hannamboo

[hannamboo]

𝓉𝓇𝓊𝒶𝓃𝒸𝓎

ꜱɪɴᴄᴇ ɪ ᴅɪᴅɴ’ᴛ ɢᴇᴛ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ‘ꜱᴘᴇᴄɪᴀʟ’ ᴄᴇʀᴇᴍᴏɴʏ ɪɴ ᴍɪᴅᴅʟᴇ ꜱᴄʜᴏᴏʟ.. ɪ’ᴠᴇ ʙᴇᴇɴ ꜱᴏ ᴀɴxɪᴏᴜꜱ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ɢʀᴀᴅᴜᴀᴛɪɴɢ ɪɴ ʜɪɢʜ ꜱᴄʜᴏᴏʟ. ᴀɴᴅ ɴᴏᴡ, ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɪ’ᴍ ᴅᴏɪɴɢ ɪᴛ.. ᴡᴇʟʟ ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴅᴏɪɴɢ ɪᴛ, ɪ’ᴍ ɴᴇʀᴠᴏᴜꜱ. 

ɪ’ᴠᴇ ʙᴇᴇɴ ᴍɪꜱꜱɪɴɢ ꜱᴏ ᴍᴜᴄʜ ᴄʟᴀꜱꜱᴇꜱ ᴀɴᴅ ɪ’ᴍ ꜰɪɴᴀʟʟʏ ɢᴇᴛᴛɪɴɢ ᴡᴏʀʀɪᴇᴅ... ɪ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ɪ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ɴᴏ ʀɪɢʜᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴛᴏ ɢʀᴀᴅᴜᴀᴛᴇ ʙᴇᴄᴀᴜꜱᴇ ᴏꜰ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ɪ’ᴠᴇ ᴀʟʀᴇᴀᴅʏ ᴅᴏɴᴇ.. ʙᴜᴛ ɪ ꜱᴛɪʟʟ ᴅᴏ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴛᴏ ɢʀᴀᴅᴜᴀᴛᴇ, ɪᴛ’ꜱ ᴊᴜꜱᴛ.. ɪ ʀᴇᴀʟʟʏ ᴡᴀꜱɴ’ᴛ ᴍᴇɴᴛᴀʟʟʏ ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ.

ᴅᴜʀɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴇ ᴛɪᴍᴇꜱ ᴏꜰ ᴍʏ ᴀʙꜱᴇɴᴛᴇᴇ, ɪ ᴡᴀꜱ ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ᴅᴇᴘʀᴇꜱꜱᴇᴅ ᴀʀᴏᴜɴᴅ. ᴀʟᴡᴀʏꜱ ᴍᴇɴᴛᴀʟʟʏ ᴇxʜᴀᴜꜱᴛᴇᴅ. ɴᴏᴡ, ɪ ᴅᴏɴ’ᴛ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴅᴏ.. ɪ’ᴍ ᴛᴇʀʀɪꜰɪᴇᴅ.

ɪ ꜰᴇᴇʟ ᴀʟᴏɴᴇ.

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[hannamboo]

𝒸𝑜𝓅𝒾𝓃𝑔

ʜᴇʏ, ɪ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ɪ ʜᴀᴠᴇɴ’ᴛ ᴘᴏꜱᴛᴇᴅ ᴍᴜᴄʜ. 

ʙᴜᴛ ɪ ɢᴜᴇꜱꜱ ʀɪɢʜᴛ ɴᴏᴡ, ɪꜱɴ’ᴛ ᴀ ʙᴀᴅ ɪᴅᴇᴀ.

ᴇᴠᴇʀ ꜱɪɴᴄᴇ ꜱᴇʟꜰ-Qᴜᴀʀᴀɴᴛɪɴᴇ ꜱᴛᴀʀᴛᴇᴅ, ɪ ʜᴀᴠᴇɴ’ᴛ ʙᴇᴇɴ ᴀʙʟᴇ ᴛᴏ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴀɴʏ ᴛɪᴍᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴄᴏᴘᴇ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴀɴʏᴛʜɪɴɢ.

ɪᴛ’ꜱ ʟɪᴋᴇ ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴛʜɪɴɢ ʜᴀꜱ ᴛᴏ ʙʟᴏᴡ ᴜᴘ ᴇᴠᴇʀʏ ꜱɪɴɢʟᴇ ꜱᴇᴄᴏɴᴅ, ʀɪɢʜᴛ ᴀꜰᴛᴇʀ ᴇᴀᴄʜ ᴏᴛʜᴇʀ.

