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[fbj723]

smol 🤏 whb!coco redesign

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#recreating this format was a pain in the ass lmao #there was too much negative space so i added random comments for fun #yes ik theyre mostly mammon related im very normal abt him #literally made them wear a crop top so that it wouldnt just be skk!coco but recolored 💀 #my art #fbj ocs #whb #whb mc

[queenjunoking]

Wolf Taming Pt 34

CW: Manipulation

Flora

Of course she was dressed in rags. This was only the house of one of the most important people in the region right before one of the most anticipated parties of the year with an extremely curated guest list. Gift or not, Z was not going to enter the party like this.

I grabbed a random maid in the hallway as I pulled Z along. “You. Go to the second floor wardrobe. Black dresses. Elegant.” I stopped for a moment and looked Z up and down. “Small. If you’re smart you’ll hurry, we’ll be in the third floor guest lounge.”

“Yes, Lady Flora.” The maid curtsied and walked off as fast as she could. She knew what would happen if she ran. She also knew what would happen if she took too long.

“Lets go and take a moment to relax before you try anything on.” I gave Z’s arm a tug so she’d follow behind me. I could sense some annoyance which was fun, but she was smart enough not to say anything. I loved Z’s work, but she was nothing compared to me. Stepping out of line against a member so far out of your league was dangerous.

I looked lovingly at the art we passed. My home was a museum showing my brilliance. Each hallway showed off a different kind of art. This was the trophy hallway. In small alcoves in the hallway where slaves locked inside pedestals, only their heads and busts showing. Men and women alternating between alcoves for diversity. “Do you like these pieces? Unfortunately none of them are your work, but I’m not sure they would do well in these contraptions.”

“They’re interesting, Lady Flora.” I could feel her hesitate for a moment. “Your pieces tend to have a lot going on in them, is there something going on here I’m not seeing?”

I felt myself grin widely, I felt very happy that she caught on. “These were all unbroken slaves we got off the street. We gave them the option of complying and each of them fought back. Everyone has a lot of shock gear on before they were permanently encased in these pedestals. The shock equipment is attached to the signals of 20 other slaves each. If any of them are shocked, they get shocked as well.”

I grabbed Z’s arm and pulled her behind me. “All of the slaves in this hallway are chaff, even if they were properly trained they would never have amounted to much. They just cried about how it was so unfair for them to be treated like this. They’re just the stupid everyday cattle that are wrong about their place in life, so I thought I’d show them was unfair by having them punished dozens of times a day for things they didn’t do.” I couldn’t help but laugh when I reached the door to the guest lounge. “Ah, here we are.”

Z

I was still processing what Flora said when she pulled me into the room.

It looked like a boutique, not exactly the kind of space you expect to see in a place like this. I wasn’t sure what I expected out of a guest lounge, I wasn’t exactly someone who could afford multiple places for guests to hang out, but it probably wasn’t this. There were folding screens in the corners of the room, a bar off to the side with stools against it, and in the center of the room was a square table surrounded by three couches. The open space directed attention to a small walkway, probably for people to show off their clothing.

“You.” Flora turned to one of the maids that had been trailing us. “Refreshments. Drinks, no snacks - we're having dinner soon." The maid curtsied and hurried out of the room.

Flora turned back around and saw the state of the room and went red in the face. There were various dresses made of materials from leather to latex to lace and various other materials I would never recognize thrown over the furniture. Given her maids varying styles I had to assume she was having them try on various outfits so she could decide on one.

Once she was finished she sat on the couch in the center of the room, gesturing to the one across from her. “Please, Z. Sit down.” I made my way to the couch and sat down. Flora had a gentle smile on her face, something I always found unnerving.

“It’s wonderful that you could attend my birthday celebrations. It’s quiet at the moment, but most guests aren’t going to arrive for another hour or so.” Flora kept her eyes on me as she spoke. I had her complete attention, something no one ever wanted.

“I'm honored to attend, Lady Flora. It's not everyday that someone receives an invitation to such an event by someone of your standing.” It was generally a good idea to encourage the ego of someone of her rank. They rarely wanted to hear anything negative. Just be pleasant and positive and you might get out with a minimal amount of bruises.

Her smile widened at my comments. “It’s always an event people seem to look forward to, everyone wants to be on any exclusive guest list.” She paused for a moment as the maid returned with a variety of drinks. “A delightful set of options. But you can back surprisingly quickly. I was not aware someone could get back already if they were walking.” I could see the maid swallow hard, she must have been running. Flora wrote something on a piece of paper and handed it to the maid. “Take that to your overseer immediately, you’ll be getting something to make sure you walk correctly from now on.”

“Y-yes, Lady Flora.” The maid said quietly, on the edge of tears. I could see Flora was miffed that she hadn’t spoken louder, but said nothing as the maid left.

The room was quiet for a moment as Flora picked up a cup of tea and took a sip. “I apologize for that interruption, Z. But running about in a house just makes my maids look less elegant. They should glide across the halls. Hopefully a pair of ballet boots locked onto her feet will help her achieve that.”

I highly doubted it was going to help the maid. It was “the spiral.” It was something a lot of members loved to do. A punishment that would just lead into more punishments. Situations that couldn’t be solved. Watching them lose hope as new things were added to make their lives harder until they were branded as useless and turned into some kind of pointless object.

“You run an impeccable house, Lady Flora. I’ve heard stories of this place and nothing that’s been said even begins to measure up.” I reached for a beverage, it was rude to say no to an offering like this. I knew I chose wrong when I cracked open the soda I chose, I could feel her eyes on me.

“How’s retirement treating you? It must be strange to do so much work then have nothing to do.” Flora took another sip from her tea, but her eyes remained on me.

I thought about it for a few moments before I decided on an answer. I didn't want to answer too quickly. "It's been a bit strange. I lived at the Auction House until I retired so I was always surrounded by a lot of people and activities. Living on my own is quiet, unbearably so on occasion. I've tried to have a few personal projects to fill my time." I glanced over at a woman in the corner, I hadn’t seen her before. She was partially hidden by one of the folding screens. She was locked to a metal stand, bending her to the point it must be close to cracking bones. It might have been a punishment of some sort, but it wouldn’t surprise me if Flora simply forgot she was there. Given the amount of what Flora would call artwork in this house Flora must understand boredom, it was something they could hopefully find equal grounds on.

"Oh that's dreadful. Boredom is the worst a person can experience." I saw her glance at the woman in the corner. Based on the look on her face I was right on both counts, the woman was being punished but had also been forgotten. "Have you thought about going back to breaking? You could run your own service, outside of the Auction House. Millicent might not approve, but I'd sponsor you."

I took a sip of my soda. The thought of being able to do my process without having someone like Milicent getting impatient had a certain appeal, but there were other things I wanted now. I had to stay on track.

I tried my best to formulate an answer. Both one that was both honest and might satisfy her. "Lady Flora, if I may, I'd like to answer your question with one of my own. It might help me explain some of my reasoning.” I took another sip so I could let my statement hang for a moment. “Your art means a lot to you, doesn't it? I've seen dozens of pieces like these around your house in the short amount of time I've been in here." All the pieces were very elaborate and very, very horrible.

"It does mean a lot to me, darling." I could see Flora smile a bit to herself, reminiscing about the various pieces of art she had made over the years. "Each one is a statement, an observation, my attempt to communicate the cruelty of the world. Two things in the world mean a lot to me - my art, and my wife." She suddenly snapped out of it and looked back at me, seemingly waiting to see what the point of my question was.

I hated hearing her answer, it was the answer of one of the worst people on the planet. Who loved to hurt and torture for no other reason than their idiotic visions of art and beauty. But I kept playing the game. I had a job to accomplish. "I don't wish to sound like I'm prying, but Briar had told me your family was mostly made up of people in politics, but you've mostly stuck to your art." I sighed, trying to sound contemplative.I tried my best to ignore the annoyance that flashed across her face when I mentioned her family. "My current interest isn't as beautiful as your art, but its something that I want. It's something that demands my attention right now. My current project is important to me and it has to come before I think about the possibility to returning to being a breaker again." Sasha was important to me. I wanted her back. I wanted her by my side. I didn't want to return to being a breaker. I wouldn't while Sasha needed my attention

"What, praytell, has captivated the heart of the world's most talented Breaker?" Flora sounded interested, but her voice was a bit colder now. I needed to tread carefully.

I didn't want to overplay my hand. If I did she might just kick me out for coming to her birthday celebration for my own reasons, instead of just for her. But I wasn't sure how much she might already know about the situation. "When I left the Auction House I took on a slave and made it a dog. That one was... too easy. Seemed almost happy to be in it's position. I ended up selling it to buy the equipment to take on a new dog that appealed more. I simply want to train it and enjoy the process. I've grown somewhat attached." I went for the long shot with that one, it could backfire horribly. I was hoping Flora had some kind of connection with her pieces when she worked on them. How could you not when you spent hours with them while doing these horrible things to them?

"How darling." Flora’s voice took a tone I couldn’t figure out. I wasn’t sure if she was mocking me or not. "You're joining the puppy training club? I must say, I didn't think you were the type."

"My first slave became a dog based on the recommendation of another breaker. I had no experience in training and I was told that an animal slave tended to be an easier starting point since they tend to be more restricted than something like a maid or something else of that nature." I shook my soda and realized it was empty, so I reached for a glass of juice before I continued. "Perhaps you've found a slave that was perfect for an art piece? My next slave just felt right for the role. She was very big and strong." I smiled a bit, thinking of her. "Something about keeping someone like that under my thumb felt... lovely."

"Oh my, but you are smitten, aren't you?" My blood ran a bit cold as I looked up and saw her smiling at me. I had given away a bit too much and she looked at me with the smile of a predator that had started cornering its prey. "You're positively glowing... well, for you. Well, when do I get to meet this puppy of yours? What's it called? Are you joining the show circuit?"

The questions caught me a bit off guard. I had never thought about entering Sasha into the show circuit. She was mine, she wasn’t for other people. I tried to think of an answer, but luckily we were interrupted by a knock at the door.

“Enter!” Flora yelled, turning towards the door with an annoyed look on her face. It was the maid earlier carrying a small mountain of clothes. Flora didn’t even give her a chance to speak. “Put them behind the screen then leave.”

The maid did what she was told and curtsied before leaving. Flora wasn’t looking at her, but I’m sure if she found out the maid hadn’t they would be horribly punished. Once the maid was gone Flora reached across the table and with a surprising amount of strength pulled me up and out of my seat. “We can talk while you get dressed.”

I was pushed behind the screen before I could say anything else about it. I stifled a sigh and started to undress. “To answer your previous question, my dog’s name is Sasha. And I'm afraid I'm not sure you'll be able to see her anytime soon. I've run into a few issues with another member." I stripped out of the suit and folded it, placing it on a stool. "But, this isn't the time for me to talk about myself. Today is your birthday and we should be celebrating you.”

That was my first major misstep. I could feel her irritation with me radiating through the screen. A moment later she came around to this side of the screen. I covered myself with my hands, more out of reflex than any kind of embarrassment.

"The party isn't for a while yet, and your visit is my present from Rayne, who was apparently too uninspired to get me anything more than a conversation with someone who doesn't seem to want to talk to me." I could feel her glare burning into me.

I needed to do damage control. I dropped my hands, there was no need to cover myself in front of her. I turned to the stool and placed the suit on the floor before I sat on it. "My apologies, Lady Flora. It's been a rough day and I'm not used to conversing with members of your rank. My time has mostly been spent alone or with low level breakers. I didn't want to arrive at your house and start speaking of my problems like my only reason for being here was to get assistance from you." It was, but it wasn't important that she knew that. "I'm happy to discuss whatever interests you. My methods. Answering any questions you have about me. Sasha if you wish to know more about it. I just didn't want to arrive on your birthday while whining about my problems to you."

