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#this post sucks but its been distracting me so i had to write it down
wonderinc-sonic · 10 months
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DnD Classes they would actually choose to play
(not what they are as characters, Sega did that for better or worse)
Sonic: Rogue; obviously to be speedy, but also enjoying the chance to cut loose and be a bit of an antihero sometimes. Enjoys being dodgy and snarky
Tails: Forever DM, but also a beast multiclass builder. Not that interested in playing low level as finds the options limiting. Takes 10 minutes per turn, and always has something that'll hit.
Knuckles: The straightest laced Champion Fighter. Swinging til down, swinging as soon as he's up; if in initiative, he will be hitting something. Actually plays for the out of combat sessions.
Amy: Bard main who brings her ukulele and writes little two-line tunes for her inspiration and vicious mockery rolls. Chats to every NPC for way too long.
Cream: Amy helps her build a great paladin and gives her hints on how to use it until she's confident. Surprised everyone by making them evil aligned, but they mostly act really sweetly. Occasionally, they're terrifying.
Shadow: Sorcerer or Warlock. Very obvious self insert for free therapy. Sulks massively when he misses.
Rouge: Is originally here to look at and play with shiny dice. Picked warlock to take the piss out of Shadow being edgy. Unironically, the best strategist and rp-er at most tables, but always insists she isn't trying. Her characters start as jokes, but their deaths will make you cry.
Blaze: Everyone thought she'd be a serious strategist, but this is her chillout time, so she's a Druid and almost always wildshaped. Clawing and Maiming, sleeping on the roof, talking to no NPCs.
Silver: Thought he would enjoy being a monk, got sick of being told he wasn't acting high wis enough, so he switched to Barbarian, and never looked back.
Vector: Thought he would enjoy being a Barbarian, but backseated the smarter characters so bad he killed the barbarian and came back with a Wizard. Actively loves rolling death saving throws.
Espio: Always ends up being a cleric because nobody else built a healer. Doesn't mind, likes feeling needed. Very economical of spellslots, though, so he'll wait until you're on the ground to bring you up.
Charmy: Beastmaster Ranger, because he is on a crusade to get a pet/mascot for the Chaotix. Said animal companion is named Chicken Nugget, and gets killed 4 sessions in. This derails the whole campaign as everyone has to go on a quest to find the most powerful magical item to revive Chicken Nugget.
Big: never plays, assumed to be opposed to learning a game with too many rules. Actually a veteran player and expert, but chooses to write modules instead as his friends are too loud when they play. When he finally concedes to run a game for a few of his friends, they are shocked that all monsters are homebrewed, all rulings are absolute, and they have to fight like hell to win against him - it's a great challenge.
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oneirophobic · 10 months
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hey!! i totally get it if you’d be uncomfy w this but is there any way you would write chris helping reader with like struggles around food but in a low-key/subtle way? i love ur writing but again if it’s not a topic you feel ok writing for that’s totally fine!!! thank you
patience - chris sturniolo
pairing : chris sturniolo x reader
genre : kinda angsty fluff
warnings : disordered eating, not very subtle, not proofread well
a/n : i am totally comfortable with writing stuff like this! almost anything you guys would like to see, i will be more that happy to write it for you! (i am so sorry this sucks, it was insanely rushed. also sorry for not posting it when i said i would.)
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i had a bad relationship with food ever since middle school, thinking i was different because of the slightest pudge. and that stuck with me all the way to now, comparing myself to instagram models as if i had zero idea they were edited.
chris knew of my thoughts, and he was always the one to distract me from them and let me run.
i had been in one of those episodes of skipping meals, just downing bottles of water to suppress the grumbling that my stomach produced.
chris realized the absurd increase of water i was consuming and found the sandwich matt got me hidden away in the back of the refrigerator. that's when he took it upon himself to take action.
he shuffled around the kitchen preparing something i would possibly eat. the only thing he was able to come up with was buttery pasta, something easy to face.
he came waddling up the stairs with a small bowl in hand, to not scare me with the portions. "y/n/n," he said in a singsong voice as he walked into the room.
"whatt," i responded, marking the place in my book to flip onto my back and face him. "do you want some of my pasta?" he politely smiled, attempting to make himself less suspicious as he sat down next to me on the bed.
"i'm fine, i'm not hungry," i said softly, sitting up to place a kiss on his nose, "thank you though." chris was visibly hurt, "i know you didn't eat the sandwich matt got you," he said.
i became defensive, "what? i did!" i lied. "no you didn't, you stashed it in the back of the fridge," he spoke gently.
a lump had climbed its way into my throat, forcing tears to form. "hey, hey, hey, no no no no," chris said frantically, placing the bowl on the nightstand and wiping my tears.
"i'm sorry chris," i cried, leaning into his chest while his arms wrapped around me. "you're okay baby, i know it's hard for you," he whispered into my hair.
"can you at least try to eat a little bit of this?" he asked, picking up the bowl. i stared at the bowl and then looked at him.
"can you eat it with me?" i asked, looking into his deep blue eyes. "of course baby," he said, "be right back," as he ran downstairs to get himself a bowl.
when he came back, we both had pasta wrapped around our forks as he sat across from me. he counted us down before we both took the forks into our mouths.
he smiled at me as i put the fork back into the bowl and opened my mouth to show him it was gone. "you did it!" he cheered, "see wasn't so bad was it?"
i shook my head as he cradled my face with both his hands, "i am so proud of you," he smiled, leaning in to gently give me a buttery kiss.
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wlwprker · 5 days
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your little things- tom!peter parker x reader
a/n: I have a lot of old stuff that was posted on my old Tumblr, and this was one of them :)
warnings: brief mentions of anxiety, not proofread a lot so I apologize for grammar or spelling mistakes! italics indicate a flashback.
w/c: 1,847
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-Peter Parker-
Peter was aware that you didn't think he noticed or paid attention to the little things that you do but he does, he always pays attention to you.
He notices the way that you love to sit by the window reading a book when it rains because the sound of the rain hitting the window makes you feel calm. He admires how you can get so caught up in your books and how your face lights up with different emotions depending on what was happening in the books you always got lost in.
Your little things that make you so wonderful, he notices them all and he loves them all because they're what makes you so beautiful and he loves everything about you.
Peter loves to look at you and he adores all of your little things, especially the ones that you're insecure about but he doesn't know why because everything you do is beautiful to him.
He picks up on things that you didn't even know he knew about or took note of. He knows when you're anxious because of the way you always bounce your legs repeatedly and how you nervously play with the rings on your fingers. He notices it all. Peter notices that when you're incredibly anxious, you draw patterns on yourself to attempt to calm yourself down, but it doesn't always work, which makes you more anxious.
When he senses that you're having one of your really rougher days, he is there to help you because Peter loves and supports you... Always.
Today you were having a hard day, nothing seemed to be making you feel better. Peter knew instantly because when he took peaks at you every so often, he saw the way that you couldn't stop bouncing your legs and the fact that your hair had been messed up from the number of times that you pulled at it in frustration. He takes note of a simple fact: you cannot sit still. Peter worries for your poor lips that you've bitten down on many times throughout the night.
Peter wasn't even doing anything productive if he's being honest, he was just writing out a study guide for a test that wasn't for another 3 weeks. He put his pencil down and walked over to you and sat down on his bed next to you, you were so caught up in your own thoughts that you didn't even know he left his desk. He softly touched your thigh to remind you of his presence because he knew that you were a million miles away.
"Oh! I'm sorry Peter, did I interrupt your work?" Peter's heart stung with pain as he heard the hurt in your voice because you were genuinely worried that you distracted Peter from his work. You turned your head slowly to look at him and his heart swelled because every time that you look at him, it's as if he's looking at you for the first time. Peter took your shaky hands in his and intertwined your fingers with his and placed a soft kiss on your knuckles.
"I don't care about my work; I care about you. What's got you so anxious today, sweetie?" Peter asked while he rubbed comforting circles on the back of your hand, your hands had stopped shaking. He watched as you sighed deeply and laid your head down in his lap.
"There's just so much happening and it's happening so fast, it's nothing particular, it's just well...everything. I don't know but it's breaking me down, Pete." He visibly frowns when he could hear the genuine suffering in your voice, and he knows how much it sucks to be anxious. He took the hair-tie that was practically falling out anyways and let your hair fall down onto his lap.
"Baby, I'm so sorry that you're dealing with this, but you don't have to deal with this alone." Peter played with your hair, and he could physically feel that your rapid heartbeat was returning back to its normal pace, he knows how the simplest gestures can ease your anxiety. Peter used his free hand to draw patterns on your arms because he knows how you try to do that when you want to relax.
Peter easily sensed that you are starting to finally relax, and he can feel the way your entire body is visibly softening just by the touches from your favorite person, Peter Parker.
Peter always knows how to make you feel safe, he's made mental notes of things he does that makes you feel safe, loved and at peace.
You love random displays of affection, which is completely fine with Peter because he loves to be affectionate with you. You love when he is affectionate with you because it reminds you of how lucky you are to have such a lovely person in your life.
You'd never admit it to him but he knows how much you love the pet names and compliments he gives you so he will compliment you any and every chance that he can.
Peter knows how you're not very open to talking about your feelings, but he always feels a sense of pride and love when he realizes that despite you not being open to share your feelings, he's made you feel safe and comfortable enough to share those parts of yourself with him.
Peter always loved to give you small kisses here and there just to let you know he appreciates you, but he had no idea how much those meant to you. He smiles to himself as he remembers the day that you told him how much you like his small kisses and ever since that day, he gives you random kisses throughout the day...every.single.day.
Peter was coming home from his nightly patrolling duties and he climbed through the window that led into your room, you always left the window open for him, he'd always have a place here. Peter watched in adoration as he caught the sight of you lying in your bed, with glasses perched on top of your head and a book lying face down on your stomach as you slept peacefully. He quietly removed your glasses from the top of your head and marked your place in your book (he knew how mad you'd be if he didn't) and placed them both carefully on the bedside table. He removed his suit, took a shower and changed into the spare clothes he left at your place and calmly climbed into the bed next to you.
You were a very light sleeper so no matter how hard he tried to be quiet, you were very aware of his presence. "Peter? Is that you?" He almost laughed at the sound of your sleepy voice. He moved a piece of hair away from your face and smiled to himself at the sight of your half-closed eyes and eyebrows scrunched in confusion.
God, you are absolutely gorgeous.
"Shh, love, it's okay. Go back to sleep." Peter whispered as he watched you drift back to sleep and he pulled you closer to him as you wrapped your arms around his body and he held you close. Peter kissed your forehead and whispered goodnight into your ear and you're a light sleeper so you stirred in your sleep.
"Mmm. I like when you do that, Pete". You mumbled in your sleep-like haze.
If it was anybody else, they would not even knew that you said anything but Peter being who he was and hanging onto every word you said, he heard you. Peter knew you were very sleepy and had very little energy to fight him back which was the perfect chance for Peter to use this to his advantage.
"Do what, pretty girl?" Peter watched as you hid your face in his chest and he laughed, he knew what he was doing, it was funny though because you are just too cute to not mess with. "Don't hide from me!" You begrudgingly lifted your face from his chest and snuggled closer to him.
"I like when you give me random kisses like that, it makes me feel loved and really happy." You sighed happily and began drifting off into the world of dreams.
"Oh how I love you, Y/n." Peter confessed for the first time. The corners of your lips twitched upwards as you started to feel sleep overtake you for the millionth time that night.
"I love you too, Peter." Peter placed a gentle kiss to your hairline, and he fell asleep.
You love kissing Peter; you really do but Peter discovered that you also love other kinds of things that he does to show you how much he adores you. To other people, it may seem small but to you, it was everything which meant that Peter continued to do them. You love when Peter locks his pinky finger with yours and places a soft kiss to your pinky, it's such a mundane gesture but it reminds you of how safe you feel with Peter, and he does it with so much love and devotion that you can't help but fall even harder for the brown eyed boy.
Peter can go on and on about all the things he loves about you. Whenever someone asks him if he has a favorite little thing that you do, his answer is always the same.
His favorite little thing that you do is loving him.
Peter never really had a way with words, when he really cared for someone, he would get starstruck and the words would escape him. He always felt bad about it because he has so much love to give and he wants to share it, but the words never left his lips, he would stutter because his emotions clouded his senses, and the words would dissolve into thin air. You changed that for him. When people would ask him what being loved by you is like, the words poured out of him easily as if it was as easy as breathing, he didn't have to think too hard.
Your love is so warm and comforting and being loved by you is like falling asleep next to a fireplace, on a freezing winter day while drinking a cup of hot chocolate. The feeling of your love is so special, he could talk forever about it but he knows that there aren't enough words in the entire universe to fully express how much you mean to him.
You would so call him super cheesy and a romantic, but he means it. He only became all mushy and lovey dovey because of you.
It's the feeling of his knees going weak as he locks eyes with you from across the room. It's the feeling of safety when he holds you close to him in bed at night.
That is what it's like to be loved by you.
The little things you do remind him of what being loved feels like and maybe one day, there will be a ring on your finger, a forever one.
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Inspired by that previous snippet of yours, write one where in the bathroom Villian is taking care of their hero's numerous hickies they gave them all over their body? Post frickling frackling?
