#strugglebus

[lazulisong]

some stuff went down yesterday (resolved) and now i have an emotions hangover, slept in and was in a rush to get the bus, forgot my morning meds, and had to face the fact i am going to be very sad and fragile until next thursday because i am trying this "taking care of myself" thing and it sucks

(i carry adderall in my bag for my afternoon dose but i've forgotten the bupropion and not the adderall before and whoo lordy that thing does a lot of heavy lifting.)

BEEP BEEP HERE COMES THE STRUGGLEBUS

#meg what is your problem #strugglebus

[octo-cutie]

anyone else like planning weddings for yourself when your single and can barely talk to a guy without adhd’ing all over them?

no?

carry on

#weddings #i wish #i dont even have a bf #its a struggle #strugglebus #single life sucks butt

[abbaddonadvocate]

Just got done deep cleaning the house. 

In-laws moving out in the next couple of days. 

Got a newer job & the hours are better for studying. 

My dog is scheduled for surgery with the best and smartest vet ever.

My grandparents are still declining in health. But they’re in hospice, so I can visit them any time I want.

Study schedule getting back on track.

Life has kicked me straight in the dick these last couple of months. I definitely was struggling. I just want to say that everything happens for a reason. Everything works out. You’re given these situations and having to make certain choices because there’s something to learn from everything thrown at you. Keep going. The world does not stop because you’re sad or because things in your life are crazy. Keep going. Push through it. You’ll be kinder and more empathetic. You’ll grow up and nut up because you have to. You’ll be a wiser and well-rounded individual because of it.

If something is going on in your life and you want to talk about it. I am here. I wish I had someone to talk to other than randos on Tumblr (though you guys are the best). Sometimes you just need to get things off your chest. I don’t judge. I won’t criticize or belittle your situation. Mental health is important and it should be talked about more. 

#mentalhealth #life #personal #depression #sad #emotions #therapy #talking #askme #struggle #strugglebus #keepgoing #positivity #positive #pessimist #tryingtostayoptimistic #blog #blogger #blogging #write #writing #yourblogger

[brightandblossom]

I’m in a bit of a rough place with my body.  Reader discretion is advised.

I bought a new jacket, similar to one that I’d seen a character on TV wear.  I wore it today. and as I walked past a window, I saw my reflection... I didn’t recognise her. I didn’t look like the LA camera ready model, with the unattainable beauty standard and petite figure. I looked like the staypuft marshmallow man. 

My face has gotten so round, my arms so wobbly and my tummy so big...  yet still my hunger is as loud as ever. In addition. I also feel SO. DAMN. TIRED. Like my energy is constantly only at 25%.. What is up with that?

The good thing is. I feel so recovered that I KNOW I am still safe. I know that I won’t turn to old behaviours to force my weight to change. I just wish I felt more healthy and energised. I wish I felt like I was doing all the right things for my wellbeing. But it’s the doubt that sucks. 

I just feel like I havn’t seen any “recovery influencers” go through this part. The super tired, high BMI part, where everything is so round and you don’t feel like yourself... but there is no way in hell you are going back either. I fully accept and love my body, but I’m just confused as to why I don’t feel good. 

Thank you for listening to this rant, which was typed whilst I curled up in bed eating cream cheese. 

#recovery #ed recovery #ed recovery thoughts #strugglebus

[nullachroma]

when I am on the strugglebus with a commission, talking with Adonis Q. Burger, the world’s most beautiful burger man, helps me find my stop and hop off. Thanks, Adonis.

#strugglebus #Adonis Q Burger #the world’s most beautiful burger man #he is like if a guru wasn’t terrible or real and also made of burger #gonna try some more with this commission #Adonis Q. Burger believes in me #we’ll really he believes in himself but I absorb that through a kind of osmosis #not osmosis jones though #oh holy shit maybe I should draw drax #no. I must focus on the commission. for Adonis. #ok. #drawing #nullachroma

[debsmooth]

The #strugglebus rolls onward here, where it’s 3am and I can’t sleep because of pain. #collage #remix #collageart (at Lochend, City of Edinburgh) https://www.instagram.com/p/CjWscSGo6G1/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

#strugglebus #collage #remix #collageart

[feddy-34]

no ao3 dont delete my drafts ur so sexy ahaha

#ao3 #strugglebus #im on it

[trojanhorsenews]

Just a reminder for those who need it.

And, if you are upset about this, and traditions are so massively important to you and your family and they bring you joy, this isn't for you.

#christmas #holiday #reminder #strugglebus #enjoy your holiday #keep traditions that recharge you #nobody is gonna haunt you #family estrangement

[qs-fritzy]

This isn’t gonna be a super happy post. It deals with a messy breakup and the fallout therein as well some difficult potentially triggering scenarios. So I’m putting the rest of this post under a break cuz I just really need to talk about it.

I’ve been a Little for as long as I can remember. And maybe as part of a system, that doesn’t mean a whole lot. But that’s who I am. I’m an age-regressor. I cope with the trauma and stress the system has been through by retreating to a time and place of smallness. Where things wrap up happily at the end of the cartoon episode and big emotions can be soothed by sucking on a pacifier.

And as much as I’ve always wanted a Caregiver, I always had a lot of trouble accepting that from anyone. I can’t let go enough to let someone else actually be in control. Which makes sense based on everything we’ve been through. But that doesn’t make it easier to want something and feel unable to have it.