I watched her relax her body a bit, apparently I had said the right thing to patch the situation up a bit. She sighed, turned and walked back to the other side of the screen before continuing. "Z, I'm your biggest fan. I paid top dollar for any product of yours that looked remotely interesting that was walked or wheeled across that stage. You. Are. Brilliant. You break them down so thoroughly, it's hard to tell they ever believed they were human. It takes so much to make them beg again. You said you got bored with your first puppy, Penelope or something, so you understand. If they break too easily, it ruins the process.”

Flora understood in a weird way. That alone made me uncomfortable. Penny was boring. She followed orders without any question. She wasn’t even fully broken, it’s why I bought her. I thought the company was nice. But I realized I missed the challenge. I also realized that breaking her with my usual methods would render her useless. I needed someone that was a challenge to work on that I could start from scratch with.

I stayed quiet as I chose a dress at random and started to change. I wasn’t well versed in fashion and clothing, but I remembered one of the breakers referring to the style I had chosen as a mermaid dress. It was the plainest dress of the options. I looked at myself in the mirror, not entirely happy with how I looked, when Flora spoke up again. “So I want to hear about your Sasha. I want you to be my friend, Z. You want to be my friend, don't you?"

Flora was a horrible person. Her art was an insult to me. But if she was reaching out a hand I wouldn't slap it away. Eos has been a powerful ally and now she had stabbed me in the back. Flora was a fan and that might offer safety.

I walked back from behind the screen and gave her a smile." I would be thrilled if you're offering me friendship. I've recently been stabbed in the back by someone who I once thought was a friend and I'd love to have a new friend." I knew what Flora wanted to hear, so I looked for a way to twist my reasoning for why I picked Sasha. "Sasha is a giant. 6 ft 5. Lovely muscles. She was a college track star in her past life. I'm not tiny, but she would tower over me. Sasha was a challenge. With enough pressure anything with bend and break. I wanted to take this giant and get her to willingly submit to me. Sasha was a challenge to myself. Without using my usual methods I would get her to willingly submit to me." I sighed. "Or that was the plan until Eos got involved."

That dredged up a bit of a reaction. Her eyebrows momentarily raised, but lowered quickly. “Eos you say?” Her voice was neutral. I was a low ranked member, politics weren’t something that were for me. I knew high ranking families like the Feles and the Rosalinds were constantly breaking and forming alliances. The two were some of the oldest and most powerful in the region.

Flora grabbed me by the hand and pulled me over to a mirror and began fussing over the dress. “Tell you what Z, let's talk after the party is over. I think Rayne and I would be happy to hear more.” My heart fluttered a bit. They were going to hear me out. I didn’t want to wait to talk more, but it was all about playing the game.

“I would love to talk more about this, Flora.” I gave her a smile in the mirror.

“You clean up very nicely, Z. You can keep this dress.” I started to walk away, but she pulled me back and pointed down at my shoes. “Let's go get you some heels, then we can wait downstairs for the party to begin.”

Rayne

After Flora ran out of the room with Z I was left in awkward silence with Briar and the woman my sweet sunflower had been working on. It knew better than to leave the pedestal it had been standing on and if it knew what was good for it, it would still be standing there tomorrow afternoon when Flora would probably come back and continue working on it.

After a few minutes of silence, Briar just left the room. I turned back to the thing on the pedestal and walked towards it. It began to visibly shake. Flora had all sorts of equipment just sitting out. From tattooing gear to electric prods and other entertaining implements in case she got bored. I picked up one of the vibrators and roughly inserted it. The thing on the pedestal was smart enough not to make any comments. I turned it up to max and hooked a finger under its chin to force it to look at me.

“A little pleasure to equal out the pain, aren’t I nice?” I smiled at her, let go, and began walking out the room. I paused for a moment when I reached the door and turned back. “Oh, if you’re smart you won’t leave a puddle. If there is a puddle here everyone working in this wing tomorrow will be getting punished because of you. All you have to do is not drip at all until tomorrow, it’ll be easy.” I smiled at her then left, closing the door behind me. Even through the door I could hear her sobbing.

I grabbed a random maid and had her direct me in the direction of Briar. After a few minutes of walking I found her and kept trailing her. She didn’t say anything right away, she just kept walking and making sounds of disgust at my beautiful bellflower’s artwork. But eventually being followed seemed to get under her skin.

“So, what’s your game?” She turned around quickly and crossed her arms, trying her best to makeself seem as big as she could. It was cute.

“Oh Briar.” I said, approaching her. “We both know what my game is. You know why I invited her here. You know everything that’s going on. But I have to say I was surprised to see you. So I gotta ask.”

I stopped walking when we were face to face. I leaned forward and smiled.

“What’s your real game?”

[lgchunji]

✧ .・゜゜hello, lgc admods!

     chwe hunji and jin eunji’s leaf wants to say: “hey admods! i know this may look a little sudden and a little weird but by the time you see this, i’ve been going around asking all the members what they want to say to you guys to show their appreciation! i know admin e probably already told you, but i used to do theater for about two years and i volunteered my time. i probably worked fifteen-thirty hours a week at a theater and i did not get paid and barely was thanked but i always put in effort. i gave them one hundred percent of myself and, if i was lucky, i would get a five dollar starbucks gift card in return. i was so exhausted and even stopped writing because i could not handle how much of myself i was losing every day. i gave a hundred percent of myself away and got five percent back. now, though, with legacy, everything has been flipped! you guys put a hundred ten percent of yourselves into this amazingly fun and honestly complicated place and i feel like i never get to give back. i know the joy of it all is in watching people write together but for me, just having fun was not enough, i wanted to compile something together for you guys! you do so much for us so i thought it was time i give just a sliver of myself back to you. so! under the cut is a lot of people’s messages that i’ve gathered. a lot of members were unable to send in something in time so i do apologize that not everyone is here, but i added a space in the bottom for anyone and everyone who wants to add something at a later date, so admins and members, be sure to check that often! in the meantime, though, you guys are so amazing and this place already means so much to me, i really hope legacy can continue to grow and flourish beyond your guys’ dreams because you really deserve it! p.s. the below notes are not in any particular order of length or alphabetized, they’re just random C:”

     han insoo’s al wants to say: “thank you for your kindness and dedication. you guys are troopers. i’m not very vocal about things publicly out of shyness but also bad experiences. i hope you guys know i appreciate to be here and that you guys have kept this up for so long despite the setbacks. it’s been a while since i felt comfy in a directory. much hugs and kithes!! thank you for being so open and welcoming!”      kang yonghwa and choi daehyung’s muffin wants to say- "thank you so much for all of the hard work! legacy is not an easy rp to run with all these career branches and events going on. i appreciate all of the mods for making this rp extra special by celebrating birthdays, holidays and other occasions. I love you all muahhhhhh~"      liu jiao and ok miyoung’s faye wants to say- “i disappeared from the rp scene for awhile and was kind of lost when it came to fitting back into everything. but joining legacy helped me along and i am so glad i decided to put my muse here. thank you to all the mods and for all of their hard word. i felt so welcomed by not only them, but the other members of the directory as well. so thank you for the lovely community you’ve brought together here. i am happy to say that legacy holds a special place in my heart.”      yoon shinha and pongsak, tee's simone wants to say: “when i first joined legacy it was because i had some friends here and i had read about it a lot on twitter. i was nervous and scared, which is how i usually feel when joining a new place. working on my own points page from scratch was a first but i was proud of myself and i felt accomplished when i finished it. i joined as a connection and it gave me a boost when it came to plotting. everyone was so nice and welcoming and i honestly love that when joining a new directory. the events were many and i was both excited and scared at how many there were. even if i couldn't understand something i knew i could ask an admin or mod and would get a quick reply. i love how kind and supportive the staff is. i've been here for a few months now and i always recommend it to others. i know that no matter what, i can go to a staff member with a question and i don't need to feel stupid for asking something bc the staff are so helpful and understanding. the thought that goes into this roleplay and the events are amazing and i am honestly so amazed every time a new event gets posted. they give sufficient time frames for events and i know they try to make it as fair as possible. i honestly love it here and i love the hard work and the time that is put into legacy.”      park taekyung and heo jane’s bobbi wants to say: “thank you for taking the time to create this awesome community! the time and effort you put into this rp is what makes it such a fun place and i hope that this post brings you just as much joy as you bring us! <3"      mayura nana’s cc wants to say: “i’ve been on and off in the group, seeing the first time it opened and how hard working the admins were to coming back and seeing the amount of growth in just a few months. i truly appreciate all that you guys have done for your members, the patience and love you put into every little thing you do so everyone can develop and enjoy themselves. you guys make this rp fun and safe and i’m forever grateful to have found a true home for my muse. keep up the good work and i can’t wait to continue being here and witnessing even more love and growth from the team ❤️”       park seojin, im hana and kang seyoon’s sara wants to say: “hello lovely team. it's been a great ride thus far and i'm so happy to have been here from the beginning to see the community grow. you've built a really nice and wholesome place here and it's been one of the best roleplays i've been in so far. it's hard running things but always remember that people love and respect you and so many of us are rooting for good things every day. you're human too and if you make a mistake, never beat yourself up over it. you keep things so much fun. truly nothing more i could ask of from a team. i’ve sent other messages in the past but there's really no limit to the praises and support i can offer to you guys. keep up the good work!! ♡♡”      wu aaron and kim alex’s em (aka the awkward cookie) wants to say - "to the amazing admins of this rp, i haven't been here nearly as long as others but i really enjoy having my muses here! i love lgc so much and you're all amazing admins who work very hard to keep this place running with amazing events! keep up the great work and i can't wait to see what else you all have planned! (please torture alex as much as you can. xD) i don't think i've really talked to the admins here much but still, i love you all and everything you do! <3 please don't let any negative comments or reviews get to ya'll and just know you're all doing great!"       choi jongsuk, son jieun, and kim jinah‘s jen wants to say -  "@ the mod team from your resident meme! you guys know how much i love lgc. i'm not shy annoying y'all with compliments and praise. every sunday is a highlight because there is always something exciting being posted- be it just a date lottery update or new events; you never fail to surprise and spoil us all with fun and creative ideas! also the way you manage to keep things as fair as possible for everyone and still manage to not make anyone feel left out or left behind. the quick replies to any kind of questions are just so nice to see and it makes me personally not scared ever to ask anything at all no matter how stupid the question may be! i probably annoy y'all with how often i said this already but i love this rp. i love the graphics, the concept and the execution of it all. thank you for creating this amazing space for all of us to write and hopefully to many more years! true to my name i shall exit on a meme~"      hwang subin and han allie’s nic wants to say - “hello admins!!! it's me, a nic. i know that i've said a lot of this in the past but to sum it all up, i love you guys!! thanks for giving me a place to feel a bit more comfortable when i don't feel that way in rp a lot lately. i love that you guys are always gracious and accepting of criticisms, questions, and critiques and i hope you continue to always be that way because i think it's important for rps to listen to their members. i also want you to know that you don't have to stand for rudely stated words just because you do that, either!! i appreciate the time you take to answer my questions, whether it be through the manager blog or through discord and for all the opportunities you've given my muses ( even if ONE of them might not be so grateful. i'm lookin at u subin ) so yeah ;u; i hope u all are having a lovely day, pls take care!!!”      tsai sunisa, park sarang, and jung jihye’s the ghost rper wants to say - “number one, thank you for making legacy an rp! i'm having a lot of fun with all of muses! especially since it's given me a chance to bring muses i've played before alive in another rp. two, they're [the admins] awesome for all of the stuff they've managed to do for the group and how many options you have to be apart of the industry and do more background related stuff! third, just stay awesome and remember to put yourself before rp! since without ya'll we wouldn't be here!”      min soyoun and kim jinseo‘s clara wants to say - "hi mods! thank you for making lgc a fun and safe haven for us. i appreciate the love, thought, and effort you all put in every single mission/event that happens in the roleplay. you guys are doing amazing!"      kwon sihyun‘s shinobi wants to say - “thank you for making me feel welcome!”      park iseul and ahn dohyun’s nine wants to say - “thank you so much for all your hard work! over the months i've been at lgc i've always felt like the admods have kept every single muse in mind when creating events and moulding the rp to fit the members. i've never felt as in love with an rp as i do now. keep up the good work, i can't wait to see the rp grow more and more!”      choi max and im nari‘s jada wants to say - “hi there mods !!! i didn't want this whole appreciation to go by without saying some words of my own, so here i go ! when i joined legacy a few months back i was hesitant to even join, doubting that i'd want to stay to make it even past the next activity check. it was an act of pure impulse, but perhaps the best thing i could've done ! alongside the many great friends i've made along the way, if it was not for all the hard work you do, the roleplay would not be nearly as lively of a universe as we've all made it to be ! i always compliment legacy for the dedication you all clearly have to making it enjoyable - from events going on all the time, to in-character posts that liven the spectrum of our creativity, to your speedy responses and patience whenever we have trouble ! i think me and the rest of the members can agree that what you do makes us enjoy the roleplay even more, and we always will be appreciative of that !! i think you guys run the roleplay SO smoothly at times that we forget the hard work you put in and the bumps you might encounter along the way, but it's times like this that make me realize how much more we should thank you. because of the team behind it all, i've once again found my place in a roleplay that's made me feel at home, and always ready to write and have fun !! i'm extremely grateful for the passion you've shown us and i hope that i too can do my best to make sure your hard work pays off and give thanks ! i'm looking forward to writing with all of you and giving a voice to our muses for as long as i'm able to type, haha ! <33 “      ahn yeoreum’s kay wants to say - "my first experience with krp wasn't exactly the best. i didn't land myself in the most welcoming environment and was planning to never join another krp. but i took a chance in lgc and didn’t regret it. since day one, everyone has been so welcoming and i loved playing yeoreum here. the admods have worked so hard to make this such a nice environment to rp in and i love how well thought-out all the events and activities are. thank you so much, admods !! we are super lucky to have such a talented and hard-working team. <3″      ji haneul’s maddy wants to say - “to legacy admods uwu, thank you for your endless hard work! seeing how the community has grown over the last few months, as well as the tons of opportunities for character development has made my time here absolutely amazing. i just want to say how much i love the rp, and how inspiring it can be in churning my writing muses. keep up the good work, and i hope you guys would also be able to have as much fun as the work you've put in in maintaining the rp! take care, stay safe, and stay awesome >:D *flings plushies in your directions* ♡"      lee seungjae’s fifi wants to say - "hello admods!!! i just wanted to say thank you for everything that you've done for lgc! i haven't been here long but everything about it is great and i can tell you've put in so much work to make it the great place that it is!"      kang dana‘s jay wants to say - “thank you so much for working so hard on this roleplay and allowing all of our characters to develop however we like! i have never enjoyed a rp as much as this one <3"      hwang jaerim and im hyunjin’s jia wants to say - "hello admod team, yall know im always here to bother u all with my weirdness and you guys are all great to talk to. i've been lucky enough to have been here since day 1 and to see this place flourish and see all the efforts you put into the rp, makes me glad to be here. thank you!!"      oh max and park viggo’s lyn wants to say -  "as one of those muns that has been in legacy from the very beginning, i've witnessed this rp grow and i can’t help but to feel extremely proud and happy for the admod team who works tirelessly to make sure that the progress isn’t only with the rp but genuinely with the muses within it. the admins take it into their own hands to celebrate the achievements that muses have obtained and put them on the spotlight, personally i've experienced screaming and getting emotionally overwhelmed with some of the mods at how happy and ecstatic i felt with some of the results for my muses. with that said i want to make it clear that my muses don’t always get what they want, when it happens, i do share some down time with said mods as well- not to complain but to just talk. the same happens vice versa, when the mods' muses don’t get a spot in future dreams or didn’t get the center of a group, or when they land a cf spot or has made progress by moving on a different path, i'm able to witness their reactions as muns as well- which quite frankly is humbling considering that it reminds me that their muns too and not just mods. essentially what i'm trying to say is that based on my experience and mine alone although i have no doubt i'm not the only one who feels this, clearly this post proves it, that the admod team is not just there to provide us with countless numbers of events or answer our endless amount of questions and woes with admirable patience or guide us in the right direction when we misplace a point or two in our submits, but rather to present us muns with a safe and progressive platform to comfortably establish and allow our muses to flourish in a highly entertaining environment. so thank you legacy team for your heartwarming and admirable work, i know this hasn’t been easy for you guys but hang in there, a lot of us got your backs ♡"