The villain’s fingers slid down the hero’s exposed back and even though the hero was a little more than just tired, their body flinched.
“Easy,” the villain murmured and the hero could see their eyes piercing into their back in the mirror. Subconsciously, the hero’s gaze fixed on the villain’s, observing with the same intensity the villain used to observe their back. Once they actually looked at each other through the reflection, the hero was quite flustered. “Sleepy?”
“Yeah,” the hero answered. The hero didn’t know where the villain got their stamina from but it was impressive to say the least. Most of the time, the hero fell asleep immediately but the villain could last several rounds and go after their day five minutes later.
Their fingers travelled down the hero’s back again.
“I overdid it.”
“I like it,” the hero said. “It’s like putting paint on a canvas.”
“You’re a masterpiece without my artistic efforts.” They kissed the hero’s shoulder very softly. “You don’t need me for that.”
The villain put their flat hand on the hero’s shoulder, trying to cover as much space full of hickeys. The hero felt the familiar warmth as the villain attempted to get rid of the blood beneath their skin with their powers.
As always, the villain traced the long, deep scar on the hero’s back. Sometimes it was distracting, especially when the villain was under them and the hero tried to concentrate. But the hero guessed it was their subconscious telling them to obey.
“You know that happened years ago, right?” Their shoulder got hot and the hero knew that was the only comfortable pain they had ever experienced.
“Hm?”
The hero reached the scar and let their fingers go over it.
“Oh, yeah…” The villain let go of their shoulder and found a new place to heal. “You were still so young.”
“You were young, too, you know. I forgave you.” The villain looked at the hero’s reflection and despite their attempted smile, they seemed to feel guilty.
It had been painful. To get stabbed in the back felt horrible but being betrayed? God, the hero hadn’t been able to leave their house for months. They hadn’t eaten, had barely slept…all of it had pulled them into a depression that sucked on them like a parasite. Forgiveness had taken its sweet time.
“You made a mistake. People make mistakes. Especially at seventeen,” the hero said. They wanted to take the villain’s hand but they knew they couldn’t reach it.
“We didn’t talk for years. We lost too much time,” the villain said. “I feel like all I can do is apologise over and over again but it doesn’t change anything.”
“Hey…” The hero turned around and hooked one finger into the villain’s pants to pull them closer. “We needed that time for ourselves. We didn’t lose anything.”
The villain didn’t seem to be satisfied with that answer.
“I hate hurting you,” the villain said. “I hate that I can’t heal that scar. I hate that…I hate what I did to you.”
“I’m not something broken you have to fix, darling,” the hero said. They smiled and cupped the villain’s face gently.
“I know…but I carved myself into you. I forced this onto you and it’s a reminder for both of us what kind of monster I used to be.”
“You have changed, though. And I forgive that kid who followed orders blindly because they were scared.” The hero stood up on their tiptoes, now the same height as the villain. “And there’s absolutely nothing you can do about it.”
They grabbed the villain’s jaw and kissed them very gently. Although they knew the villain needed more time, the hero would repeat these words for centuries if it meant that their partner would finally accept this.
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mxltifxnd0m · 2 years
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𝙄𝙣𝙟𝙪𝙧𝙚𝙙
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Summary: You get injured and Steve is a fussy babysitter (mother)
Pairings: Steve Harrington x fem!reader, The Party x platonic fem! reader
Words: 1.8K
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Warnings: mentions of violence, blood, and gore. fluff and a little spice are thrown in there. Set in season 2 
A/N: wow look at me posting a fic. Haven't done that since July lmao
tbh this fic only came to fruition bc of my dear friend Addie and I’ve been meaning to write more for Stranger Things but I have yet to write for any of the other fandoms on my masterlist lol
and as always all my thanks to my wife and beta reader @songofpatrochilless
𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘷𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘳𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘵𝘰𝘯 𝘮𝘢𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘭𝘪𝘴𝘵
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Okay, maybe you should have listened to Steve when he told you to get back on the bus with Lucas, Max, and Dustin. By the looks of it, Steve looked like he needed help with the number of demodogs surrounding him, so you disobeyed his order and jumped out of the bus. You would protect these kids with everything you had since you'd been babysitting Lucas and Dustin since they were 10 and you quickly bonded with Max since you noticed that the two of you were similar in attitude.  
You were able to hold your own until you tripped on a piece of scrap metal, making you stumble to the ground. You noticed that Steve was starting to head back to the bus, so you got up and started to sprint to the bus. You hadn't noticed that one of the demodogs was behind you and managed to scratch your leg, which made you stumble again, but you just turned around, slashed at it with your axe, leaped into the bus, and closed the doors as hard as you could. Getting up fast, you shoved a piece of metal in front of the door and held it there for a moment until the bus shook from something hitting it from the other side. It distracted you for a second, allowing the demodog to swipe at the metal and get its claws into the bus. Quickly, you grab the bat that was in Steve's hands and start hitting it as hard as you can while Steve is trying his best behind you to help.
Faintly in the background, you hear Dustin calling for help until it manages to move up to the roof. You try to get up to go after it but feel a twinge of pain in your leg. But you ignored it and managed to get up anyway. But it seemed that Steve had a different idea. He had grabbed the bat from your hands and got in front of Max to protect her, and the others from the demodog peeking from the hole on top of the bus. Then everything stopped. It seems that the demodogs were running away. You sigh in relief and follow the others out of the bus to see where the demodogs were going.
“What happened?” Lucas asked. 
“I don’t know,” Max responded. 
“Steve and y/n scared ‘em off?” Dustin suggests. 
“No. No way. They're going somewhere.” Steve said grimly, furrowing his eyebrows. 
“Well, I guess it’s time for another adventure.” You say, trying to get their minds off of what just happened. But it fails as you wince in pain, the adrenaline that was pumping through your veins is now gone and you're feeling the pain in your leg. You stumble as you try to take a step forward and Dustin notices your leg.
“Shit, your leg is bleeding,” Dustin points out. 
“Watch your language.” You say reflexively. 
Dustin shoots you a look of are you serious right now?
Steve whips his head towards you and his eyes, full of worry, dart down to the leg that was bleeding.
“Why didn’t you tell anyone your leg was bleeding!” 
“Well Steve, I didn't think that mentioning that my leg was bleeding, while we were trying to not die was high on my list of priorities right now.” You tell him sarcastically. 
Steve just rolls his eyes, “Well, we need to treat that before it gets infected.” 
“I don’t think that the boys or Max-,” you gesture to tweens, “-have a first aid kit on them. So I’ll suck it up until all of this is over or until we get to somewhere where we can treat it. Okay, Steve?” 
By the look on Steve’s face, he does not like the idea but doesn’t object since he knows you’re right. 
“Right, now that we have acknowledged that, we should probably go so we can see where the monsters are heading before we lose them.” Everyone nods their head and trek in the direction where the demodogs left. Steve makes you wrap an arm around him so he can help you put less pressure on your leg. 
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It took a while until you were able to treat your leg. You had to trudge through the woods to the Lab, encountering Jonathan and Nancy once you got there, then Hopper came out of nowhere, and you had to sit on Steve’s lap since there was no more room in the back of the truck. 
You are exhausted, the adrenaline wore off in the car and you almost fell asleep on Steve, but he kept you awake by talking to you quietly until the truck had stopped in front of the Byers’ house. Getting out of the truck, you stumbled a bit before Steve got out and slung your arm around his shoulder again, and led you into the Byers’ house.
As soon as you stepped foot into the threshold, Steve whisked you away to the bathroom, sat you down on the counter, and started opening cabinets to find the first aid kit. All the while he was sorting out the supplies he needed to clean the wounds, he was mumbling incoherent words under his breath. 
Once he found the supplies he needed, Steve started to clean the wound on your leg. Minutes passed and the only sounds you could hear were your and Steve's breathing and the occasional groan of pain when Steve would put too much pressure on your leg. Steve would apologize profusely but his face was stoic but his eyes still had concern and warmth. After Steve finished cleaning your wound, he started to wrap your leg up. 
“So, it’s a nice day out isn’t it?” You joked, breaking the silence. Steve jerked his head up from your wound to glare at you. 
“Okay, got it, not the time for jokes.” 
Getting the hint that Steve didn’t want to talk, you zoned out. You could hear the rustling of the feet through the walls of the bathroom. And you could listen to the kids' voices trying to figure out what the hell was going on with Will. What had brought your mind back to the bathroom was a jolt of pain going through your leg and you let out a low groan. 
“Shit, I’m sorry. Did I tie it a little tight?” Steve asked. 
“It’s a little tight Steve, but I’m fine.” 
A tense silence fell over the two of you until Steve decided to break it. 
“What the hell were you thinking back at the junkyard, I told you I had it handled.” Steve started to scold you. 
“Okay, Mom, calm down for just a second.”
“Calm down! Don’t tell me to calm down, you almost lost your leg!” Steve exclaimed. 
“That’s an exaggeration, I just got my leg scratched, and as you can see my leg is still attached.” You gestured to your now bandaged leg. 
Steve rolls his eyes, “Still if you had listened to me and stayed on the bus you wouldn’t be here right now.” Steve says while running his hands through his hair frustratedly. 
“I don’t understand why you care about me getting hurt, it wasn’t that big of a deal.” You tell Steve. 
“I’m sorry. So caring for my best friend isn’t a big deal now?” 
You wince at the use of “best friend” but Steve just thought it was because of your leg. You’ve always had a small crush on Steve but it was squashed when he started to express interest in Nancy last year. 
“I didn’t think you cared that much about me, you didn’t hesitate to leave me for Nancy anytime we hung out when the two of you were together.” You say nonchalantly as you shrug one of your shoulders. 
Steve’s eyes seem to soften at your words. You were avoiding his gaze and looking everywhere but him. He notices that, so to get your attention, Steve grabs your chin softly between his thumb and pointer finger to make eye contact with you. 
“Hey, you know I didn’t mean to make you feel that way. I would have stopped leaving you if I knew it bothered you so much.” Steve tells you. 
“It doesn’t matter anymore. I’m over it now.” You dismiss Steve still trying to avoid eye contact with him.
“Look at me,” Steve asks you softly. And you can’t help but listen to him. So you turn to meet his gaze. This makes you realize how close Steve was to your face. You see him study your face so intently, that you felt his breath on your lips. Steve presses his forehead to yours and stays silent.
Unknowingly both of you have been inching closer to one another. Your lips briefly brushed over his, and you threw caution into the wind and fully pushed your lips against Steve’s. Steve immediately responds by deepening the kiss. He moved one of his hands to cup your cheek and on your waist, while your hands made their way into his hair, tugging on the hairs on the nape of his neck. Both of you didn’t know how long you stayed there kissing in the bathroom, it felt like hours, but in reality, it was only a few minutes. 
“Hey guys, if you’re done, come out to the living room.” Dustin interrupted the two of you, his voice making the two of you break apart. You and Steve hear his footsteps fade away from the doorway, before breaking out in small chuckles. 
“That kid is something else,” Steve says with a small smile on his face.
“He can be a pain in the ass, but you can’t help but love him.” You say which makes Steve nod in agreement. 
“We should get out there before they start getting suspicious or Dustin will throw a fit” 
“Yeah we should. Here let me.” Steve helps you get off the counter and wraps your arm around his shoulder, using Steve as a human crutch. 
You thank Steve and in return, he dips his head down to give you a peck on the lips, which makes your eyes widen slightly in surprise since you weren’t expecting him to do that.
You guys made it out to the bathroom after a couple of minutes of trying to hobble down the hall and Steve making you go as slow as you can. 
“What took you guys so long?” Dustin questions you. 
“My human crutch didn’t want me to go fast.” You gestured to Steve, who just shook his head. 
“I could let go of you if I wanted to.” Steve threatens 
“Ah you could, but you wouldn’t because you would feel bad for letting me stand on my bad leg.” You say with a teasing smile on your face. 
Completely forgetting everyone else that was in the room, Steve pulls you a little tighter to him, “Yeah you’re right.” Steve agrees. You guys just stare at each other for a little until Dustin claps his hands to get your attention. 
“Okay now that the lovebirds are done…” 
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j0kers-light · 6 months
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You know what🧐 I wouldn’t mind a “A Day in the Life of Frost/POV I ain’t gonna lie he has been growing on me😭 he really be there for reader and joker like he’s giving mad father figure vibes😭 plus I want to see him and his daughter’s interaction some more
His Lighthouse: A Frosty Outlook (LedgerJoker x f!reader)
A Frosty Outlook- Oneshot
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In this house we stan Frost. I was inspired to write this by this post lol. I hope you enjoy!
Side note: I suck at writing first person so its not a true POV but its still good. I had too much fun with this one but when don't I have fun?
There is a slight irregularity with this fic being canon with His Lighthouse. In the series chapter Fear Is the Only Way, Joker told Frost “I didn’t know you had a family...” to which Frost fired back saying “I didn’t know you had a girl.”
This is pure sarcasm, people. Joker knows that Frost has a daughter and Frost obviously knows that Joker has a (future) girlfriend. But denial is a river in Egypt. Once again, I hope you enjoy I made myself cross eyed trying to edit this in the dark lol.
