi that’s so sweet but i know you’re really busy-”

-”SHHHSHHSHSSJSJ Y/N I SHALL GET YOU THAT HERO LICENSE AND HELP YOU PICK UP YOUR GRADES EVEN IF THAT MEANS RISKING A FEW HOURS OF REST, I CANNOT LOSE TO YAGI AND DEKU- i-i- Mean icareaboutyourhealthandgradesandireallywannahelp”

-tHaT soCCer dAD rIvaLrY iS stiLl haPPeNinG

-Everyday after school you guys meet up at the park or one of the training centers to train for a few hours

-”Now Y/N, breath in and when you breath out use that force to push your quirk-”

-Honestly you thought the training wouldn’t be as hard as it was (it’s Present Mic after all) but boi were you wrong

-”Get up off the ground Y/N, you’ve only been running for .3 seconds”

-”.3 SeCoNdS????? I DID THREE MILES NONSTOP YaMaDA!”

-” hUstLe y/NnNNnN”

-Aizawa comes to your trainings and observes bEcAusE hEs nOSeYy

-He actually helps out and help with things present might not have thought of or isn’t the best at

-This year your relationship with Present actually takes a deeper turn, you find yourself around him more often both in school and after school. You both learn more about each other's quirks and personalities a lot more.

-You thought you already knew a lot about him, given he was like an open book it seemed. But Hizashi is a much deeper and emotional person than you honestly thought and he truly had such a more serious, kindred spirited side to him

-Like sometimes when you guys are taking a break from training he will open up about his life at UA and how it was for him. He told you how he felt kind of odd and awkward and how that’s probably why he can relate to you so so much uwu

-”You know Y/N as much I am super bubbly and “overly confidant” , i still feel super out of place sometimes. I guess i always have it isn’t a new feeling, although I have Aizawa and the other teachers, sometimes I still feel...not understood? If that makes any sense?? But like I totally understand how you feel, and you are not alone...seriously. Thank you for being open to me and allowing me to teach and train you. Kind of makes me feel wanted and useful..haha-”

-iM sOft

-He always thought of you as a little “sidekick” however recently he kind of looks at you as his own daughter and he’s really protective and fatherly over you. He’s more on top of you and making sure all your ducks are in a row. He’s not controlling or anything like that tho so don’t worry

-”Did you eat yet, Y/N?”

-”are you okay Y/N? You look exhausted.”

-”make sure you finish that report for class, okay? If you need any help let me know.”

-pRotEccS yOu fRom bOys

-If he sees a teacher kind of poking at you and making you feel uncomfortable or feel bad for being a “teacher's pet” he will immediately have them stop. He feels bad you have to get crap from him being a bit biased towards you

-You guys have a secret handshake

-HE’S STILL THE BIGGEST cRacK hEAd I swEar

-*crushes you in a hug* “MISS. AMERICAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA WHAAATtattatSSSSSs UpPPPPPPPPPPPp”

-”YO Yo yO AMERiCaAAaAAAA HOw Is IT CrACkINGGGG”

-”YNNNNNNNNN AMErIcAAAA YoUU foRgoT yoUr lUnCH Box iN mY cLaSS *whispers* i put a donut in there for you”

-USES YOU FOR ENGLISH CONVERSATION EXAMPLES IN CLASS ALL THE TIME

-HE EMBArASSES YOU SO MUCH ITS NOT EVEN FUNNY THIS DUDE NEEDS TO SIT TF DOWN AND LET YOU LIVE POOR GIRL

-It’s okay because he lets you skip class to pass out in the library after being exhausted from everything

-You take his weird sunglasses and strut around with them all the time

-”BlUghH I’m a rich fashion model. WAIT OMG HIZASHI ARE THESE CHILDREN SIZED GLASsES?!?!”

-EmaiLS yOU

-” ohiyo americAa,

It’s me MiC and iM waTchING tHat drAmaA you recommended to me and Im cRyING. Also i heard from the sleepy teacher that there may or may not be a pop quiz in his class on last weeks topic...Anyways I’ll see you tomorrow...unless...Nah just joking okay mic is out!

-Hiz

sEnt fRom ToaSter oVeN”

-You get about ten of these things a week from him. help this poor man ;-;

-Made a few youtube videos with him

-He helped you pick out your hero name and outfit, you are so ready to be a hero i swear

-Once you do get your hero license..he is such big boi proud like he’s in tears, snot running out his nose, eyes all puffy and his voice is cracking. He even got you a little teddy bear with a little candy bag attached to it.

-”LOOK LOOOK MR.HIZASHIIIII LOOOK I GOT IT I FINALLY GOT IT THANK YOU SO SO MUCH HIZASHIII I LOVE YOU SO SO MUCH THANK YOU”

-”See kiddo, i knew you could do it!”

-” Pfft all thanks to you!! Oh and Hey, Mr.Hizashi? My parent(s) are coming up this weekend to celebrate me getting my license. I was wondering if you would like to come to dinner? They’d like to personally thank you for helping me.”

-THIS MAN IS THE UTMOST HONORED LIKE LET ME TELL YOU HE SAYS YES IN A HEARTBEAT AND IS AT THE RESTAURANT ON LITERAL TIME

-He somes in a very nice suit with his hair tied into a perfectly neat bun. And is thAT GLasses he’s wearing?????? (so cute omg)

-Him meeting your parent(s) was a pretty chill experience

-”Mr.Hizashi, right? SO NIce to finally meet you and thank you for everything you have done for Y/N.”

-”Ah, it was my pleasure. And please, call me Yamada.”

-At first it was kind of awkward but once the conversation got going, you guys were there for hours

-and i mean HoURs

-”um excuse mE, wHen aRe yoU gUyS lIkE idk LEAVING???”

-Haha but no, the literal talk was just them hyping you up and how the waiter dramatically fell coming over to the table

-”yeS Y/N is such a great kid i can’t believe you raised such a strong and patient daughter”

-”Did he just trip and act like he didn’t just dropped our food on the ground??”

-”One time Y/N tripped and dropped her easy bake cookies and she didn’t even cry, that’s when we knew she was going to be a pro hero.”

-”did he step on the fries and up it on the plate and try to serve it to us???”

-Also your parent(s) grew up around the same time as Present so they had a lot to talk about and it was interesting learning about each other different childhoods and cultures.

-Your parent(s) seriously enjoyed Hizashi and they would love to talk to him again. Vise versa, it was a great time for Hizashi as well and prepare to hear about it the next time you see him.

-”Thank you Y/N for inviting me and allowing me to meet your parent(s) it was very nice getting to know them. Next time they come up, I must treat them out instead.”

BonUs

-Let’s just make up a different scenario where maybe your parents were kind of rude and not as nice and welcoming, both to you Yamada

-When you heard your parents were coming up to visit you in Japan, you were at first excited. You were still in this frenzy of like “wow i got my hero license” so you weren't thinking about it too much plus you were excited about being treated out to dinner and having your favorite teacher tag along.

-Everything was great...that was until you started to think about it more and started to question was that such a great idea?? Let’s just say your parents aren’t the nicest people (person). For some reason it seems like they were never proud of you, no matter how well or bad you literally did.

-Won a championship game? Eh good, but could be better

-4.00 GPA? That’s okay but thousand of kids get that, you have to do better.

-You want to be a pro hero?? Ha in your dreams, that kid next door has a better chance of becoming one than you do.

-You started to realise they were one of the biggest reasons you wanted to exchange to Japan so much. It was far away from them and super peaceful. You wanted to tell Present to not come, but he seemed so excited, and you wanted to tell him how dreaded your parents were. But you didn’t want him to worry and get others involved. So you just hoped and prayed that they would be nice? And everything was okay?

-Everything was okay...for the first five minutes.

-Well everyone greeted each other and sat down to eat, then the condescending comments started to pour in.

-”Yeah, well I think Y/N will make a perfect Hero in the near future. She’s gotten a lot stronger with her quirk and-”

-”Pfft, let’s not get ahead of ourselves now, Although Y/N has gotten her License that doesn’t mean she’s hero material. We watched the sports festival and compared to the other students, she’s severely overshinned. I just don’t think a year or so of training can fix that. She has to do better.”

-For a second hizashi just sat there with his face utter disbelief. How could someone just say that about their child...in front of their child...so camly?

-He looked over towards your uncomfortable figure, your face was colored with complete dismay, He felt so sad and slightly angry. You didn’t look in a position to defend yourself so he started to speak up for you

-”I really hope the both of you are seriously joking.” he snapped back with a sassy firm tone in his voice which made you look towards the three adults

-”No we are not, Y/N is pretty average and for you to put in her head that she could possibly become a Pro? Haha I understand teachers are supposed to be supportive but like come on now, just be honest with yourself.”

