#ranting yet again

[madame-airlock]

How I love living with anxiety mixed with growing up with hearing so much bad shit thrown at me.

I especially love feeling physically sick if I have to text certain people, like friends I don't text daily or those with whom I'm not super close.

The second I hit send I can hear my mother in my head telling me that the people who claim to be my friends actually aren't, they put up with me because they have to and because they feel bad or take pity on me.

"Oh it's been so long, we haven't talked in over a month" yeah because if I send you more than one text or one single text that is over three lines I feel like a burden and that I don't deserve your attention, that you should be doing better things.

Someone kill me please.

#ranting yet again #living with anxiety #will probably delete later

[madness-of-void]

You know...today was not the day for all these people that like to be assholes/stupid to come out and test me

#life crap #void talks #nic talks #ranting yet again #lord I'm doing that a lot lately sorry #i just... #yeah #fml

[amelia-yap]

AUEGH

#ruby rose #rwby #obligatory tiny distressed ruby #my art #HELLO I HAVE OFFICALLY FINISHED YET AGAIN ANOTHER ONE OF MY SEMESTERS #and holy shit it was the most awful by far #i felt like absolute shit the entire sem and was behind in literally all of my classes #it was so shit that i actually skipped a class because of the stress of being behind on work. which i had never done before. #i am a criminal now lmao i feel so bad #also a little mad at myself because i know i could've done better. i've been doing the bare minimum and cutting corners #which was very noticeable lol #im gonna actually split my upcoming semester this time my ass and health cannot do this anymore #BUT ANYWAY I FINISHED MY SEMESTER RAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #COUGHS OUT BLOOD AND SINKS BACK INTO EARTH'S CORE AND EVAPORATES #IM DONE!!! #also my eyes are really red now for some reason #probably from the lack of sleep or the long hours staring at my bloody laptop idk #probably both #yeah i should go sleep now lol bye #ranting in the tags because i don't know how to talk like a normal person lmao #sorry if you read all this nonsense jkdhkfsdhfkhd #but i should be more active around here again!

[lordoftherazzles]

YIKES.

Imagine reposting someone’s fanfic, and acting so insanely gross when the author KINDLY asks you to take it down, or at least credit them. (I can’t reblog the og post because I was blocked ages ago by the op)

Imagine then having a toddler tantrum because the author, who was rudely rejected and insulted, shared the post and advised people they were the author as seen in the first set of images.

Imagine being such a GROSS bully because YOU were wrong.

(With permission from Conkers to use the screenshots she’s sent me from her inbox, I’m attaching some of the cruel backlash she’s received from this person, tagging triggers just in case - TW: transphobic, fatphobic)

Please treat people with kindness. I don’t care if you create something or not, if this type of behavior is allowed in ANY space…wow.

DO BETTER.

#fandom wank #let’s not behave like this #let’s maybe respect someone’s wishes when they ask you to take down their work you reposted #or just don’t repost someone’s work in the first place #bagginshield #tagging them because yet again it’s in this part of the fandom #fandom #transphobia #fatphobia #razzy rants #writers of tumblr #writers of ao3

[ganondoodle]

was watching another totk video and through that found out what the reward is for completing koltins quests, honestly im not really surprised but also baffled and it really just shows, once again, that totk kinda does exactly what you shouldnt do in a sequel imo.. double down on all the bad stuff of the previous title

at this point i have talked about various problems in detail but i just keep realizing over and over just how much of the wrong lesson they seemed to take from botw, they recycled almost everything from botw by changing some paint or some words, made a giant game even bigger and filled it with boring and tedious busy work that has mediocre to insulting rewards EVEN MORE than botw

game too big and empty? make it TWICE as big, change barely anything about the map of the previous title and the new added map(s) is ONE biom that almost everywhere looks the same and even emptier with little to do

too many krogs? MAKE IT MORE and double down on the literally shit reward bc its the SAME just with one more stack of shit

