#that baby boy does actually have emotional ties to the culture

[dorimena]

That ask you got about Shoto being soft : an Absolute meal.

Please, could you please write what happens after ? Like, it’s not going to be the first time he watches his reflection with a pout in the mirror. He’s always been lean thanks to training and also his dad overly controlling his diet in the past. So, now that his body is soft?

When you fuck him, his thighs jiggle a bit. His butt bounces if you spank him. It always did, but now even more so. When you have him tied to a chair,naked, his tummy is adorable, the little fold in it is biteable and for some reason, it becomes even more sensitive.

The softness of his body somehow accentuates how more sensitive he is now.

But, he always needs the reassurance that you still think he’s pretty. That’s he’s still your beautiful boy.. Maybe he even asks you if you mind ? Maybe after he recovers and he asks you if you want him back as he used to be. ( because he actually liked how your fingers sank more in him now , the way you praised a little more to ease his worries and the self conscious way he held himself sometimes. But , he would go train more, ask his mum to stop being pastries, if that is what you wanted. He’d do anything for you and to make sure you still want him)

+ (imagine him crying a little when praised)

Of course I could! (✯◡✯)

𝔠𝔥𝔞𝔯𝔞𝔠𝔱𝔢𝔯; Todoroki Shoto

𝔴𝔬𝔯𝔡 𝔠𝔬𝔲𝔫𝔱; 1.8k

𝔴𝔞𝔯𝔫𝔦𝔫𝔤𝔰; Soft!Todoroki, fluff, a sex scene, insecurities, implied praise (sexual and non-sexual), bondage (in the sex scene), proclamation of love (kinda), reassurance, cuddles, cursing, dom!reader, sub!character

𝔬𝔱𝔥𝔢𝔯 𝔱𝔞𝔤𝔰; aged-up character, Todoroki is 20+

𝔰𝔦𝔡𝔢𝔫𝔬𝔱𝔢; I hope you like it! I kind of kept coming in and out of some weird writer’s block, so the ending might seem a bit rushed. This isn’t proofread yet!

Also! Shoutout to @buckybabyboyzzz for unintentionally helping me with this, because some ideas in this fic come from our conversation about soft!shoto, and by our conversation I mean me receiving their ideas about soft!shoto ヽ(*・ω・)ﾉ

𝕷𝖔𝖛𝖊 𝖒𝖊, 𝖑𝖔𝖛𝖊 𝖒𝖊 (𝖘𝖆𝖞 𝖙𝖍𝖆𝖙 𝖞𝖔𝖚 𝖑𝖔𝖛𝖊 𝖒𝖊)

You knew fucking him and kissing him everywhere wouldn’t be enough for him to feel secure. It’s illogical to think he wouldn’t go back to the mirror and stare at himself again, with that mean, insecure gaze set on his tummy, on his hips, on his thighs.

You know he’s struggling to accept his new body, and it’s showing with how he’s suddenly becoming more conscious of his cravings, of the servings (which are one of the few things that haven’t changed), of the food being placed on the table (again, another of the few things that haven’t changed.)

He asked you, in such a small, low tone, about what you think made him put on weight. And you couldn’t even lie, not when he’s staring at you with so much trust, awaiting your honesty, knowing you’re not going to be mean or rude about it.

And with such a smooth voice, you tell him that maybe the amount of times he’s snacking and lack of permission to be able to burn off the calories would have contributed. 

And you waited for him to react, to maybe cry, to get angry with himself, to maybe go back to the mirror to check and agree that you’re right.

Instead, he nods and snuggles closer next to you, hugging you close to him as you both continue to watch another one of Midoriya’s movie recommendations, considering how behind Shoto apparently still is with the whole movie culture situation. He just found out where the ‘I am your father’ reference comes from and he’s never felt so happy.

Okay that’s a lie, you fucking him more times after the first has made him feel so much joy and makes him feel so desired and needed.

But, it’s not enough to ease his insecurities and new thoughts away.

You come back from work one day, concerned over how quiet the house is.

The TV isn’t on.

The radio isn’t either.

You don’t even hear the shower.

You thought maybe he’s napping, because poor baby’s still catching up with sleep, but he’s nowhere.

You don’t really panic, but you’re worried.

Maybe he went to the office for something? But he usually texts you when he’s on his way.

Maybe the doctor called for a checkup? But the appointment isn’t until next week.

You can’t really come up for another reason why he wouldn’t be home, but you decide to simply text him to come home soon and safely, telling him you brought some take-away pasta.

About an hour later he returns, all sweaty yet glowing with joy.

Curious, you ask him about the sudden change in personality, as he was gloomy since a few days ago.

He tells you how he called the doctor and asked if it’s possible he could go on long walks and possible morning or evening jogs, to which the doctor gave him the thumbs up and off Shoto went to do some errands, even paying a visit to Midoriya’s house.

He went to take a shower, not before handing you a bag of what appears to be some new workout clothes.

But, his clothes still fit and look fine on him?

Shoto wouldn’t agree, doesn’t, not with how tight his sweatpants feel around his thighs, how you can easily tell where he’s put on weight when even trying to cover up with a hoodie.

And seeing the new clothes in the bag made you upset, if not a bit angry. 

You’re trying your best to understand, but he does one thing and then the next does a complete 180°.

And that night when you’re both just kissing each other, you trying to suck up any moan or whine he makes, the moment you begin palming his dick he pulls away. Staring at you with a weird look in his eyes before turning around, mumbling a goodnight.

No, impossible. You’re not going to allow this!

So the next day when he comes home from another job, you call him from the bedroom, seductively lying on the bed as you play with the ropes.

With enough persuasion, seduction and sweet promises, you manage to tie Shoto to a kitchen chair that you brought into the room before he arrived.

And you’re on your knees, your hands slowly massaging up and down on his thighs while you kiss his stomach, nuzzling the skin before leaving some pretty hickies. 

Shoto’s shaking, eyes filling with tears but not because of pain or pleasure. He’s not sure why he suddenly feels so emotional, but his sniffling catches your attention.

You look up as your kisses go to the base of his dick, making him whimper as he tries to tell you to stop.

But he doesn’t say anything, because he doesn’t want this to stop. He’s not sure why he’s so embarrassed (he does know) or why he’s trying to hide (he also knows). He moans your name, rolling his hips up because he wants you, he really, really wants you.

You're not done yet, but while you stroke him slowly, teasing his tip, biting and kissing his thighs, moaning your praise and singing your compliments, all while not breaking eye contact with him, not wanting any of your words going through one of his ears and out the other.

That night you ride him to oblivion, making him go through countless toe-curling orgasms as he fills you with so much cum, his soft cheeks so red you bite them gently, helping him stay grounded and not go stupid yet. 

It helps him think between orgasms about how even with all this attention, with you still desiring him and his body, it still doesn’t feel enough.

Once you’re both cleaned up and snuggled in bed, he has that weird look again, but you know what you have to do now.

You kiss him, so softly, pulling him closer to deepen the kiss, and once he pulls away, you whisper so happily how beautiful he looks, fixing his bangs to show his eyes better, tracing the bridge of his nose and softened jawline. 

And in the following mornings until the doctor’s appointment, you compliment how pretty he looks, how well the color of the new gym clothes look on him, how much warmer he feels whenever you hug him.

And once you hug him, it’s so hard for you to let go, to go to work after that. 

You just hope your love has oozed out of you and he managed to absorb it. Sounds weird, but you just want him to remember your promise that you’ll always love him no matter what.

The day of the appointment came and went within a blink of an eye, but Shoto’s been torn between worried and delighted. He can finally start going back to the gym! He can also take baby steps through his training, but he can also go on runs, just not for long periods.

He’s still forbidden from going to missions yet, but patrols are okay as long as he has sidekicks with him.

Yet, he’s worried about you. You’ve been silent all day, having accompanied him just in case. You aren’t ignoring him as far as he could tell, but you haven’t been your chirpy self, not even following much of his attempts at small talk.

Is this the moment you tell him you’re breaking up with him?

Okay, that sounds ridiculous, but he just wants to know you’re doing okay! He just wants to know everything you’ve done since he’s been homebound (kinda) until today wasn’t out of pity but genuine love and care.

So he sucks in some breath before asking you..

“Do you mind that I’ll be going back to the gym? Did, um, did you like me like this?”

He braces himself for the next question.

“Do you… Do you want me to stay like this? Would this make you happy?”

“Would it make you happy?”

You ask back softly, opening your arms to invite him for a hug, one he doesn’t hesitate to throw himself into, making you both land onto your bed. 

“You’re avoiding my question-” “I’m not! I’m not, Shoto. If working out to get back your body makes you happy, then go for it. I don’t care about your body. Okay, that sounded bad, let me rephrase that.”

You nervously laugh as you shift, making sure he’s comfortable as you try playing with his hair in such an awkward position.

“I love you, Shoto, very, very much. I love you because of your generosity, your kindness, your sometimes too brutal honesty, your unintentional jokes and weird humor, your confusion for such everyday normal things that you weren’t exposed to, your excitement that you fail hiding whenever we pass your favorite donut shop.

And your body during these times has made me live through one of the best experiences of my life! I got to spoil you in so many ways I wasn’t able to do before because of how busy you were. And I got to finally see a side of you no one else was able to see: you’re naturally sensitive, baby. Not in a sexual way, but in such a tender, sweet way that makes me just want to keep you away from every danger in the world.

Shoto, I saw the way your eyes lit up with the doctor’s words, and I’m glad he finally gave you the thumbs up.”

You sigh, frowning as you hold him closer.

“I know how mean you’ve been with yourself, how cruel the change was messing with your mind. I might not understand to a certain extent, but I just want you to know that I’m in no way against you going back to how you were. What I am against is you still being mean with yourself and possibly overworking yourself. Do you understand?”

He takes a while to shake his head, not knowing what you exactly mean but has a pretty good guess.

“What I mean is that you might push yourself too far and hurt yourself again. And if you hurt yourself again, the doctor might make you stay at home for who-knows how much longer and take away this opportunity you’ve probably been waiting for.”

He gasps, never having really thought about that. Yet-

“Do you want me like before?”

“Yes and no, Shoto. Yes, I want you like before because I’ll always want you, no matter what. No, I don’t want you like before because you’ll overwork yourself again and probably hurt yourself even worse next time.”

And with the conversation you both continue to have, many other topics are spoken about, helping Shoto come with his own conclusion that maybe he’ll stay soft like this for a little while longer, until he adapts back into a healthy recovery and workout routine. 

Actually, it’s only because he wants to bask in a bit more of your praise, in your reassurance, in your care as you help guide him back to his old lifestyle, all while slowly taking out certain things that you’ve both incorporated into your lives while he stayed at home.

Meaning next time his mother paid a visit, pastries, as much as they’re appreciated, will be politely declined.

#𝔖𝔬𝔣𝔱! 𝔖𝔥𝔬𝔱𝔬 #✿; impurity #todoroki x reader #shoto x reader #bnha fluff #bnha smut #sub todoroki #❀; sfw answers #ლ; blasphemy #𝖙𝖔𝖉𝖔𝖗𝖔𝖐𝖎.𝖘

[jjksblackgf]

BTS Reaction - He helps you with your wash day.

Here you go, lovelies. I hope you guys enjoy <3

kim seokjin

You’re sitting on a pillow on the floor and he’s at the couch behind you, you have a mirror to guide his moves as he applies styling cream on your hair, being very careful with it since it’s his first time doing your hair.

“Now what?” He asked after massaging your hair.

“Now it’s baby hair time” you answered “But this is advanced territory, so I’ll teach you later”

And he would be looking forward to it. He respects the hustle, he knows it takes time to get pretty.

min yoongi

You two just started dating around 6 months ago, so cultural differences were still rising. Your wash day was one of them because he wasn’t really sure why you needed a whole day, but he would be patient for your explanation once you were comfortable giving him one. Or he would just search online if the curiosity bothers him. Whichever came first. 

He’d offered for you to wash your hair at his house since his bathroom has more space, he wanted you to be as comfortable as he could provide. Turns out his curiosity got the best of him, and the result of that was a list of products he thought you’d like to use, leaving them in a place where you could see.  Everything for his babe to look as hot or as cute as you wish.

jung hoseok

Boy gets extra excited, he knows it’s a big deal for this relationship because your hair is everything to you. All he knew so far was how amazing everything smells.

“Oh my God, this is so exciting!” he said in a squeal.

“Ok boy, relax” you laughed at his jumping self “Grab that detangler, we have some work to do”

You parted your hair into sections and showed him how to handle it so he could do it the way you liked. It was cuteness overload as he sang “We are the Champions” while trying his best to detangle your hair.

“If this is exciting you, you need to prepare yourself for styling gels”

kim namjoon

Namjoon is a smart man, so even without a black significant other, he already knew what it took to be with you. Once you two started dating, he went heavy on his research, watching every video tutorial his busy schedule allowed him to watch. He was prepared for the hair conversation, he even had his favorite products for different porosities, and was fully looking into greasing your scalp. Everything for healthy, luscious hair.

But he wouldn’t say anything unless you started the conversation, wanting you to be as comfortable with him as possible. So when the day came, you had his undivided attention. He’s a learner, so you wouldn’t have to say anything twice.

“When does scalp greasing come into your hair routine?” he asked after helping you with the moisturizer cream, taking you by surprise

“You’ll be notified once the day comes”

park jimin

Being in the middle of your wash day, you had your hair parted with half your hair tied up waiting for their turn to receive a nutritious mask. So you opened the door to your apartment, you did not expect Jimin to be at the other side.

“You look so pretty” he said with a half sarcastic, half adorable voice. “You’re still on your hair?” he added after closing the door after him

“I told you it takes me the whole day” you answered, getting back to your place in front of the mirror

“I thought you were joking” Jimin laughed, but he could tell you were stressing over your hair “Let me help you today” he offered, and before you could respond, he was already untying your hair and using your homemade mask.

kim taehyung

Today was his only day off for the month, but it was the only day of the week where you could take care of your hair, so now he was sitting on your couch, being the DJ on your playlists. He knows it takes a long time, and he’s already used to just being your emotional support. 

He wanted to actually help you, wanting to know exactly what products to give thanks to for blessing his nose. 

“Why are you looking at me like that?” you said flustered after catching him through your mirror.

“I love you” he answered to shy to ask to help you, but you knew his true intentions

“I love you too, now get that oil and help me do twists like you did the other day”

jeon jungkook

Jungkook was a natural hair aficionado, being first pulled in when you had your hair out on your first date. The smell was too good not to take notice. Ever since then, he helped you with your hair at every chance he could.

“Ready?” you asked him, and he nodded as he would take his next challenge. Baby hair. He didn’t want to mess anything up, so he’s been practicing his moves, all he wanted was for you to rock some advanced drawings on your head. “Just don’t make me look crazy”

He pulled a brush and gel that were Jungkook approved “Never when you’re with me”

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[weirwoodking]

who do you think will be on the throne at the end? is there a chance it will be a woman? do you agree with the theory that bran will be king in the north bc he symbolizes winterfell? idk if i see dany on the throne bc i don't feel like she belongs in westeros, i think she would be better off with a throne on the other side of the narrow sea but i really don't know what i'm saying

It’s very hard to make predictions for ADOS, because we don’t have TWOW yet. So much can change about the story and the characters in one book, thematically and narratively. Think of how much the plot was influenced by just that final Bran chapter in ADWD. 

But, here I go anyway.

My short answer is: no one. (And no, I don’t mean Arya)

Let’s get into it.

Part 1: How the Show Tainted Everyone’s Brains

Obviously, a lot of people care about the Iron Throne plot. Sometimes too much. I do believe that this is mostly because of how much the HBO show changed everything about the story to make the Iron Throne seem like it was more important than anything else. Like promotional posters of all the actors each sitting on the throne, the name of the series itself being changed to “Game of Thrones”, actors getting asked in every interview “who do you think should get the Iron Throne?” as if it’s the last cupcake at a birthday party that everyone’s fighting over, the final episode was titled “The Iron Throne”. The marketing for everything was “it’s the fight for the Throne!” up through the eighth season. It made the object itself become a huge pop culture symbol.

It almost felt like the show was trying to make it seem like the goal of the Night King (a character not in the books) was to sit on the Iron Throne! The show portrayed it as if the Others were just a little distraction that needed to be dealt with so the characters could get back to arguing over the Porcupine Chair. However, in ASOIAF, it’s the exact opposite. The Porcupine Chair is what’s distracting the characters from the real conflict, the Others.

It’s almost comical how that has somewhat transferred over into the fandom, the “game of thrones” is what’s keeping everyone from focusing on what really matters, the “song of ice and fire”.

Part 2: GRRM’s Quote

It wasn't easy for me. I didn't want to give away my books. Every character has a different end. I told them who would be on the Iron Throne, and I told them some big twists like Hodor and "hold the door", and Stannis' decision to burn his daughter. We didn't get to everybody by any means.

-George R.R. Martin

So, he “told them who would be on the Iron Throne”. Something important about this quote is that he doesn’t say who. And, of course, the Iron Throne gets destroyed at the end of the show anyway. Show!Bran doesn’t really “end up on the Iron Throne”. Show!Dany does. George never said that who “ends up” on it in the books is who ends up on it in the show. He’s said that the Shireen thing and the Hodor thing will “happen very differently” in the books anyway. And, of course, another major part of that quote is “every character has a different end”.

I don’t think that who sits the Iron Throne last is necessarily going to be the ruler of Westeros at the end. For example, Cersei (or Aegon) may be the last person to sit the Iron Throne. Or even Euron (however, even though his goal is to rule post-apocalyptic Westeros as a god from the Iron Throne, I don’t think he’ll actually get there). If wildfire is hot enough to melt iron, I could see the throne being destroyed during whatever fiery shenanigans go down with Cersei and JonCon in TWOW. I think it would be fitting for the fight over the throne to end in the next book. ‘Cause the winds of winter are coming, baby, and it’s gonna be time to start dreaming of spring.

Part 3: The Weirwood King

The idea/theory of Bran becoming King has been around for a long time, long before the HBO show even started airing. This is because of the Celtic myth of King Brân the Blessed, whose name means “Blessed Crow” or “Blessed Raven” in Welsh. Other than the obvious connection with the name, Brân the Blessed’s story involves a magic cauldron that can bring the dead back to life. 

In the myth, Brân’s head is cut off and continues talking (think of how Bran’s most powerful aspect is the magical powers of his mind), because in Celtic mythology the head is believed to be where the soul is.

Celts had a reputation as head hunters. According to Paul Jacobsthal, "Amongst the Celts the human head was venerated above all else, since the head was to the Celt the soul, centre of the emotions as well as of life itself, a symbol of divinity and of the powers of the otherworld." (source)

Catch that? “Otherworld”. There is another myth (Irish, specifically) called the Voyage of Bran, in which the title character goes on a quest to the Otherworld. The Otherworld is a supernatural realm in Celtic mythology. It is also where the sidhe (a.k.a. aos sí) live. Remember, the sidhe are what George has said the Others are inspired by. In Irish mythology, the Otherworld is called Tír na nÓg, Mag Mell and Emain Ablach, in Welsh mythology it’s called Annwn, and in Arthurian legend it’s called Avalon. Fun fact, “Avalon” was the title of the novel George was writing when he had suddenly had the idea of a scene in which a young boy and his brothers see a beheading and then find a litter of direwolf pups in the snow. And so ASOIAF happened.