ɪɴ ᴛʜɪꜱ ᴘᴏꜱᴛ, ɪ’ʟʟ ʙᴇ ᴛᴀʟᴋɪɴɢ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴀ ꜰᴇᴡ ᴛᴏᴘɪᴄꜱ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴍɪɢʜᴛ ᴛʀɪɢɢᴇʀ ꜱᴏᴍᴇ ʀᴇᴀᴅᴇʀꜱ ʀᴇᴀᴅɪɴɢ ᴛʜɪꜱ ᴘᴏꜱᴛ.

ᴛʀɪɢɢᴇʀ ᴡᴀʀɴɪɴɢ: ᴀᴛᴛᴇᴍᴘᴛ ꜱᴜɪᴄɪᴅᴇ, ᴅᴇᴘʀᴇꜱꜱɪᴏɴ, ᴀɴᴅ ᴀɴxɪᴇᴛʏ.

ꜰɪʀꜱᴛ ᴏꜰꜰ, ɪ’ʟʟ ꜱᴛᴀʀᴛ ᴛʜɪꜱ ᴛᴀʟᴋ ꜱᴛʀᴏɴɢʟʏ.

(ᴅᴏ ɴᴏᴛ ᴇᴠᴇʀ ᴛʜɪɴᴋ ᴏꜰ ᴄᴏᴍᴍɪᴛᴛɪɴɢ ꜱᴜɪᴄɪᴅᴇ)

ᴍᴀɴʏ ᴏꜰ ʏᴏᴜ, ʀᴇᴀᴅɪɴɢ ᴛʜɪꜱ ᴘʀᴏʙᴀʙʟʏ ᴡɪʟʟ ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ɪɢɴᴏʀᴇ ᴍᴇ.

ᴛʜɪɴᴋɪɴɢ ᴍᴇ ᴀꜱ ᴏɴᴇ ᴏꜰ ᴛʜᴏꜱᴇ ᴘᴇᴏᴘʟᴇ ᴡʜᴏ’ᴅ ʀᴀɴᴛ ᴀᴡᴀʏ ᴏɴ “ᴡʜʏ ɪᴛ’ꜱ ɴᴏᴛ ᴡᴏʀᴛʜ ɪᴛ”.

ɪ ᴍᴇᴀɴ, ᴛʜɪɴᴋɪɴɢ ʙᴀᴄᴋ ᴛᴏ ᴡʜᴇɴ ɪ ᴛʀɪᴇᴅ ᴍᴀɴʏ ᴛɪᴍᴇꜱ ᴛᴏ ᴋɪʟʟ ᴍʏꜱᴇʟꜰ...

ɪ’ᴍ ʜᴀᴘᴘʏ ɪ ᴅɪᴅɴ’ᴛ.

ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴏɴᴇ ᴛᴏʟᴅ ᴍᴇ.. ᴀ ʟᴏɴɢ ʟᴏɴɢ ᴛɪᴍᴇ ᴀɢᴏ.

“ᴀꜰᴛᴇʀ ᴛʜᴇ ꜱᴛʀᴏɴɢ ꜱᴛᴏʀᴍ ᴘᴀꜱꜱᴇꜱ, ᴄᴏᴍᴇꜱ ᴀ ʀᴀɪɴʙᴏᴡ”

ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴀʟᴡᴀʏꜱ ꜱᴇᴇᴍᴇᴅ ꜱᴏ ᴅᴀʀᴋ.. ᴀʟᴡᴀʏꜱ ᴅᴇᴘʀᴇꜱꜱɪɴɢ.

ᴜɴᴛɪʟ ɪ ᴀᴄᴛᴜᴀʟʟʏ ᴀʟʟᴏᴡᴇᴅ ᴍʏꜱᴇʟꜰ ᴛᴏ ᴏᴘᴇɴ ᴍʏꜱᴇʟꜰ ᴛᴏ ᴍʏ ꜰᴀᴍɪʟʏ.

ɪ ᴛʀɪᴇᴅ ᴛᴀʟᴋɪɴɢ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴛʜᴇᴍ! ᴀɴᴅ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴍʏ ꜰʀɪᴇɴᴅꜱ ᴛᴏᴏ!

ɴᴏᴡ ɪ ᴅᴏɴ’ᴛ ꜰɪɢʜᴛ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴛʜᴇᴍ ᴀɴʏᴍᴏʀᴇ.. (ᴍᴜᴄʜ)

ᴡᴇ ᴀʟʟ ꜱʟᴏᴡʟʏ ʙᴇɢᴀɴ ᴛᴏ ᴜɴᴅᴇʀꜱᴛᴀɴᴅ ᴇᴀᴄʜ ᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ᴀɴᴅ ᴇᴠᴇʀʏ ꜱɪᴛᴜᴀᴛɪᴏɴ ᴡᴇ ᴄᴏᴍᴇ ᴀᴄʀᴏꜱꜱ ᴛᴏɢᴇᴛʜᴇʀ.