these are the folks who wanted to add something after this post was first published:

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#lgckrp #( oof hope they see this lol ) #✧ .・゜゜leaf talks

[bitterxweetencounters]

The saga continues..

Navigating through life as a single 25 y/o has been..interesting. Although my love life remains non-existent, I will say I’ve had a few encounters in the past month or so which may be worth revisiting.

So two different guys messaged me over Facebook messenger. One was saying hi, and asked from which local I’m from, saying he saw me in a YouTube video (I think it was the CFO News one) where I was featured in, and then proceeded to send me a screenshot of me talking. I clicked on his profile and the guy looked like he was 14 - or 15 years old at most. He was inc alright, but too young for me. And also seemed too filo. Lol. We weren’t Facebook friends so I just left his message “unseen”.

The second guy messaged me after seeing me at our last online Meet & Greet, around a week after he added me as a friend on Facebook. He proceeds to start a conversation with me by asking me how my sister’s food truck business was going. Which I honestly thought was weird at first, but after talking to some people about it I guess it kind of makes sense since that’s all I post about on my feed. Lmao. I didn’t recognise the guy so I thought he was just some random inc person. He also looks kind of old and already married. He gave off major Dad vibes so I kept saying “po” to him. Loooool. Long story short, he tried to keep the conversation going and quite blatantly hinted that he was interested in me. But the feeling wasn’t mutual. I didn’t know the guy enough, and I didn't feel any attraction towards him from what I could see on his Facebook profile. I know its pretty superficial but you know how you just get a vibe from someone’s social media profile of the kind of person they are? Yeahhh, I really wasn’t feeling it with this guy. I showed his profile to one of my girl friends and they agreed we wouldn’t look good together. She said he’d look like my dad if I stood next to him. Which I found hilariously true.

With lockdown ending and covid restrictions easing, I’d been able to go out and catch up with friends. One of them was a guy friend from high school. Now before I go on about the catch up I should explain how we ended up catching up in the first place. I hadn’t spoken to this guy in years ‘cause we sort of drifted due to differences in lifestyle and new friend groups. Just the normal kind of drifting typical after high school. So anyway sometime last November (if I remember correctly) I was at Glen with a group of friends after we finished donating blood earlier in the day. We were standing outside a boba shop after buying some, when I felt someone staring at me from the distance. I look - and its my guy friend sitting down at a table with his friends outside the restaurant adjacent to us. Just as I caught his gaze, he looks away. Now before I go on even more, I should also mention that me and this guy sort of had a thing in high school..? He may have asked me to be his girlfriend but I may have rejected him saying that I wasn’t ready for a relationship ‘cause “I didn’t feel like I was ready” but that I thought he was a cool guy and all etc. I never told him (or even any of my friends) how I really felt about him, but I actually really liked him too at the time. Buuuuut, I knew we wouldn’t work out for a number of reasons. Which is the real reason why I rejected him. I wanted to save both of us the heartache to be completely honest. So back to the accidental encounter at Glen. I was actually so happy to see him. I walked over to him and his group of friends and said hi to him/them. He stood up, gave me a kiss on the cheek and we hugged. He asked me what I was doing there and I told him it was nice seeing him and went back to my group of friends. Later on that night I messaged him saying it was nice seeing him again and that I hoped all was well. We ended up talking for quite a bit over Facebook messenger after that and before you know it, we had a catch-up planned. So we decided that we would chill in the city for our catch up. My friend insisted that we drive to city, and that he was going to pick me up (mind you I am hella out of his way, on the way to the city). It was a heat wave of a day so I may have worn something backless, but nothing too crazy - a little out of my comfort zone, but very fitting for a Friday night at the city. My hair was curled. He called me saying he’s close by and arrives at my place quite on-time (but at the next door neighbours’ house actually lol so he had to reverse to get to me). I got in his car and we talked the whole time till we got to the city. Just caught up on things that have happened since we last caught up, who from high school we still hang with etc. One thing I did notice about him though, different to how he was from high school, was that this time around he seemed hella cynical/negative about people. Definitely filled with more pride, a little more aggressive than I remembered him to be. We had dinner at Shujinko, which is a popular ramen place in the city. He kept offering to carry my stuff for me, like my bag, my bottle of water. We walked around the city streets just talking about life, our past relationships, our heartbreaks. He told me he hadn’t been that open with anyone in a long time and a lot of the things he was telling me he hadn’t told anyone else. He was quite touchy - playfully squeezing my shoulders here and there. Playfully squeezing the back of my neck and playfully had his arm around my neck (both were a bit concerning ‘cause they weren’t as gentle as I would’ve hoped but I tried to brush it off). We got crepes for dessert which we had while sitting down at one of the benches in front of the State Library. The bench was empty but he was sitting so close to me like there was limited space available. Lmao. We sat there talking more about our past experiences with love. It all felt quite romantic. The way we were sitting so close, the gentle summer night air, the buzz of trams passing by, the quiet murmur of laughter and conversation of the people laying on the grass around us. If you didn't know any better, you’d think we were a couple on a date. We joked about possibly bumping into my ex in the city and how we would react if it happened. We sat on the grass (he laid ‘cause his pants were too tight lmao) in the middle of Federation square, and even walked along the Yarra River. As we were going up the stairs to go back to the main street there were some dodgy looking guys that I felt were sort of creeping up behind me so I walked up really fast. He noticed this and told me to relax and not worry ‘cause he was there. This one really got to me and it felt really nice feeling like I was safe and protected. He paid for all the things we ate and stopped me from paying for anything if I ever tried to pull out my card. He let me pay for the parking though and told me I was lucky he couldn’t be bothered getting out of the car. It was funny ‘cause we were worried the parking place might have closed ‘cause we were in the city that late. But luckily it wasn’t. He also kept telling me he didn’t want me getting in trouble with my parents if it was too late in the night already. I kept insisting it was okay. On the drive home we talked some more and he asked me what I’ve learnt I now want in a guy or my ideal guy now. I joked to him that my parents might still be awake by the time I get home, and he asked me if I wanted to just cruise and drive around for a while. I said no but I appreciated it. When we finally got to my house, I remember feeling a little nervous ‘cause I didn’t know what to expect. He asked me if I had fun/a good night and I said yes. “See you in another 5 years?” We laughed. I was low-key hoping he’d say he would be down to see me again soon, but I knew better not to expect or suggest that. As I look down at my bag looking for my house keys, he comments on my hair and asks if they’re extensions. I told him they were real and let him feel it for himself. Yo when I say there was tension-. I kept my gaze down of course ‘cause I didn’t want to deal with having awkward eye contact with him or anything. I found my keys, said my goodbyes and sent him off home. After that, no goodnight message and the day after, no message again. But two days later, he messaged me again complaining that the bluetooth in his car won’t connect to his phone anymore ever since I used it. Our messaging continued again for a week or so, but then abruptly came to an end after an awkward trash talking sesh (don’t even ask).

Okay so maybe I had unresolved feelings for the guy. And yes that may have unintentionally been a date. It reminded me of all the reasons why I liked him in the first place. The chemistry was still there after all these years. Hell did we have chemistry. We got along seamlessly, always playfully making fun of each other, which was a lot of fun. He was so much of what I was looking for in a guy. I knew he was a good person at heart, had values, principles, quite a gentleman/chivalrous, not a player or f-boy (lol), seemed to be an honest person, could support himself financially, had the same sense of humour, hardworking - not to mention tall and had a bigger build than me (I hate feeling like I’m the more masculine looking one in a relationship to be honest). But for reasons, I knew there couldn’t ever be an “us”. Which sucks. It was a nice few weeks though of feeling like I was in love. It always is, till reality kicks in.

