#sometimes it might take me a day or two or spontaneously a while

[flanaganfilm]

hi mike, saw someone say your ask box was open and i came running! have you ever had any ideas as to how the crain family would be getting on now a few years later/what they're doing? it's always in the back of my mind wondering if creators also wonder about those sort of things themselves once their project has ended. thanks so much & hope you have a great day!

I do think about that. Quite a lot, actually.

The Crains took on lives of their own for me. I'd never written long form before, so it was the first time I lived with the same characters for that long, and for such extended arcs. Here's where I think they are, a few years later:

Shirley: I think that Shirley and her husband overcame her disclosure of infidelity. She'd been closed off for so long, after the series ended I think she found some peace in her life and opened herself up to her marriage. I think she also began to find kindness again. They ran the funeral home together, but Shirley found purpose in helping people handle grief and loss with empathy and kindness. Her oldest would be just about ready to start college now, and I think that would have her looking back and realizing that she always remembered her childhood as seemingly endless... but now she sees just how fast it truly goes by.

Luke: Luke stayed sober. He's six years into it now, and it's gone so well that he's also become a sponsor. That doesn't mean he's immune to the struggle, far from it. He still walks up to that edge sometimes. Oddly, it's in those moments that the "Twin Thing" kicks in... and he feels an inexplicable and complete sense of love. He knows that's Nell's, and that always pulls him back from the brink. He never did find Joey, or find out what happened to her. And sometimes he still wakes up with nightmares that he's on the floor of the Red Room, or that Joey visits him with her runny-egg eyes. But no matter how hard it gets, he feels what Nell feels for him... and that always pulls him through.

Theo: Theo and Trish got married, and moved far away from New England. They currently live in Portland. She still works with children, but enjoys a much smaller patient pool. She specializes in the kids who are hardest to reach, and she's sought after for her unique and uncanny ability to connect with them. She doesn't wear gloves anymore, but she still avoids the very crowded places. She and Trish take long hikes, grow their own pot, and travel frequently and spontaneously. They're considering a surrogate... and if it's a girl, they're going to name her Eleanor.

Steven: Steve and Leigh have two kids, and are thinking they might stop there. He never wrote about what happened at Hill House, but he still writes. Science fiction. Leigh recommended the genre as a way for him to focus on the future, not the past. He likes it a lot. It's pulpy, but it's earnest. He maintains Hill House, as it is his responsibility, but he doesn't enter the property beyond the gates. He has a rotating collection of people service the property itself, always during the day, and only for a few hours at a time.

Hill House stands quietly and silently in the hills. There is something different about it. Still the same energy, but without the malice. Steve assumes this is because of Hugh, Nellie and Olivia, who maybe curb the most malicious energies of the house from within. While shadows still walk in the windows at night, there are no living souls there to see them. Mostly, Steven imagines the spirits inside spend most of their days sleeping. And if they cannot sleep, he imagines Mrs. Dudley singing softly to them on the wind.

There is grief, for all of them. There are nightmares. Horrible dreams of moldy rooms and phantom hands. They meet twice a year, usually without spouses, to catch up and raise a glass to Nell, and their parents. There is a lot of healing still to do, a lot of therapy, a lot of introspection. But there is peace, too. There is love. There is forgiveness.

#the haunting of hill house #does this count as fanfic? #epilogue

[spaceagebachelormann]

Hello! If you’re taking headcanon requests, may I please request headcanons for what Count Dracula & Erik the Phantom would be like as husbands?

dracula and erik as husbands !

✧ warnings — some mentions of death and possible spoilers for dracula and phantom of the opera. also like 2 sexual jokes i think

✧ additional info — i got so so excited by this request omg <3 if u wanna id rlly appreciate it if u sent me more requests for phantom of the opera and classic monsters!! also not really specific versions of them but i mainly had the book versions in mind

✧ m.list — nav.

ೃ༄ erik destler

he wouldn’t wait to marry you

like at all

the second you show him you’re willing to be in a relationship with him and he’s sure you won’t leave him he’s already planning your wedding

of course if you wanted to take it more slowly he might be a little impatient but he’d try his best for you :)

but he’d be so happy if u were ready to get married as soon as possible

the sad thing is he’d get so stressed while trying to plan it because he’d want it to be absolutely perfect because that’s what he didn’t get with christine

and he’d try to convince you not to worry about it or help plan the wedding becaus he wants it to be a surprise for you

however he’d talk to you about what you want <3

so unfortunately he doesn’t know a lot of people 😭 so your wedding audience consists of daroga, mme giry, and maybe christine and raoul if ur lucky and manage to convince them (but they’ll be a little on edge)

and u can invite ur family if they’d be accepting of erik!

once y’all are married it’s so sweet and romantic ohmygod

he’d make u breakfast and dinner every single day, even if he’s had a particularly bad day

he just loves doing things for you

he’d also love writing even more songs and sometimes even entire operas for you or about you, you’re his muse

before he was able to take breaks from bis work to focus on you for awhile

but now you’re married he just can’t be away from you for two minutes

will sit on the floor and talk to u while u shower

or he showers with u

his love language is spontaneously twirling u around and redoing ur wedding dance in the most random places

also carrying u to ur bed if u fall asleep on him or somewhere else, before marriage he’d just let u sleep there and make sure he doesn’t wake u up

such a sweetheart <3

ೃ༄ count dracula

takes his time to marry you

but that’s only because he takes a lot of time working out when and where to propose and shit

and then probably has the wedding planned before you even say yes

which obviously you do

he’d be a little cocky abt u saying yes ngl cause he already knew u would

but the wedding itself obviously takes place at night and mainly other vampires will show up, but he won’t let them remotely near you assuming he hasn’t turned you yet

if he has then go talk to them!! there’s no risk of u dying or getting turned by someone else!!

he’d also rlly like cooking for u and shit since he canonically had to sprint around his castle to make it seem like he had butlers or whatever 😭😭

how good is fucking amazing btw

like god damn

and obviously he has a comfortable ass vampire bed that he’d let u put 60 pillows on if u want

he’d also like have a thing for ur hair no matter how short or long it is

he likes standing behind u and running his hands through it when u do literally anything for funsies

and his fingers are really pretty and long and cold so they feel nice

he also brushes it a lot esp in the mornings

he also doesn’t even look another persons way when he’s with u

ever.

and his brides are now just. draculas sisters or wtv 😭

unless u want them to be ur wives too he won’t complain

as much as he loves you there’s time where he js like. wants personal time to go kill people think

id also imagine ur very close with renfield

like draculas kinda mean to him but ur rlly nice to him <3

like for example waving at him when u see him or just going “hi renfield!!”

renfields probably the one who found u ngl

i can’t think of anything else for him mb pookie 😔 i’ll add to this later

#mars writing 🧈 #dracula #dracula x reader #dracula novel #phantom #phantom of the opera #erik destler #poto #phantom of the opera headcanons #erik destler x reader #dracula (marlees version 🩸) #phantom (marlees version 🎻)

[midnight-pluto]

(Followers event) Might aswell start calling me the pjo asker, since I had my share of angst already, how about some Leo Valdez x child of Ares Reader, enemies to lovers Riordanverse and Headcannon or one shot form

Plot: Leo and reader always had a disliking towards eachother, part of it being due to their dads own dislike towards other but soon starts to like eachother s company then finally turns to lovers.

(This was rushed, sorry about that, you can ignore the plot part and get your own idea from the start)

Note: since you're starting to feel burnt out, you can honestly do this when you start feeling better.

LEO VALDEZ — headcanons

when did the enemies stop and the lovers begin?

CHAR: leo

PAIRING(S): leo valdez x child of ares!gn!reader

WARNING(S): swearing, googles translated Spanish (I chose French instead which I highly regret)

A/N: ur now dubbed pjo asker anon — dw about me i took a break yesterday 😌✨

it was easy for leo to automatically stereotype you based on just finding out what cabin you belong to alone

he hated how loud the ares cabin was — it wasn’t like the apollo cabin where Leo could listen to its soft Melodie’s while he worked, it was loud thumps and yelling disturbing his work zone

that caused him to always be snarky and passive aggressive towards the majority of your cabin, grown some guts after going on a quest and finding out he can set things of fire

you were clarisse’s second in command always ready to defend your cabins pride at a moments notice

it was always when clarisse wasn’t around when Leo decided to pick a fight with you — saying some backhanded things about ares kids

don’t get Leo wrong, he grew out of hating all ares kids phase in the first few weeks of arriving at camp

he just started to hate you

and you had already hated him

that caused a lot of tension between the two cabins as a whole and especially got in the way whenever capture the flag was involved

it was nearly a crucial unspoken rule that the ares and hephaestus cabin never be on the same team unless you wanted to lose

until someone made the mistake of doing just that

“Oh of course, you know exactly what to do! It’s not like you’re known for your brains,” Leo taunts while you were making plans and putting on gear.

“As if you could come up with anything any better!” you retort, “The only thing you’re known for is spontaneously combusting.”

“¡Cállate, pedazo de mierda!”

“What the fuck did you say to me fuckface?!”

“Nothing, just that you’re the most pleasant person to be around!”

did you learn Spanish just because you were really tired of not understanding Leo whenever he muttered and yelled in Spanish?

yes

yes you did

that wasn’t great for Leo though since he always mutters under his breath about how it’s getting tiring always having to argue with you and hating how’s he grown to get used to and admire the face that yells back at him

“Why do you even have anything against me?” you glare, walking around Bunker 9.

“¿Por qué me acostumbraste a tu cara?” Leo mutters back fiddling with some device in his hand.

“¿Cuál fue siquiera esa frase?” you remark blandly, seeing his shoulders drop in shock.

now Leo has to be extra careful about what he says when you’re around afraid that you’ll find out about the feelings he’s deemed stupid for you

however sometimes he forgets just how many people can understand you and him when these bits of banter echo across camp

so some campers have decided to take it upon themselves to translate every single thing Leo has said about you on a piece of paper and deliver it on your pillow — there were dates and everything

it seemed to be the one thing that caused you to try have a civil conversation with Leo with him actually returning your civility

“So what was this about you saying I have a pretty face?” you remark, flipping through the packet.

“That,” Leo pauses, “That was when the lighting was extremely good that day.”