ɪ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ɪ ᴄᴀɴ’ᴛ ᴍᴀᴋᴇ ᴀ ᴄʜᴏɪᴄᴇ ꜰᴏʀ ᴀɴʏᴏɴᴇ ᴏʀ ɢɪᴠᴇ ᴛʜᴇᴍ ʀᴇᴀʟ ᴀᴅᴠɪᴄᴇ ᴍᴜᴄʜ.

ʙᴜᴛ ᴀʟʟ ɪ ᴄᴀɴ ꜱᴀʏ ɪꜱ, ɪ’ᴍ ʜᴀᴘᴘʏ ɪ ᴅɪᴅɴ’ᴛ ᴄᴏᴍᴍɪᴛ ᴛᴏ ɪᴛ.

ᴀɴʏᴡᴀʏ ᴍᴏᴠɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴇ ᴅᴀʀᴋᴇʀ ᴛᴏᴘɪᴄꜱ.

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ɪ ᴀᴛᴛᴇᴍᴘᴛᴇᴅ ɪɴ ᴋɪʟʟɪɴɢ ᴍʏꜱᴇʟꜰ ꜱᴏ ᴍᴀɴʏ ᴛɪᴍᴇꜱ ʙᴇꜰᴏʀᴇ.

ꜰʀᴏᴍ ᴍɪᴅᴅʟᴇ ꜱᴄʜᴏᴏʟ ᴛᴏ ʜɪɢʜ ꜱᴄʜᴏᴏʟ. ᴀʟᴡᴀʏꜱ ʜᴀᴛɪɴɢ ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴛʜɪɴɢ. ɴᴇᴠᴇʀ ꜱᴍɪʟɪɴɢ.

ᴡʜᴇɴᴇᴠᴇʀ ɪ ꜱᴍɪʟᴇᴅ, ɪᴛ ᴡᴀꜱ ᴏɴʟʏ ꜰᴏʀ ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴇɴᴇꜰɪᴛ ᴏꜰ ᴏᴛʜᴇʀꜱ. ʟᴇᴀᴠɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴇᴍᴘᴛʏ ꜰᴇᴇʟɪɴɢ ɪɴꜱɪᴅᴇ ᴏꜰ ᴍᴇ.

ɴᴏᴠᴇᴍʙᴇʀ 22, 2020 ᴡᴀꜱ ᴍʏ ʟᴀᴛᴇꜱᴛ ᴀᴛᴛᴇᴍᴘᴛ.

ᴛʜᴇꜱᴇ ᴅᴀʏꜱ, ɪᴛ ɢᴇᴛꜱ ʜᴀʀᴅᴇʀ ᴀɴᴅ ʜᴀʀᴅᴇʀ ꜰᴏʀ ᴍᴇ ᴛᴏ ꜱʟᴇᴇᴘ.

ᴅᴇᴇᴘ ᴅᴏᴡɴ ɪ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ᴛʜᴇ ʀᴇᴀꜱᴏɴ ᴡʜʏ, ʙᴜᴛ ɪ ᴅᴏɴ’ᴛ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇʟɪᴇᴠᴇ ɪᴛ.

ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ʀᴇᴀꜱᴏɴ ɪ ᴄᴀɴ’ᴛ ꜱʟᴇᴇᴘ ɪꜱ ʙᴇᴄᴀᴜꜱᴇ ɪ ꜱᴛɪʟʟ ᴠɪᴠɪᴅʟʏ ʀᴇᴍᴇᴍʙᴇʀ ᴍᴇ ᴛʏɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴇ ᴄʜᴀʀɢᴇʀ ᴄᴏʀᴅ ᴀʀᴏᴜɴᴅ ᴍʏ ɴᴇᴄᴋ. ᴜɴᴀʙʟᴇ ᴛᴏ ʙʀᴇᴀᴛʜᴇ. ᴄʀʏɪɴɢ ɪɴ ꜱɪʟᴇɴᴄᴇ.

ᴡʜɪʟᴇ ᴍʏ ꜰᴀᴍɪʟʏ ᴡᴀꜱ ᴏᴜᴛꜱɪᴅᴇ ᴏꜰ ᴍʏ ʙᴇᴅʀᴏᴏᴍ, ʟᴀᴜɢʜɪɴɢ ᴀɴᴅ ᴇɴᴊᴏʏɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴇᴍꜱᴇʟᴠᴇꜱ.

