#might delete later.

[sofasoap]

From that recent discovery about some of the actors ( 😔😭) I wanna make a post about I am feeling bit unsafe staying in this fandom. Even though I had talk with some moots abt separating reality and VS fiction. Which I am pretty good at doing.

With what's going on in the world at moment I feel pressured and obliged to show my stance.

I feel like it's triggering my anxiety and it doesn't help with my mental state lately.

And looking at what happen to ppl I know leaving tumblr and the fandom all together, because of anon and ppl attacking them no matter how much they clarify themselves I kinda scared posting anything or not saying anything. No matter what you do. You can't make ppl happy.

And to tell the truth? I am actually scared some of you will come and attack me for saying things like I am standing with civilians and not the governments. The innocent ppl who unwillingly getting dragged into the conflict.

I am now half thinking of taking a hiatus or pulling back from fandom and tumblr because of this.

#Sofasoap rambles #Might delete later.

[mybodyisaclowncar]

I'm sad. I made a vent post on a recovery forum that was taken down for being too triggering. It's the first time i opened up about some of the stuff I was forced to do as a kid when I was abused

I'm so fucking tired of having to put trigger warnings on my life story. I'm so tired of not knowing how much is too much to share because my standard of bad is so far from "normal". I'm so tired of being asked to share less in group therapy and with friends. I never want to hurt or trigger anyone and I tag everything throughly but that still isn't enough to warn people about the shit ive been through

I have like 2 friends and my therapist but that's it. I have so few people I can talk to about the abuse and the programming and all the awful shut that happened. I'm constantly terrified of being rejected for being too much. Too traumatized, too sad, too broken.

I can't be the only one right? Cause this is such an isolating feeling and I don't know what I'm gonna do. I had 1 person who listened to everything I said about any of the abuse but they used it against me (long story). I feel so lost and alone I hate it. I'm sorry if I seem like an attention whore just please tell me I'm not alone, that even 1 other person gets it

#programmed did #tw programming #ramcoa #forced perpetration #idk how to tag this #might delete later.

[1ce0asis]

messy thoughts that have been running through my mind ever since last night. wanted to get it out of my system.

#vent art #philippines #halalan2022 #eleksyon 2022 #my art #might delete later. #ok to rb #tagaloging

[rhineposting]

i don't see enough people talking about that feeling when you see someone you knew once pop up on your social media. especially if it's someone who unknowingly contributed to who you are as a person now, if at their own cost.

what would they think of you now? would they like the person you became? is reaching out again a good idea? none of that matters. life went on for them, just like it went on for you. chances are, they don't even think about you anymore.

it's insane how someone could be of monumental importance to your life, but to them you could be merely a fleeting moment of little consequence in theirs. and, sadly, sometimes that's for the better, I think.

#this one goes to all the kids who used to latch onto and idolize adults in their fandoms yet still wanting to be on the same level. #this goes to all the adults who had clueless kids clawing up their legs and inviting themselves to spaces where they weren't welcome #and forming weird and unhealthy relationships with them in the process that were best off nipped in the bud. #really sucks how growth occurs only when it's already years too late to fix the harm done and all you can do is feel guilty #and just. hoping from afar that the person is happier now without you in their life. #man. #rhine rambling tag #might delete later.

[littledeadling]

Poem I never posted. Thought maybe I should

#poetry #idk how to tag this... #death tw #I’ve gone back and forth on sharing this for years I’m still not sure if I should just keep this to myself #might delete later.

[catsxratsxbats]

Dogs, cannibalism, undescribed feelings

Animal Cannibal (Possibly in Michigan) by Karen Skladany / Cop Car by Mitski / Putting the Dog to Sleep by The Antlers / Cannibal Queen by Miniature Tigers / Cannibal by Tally Hall / I Bet on Losing Dogs by Mitski

#the mood today for some reason #web weaving #internet poetry #hannibalcore #tw animal death #might delete later.

[mieczyhale]

"I think a lot of settler vegans view meat as murder is because they cannot get past their colonial-" A lot of vegans view meat as murder because it involves killing a living being.

That's it. That's literally it.