I’ll leave that there, and try not to go down the great big rabbit-hole of Celtic (and other cultures) mythology connections in ASOIAF. The takeaway is: ASOIAF has been influenced by these myths.

I do believe that Bran is going to be King. Not just because of his ties to this mythology, but also because of symbolism in his own story. The most notable one being…

Under the hill, the broken boy sat upon a weirwood throne, listening to whispers in the dark as ravens walked up and down his arms.

[...]

The singers made Bran a throne of his own, like the one Lord Brynden sat, white weirwood flecked with red, dead branches woven through living roots. 

[...]

His father and the black pool and the godswood faded and were gone and he was back in the cavern, the pale thick roots of his weirwood throne cradling his limbs as a mother does a child. 

- Bran III, A Dance with Dragons

Bran is also the only one of the Stark kids who still thinks of himself as royalty:

What was he now? Only Bran the broken boy, Brandon of House Stark, prince of a lost kingdom, lord of a burned castle, heir to ruins.

- Bran III, A Dance with Dragons

Bran is the heir to Winterfell. It doesn’t matter if Robb named Jon his heir in his will, the will was written under the pretense that Bran and Rickon were dead.

However, Bran doesn’t have any connection to the Iron Throne. It’s far more likely that he would sit on a weirwood throne, because of, y’know, everything about his story. So, if Bran was King of the Seven Kingdoms, I don’t think it would be on the Pincushion Stool.

If Bran is king of the realm, I do think there would still be a separate Lord/Lady of Winterfell, but I do think that there’s a possibility of a Pevensie siblings ending, where all the Stark kids would rule together as the Lords and Ladies and Winterfell.

Something that I’ve never really seen talked about regarding the idea of Bran becoming King of the Seven Kingdoms is the religious differences between the North and the southern regions of Westeros. Of course, the show didn’t deal with this at all. For fuck’s sake, they had Cersei blow up the Westerosi verison of the Vatican and face no backlash. It was so laughably absurd how Show!Cersei’s destructive reign was shown to have like… zero impact on the Seven Kingdoms. 

In short, I’m not too sure that the Kingdom who is majority Faith of the Seven worshippers would react too well to a weirwood-tree-Old-Gods-warg-wizard-king. I mean, when Janos Slynt finds out Jon is a warg he calls him a “thing”, a “creature”, and a “beastling that is not fit to live”, and wanted to execute him not just for being a turncloak but for being a warg as well. And Jojen warns Bran of these things, saying that his own folk may want to kill him if they know what he is.

But… all of that anti-magic attitude might not matter after night falls. 

Part 4: Winter is Coming

I believe that the Long Night is going to be very devastating for the Seven Kingdoms.

Martin is a big believer in making things have meaningful, permanent consequences in his stories. I don’t think that an apocalyptic event like the Long Night is something that’s just gonna get dealt with in a quick snap and have no lasting effect.

A lot of people are going to die. I don’t mean main characters, I mean people that would not survive a normal winter and sure as hell won’t be prepared for this one. Westeros’s food stores have been severely depleted by the War of the Five Kings, and we’ve been told multiple times in the text (particularly AFFC and ADWD) that feeding people during this winter is going to be extremely hard.

Besides that… the whole, uh, invasion of the eldritch ice beings thing might have a bit of an impact on the realm. 

I won’t go into depth about how the Seven Kingdoms will be affected by the Long Night, ‘cause we really have no idea. But, however it all goes down, I do think it will have lasting changes for the people of Westeros. The impact that it leaves may make the concept of Bran being a wizard-king more acceptable. “Oh, well we’ve just seen zombies and winter elves, so what’s too surprising about a magical greenseer warg king?” I think that Westerosi culture becoming more aware and accepting of the existence of magic is the only way that Bran could become the king of the whole realm. The Westeros at the end of the series is not going to be the place that it was at the beginning.

Part 5: Dany: A Home, Not a Throne

To sum up my thoughts on our dragon girl, I don’t think Dany will end up on the Spiky Toilet. I don’t want Dany to be on the Spiky Toilet.

Now, my personal speculation (which a lot of people disagree with, which is fine) is that Dany will never see King’s Landing before the Long Night. I personally don’t think that Dany will ever meet Aegon or Cersei. I don’t see there being enough time in the story for that. Yes, GRRM said that there will be a second Dance of the Dragons, but he also said that the second Dance does not have to involve Dany. He may have originally planned for it to be Aegon and Dany, but probably not once the Meereenese Knot happened.

The Meereenese Knot is what Dany’s ADWD plot is referred to as. GRRM did not intend for Dany to stay in Meereen as long as she has, but because of his “gardener” style of writing, that’s where the story led him. GRRM has said that one of the hardest parts of writing the Meereen plotline (which involves Dany, Barristan, Quentyn, Tyrion, and Victarion) is trying to find a way to cut the plot knot he accidentally got himself stuck in. He has said that Tyrion and Dany will meet towards the end of TWOW, which means that Dany will most likely be spending a large portion of her story with the Dothraki. That part is a completely blank page, but I believe that Dany will meet Tyrion possibly ¾ of the way into the book, and sail for Westeros at the end.

I won’t write a full meta about this here (because that’s not what this post is about), but to summarize my prediction: Aegon VS Cersei is going to be the battle in King’s Landing, a battle which will destroy the city. Dany (who has already rejected sailing for the Throne multiple times) will still be stuck in Essos, dealing with everything she’s still got going on, and will sail for Westeros at the end. Not for the Throne, but to go North for the real fight (remember that Marwyn is also on his way to Meereen to tell Dany that they need her).

Because Dany's purpose is not to fight for the Iron Throne, it’s to fight the Others. Dany (fire, light, and life) VS the Others (ice, darkness, and death) is the main thing the title refers to:

“Well of course the two outlying ones, the things that are going on north of the Wall and Daenerys Targaryen on the other continent with her dragons are of course the Ice and Fire of the title, the Song of Ice and Fire.” 

- George R.R. Martin, 2016

One of the most important excerpts that shows us where Dany’s story is headed is this:

That night she dreamt that she was Rhaegar, riding to the Trident. But she was mounted on a dragon, not a horse. When she saw the Usurper's rebel host across the river they were armored all in ice, but she bathed them in dragonfire and they melted away like dew and turned the Trident into a torrent. Some small part of her knew that she was dreaming, but another part exulted. This is how it was meant to be. The other was a nightmare, and I have only now awakened.

- Daenerys III, A Storm a Swords

Dany has a short prophetic “this is what I was meant to do” dream. Dany could possibly have more dreams about the Others in TWOW, visions that will make what Marwyn has to tell her more believable. It’s not like that dream was the only one Dany has had that alludes to the winter threat, Dany has had visions about this since book one:

The red door was so far ahead of her, and she could feel the icy breath behind, sweeping up on her. If it caught her she would die a death that was more than death, howling forever alone in the darkness. She began to run.

- Dany IX, A Game of Thrones

Anyway, there’s just a lot more foreshadowing in the plot that this is what Dany is meant to do. I think adding in another conflict into her story once she leaves Meereen would make the story feel bloated and would severely fuck up the pacing.

I don’t think Dany will ever see the Iron Throne. The themes of her story have never been about her wanting the Iron Throne for what it is, but for what it represents to her. It represents the possibility of a home and of feeling safe for the first time in her life, what Dany truly wants. I think that it’s absolutely fine if Dany never sees the Throne or sits on it, and that it makes more sense for her narrative arc if she discovers that she can find a home somewhere else, not necessarily where she thought it would be. 

Part 6: Final Thoughts

So, in conclusion, I don’t really give a shit who ends up placing their ass on the Forbidden Laz-E-Boy, I care about the War for the Dawn. I care about seeing the characters I’ve followed for the past five books coming together to fight the real conflict of A Song of Ice and Fire. Also, even if we do get a Scouring of the Shire-type post-climax for ASOIAF, it doesn’t matter. People don’t see the Scouring of the Shire as the climax of Lord of the Rings, they see the climax as Aragorn leading the forces of good against the forces of evil and Frodo and Sam throwing the One Ring into Mount Doom. Whatever ending resolution comes after the climax of ASOIAF, it doesn’t change what the climax is.

"Do you think your brother's war is more important than ours?" the old man barked.

Jon chewed his lip. The raven flapped its wings at him. "War, war, war, war," it sang.

"It's not," Mormont told him. "Gods save us, boy, you're not blind and you're not stupid. When dead men come hunting in the night, do you think it matters who sits the Iron Throne?"

"No." Jon had not thought of it that way.

- Jon IX, A Game of Thrones

TL;DR:

My prediction: Cersei will be the last person to sit the Iron Throne, which will be destroyed in the Wildfire of King’s Landing. After the Long Night devastates the Seven Kingdoms, Bran will become the King of this new Westeros that has been majorly affected by the return of magic. Also, it would be real nice if Dany found her red door.

God I hope my rambling made sense

#sorry that this took me over a week to answer #ask #anon #asoiaf #asoiaf meta #long post

[heretherebedork]

I am here to hurt myself by watching WBL2. I know it ends in a reward but the beginning is nothing but agony and why I haven't watched it before. I am already in pain just from watching any tiny amount of pain of these boys.

lol I am literally refering to this as my day of atonement.

... I did make a very nice Rosh Hashanah post but that doesn't make me particularly religious, tbh. Cultural Judaism, yo.

Also, pain. Hi pain.

Ugh, I avoided this pain for so long. Now I'm here for it. One post. I'm only making this one post. @absolutebl I'm doing it! I know how much you love this, though.

Oh, fuck it, if I'm trying to limit all my rambling to one post I might as well read more it. I ramble so much.

Ep 1:

Oh look pain. Pain. And more pain. Yup. Yup. I hate this kind of plot even if I know it resolves well. At least it's not cheating but STILL hi dying. Shu Yi is a darling boy who deserved better than five years of nothing for any reason and Gao Shi De should have been better than that. Even knowing it ends well doesn't make this easier. dgkldf GODDAMN IT SELF. Just watch the show and stop being a baby about emotional pain.

Awww, the matching ties! I've seen that post a dozen times and love it every time and it's good to see.

The fucking way Gao Shi De just tries to walk back into his life without a second word or hesitation or thought makes me SO DAMN TWITCHY. Poor Shu Yi. Also, Gao Shi De deserves every punch and slap and uuughhh this show was designed to hurt me. I HATE relationships falling apart. Absolutely my least favorite trope/plot point of practically all time.I hate it I hate iiiit I hate it so muuuuuch.

I mean, damn, the acting here is amazing beyond words, obviously. But that just makes it hurt more. Especially Shu Yi's pain that he's put behind so much anger and work just to keep himself functional and it's damn gorgeous DAMNit.

Ep 2:

Darling Shu Yi deserved so much better. Even though Gao Shi De wasn't cheating on him, he deserved better than the silence and disappearance and he deserves the goddamn world. Ugh literally like a minute into the episode and already there is so much pain. I know they end up happy but I almost want to just tell Shu Yi to tell Gao Shi De to fuck off forever.

Nope, Gao Shi De, you deserve the pain. Shu Yi does't, you do, your upset doesn't get me upset. Shu Yi's pain is the only one I regret in this show. But, seriously, doing all this in front of the whole company is such a bastard move in his part honestly. Poor Shu Yi, seriously.

I do love my tiny obviously favorite character, though, and his tiny inability to sit and his tiny double hands for everything and I adore him beyond measure.

Ugh, Shu Yi choosing to fake the return of trust and friendship and love and I am proud of him for doing that and no, I don't care, Gao Shi De deserves it. I mean, it's not a good or healthy choice but, you know what, I'm okay with that.

But seriously. Poor Shu Yi. Has to deal with being ghosted and then Gao Shi De's return and then an extremely drunk ex crying on him when he's just trying to go to work... at midnight, okay, maybe not healthy either.

Ep 3:

Oh, Gao Shi De. You're an idiot. I mean that... only with a tiny bit of affection and mostly with me rolling my eyes. Making a promise to his dad wasn't bright of you. I mean, seriously, 5 years without contacting him, telling him what happened and on the condition that Shu Yi doesn't try to move on in five years of being completely ghosted. That's just dumb to an astonishingly level of dumb.

Ugh, poor Shu Yi. Your dad and your ex are both idiots and they deserve to get away from you just like you want. Seriously. You poor young man. You deserved so much better from the people you love.

But seriously fuck Gao Shi De and Shu Yi's dad. You're both idiots who don't deserve him. Especially his dad. But also especially Gao Shi De. Seriously. This is why we talk to people, damnit. Poor Shu Yi.

Why, yes, that's my main take away from this show. Shu Yi deserved so much better. Gao Shi De's need to constantly solve everything by himself is the biggest problem in the show, oy vey.

OF COURSE he wants to go back to that time. He was loved and loved and trusted you and happy and comfortable and who wouldn't want to go back to that?

Yu Zhen Xuan is my darling, obviously, and Pei Shou Yi's wanting to take care of him but also to stay away from him for his own sake. Oh, boys.

Ep 4:

I know they get better at some point. I really do. Shu Yi is still breaking my heart, though. I just want to see the poor darling smile and not in a flashback.

Oh, Shu Yi. You deserve the world, seriously. I mean, I'm glad you've managed to come back around to trying to believe in Gao Shi De. I really am. But man he doesn't deserve it. But also ugh, this embrace, utterly fantastic. Darling Shu Yi is finally smiling!

And poor Yu Zhen Xuan trying to ask about Pei Shou Yi so deseperately and being denied everything... ugh, I love him so much. But mostly just Yu Zhen Xuan wanting that connection so badly but always, again and again, denied and I just want to comfort him so badly. Yes, he's coming to you but, I mean, what is friendship but going to other people for comfort? Awww, the two ramens. The BABY.

But also darling Shu Yi is finally smiling and Gao Shi De does bring him comfort and love and they're genuinely good to and for each other, at least, once they're together. Now they just need to actually talk to each other about what happened.

The simultaneous "DAD" was gorgeous. Okay, that was really good.

Ep 5:

Ah, my long awaited darling boy's backstory that I know and love. The tiny panic and fear and the way he jumps and fights back at the tiniest thing... I love this feral teenager SO MUCH and then he grows up into a CTO for a major company and it's even better.

Plus, Pei Shou Yi looking for him after telling him not to come back because the mug got returned? Ugh, heartbreaking but in like a sad, small kind of way.

And the darling CEOs teasing each other in front of their employees while also in suits and being uplifting and good at supporting them? A+ how does one go about getting bosses like that? Also, how Shu Yi looks at Gao Shi De when he's being a good boss? Also A+.

Okay, yes, they're adorable and tiny and the piggyback ride while also in suits and looking fine is simple the best of the best and Gao Shi De taking care of Shu Yi while also confronting his father is frankly amazing. Oh, darling boys.

Gao Shi De, he already admitted that he did this entirely to trick you and Shu Yi is perfectly willing to take a stand against his father. Stop trying to win him over. Let Shu Yi handle his family. His dad's an idiot and he's not gonna listen to you.

Ep 6:

More backstory for my darling feral teenager and the doctor who took care of him at his lowest. I love them both so much. I wish they'd gotten more of a story but I'm not entirely sure I want a third season about them either.

Portable boyfriend! Well! Portable boy... friend...

Also, Shu Yi and Gao Shi De, you have no right to talk about them not communicating, seriously boys, love you to death but seriously communication... actually, honestly, Shu Yi is great at communication. He can criticize them. Gao Shi De has no right.

Pei Shou Yi, seriously, you say these things about not having any emotion but you also admit that you knew he evoked a response from you. You definitely remembered and had feelings about him when you were separated. I mean, you even saved the ramen that was his favorite. You looked for him. I know it's scary but that's okay.

Shu Yi is just so adorable about meeting the in-laws and being all awkward and adorable and it's beyond cute and then the talk about his dad and family and they're just adorable and domestic and sweet and how dare they.

Literally, Shu Yi is the best person in the world and the two people who love him most can learn a lot from him.

Ugh, Yu Zhen Xuan is my baby and I love him so much and he's just doing his best to be his best and he wants to love and be loved but he's trying so hard and I love him so much. He's just such a darling and he also deserves the world and to be loved just as he loves.

And we had to have another pool kiss, of course, what darlings.

Pei Shou Yei: I don't experience emotions... except the ones involved in protect Yu Zhen Xuan because those aren't emotions, those are just natural urges and don't count.

Awww, proposals are always adorable and sweet.

I did it! I've finally watched the whole thing, between dramacool and dailymotion I've managed to watch this show. Yay for me!

#bl drama #bl series #i'm not really gonna tag this #i'm so late to the game #but also agony #so you know #lol i finally did it #now my list of shows i have considered watching but chosen not to is at least one shorter

[imagineitup]

it’s just episkey  : tom riddle x reader

request : What about a imagina where Tom Riddle gets hurt but he's too arrogant to admit that he needs help, but luckily reader doesn't care about how he can be such a bitch with everyone and ends up taking care of him? And he thank her at the end for saving his life.

a/n: reader is a crackhead i don’t make the rules :DDD // look at that jawline

- - 

“I don’t need help,” Tom spits, and the glare he gives you is venomous.  Perhaps it would’ve been common sense to leave him there, even if he was limping against the wall, breathing heavily.  But you’ve always prided yourself on your common decency to everyone, no matter who it is.

And today, the person on the receiving end of your kindness just happens to be Tom Riddle.  Oh, well.  It’s not like you’re scared of him, or anything.  Right?

“Of course you don’t,” you end up saying.  “You’re just limping for what?  Fun?”

Tom nearly growls.  “Don’t touch me.”  He bites his lip, pushing against the wall to stand up straighter, although the effort makes him breathe in sharply.  Yet he still manages a sneer, as he tilts up his chin, “Mudblood.”

You stare at him blankly.  It’s far too late in the year for this.  While this might have hurt you in first or second year, you’d long since accepted your blood-status and were actually more than happy to be exposed to the “muggle” culture.  “Oh boo hoo.  You big baby.  So what?  I don’t give a damn about my blood.  That’s gross, dude.”

Tom looks momentarily taken back.  Either from being called a ‘dude’ or the complete lack of emotional response from what he’s just called you; either way, it doesn’t matter to you.  “What?”

“You want to go, huh?  I’ll talk to you about blood.  Oh boy, when I get my period --”

Tom winces, and you can tell he’s seething.  “Okay, okay.  Stop.”

“Thought you were all about that stuff.”  At his glare, you shrug at him.  “My bad.”

