Season of Love (8/?)
+18 | Toto x reader fem!teamprincipal, romance, comedy, and some good drama.
Summary: One night on a pier in Monaco, while admiring the sea under the night skies, you tell Toto: "I came to the conclusion that love is simply not meant for me." That's the answer to a question you have been asking yourself for the longest time. But what if he proved you wrong?
Author's note: This is a multichapter Toto Wolff x team principal reader fic set along a season of F1. It's a very immersive story full of drivers, team dynamics, races, mystery, and smut. You just bought the Williams team, but nobody really knows who you truly are.
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The Color of Truth is Blue Arc
Chapter 8: Safety car needed
Trigger warning: Child trauma, abuse.
Belgium
And to think Toto felt guilty enough about hiding from you his decision to get back with Susie and try to make things work with her, giving himself the hardest time for it while you had been married this whole time!
The two of you are truly made for each other since none of you have morals.
He wants to grab the helmet on the clear glass coffee table inside his remote office before him and smash it against it, but he contains himself.
Instead, he stands up to pour himself a drink that's almost pure alcohol and just a bit of ice, frantically prancing around the room.
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This GP is "hometown" for you guys.
Mathew's assistant has zero problems fitting it into his busy schedule, so he can assist in your name.
It's not that you do much for the team, anyway. You are more like a figure to lift the morale and PR the team and its sponsors around.
Mat looks excited to be at the paddock. He loves the attention he is getting. He remained as far from it as possible for obvious reasons, but now it seems like an excellent time to join in the fun.
Mainly because he feels like it, and when he likes something, he has it.
Now that the real boss is in town, people need to get used to his presence and his long list of shenanigans.
Get a grip!
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The weekend at Spa starts with the now-usual FIA meeting. On this occasion, everyone is on time.
The group is gathered in the final rows of chairs in another world's saddest meeting room. As always, they are messing around while they wait for the meeting to begin.
—This carpeting looks out of a 70's Vegas casino —Seb mentions, looking around his feet.
—It's giving "cheap motel," —Charles adds.
—It's giving "crime scene" —Samanta joins in.
Toto and Fred enter the room, beverages in hand, gossiping.
Woaff! Lewis notices that Toto looks rough. His hair is messy, and big dark circles are under his eyes. Also, he seems reddish on the cheeks. Is he drinking at work?! Lewis recognizes that kind of blush on him.
—It's giving "once someone died in here" —Checo jokes as he pictures a silhouette drawn with chalk while staring at the floor.
—It's giving "I think I saw this place in Law & Order" —Millie says.
—How many hours of L&O have you seen? —Mick changes the topic, knowing Millie is a fan.
—More than needed —she admits.
—So you weren't joking when you said, "I go and put Law & Order on any device before a race as my race ritual"? —George looks at her, eyes widening and holding a giggle.
Sam interrupts as Millie is about to answer: —Elvis has arrived.
All their heads turn to the door as Matthew swags in.
—Armani ani ani ani —Millie sings Megan The Stallion style. —He looks so stylish in that suit! Hot!
—He is your boss, dude! —Oscar says and looks at her, chin up.
—And married to my wife! Who's also your boss. So more respect, please —Lando adds.
—Does that make you her father? —Sebastian jokes, pointing at the blonde.
—Are you Millie's dad?! —Lewis joins in, acting shocked.
—Dad?! —Millie turns in his chair to face Lando, wide eyes and arms reaching for a hug.
—You all stupid —Sam laughs, enjoying the exchange.
Mathew being the annoying ass he is, goes straight to her and drops in the chair next to Sam, placing his arm around her shoulders. —Amelia, hi! —Mat addresses her with a big-ass smile and stunning blue eyes staring at her.
—AMELIA?!! —everyone but Millie lets out in shock.
—How lovely to see you! —Sam greets him with a "fuck you!" gaze but answers with the sweetest voice.
—Yes, that's her middle name, you didn't know?! —Mat asks the group, pretending to be shocked, knowing she hates that name.
Then, the FIA deputy enters and asks Mathew to join him upfront since they are addressing the whole Lenkov situation and the new safety on paddock protocols with the drivers for the first time.
—Well, now that everything is clear, I will leave the microphone to Mr. De Vos to introduce himself...
—Yes, take off your shirt and tell us —Lando jokes in a low voice, next to Millie, discreetly bumping her and laughing low.
Those fuckers.
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Everyone looks bored as Fred goes forever after grabbing the mic to discuss the car skidding due to fluids and oil spills on the pitlane.
—No, you guys. I like this topic! I identify with it since I'm also fluid —Millie adds, all confident and open.
—Genderfluid? —Seb smiles big at her, eyes sparkling at her gutsy statement.
—I love the gender fluids —Lando jokes, with a cheeky innuendo as usual.
—I wouldn't mind some gender fluids instead of this, mate —Dani adds.
—I would have the gender fluids, please! —Mick jokes, pretending to raise his hand.
—I'm feeling my gender-fluids right now —Millie colorfully adds while looking at Mathew.
—What fluids is he talking about?! —George asks, serious, not recalling watching spots or brushes on the pitlane, unable to hear Fred accurately and utterly unaware of the jokes around.
—The genders —Seb and Millie answer simultaneously before bursting out laughing, watching a perplexed George.
Everyone in the room turns their heads to them.
—Oh shit!
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As soon as the doctors inform you that you can leave the hospital, your team moves you to the Manor, where Mathew insists you take a break and rest before putting a foot back on the paddock, much to your complaints.
He lets you know he will handle it while you are gone, and not enough "I'm fine!" on your part makes him change his mind.
Nothing good will come out of this with him there, you know that!
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The press is desperate to get an interview out of Mathew, and the photographers already love him, a cloud of lens following him around.
With those looks, impeccable suit, and swag, who wouldn't want to snap his picture?
But his security has him covered.
A new and hot Sky Sports reporter approaches him, and he lets her slide in, with a microphone in hand and a cameraman following her.
Mathew gives her an exclusive interview, instantly switching to his most charming, funny, and sweet persona. He shines under the lens, showing his big, bright smile with gorgeous teeth.
Mat reaches the reporter's ear when the interview finishes and the cameraman lowers the lens. —Tower Suite 1898 The Post, 7:00 p.m., don't be late. I'm fucking you in dark lingerie and ankle-strap black high heels.
She nods, all blushing, knees shaking at his invitation.
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Okay, Toto can't resist it anymore. He promised he wouldn't do it, but he can't. It's driving him nuts.
He opens his iPad and smashes the keywords on the Google search bar, typing "Mathew De Vos."
A ton of links and information show up.
"Cambridge Faculty of Law Board Member, Masters in Corporate Law, PhD. in Law, former ONU ambassador, former Interpol Associate"
Toto closes those taps after reading them and moves to the next more frivolous ones.
"#4 on World's Richest Men, #2 Billionaires Under 30, #2 GQ's Stylish CEOs"
In all his status, Mathew appears married, and in most of his interviews, he always mentions his wife, you, which hurts him.