-Hizashi slammed his hands against the table, gaining the attention of everyone in the restaurant, including yourself who was previously looking down to avoid confrontation.

-”How DARE you. Y/N is PERFECTLY CAPABLE of becoming a hero, her quirk,skills, technique and intelligence is all was stronger than you can even imagine. Do not downgrade her just because you’re too idiotic and narrowminded to see that. She is the sweetest kid I have ever met and quite frankly the purest. Disgusting how you talk about your own child like that. AND IN FRONT OF HER?? Now with all due respect, I think you guys need to do a self reflection and change the wrongs you have within you. If you need any help i don't mind emailing you a list of things.”

-SKSKSKSKSKSKS WOT???? DID MR.HIZASHI THE ALWAYS HAPPY AND CRACKHEADY TEACHER JUST PUT YOUR PARENTS IN THEIR PLACE???? IN FRONT OF A WHOLE RESTURANT??? BEST. TEACHER. EVER.

-on you still wore an embarrassed kind or dismayed face and when Present say that. hE tHoUghT yOU wErE eIthER mAd oR sCaREd oF Him. cri

-In reality you were literally so joyful and happy. LIKE DUUUDEEE. MARRY ME LOLOL. Seriously you were super thankful that he did that for you.

-He looked around and suddenly realised that all eyes were on him. Aww poor man felt so flustered he didn’t mean to make a fuss and disturb others, he was just so angry your parents were such a*ssholes.

-He turned to you and bowed while simply muttering “I’m sorry Y/N”, then grabbed his coat and walked out.

-Without even thinking you jumped up and rushed out the door with him, leaving your dumbfounded parents at the restaurant

-”m-Mr.Hizashi wait up!” you called out from behind the blonde haired man, he stopped in his tracks then pivoted in place to face you

-”y/n im very sorry to you and your family i didn’t mean any disrespect. I understand if you may not want to be around me any more or allow me to train you.”

-”ARE YOU SERIOUS THAT WAS EPIC LIKE SERIOUSLY THEY HAVE BEEN DOING THIS SINCE I CAn rEMEBER I SWEAR YOU ARE SO AWESOME MRHIZASHI THANK YOU THANK YOU LIKE YOU’RE THE DAD I ALWAYS WANTED I FREAKING LOVE YOU AND DID YOU SEE THEIR FACES HAHA BOOM I CAN'T BELIEVE IT TELL ME I-”

-cutting you off from your frenzy and gave you a big bear hug, “haha don’t ever let what they have said about you ever ring in your head...okay L/N? I belive in you and i know you are going to be fucking great.”

-”Really?” you smiled

-”HECK YEAHHHHH, AMERICAAAAAA”

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kiro-rar · 3 years

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I live most of my life alone and I'm used to it. I worked my ass out to learn how to survive yet not closing my heart for any possibilities that maybe one day someone will come and maybe i don't have to feel alone again. I have no standard on everything like friends, colleagues or even on partners or should i say I never set standards, I believe that people come and go and i really hate attachment because I always felt that nobody wants to keep someone like me black sheep, fucked up and i have nothing. Sometimes i feel like an option never on someone's top list. I constantly changing my self just to fit in the society. The least and will never be the favorite son not even a friend, betrayed by my family, abandoned by my friends even previous partners didn't end up well. I always tried to be good and I always give my best in everything. Provide and give everything that i can. But i don't it's enough why? Because i never kept anyone. I learned to appreciate little things, i learned do things on my own, i know that i can live alone. I'm strong ang independent. But i think it's worthless because only I can see it.

Then everything changes when i met you laylay. You made me feel things no one ever will ever done. You accepted the person who I've become no matter how fucked up i am how miserable my life is even though i have nothing. You make me feel special everyday yes I don't see you very often. Once a week is enough, enough to make my heart race enough make wild by only just your presence. You words always calms the storm inside of me. Your touch made me realize that angel do exist. Like god has given me an incredible blessing and until now im still wondering, Do I really deserve you? Am I Worthy of you love and affection? Or what have i everdone for me to deserve you? Because to be honest I don't know all i know is im thankful that i have you, that I'm the one you love. You made me feel like my emotions matters. Ang if i have to thank god every single day toshow you and god that I'm so thankful for the chance and blessing that i got.

Then this happens, when some finally accepted me who appreciates me someone who truly love and cares for me. My biggest fear came all of a sudden the person that i love, ayem ,laylay, my love, allysa.

In my darkest time you are my light you always give me a will to fight to live to struggle and to move forward thats why im still here.

But now in your darkest time you chose to be alone I can't even fight for you. You chose to fight in your battle alone knowing that im always here for you. I cannot force my self in because you will push me away. I dont know what to do i want to be there for you. Im here im always right here. I want to be with you. I can fight for you. I can be with you.

You always thought that you dont deserve my love. But the only reason I can love you like this to give you everything i have is all because of you. And i want you to realize it. You removed all the pain all of my fears you have freed for my past my negative experience you made me feel free and alive,strong and fearless . And I'm sure you deserve nothing less you deserve the best my best. Luv allysa mae abello bergado you derseve all of it.

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bloodstarved · 5 years

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big ol’ survey (take 2)

BASICS.

FULL NAME : beaumont black NICKNAME : beau, mister AGE : early 40s BIRTHDAY : doesn’t care to remember ETHNIC GROUP : highlander NATIONALITY : ala mhigan LANGUAGE / S : eorzean & huntspeak (keeper dialect) SEXUAL ORIENTATION : bisexual RELATIONSHIP STATUS : single HOME TOWN / AREA : unknown CURRENT HOME : dimwold, gyr abania PROFESSION : witch of the wilds

PHYSICAL.

HAIR : grey EYES : one blue & one green FACE : gaunt, wide jaw covered in coarse stubble, sunken eyes; haggard LIPS : thick, bloodless, dry COMPLEXION : sallow BLEMISHES : n/a SCARS : many on his back: faded & white TATTOOS : n/a HEIGHT : 6 fulms, 10 ilms WEIGHT : 250 ponzes BUILD : tall, broad-shouldered, thick: heavily-muscled FEATURES : heterochromia; shoulders that are habitually slumped as if bearing an extraordinary weight; listless, wandering eyes; face always concealed by ornate masks; generally bedecked in gold and jewels not befitting his usual, ragged attire ALLERGIES : rolanberries USUAL HAIR STYLE : medium-length & thin; wispy; unhealthy USUAL FACE LOOK : tired & melancholy; like he’s been through hell USUAL CLOTHING : varies between worn old clothes that have been mended times immemorial & ornate, lovely surcoats and fabrics; occasionally, he can be seen dawning heavy plate armor

PSYCHOLOGY.

FEAR / S : the unknown; the unquantifiable ASPIRATION / S : to find a purpose; to be at peace POSITIVE TRAITS : compassionate, empathetic, & resilient NEGATIVE TRAITS : gruff, aloof, & ill-mannered MAJOR ARCANA : the hermit ZODIAC : cancer, the crab TEMPERAMENT : melancholic SOUL TYPE : the shaman ANIMAL : barn owl VICE HABIT / S : isolationism, FAITH : believes in rhalgr to some degree, but moreso he believes in the spirits of the dimwold--innumerable apparitions that are fickle and unforgiving GHOSTS ? : unfortunately AFTERLIFE ? : yes REINCARNATION ? : no POLITICAL ALIGNMENT : indifferent EDUCATION LEVEL : intelligent & educated, though somewhat lacking when it comes to social interactions--favors short responses and simple language that perhaps belittles his true intelligence

FAMILY.

FATHER : unknown, deceased MOTHER : eleanora black, deceased SIBLINGS : none EXTENDED FAMILY : unknown, presumed deceased NAME MEANING / S : beau, meaning “fair” or “lovely”; mont, meaning “hill” or “mountain”

FAVORITES.

BOOK : the autobiography of some obscure monk’s unfortunate life DEITY : rhalgr, vaguely HOLIDAY : starlight MONTH : november SEASON : autumn PLACE : his cabin: ramshackle yet quiet & quaint--homey WEATHER : overcast with a cool breeze SOUND / S: a babbling brook & a crackling fire SCENT / S : rainwater & leather TASTE / S : iron & bread FEEL / S : coarse furs & threadbare blankets NUMBER : 11 COLORS : dark grey, white, washed-out red, & soft brown

EXTRA.