too many shrines with short puzzles? ADD EVEN MORE and make them even shorter and easier to complete, alot of them not even involving a puzzle and multiple being an utterly out of place tutorial that could have been explained to you in a single text box

rewards in the overworld being mostly either a krog or a shrine which gets repetetive with shrines being ALOT and krogs being wayyy too many? add even MORE shrines and EVEN MORE krogs, but now add over a hundred of caves to it that all get repetetive after just a few of them and you only do them for a shrine or a currency you have to collect to get one cool looking but pretty bad to use armor set and a piece of cloth for your parasail that you can only use one of at the tiem and to switch have to go back to a specific NPC, theres ghost lights to collect which only serve to yet again buy one armor set from a set of NPCs and ar meaningless afterwards, the light roots dont require you to do anything but walk to them and the reward for finding them all is a "you did it" sticker that doesnt even stick (its useless)

weapons break too quickly? well make the weapons you can find even worse to force you to fuse a material to it so its at all usable BUT IT STILL BREAKS and when it does it breaks not JUST the weapon but ALSO a material, materials that you will need for now EVEN MORE EXPENSIVE armor upgrades too, weapons cannot be rewards anymore either bc they will always have to be fused with something to make them stronger bc none is strong on its own- this also applies to THE MASTERSWORD, something ALSO complained about that it still 'breaks' even after empowering it through the DLC in botw, and now it cant even BE empowered (bc no DLC) unless you fuse soemthing to it (to. the. MASTERSWORD.) EVEN THO EMPOWERIGN THE MASTERSWORD IS THE ENTIRE POINT OF ZELDAS ULTIMATELY MEANING- AND CONSEQUENCELESS SACRIFICE !!

the dungeons were to samey and simple? make them look different but keep the core structure (activate terminals in completely seperate from each other "puzzles", fight boss) while also makign them be even more skippable (climable walls, the ceiling jump ability- something the titans DIDNT have) with incredibly easy bossfights that end with an embarassing copy and paste scene that hits you over the head with long known and obvious information over and over

people didnt like how the story was so detached from everything in the present? well, make the story and the present EVEN MORE detached from anything in the present, so far in fact that there is literally no connection to it aside from zelda who is the only connective thread and is also only treated as such (she is as personality lacking as sonia as soon as shes yoinked into the past) and the suddendly and out of nowhere intruduced architecture and history that wasnt a thing in botw but is treated like it was always there

people didnt like how far botw was detached from all other zelda games? ok totk is not only FURTHER detached from those it also completely detached itself from its on predecessor :)

people didnt like the memory system? ok make it WORSE then, its a linear story now that you can ruin by seeing even one out of order, they are super short and dont give you anymore context to anythign than the things you could figure out yourself or were already told really, instead of giving you views into a characters personality you get to view a basic plot summary of a story that is so flavorless and predictable i knew what would happen from the start yet acts like its being vague and cool that i felt like i was beign treated like a literal toddler

too few enemy types? well, we will reuse the old ones EVEN MORE thant before over twice the map and the new ones that are there are either utterlly irrelevant to change up the gameplay or largely feel like the old ones just with a paint job (constructs), the griocks looked cool at first but are just a more annyoing version of the lynels (who feel like an actual duel, akin to a proper boss)

even the things that were adressed, or attempted to, didnt fully work, like the bosses ARE more unique, but also still so incredibly easy and ALSO have multiple duplicats just sitting around in the underground despite them being supposedly the root of the problems of the regions (i like refighting bosses, but id rather have a character that lets me choose ok i wann fight this one again and teleporte me into a vision or sth- also the most fun fights arent even part of it (koga) )

the rain complaint got a new effect type to counteract it, which ... doesnt work well, you need specific materials to make potions with that effect which you also need to upgrade the only armor set wit hthat effect that ONLY works once you upgrade it (i think ... i dont know how high i got it but if even the full upgraded set doesnt negate the rain effect i will not be surprised either lol) also it adds just yet another effect type that spams your inventory and you dont really need .... or i might be the only one that saw no value at all in the "attack up when hot" new type of effects bc it felt so specific and situational while also having a way better option (just make it a standard attack up thing?) at least in my eyes-