Until my ex, that is. They kept at it. Made me feel safe in expressing myself around them. To the point where I was practically about to overtake the Host position. We started HRT because I was uncomfortable in the body.

But there were… difficulties. As much as I loved them and they were my Papa… I don’t know. I feel weird even saying it? I’m asexual. Sometimes I want to engage with myself but beyond that, all I ever want is cuddles and little kisses. But they wanted more than that. They always did. Not just with me but with my System as a whole. Which was a huge problem. I’m not gonna go into that more here… but I don’t think I can be naked around anyone else for a long long time…

When things with Fen (my system’s current host) broke down and they left us, they were just… gone. They didn’t talk to me or anything. They were just gone. Yeah. A CG just ghosting their Little. And that put me in a tailspin. I didn’t front for ages because of it. I couldn’t. It hurt. It hurt to be out of the inner world.

One of our system’s persecutors did a really dumb and terrible thing and sent this ex an anonymous message through their Tumblr. Which, of course they knew came from her. (Jezebel’s not allowed on Tumblr for a while because of that…) And that caused a lot more drama.

The part that’s got me so messed up now is that right before they reblocked us and ghosted again was that they said “goodbye Fritzy.” My name. Called me out. Called me to the front. And then was gone. I couldn’t say goodbye. I couldn’t cry. I couldn’t ask what was happening. I was just suddenly yanked out of my room to the front. I was wearing Fen’s swimsuit. I was in a strange place because we moved across the country and this place isn’t mine yet. I hadn’t been front since the breakup. And they KNEW that I’d get called to front if they used my name. When we get close to someone, names have Power in our system. Sebby and Fen have a partner who can call them out by using their names. Scarlett used to be able to do it to Cache as well. And Papa could do it to me. And they did. And then just left me there. Alone. Exposed. Scared. Confused. Hurt.

And I started crying.

I feel awkward about it still. Cuz Fen and Sebby’s partner was there and she tried to comfort me but I don’t think I responded the way I should’ve.

Now I keep floating close to front and when I get too close I feel like I’m gonna throw up.

I don’t wanna be here anymore. I just wanna go back to being cute and small. But I can’t. I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to again.

#actually did #actually dissociative #did #did system #dissociative identity disorder #agere little #messy breakup #strugglebus

[j0hnwatersmustache]

0/60

We are so close to being out of the wood work!

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#lesbian #queer #spicy #wlw #sapphic #sw #supportsw #clowncore #barbiecore #mutualaid #strugglebus

[andymakeshello]

trans tape

first time using trans tape /o/ (well, second time, but we don't talk about yesterday-)

hard to use and takes skill but hopefully I'll get better and it will stop just looking like a bra. GAH SHUDDUP BRAIN

#trans #transtape #transmasc #lgbt #strugglebus #aaaa help me #eep

[six-demon-bag]

#life #life lessons #motivation #meme #strugglebus

[arilizart]

College be like…😤👌🏻😎 Keep an eye out for @cerberatstudios Ritual in the Roost! I am so excited! @Arilizart Commissions are typically open, so feel free to message me. 😊 Specs: XP Pen Tablet iPad Pro Clip Studio Paint Procreate Medibang —————————————————————————————————————— . . . . #Art #artist #artwork #artistsofinstagram #digitalart #illustration #drawing #womenartists #conceptart #characterdesign #college #collegelife #struggle #strugglebus #storyboard #RitR #RitualInTheRoost -Artwork -Animation -Character Design -Traditional and Modern (at University of Wisconsin-Stout) https://www.instagram.com/p/CpLqeK4p1YO/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

#art #artist #artwork #artistsofinstagram #digitalart #illustration #drawing #womenartists #conceptart #characterdesign #college #collegelife #struggle #strugglebus #storyboard #ritr #ritualintheroost

[hollymarlow]

Over-tiredness has been making bedtime a huge struggle since little J dropped the nap. So grateful that my husband has had the past week off work, so has been here for bedtimes. He's very good at calming J down when he's dysregulated at bedtime. I honestly don't know how he does it. If I try to do the same things, it doesn't work nearly as well. He's a wizard! . #bedtime #overtired #sleep #dysregulation #calm #parentingstruggles #thestruggleisreal #strugglebus #mumstruggles #momstruggles #honestparenting #husbandappreciation #honestparenthood #honestparent #reality https://www.instagram.com/p/CmzqTTeMVpm/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

#bedtime #overtired #sleep #dysregulation #calm #parentingstruggles #thestruggleisreal #strugglebus #mumstruggles #momstruggles #honestparenting #husbandappreciation #honestparenthood #honestparent #reality

[devonrichtmeyer]

When someone leaves the cap off the treat bottle, but you're such a good girl that you don't steal any... instead, you just stare at the bottle and whine until someone comes to give you some 😂 #LoveLoveLove #PennyPantsMcPuffinDuffin #PoofalaTwofala #PoodlesOfInstagram #DogsOfInstagram #TreatDilemma #StruggleBus #GoodGirl https://www.instagram.com/p/CgMkUUwufmM/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

#lovelovelove #pennypantsmcpuffinduffin #poofalatwofala #poodlesofinstagram #dogsofinstagram #treatdilemma #strugglebus #goodgirl

[debsmooth]

Good morning from the passenger seat of the #strugglebus #collage #remix #adobefresco (at Lochend, City of Edinburgh) https://www.instagram.com/p/CjARiWZovGZ/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

#strugglebus #collage #remix #adobefresco