TALENTS : homebrew magicks & potions, healing wounds, & general handyman skills BAD AT : socializing, expressing his emotions, & romance TURN ONS : soft-spoken individuals, long hair (especially when braided), large breasts, chubbiness, mask kisses, patience TURN OFFS : rash personalities, loudness, clumsiness, black-and-white thinking, any attempts to remove his mask, necromancy (don’t ask) HOBBIES : general survivalism, whittling, helping travelers passing through the dimwold, making offerings to the spirits, practicing witchcraft QUOTE : “Please...” spoken softly but with a lot of feeling.

MUN QUESTIONS.

Q1 : If you could write your character your way in their own movie, what would it be called, what style would it be filmed in, and what would it be about? A1 : an unnamed video tape you find in the back of your grandfather’s garage, and when you put it in the VCR, it’s just a two hour long silent film of beau weaving various baskets while avoiding all eye contact with the camera.

Q2 : What would their soundtrack/score sound like? A2 : a slow, melancholy piano accompanied by a steady, thrumming bass

Q3 : Why did you start writing this character? A3 : i absolutely fell in love with his design when i saw the completed version. from there, i slowly began thinking of things i could do with him, and eventually i incorporated most (of not all) of dali’s scrapped concepts into him. perhaps, in some ways, he is a revamped version of dali: a spiritual successor or even a homage to my first ffxiv rp character. yet unlike dali, i wanted to write a character who struggled with his own tenderness--who is soft yet without the knowledge of how to express it. so instead, he is gruff and keeps to himself, avoiding long-term connections with others. but he cannot stop himself from helping those in need, because there is no real escaping his nature.

Q4 : What first attracted you to this character? A4 : honestly, after i modded his face and saw how haggard & melancholy he looks, i simply fell in love. even the original art gave me this vibe of profound loneliness & desperation for contact: his subtle expression coupled with the way he gazes down at the red thread entwined with his fingers.

Q5 : Describe the biggest thing you dislike about your muse. A5 : i wish he would wear socks more often.

Q6 : What do you have in common with your muse? A6 : i used to be extraordinarily lonely growing up. in a lot of ways, beau is reminiscent of my early teenage self--without all of the outright destructive traits i had.

Q7 : How does your muse feel about you? A7 : you know, i think we would actually get along. i can be persistent without being pushy when it comes to making friends, and i think that’s exactly what he needs to help him open up a bit.

Q8 : What characters does your muse have interesting interactions with? A8 : i’m not sure yet! i think it would be interesting to see him interact with someone very high-energy, to contrast his low-energy. like a yuffie kisaragi to his vincent valentine (no i do not mean that in a romantic sense).

Q9 : What gives you inspiration to write your muse? A9 : dali himself is a big inspiration, along with sten from dragon age, eileen from bloodborne, auron from ffx, nier from nier: gestalt (NOT replicant), hopper from stranger things, giyu from demon slayer/kny, & dracula from netflix’s castlevania

Q10 : How long did this take you to complete? A10 : let’s just say im really gonna hate myself when i have to get up for work in the morning. (:

#rp meme #beau

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iveonlyeverseenliketwoanimes · 5 years

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How Horikoshi treats his female characters (Feat. How his ‘Fans’ treat him): A Rant

Something that has recently been popping up a lot in the BNHA tags, for me at least, is this idea that Hori is a “Lazy/Bad Writer”. It’s a topic that’s genuinely interesting to me and I would love to discuss it! After the reaction i got to my last post on discussing the fandom, i feel like this is a really fun topic for me to look into and i love having an open discussion with people. So just to let you know before we start, everything here is my opinion - feel free to respond with your own thoughts and i’d happily have a conversation with you about anything and everything! If you disagree with me then that's fine, if you agree with me then that's fine too! I'm just a person with a keyboard and an opinion and so are you! :)

So today i would love to discuss how people treat Hori in regards to his female characters and i hope you enjoy this 1500 word essay/ramble i did. (PS if you came from my last lil essay then this one is a lot less sarcastic because its a more serious topic and i don’t want to come across as too rude also i actually got sleep today)

Now, this was actually the first topic I came across when looking into the Hori tags. At first, I was on board with the general theme of what was happening. I saw some lovely artwork of Momo where people had redesigned her costume, they were very creative in how they did it and overall, I had no complaints – if the whole topic of this tag was about how people wanted to be creative and redraw characters in their own design then I’d 100% support it, but the more you look into it, the more…. Nasty is gets.

So, the overall theme of what I gathered from this little tag is that idea that Hori is some sort of [Word I really don’t want to type out but im sure you can guess what it is] because of how he draws his females, most of which are underage. So if you, as a consumer, are, well, consuming something, such as a TV show, film, anime, Manga etc. and you see something that makes you go “This is disgusting – I need to write a Tumblr post about this to warn other people about what's happening here” then I fully support you – please keep on doing what you’re doing.

However, this isn’t what I see, what I see are posts going “F*CK HORI HE’S A [Nasty word] AND I HOPE HE D*ES – HERE EVERYONE I MADE AN ANTI FLAG, SHARE IT EVERYWHERE AND LET ME KNOW WHERE I CAN SEND MY D*ATH THR*AT TO” Meanwhile, when you go on this same persons page it’s all reposts of the characters and screenshots of the show, posts of them saying “Yo did you guys see the new BNHA episode last night?!?” and overall just very fandom-y stuff. I truly cannot comprehend this type of behaviour – you are so set in this belief that Hori is a [Nasty Word] and yet here you are, on the very same blog you use to slander his name, actively supporting him! Listen, if one of you Anti’s were to sit there and say “I wholeheartedly think Hori is a [Nasty word] and therefore I am no longer going to participate in this fandom or with supporting his creations” then, while I don’t agree with you, I support you in your decision as you have made a clear stance on something with both your words and your actions and I can truly respect that, and hell you would actually get my attention and I might read into what it is you’re talking about. I’m not, however, going to waste my time reading a piece of material written by someone who does all that nasty stuff I previously mentioned and take any of what they say seriously. Let me put it this way; you think Hori is a [Nasty word], you are supporting the show, you are therefore supporting a [nasty word], so why should I take anything you say seriously? I don’t want to see any more of this ‘One minute we love him, one minute we hate him’ attitude because when you hate him the things you are saying are some of the worst things you could possibly say to another person and its childish, disgusting and you’re giving this fandom a bad name.

Now back to the girls, I personally do find certain characters outfits a little distasteful, especially with how they’re done in the anime and how they zoom in on certain body parts, i also dislike how it’s ‘funny’ for characters like Mineta to get away with such disgusting behaviour. I do think that’s the biggest flaw I can find in this show – I don’t however 100% blame Hori for this. Now obviously at the end of the day, it is down to Hori what happens in his show, but can we all stop pretending that it’s just him that does this? When I think of anime the first thing that comes to mind is anime girls and their… attributes. It’s an industry issue and Hori is one of many people that partakes in it – so im not saying he’s not to blame, im just saying some of you are a little dramatic and need to realise if you truly want this behaviour to stop then you need to go after the industry and not just one guy.

Now this next point I want to make is something im sure might be a little confusing for most of you and something I can 100% see the other side of better than some other points ive made. It’s also kinda hard for me to put into words so please bear with me here.

I don’t think its necessary for Hori to develop his female characters as much as their male counterparts – now im sure that’s an odd concept but let me explain. As a child growing up in the age of great TV shows such as Hannah Montana, iCarly, Wizards of Waverly Place etc. I think ive spent a fair amount of time watching TV, my personal favourites as a child were Winx Club, BRATZ and W.I.T.C.H (Im from the UK so apologies if you have no idea what they are). Now all of these shows were ‘for girls’, they all revolve around a group of girls and their adventures in their respective worlds, they learn things along the way, because, even if you don’t realise it, these kids shows have hidden messages in them that are like ‘we should be kind’ ‘we should treat others with respect’ and all that jazz you need to know to be a decent human being. However, the one thing that these shows always lacked was any form of male presence. Now im not saying these shows had no males in them, that would be weird, but what I am saying is that the males in these shows were very one dimensional and they were always the love interest of one of the characters, or you might get the odd parental figure that would show up for one episode to be a motivation for a character. However with BNHA, a show that is specifically aimed at teenage boys, I don’t feel like they do such a disservice to females (AKA the ‘men’ equivalent of my other shows), sure they’re not treated great in certain aspects that I've already discussed, but look at their actual characters, Uraraka is the main girl, sure she very much has the same role as many of the men did in my childhood shows of the ‘love interest’ but her character is more than that and we see it in the sports festival as well as some of the more recent chapters (213-215 to be specific). Her character isn't just some airhead and neither are the other girls, Momo is literally top of the class in terms of written ability and she had her own little mini-arc around gaining confidence (which is still ongoing because guess what – people don’t change overnight), Mina has had some spotlight on her and is seen to be a very confident and skilled fighter, Tsu was literally described as the ‘perfect student with no flaws’ and is shown to be a badass on multiple occasions, Midoriya’s mum is even a character that’s had some form of arc with her learning to believe in her son and she's not some faceless character we hear about every so often when they need a plot device.