“Uh-huh, yeah. Okay,” you nod along sarcastically.

the whole thing was extremely satire since both of you had too much pride to formally apologize to each other so it came in the form of not screaming across camp at each other

it was the best time your vocal cords have had in a while

not for the rest of the campers though

the yelling was practically a common occurrence and was a part of their daily schedule at this point so the silence that should’ve been comforting was now ominous

it got to the point where they all had a makeshift meeting where they had to figure out where both of you were and make sure nothing happened

until then they saw you walking out of the forest — presumably from bunker 9 — poking fun at each other and laughing good-naturedly

and so, the Aphrodite kids won the bet against the Apollo kids and gained a shit ton of drachmas

A/N: I’m sorry this was so shittily made 😭 but shameless plug once again — my 200 follower event has been extended to the end of November and will not be put to rest until I get at least 8/10 requests so feel free to request some more /nf <3

#rin’s 200 follower event [🧸] #rin’s headcanon’s 🌷 #pjo asker anon #pjo x you #pjo x reader #pjo fanfic #leo valdez #leo valdez x reader #leo valdez x y/n #leo valdez x you #enemies to lovers

[tinytinyblogs]

Yunho As Your Boyfriend

Boyfriend

(n.) A person who 90% of the time annoy you, and 10% of the time makes you forget the 90%

Ateez masterlist here

Be prepared for Yunho to attack you with a hug, as this is his favorite way to show his love. You are smaller than him, so you will probably lose your balance and end up on the ground. But don't worry, he will catch you, and you will both have a good laugh about it. Yunho is a very affectionate person, and he loves to show his love through physical touch. He is also very strong, so when he hugs you, you will feel like you are being enveloped in a warm, safe hug. If you are not used to being hugged by someone so much bigger than you, it might take you a few times to get used to it. But once you do, you will find that Yunho's hugs are one of the most comforting things in the world.

Yunho loves to wake up early in the morning just to see your sleeping face. He finds it so peaceful and serene, and he loves the way the light from the window falls on your face. While he's admiring your sleeping face, he'll start planning what he wants to do with you that day. He'll think about all the things you love to do, and he'll try to come up with a plan that will make you happy.

Yunho loves to open his phone gallery just to see your photos. He will smile like an idiot, especially when he misses you so much. He has a whole folder dedicated to your photos, and he will often spend hours just looking at them. He loves to see your smile, your laugh, and the way you look at him. When he misses you, he will look at your photos and remember all the good times you've had together. He will think about the way you make him feel, and he will feel a little bit closer to you. Yunho's phone gallery is a treasure trove of memories, and he cherishes every photo of you. He knows that one day, when you're both old and gray, he will look at these photos and smile. He will remember the love you shared, and he will be grateful for all the time you had together.

Yunho loves to randomly hold your hand and drag you anywhere with him. He will buy you anything you want, and he will make you feel like the most special person in the world. He is a very spontaneous person, and he loves to see the excitement on your face when he takes you somewhere new. He will take you to your favorite restaurants, but he will also take you to places you've never been before. He will buy you anything you want, even if it's something you didn't know you wanted. He knows that you deserve the best, and he will do whatever it takes to make you happy. Yunho is a very loving and caring person, and he knows that one of the best ways to show his love is to make you feel special. When he randomly holds your hand and drags you anywhere with him, he is showing you that you are the most important person in his life.

Yunho is fiercely protective of you, and he doesn't like it when you distract your attention to another person, even if it's a child. He once told you, "I think we need to go. They want to take you away from me." You tried to reason with him, saying, "Yunho, this place is full of kids." But he didn't care. He just doesn't like it when you distract your attention to another person. Yunho's protectiveness can be a bit overwhelming at times, but you know that it comes from a place of love. He just wants to keep you safe, and he will do whatever it takes to make sure that you are happy.

Yunho loves to offer you a piggyback ride, especially when you two can't sleep and decide to take a walk at 2 AM in the morning. He will tell you jokes while you cling to his back like a koala. He knows that you sometimes have trouble sleeping. He also knows that you love to laugh, so he will tell you jokes to make you smile. He will tell you all sorts of jokes, from silly puns to funny stories. He will even make up his own jokes if he has to. He just wants to make you laugh, and he knows that a piggyback ride and some jokes are the perfect way to do it. You love the way Yunho makes you laugh, and you love the feeling of being close to him. When you are on his back, you feel safe and protected. You also feel loved and appreciated. Taking a walk with Yunho at 2 AM in the morning is one of your favorite things to do. It is a time for you to relax and connect with each other. It is also a time for you to laugh and have fun.

Yunho will always make sure that you know how much he loves you. He will tell you every day, and he will show you in every way he can. He will tell you how beautiful you are, how funny you are, and how much he loves your smile. He will also do things for you to show you how much he cares, like cooking you dinner or giving you a massage. Yunho is a very expressive person, and he loves to tell people how he feels. He knows that you need to hear it, and he wants you to know that he loves you more than anything in the world. He will often say things like, "You know that I love you so much, right?" or "I can't imagine my life without you." Yunho's love for you is constant and unwavering. He will always be there for you, no matter what. He will always make sure that you know how much he loves you, and he will always be there to catch you when you fall.

I'm writing this to myself, as a reminder to keep writing and posting frequently. I know that if I don't, my inspiration will start to fade and my brain won't work as well. Writing and posting helps me to stay mentally sharp, and it also helps me to connect with others and share my thoughts and ideas.

#kpop #kpop au #ateez updates #ateez fanfiction #ateez yeosang #ateez scenarios #ateez seonghwa #ateez wooyoung #ateez hongjoong #ateez yunho #ateez jongho #ateez san #ateez mingi #ateez au #ateez boyfriend #ateez fanfic #ateez fluff #ateez imagines #ateez masterlist #ateez reactions #ateez x reader #ateez headcanons #ateez fic #ateez #atiny #atz au #atz yeosang #atz scenarios #atz x reader #jeong yunho

[badchoicesworld]

Hello hello :)

I hope you're having a good day!

May I request Hobie and Spider-Noir with a s/o who cries a lot?

Not only out of sadness, but out of everything. They're happy? They cry. They're frustrated? They cry. It's just their body's natural reaction to any intense emotion. Even like, if they're listening to a song that itches their brain just right, boom, tears (talking of personal experience, me? Absolutely.)

I'm just kinda insecure about my crying habits lol, I need reassurance. (I cried to System Of A Down and Slipknot, send help)

Thank you and sending lotsa love :)

hobie brown and spider-noir with an s/o that cries a lot !

ok, first i wanna stress that you should never feel insecure about your natural bodily functions- ever. crying is completely natural and a normal way to express any type of feeling, so i hope you gain a little confidence in your ability to feel so strongly :] it’s a beautiful thing

second, you should check out demon slayer in you haven’t, there’s this character that always cries at everything and he’s the strongest ! gyomei my love

third, these are kinda short and i’m very sorry, i struggled w noir

separate scenarios

warnings: crying ?? insecurity ?

pairing: hobie brown x gn!reader, spider-noir x gn!reader

requests: refer to this bad boy

★⋆ ⋆☆⋆ ☠︎︎ ⋆☆⋆⋆★✧

i bet hobie’s one of them guys that gives out great advice about mental health or just in general and doesn’t take his own advice

he’s too cool to cry, he claims

but suddenly it’s not cool for everyone else to NOT cry

also uses common sense and figures that crying is a completely natural reaction when you feel any type of emotion, won’t be embarrassed by you if you start bawling your eyes out in public if you happen to feel happy to be spending time together

he just smiles and rubs your back, shaking his head but in a playful way since this is a common occurrence

does one of those side hug things where he hooks his arm around your neck and squeezes you to his side a few times, talking about “let it out”

it’s nice in a way, he knows that you’re crying cause you’re happy to be spending time with him

he’s close buddies with pav who i can also see crying at a lot of things, man’s not judgemental

and he can of course understand crying at sad things ! if you two are kicked back one day and you’re violently bawling at a movie that’s meant to be a tear jerker, he’s not gonna shame you

he’s probably thinking about how accomplished the movie directors must be/feel while simultaneously shaming the big company who produced it

it’s nothing new and he’d rather not address it directly by asking you each time if you’re okay when you cry, he imagined it would get irritating and make you feel like it’s wrong

so he probably does something to show he’s there, an arm around your shoulder, maybe he ruffles your hair or something if you’re excited crying (i do this w my special interests, there’s no shame)

overall, hobie just wants you to feel comfortable enough to cry at all- this stuff should be normalised after all, no reason to even justify it to begin with

he may even encourage you to cry, get it out your system

he definitely understands frustrated crying, i imagine he’s a man who’s had his fair share of frustrations and sometimes crying is the only way to cope

if it bothers you so much, he might try introducing you to other coping mechanisms that he personally does

encourages you to get into music, play an instrument, do something spontaneous with your appearance

if he ever catches you crying over one of his own creations, the man’s floored with this appreciation

the last fucking thing he’ll do is ever make you feel guilty for crying, he’s having none of that and he’ll silently scowl in such disgust at the people that do

it’s not cool to shame peoples emotions, no invalidation here

if he’s in the right mood and you’re crying for something, happily he might just hype you up honestly

go bestie go, cry your eyes out

noir

someone else who sees nothing wrong with crying- he admittedly associates it most with grief so definitively panics the first few times he sees you crying at anything

but explain how crying is your response to everything and he’ll relax

he’s probably envious of your ability to feel so strongly about everything, since he struggles to feel a thing

the man literally lets matches burn to his fingertips out of hopes of feeling anything

that being said, he doesn’t want you to think like you now get to feel ungrateful for your tendencies to cry at everything since he envies it- crying is still taxing as fuck and you’re entitled to your own functions, he just wished he could take a page or two from your book

nine times outta ten he will probably assume each time that you’re crying out of sadness, he’s horrible at reading the room

it’s a pretty instant reaction from him to ask what’s wrong and assume the worst, man’s is instantly ready to start a fight if you’re crying for something bad that’s happened

makes a really big deal out of hugging you and dramatically wrapping his coat around you before suspiciously listing all of your enemies

he’s more of a “cheer up, sport” kinda guy and is a lot more insistent about talking to him about your feelings

partly because he want to understand the feelings, mostly because he wants to help you

probably cites some old 30’s techniques on how to make your face less puffy after crying if it bothers you- a really bizarre remedy

he’s also heard some more modern techniques, like chewing gum when cutting onions

he assumes that works for crying as a whole

happy crying takes him some time to wrap around his head, but he’ll get it

it’s a little surprising to him at first that you cry at every little thing, but that’s okay

he cant imagine that he’ll ever get over that initial surprise, seeing you cry at all immediately catches his attention - he’ll eventually stop assuming it’s bad, but he does attempt to comfort you each time without fail

you could be crying in such joy and he’ll fail to read the room, strokes your head while talking to you like you’re a dog that’s just had their paw stepped on

thinks he’s helping an incredible amount, has a small ego boost when he does successfully comfort you

he really does embrace it instead of trying to avoid it, which he imagined would be arrogant anyway

he’s envious, overall

good for you for being so in touch with your emotions

★⋆ ⋆☆⋆ ☠︎︎ ⋆☆⋆⋆★✧

IM SORRY THIS KINDA SUCKS IM BAD AT CRYING

#across the spiderverse #spider man: across the spider verse #imagine #oneshot #headcanon #ask #hobie brown #atsv hobie #hobie spiderverse #hobie brown x gn!reader #hobie x gn!reader #gn reader #spider noir #spider noir x reader #spider ​noir x gn!reader