Okay, but what does Matthew do right now? Why buying an F1 team? There's nothing linking him or you to the sport. Could it be just for a hobby?
"Current investor and CEO of Little Heroes Global: Safeguarding Minors Around the Globe."
Okay, there's still no connection. Maybe it was just a good business deal?
Toto keeps reading and then moves to trashier, gossipy sites.
Le Soir
Brussels, 2004.
Tragedy strikes De Vos family as helicopter crash kills parents, leaving 16-year-old son heir.
A devastating helicopter crash in the rolling hills of Belgium has claimed the lives of Victor and Lina De Vos, leaving their 16-year-old son, Mathew, the sole heir to their vast family fortune.
According to eyewitnesses, the De Vos family was on a routine flight from their estate in Wallonia to Brussels when the helicopter suddenly lost control and crashed in a nearby field. The accident occurred at approximately 10:45 a.m., with rescue teams arriving on the scene within minutes.
"It was a scene of utter devastation," said Alfred Van der Meer, a local farmer who witnessed the crash. "I saw the helicopter go down and then... grey clouds."
Victor De Vos, a wealthy businessman and billionaire, was 45 years old at the time of his death. His wife, Lina, was 42.
The couple was known for their philanthropic efforts and various charitable organizations throughout Belgium.
Mathew De Vos, 16 years old at the time of the accident, is now the heir to his father's business empire and the family's Manor. The exact value of the estate is unknown, but insiders close to the family suggest that it could be worth hundreds of millions.
"We are still trying to come to terms with this tragedy," said Michel Droveb, his godfather, a family friend, and business associate. "But we are all relieved that Mathew is safe and will be able to carry on his parents' legacy."
As news of the tragedy spread, tributes poured in from around the world. "The De Vos family was a shining example of generosity and kindness," said King Leopold II of Belgium. "Their loss is a great blow to our nation."
Funeral services are scheduled for next week at the St. Michael's Cathedral in Antwerp.
In the meantime, Mathew De Vos has been taken under the wing of his family's trusted advisors and is expected to continue his parents' business endeavors.
As he begins his journey as one of the world's youngest billionaires, Mathew De Vos has vowed to honor his parents' memory by using his wealth to make a positive impact on the world.
"We will continue to give back to our community and support those in need," he said in a statement. "My parents would want nothing less."
The exact cause of the crash is still under investigation.
Toto finishes reading the old entry on the news site, a bit pale and shocked. That may explain some of Mathew's attitude.
He locks his iPad after indulging himself too much and thinks it's enough. Toto has more important things to do.
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As soon as you are allowed to leave the bed, you go visit Mat's mom since you miss her very much. You walk there barefoot, feeling the cold wood and stone floors of the Manor all the way to the next wing.
She is peacefully lying in bed. The massive room is full of bright natural light, and a fresh and stunning bouquet of her favorite flowers is placed on the nightstand next to her, filling the room with a delicious scent.
You want to tell her all about your new life and the people you have met, and as you share everything about Toto with her, you get emotional and overwhelmed.
So when Mathew arrives there after searching for you, he finds you crying while holding her limp hand.
He comes closer and sits at the border of his mother's ICU hospital bed, placing himself between it and the armchair where you are sitting at.
The room remains quiet, just the sounds of the life support pieces of equipment keeping his elderly mom alive, in a coma, but still.
He tenderly kisses her mother's temple before facing you, leaning his body in to wipe the tears sliding down your cheeks.
—Tell me what's hurting you to fix it? —compassion and care fill his eyes.
—This has no fix. Damage is done —you stare down at your hands before adding: —But going out to dinner can help me feel better.
He nods. —I know the place.
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Sam joins you for breakfast at the Manor the following morning, where you tell her every detail about the plan, now being able to, and how it went.
—Then Pascal played one for the team again! —she says before grabbing a portion of her pancakes.
—I'm worried about him. I hope he is safe and well. —you express with deep concern, much to Mathew's dislike.
—Oh, he is. He let me know days ago —Mat says in the most nonchalant, neutral voice while picking his fruits.
—What?! Why didn't you tell me?! I've been worrying all these past days! —now you sound exasperated at him.
A "here we go!" face sets on Sam.
—You needed to rest! No further point! —Mat continues, still not caring, as if nothing was wrong.
—Stop telling me what I need! —you raise your voice at him, now you are mad!
He looks up and stares at you with an icy look but doesn't reply; he continues having breakfast as if nothing is happening.
One day, you will lose it with Mathew's controlling and psycho moves.
You regain your composure and add: —This can't keep happening! I need to know the things that involve me right at the moment!
—Understood —it's all he says.
—And what about Lenkov? Any whereabouts? —Sam says, pushing topics, used to witnessing you fight.
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You text Seb to let him know you are at the Manor now.
—I'm glad! But where's that?! Do you own a manor? It doesn't sound much like your style! Ah, and thanks for answering back!
—Sorry for the delay in replies! I was resting. Shit! I forgot you don't know about it. Let me ask Mat if you can pop by. He is very particular about who is allowed here.
—No worries! I can ask him myself. I'm watching him right here.
Seb puts his phone inside his red tracksuit pocket, scooters down the pitlane to Mat beside Michael, and chats casually with the men in German before asking him the question.
—Wait, Seb!
Seb doesn't read your text. Seb takes Mathew entirely by surprise.
Mathew allows him to visit you, sensing Vettel is kind and has some guts to reach him.
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When you return to the Manor, feeling tipsy after drinking a lot in that sports bar where you watched the race in secret.
Your heart sank every time Toto appeared on screen, looking as handsome as ever but without acting playful in front of the camera.
Sebastian is already in the old drawing room, waiting for you and chatting with Mat in a friendly way, which is rare. Damn, time flew by!
—And there she is! Hello, drunk! —Seb greets you as soon as you enter the room.
Mathew sends you a cold look, which you defiantly ignore.
—Bee guy! —you reach Seb and give him a warm hug. —Podium, heh!
—I know! Third place! Not that bad for this old man?! Tell Millie to leave me to win sometime, one win this season, pretty please! —Seb smiles big at you.
—No way, Jose! I'm sorry for making you wait with this one! —you point to Mat with your thumb.
—Alcohol produces brain damage, and you need cold water and food! I see you two at the dining table.
Mat exits the room, annoyed; he hates alcohol, cigars, drugs, sugar, and everything that's unhealthy for the body.
—Does he always swags all moody like that? —Seb asks, following him with his eyes, raising his eyebrows.
—Oh yeah —you let out a giggle.
You love Vettel.
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—And those are your parents, right? —Seb asks, observing the massive regal oil painting of a family of three hanging on the wall by the exquisite wooden crafted stairs before sensing the atmosphere changing.
He got offered a tour of the Manor.
—Yes —Mat answers solemnly, you two standing near Seb while he leans to peek. All alcohol is out of your system by this point.