ʙᴇɪɴɢ ʜᴏɴᴇꜱᴛ, ɪ ɢᴇᴛ ᴀ ɢɪᴀɴᴛ ʀᴜꜱʜ ᴏꜰ ᴀɴxɪᴇᴛʏ ᴀɴᴅ ᴅʀᴇᴀᴅ ᴡʜᴇɴᴇᴠᴇʀ ɪ ᴛʀʏ ᴄʟᴏꜱɪɴɢ ᴍʏ ᴇʏᴇꜱ ᴛᴏ ꜱʟᴇᴇᴘ.

ɪ ɢᴜᴇꜱꜱ ɪᴛ’ꜱ ᴀʟꜱᴏ ʙᴇᴄᴀᴜꜱᴇ ᴏꜰ ᴍʏ ꜰᴇᴀʀ ᴛᴏ ꜰᴀɪʟ ɢʀᴀᴅᴜᴀᴛɪᴏɴ ʟɪᴋᴇ ɪ ᴅɪᴅ ɪɴ ᴍɪᴅᴅʟᴇ ꜱᴄʜᴏᴏʟ.

ʙᴜᴛ ɪ ᴄᴀɴ’ᴛ ʜᴇʟᴘ ʙᴜᴛ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴄʀʏ.. ɴᴏ ᴍᴏʀᴇ ʟɪᴋᴇ ꜱᴄʀᴇᴀᴍ ᴍʏ ʜᴇᴀʀᴛ ᴏᴜᴛ ɪɴ ꜰᴇᴀʀ.

ɪ’ᴠᴇ ɴᴇᴠᴇʀ ʜᴀᴅ ᴛʜᴇꜱᴇ ᴛʏᴘᴇꜱ ᴏꜰ ꜰᴇᴇʟɪɴɢꜱ ʙᴇꜰᴏʀᴇ.

ᴛʜɪꜱ ᴀɴxɪᴇᴛʏ.. ᴛʜɪꜱ ᴡᴀᴠᴇ ᴏꜰ ᴅᴇᴘʀᴇꜱꜱɪᴏɴ.. ᴛʜᴇ ᴀɴxɪᴇᴛʏ ᴀᴛᴛᴀᴄᴋꜱ..

ᴀɴᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴀɴꜱᴡᴇʀ ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴡᴀɴᴅᴇʀɪɴɢ Qᴜᴇꜱᴛɪᴏɴ ᴏɴ ᴡʜᴇᴛʜᴇʀ ᴍʏ ᴘᴀʀᴇɴᴛꜱ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴛʜɪꜱ. ʏᴇꜱ, ᴛʜᴇʏ ᴅᴏ. ᴡᴇʟʟ ɪ ᴅɪᴅɴ’ᴛ ᴛᴇʟʟ ᴛʜᴇᴍ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴍʏ ᴀɴxɪᴇᴛʏ ᴀᴛᴛᴀᴄᴋꜱ. ᴛʜᴇʏ’ᴠᴇ ᴛʀɪᴇᴅ ᴛʜᴇɪʀ ʙᴇꜱᴛ ʙᴇɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ ꜰᴏʀ ᴍᴇ, ʙᴜᴛ ɪᴛ ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ᴅᴏᴇꜱɴ’ᴛ ꜱᴇᴇᴍ ᴇɴᴏᴜɢʜ ᴀɴʏᴍᴏʀᴇ.

ʙᴇꜰᴏʀᴇ ᴛʜɪꜱ ᴡʜᴏʟᴇ ᴄᴏ-ᴠɪᴅ 19 Qᴜᴀʀᴀɴᴛɪɴᴇ, ɪ ᴜꜱᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴄᴏᴘᴇ ᴡɪᴛʜ ꜱɪɴɢɪɴɢ.. ʙᴜᴛ ɴᴏᴡᴀᴅᴀʏꜱ ɪᴛ ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ᴅᴏᴇꜱɴ’ᴛ ꜰᴇᴇʟ ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴀɴ ᴏᴘᴛɪᴏɴ ᴀɴʏᴍᴏʀᴇ.

ɪ ʙᴇʟɪᴇᴠᴇᴅ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɪᴛ’ʟʟ ʙᴇ ᴀʟʀɪɢʜᴛ ɪꜰ ɪ ᴅᴏɴ’ᴛ ᴄᴏᴘᴇ ꜰᴏʀ ᴀ ᴡʜɪʟᴇ, ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ᴋᴇᴇᴘ ɪᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴍʏꜱᴇʟꜰ ᴀɴᴅ ᴍᴏᴠᴇ ᴏɴ.