Tom looks like he wants to disappear.  His face starts to turn ashen, and he stumbles, both hands gripping against the wall.  He grits his teeth, shutting his eyes for a moment.  “I’m fine,” he says fiercely, and you’re not sure whether he’s talking to you, or trying to convince himself.

You blink, a sigh escaping your lips as you step closer.  “Alright, sit down.”

Tom makes a move to fight, to resist, but the moment he sees your notorious “no bull-shit” expression, he swallows his words and begrudgingly sinks to the floor, slowly letting his leg fall against the floor.  He grimaces, a choke escaping his mouth.  “Ah, fuck.”

You kneel beside him, staring at the blood gushing through his leg.  It’s infected, probably, and you take out your wand.  

“It’s a simple episkey, you know.”

“I know that.  I lost my wand,” Tom says.  “I don’t know where.”

A simple non-verbal accio, then?  Does this boy have a deathwish?

You shake your head, doing your best to gently unwrap the blood-soaked fabric that Tom’s tied tightly against his shin.  The wound exposes itself to the air soon enough, and you grimace as you take in the brutality that’s occurred.

For a moment your hand trembles.  You’ve never had to do anything like this before.  Taking a breath and clenching your wand, you swallow past your discomfort, murmuring the incantation over and over.

Slowly, slowly, the bleeding ebbs.  Tom’s skin starts to stitch together, a golden sort of haze settling in the air around his leg to help heal.

There’s no doubt about it, the spell leaves you drained.  You’re starving, and you bite your lips together, your wand clattering to the floor.  “There.”  

It leaves a long, white scar stretching across his skin, but it’s healed now, and that’s all that really matters.  “Now you’ve got a real story to tell, Riddle.”

Tom angrily grabs his things and steps away from you.  He looks like he’s intentionally ignoring you, his gaze set stonily in front of him.

“I, of course, live to serve,” you call after him, mockingly.  “Nice seeing you.  Let’s do it again tomorrow.”

Tom pauses immediately, sighing.  He turns back around, and you watch as a war rages across his face.  He lowers his head, eyes dipping to the ground, and then, finally, he meets your gaze.  You’re surprised to see his face smooth without glare, and most of all, you’re surprised to see him looking … grateful.

“I,” he starts, screwing up his face, “thank you.”

You’re too speechless to respond.  

Tom nods at you now, and that’s the most respect you’ve ever seen him regard you with.  And then the moment ends, and Tom briskly turns the corridor, leaving you stumped.  You’ve never seen him nice, ever.  It’s a strange thing.  

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[theyreoutofthewoods]

Haylor: fact, fiction, or folklore?

I’ve accepted 99% of what we see in the entertainment industry is PR so I just eat it up for entertainment but always stay skeptical about what’s going on in real life. If there’s one thing I’ve learned from a lot of my friends working in the entertainment industry and/or PR professionally, it’s that most of what we see from celebrities is highly filtered PR.

At this point I just take celebrity stories like narratives or myths they tell. It’s part fact, part fiction making it more like folklore. I can enjoy it and know it’s sort of fake since they’re storytellers and most famous people play up a public persona that isn’t necessarily their real personality (like anyone does at work or on social media). Good examples of this would be Harry’s public persona during 1D as a womanizer (which we know isn’t really true). Another example would be when Taylor had her fake country accent during debut (which we know she grew up in Pennsylvania).

I was thinking about PR and relationships, and the most recent example with Olivia Rodrigo drivers license. With Olivia, it was too scripted to be totally believable in my opinion, like with the back and forth between Olivia Rodrigo, Joshua Basset, and Sabrina Carpenter. There’s probably big kernels of truth in their story but they’re exaggerated and played up to boost all of their careers and personas. Olivia: the “good” girl who is a brilliant songwriter (I’m sure she truly is) who got her heart broken a la Taylor Swift or Lorde. Joshua: the heartbreaker/bad boy. Sabrina: the “bad” girl who sort of “stole” Joshua away from Olivia. They all dropped songs from their side of the story. But songs aren’t quick to make or release, they take tons of planning. So ultimately they’re all playing up characters in the drama so that we associate these traits with them, it’s what good PR and public personas are built on. The problem was it looked a bit too staged. Those events might really have happened! But it was all too convenient that they stirred up the drama THAT quickly, post after post.

I’ve really been thinking about it with Haylor lately too. There are countless theories that I won’t get into about the motivations for Harry and Taylor dating for PR, but the main theme underlying all of these theories is that them dating would further both of their careers. Fans of one would become fans of the other. People would pay attention to two of music’s biggest young stars dating.

Taylor needed a bad boy muse to write about to bring her into pop super stardom (because she was in transition from country music) and to promote her new pop album, which would go on to become one of the most famous pop albums of all time. Harry had an image to further that he was a womanizer who dated slightly older women. As a couple, it was a symbiotic relationship. And we see that in Taylor’s music TO THIS DAY that she’s still writing references to their story (see: coney island, happiness, and the cardigan music video). Maybe it’s because they had an epic and toxic love story? a tale as old as time. Or maybe it’s because she’s a superb storyteller? Maybe it’s both!

Harry said it best in the very transparent song Perfect when he sang “if you’re looking for someone to write your breakup songs about, baby I’m perfect.” Between his songs for One Direction and his first solo album, and hers on 1989 and beyond (and others they both wrote for other artists) playing up both of them as these characters, it’s a masterfully crafted story. Thrilling, emotional, and incredibly well designed.

I mean it’s 2021, 8 years after their alleged first big breakup in 2013 and we’re still talking about it and they’re still creating a narrative between themselves. Harry dropped Fine Line on Taylor’s 30th birthday. Taylor dropped folklore on the 10th anniversary of One Direction. They both had iconic Vogue and Rolling Stone covers drop on the same day. They both had surprises on the same night (his for iHeartRadio Jingle Ball 2020 and hers for the announcement of her surprise album, Evermore). They’re now two of the most popular artists on the planet, and are both nominated and performing at the 2021 Grammys. They’re still tied to each other through their PR and I don’t think that’s a coincidence at all. I don’t think they’re secretly in a relationship, probably not even friends. She’s happily in a long term relationship and he seems fulfilled doing his own thing. To our knowledge they don’t even talk anymore, but maybe their PR teams do?

Obviously I love Harry and Taylor individually and loved them as a couple. Whether or not it was a PR stunt completely or a real relationship, or something in between, or both at different points (which is what I actually believe), they both made an incredible narrative that we’re still enjoying to this day and indirectly boosting the others’ success, so I think it’s been an effective strategy from a PR standpoint. I mean coney island and happiness had lines directly referencing Out of the Woods, so she’s still writing that story.

Even if it’s mostly fiction, it’s incredible storytelling no matter if it happened for real or not. They’re entertainers and artists, and I think they’ve done a great job at that. So if it was all PR, I don’t feel like my love for them is threatened at all. If it was real, all the more to love. If it was just a tall tale, it kept us enthralled with the drama and art that came out of it and continues to to this day, as they were one of the most iconic pop culture couples of the 2010s. Because like Taylor said, they’ll never go out of Style.

[chyuans]

          hello , hello  !   first of all ,  i’m super excited to be here even if i’m like 10 hrs LATE  ( gmt timezone things )  i’m noe ,  a gay  they / them at the age of 19 ,  and this privileged lil disappointment of a jock boy is gonna be filling the position of kong_01 . despite the rumours ?  yuanjun’s actually not nearly as bad as some of the people he’ll be meeting here >:)  but you’ll get to know more about that below  !  if you’d like to plot just light up that HEART , or add me on disc*rd which i’ll give out in im’s , where i’m infinitely faster .  if i’m not gaming .  no tw’s under the cut  .

* backstory. > many people know of yuanjun, but few people truly know him. he's the famous kong families’ son, heir to the kong legacy, now forward position for south korea men’s national hockey team - which brought forth a ton of international fame from back home and amongst hockey lovers worldwide. while his talent is undeniable, he is long overshadowed by his families’ accomplishments, forever reminded that he’d never be the perfect son they’d hoped for, and no one ever lets him forget it.

> being the child of business tycoons who’s art business seemed to never be on the decline, tended to lend itself to an unconventional, pretty lonely childhood. 

> although jun no longer wants to dabble in the stupid shit he probably did as a teen, and escape from their home in a childish fit of rage and make the lives of the various nannies that tended to him while his parents were off being great hell, he still wonders sometimes whether this profession is what he would’ve wanted if he’d just not wanted to spite his parents. he loves hockey - that fact is undeniable. he thanks the nanny who took him there once out of necessity to stop his whining, and he fell in love with it almost instantly. but he also questions whether he gravitated to it because it was something he could throw himself into wholeheartedly to fill a void.

> he's very open to different types of people, and after being scouted at 19 and having a massive shift both in culture and identity as he then begun to travel worldwide, he’s a tiny bit more wordly now than he was back then. he's much more concerned about who you are underneath than superficial appearances, which means developing relationships are few and far between, because a lot of people do approach him because of his fame/fortune. he's unjudgemental to the point where his friends worry about his naivety and how easily he trusts people, but he's absolutely not dumb, just very well versed on telling good people from the bad.

> jun may even come across as naïve, but he's very aware of that perception is nearly important as reality. he's not extroverted in a way that demands conversation, but he knows how to talk to anyone from any background even if its just to maintain pleasantries. after competing in various competitions and versing players from canada to japan, he's become much more sharp and ambitious, a guy who very rarely lets distractions take their course. perhaps it’s with this that his family loathe his choices all the more, with his appetite, he was born with the skills required to run a business - pity he never took to anything of the creative sort.  

> working in a fast, stressful, highly coveted job such as pro-sports is a full time job and then some; jun doesn't spend much time not working on it. outside of his schedule, he likes bettering his stamina at the gym and eating healthy. he likes being surrounded by authentic people or nobody at all. he’s not one for trying new things and having new experiences due to time management, tending to stick to a schedule.

> he gets a lot of bad press though, which is beginning to weigh a little heavy on him. doubly now the murder has people talking. from being accused of performance-enhancing pills, various personality scandals, to being linked with ‘dating’ (see: ruining the image of) idols and chaebol’s alike. right now, he’s currently battling a lot of unwanted publicity because of a misunderstood interaction online against a wealthy sweetheart that went sour. 

> while jun might be generally unsympathetic and analytical when it comes to developing relationships with people that’ll last long-term, he's a bleeding heart when it comes to kids who may have experienced the same lonely upbringing as he did, without the financial gains. right now he spends sunday’s teaching a bunch of local foster home kids how to skate, and is trying to fund a couple of sports scholarships for those who show promise under a fake name, just generally being a good ‘ole guy.

> his family do not approve of his job, ofc. in fact neither of his parents have ever attended any of his matches to this day, and are only on semi-decent terms with him because jun begrudgingly is still tied by name to the business and shows his face at events for all of 30 minutes until he physically can no longer maintain pleasantries. his celebrity image perhaps is one thing they can manipulate, and even then, jun could get into scandals galore and still be doing his job. good press, bad press, it has the kong’s family name at the forefront of peoples’ minds, which always brings forth revenue.  

> pros: could be a lot worse considering his upbringing, collected, and level-headed most of the time. wicked good at sports, and keeps a cool head in a tough situation. ambitious, curious, a little reckless. eager to prove himself, rich? and very endeared to people/places he finds fascinating. which are many. knows where the good, authentic chinese cuisine is. hardworking and very interested in the idea of Progress.

> cons: the most private person alive, will not divulge any palatable information about himself or his feelings. devil's advocate always. will put himself and others at an arm’s length the second he feels (disgusted noises) e-emotions (love, namely). gets bored easily. paranoid, leads with the head more than the heart. friends > > > family. a little self-involved, never fucking sleeps - will be that neighbour you can hear padding around above your apartment at 3.05 am like it’s mid-day, aaaaand Loves Winning Above All Else

* personality & relationships.

> like many others, jun has his fair share of surface-level friends. he’s quick to be interested in people, to get to know them better, but it's difficult for him to get closer than that after a childhood of being picked up and dropped by those who looked over him - which kinda has left him with abandonment issues.

> he’s a curator of neat things that aren’t too overtly complex, and that includes friendships. so if you have something unusual about you, whether it's a talent or a way of thinking, he would be inclined to get to know you better. also, he has a lot of leverage with his job. being friends with a sports star slash million dollar trust fund baby who can get you free shit never hurts, just don’t befriend him for the perks, yanno?

> jun is very dedicated to his vision of things, and can sometimes be very obstinate in the way he a) wants them to be done b) doesn't accept other options, think steve jobs. he's very mercurial and can be nice one minute but isn't afraid to switch to hardass boss to get things done and did.  > he is insanely competitive and his strive is drawn out by always wanting to be on top. truly first child material. that's the kind of guy he is, with standards that do not reflect his passive side too well, which sometimes can get him into some “personality” scandals. he is driven, motivated, always looking for ways to be winning.

> i'm sure someone is bound to hate him, he’s probably got a few accounts online dedicated to a steady stream of shit-talking, given his cutthroat status or holding many hockey cups.

> jun doesn’t think too much about his sexuality - he'd probably best be labelled as pan, but leans towards those who identify as women? because of his current placement in a workspace, and with a cultural identity, that both don’t often lend themselves to lgbtq+ rights, i doubt he’d ever make that public.

> he works amongst some of the fittest people in the world, he knows how to appreciate beautiful bodies, but he's not about to discriminate. he's tragically a committaphobe and isn't interested in anything long-term right now, although i think it'd be funny if someone tried. he's very open for flings and one-night stands and even a friends with benefits sort of set up. 

* wc’s.  >  bring me his baby bro and sis. i command u. i have many thoughts  >  somebody who maybe gets in on his foster-kid situation? idk maybe they have a perception of jun being what he is in the articles they read of him, but they see him and are like <3_<3 he actually real Nice huh. i see this being romantic but it could bloom a really nice, wholesome friendship too. >  enemies. not gonna lie, he doesn’t vibe with rich kids w / a stick up their ass, especially since a lot of the people he works with aren’t from exorbitant families. people who loathe him for declining to take over his families’ business? like the boy can’t even name more than 3 artists off of the top of his head?   > fwb except neither of them know what “just friends” mean.  > i would love if jun had a confidante. a best friend, a partner in crime, a total bromance 'cause i can never get enough of those. whatever label you ‘wanna put on it. wiping up each other’s messes. maybe a Betrayal in the works  > again, gonna be a wc, but i would love a “rival” of jun's on a similar level (or bigger)  that’s entirely fabricated based off of trashy articles or a misunderstood interaction online. bonus points if they’re an absolute sweetheart, well loved by most people, and generally the antithesis of jun with his multiple drug/personality rumours, which in contrast, make him seem like the bad guy. 

> party buddy. this guy hasn’t touched alcohol/cigarettes/any other stimulants since he was underage and wanted to rebel. the word “relax” does not exist in his vocabulary. Help

#cheong.intro

[themanicgalaxy]

SPN 7X13 The Slice Girls

man I entirely forgot about AMY and so did the show

jesus shit and Frank's RIDICULOUSLY depressing advice

ooo this song is cool

man this show made me scared to be alone

well that's brutal

also I initially thought it was Cas and now I'm sad

aw Bobby's flask

this man is not doing...good

like really, not good

DEAN IS BULLSHITTING LMAO

but the :D

it's unsettling

this is brutal

attacker isn't human huh

this is a very swanky bar

the zooms are very unsettling

even if it's a spell, mans is good at hiding

no he does not speak japanese

it's a good line though

yeah there we go

"you shook me all night long" you're joking

this is

HILARIOUS

ah another one ok

that threw me for a hot sec

...yeah ok Dean definitely likes not being on top

this is such a strange juxtaposition

dammit I like the song a lot though

"I'm getting too old for this" heh

the guy, huh

ah the fling

oh it's not a fake number

heh Sam

she's pregnant huh well the was quick

well this is culty

Emma

sweet jesus, it's Dean's kid osdf'has

"good word with the IRS" lmao

y'all miss bobby's expertise huh

Sam's enjoying himself lmao

"guy it belonged to was beat up and old too" :(

smol

Emma

Dean unfortunately knows things about kids

"I'm engaging in some social skills" hahah

that's not normal child development is it

it's just kinda spiralling

she's an amazon too isn't she

oop

ah Dean flagged it too

the Vibe

he did not dodge a bullet

"make us proud"

she seems sad :(

"I hate when this happens"LMAO

Red Flags

"how you know so much about child development" SAM HE RAISED YOU

dammit Sam

he's being obtuse on purpose

yes I know Dean is obssessive

"hannah montana early years" DEAN?

wow they're all white

Emma doesn't want to

harmonia??

the amazons

DEAN INSTANTLY WENT TO WONDER WOMAN

yeah

amazon

I don't think you've dealt with "stopped the apocalypse like three times" before

aw Dean's grumpy

humans plus

gives birth within 36 hours jeez

babies grow fast, then age normal

every two years

sorry bud

yeah Dean you have a kid

predictably he takes this poorly

courage

Decent looking nice Sam you did your best

succesful guys that are good looking, gene pool

mans is good at vibes, I'll give him that

burned him ah because ghosts

lmao wiretap

ah Emma

"i need your help"??

"It's all you know" oh my god

LMAO THE DAD ACTIVATED IT TOOK LIKE NOTHING

bruh he likes kids

so they do know he's a hunter

she tried to lie to him?

"you get this isn't normal right" "HOW WOULD I KNOW"

ah to be normal

"crazy drunk old genius" aw

"they have all the good stuff"

it's the kid

:(

it better not be, or an actual question or something

ah the Amazon Form

bruh those knives always look so fake

whoops

double whoops

at least he was right

she was told he was a hunter so she tried

SAM LMAO

NO I WANT TO SEE THE CONVERSATION

"so now someone has to kill someone"

man Dean really just wants to be a dad

man it's fucked up they never bring this up

ah god poor Dean

and they're gone

if we live that long

ah he's mad that Dean didn't kill her man what the fuck

aw man "no she was my kid"

"cas died you were wobbly"

"you're just bigger" ah

an it feels right moment

1. loneliness, just a spitball. Just. The monster(or at least when you get killed) here tends to be loneliness, which also feels American, in a way.

2. bars. America's third place, it's what keeps people connected, it's where you get the talk of the town. it's probably important they're connected to alcohol and the night

both one and two are like..America and American culture

3. girls but it feels wrong. Like they kinda flipped the one night stands thing, but it like. yes I know they're not making anything about the patriarchy, but felt wrong.

4. the system. Emma didn't Rebel rebel, neither did Lydia. but they weren't happy about it. Emma resisted. Like resisted, took path of least resistance, has no other option because you pasted over your personality.

it feels important.

5. I feel like fatherhood. Like the idea of someone Not Wanting to be a Father for reasons of like "I'd be terrible at it, I'd ruin the kid" but so clearly wanting to be a father, so clearly wanting to raise someone, but terrified.

and Bobby's tied into it, because Bobby thought about it the same way, and he ended up adopting the boys(well kinda). Like really, they're more nurturing than they're told they should be because of Macho Vibes, and that(and Dean clinging to Bobby's flask) is important. Like yeah Bobby's space in the world is missing(no expert) but so's the space in the narrative, their father is dead.