[that-ari-blogger]

Wicked And Worldbuilding (One Short Day)

The medicine journey is a stock storyline across a ton of literature and mythology. It's the hero's journey, but broader. The protagonist must go to a place (physical or metaphorical) to retrieve a thing (the medicine) and return home. Sometimes the medicine is enlightenment, or a secret suitcase with the MacGuffin the spies are all after, or even literally just medicine. The story focuses in on this journey.

The Wizard Of Oz follows this plot in a roundabout way, and its prequel, Wicked looks like it is doing the same. But Wicked is a satire, and so it takes this plot and twists it in a different direction. Before it can do that, however, it needs to plant its heroes in a new location.

Enter One Short Day, a song that is essentially just a transition piece to show the audience that the geography has changed. But this song manages to do a lot of worldbuilding for this place, and for some of the people who reside in it.

Let me explain.

SPOILERS AHEAD: (Wicked, Annie)

So... the Emerald City is New York City. Not explicitly, this isn't like Aslan, and the argument for the metaphor is shaky. I'm talking about vibes here.

Speaking as a non-American, New York has the stereotype of being "the big city", the place that is fast moving and cosmopolitan and chaotic in that way that you can't help but love. I don't know how well it lives up the image, but I'm guessing it's slightly more complicated.

Anyway, that's what Oz is, that stereotype, but with complications. And just like any stereotype, the closer you look to it, the more it diverges, and we will get to that.

But first, you know why I associate this stereotype with New York? And why I associate the Emerald City with that stereotype? Annie, which has this exact song, but for New York.

For those who don't know, Annie is a 1977 musical and a half decent 2014 film about a billionaire named Oliver Warbucks who adopts an orphan for the hell of it. There is a lot more to it, but you don't need to know that for this post.

During the story, Warbucks decides to show Annie around New York, and the audience is treated to a song called N.Y.C, which has lyrics like this:

"The city's bright As a penny arcade It blinks, it tilts, it rings." "To think that I've lived here all of my life And never seen these things"

Compare that to the following from One Short Day:

"There are buildings tall as quoxwood trees" "Dress salons" "And libraries" "Palaces!" "Museums!" "A hundred strong" "There are wonders like I've never seen" "It's all grand" "And it's all green" "I think we've found the place where we belong!"

So, there's very much a common link between the two. You, the audience, are supposed to feel awe for this new place. The characters are small fish in the sea and everything has a sense of wonder.

But did you catch Annie's line in N.Y.C? "I've lived here all my life and never seen such things." Annie has some themes that, while not the focus, are far from subtext. In this case, New York City is a great and wonderous place... for rich people.

Wicked does this kind of thing a lot, because in this story, duality is a core tenet, and the first thing to talk about is the sycophantic nature of the citizens. Although that isn't exactly the truth, is it?

"Who's the mage Whose major itinerary Is making all Oz merrier? Who's the sage Who sagely sailed in to save our posteriors? Whose enthuse for hot air ballooning Has all of Oz honeymooning? Isn't he wonderful?"

This doesn't read to me like spontaneous love for a leader, especially since the Wizard is established later to be looking into improving efficiency through a system of spies, and his second in command is his press secretary. Is it that far out of the question that this might be, in some way, propaganda?

That reflects on to the rest of the song. Oz is wonderous, but it feels fake. The actors are playing characters who are putting on a show by everything they do. All the citizens of Oz are living in a delicate balance of seeking popularity and coveting the popular. Everything is fake, and the fact that the real-life actors manage to get that across intentionally is really impressive.

I went to see the musical in Sydney twice (I knew one of the cast members), and the difference in performance between the first performance and the last was incredible. Not in terms of quality, but in terms of the emotions being conveyed. Most notably, Courtney Monsma's Glinda and Sheridan Adams' Elphaba changed from joy and wonder the first time, to the kind of disbelieving amazement of watching a drunk friend do something somehow both stupid as hell and genuinely impressive at the same time.

"We're just two friends." "Two good friends." "Two best friends"

Ah yes, the totally platonic and completely "just friends" maneuver of immediately relocating your entire life after your friend quietly asks if you want to come with them.

It is also notable that Glinda is the one standing out in this place. This is Elphaba's world, and Glinda is highlighted in it in gold. Just something to point out.

But, back to the worldbuilding, I think its important that Elphaba fits in here, because Wicked is a story about dreams and reality colliding, and part of that is Elphaba's dream of belonging, and freedom from ridicule. It feels important to the gut punch that she comes so unbelievably close to getting what she wants, but it isn't her that's the problem here, its the falseness of the Emerald City and Oz as a whole.

"You look positively emerald."

Suddenly, Elphie is in a place where green is a compliment. This is the defining abnormality, the thing that everyone, even her father, used as an insult.

And if you want something incredible to drive home this point, in the books, the Emerald City isn't even green. The outer wall is green, but the inside only looks that way because everyone is wearing mandatory tinted glasses make it look that way. The Emerald City's name is a lie. Everyone is just so caught up in the moment that they don't notice. It's like rose tinted glasses, but emerald.

The green-ness is actually fascinating, because the colour is usually associated with sickness and evil, but the story has been chipping away at that association through Elphaba's entire deal. So, the thematic of a specifically green city is confused, and I don't actually know what to take away from that.

Also, the Wizard dancers look like... well I'm not going to explain what they look like because I want to keep this vaguely PG. But suffice to say this: It is a cool piece of visual storytelling that, under all the facade of heroism and wisdom and magic, the wizard is barely more than a bellend with a bow tie.

Final Thoughts

I have a completely irrational love for this song, derived entirely from my time performing this musical back in high school. I was the guy at the end who shouted, "the wizard will see you now", and that's all it took to get me to like it.

The song still isn't my favourite, however. I'm going to keep y'all guessing about what that is until we get there.

Next week, I will be looking at Sentimental Man, a song that deconstructs the musical's idea of truth. So, stick around if that interests you.

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#rants #literary analysis #literature analysis #character analysis #what's so special about...? #wicked #wicked the musical #wicked musical #emerald city #one short day #gelphie #lgbtq

[soapppp]

CW: talks of abuse, hallucinations, ABO, homophobia and slurs

Ghost has helped Soap keep his hidden gender as an Omega secret for well over a year. He figures it out instantly, trying to tell himself it was because of his training and his status as an Alpha, not the fact that they might well be fated mates. It’s rare, but it’s also said that in every ten alphas one will have a fated Omega, so not impossible.

Soap didn’t realise that the other knew, pretending not to know that he clicked Ghost as his intended on the first day. He assumed Ghost didn’t realise because of Soap’s lies of being an Alpha.

But then his heat hits on a mission and he watches as Ghost kills three of their own operatives after two of them tried to force Soap while he was vulnerable. Later he would process that Ghost killed the other poor sod, a Beta, simply because he knew what Soap was. Ghost himself held back, biting a hole into his tongue as he got Soap to safety and made up lie after lie about a spontaneous rut.

Yet, even though Ghost knows he’s an Omega and that the two are fated to be intendeds, he does nothing. I’m fact, he seems almost awkward. Somehow trying to get as close to Soap as he can but also snapping at him or not speaking at all.

It’s after two weeks that Ghost subtly asked Soap to visit his room so they can talk. Soap, angered and hurt, is ready to yell and scream at him for not doing his job as an Alpha and caring for his Omega. But before he can, Ghost speaks in the quietest voice Soap has ever heard. Broken, small, and so unlike the man he knew.

“I kept your secret, Johnny… can, can you keep one for me?”

Soap looses all his rage in an instant, worry and relief at the trust being shown to him. He nods, a warm and hopefully safe smile taking over his face.

Ghost, though Soap has the feeling it’s actually Simon, fiddles his fingers like a child, “I, um, have these… fuck, I have these voices. In my head but not, like they talking to me without being there. My dad, my brother… sometimes me mum. They say things to me, horrible things, bout me being weak and a fag. Saying I can’t, can’t love ya.”

Johnny can’t help the tears that well in his eyes. He’s heard the rumours of what Simon faced, abuse and torture, but being followed by such things with hallucinations? It was a torture in himself. Was that why…?

Simon continues, “I thought they were right for so long. It’s man and woman and all that, but then you showed up. You’re nothing like they describe. You aren’t a slut or submissive, not weak and needing control and it’s confused the fuck out of me, Johnny. You make everything they say, then and now, so wrong, yet… this feels so natural. I’m scared, Johnny. Only my mums voice is nice to me but she’s… she’s fading. Don’t say much any more these days. Last thing I heard was, ‘be good to any omega, be better than him.’ But Johnny, I don’t fucking know how to do that!”

That’s it for Johnny, he too looses his composure and holds a sobbing Simon to his chest, cooing and kissing at his hair. He holds him as tight as he can, letting all the love he dreamed of giving his intended and their future kits take form in his gentle purring and careful touches.

“It’s alright, love. I’ll teach you.”

#modern warfare #john soap mactavish #ghost x soap #simon ghost riley #abo dynamics #alpha ghost #omega soap

[absentmindedadmirer]

CLASS 3-A Headcanons

Because this group has given me a lot of brainworms. I might add a list of other class and group dynamics.