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There was no such thing as a day off when you work for a literal madman.
Frost knew that better than anyone as the right hand man to The Joker. Work never stopped. There was always someone to kill, money to collect, a city to burn, on top of personal errands and/or favors to run on Joker's behalf. There was always something to do.
There was hardly any time for a personal life which was why majority of the people under Joker's employ did not have families or loved ones. It interfered with work, made a person distracted, and Joker did not like distractions. However, Frost was an exception.
Frost and Joker went wayyy back and he was the closest thing to a friend that J had. Frost was the first henchman that Joker hired and a decade later, he was still the man to call on in any situation.
Trust and unwavering loyalty were forged from their mysterious bond and so rules that would normally apply to Joker's employees became more lax when it pertained to Frost.
He received a higher pay, had actual benefits and health care, and most importantly.. Frost was allowed days off. Not in the traditional sense– he never turned off his phone, but he was given time away from the gang to spend time with his family.
Joker would always be a priority in Frost's life but his little girl came first.
In the beginning she was a mistake. Frost was prepared to walk out on his lover at the time until she slapped a sonogram on the table.
The second Frost's eyes laid on his baby girl; he was a changed man. He thought about quitting Joker's gang but no one ever quits and remains alive, so he confronted Joker about his current dilemma.
"Who's baby? Eck, get rid of it." Joker cringed and kept walking into his office but stopped when Frost spoke up.
"She's mine, Joker. She's... I never asked you for anything so hear me out. I ain't giving her up and I'm not leaving your employ so.." The office was quiet as Frost's words tapered off.
Joker nodded and sat down at his desk. He knew Frost long enough to know the man's mind was made up. No ounce of torture was going to sway him and bribery didn't work on the guy.
Joker decided to compromise to keep his best employee.
"Fine. Keep it, buttttttttt on one con-dit-ion." J picked up the sonogram and tried his hardest to identify it as a human being. To him it looked like a grey blob but this blob meant so much to his fellow comrade.
"I get to name her." Joker said.
Frost quickly protested but after one look into Joker's demented eyes, he knew he had no say in the matter.
"It'll be my uhh, bargaining chip just in case ya ever try to walk away. Don't you think that's fair Frost-y? I name the kid and she and her.... uh mother don't wind up in a ditch. Deeeeal?"
Frost was making a deal with the devil but he couldn't lose his unborn girl. He'd explain this to his baby mama later, right now he leaned forward and shook hands with his boss.
He just hoped Joker didn't pick some outlandish name.
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"Don't forget your lunch, Gen."
Frost held up the overly decorated lunch bag outside the car window for his daughter to grab. She smiled in thanks and leaned forward to peck Frost on the forehead.
"Thanks Dad!"
He watched her disappear into the school with a rare smile on his lips. It quickly faded away when his phone rang. He had the ringtone memorized and answered it with a heavy sigh.
"Come. Get. Her before I.. I... shuT UP, Y/n!"
Frost heard you in the background shouting at his boss but he couldn't pick up anything you were saying. Regardless, you sounded upset.
The two of you were having another lover's spat and if Frost didn't come and break it up, Joker might do something he'd regret for the rest of his life.
Frost cranked up his truck and held the phone to his ear, "Don't commit any acts of murder, I'm on the way."
Times like this Frost truly believed he had three children instead of one. And just like that his rare day off was gone.
He arrived in the private apartment garage exactly twenty four minutes after he received Joker's call. Frost wasn't allowed up to your floor– no one was anymore– but this was an emergency. Frost would deal with getting yelled at later if it resulted in saving your life.
Hopefully you were still alive to save. Joker might be in denial but he loved you unconditionally. If he hurt you during one of his mood swings— Frost shuddered at the thought.
Frost nodded at his fellow henchman in passing as he called for the elevator to come pick him up. Joker took your safety very seriously and assigned a few of his most loyal men to work at your residence undercover as a first line of defense.
It would take a calculated and deliberate attack for someone to reach your private floor without Joker knowing about it.
Frost was walking off the elevator on your designated floor when the front door flew open.
You emerged dressed to the nines with a purse flung over your shoulder. Joker was hot on your heels until you spun around and told him off.
"Screw you and the plane you flew in on! Call me after you get some act right and not a minute before!!"
Frost interpreted his boss's glare as you boarded the elevator. Joker might be upset with you right now but the warning was clear.
Guard her with your life or I'll kill you.
Frost didn't need to be told to do his job. You gave Joker a purpose in life other than destroying the world. Frost respected you greatly and held you in high regard for that.
Frost would protect Joker's Light to his dying breath. You didn't need to know that though. Frost did have a reputation to uphold.
There was an awkward silence as the elevator door slowly enclosed you inside the lift with Frost. He covertly glanced down at you and met a head full of curls.
Today your voluminous hair was untamed and wild about your shoulders. The only thing styled was your baby hairs swept back in a carefree, but deliberate fashion with gel. A fitting style for your fiery mood. Your overall sense of fashion always fascinated him.
"Wanna talk about it?" Frost asked somewhere around the tenth and ninth floor down.
You sighed while shaking your head. "I'm sorry that he called you. I know today's your day off." You laughed at Frost's curious frown.
"I figured since it's his day off as well. You know I tried to get him to go out and do something legal with me but he just snapped saying, 'he's not normal so why bother? He doesn't do normal. I guess he's having one of those days today."
Both of you knew Joker's mood was unpredictable and his bad days were atrocious to deal with. Half the time you left the clown to his own devices until he was calm enough to tolerate, but today just your presence in the apartment set him off.
Joker needed alone time and you were okay with that. However you wouldn't let him talk to you any kind of way.
The floor numbers ticked lower and lower as you and Frost stood in silence. You glanced up at him lost in thought.
On the outside he was a terrifying guy. Tall, bulky frame with a permanent scowl on his face. His dark eyes and the deep scar that split his eyebrow made him appear unapproachable but you knew Frost had a heart of gold. He cared about Joker and subsequently you when he didn't have to. Frost lived up to his nickname but there was more to the guy. The writer in you could tell.
"Enough about him. I don't wanna ruin the day. Hey? What do you normally get into on your day's off?" You playfully nudged Frost's arm. The man didn't move an inch.
He was quick to reply. "Nothing."
The doors dinged open and he didn't wait up for you, he just started walking towards his truck. You were left behind to marvel at the giant vehicle that Frost expected you to climb into.
You were a short thing; even wearing heels, how did he expect you to...?
"Grab onto the sidebars and hop in. Geez.. if my daughter can do it, you can too." Frost grumbled from the driver's side.
You did as you were told with great difficulty and managed to buckle into your seatbelt. Then you ran back what Frost said.
"Daughter? Oh yeah! I remember you saying I'm stubborn just like her long ago. How is she?"
It was quiet in the cabin. You looked over at Frost finding that he was already staring at you. "What?"
His frown was deeper than normal. "Why are you asking?"
Granted no one in the gang knew about his daughter except you and Joker, it was still a shock to hear someone genuinely ask about her well-being. Frost made triple sure that no one knew about his little family of one.
But you were different. An aura surrounded you— heck it was the reason why Joker named you his Light– that just oozed out of you. You truly cared about people and you weren't going to let this go.
You rolled your eyes as Frost cranked up his truck. "Uh because I want to know how she's doing? That's why I asked. You never did mention how old she is."
Frost gave you a side eye as he drove out of the garage and onto Gotham City streets. He honestly had no idea where to take you. Joker didn't say where to go, just to come get you.
Frost waited until he was at a red light to answer your question as vaguely as possible. "I know I didn't."
You hummed and glanced out the window. It didn't take a scientist to understand that Frost's daughter was not a topic he wished to discuss but you weren't about to spend the rest of the day in absolute silence with him.
Frost was a difficult man to read. He was a man of few words and lived up to his descriptive name. You'd rather take a chance of Joker strangling you to death back at the penthouse than be stuck with his six foot something iceberg all day.
"Can I at least go shopping?" You ignored the low irritated sigh you heard from the driver. "If I had a female companion we could shop together and not bother my annoyed bodyguard on his day off."
The light turned green and you felt the truck shift gears as it moved. "No."
"Oh come on! She's fully aware of what you do so it's perfectly fine if she and I meet! Is she young? Still in school? Ooh, maybe in college? What's her major? You can at least tell me her name. C'mon Frost, give me something to work with!"
You faced him with a pout but then realized he wasn't Joker and that wouldn't work. You had no leverage with Frost. He was just as mysterious as J like two peas in a pod.
So you applied the same logic! Joker hated when you became quiet and closed yourself off.
You crossed your arms and continued looking out the passenger window in silence. It took a couple of city blocks but before long, you could see Frost glancing your way every odd minute or so.
"What're you over there thinking? Hey."
You turned your head so he couldn't see your grin. He couldn't see anything with your natural curls in the way.
Frost growled to himself as he kept driving. It had been no more than fifteen minutes since he picked you up and he was already at his wits end. No wonder Joker couldn't say no to you. You had to possess some kind of powers of coercion. There was no other explanation as to why Frost wanted to keep you happy.
"D__n you woman.." Frost said under his breath. He hoped he wouldn't regret this.
The truck veered roughly to the side as he made an illegal u-turn. Your body collided roughly into the door and you were about to give Frost a mouthful if not for his grumpy frown and death grip on the steering wheel.
You did not want two men angry at you on the same day so you sat back and let Frost drive you to who knows where.
He pulled the truck into a parking spot at a public school forty five minutes later.
You glanced around and arched an eyebrow in intrigue. He turned the truck off and made a show of pocketing the keys. Like you could drive this beast of a truck if you wanted to. You had on vintage platform heels. There was no way you were scuffing them up.
Frost faced you to sound off his rules. "Stay here. Don't get out. Don't talk to anyone. I'll be back." He ordered.
He didn't wait for your response, he just got out and stormed across the school lawn towards the entrance. And just because he was cruel, he mashed the lock button on his key fob, locking you inside.
First period wasn't over when Frost walked through the school's main entrance. Not many students were in the halls— most likely in class, but a few facility members stared at him in passing. It was hard not to.
Frost was used to the stares. He didn't necessarily blend in with the whole school aesthetic. He wasn't a PTA member or a doting father dropping off forgotten lunches.
He was a tall, burly man who screamed of trouble. It would be common sense to be wary or to call the police. His stony aura created a bubble around him and everyone kept a wide berth as he navigated the halls towards the admin office.
There was a woman seated at the front desk but shockingly she wasn't afraid when Frost walked up with a permanent frown carved on his face.
She just looked up and greeted him warmly. "Ah Mr. Myers! Did she forget her lunch this morning? I can take it to her after first period."
Ms. Tammy was always nice and never judged Frost by his appearance but rather by the way he cared for his daughter. Frost was a better father than the white collar dads on the school's chair board. He was alright in her book even if he didn't appear 'father material.'
"No. I want to pull Gen out for the day. Family emergency or whatever." Frost grumbled.
The school only allowed an allotted amount of excuses per school year, but his girl was an A+ student and never missed class. Today would actually be her first offense.
Ms. Tammy nodded and grabbed a form for him to fill out. "I understand. They deserve their days off too. Just sign that dear and I'll go fetch her for you."
Frost nodded and clicked a pen to use. Most of the fields didn't apply to him but it couldn't be left empty. He made up some passable excuse and half hardly signed his fake name on the dotted line. It only took him a minute to complete.
He was forever grateful that his daughter carried her mother's maiden name.
It was the only favor his ex managed to extend before she left without a trace. Legally, Gen wasn't tied to Frost and he preferred it that way should something bad ever happen and his enemies try and find a weakness of his.
In the meantime, he glanced around the admin office to pass the time.
The school wide bulletin board caught his eye. Nothing of importance was posted on the overly bright eyesore, but he did acknowledge the annual Father-Daughter dance that was scheduled in two month's time. He wondered if his daughter would like to attend before she got too old for the age requirement.
Probably not since she didn't want her friends knowing about her criminal dad.
Each year prior she made up an excuse to not go. Studying for a test, being too tired, etc. but Frost knew the truth. She'd be bullied and harassed if it came out he was her father.
Frost wished he could go to school events and be more proactive in her academics. He never missed recitals or science fairs but he was forced to watch from the shadows and not be seen as the supportive father he was.
It was the only drawback of his profession. Frost wasn't allowed to be normal, not even around his own child. Either way, he ripped a flyer off the board and shoved it into his pocket to bring up later.
He was brought out of his musing by Ms. Tammy returning into the office with a student in tow.
Frost's cold facade cracked at the sight of his daughter. She was the only thing in this life that could get a reaction out of him.
"Omg dad what's wrong? Ms.T said there was an emergency!"
Ms. Tammy giggled and returned to her post behind the desk. She noticed the dismissal form and tucked it into an organizer bin for later.
"Have a good day you two!" She waved them goodbye and resumed her work.
Frost said nothing as he nodded at his daughter to walk out the office. She rolled her eyes at her father's lack of response. It wasn't uncommon, he always explained things in private.
He made sure no one was watching as the both of them walked out the school and out to the parking lot. Gen was heading towards the front seat when Frost finally spoke up. "Get in the back." He urged.