6. paranoid but it eventually makes you good at vibes. Like Dean's paranoid so Sam tries to discount it, but then in this case, it actually and actively keeps him alive, to the point where you can say he pattern matches quicker by seeing patterns everywhere.

7. bruh everyone mirror Dean, but they try NOT TO. They tie things to Dean, they realized they tied Bobby and Dean together that way but they kept trying to undercut it, to keep it a monster of the week, and undercutting the emotional scene and making it about AMY of all people, which doesn't hit because we got very little sense that Sam cared about her after that one episode. like...Dean, who wants to be a dad deep down just saw his biological kid(who he was half ready to take in, monster and all) die. He's...not doing hot. And they kept undercutting that by bringing up the WRONG PARTS OF THE NARRATIVE(Dean's guilt about amy or his fatalism or whatever). THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO BE THE OPPOSITE OF FATALISM.

god I miss Cas, that's gonna snap him out of this I think.

#pawswatchesspn #7X13 The Slice Girls #absolutely fucked how they tried to play this off as Just Another Monster of the week #when it would probably FUCK dean up #:(( #Emma my beloved

[princess-missyy]

I just wanna say you cannot be truly antiracist without being anti-homophobic and feminist. You also can’t be feminist without being antiracist and anti-homophobic and you can’t be anti-homophobic without being antiracist and feminist. 

The historic and current perceptions of the clitoris are a surprisingly good example of the cumulative impact of racism, homophobia, and sexism especially when elitists normalize concepts from social Darwinism and eugenics.

 Confession time. A little over a year ago I did a research project for school on sex and sexual pleasure. Partly for my interests and shit but the actual main reason was when I was in high school I’d heard about female genital mutilation surgeries being performed on young girls in sub-Saharan regions of Africa. Africa is definitely not the first or only continent to have this procedure done, but there’s been more opportunity to end the practice in places like the US so unfortunately Africa is where we’re still seeing it. The types of mutilation vary with regions and cultures, but I believe it usually involves removing most if not all of the clitoris. Without anesthesia and performed on young girls who are old enough to be traumatized. (Side note: this is why modern mainstream male circumcision is not the same thing as female genital mutilation and circumcised men are not comparable to FGM victims.)  

But any article I saw just talked about how terrible people are for doing it or they’d spin the story to support the idea that we Americans need to save Muslims and Africans from themselves and it was just white savior bullshit so I took a different approach. I wanted to understand why people felt the clitoris needed to be removed without relying on an explanation prone to biases. I wanted to understand why there’s such a widespread cultural norm of ignoring and avoiding the clitoris during heterosexual sex. I wanted scientists to study female pleasure to restore the feeling of pleasure in women who it had been stolen from by mutilation and rape and societal shame. I wanted to see my science professors recognize the value of understanding female sexuality the way they’d seen value in studying Viagra. And to do that I had to understand the clitoris. I did my first class presentation on the female orgasm/clitoris.

 Good news is I’m finally getting my answers. Bad news is I don’t fucking like the answers it makes my stomach hurt like every social justice issue is tied together through the clit like there’s racism and homophobia and sexism and elitism and it’s sad and I don’t know what to do with this so I’m posting it on fucking tumblr

 Late 1800s = social Darwinism (which is why we ended up with so much genocide and “ethnic cleansing” leading up to world wars and systemic racism and all that crazy shit)

 "Racist physicians were contrasting to the 'bound together' clitoris of 'Aryan American women' that 'goes with higher civilization' and the 'free' clitoris 'in negresses' that goes with 'highly domesticated animals.' Homophobic physicians were supposing that 'inverted' lesbians 'will in practically every instance disclose an abnormally prominent intent clitoris'" (from Ibram X. Kendi’s How to Be Antiracist)

 Scientists were afraid of the clitoris because they wanted control over female sexuality. And because they were afraid of Black women and lesbians. They used Darwinist flawed logic to support their claim that women were meant to please them to earn their babies. They had racist perceptions of Black women as being hyper sexual. They saw lesbianism as a complete betrayal of what they’d accepted through Darwin’s eyes and again a result of “hyper sexuality.” They saw the clitoris as responsible for giving women the desire for pleasure, so when they could they removed it. Because they believed women did not and do not deserve to be pleased.

 When boys have sex with girls with the sole intention of pleasing themselves or when people treat female sexual desire as a shameful character flaw it supports these racist, homophobic, sexist ideas.

 By the time we’re 12 most girls have seen a penis whether it was shown by a person or drawn on a school bus seat but as adults women fear their pussy is weird or ugly because they’ve not been bombarded with images in this way to know what “normal” looks like. I saw a lot of graffitied dicks with balls growing up but never a pussy with the clit. Girls are growing up too ashamed of their own genitals to masturbate as adults. People are offended if not outraged by a girl who doesn’t suck dick, but we laugh and accept a boy who doesn’t eat pussy. I’m 23 and I’m more comfortable asking to be hit in the face during sex than asking for his fingers to be inside me.

 We trivialize sex a lot, but physical touch is a love language and giving someone a feeling of pleasure is a sign of respect and care. The fact is males perform significantly less oral sex than they receive and often feel entitled to receive it more often, for longer duration, and with more passion than they are willing to give. This is not just a silly little thing in our culture it’s an issue rooted in racism, homophobia, sexism, and probably all the other isms I’m not thinking of. Divorced women often list sexual dissatisfaction as one of the reasons their marriage failed. So it impacts marriage. People with diseases and cancer often experience the side effect of sexual dysfunction. So it’s impacting cancer patients especially those who are terminal. Not to mention the emotional toll it has on victims of sexual trauma who while suppressing their gag reflex simultaneously suppress PTSD just to please someone who does not believe they deserve the same levels of respect.  Not to mention minorities and people with autism and disabilities because I can’t even find information to learn more about those factors specifically.

#edited a bit since i originally posted #generally the same just some details i forgot #and bolded some shit

[fightevilandthengetblownup]

FIC: Look Through My Eyes (kidverse)

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"Come on now, Billyboy, time for bed." Her voice still sounded so foreign to him - a mature and calming woman's voice rather than the girlish chirp he had heard calling out her farewells to him that last morning - and watching as his little Joanna stumblingly rose from the creaking wooden chair beside him to try to talk the usually boisterous boy to bed, Bill couldn't help but smile. Watching mother and son reminded him of his wife and daughter when she was a tiny blonde bundle of waning energy, yawning as loudly and widely as his grandson was now. "Gotsta brush our teeth, and then read another chapter of Mommy's book before bed."

"I don't wantta-" "Baby boy, Mommy's tired and won't be able-" "No! I wantta stay wit' Daddy 'nd Grandda Bill!" "Billy, please don't-" "No!"

"Billy-" The other man's voice cut over the shrill cry of their child, Grey's usually  loving look for the little boy was stern and firm in a way that Bill remembered from his times shutting down Jo's cries to stay up on his knee. "If you don't go with your mommy now, you won't be allowed to read your story before bed and there will be no pancakes in the morning."

The look of utter shock that spread across the little boy's face was mirrored on his mother's - Jo and Billy both staring in abject horror towards the serious look on the other's face - before Billy was up on his feet and rushing, tripping here and there on his feet, out the kitchen towards the hall. Jo's look of shock slowly melted as Bill saw Grey's look soften into an amused smile.

"Oh, that was just mean, hun." "Don't worry Jo, I wasn't going to actually take your pancakes away." "You better not've!" "Jo... You better get up there before he floods the bathroom again." "Oh shit!"

Jo's responses and the almost fluid dance of their back and forth was somewhat a soothing sound to Bill's ears as he'd leaned into his hand watching his daughter in her new life. It reminded him of home. Or perhaps that was just the drinks talking. The five Scotch's and five beers in that he'd lulled that loud, screaming voice inside that hated the time he'd missed, the time he'd been missed, and the monster that sat across the table from him filling that gaping void for his little girl in so many ways that Bill left behind.

He watched, eyes heavy and filled with that other part of him - the part that was so happy for his little girl's happiness and safety, as Jo waddled around the edge of the table to press a kiss against the other man's cheek gently before that megawatt smile was directed his way. Bill was slow responding in kind but knew from the way those chocolate brown eyes glistened slightly in the dim lighting of her kitchen that Jo saw it before she slowly made her way out the door and the heavy footfalls of her swollen, pregnancy feet upon the creaky staircase. It was something that Bill remembered from her own incubation period, how Ellen had complained ad nauseam about the swelling and how much her feet hurt and how he had rubbed them until his thumbs felt numb each evening once the bar had closed.

"She'll be back down after she's put Billy to bed." The shadow across from him broke him out of his pensive silence, drawing his attention from the empty doorway and across to that almost calm exterior that Bill could tell was put on for him. "Jo's been having more trouble sleeping at night lately-"

“Oh?” No matter how many drinks he’d had at that point, the hunter couldn’t keep the confrontational tone out of his voice as he was left alone with the monster again. It was one thing to see the soft smiles and loving stares between his daughter and the shadow, and another to spend time himself alone with the thing that should usually be on the other end of a gun barrel rather than the other side of a kitchen table. “You haven’t been botherin’ her have you? Women might get crazy, but they need rest more than anything at this point.”

The range of colors that spread across the other’s face - from a paling to bright red and back to a deep pink - were bemusing an in abstract way, as the dark haired man fiddled with his nails for a moment before it settled into a firm, blank look despite the clipped tone of his voice. “I always encourage Jo to get enough rest. She definitely needs it.”

It was a struggle to keep the desire to chuckle under wraps as he picked up and drank slowly from his beer instead. Bill tried to refrain from making a face himself as he set the beer down again. Somehow his daughter remembered his favorite brand after all these years, but the taste was something completely wrong from how it tasted before. Just another shift to how things had changed beyond recognition, Bill guessed.

“Is that alright?” Grey’s voice cut across his thoughts, and looking across at the other man with his soda and the gesture towards his own beer, Bill found himself frowning slightly. “You made a face.”

“Tastes wrong,” He grumbled the words out quietly as he toyed with the neck again. Everything tasted that little bit wrong to him - except the few home cooked meals around that very kitchen table. Everything was a little bit too sweet, too artificial, too different to how things tasted before. Bill felt himself scowling further as the intrusive thought that everything was different to before he died. “Not her fault, but it’s not quite the same.”

There was a strange noise from the other man, and glancing up, Bill felt the frown deepening to himself as he noticed the shadow nodding understandingly. “Ah, yeah. I would imagine you are going through a bit of a culture shock.”

“That’s... an interestin’ choice of words.” “Heh, that too must be one, huh?” “Perhaps.”

“Well, if it’s any comfort - you will probably adjust alright,” Grey’s look wasn’t cold or unfriendly, but there was a strangeness to his tone that the hunter struggled to identify at that moment. “It took me a few months to get a handle on things, and you’ve got the bonus of having already lived in the world before.”

His brow rose quickly as the realisation what the tone was - empathy and self-deprication - as well as the fact that the monster disguised in human clothing across from him was seemingly reminding him of that fact. Bill felt his grip tighten on the neck of his beer as he shifted his weight carefully, not enough to alert the other but enough to be ready to spring into action and defense if needed. “You mean the bonus of my bein’ human, don’t play coy.”

The other’s look swiftly shifted through a myriad of emotions and flushed pink by the end as he seemed to shrink back in his seat for a moment before the unsurprisingly squaring of his shoulders. Grey’s voice was quiet as he responded, and Bill had to refrain from smirking at the wary look in those blue eyes. “I don’t play coy or pretend I’m not what I am.”

“No?” “No, I don’t.” “Sure doesn’t seem like you don’t.” “Well, I can assure you - even if it may seem like I don’t acknowledge it, I always know what I am.”

“Does my daughter?” The words growled out, deep and low, as he pinned back those earnest and wide eyes with the cold steel of his own. “Because she’s definitely-”

“Your daughter is the closest thing this world has ever seen to perfection, Mr Harvelle,” The other man’s tone was just as low, and was somehow dripping with both acidic venom at Bill’s question and affection as he spoke about the woman upstairs helping their son through his bedtime routine. “She is kind and compassionate and sees the best in everyone and everything. That doesn’t mean she isn’t aware of what is true.”

Bill found himself staring down the other, gazes locked and battling in a way that the other man had yet to interject himself against him before now. He’d almost thought the monster was a push over, or rather, worse, that he was a snake in the grass hiding fangs behind a smile and deference. Staring him down, Bill thought that second assessment may be right after all, even if he seemed unwilling to strike. The words were sweet to hear, but there was also a danger in them, and refusing to back down from the battle engaging, he waited the other man out until the shadow finally dropped his gaze with a sigh.

“Look, I’m aware that you are not likely happy with how things appear to be, but-”

“Hey, hunny,” The cheerful voice came down the hallway, clear and loud, interrupting and silencing the other man’s words like a clap of lightening. “Billy wanted you to come up and promise he would still have his pancakes in the mornin’.”

The look of affection that crossed the shadow’s face was unsettling familiar as Bill could hear the echo of Ellen calling him back to tuck in his daughter even for a second before he left, before the other man pushed himself to his feet. Grey looked back at him from his intended path for a moment, before pausing. “Did you need anything before I go up?”

“I’m fine.” “Well, feel free to help yourself to anything you might need-” “I’m fine.”

“Right...” The blink was strange, and Bill almost felt compelled to ask why the other man looked at him so strangely right then, before a call down of the other’s name from the stairs caught his attention again and he headed out of the kitchen. Clearly the man knew better than to leave a tired, pregnant woman waiting.

Shifting in his seat and taking another sip of his beer, Bill found himself looking about the space in a way he’d not really had the chance to do so before now. It was peculiar to be in such a domestic space but know that it housed not only a monster but a hunter too. Potentially two hunters, if the somewhat hinted idea that had slipped out when his girl had mentioned how happy she was to spend time with him again.

The window above the sink had an old, faded lacey curtain that had bundles herbs that he recognised from hex bags drying tied to it. The counter tops were clearly well used and well loved, but the small amounts of clutter with a sunflower shaped ceramic vase filled with wooden utensils by the stove and a cookie jar in the other corner shaped like some kind of phone box was surrounded by a few sippy cups that Bill had seen his namesake walking about with regularly and another smaller cookie jar shaped like a dogs head that had the name ‘Nana’ written on the collar. The dishes from dinner - a risotto that Bill had enjoyed immensely even if he had chewed thoughtfully as he considered the man that had cooked it - were either soaking in the sink or drying in the drip tray with bright floral tea towels thrown over the top. The lower cabinets were covered in bright patterns of different vinyl wrapping, and the odd scratching of what looked like a crayon had once rubbed over there and the cleaning process had faded it out.

The fridge itself was a whole other matter - covered from top to bottom with different papers and magnets. There was a shopping list obviously, and another list that Bill found himself reading as he stood up to see the list of locations and hunts beside the shopping. Sipping his beer as he ran a finger over just how many were far away as well as the proportion that were barely an hours drive away seemed to divide the work for the couple. Another piece of paper Bill remembered from his own cheatsheet back in the day - a list of aliases and which government agency it connected to - that connected to the array of phones that were on the wall near the back door. The rest of the fridge was covered in coupons and take away menus, sketches that betrayed a talented hand and then large colorful drawings that were clearly made by the youngster of the house. It was the fridge of a family, and running his finger over the top of the hunting list - rugaru, Dallas Texas, Sierra Crawford, August 18th bday - Bill sculled the last of his beer as he let that thought ruminate.

Tossing the glass into the recycling bin out the back door before locking back up again, the hunter moved around to look closer at some of the drawings clearly colored in and decorated by the little boy of the house and likely drawn originally by the monster when there was a quiet cough that caught his attention.

“Uh, Billy wanted to know if you were going to come up and say goodnight.” The shadow was standing in the doorway, looking a tad uncertain. “I wasn’t-”

“Show the way,” Bill interrupted quickly, standing straight and moving around the kitchen towards the shorter man.

Following up the stairs past the worn wallpapered walls hidden behind framed artworks here and there, Bill was surprised by how cramped the space seemed to be upstairs though it shouldn’t have. Downstairs wasn’t big enough for a family of three, let alone one soon to be four, and upstairs was much the same. One doorway he could spot a bathroom in, and another must have been the master bedroom. Right by the stair landing next to the railing was a door painted bright blue with the name ‘Billy’ elegantly painted on it and through which the warm light of a bedside lamp’s glow coming out.

As he moved through the doorway, the hunter was hit with a sense of wonderment seeing the little blond boy tucked into his bed - his tiny head resting on the red and black webbed pillowcase, mouth slightly open as he seemed to breathe gently - fast asleep already. Next to him, slightly cramped but equally asleep, was the other blonde, book slumped against her stomach and her head resting beside her son’s, mouth open but brows furrowed and eyes scrunching as if plagued by some fear even in her dreams.

“Oh. I guess we’re a bit late.” Grey’s voice was quiet, and Bill gave a quick glance over his shoulder at the other man, frowning to himself at the look on his face. It was something Bill knew so well himself. “I should wake Jo-”

“Nah, let her sleep.” Shaking his head, the hunter padded quietly into the room. Kneeling down beside the bed, he gently brushed back the little boy’s hair. Billy’s eyes fluttered open for a second and he let out a confused noise as Bill held his finger to his lip quieting him. “Shh buddy, your momma’s asleep.”

“We din’t finish-” “Did she stop mid story?” “Ye-uh-up.” “Well, she’ll just have to start again tomorrow night, won’t she?” “Mommy always falls -uuh- sleep.”

Bill smiled softly at the way the boy fought through his own yawns, eyes getting heavy and his lids drooping as he struggled to stay awake. Stroking his hand through his hair still, the hunter nodded and tweaked at his grandson’s nose. “Well, you should get to sleep now and maybe I’ll read it for you tomorrow night instead, okay?”

“M’okay Grandda.” Billy’s voice was soft and trailed off as he seemed to snuggle in deeper into his pillow, curling into his mother’s warmth as Bill moved his hand back. It was so like putting his daughter to sleep with a promise of stories and her brown eyes like melted chocolate as she’d fall asleep mid word.

Moving his hand over to the other blonde’s hair, tucking a strand behind her ear gently, Bill didn’t fight the impulse to lean in to press a kiss to her forehead like he used to. Rising from his knee slowly, he clicked the bedside lamp off, and was not surprised to see tiny, glow-in-the-dark stars glowing from the ceiling in the darkened room so like the little girl’s room he’d spent hours decorating with constellations - one selection of stars spelling out the little boys name across a corner that Bill was sure the boy would only notice in a few more years.

Almost closing the door behind him, leaving it slightly ajar so the light from the stairs would be viewable from inside should either wake up, Bill found the shadow was standing a few feet back and giving him plenty of space. There was a silent exchange that he found himself surprised to partake in - an eyebrow raise, a hand jerk, a shoulder shrugged and a head nod - before the pair moved downstairs and after a seconds pause from the shadow leading the way, into the front lounge room and away from where any noise of their talking may disrupt the sleeping pair upstairs.