General Headcanons:

Izumi takes pride in being the oldest and most responsible out of the 3-A trio.

He is literally one day older than Kaoru but he will shove it in his face and act as the greater superiority (and then Kaoru would flick him in the nose)

Chiaki is actually the oldest but Izumi dismisses this with, "You act like a 5-year so it isn't valid."

Eichi and Keito keep blackmail folders on each other "for funsies" [Madara overhears this and casually says that he keeps blackmail folders on everyone "for funsies!!"

Shu and Izumi talk about fashion with each other and both think the other one is the only one decent enough to get it.

Kaoru likes complimenting Mademoiselle's outfits and Shu sometimes takes them into consideration when designing new ones.

Chiaki holds very obnoxious over-the-top gift giving celebrations, so much so that everyone now participates in gift exchanges on Valentines, birthdays and Christmas.

Eichi loves spontaneously holding MANDATORY class field trips.

Shu obviously does not like involving himself with his classmates but still calls them "decent" (minus a certain someone) and ends up just sitting there observing them and making comments.

Madara loves to greet Eichi by wrapping his arm around Eichi's shoulders, just so he can put Eichi in a headlock. Keito is there to make sure it doesn't last more than 3 seconds.

Eichi loves to involve himself with the 3-A trio because he finds them amusing. He also lacks social skills and yearns for the buddy-buddy relationship they have.

Chiaki wanted to make Mademoiselle a hero outfit but got swiftly rejected.

Kaoru, on occasion, likes taking everyone (minus the idols outside of Japan), on food tours.

They frequent each other's lives but don't really admit that to each other.

Madara acts as an older brother figure to Chiaki and oftend leads Chiaki into more stupidity.

Izumi and Keito have similar taste in glasses.

Chiaki drags Keito frame shopping and Izumi tags along to make sure Chiaki doesn't choose something hideous. Him and Keito then engage in the world's longest convo about stylised lens frames while Chiaki gets bored and tries on all the frames from the kids section because they are colourful. Eichi wanted to go because he wanted to try out frames but Keito refused, saying Eichi didn't need them and Eichi complained about it for days.

! era:

Keito has his desk stocked with a complete first-aid kit, tissues, oscillator, etc. in case Eichi needs it.

On the rare case that Madara and Eichi are in class, they are seen tossing notes to each other with smiles. However, when one hits Keito in the head and he opens it, it's marked with death threats and passive aggressive insults.

They had a contest to see who looked best in Keito's glasses while he was asleep at his desk. Izumi won.

Eichi asked Izumi to paint his nails once for fun, but now nail painting sessions happen every two weeks for everyone

Kaoru first did it as a joke but now he kinda likes looking at his nails and gets upset if anyone ruins it. He's the first in line before Izumi even gets set up. Chiaki loves getting his nails painted but can never keep the paint on. He's always biting his nails, chipping them off by falling somewhere, or just being plain stupid with them. Izumi frets over this and complains as he does a touchup every morning. Keito only did it because Eichi wouldn't stop bothering him about having matching nails! Shu does not particpate. Lest it ruins his image. However, he does comment on other people's choice of design as he sits next to him. Madara complains about not being there enough to get his nails done but then he tries to steal the nail polish when he is there and tries to paint everyone's nails with the most atrocious colour schemes known to man.

Eichi likes playing with Chiaki's action figures (because he has the mentality of a child and likes playing with them) He moves them around while Chiaki gives him telenovela speeches on the significance of each one.

Kaoru likes jokingly telling Eichi to buy the class things as random as keychain sets to food. Eichi takes it literally and buys it all.

Everytime Madara comes back from overseas, he buy the most obnoxious tourist items and clutters the classroom with it as "gifts".

They all collectively play a game of "How High Can We Raise Hasumi's Blood Pressure!!"

Kaoru started it because he always loves teasing people and Keito's a simple target. Chiaki just accidentally joins in while Izumi inadvertently adds fuel to the fire. Madara loves being annoying so what else does he need? When Keito looks to Eichi to see if he joins in, Eichi just silently grabs the oscillator and measures his pulse and announces the rate like a game show host and Keito's pulse skyrockets.

Madara once visited Eichi in the hospital- though not directly. He scaled the hospital walls and slammed a cardboard sign saying "THE END IS COMING." before noisily breaking through the window.

Chiaki once found one of Shu's fashion designs on the floor and thought it was a colouring page. Shu chewed him out when he returned it, but later the outfit was made in those exact colours.

Eichi gets tired of sitting next to Keito all the time so he purposefully sits the farthest away from him and near other people. Chiaki is the only airheaded to not notice the death glares from Keito and Kaoru faintly fears for his life.

!! era:

Eichi made a group chat for the class because he wanted something else to entertain him in the hospital while he was stuck there.

It's still active and Eichi forced Shu to join when he got a phone and will not let him leave. The 3-A trio and Eichi talk the most in it and Keito engages to scold them every few messages. Madara pops in at the randomest moments to start chaos and Shu mostly leaves them on read (he does read every message...) and comments once in a blue moon.

Kaoru usually starts convo in the groupchat in his downtime, when he's in his apartment, and he usually sends random tidbits about his day.

Eichi usually responds first because the notification on his phone distracts him from work he doesn't want to do at the moment.

Chiaki and Izumi then follow and a general conversation sparks up.

Shu eventually responds asking why the chat is still alive and Keito comes into lecture them about staying up during the night and says that he will come into Eichi's office and make him do the work. Eichi stops typing but keeps the phone on, reading the messages.

Madara pops in and revives the chat again, leading Eichi to pick the phone back up, Shu to fully respond in disdain, and everyone to keep themselves up the whole night. Keito doesn't reprimand anyone anymore, just sighs as he makes Eichi do the paperwork the next morning.

Izumi was too far away to paint their nails as often but he usually got on calls to help them do it themselves.

Kaoru is the only one that is competent enough to do it so he gets assigned to paint Eichi and Chiaki's nails before Izumi gets so horrified at their work that he takes the next jet from Italy. Keito is again forced to join and Izumi touches them as much as he can when he comes to Japan.

Shu has made them outfits before, in a frustration that they didn't seem to be the type to sell to a client. He claims that they're still perfect, as nothing made by him isn't so he gives them out when he next arrives in Japan.

He gives Kaoru an outfit first and Kaoru wears it when he goes out to fancy places and says that he likes feeling flashy. He keeps it tucked it safely away specifically for that purpose.

Keito refuses it but ultimately leaves it in the box, in his hands. He doesn't plan on using it, but during formal events, he has pulled it out.

Madara is the first to wear it, followed by Chiaki and those two wore it everywhere they went before Shu yelled at them for being wreckless with precious fabric. They stop wearing it for a while but use it frequently and Shu stops complaining because he vaguely feel a sense of pride in it being that beloved.

Eichi did not get an outfit. Instead, Shu had handed him a small box where he pulled out a handkerchief and told him it was to "wipe the constant drivel that comes out of your mouth". Eichi keeps it and uses it frequently actually.

They still play "How High Can we Raise Hasumi's Blood Pressure!!"

Chiaki bought an action figure for Eichi because he felt that the character's role fit Eichi. Eichi couldn't remember the character's backstory for the life of him, but he keeps it on his desk and likes playing with it during paperwork.

Izumi carried a travel tote bag on him occasionally and off of it dangles Madara's tourist keychains, Eichi's random trinkets Kaoru made him buy the class, and his own matching keychain set with Kaoru and Chiaki.

At first, Shu took as many trips to Japan as possible because he wanted to annoy Eichi by biting into his expenses. Eichi only responded with a "What? You want to see me that badly-?"

Eichi and Madara always end up starting chaos in the groupchat by exclaiming everyone's secrets in the public chatroom.

Eichi doesn't do it out of maliciousness. A little birdie just told him about something that happened and he wants to know more. Madara knows what he's doing and loudly proclaims it in all caps like "LORD ALMIGHTY!!! PERSON A AND PERSON B WERE MAKING OUT IN THE STORAGE CLOSET!!!"

Mostly though. In my head, these guys interact a lot even after they graduate and they give me brainrot agh. I love these clowns so much.

More Enstars Headcanons~: 3-B Headcanons || Marine Bio Headcanons

#enstars #enstars headcanons #headcanons #eichi tenshouin #chiaki morisawa #kaoru hakaze #izumi sena #keito hasumi #madara mikejima #shu itsuki #long post im so sorry #this all came to me at like 3 in the morning and now i keep thinking about it so now its everyone elses problem #sketchie's fandom archives

[muffinsin]

Hello I’m back super soon it’s fluff anon again you don’t have to answer this yet considering I just got to request something but can you make how the sisters would take care of and maybe comfort a s/o with chronic pain.

As someone with chronic pain it is annoying when you have those days you really can’t do anything and just have to lay in bed.

I’d love to see if the sisters would maybe even get the s/o chores done just so they don’t have to worry about them. And maybe protects them from the headmaiden who calls them lazy for not being able to get all their chores done sometimes. Or even just being slower than others and needing more breaks

This would really mean a lot to me but again no rush for getting it done. Preciate it.

-fluff anon

A very interesting prompt!👀 I’m sorry you’ve got to deal with such a thing hon, I hope you have all the support you need and want🙌

Masterlists

Bela

She’s incredibly worried about you, at nearly all times. She can’t help but do that, really

She doesn’t quite understand why the pain won’t just go away at first. She’s hardly used to pain at all, being infected by the cadou and nearly invincible to all attacks

Even when confronted with the cold or heat, she always recovers eventually

You- don’t seem to

She doesn’t understand at first, and for this reason, she tries to gather all the information she can

She spends hours listening to you explain your condition, reads book after book, consults the castle’s doctor and even seeks help, advice and most of all; information, from Donna

When she grasps the concept of your chronic pain, she does everything in her might to ensure you have all you need, at all times

Bela immediately changes your work schedule to a flexible one, so you can stop working and decide whether or not to work spontaneously. You don’t work every day, as to not overdo it

Any who dare glance at you wrongly for this quickly find themselves made an example of

It’s made clear incredibly fast: Bela doesn’t tolerance any badmouthing you

She allows you to choose when to work and when not to, so long as you roughly work your hours a month. It’s incredibly helpful on difficult days, as you can delay your work for another day

When you do work, you’re not only entitled to take breaks, but asked to

Being less blood thirsty than her sisters and- despite her strictness- quite structured, Bela has created a good relationship between her and most staff members of importance

Especially with the head chambermaid. There is mutual respect, which is partly also shown in the way you are treated

You’re tasked to take breaks every once in a while and are never frowned upon by her

You’re treated like a colleague, and the work you do is appreciated

It makes you feel better about working, and your girlfriend only smiles knowingly whenever you praise the staff for their acceptance

Even outside of work, Bela takes great care of you

You’re her precious human, and while she doesn’t seem to be able to prevent your body from hurting you, she can take precautions to make life easier for the two of you

She ensures she has all you could possibly need nearby, often in multiple locations in the castle

When you wake up feeling in pain, you know there are plenty supplies and items to help you in her nightstand

Other locations include her office, the doctor’s office, the main hall, and even the storage room

Of course, there is another thing Bela is very adamant about: for you to let her know when you aren’t feeling well

She makes sure you know to wake her when you wake up in pain next to her, and always reassures and praises you for it

At other times, she encourages you to call for her or have a staff member fetch her

And the moment she’s with you, she ensures you’re comfortable in bed

Trays of food and tea/water are brought to you. She holds you gently, as though it could make all your pain go away

She loves you so incredibly much

Cassandra

She’s enraged when she finds out about the chronic pain

So- you’re hurt- and she can’t fix it?

