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wsl-chelsea · 2 years

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Easy to love communism when you live in a country where you have your freedom. Yes everyone helping each other out, sharing everything and no one paying for anything seems like a great idea, but it doesn’t work in practice. People are too selfish, and some are too lazy and happy to live off others. And someone who works hard to support their family don’t like it when the state says ”this is mine now” and takes their hard fought for possessions away.

Do you think the soviet union seemed like a good place to live? Did they treat their citizens well? What if you disagreed with the leadership or wanted to leave the country? How were those people treated? Same thing with east Germany. Or China.

Something that might interest you. Read about how the Scandinavian countries built their welfare states starting around 1940-50. They managed to have socialism without having communism, I don’t know anywhere else where that succeeded. A very high level of social welfare and safety net, free schooling and higher education, elderly pension, free healthcare, parental leave, sick leave, paid vacation, subsidised child care etc etc. All financed by high taxes, but not a system where the state can come and take your house or you’re forbidden to leave the country or criticize the leadership.

here we go:

selfishness and laziness are byproducts of capitalism though. laziness is really a symptom of overwork- a resistance to the 40 hour work week that has people verging on the edge of burnout. the way that jobs could be distributed in a communist society first off would be much more efficient and reduce the amount of work one might have to do in a week, since almost everyone who could work would be employed/be able to go to university to get a job they like. so instead of a 40 hour work week, it might be closer to 18, giving much more free time for downtime and hobbies. (also not working would get boring at some stage if you ask me)

with selfishness, i think removing profit and removing money, all extrinsic motivators (as well as the need for money to survive) ultimately brings out a sense of selflessness in people, a reliance on intrinsic motivators instead, such as 'i do things like work because they are good for society' instead of 'i work because i get paid, and i like having money/i need money to survive'. believing that humans are selfish by nature sucks, man! no actually, i choose to believe that humans are selfless by nature and will do good things given the opportunity, it's just that - capitalism! capitalism is the reason we think humans are selfish, because it makes people selfish and money hungry!

and no. the soviet union sucked, you will never catch me defending the ussr or china or the drpk, and thats because they weren't/aren't communist (did you read my initial post explaining this lol). big state do bad. imperialism bad. fuck big state abolish state. simple

also scandinavia isnt socialist lol. they're still deeply flawed capitalist countries, but don't get me wrong i wont say what they're doing is bad because it's not lmao. social welfare will always be a good thing, but i think scandinavians are a bit tired of being used as perfect 'socialist' nations when they aren't. they still are imperialist and still fuck over the global south. also you keep saying things about 'the state' but again, communism is stateless. your understanding of communism appears to be solely based on historical 'examples' and not actual theoretical communism.

#i apologise for the onslaught of communist discussions on here i am well aware this is a woso blog still HASDNJKSA

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aftgficrec · 3 years

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hello!! i would like to offer you all a cup of tea for your service <3. can you recommend any fics like “can you help the hopeless, i’m crying on my knees)” by cake_lovin_ace on ao3? some good ol angst with comfort, i mean. for andreil and nerik both please?? thank you and i hope you have a nice day!!

*sips the tea* We’ve had a recent ask for this and have many previous recs where you’ll find what you are looking for, and I’ve sussed out a few more. - A

previous angst/comfort for andreil...

underrated heavy angst here

heavy angst with a happy ending 2 here

canon divergent angst post TKM here

neil runs after joining the foxes 2 here

neil with anxiety here

neil hit & run/car crash here

new neil with ptsd here

hurt neil/protective andrew here

andrew visits neil at psu here

minor hurt/comfort with soft andrew here

andrew bad day comforted by neil/foxes here

hurt andrew/worried neil here

andrew + therapy here

andreil comfort hugging here

andrew/neil selective mutism here

bad day/panic attack here

sick fics here

amnesia fics here

jack & sheena being assholes here

and nerik

bad days-andreil & nerik here

nicky & depression here

nicky after thanksgiving here

nicky in germany 2 here

‘this love has taken it's toll on me,’ ‘AFTG/TFC minifics…’ and ‘Nicky is the parental guardian to children!’ here

‘AFTG/TFC minifics…’ ch 84 here

‘Afterthoughts’ ch 90 here

andreil

can you help the hopeless? / i'm begging on my knees by cake_lovin_ace [Rated T, 8684 Words, Complete, 2021]

andrew would never call himself insecure, but it was insecurity indeed that plagued him, insecurity that wrapped cold hands around his mind on the nights he could not breathe and warped his thoughts until all he could hear was undeserving, undeserving, undeserving.

andrew has a bad day. neil helps.

tw: panic attacks, tw: implied/referenced self harm, implied/referenced rape/noncon, tw: implied/referenced child abuse, tw: ptsd

Affection can be shown in so many ways by Theoddgalaxy [Rated T, 5978 Words, Complete, 2021]

Andrew is learning, learning to support, to be supported and it’s terrifying. He’s slowly each day relaxing into normalcy, that is until the nightmares start up again, and Luther contacts Nicky.

Andrew has a nightmare Neil comforts. Nicky gets a call from Luther, and it reminds them all they’ve got a home with the foxes. Andrew also drags Neil to therapy.

tw: nightmares, tw: homophobic slur

Lay Your Head Down by Fortheloveofexy [Rated G, 1025 Words, Complete, 2021]

They don't cuddle, or at least they haven't yet. Neil is open to it, but he's not sure how Andrew feels about it. He doesn't want to push that boundary, if there is one, so he hasn't asked for it.

Until today.

NB: accompanying art by @fortheloveofexy, Andreil cuddles and forehead kisses

tw: anxiety

It's a Home by milliewrites [Not Rated (we say T), 5435 Words, Complete, 2020]

" “I just can’t understand how anyone could be quiet about loving someone so strongly when I have to restrain myself from shouting it from the rooftops on a regular basis.”

Erik blushes slightly and reaches for Nicky’s hand. “I don’t get it either, but I really think you’re overthinking this. You can see it, Nicky, if you really pay attention.”

“You’re saying I shouldn’t worry because if I just tilte my head and squint I’ll be able to see to love ricocheting off eachother?” He meant it to be harsh, but Erik just laughs. "

A relationship study into Neil and Andrew from Nicky's POV. But with plot.

Rabbit by @nightlyvoidforecast [Tumblr, 2020]

“I’m not going to run,” Neil frowned, tilting sideways into Andrew’s space. His legs hung out over the ledge while he leaned on his free hand. The other was in his pocket, clenching tightly to his keys.

nerik

still fixing all the cracks by neilwrites [Rated G, 2000 Words, Complete, 2021]

It's May, in Europe. There is absolutely no way Nicky escapes the madness that is Eurovision, not while living in the Klose household. He makes some discoveries along the way.

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(I promise you don't actually need to know anything about eurovision to understand this fic. spoiler alert it was never about the eurovision)

tw: internalized homophobia

Call to Action by EmmmaMmmm [Rated T, 1266 Words, Complete, 2021]

Nicky sees Erik. He sees beautiful brown eyes and blonde hair. He sees the muscles that could hold up the world.

He sees how Erik doesn’t hide the way his eyes follow boys in the street

Nicky sees all of this, and he sees something that he yearns for so deeply it hurts.

tw: internalized homophobia, tw: religious trauma, tw: referenced suicide attempt, tw: referenced conversion therapy, tw: implied/referenced drug addiction, tw: implied/referenced child abuse

a working thing by Skvaader [Rated G (we say T), 3505 Words, Complete, 2020]

Then there is Katja and Hedy and an emergency “I promise Erik, it’s only for a couple of hours they just need me to help with the store because nobody understands how the system works,” and Nicky peers at Erik and his sister from the kitchen door. Hedy’s chubby hands curls around the thick wool of his sweater.

Nicky and Erik takes care of a his niece.

tw: homophobia, tw: negative self talk

Hidden in the dark by williamherondale [Rated T, 2932 Words, Incomplete, Updated Dec 2020]

Nicky had two secrets that he had never told anyone, apart from Erik.

1. He has ADHD

2. He has a restraining order against someone...and it is about to expire.

tw: anxiety, tw: referenced suicide attempt, tw: ptsd

The World on Mute by IvyCoveredWalls (orphan_account) [Rated T, 266 Words, Complete, 2019]

Andrew is trying to help Nicky. Nicky isn't doing great.

AFTG/TFC minifics, headcanons from @/neilsexy (now @jamory) on tumblr by mugglecastiel [Not Rated, Collection, Updated 2016]

Chapter 37 - nicky/erik + erik in columbia

time comes for nicky to go home he cries at the airport, even though he knows he’ll be coming back as soon as he can he and erik kiss goodbye he leaves.

tw: homophobia, tw: internalized homophobia, tw: religious trauma, tw: referenced conversion therapy

Chapter 18 - NICKY/ERIK + 3 ITEMS (baby’s breath flowers, a university hoodie, & pills/medicine)

Nicky came out of sleep slowly. He usually woke slowly, taking in his surroundings and hyping his mind up to face the day ahead of him, but his mind was usually alert before the rest of him. That wasn’t the case today.