Bill followed the gestured hand to sink into one of the comfy, worn leather arm chairs before the other man appeared to frown to himself.

“Did you want another beer or a scotch, Mr Harvelle?” The shadow’s voice was friendly, and the cautiously optimistic look he was received as he settled into the comfortable embrace of the couch was amusing.

Bill nodded his head, before letting out a quiet chuckle as the slightly frustrated look that cross the dark-haired man’s face. “One’a both. I figure I promised Billy I’d be ‘ere for bedtime tomorrow, and Jo suggested I stay the night.”

“Right, of course, she’s very smart like that.” Grey bobbed his head a few times before turning around and heading to the kitchen. It was barely a minute before he returned with a bottle and glass in one hand and a glass in the other. “Hopefully the scotch hasn’t changed any.”

He found himself laughing at that, shaking his head slightly as he took the drinks off the other to take a swig from the beer. “They’ve been the same for hundreds of years. Some thirty isn’t goin’ to change those at least.”

“That’s true.” Grey replied with a warmth in his own tone, smiling as he sat on the couch nearby but not too close. Always keeping a polite distance away, Bill had noticed, and swirling his drink in a deceptive way to appear intentional and to be drank but without the likelihood he would drink any significantly until Bill himself had touched his own. A move the blond hunter was familiar with when interviewing victims friends and relatives, as well as watching his wife do the same behind the bar to create a sense of security and friendship. Biting down a smirk watching the liquid swirling, he was caught off guard by the other man’s question. “Have you been settling into, well, the twenty-first century well? Other than the beers, I mean.”

“That’sa hell of a loaded question,” Bill found himself sighing as he sank back, taking a longer drink from his beer for a moment as he considered his answer. Glancing towards the door to the hallway and certain he was unlikely to be overheard by anyone else, before he let out another, heavier sigh. “It’s strange, supernatural even, to be alive now and so much changed.”

“Oh?” The curious but gentle noise was non-disruptive, and catching the other man’s eye as he let out the noise, Bill found himself tipping his head back and finishing his beer in a few quick swallows under the watchful eyes of the other. “What-”

“My Jo - my darlin’ girl - was barely as high as my hip when I saw her last before. She was all knobby knees and loose teeth, and my girl was on the cusp of growin’ up but not there yet,” He felt the words bobbing across his mind and out of his lips as he thought them, the vision of his little girl running up to hug around his legs and begging him not to go this time with her ‘Uncle’ John but he didn’t listen, before he could even think about editing them. Glancing across at the other, Bill saw a fellow father and a dark shadow of understanding growing in the other’s eyes as he spoke, and felt the heavy weight of holding these thoughts inside over the last few months deep in his bones. “That was the daughter I’ve always known, and was lookin’ forward to watchin’ grow into the amazing, beautiful and incredible woman that she seems to be now.” Leaning forward over his knees, resting his head in his hands with a shaky breath, Bill shook his head sharply as he whispered, “I was supposed ta be hunched over and handing my bike keys to her, not sharin’ them with her.”

There was a silence in the room, letting the words settle like dust but it didn’t bother Bill at all that the other didn’t speak. It wasn’t as if he’d understand the gut wrenching loss that he’d felt upon seeing that bright smile all grown up without gaps in her teeth. It wasn’t like Grey would get that Bill lost one daughter and gained a different one in so many ways, and just how little time he’d had to adjust to and adapt to that feeling when he could still wrap his arms around the new version of her.

Bill found himself sighing wornly as he looked up after the long drawn out silence between them, hazel meeting blue, and the hunter felt the weight of opening up firmly on his shoulders then. Shrugging one sharply, a jerky motion, he tried to press himself out of that melancholic thought process with a shove. “I don’t mean-”

“I understand your feelings, Mr. Harvelle. I know you wouldn’t expect it, but I do.” The other’s voice was calm and controlled, his face betraying very little other than sympathy as he took a small sip of his drink.

“Yeah right.” “I do. I understand that loss too.” “Oh?”

“I’ve lost a daughter myself.” The words were like an electric cattle prod, sharp and shooting a pained jolt along his spine as the shadow spoke, and Bill found himself jerking in his seat rather than slumping further. Grey’s eyes caught his worriedly for a second before he continued when it was clear Bill was caught listening and not about to move further. “Before we had Billy, that is. I had a daughter, she was so beautiful and my world for that time I was with her-”

“Jo los-”

“No! No, no. She wasn’t Jo’s, we weren’t together then,” Grey jerked sharply himself, eyes wide and shocked at the connection Bill had made. Bill’s heart slowed from the jerky racing at imagining his poor daughter having had to live with that loss as well, and it wasn’t until both men had let out a relieved sigh that the other continued, eyes slightly wet and glossy as he talked. “She... My daughter didn’t get to that big - she barely had any time at all, and I had barely any with her - but I can understand so truly that loss you... you must be feeling.” The shadow’s voice quivered over a few words, and if Bill had been a different man he might have pulled back at seeing the fall of tears along the other’s cheeks. But the sorrowful look in the other’s eyes wasn’t anything to pull back from, and Bill found himself swallowing thickly on the lump building in his throat. “I won’t say... I would never say you were lucky to have as long as you did with her, with your daughter, but I will say I’d give anything to be able to have any version of my... my Gwen back the way you do your Jo.”

Bill found himself nodding - in thanks, in understanding, in appreciation - at the other man’s words and the deliberacy of them. He was right, in many ways, and the hunter found himself reaching for his scotch with a shaky breath as he glanced away to give the other a fragment of privacy to compose himself. It was a shock to hear this, and he knew he’d had a lot of questions about it one day but now wasn’t the time. Now was the time to toss back his head and swallow the three fingers of liquor with a burning ache that rushed down his throat as if burning away the words he’d managed to say so far - leaving the pathway free for something else to bubble up if it did.

Setting the glass down on the coffee table with a sigh, Bill was surprised to find himself to have his other hand reach over to rest on the other man’s shoulder for a second before he with drew it. The other might be something he hated, something he hunted and killed and struggled to see past, but the moment left not room for Bill to hold that against him.

“You are right, actually, I’ma lucky man to have her in some sort of way.” Bill nodded to himself a few times as he sat back in his chair with a worn sigh. “I just.. wish I still had Ellen to help me through it. I don’t know...” He found himself tripping over the words, not sure exactly what he meant. If he meant he missed his wife, or his rock, or the grounding force that Ellen’s forthright nature had always been - even if the ground was shaking when he left and the rock was starting to crack. “It wasn’t like we were in the greatest spot, but she was always there, and always knew better how to handle the unexpected. And now I’m what?” Bill stared at the empty glass on the coffee table before him pensively, brows furrowed and eyes unfocused in the wavy patterns of the glass’ surface as if he could will it full again without having to lose his train of thought. “I ain’t no widower, I’m not’a divorcee, I’m not even a fuckin’ single man really-” He felt the cold metal of his wedding band sharply around his finger, rubbing the scratched surface unconciously with his thumb as he frowned, “-I’m just fuckin’ alone now and I don’t even know where or when the fuck I am really.”

“It’s like there’s a gaping hole in your world where someone is supposed to be, right?” Grey’s eyes were fixed on his, no longer glossy and his cheeks were dry now, but there was still that warmth of understanding that made a chill run down his spine that perhaps this monster was reading his thoughts even though both he and Jo had promised the shadow didn’t do that without permission. There was a quiet, huff of a laugh before the other continued with a sad smile. “I was away from Jo for a... bit more than a year while I had Gwen. I didn’t want us to break up, but things outside either of our control had happened and I couldn’t endanger her being with her still, or coming back to her.”

“Why not?” “The situation with my daughter was unpredictable with the mother. And I couldn’t risk both Jo and Gwen like that. I had to pick one-” “You made the right choice.”

The other man jerked as if in pain at that, and Bill caught his scared and worried eye for a moment as he held him there in that look. Sure, whatever must have happened was bad, but Bill’s daughter was safe and happy and the monster seemed to be the same for the most part. And whatever had happened, Bill would find out eventually but, had left Jo safe and living in a way that the hunter could never think another solution would have been better.

“Sometimes I wonder.” There was a hollow sound to the words, empty and echoing like they had not been given a voice before, before the shadow shook his head free of whatever mists had been passing through with those painful feelings. Grey paused for a moment before sighing quietly. “But while I was away? It felt like there was a gap beside me where Jo should’ve been - walking on the sidewalk beside the stroller, holding the basket at the supermarket, sitting on the other side of the breakfast table laughing about something-” The shadow’s eyes darted across to his own for a moment as he paused again before adding quietly, “-in my arms or in the bed beside me - it felt like there was an empty space where she was supposed to be. And I guess you must be feeling the same.”

“Only so far as Ellen was always where I cam home to, and the last I saw the Roadhouse was an empty plot of earth where my parents bar had been.” “That makes sense-”

“Nothing of this makes any sense,” Bill cut over sharply with a tired smile. That was the most honest thing he’d said in his second life, and that it was so clear to know that logic and reason had gone out the window long before his own arrival was surrealist and absurdist in the most ridiculous way. Shaking his head, he looked at his glass again with a weary sigh. He shouldn’t have another but he was damn needing one right about now at the vague feeling that perhaps he’d be accepting the idea briefly suggested by his girl and her monster for him to stay a while.

As if reading his mind, the other gestured at the glass in a questioning way before the shadow asked gently. “Another one, Mr Harvelle?”

“Sure thing, and make it Bill for now.” The hunter replied lifting and holding the glass out towards the other as Grey rose to his feet to take it and his own empty glass for a refill. The look of surprise that glossed over the man’s face got even more so as Bill leaned back and kicked his feet up onto the edge of the coffee table with a sigh, adding quietly. “Might as well get comfortable if I’m stayin’ a while, right?”

There was another awkward pause, before a slightly warm chuckle came from the other alongside a nod as he turned back towards the kitchen with both glasses in hand. “Sure thing, Bill. Might just bring the bottle back?”

“You do that.”

---

#billpov #au stories #kidverse #ca

[vaguely-concerned]

Mass Effect: Annihilation thoughts

TL;DR I fucking LOVED IT, a balm to my heart after struggling through Nexus Uprising! Also canonical lesbians! The sweetest quarian & his badass grandma! Elcor Hamlet except this time it’ll make you cry!!! 

- Aaaaaah the audiobook reader is Tom Taylorson (so male Ryder)!! Fryda Wolf (female Ryder) read the two others and did a nice job, but man I’m soft for his voice in a way only rivaled by (...outside-of-Overwatch!)Jennifer Hale and Nicholas Boulton haha. He also has a much better handle on the pronunciations and voices for the different alien species -- delightful, I’m still cackling over his pitch perfect elcor impersonation. (Bioware please give him more Scott Ryder to voice I miss my son)

- I’m only about half an hour in and this is already SO much better than Nexus Uprising, it really does feel like a brave new galaxy haha. Very funny, very warm and smart and engaging in how it does its characterization and Valente clearly has affection for the setting and the universe, she and Jemisin both do incredible jobs with these. 

- I’m fucking crying laughing at this cross-species near-brawl over a flower arrangement, god I love Mass Effect SO MUCH (what a neat idea though. something blooming quietly even when no one can see it. impractical as hell and hilariously including a high-nutrition celery now, but still neat)

Taylorson continues to wonderful things with the voices, that volus suit sound is so good. (he’s just generally really good at comedy) also a volus bellowing insults ‘moments before punching an anti-bouquet batarian in the groin’ sdafhjklsahfsjadkhfklajshdfkjlsadhf

- a high as a kite elcor... what a time to be alive, to get to read this book

I have already reached the ‘I LOVE EVERYONE IN THIS BAR’ stage with these characters, hard boiled drell detective lady and sweet sweet quarian first officer and manically enthusiastic elcor doctor TOT I would die for any one of you!!!

- The quarian/multispecies ark was built for long-term habitation, potentially over multiple generations. So what you’re telling me is that the quarians are the only ones who fucking thought this through and the rest of the Initiative probably should have listened to the people who’ve essentially been living on arks for ages. Who’d’ve thunk huh lol. (I guess the in-universe explanation is that people like the mysterious benefactor just wanted those arks yeeted to Andromeda ASAP, no time to get fancy in case the Reapers changed up their schedule. Fair enough)

- ;n; petition to let senna have a SAM pls (also uh. how happy do you think the stringently anti-AI quarian pathfinder will be when he finds out about everyone else’s SAMs lol lol lol he’s going to PASS OUT FROM RAGE upon meeting ryder. well he sounds like an asshole, I hope he dies so senna gets a chance)  

- I can’t BELIEVE yorrik is an anti-stratfordianist, i am betRAYED! disgraceful, how can I still love you knowing this (and yet I do he is extremely funny and sweet)!!! (at least his theory is that this so-called ‘shakespeare’ was actually an elcor, which makes it better somehow lol. anything so long as he’s not an oxfordian tbh)

senna and yorrik’s friendship is so good and wholesome 

- I really love the consistent alien POVs in this book, mass effect should indulge in this more -- everyone loves this universe so much, bioware, stop making us squint through a human lense to look at it!!  

- oh of course quarian ‘pirates’ exist, the people who’re thrown out of the fleet must be doing something huh. 

- haven’t written that many notes in a while just because I’m enjoying myself so much, I keep forgetting 

- lfsdkhfsajkldhfskadjhfsjakdfhsdkjfh communist volus!!!! this is not a drill, communist volus! I am completely and utterly charmed by this entire book

- the quarian ancestor VI is so interesting and weirdly touching. senna is adorable (and relatably neurotic lol)

grandma AI smoking T___________T I love everything about this, she’s so cool. the worldbuilding being done around pre-geth revolution rannoch here... exquisite 

- way to make me cry about batarians cat valente ;_______;

- the voice acting is SO FUCKING GOOD! I keep forgetting it’s one dude reading all these characters haha, I caught myself wanting to look up who voiced this dying batarian. (special shoutout that he does so many wonderfully distinct and specific female voices!) 

- haHA I KNEW the quarian VI was a full AI (or near enough that it makes little difference tbh)!!! this fabulous grandma was self aware the entire time b i t c h e s !!!!

- the running joke of borbala’s ‘you need ______? I can make _______ happen’ is SO satisfying hahaha

ooooooh serious femslash vibes!!!! initially I thought batarian ex-crime matriarch was too old for drell PI, but this is undeniable. (I don’t think we actually ever get to know how old annex is, anyway, come to think of it) I guess if asari get to be five times older than everyone else and still fuck freely this isn’t really that weird lol

- “don’t look! it’s not so bad if you don’t look!” ofhsdalfhskldlsfjas oh senna baby boy 

hey qetsi? qetsi both senna and I love grandma liat more than you. stand the fuck down 

- NOOOO GRANDMA LIAT ;______________________________________;

- do you think SAM could meet liat (either ship!liat or just grandma!liat).... and have... a friend ;_________; (a cool laidback friend who isn’t a murderous angaran ai who might very well go the murder suicide sort of friendship route lol) 

anyway I miss SAM a lot and love him??

- yorrik noooooooooooo this is awful everything is bad and terrible I love all of them so much why must senna be sad and watch everything he loves fade away 😭😭😭

“Will all great Neptune’s ocean wash this blood/Clean from my hand?” He realized he’d forgotten to preface the words with an emotion. Now they wouldn’t understand what he meant.

Oh. Oh what a way to drive home the sadness and loneliness of this moment f u c k  (and again the emotion taylorson brings to it jesus cHRIST) 

I’m destroyed over how much senna and yorrik love each other, cross species found family out here wrecking my heart in true mass effect style 

- yorrik is such a great character though. he’d be so easy to make a one-note joke character (like most elcor have been in canon lbr), but there’s nuance and depth and just enough satsifyingly believable alienness there. (I love the staunch elcor ‘you can’t call anything love that hasn’t lasted at least two centuries’ perspective haha) his memories of his childhood and disappointment with his profession and everything... goodnight sweet prince indeed :(

- they went and made elcor hamlet heartbreaking how dare they 

(to be real for a second I think some of the human culture references are a little bit clunky, but the elcor hamlet stuff is perfect. contextualizing a throwaway joke from the original trilogy and giving it emotional depth, helping us see it from the elcor perspective and how frustrating and lonely it is to be so fundamentally not emotionally understood or seen on a level most of the other races are, despite their other differences, even though you have all these feelings and want to communicate... its very good.)   

fun additional fact: both mordin and yorrik have played/wanted to play polonius in a production of hamlet! though I guess mordin is the slightly problematic fave in that duo and yorrik is a sweet melancholic angel who has never done anything wrong in his life, I would say protect him but I guess it’s too late for that D:  

- qetsi giving off some real ophelia vibes here, I wish yorrik was here to see it, he’s the only one who’d properly appreciate it despite it all

- I. am. SO FUCKING HUNGRY for more mass effect after this (well even more so than usual) I’m so hyped!! I love this universe so much! I want a new andromeda game with senna as quarian pathfinder and grandma liat as the ship’s AI and see how they interact with ryder and SAM! (honestly though I feel like senna might be the one who’d translate the most cleanly into a game, I think there’s a lot of potential in him that’s barely being realized towards the end there with his deep righteous rage cutting through his uncertainty. also I just want nice things for him. is that so much to ask. he is a good boy, yorrik was so right.)

- aaaah not just femslash vibes, canonical lesbians, this is not a drill! I can’t wait until they propose... ‘we get shit done together, want to be in good cop/bad cop with me until the day we die y/n?’  

- the ME universe doesn’t feel quite itself without all these ‘background’ species hanging around, I suddenly realize. I dream of an Andromeda sequel with all of them on the board and in play again Y-------Y 

- potential Liat and SAM dynamics are so fucking interesting though! if she becomes/is confirmed as a full AI (all I hope and dream of), you’ll have two artificial intelligences with such different starting points but not that dissimilar goals? Liat was an organic person once who’s looking out for her family even now, and SAM is completely artificial but also intimately tied to and protecting His People. (and pulling a whole lot of symbolic weight re: the strength of familial/interpersonal relationships to boot; he’s the best way alec ryder managed to connect with his children. even though he was dead. because as established alec ryder was a disaster of a person)  

- I enjoyed the loose murder mystery structure of this quite a lot, but that might also be because nexus uprising is so shapeless and meandering by comparison that I’d be relieved by anything else (sorry I’ll stop ragging on NU soon it just. took some hours of my life I can’t get back)  

- jemisin did great stuff for characters already in andromeda (cora, SAM, alec ryder) and valente made me remember just why I love this universe so much and desperately want these aspects brought to andromeda too... and now I’ve exhausted all the fresh mass effect content I had available to me and will sit here consumed with lust for the rest of the time it takes for a new game to be announced thank you and goodbye  

#mass effect #mass effect andromeda #mass effect annihilation #*vibrates silently with cravings for more mass effect all while knowing it's gonna be a good goddamn while yet* #thank you cat valente this was a very nice gift

[a-woman-apart]

I am Bisexual

I am a black, bisexual ciswoman dating a white, straight cisman, and the fact that he is male and straight are not the reason I am dating him, nor are they a reason NOT to. Pretending though, that his labels don’t factor into who he is as a person would be completely idiotic. 