How dare your body cause you pain like that?!

While normally excited to see others in pain, this doesn’t include you

Like her sister, she tries to find out all the information she can. She wants to help you

While she doesn’t qualify as a doctor, she has a pretty good understanding of the human body

As such, she as more than ready and willing to take care of you, on good as well as on bad days

Cassandra’s heart aches on the bad days, her own chest hurting at the pain you’re forced to go through

She tries to make life easier for you, at least, if she can’t help prevent the pain

At first, she offers you to quit working. Naturally

Upon denying this, Cassandra drastically changes your schedule

You work less, and are given more time to finish your tasks

Often, you smile upon seeing her appear close to you. While she flat out refuses to touch any of the sponges, much less scrub a thing clean- she has been raised as a noble, after all, Cassandra still tries her best to help you

She brings you buckets of water for the sponge to drop in and lifts all heavy things for you

When someone dares stare for a little too long, she snarls, and you feel relieved when you feel curious eyes shift away from you again

Nobody dares take you in for more than a few seconds with her by your side

You’re given more breaks as you work, and are made to take proper care of yourself

However, they’re not given to you out of the pureness of their hearts, and you know it

You know, they are given to you because of your tall, sadistic, and very murderous girlfriend

You know, you are not liked among the majority of the staff for your illness, merely tolerated and treated nicely because even such people know what’s good for them

Still, you often hear the whispers behind your back

Lazy. Useless. Weak

Those who dare utter those words are quickly disposed of

You try to prove you aren’t lazy. You do

Just…there’s days you can’t move out of bed. You grit your teeth in pain, and let your girlfriend gently stroke the tears from your cheeks when you cry

Cassandra assures you, you’re anything but lazy to keep working despite everything

She adjusts the pillows and ensures you’re comfortable, so your limbs rest safely on the bed and your neck is not at the risk of aching and causing you pain

You smile gently and eye her as she moves around the room effortlessly, trying to locate the heated bottles and blankets to place them on the bed with you

She makes sure you’re tucked in and perfectly comfortable, her fingers gentle and her lips soft when they press against your forehead

She stays with you the entirety of the time, usually polishing her weapons and crackling in delight when they’re both sharp, and clean enough for her tastes

You can’t help but smile at her endearing, large grin of anticipation whenever she holds up a weapon

She’s your everything, as you are hers

Daniela

She cares so deeply about you

The first time she is there to experience one of your bad days, she is convinced you’re dying

It takes some reassurance and explaining, but she eventually understands, you’ll live

What she doesn’t understand, is why you’re in so much pain so often. Why it won’t go away, like when she accidentally burns her fingertip

Though, Daniela doesn’t really need to know

All she needs to know, is you’re in pain, so she can help you

She is with you while you work, nearly constantly

More often than not she distracts you, really, but at times when she isn’t, she proves to be quite helpful, actually

She doesn’t like being reminded that she is cleaning, this much is clear very fast. Daniela is every bit of the spoiled daughter of a countess she was born as

You know, she enjoys helping you with your work. You see her move the rag over the furniture and along the shelves even after she’s long dusted them off

You see her position slack and watch her relax as she cleans with you

Should you mention she’s cleaning, however, Daniela immediately drops what she’s doing and swarms off to create a mess

You figure she dislikes the term “cleaning”, perhaps

Daniela likes to sweep dust off shelves and the top of cabinets for you

She doesn’t want you to have to move much, and generally takes over nearly all tasks that involve crouching up or reaching high places

On bad days, she equally stays in bed with you

She reads to you, cuddles, sleeps by your side and rests her head on your thigh to pass time. Often, she falls asleep, and leaves you with content, happy purrs and the small vibrations linking to them

She brings you medicine and stuffed animals to cuddle. Often, you’re asked to play with them and with her, such as hosting a tea party in bed with them with Daniela as the host

She ensures you have heated bottles and blankets and water, crackers and soft blankets

For entertainment, she brings you her favorite books and weapons, toys and plenty of paper and pencils

At other times, she brings you tea and candy, snacks she finds in the kitchens- and the occasional decorations she finds and that take her pick

This way, you sometimes wake up to flowers being balanced and lined up along your thigh, or find her sit crossed legged on the bed with a concentrated expression on her face, flowers braided into a beautiful crown by petite, careful fingers

At other times, you awaken to shiny rocks on the bed, necklaces stolen or coins “found” throughout the castle

It never fails to bring a smile to your face

#cassandra dimitrescu #daniela dimitrescu #bela dimitrescu #fluff anon

[myboyknows]

"the confidence when he's playing a role vs the insecurity when he's being himself" is such a good way to put it, and there's times I've fantasized about having a line that deft to throw at the haters. I'll keep it in my back pocket if such a situation ever arises again.

Please do!

I've been an AtS fan for a long time, and something I've always found so compelling about Angel is how easy it is for him to slip into a disguise and walk into a situation armed only with his own confidence in the role he's playing. He does it several times - especially over the course of the first two seasons of AtS - and I am absolutely enthralled by it. He's suddenly an art museum guide, a police detective in charge of a crime scene, a priest, 'cool' vampire J-Don, a lawyer, a French guy who loves fashion. Angel would never go out in a Hawaiian shirt and beach hat on his own, but he has zero problem with becoming Herb Saunders: Clueless Tourist from Baltimore in front of a mob boss. There are a lot of things this says to me about his character:

He's clever.

He's spontaneous.

He's calm under pressure.

He's good at improv/bluffing and should probably call Rebecca Lowell's agent and just become an actor already.

He doesn't care how strangers perceive him. This is the one that I think a lot of fans don't really understand about Angel. This man does not give a fuck. The reason he wouldn't wear a Hawaiian shirt on a normal day but is happy to do it in front of Little Tony isn't because he's embarrassed for other people to see him in a loud shirt - clearly - but because Angel has his own particular style that he feels comfortable in as himself and doesn't want to wear something that doesn't appeal to him, unless he himself chooses to wear it for a reason. It's like with the pink motorcycle helmet. Angel has no problem with other people mistaking him for a gay man, so when he doesn't want to wear the ladies' helmet, it's not because it might affect anyone else's perception of him but because he doesn't want to wear that helmet and he didn't get a choice. He likes his dark clothes and he likes his car, and the fake swami accuses him of developing this type of style to cultivate a persona for other people to appreciate without taking into consideration that these things appeal to Angel himself regardless of what strangers think. The only folks that he does actually care about in terms of their impressions of him are his friends, and so he'll correct them (sometimes) when they misinterpret him, but often he lets them think what they want about him, too. Which is maybe why it feels like Angel is so often misunderstood in fandom - because so many fans simply accept other characters' opinions of Angel as if they are fact rather than actually looking at Angel himself. Like with the smiling thing. There's an overwhelming fannish opinion that Angel doesn't smile very much because there are characters in the show who say he should smile more. But outside of serious or dangerous situations, Angel actually smiles all the time, and if it's any less than Wes or Gunn then it's only because he's more often in situations where it would be really weird to be smiling. He's a pleasant guy unless he's been given a reason not to be!

I also headcanon that one of the reasons Angel is so good at pretending to be someone else is because human camouflage is something that is literally built into his physiology as a vampire. Pretending to be something they aren't is a super important skill for all vampires, not just defensively in order to move through the human-dominated world but also as a means of getting close to their primary source of food. Angel spent 150ish years using his human face to deceive his prey while hunting, then a further 100ish years using it to blend in and disappear. Wolf in sheep's clothing, except the sheep's clothing is a really fucking good impression of a normal human being and he can wear it all the time. It comes naturally to vampires to pass as something they're not (we're ignoring the friend of Xanderrrrr's here) and Angel has 250 years of experience of people-watching. If he couldn't do pretty good imitations of different kinds of people by this point, I'd be surprised and disappointed in him.

But also! When we first meet Angel in the show, he's had very little experience interacting with humans while he's trying to be himself and not play some role to accomplish some kind of purpose. He's never had friends before, at least not with a soul, and he has no example of another vampire with a soul to imitate or learn from. He's flying totally blind, navigating unfamiliar territory, AND has conflicting impulses. So when he's insecure about his feelings and actions and expectations in his own life, that is also as natural for him as the confidence when it comes to pretending to be someone else.

Er, thanks for coming to my TED Talk?

#reply #angel the series #i love him your honor

[pascaloverx]

Strangers?

Part Two

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Author's note: This fanfic is set in the creation of Jenny Han. Conrad Fisher and other characters mentioned in the future do not belong to me. I hope you like this fanfic, depending on how it goes, I'll decide if this fic will have more parts or just this one. This fanfic is recommended for all audiences, there will be no adult content in it, only possible inappropriate language and alcohol consumption.

You arrive at the beach some time later, and you realize you might have dozed off on Conrad's shoulder. Embarrassment washes over you, and you quickly move away.

"Tell me you didn't hear me snoring…" You know there's a real chance he heard your snoring or that you drooled on his jacket. Great first impression.

"You know, you do this funny thing with your nose when you're sleeping. And if you want to know, the snoring wasn't that bad." He says while smiling, and you feel like you could dig a hole in the ground and bury yourself in it. Your day is getting better and better.

