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#my attachment to fictional characters is unhealthy
black-fairy3 Β· 2 years
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so i was going through the photos on my ipad (i ran out of storage🫠) and seeing all of the fandoms i use to be apart of is making me very emotional like… I MISS MY JULIE AND THE PHANTOMS ERAπŸ₯ΉπŸ₯Ή
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like there was just something so comforting about this show ugh and the cast!!! they were all so funny and genuinely had love for each other. I wanted to be apart of their friendship SO BAD!!!!
Owen and Charlie live: October 7th 2020 the way i can still quote this video is actually really crazy i was so in love with these white boys😭 (specifically owen☺️)
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like look at this fine manπŸ₯΅
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Charlie, Owen, and Jeremy live: January 29th 2021 AND THIS LIVE IS SO SPECIAL TO ME!!! i remember not attending my zoom classes because charlie said he was going live😭😭😭and then the one later that day had me crying and smiling at my screen so hardπŸ₯Ή
AND MADI IS SO TALENTED AND SUCH A QUEEN AND BEST BELIEVE WHEN HER EP DROPS ON JUNE 3 IMMA EAT IT UP!!!!!!
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i wish n*tflix had never cancelled it but i’m still holding out hope :,)
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ANYWAY I’M ABOUT TO GO STREAM THE SHOW AND THE SOUNDTRACK FOR THE 100TH TIME!!!! πŸ’œπŸ’œπŸ’œπŸ’œπŸ’œπŸ’œπŸ’œπŸ’œπŸ’œπŸ’œπŸ’œπŸ’œπŸ’œπŸ’œπŸ’œ
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rabid-invertibrate Β· 1 year
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The absolute state of the lack of garmadon content is a travesty of catastrophic consequence
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the5n00k Β· 1 month
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At the point in hyperfixation on a fictional character that I've started talking like him over text help help me I have no personality I just become whomever I'm currently obsessed with
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fourthwonton Β· 1 year
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Hi, I'm Fourthwonton and onion-esque media has me in a chokehold
*onion-esque media refers to media that seems like a fun, fluffy show to watch on a Friday evening at first sight but it has many layers so you write a new analysis after every rewatch and you now sob every time you think of it.
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sleep-tight-pupper Β· 3 months
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MY BALDUR'S GATE CANDLES FROM @PLANESHIFTCANDLES CAME IN TODAY THEYRE SO GOOOODD AAAHHHHH
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jazzedpunk Β· 1 year
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i am simply squeeing, exploding, stimming until i fly away from flapping my hands so much-
Nick Lightbearer my woefully beloved…
(model originally posted by RealMoonlight on DeviantArt, uploaded to VRChat by me)
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basicallyafool Β· 2 years
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This is going to be a bit of a vent, but i just really really REALLY don't want robotnik to actually die. I know someone else already mentioned this but idc if he's just away on vacation or whatever, but it would shatter me if i have to witness stone realize that he will never see his doctor ever again. I highly doubt this will happen, but yet again i just really want jim carrey to come back just one last time, even if he's just on screen for less time than in the 2nd movie. All I really want is for robotnik and stone to continue being a weird evil duo in the third movie, not even expecting them be on screen much or for their ship to be "confirmed" (implied, but i highly doubt it will be confirmed confirmed). Is that too much to ask for, jeff fowler? (And I l know it's also really not in the director's hands whether jim carrey chooses to retire or not, so I really don't want to get my hopes up but at the same time i physically cannot not get my hopes up.
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travellermp3 Β· 2 years
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currently playing the last of us and i've decided that if i never play the second game joel never....ya know....kicks the bucket....right?
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my mom asked me what i was doing & i told her i was studying. i am in fact writing border-line smut
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supemaeve Β· 4 months
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Sometimes some time passes and I start thinking that my hiperfixation is fading or slowly going away and then I suddenly get hit with feels and I realize it's coming back ten times stronger.
I don't know how I will manage to keep it up when I run out of fics, knowing that there's no more new "content" coming and that the "fandom" is almost gone but I will try! I don't want her to go away, I miss her so much 😭
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ts-witchy-archive Β· 2 months
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I’m a Hestia Devotee…
I’m a Hestia devotee, of course I bake instead of dealing with my feelings!
I’m a Hestia devotee, of course I am/used to be the therapist friend!
I’m a Hestia devotee, of course I have an extensive blanket collection!
I’m a Hestia devotee, of course autumn is my favourite season!
I’m a Hestia devotee, of course quality time/physical touch is my love language!
I’m a Hestia devotee, of course I own 500 candles!
I’m a Hestia devotee, of course I get really sad when people forget that she played a huge role in Ancient Greek society!