At the end of the day, though, we are dating because we share similar values, we are compatible in multiple ways, we respect each other, and we love each other and are committed to making this work. It is true, that as a straight man, he wouldn’t be open to dating me if I were a man, but it is also true that if I were a man, certain aspects of my personality would change, due to a complex combination of nature and nurture that scientists still haven’t figured out.  

Also, there are people from both our “communities” (said very loosely) that aren’t down with “The Swirl” which is only something you get to celebrate if you are extremely privileged and quite a bit into eugenics. We each have racist people in our families, and we both get dirty looks on the street when we’re together for different reasons, but hatred is always at the core of the discrimination. 

Loving vs. Virginia was passed in 1967, and it is important to note that The Lovings wanted to be left alone and to live in peace, even though their marriage wasn’t recognized by law and it was a crime, even for white women, to give birth to interracial children. The Lovings only took their case to court when they faced racialized harassment. 

To me, it is absolutely terrible that in roughly 10 years, we went to celebrating “love is love” to now criticizing people for who they choose to date or how they identify. I can’t tell you how many times on this site I’ve seen bisexual women pressured to identify as pansexual to be “less discriminatory” or told in disgusting tones, “Why date men if you can choose to date women?” as if bisexual and/or lesbian were just things you can turn on and off like a light switch. 

I don’t think it’s a coincidence that the rise of radical feminism and AFAB-nonbinary/transmasculine culture has coincided with poorer mental health for women in our community and also with a HUGE uptick in misandry and biphobia. Even gay men aren’t above being “canceled” for so-called “transphobic” caricatures of women, even though men have been playing women in the theatre for centuries, and now, women can play men, too. #Progressive  

Honestly, one thing I will say that guys do better than us women (in general, there are always exceptions) is comedy. Yes, men, as a a general rule, are funnier than us. Men are more likely to make fun of themselves, us, and other people, with no mercy, and I honestly think the women/AMAB non-binary in our community-- either the black or the LGBTQ+ one, take your pick-- need to learn to take a fucking joke. It’s not that fucking serious, but the one thing that ISN’T funny is the hideous biphobia, racism, and backbiting I’ve witnessed online and offline this year. 

What makes it even more disgusting, is that while I am including AMABs in my roast, I have actually seen MULTIPLE stories of AMABs being excluded from AFAB offline gatherings (DOCUMENTED ON THIS HERE VERY SITE) in the name of “safety” because they are seen than nothing more than a man in a dress. 

So, here’s where I lose some subscribers...if a so-called “man in a dress” is unwelcome in your circles, do you REALLY think you have room to fucking talk when a huge portion of you you skirt the line between male and female because you can’t accept your own femininity? So really, are you really “non-binary” or are you just a scared little girls who can’t grow up?

Of course, that isn’t ALL of you, but when the country (as pointed out by J.K Rowling) sees a 4400% in female to male transition (a lot of it with very young girls becoming AFAB/non-binary, many of whom are taking testosterone) while male to female transition rates remain UNCHANGED, suddenly this isn’t a “trans” or a “non-binary” problem, this is a FEMALE problem. Trans people, prior to this huge upswing, made up less than 1% of the population, and that included MtF and FtM transition rates. These rates had remained steady FOR YEARS, so from a purely mathematical perspective this uptick is a huge statistic anomaly. 

For years people on the Right have decried the so-called “feminization of boys”, when in reality the “masculinization of girls” is statistically a far more pressing societal issue. 

I didn’t want to get this harsh, but this is concerning as a medical health issue, especially because research from the Scientific American reports that lots of young women who report having gender dysphoria end up not being dysphoric about their gender at all, but uncertain about their sexuality [click link]. If I had a quarter for every time a girl who never felt comfortable with her femininity or identified as asexual or aromantic turned out to “just be gay/bisexual” then I would be pretty fucking rich. 

I felt the same way. I felt like I was “Not Like Other Girls” and even though I never felt like a man, I often didn’t quite feel like a woman. It turns out that bisexuality, especially in women, corresponds with certain personality traits (aggression, assertiveness, high sex drive) that have been “coded male.” Gender bias in medicine is still responsible for why we don’t have more studies on lesbian and bisexual women, or on women IN GENERAL. As someone who is concerned about women’s rights and the safety of young girls and women, I think it is a HUGE DEAL that modern medicine still sometimes operates on the false assertion that women are just men without dicks and added baby-hosting parts. The effects of testosterone have been heavily studied, but there is SO much we don’t know about estrogen, including why different amounts of it don’t factor into PMDD, PMS, and other reproductive issues, as much as certain women’s brains and bodies responding to it DIFFERENTLY for reasons not fully understood. 

To make matters worse, while disparities in treatment based on race are less marked in other areas of medicine, black women still die in childbirth-- especially in the Southern U.S.-- at much higher rates than other demographics. Bisexual and lesbian women are also more likely than straight women to fear childbirth, which can be a huge source of anxiety for us. Even if we choose to undergo it, our anxiety is often downplayed by health care workers. This fear of childbirth can be seen even in bisexual and lesbian women who love children and strongly desire to be mothers. This, as well as the cost of surrogacy/IVF treatments, has been a reason that same-sex female couples often opt for adoption. 

Bisexual women, in particular, are also more likely to suffer mental health conditions and be the victims of male-perpetrated domestic violence than straight women and lesbians are. “Straight-passing” doesn’t really seem to provide a shield from that, I hate to tell you. 

The very concept of calling someone out for “passing” in an attempt to insult them actually reeks of jealousy and amazing privilege. In the case of bisexual people, it assumes that hiding an entire facet of our identity doesn’t matter and doesn’t take an emotional and psychological toll, because we can “choose” an opposite sex partner. This ignores the fact that falling in love isn’t based on choice, and that the moment we pursue a same-sex partner, we still have to “come out” if we want to maintain a healthy, open relationship with them. 

In the case of trans individuals, it assumes that “passing” erasing the fact that you have biological differences (such as typically being unable to parent children) from cis people that might make you undesirable to certain partners. Also, if you are also “stealth” you risk the chance of experiencing discrimination and/or violence if your identity is “discovered.” 

As far as being “white/European passing” this also does not erase the genetic and geographical ties you have to your ethnicity and/or country of origin. It doesn’t change the fact that if people start making racist comments about any of your racial demographics, it still hurts, even if you try to hide it. 

#i am bisexual #bisexuality is not a choice #love is love #women's rights #end biphobia #tired of apologizing #hate is hate #no more racism #loving vs virgina #exile #cancel me please #gender dysphoria #AFAB #AMAB #no I'm not pan

[mrsrcbinscn]

Franny Sor Framagucci Robinson Character Sheet 

Dear Mom and Dad, I'll send money, I'm so rich that it ain't funny It oughtta be more than enough to get you through - (x)

Archetype — The Creator 

Birthday — January 17, 1980

Zodiac Sign — Capricorn

MBTI — ENFJ-A (The Protagonist — 93% Extroverted, 56% Intuitive, 60% Feeling, 60% Judging, 83% Assertive)

Enneagram — Type 3w2 — The Charmer

Temperament — Sanguine 

Hogwarts House — Slytherin Primary, Hufflepuff Primary model, Gryffindor Secondary

Moral Alignment —  Lawful Good

Primary Vice — Pride

Primary Virtue — Charity or Diligence 

Element — Air

Song —  A Better Son/Daughter by Rilo Kiley

Overview:

Government name  —  Darareaksmey Francine Sor Framagucci Robinson Name  —  Franny Robinson/Franny Sor Robinson Mother — Sophea “Sophie” Sor

Father — Adrien Framagucci (stepfather, legally adopted her), Peter Boyd (biological father)

Mother’s Occupation — Restaurant owner 

Father’s Occupation — Construction worker

Family Finances — grew up in poverty, insanely wealthy now

Birth Order — Youngest

Brothers — stepbrothers Gaston and Art Framagucci (mother legally adopted them, if you say ‘step’ Franny will kill you), claims no others but has biological half brothers from Peter Boyd; John-Curtis “JC”  Boyd, Timothy “Timmy” Boyd

Sisters — claims none, but has biological half sisters by Peter Boyd; Sarah Boyd, Stacy Boyd, Shyann Boyd 

Other Close Family — spreadsheet

Best Friend — Daniel Maitland, Molly Vaughn (deceased)

Other Friends — Lora Lopez, Serghei Anton, Delia Weiss, Vanessa Pham, others

Enemies — most men on principle 

Home Life During Childhood — It was a good childhood. Working the restaurant was normal to Franny so she didn’t realize it was abnormal at first. Her parents tried not to let the kids realize how poor they actually were. 

Town or City Name(s) — Payne Lake, Georgia

Any Sports or Clubs — In high school she was in drama, show choir, orchestra, National Honor Society, and on the quiz bowl team

Favorite Toy or Game — Franny honestly loved hide and seek well into her teenage years because she was small enough to fit it the weirdest places to hide, and in the 80s and 90s in a small town in Georgia there wasn’t much to do so her friend group played Extreme Hide and Seek. Everyone wears all black like some kind of cult. Turn off all the lights in the house. Go crazy. 

Schooling — K-12 in Payne Lake, Georgia ; B.A.s. in Musical Theatre Performance and Jazz Studies at NYU; M.A. in Jazz Studies at Pride U

Favorite Subject — Anything that wasn’t math or chemistry 

Popular or Loner — Popular, has always been magnetic 

Important Experiences or Events — Her first time on stage, getting enough scholarship money to justify going to NYU, quickly growing to love the nerd she hit up to buy her waffles and never letting him go, the accident that changed her life, marrying Cornelius Robinson, finding the magic singing frogs, adopting Wilbur, discovering the severity of her fertility issues in 2008, 

Nationality — American-Cambodian (born American, given Cambodian citizenship in 2019)

Culture — Franny identifies most strongly with Cambodian, followed by broadly Southeast Asian sometimes with Buddhist attached, and that’s tied with ‘Rural Southern (USA)’ sometimes with POC attached. Franny feels pretty detached from “American Culture” in general. She more closely would identify with Southern USA culture in general than with general American with no modifiers. She also feels a little detached from Asian American culture in general because even though she grew up right outside of Atlanta and is familiar with Atlanta, she didn’t grow up in one of the big hubs of Asian American culture like LA, San Francisco, or NYC. White American and Black American culture surrounded her, and the Asian cultures surrounding her were immigrant or first-gen cultures that hadn’t really developed an American flavor yet. Franny understood more about Vietnamese and Thai culture than she did about general Asian American culture for a long time, because immigrants straight from Southeast Asia were the only Asians she grew up around. And she grew up in the 80s and 90s where Asian representation was yellowface and Long Duk Dong. She didn’t meet any Asian Americans who didn’t speak or at least understand their heritage language until college. And the experience of POC as a whole in the South is very different to the experience of a white person, so sometimes Franny feel disconnected from her white southern neighbors and more closely relates to black or non-white Latinx southerners in ways she doesn’t relate to white southerners, or Asian Americans from LA or NYC. 

Religion and beliefs — Buddhist

Languages spoken— Khmer, English, Vietnamese, French, Italian, (less fluently) Portuguese, Spanish, (can understand some) Thai, Lao, (impressive tourist) German, Dutch

Physical Appearance

Face Claim —  Elodie Yung

Complexion — Tanned skin, pale brown 

Hair Colour — Black

Eye Colour — Brown

Height — 5’5

Tattoos — Yes, a few. Wilbur’s adoption date over her heart, most notably

Piercings — Lobe, upper lobe, tragus, helix, and cartilage on both ears, and an anti-tragus on her left ear. And a nose piercing she got in college

Common Hairstyle — typically keeps her hair long and done nicely but she cuts it and donates it from time to time so will also rock short hair

Clothing Style — vintage-inspired but not proper vintage

Mannerisms — Biting the pads of her thumbs, gesturing wildly, narrating her actions sometimes in song, if she’s looking for scissors she walks through the house making a scissors motion with her fingers

Usual Expression — she’s got resting bitch face 

Health

Overall (do they get sick easily)? — No, her immune system is the real MVP and when she does get sick she’s like ‘I’m dYING’

Physical Ailments —  Infertility 

Neurological Conditions — Depression, Cyclothymia (rapid cycles of depressive and hypomanic episodes)

Allergies —  none 

Grooming Habits — Typically rinses her body daily, uses soap on the armpits daily, but proper washes her body every other day. Washes her hair every two or three days as needed, but if she was extra sweaty that day it gets washed. Waxes leg hair and eyebrows. 

Sleeping Habits — she generally gets a decent amount of sleep but it isn’t usually all at once. She’s a champion power-napper, and if she has three days cleared she’ll often sleep mainly all at once except have like a 2-3 hour period of wakefulness and productivity and then go back to sleep for two more hours, then take an hour nap later in the day.  

Eating Habits —  She’s a grazer. She doesn’t usually sit down and eat three times a day she’ll sneak like five small meals a day

Exercise Habits —   works out at least three days a week somewhat because she’s really sensitive to when people comment on her body so she’s afraid to give people a reason to say a negative comment. Like. She’s body positive, big supporter of you don’t gotta be skinny to be beautiful or healthy. But when people say things like “oh Franny you got a little jiggle in those thighs” it’s never said like a good or neutral thing. She had a lot of body image issues throughout high school and college, and came dangerously close to developing an eating disorder freshman year at NYU but kind of logicked herself from the ledge  

Emotional Stability — generally emotionally stable, like for someone with her mental illnesses she does great 

Body Temperature — runs hot 

Sociability — A social butterfly

Addictions — None; did abuse adderall in college but when she quit cold turkey she didn’t like. Suffer cravings. She wasn’t addicted, but she did abuse it to the point she realized “oh I need to...stop”

Drug Use — occasional use of drugs to make her trip, like acid, shrooms, but this is very rare, she doesn’t do it at home, usually if she’s on the road with other musicians or has gone to LA or NYC or London for a few days to have a songwriting session, the group will sometimes partake. Even then not every time. Used to experiment with drugs more in college, but still it was never...a TON. 

Alcohol Use — More than occasional less than frequent

Your Character’s Character: 

Bad Habits — swearing, next to no filter, temper when it comes to perceived injustices, tends to overload herself 

Good Habits — Keeps a detailed planner, is a maniac about drinking lots of water, is vocal about her needs and boundaries 

Best Characteristic — her warmth! She really is friendly and easy to get along with and wants to be nice. But she will not be walked over and will not allow her kind, marshmallow husband to be walked over so she will flip a switch to protect herself or her boys. 

Worst Characteristic — unforgiving

Worst Memory — it’s a tie between her experience with sexual assault, and the time her biological father’s wife found out Franny was his biological child, and came into her mother’s restaurant when she was visiting with her pretty new HUSBAND, and Nancy Boyd proceeded to beat up Franny and her mother

Best Memory — Adopting Wilbur! It WAS marrying Cornelius but sorry Neil it’s her baby boy now

Proud of — Her husband, she is so proud to be Cornelius Robinson’s wife. She proud to be her mother’s daughter. And she’s proud of her accomplishments in music and philanthropy 

Embarrassed by — Nothing, she’s great

Driving Style — Oh, aggressive. She’s an offensive driver. Cusses. 

Strong Points —  she doesn’t quit, she’s the walk through hell and keep going type of person

Temperament — generally she’s pretty even-tempered. It’s easy to set her off in an instant though if you’re being racist, sexist - any type of shitty person tbh, or being shitty toward her husband or son, but for the most part she’s pretty chill. She deff has crazy bitch energy just under the surface though and you can tell

Attitude — Franny’s not particularly bitchy, but you know, she can be

Weakness — can’t do basic math, very overly self-critical, perfectionist

Fears — Something happening to Wilbur tbh. That’s her greatest fear, losing her son. 

Phobias — Franny does not throw up. She refuses. She will literally feel nauseous and horrible all day to avoid puking. It makes her so anxious, she will nOT. 

Secrets — None really? Like she doesn’t blab her life story to everyone but Cornelius knows everything about her. She has no secrets from her husband. 

Regrets — Not adopting more children when she and Cornelius got married knowing they both wanted a big family; ever meeting up with her biological father 

Feels Vulnerable When — She cries in front of people. Franny hates doing it. She’d rather die tbh

Pet Peeves — when people are rude to wait staff 

Conflicts — She sometimes feels a surge of resentment for her husband during her depressive episodes because she kind of feels like she’s pulled most of the weight in their marriage from Day 1 as far as running the home, and feels like although he purported to also want a big family he never even offered to take HIS turn pulling back from work so they could adopt a second child when it became clear it wasn’t gonna happen for them biologically, but then Franny hates herself for that because Cornelius is the kindest, most loving, most wonderful husband and father and she feels so privileged to call herself his wife and...yeah they just need to have a long talk about it tbh

Motivation — to be the best at everything she does; to force space for herself where she and people like her have previously been excluded, to be so great that you can’t ignore her

Short Term Goals and Hopes — have a baby, but she’s 40 now and knows its not gonna happen 

Long Term Goals and Hopes —she’s...kinda done everything she ever set out to do other than have lots of children

Sexuality — Bisexual, leans toward women, but had more experience with men because compulsory heterosexuality in the US in the 90s and early 2000s, and genuinely fell in love with a man are has been with just him for twenty years now

Exercise Routine  — Doesn’t spend much time on cardio because she gets enough cardio walking around town and Pride U. Mainly works on her core, legs, and strength training so if a man tries to grab her she can kick his ass

Day or Night Person — Would be nocturnal if she could be

Introvert or Extrovert — Extrovert

Optimist or Pessimist — She’s naturally pretty cynical but she’s worked for like twenty-five years to have a more optimistic outlook on things. It’s 50/50 now I’d say 

Likes and Styles:

Music — there isn’t really a genre she doesn’t like - like her initial fame was in jazz, but she has an equal affection for jazz and bluegrass/classic country/folk music. She also is in an indie band, Seoul Hanoi’d. And like rap music - usually old school Atlanta rap, but she likes Kendrick Lamar and some other current rappers.

Books — She likes to read or listen to audiobooks about pretty much any subject except music and musicians.

Foods — Cambodian food!!