"What, why? I always ride shotgun. Ooh! Does this mean I can drive today then?" She grinned in delight.
"No."
Gen pouted but hauled herself up to open the backdoor. One of these days dad was gonna say yes.
She froze the moment she saw someone in the passenger seat and her gasp made you turn around in shock.  
You were jamming out to music playing from your phone when they came back. Your coloured eyes clashed with her brown ones. Frost watched the staring contest unfold with a sigh. This was exactly what he wanted to avoid. You were the first to break the rift.
"SHE IS ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL! ARE YOU SURE SHE'S YOURS?" You asked Frost.
He took offense to your question even if the resemblance was non-existent. It wasn't the first time someone questioned if his daughter was his and it wouldn't be the last.
"What the f__k is that supposed to mean?" He argued. You sucked your teeth and eyed the young girl again.
"Well..." You were going to state the obvious until the teenager in the backseat finally got over her shock and spoke up.
".... Dad. Who's this?"
Frost stared at the two females in his truck. It was best to get this over with. He sighed and turned to face the backseat a little better.
"Y/n, this is my daughter Genesis. Gen this is..." Frost stalled and the two of you looked at him, patiently waiting for an explanation.
You knew what Frost wanted to say and shot a nervous glance at his daughter. Genesis looked about seventeen yet wise beyond her years to know the truth. There was an uneasy gleam in her eye and you didn't want her thinking ill of you or her father. So you quickly came to Frost's defense.
He wasn't one to communicate delicate topics like this anyways. 
"I'm his Boss's partner. It's nice to meet you!" You smiled at Gen and she breathed a sigh of relief.
"Oh bet. I thought you were f__king my dad. You are way too pretty for him." She turned to fasten her seatbelt and didn't notice her father's reaction. He was catching strays left and right today.
"Again. What the f__k is that supposed to mean?" He asked no one in particular.
"Nothing dad it's just.. I mean. Like you're an attractive guy..."
You noticed her struggling and added in your input. "8 of 10 would smash." You nodded. Frost looked at you in horror. Then you realized what you just confessed. "Oh God. Please don't tell him that."
"Do I look like I want to be murdered with a vegetable peeler?" The truck got awkward real quick as everyone imagined Joker killing someone with such a common kitchen tool. It was doable..
Genesis coughed. "Anyways.. I'm just glad there's nothing going on between the two of you but it doesn't explain why you pulled me from school today."
You raised your manicured hand. "Guilty! I wanted a shopping partner for the day!"
The truck was silent for a long stretch of time before Genesis turned to her dad with a serious expression. "Dad, is she like his bimbo or... what?"
Frost huffed and it was the closest thing to a laugh you ever heard from him. You were sitting next to a stranger right now. Frost never smiled. Ever. Much less laughed at something that was said.
You were seeing him with brand new eyes. It was refreshing to know his frosty exterior could melt to a normal human being underneath.
The comment was a bit funny since Frost thought the same thing about you the first time Joker invited him to your apartment.
Surrounded by luxury and on the top floor no less, Frost thought that you were just a run of the mill bimbo that Joker was taking advantage of. He'd seen you from your tv appearances. You were just a waft of a girl, always dressed up in pretty things– batting your long lashes and drawing silly hearts next to your signatures.
If Frost went by appearances only he would have labeled you a bimbo and kept it moving.
Frost was ready to kill you off the second Joker snapped his fingers but then you showed your true colors and captured everyone under your spell.
Whether he admitted it or not, Joker fell in love with you and Frost hadn't seen his old companion this happy in decades. You unlocked something good within Joker and as a result, you earned respect in Frost's book.
He'd do anything to keep you safe and happy so you could continue to shine a light on Joker.
You were a perfect match for the Clown Prince of Crime even if you acted like an airhead sometimes. It was a part of your character; however, you were educated behind your designer threads and jewels.
Frost had to give you some credit. 
"No. Y/n is actually a Gotham City's best selling author. She wrote that novel you like. The one with the archer I think." He cranked up the truck.
They wasted too much time chatting. It was time to go. Gen's jaw dropped and she leaned over the console to stare at you more closely. How could she be so dense not to notice you?!
"Wait? You're that Y/n?! Omg, WHB was such a page tuner! And like Hunter is so hawt! Like, chase me in the woods anytime papi, hot! Ugh and that cabin scene when he—" She glanced at her father distracted by driving before stage-whispering to you.  
"The smut was immaculate." She giggled into your ear.
You burst out laughing and had to cover your mouth when Frost sent you an annoyed glare.
He drowned out the sound of you two gossiping to focus on the road. He only interrupted the 'juicy' book discussion to ask what store you wanted to go to first.
He already knew your favorites from previous trips and from his time on security detail, yet you surprised him by picking one of Genesis' favorites.
Frost glanced through the rearview mirror at Gen. She was none the wiser given that she was too busy smiling and getting along with you. It was as if the two of you were lifelong friends catching up on old times.
Frost assumed you two would click since the age difference was less than ten years.
He just was happy that his girl had someone to talk to, at least for the day. Genesis didn't bring home any friends (for obvious reasons) nor did she talk about any. If she didn't excel in her academics, Frost would've been concerned. It was only natural for a father to be worried about their daughter's social growth. He didn't want his occupation to stunt Genesis' upbringing.
Frost was turning into a parking space in the mall's parking lot when he heard your probing question.
"Genesis, is there any special occasion coming up you wanna shop for?" Your kind smile was gentle and patient, knowing the teenager was hesitant to answer. You were her age before, you knew why.
"Well um..."
"Come on, 'Sis, don't be shy! It's just you and me and the grumpy chaperone pretending not to listen." You turned to glare at Frost. "Can you not?"
He narrowed his brown eyes and tried not to bare his teeth at you. He knew that tone. You wanted him out of the picture.
Like that was happening. He honestly didn't like having you out at such a public place. This was gonna make his job all the more harder trying to protect you and his little girl but it wouldn't be impossible.
He thought you would know the rules by now, "Boss's orders. You don't leave my sight."
"Frost, we will be fine. If I feel like I'm in danger, I'll scream. Go.. I dunno, check out some knives or whatever men do at malls." You snickered and Genesis joined in from the backseat.
She didn't understand why you needed security but that due to her being in the dark regarding Joker's gang. She knew her dad was a criminal, the worst of the worst, but he was still her father in her eyes. The level of danger you could be in went right over her head.
Knowing that her dad was technically on the clock right now was a hard concept to grasp. She glanced at him, noticing his guarded glare and sharp eyes already scanning the area as everyone got out the truck.
It was cool to see him in his element of sorts.
Although she felt wholly underdressed in her jeans, graphic tee, and chucks standing next to you.
You looked like a dark skinned doll wearing a light colored pleated skirt that fluttered in the wind. Your ensemble was preppy chic teetering on Lolita and it didn't help that your hair tumbled down your back just like a doll. She admired your soft aesthetic with your winged collar, lace bow ties, and pearl accessories.
Everything just worked perfectly to create an adorable outfit.
You adjusted your cardigan better and checked your lip gloss in the truck's back window. Your naïve humming floated in the air.
Both Frost and Gen looked on in a mixture of intrigue and exasperation.
"You look fine. Let's go." Frost grumbled.
He averted his eyes from your adorable pout. He was not Joker, he would not crack under your charm. Frost did crack a smile when you and Genesis walked into the mall linking arms like two high schoolers.
With your dumb outfit and short stature, at least you looked the part.
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He didn't let the two of you out of his sight but he took your disapproving glare as a sign to back off some. People were beginning to stare at the scary looking guy following two girls around.
Frost became a shadow as you and Genesis filtered around the mall, ooh and ahhing at every little thing that caught your eye. He lost count how much of Joker's money you blew through. Quite frankly Frost didn't care. His job was to hold the bags that the two of you couldn't carry and keep you safe.
Frost wasn't too upset about his current degrading role.
Genesis' happiness was his only concern and today he got to see a rare smile brighten her face. She was laughing and having fun like someone her age should. She needed female bonding time and you were definitely making up for years of neglect.
He lost sight of the two of you during his musing and quickly went into a calm but panic induced mode.
You watched Frost rush the opposite way of where you and Genesis were currently hiding.
"Um. I don't think this is a good idea.. Dad said to stay in his line of sight." Genesis' brown eyes shifted down to the potted plant she hid behind. You waited until Frost was long gone before standing up and brushing off your pleated skirt.
"It'll be fine 'Sis! I remember when I was your age. Sneaking off at the mall to shop at specific stores was virtually impossible with my parents around. Now! Are you going to that Father-Daughter dance your school is having?"
Gen quickly grew defensive, "How did you know about that?" She hadn't mentioned it in conversation but you waved off her concern.
"Your dad sucks at hiding things. I saw the flyer when he got in the truck. It's formal attire so you need a jaw dropping dress that he totally won't approve of but will make all the girls in your class jealous! I know just the store too."
Your e/c gleamed under the mall's bright lights. It had been a while since you got to dress someone up. Gen's hesitant hum though made you pause.
"Well actually I don't wanna make her jealous. M-More like I wanna impress her, like really impress her.." Genesis winced at your stupefied look. She honestly didn't expect you to understand.
It took you a few seconds to process her statement.
"Oh." You said. "Okay, that changes things. You need something eye catching, I gotcha! Same store so let's–"
You were about to walk off when Genesis grabbed your arm, stopping you in your tracks. She was still rather bashful yet somewhat hopeful when she met your eye.
"Woah wait a min, Y/n! Don't think that's like... weird? I just said I wanted to impress a girl? Not a guy." Her hand fell from your arm as she picked at her nails. It was a nervous habit she was trying to grow out of.
One you filed away for later. Your heels clicked sharply on the mall's linoleum floor and your mess of curls fell off your shoulder when you tilted your head in confusion.
"And? Genesis. I'm dating a psychopath who frequently dresses up in a nurse outfit, wig and all. I'm in no position to judge your preference for a partner." You laughed but quickly frowned when Gen groaned in frustration.
"No no no! That's the thing!! I read your trilogy and I'm attracted to Hunter. Strong, dominant, alpha guys are hot but I also like how Jordan makes me feel. She's... ugh. You remind me a lot of her. Bubbly, confident, always wearing pretty outfits like she's going to GC fashion week and not English 1 at eight o'clock in the morning. She's so pretty and I probably don't stand a chance but I wanna try!"
You eyed Genesis differently as she stood before you coming out yet still unsure of herself. Your lips parted to speak but she cut you off, going on another nervous rant.
"I'm just so afraid and not about asking her out but of what my dad will say! Like, I'm his perfect girl! I get perfect grades, I don't get into trouble, and I'm home before the street lights come on! I already have pending scholarships! Y/n, what if he doesn't approve?" Gen switched to picking at her lips.
Your heart went out to her but you still didn't see the problem. You playful scoffed and replied.
"Again, Genesis. Your dad works for that same psychopath who dresses up as a nurse. Frost has seen plenty of things in his line of business. I don't think he'll judge you. And guess what? It's your choice so if he shockingly disapproves, then tell him to shove it and move in with me. Now.. I think... blue is your color. I feel a rich indigo would bring out your melanin and I'm here for it. That is, if you want to wear a dress? I honestly don't wanna assume again."
You sent Genesis a sympathetic smile but jumped when she tackled you in a hug.
You almost lost your balance since the girl was taller than you even in heels. Just what were they feeding kids these days..
She sang out a string of thank yous and rocked you in her arms. You patted her on the back and wheezed out a 'can't breathe.'
"Sorry." Gen let you go. She watched your lashes flutter as you caught your breath. "Yeah, umm. I haven't worn a dress in ages. C-Can you help me find one?"
She regretted asking the moment she saw your eyes light up like fireworks. Shopping with you was both fun and exhausting.
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The scolding the both of you received once Frost found you exiting a high end lingerie store was epic. Frost literally had steam coming out his ear, he was so furious.
"I thought since you're an adult you would have some common sense Y/n! I told you not to leave my sight and the two of you wandered off for two hours! F__k you're a terrible influence. If something had happened, not only would he kill me, he'd kill Gen for being involved. Is that what you want? Murder all around?"
Genesis felt awful but wisely hid her racy purchases behind her back until her dad was in a better mood.
She hated when he was angry but she had no dog in this fight. She told you it was a bad idea to shake off dad's surveillance.
You on the other hand were used to being yelled at. Joker gave you plenty of practice.
You simply rolled your eyes. "Frost stop overreacting. Nothing happened so don't dwell on the past. We got far more shopping done with you not slowing us down. Anyhoo we're done here and.." You glanced down at your phone vibrating in your purse.
It was a string of text messages from J beginning with an apology along with questionable promises on how he could make up for his mistakes.
You did not want him killing a prominent political member in your name. You did consider his offer on buying you a pig. They were cute!
"I'm needed back home. Can you drop me off?" You asked Frost. His right eye was twitching.
You gave him headaches. He strangled the air in front of you, "I don't get paid enough for this." He growled.
You waved goodbye to Genesis as you walked into your apartment building an hour later. Two workers followed behind you carrying your many shopping bags.
Gen crawled into the front seat as Frost shifted gears to leave. It was a long day and he just wanted to go home and relax after babysitting you.