If you listen to a large amount of vegans or vegetarians THAT is going to be their biggest point. Its that an animal is being killed, and then added to that is: in too many cases the animal is mistreated before being killed. Its more often than not from a place of love for animals and not wanting them to be harmed, and a mistrust of the systems that get food and product out to people. That's why it isn't just not eating meat - its also not consuming any products from an animal / that were tested on an animal

Not to say that mindset doesnt exist here, i’m not gonna pretend to know shit i dont know, but i can speak for what i do know and that includes the thoughts of the anti-meat people i’ve known in my life / seen posting about their beliefs online

I was a vegetarian with vegan friends for 2 years. That's no longer my thing, i ended up in too bad a place to maintain it, but my love for animals is why I started in the first place. I don’t want people to die for any reason, i don’t want animals to die for any reason. I know all things in creation help each other, there’s hella mutually beneficial shit going on all the time in nature, but that doesn't make the idea of killing or causing suffering less shitty. (NOT that all the animals killed for meat suffer, there are of course good farms with humane practices, but when bad ones exist - and there are people who do shit like hurting animals for fun and lies & corruption exist in every system - it’s hard to not generalize the whole deal)

Maybe some people don’t want to eat an animal that was killed specifically to be eaten because they view it all differently than you do, or they have their own emotions or values tied to the concept. Maybe for some people it would be like eating their pet. I don’t think there’s anything wrong with viewing meat as murder, or with not wanting to eat meat. I don’t think it becomes a problem until A. you try to force it on other people B. your views are actively harmful. Like being against taking bees honey or not sheering sheep.

Idk man i don’t see why there’s posts that crop up about vegan attitudes but no one ever talks about how shitty some anti-vegan attitudes are. This isnt a one-way dumpster yknow?? Have you ever seen someone who is eating meat talk horribly about the animal it came from?? Take pride in their death or make jokes about it to intentionally upset those who might be sensitive to when it comes to the topic of animals?? Because I have. More than once. Maybe we can talk about why people who eat meat feel the need to tear down and hurt those who, for whatever reason, choose not to. What mentality from the olden days are they stuck on, babes?? (besides ‘the toxic masculine one’)

#just rambling/venting #might delete later. #bc my brain is everywhere and nowhere right now #sometimes you are right. yes. #but sometimes things are not that deep #idk the op just rubbed me the wrong way. and ive been sitting with my unorganized thoughts trying to explain it / why #i dont think i did a great job of it but at least its out of me and now i can chill lmao #going to watch reaction vids on youtube for awhile #maison speaks

[kickbutts-singsongs]

Okay I’m not really a part of this fandom but I’ve been following along cuz it looks kinda cool

So I do wanna say that I noticed smth in the last episode of Hazbin Hotel involving Alastor?

Like it’s canonical that he’s never not smiling right? But I was watching his fight with Adam again and I saw this:

His shadowwwww was FROWNINGGGGG

But then it corrects itself like half a second later!!

It’s a blink-and-you-miss-it moment:

#is this anything? #has anyone already noticed this? #might delete later #hazbin hotel #hazbin alastor #alastor #vivziepop #1k #2k #3k #5k #10k #< holy crap? #i don’t even go here guys

[ellevandersneed]

I'll be real the second any trans person shows up on my dash making any kind of post generalizing transmasc or transfemme people negatively i check out. literally don't care if the evil trans woman or evil trans man said something upsetting to you or you've had bad experiences with a particular group of people; the generalization shit is lame, being defensive about it is lame, you are literally smarter than this - stop, reflect, take some deep breaths, go do something else

#vent #its so stupid #this wont change minds but this has been in my head for a bit #might delete later

[dxkjf]

they drive me absolutely mad

#i might delete this later idk #GET ME OUT OF HERE GET ME OUT #they make me deathly ill. im ill. #welcome home #welcome home fanart #frank frankly #eddie dear #frank x eddie #welcome home frank #welcome home eddie #fanart