—Do the eyes follow you around as you walk past? —Vettel jokes in the most Sebastian way possible.
A smile forms on Mathew's lips. —It sometimes shakes too. You know when father disapprovals! —he pats Seb a bit too hard on the back.
—It's a bit too much, isn't it? —you join in. Shruging your nose, looking at the old painting.
—Yeah —both men agree, letting out in unison.
—You were such a cute kid. What happened?! —Seb teases Mat.
—Life, life happened to me —he answers, more honest than joking, oblivious to Seb, clear to you.
Why is Mat acting open and friendly with him?
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—Ta-dah! This is my room! —you invite Seb to hang out in a more private space, taking him to the last spot of the tour.
Mathew had already left to the wing of the Manor that is his. He always hides in there; sometimes, you even forget he exists or that you were supposed to live with him.
—So this is where you grew up? —Seb is curious and naturally funny, so he is already playfully peeking into your drawers, looking at the Polaroids on the wall, and checking the decor. —Oh wow, baby Sam!
He points to a picture where "kid Sam" and a younger Alexi, Mat, and you appear.
—Yeah, that's about when I arrived here, and no, I didn't grow up here —you shake your head several times. —I wish!
Now, Seb is confused. Mat just told him you two lived together "since you were kids." —Then, where?
—Here, take a sit —you invite him to hang on the sofa in front of the big stony fireplace as it lights the huge room. The night is fully set, and the air in the countryside is cold. —Bare along...
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This story is not a happy one.
You will never forget that big old mansion in the woods where you grew up. Your oldest memories start there at age four.
You had no idea who your mom was; you had never met her, only your nanny, who cared for you and your baby sister, a cute five-month-old girl, a chubby, healthy baby with pink cheeks.
You loved holding her; she always wrapped her fingers around your thumb and tried to get your long, shiny hair into her mouth, which made you giggle.
You let her play with your teddy bear; she is the only one allowed to grab "bon-bon."
You love wrapping big bowties around its plushie neck, and your papa occasionally gifts you colorful and shiny ribbons.
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Every day, you take lessons with a rigorous and cruel governess who teaches you manners and scolds you when you do things wrong, calling you an animal and a brute whenever she loses her patience with you.
You don't like how she treats you, but you don't notice anything wrong with it. It feels ordinary to you.
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The following day, your nanny wakes you up early and tells you they have important guests coming over, and you must look pretty to welcome them.
She combs your hair roughly and, in a rush, pulls it into a tight bun as instructed while you are on your feet on top of the makeup chair.
She puts you into a puffy chiffon dress and starts applying you makeup, which you love. You like all those things: hairstyles, dresses, makeup, nails, glitter, and sparks.
When you see yourself in the mirror, you look like a doll that belongs on a shelf as you stick your tongue out and make silly faces at your reflection.
She then takes you downstairs to your favorite room of the large house. The playroom is colorful and has many toys to play with; it's a shame you always play alone.
You go inside and grab a couple of plushies and a plastic tea set when you notice several stern and tall men watching you.
You feel a little bit shy under their stares; among them is a man who looks intensely at you.
He is a tall, silver-haired, muscular man with captivating eyes and a dangerous smirk that could charm the devil himself.
Standing next to him are gunmen and two large menacing dogs guarding him.
Another group of gentlemen join him before they all enter your dad's office, a forbidden ground for you.
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After a while, everyone exits the house's entrance door and leaves, but the silver-haired man stays longer.
You have seen him before; he is your daddy's boss.
Sometimes, they have meetings, and whenever he is at the house, they get you all cute-looking and rushed downstairs.
He always asks for you and handles you expensive gifts every visit.
You get distracted by him bringing you cake; all you want is a slice. The merengue looks delicious and smells like vanilla.
Your dad and the man come closer to you. He greets you brusquely, caressing your cheek.
Now that you are near him, you look terrified at the two scary Dobermans monitoring your every move.
—They don't bite unless I command them to —He looks at the muscular animals. —So be a nice girl —he jokes with you.
You reach closer to your dad's leg, trying to hide behind it, but he neither pats nor reassures you.
—Status on her training? —the silver-haired man asks.
—She is about to start it, sir.
—When it gets done, send her to me —he instructs with an authoritarian voice but nonchalant.
He brushes his hand on your hair before he heads out of the big, beautiful wooden entrance door.
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As the days go by, you start to spend more and more time studying with your governess.
That cruel woman seems to be under such stress of quickly teaching you many things, so she behaves even more viciously.
Your German, French, and English lessons feel too much for your little brain. No six-year-old should feel this pressure on herself; all you want to do is play.
You get moody and start to cry, not being able to take it more; you are tired!
Suddenly, you feel a painful sting on your cheek; your dad slapped you hard for whining. —Stop crying, behave! —He commands you.
And you do so.
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You are in the staff's kitchen, sitting on a high barstool, legs swinging in the air, while the cook prepares the meal.
You ask her to make you a sandwich, but she tells you you are no longer allowed bread or carbs.
That kitchen leads outdoors to the massive gardens by a backdoor; it's a vast property.
Another prominent building sits right across the field, in the distance, behind some bushes and trees.
You are not allowed out, and you are not allowed to go near there.
But you are a curious and strong-willed girl, after all.
You peek through the window and see two little boys and girls walking from room to room inside the other property. You want to go and play with them, as you are always among grown-ups.
The cook follows your gaze and rushes you out of the kitchen and back to the living area.
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It's late at night, and you wake up to the sound of your stomach growling.
The house is so quiet, as everyone is sleeping, and it's the perfect moment for you to sneak to get ice cream.
You risk going to the kitchen after your curfew because you feel hungry from the small portions they have given you lately.
For some reason, they have been measuring and weighing you daily.
You navigate the large house's hallways, avoiding making a sound. Your steps softly creak on the wooden floors unnoticed, which is why you are barefoot, which is also not allowed.
You finally make it to the kitchen and, on your tiptoes, take the big bucket of ice cream out of the freezer and to the countertop.
You are short for your age, which makes you look younger and even more adorable. You are such a cute, tiny girl.
You hop on the stool and eat the chocolate ice cream straight from the bucket with a big spoon, licking it; chocolate goes all over your collar and lips.
If the governess saw you doing this, she would lock you in the closet. She had done it before and made you spend an entire night there for disobedience.
You cried hard for your dad. That place was cold and dark, but he never showed up.
You catch movement with the corners of your eyes outside the large window into the garden's bushes, the same window from which you peeked out earlier.
A small shadow moves quickly, and you get a bit scared, but curiosity makes you reach closer to the window's glass, your nose almost touching it. It feels cold, it must be freezing outside.
You catch a small girl hiding in the bushes and dropping to the dirt quickly as she notices you.
The door to the outside is just steps away. What if you go help her? She looks distressed and must be cold!
You know you are not allowed to, yet you go.
You expect the door to be locked, but you open it easily.
You hear a soft beep as you set foot outside on the deck. Then the alarm goes off, and the motion detection lights turn on; they are so strong they blind you.