I’m a Hestia devotee, of course I LOVE fire and fireplaces!
I’m a Hestia devotee, of course I get confused when I google her and an anime girl shows up in the results!
I’m a Hestia devotee, of course I have an unhealthy attachment to fictional characters!
I’m a Hestia devotee, of course I wing like 70% of my practice but still appear to be organised!
I’m a Hestia devotee, of course I have multiple Pinterest boards dedicated to cozy autumn aesthetics!
(Inspired by @mars-and-the-theoi)
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a brief retrospective on Louis and Violet as love interests, Clementine's bisexuality, and the fandom's continued insistence on fighting over this
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In December of 2019, I made a series of posts called "An Explanation of Why Louis and Violet are Both Excellent Love Interests" that explored my feelings on the topic after seeing a lot of fighting in the fandom over who's better; who is the "right" choice for Clementine?
The answer is simple: there isn't an objectively correct choice.
I compared Louis and Violet to the romantic options in other games, including Life is Strange, Persona 4, King's Quest 2015, and Catherine, as well as TWDG: A New Frontier. I wanted to show how much better TFS handled the romance versus those games, why we should be grateful for what we got since it could've been a lot worse, and how the fighting over who's "right" was a waste of time.
I suppose it's only fitting that I'd be driven to revisit this topic after seeing fans continue to argue amongst themselves over this years later in the trenches of a weakening fandom.
Just when I think I'm done writing pieces for TWDG, some random redditor writes an essay about how violentine only exists for "woke points" that grabs me by the throat and throws me down. Then another will insist that clouis is abusive since Louis voted against them in ep2 in their own essay and I'm dragged back here, kicking and screaming.
While I think my previous Excellent Love Interests posts about this are on the juvenile side, I do still agree with my main point: Louis and Violet are excellent characters who make for compelling love interests. The fact that we got them both, that we were given the choice, and that they're as well done as they are, is something I don't think we appreciate enough. Hell, I don't think we even appreciate that Clementine's a canonically bisexual protagonist as much as we should.
We're too busy trying to one up each other with, "Well, actually, clouis is superior because of this and this," and "no, you're wrong, violentine is actually better because of this and this," and sometimes a wild non-shipper will appear out of nowhere to slap down an, "actually, you both suck, singletine is better."
It's sad that this is what fandom inevitably defaults to, always. It stops being about the game we love, the thing that brought us here, and it becomes a pissing match.
Doesn't matter what fandom it is; we end up projecting too much of ourselves onto fictional characters, investing too much of our time into ship culture, hyper-fixating until it becomes part of us... and let's be real, sometimes it's in unhealthy ways.
So, when someone else attacks the things we're attached to, it becomes a personal attack... and when we feel threatened, we become defensive and retaliate... and sometimes, we take it too far and target others out of insecurity, to feel validated, even if it means going after someone who is just minding their own business.
Also, I think some people are just assholes who want to piss on everyone.
Because of this, I would like to discuss Louis and Violet as romanceable characters, why they're both important to TFS no matter who you choose, why Clementine being a bisexual protagonist matters, and the fandom's continued insistence on fighting over this.
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For many personal reasons, I've always been trepid about being open with my sexuality as a bi woman. I've done a lot of reflection this year on why that is; internalized misogyny, the biphobia that lingers in the queer community, insecurities, regrets, how I tend to be harsher on female characters over male characters, why it took me so long to not feel afraid of engaging with queer media, admitting I was wrong about so many things I've said in the past, how it's all affected my writing, etc.
When TFS released and I made this blog, I had already accepted my bisexuality but was in no way public about it, not online or in my personal life. But playing the first two episode of TFS, being presented with both Louis and Violet as potential romantic partners struck something inside of me.
Yes, I picked Louis; we all know I'm a major clouis shipper at this point, and if you're new here, then now you know, too.
But it's the fact that Violet's also an option, that with just a few different button presses, Clementine could've fallen for her just as she did with Louis; that there's evidence in game that she shows interested in both of them no matter your choices; that no one in-game judges Clementine for who she chooses to be with... that meant something to me in a way that it hadn't before.
TFS wasn't the first game I played with a bi protagonist; in Excellent Love Interests, I compared Louis and Violet to Life is Strange's Chloe and Warren. I have a lot of mixed feelings about the first LiS game overall, but I've been quite open about my dislike of Chloe and indifference to Warren.
Chloe, to me, is everything I dislike in a love interest, predominately in wlw. 2023 was the year of "CJ dives into sapphic literature and it's a 50/50 chance of striking gold or gettin' hella eaten by disappointment, shaka brah." Meaning I've read a lot of wlw novels, and all the ones I hated featured a Chloe clone, sometimes done even worse.