#personal #love

[amethystdarkwolf]

Alone

This was based on this post, I also added a few of my own Logan headcanons in, my bad! 

I hope you enjoy it!

Warnings: Emotional detatchment, sort of creepy imagery, mention of Deceit. Let me know if I missed any!

Word count: 1,658

It wasn’t the first time this happened, but it was the first time the others had seen it. Of course, it wasn’t who he would have wanted to see this first… It happened at an inopportune time. Normally it just happened when he was stressed, lonely or upset, just by himself, but, no… Not this time. This time, he wasn’t alone, this time it happened in front of Roman. The brash egotistical side, the brave, yet so very stubborn prince that always managed to get him more riled up than even Deceit or Patton ever was able to.

They were in the middle of an argument. It had started out as playful bantering between the two, but soon the small comments and teasing remarks were given more force and meaning, then they turned to sharp insults, then glares, then shouting. Logan was already stressed, overly stressed, he had overworked yet again to stay on top of everything and the effect was starting to show. “Well for the smart side, you’re rather dense! I can’t believe you’re supposed to be Thomas’ logic! You can’t even tell a good idea from a bad idea!” The prince snapped at him, “And honestly! Do you really think Thomas needs you anymore? I’m the side that’s more important! I’m the one who’s helping him, with his job! He doesn’t even need some teacher just ruining everything!”

That’s what did it for him, Logan had been shaking with anger, his teeth gritted against each other in a way that should have been painful, his hands clenched into tight fists. Roman was ready, he was ready and prepared for Logan to snap back at him, he was ready for Logan to yell and scream at him. He was ready for that. He wasn’t at all ready for what really happened.

Logan looked at Roman, his face completely devoid of emotion at all, his hands unclenched, his mouth shut in a tight line, nothing about his expression showed any anger, hurt, pain, anything! There was nothing! His eyes were the worst part about it, they had been a deep, dark blue, but the second Logan looked back to Roman, they were drained. Drained of any and all color, and feeling. They were cold, robotic, inhuman. Roman flinched, “Lo...Logan?” He asked, his voice betrayed him as it shook. What? It.. it was just Logan, he shouldn’t be scared, right? Then why was he trembling?

“This conversation is over,” Logan stated, his voice just as emotionless and cold as his expression, making a shiver crawl up the prince’s spine. Logan said nothing, his hands clasped behind his now straightened back in a very formal manner as he walked off and back to his room. Roman let out a breath he didn’t even realize he had been holding once he heard Logan’s door shut. He stood there for a bit too long, those empty eyes seeming to burn into his mind, he was snapped back into reality when he heard a concerned voice, “Princey? You good?” It was Virgil.

Roman sighed, “Yes, yes, I’m quite alright…” he cleared his throat, trying to wave away the obvious unease. “You sure? You’ve just been staring off into space for a while…” The darker trait asked, obviously picking up the clues of fear and unease, he didn’t expect those kinds of cues from Roman… Something really must have startled him. Roman nodded, “Yes, I… I apologize, I was, thinking. Um, I’m… I’m going to be off in my realm for… The rest of tonight, let Patton know not to wait up for me, the poor dear always does that.” He spoke quickly, and with a hint of a nervous stammer.

Virgil decided to go along with it for now, though he didn’t believe that nothing was up, he nodded, “Yeah sure. Have fun.” And with that Roman left, spending the rest of the night in his realm as stated, leaving it cut off from the rest, making them unable to go in and check on him…

The second time it happened, it wasn’t an overwhelming feeling of anger, frustration, and stress that had caused this blank. It was a negative emotion that Logan experienced often enough, yet never could think of a logical reason as to why, so he stayed quiet about it. Lonlieness. It was to the point of a breakdown, one that he didn’t have time for, luckily this unhealthy instinct flipped the switch and he blanked, becoming the same, cold, emotionless, robotic shell of a side he was when Roman had snapped at him, unluckily… Patton just happened to walk in at the wrong time. He didn’t freeze and flinch back as Roman did. His reaction was much more vocal.

Patton shrieked, his hands immediately coming to cover his mouth. Logan looked at him, that same expression, seemingly unphased in any way from Patton’s scream, “What seems to be the problem, Morality?” He asked. That tone… That tone still empty, still unnatural made him freeze. They stopped calling each other by their traits a long time ago, his hands fell to his side “What, you… you don’t usually call me, morality, Lo… Are you okay?” He asked. Logan nodded, “I’m fine.” Immediately turning back to his computer screen to continue the work he was taking care of.

“Logan…?” Patton asked, “Please, there’s something wrong, what’s goin-” “Morality, please, I need to finish this. I will speak to you later.” Logan stated, not even bothering to look back over at Patton. The moral side just nodded and left, the room had an incredibly large sense of unease and tension, enough to make Patton a bit nauseous.

After a few hours, Virgil came downstairs where Patton had been watching light-hearted and happy cartoons to clear his mind. “Hey, Pat.” Virgil murmured, doing his two-finger wave, Patton glanced over and paused his show with a sigh, “Hey, Virge… um… can you do me a favor?” He asked. Virgil quirked his eyebrow up in question, “uh, yeah, what’s up?” There was a brief moment of silence over the two as Patton tried to word this correctly. “Could, you maybe go check on Logan? You two are, uh, a lot… a lot closer than we are… and he was acting… strange earlier… and wouldn’t tell me why…” He explained.

Virgil froze, a million thoughts racing through his mind, “Strange, how?” his voice was quiet, there was something, very, very wrong going on if Patton didn’t want to go check on one of them. “He, well, he didn’t call me, Patton, he called me morality, which is, fine? It was, it was just very weird… and he looked, emotionless, scary sort of. Robotic and cold, cut off, entirely. And that scared me because ya know, I’m very emotional. So…” He trailed off as he glanced up at Virgil finally, allowing him to see the level of fear in his eyes.

Virgil took a second, but nodded, “Uh, alright, Pat…I’ll go check on him…” After the small ‘Thanks, kiddo’ from Patton, Virgil made his way up the stairs and over to the logical traits door. He felt a twist of hesitation and apprehension. Why? It was Logan, it was just Logan… Logan was the one that kept him calm, that kept him grounded, why was he suddenly so scared? Patton could easily just be messing with him, it was October after all. Before he could change his mind, he knocked on the deep blue door.

“Come in,” was the almost instant response from inside. Maybe Patton WAS messing with him, he sounded totally normal. Virgil cracked the door open and walked in. Logan was at his desk, he glanced over at him a small smile coming to his lips, “Ah, hello, Virgil.” He was fine, he was normal… “Sup, are, uh, are you okay? Patton said, that you were acting weird earlier.” Virgil mentioned, rubbing the back of his neck awkwardly.

Logan paused, a realization dawning on him, “Oh, well, I’m fine now. I was… I probably should explain to Patton and Roman what happened... If I’m incredibly overwhelmed emotionally, typically in a negative sense, I will involuntarily shut off all emotions,as a metaphorical restart. I refer to it in my notes as ‘Blanking’” he explained. Virgil paused as he registered what he had been told, “So, you basically become a robot?” he asked. When he received a nod in return he sighed, “Lo, you know how bad that is, how unhealthy it is to cut off like that.”

Logan shook his head, “I���m well aware, but it’s always been like this and it’s under control,” he muttered. “If it’s involuntary, it’s not under control is it?” Virgil crossed his arms, “Logan, you scared Patton by doing that, I’m pretty damn sure that’s why Roman was so uneasy after your fight. It isn’t healthy for you or any of us, because one day you’ll snap. You know this, why didn’t you just tell us, so that we would help you?” The darker trait asked.

“It’s fine, Virgil, leave it be, I’m not normally around anyone when it happens, on the off-chance that I am, I apologize, but this isn’t something toxic, this isn’t me keeping all of my emotions contained, it’s simply, me taking a break from them and coming back. I’ll be fine, and I’ll leave if I start to get like that and I’m around any of you,” Logan stated, his voice had a certain edge to it, some kind of harshness that was unwarranted. Virgil shook his head, rolling his eyes, “Fine, but you know you’re being illogical.” He muttered as he walked out.

That was his mistake because, with the exception of appearing when he was summoned by Thomas or for a video, Logan stayed in his room. Staying locked away, and alone. Making him blank more and more all because of what he considered the most illogical reason. Loneliness.

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[brokemultidotexe]

Unexpected Pt.21

Pairing: Jungkook x Reader

Summary: You never expected your trip to Seoul to end up like it does. You didn’t expect to step off the plane and have coffee pour down your shirt. You also didn’t expect the guy to offer to show you around the city. You notice things about him that don’t quite make sense, like how he shows interest but will only see you when he has the time which is at random hours during the day and night. Who knew your only friend in Seoul would turn out to be an international star and just how difficult things could get.

Word Count: 3k

Warning: None

Genre: Romance/Friendship

Part: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 6.5 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | 10.5 | 11 | 12 | 13 | 14 | 14.5 | 15 | 16 | 17 | 18 | 19 | 20 | 21 | 22

“So…” you paused looking between the three of them, “you don’t think me walking around with three guys in masks, hoodies, and hats is going to look a little weird?” three of the guys had met you at their studio and each of them had their masks on as well as hoodies or basically anything that would make it hard for them to be recognized.

Tae put his hand out in front of him and a cloth mask hung from his finger, “Not if you’re wearing one too. Then we all just look like paranoid enigmas.”

“It's really not uncommon. If it was all of us then probably, but it’s just going to be the four of us.” Hobi motioned between himself, Tae, and Jimin. “Yoongi Hyung and Namjoon are in their studios with Jungkook. Jin hyung went to go spend time with his parents before we leave for our tour.”

You nodded, “Okay. Let me go tell JK we’re leaving.” You pointed behind you and the guys nodded in understanding. You walked down the hall and peeked into the window and saw JK standing beside Namjoon and looking at the computer screen discussing something about one of the songs. You gently tapped on the window and JK turned to look and saw you through the window. He walked over and opened the door and you smiled at him.

“You leaving?” he still seemed a little bummed over the idea but he had assured you that he was happy that you were going to spend time with them.

“Yeah.” You lifted your hand to show him the mask. “I’m not quite sure what we’re doing and they aren’t telling me much. I now know where you get it from.” he cracked a smile at your comment. “I just wanted to say bye before we left.” You closed the space between the two of you and wrapped your arms around his middle. He pulled you in closer and kissed the top of your head.

“Have fun and stay out of trouble. If you need me for anything call me I don’t care if I’m rec—”

“JK. I’m with your brothers, I’ll be fine. Now go record. I’ll see you in a bit.” He dropped his hold on you and you gave him a small wave before turning and heading back to the other three. You stopped in front of them and hooked the mask around your ears and pulled it up so it covered half your face. “Let’s do it to it.”

The guys were discussing where to go and what to do while you stood back and listening. Part of you was still nervous because you hadn’t been around his brothers without him for long periods of time and you still worried that you would do or say something that would make them not like you. It was an irrational fear, and you knew that, but it didn’t make the worry go away. “So, what is the plan exactly?” you asked looking between them.

“I’m trying to talk Hobi hyung into going to an amusement park.” Your face lit up at the thought of going to one. You hadn’t been to one in years.

“I love amusement parks!” Jimin started laughing at your comment and Tae looked smug.

“Sorry hyung. The girl speaks.” Tae shrugged and Hobi moaned.

Jimin came up beside you, “Hobi hyung is probably the biggest pansy I know when it comes to rollercoasters or anything remotely scary.”

“We don’t have to—”

“Oh no, it’s happening. Hyung will survive and plus, I can’t imagine anything more memorable.” He laughed and put his arm around you in a friendly manner. You liked Jimin, there was just something about him that put you at ease and you found it very easy to open up to him. You had recently gotten to know Tae a little more since you were now at their dorm most of the time. The entire group was very inviting to you and always tried to include you in everything, but it wasn’t to the point where it was obvious they were trying. It seemed like everyone had found their groove with adding you into the mix with them. You were definitely closer with Jimin and Tae more than anyone and you saw just how much JK favored them. You could see certain traits each of them had that had manifested inside of JK and made him into the person he was. Hobi was pure happiness and with everything going on and the battle between your brain and your heart it was nice to have that around. He was incredibly goofy and could have you gasping for air within seconds from laughing so hard.