You watch the little girl run to the forest as fast as she can. You try to go after her when you feel a firm grip pulling you from the hair and throwing you back into the kitchen.
You hit the floor hard, sliding in.
You see a pair of black combat boots about to kick you in the stomach when your dad's voice screams very loud.
—Don't get her scratch! She's valuable! —the man immediately stops mid-kick with a yes, sir.
You watch the other guards drag violently the little girl back inside the other building.
You barely hear her indistinct screams in the distance. As you lose sight of her, you think she is begging for her mother, and then the door gets violently slammed close in front of you and locked down this time.
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You don't understand what is happening but remember feeling freaked out that day.
You then recall how scared you used to feel every single day back in those times.
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They leave you for two days inside that dark closet with no food and no water as punishment.
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The following month, the governess tells you she has finished her job with you but informs you that your training is set to start.
You don't get what she means by "training."
Then, she leaves the study room and returns with a boy about two years older than you.
You quickly get happy to see someone close to your age and not another adult. You have been raised among them.
The boy looks rigid and lost in the eye as he approaches you.
When he is standing before you, he pulls you closer and kisses you on the mouth. You giggle at the sensation. It feels funny!
But you see nothing wrong with this, you like the contact since you have never been held like that.
These lessons last for several weeks. They get weirder and more touch-y each time.
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When winter arrives, it starts to snow outside. You are cozy sleeping in bed, hugging your teddy plushie under your warm blanket.
The fireplace creeks and heats the room when you hear heavy footsteps outside your bedroom door before it opens.
A big, bulky guy picks you up from the bed, still wrapped in the blanket, waking you up. He carries you down the hallway, heading with you down the stairs.
There, you see your dad, for the last time, on your way to the SUV with tinted black windows parked right outside the front door.
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It turns out that man wasn't your father, nor was this your actual home.
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You remember feeling increasingly nervous as the car gets further away from the property. All you think about is Bon-bon and the baby.
You cry.
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You are sent to the Serbian ring, where your price is high for obvious reasons. You overhear the man who takes you there sound delighted at how high your bid went.
You don't understand a thing.
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Two days later, they fly you to a high-end hotel bungalow in Bali, where an older man expects you.
They make him read some papers with terms and things he is suggested not to do to you since this type of man doesn't like the phrase "not allowed to," and he agrees.
The chaperone then closes the room door behind you, leaving you alone with him.
You don't know what to do next, so you watch him remove his tie and shoes as he points you to the bed.
As an obedient and collected girl, you get in there.
-
This man paid in advance for an entire year of your services and exclusivity, which is an enormous amount of money.
They make you meet with him always in different countries and locations until he gets bored of your body and moves to the next younger new girl.
After that, they return you to the market, and you visit the ring again, this time in Turkey.
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You were supposed to live in several security houses when you weren't traveling around the globe to meet your owners, which never happened to you.
They rotate them constantly, and cameras and microphones are everywhere, so the other girls and boys cannot interact.
It doesn't matter much anyway.
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With time, you learn that the more money you make them, the better things go for you.
Soon, you discover you are one of the privileged ones since Lenkov, the silver-haired man from childhood, is infatuated with you and asks for you whenever he wants you.
He is a scum.
—If you weren't so good for my business, I do have you living here with me full time like one of my dolls —the fit older man tells you while inhaling coke from the tits of a busty teenager.
While another underage girl like you sits in his lap wearing a tiny bikini, five of them are in there fighting for his attention and petting him all around at his open-floor mansion by the sea in Punta Cana, where he currently lives. You are the youngest one in there.
Lenkov has many places and doesn't stay in one longer, and the girls he likes for his sick enjoyment only get to follow him all around.
It's a better type of prison to be at; you get to learn, and it's way better than getting bid off in the rings.
At least with him, you know what to expect.
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Lenkov hosts one of his infamous parties as a goodbye to Punta Cana, which is full of powerful and corrupt guests.
Drugs, alcohol, and a bunch of underage girls and boys are there at their disposition and for everyone's enjoyment, all if they pay, of course!
Bricks of money and bags full of rolls are on several surfaces.
After your previous owner passed away in a very sketchy way, you are pretty sure he got himself poisoned.
Lenkov ordered that they broght you so he can enjoy your body during the weekend and for your attendance at the party since a couple of Arab princes and some Serbian moguls will be there, and he wants you to work your way with them.
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A very stoic, tall, and older man in an expensive suit sits, legs crossed, in the expensive armchair next to Lenkov.
He looks you up from afar, his eyes traveling every inch of your skin.
You know how to read a room by this point in your life. So you get closer and slowly twirl for him.
—She —he turns to tell the silver-haired man, looking at you, and Lenkov nods, allowing it.
There he was, your new owner.
God, you hated that word. You weren't a thing to be own; you were a person, even if they didn't treat you like one.
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When your chaperone opens the door to a massive suite in Dubai, you are surprised to be greeted by a tall, gorgeous, muscular man with piercing blue eyes, dark, wavy hair, and great skin.
He is big and athletic. You would find him extremely attractive if he wasn't this sick person.
After being with many 50-plus-year-olds, a 33-year-old feels young enough for you. Even if he is not, you are only 14 by this point.
Well, you have been told you are.
Since you don't own a passport or credentials, you don't know exactly who you are, how old you are, where you come from, or anything about yourself.
He agrees to the terms presented to him, and then, as usual, you are left alone with him.
Either they go all over you immediately, asking you to take your clothes off in an instant or foreplay a bit before demanding you to go straight to the bed.
But none of the listed happens this time.
He returns to his laptop, where he seems busy working. Of course, he didn't forget about you. He was totally ignoring you.
It's always tricky with these guys! They are often arrogant, violent, controlling, or power-obsessed and challenging to read or act around.
But, unfortunately for you, you have enough experience dealing with all those types.
So you take off your dress, revealing your tiniest lingerie, and against your will, as usual, approach him, showing off your body.
You get into his lap, placing yourself on his crotch.
You don't want problems, and you know what happens to girls who get a "bad review" to say it like that.
He stops reading what's on his screen, getting distracted by you, then turns to grab his jacket and offers it to you. —No need for any of that —he tells you.
And you put his coat on.
It looks so big on you, covering your whole body. You move to sit on the sofa near him.
Dead silence.
He couldn't care less about you.
—Sir, I'm all okay? Is there a way I can pleasure you? If I'm doing something wrong, please let me make it up to you —you freak out as you notice the time of your session is running out; you don't want trouble.
—I didn't hire you —he says, still typing and looking busy. That takes you off guard. He looks straight at you with those fierce blue eyes, frowning.
—Pardon?
—My sick father gave you to me as a "forgive me" present —he lets out with disdain. —I don't get how he is okay with this stuff. I'm not too fond of paid girls or STDS. I'm not into the young ones.
—I'm very clean, I get tested all the ti-
—So, how does this shit work? —he interrupts you, not caring about what you are saying. —I read on paper that a titanium package was paid. Even the name sounds absurd!