And Warren? I'll be real honest with you- I couldn't even remember what his name was when I started writing this. I had to go back and check. That tells you what I think of him, no?
So, LiS didn't strike me the same way. Sure, I knew Max was a bi protagonist and that's great, but the choices weren't appealing to me. This was when I was a teenager still somewhat in denial of my sexuality, which most definitely contributed to me being uncomfortable when faced with a wlw relationship portrayed in-game, especially when I found myself wishing Kate was an option for Max... but y'know, "shhhhhhh if I don't acknowledge it, it doesn't exist."
When the first episode of TFS released, I was older, I was no longer in a not-so-great relationship, and had better accepted who I am. The first episode does a great job of introducing you to Louis and Violet, and giving you the opportunity to spend more time with the one you're interested in.
I actually really liked them both when ep1 dropped, but I've always had a preference for a character who is kind, deflects with humor, and tends to be picked on by the rest of the cast... so it was inevitable that I'd stick with Louis. Though I won't discredit Violet in ep1, or the rest of the game, just because I didn't choose her in the end.
That's one of the best things about Louis and Violet as options; they're opposites, yet alike in many ways. They have their appeals and charms. They're flawed. It never feels like a "love triangle" situation where they're fighting over Clementine. Louis and Violet are friends who have known each other from before the walkers came. It's refreshing to have two characters who are interested in the same person but don't go for each other's throats over it. When they do argue over her, it's more to do with AJ shooting Marlon and whether it's safe for the group to let them stay.
I can't fault anyone who struggled to pick between them. When someone talks about who they picked and why, it's all about the player's preferences.
It's your choice to make, and no matter what, you're not wrong for it.
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This season concludes Clementine's story, regardless of what some comics will say. It's the last fight. It's her happy ending. She and AJ finally found a home, a family.
I've played these games since S1 came out in 2012, over ten years ago. Clementine holds a special place in my heart. Not only did this important character have a great final season [despite Telltale shutting down and TFS nearly being left incomplete, remember] but she's also revealed to be canonically bisexual.
They didn't release the whole season and then as an afterthought be like, "oh yeah btw she's bi, she has oneline of flirty dialogue with this character so see? we did good rep."
Yeah, I'm side eyeing you, ANF.
They didn't try to hide it. They presented it to the player unapologetically and made a conscious decision to exclude anything biphobic from other characters... which meant a lot to me.
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Biphobia is real and it's not that I don't want it explored well in media, but there's something appealing and safe about a game with a bisexual main character who isn't questioned about it negatively; "You're bi? Doesn't that mean you cheat on all your partners?"
To give a compliment to Life is Strange: True Colors, I had a similar feeling in that game, too. Alex is openly bi, she can date either Steph or Ryan and no one questions the "legitimacy" of her bisexuality.
Because that's always a thing on top of everything else, y'know? "You're a bad bi unless you're with the 'gayer option.'" "Bisexuality isn't real, you're just confused." "I don't date girls who've been tainted by a man." "Oh, you're into girls? How about a threesome?"
Violet never turns her nose up at Clementine for admitting she had a crush on Gabe. Louis isn't ever gross about Clementine and Violet getting close. It speaks volumes for their characters and how accepting they, and everyone else at Ericson, are of Clementine no matter who she chooses, if anyone.
That acceptance, even if it's just in a game, means more than words can express to queer players who don't feel that acceptance in their daily lives.
Which means it hurts all the more when it comes to the fandom's own display of biphobia; "You're bi but ship clouis? Why ship something hetero when violentine is right there?" "Well, MY Clementine's straight because she picked Louis! Stop forcing the gay onto MY Clementine!"
Clementine's important to all of us. Why do you think so many people are pissed about the comics to the point of spewing disgusting bile toward Tillie Walden? I've said my piece on that plenty times before, so allow me to say it on this; the representation of bisexuality in Clementine is beautifully woven through TFS in ways that are subtle yet impactful, and I thank TFS for giving that to us.
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One argument I've come across recently against Clementine's bisexuality, and violentine in general: "blegh they only included violentine/made Clem bi for lgbt points." y'know... as if that's a bad thing.
It bothers me because A. saying "I'm not homophobic *but*-" and then making a homophobic argument against violentine while insisting that Clementine's bisexuality came out of nowhere and was forced is icky, and B. I know I've said similar things about violentine in the past. I know I used to argue that violentine's underdeveloped, yet the devs pushed it to the forefront over clouis to pat themselves on the back for doing representation, etc.