ʙᴜᴛ ɪᴛ ᴅᴏᴇꜱɴ’ᴛ ᴡᴏʀᴋ.. ɪ ꜱᴛᴏᴘᴘᴇᴅ ᴄᴏᴘɪɴɢ ᴍʏꜱᴇʟꜰ ꜰᴏʀ ᴀ ʏᴇᴀʀ ᴀɴᴅ ᴀ ʜᴀʟꜰ ᴀʟʀᴇᴀᴅʏ.

ʏᴇꜱᴛᴇʀᴅᴀʏ, ɪ ᴇxᴘʟᴏᴅᴇᴅ. ɪ ꜰɪɴᴀʟʟʏ ɢᴀᴠᴇ ɪɴ ᴀɴᴅ ᴄʀɪᴇᴅ ᴍʏꜱᴇʟꜰ ᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴇ ᴘᴏɪɴᴛ ᴏꜰ ᴀʟᴍᴏꜱᴛ ᴘᴀꜱꜱɪɴɢ ᴏᴜᴛ.

ᴇᴠᴇɴ ʀɪɢʜᴛ ɴᴏᴡ, ᴀꜰᴛᴇʀ ʏᴇꜱᴛᴇʀᴅᴀʏ’ꜱ ʙᴜʀꜱᴛ... ɪ ꜱᴛɪʟʟ ᴅᴇᴄɪᴅᴇᴅ ɴᴏᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴄᴏᴘᴇ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴀɴʏᴛʜɪɴɢ ɪɴ ᴍʏ ʟɪꜰᴇ.. ᴏɴᴄᴇ ᴀɢᴀɪɴ.

ɪ’ᴍ ɴᴏᴛ ꜱᴜʀᴇ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴅᴏ ᴀɴʏᴍᴏʀᴇ.. ɪ ꜰᴇᴇʟ ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴀɴʏ ᴍᴏᴍᴇɴᴛ.. ɪɴ ᴍʏ ꜱʟᴇᴇᴘ, ɪ’ʟʟ ꜰᴇᴇʟ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴛɪɢʜᴛ ᴡɪʀᴇ ᴀɢᴀɪɴꜱᴛ ᴍʏ ɴᴇᴄᴋ ɪɴ ᴍʏ ꜱʟᴇᴇᴘ. 

ᴡʜᴇɴ ɪ ᴛʀɪᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴄᴏᴍᴍɪᴛ ꜱᴜɪᴄɪᴅᴇ.. ᴍʏ ᴍɪɴᴅ ᴡᴀꜱɴ’ᴛ ᴍᴇɴᴛᴀʟʟʏ ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ..

ɪᴛ’ꜱ ꜱᴄᴀʀʏ ᴛᴏ ʀᴇᴀᴄʜ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴘᴏɪɴᴛ ᴡʜᴇʀᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ᴅᴏɴ’ᴛ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴛᴏ ꜰᴇᴇʟ ᴀɴʏᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴀɴʏᴍᴏʀᴇ.

#depression #anxiety #suicide #attempt suicide #cope #coping #coping mechanism #depressed #tired

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𝓌𝒶𝓁𝓁𝒻𝓁𝑜𝓌𝑒𝓇 & 𝒸𝒶𝓃𝒶𝓇𝓎

ᴛᴏᴅᴀʏ, ɪ’ʟʟ ʙᴇ ᴡʀɪᴛɪɴɢ ᴏɴᴄᴇ ᴀɢᴀɪɴ.

ɪ ꜰᴇᴇʟ ᴀ ʙɪᴛ ʀᴜꜱᴛʏ ᴀɴᴅ Qᴜɪᴛᴇ ɴᴇʀᴠᴏᴜꜱ. (ʜᴀʜᴀ)

ᴛʜᴇ ᴛɪᴛʟᴇ ᴏꜰ ᴍʏ ᴜᴘᴄᴏᴍɪɴɢ ꜱᴛᴏʀʏ ɪꜱ “ᴡᴀʟʟꜰʟᴏᴡᴇʀ & ᴄᴀɴᴀʀʏ”.

ɪᴛ’ꜱ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ, “ᴀ ɢɪʀʟ ᴡʜᴏ ᴅɪꜱᴄᴏᴠᴇʀꜱ ʜᴏᴡ ᴛᴏ ɢᴀɪɴ ʜᴇʀ ᴡɪɴɢꜱ ꜰʀᴏᴍ ᴀ ʙᴏʏ ᴡʜᴏ ɪꜱ ᴀʟᴡᴀʏꜱ ʜᴀᴘᴘʏ”.

ɪ’ᴠᴇ ᴅᴇᴄɪᴅᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴍᴀᴋᴇ ɪᴛ ᴀ ꜱʜᴏʀᴛ ꜱᴛᴏʀʏ. 