Drinks — She likes sweet tea, aaaand her alcohol of choice is Anything

Animals — Possums :3 She wants a pet possum so bad, she follows pet possums on instagram and cries at their cute posts

Sports — She played tennis in high school, that’s the extent of her sports knowledge

Social Issues — all of them. Climate change, racial justice, intersectional feminism, VACCINATE ALL THE CHILDREN UNLESS THEY MEDICALLY CANNOT BE, de-mining, Green New Deal, punch Nazis, hey maybe don’t put children in cages, Myanmar can you please not do that genocide you’re doing that would be swell, poor people deserve access to healthcare and education, housing-first approach to homelessness, the good stuff 

Favorite Saying — “Hoes mad”, usually said dismissively when she receives a death threat after a political tweet, or after a racist one for just being an Asian woman in the public eye

Clothing — Franny prefers skirts, dresses, and jumpsuits/rompers to shirt + trousers

Jewelry — She never takes off her wedding ring. She’s married af

TV Shows — Schitt’s Creek, Kim’s Convenience, a lot of Canadian TV she really thinks is funny

Movies — She’s a big nerd that loves a good documentary or otherwise educational movie

Greatest Want — More children, including one biological child because her mother always talked about pregnancy and childbirth like it was the most humbling and empowering experience she’d ever had, and Franny wants that. But she’s 40 and knows she won’t have that. 

Greatest Need — a baby lmao

Where and How Does Your Character Live Now:

Home — In a big-ass house in the wealthiest part of town, maybe even the biggest house 

Household furnishings — Not overdecorated. A lot of people live there, but Franny’s very much the lady of the house, and even more so than her husband is the head of the household. She’s not a dictator, like her mother-in-law and other relatives have added their touches to the home decor, but it is very much Franny’s Home with notes of the others. She’s very particular about her kitchen, but is very flexible with the rest of the common spaces. 

Most Cherished Possession — Family photographs of her mother and her family before the Khmer Rouge. Franny bears a striking resemblance to her Aunt Kesor, who was the older sister her mother had idolized, but who died during the Khmer Rouge years. Franny only knows of the resemblance from photographs.

Neighborhood — The rich people part of town 

Town or City Name — Swynlake, England

Details of Town or City — lol

Married Before — Cornelius is her first and only husband and unless he cheats on her she’s never ever leaving that man

Significant Other Before — nobody important 

Children — Wilbur Robinson, wants/wanted more

Relationship with Family — Close! Both to her in-laws, biological maternal family, and stepfamily

Car — 2020 Nissan Qashqai

Career — Singer, song-writer, musician, composer, musical actress, actress, university music professor

Dream Career — Musical actress

Dream Life — Married to Cornelius, with lots of kids, living her best life

Love Life — Happily married to the love of her life, her sunshine, the jelly to her fish, Cornelius Robinson

Talents or Skills — music, cooking, acting

Intelligence Level — High? Like she can’t do basic math but everything else. She’s a musical genius, is good with languages, and is pretty perceptive

Finances — Loaded

Your Character’s Life Before Your Story:

Past Careers — restaurant worker, event staff

Past Lovers — nobody worth mentioning 

Biggest Mistakes — “I don’t make mistakes”

Biggest Achievements — Grammys, induction into the Songwriters Hall of Fame, being the first Cambodian person to win a Grammy, International Bluegrass Music Association awards, ASCAP awards, and being awarded the national medal of the arts by Barack Obama in 2015 

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Space explorers Vasco and Kajika~

Send me a ship and I will grade it: ||Still accepting||((//sweats sorry for being late with this one @heromanvasco @wild-untamed-heart))

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C: Not a bad ship

Alright, so I will preface thiswith, it’s been a while since I got into Lookism. After webtoons took it overand they changed the names (probably for legal reasons), I just--- could not doit. It did anger me for one thing, but it’s also just--- we know me… with names…memorizing them.

I would have to go back fromthe beginning and reintroduce myself to all of the characters and memorize theirnew names. I’m pretty sure they changed all the names, even the minorcharacters, so it’s just like—oh no. The nickname ‘Vasco’ remained the same ifI recall, however.

Anyways, the reason why I’mprefacing with this is—I’m working with dated information here. I’m sure sincethe last time I read there has been a lot of character development. I’m goingoff what I currently know of him. I’ll get back to Lookism… eventually;;;;

ALRIGHT, ONWARDS!

I honestly think that they wouldn’t be too bad together?Certainly, they are good friends and we’ve already established this in thread form.Vasco is pretty fair towards other people—once he gets into the correctmindset. Admittedly, he does have a bit of a negative bias towards attractivepeople. He got… bullied a lot in his younger years.

‘Bullied’ is putting it lightly, considering he has scars fromit. Not only emotional ones, but actual physical scars. That’s why he’s sotatted up, to hide the scars that were given to him. Even scars… is putting it lightlyin my opinion, since it’s not as simple as scars. It’s like… graffiti, but onthe body. The tattoos hide them, so he can be less ashamed of it.

From this, he formed a phobia of needles. The tattooing wasto help him get over it. I’m sure there’s still a bit of nervousness thatremains from needles as it highly relates to the bullying. This is something thathad such a deep impact on his life. He has a negative bias towards attractivepeople (the one who bullied him), he absolutely DETESTS bullies, and he vowedto become stronger as to not get bullied again.

He has a lot of pride in himself for how far he’s come. He’salways loved Superheroes from a very young age. It isn’t like he came to likethem after the bullying thing. Nah. He’s always loved them and he’s alwayslooked up to them. To him, heroes are such a big part of his life. Inparticular, ‘Heroman,’ whose real name is Vasco.

Taking this identity onto himself, he’s mostly called ‘Vasco’rather than ‘Euntae’ which is his real name. I’m sure the Webtoon gave him adifferent true name, but I don’t know it.

He may have a bit of a poker face, but he’s actually areally big SOFT BEAN. He’s truly a GOOD BOI tm. I absolutely adore him and Icry for him. I feel like once I re-read the series, I’ll skip the entirety ofhis past arc bc I cannot watch as my baby gets BULLIED.

Anyways, Vasco does have a prejudice against good lookingpeople, but he’s not blindly prejudiced. If he sees that they aren’t like oneof those good-looking people, he’s quite willing to befriend them. Thisis the case with the main character Hyunsuk (I think it’s Daniel in webtoon?).He thought that Hyunsuk was bullying students, and Vasco challenged him. Turnsout, he’s not a bully, and he was trying to help people.

From what I know (unless things have changed), they becamereally good friends. I think it’s somewhat of a conditioned response for him tobe initially distrustful of good-looking people due to what he went through. However,his attitude towards justice and his general ‘good boy’ nature prevents himfrom blindly hating people based on their looks. If they are good people, hewill like them.

He loves to drink strawberry milk and he’s just—so---precious. He will give milk boxes to people that he likes/approves of. Hyunsukbeing one of such people. It’s like a part of him being shy and what not.

Going back to that—HE IS VERY SHY BOI. He’s very awkward andhe’s not very confident, though he may appear that way at first. He’s confidentin his strength, that’s for sure. He’s full of confidence in himself, but onceit comes down to--- his… uh… intelligence… or social-awareness… he’s um…lacking… a bit to put it gently;;;; I will say that he’s aware of it himself. I’mnot just saying it. When asked: if you could have a wish granted, what would itbe? Paraphrasing, his answer was: “I want people to stop calling me stupid.”Which basically is a ‘I want to be smart’.

Basically, he can be a big idiot sometimes and it’s—a lil endearingto be honest. He’s also just not sure of what to do around other people. Whathe may think is fun or cool, others may not feel the same way. He’s easilyamused and very emotional. Being given a rock can have him almost shed tears. (hewas told that it was a lucky rock passed down through generations.)

He’s very dense and very gullible, essentially. He also isn’tvery aware of his own strength, so he could totally launch someone out thedoor, across the room by playing pillow fight. That’s why he’s not allowed toplay along. 8( His best friend usually tells him to join in though, much toeveryone’s horror. Not to go too far into the backstory relating to the bestfriend… this guy really serves as Vasco’s emotional support and ‘is thissocially okay? Can I do the thing? Can I join the pillow fight? If I do this,would it be cool? Is it lame if I do this?’- support.

He often asks his friend for a lot of advice on many thingsas he doesn’t know what is ‘right’ or ‘cool’. His friend is so lenient on himthough and lets him get away with a lot of stuff. Like, it makes you happy? Gofor it! I’ll support you bud! I’ll have fun with you! You want to dress up inthose blow up costumes that make you look like you’re riding on a dinosaur? Youwant our entire department to dress up as that for the school competition---?Uh… okay, I’ll get them to agree.

Get you a friend like him.

Anyways, this illustrates the fact that Vasco is very--- insecure.ESPECIALLY around girls. Most girls run in fear around him. A common thing isfor him to shed a tear once anyone runs away from him. He may look scary but heis GOOD BOI. So, he’s so tender hearted and it breaks my heart to see peoplerun from him, or assume he’s bad.

Kajika, being more open minded and accepting, would be agood influence on him. He can befriend her and learn that not all girls willrun in fear of him. OTL She has a cool and outgoing personality, so I’m sure he’dlook to her as a ‘cool person’. Don’t be surprised if he randomly comes to asklike ‘hey, is this app cool? Are a lot of people playing it?’

That being said, he’s really not too big on social media andwhat not. He just wants to have fun and have a taste of what other people aredoing to have fun. He’s not exactly a person who chases after trends orwhatever. It’s a very common thing in Korean culture to chase after trends andwhat not, but he’s not quite like that.

So, I think that Kajika would be a great influence on him.Have him learn how to be more secure in himself, and to have more confidence inhis likes. Teach him to not be so tense around girls. He doesn’t walk like arobot in front of Kajika, so that’s an improvement.

The Vday and Wday events that goes on helps reinforce the ideathat they are friends and that she’s not afraid of him. I’m honestly not reallysure what impact Vasco could have on Kajika, really. He’s relatively calm in general,but when he’s around friends, he just turns into an excitable puppy. I feellike, there isn’t really much she could gain from him, which contrasts him.

He can learn how to be more confident; he can learn how tofeel more secure about himself, and he can learn how to be more comfortablearound girls.

It’s not like you NEED to be able to gain something in yourSO, but I do think it helps in most cases. I guess if anything, they are comfortablewith each other. I personally feel their dynamic works best as friends, but Idon’t think them as a couple would be a bad idea by any means.

Vasco is a VERY LOYAL person, and I’m sure that Kajika isthe same. Both are very dedicated to their friends, and I’m pretty sure theyboth have a strong sense of justice? They share a lot of common traits, and Ithink that’s something that’s crucial for a relationship they’d share.

They don’t contrast to the point that they would touch uponeach other’s landmines, I think. I guess it would be one of those ships whereit’s bestfriends àlovers.

Did anything change at all? No. I thought something wassupposed to change? What are you going to change then? No idea. Tell me whenyou think of something.

That’s pretty much them, I think.

Though, Vasco does get a lil hung up on how things shouldbe, so I can see him trying to study up on how to be a boyfriend. Reading up onhow to be romantic or whatever. I’m sure if they did start dating, there wouldbe an odd transition period for him bc he’s trying to figure out what to do andwhat works best. Lol

If Kajika prefers him being the same ol’ Vasco, she just needsto say so, and he’d do it.

They’d be the type that wouldn’t change much in arelationship, I think. Kajika, from what I vaguely recall, is a free spirit. Idon’t think she’s very tied down to many material aspects like riches, societyranks, etc. She really loves the beauty of nature and exploring.

I honestly don’t remember that she was really very swayed bymany romantic situations. Based off the vibe I get, I think she’d be moreimpressed by sentimental things, or nature than she would anything showy. That reallywould play well into Vasco, since he doesn’t really do well with ‘showy’things. He’s more of a sentimental bean than anything, so I think he’d havethat covered.

They’d have a comfortable relationship for the most part, Ithink. Of course, I don’t know what current Vasco is like so who knows if I’mreally right anymore, lol. Still, this is based off what I last remember ofwhere I left off. So that’s my verdict based off what I remember.

I also gave the rating I did since I don’t think it’s fairfor me to give anything too high or low when I’m not caught up with the ‘Lookism’series. Kek.

Hope you enjoyed!

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New/revised/whatever- List of stuff

Egos (Marks/Jacks) that I have written for or at least actually have thought about HCS/other universes for:  (Just some brief rambles about them, please don't hesitate to ask about them :3)

  -Anti,   Two takes really, I like him soft, like him mean, hes just fun to write, plenty of different ways to spin why he acts out, what he is and all that. My current fav way to portray him is a missing piece of Seans soul, which means hes unstable as a ‘person’ (cough, not really a human but not, not human either.)  And how he has static filled blue eyes but usually hides them with the scary emerald green...

-Jameson,  I will always stand by this kinda universe i created with a friend aages ao that Shawn took away Jamesons voice when being puppeteered by an awful ink creature that shares his body.  Giving Jameson a lovely fear of knives, some scars, and some very damaged vocals..

-Crank, Oh my fucking boi, a near dead human spliced with a bunch of robot parts..human skin tangled with wires and a heart incased in metal..hes a right mess, a voice in his head that makes him feel all sorts of bad.. He tries his best..he cries oil,  I hardly get to write  him but I love him.

-Blank, another big fav oi, black hollow eyes..a tendency to faint... My Hc involves him having been in an accident that almost killed him, leaving him with a very rare heart condition. He also has an aura which..kinda ties into him having a few abilities and stuff. 

-Nes.. He started off as my own kinda Ethan ego, basically Ethan who was mistreated and really lost his marbles..hes great for the real twisted messed up kinda stuff, so dependant on others, a minor murderer, and has been eyed off by a certain ice cream driver for quite some time...

-Were eth,  Okay granted this was literally just kinda an idea that..Eth became a were wolf boi, fangs, tail, ears. Hes just a fun lil pupper

-Eden. Succubus Ethan basically, but well, he again kinda turned into his own thing separate from Ethan. He's got a tail and wings, and hes a lovely lithe thing. He doesnt dare do things without consent, just gets a bit touchy-feely when hes gone without any energy for too long. Very wide stunning saphire eyes. 

- Jackie  Oh my lad..Buff, trans, adorable, sweet. I always love tinkering around with how/what powers he has tbh..and like- I’ve always had the hc that his eyes are lilac?? or gold. Depending on things.. and he works either at a comic book store, a gym, or at the counter of a gas station. Gives the best hugs. Also I love AUS where hes a phoniex because of uhm?? Big fucking red wings??? YES.

-Hen, Getting his accent right is tough but other than that I love writing about the tired doctor living off coffee and ignoring himself in favor of others. 

-Chase The fucking best dad, sunshine lad. Running a vlogging channel and doing his best while combatting depression..I hc him to have chronic fatigue so he has to push himself extra hard. but He does well in trying to get better and look after himself and only slips up like any other helpless human. Very fun to write. 

- Robbie.   Sof.t zombie lad. Drown in a sweater. Stutters and is v quiet. Slow with speech. Struggles to see sometimes. Loves soft textures.Loves attention. Overall soft fucking lad.

-KOTS, To mean known as Simon. Actually v smart, big brain, very scattered n shy and nervous and squirrelish. Loves books n plants, loves nature. Red is his best colour. Warm sweaters and nuzzling and cuddling up. I always get torn between him being a hybrid of human/squirrel or just a lovely soft guy. 

-Yan ! My fem nb/trans gal! They’ll kick ass with their katana, have the hots for Bim, and looove Japanese culture and stuff. Very adorable. Loves pink. 10/10 love to write. 

-Technically I do have a muse for Mark, or..idea? I’m thinking about shoving it into my own oc/thing..but basically he got tortured n abused by Authy so hes not quite like the real life markimoo..just a nervous mess whose dealing with his traumas..

-Bing, Skater lad, yellow/orange eyes, sunflower vibes. Tries his best, clumsy as fuck, great for a laugh when hes not cowering under google. 

-Edward iplier,  Gah my doctor lad.. I have a hc that he Lost arm. In fire..or by dark n wilf.  He has heterochromia too!! One cho ceye one blue one. He is a fucking nerd (Minor adhd lets be honest) He fucking loves space and science and space/science related lights. He has a bat plus with spacey wings. He likes reading, likes being clean and is quite a quiet indulger in food which has left him with a big of a softer figure. Super gentle nature..nothing like the arrogant portrayal we got in some videos. 

-Angus   I love this man!!! Part Aussie, part irish, a whole lot of gruff old dad with a soft spot for nice people and animals, has his own big place, next to a large ass forest. Loads of scars. Loves boots and cameo coloured clothing. A lovely guy when you get past the rough edges. 

Aand onto all my ocs as of writing this (cause you name well know I be writing new ones like..all the time.) 

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OC’S (My original characters!)

-Jessy, Cowboy-   Choker with gold bell. Lil ears/horns. Spots. Shy but sweet. Hands and feet different colour to rest of skin. Kinda  fur ish feeling rather then just straight-up skin.  Pear shaped figure. Shy lad. Likes to take lots of naps, anxious easily but a big people pleaser too. 

-Ailan and Keros. Moth n butterfly boi.  (Literally just made up with a friend, just a random soft pair of lads tbh nothing too fleshed or spesh)

- Louie - Followed by a dark being/creature/spirit... Yet to determine what else about him, but hes got brown hair, pointed ears and looks lovely in green.

-Quinton  A Hybrid of Demon and Angel otherwise called a Guardian. Quirky, Pan as shit, great dress sense. Extremely calm. Can see auras. Lovely black feathered wings. Bright blue hair.  Kind smile. Works at a little coffee shop in his spare time.

-Ori  Very pure angel boy, previously owned and not very well treated by a god, came crashing down to earth with no memories but his wings intact. Some help him. 

-Lumi  Ghost boy! Died years ago under awful circumstances..now lingers around on earth, sometimes meeting humans who happen to be able to feel or see his presence, he has the ability to make himself solid for short periods of time. 

- Lucio Witchy..dragon soul something or other- Deaf.Paralyzed? In the arms??They might use alot of energy trying to hover around instead of having to use a chair..(I mean how many witches do you see with chairs??).. Although they could not have use of their arms instead, like..paralyzed from the shoulder down- they still have them but theyre effectively useless and easily sore.. (which might make magic really hard, cause theyd have to master it again without their hand gestures.)

- Eztli, Bit of a prick. Basically got cursed to have really weird blood that replished and rejuvinated too fast/too much by a witch he angered. So he turned the curse into a good thing and basically goes out offering himself as a human blood bag for vamps willing to pay in info, items, cash or uh..other services..  

- Gallio Photographer, has hypocalcemia. Haven't really done much else with him tbh.

-Aomi Warlock/witch in training. Downright awful at it. Young and lives in a nice lil cottage outside of the village he was abandoned in.

- Lucas A moonstone gem perma-fusion, he kinda has SPD/DID but he doesn't, cause..hes two gems that became one but not fully. Leaving him to be a bit of a mess and not as strong as other moonstones. 

- Kiyan. A little assistant android!! Created to assist, he can make portals!, He works at a post office. Hes under surveillance by the company that made him and isnt yet aware of many human customs/emotions.. 

- Alex  A very confused, overly optimist Alien who doesn’t know what they are. Come from the planet Eutychia, 4'3. They fucking glow. You know  Kilowatt from space chimps? think that. But hair n freckles and more human and just as  bubbly and energetic. 

-Locus  Mer/Fish boi!  Transparent fins, glowy patches, plays harp + loves music.

-Lir  A Tiny Octopus/Human hybrid lad. Makes little burble and trill noises. Quite harmless. Needs a home. 