Now im not saying the female representation is perfect and it’s certainly not 100% equal to that of the men, but im saying it doesn’t need to be. This is a show for boys, sure girls can watch and enjoy it, but its made for boys in the same way my shows were made for girls, and the average boy isn’t going to want to watch a bunch of fairy princesses run around saving their fluffy little pets like I did (im sure a some of them will – and good for them, in the same way that some girls might want to watch superhero films, it’s not something im saying is bad, its just most people raise children into predetermined stereotypes of what gender roles they should fill and the media caters to that).

So what im saying is that taking a show aimed at boys and comparing it to shows aimed at girls and how each handles the opposite sex (we’re not going into gender here, that’s a whole other topic of diversity), I don’t think BNHA is all that bad. I guess if I want to be a little harsher in my approach, why is it okay to have a near-all female cast and not a near-all male cast? I understand a need for diversity, truly I do, but sometimes having a token character for each ‘type’ of person takes away from what the show is actually trying to convey – and in BNHAs case I think its trying to teach young boys that it’s okay to be emotional or vulnerable when you’re in situations that other shows teach you to ‘man up’ in. Not every show can solve racism, sexism and homophobia, I’m sorry to break it to you, but some shows are a little more basic in their approach to what it is they want to show and I think BNHA is a perfect example of that, it’s showing boys that you can cry, you can go through struggles in life, you can even come back from being a terrible person through growth and development, and I think that’s something boys need. A lot of people in this day and age want men to change (and I agree that there are a lot of things all groups of people can work on) and BNHA is showing boys how to grow up in a way that’s not this ‘tough guy that has no feelings’ and at the end of the day isn’t that something we want?

I do believe there are areas that BNHA really needs to improve in when it comes to it’s female cast, but can we stop with this awful hate? This fandom had such potential to be an amazing community of people who are skilled with art, writing, storytelling, cosplay, etc. but it seems like half of you just want to tear each other down and it’s sad to see such potential wasted because you can’t handle someone having a different opinion or view to you.

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courtneyhudson0225 · 5 years

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Weight loss

226. 226. 226. I can repeat that number all day long. Its the number that sticks in my head all day long. Its the number i weighed when i began my final weight loss journey on January 22, 2019. I say final because this is the only 'diet' ive started, lost weight on, and continued on. Now, mind you, 226 isnt the biggest ive ever been either. I was about 240 (not even pregnant) about a year before that. Maybe bigger at some points but at one point, i couldnt stand on the scale anymore, fearful of the number. Ive struggled with my weight all of my adult life. 20 years old, i started to gain and the number just grew. I was fat. I was obese. My self esteem was low. My sex life was non existent. And my confidence was shot. Just gone. Nowhere to be found. 31 years old, 4 kids, and married for 13 years, January 22nd was my first day to my new life. Welcome to my keto lifestyle.

Enter Keto!

A very good friend of mine started Keto about 5 months before me. She had lost so much weight, i was floored. I knew i had to do this. I had started researching Keto when i was about 6 months pregnant with my 4th child. I toyed with the idea but knew i needed to be in the right mind frame before i could begin this. Then, my friend came over on January 21. That was it. I was in!

Livin' the Keto Life!

The next day, i downloaded the carb manager app and started my journey. The beginning started like all your fad diets. Yea, i can do this, this is easy, im doing this. Then the next few days went by. Checking what was carbs, how many carbs was in this or that, what am i gonna make for dinner. Then, the struggle began. By day 3 i was missing sugar. I wanted something sweet. The gallon of chocolate milk was staring at me and chocolate milk is my vice. I love it!!! My son and i would go through 2 gallons of it in a week. Not to mention, chips, cookies, candy, snack cakes and the list goes on. I would eat an entire box of snack cakes in a sitting. A new box, was lucky if it wasnt gone in the first day. But, back to my chocolate milk staring at me in the fridge. I had a choice to make. Have a glass and call it another fad i tried and failed at or have a drink of it, get my craving out of the way and get back on my journey. Which option?

30 Days In ....

The drink of chocolate milk got me through. It happened a couple of times, and the same with a couple swigs of orange juice. But its what helped me. It paved the way. My keto life at 30 days in was a different picture. I was 17lbs down and the number on the scale kept getting lower. I could sit crossed legged in the chair. I could walk the neighborhood with my kids and not feel like i was gonna die, right on the porch. Small victories but it meant something. My clothes fit better. My face was thinner. My mind was clearer. And my sex drive was going up. 30 days in and i couldn't believe i hadnt given up. I started to walk on the treadmill a little bit. Not much, a couple times a week for 30 minutes but i could do it. But, how long would it last, really? I missed chocolate and carbs.

60 Days .... What?!

Did i really make it 2 months? I must admit, i had a small bite of cake, just a taste, every now and again but i didnt want the chocolate milk or OJ anymore. I didnt crave it. The scale was down another 10 lbs, the weight loss does slow down after the first month, but i felt sooo much better. About myself and i had more energy. More clarity. I cant believe i have done this for 60 days when originally i didnt think i would last a week. Better yet, ive encourage others to try Keto. Ive been posting results, food, and recipes on FB. My mom, my husband, friends, and my sister are all following. Wow. On one post, someone called me inspiring. Inspiring!!! Thats amazing to have an impact on someone else. 60 days in.

Where are we now?

Its April 10th. Were 12 days away from 90 days. 195. 195. 195. Thats where i am now. Thats 31lbs in 10 weeks. Ive lost more than 20" acrossed my body. I went from a XXL and size 22 jeans to a size large shirt and size 14 jeans. I feel prettier. Sexier. Healthier. I can almost run a mile. 14 minutes. I didnt even do that in high school. I have not been under 200lbs in over 10 years, or more. I can walk without being winded. I look in the mirror and smile. I take selfies and like them. In fact, i feel conceited i take so many now but its the first time in years i feel so good about myself. 5 pants sizes smaller. 31lbs lighter. 2 shirt sizes down and a smaller bra! I cannot say how much keto has changed my life. January 22nd was the day my life changed forever. The first day to my new life. Bacon, butter, meat .... all things that help me lose weight. I love getting on the scale every morning and seeing if the number drops. Some days it doesnt, and that number stays around for 4 or 5 days but then it drops. Going out and other peoples houses for dinner arent always easy. Being around sweets at parties and events is much easier now, i usually dont even want it. When i do taste something i havent had in a while, it doesnt taste the same. My taste buds have changed. Cooking for the kids isnt always easy. I would love a bite of creamy mac and cheese. The kids eat partially keto, sometimes they dont even know it.

Keto can change your life. If you allow it. Attaching pictures of me through the years to see my weight struggle. Also, some keto pictures and my results now. Its real. Its not always easy but its worth it.

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galunacycheckyourheadtour · 2 years

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Psychological vs physiological...the battle lines have been drawn.

So when I fell ill at the beginning of November 2021, everything pointed towards the old ‘Black dog’ rearing its ugly, yet familiar, head after a sustained period of stress, over-working and not taking caring of myself - I had burnt out. I was signed off work and told to rest. Fast forward to January 2022...

I am still signed off and things have really not improved...except I have a diagnosis - Long COVID. I have no positive test - but it is assumed that I contracted it mid-October when I started to feel cold/ flu-ey but ignored it and did not do a test, it felt like mild symptoms and I was run down anyway.

I had not been face to face with a medical practitioner - for the obvious reasons. But each time I spoke to someone it was basically, ‘this sounds like clinical depression/ burn out, we have been here before, lets up meds.’ However, this time it did not get better if anything it got worse - my moods got lower and darker and it started to feel like this time there was no light at the end of the tunnel - it all got pretty bleak in my head. I could not work out why I was not turning a corner. Days and months all seemed to drift into each other and I cannot believe it is nearly the end of January.