You look at him collected, avoiding saying a dumb thing, being extremely careful with each word.
—It means I'm exclusive to your enjoyment, and you have me ten sessions before acquiring the package again if I please you, that I promise I-
—I see —he again interrupts your rehearsed speech.
You hear soft knocks in code on the door. It means Fran, your chaperone, of course you know that isn't his real name, is waiting for you.
You get your dress back on, and he walks you to the door.
Before reaching it, he suddenly pushes you into a rough and intense kiss, messing your hair and fucking your lipstick, biting open your lip, and, in a powerful movement, tearing your dress a little bit, taking you by surprise.
Fran opens the door at your lack of response and quickly apologizes, witnessing some of the action. —I didn't mean to interrupt, sir.
—No worries, I'm done with her —he says deadpan, pushing you out with a big slap in the ass.
-
This goes on for the subsequent sessions.
He doesn't touch you more than what is required to pretend you two did the thing. He is clever at keeping appearances.
-
—So, as long as I have you under my power, I can take my time to have our "sessions," right?
—Yes, sir, but not that much.
—Good, that gains us little time.
He asks you one night while looking out of the panoramic windows, sipping his coñac.
Damn, he is muscular and hot.
—Feel free to use the suite amenities. You are not allowed out of the room, correct?
—Oh no, I'm not —you confirm quickly, not wanting to get in serious trouble. Guards parol you, so there's no way you could get out even if you tried.
-
He renews his package with you without touching or disrespecting you in any way.
Every time you meet him, you expect him to ask you to return the favor. Your life experiences have made you wary and distrustful.
But he doesn't.
-
—Yes?! —he looks your way. You have been staring at him for five minutes. He is not the most tender-speaking person.
—I'm sorry, I wasn't, I-
—It's alright, you can talk.
—No worries, you seem busy.
—Go straight to the point or remain shut up —he dislikes wasting time.
—Why are you doing this? —you venture to ask. —I'm not trying to sound ungrateful. I'm more than thankful to you, sir.
—Don't call me sir; it makes me feel dirty —he drops himself on the sofa beside you, giving himself time off from work, stretching. —I get what you are going through. I'm in a prison of my own, too.
You remain quiet a little bit, pensive to open your mouth, knowing you can trust no bitch, but this feels different. So you trust your gut. —What do you mean?
—My father got my family, me included... —he stands to pour himself another glass of coñac and offers you one. You aren't allowed to drink unless they offer you, so you accept it. —...dragged into his illicit business, sadly, we have no way out now.
—I think I met him once from afar. No disrespect, but he seems harsh.
—You can disrespect him all you want. I hate my father; he is a scumbag, he got my brother locked up and murdered in jail, and my mother is also dead, thanks to him. So now it's just us.
Silence.
—Are you in any danger? —you ask, honestly concerned.
—Worried about your situation?
—No si- shit! —you quickly correct yourself. —Sorry, what do I call you?
—Pascal, that's my real name, by the way. As you can see, I don't care much, and yes! I'm always in danger, not imminent, but still, it's a dangerous game I'm playing.
—You are kind to me, that's why I asked. I don't know my real name, so I have no name you can call me.
—I can think of a couple of ones —he makes an innuendo, and by your shocked expression, he quickly adds. —I'm joking! I'm kidding!
You laugh for the first time in God knows how long.
Knocks come on the door.
-
That goes on until Lenkov becomes possessive of you and warns him that this is the last time Pascal is allowed to acquire your package, and he won't steal you away from him.
—I'm not planning to do so, Lenkov, it's just that pussy is so good, and I don't know how to quit it —he lies.
Lenkov smiles at him with an "I get it" expression before asking him for an obscene amount of money.
Pascal agrees to it, but only if he is allowed to have you for more time, for an entire year.
—A million, and it's a deal.
—But if she stays with me in London...
—She will be not allowed out of the apartment, I will place snipers, and if you try to trick me, I will slight her throat in front of you and then yours. A million and a half, and it's done.
Pascal pays for it.
-
He welcomes you to your new home with a glass of champagne.
—To the birthday girl.
—What?!
—Today is your birthday. According to your birth certificate, here, it's your gift.
—Is this real?! —tears fill your eyes. He nods, and then Pascal looks taken aback when you give him the warmest hug he has ever received.
He doesn't know what to do until he relaxes and hugs you back.
—I could sleep with you right now! —you say, and you quickly add by the shocked expression he gives you. —I'm joking! I'm kidding. Ah! I'm one year older than I thought! But how did you get this?!
—I have something to confess to you, and it's the reason why I moved you here with me —he sounds serious and looks stern; he hesitates before continuing.
You start thinking about the worst possible outcome. Here comes the part that goes bad for you.
—A few months ago, I made contact with Interpol.
—Oh, please, I'm, look, I, I rather not —you mumble and start to panic, fearing for your life.
—I see. I may die after this —Pascal lets out.
—You what?! —you panic.
—It doesn't matter. Yeah, it's better you stay out of it.
—If it threatens your life, then I'm in! —you sound so assured that he looks shocked.
—Why would you...? —he starts asking.
You jump in. —Risk my life for yours? Anyday! You are the only good thing that has ever happened to me —Pascal looks at you with an expression you cannot read.
—This guy I got in contact with has been pursuing Lenkov for some time and plotting his downfall.
—This guy?! Wasn't the Interpol?!
—Well, yes, he used to work for them...
—Oh god, how are you sure he is not setting you up and wh- —you panic again.
He calms you down and quickly explains. —He is the most annoying guy ever, but it's legit. He started his own organization and has the best of the best working for him, and that's why he moved the Lenkov case with him and left Interpol to work it on his own; it's personal to him.
—Have you met with him?
—Just on the phone, many, many times.
—I don't like this.
—I promise you he is legit and has resources. He was the one who got me your birth certificate. All he is asking from us in return is to act as a witness in case all goes well and we get Lenkov on trial.
—And what's in this for you? I'm sorry for judging you, but my life has taught me some lessons. You aren't in this just because you want my freedom, right?
—To whistleblow my father and expose his business with Lenkov, and make them both rot in prison.
—You are going to get us murdered!
Pascal starts worrying about you bailing out, judging your fear and panic.
He is getting ready to start working you out when you suddenly calm down.
—But what do I have to lose? This is no life, and if I can help to protect you, other girls, and boys and gain my freedom along the way, I will.
-
Lenkov sends people to check on you two occasionally without previous notice, trying to catch in any weird move and have an excuse to move you back with him.
It comes to his attention that according to the people he sends there, they never seem to interrupt you in sexual activities, enraging him.
-
You are cozy on the couch watching TV when Pascal's deep voice grabs your attention.
—Listen, whenever someone from my "dad's business," aka my job, comes here, or we aren't alone, no matter if it's the help service, I need you to play along and pretend we are in a sexual relationship. We need to keep appearances and have the word spread.