"H-Hey dad. Can I ask you something?" Gen asked. His soft hum was the only acknowledgment she would receive.
"Do you know that Father-Daughter dance at school– the one we never go to each year? Well, I've been thinking.. I kinda wanna go this year."
She snuck a glance over the console but Frost was still focused on traffic. He didn't show any signs of listening but still, she continued.
"I know its kinda last minute being its like in two months away and your... boss? Master? He who shall not be named? Whatever you call him, he doesn't like last minute requests but I wanna go. Can we?"
Frost sighed as the truck idled at a red light.
It was then he glanced over at his little girl. He was so lucky to have her. Genesis didn't look anything like him and he was forever grateful. He didn't want to curse her with his shortcomings because her beauty was so refined.
Genesis was all aristocratic lines and sharp features, perfectly balanced by her mother's warm complexion and hooded eyes. Gen had the face of ancient statues with deep rooted secrets evident in her full upturned lips and mirth forever shining in her dark brown eyes.
Frost often thought back to the day Joker named his daughter. The psychotic clown snuck into the labor and delivery floor to claim his end of the deal.
Frost stalled as long as he could when the nurses asked what to name his child and they found it odd that the mother didn't offer any input. The birth certificate was left blank until the middle of the night for J to come fill.
His green eyes were unreadable as he glared at the bouncy baby girl wide awake, waiting for him.
Frost was beyond terrified when Joker picked up his unnamed girl but shockingly the clown held her right and entered a staring contest with the infant.
Not once did she cry and much to Frost's horror, she smirked at Joker as if she knew something he didn't.
"Genesis." J mumbled.
"What?" Frost probably heard that wrong. Was that the name Joker had picked?!
Frost was expecting something stupid like initials that spelled out TNT or a play on words like, Dianamite. Joker was full of surprises after all. One couldn't be too sure.
Joker purred as he tickled Gen's cheek with his makeup stained hands. She cooed back and tried wiggling out her swaddle wrap to interact with this strange looking man.
"She's the ahh, beginning, to something greaT, Frosty. It's up ta her to figure out what."
And so Genesis was named.
Times like this Frost could see why Joker picked it. She was confident in her decision as if she already foreseen the outcome. Once she arrived at the dance with her father, it would open up a can of worms and questions, but she was ready to tackle them head on.
He couldn't be more proud.
Frost nodded sagely. "Hm, Good thing I bought a tux already. Y/n said to make sure it coordinated with something blue."
Genesis blinked before bursting out laughing. Of course you planned this.
She wouldn't expect anything else from a remarkable woman like you. You unknowingly brought her closer to her father in just one day. And tomorrow Gen would have the strength to come out to him.
"Yeah. Blue is perfect, dad."
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Hi Jess how are you? So I'm really curious about two of your wips heheheh. Can you tell us more about "Nix ruins parties" and "How to guide Tertius?". Btw you are SO SO creative omg, lots of love <3
hey, thank you for the ask and the compliment!!! very sweet of you ty! <3 I'm not too bad, very bored at work currently lmao. I just want to be writing 😩 i hope everything is going well for you too.
Nix ruins parties is a 5+1 format story about Nix misbehaving at a variety of different parties spanning from pre-war to post-war. I have a few sections pretty much finished and have currently been working on section v. may 1945, zell am see, austria trying to get some dialogue hashed out.
“Mm.” Dick made a non-committal noise. “Well, over here, anyway.” "Ah, the Orient. A whole new kettle of fish. "It's not over until it's over everywhere." "You wanna go, don't you?"  Silence.  "You do." Nix rolled himself up onto his elbow, peering at Dick's face. It wasn't really even a decision he had to make: he'd made it long ago. "I'll go with you." "I won't hold you to that. You're drunk." "Yes, very," Nix agreed. "But I still mean it. M'gonna come with you."
And How to Guide Tertius is a Sentinel and Guide au from Lip's perspective focusing on the different Sentinels he has to work with through the war until he and Ron find each other. It's one I've been trying to wrestle into shape recently to try to explain the au and get some better description into it. Here's a bit from the start about Dick.
"Sir, did you–" The officer didn’t like seeming vulnerable so Lip was careful to keep his voice neutral. Now he was close enough, he could feel the Sentinel's exhaustion, a low sucking pulse. There was something else there too, a hint of distracting sorrow that was undercutting the rest. Winters always kept his emotions clamped down, so it said a lot about how wrung out he really was right now. Lip wanted to reach out to touch him, grip his shoulder. "I can give you a hand, if you need it."  “No.” That low sense of exhaustion drew back fast, like an animal darting back into its den and out of sight. Winters didn't bristle visibly, but his voice was clipped. The set of his shoulders was stiffer. "No, I'm alright. Thanks for the offer, First Sergeant." Lip didn’t try to argue the point. A different Sentinel and maybe he would have tried, officer or not. With Sentinels, there was always a risk they’d lose themselves, get too overstimulated, startled or provoked into a spiral that dragged them down into their sense of hearing or touch or sight until they could only focus on the tiniest minutia of that singular sense and nothing else. Sometimes it could be an emotion that did it: rage, fear, grief. Guides were able to break through that spiral, allowing a Sentinel to focus in on them instead. An overloaded Sentinel was dangerous, liable to lash out or go catatonic, so Army training for Sentinels was particularly gruelling, drilling the men for hours – days, sometimes – exhausting them, trying to push them to their absolute limits. Boot camp had washed out a lot of Sentinels, and Toccoa had wiped out a lot more. Guides were given different training too, taught how to modulate their voices, keep a touch soft and reassuring, read emotions and body language. Lip hadn't had a problem with it, that kind of stuff had always come naturally for him, even as a child. The training just helped prepare him to do it all under fire so he’d be able to Guide a man through hell itself.  But this was Lieutenant Winters. Lip let it be. 
thanks again for the ask!!
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trinidaddy888 · 1 year
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Feels Like Home
MC and Mammon were in a relationship throughout the exchange program but things changed when the program ended. How did Mammon and MC deal with the long distance? Well, Mammon ghosted, leaving MC heartbroken. What was his reason?
Characters: MC, Mammon
Ships: MCxMammon
Genre: Romance    Rating: T
Tags: Takes place after MC goes back to the Human World, Established relationship but they fell off for a while, Gender neutral MC, No Spoilers, Not beta read
A/n: I totally procrastinated on NanoWrimo to write this lol. This story is more serious than I intended. I was thinking about the heartbreak of leaving someone you were close to behind and this is what came of it.  The ending is a bit rushed but I also have not written a romance fanfic in 16 years so please be nice! 
 The story is already posted to AO3 if you’d like to leave kudos and bookmark there! Thanks for reading!
I checked my watch. Mammon was 10 minutes late. After all this time, I wondered if he was going to flake.
It had been nearly a year since I left Devildom. All the time I spent there was some of the best years of my life. The best part was that I was with Mammon.
He was my first. My first demon to make a pact with, my first serious boyfriend and the first person who got me off. Our friendship in its early stages was difficult at first. I mean, bribing someone into a pact can easily make them hold a grudge against you for a while. But I grew on him and he on me. The so-called “scummy second born” demon turned out to be the most thoughtful person I have ever met. Until, that is, my exchange program ended.
Dating for years made us nearly inseparable and when we had to part, it was hard for us. Probably harder for him. At first, we kept up with messaging and calling each other every day. Then it turned to every few days, weeks and then nothing. He was the first between us to stop responding. At first, I thought he was in trouble or danger but when I asked his brothers if he was okay, they would say everything was fine.
It came as a surprise to me but the last thing he said to me was “This long distant thing is tough, MC.”
He always sounded like he was pained to be so far away from me even though he tried to hide it with a smile and the boastful misdirection of how “The Great Mammon” was never sad. Maybe he thought it would be easier to cut things off wordlessly but it sucked for me.
I cried the first time I realized that things were over. It was over when the brothers and Diavolo came to visit me and Mammon stayed behind in Devildom. When I asked them where Mammon was they awkwardly tried to change the subject and distract me from the pain they knew I would feel. I kept face until the day with them was over and I could break down into tears in my home. It took time to get over the heartbreak but there was always an emptiness in my heart.
And I lived with it until weeks ago when I got a random text from Mammon that said, “Yo, MC. Let’s hang.”
I was mad at first at the audacity to ghost me and then casually text me as if we had been in contact all this time. The temptation to reply with “No. Fuck you,” was there. But instead, I responded with, “Sure.”
I wondered if he was going to explain himself. Tell me why he cruelly ignored me and did not come to see me the countless times Lucifer and Diavolo chaperoned trips to the Human World to see me. Tell me why I suddenly became relevant to text again.
He gave me a time and place to meet him and told me that it would just be him and I and that Lucifer allowed him to come to the human world unsupervised. He did not tell me what he said to convince Lucifer of that, though.
I may never find out because he was late. Which may mean he’s not coming and I was being foolish. I felt tears welling up in my eyes. Fuck. I said there would be no more tears over this demon.
“Hey! MC!” a voice with a familiar timbre called out from behind, cutting into my doubt.
I turned around to a smiling Mammon approaching me. He was taller than I remembered and his voice was deeper than I remembered.
“Hey,” I said back to him.
He leaned into to hug me and I didn’t resist. His familiar scent almost pushed me off the edge. But I didn’t hug him back. I did not know how to react to him anymore.
We obviously weren’t a couple anymore and he ghosted me for months. Were we allowed to hug each other? Or be cordial? I doubt we were still allowed to kiss.
As he pulled away from the hug, I looked at him, searching for answers without asking questions. He caught my stare and looked away clearing his throat.
“So,” he said, “Ya ever been to Lily and Frog Cafe?”
“No, but I’ve heard of them.”
At the cafe, he pulled out a chair for me and took a seat across from me.
I started to wonder if he had been there before. The cafe was a few towns over from where I lived but I never heard of it.
To be honest, I moved out of my parents’ place when I moved back to the Human World so even the town I lived in was new to me. Grieving the end of a serious relationship left me unable to do much exploring. I spent my waking hours burying myself in my day job and the rest consuming media to distract myself from the emptiness.
“Hi, there! Welcome to Lily and Frog Cafe! What can I get for you today?” said the waitress standing by our table.
I opened my mouth to speak and Mammon was already reciting my usual coffee order that I used to get on our dates. He ordered an Affogato for himself. He usually hated coffee, opting for soda or an energy drink as his drink of choice. But he loved sugar and a shot of espresso over some sweet ice cream was probably a perfect choice.
“So,” said Mammon after the waitress left to visit another table, “Tell me. How have ya been?
I glared at him. “You would know if you didn’t ghost me for 8 months.”
He sheepishly looked down at the menu with food orders.
“I promise ya, I have an explanation for that,” he said quietly.
“Bull shit,” I spat.
I made a promise to myself to keep calm and not show my feelings about the “break up” or whatever the fuck it was, but it was difficult with him acting like jack all happened. He sighed.
“Okay,” he started, “The truth is, I came here to apologize. Me not respondin’ to ya or visitin’ ya was very fucked up.”
“It was,” I agreed.
“But it was hard for me to be away from ya.”
“So, it was “hard” but it was then easier to create even more distance by completely ignoring me?”
He winced. “Look. I’m not good at… expressin’ my emotions. I’m not good at expressin’ when I’m hurt.”
“After all this time of being with me,” I say raising my voice, “you still can’t do some basic fucking communication?”
“Yes,” he admits, “But the point of me bein’ here is to do just that. ”
“Fine,” I say, crossing my arms. “Then explain yourself. Explain why you ignored me. Explain why you broke up with me.”
“Break up? We broke up?” he asked in shock.
“Mammon, when you ghost someone for more than a month, it’s practically over.”
He put his head in his hands.
“Right,” he said, “Time for humans moves differently. Listen, for me it…”
“Don’t start with that,” I say, cutting him off, “Don’t start with the excuse that time is longer for humans than it is for demons. You don’t ghost someone for more than a month when you’re in a relationship. Especially when nothing is wrong.”
He scoffed.
“Nothing was wrong? I was cryin’ every day. I stopped goin’ to class. Not even Lucifer’s threats scared me. I was a shell of the demon I used to be.”
“But you had me!”
“No. I didn’t. It’s not like you were miles away. Ya was in a whole other realm that I can’t be in.”
“Why didn’t you ask me to stay?”
“I…”
“Affogato and a…Sorry” the reappearing waitress said and paused when she realized we were arguing, “I can come back.
“No. It’s okay,” I say, cheeks flushing with embarrassment.
I looked around. People were staring at us. Damn. We were so caught up in conversation that I forgot we were in a public place.
The waitress put our drink orders on the table and said, “Did you decide on food or would you like me to come back?”
“Yes,” said Mammon with a charming smile. A smile that might have scammed humans into relinquishing their possessions for millennia.
She blushed and nodded. She left us alone again.
“Okay,” he continued, “I couldn’t ask ya to stay for longer in a place you didn’t choose to be. I couldn’t do it. You’re human. You should not spend the rest of your life in literal hell.”
He was right. I hated how right he was. If he begged me to I would have stayed but it would not be feasible. And how long was our long-distance relationship going to last? Months? Years?
It was a struggle not being in his embrace or taking in his scent. Not kissing him was hard. Not making love to him was even harder.