I don't believe that anymore; remember when I brought up people making arguments out of insecurity? Yeah, that and being lowkey bitter that violentine got more dev attention than clouis sometimes even though like... that doesn't matter? It literally doesn't matter. That's what I meant when I said you get so invested that certain things feel like a personal attack when they're not.
Some of the developers of TFS are queer people. They probably wanted a bi protagonist with a wlw option because that representation is important to them and they had the opportunity to express it, not because they were trying to get "points" with anyone. Go listen to the commentaries for TFS; they talk about violentine with nothing but positivity, and they didn't do that to shade Louis or clouis shippers. And if you do think they did it shade fans, then maybe stop and consider why; do you actually believe that or are you annoyed that your fave wasn't the center of attention?
On the flip side, I also want to say that gloating and insisting that violentine is the better/right choice because of these things is also unpleasant and untrue. It sucks when it feels like things are biased against you and it sucks even more when that bias is weaponized by other fans to beat you down.
But honestly? If you need this much validation on your opinions about fictional characters, maybe you should stop to think about why that is and what it says about you, yeah?
Truly, this whole clouis versus violentine thing is irritating at best, vile at worse. Thankfully it doesn't happen as much on tumblr given the state of the fandom, and everyone's at least agreed that no matter their feelings toward each other, clemricca is worse. So, that's something, I guess.
I think the best way I can put this is you don't get to dictate what other people think and feel. Being passionate is great until it becomes an excuse to be an asshole. Not everyone is going to agree with you and you need to put your big kid pants on and accept that.
I'm under no impression that the fighting will ever stop, even when this fandom is dried up with only bones and memories haunting its desert... but at the very least, I can point some of it out and ask that we do better than this.
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The focus gets lost in the fighting, and that focus is Louis and Violet themselves. Y'know, the two this retrospective's about.
Remember when I talked about Persona 4 in Excellent Love Interests and how much it sucks when the person you want to romance isn't actually an option--?
Hmm? What's that? Ah, yes, right- @pi-creates insists I add that TFS and Persona 4 actually are the same because Aasim wasn't an option and they're still bitter about that... but this isn't about Aasim, that's a topic for another day. Sorry Pi, but thanks for the screenshots used in this retrospectiveπŸ‘
Anyway, TFS gave us two excellent choices, and it would've been worse off had it only given us one of them, or none at all.
Louis wears charisma as a mask and uses humor as a shield to deflect. Violet, for as quiet and standoffish as she first appears, has a heart she's both eager and reluctant to share.
Louis is warm curtains of sunlight seeping through the murmuring woods of green leaves and little song birds. A heart carved into the rustic wood of an out-of-tune piano. Music echoing in the early morning hallways.
Violet is the glow of a full moon that illuminates still waters so the stars can dance in its reflection. Paint smeared over finger tips to offer a piece of herself meant to be worn. Constellations of stars named in secret.
They're both lonely people, often misunderstood by the others at Ericson, and sometimes by each other. They want to be known. They want to be seen.
But fear is a powerful wall to overcome.
And that's the beauty of choice. You get the impression of knowing them in the beginning, but it rarely breaks surface tension; Louis is nice and funny but undependable, Violet's rude and reserved and a little awkward. Neither are outspoken about any issues around Ericson, content to keep their heads down.
Clementine has to make the effort to know them, and the game establishes this by asking you an unassuming question: do you want to go hunting with Louis or fishing with Violet?
Clementine either makes an effort to understand Violet's feelings toward Brody and why she's so mean to her, and try to help her through it... or she doesn't listen to what Violet's saying, is dismissive, and ends up making things worse.
When Clementine goes hunting with Louis, she has to make the decision to spend time with him or ignore him in favor of hunting, and should she choose him, he opens up to her just a bit.
Then comes the confrontation with Marlon at the end of the episode where Clementine has to make the choice of who to appeal to. The gravity of this choice is often glossed over, I think.
Marlon has a gun pointed at her head, and she pleas for Louis or Violet to step in and save her. Both are hesitant because of course they are! They've known Marlon longer, he has a gun, and he's using manipulation to scare them into submission; he uses his friendship against Louis, and Minerva against Violet.
But when Clementine gets through to them? They stand between her and Marlon in rather in-character ways; Louis eases in with his hands up, attempting to deescalate the situation while Violet pulls out a weapon and demands he back off.
They risked getting shot. They risked death. They knew what was happening was wrong. They didn't want Clementine to die, they didn't fully believe Marlon's bullshit but were too scared to step forward until Clementine asked them, too. In that moment she basically told them, "I trust you. Instinct tells me you are the one who can stop this. My life is in your hands."