—Why? —you start feeling concerned. —Did something happen?
—Don't stress about it —he dismisses it. —Just so you know.
-
—Y/N, you are right. You are not being paranoid —you have been feeling observed by people looking from the building across for some days now. —Probably Lenkov moved some people to one of the apartments in front. They are watching us now.
Pascal pretends to enjoy a drink while looking out of the floor-to-ceiling windows to the skyscraper in front of yours.
—Moving out is no option for us —you add, feeling nauseous. Months have passed since you started living peacefully with Pascal at this place you now call home.
—We need to engage more, then —he sounds grim.
—If we close the curtains but keep the lights on, maybe we could dry hump for them. Silhouettes may work.
—Have the men you have been with ever cared enough to close the curtains?
—No. I get it. It's going to look staged. They won't go away till they make sure.
He lets an exasperated sigh and smashes his glass on the floor.
You instinctively jump. —Listen, I have done it before, we could... —you go all red.
—No.
-
After several days of noticing him consumed by the situation's stress, you cross the distance between you and gift him your first kiss.
Obviously, it's not your first physical kiss, but the first one that feels real.
You kiss him all the way to the bedroom.
Where Pascal makes love to you in a missionary position, all flesh in full display and bodies moving in rhythm for them to witness.
After you cowgirl him, he takes you in doggy style till you cum from pleasure for the first time ever while moaning his name.
You completely forget that you were doing it for the men watching you at a distance, secretly shooting photos without you noticing before they have them printed and delivered to Lenkov.
-
There is a slight shift after that night.
The interactions between you two become more tender; there are more accidental touches and sweet looks, along with some cuddling, but nothing sexual ever happens again after the Lenkov people leave you alone.
Not even a kiss.
-
Three months later, as you grow impatient every day since you know your year agreement is near its end, Pascal informs you that this guy wants to implement the plan.
Next week, a massive raid on the Lenkov rabbit holes, properties, and security homes will occur. People are going to get arrested and youngsters rescued. You are on the list.
The difference with you is that you will immediately be moved to Belgium to the Little Heroes Global headquarters to testify and for them to prepare you for court.
-
It's a Wednesday morning, the first time you talk to this guy on the phone.
He sounds young, but his tone is too solemn. He informs you that Pascal was the critical piece he needed to deploy his long, elaborate plan; he and his team have spent years trying to get Lenkov.
Now that you have all the knowledge and information he needs to take him down, it is all good to go.
It's the first of many calls you two exchange, and you eventually become incredibly familiar with his voice.
-
The day that "Operation Lina" arrives, you are so nervous.
Everything is going according to the plan.
But then, as a lot of commotion happens outside your apartment door, Pascal bolts to his feet and places you behind his body, protecting you.
A SWAT team bursts in, knocking the door down. Pascal looks at you, confused at the violence, but you see him smile for the first time in all the time you have met him.
—That's the sound of your freedom —he addresses you, briefly resting his temple on yours. You want so desperately to kiss his lips.
Then the SWAT team moves quick on their feet, guns up to approach you, or that you think so.
Unexpectedly, they pinned Pascal in a violent move against the floor. He hits his head hard in the process.
—What are you doing!? —you start screaming and kicking as they push you out of the way. You go insane as they keep dragging him away from you. —LEAVE HIM YOU FUCKERS! You are hurting him! This wasn't part of the plan!
They yank him down the apartment entrance hallway, and you fight your way to follow along, demanding to know where they are taking him, screaming and kicking.
—PASCAL! —You are desperately calling for him at the top of your lungs.
When you feel a hand softly rub you on your shoulder, you turn around, expecting the worst, to see Lenkov standing there, so you violently remove the hand from you and, with all your force, push the guy against the hallway wall.
—Easy! Easy! —that familiar voice tells you. —He is going to be okay, I will make sure —a kid slightly older than you is standing before you, his beautiful blue eyes are set on you.
—Are you!? —you let out in barely a whisper. You can't believe your eyes; he can't be that young!
—Yes —he starts fixing himself. —You are strong. Mathew De Vos —he offers you his hand.
—Why the fuck are you betraying him like that?! —you start immediately fighting with him, which, funny enough, becomes a habit for you two.
—I'm not! Listen, in one of the raids inside of one of Lenkov's drawers at his office desk, there were photos of you and Pascal, you know, explicitly engaging in some illegal acts.
—But that's not! He didn't ra-! I consent to it, AND it was just because Lenvok people were watching us ove-
—I believe you. I'm not happy to lose one of my biggest witnesses, but it's still a crime. Due to cooperation, we can offer him a good deal, so Pascal will be alright, I promise you.
—How do I know I can trust you?!
—I'm here, as I promised I will. Let's go. The quicker we get this done, the faster you will win back your freedom!
-
Days later, Mat informs you he moved his influences to get a particular trial for Pascal and that he ended up with just domestic arrest in Budapest, ankle monitor and all.
But that you won't be able to see him, probably ever again. You are only allowed to talk to him on the phone.
-
Lenkov corrupts his way out of the situation. To both your fury, you have never seen a man so furious as Mathew that day; you almost felt like running away from him as soon as possible, but this unexpected outcome forces you into a witness protection program.
Mathew offers you a place to stay until things get sorted out, a stay that will last for years to come.
-
—The obvious aside, duh, why did Mathew want to take Lenkov down? —Seb asks, his voice husky.
It's cold and late at night, around 5 a.m., and by this point of the story, you are already wrapped around Seb's arms, sharing the soft blanket on the couch as he plays nervously with your golden bracelet.
Seb has remained empathic and supportive, listening to your life story.
—Mat got scarred by that same man. Victor, Mat's father, was just solidifying "Heroes Global" after building it to protect minors, legally advise victims and their families, and help intelligence agencies dismantle traffic rings when he was the first person to discover the real business behind Lenkov's legal facades—you explain. Seb's eyebrows go to the roof, and his eyes look sad.
—As Mat was dealing with becoming an orphan, his team found out the helicopter crash that killed his parents, well, his dad mostly, wasn't an accident. Mathew's mom has been in a coma for years with no hope of recovering, but she is still with us, thank God.
—Are you a believer?
—Yes. God sent Mat to me. He means the world to me, Seb. He really does, even with all that implies. It's the only family I have. Even in our worst moments, I have never not loved him. He gave me a chance and a better life than I had ever imagined.
—It's good to know —Mat's voice takes you both by surprise, making you un-cuddle and turn to him. He walks inside the room before standing before you, hands inside his soft pajama bottoms, shirtless.
—Where did those abs come from, ancient Greece? —Seb can't help but peek as he jokes. He looks good.
As soon as I found out Lenkov did it and what he really was, I took the basis of Heroes Global and founded Little Heroes Global, working with Interpol. Did you know, Sebastian Vettel, that this girl right here is the foundation's vice president? he asks in the voice of a quiz host while pointing at you.
—I begged Mat to let me stay and work with them as soon as I was freed, I wanted to help others, but I was an illegal here in Belgium, with no papers and in need of a citizen permit and a passport.