“Fine,” I finally say, “I guess… I get it. I hate that you ignored me but. I get it.”
A small smile graced his lips. “Look, MC. I don’t expect ya to forgive me and I know ya don’t see me as a boyfriend anymore but I want you in my life.”
“I wanted you in mine,” I say, “That’s why I’m hurt. I was so sad and just so…”
“Angry?” he said with a knowing smile.
I smile back at him.
I wasn’t ready to fully forgive just yet, but I was starting to.
After we had our meal, we decided to go for a walk in the park and caught up with what each other missed. We got ice cream and as usual, he ordered for me before himself, remembering what I liked.
I told him about work drama, time spent with my parents and activities I did with my old friends. He told me about RAD and the silly antics he and the brothers would get up to. Apparently, after dealing with depression his brothers helped him get back to his old self. It felt like it was getting back to old times. Like a date. Was this a date?
Mammon paused mid-sentence to glance at me.
“You got some sprinkles on ya chin,” he said with observing eyes.
I rubbed my chin and he shook his head.
“No, no. Not there,” he said and he reached and wiped it off me with his thumb.
He then licked his thumb. I gawked at him and he grinned. I forgot how bold he had become. At the start of our relationship, he got easily flustered but he changed as he got more comfortable around me.
“I could have just used a mirror from my bag,” I said with an annoyed voice trying to cover up a laugh.
He wordlessly shrugged and ate his ice cream, still grinning.
I snuck a few glances at him. He was just as hot as the last time I saw him. Maybe even hotter. When we video chatted after I left for the human world, his beauty still shone through the screen but it was a fraction of that in person.
“So, uh,” he said, “Did you start seeing anyone after I… ghosted ya?”
“No,” I said quickly. Maybe a little too quickly.
He grinned but then tried to hide with a cough.
“And, obviously,” he said, “I didn’t start seeing anyone. In my eyes, we were still together.”
“Hmm,” I hummed. I didn’t know what to say to that.
“I missed ya, MC,” he said, “So much. Like a lot.”
I wanted to say, “Then you could have talked to me if you did” but I felt like that would be childish so I said nothing and let the silence hang between us. Maybe I didn’t understand his weird way of coping with missing me. Maybe it was a demon thing or a Mammon thing. I certainly didn’t have a romantic or sexual relationship with any other demon beside him to know.
Although, he is a lot better at showing love in person compared to when we first knew each other. I wonder what his current expectations were. Did he think we were going to get back together? Surely he didn’t think it would be as easy as hitting me up and buying me coffee and ice cream. Did I want to get back together? This was a lot to think of and I didn’t want to be in this head space.
“MC,” he said breaking the silence, “I got something to tell ya. I…”
“Mammon,” I said, cutting him off, “It’s getting late.”
I couldn’t let him say anything else about what we felt for each other out loud.
“It’s only 5 pm,” he said after checking his phone.
I remembered that he set the time on his DDD to match the time in my location in the Human World. I guess he never changed it.
“Yes, but,” I said, “I have work tomorrow and I have chores and meal prep that I need to do before the weekend is officially over.”
His brow furrowed with disappointment.
“Yeah, uh, okay,” he said, “Lemme take ya home.”
He took the bus with me back to my place. On the way, home, we rode in silence. And when we got off at the nearest stop to my apartment, we walked in silence.
What else was there to say? We argued about him ignoring me. We caught up on our respective life events. But we couldn’t tell each other anything else. Telling him that I still loved him would put me in a position where there would be expectations to be his partner again. Telling him that I still wanted him would force him to be back in my life and I didn’t know if I wanted him there.
We finally got to the front of my apartment.
“Well,” I say, “This is my place. Thanks for today. It was nice to catch up.”
His gaze bore into me. His deep ocean-blue eyes met mine with an unreadable expression.
“Well,” he finally says, “I hope we can be friends again. Or somethin’.”
Friends? Could we go back to being friends after all that we’ve been through? Could it even be that easy?
“Friends,” I say as if testing out how the word felt, “Yeah, that is manageable.”
“I promise,” he says with a smile, “that I won’t be a total asshole this time.”
I laughed.
“I hope not. Well… Bye, Mammon.”
“Yeah,” he says, “Can I hug ya?”
“Oh, sure.”
He embraces me and this time I hug him back. The hug is longer than expected and I bury my face into his chest to capture his scent in my memory. He still smelled like cologne and the slight smoky scent of Devildom. He holds me tight.
We pull away but his hands are still holding my shoulders. He was looking at me with sadness and longing in his eyes. I look down, avoiding his gaze but I do not tell him to let go of me. I wasn’t ready to part either.
“MC,” his voice says, deep with longing.
I look up at him. He cups my face with his large hands. Succumbing to my instincts, I wrap my arms around his neck and pull him into a deep kiss. He pulls me even tighter against his body, hands settling to the small of my waist. My fingers run through his soft, pearl-white hair and our mouths explore each other with hunger.
Being close to him made me remember that I wanted this. I always wanted this. I missed this. But was this a good idea?
I pulled away and backed away from him
“What’s wrong?” he asked, breathlessly.
“I can’t do this,” I say, shaking my head, “This is all so confusing. We can’t be together.”
“Is it ‘cause of how I treated ya?” he asks with worry, “I wish I never did what I did. I still love ya.”
My cheeks are met with the unwelcome wetness of my tears. Why would he say that?
“Mammon,” I choke, “I… still love you, too. But you were right. I can’t live in Devildom. If it was hard for you to be away from me how would we survive as a couple.”
“MC, that’s what I wanted to tell you before. That’s why I came. I spoke to Lucifer and he said he’s willin’ to let me live in the human world… Well, if I don’t go back to scammin’ humans like I used to. He said he saw how sad we were apart and would let me be with ya here. ”
I was shocked. “ What?”
“I mean,” he said quickly, “If… you want me to, that is.”
“I want you to,” I say without thinking.
His face erupts into a grin as he grabs me, lifts me off my feet and spins me around. We kiss again.
Maybe I was rushing into being with him again but to me, being with him felt more like home than the Human World.
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Spotify drabble number 51!
Waterfall - Toby Fox
another instrumental - this one's on my ender king playlist, though, it's become linked to endlantis in my mind. Also I'm gonna use this as a little practice for a fic I plan to post later.
It takes Phil a few days to work up the courage to take the plunge. Even by the time he grabs as many potions of water breathing as he can from the chest in the basement, he doesn't feel quite ready. But Phil also thinks it might be impossible to feel prepared for an environment like this, so he refuses to let it stop him.
From the moment he steps off the obsidian platform to dive into the waterlogged depths of this End Island, he's immediately taken aback by it's beauty. It had been hard to see in the rushing water that surrounded the platform, but once he starts to swim through it, the resplendence of the island opens up to him completely. The beacons casting up into the void-like sky paint the top of the water a brilliant smear of colors, dancing around Phil as he puffs his cheeks out and swims toward the nearest volcanic vent.
There's enough coral here to rival the reefs of the oceans on the Overworld, growing all along the sides of various ruins that look slightly more native to this place. Purpur ships and structures with color blossoming along its side, like moss on an old, forgotten home. On the far side of the island, Phil can see a ginormous trident, something he doesn't understand how he missed in the few times he'd walked the tunnel here before. But as he tries to swim to that, next, something catches his eye and distracts him all over again.
Phil kicks his feet underneath him, righting himself until he feels like he's standing and looking down at the display curled in the center of the island.
No amount of conduits or water breathing potions can keep the breath from feeling like it’s being sucked right out of him. Bubbles fly from Phil’s open mouth as he stares down at the skeletal dragon laid out within the sand and endstone.
“What happened to you?” Phil mumbles, more bubbles than sound as he twists and kicks his feet in order to get down to the bottom of the island. “This doesn’t... this shouldn’t happen. It’s not natural.”
He doesn’t touch on the fact that the skeleton of an ender dragon is no more natural than the glass bowl that’s been placed around the island. At least the dragon is supposed to be here.
But the dragon isn’t the only new surprise the base of the island has in store for Phil. A soft light is emitting from the back of her skull, enticing Phil to swim around to the base of her head to see what awaits him.
There’s a tunnel. This is not the bottom of the island, there is something deeper, and Phil doesn’t think twice before diving down into the depths. The tunnel winds and twists, and at first, Phil fears he might be swimming toward the void itself.
But then he surfaces, and his world is turned upside down once more. Gripping onto the glass pathway, Phil stares into the dull sockets of his second skeleton today, water streaming from his hair and splattering on the glass as he pulls himself up. Terror he hardly understands is gripping his chest as he looks up into the face of something he knows, instinctively, is so much more powerful than he could ever hope to become. There is magic here, dormant but heavy enough to stick to Phil’s skin and make his chest ache with the force of breathing through it.
He does not know, yet, who he is staring up at. The deity lies on the precipice of decimation, just waiting to be brought back by an unsuspecting Player who has only just discovered
send me a number 1-100 and i will write a drabble based off my spotify top 100
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t0rturedangel · 1 year
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Ummmm im sorry to bother but can we get some frank knight x reader fluff please
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𝐁𝐀𝐁𝐘 𝐒𝐈𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐃𝐔𝐓𝐘 - ♡
Frank Knight x Reader - fluff
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A/N :: Sorry i havent been posting guys ! I havent had much motivation but now i'll post more i promise ! Also i have more new fandoms i'll write for <33 ALSO THIS WAS REQUESTED TWICE SO I HOPE THE SECOND PERSON WHO REQUESTED THIS IS HAPPY WITH THIS !!
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" Y/n, my office now please " You heard the familiar voice of your chief, sighing you got up ignoring all the cheeky whispers from your colleges as you walked to her office, they snickered, eyes following you making you uncomfortable.
Entering the office you noted how your chief was clearly annoyed, sitting down she began to talk. " Thank you for coming Y/n " she sighed and in return you gave her a nervous smile " My pleasure Chief, so- uhm what did i do wrong now? " you asked thinking you messed up again as you did have a reputation of being a trouble maker, the only reason why she kept you with the team is because you're a relative of hers and she has a soft spot for you.
" You didn't do anything n/n, its Frank " your eyes widened for a second and one of your brows raised, confusion evident of your features " What about him? What did he do? " Leaning forward you held the end of her desk for support of your upper body " He's gotten really drunk again and i want you to find him and look after him- also please try to sober him up he has a new case " " So i have to baby sit him? " you deadpanned, disappointed you'd much rather be in trouble rather than look after Frank, you didnt hate the guy its just that sometimes he was too much.
" In a way yes, i do hope this isnt an issue, is it? " Her gaze darkened and you knew that you had no say in the matter so you didnt even bother to try and argue with her " Nope, it isnt an issue auntie, i'll go and babysit him " you groaned standing up and quickly leaving her office not letting her lecture you about calling her auntie at work
It didnt take you long to find Frank, he was by a pub laughing and singing his drunk heart out and bursting your eardrums out while he does. No, seriously, he sucks at singing. Getting out of your car you went over to the older man " Frank! Buddy hey, what cha doing ? " You grinned even though you knew what he was doing and wanted to create a conversation with him to distract him while leading him back to the car.
Frank 'huh-ed' in a slurred voice before turning to you a wobblily grin on his face as he registered who you were " Y/N !!!! " He yelled out swinging an arm around your shoulders pulling you into a hug to which you gaged " Ew- fuck Frank you reek of booze and vomit ! " you glared at him slightly pushing him as a way of getting away from him and his stench but he held on firmly " I dont fucking stink you little cheeky twat " he pulled you closer making you gag " Fucks sake Frank ! " you hissed " We need you to get sobered up ! You have a new case to work on ! " " Oh my fucking god " Frank groaned his grip loosened letting you easily get away from him.
" I dont wanna work on shit- " " You think i dont know that? You alway complain about it but you cant do anything about it so why dont you shut up and lets go get you some water yeah? " You grabbed the back of his shirt and led him to the car despite his and his friends' rebottle against you doing so.
Quickly you both sat down in the car, you being in the divers seat and Frank in the passengers, pulling out a cold water bottle you turned to him " This might not help- like at all- but still drink this, you need something different than beer " and as you chucked the bottle over he barely caught it, groaning as he gulped down massive amounts of the flavorless liquid. After he was done he looked over at you a small smile on his face as his eyes glossed over slightly. Was he about to cry? What for?
" Ya know kid, i like you " "Frank you have a wife " " NOT LIKE THAT !- I mean- you remind me of my girls ya know? you just remind me so much of them with your personality and all that other shit " You sighed and shook your head slightly " Thank for that Frank, now i think you should go to sleep might help speed up the sober-ing up process " that comment made you receive a scoff from Frank before he leaned back and immediately passed out.
Starting up the car you looked over to the sleeping man a small smile on your face " Thanks for that Frank, you know you remind me of a dad . . . " gripping the steering wheel you drove off not noticing the grin on Franks face
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Can you write something where the reader let's the boys stay but doesn't date any of them officially, but her and Sam make out for energy but they both want more so one day they kiss without the energy drain and its like HOLY CRAP HE FEELS THE SAME for a split second but then the kiss becomes more? Sorry if that's too specific lol,
I'm so sorry anon I thought I had posted this months ago! Turns out I had not!! And I’ve been so busy and distracted I did not notice. But, Not at all too specific! Wasn't sure if you wanted smut or not so I added a line break thingy in case that isn’t your vibe. 