This choice changes them, and this moment ripples through the rest of the season. It makes perfect sense that Louis would be upset over Marlon's death and feel unsafe with Clementine and AJ there whereas Violet sees the death as justified and Clementine and AJ shouldn't be kicked out over it. It's an overwhelming situation for everyone.
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I've talked about ep2 and the vote until my lungs nearly collapsed and I saw the gates of Hell over the horizon... but that's fine, I can talk a little more about it and maybe this time the flames with cleanse me of my sins or something.
This is where the fighting really began, and I shouldn't have to say it again, but I will anyway: There isn't an objectively correct answer here, there's only personal preference.
Louis and Violet take very clear, opposite stances on this situation. I think they're both a little wrong and a little right; they shouldn't ignore that AJ killed Marlon, but kicking them out isn't the best solution either.
As a clouis shipper, I happen to like the way these events play out with Louis' vote. But not everyone feels that way. For some, Louis' vote is a deal breaker, making Violet the more appealing option given she voted for Clementine and AJ to stay.
Do you want a girl that's been by Clementine's side from the beginning and was vocal about keeping her and AJ here?
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Great, Violet's the choice for you. Enjoy the lovely moonlight and constellation mini-game.
Do you want the extra angst of a boy who made a vote he comes to regret and then does everything he can to apologize and make it up to Clementine?
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Wonderful, here's Louis. He'll play you a song he wrote and then name it after Clementine, it's very cute.
While on the topic of ep2, I also want to discuss the episode's final choice of saving either Louis or Violet and the consequences.
You know how in other games, say like massive RPG's with "good" and "evil" choices you can make that end up defining your character? You know how sometimes people question why developers even bothered putting those evil routes in since a majority of people will choose to be good? This isn't a new topic of discussion, but it's relevant to my point- they do it because the option to be evil makes the choice to be good more impactful. If you do choose to be evil, you did it knowing you could've been good and yet you decided chaos was the way to go, and now everyone and everything around your character suffers.
I don't think it only applies to binary "good" versus "evil" choices, either.
TWDG is great with its "You can only save one of them" choices, even if they usually fumble with the consequences in later episodes.
When I'm faced with this choice to save either Louis or Violet, I don't save Louis just because I like him more. Sure, initially that's why I saved him on my first run... but then the rest of the season came out and I learned the consequences of the choices I did and didn't make.
Knowing that he'll get his tongue cut out if I don't save him makes me all the more anxious to choose him. And I know violentine shippers are gutted knowing that if they don't save her, she'll feel so betrayed that she turns on Clementine and in the end is blinded in the boat explosion, so they're just as eager to save her.
But all of us have to live with the consequences of what happens to the one we didn't save, too. We made the decision to save the one we love at the cost of hurting the other we didn't love enough. You can't save them both. You're forced to hurt one of them in order to protect the other.
And it doesn't even stop there. TFS isn't done twisting the knife.
Mere moments before you have to make the choice to save one of them, Lilly's standing over Clementine with her finger on the trigger... only to then be tackled by the person you didn't choose to spend time with.
They just saved Clementine's life only to be dragged away by their neck, and the game asks you what that's worth: They got captured saving you, so do you save them in return or do you remain loyal to the one you chose before?
And when you know the consequences of both routes, when you know Louis will have his tongue cut out and Violet will have her eyes burned?
Louis and Violet are good people at their cores who only wanted to be understood and loved, and no matter what, you have to abandon one of them for the other... and they are left physically and mentally traumatized because of it.
But wait, there's more. The one you didn't save will always survive to the end and act as a constant reminder of what you chose... but the one you saved? If you don't trust AJ, then you'll be forced to watch them get torn apart and eaten alive by a herd of walkers. The only way to save them is to trust AJ so that he shoots Tenn.
A child has to die in order for you to save the one you love again, a choice you indirectly made.
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The ending shows you the one you didn't save, and it shows you Tenn's grave... and it presents a quiet question: was it worth it?
Would you make those choices again?
That's the power Louis and Violet bring to TFS.
That's why the choice matters.
We justify trusting AJ because we'd rather see Louis and Violet live over Tenn, knowing we're taking away the best friend AJ's ever had and allowing Minerva to get her way. We save Louis knowing that it breaks something inside of Violet and results in her permanently losing most of her eyesight. We save Violet knowing that we'll find Louis bloody and sobbing in the cell after having his tongue cut out of his mouth.
And we argue about it amongst ourselves even though it's all fucked. There isn't a true happy ending here, not for everyone.
Louis and Violet stand on their own as great characters, but you only get the true depth depending on how you play. They're excellent love interests because they care for Clementine. Through their relationship with her, they grow as people and find the acceptance and love they're starved for.
It's not perfect, but it honestly doesn't need to be. There was care woven into these characters. Both routes have a wide appeal. That means something to so many people.