"I'm so glad we're finally here. I can't wait for the ice cream, although it's probably melted by now." You say, incredibly excited, but Conrad seems to find it strange.

"Why would you be happy that your ice cream melted?" Conrad asks as we get out of the car. He grabs the groceries, and I close my car and grab a blanket I had in the trunk.

You both sit on the beach, and you realize you have no idea where you are, and for some reason, that's comforting. You feel like you've spent your whole life trying to find yourself, never allowing yourself to enjoy the feeling of being spontaneous and lost. You grab the tub of ice cream and a plastic spoon you bought from the little shop, while Conrad takes the beer, and you both watch the sun begin to set.

"Want some?" You say, pointing to the tub of chocolate ice cream in your hands, offering it to Conrad, who seems to be realizing that the ice cream wasn't the only thing that heated up during your car ride.

"I don't know how warm beer and melted ice cream affect a person's stomach. But judging by the way you're digging in, I guess the ice cream must be great." He says between sips of beer, and you try to clean your mouth as soon as you realize you might be making a mess.

"How's it now?" You ask while trying to clean your face; he then reaches out toward your lip and wipes it on the left corner. You just watch him, feeling a certain intimacy in this gesture. Suddenly, you shake yourself to stop deluding yourself.

"Now it's perfect. Tell me something, what made you so lonely that you wanted my company? If I may ask, of course." He add, trying to steer the conversation toward you, hoping to uncover the reasons behind your solitude.

"If we're going to do this, we have to do it right. I propose a truth or dare game." You suggest, trying to lighten the mood and make the situation more comfortable.

"Okay, truth or dare?" Conrad asks nonchalantly.

"Truth." you respond, almost whispering. You gaze out at the sea, taking a moment to gather your thoughts. You already know what he wants to hear, so you sigh and begin to explain the twist your life has taken in the last 24 hours.

"I was working as a babysitter to pay off the student loan I took, and like any foolish young person, I fell for the sweet words of the eldest son of the family I worked for, who happened to be the father of the baby I was taking care of. We were the same age, so naturally, one thing led to another. But I found out yesterday that I was part of a social experiment. Someone he used to show his parents that he knew how to handle life. So I decided to come here to contemplate life since now, besides being single, I'm also unemployed." You say it all at once, hoping your foolishness goes unnoticed.

"You know..." Conrad starts, a faint smile on his lips, "sometimes life throws curveballs at us when we least expect it. But it's how we handle those curveballs that define us. You've shown incredible strength by facing your situation and taking charge. You're not alone in this, and hey, who knows? Maybe this unexpected turn might lead you to something even better."

"Is that something even better you?" You say while smiling truly extravagantly. You apologize quietly for the almost-laugh that escaped you.

Conrad chuckles, a genuine smile appearing on his face. "Well, who knows?" he replies, a playful glint in his eyes. "Life is full of surprises, right?"

"Enjoy the fact that you're in a good mood and tell me why you were having a mental breakdown in that convenience store earlier. I imagine your story is as good as mine."

"Oh, believe me, my story is not as eventful as yours. I was just having a classic existential crisis in the middle of snack aisle, questioning my life choices and wondering if I'll ever find true happiness." Conrad replies with a half-smile, trying to downplay his own troubles.

"It depends on what you think true happiness is…" You say, taking another spoonful of ice cream.

"Isabel Conklin was my happiness. Or still is. Do you know when the person you love stops being your happiness?" He asks.

"I think happiness shouldn't entirely depend on another person. Perhaps, when we learn to find joy within ourselves, the people around us become complements to that happiness, not exclusive sources of it." You respond, contemplating the question of happiness and love.

"I don't know if it helps or makes it worse. Either way, truth or dare?" He directs the question at you, attempting to steer away from the subject.

"I'm inclined to choose 'truth' again." You respond, observing his attempt to change the topic. Deep down, you're starting to believe that it's more than just a matter of a broken heart.

"It's not fair for you to choose only truth. Where's the girl who told me to move out of her way so she could drive past?" Conrad says, trying to tease me.

"Alright, hit me with your best shot, big guy." You try to sound fearless, but deep down you know he won't ask for anything crazy, right?

"I challenge you to take a plunge into that sea and have a nice swim in that probably freezing but invigorating water." He says, pointing towards the ocean. What a tease. You're definitely going to catch a cold here.

"Come with me?" You say as you strip off most of the clothes you have on. If you go in with this many clothes, you might get sick anyway. Conrad seems to ponder for a moment but eventually joins you.

For a few moments, it feels like the two of you get lost in the water, as if it's blissful. Then you look at Conrad and ask, "Truth or dare?"

Conrad responds after a dive, "Dare." You look into his eyes and smile. Then you say loudly, "I dare you to do something spontaneous, I don't know. Whatever comes to your mind first… if you need suggestions, I have a few."

For a moment, you both lock eyes, he thinking about what he wants to do and you observing what he will choose. You imagine him stepping out of the sea and approaching the elderly couple nearby, asking for a photo, or perhaps he'd ask for the phone number of the beautiful stranger walking towards the beach. But he manages to surprise you. Before you know it, his lips are on yours. Gently, he gives you a peck. A peck that starts to linger, maybe because it's the first time your lips meet his. You grab his hair, pulling your face closer to his. You're only interrupted by a couple shouting his name near where you left your clothes.

#conrad fisher x reader #tsitp fanfic #conrad x reader #strangers to lovers #conrad fisher fanfic #belly conklin #jeremiah fisher #reader insert #Spotify

[ryuichirou]

Hi! Love your art but if I can ask, can we hear some of your KaliJami NSFW hcs? I’m a sucker for Bottom Jamil :) thanks

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Anonymous asked:

KaliJami NSFW headcanons. Hit me with it all: favorite positions, first time it happens, kinks, public vs private sex, etc.

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What I noticed about you guys… you really seem to enjoy KaliJami, huh. People with good taste, I see!

Alright, I’ve talked about these two a bunch of times already, so with nothing else to add, here are the headcanons. I hope you enjoy them :)

Jamil does whatever Kalim wants and doesn’t think twice about it (he tries not to…). He’s lucky Kalim isn’t as psychotic and sadistic as some other guys are, but he is still pretty spontaneous and kinky, and sometimes he really surprises Jamil with his ideas, especially when it comes to poses.

I probably mentioned this one in a different headcanon list already, but still: despite being the top out of the two, Kalim is also the loud one. He lives his life breaking stereotypes and yelling Jamil’s name… with Jamil wanting to shove his fist into his mouth most of the time sigh

Jamil prefers to keep anything even remotely sexual as private as possible, and on paper Kalim agrees that it’s better to have sex in the bedroom, where no one can walk in on them. It’s also very difficult for Jamil to relax while knowing that other students aren’t asleep yet and walk around the dorm, so it’s better to wait until everyone’s asleep. But in practice, Kalim gets clingy and needy during the day pretty often, and a lot of times Jamil can’t really reason with him. So they end up having sex at random places from time to time, be it at the school’s kitchen, at the Ramshackle dorm or anywhere else.

They roll around the bed changing sexual positions a lot. Despite Kalim being the king of weird poses, a lot of times they start with the cowgirl, but then Kalim gets impatient and pulls Jamil down, rolls onto him and continues to move in the missionary position. Kalim likes it, because he loves kissing Jamil and seeing his face, but at the same time at some point he figured that Jamil gets hornier when they are doing it in the doggy position. Kalim is surprisingly attentive to Jamil’s reactions in general, and he keeps them in mind.

Kalim’s ideal fun time with Jamil consists of a long prelude making out session, long sexual intercourse and long post-coitus cuddling. He is romantic, passionate and full of love, he really enjoys it when the world ceases to exist for him and Jamil for like 3 to 4 hours, and the only thing they have is each other’s bodies to touch and love.

Which might sound romantic, but is actually a huge pain in the ass, because Jamil would prefer to have this entire process take ~1 hour, and then it’s shower and sleep time. Sometimes he insists on that and even ends up convincing Kalim that he is going to regret not sleeping an entire night, but a lot of times he just gives in and allows Kalim to continue kissing him “for a little longer”. Can’t help but spoil his capricious boyfriend when he looks at him with his big stupid loving eyes.

Kalim loves dressing Jamil up. The moment he realised that all those expensive silky scarves he had in his treasure room would look great on Jamil, he became obsessed with the idea. Jamil considers this to be one of Kalim’s many whims, but doesn’t completely hate it, even though he was very uncomfortable with it initially. Still, this doesn’t happen too often, even though Kalim talks about it a lot when they are alone.

Kalim is surprisingly intense at times. His stamina is wild, Jamil gets tired way before him. One time he managed to literally fuck Jamil until he passed out and felt very guilty about it. Turned on, but guilty.

All the preparations and cleaning up is entirely on Jamil, he just doesn’t let Kalim help him even if he says that he wants to. Jamil just knows that Kalim isn’t reliable when it comes to these things, and even if he helps him this one time, he’ll just forget about it and expect Jamil to do everything the next time.