AFAB fem!reader x Sam and this is written in second person so sorry about that if it's rough because that's why this took too long (except the fact that I didn't notice this did get posted so that comment doesn't really matter anymore :P)  -_- but I struggle a bit with second sometimes. 
NSFW: minors preferably DNI but you choose what you interact with so be wise Tags: L-bombs, Slight overstimulation, Creampie, slight praise kink, Vaginal sex, make outs, Crossposted to A03, (lemme know if I’ve missed a key tag).
This work was inspired by Michaela Laws' Seduce me series. I own none of the characters here and you should definitely check out her stuff!! https://www.michaelaamandalaws.com/links
Mutual love Word count: 1.8k 
The sun was beaming down on you as you led in your deck chair on the balcony. peeking down at some of the brothers relaxing in the garden. You smiled as Matthew and Sam began having a water fight much to Erik's chagrin as he was attempting to sunbathe.
“Will you pair quit it?” 
Times like this you were really glad she allowed the boys to stay, no matter how daunting that decision actually was at the time. They were like a little family and you cared for them as if they were their brothers. Except Sam, you felt something more for him. It started small, with you casting lingering looks on his broad, strong frame. Then it grew to deciding to seek his company over his brothers, even when you had first met and he wasn’t too keen on you at all!. You had such a huge crush on him even if you struggled to admit that to yourself. It sucked though. you were almost certain he didn’t feel the same way, why would he? He was an Incubus! he could have literally anyone he wanted and it was unlikely that was you. 
You knew how he felt, how he tasted on your lips, he had made out with you in the past but it was always because he was starving. Like when you first met, and he robbed your first kiss, igniting a desire in you, you had long though you lacked. Or before he fought Malix after he had a shower and you were delivering dinner. But it was always a kiss and nothing more. 
You Sighed and got up, meandering down the stairs to the kitchen. Glancing out of the window and saw James and Damien had joined the other three brothers and they sat at the bottom of the garden talking. That is cute. You plodded over to the toaster in the corner and popped a bagel in and sighed gently, slightly slumped over the counter.
You knew you should probably tell him at some point, lest lose the chance at all. But it was easier said than done. If you just waited for the right moment, the perfect opportunity then maybe just maybe…
“Heya Doofus, Whatcha doing?” 
Sam strode in, shutting the patio doors behind him, plopping himself beside you. He was shirtless, only in his shorts, skin slightly tacky where he had been goofing around. You gave a coy smile at him, gesturing vaguely to the toaster. 
“Cooking, obviously” 
You jumped a little as the bagel popped out, laughing at yourself. Sam had no response, he just looked at you. There was a strange look in his eye, one you were hesitant to identify. Your breath shallows, stepping back a little intimidated. Sam stepped forward, filling the space you had created and you bump into the counter behind you. He brought his arm above you resting it on the cabinet and effectively pinning you in place. 
“Umm, Sam I-”
He cupped your chin and brought your lips up to his, gently grazing them with his own. Your heart was pounding, you could feel it in your ear drums. He probably needed energy, hence the strange demeanour. 
“Is this okay? Do you mind if I kiss you?” 
You nodded gently, anticipating the energy drain. His lips met yours in a gentle kiss, one distinctly lacking something. 
“Wait, where's the energy drain? I thought you needed energy?”
Sam sighed and pulled back, standing awkwardly in front of you. 
“I mean I could take your energy if you want me too but I’m- I…”  He sighed deeply, taking your hand in his and smoothing his fingers over your knuckles. “I love you (Y/N). and I’ve known for a while and it's okay if you don’t. We can keep the dynamic we had. But- I love you. And, I'd like something more, we can take it slow go at your pace but I-” 
You cut him off, your hand snaking to the back of his head and pulling him down to your level and kissing him. “I Love you too, I knew I did- i just never thought you would feel the same.” you smiled tearfully. 
The corner of his mouth twitched into a grin. You were pulled into a kiss. It was sloppy and eager. You raked your hands through his hair and pulled him closer. Pulling away and gasping, cheeks flushed and lips glistening. His hands wandered down your hips, cupping your butt and picking you up. 
“Come on, let's go upstairs and talk” 
He had teleported you upstairs and plopped you down on the bed. His lips found yours again as his hands wandered your body. Fingers dipping into the waistband of your pyjamas and finding your underwear. Running the pad of his fingers down over the seams caused you to let out a whimper. 
“Please, Sam! I-” 
Cutting you off with his lips, you could feel his smirk as he kissed your cheek. His kisses trailed down your neck and onto your chest where he cupped your breasts through your shirt. As he pulled off your shirt slowly, with small teasing touches, before smiling at the sight. He gave you a slow kiss on the lips before pulling away and pushing you down onto the bed. 
“We’re supposed to be talking,” he said, chuckling at your flushed expression. 
You relaxed, settling into the bed, turning to look at Sam beside you. “I can’t believe you love me too”
He smiled and brought you closer “Why wouldn’t I? You’re all I've wanted since we set foot in this house and that will never change” he wrapped his arms around your waist cuddling his face into your neck as he shifted to be the big spoon. You settled into his touch, happy and content that your feelings were reciprocated. 
You had stripped down into a shirt and your underwear and him just his pyjama pants and just cuddled for a while. You just basked in the others presence and mutual feeling for each other, idly discussing your crushes on each other and everything you want to do together. 
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Soon, his hands began to wander. His hands travelled down your waist, fingers creeping up your shirt and tracing the waistband of your underwear. You sucked in a breath at his touch and pushed your hips into his hands, tilting your head to meet his lips ghosting them over his. 
“Are you sure you want to…” he started, a blush creeping across his face as he took heavy breaths. 
You answered him with a kiss and you felt his smirk against your lips and he shifted to sit up and pulled you onto his lap. You subconsciously began to grind your hips into his feeling his rock hard cock through your panties. You let out a soft moan that was captured by his mouth, soon getting lost in the feeling of his mouth on yours and his cock teasing your pussy. 
Sam’s eyes began to glow a soft gold and warmth pumped through your body. You didn’t notice when he pulled your panties down, you just felt a finger circle clit as you rolled your hips. You buried your head into his neck. Crying out his name as he teased you. 
“Aww, Your so wet and so needy, do you want me to fuck you?” he breathed, voice deep with poorly restrained arousal. He moved his hands, one supported your waist and one wrapped around his own cock as he rubbed it along your entrance. “You're so soaked, you want this cock don’t you”. 
Crying out as he teased, you were barely able to marshall your tongue into responding a weak “yes, please Aomaris” Your use of his demon name set something off in him. He makes a noise somewhere between a moan and a growl as he slides into you with ease. Rolling his hips gently into you at first, cautiously watching for signs of discomfort. Your fingers found their way into his hair. Looking him in the eyes as you cried out for him to go faster. He did what he was told, hips moving at a speed you did not think was possible. His hand had moved back to circle your clit and you gasped at the sensation. Thrusting your hips into his hand desperately. 
Your eyes were screwed shut, panting as he drove you to your orgasm. As sweat began to bead and drip down your forehead, Sam looked at you lovingly. “You’re so beautiful, do you know that doofus? And you’re all mine.” he pulled his bottom lip in-between his teeth, biting as he attempted to control his thrusts.  
Arching your back, you attempted to get him in deeper–pushing your cunt flush against his hips. You open your eyes and reach towards him, placing your palm upon his chest. You admired his chiselled chest. You needed him. “Need it Harder…” You begged.
His eyes screwed shut barely maintaining his control. When Sam opened his eyes, the emerald green had been all but washed away, leaving nothing but dark pupils in their wake. He pulled out of you and flipped you, your face now buried into the pillows on your bed. You arched your back teasingly, spreading your legs weakly as your wetness dripping down your legs. 
Sam cupped your pussy with his hand, running his thumb over your flushed and dripping hole. He plunged his hips up and pushed into you with desperation “Is this what you needed?” The growl that left his throat, only pushed you closer to the edge. He continued to thrust into you his hands grasping at your ass and then tracing your spine. His consistent teasing touches made you melt into the bed beneath you. 
“Please don’t stop, Sam I’m gonna…” He pulled you up from the bed, spreading your legs and pressing his chest into your back and burying his head in your neck without his cock ever leaving you. He dropped his hand back at your clit, keeping his pace as he encouraged you to cum. 
“Do It, cum all over my thick cock baby. Its okay” He kept going murmuring praises and saucy comments as he fucked you. “Im gonna cum Baby, are you gonna cum with me? All over me?” and with that you did. You clenched around his cock as he brought you to your orgasm, you feverishly rode he cock desperate to feel his cum inside you. Soon you felt it, his hips stuttering and plunging even deeper into you as he let out a deep moan. He teased your clit again, the over sensitivity leading to you cuming again and you felt your energy being pulled out of you as you came.
His grip was tight around you as you shook. Eyes shutting again and legs quivering, you basked in the bliss for who knows how long. Soon you felt the call of sleep and you settled in his arms, his magic rolling over you and the bed. 
“I love you” you spoke out, voice hoarse and weak as he pulled you off his cock and tucked you into bed. He soon settled next to you, laying a delicate kiss on your forehead. 
“I love you too (Y/n),”
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Chapter 28 & things to address..
Hello, it’s your favorite absent author-nim. Lmao
Chapter 28 is up and ready for your eyes. I had a sweet time writing this one because it’s the gate to all lovey dovey stuff.
*heart flutters*
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On a more serious/concerning update, there’s a lot of things stemming from one thing that I need to address. Please bare with me as I open the gates of *drum roll* anonymous readers (?) that have been abusing that anonymous button on the ask section of this app.
At first (for months) I didn't want to bring attention to the nonstop harassment I've been getting over here but I feel like there's a person (or several) that have been abusing that anonymous button for months.
And it sucks.
At first, I simply deleted the asks that these people sent because I couldn't be bothered but lately it's all I've been getting (to the point of not being able to find the nice comments) and if their goal is to make me post more often....I'm here to inform you that it's not working, obviously.
Threatening me to post the next update actually hinders me from doing so because my inspiration is gone the moment I read those asks. If you're wondering why I'm no longer active on Tumblr is mainly because of this and now I dread opening this app. with all the due respect that my mother raised me with…please stop.
This is meant to be a pleasing distraction from everyday life. We are here to make friends and to build a safe space, something that lately its not for me.
I believe this story is not that good to be receiving threats over. Sure, I love this story too, I deeply love my characters and it's been a joy writing about them. And I understand the need for weekly updates just as much as I want this story to go on forever. Unfortunately the weekly update thing has not been possible because I work 9-5 but if I'm being honest, I can write a full chapter in three nights. The thing is, reading really rude comments deters me from doing so, I'm sure every reader-nim that it's also an author-nim can relate to this.
And I’m not talking about the reader-nims asking me about the next update or sending great constructive criticism, NO. I’m talking about the anonymous asks that call me a b*tch (to put it in the nicest way without losing context) every time the weekend update is not posted.
As for the things among these *asks* that I -at this point- must address are:
1. How realistic the story is…NOT (?)
One of the first rude asks I got about DSIMY being not realistic at all was how can I claim it to be real when my writing is mediocre and sets the tannies up in the story.
First of all, I know I’ve said I’m trying to keep the story as realistic as possible. What I meant with that was in terms of the timeline. There’s no way I can deduce the tannies’ character down to perfection. Breaking news, I don’t know them. This is fiction even if the tags are #OriginalUniverse. Please understand this is in no way a Hybe certified biography written by a random ao3 author on the internet. *Me believes ao3 is not Wikipedia.*
As for setting the tannies up, I’m hurt that you think I am doing that and I have no clues as to why you would believe that. Again, this is fan fiction written by a random not certified writer dabbling in fan fiction on a site/archive called ao3.
I know I’m not the best writer —I never claim to be one. I know I have so much ahead of me in terms of improvement. I’m not forcing anyone to read anything I write so I don’t understand why the asks about the chapter being sh*t keep coming. If you don’t like it, please don’t read it. Spare your eyes from my writing.
2. Long/short chapters
Complaining about not long enough chapters and then following it up with the chapter being 15k words of filler writing…..I’m sorry. I’m already setting up myself with shorter more action packed chapters. It’s my first time writing fan fiction and I made the mistake of making DSIMY the introduction of the series. At this point, I’m lost on what to include in the chapters.
3. Ignoring comments
I’m not sure if this is about the many comments on ao3 that I have yet to reply to or the 50+ unanswered asks sitting in my inbox. I’ve been deleting rude asks for months here on Tumblr up until these asks literally ran me off the app. Being completely honest, seeing hateful asks at the top of the inbox has made me expect them every time I log on here. And sure thing, there they are, so I stopped altogether.
4. Teasing new stories when DSIMY needs a lot of improvement
Not gonna lie, up until now I was really proud of the story I drafted from the corners of my mind. Up until now. Now im not so sure if DSIMY is worth finishing after many asks telling me to focus on DSIMY instead of starting another shitty story. I know I can’t please everyone, I seriously thought I would receive a lot of excitement from the sequels. Crap, guess not.