Namjoon was welcoming but you still didn’t know him very well. He had stayed at his studio most of the time but you had managed to have a few conversations in passing. You were surprised when he came up to you one night while JK was showering and wanted to thank you. You couldn’t imagine how JK was before because that JK had never existed with you. You never knew what to say when they would thank you like they did. While knowing that you helped JK be happier didn’t give you that great of a feeling, it wasn’t because of anything negative but you now had that weighing on your shoulders because you knew when you left that you wouldn’t be the only one falling apart.

Your relationship with Yoongi surprised you and it seemed to surprise everyone else as well. Out of the older members, Yoongi was the one you felt most comfortable with. While he seemed like he hadn’t liked you, in the beginning, you just realized that was just how he carried himself, but after seeing his goofy side you realized that it was basically his version of ‘resting bitch face’. There were nights that JK would end up passing out on you while the two of you would sit on the couch after a full day of practice and it was then that your first conversation with Yoongi happened. You found that you had a lot in common and he was like most of your friends back in America but in a more refined way. You really wish you had started going to their dorm much earlier because you hated to have such a short time with all of the members. Jin had taken residence in your heart over how incredibly sweet he was and watching him and JK interact just made it even better. He was probably the one you had spent the least time with and didn’t really see often because he was working with a vocal coach every day to strengthen his singing before the tour.

You jumped when snapping fingers appeared in front of your face and Tae looked a little worried, “You okay?”

“Yeah, sorry. I got lost in my thoughts for a little bit.” You waved off his concern but your cheeks betrayed you over your embarrassment.

“Well, Jungkook is funding the transportation for this trip.” Hobi held up his finger that was hooked through JK’s key ring. Apparently, Hobi was the only one with a driver’s license between the four of you. The boys made you sit up front with Hobi while Tae and Jimin sat in the back.

“Let’s do it to it.” You clapped your hands you pointed towards the road and Hobi put the car in drive and turned out of the parking garage.

You spent hours with the guys riding rollercoasters and getting in line to any ride that was available. Hobi did his best to deal with all the rollercoasters since it was for you but you could tell that he was beginning to hit his limit and Tae and Hobi were enjoying it too much. After a few hours of torturing Hobi all of the boys decided to get food and you hadn’t realized just how hungry you were until they mentioned it.

The boys played a game to decide who would have to go pay for the food. Hobi and Jimin jumped in excitement when Tae ended up having to pay. Tae and Hobi went on the hunt for a place to sit while Tae went to go get the food after getting everyone’s order. Hobi waved you over to a place that was tucked away in the corner which ended up being the table of choice.

Tae came back with a tray of food and set it in the middle of the small table so everyone had access. You had all agreed to just share everything since there wasn’t much room on the table and you didn’t really care what decision was made you just wanted food since you had forgotten to eat breakfast.

“I hate every single one of you,” Hobi mumbled with his head in his hands. He had been a trooper for the most part on riding the rides and you felt bad because Tae and Jimin kept guilt tripping him over the fact that you were all there to spend time with you and that him not participating wasn’t nice. You tried to tell the boys that it was fine but Tae covered your mouth with his hand and tried to give you an innocent smile when you gave him the side eye.

“I’m sorry Hobi.” You rubbed his back. “I’ll make it up to you I promise.”

“I’m going to hold you to that.” He said. Everyone slowly started eating and talking in between bites. They told you stories from before they debuted. They had you clutching your stomach in laughter. You were enjoying your time with them. The boys were basically shoveling the food in their mouth and you were lucky to get as much food as you did. Because of the masks, all four of you were forced in a small table tucked away in the corner by the trashcans.

Your phone started ringing so you pulled it out and saw JK’s name. You put the phone to your ear and answered it, “Hi JK.” You couldn’t hide the smile from your face.

“Hey. I wanted to check on you and make sure you were okay.” You were thankful that he worried about you but sometimes it was like he expected the worst out of any situation where he wasn’t present.

“I’m fine. I’m having a lot of fun. Stop worrying.” Jimin reached over and grabbed the phone.

“Aish! You can’t even let us have her for a few hours?”  Jimin rolled his eyes to whatever JK’s response was. “We wouldn’t let anything happen to her. Stop worrying. We’ll bring her back to you in one piece so you can drool while you stare at her when she’s not looking.” Your face turned bright red. This caused the other guys to laugh and you buried your face in your hands. Sometimes you really wanted to hit Jimin. He enjoyed teasing the both of you way too much.

Hobi was laughing while sitting beside you and you glared, “I’ll make you ride another rollercoaster.” This only made him laugh harder than before. You were beginning to feel like they teased you as if they were your brothers and loved embarrassing you and JK any chance they got.

“Ya! Go finish your recording. We’ll be leaving after we eat unless Y/N decides she wants to ride another roller coaster.” Jimin hung up your phone without letting you talk to JK again, which you were sure JK was probably complaining about. While you loved roller coasters, the thought of actually getting on one after eating would probably be the worst decision of the day.

“I’m actually done eating, so I’m good with whatever you guys choose to do next.”

Hobi shook his head, “I have the keys and I choose to leave.”

You all laughed and agreed to go ahead and throw everything away and head back to their dorm. You had noticed that one girl kept looking over to where you and the boys were sitting. “I may be paranoid but there’s a girl that’s been staring over here for awhile and she just took a picture so I think it may be time to go.” All three of them instantly pulled their masks up and Jimin pulled his hood up since he had pulled it down when he had to continuously run his fingers through his hair.

After everything was thrown away you followed them out of the park and you finally let yourself breathe once you had made it back to JK’s car. The drive back to Big Hit was carefree and you were really enjoying yourself. It was nice to go out with JK’s members and get to know them a little better. It sucks that you didn’t do it sooner. It was like every thought was plagued with the thought of being separated from JK. You did your best to continue to push it down and not think about it because you wanted to enjoy the time you had with him.

Once Hobi had parked the car you felt excitement bubbling up in your chest at the thought of seeing JK. It was dangerous to feel this way but it had gotten to the point where you had no control over how you felt anymore. Tae wrapped his arm around you while you walked to the elevator that would take you to the floor of their company. “I’m really glad we got the chance to hang out with you. Jungkookie has a problem with sharing you. He really likes you.” You felt a faint blush creep onto your face.

“I’ve enjoyed my time with you guys. I wish I had gotten the chance to hang with you guys a little more before you had to start getting ready for your tour. I’m glad we got to hang out today because the I’ve only hung out with you guys after your done practicing and everyone is so exhausted at that point.” You smiled at him.

“We were all a little apprehensive in the beginning after he told us about you. I’m glad you ended up being able to mesh well with everyone. You mean a lot to Jungkookie which makes you important to us as well. I hope you know that no matter what happens between you two, good or bad, we will always be your friend.” It meant a lot that they thought that much of you.

“I’m glad, I hope you know that the same thing goes for your guys.” Tae gave you a bright smile. You saw JK out of the corner of your eye and he looked mildly annoyed which confused you. Tae dropped his arm and you made your way over to JK.

“Hey, did you have fun?” he asked once you were close enough. He gave you hug before you could answer so you were forced to answer with your face pressed against his chest.

“Of course. I wish I had hung out with them sooner so we could have had more time together instead of days at this point.” He pulled away and you looked up at him. He seemed content with your answer.

“Are you tired?” you shrugged. You kind of were but you didn’t want to miss out being able to spend time with him.

“I’m okay, why?”

“How do you feel about going to the Han River? I know I said I would try to find something else but I don’t feel like waiting until I can come up with something and the Han River holds a special place in my heart.” He gave you a sweet smile and you felt your heart melt.

“Of course. Just come get me when you’re done recording?” you hadn’t realized you still had an audience until Tae called out for the both of you to get a room. You put your forehead on his chest to hid your reddening cheeks.

“I’m done for the day.” He grabbed your had and laced your fingers together. You followed him out of the building and to his car. The drive was peaceful and he never let go of your hand the whole drive there. You were lucky enough to find a parking spot kind of close to the place you normally went when you came to the River. You stopped to get a drink and then you walked over to the secluded area you normally hung out at.

You sat on the grass and looked out at the water, “It doesn’t matter how many times I’ve been here it still amazes me every time.”

“You amaze me every day.” You looked over and JK was looking at you but it was different than how he normally did. It was like he was taking in every part of you and trying to look deep into your soul. You felt your stomach flip over the way he was looking at you. You didn’t know how to respond to his comment so you just smiled.  “I actually brought you here because I wanted to tell you something.”

Your heart started racing, “What’s that?” He cleared his throat and seemed like he was nervous, “are you okay?”

JK nodded, “Yeah, I’m just trying to figure out how to tell you. I guess I should just tell you straight up.” He took a deep breath, “I talked to Bang about the tour…and you.”

Your eyebrows furrowed, “What about me?”

“I asked him if there was any way that you would be able to come on tour with us or at least visit….” He was trying to gauge your reaction, “He said that he didn’t have a problem with you coming on tour with us when we do the American leg of the tour as long as we abide by the rules they set in place. So I guess my question is…will you come on tour with me?” Your heart felt like it was going to beat out of your chest. You were completely caught off guard. You weren’t ready to have this conversation but he had already moved forward with trying to solve the problem but you knew this was something you wouldn’t see eye to eye on.

You felt yourself getting emotional as you saw the hopeful look on his face and you knew you were about to hurt him. “No.” your voice betrayed you and came out shaky. It felt like someone was crushing your heart and you could barely breathe. You could no longer run from the pain.

AN: thank you to everyone who waited patiently for this chapter. I hope it was worth the wait. There’s a max of 2 chapters left...it’s weird to think that this story is almost finished. To the people who have been there from the beginning you’re a trooper. 

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Ranking Video Games Played in 2018 But Less Detailed Because of Procrastination

Starting this in the evening on the 31st, so let' see if I even get this done in time. Normally I start more ahead of time, and provide seperate detailed post for each game in my list. Initially I wasn't planning on making a list at all this year since I played very few 2018 releases. But then I realized not only that I played more than I thought, but that the non-2018 games I played for the first time this year deserve some love as well.

I conveniently played ten games this year, so here is the ranking of my top ten games:

10. Marvel Puzzle Quest (Mobile)

This game is garbage, and I play it every day. It's a Match-3 puzzle game, which I somehow never played until this year. And it's on mobile and with a Marvel flair to give it an edge, plus a Gacha mechanic for longevity and scum.

Pros

The actual puzzle gameplay is fine. I have no other Match-3 to compare it to besides Puzzles and Dragons, which I tried out around the same time solely due to Persona 5 characters being in it. And I enjoyed Marvel more. You can only move each gem one space rather than across a line or column, or straight up anywhere like in Puzzles and Dragons. But there is no time limit, which I really appreciate.

I like a lot of Marvel characters, so I don't mind them as the rewards. Each one also has different Abilities which make a bigger difference in the gameplay than I initially expected. I unfortunately do not have Ms Marvel, Gwenpool, or Silk yet, but I do have Spider-Man.

Speaking of, the free characters they give you are pretty decent. Within the first few missions, you will come out with Spider-Man, Iron Man, Storm, Black Widow, Hawkeye, and Thor. You can also get Juggernaut and Venom with only slightly more effort.

The game has thus far been very generous with the gacha resource, but I can't comment on the actual pull rates (which may be where they really make their money).

Cons

You may get a lot of chances to pull, but you have a limited barrack you can recruit characters into. And the resource to increase slots is VERY slow. Which means you could potentially pull a great character, but either wait a few weeks to earn enough coins to buy a new barrack spot, remove one of your existing characters, or give them money. And if you wait more than a few weeks, your un-recruited character will be automatically "sold" for resources. I've lost one or two characters to this already. At this point the smart thing seems to be to never pull unless you have open slots, since your recruitment resource does not expire (that I'm aware of).