ɴᴏᴛ ᴅᴜᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴍᴇ ʙᴇɪɴɢ ʟᴀᴢʏ, ɪᴛ’ꜱ ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ɪ’ʟʟ ʙᴇ ʙᴜꜱʏ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴍʏ ꜱᴇɴɪᴏʀ ᴘᴏʀᴛꜰᴏʟɪᴏ ᴛʜᴇꜱᴇ ᴅᴀʏꜱ.

ɪꜰ ʏᴏᴜʀ ɪɴᴛᴇʀᴇꜱᴛᴇᴅ ɪɴ ʀᴇᴀᴅɪɴɢ, ɪ’ʟʟ ʙᴇ ᴀᴅᴅɪɴɢ ɪᴛ ᴏɴ ʜᴇʀᴇ! ᴀꜰᴛᴇʀ ᴘᴏꜱᴛɪɴɢ ɪᴛ ᴏɴ ᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ᴍᴇᴅɪᴀ. 

ɪᴛ’ꜱ ɢᴏɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ ᴘᴜʙʟɪꜱʜᴇᴅ ᴛʜɪꜱ ꜰʀɪᴅᴀʏ!

#wattpad #writing #shortstory #book #publishing #reading

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𝓌𝒶𝓉𝓉𝓅𝒶𝒹

ɪ ᴅᴇᴄɪᴅᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ɢᴇᴛ ʙᴀᴄᴋ ɪɴᴛᴏ ᴡʀɪᴛɪɴɢ.

ᴡʜᴇɴ ɪ ᴛʀɪᴇᴅ ʟᴏɢɢɪɴɢ ɪɴᴛᴏ ᴍʏ ᴏʟᴅ ᴀᴄᴄᴏᴜɴᴛ. (ʜᴀᴠᴇɴ’ᴛ ᴇɴᴛᴇʀᴇᴅ ꜰᴏʀ 2 ʏʀꜱ).

ɪᴛ ꜱᴀɪᴅ ᴛᴏ ʀᴇꜱᴇᴛ ᴍʏ ᴘᴀꜱꜱᴡᴏʀᴅ. 

ᴡʜᴇɴ ɪ ᴅɪᴅ, ɪᴛ ꜱᴀɪᴅ (ꜱɴ___@ᴏᴜ.ᴄᴏᴍ).

ᴍᴇ, ᴛʜɪɴᴋɪɴɢ : “ᴏʜ! ɪᴛ’ꜱ (ᴛʜɪꜱ ᴇᴍᴀɪʟ).”

ʙᴜᴛ ɪᴛ ᴅɪᴅɴ’ᴛ ᴡᴏʀᴋ. ɪ’ᴠᴇ ꜱᴘᴇɴᴛ 5 ʜᴏᴜʀꜱ ᴛʀʏɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ᴅᴏ ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ɢᴇᴛ ᴍʏ ᴀᴄᴄᴏᴜɴᴛ ʙᴀᴄᴋ.

ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ᴇɴᴅ, ɴᴏᴛʜɪɴɢ. ɪ’ᴍ ꜱᴏ ᴅᴇᴘʀᴇꜱꜱᴇᴅ. 

ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴀᴄᴄᴏᴜɴᴛ ᴡᴀꜱ ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴍʏ ᴄʜɪʟᴅ, ɪ’ᴠᴇ ʀᴀɪꜱᴇᴅ ɪᴛ ꜰᴏʀ 5 ʏᴇᴀʀꜱ! ꜱɪɴᴄᴇ 2016!

ɪᴛ ʀᴇᴀʟʟʏ ʜᴜʀᴛꜱ ꜱᴏ ʙᴀᴅʟʏ. 

ᴡᴇʟʟ, ɴᴏᴡ ɪ’ᴠᴇ ꜱᴛᴀʀᴛᴇᴅ ᴀɴᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ᴏɴᴇ. 

ᴘʀᴏʙʟᴇᴍ ɪꜱ, ꜱɪɴᴄᴇ ɪ ᴜꜱᴇᴅ ᴍʏ ʀᴇᴀʟ ɴᴀᴍᴇ ᴀꜱ ᴍʏ ᴀᴄᴄᴏᴜɴᴛ ᴜꜱᴇʀ. 

ɪ ᴀᴅᴅᴇᴅ, “ʀᴇᴀʟ” ᴛᴏ ʜᴏᴘᴇꜰᴜʟʟʏ ʟᴇᴛ ᴘᴇᴏᴘʟᴇ ᴋɴᴏᴡ. 

ᴍʏ ᴏʟᴅ ᴀᴄᴄᴏᴜɴᴛ ɪꜱɴ’ᴛ ᴏɴʟɪɴᴇ ᴀɴʏᴍᴏʀᴇ.