Kalim, on the other hand, subconsciously or not, tries to catch Jamil unprepared from time to time. Jamil fully believes that he does it on purpose, just so see Jamil trying to clean up their mess with a small napkin with his legs shaking afterwards…

#replies #headcanons #kalijami

[coquelicoq]

been paying more attention to my r sounds in french lately and while i do default to the voiced uvular fricative /ʁ/ most of the time, in intervocalic contexts i'm doing what i'm pretty sure is a voiced uvular approximant /ʁ̞/ maybe half the time? i wasn't sure if it was a tap/flap or an approximant, but it does sound a lot like the audio clip for the approximant, and apparently the approximant is often an allophone for the fricative, while the tap/flap is an allophone for the trill (which makes sense since a tap/flap is basically an abbreviated trill), and i don't really do uvular trills in speech.

the fricative has always been difficult for me and at this point i doubt it will get much easier than it is now. it makes sense that as i learned to speak faster i would end up producing the approximant in at least some contexts, and i suppose that it makes sense that the main context in which that happens is intervocalic, since approximants are kind of like if you took a fricative halfway to being a vowel.

the reason i've been thinking about this lately is i've been listening to a lot of stromae and his r sounds keep jumping out at me. i mentioned in some tags the other day his r sounds in bonne journée (skip to 1:24):

Si l'bonheur [tap/flap?] des autres [elided] te rend [trill] malheureux [trill] C'est qu't'es un rageux [tap/flap?] Si l'malheur [trill?] des autres [elided] te rend [trill] heureux [approximant??] C'est qu't'es un rageux [tap/flap?]

that sound in heureux in the third line is really interesting because he pronounces that exact word (within the word malheureux) two lines before, but there he's clearly trilling the r, and here he is not, and it doesn't sound like a tap or flap to me either! it sounds like an approximant!

he does do the uvular fricative as well...specifically in consonant clusters (also in variation with trills) (skip to 1:37):

Tu profites [fricative] jamais vraiment [trill?] de ce moment présent [fricative] En fait t'es juste dépressif [fricative]

elsewhere in the song he seems to trill a lot of consonant cluster rs, so i think it may also be a function of syllables/second - in these two lines he's going really fast, and possibly fricatives are faster to pronounce than trills? they certainly are for me, but i'm not sure if that's because i'm not a native speaker or because of some fundamental property of trilling.

between a vowel and a consonant he's sometimes doing a trill and sometimes something else, i think an approximant but it might be a fricative. hell, maybe it's a tap/flap. (rs in this context are fairly difficult for me to distinguish with any accuracy if they're not trills or really emphasized fricatives, so fuck if i know.)

ultimately i think he (at least in song) trills every r possible and resorts to (not consciously, obviously) one of the other options when necessary. i am nowhere near that proficient at uvular trills and can pretty much only do them on extended notes (because they take extra time for me to pronounce) and on higher pitches for some reason. i'd love to learn the uvular tap/flap, and it's probably the fastest of all the options (citation needed but it feels right lol), so maybe a year from now, when my speaking speed has increased another incremental amount, i'll notice that i've started spontaneously producing those as well. i live in hope.

#rs are hard! my kingdom for an r sound i can actually pronounce at the beginning of a word #also i would LOVE to be able to identify r sounds in the V_C context. idk why that's so hard #like say the word merci. what kind of r is that?? you CAN do a fricative there but i think most people don't actually #but what are they doing instead?? i don't know what to call that #if i ever meet a real phonologist or phonetician in the wild i am going to become the bane of their existence #hounding them night and day with my speech sound questions #i once asked my phonetics prof what sound i was making in the word-initial thr context #i thought maybe it was a trill. she gave me a very annoyed look and told me it was a tap or flap. ok sorry i guess????? #then i never asked her a question ever again haha #but i'm past caring about annoying phonetics professors now. throw one at me universe and i'll show just how annoying i can be #french #my posts #fun with pronunciation #phonetics #phonology #my most common use for the uvular trill is quite honestly not in french at all. it is when imitating chewbacca <3 #something i do more often than one would think it would be relevant #also in gargling? but i don't gargle very often #anyway this post doesn't have a point i'm just recording my thoughts on french r sounds #so i can look at it in a year and see how my thoughts have changed #littleragondin this one goes out to you also if you're listening :*

[phoenixyfriend]

❤ for the ships ask game :) chewku please!

Or, alternatively, rexani/rexanidala if you've been pursued far enough by the former. Thank you! Love your writing, it always makes my day when you update on AO3, and the snippets of aus here are always so fun and well constructed!

Send me a ღ and I’ll fill this out about a ship

This ask meme is from a year ago. Please don't send new prompts.

Gonna do this for Rexanidala

Who’s the first to wake up in the morning: Rex, like clockwork.

Who’s the one to make breakfast: Usually Padme, but they all take turns, I think.

Who’s the one to serve the other breakfast in bed: They would all do it, but I think Anakin would be the most excited to do it, then Rex. Padme does it casually but the boys... the boys are really into it.

Who would suggest a quickie in the morning before work: Anakin, sometimes Padme. Canon tells us they are horny idiots. (It's okay, we love them. They can be smart when they're not being led around by the hormones.) Meanwhile Rex is just like. Why are you guys like this. Date night is literally today. Just wait a few hours? We're gonna be late to work? Come on.

Who suggests they both ditch work to lay around all day: Like the above, Anakin, sometimes Padme. They both judge the other when they do it, too. Rex is so tired of them being like this. The war is over, you guys, we are not on a deadline!

Who chooses the movies: They cycle through. Anakin's got a thing for old romances, like Shakespearean stuff or full-on operas. Padme's into more modern musicals and romcoms. Rex is willing to try just about anything, but usually picks mysteries or action adventure or something when it's his turn, just to mix things up from the romances the other two pick. (That said, he keeps the horror and thrillers for movie nights with the 501st.)

Who initiates kissing during the moving, thus distracting the other from the movie all together: Padme, I think. Anakin may be on Team Horny, but he's also the kind to get really invested in whatever he's watching, while Rex isn't very 'spontaneous kisses during another activity' unless there's a big shift (e.g. kissing during a spar isn't expected, but if you grapple your way into your lips being an inch apart, it' snot abnormal to just do a quick peck).

Who orders lunch: Rex. Anakin tends to hyperfocus on whatever he's doing, and Padme's often busy in meetings or on calls. Rex is more than happy to pick something up and swing by for a throuple's lunch.

Who steals food from the other’s plate without asking: Mostly Anakin, but nobody's immune to this urge.

Who curls up next to the other and falls asleep due to a full tummy: Still on team 'Padme likes kittenplay, put her in a collar and pet her.' Anakin and Padme are both prone to this. Rex is just happy to have people treating him like a pillow, it makes him feel loved.

Who distracts the other from trying to work at home: ...again, this is just canon for Anakin, and even a little bit for Padme. They drag each other down. If they try to do it to Rex, he suffers through it. (After a few incidents, though, Cody or another clone takes them aside and tells them to knock it off, because Rex still isn't entirely comfortable telling them to stop bothering him while he's working, just out of habit from the war when Anakin would bug him while on shift, and if they keep doing it, Rex might call off the relationship before he tries just telling them to stop.)

Who asks to go get ice cream like a five year old: Mostly Anakin, but the other two are willing to stoop to this level.

Who takes pictures of their partner eating ice cream: Padme.

Who makes a sexual joke about the dripping ice cream on their partner’s face: Rex is more than eager to whip out "I was in the army for several years" levels of dirty joke to see if he can get Padme to blush. (Anakin, despite also spending three years in the army, is very easy to make blush. No challenge there.)

Who cooks dinner: Padme likes making breads and other baked goods, but Anakin's a stovetop guy (fried foods, soups, etc). Rex is learning new recipes here and there, and has decided he's really into foods that can be made in a casserole dish, like musaka and pilav.

Who cleans up the kitchen afterwards: Whoever didn't cook... unless they're at Padme's place (which they usually are), where cleaning droids take care of it.

Who stays up until 2 reading: They're all prone to this. Rex is the most consistent about getting to bed, but Anakin (hyperfocus, time blindness) and Padme (overdeveloped sense of responsibility and 'just one more thing' about work) are both liable to stay up waaaaay too late.

Who stares at their partner while their sleeping: Anakin. Sometimes Padme.

Who kisses their partner while they sleep: All of them, but it's usually the boys.

#rexanidala #rexwalker #anidala #rexidala #star wars #the clone wars #anakin skywalker #padme amidala #captain rex #phoenix answers memes

[satankilledmyghost]

I NEED MORE WOLFIE😭😭😭😭😭

(Love you tho. Even if you don’t write anything, because hello it’s me, I’m proud to read the finished products heahaehehe)

OR GIMME (or us*) HEAD CANNONS OF THEM AT A FUNERAL. that would be something I would PAY to see.

For some reason, I kinda want to just be in the mind of one of them. Just for a day. Yknow? And I’m also debating starting the series over, and I could be texting you this, but hey, I’m bored and too lazy to switch tabs rn. If you do post this, I wanna say hi to everyone. Hit me up. Please. I need more people to appreciate the wolf without thinking I’m into some wattpad werewolf books.

BITCHHHHH I THOUGHT U WERE A RANDOM ASS DUCKLING SO I WAS CONFUSED ABOUT THE TEXTING PART ABBSJSNA. I DIDNT KNOW YOU CHANGED YOUR USERNAME😭

y’all, say hi to my bestie. she’s a fucking nutcase but we love her nonetheless <3

okay, one, fucking reread weak hero. or imma go to your house and find you. two, here’s your request, but go see your therapist. three, don’t hate on the wattpad- yeah, i- i can't justify those.

WARNINGS: MENTIONS OF DEATH, SUICIDAL THOUGHTS, AND FUNERALS, HEARTBREAK, ANGST?

weak hero characters reaction to your death/at your funeral

donald na

you know that one time where kingsley went into donald’s office and trailed off mid sentence because he noticed donald was eating a loaf of bread and zoning out??

that’s his reaction you dying

no emotions, no crying, just an empty, numb feeling in his chest and he can only think of you and not really focus on anything else

he'll be doing something and thoughts like “they would really like this” or “they would fucking hate this” or just picturing your reactions to something that donald’s doing in the current moment will cross his mind

he'll replay past conversations and interactions with you an unhealthy amount of times, suffering through tears. whether he wants to admit it or not, you had an affect on donald.

if you die tragically(say, beaten to death over union bs or jumped or whatever), he’ll punish those mother fuckers. no mercy.

donald'll be more salty and short-tempered to everyone around him. even kingsley isn’t safe.

donald misses you, and he longs to be in your presence one last time, even if it means listening to you complain about how cruel he runs his union.

jake ji

will bawl his eyes out and will probably have a psychotic break down.

he’ll be mental, how dare the universe take you from him?!

the one thing in his life that isn’t tied to the union, you were his little slice of life

a tiny piece of this world that isn’t cruel, someone he can go to.

sure, jake’s got dean and the guys, but they can be assholes sometimes. the one person that would always be there, arms open wide and endless love just for him, you, is gone. and it won't ever change.

all of those late, spontaneous nights at the parks, you pestering him to get him to study, pulling all-nighters watching anime, walking with you to and from school, your bright smile, your laugh, all of those times that you and jake cuddled close and fell asleep. these things will never happen again and jake can't handle that reality.

jake will call you, desperate and foolishly hoping that you'll pick up your phone. but all he ever gets is your voicemail. if you had access to your phone, it'd be voicemail after voicemail of jake violently sobbing into his phone, begging, pleading for you to come back.