Chapter 70 - nicky/erik + nicky's pills

he was pretty okay yesterday he felt a little off, a little lost, but he was okay today, though? today nicky calls in sick to work, and spends the entire day in bed.

tw: depression, tw: insomnia, tw: nightmares, tw: suicide attempt

Chapter 97 - nicky hemmick + attempted suicide, erik finding out.

nicky’s hopeless he doesnt have a single thing thats real about the person everyone around him believes him to be its starting to eat at him

tw: homophobia, tw: suicide attempt, tw: depression

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wisp-of-thought · 3 years

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I don't have a bucket list but I think we all have things we want to do eventually before the end.

Before my end I want to be happy for a month straight. Not a single bad day. By which I do not mean bad things do not happen but rather that I do not let them take from my joy. No sobs muffled in pillow cases because of broken promises I let break me. No unfolded laundry that spurs a shouting match with my father out of nowhere. No fretting over the reflection in the foggy mirror after a shower or scolding myself for too much time spent in bed. I just want to be happy. I just want to let myself be happy.

Before the end I want to confess my unrequited love for someone expecting nothing in return. Just because I can.

But before the end I want to experience the miracle of reciprocation too. I want to be loved and love in the same breath. I want to hold someone and be held and exhale the fear of judgment in their presence. I want someone to see the parts of me I hide even from myself and say nothing. Just hold me. Because before the end I want to be so in love with someone who loves me back words are beyond us.

Before the end I want to spend a night in which I do not come home. Maybe I walk along the pier till dawn or drive nowhere until I am somewhere or dance until it is just her smile and the ringing in my ears. I want to dance in the rain. Not a drizzle but a downpour. And sing a song out of tune and do it for no one but myself and the girl I used to be.

Before the end I want to grieve a loss so deeply I am split clean two. I want to fracture and shatter a hundred times over. Before the end I want to heal. Not all the way. Not perfectly. But enough so my scars spell out that I have lived. That I have lived a life that could have broken me, but didn't.

Before the end I want to forgive my mother.

Before the end I want to be forgiven.

Before the end I want to find god or make peace with his absence or find purpose.

I want to show a child they are loved until they believe it.

Before the end I want to go to Germany.

I want to learn to cook.

I want to learn how to ride and bike.

And maybe swim if I have time.

But we don't always have time,

And thats okay.

Before the end I want to tear down whatever wall remains between me and loving myself as much as my sister loves me. I want to take a road trip up north to see the sky melt into streaks of green and blue lights with my cousins.

I want to read a tale of two cities and understand it. I want to learn a language or a skill or how to meditate or something that takes discipline.

Before the end I want to say something. I want to stand up in front of a crowd, just once, and have them listen. Have them hear what I have to say. Before the end I want to have something worth saying.

Before the end I want to accept that it's not my fault but other things might be, and that is okay. None of us are faultless in this life. Before the end I want to sit with my guilt by a river. Set it on the water. Let it go. Because it has no more use of me. And I have no more use of it.

Before the end, I want to write something that someone will hold in their heart for the rest of their life even after I am gone.

Even after I am gone.

Before the end I want to cease fearing being forgotten.

Before the end I want to live alone.

Even if it is just for a while

And reconcile with my lost potential

And realize that its okay

That it has always been okay

That it will always find a way to be okay

The End.

- journal prompt used: 5 things on your bucket list

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tema-makes-art-sometimes · 2 years

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🏳️‍🌈 - Favorite sexuality/gender headcanon(s), if you have them?

Hmmm... Lemme think- I dont do as much as I should.

I like the idea of Canada being he/him nonbinary- I haven't done it yet, but I think about it often. Same with Prussia being FtM trans. I like it but I've never executed it.

England, France and North Italy are all some form of genderfluid, no I will take no elaboration on it.

China is a manly man, who likes long hair and dresses, these things can and do co-exist.

I can't think of any of them as straight.

Some basics:

Germany: Gay and the most like- demi one can demi. wont even think about holding hands until like knowing someone for years. N Italy: disaster bi, absolute disaster bi who thinks with his dick. and thats fine S Italy: pansexual nightmare, but actually demi romantic. hes okay with flirting with girls and even guys but slowly develops romantic attraction to people over time, and even then doesnt grasp that people could like him deeply. Prussia: disaster bi and ace but sex positive. I admire people who write him as Aro Japan: gay and ace (sex indifferent). Hes just here for the close emotional bonds and cuddles on movie night and mad respect to him China: chill pan with aro leanings. Hes too old to care about sexual orientation-- USA: disaster bi, nothing complicated about it there tho just an absolute disaster. UK: omnisexual with a preference toward men, but he also doesnt mind being bent in half by a pretty lady either. He's a disaster no matter the gender. Russia: Hes honestly questioning himself. One hand he feels pretty attracted to men, but ladies can be nice. Sure hed love a romantic relationship- but does he want sex? does he not? He doesn't know. He's still finding himself good for him. France: pansexual and proud! But other than that he doesnt know where he falls. He focuses more on the love and less on the sex, actually. I wouldn't nessecarily say he doesnt feel sexual attraction more so he feels it, but he isnt all that interested in it. Sure the occasional one night stand, sure the flirting, but honestly-- its not a deep emotional thing to him. He doesnt know where he lands and he's fine with that. Canada: hopeless pansexual absolutely 100% hopeless. Will faint when seeing a cute guy or girl hes that helpless. And hes fine with that honestly- just as flirty as France is, hes just more subtle about it.

Other nations MISC:

Ukraine: Pansexual Liechtenstein: Lesbian Belarus: Aromantic Hungary: Bi Disaster Sweden: Questioning Finland: Gay Asexual, sex repulsed. Rome: Pan and Chaotic Netherlands: Ace/Aro Belgium: Lesbian Portugal: Gay Spain: Demi-Romantic

#hetalia ask meme

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partangel · 2 years

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hi! i love your blog! i'm also considering doing a second bachelor and am genuinely curious as to how common that is in europe? xx 💝💐

hello! thank you dear! i cannot tell you based on all europe, only where i reside that is portugal. here i have the perception that if the bachelors dont correlate in a certain way, job entities can see it as a warning sign (eg: lack of certainty on your first choice, a waste, etc). in an interview, I believe it is possible for them to just straight up ask why did you make that choice, which if you are just a genuinely curious person may not be easy to answer in a productive, job-afilliated way. If they are concomitant it can be the exact opposite, because it means that you are really investing time & money becoming a rounded professional in your area of choice (for example, doing a bachelors in psychology and then taking a bachelors in another social science like anthropology). portugal is a traditional country with a fragile economic situation so older generations have very much ingrained in the youngsters to follow a restrict path which is to get one degree and then work on it their entire lives, personal development and an honest hungry for learning variated fields of academics is not particularly something valued. there's also this comprehension that apart from STEM, anything else is useless. where I come from there is a big decline of young people deciding to invest on humanities as a whole due to that.

because of those aspects (that are clearly deeply influenced by the social perception of what's worth in a career), I don't think its very common for people here to get a second bachelor. however in northern europe (norway, denmark...) I believe there is more openness to "trial and error" (way of expression.. its definitely not an error at all!), and the general public is more interested in pursuing and growing old in an active way (by remaing concerned with their formal learning but not just that... if you analyse the way they keep hobbies and invest in other things than work you get very different results compared to here).

this is a very interesting question but ultimately i dont think it's possible to give an overrall answer for the entirety of europe.. it is possible to group certain countries (portugal with spain and perhaps greece and italy; france with germany; denmark with norway; etc) and give an overall sense of it.. if im making any sense? but not europe as a whole, because it is too fragmented for that and the socio-political situation of each country is very particular to it.

if you ask for my personal opinion I think it's great that you are interested in doing another one! despite all the stressors the academic life provides you, it's absolutely wonderful to learn things and be acquainted with anything and everything. i'd love to keep learning and getting various bachelors on an infinite amount of subjects like history & anthropology & philosophy.

however i also want to point out that, for example, in brazil (not europe but worth mentioning) that is extremely common. at least based on the people ive known from there, many have double bachelors that are not necessarily correlated and they dont seem to have any kind of worries over the things ive mentioned and actually value it immensely, so i do believe that it is completely dependant on the country youre from or want to study/work in. ultimately i also think its very important the way you view it yourself, for that is what will shape the perception of others about your choice.

sorry if it got long! thats my personal take on it :) i dont know if you want to share your situation (go for it!) but im definitely cheering you. i personally think its very impressive and a valuable thing to aim for. the most important thing to invest on is definitely education

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femme-is-my-gender · 4 years

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Lesbian ask game 5, with a twist 1-50 👀

OK BABE YOU CAN'T FOOL ME but you're cute and ily so

(I know you sent this like 5 days ago but this was a lot to answer and I wanted to get them all right because HAPPY 6 MONTHS BABE IF WE CANT GO ON A TRIP THEN THIS WHOLE DAMN MONTH IS OUR 6MO CELEBRATION 💕)

1. Their hair is fucking gorgeous I love the texture and its teal (I did the dye and cut!!!)

2. Their eyes are beautiful mid tone brown i love seeing the way the sun reflects off them 💕

3. Their age? Either a wise elder stuck in a teenagers mind stuck in an adults body or did you mean like in dog years?

4. We met on an app 🤷‍♀️ love finds you when you're not looking

5. S is very ticklish I don't even have to touch just wiggle my fingers in their direction and they fall over giggling

6. Their favorite song??? Idk if they have a #1 fave but their fav band is Mickey Darling

7. Their fave movie is avengers we watched it the other night at a drive in:)

8. Their fave book... idk babes a dork Harry Potter probably :P

9. Their fave TV show is She-ra honorable mentions for Avatar and My Hero

10. Their celebrity crush is........... me 😎

11. Babe wants a cat but allergies make that a uh problem (still trying to convince s to get a naked cat we will see how successful I am!!!)