#account #wattpad #login #struggle #email

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𝑅𝒶𝓉𝒶𝓉𝑜𝓊𝒾𝓁𝓁𝑒

ɪ ʀᴇᴄʀᴇᴀᴛᴇᴅ ᴛʜᴇ ᴅɪꜱʜ, ʀᴀᴛᴀᴛᴏᴜɪʟʟᴇ. ꜰʀᴏᴍ ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴏᴠɪᴇ, "ʀᴀᴛᴀᴛᴏᴜɪʟʟᴇ". ɴᴏᴛ ᴀ ʙɪɢ ᴠᴇɢɢɪᴇ ʟᴏᴠᴇʀ ᴏʀ ᴀɴʏᴛʜɪɴɢ, ʙᴜᴛ ɪᴛ ᴡᴀꜱ ᴍɪɢʜᴛʏ ᴅᴇʟɪᴄɪᴏᴜꜱ. ᴍʏ ꜰʀɪᴇɴᴅ ᴡʜᴏ ɪꜱ "ᴠᴇɢᴀɴ", ᴀʟꜱᴏ ʟᴏᴠᴇᴅ ɪᴛ ᴛᴏᴏ! ɪ'ᴍ ꜱᴏ ʜᴀᴘᴘʏ. ɪ ᴅᴇᴄɪᴅᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴍᴀᴋᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴅɪꜱʜ ʙᴇᴄᴀᴜꜱᴇ ɪ ᴋɴᴇᴡ ꜱʜᴇ ᴡᴀꜱ ᴄᴏᴍɪɴɢ ᴏᴠᴇʀ ᴛᴏᴅᴀʏ.

#food #vegan #ratatouille #veganrecipes #vegtables #yummyfood #delicious

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𝓂𝑜𝓇𝓃𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝒸𝑜𝒻𝒻𝑒𝑒

ᴍʏ ᴀʟᴀʀᴍ ᴡᴀꜱ ʀɪɴɢɪɴɢ ꜱɪɴᴄᴇ 6 ᴀᴍ. 

ɪ ꜰᴏʀɢᴏᴛ ɪ ᴡᴀꜱ ɢᴏɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ʀᴜɴ ᴀɴᴅ ɢʀᴀʙ ᴀ Qᴜɪᴄᴋ ᴄᴏꜰꜰᴇᴇ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴏʀɴɪɴɢ.

ɢᴏᴏᴅ ᴛʜɪɴɢ, ɪ ʟᴇꜰᴛ ᴀᴛ 7:30 ᴀᴍ. ᴛʜᴇ ᴄᴏꜰꜰᴇᴇ ꜱʜᴏᴘ ᴡᴀꜱ ᴀʟʀᴇᴀᴅʏ ʀᴇᴀᴅʏ ᴀɴᴅ ʜᴀᴅ ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴘʀᴇᴘᴀʀᴇᴅ ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ᴡʜᴇɴ ɪ ᴀʀʀɪᴠᴇᴅ.

ɪ ɢᴏᴛ ᴀ ᴄᴀʀᴀᴍᴇʟ ᴍᴀᴄᴄʜɪᴀᴛᴏ ꜰᴏʀ ᴍʏꜱᴇʟꜰ ᴀɴᴅ ᴛᴡᴏ ᴇꜱᴘʀᴇꜱꜱᴏ ꜰʀᴀᴘᴘᴜᴄᴄɪɴᴏꜱ ꜰᴏʀ ᴍʏ ᴘᴀʀᴇɴᴛꜱ. (ᴀʟꜱᴏ ɢᴏᴛ ᴀ ꜱᴘɪɴᴀᴄʜ-ꜰᴇᴛᴀ ᴡʀᴀᴘ ᴀꜱ ᴍʏ ʙʀᴇᴀᴋꜰᴀꜱᴛ.)

ᴛʜᴀᴛ’ꜱ ᴀʟʟ ɪ ɢᴏᴛ ꜰᴏʀ ᴛᴏᴅᴀʏ.

#coffee #morning coffee #morning run #starbucks

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𝟤 𝓂

ɢʀᴇᴀᴛ ɴᴇᴡꜱ! ɪ’ᴠᴇ ꜰᴏᴜɴᴅ ᴀ ʀᴇᴘʟᴀᴄᴇᴍᴇɴᴛ ꜰᴏʀ ᴍʏ ᴄʜᴀʀɢᴇʀ ᴄᴏʀᴅ!