During that period, it was mostly exhaustion but I was also very short of breath even when just sat down, having to take my inhaler regularly which I never had to do before, even when I was cycling for hours on end. But I was also suffering from light sensitivity, all my childhood eczema came back, I could not walk more than 5 mins without getting out of breath and I was so confused. I would walk into rooms and not know why I was there, put books in freezers, milk in the bathroom, I could not read books or concentrate on anything.

I ignored all of this thinking I was just rundown and this is the rub, when you have a history of mental health issues it is so easy just to fall into that, it is easy for the medical practitioners and for me to say - Im just depressed it will pass. So don’t avoid the physical symptoms, don’t dismiss them - make a list, speak to people close to you to see if they have noticed any changes and most of all trust your instincts.

I had to resign from my job, as I could not commit to when I was going to be well again. This was the biggest blow, with no job to go to I really started to panic but know I just have to get better - that is the most important thing.

Last week, in frustration after going to the supermarket and struggling to breathe I called 111 for advice - they immediately called an ambulance (which really freaked me out!!!!) . They were there in 20 minutes and stayed for an hour and a half (I think mostly as Filson was there and they were completely besotted with him). They were incredible and I really cannot put into words how grateful I am for them - they talked everything through with me, said that I had done the right thing and it was very likely it was Long COVID. Proceeded in calling my doctors on my behalf and making all sorts of appointments. I am now on steroids, have a load more tests coming up and now focussing on getting better, Some days are good, some days I cannot get out of bed before 2pm and are bad but I take comfort in knowing that I have a diagnosis and my holistic head wants to just get better. I am so thankful for all of you, my friends and family, colleagues who have sent me messages and love - I know so many I have not replied to yet, but I will and they all mean so much to me - you will never know how much.

So here we go...another chapter...

Keep On Keeping On...and Spring is coming.

#mental health #long covid #depression #anxiety #brainfog

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moonrvsworld · 2 years

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Any Positions

(Chapter 2)

(chapter 2)

The library was half empty this afternoon. Some of the students finished their business two hours ago before the clock hit the five. Its Firday night. They might be busy preparing their private schedule to have fun at some places after the middle test semester that will be end this week. Keonhee stayed on his chair in the corner. He avoided the sun light from the biggest window . That guy tried to gather all his concentration to some of those thick, boring to read moduls. Its not a sin though, to forget the lesson for sometimes. You can actually drag your self get out from there and burried your insanity by joining party and having one night stand with random person rather than sitting on the cruel fate of life. This wont happend to Keonhee’s life. The only one choice he had is always being normal.

Not a Keonhee’s thing. To get on wild random parties, hangout with strangers at the club, or make himself drunk until passed out. Even the accident in Youngjo’s house two years ago was the first and last.

Keonhee prefers quiet place to run his mind. Though he’s not a geek but most of the time in his daily life was spent at the libraries. He enjoyed the silence, the book’s scent, the serious tension of people who still have passions to solve the world’s problem by searching manually from the books. Its his best escape, not only form people but also from his own feeling.

“I see you for almost three hours here.”

A female sound shocked him a little and make his head tilt suddenly. Alice, his classmate who wearing creamy brown blouse and short standing with amazed look. Her cheerful smile spread the uncomfortable feeling around. Keonhee rarely talks with the others especially girls since he made his promise to keep his heart for someone.

“Did I bother you?” asked Alice. She sat in front of Keonhee right without hesitate.

“No, I just.... so you wacthed me for the last three hours?” Keonhee’s eyes getting wider.

Alice just chuckled and waved her hand smoothly.

“Doesn’t mean Im watching you, Lee Keonhee. I did my own works and coincidentally I still found you here, right after I finished. So ... you’re little bit busy or what?”

Alice take a glance into Keonhee’s iPad. He probably just reading articles. About some trending news, maybe. Keonhee really likes to watch politics and social issues. Alice notice Keonhee’s performance all this time. He’s smart yet talkative. He always shows his enthusiasm towards every subject and available to help the others. A friendly friend you can always rely on. Since the very first time, Alice put her attention but fortunately both of them never have a chance to talk in private way. Then Alice realized something might be happened which made Keonhee changed himself so much. Keonhee now is just like this. He will choose an empty chair to sit on and being isolated from people around. She doesnt even know this kind of thing can disturb her mind.

“I just read some articles. We’re having presentation next week, right?” Keonhee smiled and raised his eyebrows.

Alice sighed so hard. Her lips pout cutely. “Dont you dare to remind me about that, please. Im struggling for this week’s essay. I got mental issues that makes me cannot eat properly because of this.”

“Oh really?” Keonhee stared at her with worries. “I cant believe the task could give that kind of impact.”

“A smart student like you wouldn’t believe how every assignment can decrease your weight, Keonhee. Im so pissed off at the same time because of this messy thing. Its getting worst. So I think I will put aside all this shit and looking for some party to hit.”

“Such a good idea, Alice. I bet you’ll have fun and finally put away your stressful. We’re heading for the next semester and it will be more difficult, I guess.”

Alice look unsatisfied. Its a bait statement and she expecting more than supporting words from that guy. The curiosity sometimes so torturing for her yet its also exciting. She kinda likes mysterious man, who has so many secrets behind his curtains fall.

“Honestly, I need you to come.”

“Where?”

“I dont know, one of those parties?” Alice leaning over her body closer to Keonhee. “You’ll see how can I be favorite entertainer for one night.”

This is interesting. Keonhee tried to look at Alice closely. She’s one of the most beautiful student in their campus. Every male student always try so hard to get her no matter what. From romantic effort until the lame one. Unfortunately, Keonhee is not part of it. He only admitted how beautiful that woman is, but didn’t have any desire to play with his imagination as a guy.

“I don’t like that kind of things,” he answered in a subtle way to not look like he refuse it.

Alice knows it will happend. She only gave her smirk and fix the original sit position. She crossed her arms, looking at him intently.

“I found you’re so interesting, Lee Keonhee. Maybe its because I’m getting bored to the guy who always easily fall for me and you’re so different.”

Keonhee just gave funny reaction. His giggle told everything about his ‘I dont even fucking care’ with that. Deep inside his heart, this is obviously such a dilemma. While Alice become the only girl that hard to get bowed down, he must be the luckiest man here getting her attention even with those blue seductive eyes. Keonhee’s stare move quickly to Alice’s hand which now making a slight move into his.

“Don’t say you have another schedule, please,” begged her with a huge expectation.

“Of course, he has.”

The answer came from someone who suddenly appeared in front of them. His silhouette blocked the dusk’s light. Alice pulled her hand and straighten up her body. Her face suddenly looks so pale but she kept managed to smile.

“Prof- Professor Kim.”

Keonhee was the only one who bow his head and not interesting with this.

“Do you mind if you leave him now? I have a lesson to do here. In personal.”

Still looked confuse but finally took her ass out, Alice glared for a second towards Keonhee and smile as wise as she can.

“See you later, Keonhee. Good evening, Mr. Kim.”

That young professor didn’t even reply her. His gaze locked closely to Keonhee who scrolled his iPad’s screen with a lazy way. He took a seat beside and tried so hard to get rid off the uneasy feeling.

“This is what you did everytime you out of my sight?” asked Youngjo with his heavy voice.

Keonhee didn’t try to divert his attention.

“Nothing’s happend, dont be too much.” He answered easily.

“After what my eyes just saw?”

“None of your business. You better had something to do than bothering me like this.”

The cold tone from Keonhee’s voice made Youngjo frowned in wondering.

“Something’s wrong?” Youngjo’s finger rubbed Keonhee’s thigh under the table.

Keonhee avoided him and get up walked towards the bookshelf line. He doesn’t even know what he was looking for. He just didn’t have any intention to talk with Youngjo right now. That guy is a big fan of skin ship, Keonhee really know it well. Avoiding him like this must be hurt his feeling but also Keonhee’s. There’s something he just couldn’t endure anymore. About their relation ship and anything that didn’t go too well recently. His mind is full of thoughts right now.

“Tell me, what’s going on? Are just avoiding my affection?”

Youngjo already stand in front of him, lying his body to the shelf and and crossed his arms in front of his chest. Keonhee keep looking to every pages of book on his hand. The light from the room ceiling dashed into Keonhee’s brown hair.

“I dont see it as affection, Mr.Kim. Maybe you just need someone to play with but Im sorry, Im not in the mood,” Keonhee murmured. He didnt even glance but he knew his answer made Youngjo pissed off.

“What are you trying to say, actually?” Youngjo lost his patience.

“Maybe we better end it now,” said Keonhee while he put the book back.

“What?”