... ill stop here .... this got longer again didnt it O-o

#ganondoodles talks #zelda #totk #ganondoodles rants #YET AGAIN #aaaaaaand i wasted all my evening #this was supposed to be a half joking short post #but i keep getting into ranting #hhhhhhhhhhrrrrrrraaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

[spielzeugkaiser]

hi, first off i really love your art. the h/c and warmth really hit me where i live and your illustration style is fantastic. lately i've been obsessed with the post where an unwell milek thinks geralt will leave him behind. was that an ingrained insecurity, assuming his super-witcher dad wouldn't have time for a sickly human kid?

[MASTERPOST] - Ahh, thank you for the ask! Yes, this scene.. I actually saw this a bit differently! It's not about Milek fearing Geralt will leave him behind, he actually wants him to. They need to find his Pa!! I think he often feels like a burden; Jaskier knows this, but Geralt isn't aware of this yet. Milek just wants to pull his weight, especially with Jaskier. A little sneak peak to their struggles regarding this:

Meanwhile Jaskier continues to struggle with his omega status.

#jaskier #the witcher #geraskier lovechild #julian alfred pankratz #omegaverse #there are various things happening here! a. Milek never really had to fear that Jaskier would leave him he knows he never ever would #b. Jaskier said again and again that he'll always care for him and loves him and that he doesn't have to pull any weight at all #c. Jaskier actually became the parent that just wants his kid to be educated and study and learn #(maybe because he knows Milek won't be able to do hard labour but also because he knows what Milek really wants to do) #(filed under: things I haven't drawn yet but they had their big fallout because of oxenfurt and university - things to come in the future) #d. Milek has watched Jaskier working his ass off in various jobs that he didn't like #(and he thinks that prostitution is the worst but only because they didn't properly talk about it before) #e. Jaskier is struggling with how he is percieved - which I think was never that much on his mind when he was travelling with Geralt #being a carefree bard and giving everyone the middlefinger who had some wrong ideas about what he could do and what not #but this is definitely an AU in which he doesn't have a good relationship with his father and he can still hear him say he'll become #'an unbonded omega with a bastard child working on the streets' and I think sometimes it gets to him #(because Jaskier is king of hating his parents ever being right about him) #that Jaskier kind of wants to spare Milek and quietly hopes we won't become an omega - even if he feels bad about it - shall become plot #(one dayyyy) #anyway that was a very long rant about Mileks complex relationship with him feeling like a burden

[novelconcepts]

Thinking about Marisha’s “your best friend leaves for the summer and comes back different, leaving you behind” rant slamming BODILY into Laura’s choice in the very next episode. For no reason in particular.

#critical role #cr spoilers #imodna #I haven’t actually watched yet but I opened this app and instantly got bombarded with Laura Bailey being a legend (again) #and now I can’t stop thinking about imogen waiting patiently for laudna to stop ranting about how different their summers were #so she can Move #hilarious. good work all. very excited to watch this ep

[tgirlboyswag420]

Tma Gerry was a goth (awful at it)

Tmagp Gerry is still a goth (a whole lot better at it)

#i need to draw her NOW #amd listen i love tma gerry #shes so cute #and i love hrr #but oh my god she was not a goth #i have a whole rant about this #but again hes a fictional character so theres no point in debating his fashion choices #omg but also i really like thr idea that tmagp gerry is new wave #nvm shes just vince noir to me now #subculture switcher #hes jusy like me fr #tmagp #tmagp spoilers #gerry keay #gerry robinson #??? idk if thats a thing yet #it should be

[jovieinramshackle]

What the fuck do you mean VIL SCHOENHEIT is getting a SSR with a brand new event on JP oh my god

THE REFERENCE TO THE EVIL QUEEN.