12. There are SO MANY songs that make me think of them heres a whole Playlist but #1 is smother me and I'll follow you into the dark

13. Does s play sports.. well. Do you count the bedroom?

14. My favorite things about their body.. their dimples! Their hands! Their smile and the way their eyes crinkle when they do, the sound of a big belly laugh, their soft tummy and thighs to lay on, their butt is pretty cute too idk

15. My favorite personality traits! Don't get me started! The way they can uphold their boundaries firmly but not unkindly. The way they will get rude if needed to get someone to listen, the way they listen so intently when I talk about the Deep Stuff and the way they listen to my suggestions on the bad days even when they don't want to do what I suggest. The way they look at a new leaf unfurling on one of our house plants and the way they will talk and sing to my bird, the way they care so deeply for their loved ones and would do anything for them, the way they hold me almost every night bc its easier for me to fall asleep since I work early even though their work day ends right before I have to sleep. The way they rub my head and my back when I can't sleep and the way they absent mindedly rub their thumb on my hand or say I love you for the millionth time or do the arm jerk robot arm dance when they're excited or nervous and so many more i gotta go lay down....

16. Their style is emo boy/tacky 80s dad and I love it!

17. Our first date we went to a little vegan restaurant/bar then to an emo night at a bar! The bar double booked though so we didn't get the emo night we anticipated but thats okay!

18. A tiny detail they don't know I notice... idk I say most things I'm thinking outloud so if I notice something i say it lol no secrets here

19. Their talents! They are good at viddy James and they are good at cooking especially seasoning and just throwing random things into a meal, they are good at planning down to details, also the talents don't stop in the bedroom I'm just sayin

20. A tiny poem about S

Ways I say I love you that aren't outloud

Making sure you drink water

Scooting closer

Making you laugh

Asking how's your day been

Tracing my fingers on your skin

Giving us a clean place to spend our time

Encouraging you to try something new

Opening the blinds

Being your cheerleader

Baby you're my sunshine

You shine so bright and even on the cloudy days you're what warms my soul.

I love you.

Have you had any water today?

21. Do they have a tumblr? Yeah! Baby come off anon lol

22. What makes them laugh? Well any goofy noise or silly song i make up usually will get them, they're pretty ticklish so that works too also memes and cat videos

23. S is a Taurus sun with dominant Aries chart and im a sag sun with dominant Capricorn chart depends which app you ask but I say we are pretty damn compatible

24. Babe has always wanted to travel in general. I know Colorado was a plan for a while, Germany has come up before. I think as long as we are together and near a beach we both would be happy to go anywhere

25. Things that are interesting to baby are heros/magic people, babies, animals, romcoms and anything to do with live music

26. I realized I loved them like on our 2nd date! I was so stressed bc I had just gotten out of a toxic relationship and while I was totally over the romantic connection to that person I was still feeling alot of hurt and trying to recover and I met S while I was slutting it up on tinder and I was Not Ready to be in love again like I WAS but I was so scared of fucking things up between us by committing "too soon" but S was so patient and never pressured me but I could tell they had feelings and so did I but like I was better at hiding them. I love them so much I'm so glad we met.

27. Their favorite food group is comfort food/toddler menu: grilled cheese, nuggs, pizza, also their top fave is fideo

28. Babe hates alot of foods I don't know them all yet but bell peppers, onions, also new foods are scary but they will try something if I make it/want to eat somewhere they've never been which just makes me 🥰

29. Hogwarts house is slytherin!

30. Babes element? Well their chart is fire/earth heavy. I say earth is their element!

31. Something that makes baby angry is people being rude for seemingly no reason also people who don't respect boundaries

32. S is taller than me by like 5 inches i think

34. Idk if they want their name on here so

35. Their aesthetic is like kitchy/goth/boho vibes. Dark vibrant colors, lots of plants, lots of art, skulls, comfortable space with blankets and pillows that's pretty and interesting to look at

36. Well the first thing I bought them was a drink lol but the first proper gift was a stuffed sloth they had wanted for a long time bonus facts I had to snoop on their insta to find a picture of the sloth and zoom in/brighten the picture to read the tag and did some sleuthing online but I found it! His name is theo

37. Baby is def a night owl

38. I brag the most about babe's just general goodness. I tell anyone who will listen how good they make me feel and how they listen and give good advice even when I don't want to follow it, and their top priority is keeping me safe and secure and also they're really fucking hot but I can't say that normally.

39. S has some rings and a necklace they like to wear if they're looking Certified Fresh

40. I'm a vegetarian, babes not

41. Oh fuck idk what their fave school subject is I would have to guess lit/reading??

42. Their clique is skaters/emo/scene lol

43. We have been together 6 months almost exactly!! 😍

44. Describe their laugh. Oh my God, well there's the cute nervous/goofy laugh they do most the time, there's this snort/chortle they do when I'm being extra goofy that I love, and sometimes I get them to do the whole throw head back full belly deep laugh and my heart goes 🥰🥰🥰🥰!!!!!!!!!!

45. Nah they don't wear makeup

46. Favorite art medium? Like to do? Painting I think.

47. Babe plucks around on bass and ukulele sometimes and they're a PRO at belly bongos

48. S identifies with cats the most

49. Babe likes the outdoors but it's not their comfort zone so there's resistance when I suggest it but if I insist they end up having a good time. Idk if s would like camping though.

50. This picture is my wallpaper I love them so much and bought this shirt for them!!! (Fun fact I left the store and went home and later decided to go back and get the shirt bc I LOVE them and their tacky 80s dad vibes)

#you think youre slick!#well jokes on you!!! compliment shower!!!!!#i fucking love you so damn much #asks #rb bait #ask games #wlw #personal #donut rebagle

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gaymelie · 4 years

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Orchard, bonfire, cinnamon, maize :)

Aaaaaay thanks friend!

Orchard: share one thing that you'd like to happen this autumn.

Hmmmm idk I'd like to keep going upward with my mental health tbh. It's going well so far and I'd like it to stay that way XD

Bonfire: describe your dream house.

Hoooo boy this is a whole question..... I mean I have like so many options and dreams abiut this I can't even get started. The most important thing is that I can live there with people I love (or person but I'd rather there be multiple ppl around). I'll still give you some of my favourite dreams because you can't ask me this and expect me to not tell you about them. So for one I'd like to have a big penthouse in the middle of a city where I can go outside and be anywhere I need to be in a short while. There totally needs to be plants there too and big windows. I'd also like a big proper house with a garden for me and some friends and a big living room and some decently sized rooms for everyone and we cook together and have friends over and it's homey and warm.

Cinnamon: if you had to live in a time period different than the present, which would you choose and where.

NO I DON'T LIKE IT Like OK I guess I'd like to stay in Germany because I kind of like it here I guess and I'd go like 35 or so years back then I can be in my late teens in the 80s and in my 20s in the 90s. Like I would hate it but at least the aestethic is cool and I can go see Queen.

Maize: share the weirdest encounter you've had with a stranger on the street.

Oh OK this one I have options, like I'm still deeply confused by the guys who were kind of catcalling me from a car and they used this super aggressive tone but what they yelled at me was "Hey, cool scarf". There's also the guy who mistook me for Turkish and the several people in Spain who mistook me for Spanish. Also the group of guys who were clearly trying to hit on me And my friends but decided to do so by asking for directions to the nearest pony park? Thats the weird ones I can remember off the top of my head but like some funny stuff happens to me.

#please ask me things

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lunaarajewel · 4 years

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Answering questions because I’m bored again

1. What have you eaten today? breakfast was oats with pb and banana, lunch was a zucchini stew, and then i had oats again for dinner because why not haha ><

2. Who was your last kiss with? Was it pleasant? it was sweet, felt a bit bittersweet because i said bye until next time

3. What color shoes did you last wear? black

4. Who has made you laugh the hardest in the last week? Myself

5. What is your favorite scent? Baked goods

6. What is your favorite season? Why? Spring and or early summer, it's so nice to smell all the flowers and to hear the birds again, to feel the warmth from the sun

7. Can you do a handstand or cartwheel? I can do a headstand on my forearms and a bad cartwheel xD

8. What color are your nails? currently blank!

9. If you had to get a tattoo on your face to save your life, what would it be? a moooon

10. What is something you find romantic? Hugs from behind when i least expect it

11. Are you happy? Yeah I'm doing really good, which is surprising because i haven't felt like that in a long time

12. Is there anything in particular making you happy or sad? The thing that is making me happy is probably my antidepressants but they have helped me to get hope again.