I know we as fans often will say we wanted more, we wanted this and that, we wish this was different. It's not a dating sim where the main objective is to woo them. It's not a massive RPG with hundreds of hours to explore every nook and cranny of their characters. This is a Telltale game. It's a narrative with Clementine and AJ at the forefront, and it's up to you whether you want Louis or Violet to share that spotlight.
It's a story about Clementine finding a home, about molding what kind of survivor AJ comes. It's about Clementine meeting two broken people with glass shards at their feet, about her glass mixing with theirs. It's a game about choice; which glass pieces do you pick up, and which do you step on?
We should take more time to appreciate Louis and Violet. We should share our appreciation for the development team for giving us a bisexual lead with two great love interests, especially since we almost didn't get TFS in its entirety; we can hate Skybound as much as we want for the Clementine comics, but without them, this team wouldn't have been able to finish the game they were clearly passionate about.
We should have more self-awareness and try to understand why we like and dislike things without targeting others.
In conclusion?
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I think they're both neat πŸ‘
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my beloved freffy (bottom right corner) ILY TO DEATH, you deserved BETTER *sobbing while enraged*
β•°β”ˆβž€ 🎧 [ARTISTS] -> taylor swift (OBVIOUSLY), lana del rey, olivia rodrigo, gracie abrams, conan gray, sabrina carpenter, beabadoobee, maisie peters, mitski, cigarettes after sex, sza, the weeknd, beyonce, kanye west, reneΓ© rapp, ABBA, melanie martinez, tv girl, marina, doja cat, the smiths, queen, nirvana, rihanna, ariana grande, tyler the creator, adele, lorde, mac demarco, phoebe bridgers, avril lavinge, boygenius, laufey, suki waterhouse, fiona apple, clairo, billie eilish, madison beer, tate mcrae, steve lacy, kali uchis, girl in red, lizzy mcalpine, arctic monkeys, radiohead, mazzy star, coldplay, ricky montgomery, harry styles, chase atlantic, the neighborhood, roar, alex g, pinkpantheress & more!!
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better than the movies | agggtm | percy jackson | the hunger games | osemanverse | book lovers | i kissed shara wheeler | the seven husbands of evelyn hugo | daisy jones & the six | fourth wing | the atlas six | girl in pieces | the inheritance games | six of crows | we were liars | these violent delights | acotar | if we were villains | it ends with us | normal people | people we meet on vacation | ice breaker | where the crawdads sing | you deserve each other
β•°β”ˆβž€ 🎬 [TV SHOWS/FILM] -> skins, gilmore girls, bridgerton, derry girls, ladybird, little women (2019), tsitp, barbie (2023), anne with an e, twilight, stand by me (1986), the breakfast club (1985) the edge of seventeen, boyz n the hood (1991), red white and royal blue, ten things i hate about you, thirteen (2003), girl interrupted, thg, gossip girl, heartstopper, clueless, legally blonde, [2000s chic rom-com teen girlie movies have me in a severe life-threatening chokehold, send help], outerbanks, never have i ever, sex education, etc. and MANY MORE 🫢🏾🫢🏾
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&Team Hyung Lines If They Were in a Movie?
A/N : What is meant here is their role, genre, story 'class', storyline, or trope in the movie (And all of this is based on my opinion as a writer)
Warnings : Fem!reader mention, grammar error
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EJ
|| Teenage Fiction, Teen Romance || Outstanding Students, Academic Rivals ||
: As we know, the leader of this &Team is an intelligent man and has high logic. If EJ plays the character of an outstanding student, then that role would be very suitable for him. I think, he will not be a geeky high achieving student, but an excellent student who is popular, handsome, and liked by girls, both seniors, juniors and his year mates. If the film takes a romantic direction, then a suitable partner for him (In my opinion) is a student who is equally accomplished like him. Or a lazy student who has bad academic grades, then EJ is chosen to be her tutor, and the two of them end up falling in love. Conflicts of jealousy or unhealthy competition can be added to this role. For example, EJ is jealous when his girl is close to a bad boy who has a bad reputation at their school, or vice versa. The issue of unhealthy competition is where EJ's academic rivals cheat so that EJ can 'drop in performance'. I really feel like this role is very relatable to EJ.