The difficulty is all over the place. Even the so-called "Prologue" has unusual difficulty spikes in terms of enemy levels.

The leveling system is also garbage in general. You need duplicates of characters to level up, but higher rank characters start at higher levels. Which means even though I pulled and merged like 6 Iron Man, the single 3-star Dr Octopus is significantly stronger with no effort.

Final Thoughts

This game is garbage, and I will continue to play it.

9. Fire Emblem Heroes (Mobile)

Not long ago, Fire Emblem Heroes was one of my favourite games. But the game fell so far in 2018, perhaps outlining the heightened speed of a gacha game's life-cycle.

Pros

They started adding alts of characters that were not from Awakening or Fates. It's not exactly good that we're getting so many alts, but at least they're not all Camilla or Xander.

The new Aether Raids mode is legitimately good. It allows you to create your own mini-maps with different structures and traps, and play against other players. You win a new resource called Heroic Grails, which you can use to summon otherwise limited-time free characters like those from Grand Hero Battles, or the Tempest Trials. I should specify this lets you select characters, not go into a random gacha system. You want more of Joshua? No problem, just select him from the list and hand of the Grails, and you've got him. A lot of characters I like fall into this category, so I especially appreciate it. The actual mode of fighting in user-created maps is also fun.

Book 2 of the story had some good moments early on, and I liked some of the new characters. Said new characters were also added into the summon pool, and not as limited-time units either.

A lot of older characters got new weapon refinements to help them keep up with the cast slightly. Some of these are only okay, but some have been amazing. Still waiting for my man Matthew to get one.

Also this one is kind of cheating since it didn't happen yet, but we are confirmed to finally be getting Laguz (the beast units from the Tellius games) in 2019, which I am very excited for.

Cons

After a decent start, Book 2's story fell into disarray. A comically bland villain was the worst offender, feeling like an OC a child came up with that kept getting sudden new powers for no reason.

Said main villain is also the focal point of the powercreep in the game this year. The absurdity of how good 2018 units are compared to before is frustrating, and I say that as someone who doesn't particularly care about ranking. A lot of these new units and skill sets are just plain not fun to fight against.

Outside of Aether Raids, the game felt pretty stale in terms of having things to do, and I simply found myself far less interested.

Final Thoughts

Laguz will keep my interest for at least some of 2019, but I see myself playing this far less next year. And with a new real Fire Emblem game coming out, I may leave this game entirely.

8. Final Fantasy Record Keeper (Mobile)

This is an unusual one because I didn't play this game much this year. For a few months, I didn't even bother logging in. And 90% of the time I do log in, I just grab the daily rewards and leave. So how did this beat Marvel Puzzle Quest and Fire Emblem Heroes?

Pros

This game is absurdly generous with resources. Keeping in mind this is a gacha game way past it's prime, and being cannibalized by its own parent company through other newer Final Fantasy mobile games, Record Keeper has been trying very hard to keep people playing. Even as someone who barely plays, I am flush with good resources. Enough so that, if I get interested enough, I could probably catch up to the meta-game.

The game has also continued its policy of "characters are free, the gacha is for equipment" that I love. I have no trouble getting characters I want (new ones I liked added this year include Marche from Final Fantasy Tactics Advance, and Sora and Riku of Kingdom Hearts).

The gacha itself is also generous, with multiple event banners that guarantee at least one 5-star for every 11-pull. I wish other gacha games were this generous.

It also keeps the great aesthetic and soundtrack that got me into the game.

Cons

I've played it so much over the years that it's not super fun, but I appreciate it's there for me and doesn't feel like scum.

Final Thoughts

Thank you for doing a gacha game well, Square-Enix.

7. Mighty Switch Force (3DS)

Though I got this years ago in a Humble Bundle, it wasn't until one bored weekend this summer that I actually tried it out Wayforward's other first-party game. The Mighty Switch Force DLC trailer for Shantae: Half Genie Hero also helped.

This is an interesting little arcade action/puzzle hybrid that's a little unusual. It puts you into different areas where you have to use the main gimmick of moving things into and out of the foreground along with other puzzle mechanics to find and arrest some escaped criminals.

Pros

The main mechanic of moving objects forward and backward is pretty fun, and while it's been occasionally seen in other games it's worked more effectively here than I've ever seen. I also appreciate that most levels will add a new mechanic you have to learn.

The levels are short and easy to digest on the 3DS.

It's got the classic Wayforward cartoon aesthetic.

Cons

This is mostly personal preference, but I don't play puzzle games a lot; they don't hold my interest too long. So this was a one weekend game. I didn't beat it, but I got my fill in those two days.

The lack of story really drives home the "arcade" aspect of the game, which is frustrating because I like the often silly pacing of the Shantae series. I'm also someone who invests in characters heavily, so having very little to go off but designs really hurt my long-term interest here.

Final Thoughts

This is a fun little puzzle game I recommend to try out considering it's often on sale and under $10. It's far from the best game, but you'll probably have fun with it.

6. Bayonetta (PS3)

For better or for worse, my first introduction to Bayonetta was when she was added as a DLC character to Super Smash Brothers 4. Suffice to say I was bummed a character I had no interest in won the people's choice, and that definitely negatively tainted the series for me for a while. But after getting itnerested in character-action games by playing Nier Automata and Platinum's Legend of Korra, I ended up picking up Bayonetta on sale on the PS3.

Pros

Oh my god, the combat is so strong. I knew this from Platinum's other games, but it has a different feel. Korra was ultimately a budget game, and Nier Automata was an RPG first, but Bayonetta was a character-action game through and through. The combat is not easy to learn, but when you figure out and see the radical moves you're pulling off, there's a certain unmatched joy to the gameplay.

The plot is campy and silly in the vein of Devil May Cry, and has a good handful of characters I like (particularly Jeanne and Luca). It ramps up to hilarious scales.

The music is so good, and I wish more of it made it into Super Smash Brothers.

I love that you have a space to practice combos without any repercussions by turning off the timer in the loading screen transitions. This helped me so much early on to get a hang of which combos I could both pull off effectively, find a use for, and actually enjoy.

Checkpoints are fairly generous, and so long as you don't care about your score you can continue to try again with no repercussions until you win.

Cons

There are certain sections of the game where you are pulled into on-rails vehicles. These sections are not fun, and last FAR too long. To make matters worse, the best boss fight in the game is in the second half of a level where the first half is one of these terrible vehicle sections. Which means I'll never fight that boss again since I don't want to go through that initial part.

Through a combination of the initial negative reaction and the fact there are more interesting characters around her, I didn't end up attached to Bayonetta herself, which is disappointing considering how much I like Dante and the Nier Automata cast.

The first few levels are also far harder than the rest of the game. This happens because you're learning a new combat system, have less moves purchased, and most importantly do not have the Bat Within ability that increases your dodge invincibility. This move probably saved me so much, and you can get it pretty early, but not until you get past some hard parts. In particular, the first major boss has you contend with the above issues and, for no particular reason, is the only major boss without any checkpoints. This boss almost made me give up on the game, and heavily slowed down my progress and general enjoyment.

Probably the biggest issue is that this is a PS3 era game, which means you can expect tons of QTEs that cause instant death if you fail them. These even happen during bosses. It's such a product of its time.

Final Thoughts

If you can struggle through those initial hard (but not un-fun) levels and that first frustrating boss, you have a great game ahead of you. With some truly awful vehicle sections thrown in, but mostly great. At the very least, grab the soundtrack.

5. Dragalia Lost (Mobile)

Oh you thought the mobile games were all at the bottom? Then you forgot about Nintendo's newest IP, Dragalia Lost. Which would be fair, because this game is available officially in very few countries, and it's kind of crazy.

With the success of other mobile games, Nintendo decided to try out a new IP in a mobile game with the help of the experienced developers CyGames. What we got was a mobile MMO with a heavy anime aesthetic and a lot of love.

Pros

The character designs vary, as they do in any mobile, but one major strength of Dragalia Lost (and the reason I started the game) is the large percentage of dark-skinned characters. It may seem silly, but as a South Asian it's so rare to see dark-skinned characters in this aesthetic. You'll get your token characters here and there, but Dragalia Lost alone probably has more than I've seen in a few other series combined. I'm pretty sure they have more than Fire Emblem Heroes, or at least an equal amount.

The developers have been very generous with resources, and so far have given you a free 10-pull whenever there's a new event.

We've also already had a lot of improvements due to developer feedback, which is a great sign for the game's future.

The strangest thing perhaps is...the gameplay is really fun for a mobile game. It's a top-down action RPG with heavy MMO elements in terms of leveling and co-op play. While your party setup means a lot, your skill in-game means even more if you're skilled at dodging, effectively moving around the map, and knowing when to throw out which ability. As you have such a heavy level of interaction with the characters, you also feel more attached to them, which is great for longevity in a gacha game. Each weapon type plays very differently, and with different elements and abilities you get a lot of variety. You also have different dragons you can transform into as essential limit breaks.

I really love how seamlessly co-op is integrated. You can play any mission with or without co-op, and it takes very little effort to group up with people.

Cons

It's still a gacha game, so a certain level of garbage is expected. The rates of pulling a 5-star seem far worse than Fire Emblem Heroes and Final Fantasy Record Keeper. To make matters worse, you can potentially pull a 5-Star Wyrmprint (a type of equipment) instead of a character or dragon, thus resetting your pity rate.

In co-op, if a host quits the entire battle is considered a fail. Which makes logical sense, but it's frustrating when the host quits while you're winning.

Bows are also significantly worse than the other weapon types, but my favourite character is an archer. This presents a problem.

It’s only available in a small number of countries, with still not announced plans for others.

Final Thoughts

It's the best mobile game I've played this year, but it's still a mobile game. Unless you're looking for a mobile game, I recommend just appreciating the art from afar. If you ARE looking for a mobile game, however, I highly recommend this. And if you care about Nintendo, maybe keep an eye on this; I could see this IP eventually coming out of mobile.

4. Deltarune (PC)

It's tough to write these all at once. Okay, Deltarune. The surprise game from Undertale's creator. I still don't want to get into too much detail in case you haven't played this free and relatively short game, but it's been a while. There will be sort of spoilers below, so if you want to go in blind, skip down to number 3.

Pros

From the graphical style to the writing to the soundtrack, it's got the same great charm of Undertale in a smaller package.

The battle system is more involved and honestly a lot more fun. You're also not forced to go Pacifist to get the good ending, so you can actually enjoy it like a normal RPG. Even if you do go Pacifist like I did, the inclusion of different abilities gives you a lot more to do than just dodge enemy attacks.

The progression of Susie and Lancer as characters is fun to watch unfold, and the game does a great job making you invested in these characters within such a short time frame.

The final section of the game, without mentioning any spoilers, is also a nice little reward.

Cons

Simply because of playing Undertale, you may assume you have to play Pacifist and thus miss the main combat. This is untrue, but hard to know since you also want to go in blind on your first run. This is entirely a self-made issue, but it is nonetheless a common issue I can see.

..I don't really have any other negatives offhand except that it's short?

Final Thoughts

If you played Undertale, play this. If you didn't play Undertale, probably play that first and you'll enjoy this more. But you'd probably enjoy this regardless. And hell, it's free and under 5 hours, and runs on probably any modern PC.

3. Dragonball FigherZ (PS4)

There have been so many Dragonball Z games, but the quality never hit this level. Remember when we considered the Budokai games to be amazing because of the competition? Now we have a DBZ fighter that's not only the best of the series, but also a legitimately great fighting game when compared to the other big fighting series. No weird 3D mechanics, no attempt to heavily integrate fighting. This is just a solid 2D fighter with some unique elements and a DBZ flavouring.