13. Dogs or Cats? Cats

15. Which do you prefer:a museum, a night club, the forest or a library? Ooooo difficult question because it depends!

15. What is your style? Hmm i'd describe it as a mix of cottagecore, steampunk, astrology, herbalism, witchy stuff

16. If you could be doing anything you like right now, what would it be? Travel to japan

17. Are you in a relationship or single? I'm dating but not an official relationship nope

18. What makes you attracted to the person you like right now? Their humor, the way they are so relaxed and careless

19. If you could replace your partner/best friend with a celebrity of your choice, would you? Who with? Whaat no i wouldn't do that

20. Are you holding on to something you need to let go of? If so then what? Some toxic behaviors/habits a bit!

21. How did you celebrate last Halloween? I listened to dark music a bit extra, watched nightmare before christmas and had some halloween candy

22. Have you recently made any big decisions? I started taking antidepressants!

23. Were you ever in a school play? Yes, when i was younger i was a princess i remember

24. What movie would you use to describe your life? aaa that's difficult, i haven't watched that many movies tbh!

25. Is there something you have dreamed of doing for a long time? Why haven’t you done it? Learning piano properly, but i've been busy with mental health stuff so i haven't been able to. But I've been planning on taking it more seriously lately

26. Complete this sentence, “I wish I had someone with whom I could share…” all of my thoughts without judgement

27. What are two things that irritate you about the same sex? (for some, not all) Jealousy, constant focus on showing off to guys

28. What are two things that irritate you about the opposite sex? (for some, not all) Bad at communicating, bad at understanding

29. What is the best thing that has happened to you this week? I started taking the steps to honestly change my life for the better

30. What is something that makes you sad when you think about it? How I treated my ex, he was actually really kind to me but I wasn't mentally stable so I couldn't communicate well to him. But I hope he's well! I only wish him the best.

31. How long was your longest relationship? a little over a year

32. Have you ever been in love? Oh yeah

33. Are you currently in love? A bit!

34. Why did your last relationship end? I ended it because I wasn't well enough, I needed some time alone to get back to myself.

35. What jewelry are you wearing right now, and where did you get it? A heart necklace i made, handmade bracelet from a market, 3 earrings from hm

36. When was the last time you cried and why? When i first took my antidepressants i burst out crying so its around 3 weeks ago i think

37. Name someone pretty. Uma thurman

38. What did you receive last Valentines Day? Japanese snacks

39. Do you get jealous easily? Nope

40. Have you ever been cheated on? Not that i know of

41. Do you trust your partner/best friend? Yes

42. Ever had detention? hahah yeah because i skipped class to buy piercing jewelry

43. Would you rather live in the countryside or the city? hmmm, difficult question. I think i'm that kinda person that likes to switch between the two

44. What do people call you? Luna since it's my name

45. What was the last book you read? "stjärnhimlen" (a book about stars)

46. How big of a nerd/dork are you? well i'm a nerd for moss e.e

47. What kind of music do you listen to? veryyy mixed, metal, rock, indie, alternative rock, jrock, instrumental, kpop, pop, rap

48. How tall are you? 163cm

49. Do you like kids? I don't mind them!

50. Favorite fruits? Banana, blueberries, blackberries, raspberries, wild strawberry, persimmon

51. Do you wear jeans or sweats more? Sweats

52. What’s your earliest memory? In kindergarten i used to dance to Westlife music

53. Ever had a poem or song written about you or to you? Nope not that i know of

54. Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? behind

55. Do you have a collection of anything? Moon stuff

56. Do you save money or spend it? I try to save!

57. What would your dream house be like? Filled with things i've made and antique stuff as well

58. What top 5 things make you the angriest? Aaa i dont know, i try not to focus on those things

59. What top 5 things always brings a smile to your face? a good meal, plants, good music, animals, finishing something i made

60. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do? I would help the dog

61. 72: You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid? Yeah i'd probably tell the ones closest to me that arent my family. then i'd just make the most of my time, i'd travel to japan for a week, france/germany for a week, a week with my family and last with the ones close to me outside of family. I would probably be a bit scared but i wouldn't try to focus on that fear too much, because well if theres nothing i can do about it then worrying about it will just stop me from enjoying the last of my days

62. Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word; heart. A heart shape ❤️

63. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go? Japan!

64. Do you like the beach? It's okay, not my favorite place

65. Ever sleep on the couch or a bed with someone special? Yes

66. Do you have a middle name? If so what is it! I have two middle names, Ida and Johanna

67. Do you talk to yourself? Yes, because it helps me to understand my own thoughts and situations better

68. Describe your hair. Thin, blonde

69. What is the meaning of life. To enjoy it

70. What is your ideal partner like? Calming, feels like home, a bit spontaneous romantic, supporting, good listener and communicator

71. Do you want to get married? Yeah it would be cute

72. Do you want to have kids? A bit torn on that question, can't say no or yes

73. Like or dislike your family? A bit so so

74. Are you Chunky or Slim? Somewhere in between

75. Would you consider yourself smart? Yes in some ways

76. What would you change about your life? The place I live

77. Religious or Not? Nope

78. You’re drunk and yelling at hot guys/girls out of your car window, you’re with? I dont drink so no one!

79. You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, is that a problem? Nope

80. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you? Nope, and my family doesn't say it either

81. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now? Probably sleeping

82. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in? Yes but my mom wouldn't be too happy haha

83. Do you like when people play with your hair? yes it's nice sometimes

84. Do you like bubble baths? Nope, i don't really like baths so much

85. Have you ever been pulled over by a cop? Nope

86. Have you ever danced in the rain? Yes, with my old best friend

87. Do you trust anyone with your life? Yes the ones closest to me, not really my family though

88. What was your first thought when you woke up this morning? I wanna eat haha

89. If money wasn’t an issue, what top 10 places would you travel to? (You get to stay at each place for a week) Japan for 3 weeks, France, Germany, LA, Italy, Greece, Thailand, England

90. How was your day today? It was good! I made some stew for the week

91. Play an instrument? A bit of piano, some chords on guitar but thats it

92. Describe the what you think of the ocean. It's okay, if i go i usually prefer a smaller beach with few or no people

93. Do you believe in aliens or ghosts? Aliens but not like in movies, anything that is alive outside of our planet so anything even if it's an ant sized creature it's an alien to me. And as for ghosts i'm open to the idea of it but i haven't really invested much time in that topic!

94. Honestly, are things how you wanted them to be? Nope, but i believe they will be someday

95. Do you have a mean bitchy scary side? Not bitchy but a bit scary maybe

96. When are you vulnerable? When i'm deeply in love

97. How much free time do you have? A lot currently but i'm taking that time to relax

98. Do you like to go hiking? Never been!

99. Odd or Even Numbers? Even

100. Would you ever go sky diving, bungee jumping , cliff diving, wing suit gliding, parasailing, snorkeling, or other extreme activities? hmmm, i can't say for sure

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hepivs-blog · 5 years

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❝ oscar isaac. cismale. he/him. ❞ ━ 𝕝𝕒𝕜𝕖𝕧𝕚𝕖𝕨 welcomes enrico garrastazu with open arms. the forty year old finance consultant has been living here for three years, give or take. on a good day, they seem the shrewd & pleasant type, but their testy & brusque tendencies shine through when there are no taxis into the city.