A silent dominate the situation between them. Youngjo still not believe what he just heard. He couldn’t stop staring at Keonhee at this moment to find the truth.

“You’re doing some prank or what?”

“Im serious.”

“Then what its all about? Its been two years and you suddenly talk about our ending?”

Keonhee now gathering all the courage and look Youngjo in the eyes.

“Its been two years and you never realize what’s your mistake, Hyung.”

“Mention it.”

“What for?”

“So how can we fix it? In a relationship, we need a proper communication,” Youngjo whispered since he knows what kind of place it is and starting the argument will be the hardest way if he do it calmly.

Keonhee smirked and turn away his gaze.

“I can’t believe now you talk about communication. Where have you been all this time, Hyung? You never there whenever I need you. Dont you dare to call it as relationship, because I dont feel we’re on the same way. We should let it go after all.”

Every sentence sounds like discordant song into Youngjo’s ear. He quickly feel uneasy about this and start to cornered Keonhee between the shelfs and wall.

“Hyung.”

“Listen bunny, Im pretty sure that you’re not drunk or consuming drugs right now. Why did you suddenly spill about this old fashioned topic that not related to us? You really know that Im too busy and I dont even have a time for my self. You’re the one who should watching me and covering every mistakes that I made. I just- I just can accept your babbling about us.”

Keonhee lifted his head. “This is what I hate the most from you. Your selfishness.”

Youngjo didn’t say anything for a moment. He just kept his deep gaze to Keonhee’s dim eyes. Something’s wrong and he couldn’t prevent it. He already know that Keonhee maybe made decision.

“Lets break up.” Keonhee continued his words. “Im getting tired and sick of it. You never choose me as your priority. Its all about you, your works, your goals, your dream. I never involved. Maybe its around one year ago we talked about us and after that you always be the one who come and go easily. Is this what I mean for you? An escape for every your frustation and boring scheme?”

“Don’t act like a kid,” said Youngjo.

“Im just trying to say what I feel about us lately, Hyung. Somebody need to blame for and its you.”

Keonhee pointed his finger to Youngjo’s chest. His own heart feels like ready to burn since his brain freeze during the conversation. Its not easy to say break up’s thing while looking into that deep sharp eyes. Keonhee even get hurt more than anyone can tell. He always endure the pain by himself and this is it. He cannot move forward even for one step ahead.

“I think you bark to the wrong tree, bunny,” Youngjo hissed, trying to hold back all of the emotion inside his heart.

“See? This is the trully you, Im done.”

Keonhee make his step but suddenly Youngjo grabbed his waist and dragged him into the darker conner of that library.

“What the hell are you doing?” Keonhee surprised with Youngjo’s act and hold his scream.

That tall man couldnt do anything since Youngjo forbid his way out by spreading his hands to trammel him at the corner. They used to built romantic scene in that area. About stolen kisses, or deep hug whenever no people around. But today the tension is totally different. Both Keonhee and Youngjo standing at the worst part of their feeling towards each other.

“You cannot leave or dumped me just like that.” Youngjo whispered. His right hand touch Keonhee’s cheek.

He got refused. Keonhee turned his face away.

“I dont have a possible reason to endure this imbalance love story.”

Youngjo’s hand forced Keonhee’s face to look at him.

“Please, don’t leave me.”

Keonhee gulped with hard feeling. “I gave you so many chances to change, but its useless, I guess.”

“You know what will happend if you let me like this, bunny? I’ll tell the world about us. Even to your parents. Since you’re the precious son for them, who will continue their company, I think they dont wanna hear anything about us, right?”

Keonhee tilted his head slowly. Youngjo’s words can be something that drawn him in disbeliefe for entire life.

“Are you threatening me now, Hyung?” Keonhee asked with his lower voice.

Youngjo sighed. He admitted his over reaction just know and quickly feel sorry.

“No, Im not. I just wanna to tell you that Im ready to prove about how serious I am into this relationship. This is what you want, right?”

Keonhee pushed Youngjo when he’s off guard.

“All I want is we break up right now. Get your self to your own world and dont take me into it again.”

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if u people cared about dnp's feelings u'd not do that. if u know what being in the closet is like, either just as a queer person or as a queer couple, u'd never do that. but i guess some people just lack empathy. ur url says it all to me, u're very crude, intrusive & i wouldn't be surprised if u were ecstatic if dnp got outed. phan shippers help & provoke people into outing them daily. u know the things u post have their consequences & u just LOVE to pressure dnp with your "we know already uwu"

ive been staring at this ask and i honestly dont know what you want me to say and i cant see the logic behind what youre saying. i genuinely cannot even fathom how people can accuse me of not respecting dan and phil, and not liking them. i would sell my fucking soul if it meant they were happy. i literally identify as queer and ive been in the closet since i realized that i didnt identify as straight and i know how much of a struggle it can be. not sure where youre getting your facts from for that one. saying i lack empathy is the biggest bs ive ever seen and you clearly dont know me as a person and dont know what ive done for other people and how much i care. saying that im ‘crude and intrusive’ is an opinion youre entitled to have, yet youre the one in my inbox harassing me. youre completely right that phan shippers can take things way too far, and i personally have spent many hours removing things such as the vday video and various other 2009 related content. because i care about dan and phil. i care about their mental wellbeing and i care about how theyre doing and never, ever, (i cant believe im even being questioned about this one) have i pressured, outed, provoked or harassed them. i owe dan and phil pretty much my entire life. look through my posts. let me know if you find something doing any of the things you’ve stated. id be interested in hearing. but i wont, because you wont find anything.

also, im pretty sure dan and phil are anti-bullying. maybe take a long, hard look at yourself in the mirror before you come attacking me for things.

#im in tears i cant tell if it's because im sad or angry #people !! questioning ME #over how much i RESPECT DAN AND PHIL #i cant #im sorry #ask.com

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about me + bias list

hi there, I’m jewel :)

she/her/hers ・ 20 ・ kpop (writing) blog

Yes, Jewel is my real name although my parents admit I was supposed to be named elizabeth but changed their minds last minute after I was born how cute and I’m currently in university. I study political science and japanese for those wondering (because yes, I am japanese and it’s helpful when you live in hawaii to have that degree yk?). If any of this stuff is even mildly interesting and you have any curiosities, pls feel free to ask me!

I try to write some things when I can, so feel free to take a look at my masterlist. I also read A LOT of fics on this site, so also peep my recs if you feel like it. Warning: its mostly fluff and angst and almost always includes smut but there’s some really good stuff worth reading still!

Feel free to talk to me :) i don’t have any kpop friends irl :( all my friends are locals smh

I try my hardest to be active as much as possible but it’s taken me over a year to finally get used to tumblr lol marklee and i both struggle with complex technology i guess Of course, there are times when I get busy with college and will probably seem to drop off the face of the planet exam season kills but now that I’ve been in quarantine for a month, I figured now is the best time to start building an active tumblr routine.

That’s all for now! Keep reading below for my bias list :)

xoxo, jewel <3

Bias List

Before I begin, I will warn that this is basically a giant NCT shxtpost. With LOTS of hyperlinks for educational purposes and absolute crackhead-ery. I’ll eventually make a separate list for other groups I stan, but this blog is mainly NCT and this is already so long so I’ll leave it as this. Enjoy!

Biases are bolded in the beginning of each unit, so you can skip everything after if you don’t wanna see my ramblings following it.

A/N: After biasing nearly every member in NCT/WayV I’ve settled for now on my biases for each unit. This will most likely rotate fairly regularly as I literally fall in love with a different member every day cited here. solo stan? I don’t know her.

ULT

Jaehyun *ahem excuse me i mean*

Johnny Suh, it’s official. Don’t know how to explain, but I love everything about him. In the end, it’s always him. damn i sound like y/n thoughts but istg it’s true From SM Rookies to NCT Life to MV behinds, he’s the one. But I’ve also come to realize that I find myself most relatable to him as a person and I think that’s why no one else can trump him wow narcissist much jewel It’s kind of just my gut feeling. It also helps that hes the fluffiest tall, muscular tight booty hottie on the planet. See this black on black dance practice for further scientific explanation even in this jaehyun trying to wreck me so badddddd

Not gonna lie, I HAD IT BAD FOR MARK LEE still do and yet Johnny overcame that. If mark lee were my first love, johnny is my soulmate.

UPDATE!