What the fuck do you mean we're getting a new Azul SR card Masterchef Azul and Ortho?? Are we finally getting new Azul SR cards have the twst gods heard my prayers

CLUB WEAR LEONA IS COMING.

#Oh we are EATING GOOD guys finally #twisted wonderland #vil schoenheit #azul ashengrotto #I apologise in advance for the person I'll become once I see all these cards #my faves are getting the spotlight yet again Im so happy #VIL MY BELOVED <3333 YOUR TIME HAS COME #jovie's rants #twst spoilers

[madness-of-void]

In the continuing trend of shit happening to me that's small and insignificant but because it doesn't slow down I am having a time: one of my good luck charms, a bracelet, broke. It isn't the type of material that can be fixed, and the shop I bought it from no longer sells it...or anything for that matter.

#life crap #void talks #nic talks #ranting yet again #apparently my luck is just...shit right now #and with some...rough anniversaries coming up... #*sigh* #fuck #feel free to ignore #i'm just so tired

[wylanslcve]

Okay don't mind me I'm in the middle of a Crooked Kingdom reread and feel overwhelmingly inclined to rant about Jesper Fahey because this fandom just doesn't give him the treatment he deserves. I'm specifically going to incoherently ramble about the scene in Crooked Kingdom where he, Colm and Wylan are being shot at because I feel like that scene is representative of Jesper's arc - but, before we dive into that, let me contextualise a few things first. Jesper does things for the thrill of it: he thrives off chaos and spontaneity, hence why he "always felt better when people were shooting at him". It's because the sound of gunfire "called the scattered, irascible, permanently seeking part of his mind into focus like nothing else" - and it also provides a distraction from his pain and trauma, because whenever he'd think about it, "everything in him recoiled. Trying not to die was the best possible distraction". Whenever anything to do with his past or his debt is brought up, "his hands returned to his revolvers" because he found himself "longing for the cool, familiar feel of their pearl handles beneath his thumbs". It steadies him as much as it possibly can when he's not in a dangerous situation, momentarily calling his mind into focus, an attempt at distracting himself from his afflictions.

Based off similar instances, the scene in Crooked Kingdom where he, Wylan and Colm are being shot at should have brought him that same satisfaction that any other shooting would. He "should be buzzing from the excitement of the fight. The thrill was still there, fizzing through his blood, but beside it was a cold, unfamiliar sensation that felt like it was draining the joy from him." What makes this situation so different to the others is that he can't ignore his problems and trauma now: it's staring him right in the face. Colm is right there. The thrill of the fight doesn't feel the same because "all he could think was, Da could have been hurt. He could have died." And we know that Jesper's debt would cost Colm the jurda farm Jesper grew up on, forcing him to acknowledge the reality of his problems: with Colm being right there, Jesper just can't ignore his afflictions because all he could think about is how his father would "suffer for his antics". If you ask me, this is so representative of his character arc as a whole.

This is further emphasised by how he's reflecting on the first time he spun Makker's Wheel right before this ambush, its intention being merely "harmless fun", but it ended up evolving into an addiction that "split [his life] like a log into two distinct and uneven pieces: the time before he’d stepped up to that wheel and every day since". The rush of a high-stakes situation is the equivalent of the "harmless fun" - it's a thrill that Jesper enjoys feeling, but in reality it's doing much more harm because it's preventing him from acknowledging and facing his pain. And he's indeed in so much pain: there's so much anguish inside of him, but he'd do anything to distract himself from it because the reality is just too painful.