FUMA
|| Thriller, Action || A bodyguard who falls in love with his 'female' boss ||
: And yeah, the role of bodyguard is also really attached to Fuma. If he was offered a role as a bodyguard, then that would suit him. He will guard several important people such as the president or prime minister. Or if the film 'contains' mafia or crime elements, Fuma could be the main bodyguard of the Mafia Head. Action of shooting, running around in parkour style, dodging explosions, fighting really rolls into my head if Fuma takes the role of bodyguard. In the film, Fuma will play a good role in protecting his superiors. If he is assigned to look after a girl, whether the girl is his boss's daughter or his direct boss, he will be extra protective. If there is an element of romance, then his female boss or boss's daughter tends to express her feelings first to Fuma. However, in general, bodyguards 'don't' accept love from their superiors, because their job is only to look after them, not to fall in love.
Kei (K)
|| Romantic Fantasy, Action, Thriller || Alpha and his Luna (his Queen) ||
: As we know (2), Kei plays Khan in the Webtoon Comic 'Dark Moon : The Grey City', where his position is an Alpha. So this role is very inherent in him, his Alpha aura is truly invincible. He will become an Alpha who is truly respected by his followers, invincible, and has the highest magical powers. Alpha definitely needs his Luna, he still needs the Queen as the foundation for his life. I think Luna's character comes from a direct descendant of Vargr, which will make the chemistry even stronger with Kei's role as Alpha. Of course, wolves will never miss a fight with a vampire, maybe in the film, Kei will start acting and fight the vampires who 'kidnap' his Luna. His role will also be strong over love, as a werewolf will only love one person throughout his life. And if the person they love does not love them back, they will continue to love them one-sidedly until their death.
Nicholas
|| Crime, Romance, ANGST || "Mission, not love" ||
: Somehow I think this role is suitable for Nicholas. Where he plays a big-time fugitive who is most wanted by security officials. A detective or intelligence agent will be assigned to search for and arrest him with very thorough mission preparation. But in a crazy way, make him 'fell in love'. Nicholas will be deceived by the girl he 'of course' will love. The beautiful detective will trick Nicholas with her missions and tactics so that Nicholas can be truly fooled. In that role, Nicholas will be deceived by everything and actually sincerely loves the girl who is now tricking him. If the detective doesn't also fall in love with Nicholas, then the mission usually goes perfectly. However, if the detective also falls in love with Nicholas, the mission will be quite chaotic. The detective will feel guilty for fooling Nicholas, even though Nicholas' crime could have been very big. I can't imagine how the film would end.
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tsams-confessions Β· 9 days
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My fellow S.A.M.S peeps forgive me, for I have sinned……….i never got that attached to Solar…..
I DONT KNOW WHY I DIDNT!!! HE SEEMS LIKE A CHARACTER I WOULD ABSOLUTELY ADORE IN EVERY ASPECT, BUT I JUST NEVER GOT SUPER INTO HIM AND I DONT KNOW WHY!!!!!
don’t get me wrong, I like/liked Solar, but he never got into my top 3 AND I DONT KNOW WHY DAMN IT!!!
It’s not that I don’t want to like the same character that everyone else likes, because I love Lunar, and we all know how we feel about lunar. And it’s not that I can’t get unhealthy attached to characters in this show, because I absolutely love Castor and Pollux (tho that might just be my inner space science fiction loving child screaming inside of me), and I would feel like my heart had been thrown off a cliff if they ever died. SO I JUST DONT KNOW WHY I DONT LOVE HIM!!!!!!
So I got confused at first when the timestamp people in the comments would specifically timestamp when Solar came into frame and say: β€œoh hi Solar!” Or β€œoh hey look, it’s Solar!” Because I liked him, but at the end of the day I never really saw him as more than a compromise with the fans on a β€œeclipse redemption arc”.
And I felt bad for Solar when he died, and especially bad for sun and moon after he died, but what made me mainly feel bad was the effect that his death had on others, rather then being one of the ones who was effected by his death. And I knew the fans would be sad, BUT IMAGINE MY SURPRISE WHEN I HEAR THROUGH THE GRAPE VINE THAT ON THE HELL SITE KNOWN AS TWITTER.COM THAT DAVIS WAS GETTING DEATH THREATS OVER A FICTIONAL CHARACTER.
LIKE……. Y A L L . . . I KNEW YALL LIKE SOLAR, BUT FOR A FEW PEOPLE THREATEN A CREATOR WITH DEATH OVER HIS OWN CHARACTER IS A MARIANA TRENCH KINDA LOW…….
So I know that this confession was supposed to be so I could express my confusion about me not liking Solar in this online fandom confession booth, but I’d also like to say as someone with a clear mind and no bias towards Solar: let Davis do whatever the fuck he wants. I know that you guys really want him back, but at the end of the day, Davis birthed this show with his own hips, so unless it’s genuine criticism of the show, let the man do whatever the fuck he wants with it and not peer pressure him into bringing Solar back.