wolf keum

his body will have a reaction to your death, but his mind won’t catch up.

with news of your death, wolf will start to tremble, his voice will be useless, and his body is super tense. he might even start crying.

but while all of this is happening, wolf won’t be feeling anything internally. his mind will run blank as he tries to process the fact that you’re dead.

wolf's emotionally numb and the only coherent thought he has is “oh, they’re dead. is this how someone’s supposed to react? what i’m doing now? why is there tears? i don’t feel sad? okay. they're gone. you're gone.”

he saw you this morning. wolf walked you to school. what happened? is this a sick joke?? cause if it is, wolf will beat your ass to death's doorstep himself.

but it’s not a joke and that slams him when he attends your funeral. wolf will be in the back of the room, hands stuffed into his pockets and eyeing your sobbing family and friends warily.

wolf doesn’t participate, hell, he can’t even bring himself to witness you getting buried, but he stays for the eulogy.

just hearing what your friends and family have to say about you kills him.

but it’s also almost like a peace offering at the same time. in what wolf hears about you via everyone else, he realizes that the you that you were around him was only for him. you showed him sides of you that none of these people knew about.

if wolf walked out of your funeral with anything that day, it was a minuscule glimmer of bitter sweet pride that he was the only one that got to love that version of you.

forrest lee

he’s just pissed off. permanently.

cries himself to sleep over you, is sweet to your family at your funeral, and stays through the whole thing

he doesn't know how to process these emotions. grape might lecture him about the 5 stages of grief, but forrest wouldn't be listening.

he'd dig himself a grave, drown himself in whatever he could get his hands on to escape reality.

forrest would pull the dumbest shit and end up driving Hyeongshin into the ground with his carelessness and get beaten a millimeter from death by donald's hands.

but as grape and robin watch on in complete horror and shame, forrest would be on the ground oddly content because maybe, just maybe, donald will deal that final blow and he'll get to see you again.

jimmy bae

he’s a giant softie, he’ll cry until he’s a human raisin as soon as he gets the news.

he won’t say anything to anyone, especially at your funeral. sure, he’ll talk to your family, but it’s short and quiet.

jimmy would definitely stand at your headstone hours after your burial ends. he won’t say anything, but he’s there. and he desperately wants to know if you’re there, too, sitting on your headstone or standing next to him, leaning into his side like you always did when you were alive.

jimmy always complained about you wanting physical affection, but he’d do just about anything now to hear you pout until he let you hold his hand on the walk to school just one more time.

big ben

you broke him. i don't know how else to explain it. ben's screams still haunt whoever was in earshot to this day.

ben's typical optimism and emotional maturity in tough situations will be thrown out the window.

he can't even take care of himself. ben will be too busy laying, numb, in his bed to attend your funeral, but gogo and the others would force him.

bens eyes are dead and he scarily resembles a corpse as he just exists while your funeral commences.

he's a husk of the person he used to be, though it'll take a long while before he's able to start living again.

though, ben will never be the same.

alex go

he disappears. no one knows where he went or if he’ll come back.

ben will try the ocean to see if alex is there, and the first few times he might be, but alex quickly gets sick of being brought back home to where you weren’t there.

alex thinks that if he isn’t in your neighborhood, walking by your school, your favorite store, that cafe you love, you aren’t dead.

it’s easier to process your death if alex is away from all the things that reminds him of you.

alex would drag himself to your funeral and would comfort your mother as your father holds his shoulder and talks about all the things you’d say about alex to them. your dads voice would be wobbly and your mother would laugh through rivers of tears and say how giddy you were after a date with him you’d be skipping through the rest of the week.

if, one day, he does come back, alex won’t say anything. he’ll focus on bettering himself because if he couldn’t protect you from death, what use does he have?

teddy jin

teddy spends his days inside with co. he’s quiet about your death, but not the concerning type of quiet.

it’s almost like teddys pondering why you died, though the cause of your death is public knowledge.

oddly, teddy processes and gets through his grief healthy. he does become more quiet than he was before.

like jimmy, teddy would stand for hours at your burial site. he just can’t nail the reality that you’re gone, even though he sat through and talked at your funeral.

gerard jin

gerard would be suicidal. if he can’t bear the idea that his friend couldn’t perform in his band for one year over burned hands, gerard wouldn’t survive news of your death.

he wouldn’t touch his guitar, and his voice is too weak without you to sing.

he attends your funeral, though, and he tries his hardest to gain the strength to talk to your family.

his mom would hand him your journal/note that you wrote, adamant that this is something he needs to read.

and he does, but he wishes to god that he didn’t.

you wrote to him and about him. every little thing that you two did together, gerard’s quirks that you loved. hell, you even poked fun at him one time or another.

he clings to your words and there’s months of grief in store for him.

when gerard finally starts to get over your death, he’ll write the most beautifully grim song about you.

gray yeon

we’ve all experienced what stephan ann has done to gray, so his reaction to you dying will be almost the exact same.

but this time, gray has friends. ben and alex would help gray start to get back into living again. those two would take him out, starting small and hopefully working back up to what he usually would do before your death.

eugene and gerard would be the silent supporters, eugene being more apt to confront gray and directly asking him what he needs.

rowan and teddy are the two idiots in the corner trying to be serious, but rowan fucks it up and gets smacked by teddy. they’re a distraction for gray, even if for a moment, but a welcomed one.

gray would write to you, telling you about his day and what’s been going on that you’ve missed.

once he’s finished writing to you, he’d walk to your grave and set it down, a small part of him hopeful that somehow you’ll be able to read it.

once he’s more comfortable around your tombstone, gray will take time to sit down and talk to you instead of letters.

eugene gale

poor baby doesn’t know what to do :(

eugene would close up and shun everyone around him.

he’d be mute and refuse to open up to anyone, deciding that suffering in silence is the best way to go instead of bothering everyone else with his grief.

eugene might go as far as to be hostile to ben and everyone else, and that’s when they know something is wrong wrong.

eugene is in desperate silence at your funeral, grasping at air to try and stop himself from crying.

he takes notice of the flowers at your eulogy, oddly. you had never stated what you like regarding flowers, if you liked them at all, so eugene found it odd that there were extravagant bouquets for you.

but when he visits your grave, he’ll bring different types of flowers and, depending on how well the grass above your casket is growing, find out which ones you like.

there’s no logic to this, eugene is aware of that, but it’s something that reassure eugene that you aren’t totally gone.

after months, eugene would sit at your grave and rattle off facts and stories to your head stone just like he did when you were alive.

rowan im

rowan could barely survive through your funeral, having to leave multiple times from sobbing, and visiting your grave is unbearable right now.

he would force himself to stay bright and cheery. he’s the type to make sure that nothing that bothers him will show.

he needs to stay that one friend that can make everyone laugh, ya know?

but more and more, rowan’s grief would seep onto his mask and the group would definitely notice.

it’d start with one quiet day, and then the jokes are less and less, and then for a whole week rowan just gives up.

how’s he supposed to function when you’re gone? you’re his number two, the one person who would go along with his shit and have fun.

how’s he supposed to find fun in mundane things now if you’re not around??

#weak hero #weak hero webtoon #weak hero x reader

[heybaetae]

There were a few parasocial relationship discussions in the past week on reddit and someone brought up Jungkook almost every time as someone who leans more into the parasocial relationship with his fans - or enables it, I'm not sure how to word it properly. And it made me a little confused because to me, it doesn't seem like he does it? Or maybe I'm not that delulu to think that what he's doing Is indeed parasocial sometimes, or I don't fully understand what counts as parasocial with an idol. So I wanted to ask: do you think that he's leaning a bit into it?

If I remember correctly they brought up him calling the fans as his girlfriend(s) - I honestly just took that as a joke but Idk? - and him folding his underwear on camera - again very confusing to me because why is that parasocial? - and him sleeping on camera - well okay I can see why This counts as parasocial, but the others?

Sure, compared to idols who only do the necessary fanservice and rarely interact with fans he really does a lot more, like he had a million lives this year alone and he shared his recipes with us and gifted songs and etc. but I still don't know. Is it really more parasocial than it should be and I'm just simply not noticing it? 😅

i think his dynamic with the fandom is appropriately parasocial enough without it becoming overly codependent even though some would probably argue that it might feel that way from time to time. he's expressed that the fandom can't be excluded from his life and i believe he really feels that way since ARMY have been a constant in his life for a decade from such a young age and that's a big factor into why it's so strongly important to him.

i think he leaned into it way more than ever this year on purpose because he knew there'd be a temporary pause eventually and he wanted to make the most of his spare time with us in a less stress-inducing way while being in full control of it. consider how rare that's been in his long career, everything from your fanmeets/concerts to your scheduled livestreams at the company building being orchestrated and planned out for you. him deciding to say "fuck it i wanna chat with fans whenever i feel like it" and kickstarting the habit of going live from home without telling anyone at work first and letting it become a regular thing was a conscious decision he likely put thought into after he got away with it the first couple times. i'm not implying he didn't have control of that before, but there was always an obvious protocol to follow for safety reasons, which is understandable, but he wanted to take the risk and so he did. other members would later follow that example too.

i think sometimes people misunderstood him or purposely misconstrued his words on those lives, especially his jokes or his way of expressing his thoughts/feelings to fit their own narrative or image of him. people want him to fit the mold they've created in their heads of him, so no matter how often he came live and was vulnerable and honest with us, people still looked for ways and reasons to dictate what he did, how he felt, how he meant something differently from what he said when he couldn't have been more clear, etc.

i can't make you see something differently from how you already do. i don't love the term "delulu" in this sort of context because like you said, a lot of the normal things he let us see on his lives were normal every-day chores and not everyone is going to consider it very parasocial to have seen it, but how often do you hear of idols letting their fans in that much? hardly ever. it was fun for both parties because it was unexpected and sometimes spontaneous (like sleeping/cooking/exercising) and he felt comfortable enough to do certain things with an audience. we're talking about someone who'd been mostly ghost online for like two years. someone who has a history of being very shy. it meant a lot to fans to see him come out of his shell and grow even more comfortable with us, even if it sometimes put him in some unsafe situations because unfortunately, there are some really scary people out there. idk where the parasocial quota is, so i can't say what it "should be" but i can tell you i've never seen any famous person engage with their fans in as pure of a way as he did this year.

#ask