This is where the tables come in: later in Crooked Kingdom, when the crew are being ambushed by the Khergud, Jesper "could feel the pull of East Stave" because he didn't have anything else to occupy his mind with. Then, the minute he thinks about facing his father, "the need to be at the tables was overwhelming" because he desperately needs to distract himself from the reality of his circumstances: "since Kaz hadn't obliged him with something to shoot at, Jesper needed a pair of dice and long odds to clear his mind". He can't use the ambush as a distraction, so the tables it is. As Inej tells him, "they feel like medicine. They soothe you, put you right for a time. But they’re poison, Jesper. Every time you play, you take another sip." This isn't the first time poison has been used to represent something that is preventing the Crows from healing - we also see it with Matthias, when he tells Brum in Six of Crows, "the life you live, the hate you feel - it's poison. I can drink it no longer". Just like how the exploitation of Matthias' grief and pain as a means of fueling hatred prevented him from healing because it kept exacerbating the anguish within him (he had to stop drinking the poison to do so), Jesper's addiction - and, by extension, the thrill of a high-stakes situation - prevents him from acknowledging the wound inside him and working towards healing it. It gets to the extent where “he had always thought of himself as lucky… what if he’d been bluffing this whole time?” - he’s gotten so used to suppressing his pain that he, in a way, loses sense of who he is. His façade has distorted his perception of himself. It's not until Colm arrives in the Barrel that Jesper is forced to acknowledge just how deep that wound is and how much it's festering - just like how he couldn't even feel the thrill of a fight properly because of the possibility of his father getting hurt.

That scene is one of many cracks that start to form as Jesper continues to bottle up all of this pain and trauma, until he finally breaks when Wylan proposes that he's such a good shot because being a Fabrikator allows him to direct the metal of the bullets. Jesper protests, asking Wylan why he can't "just let things be easy" - why can't he just let him keep ignoring his problems, when it's so much easier than facing them? But Wylan stands his ground, explaining that "they’re not easy... You keep pretending everything is okay. You move on to the next fight or the next party. What are you afraid is going to happen if you stop?" This is why Matthias calls Jesper “angry and frightened” - he’s afraid of stopping, because he knows stopping means that he’s forced to face the reality that he’s deeply wounded. This is when he finally breaks under the burden of his own pain, under the reality that he can't keep ignoring it anymore - hence why he chooses to put his share of the reward in Colm's name because, as he explains to Kaz, "I don’t think I’m ready for that kind of money just yet". For the first time, he's acknowledging his problems and working towards fixing them, no matter how much time it takes (because trauma and addiction don't just disappear overnight).

n e ways this ended up being significantly longer than anticipated but this is what happens when I start analysing these books: it snowballs out of control and suddenly I can’t shut up.

#look at me going on my silly little rants again #i wrote this instead of sleeping #i might have missed a few things but again i haven't finished my reread yet so this is all i've got for you today #i just love jesper fahey okay #i would do anything for him #literally anything #and call me bold for saying this #but he deserves a fandom that treats him better #jesper fahey #kit young #six of crows #crooked kingdom #grishaverse #shadow and bone #shadow and bone season two #shadow and bone season three #six of crows spin off #soc spin off #leigh bardugo #meta #soc meta #six of crows analysis #soc analysis #kaz brekker #inej ghafa #wylan van eck #nina zenik #matthias helvar

[qcomicsy]

I don't think we talk about Robin War as much as we should, this is insane this kid is insane. HE WAS THE LEADER OF A MOVEMENT.

A BIG EARTH SHAKEN MOVEMENT.

Yeah I get it, The Robin movement had no official leader. But we cannot deny how he was one of the most prevalent voices. How he is so good with his words that he was able to to encourage not only all of them to go home and all of them to go fight.

And fight for their fucking lives, for Gotham's safety.

And you don't understand the Robin, wasn't a team they didn't have leaders, they didn't have training, they did't had someone o be assigned to be in charge, hell half of them shouldn't be older than 25! This is a social movement, made mostly by yound adults and teenagers.

Being able to to influence this amount of people in less than what a month? In matter of minutes is absolutely fucking insane. This isn't easy shit, this isn't lightly shit.

This is fucking revolutionary.

For fuck sake he knew DAMIAN, fuckin Damian for a day and was able to get his point across into that kid's thick skull.

This random kid, with not training in martial art, who saw Damian beat up not only his fellow comrades, but Red Hood and Red Robin themselves, who may or may not be aware of Damian's reputation as a deadly Robin (if that comes to the public and knowing Gotham and Gotham's relationship with vigilantes he might) stood up on his own feet and got his ass beaten by him without even considering back down from it.

