ALICE
I sometimes feel like I’m in wonderland,
My borderline like a looking glass,
But unlike Alice,
I can’t seem to cross through,
For I’m already stuck at the other side,
I guess, I’m in borderland,
But, this isn’t Tokyo,
It’s simply my mind,
My consciousness,
My subconsciousness,
Whatever it be
Sometimes the mad hatter,
Sometimes the queen of hearts,
Yelling off with your head,
Screaming like that
Sometimes the Cheshire cat,
Sometimes the white rabbit
Grinning wide with teeth,
Running late like that
But most of all,
I guess,
I’m sometimes the eat me cookie,
That forgot to be baked
But then again why does it matter,
When I won’t realise I’m any of this,
But then again why does it matter,
When I won’t remember any of this
In my heart I’m just sitting on a field of grass,
Reading a book and having tea,
I guess,
All that is real,
All that happens,
Simply feels like something of dreams,
Something of nightmares,
Something in my head,
I guess,
I’m just like that
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‘Letting Home Go’
The more they urge me to stay over
Bigger becomes my will to go forever
Everyone says “why do you play me?”
I cry “I’m not, I’m not able can’t you see?
I’m silenced from the crowd, the world
I’m trapped in the walls of my own home”
Let me grow up
Take off my blindfold and cuffs
Stop keeping me in this place of your own
And forcing me to call it my forever home
All this time I’ve been obsessively controlled
But you called them rules so they wouldn’t break or fold
But now I can see
The lies you urged me to eat
So with that now known
I’m ready to grow and let go
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Popcorn
Oh little kernel
Why won't you pop?
All the others have
All the others fulfilled me
All the others are useful
All the others are
delicious snacks
Why aren't you like them?
Oh little kernel
At the bottom of the bag you'll stay
Continuing to be useless
While the others pop
While the film is playing
While the bag is in the bin
That's where you'll stay
Oh little kernel
I have no time for you
You're useless in comparison
You aren't tasty
You aren't soft
You're not like the others
You're nasty and hurt my teeth
Stay at the bottom of the bag
That's where you belong
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butch nonspecific bean bag bears. they should let me design toys for children actually
their names are handy, married, grease, and freak ❤️
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Lone… Ly
My heart is a lock engraved with a poet’s last words,
It beats, but the silver that runs deep in place of my veins,
It diminishes into a pile of ashes,
It beats, but the gold that runs deep in place of my arteries,
It scalds into a pellet of red
Angina tapping at the corner of my coronary artery that has gone far beyond shrivelled up,
Perhaps, that is the significance of the stigma of the nonsensical eyes that plaque my walls
I clench my fists, and reach for the door to neverland,
But my peacemaker, it brings me no peace
I can feel it, my body giving up on me,
Even though I would kneel on a bed of thorns for it to not,
I cross my legs and pretend I can saunter even as the chains marring my limbs never resign
The lock of my heart, it slowly crumbles
But it prevails,
It’s left a lonely shadow of what it was,
Perhaps my heart is an exact reflection of who I am
My heart is a not a lock,
It’s a store with a door with a lock,
It has grown chambers, atriums and ventricles over time,
While I am lost in the loop of time
It’s crazy,
For it craves to thrive and belong,
Yet it refuses to be see-through, or easy to walk to,
When you want to get through its lock,
You’d have to knock
But, it’s just a loop that goes two ways,
You’d never stay where you want to,
You’d never stay where you believe you belong
My heart,
It doesn't want to lay lifeless and lonely,
Yet everything it does leads to this forsaken fate
If you take ly out of lonely,
Lonely really is lonely
My heart,
It is lonely,
My heart,
It is as lonely as I am..
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hey y’all..
So I have some poems that I write,
that usual make me cry.
I write them during times
when I can’t understand my life..
Can I share them with you?
is it something I should do?
Let me know...
for I have many to show.
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