—Also under age —Matt adds. So, I wasn't able to marry her to fix all of that thing at once, but as soon as we could, we did, I stayed true to my word of taking care of her.
—It wasn't a romantic or traditional wedding —you explain.
—Just transactional, sign here, sign this, sign there —Mat adds.
—Do you ever?
—Yes —you both answer at the same time.
Dead silence.
—But you two need to go to bed, to sleep, I mean. On another occasion, Y/N may tell you all about us; I prefer my version, though. Feel free to stay over Vettel. Just respect my roof —he winks before leaving, implying to be discreet with sex if there is to be.
Sebastian goes all red.
To be continued...
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(this is for the niko angst thing) can you pls do smt like he thinks the reader cheated on him but its just a big misunderstanding. you don't have to make it happy ending but i would prefer it.
love ur work sm btwww 🤍🤍
I'LL ONLY MAKE YOU CRY, Niko Omilana
(request)
summary: Niko Omilana, a guy who isn't really experienced with relationships. When he hears one accusation of you cheating, you see a face you've never thought you'd live to see.
warning: kissing, angst, MEAN / TOXIC nikolas
A/N: we know me and I hate a happy ending 😘 I just simply can't make them I feel like it's much more better when the ending is terrible + (TYSM FOR THE COMPLIMENT ANON 🤍🤍🤍) also sorry for taking so long to finish this i'll try to be consistent 😭 (ending is rushed and little bit cringe, read at your own risk!!)
"Hey babe." Your heels are heard when you walk inside the beta squad set, the frown on Niko's face immediately turns into his usual goofy smile when he recognizes your voice.
There's no time to hand him the breakfast you've gotten for him as he engulfs your entire waist with his long arms, his lips making its way onto yours. You hear him slightly chuckle in the kiss, which triggers your smile.
"I–" he pulls your lips with his teeth which triggers the bottom of your stomach with heat.
"missed you–" He presses his hot lips against yours.
"so much."
You roll your eyes despite the grin plastered on your face, "You just left your apartment not an h–"
"Our." He corrects you with a slight aggressiveness in his tone.
You sigh, "Our apartment not even an hour ago." You half-heartedly glare at him as you correct yourself.
"I can't go one minute without you." He whines to you silently, so none of his boys could hear it and make it a joke for the rest of his life. He tugs on your hips and pulls you even closer.
"Yes, you can. You aren't a child and i'm certainly not your toy." You say almost a bit coldly, but from the inside, you could feel yourself heating up at his touch that never failed to intoxicate you.
"Keep your hands to yourself. There might be children watching. You know, like Aj." You playfully say, Niko biting his lip to stifle his laugh.
"It's hard keeping my hands to myself when you're so tempting." He rolls his eyes playfully.
You feel your face getting red by the second, trying to come up with anything to say rather than stay silent.
"Enough." You glare at him.
He shrugs, looking at you innocently. "What? I'm just stating the obvious. And theres other obvious things that you still haven't heard yet from me–"
You raise your index finger right at him, "I didn't come here for you to state the obvious." Your index finger makes its way to poke the side of his shoulder.
He places his hand on the place you aggressively poked, "Ouch. It's not my fault you get flustered easily."
"Omilana." Your glare was sending him a warning.
"Right. Sorry." He mutters.
"The only reason I'm here is that I got you breakfast on the way to work–"
"-but there's breakfast here." He cuts you off.
You narrow your eyes towards the buffet that was only filled with chips, crackers, and sweets. Some were left open, the rest being either closed or empty.
You squint your eyes at your boyfriend, who stood with a smile, like he had won with his weak statement.
"You call packaged poison breakfast?" You cross your arms, a small victorious smile appearing on your face as you spoke.
"Hey, hey. Now I don't want you smiling because you aren't winning this argument. Food is food. Any food could be breakfast." He smiles when he sees that you had nothing to say.
Fine, he won. But next time, you wouldn't let it go.
You roll your eyes at his childish manners. "You need warm nutritious food in order to keep your tall genes working so you could beat a giraffes height. It would set a world record. Hey, I can even call up guinness world records to help you win a world record." You suggest.
He sends you a bored stare, "Ha-ha. Very funny. It isn't my fault you look like the troll from Frozen. Giving both looks and height." He ruffles your hair as he spoke, your hands aggressively pushing it away as you fix your hair.
"I'm not trying to be funny. Also did you just say a troll? Yeah, good one. So you're dating a child then?" You questioned, raising your brows as you did so.
"Trolls aren't children. They're a bunch of grown old rock–thingy. They're just dwarfs. You know, like you." He whispers in yours ears as he snakes his arms around your waist.
You sigh in annoyance as you push him away. "All that i'm saying is that my own boyfriend deserves having real, good food." You hand him a brown paper bag, his smile brightens when he sees the smiley face on the bag.
"You guys are disgusting." Aj remarks from the background, in which you responded with flipping him off.
"Oh baby," He whispers in your ears, kissing it with a small peck. You hum in response, your breathing getting less steadier the more he goes lower.
When he reaches your collarbone, "I love you so much." He mumbles against your skin.
"I love you too." You say softly. You tug on his curls, admiring him for a few seconds.
"y/n– Oh hey, Niko." Your manager walks inside the set.
"You ready? We have to be there in 15." Your manager, Carter says to you. Niko observes weirdly at how Carter seemed a bit too smile-y, his lips reaching from ear to ear.
"I'll be there." The way you spoke seemed a bit too much cheerful for Niko, but he pushes it off.
Niko's stare towards Carter was intimidating, waiting for him to leave. The eye contact between you and Carter seemed a bit too long for Niko before Carter turns around and leaves the set.
Niko's puppy eyes return when he looks at you, englufing his large hands with yours. "Don't leave." He says, knowing damn well you'll have to either way.
"I'd rather stay with you and we both know that." You sigh, checking the time from your phone.
"13 minutes and I have to be there for shooting. Promise I'll make it up to you when we both get back to our apartment." You smile at him, the smile that always made Niko nervous.
He grins at you, his lips kissing your forehead, "I'll see you later."
—
9:40 pm
Niko smiled as he saw the time. Exactly 20 minutes, and he was going to see you.
After a long day of shooting, everyone left home, and the only person on set was him. He always made sure to close off everything.
"I'm pretty sure your girl is cheating." A familiar voice erupts Niko's thoughts.
Stacey. One of Niko's producers.
He was packing up as he finished filming everything for the day, which meant every producer should've gone home before he did.
Niko scoffed, confused by why she was here and confused by the sudden confession. "y/n is her name. And no, she wouldn't. Also, you aren't supposed to be here. You should've gone home." Niko says aggressively with a cold smile, not bothering to make an eye contact with her.
Niko was never harsh with any of his producers. He was always the sweetest out of the boys, but hearing this from one of his producers? He wasn't going to let anyone talk about you this way.