Benji (Strawberry shortcake boi- Cursed tape /bandages. Demi half god.? One eye. Uses notes. To communicate but also sign. Really. Good sweets maker)

 Small bois (A collection of tinys because G/T is fucking great okay?)

- Tobias. Literally Made of hair gel. cleary, adorable, aaand Eats soap..amoung other non food items he probably should not ingest but does..

- Hinto  Guy made of foam slime. Very chill n laid back.

- Glowstick bubs. (Alo/aloke -  Green and blue  +  Siro - Yellow n pink.  + Mavi (Vi) Red and silver. + Roxy (Ro) - Orange and  purple )  They’re a cross between glowsticks and lava lamps and its epic- asides the fact they have like.half a brain cell each. Lots of sleeping n lazign around.

- Theo  A tiny ink creature.  A clever little lad, who likes to drawn and write n paint in ink and leave cheeky little black splotches everywhere. A very good writer companion tho. 

- JellyBubs! A collection of tiny sentient jelly babies, hungry lads will raid your cupboards. 

-Miel A tiny little bee boy! Loves flowers <3 

Apocolyse Squad:

The planet Keres,  Left uninhabitable after the invasion that ruined the air and killed almost the entire race.

Sameal o’Ceirin (Being of smoke- partly blind.)

Mallory Thomas (Part cat. Vet, partner to Sam who ends up dying in the canon of their story)

Hamrish Benat  (Hayden. 4 eyes, soft tongue. PTSD. extra tiny heart in wrist. Quite fem/soft. Likes soap cutting vids and stuffed toys/teddies.)

Joshua who cares (An asshole. Staight up. He dies. Fuck him. He sucks ass.)

Andy peters (Strong, kind. Kinda like Tyler shied. Big, tol, but actually pretty soft.)

Adrian  Géarán  (Tail, fire abilities, likes to make little robots. Very weak n has a couple of disabilities that leave him tired n such, which aint great for his esteem or his team when the apoc hits.)

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Wyatt ???? ?????????????????

Pace- Nerdy. Finds a cat. Observer for the aliens. Is immune to black goop. 

Four - buff. Scary. Deadly. 

Apocolypse Squad Part 2  Small lads who dont derese to be in danger: 

  -Apep, Naga boi  Legs mutate into a cool tail. Hisses, fangs. Adorable loves the sun. bout 20 years old. 

Chris. Camp leader! Biig dad type, redhead, buff, likes gardening and camping, very outdoorsy. Little awkward but great.

Small child Talise- nickname tails? ..   Blind and slightly traumatized by the car crash that killed his mother and ended up with glass in his eyes, very sensitive to noise n textures.     Ends up mutating tails.  6 v young n smol  blocks n colourin

Shirin Parvis. Crystal boi .. trained solider/ royalty.  Tried to warn people before the apoc hit and failed. Now tries to protect the small group of surviors he stumpbles across. 

 Zephaniah, mutation turns him into a  Chameleon basically, just.. a human one. He  Prefers Zeph. Big gamey Nerd-  gets a pet gecko.  16. Quiet. Loves Lazar skirmish and lazers. 

Moyachi, Cactus boi!! Plant bab. Loves water and has clear/lime green tinted aloe/herbal helpful blood. Spikes up at defense from bad people 18/ 19   likes drawing. Pretty grumpy and needs a break.

Colin, nicknames: Coco,  Lady bug lad, who is baby trans  mutation resulted in a weird Red/Orange skin condition basically.  Can predict weather v accurately.       Ballet/dance, 14   Likes cooking. 

Hotaru , Firefly bby  - Glowy bub with antenna,  possibly mutates wings.. Sassy and tired. Turns nocturnal as the apoc progressed. Also becomes Colins first love <3

Zeno  A Siren of sorts.  DC/ hip hopper/   Lost his arm in apoc.  He loooves music alot. Very purple aesthetic and checkerboards.

Liren Pichi, deaf peaches n cream aesthetic boi- Nickname Pichi.  He is alone during the apoc, sneaks aboard and ship and goes missing..

Neighbours AU:

They all live on the homeworld, Ermioni.

Lesbabs:

Blake Aglaia  A human with a gift of being able to put emotions into glass balls.. Red head, quite fem, but gay, sweet, but not mousy. 

Lynx ?? An alien and human, the alien somewhat resides inside its host but they coexist. Sometimes goes feral.  Alien half likes to go by Perse  (Percy)  They have cool looking saliva- viens that run down their arms that are pretty cool- sharper nails/claws. Tendrils. Large ol mouth. Lots of pointy ass teef. Lynx likes to train,go to gym, and kick ass. Big ass butch energy.

Demon fam:

Hyacinth  A six-armed demon with serious parent energy. Big gardener, his body grows flowers depending on his moods/strength of emotions. Purple neck length hair. Great at comfort and cooking. 

Rhys  A Demon with a great curiosity about humans has a sibling, Feri.  Rhys is a big nerd, but very hard to get to know. Not great with emotions, comes across a tad distant and cold without always meaning too. Loves candles and lots of autumn aesthetic. 

Anthos, AKa Ant. Rhys and Hy’s accidentally created/summoned a toddler.. and hes fucking adorable. 

Vato - V   Hy has another bub later on who's more purpley blue with red curled horns and 4 arms.. No tail.. 4 eyes. V cute and inquisitive. Less noisy and wreckless than Ant. 

Roommates:

Douglas Connelly  A regular chubby human bean! Learning to become a chef. He loves food, loves cooking and also loves dancing. Hes a big guy, big cudddler, but a little shy and akward at times. 

Donovan Amores  Real fricking cool and smokin hot Bartender with a love for dogs. Dougs roommate. Has glowing fuckin orbs- donates his heart to a fucking god is smooth as fuck, background heavily Spanish, moved when young.

Haris Alaksim Real name (lost in translation, Huitzilopochtli God of sun and war) ) - A god whom Dono is very close with and donates his heart two one every 3 years during the day of the highest sun. He is a god / Mouros.    Donovan refers to him as “Dios gentil”  or “ Viejo colibrí sabio”   (“El viejo colibrí sabio es un dios gentil” (The old wise hummingbird is a gentle god.)

Donovans Family

Rem (Looks after magical creatures- Cane is from Haris)

Oscar  (Not sure what trinket or power but He’s just a casual store worker w/ good arms. Surprisingly good with knives- perhaps has one from Haris?)

Nicole  (His only sister Makes clothes..possibly got some ability to do with seasons..?  Perhaps earrings or a bracelet from Haris)

Javi  (Makes jam, cute boy, wears cloaks. Maybe has a cute little jar necklace or magic jar??)

Luca (Trans bookkeeper- Talks to Haris most often and likes to ask questions..Has precious books...Possibly a special pen..) 

Forest bois!!

Cypress The soul of the forest - Mentor of Rem. Very calm, very wise. Kinda like master oogway type. 

Unicorn boi, Hes rare, missing a chunk of his horn. Dont hurt him. He doesnt even have a name.

Fyn. Mushroom boy. Protects a gate. Lost his twin during a human-caused fire. Very mad about it. 

Fie. Bat boy. Loves fruit. 

Moh. Fairy/incubus hybrid.  

Tucker. Bunny boi, Best friends with Ainsley. Got some like, punk vibes about him, piercings n such. Not as soft as one would expect but still nice at heart.

Ainsley. Fawn boi, clums, shy, round glasses,  Looks smart but doesn't always know stuff. Very unsure of self. 

Experiment AU: 

Izekiel Iris A being of Paint. Hes made of paint. He has trauma from being experimented on. Slightly depressed. Loves art, loved creating. also regresses to try to deal with said PTSD.  Hard to get to know at first. 

Matty  (Matthew Libelle)   An experiment, part human, part lizard, part dragon. Much smol.  Hes fucking baby and i adore him alot please do ask anything and everything about him. 

Cult bois:

-Nero Aakil   (Means Genius/Orange blossom)   Orange bub  - Leader. Smart. Telepathic link with all cult members.  V corrupted…  (Parents were rich and ignorant)

-Mao Cerise   Pink - Ditzy, Looks after their ‘little bird’ (aka Jey) 

-Jey Michael Cherubim   Fallen angel -  Corrupted..desaturating and weak.. Was summoned by the cult and captured as a trophy. 

-Jaden Hirav  Looks after a garden of plants both harmless and some not for master. Previously Neros old pet..His  The family was alright but he was moreso raised by like his mum and bro. He was kidnapped from his garden and never seen again. The cult ritual to initiate him into the group failed and he was spliced with plants making him near useless to the cult.

-Rowan maverick - Now known as  Rogue- Red. Lost their tongue. Does Not follow orders to the T but gets their job done.   Has another voice/god/soul looking out for them… Very assassin ready, very perceptive. Wants to get out the cult but knows theyre too far in.. Cool glowy words in the air because they don't have their tongue. Possibly only lives of medication and vitamin pills..possible OD? Possible addiction. They struggle alot with it. 

P - Pax -  God who watches over Rowan. Was killed by the Master but their spirt lives on.

Cato.   Purple - Another smart one.. Possible Wiccan?  Sadist. Mean. Tall.  Scary. Abuse. Twisted. Loves being in the cult. Eventually wants to host Masters soul.. 

Gin Short for Ginger but the real name is Xanthe.  Blind. Also another assassin like Rogue but more obedient.  Doesn't talk often out of fear. 

Benjamin Brandy  (Benji. B) is Gins friend, Gin is trying not to get him involved in the cult but was too late as B had previously already been cursed and dealt with mythical beings..

 Silver bub. Demir. A demon summoned by the cult to complete the collection. Wants out, very stressed.  

Adopted AU: (This is like a mess of some of the boys but younger and in a different timeline to their universes smushed together intoa kinda cute school/adoption au idea.)

Matthew is smol autistic, malnourished and heavily abused both mentally and physically, leading to selective mutism and being a small fragile easily tired bab.  He loves hanging in the library once he gets used to going to some schooling. Gets tutored by Chris? Goes to camp and helps around n has fun..

Jaden, loves the school garden, and likes science class. His family is alright, However he ends up mostly raised by his sister? Or brother? 

Iz is the lil art bab, also in foster care of a big family, not so much abused but semi neglected. Quiet.

Nero is the gifted nerdy child..Parents ignorant. They love history and fictional books and reading and learning.

Benji is the slightly older kid whos possibly maybe a little behind or delayed or..something, they help out with other kids as a buddy? They like to do cooking classes.

DA AU

So this Au was like..the Septic tank births all the egos.

Angus first- He has..some kinda strength I imagine/..

Then Anti, Hen, Jackie. Marv. 

Chase -  He kills himself because of Glitch- also falls in the tank a second time and ends up with odd powers. 

Glitch Starts off as very bad and misunderstood. Turns out they were just highly unstable and required medical treatment.  Their real name is Arius and they cant stomach solid foods all the time. Mostly a liquid diet. They have glitchy fits/static seizures. Very unpleasant. Can enter tech, and its not so great, can get trapped. Can absorb certain amounts of electricity because of this they Got hit by  ightning once and has epic lighting scars!! Up arms..some on neck. All over his chest and back. 

Septic clone AU

Sean giving up bits of soul to make clones ends up in coma

Experiments and torture and odd shit with the egos ensues??

Minecraft AU??  

Yeah i had weird ideas for a cute minecraft gang of minecrafters who had accidents involving getting merged/recded with other creatures traits ect. 

Vail.  -Vex / Human

Snow golom hybrid? Or Blaze?

Slimey boi

Kitsune

Panda lad.

Pokebabs au

Mainly for Matty, Iz and Blank.. were they have pokemon forms and when bonded with a human long enough can evolved into human forms?? 

Horned AU  (With Troiseh/Glitch-in-the-static)

Shiro  -Prince lad  (This is their lad :3)

Junji - Battery..whump/slave/lost prince 

Isao Asuka -  Shiros Royal Guard 

Alien AU

Hami if he were..alien instead of being a human in an apoc basically. 

Angel AU stuff: 

Good omens inspired boi

Leo Halvar   Part..humany..demon..Cambion are according to google "In late European mythology and literature, a cambion is the offspring of an incubus, succubus, or another demon with a human, or of an incubus and succubus"

Ryan  Hot archangel guy: One wing, demon hunter thing.. Good kinda reforming from a less nice lifestyle previously. 

Mute angel possibly demon idk- -   Latif? Emmet? Evan? 

Long fringe shy boy-  Cael / Lox

#list #ocs #egos #ideas #hcs #blu rambles #blus list #its fuckigng 2 am #im sorry if this makes no sense #but here are a fuck ton of lads #and a fuck ton of aus and ideas #if anyone ever wants to ask XP

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001 for dasher!! :)

oh boy....... hoooooo boyyyyyyyyy

Dylan & Asher

When I started shipping it if I did: so if i were a viewer, i think i would like ship them from basically the moment it was made pretty clear on the show that they were romantically linked rather than just Good Pals Being Pals (i.e. “LOVE OF MY LIFE” in 103). but for a majority of s1 i think it would be a passive shipping sort of thing, like i’d love their moments and enjoy watching them, but things wouldn’t really Click into place until s2 when we really start to actually dig into them and their dynamic / their individual struggles (i.e., their promotion to regulars in s2). around 203 + 204 i’d be so locked in though, that’s probably when i’d start making fandom content or digging around for fics, and then by 207 / 208... whew y’all. whew!

My thoughts: okay so like not to be dramatic but like. im really kind of obsessed with them doe GJDSGFDKJHLFKDH. like i’m really chill about it on here for the most part, but i have not shut up about them in my gcs since quite literally like. august. there’s kind of like this whole timeline for them that doesn’t exist on the Show because its just not relevant to the story, but there’s a lot of their development as individuals and a relationship going on in the background of s2 that really informs how i write them and is really quite elaborate FDSJGLKDSG. i have an entire drive folder that’s dedicated to screenshots of the conversations we’ve had in the discord that chronicles some of this stuff. like what we fondly refer to as “4 days” which is this period between 203 and 204 in which asher became so overwhelmed with everything going on with lucas that he just dropped everything and isolated for a few days -- including closing the window on dylan; and that really has a major impact on their relationship and sort of leads to this Relationship Upgrade in the sense that they go from having the fun and easy going relationship they have in s1 to really like... committing to one another and stepping into this deeper Partnership. i can’t do it justice just talking abt it but like. again to keep it concise, i’m obsessed

What makes me happy about them: literally... so much. i will say that i think what’s really important to me about them -- as well as on the show and what they represent -- is that they really do demonstrate this like... Healthy relationship. and they don’t realize it, but they are one of the only examples of a healthy, committed, equal partnership that many of their friends have in their lives (lucas and isa, specifically). so they’re leaving this impact on people just by leading by example and just living with their hearts on their sleeves and being so unapologetically loving, and that is just... a message i want to spread far and wide. dylan and asher definitely both have their quirks and flaws, but they’re two characters who are so fundamentally driven by compassion and love in their own ways -- and then its really beautiful to watch them share that energy with one another at the most devoted level

What makes me sad about them: i mean like.......... honestly? not much. how wild is that. a pairing that doesn’t make me wanna kermit bc there’s so much angst riddled throughout.......... unreal..........

Things done in fanfic that annoys me: i firmly believe that da would be such an interesting fandom to analyze. this is because they would definitely have a strong fanbase of their own (especially post S2), but also i bet they would be victims of the “supporting pairing” in a lot of fics -- i.e., they get tagged as a pairing on ao3 but then only are featured in like 3 scenes out of a 220448328 word fic. you know, that tragedy. also annoying would be 1) dumbing down dylan or focusing only on his naivety / simplistic nature and stripping him of his incredible emotional literacy and lowkey wisdom 2) babying either of them and again stripping them of their nuances and complexities 3) exaggerating some of asher’s shrill qualities to the point that he’s just unbearable 4) ANY sort of obvious attempts to Gender their relationship -- i think zc would be able to avoid this for the most part, but i get the feeling it would be a common annoying thing in da portrayals 5) taking asher’s external hesitation towards pda / being too overtly emotional in public and reading that as either him being unaffectionate towards dylan in general or casting him as some sort of prude when in actuality i think asher is more instrumental in their Physical Relationship than one would think on the outset 6) fics where da is tagged but then its like. one of them leaving the other for lucas fDJSGDKGLFD LIKE BYEEEEEEEE

Things I look for in fanfic: on the flip side of my earlier answer, i really do believe that there would be a beautiful and dynamic da writer cohort. i think there would be some REALLY cool and lovely works out there for these two, because i know how much they’ve inspired creativity and excitement for me. i would love fics that are just about filling in missing moments to their relationship that we don’t get to see on the show just due to focus and time; i would be keen for any sort of au with them; i’d want to see portrayals of them that really highlight the balance they bring out in one another and how well they complement one another -- the ways that dylan makes up for asher’s emotional literacy and even a focus on how asher can sometimes struggle to grapple with his emotions despite being so put together in public would be A1; anything that highlights the utmost respect and adoration they have towards one another; always stan representing how touchy-feely dylan is with small affectionate touches; gold star fics would highlight their other relationships as well, both as a duo (the techie crew, dylucasher) and individually (jade x asher, dylan x isa, dylan x dave x nate, their dynamics with riley). i just..... i’m really aching for this fandom rn i tell ya!!!

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: i.......... there’s honestly not an answer. they’re asher and dylan. dylan and asher. they’re literally multiverse endorsed soulmates. there’s a mental block for alternatives sorry!

My happily ever after for them: i don’t have to worry about them so i know i’m gonna get it fDSJKGLFDG but just them continuing to have their deeply committed and supportive and emotionally healthy relationship and be there for one another as they continue to grow as people! can’t wait for them to live together college and beyond and just... thrive. i love them dearly

Who is the big spoon/little spoon: oh this has been well established. asher is the big spoon. there of course are OCCASIONAL days where it shifts (more likely during naps, for example), but when it’s time for bed they will fall asleep with asher hugging dylan and resting his head against his back. that’s The Move. it’s set in stone!

What is their favorite non-sexual activity: they spend so much time together i genuinely could say that just existing together is their activity fDJSKLGJFDKLHDh. but um they like to go on adventures with lucas; dylan will bake and asher will “help” i.e. just keep him company and steal dough; they like watching tv together (wide range from like true crime documentaries to Good TV to the classics like Spongebob to hgtv and chill fdkjhgkjdhg like. Cultured palette here folks); just spending time together but doing their own thing i.e. asher might be reading while dylan is playing nintendo switch but they’re like reclining against one another; they often take drives together and get out of the city just to listen to music and like escape the pressure of that environment; they go on trips with their families and their families even take trips together sometimes once they realize that dasher are basically tied for life (shoutout to the upcoming new years ski trip of 2019... Romance)... i could go on. there’s always much to say. i love them that’s it that’s it that’s it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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#she's Obsessed... bet y'all didn't see that one coming did ya #the aaagc knows all too well but i maintain a calm stance fairly well on here #now y'all know ! #dylan x asher #winter hiatus 2019 #Anonymous #answered