5. Not addressing the rude asks
Seriously. This was a happy space for everyone up until I had to address this. I will not answer the rude asks mainly because it will start a chain of events of back and forth that I would like to avoid. And I seriously hope this will be the only time I have to bring such update.
One last thing.
Twitter is going to be my main social media from now on because even if you’re allowed to have a fake profile I can block people if they’re rude, whereas here I cant when people can call me a b*tch and a pathetic author (I'm putting this nicely btw) behind that anonymous button. I've loved Tumblr because you guys are more active here but with this happening I made the decision to stick to Twitter or no social media at all. This is not something I decided after one rude message, it's been more than a dozen since I got fired and it's seriously pushing me back from updating this story.
I will be posting teasers, and just overall updates about everything on Twitter. I will try to move the media over to there some time.
I know it’s very few people being party poopers but these few people are loud and for the sake of enjoying this journey I have to stop giving them access to being rude. I hope you understand where I’m coming from and I apologize if some of this came off in the wrong way —its not meant like that.
I’ll never take your patience and love for granted.
Love,
Your author nim.
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#but i guess you don't think of people writing dark fic or whatever as actual people so...their deaths wouldn't trouble your precious morals
My Top Posts in 2022:
#5
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“Hot dog?” The kitten jumped up again and meowed loudly. Willie on the other hand was suddenly sitting down. “Alex? Is … is that you?” The kitten meowed loudly once again and headbutted Willie’s shin. “You’re … you’re a cat.” As the kitten tilted its head and stared at him, eyes narrowing, hysterical laughter bubbled out of Willie. “Okay, yeah, that’s you. Definitely.” He ran a hand through his hair. “Well, shit.” Alex the kitten meowed his agreement.
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Kitten fic is finally here! I'm probably going to post the second and final chapter soonish too but I really, really ought to do the dishes now (and some other chores ... yay) so I'm just throwing this out here.
Thanks eternal to @merihn for being my first enabler and first reader, aka beta on this, to @innytoes for being excited about the idea and drawing amazing fanart that finally kicked my butt into writing this, and to @chanihobbit for cheering me on. You guys are amazing 😻😻😻
28 notes - Posted August 6, 2022
#4
Give me a 5 sentence Snake/Otacon AU where one is an cryptid please!
"Wait, I can explain."
Snake winces at the throaty growl of his voice - it's been a while since he's talked to anyone other than his dogs - but then tries to school his features into a harmless, open expression and suppresses the urge to reach out to the man in front of him.
The man takes a step back anyway - so much for appearing friendly.
Mentally, Snake is already compiling lists of things to pack, how quickly he can get his dogs settled and harnessed and he absolutely refuses to get distracted by the familiar weight of sadness creeping in at the thought of losing even this last connection to humanity - his email friendship with a man who was never supposed to find him in the middle of Alaska.
But then Otacon smiles and it's not a nervous smile or even a sympathetic smile, it's a smile full of enthusiasm and awe that only gets brighter when he reaches up and wipes the mist off his glasses, pushing them back up the slippery slope of his nose and takes in all of Snake.
"This is the best thing that's ever happened to me!"
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Thank you, hunny!! God it's been a while since I wrote these two disasters. I couldn't decide what kind of cryptid Snake would be so I'm leaving that up to you. I hope you like this (even though it's six sentences ... shhhhh)
40 notes - Posted February 15, 2022
#3
Please be more careful about accidentally stealing tags, especially on reblogging original art posts!
I know tumblr is a trashfire and there's issues with the app and accidental tag stealing. I operate on a 'good faith' interpretation system. But while copied tags are vaguely weird when it's 'normal' tags, annoying when it's very personal tags, hilarious when it's a personal tagging system suddenly appearing on a different blog, it's just plain wrong when you reblog original art from the op and tags like 'my art' or 'I drew a thing' are copied over!
Sure, every dolt with half a brain will probably be able to figure out it wasn't your original art if you reblogged it but as we all know, this site unfortunately has too many dolts with less brain than that.
(edit: I've been informed that the iOS glitch means you can't see if the tags get copied before you hit reblog, which sucks majorly. But if you use that app, maybe just form a habit of checking your blog every now and then to see if anything got copied over you didn't want to get copied or give blanket permission to people to point those posts out for you)
So.
Please be vigilant to NOT EVER copy tags like 'my art,' 'my writing' etc.
45 notes - Posted July 1, 2022
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Can you imagine all the dramatic fights Emily and Luke would have over the scraps of paper he leaves in his laundry? Emily complaining about all the paper fluff she had to pick off her laundry and Luke wailing about all the lyrics he's lost?
Anyway, this post is sponsored by the shopping list I forgot in the back pocket of my jeans ...
53 notes - Posted August 28, 2022
My #1 post of 2022
It's worth it sometimes, you guys. I just got a comment on a five year old fic and I'm ready to cry:
"i thought of this fic again and had to come back and leave a comment on how impactful it has been to me. [...]"
This was not a person who had commented on this fic before. So, to me, this was a new reader but their comment makes it clear that they didn't just read the story and liked it but that they've read it before and it stayed with them. Which is really the highest praise I can think of.
So for anyone thinking about deleting a fic or orphaning it: don't. You take your chance away of getting a comment like this at some point down the road.
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19. Tell me a story about your writing journey. When did you start? Why did you start? Were there bumps along the way? Where are you now and where are you going?
Is it weird to not consider myself a writer. Like yeah I've put words together to communicate ideas like lots of other people but I'm not a WRITER who WRITES. I'm a reader who ran out of reading material.
There's several angles I could go with this, but I guess I'll go with the less funny and true story: Writing for enjoyment started out as wolf roleplaying on forums and websites with other people. In school, I always got decent grades on writing assignments, but that didn't quite seem to translate into ACTION PACKED wolf FIGHTS and DRAMA, which is what I thought was fun as a child. I sucked at it, partially because I was just very young and partially because I had extreme online social anxiety, lmao.
Anyway I got older and packed roleplay away once I got too embarrassed but kept reading fiction both official and fan.
And then, back when I started this tumblr, I started writing again. Just a little hidden corner of the internet where I could slap some words together in short little scenes regardless of who did or didn't see it. It felt less "official" than posting them somewhere specifically for fanfiction.
I feel like why I'm writing now is really embarrassing and also very obvious. Maybe it's not, idk. As a rather hermetic shut-in who doesn't see a lot of other people in the real world and deals with them mostly online, the idea of being in a romantic relationship in the real world and having both the work and support that one provides is kind of like a fantasy genre for me.
It's like dragons. If dragons really existed I would not be the chosen one who could talk to them, but it's fun to IMAGINE a world where I am.
Except I don't write myself exactly because im boring, so I work it out thru characters than are crazier and more fun than me.
I think Don't Starve appeals to me partially bc of the survival setting? Like. Don't get me wrong if I was in a survival setting I would Die, Immediately, but sometimes it's nice to strip away the distractions of life in modern society. Personally, as in, as a Weird (read: undiagnosed w/ label but probably messed up brain) person, I feel overwhelmed sometimes with life. So in writing its fun to strip some of that away and say okay, here are your characters, they will live and die directly by their collective actions, good luck to them. Also a universe where characters can die and respawn is fun lmao
Where am I now? *gestures to blog* primarily in Willowson hell, I guess. I have no idea where I'm headed next. My interests tend to be long-lasting, so I'll likely be playing this game for a while yet, but writing doesn't come naturally to me, so there's bound to be ups and downs with activity. I'm still embarrassed about it sometimes!!! Like geez if I had to pick a Genre to maintain my persona it would not have been this one, lmao
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can people with dyscalculia help? im 18, autistic, and trying to figure out if i have it. it would be really nice if some people who know they have it could read this and give their opinion on whether i should try to get evaluated.
i’ve always hated math and struggled with it, and yet i was in advanced classes in middle school..... which i HATED. then, in high school, i got mistakenly put in the intermediate class for kids who struggle with math, and saw...... little to no change in how challenging it was. i did get bored with how slowly we were introduced to concepts, but my ability to complete the homework in a timely manner never improved. and i tend to do math slower than my peers--i even requested a time extension on my ACT because i finished all the other sections with great scores every time, but could only get like halfway through the math section at best. the one time i remember finishing a test first in class, i was proud but surprised. but looking back i think that test had a lot of questions about the concepts we were being taught rather than arithmetic, which also surprised me because in my experience math tests are mostly solving problems, not answering questions about math concepts. there have also been times that i’ve finished my classwork before anyone else, but also looking back this usually happened because i was working while the teacher was talking instead of taking notes. (my thoughts are very very fast and unfortunately my teacher does not talk as fast as my thoughts, so in pretty much all my classes, i just end up working ahead while listening to the lecture so i can pay attention and not get distracted)
i understand the abstract concepts behind math just fine, and even like them, but i kind of struggle with it at the same time. i do things like addition slowly and multiple times to make sure i got it right, sometimes counting on my fingers. i cannot memorize my times tables, ive completely given up on that. i still count on my fingers at 18, which i didnt realize wasnt normal because im completely unobservant. i hate mental math and calculators are my saving grace. i dont trust myself to do mental math correctly. i struggle to hold numbers in my head, especially long strings like phone numbers or addresses, which is part of what makes mental math so hard for me (and thats why i use my fingers or write it down). i forget things like phone numbers instantly. im not very good at reading analog clocks, but that might be because we’re moving more towards digital clocks everywhere. i also heard that dyscalculia can be associated with difficulty telling right from left, and thats a really embarrassing thing ive always struggled with--i need to hold up my hands to remember (left hand makes an L) and if i cant do that i have to imagine writing something and hope im imagining the correct hand doing the writing, lol.
but despite all this-- i feel like maybe i dont have it. maybe im just looking for an excuse to explain why i suck so much at math. theres also the possibility that im just overly anxious about getting a wrong answer and thats why i do everything so slowly and count on my fingers and stuff--so i can be sure im not getting it wrong. i do understand how numbers correlate to amounts, and its not like im totally incapable of mental math. i can do it, i just struggle with it, especially if i have to hold a number in my head for any reason. like, while writing this post i went and did basic multiplication problems in my head (from a website) and got hung up on 7 x 6. and then i got it wrong. this is the part where i’d normally make excuses like “oh im tired, oh its the end of summer so i havent practiced,” but honestly, im pretty sure most people my age should be able to do simple multiplication like that no matter the time of year. so. i dunno. also, i was able to get the other problems correct, but im pretty sure i was taking longer to do them than an 18 year old should. and i was counting on my fingers again.
and like. i think i like math in theory. algebra looks logical and satisfying, and it IS, except when i have to actually divide, add, and subtract, then i can practically feel my brain beginning to overheat like an overworked computer.
moving things from one side to the other to isolate a variable? yes. good shit.
havint to do subtraction to get there? now its not so fun. i think this is the part that actually gives me a headache. i never really thought about which part of algebra was frustrating me, but now that i know dyscalculia is a thing, im starting to think about the arithmetic vs the abstract concept behind it.
anyways, if i have dyscalculia its probably more mild seeing as i can still do mental math and i can still do arithmetic, its just unreasonably hard for me for no discernable reason.
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hi moon !! :] you gave me tough questions x.x
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🤲 what do you get out of writing?
uh, beyond the stuff i mention in the next question, i think writing and sharing fics has allowed me to be involved with the communities for the things i love~ i've uh, i've been doing this for a while and i'm,,, not great at communicating and making friends,,, in fact, i think i suck at it because all my old friends have moved on from me. nothing ever happens; there's no big fallout. they just move on with their lives and i'm not one of the things they take with them. but even if it's brief. even if it doesn't last for long, it is through my writing that i've gotten to meet a lot of wonderful people who have taught me a lot and who've i had the pleasure of sharing laughs and good moments with !! :] so the short answer is that i get to connect, form good memories, and share my ideas when normally i can't
💎 why is writing important to you?
at the risk of sounding like a cliche, i think it's very important to me because i get a chance at escaping my (boring at best, moderately-terrible at worst) life. i've always been into fantasy and fiction and it's an intrinsic part of my daily life to stare into a window and imagine dragons flying by, or discover a new song and mentally create an entire film for a random character. even mundane things like making a meal or taking my meds become a nice little story in my head and i'm not sure it's healthy to break apart from reality so much, but such has been my life for the past 22 years and it brings me joy so why should i stop? so, i make all these stories in my head, and some of them are a bit more complete and the type of thing i wish i could read. so, i feel compelled to write them down because maybe they can make someone else happy !! or sad !! or anything, really. maybe if i share my stories, i can provide someone else with distractions, comfort or escapism just like all the books in my life have done for me :]
🌿 how does creating make you feel?
happy :] that's the best way i have of describing it. be it writing or making graphics, the process of taking something that's in my mind and putting it into the world —flawed and imperfect as it always is— is one of the things that genuinely make me happy :] from the reasearch and worldbuilding to the dialogue and descriptions; the editing and formatting to posting and replying to comments. each part of the process has its challenges and i'm not going to pretend i never get frustrated or stuck at something, but i genuinely do enjoy each part and i find it fun to push myself to do better every time~
thanks for the ask, moon~ hope you're having a great day or night ~!
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