"Carter. Isn't that his name? Recently there were pictures leaked from a really weird angle. It looked like they were kissing." The name drops from her mouth with ease, Niko's shoulder straightening when he hears the name that he has always hated.
He stays silent, contemplating whether he should believe this or he shouldn't.
"Here, I could show you."
—
You felt your eyes getting heavy as you scrolled relentlessly on your phone.
Your eyes widened when a photo of you and Carter, your producer, appears on your feed.
From this angle, it seemed like the both of you were kissing. But in reality, the both of you were taking a picture on your phone of your faces at a really low angle.
And the paparazzi had to show a picture from this angle.
"Fucking pricks. Disgusting." You mutter under your breath.
You checked the time.
11:24 pm.
Why was Niko late? He was always the first to arrive. You were starting to get concerned, that was until you heard the faint noises of keys unlocking the door.
You smile once you see that Niko was finally back from work, but it slowly goes away when you see that Niko didn't seem... very happy.
"Bad day on set?" You ask, worried for him.
He ignores you, his eyebrows still deeply furrowed and his eyes are looking at everything but you.
"You got into another fight with another one of your producers?" You ask. Niko's heart softened at the way you spoke. So delicate, so sweet. You never failed to make him feel this way. He even seemed to wonder how can an angel like you, even cheat?
He sits down on the couch, his eyes still staring and boring into the TV across the room. "Babe?" You softly say, sitting next to him on the couch.
"What do you want?" He says carelessly, unlocking his phone and scrolling with his thumb.
You were almost a taken aback at the attitude. You were used to him showering you with kisses and hugs, but now he just seemed off.
You eye him up and down for a few seconds. "Is it wrong that I want to talk to my boyfriend after not seeing him for a long time?" You say playfully with a smile to lighten the mood, but it quickly dissappears when you notice that he wasn't phased.
"You know–" He starts, but something held him back.
"Actually, nevermind. Not worth wasting my breath." He says coldly, a snicker escaping his lips.
You stay silent for a moment, looking around and making sure there wasn't a camera, because you knew this was going to take a turn if he was actually treating you like this.
When your suspicions of seeing a camera settles off, anger takes ahold of you. "Why are you acting like this?" You scoff.
"I'd hardly call myself your boyfriend." He tries to mutter to himself, but you catch it.
What did he even mean by that?
" Excuse me? Niko, where is this coming from?" Your voice cracks. A huge lump suddenly formed in your throat.
His lips twitch into a mockery smile, something he usually does whenever he was deeply hurt. It makes you almost cry. What the hell has gotten into him?
"You're sleeping with someone else." He laughs, like he was amused by the entire thing.
"What are you talking about? "
"You're cheating on me." He states as if it was a factual statement.
Your heart is beating as the seconds pass by, the fear dropping to your gut almost made you sick to your stomach.
"Wh–" You pause, trying to take him on what the fuck had he just said.
Sleeping?! Cheating?!
Was those words actually coming out from Niko's mouth? Your sweet Niko?
"What did you just say?" The way you had spoke proved how much you were hurt by the statement. It wavered in fear and cracked in anger.
How can he accuse you of something you'd never do?
"I don't have to repeat it, y/n. I made it pretty clear." He clearly sounded irritated as he spoke like you were the problem, his voice getting louder by each word he spoke.
Did he just say your name?
The last time you could ever recall him say your name was one day before you both committed in a fully relationship.
You could feel your heartstrings being ripped, it even made a melody in your ears. It was ringing, you almost weren't aware from your surroundings.
Your nails digging through your skin, the pain made you come back to reality as though it had lost you there for a second.
"Me? Cheating? Sleeping? Are you aware on what the hell you're saying right now?" Your voice is now louder with anger, fury and rage that he could say such thing. Your palms are now sweating, not that because he was right, it was because maybe he was fully convinced that you had cheated on him.
"I don't see me talking to multiple people. Who else would I be talking to?"
He was too calm for a situation like this.
It made you scared.
"Niko, what the fuck– let's just talk it out. Please don't be like this." You gently speak, your hand slowly reaching out for him. But thats when he dodges your touch. Something that he never does.
"Niko." You say sternly.
fear was all you felt.
You shake your head, almost trying to deny his actions. You didn't wanna believe it. "I didn't sleep with anyone. whoever told you that was–"
"I honestly don't care whether you slept with someone or not. I can finally have an excuse to leave you." He says coldly, the words spilling from his lips didn't feel real at all. Where was that sweet man who was begging for you to stay? You were confused, none of it made sense to you it made your eyes blurry.
He had said it like he meant it, but you didn't want to believe it.
You feel tears approaching and the ache in your heart made you feel like it almost swallowed you whole.
"Niko," You say it as a warning, "You don't mean that." You shake your head.
Netherless, the pain in your chest was never going to be recovered, his words easily made its way through your heart.
"Believe it or not, I do. I'm sick of you. Always have been." He nods at his words. He wanted to believe in his words although he doesn't mean it. You could point the slight hesitation in his tone, but was that you just making up things because you wanted to have an excuse?
"Take that back, or I swear to God I will–"
"You swear to God you will do what?" He says it in a sense of mockery, his eyes finally latching onto yours.
You felt vulnerable and weak at the moment, like you were lower than him. That's how he wanted to make you feel.
"You're hurting me. Please tell me you don't mean it." You beg with your teary eyes.
His eyebrows furrow and his eyes glistened for a second, but it goes back to being cold.
"I don't care." He says plainly.
He sighs, "Get out of my apartment. I don't have the time for you." He points towards the door.
"Niko– you're not serious. I have no place to stay–" Words were now spilling from your lips, you had no idea if there was now a future. As now it had felt like the end.
"I don't have to repeat it, do I? I. don't. care. Get out."
You were in complete disbelief when you realize what made him act out.
"Niko? Is it the picture? Niko I swear that was–"
"Do you not understand the words coming out of my mouth? I don't love you anymore–" He pauses when he realizes what he said, his eyes meeting yours. He sees the tears rolling down your cheeks, his fingers curling into fists to try and tempt himself not to get up and start wiping your tears.
His eyebrows are furrowed in a sympathetic way, like some sense has knocked into him. He froze. He couldn't even move.
But before he could say another word, "Fine. I'll pack and I'll leave. We're over." You nod weakly. You were too tired to prove yourself as he was being stubborn. You couldn't even cry.
But what came next, hurt you even more.
He just nods with a small smile, "Yeah, sure. We're over. Just leave."
He had just confirmed it and there was no going back. You didn't even wanna pack. You just wanted to leave at this moment. And thats what you did.
You get up from the couch without any hesitation, holding the tears you wanted to let out as you didn't want Niko to see that you cared.
Bam.
Niko almost felt dumbfounded when he saw you take your last steps in this apartment that he had called your very own. He knew he wasn't built for a relationship and was sure he'd only make you cry in the end.
In your eyes, it looked like he didn't even regret it. But a few feet from you as you're leaving the complex, Niko's eyes brimmed with tears.
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