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i wonder if people would be okay with eddie being bisexual. shannon as the only woman he fell in love with and buck as the only man eddie fell in love with. bisexual people also suffer from catholic guilt (i'm bi, latina and my family is catholic), but i don't think 9-1-1 would give us bi4bi romance. i just hope that, if eddie is bi, fans don't get mad and say things like 'it doesn't make sense'
Oh goodness, now we're getting into some iffy territory here. So, WARNING, if you follow my blog, you may already know that I personally headcanon Eddie as a repressed gay man, and not bisexual. And I have very specific reasons for that. HOWEVER, if the show DID want to go with Eddie also being bisexual, I would 100% accept that, because you're right bisexual people 100% also experience catholic guilt and comphet as well. All of that could definitely fit into the bisexual experience too. It would also make sense to the story...to a certain degree. So here's my warning again, I'm going to dive into my headcanon here, so be warned this is just MY opinion and is not indicative of all queer experiences real, fictional or otherwise.
Here's my reasons why I feel the story aligns closer to repressed gay than bisexual for Eddie. I simply don't believe that Eddie really ever was in love with Shannon. Loved her as his best friend, yes. Deeply loved her as the mother of his child? Yes. Loved her as a person? Yes. In deep romantic love with her? No. Nothing I've seen from their relationship, not the sex, not their "sweet" moments, or the vulnerable moments, nothing has ever made me ever believe they were in love love. I totally realize that that's my personal opinion and other people see it differently, I understand that, and I respect other people's personal opinions on the matter. This is not a knock against Shannon as a character, but just my individual feelings on their relationship. This was my opinion back when season 3 was still airing and I saw the show for the first time, and it's still my opinion now.
However, back in season 3/4 I actually still believed Eddie could be bi, for sure. And I would've been absolutely THRILLED with a bi4bi story from Buddie.
After all, just because Eddie wasn't in love with Shannon didn't mean he couldn't fall in love with another woman (or man), right? But then came Ana Flores....and then Vanessa...and then came Marisol....and the pattern kept going and I simply COULD NOT justify any of his behavior as actually really being attracted to/wanting/loving ANY of these women.
I understand that plenty of heterosexual and bisexual men also have this kind of avoidant-attachment relationship style, and that it could also stem from trauma, the way he grew up, patriarchy, etc, but the way he FORCES himself to be in a relationship with these women. The way he NEVER allows a genuine bond with a woman to just grow naturally and always has to force it to start, and then desperately cut it off when he's finally reached his limit, truly feels like he's torturing himself. And I'm so sorry, but I feel like if you were a person who genuinely wanted to be with a woman or a man, or anyone, in any capacity, you would not be torturing yourself over being with them.
Especially when I look at him in comparison to Buck, a canon bisexual man. I never once doubted that Buck actually loved Abby. I never once doubted that Buck was actually trying in his relationships with Ali, Taylor, and Natalia. When he was interested in these women it didn't feel forced. Unhealthy? Sure. Not the right fit for him? Absolutely. But forced? Like he was only doing it because he thought he had to? Never. Sure, maybe Buck held on longer than he should've because he didn't want to lose them, but that's because he still wanted their love even if it wasn't healthy for him.
I don't see any of that with Eddie. Shannon, and Eddie's relationship with her, has always felt like a crutch for Eddie, like an excuse, before she came back, when she was present, and long LONG after she died. So the argument that "well Ana and Marisol just aren't Shannon" will never work for me.
I also think Eddie being demisexual would be a better fit narratively at this point than bisexual as well. But then again, there's overlap and it's all very subjective and yeah--just a lot of queer theory to get into that I'm not an expert on, so I'm just gonna reiterate again. This is just my opinion.
If the show really wanted Eddie to be bisexual, and stated it as such, I would be fine with it, and I would accept it graciously and happily. But I do honestly feel like it wouldn't really fit well into the story they've been telling. At this point in time, with everything that we know, and everything we've seen, the only thing that I believe truly fits with the narrative is that Eddie's a repressed gay man and/or demisexual.
But if real-life bisexual people see themselves in Eddie, that will ALWAYS be valid, regardless of what the show says in regards to his sexuality. Fuck, they'll probably just leave him unlabeled regardless, in which case, any and all headcanons are valid.
This is a nuanced topic, and I do admit that IN REAL LIFE (remember I'm just discussing FICTIONAL characters here based purely on what a NARRATIVE has shown us which is all we can truly take as fact) someone in Eddie's position could for sure be bisexual and have this exact same experience.
I just think in my personal subjective opinion that with all we've seen in canon thus far, it would feel most organic to the story (and doesn't make Eddie look like a fucking asshole who chooses not to care at all about the women he's dating) if he realized he was a repressed gay man.
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