Pros

Made by Arcsys, the gameplay is unsurprisingly amazing. It's fluid, has a lot of ease-of-use for beginner players, and a lot of more complex mechanics to make high-end gameplay fun to watch. I was able to teach some friends in a short amount of time how to play this decently, which is very important with a multiplayer game.

And despite most of the characters fighting extremely similarly in DBZ, each character feels unique here. They're all just throwing punches, kicks, and energy blasts, but they all have their own distinct feel. Even the various orange-gi-black-hair characters all stand out with different silhouettes and colour tinting.

The new OC that Arcsys seems obligated to add may be strange as an Android/Buu hybrid, but adding a new female character to such a male dominated series is much appreciated.

The online lobby is easy to find the types of fights you're looking for, and provides a good deal of variety.

Cons

The DLC lineup is awful. Two versions of Goku, two versions of Vegeta. Really? Do we really need that? Then we got Goku's dad Bardock, who visually looks like another Goku. And then we got Fused Zamasu, who is basically an alternate version of base game charater Goku Black. The only characters unique in both design and gameplay are Broly (who I generally hate), Android 17 (who's great), and Cooler (who's not quite as cool as his brother). There's so many good choices for DLC, but short of a second season, this is what we got stuck with. And honestly, good DLC characters can make or break my interest in a fighting game long-term. This was what broke it.

Final Thoughts

It's a great fighting game, and hands-down the best Dragonball Z game. But there's only one fighting game series that is able to hold my interest long-term.

2. Super Smash Brothers Ultimate (Switch)

It's still wild this was announced and came out in the same year. After being used to a long pre-release for Super Smash Brothers games, Ultimate really bucked the trend. It's also not like the other games in other ways as well, opting to include as much old content as possible instead of taking the usual "add a lot but cut a lot" approach.

Pros

One of my long-time top wished characters finally made it in: K. Rool! And he's so well-animated and sporting so many references! They really put a lot of love into him.

I'm vicariously excited for all the Ridley fans who finally got their big space dragon into Smash. They were always steadfast beside us K. Rool fans, and really deserve this win.

No one has to worry about their main being cut, because everyone is here. For those few people that legitimately liked Pichu, that must be a great feeling.

The core gameplay also received a nice boost in speed so it's not overly-fast like Melee, but still a lot more fluid than the other games. Bringing back moving air dodges, and clamping down on over-dodging have helped make the gameplay feel much smoother.

After the disappointingly poor single-player of Smash 4, I love all the single-player modes here. Classic has been redesigned to give each character a tuned and unique experience. We have a big single-player mode in the World of Light, and the smaller but more long-term Spirit Board.

Spirits in general are just a great way of reusing Stickers from previous games in a way that makes everybody excited. Seriously, they are just your typical gacha JPGS, but throwing effects and levels onto them really makes them feel more involved than trophier or stickers in past games.

My main, Zelda, got significantly buffed. This is really specific to me, but it makes a big difference.

Mii Fighters also feel far more viable this time around.

The range of music and stages in the game is just amazing.

Cons

For a game that promotes itself as having everything, it's bizarre and frustrating that the Stage Builder was completely removed. I really enjoyed playing around in there, and being able to use tracks I like from stages I don't like.

We also lost modes like Target Smash and the Home Run Contest for almost no reason. Short of these being added in future updates, I find this odd.

I could make a lot of complaints about character choice, but I'll keep it short and mention that I'm one of the few people not happy about the Piranha Plant, and I would really have had almost any non-3DS FE character instead of Chrom.

World of Light is also really long, and unlike the Subspace Emissary lacks cinema scenes. The opening scene everyone has seen is great, and then...that's it so far. I am expecting one more at the end (I'm maybe halfway through), and maybe one in the middle, but it's not going to live up to the SSE.

I also can't believe the huge backwards step taken in the online mode. Rather than having a separate Casual and Competitive mode like every other fighter (including the last Smash Brothers), there is only one queue, and you can easily get thrown into the opposite type of style you want. I actually cancelled my plans to buy the online service after I heard how bad this system is.

Final Thoughts

It's a Super Smash Brothers game, so I will enjoy it for a long time. The Spirits add a lot of longevity, but unless the online is heavily fixed I can see myself dropping out of this game within the next year.

1. Horizon Zero Dawn (PS4)

This game had such bad timing. Released alongside the similar but more anticipated Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild on a competitor system, and the different but same-system Persona 5, I think a lot of people completely missed this game. Or as many as can miss a big AAA game. If this came out just a few months earlier or later, I'm sure I'd see a lot more talk about it. But as things stand, it seemed to disappear from everyone's minds very quickly.

If you're one of the ones that forgot, Horizon Zero Dawn is an open-world action-adventure about a post-apocalyptic world where humans are left to deal with the increasingly dangerous machine robots built by pre-apocalypse humans, and is just as much about dealing with different tribes and cultures that emerge in this new world.

Pros

Alloy is one of my favourite new main characters in a long time. Not just in video games, but in general. While having some of that player-character "choose their personality" feelings here and there, she is mostly a defined and often interesting character with distinct strengths and weaknesses.

Voice acting from Alloy as well as the entire cast is superb, and really sells the world.

The gameplay is heavily archery focused with a lot of traps and different ammunition to help you bring down the machines that heavily outmatch you in a straight fight. The game is built to allow you to play with stealth or as an action game depending on how you select your skills. It's also got a good level of difficulty where you will definitely die a few times, but never get overly frustrated.

The story hits on many different points, and most of it has something interesting to offer. Don't expect story quality on the level of something like Nier Automata, but for a new IP it's pretty impressive.

One thing I love about fast travel is that, early on, you have to use consumable items to do so. This means you're initially encouraged to manually explore, and in doing so will learn a lot more about what the game can offer. Once you get a little further, you can unlock the ability to fast-travel with ease so you can backtrack and do quests without an issue. It's a good way to try to balance having people skip over environments.

Also it's a big AAA game with NO MICROTRANSACTIONS AT ALL!

Cons

The subtitles are pretty small based on my TV size and the distance I sit at. If you sit closer to your TV, it's probably fine.

For a game with such good quality everywhere else, the soundtrack is honestly pretty average outside of the main theme.

The open world is nowhere near as fun to explore as in Breath of the Wild, and holds far less secrets.

Final Thoughts

This feels strange to say for a AAA game made by first-party Sony, but please don't sleep on this game. It's really good, and it's been insanely cheap for the latter part of this year.

That's it. That's all the games. This took a lot more time than I expected, and I don't feel like proofreading since now it's already almost midnight.  2018 may not have had that many good new releases, but I found fun with video games.

Looking forward to playing Fire Emblem Three Houses and Kingdom Hearts III next year, and talking about them next December. Hopefully not on the 31st again.

#top games of 2018 #even though half came out in different years #holy crap this took forever

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Headcanons About Hiveswap Classpects

Yes, yes, I know that they aren’t playing Sburb/Sgrub and that Classpects will likely play no role what-so-ever in Hiveswap/Hauntswitch, but still, I can’t help but analyze.

Here’s a hecka long post about why I think these Classpects fit our four main characters. (I directly use the classpect analyses by @dahniwitchoflight​ here and I have added my own thoughts and opinions in (italicized parentheses), so, there’s that.)

Also, spoilers ahead! Read at your own risk!

Joey: Sylph of Life: One who Invites Creation of Life or one who Invites Creation through Life

Sylphs will calmly, analytically and happily give their opinion all about their Aspect. They meddle, healing or fixing any lack of it they notice. (Joey is extremely enthusiastic about healing and helping, and she herself has noting that loves “especially the healing.”) Their challenge is act upon their opinions instead of waiting by the sidelines

A Sylph of Life is one who definitely encourages the people around to live and grow and enjoy the life they are given and live it to the fullest of their ability! (Having experienced negative emotions herself, she is dead set on telling Xefros that he is brave and kind and all about how worthwhile he is.) They have an infectious kind of joyous energy about them and often have large domineering personalities. (Boy, yes.) They might have all kinds of ideas and suggestion for how to live life to the fullest and often try to get their friends and family to join in these things and activities with them. They always have a cheerful suggestion to offer, or a comfort food, or a cute plant or any number of cuddly animals they found wandering in the streets. (This is so Joey, don’t talk to me if you disagree.) They have this pure optimism and confidence and willingness to help others achieve the happiness that they have.

They also have an enormous power or strength, being unafraid to break down walls (literally and figuratively) pick you up from your depressed state and slap some joy and happiness into you. (Again; Joey and Xefros’ ending conversation in Act 1.)  They’ll physically pick you up and shake the sad out of you, like GET A GRIP YOU. They are also very effective in their optimistic methods and very efficient at creating possibilities or luxuries that the sad person cannot resist. They always have an answer or possible solution to your problem or “oh maybe you should try this? Have you thought about this? What about this?” And may not know when to quit and just mind their own business.

On the other side though they will not hesitate to tell you that they think you are enjoying yourself the wrong way and really you should do it the way the Sylph of Life would do it. They can get pretty picky about the details in this respect. Maybe they will share something that they enjoy very much with you, like a song or a TV show, and if you blink at the wrong part or talk through another or just plain don’t enjoy it the way the Sylph does they can get pretty stubborn about it and ask all kinds of questions and try to get to the very root of WHY you don’t like it? “Its amazing, it has all these good points etc.,” and may try to force you to enjoy it over and over and over until you admit its actually pretty good. (Joey seems this way towards a lot of Jude’s interests. “Why are into this? It’s not something I’m into, so I don’t get it.” i.e. Pogs, conspiracies, guns, his “pet”, etc.)

Jude: Heir of Space: One who Invites Manipulation of Space or one who Invites Manipulation through Space

Heirs naturally gravitate towards their Aspect or unconsciously seek it out. (It is heavily hinted at that Jude discovered the pieces/blueprints for and built the portal. I wonder how he came to this discovery, and why he choose to assemble it?) They huge amounts of Aspect related strength as well. Their challenge is to not get stuck on one thing, to know when to move on and adapt.

An Heir of Space would have a very strong sense of intuition and precision. (Jude is very detailed about his plans, even though it comes off as a playful act. And his intuition is off the charts and helped Joey a lot throughout the first part of Act 1.) They unconsciously seek out and gravitate towards the origin of things that interest them. They want to know how and when and where it all started. They are very likely to be history buffs due to this. (Conspiracy nerds double as history buffs often. And Jude is very fixated on the origin of things, thus his interest in conspiracies; they work with potential reasons for unsolved or mysterious events. And Jude wants to know all about it.) They may seek out art or fashion because it interests them, or they may have fixations on strange objects they find and wonder where they came from. (Absolutely Jude, just look at his tree house.)

They flit from interest to interest, being very changeable and impatient in nature, and nothing probably holds their interest for too long before they move onto the next thing. They may even wonder about the origin of abstract concepts like legends and myths and ancient stories. (Fits in with his interest in conspiracy theories again.) They may be very easily manipulated by others egging them on with rewards of their favorite object or obsession. They might even be manipulated by their random and changeable nature making them very willing to try new things.

They tend to like to share their varied and changeable interests with others as well. They are naturally very impatient with those not willing to try new things and may use their stubbornness to let others be manipulated, kind of like going “well if you’re not going to do it or listen to me then HMMPH to you! *crosses arms and looks angry*” cue adorable guilt trip. (Literally Jude. He is extremely passionate that Joey listen and believe him and everything he says. Even if it is a little silly sounding.) They might be small physically and easily pushed around, or easily led into anything that seems new or fun. It brings to mind the image of a child with a passionate hobby or a small socially awkward bookish nerd. (JUDE.)