going 3 for 3 cause i don’t know what i’m doing please help me this is a cry for help pls don’t ignore it and also oscar isaac am i right??? what a fucking mans

here he is omg the biggest douche in the fucking universe. god i love him

so enrico, rico for short yk, is the only one of my characters who doesn’t have a middle name cause his parents were too damn busy working their ass off to actually think of another name for the kid

rico is..... sort of a conundrum i think. his childhood was extremely poor, like e x t r e m e l y. his parents sold lunch to buy dinner kinda deal. and lemme tell you rico HATED growing up like that. esp bc he had to share with three older siblings and he just didn’t understand why his parents kept making babies when all they had to eat was flour and one egg yk

so yeah you can say he hates poverty, wishes people never had to go through it, the whole nine yards. but rico had something that his siblings didn’t have and it was drive. he had a smart mind for business and money, and the drive to never go through a situation like that ever again

while his parents and siblings worked, rico went the extra mile. he worked his ass off even as a kid, and poured every single dime of his money that wasn’t going to food and basic living necessities into studying. he saved up for books, went to night school, and in rico’s mind the only thing that would save him from repeating his parent’s mistake was education

turns out he was right and though he had to put in a lot more effort than the rest of the kids his age, enrico was brilliant. gifted w a logical mind that’s very quick with numbers, rico passed every single challenge in his academic life with flying colors

because of his hunger when it came to learning and business, he was noticed by quite a few higher ups in the places he worked, admiring the way he made money multiply, making himself well off ( compared to his previous situation ) and his bosses even richer

in his early twenties, rico decided that this is what he should be doing for a living. obviously he had a talent for making money, and that was a talent that a lot of people - but mostly himself would benefit from

by his thirties, enrico’s bank account was so impressive that many would say he didn’t have to work another day in his life, but a workaholic at heart and also eternally afraid of the mark that his childhood left, enrico buried himself into work more deeply

his personality is a bit unsavory to many. he’s v cynical and has quite the acid humor, but he means well yk. he believes capitalism is the worst thing to ever happen to mankind but he’s making money off it so he just makes sure to give back as much as he gets. and tho he doesn’t flaunt his charity work bc in his opinion thats a ridiculous thing to brag about, he does a lot for people in need

very confident and always thinks he’s right. he’s rlly stubborn n believes hes the smartest person in the room but,,,,, that aint it chief

always well groomed and always clean shaven bc he knows appearances mean a lot in the world of business

works as a consultant for other businesses trying to get off the ground and make sound financial decisions, he’s the guy you go to if u need help w ur tax deduction

before he came to lakeview he lived in washington and then for a while in germany and now he’s back after a sour divorce yk, bc he’s romantically a mess and can’t make a relationship work cause he’s too focused on work and on being the latino warren buffett

drinks a lot and smokes a lot and he thought he would be dead by his forties bc of the amount of salt he puts into his food but so far so good

needs reading glasses so he always has them tucked away in his jacket pocket yk, an old gentleman

wears a lot of turtlenecks under suits bc fashion is his passion

a ridiculous man but whether you like it or not he’ll always give you his unbiased opinion

believes he’s the best thing that happened to america since sliced bread

his pinterest board

if you would like to plot w this idiot pls like this post or alternatively, kiss me thru the phone n my people will get in touch w ur ppl. gracias n adios

#thirtyintro #this intro is sending me

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rogmeaddows · 5 years

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Part 1: Do you call my name? Ben Hardy!Roger Taylor x Reader

(This can be used with Roger Taylor x Reader or Ben Hardy!Roger)

Concept: This is loosely based off of Letter to Hermione by David Bowie. You moved to London for a student exchange program in college. Met Roger there and ended up dating for 4 years only to break up once you moved back to the states for a publishing deal on your book. Now, 5 years later, you are married, work as a studio drummer (roger gave you a few lessons and you were actually quite good at it, started taking professional lessons and so it went), also are an author with one successful book, own a house in a boring neighborhood with your husband, and overall have a very steady life, and yet you are still deeply in love with Roger. When Queen comes to America for their tour, you and him meet again unexpectedly. It causes havoc in both your hearts and lives.

how I see the characters

Warnings: (Angst, slight smut, long-term pining, cuss words)

Word Count: 2400+

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You just got done with another day at the studio recording some track for some singer with absolutely no talent, your arms were sore from playing so many reps because the singer just couldn’t seem to get through a song once and constantly had re record every track they sang. As a hired studio drummer you had to deal with any ass that had enough money to hire you through the record label. It paid well and was better than a simple 9-5 job, but some days it is terribly frustrating. You turn down the road to your house and come out of your thoughts, starting to pay attention to the song thats on the radio and it sounds really good, not like most songs on the radio.

She’s a killer queen,

gunpowder gelatin,

dynamite with a laser beam

Guaranteed to blow your mind

You swear the voice sounds like someone familiar but you just can’t place it. Then the song ends and the radio hosts announces “That was Killer Queen everybody by up and coming artists Queen” Now you know what it sounds familiar. You hadn’t really heard any of their music since you came back to America, it being too painful to ever really enjoy. But now, things were different, you were different, and you wanted to hear their new album. After all, you were there for the beginning you should at least try to take an interest in them. You drive past your house and to the nearest record shop, buying their album Sheer Heart Attack. Once home you put it on and start folding a load of laundry, on your bedroom floor. Examining the cover of the album a little bit, you realized that each one of them looks so different than when you first met them, however roger still remained just as attractive as when you were together. In fact the position he is in on the album cover reminds you of a moment you shared with him. It was just after you guys had got done having drunken sex on a bedroom floor during a party, you climbed up onto the bed which was abnormally high and looked down at him attempting to light a cigarette. And He looked up at you, sweaty, shirt unbuttoned eyes filled with ecstasy. As your mind began to wander with how you got to that point you remembered the events before hand, his hands grabbing your waist and pulling you onto him, his whispers of praise and commands, his lips ghosting across your neck.

You and Rog ran up to an empty bedroom in Freddie’s house like two teenagers in love, stumbling into the room Roger pushes you up against the door slamming it closed causing you to gasp and him using your surprise to grab your wrists and pin them behind you.

“Don’t you ever tease me like that again in public, I saw what you were doing out there. Bending over just at the right times, spreading your legs when you knew only I could see.” he practically growled against your skin

“What can I say? I love seeing you flustered.”

“Trust me,I’m not gonna be the one who looks flustered in a few minutes.”

“Hmm, is that a challenge?”

“You wish love”

He then inched his hand up your skirt and kissed you softly, licking the bottom of your lip and rubbing soft circles on your upper thigh. You grab his hair and kiss him sloppily, lightly pulling at his hair every time his fingers move farther up your thigh. He moves his hand up and pushes your underwear out of the way lightly rubbing your clit. At that same moment he bites your bottom lip and this causes you to let out a slight moan.

“Want more love?” he whispers against your ear sending shivers down your spine.

Now leaning against your dresses you pull out the small vibrator in your nightstand and use it to the image of Roger behind your eyelids. Soft moans escaping your lips as you bring yourself to your high. Right before you let yourself release your husband, Nathan Jones, walked into the front door and slamming it loudly.

Jumping out of your skin you shove your vibrator back into your night stand and quickly go back to folding clothes. Almost afraid that he would be able to see the moments you had just been picturing on your face. Which was preposterous because you had never told him about Roger, you told him about everything else, that you guys were best friends, how you had a life in London, and how you had close friends, but you never told him about Roger or Queen. Almost as if if you didn’t talk about it, You could erase it from your memory too.

You and your husband were sat at dinner with Rachel and Joe, your best friend and her husband. Despite Rachel being the closest you have to a friend at the moment, she knew nothing about you, nothing about who you were, and nothing about anything you truly care about. Everyone was heavily involved in their small talk, but all you could think about was how you could be using this time to work on the sequel to your book. The first one sold so well that you signed a contract with your publisher for a sequel. However the story isn’t connecting together the way you had envisioned and you were stuck trying to figure out how to fix the plot. Becoming completely lost in your book you didn’t hear your best friend Rachel mention how she and her boyfriend were going to a Queen concert tomorrow. Snapping you out of your daydream your husband says

“Earth to (y/n)”.

“What? Sorry I’m just- exhausted.”

“Well if you had been paying attention, you would be able to answer the question Rachel asked you.” You were taken aback by his aggressive tone.

“Sorry, Rachel. What were you asking?” you said through gritted teeth trying to keep from snapping at your husband.

“Oh just that there was this band I really like coming to town, Queen, I bought tickets for me and Joe but he has business meeting that night and I was wondering if you’d like to come.” she hadn’t caught on to the dynamic between me and Nathan. Speaking with ease as if a man constantly bickering and snapping at his wife was supposed to be normal. However that’s not what had my mind in knots no, it was the pretense that after 5 years I could be in the same room as Roger Taylor. It was the notion that even after 5 years and a husband that boy had my heart in my throat and my contents of my stomach threatening to spill out of my mouth.

“No, I’m sorry I can’t that night. I have a work thing” my voice staying calm but I know my face did not look it.

“Really because I haven’t even told you the date yet? Come on (y/n) you never do anything fun, it’s just one night and the ticket is already paid for.” her words seemed distant and you were trying to bring your head back down from the dangerous place it had gone. Thoughts were buzzing through your head and for a split second You were no longer you, but the girl you 6 years ago looking at who you are now as if through a looking glass. Tears sprang to her eyes as she watched her older self sit at a table with a woman who did not know her and a man she did not love. In a dress she hated but knew it would allow her to feel normal and comfortable among the people she was with. She felt the urge that she had always felt when she was younger, to run. To take everything she had and run. Then it was over and you were who you are now again, but the anxiety had not gone away.

“Sorry my stomachs not feeling well I need to go to the bathroom”

“Do you want me to come with you?” Rachel was a good friend, but she could never help you through what you were working through at the moment.

“Oh no, stay and enjoy your dinner I’ll be fine.”

You made your way back to the restroom trying to regain your steadiness, your comfort, your sensibilities. However that’s when you heard it, a voice you hadn’t heard in years but could pinpoint out of an entire crowd.