Lee Jeno has officially been added to the ult list. *See the entirety of my april activity on my sns accounts if you would like to see how this happened haha :)

NCT U

im in love with him bc he literally reminds me of my boyfriend -- i like chill guys ok

Taeil is my little teddy bear who looks great in red hair and has a voice form heaven. Evidence? Here you go. He didn’t stand out to me much in the beginning because I was either deaf or blind but after Chain, the game was OVER. +moon taeil in shorts?? serve them thighs honey. Love you bebe tomato <3

BUT Doyoung is the #1 bias wrecker here because have you seen his cover of beautiful on masked singer?? have you?? if not, let me educate you. Also his collab with Sejeong?? Literally the cutest MV ever, perfect for Christmas, listened to it every year since it’s release.

Listen to Coming Home - NCT U for further scientific evidence that NCT has top vocals in the kpop industry.

NCT 127

THE Jung Jaehyun. For reasons that need no explanation. but ill give it anyway smh

After watching the performance of herin and jaehyun singing a whole new world I knew that was it for me. (I still watch it once a month for my jaehyun-related health and to honor SM’s biggest loss, seo herin and ji hansol but thats for another conversation) back to jaehyun His vocals are unique in NCT and bring a nice color to their songs, the man looks good in literally anything, and I’ll probably say this about every member, but I love his dance style--body rolls for days sis. Definitely my ideal type, which my boyfriend is 100% aware of; no secrets in my relationship ofc which explains the wreckage. Pretty sure 81% of the fandom gets wrecked by him daily, so I think I’ll stop here.

NCT Dream

Renjun. why? i just think he’s neat but no really, it was this performance (ok actually this got me ALL SORTS OF WRECKED) and this fancam that had me falling in love with him but were gonna ignore the fact that I get bias wrecked DAILY by all the other members GOd-tier vocals, personality for daysssssss, variety KING HUANG RENJUN. Safe to claim that I go into renjun feels about 3x a week. Check my twitter for proof. +dnyl renjun was a blessing and I sometimes cant believe that it actually happened. How do I explain?? He’s literally the best boy, but when he gets all worked up....let’s stop there before I have to go to confession again.

But for fun, lets list why I have biased every dream member at some point shall we? (in no particular order) Dream might just be my ult group, songs always bop, members at star quality

mark- yes i am including mark bc he was the reason i even started stanning dream dreamies leader since mmc days, mentor, A1 rap skills, ad libs go crazy, unparalleled dancing style, hardest worker, cutest watermelon advocate ever, all around amazing person can you tell he used to be my ult? + he’s a good christian boy and my catholic *ss has to confess my sins for being a simp for him 24/7

chenle- vocal GOD, most steady live vocals in kpop, laugh to die for

jeno- i cannot resist his eye smile i wanna cuddle and onstage charisma-2:54 “let’s goooooo” and i alskfdfjlkdldkfa.

jaemin- “other than my members, i don’t have any friends” and yet he’s literally the most caring and wonderful little puff in existence fight me pls dont im a pacifist

heachan- idk why but donghyukie feels like he could be my best friend and also cant stop staring at him in their dance practices his body proportions are unreal and his vocal ad libs?? don’t even get me STARTED on heachans vocals

jisung- he is my son, but also my son’s vocals?? MWAH that voice got me second guessing if he’s really my son

WayV

Ten Chittaphon Leechaiyapornkul another member where it kinda just....happened? In the end I was like “damn, when did you sneaky bugger get in my heart?” He’s got a similar vibe as Johnny AND DO NOT COME FOR MY THROAT FOR SAYING THAT THATS MY OPINION Like Johnny, I see myself in Ten. There are so many reasons why I love Ten, so I’ll make it simple and provide them to you.

Reason 1 - Performance/dance he just hit different, he’s THAT good. Reason 2 - vocals the amount his vocals has improved?? UNMATCHED. Reason 3 - INTELLECTUAL (still trying to find the clip of him talking about different kinds of love) Reason 4 - multi-lingual KING ok so this vid is him struggling in mandarin, but imagine, you speak thai and english and learn korean to debut and all of a sudden your agency says “ok learn chinese now.” MANDARIN IS ONE OF THE HARDEST LANGUAGES TO LEARN. Reason 5 - bad b*tch he just radiates bad bitxh energy in everything he does, and I appreciate a bad bitxh

BUT I love wayv’s chaotic energy and chemistry so much that I literally love them all dreamies watch out

+special shoutout to xiaojuns vocals in Love Talk

+kun being a dimpled zaddy (jaehyun&kun type CONFIRMED)

+lucas holding binoculars like THAT @ 1:10

+yangx2 doing THIS (prepare to be blown away)

+hendery being a the best teacher

+winwin BEING WINWIN THE DANCE GOD

+winwin AGAIN and with Ten here i don’t even think i have to say that i tweeted about this everyday for a month and im still not over it. This specific dance really allowed winwin to shine even though ten is my bias. It really allowed others to see the fruit of his classical training even in modern dance which he never trained in. Not gonna be repetitive and SCREAM say that he’s underrated, because we all know that already. Just show winwin some love, ok? thank you.

And so finally, we’ve reached the end. Phew, this took me almost 5 hours to put together because I definitely got carried away. For those who made it all the way to the end, thank you, I love you. It’s so messy and I don’t have the mental capacity to do anymore editing but I hope you got something from this massive post <3 Feel free to let me know what you think! xoxo, jewel

#jewel-s-blog about me #jewel-s-blog bias list #jewel-s-blog

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faithinhopes · 5 years

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The big black dog aka Depression

I don't think i have had soo many friends suffer with depression as i have now. And these are God believing, Jesus loving, all in christians. For years i couldnt understand why people couldn't get their s**t together and get over it........yep i know, totally immature way of thinking! But i think the way i used to think was how alot of believers think of people with 'mental health' issues.....but the pendulum has now swung the opposite direction where we help those people stay in their depression because weve been taught that theres nothing they can do about it....that this is an illness or a disease that will never go or God needs to perform a miracle and heal.

Last year the Lord revealed a revelation to me. I always questioned why some people get miraculously healed whilst some don't. I just couldn't get my head around it. Then the Lord spoke and this is the jist of it. When he created the world he created it already knowing what was guna happen in the fall, the need to send Jesus on a mission to unite mankind with their creator, even the end times. He knew it all. So in creation he has placed patterns which can restore/heal our bodies. Now we mostly think of that through the realm of medicines and docters etc. But there is more to Gods pattern of healing than medicine or the miraculous. Theres food, environment, habits, sleep.....so many factors. So a couple of months ago i wanted to get to know the black dog....how he functions and behaves because i want to be more helpful in seeing my friends through this illness. Ive read endless blogs and podcasts by caroline leaf, ive waded through scientific papers of the latest research from all over the world, ive talked to friends who suffer with depression and those who dont....and even though i know im no expert at this, i think ive come to some conclusion about it.

Depression are down days that have turned into a pattern.

For instance, say your body doesnt like gluten and you get bad reactions in your body from it.....it gives you short term pleasure and then you crave even more, it becomes a habit that effects your brain. Being addicted to something means you require it to settle a misfiring in your brain. The more gluten laden products you eat, the more you crave and this effects your brain function causing you to feel depressed because your brain is functioning off something it doesnt like.

Take your environment.....if you hate your job the negativity can effect your brain! You get tired and lethargic and have reactions to an environment which isnt having a positive effect on you.....yet day after day you form the habit of fear and anxiety over going to work.....you form a pattern.

Depression cannot be broken by dealing with depression. It has to be dealt with by breaking the pattern.

If you wake up feeling down then that's an indicator of something being off.....deal with the down day by doing the opposite, do the positive and not crave into the negative. Cry it out and talk about it to your trusted friends straight away! You can stop a pattern from forming!

If you are already in the grips of depression....sit down with a pen and paper and start being honest with yourself. You will not be able to figure out whether your depression is a clinical problem unless you clear the deck of the clutter in your brain.

Whats your diet like? Are you overweight? Do you like your job? Is your house messy? Do you have unresolved issues in your past? And the list goes on.......

Then start tackling them one by one. And get your friends in on it too! If your diet is aweful.....start researching diets that help mental health. If your overweight start changing your diet and moving more, if your house is messy start cleaning it up and decluttering, if your struggling with past things youve been through, talk to someone, even a councillor. If your lethargic in getting projects done, write a plan of how to do it and start with number 1.

If youve exhausted every avenue and still the black dog is there then you need to see your gp! But the majority of people who suffer with depression do so because of patterns.