Duke Thomas was ready to die that night and this is fucking earthshaking.

#this isn't a quirk is a insane op character trait and I'm ?????? on how this isn't (as far as I'm awere) used narratively again yet #I think the only other batfamily member who comes close to this is Dick Grayson and even him as far as I know was able to be that good in #that great scale #Most batfam characters becomes leader beause they are the most capable and (fix it) focused at something (Dick grayson and Tim drake) #But by sheer word and organization atrategy???? not even Batman #thats diplomat behavior man #what I'm sayin is that Duke Thomas can bullshit in and out himself of situations and thats fucking bonkers in this essay I will– #q rambles #q rants #Duke Thomas #Robin War

[britneyshakespeare]

wait james somerton sounds a lot like some people on tumblr when they start spouting off about queer history or supposed controversies within it. is that where you guys are getting your stuff? is it james somerton brain poisoning?

#i had never watched or heard of his channel before hbomb and todd's videos #im still watching todds video i just got past that stupid nambla part #tales from diana #i suppose there's a lot to say about people making as nick called 'observational' statements but what todd more aptly calls #pulling shit out of one's ass. #it's the same thing as somerton talking about straight women or white women or straight white women being offended at gay sex scenes #yet supposedly seeking out queer media that would have gay sex scenes? #or slighting more chaste/fluffy queer media ie heartstopper? #ppl who have these sorts of biases against certain types of gay people or their media if it's not what they see as #the most radical progressive form of queer visibility and acceptance. #creating strawmen enemies that they stand in defiance of #yeah this stuff is really getting my mind rolling #i swear ive seen a lot of these points james somerton has made being later used elsewhere on social media #was it ppl watching him who were inspired to go on these rants? #bc ive always seen these sorts of citationless rants and ravings in queer-friendly spaces and been like 'what are you talking about' #maybe someone with a scarf and a video essay voice told them smugly that these things were true #crazy. crazy #but also then again how much of this baseless speculation on social media just fueled/inspired the writing of these video essays... #idk. misinformation is a self-perpetuating cycle.

[cult-of-dollbabies]

you should be at th cluuuuuub

#quality was butchered yet again #maybe my fault for huge canvas #not very too proud of this one but any nica is a good nica #nica pierce #chucky #cults art #i imagine shes ranting to andy and kyle in the top right one and theyre just. listening intently. theyre drunk As Well

[cinnamon-bunni]

hey so ummmmm everyone go read Moonlight (every single night) by @heleentje right now. like, its a botw fic with timeloops, what more do i have to say

#okay i may not have finished it yet bc i dont read fics like i used to but god dammit is this fic GOOD #listen time loops are my JAM and weakpoint like if a fic is a timeloop its already an 8/10 #but moonlight is so well written?? with good characterization??and SUCH an interesting plot and mystery to it??? #AND (again) GOOD WRITING???? #i am biting it and chewing it like a chew toy (pos) #idk how many botw mutuals/followers i have but. *shoves into your hands* read. read it now #anyways imma get back into reading this and heleentje i PROMISE you im gonna rant SO much in the comments section of the last chap lmao #bunni mumbles #also the fic is like a 25/10. to me

[tired-fandom-ndn]

What I would like fandoms to be aware of is that there is a difference between erasing a character's "bad" traits like violence and cruelty in order to make them nicer and more palatable vs acknowledging that bad people are still people with complex emotions and personal relationships and traits beyond just "evil"

#this is something that i struggled a lot with in the mechs fandom #people who genuonely seemed to believe that writing the mechs as ever being kind or loving or affectionate #was erasing their canon personality traits and woobifying them #and i don't really want to yet again get into a rant about the ways that we dehumanize 'bad' people #i just think it's fucking gross #anyway alastor can have complex relationships and care about other people #while also being a manipulative cannibalistic murderer okay