“(Y/N)?” He spoke your name like he had been waiting to say it, like it had been built up behind all of his other words and finally got a chance to come out. You turned around in absolute shock that the blonde haired, blue eyed man that You never thought you would see again, was now standing in front of you. You said his name and it felt like every other time you had said his name was mixed into this one, the first time he introduced himself to you, the time you found him flirting with another woman, the time he gave you the best orgasm of your life, the time you showed up at his house at 3 am completely plastered and sobbing for no reason other than that you had lost his favorite shirt when you went to Germany for a week, the last goodbye you said to him at the airport on London.

“Roger?” his eyes looked like they had the first time we met, hopeful, expecting, afraid. Until he looked down at your left hand and saw the wedding wing perched on your finger. His face fell and he looked at you.

“It’s been awhile since we’ve talked cactus.” you were taken aback by his use of the nickname he gave you. You never told anyone about it when I moved back to the states, mainly because it would only remind you of him. After about a month or two of your friendship you two were watching a movie in his apartment and he turned to you and said You know, you remind me of a cactus. You’re so cold, prickly, and very much an asshole on the surface. But I just after having seen you cry over a dog in a children’s movie I now know the truth. You are nothing but a gooey little mushy ball of feelings inside all that false roughness.” Since that moment on he called you Cactus. The memory makes your heart clench inside your chest. Just in that moment, between his words and your words intervened Rachel who had came back to check on you in the bathroom. Low and behold you never made it.

“Oh my God, you’re Roger Taylor!” she said excitedly then took a second to asses the moment that the two of you looked held in and she asked “Do you two know each other?” you wanted to tell her yes, that he was the only person who knew you and that as far as you knew you were the only person who knew him. But instead you said

“Not really, used to hang out at the bar he used to play gigs at.” he caught on to your lie

“Yeah, me and (y/n) just used to be drinking buddies.” he chuckled softly, almost not enough to hear but you did.

“You never told me that (y/n)! And you wanted to skip out on the concert with me tomorrow night.” Roger then had the audacity to say

“Well if you can’t make it to the concert maybe you guys would like to come to a little party we’re having tonight.” before you have the time to shoot the idea down with a shotgun, Rachel says

“We’d love to. But we have dates with us, can they come to?”

Roger looks at you with a sly smile, one he used to give you while you were in the crowd at concerts, right before the band left the stage and he knew that you and him would hook up in the boys dressing room afterward.

“Of course they can come, I’d love to meet the new people in (y/n)’s life.” He then gave Rachel an address and time while you were stood dumbfounded by the hand that life had just dealt you.

“We’ll see you there. It was great meeting you Roger.”

“You as well”

You didn’t say anything. You both went back to your table, Rachel describing everything that had just happened, and you staring off into space still picture Roger’s face in you head. As your husband placed his hand on yours.

Part 2 will be up in two days!

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tingsicantsayoutloud · 3 years

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may blues.

I was thinking on my way to campus today, that i am the most insecure ive ever been (since moving to Germany and starting my PhD). bc i have felt like i dont matter, i felt like a faliure, ive felt like i am unable/ will never be able to contribute anything meaningful to the world . There are of course many ways in which I have felt these feelings but they are deeply connected to some of my deepest fears. on the one hand, i have had to deal with a system that is extremely discriminatroy and has reminded me many times that I dont belong. Then there has been the language barrier,academia, the rejection from men, becuase of the color of my skin perhaps, the shape of my body , i dont know. but all of this has fierecely reminded me that i dont belong and I am not good enough.and ive seen how i have allowed this to dumb myself down. ive seen how ive allowed men to treat me like a doormat. ive seen how this has on the highest level of abstraction ,affected my ability to genuinely put in the work and show up for myself bc the feelings of not being enough were so deep inside my ass, I began to belive them. But the thing is, i knw that i am worthy , i know that i am smart and beaustiful and wholesome and pure but i have allowed all of this shit to dim my light- especially becuase i was also consumed in being co-signed and i guess for some sort of validation- to make the feelings go away . and of course this did not work out well for me lol. I remeber when i first started uni and i was in this exact place, only difference is i never chased. i never sought. I never searched. i just focused on getting through uni and pouring energy and love into myself. i remeber not understanding why people wanted to befriend me, or why they called me beautiful and why guys wanted to date me. I was unproblematcic, and pure and so focused on channelling my energy into the things i loved and being the best for me that I never got caught up in some shit.So much so that I became bewitching and a magnet to everything around me, everywhere I went.and this is a lesson from younger self I think. bc thats how i will get through the PhD and everything in between and after. and how i will get my postmodern altbau with high celings, lots of windows and light and lots of greenery outside. by remaining focused and channeling the energy into things that matter- atleast to me and now anyway.

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dwestfieldblog · 4 years

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THOSE WHO DO NOT WANT TO HEAR MUST FEEL

This temporary apocalypse could be seen as a globally overdue Long Night of the Soul, an initiation of sorts which might result in a deeper understanding of what actually matters for human evolution (despite the very best efforts of the scum who are trying to reverse any spiritual progress because it weakens their hold.) There are several ways in which the negative side could truly take over, starting with the horror nightmare prospect of DT (aka ‘Just Another Scumbag’ as Bannon once called him) re ‘elected’. The realistic pessimist in me is sure that if he wins, this planet in this dimension is finished. His winning will be a final signal to the world to give us up. In my lifetime, we have never been so close to the mass breakout of totalitarianism and utter lack of empathy than we are now. Actual fascist populists, not some wet Liberal bleating but the real thing, ready to go live. Covid has bankrupted hundreds of thousands of businesses, millions have lost their jobs, migration from the truly poor and dangerous countries continues...into the becoming poor and dangerous countries. Those who live there and are already ruined by the disasters in every home will be easy prey for the populists. Speaking of whom...

Steve Bannon has spent a great deal of time and other people’s money in setting up a network to overthrow the (arf arf arf) ‘deep state’ and replace it with... a new deeper state...still run by the rich, who will use the populists, who in turn will use the mass of the angry and frightened...etc etc...And power, as most people recognise it, will stay in the hands of the unhuman swine with the most gold and the least soul. WER NICHT HOREN WILL, MUSS FUHLEN...

‘...the human nervous system properly programmed, can edit and orchestrate all experience into any gestalt it wishes. We encounter the same dismal and depressing experiences over and over again because they are repeating tape loops in the central programmer of our brains. We can encounter ecstasy over and over by learning the neurosciences that orchestrate all in coming signals into ecstatic tape loops.’ R.A.Wilson. Prometheus Rising, Hilaritas Press.

It takes a lot of effort and Will to do this but what else is worth it other than to attempt to break out of the vicious cycle and evolve? Even I have managed this when I focus on choosing it. Giving up ingrained behavioural habits often hurts; this is, however, a choice. It doesn’t have to unless you are a masochist.

Flew to England for three weeks in August, full flight sold out, all of us wore masks (apart from one 6 foot 6 mad eyed American who kept pacing up and down the cabin.) Right up to the point where we were all given a bottle of water, some crisps and two biscuits...All masks off at the same time, all passengers attempting not to breathe while we drank and ate. Love seeing how many in both countries wear masks under their nose or even only on their chin. As Bill Hicks would say ‘Any questions why we’re f.....d up as a race?’ As Jonathan Pie does say; ‘Put a f...... mask on.’ I have been coughing since February, and drinking heavily, so not especially optimistic about getting C19.

I avoided almost all of the news while in UK, watched five minutes in total on the TV and only read headlines in the paper. It was enough. Since I have been back in Prague I have continued to avoid the news other than that which I am told by friends and students but I can tell from daily receiving over one hundred emails that things are truly breaking. Hexagram 23 and total Weltschmerz is upon us. Mental health is twisting up globally. One by one, all my friends are suffering serious damage, one way or another. Hearts are breaking apart and many damnable souls, who should be burning, are not. People are afraid to breathe or to embrace, looking to the very worst set of leaders in my lifetime for answers and being manipulated en masse to mass crises.

(Jaz Coleman....On the Day the Earth went Mad...watch the video, listen. Feel. Weep. Rage. Change.) QUI NOLERUNT AUDIRE DEBERE SENTIRE.

Love the interviews I saw with those who voted for Trump and realised they made a mistake...after FOUR YEARS. What clued them in? Which particular excremental atrocity of his foulness gave them the alert? Will the Electoral College let him ‘win’? Before I left, I saw the Trump interview where he said ‘It is what it is’, with regard to the massive number of deaths in the USA. ‘We are below the world’. Blood pressure rising, I even checked his Twitter account where he published two letters, one from the eternally unlovely NRA and the other from the American Police Federation, assuring him he was the best president to ever serve their interest and they would back him to the hilt. His plan to stir the US up into open civil war continues and Putin sits back and smiles. As does Jared it seems, the smug sadist advisor in the same style as (England’s off Broadway Trump) Boris’s Dominic Cummings. Herd Immunity? Well yes it might work at some point after a few years and millions dead. You evil alien bastards. The main individuals in the British Government will make millions from a no deal Brexit, perfect timing. The country will die.