Xefros: Page of Time: One who Invites Exploitation of Time or one who Invites Exploitation through Time

Pages start with a deficit in their Aspect that they confidently overcome through obvious overcompensation. (Literally doesn’t have enough time to work on his sports, music, and butler training.) Their challenge is to keep at it, even if they fail and the journey is slow, for they become the strongest players. (I want to note that Xefros’ lusus is a literal sloth and also that his theme was specifically noted as “plodding”)

A Page of Time would then actually like they totally got a grip on Time, when they really don’t. They may act like they understand the concepts of fate and destiny, but will more than likely be a little off. They may try very hard to seem to be patient and understanding when really you can see they feel impatient and don’t understand. (Makes very clear remarks about being confused about a lot of concepts Dammek has taught him and also gets a little irked on occasion with Joey during their first interaction.) Pages at first give the impression that they’re not really trying hard enough to get the obvious stuff, even if they are. They might have horrible singing or musical skills, but be totally convinced that they’re actually pretty good. (Xefros makes a comment that Dammek’s mic gift might have been a hint that his voice wasn’t that good. He also mentions that Dammek probably wouldn’t let him compete in a deadly singing competition without the autotune mic, probably because, he would likely not win, and thus, be culled. Yet still, Xefros is very much into his singing.)

They might at first not grasp the concept that eventually everything ends or leaves or goes away sometime. They may even have very bad instincts about things and even bad memories. (This boy has bad instincts; he thinks being under a pile of rubble is “ok” and, honestly? I’m surprised he wasn’t frightened of Joey being an alien, the boy really is too trusting. Speaking of! Xefros even says Dammek said he “needs to stop being so trusting.”) They might let their own fates or destinies be used against them. (Seems pretty hung up on being stuck as a Rustblood and is overall compliant with whatever Dammek wants him to do. He doesn’t put much effort into control over his destiny.) Pages of Time may be a bit over destructive in their attempt to overcompensate for not really knowing when the right Time to strike really is. (I have a feeling his whole ‘putting the batteries into the portal without being explictly asked to by Dammek’ may be a good example of Xefros’ poor timing and how he is prone to jump the gun. Also, how he immediately jumps to conclusions a lot in his and Joey’s conversation.) Picture someone playing whack-a-mole, constantly missing and saying ‘I got this! I got this!’ unintentionally destroying things in their one-track minded attempt to win. (He has too many burdens to handle and not enough hands.)

They might be totally convinced by someone using horribly fake fortune telling bullshit that their destiny was one thing, and then head towards it full speed ahead destroying their chance at their real destiny. (Xefros going blindly along with Dammek’s endeavors at teaching him butlery and even getting him into their band, pulling away from his true interest, cueball and sports.) Their challenge is pretty straightforward, don’t be discouraged and practice makes perfect. (“Practice makes adequate. That’s the Burgundy way.”) Pages have the unique ability to keep trying without really getting discouraged even its obvious their failing horribly no matter what they do, but eventually all that practice and failure is going to make them masters of their Aspect. (Xefros might be overly anxious and concerned, but Lord knows this child doesn’t necessarily seem discouraged. He’s pretty brave despite his submissiveness!)

(Also, the boy has a lot of Dave Strider references in his home. You know, Dave Strider? Knight of Time?)

Dammek: Prince of Breath: One who Destroys with Breath or Destroys Breath

Princes ghost their opposite Aspects as they destroy theirs. (The opposite of Breath is Blood. Dammek is all for communism it seems, which definitely more adhering to Blood- groups and connections- than Breath- indivualism and freedom. What a way to start this analysis: Alien Communism.) .They are violently stubborn pessimistic people that stop at nothing to reach their goals. Their challenge is to not destroy themselves along their destructive path. (We don’t know enough about him yet, but from context clues, Dammek seems to be a stubborn individual and also headstrong and a natural born leader. A leader with a bit of a narrow view. Not to mention paranoia can often lead to pessimistic viewpoints.)

A Prince of Breath would ghost Blood as they destroy Breath. (Dammek is very attached to keeping Xefros attached to him. He’s all about connections and Blood, and not so much freedom and Breath. I mean, the dude has cameras in Xefros’ room, he definitely doesn’t acknowledge personal space. This is probably due in turn to his paranoia, and he is likely paranoid about being left alone I imagine, so this may be why he is so set on keeping eyes on Xefros and on keeping him at his side.) They might be passionate and committed to some cause or purpose and would very stubbornly focus on some sort of single-minded goal. (The rebellion.) They are good at using their connections they have as a means to an end and can be very good at working as a team with a group of people. (Using Xefros to a bit of an overreaching extent. You took his hoverpad and re-painted it as your own, man.) They are very stubborn people like I mentioned before, always making sure they do what they want, being simultaneously committed to their pursuits and unwilling to let anyone hold them back from them. (This will probably prove to be true in Hauntswitch.) But in this way they can also be somewhat reliable in the sense that they are predictable in what course of action they are likely to take and when.

Just as easily as they work with others, they can instantly separate themselves to move forward in their own goals as they deem it necessary. I can see them being very flexible fast moving fighters, dancing twisting and jabbing at opponents from every angle with their own bodily strength. They can also be good at trapping others, or binding them together in attachments or obligations towards them, creating a mutual interdependence with everyone involved. (Well, he’s certainly made Xefros feel extremely dependent and hopelessly attached to him, that’s for sure. The poor boy sounds like he has a hard time figuring out what to do without him.) They can destroy a person’s sense of uncaring and apathy and make them passionate about a cause, likely the same one they are passionate about. (Making Xefros engaged in the rebellion and in playing a role in their band. Though Xefros does indeed seem to enjoying singing, it was very clear that he started it because Dammek made him get into it. “It’s important to be invested in your friend’s interests” is a direct line from the narrator in Xefros’ room.) They can be very inflexible people but also very good at uniting a group of people under the same cause, the same banner.

Their stubborn single-minded borderline selfish causes can also leave them disconnected and indifferent to the concerns or influence of other people. They might even become apathetic to anything not directly related to their cause. (Dammek seems very much like he cares about Xefros, but unfortunately, there is a lot of proof that he is very negligent about Xefros as well, and is ignorant to things affecting Xefros that don’t affect him as well. From context clues, he seems to be a little bit selfish.) Going too far with these Breathy ideals can leave a Prince of Breath in danger of being caught up in the whirlwind of their own feverish daydreams and goals. If they aren’t careful, they might end up being destroyed themselves by Breath, by all the options they have, all the immaterial things that don’t yet exist but just maybe could one day if they push hard enough. (Once again, we really don’t know enough about the guy, but I feel like, just from context clues alone, this is a very likely candidate for Dammek’s personality.)

So yeah! That’s my analysis on how the kids fit the classpects I headcanon them as having! Thank you for reading this and thank you @dahniwitchoflight​ for your hard work and your own analyses that I used as a basis!

If you guys have anything to contribute, such as other key points, quotes, etc.) or if you just wanna share you’re OWN opinion on classpect headcanons, please Ask or Message me! I love conversing and sharing ideas!

#Hiveswap #Joey Claire #Jude Harley #Xefros Tritoh #Dammek #Hiveswap spoilers

[toussainttomove]

#WOD AKA Windows Of Displacement. (update)

Greetings to whoever is reading this blog. It is starting to feel like an echo chamber as I haven’t been approached by a kind stranger commenting on my poor use of grammer. Let us put that aside as there has been much positive developments surrounding one self at the moment and it feels good. 

Let’s see. So last we spoke I was going into my week @Pure Heart Centre with Zodwa Nyoni. We worked tirelessly- *(not really). To be honest we piped down a lot compared to my anxious expectations, which made me chill out. 

I went in head first....... 

And was brought to my senses by sitting down and reading the script. The act of reflection, is most powerful when reached through a seemless state. Then the concious refelction can begin.

Looking at the script, disecting it, feeling it, saying it, moving it, keeping it still. All of this allowed myself and Zodwa to write the gaps in the script which helped me bring the piece into moving. This was met actully with a hesitation to fully dance as I didn’t know the new bits fully. However by the time we got to Thursday I felt more with it, more confident and more tired haha.  Outside the studio I write demos of what can be parts of the piece. The time with Zodwa on Monday and Tuesday was spent cleaning what I previously wrote and cleaning the new parts I wrote. It was also spent bringing ourselves back up to speed with the piece.

(Zodwa likes pink I think)

The sharing @Pure Heart Centre was purely to spark conversation and that we did. We could have spoken all night. The participants had so much to challenge and expand on the piece. They also confirmed the use of some elements and decisions I made. This put a smile in my heart as I begun to feel that I am on the right road. 

The sharing also showed me that I do get nervous and I do know how it feels to be nervous and completely forget what you’re doing in a room filled with some new and old faces. One does crumble when one is feeling nervous, yes one does. I only say this as for the past year and a bit ive toured around the country performing in a company of 11 and in all the nervous moments we styled it out, we backed each other up, our eyes met and all was saved. 

For this I am alone, all I have is what myself and others will be creating, there is no safety net. There is only knowing your shit and executing it to the truest of yourself in that moment. For this I base my mishaps on Saturday on the truth that the piece is not finished and will not be fully within it until it is finished. 

Slowly though I feel this happening as today I was quoting parts of the piece. I am also realising this work is more than just a dance or theatre piece. It is in a way a manifesto for humanity, a manifesto on how to make small shifts in creating a better world. It is a manuel explaining that it is hard, so hard to change the world but easier yet very hard to make the changes in yourself which will impact the world.

Heres a link to a summary of the sharing filmed and edited by Tom Bosley

After sharing the piece I then lead my regular workshop @Pure Heart Centre. Never Alone was participated by two amazing invididuals on Sunday 15th of Jan 2017. It was a blast seriously, it was weird going from being in a room with 10-15 people watching me and adding thoughts. To then leading a workshop for two people the next day. Did I promote the workshop? yes Did I tell people the cost? yes Maybe that did it. haha 

Anyways it was amazing and I relearned how to do my workshops again. As it has been a while since I last lead people in the Never Alone journey but when I do it is always something quite transformational for me and for them. I get face to face with my fear of leading and they come face to face with their fears; to be seen, or not to be seen, am I funny, does this look good?, why am I doing this? From childhood recollections to adulthood realisations. So much comes up in these workshops so I am feeling it is my duty to take this work furthor.

Leeds is Awesome!!!!

I seriously love this city. I love it so much I am making a film around it. This brings me to today. I did the first day shooting for my Random Acts Comission. The portrait shots of people being people. This entailed people from different walks of life, existing on camera together or alone in some cases and maybe saying a word or two of my poem to the camera. This was fun like super fun. I got to be bossy and not feel guilty about it because time was going andthe clouds were brewing. I felt the day went very well despite the unplanned happenings of seemingly negative nature. There were a lot of positive unplanned stuff too. 

I will tell you a moment now but it maybe won’t do justice. We walked up Briggate and I seemlessly stopped behind one of the volunteers without realising. Turns out he was hungry and wanted falafel too on his way to meeting us as we were on our way to meet him. Thing is I forgot he was in the film until I saw him and then it all clicked. I was just happy to see him. Super happy!!!!

We did 3 locations in the space of 4 hours all in this beautiful City. We went to Leeds Bridge, Market Wall and Town Hall. All monumental parts of the city encapsulating the beauty and diversity of the landscape and people in the city. 

I cannot wait to film the other parts and get the fim edited and sent to channel 4. Then I can be nervous again haha feels like im goingthrough a series of nervousness and confidence.

It also seems like ive been making a lot of films. I spent 6 hours this week rehearsing and creating for Zodwa Nyoni’s first screen play “Notes on Being A Lady”. This is an independent project which we are doing to keep the ball rolling on a collaborative relationship. My role this time around was movement director and the mover I was directing was Pariss Electra. Musical genius, with a stunning voice (when she sings all the heavens stop and put one fist in the air) and amazing personality, she is definately a soul sister.  

Working on Zodwa’s project as a movement director gave me such a rush again because I could be bossy. Deeper than that I was seeing visions in the moment and had the space to bring them to reality, my creative input was valued as I have valued so many in the past. I feel working the way I am working now will allow myself to grow as an artist. No safety net, no director above me. True clear collaboration to sustain this upward motion within and without one self.

I leave you now with this beautiful image taken by Jamal Gerald.... 

#artlife #love #toussainttomove #dance #theatre #magic #beauty #beats #life #peace #activism #soul