The biggest pattern ive seen which sooo many youth fall into is the one of beauty. They get depressed because they hate the way they look. They go on instagram and see these beautiful 'edited' models and watch love island with half naked people showing off their toned bodies! If you want to feel better about your body....break the pattern. Get off instagram, dont watch love island, start watching and looking at things that edify individuallity and authenticity! What you are looking at on tv and the gram is not real.....it can become addictive because we love seeing glamour and imagining a 'better' lifestyle....but its fake! Its a false happiness. Why do you think soo many celebrities turn to drugs and alcohol! BREAK THE PATTERN.

If we take personal responsibility for how we react to our down days......btw everyone gets down days......then we have the power to stop depression forming!

Yes i know its hard. But it cant be harder than dragging the black dog around with you every day, every moment. Honestly, life can be amazing, but we have to form good patterns that help our brains to overcome lifes challenges. Our brains are soo complex and clever....if we feed it correctly, we can overcome.

Soo let me encourage you.....just try it! What have you got to lose! Remember, this starts with being brutally honest with yourself.... Now go ahead, you can do this!!!

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themoneybuff-blog · 5 years

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Why financial literacy fails (and what to do about it)

April is Financial Literacy Month in the United States. This is a pure and noble thing. I think it's great that there's one month each year devoted to promoting smart money habits. That said, it has become increasingly apparent over the years that most financial literacy programs fail. They don't work. And this isn't just me speaking anecdotally. In a 2014 paper from Management Science, three researchers conducted a meta-analysis of 201 prior studies regarding the efficacy of financial literacy. Their conclusion? Interventions to improve financial literacy explain only 0.1% of the variance in financial behaviors studied, with weaker effects in low-income samples. Like other education, financial education decays over time; even large interventions with many hours of instruction have negligible effects on behavior 20 months or more from the time of intervention. To put it in plain English, financial literacy education makes no discernible difference in behavior. People who take personal-finance classes manage their money no better (and no worse) than the general population. We're pumping tons of money and time into a fruitless endeavor. All of this push to promote financial literacy accomplishes nothing. Zero. Nada. Why is that?

It probably won't surprise you to learn that I have some strong opinions on this subject. Today, let's talk about why financial literacy fails (and what to do about it). Note: This afternoon (April 24th) at 4 p.m. Pacific (7 p.m. Eastern), I'll be part of a Facebook Live interview about this very subject. If you're free at that time, you should join us! Update: Here's the entire interview. Why Financial Literacy Fails Financial literacy fails because it almost universally addresses only one part of the problem: math and mechanics. FinLit (as it's sometimes called) focuses on facts and figures while largely ignoring behavior. This is insane. This is like promoting sex education that talks about penises and vaginas while never discussing what it's like to be madly in love with somebody, so in love that your brain stops working. For sex education to be effective, it has to deal with real-world circumstances and behavior. It has to teach about psychology and emotions, not just body parts. The same is true with financial literacy. In fact, the same is true with actual literacy. The National Assessment of Adult Literacy says that working literacy has two components. The operational piece of literacy focuses solely on knowledge. It involves word-level reading skills such as recognizing words.The conceptual piece of literacy focuses on everyday tasks: Literacy is the ability to use printed and written information to function in society, to achieve one's goals, and to develop one's knowledge and potential. The first part of literacy is about mechanics. The second part is about practical application. Modern financial literacy efforts spend nearly all of their time on the knowledge piece. I've reviewed maybe a dozen FinLit programs over the years. Most pay no more than lip service to behavior, to the conceptual piece of financial literacy. Let me give you an example from my own life. When I was in high school (w-a-y back in the mid-1980s), every senior in our district was required to pass a class in personal finance. It covered topics like compound interest, the Federal Reserve, how to write a check, and the dangers of credit cards. I took that class. I aced every test. And five years later, I had the beginnings of a debt habit. I'd mastered the knowledge but not he behavior. The behavior was never taught. From what I can tell, the kids from my high school grew up to be no different than the rest of Americans. We learned the basics of financial literacy, but it had no perceivable impact on the way we saved and spent and earned. We still made stupid mistakes. We still spent more than we earned. Why? Because facts and figurs are only one-half of financial literacy. (And I'd argue they aren't even the most important half.) The solution to financial literacy isn't to feed people more facts and figures. It isn't to teach them how bonds work or to explain the sheer awesomeness of a Roth IRA. If we want to boost financial literacy in the United States, what we really need to promote is behavioral education. Behavioral Finance Personal finance is simple. Fundamentally, you need to know only one thing: To build wealth, you must spend less than you earn. The end. That's it. We can all go home now. Everything else simply builds on this. Why, then, is it so hard for everyone to get ahead? For some people, the problem is systemic. There's no doubt that some people are trapped in a cycle of poverty, and they truly need outside help to overcome the obstacles they face. But for most of us, the issue is internal: The problem is us. In other words, I am the reason that I can't get ahead. And you are the reason that you can't get ahead. It's not a lack of knowledge about compounding and credit cards that holds us back, but a chain of bad behavior. The math and mechanics of personal finance are easy. It's the psychological side of money that's hard. One of the key tenets of this site is that money is more about mind than it is about math. That is, our financial success isn't determined by how smart we are with numbers, but how well we're able to control our emotions our wants and desires. There's actually a branch of economics called behavioral finance devoted exclusively to this phenomenon, exploring the interplay between economic theory and psychological reality. There's a new wave of folks who are exploring the gamification of personal finance; they're trying to turn money management into a game. More and more, experts are seeing that our economic decisions aren't based on logic, but on emotion and desire. It's time that financial literacy programs incorporated these new(-ish) approaches into their curriculum. For years, I struggled with money. I knew the math, but I still couldnt seem to defeat debt. It wasnt until I started applying psychology to the situation that I was able to make changes. For instance, I used the debt snowball to pay down my debt in an illogical yet psychologically satisfying way. It worked. And Ive learned that by having financial goals such as travel Im much more inclined to save than if I have no goals at all. Behavioral Literacy

To me, the answer to our country's crazed consumerism and poor financial skills has nothing to do with traditional financial literacy. (Okay, maybe it has a little to do with traditional financial literacy.) Instead, I see two fundamental problems that need to be addressed. First, we soak in a bath of the mass media. We're constantly exposed to a barrage of programming in which we're given subtle messages about what people do (or should) consume. We cannot help but be influenced by the power of marketing. (I've talked to many people who think they're immune to marketing. I just shake my head and think, You, my friend, are the most influenced of all.)Secondly, we don't think about our spending. We spend on impulse. Or we spend to subconsciously keep up with our family and friends to keep up with the Joneses. We spend to make ourselves feel better when we're down and blue. We spend to show off. We spend on things we think we want instead of the things we actually use and do. We spend because spending is a habit. Instead of teaching Americans about credit cards and rates of return, we need to be teaching them about behavioral finance. We need to be showing them how to break free from the marketing messages that are all around. We need to be showing them how to set (and achieve) personal goals, especially financial goals. We need to teach skills like conscious spending. There's a reason that my core message doesn't start with math and mechanics. It starts by asking people to think about their goals and purpose. This is the piece of financial education that's missing in our society. This is what financial literacy education ought to be teaching. Note: For a clear demonstration of how I'd approach financial literacy if I were to design a program, check out my Money Boss Manifesto. It's a free ebook that outlines the financial philosophy I've developed after nearly fifteen years of reading and writing about money. The Bottom Line Sometimes people wonder why we don't spend more time on the nitty gritty of money around here. Why we don't cover more topics like where to find the best credit cards or how to create a budget? It's because deep inside, I believe these things are secondary. I believe behavior is more important. Building a better budget isn't going to change your attitude toward saving and spending; but changing you attitude toward saving and spending could very well lead you to building a better budget. Ultimately, if we want Americans to be smarter with their money, we need to encourage them to consume less media to avoid advertising and we need to teach them to master the emotional side of personal finance. We need to show them how to change their behavior. We need to appeal to their self-interest. We need to help them find intrinsic motivation to save. Each of us needs to dig deep inside to find what it is that's important to us, what it is that brings us joy, and we need to prioritize that instead of all the other garbage. I'm not suggesting that we abandon traditional financial literacy completely. But I think a constant push for more financial education is a waste of time if it's only going to focus on mechanics, to stick to facts and figures. To truly be successful, financial education has to address the behavioral side of money because that is absolutely the biggest piece of the puzzle.

Author: J.D. Roth In 2006, J.D. founded Get Rich Slowly to document his quest to get out of debt. Over time, he learned how to save and how to invest. Today, he's managed to reach early retirement! He wants to help you master your money and your life. No scams. No gimmicks. Just smart money advice to help you reach your goals. https://www.getrichslowly.org/why-financial-literacy-fails-and-what-to-do-about-it/

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