The newest PC bullshit has got even the wonderful JK Rowling into trouble just for speaking her mind politely about transgender issues. I love PC... it is how dumb useless Liberals can act out their secret fascist impulses and feel hard of c..k and wet of p...y...feel good to be so righteous... same with overly ill humoured religious folk, but the PC tribe cannot use God to justify anything so they are a bit weaker...You morons... ‘People who menstruate’, People with a cervix’? PEOPLE? Really? Women is a bad word is it? Too specific? (Well it has the word men in it, so seems almost inclusive.) You bastards are annihilating language; raping semantics...get another hobby you ridiculous cretins. (Be sure the populists well understand how to manipulate such fools.)

Extinction Rebellion is being used (among a multitude of other groups in other countries, hello Black Lives Matter) by the Kremlin to stir up shite, they are mostly well meaning on the road to Hell. Stop being so dumb and stop helping those who are against you at home and abroad. Dogmatic faith leads to mistrust, violence and hatred, says the lone derranger...And as for the absurd Q Anon, it is those who seek a Deeper State who are using you to do it. Well done.

Jacob Blake, shot seven (count them) times in the back by police even though charged with no crime and paralysed was handcuffed to hospital bed. That goofy twat of a 17 yr boy who wanted to be a policeman, shooting at blacks because he believed he had carte blanc (arf) from Trump to defend his country against ‘terrorists’...he will probably escape much punishment because... he was bullied at school...WHO WASNT?? The only people who weren’t were bullied at home. Guns ‘open carry’ in various states as the NRA rejoice in what they encourage. ‘Your first amendment means I can say your second amendment sucks d...s’. JimJeffries. Damn straight. By the time even I was 17, I had grown out of wanting to kill half the world. Wannabe cops are a little slower.

Everything is the new normal. Too late for a mid life crisis unless I die at 108 but I never forget that statistically there is more chance of being killed by death than anything else. ‘Heres to my love! O true apothecary! Thy drugs are quick. Thus with a kiss I die.’ Walking... see three funeral services shops in the road leading to/away from the hospital, clever businessmen...walking...masks off, between two conveniently placed flower shops and smoking outside the fuming crematorium in black suits and highly polished shoes. Waiting. That’s us.

I MISS YOU MARLENE. I MISS YOU MARLENE. I MISS YOU MARLENE. Nice headline seen on US newspaper...‘Can any good from cyberstalking your online crush?’I wondered that after falling in fascination with a woman in Germany who wrote like a poet and wove a spell of stories to charm and beguile. I would have walked from London to Hamburg to see if she was real. Everyone expresses love and the need for it in different ways. Reprogramming a deeply imprinted circuit is usually uncomfortable and so it proved for both of us. We shall see...if there is time. ‘One of us is crazy and the other one’s insane’

I can remember one of the days I Changed (seven years old?) We had a history lesson and were told about English kings and their ‘Divine Right’ to rule. Because God told them. And they told the people. And the people believed them. I remember the light in the classroom, where I was sitting, the smell of the tables, old unused ink wells, pencil shavings... and just thinking whatever a child’s version of F..K OFF...THATS BULLSHIT ISNT IT? would have been. That was the first moment I started questioning the class system, gullibility and bastards. A couple of years later, the absolute freedom of being, sent to collect the class register, walking down the empty corridors and not in the classroom...a beautiful feeling of being OUTSIDE. Free. Two of many experiences which have never left me. (The Angel Choir, the Rituals, the EYE across the Multiverse dream, the Reconnection...) Even if Freedom turns out to be as much of an illusion as everything else, it is still as beautifully sensual to me as music.

One summer night in 1990 after my 3rd breakdown, I had a dream. I think. Bear (or even bare) with me on this, I know how this sounds but it is only reporting what I saw in my mind. Two Aliens, thin and shadow like, came though my open bedroom door in the night (I could see the silhouettes) and one took a long shiny silver needle like a hypodermic for a horse and stood behind me and pushed the needle in through the top and centre of my skull, penetrating my brain. I FELT it slowly being pushed in, it hurt but I was paralysed. There was no voice but I heard (try not to laugh) ‘So now you have Superintelligence’. They moved out, the door closed, I slept. As usual with me, I remember every single dream I have ever remembered as if they were films I have watched over and over...and after a dream, the atmosphere stays with me for 23 whores. Later that day, I picked a big hardback book to find some info on something (A Cyclopaedia) with pages as thin as a bible. I sat almost motionless and without food for eight hours, DEVOURING every subject in it. Economics, geometry, geopolitical events, medicine, beliefs, systems.....the next day I finished ninety percent of it and went on to read books by five philosophers from second hand shops, started watching insects, stopped swearing, worked out, and read and read and read. All the knowledge I hadn’t cared about in school and college I picked up that one summer. It led to making new friends, new possibilities, new work, new love and led me to fly to Prague in this sequence while continuing to practice many ‘New age’ techniques by a writer called Stuart Wilde. They all worked and I continued...with regular fallings and breakthroughs.

‘Religion was invented when the first scoundrel met the first fool’. Faith is believing what you know not be true’. The seeker finds a belief and stops thinking for themselves...‘Every ideology is a mental murder, a reduction of dynamic living processes to static classifications, and every classification is a Damnation, just as every inclusion is an exclusion.’RAW

I had a four hour conversation with a Christian bloke, thirty, intelligent, believes in Satan as an actual being with horns. Etc. He couldn’t quite see any flaw in saying that any prophet who saw angels, white light and heard the voice of God, healed, etc but was not actually Christ, was only being tempted and used by the devil. He told me to watch the beautiful side of evil...

‘Every act of authority is, in fact, an invasion of the psychic and physical territory of another’. Human progress ‘is the concrete manifestation of some person’s refusal to bow to Authority.’

‘WE GOT ELECTED ON DRAIN THE SWAMP, LOCK HER UP, BUILD THE WALL. THIS WAS PURE ANGER. ANGER AND FEAR IS WHAT GETS PEOPLE TO THE POLLS. THE DEMOCRATS DON'T MATTER, THE REAL OPPOSITION IS THE MEDIA, and the way to deal with them is to flood the zone with shit.’ Said Bannon, who also said. ‘Darkness is good. Dick Cheney. Darth Vader. Satan. Thats power.’ Has he met Putin yet? Is he also on speed dial along with Boris and Trump? People! Create better leaders. NOW.

Happy birthday Aleister Crowley on the 12th October and Happy Halloween to all readers, stay healthy and sane (arf) Remember you are magick...buy the re-release of Musick to Play in the Dark by COIL and become moonlight... And those in America, if you actually do truly believe in a good God...go and vote and remove that evil ego and his cohorts in the White House with absolute overwhelming victory or we are done in this lifetime. Be healthy.

LOVE!!!

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Okay, this just happened and I need to say something

Seeing internalized homophobia makes me want to cry. I did not even realize how widespread this is until I found my own family using homophobic slurs and saying other terrible, terrible things. The worst part? They are my cousins. They are only a few years younger than me. They have been born and raised with this idea that homosexuality is disgusting and should be banned. One of my cousins literally said “[Homosexuality] should be illegal. I think it actually was, until some idiot changed the law”. They also proposed ideas similar to the Nazi death camps to eradicate homosexuality. These are the same people who wrote a 10 page essay on the evil of Nazi Germany, SPECIFICALLY FOCUSING ON THE DEATH CAMPS AS A WHOLE 4 PAGES. As a member of the LGBT+ community, this was heartbreaking and a little scary to hear. And its not just homophobia. Its transphobia too. I thought that people were trying to be better, and open minded. But this saddens me deeply, to see children not given the chance to be open minded but rather, instilling them with such values. The LGBT+ community has been through so much, and while there is a thin veil of acceptance, there is still so much we need to overcome. And sometimes, the battle is fought at home. I just want to take this moment to say, though it may not mean much, to EVERYONE reading this: YOU ARE LOVED. YOU ARE ACCEPTED. AND THOUGH AT TIMES, IT MAY SEEM LIKE THE EXACT OPPOSITE, NO. NEVER. THE ENTIRE LGBT+ COMMUNITY SUPPORTS YOU. IF YOU LOOK AT JUST THE USA, 9 MILLION PEOPLE ARE WITH YOU, SUPPORTING YOU. THATS THE USA ALONE! AND HECK, IF IT REALLY COMES DOWN TO IT, I SUpPORT YOU. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL AND LOVED AND PERFECT, AND DONT EVER LET ANYONE SAY OTHERWISE FOR ANY REASON!!! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

okie, I’m done now :)