[beybuniki]

checking in on everyone

#definitely going to delete this later or tmrw but i like th all might one i wanna do that one properlyyyy #bnha #midoriya izuku #deku #bakugo katsuki #<- he is used to it atp #todoroki shoto #<- he is so easily overwhelmed by affectionnaoughhhh #uraraka ochako #<- she knows how to reciprocate the affection <3 #all might #toshinori yagi #<- A DADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD #a tired dad :)))))

[orphetoon]

(bug like an angel - mitski)

zelda fans is this. anything

#totk #totk spoilers #zelda #legend of zelda #link #queen sonia #orphe’s art #i am reluctantly drawing totk again #there were two more panels but i dont think they flowed well #might delete later honestly

[teatreeoilll]

If you were to ask Gojo Satoru who his first kiss was, he would always say it was you - making everyone at the dinner table, party, or bar look up at him with dreamy eyes while mouthing small awws and oohs to match.

And you’d sit there in silence, listening to him tell that blatant lie as your face grew red and your heart threatened to burst out of your chest, knowing that he had, in fact, kissed many girls before; whether they pressed their lips to his in high school parties, or grinded against him in clubs until finally shoving their tongues in his mouth; he had already done it plenty of times before he had ever laid eyes on you.

But on some drowsy night, when the thought first popped in his head, he muttered the words into the air like a prayer, “You know you were my first kiss, right?”

And he pouted when you laughed at what you felt was the nth joke of the day, until he started softly explaining that each kiss before you had never felt like what a kiss was supposed to be like; That when for the first time you finally found the courage to grab his face and press your lips to his, he knew the true terror of kissing. How he was scared that his tongue was too deep in your mouth even though he wanted to push it deeper and deeper, and how when you smiled against his lips, his stomach did cartwheels for hours after it ended.

“You don’t get to choose these things, Satoru.” You reprimanded, but never corrected him once.

#gojo x reader #gojo satoru x reader #gojo satoru x you #jjk gojo #satoru gojo x reader #gojou satoru x reader #gojo satoru #jjk fanfic #jjk x reader #jujutsu kaisen x you #jujutsu kaisen x reader #gojo x y/n #gojo x you #gojo kissy drabble while i’m falling asleep #felt cute might delete later #jjk headcanons

[wearenotjustnumbers2]

Hello, a little rant here. I don't know whether people are becoming insensitive or I'm just taking things very seriously these times, but I beg of you, when I post about an update on the situation in Gaza, or about a lost life or any piece of news that is most likely horrifying and heartbreaking, do not repost or reblog with "yikes" or "real bullshit" or whatever goes in the same line. It just makes it seem so trivial when in fact it's world-shattering. Not to mention the horrible edits I see on Instagram/tiktok.

I literally came across an "Instagram reel" of my friend's UNCLE (who lost three of his kids, and was saying his goodbyes while they were in body bags), it was edited into a reel, with the effects and changing colors and the trending sound of the song "daylight by David kushner". I was speechless.

I know people show their solidarity differently, I know this. Especially through music, I've literally been listening to Samer songs as well as "Telk Qadieah", etc. But the edit I saw was way too much. I don't know how to explain it, because I've seen many reels of Palestinians in Gaza grieving and I thought it's important to share them but this one is different. It was like the edits you'd make for characters from a TV show or movie that died or had a sad storyline.

I don't know, maybe I'm overreacting but I genuinely feel like I'm going crazy. With everything going on and how it seems like some people are living in a parallel world rn.

I hope I don't get misunderstood, I'm not talking about the general clips with sometimes sad songs on them, I'm talking about certain edits the people started to make that are so weird and insensitive. Like the people they're editing aren't real, like they're some entertainment material.

#I'm not good with words honestly i just am tired #i might even delete this later bc i never share personal stuff here but still #text post #gaza #palestine

[marinatedsaltea]

Oh lord he coming

#transformers #transformers animated #tfa #tfa doodle #tfa memes #tfa shockwave #tf shockwave #this is old af so I do not remember the context at all #might delete later

[hoshizoralone]

began playing halo and cortana is probably my new best friend

#lonescribble #i might delete this later cuz its so rough but i really like her #in my head while playing im like fuckkkkkk i wish metroid games lowkey had a quirky qhite girl talking at samus the whole game… #halo #cortana