#pride #gay pride #lgbt #lgbtq #lgbtqa #lgbtpride

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Asks Day 12

Anon: I'm sorry if you're getting asked this a lot, but... how's that AU going? The one where BD survives giving birth? Plopp: There are two snags with that. One, the thingy is very very very bad. Two, I started school, so it's either devote time to CC or a bad execution of an idea. Anon: what would happen if Steven meet other Stevens yellow Steven $uck you no no no $uck me canon Steven hey stop being mean yellow Steven no yellow Steven hey blue Steven lets work together and destroy the crystal gems Cnv99:????? Anon: What would White Diamond's reaction to this be??? Cnv99: We don’t know enough about her to construct a personality. Maybe she’s be the silent and cold type. Or just a don’t give no fucks badass aunt who is proud of her sad blue fleshy Nephew. Sergeant Plopp: It'll be way in the future regardless of if she appears or not. Anon: I've been thinking about Yellow Diamond's reaction to realising Steven is Blue. Maybe it'd be like Rameses from prince of Egypt in reverse: she'd be angry and frustrated at the inherent blaspheme, sad that she lost what you could call a sister, some regret if she feels she was a bit too warmonger-y (she has complete control of Homeworld's military) to properly help Blue through her grief and ultimately decides that she should train Steven to be a diamond, kidnapping him if needbe Cnv99: Tough love. But didn’t Rameses tried to follow Moses and his followers and slay them all after letting them go? Scary thought. Anon: what year will Steven die im not trying to troll really. Cnv99: Soon. (I’m not trolling really) Anon:who made the diamonds? Cnv99: Sneople Anon: what is rose opinion of communism Cnv99: ?????? Anon: so how did Blue handle having a baby? since it's all so new and different for a gem cnv99: Blue wanted to know so much about the Earth and how it works. Greg eventually tells her about humans, families and babies. It took her awhile to understand but she understood in the end. She loved Greg so much to have a child despite the risks. Anon: different person remember the rose=Lenin thing thats the Steven soviet au takes place in 1956 soviet russia where the crystal gems are a communist party and the diamonds are other countries yellow is Nazi Germany a tightly run country scared of revolt blue is USA a free market country white i think is ether UK or Italy and pink was the Russian empire before being overthrown so Steven is the son of rose very rich and wants to join the crystal gems and stop invaders Steven is also home schooled Plopp: Last time we’ll answer something like this. Keep your au ideas to your AU’s. Anon: because you have been bombarded by plot related questions i will ask something diferent: how did blue pearl reacted to the common kid injuries that most kids suffer in their childhood? did she was alarmed when steven had his first fall from bycicle?, did she was concerned when he begean his first steps?, and did ever crossed in her mind the posibility of stevenown mortality? Cnv99: Bloop is composed and well-behaved Pearl. She had been like that all her life but when her Diamond died and Steven was born everything she knew was thrown back to space. She constantly worries for his safety. She knows Humans are fragile beings. She is with him 24/7. But with her being a Pearl, she serves him well. She got frustrated at first, Her new fleshy Diamond could not speak or command her and couldn’t even hold a spoon. But she loved him and cares for him deeply. More than anything in this entire galaxy. Anon: will you get a face book page Cnv99: We’re not sure really. I don’t like facebook much tho. Anon: another person i seen some good intros ill try one of mine we are home world well shatter the crystal gems today and if you think we cant well shatter you anyway and than find a way thats why the gems of home world believe in yellow white and Steven? Plopp: Neat idea, we won't use it. Anon: Will Lars still die in this AU considering Steven isn't wanted on Homeworld like Canon!Steven is? Plopp: He probably will not die. The events of wanted wouldn't happen without a rose Quartz hybrid Anon: have you seen the Steven and Connie i seen some good au its where Connie gets trapped in gem tech and goes missing so Steven goes to school and becomes a scientist/alcoholic because of the loss of his best friend. 20 years later he brings her back and she did not age a day for a while there friends again but having trouble talking to each other adult and teen so Steven accidentally makes an inter dimensional portal gun now they both go on adventures. OK I AM NOT MAKING THIS UP Plopp: that's rick and morty’s basic idea Anon: Would yellow diamond send someone from homeworld like the Rubies to go fine blue? Plopp: Like we've said, Yellow is waiting her out. Anon: will Steven get limb enhancers Plopp: Nope! But there's a pic of a concept on Cnv’s blog! Anon: Theory - In the "Blue Diamond survives" story, Rose and Blue aren't going to fight at first - Blue still dislikes the Gems for killing her sister. But now, thanks to Greg and Steven, she has more of an understanding of why they did it - even if she still misses Pink Diamond a lot(and will probably react poorly when learning about Rose maybe being framed). What is going to start their fight instead is Rose not fully understanding Greg and Blue's relationship, and trying to flirt with her husband. Plopp: Excellent theory. Anon: I assume Yellow would invade Earth to get Steven when she finds out about him? Plopp: Hm, would that happen? Anon: Er, I have a question for the AU where Blue's alive - since she's not exactly too understanding of human relationships, would Rose still try to flirt with Greg, or would she understand he was off-limits after he or Blue told her? Plopp: Would she? You'll have to see their dynamic. Anon: What would the blueswap equivalent of Smoky Quartz be, anyways? Also, I think they would have a flail-like weapon. Plopp: That's a good question. Exactly how could a diamond be improved fusion-wise? As for the weapon, you're wrong. Anon: will steven be a judge in rose quartz trial Plopp: That would be a conflict of interest, my friend, because they're friends. Anon: blue swap theory Stevens true power Steven has the power to be almost immortal like VERY Slow ageing and live at least a few eons aka a few billion years if he feels like a child Plopp: I don't know if anyone has caught it, but Steven is hiding his appearance via his mindset. Anon: will there be a story where greg finds the deed to his uncles mansion Plopp: Interesting question! Hm, they sure will need more space if more gems keep moving into the palanquin. Anon: Connie i dont renounce Steven and i never have i just trying to protect pearl i wanted you to have a normal life thats something you cant have when Stevens shows up everything real turns fake everything right is wrong all you know is that he knows everything and you know nothing well hes not a villain pearl but shouldn't be your hero hes more like a demon or a super jacked up god yellow diamond lets not polish his gem to much he was a traitor and now hes shattered Plopp: M’what?? Anon: will there be a Disney land or vacation spot type place for the diamonds and elite gems like a tropical island Plopp: No one rests on homeworld, not even the diamonds. Except Blue, because she was depressed.

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((aND THERE IT IS MY ULTIMATE OTP! MY FAVS! THE BEST! I LOVE THEM!!! @warriors218 yeah I know I am croatian too ;)

Ah anyway yeah I love them really deeply it has been my otp practically since day 1.Oh and also this is the flower shop and tattoo parlor AU because it was practically made for them and I used my version of Italy because I can

Now about the ship warning I might gush a bit there is history with them since the beginning but it also depends a bit on how you look at it. Since Croatia became a kingdom in the 9th century the Pope blessed the country which was basically like being recognized as a legit country at this time though this is a bit hard to pin directly to Italy because at the time Italy was a bunch of countries. There were some troubles with Italy pretty much always because they wanted our shore because if you look at Italy they have very pretty much no islands compared to Croatia who has around a thousand so they wanted to use our shore especially the pirates so they are not at danger when at sea. The most troublesome one was always the Venetian Republic who at one point even raided and robbed Zadar. Since becoming a part of the Habsburg Monarchy there were not a lot of official interactions however Italy influenced Croatia a lot artistically and linguistically even now if you do to Dalmatia or anywhere in the coast they will use some words of italian origin (example: the standard word for carrot is mrkva but in the coast areas(čakavski dialect) they will use karota). The next official interaction was in WW1 when Italy was promised a part of the Croatian coast if they participate but they didn’t get it because it was promised by England who never owned Croatia and because America denied it which made them angry but they couldn’t do anything but in 1920 they did annex Rijeka, Zadar and the island of Cres thanks to The Treaty of Rapallo. After that in WW2 when after Germany conquered Yugoslavia and Croatia became a puppet state and was divided a part of it was to Germany and the other was to Italy also. There were a lot of bad things happening with their relations it those times (WW1&WW2) and Italy tried to force Italian on the Slavs but Croats also fought against it and a bunch of general negativity. Nowadays both of them have better relations and Italy was one of the first countries to recognize Croatia and a lot of Italians fought on our side in the civil war. Minus some political disagreements their relationship now is excellent and Italy is Croatias largest export partner and Italians are among the top 5 nationalities that visit Croatia during the summer tourist season. And in Italy Croats are generally a minority but there is a city named Molise where a good majority of Croats live and in Croatia there are a lot of Italians living in Istria and a town name Groznjan.

Wow thats a lot I am sorry but its also very non detailed so...If you want more info ask me I will link some stuff that explain it more and better. You can see there is mix of both good and bad things to their relationship and honestly I like that. Also I nicknamed them Salt&Sour with Croatia being salt because of the sea and Italy being sour because of their food. By personality they clash nicely but when they fight oh God do they fight. In the positive areas they are similar because they are both artistic, like cooking and like nature. Italy is romantic, charismatic, fun and handsome which fits Croatias ideal type pretty well and Croatia is good at taking care of others she dislikes it but she is good, loyal, flirty and beautiful so she fits his type too. I’m sorry its so much I did say I would gush and I love them a lot

#aph #hetalia #Axis Powers Hetalia #aph oc #hetalia oc #aph italy #italy oc #aph croatia #hetalia croatia #croatia oc #balkantalia #itacro #croita #salt&sour

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