ɪᴛ ᴡᴀꜱɴ’ᴛ ᴇxᴀᴄᴛʟʏ ᴄʜᴇᴀᴘ ɴᴏʀ ᴡᴀꜱ ɪᴛ ᴛᴏᴏ ᴇxᴘᴇɴꜱɪᴠᴇ. (ʙᴀꜱɪᴄᴀʟʟʏ $20.18.)

ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ ɪꜱɴ’ᴛ ᴀɴʏ ɴᴇᴡ ᴜᴘᴅᴀᴛᴇꜱ ᴍᴜᴄʜ ꜰᴏʀ ᴍᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴛᴀʟᴋ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ.

ɪ ᴡɪʟʟ ʙᴇ ɢᴇᴛᴛɪɴɢ ᴄᴏꜰꜰᴇᴇ ᴛᴏᴍᴏʀʀᴏᴡ ᴀᴛ 7 ᴀᴍ ᴛʜᴏᴜɢʜ.

#charger #computer #update

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𝒸𝒽𝒶𝓇𝑔𝑒𝓇

ɪ ᴀᴍ ꜱᴏ ꜰʀᴜꜱᴛʀᴀᴛᴇᴅ!

ɪ ꜰᴇᴇʟ ᴀʟᴡᴀʏꜱ ᴀʟᴏɴᴇ ɪɴ ᴛʜɪꜱ ʜᴏᴜꜱᴇ. ɴᴏ ᴍᴀᴛᴛᴇʀ ʜᴏᴡ ʜᴀʀᴅ ɪ ᴛʀʏ ᴛᴏ ᴀᴄᴛ, ᴡʜᴇᴛʜᴇʀ ɪᴛ’ꜱ ɴɪᴄᴇ ᴏʀ ꜱᴛʀᴀɪɢʜᴛ ᴜᴘ ꜱɪʟᴇɴᴛ.

ꜰᴏʀ ᴏɴᴄᴇ ɪɴ ᴍʏ ʟɪꜰᴇ, ɪ ᴛʜᴏᴜɢʜᴛ ᴍʏ ᴘᴀʀᴇɴᴛꜱ ꜰɪɴᴀʟʟʏ ᴜɴᴅᴇʀꜱᴛᴏᴏᴅ ᴍᴇ.

ʙᴜᴛ ɴᴏ! ᴛʜᴇʏ ʜᴀᴠᴇɴ’ᴛ ᴀɴᴅ ɴᴇᴠᴇʀ ᴡɪʟʟ!

ɪ ᴡᴀɴᴛᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ꜰɪx ᴍʏ ᴄᴏᴍᴘᴜᴛᴇʀ ᴄʜᴀʀɢᴇʀ ᴀɴᴅ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏꜰ ɴᴏᴡʜᴇʀᴇ ᴍʏ ɢʀᴀɴᴅᴍᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ᴛᴜʀɴᴇᴅ ᴛʜᴇ ʟɪɢʜᴛꜱ ᴏꜰꜰ! (ᴡᴇ ꜱʜᴀʀᴇ ᴀ ʙᴇᴅʀᴏᴏᴍ). ꜱʜᴇ ᴋɴᴇᴡ ɪ ᴡᴀꜱ ʀᴇᴍᴏᴠɪɴɢ ᴍʏ ᴛᴀɴɢʟᴇᴅ ᴄʜᴀʀɢᴇʀ ᴀᴡᴀʏ ꜰʀᴏᴍ ᴍʏ ᴄʜᴀɪʀ.

ꜱᴏ ᴡʜᴇɴ ᴛʜᴇ ʟɪɢʜᴛꜱ ᴡᴇʀᴇ ᴏꜰꜰ ᴀɴᴅ ɪ ᴡᴀꜱ ᴘᴜʟʟɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴇ ᴄᴏʀᴅ. ᴍʏ ᴄᴏᴍᴘᴜᴛᴇʀ ꜱᴍᴀꜱʜᴇᴅ ᴅᴏᴡɴ ᴀɢᴀɪɴꜱᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ᴄᴀʀᴘᴇᴛ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴀ ʟᴏᴜᴅ “ᴛʜᴜᴅ”.

ɪ’ᴠᴇ ʜᴀᴅ ɪᴛ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴛʀʏɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ “ᴜɴᴅᴇʀꜱᴛᴀɴᴅ” ᴍʏ ɢʀᴀɴᴅᴍᴏᴛʜᴇʀ. ᴀɴᴅ ɪ ᴄᴏɴꜰʀᴏɴᴛᴇᴅ ᴍʏ ᴘᴀʀᴇɴᴛꜱ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ɪꜱꜱᴜᴇ.

ʙᴇɪɴɢ ʜᴏɴᴇꜱᴛ, ɪ’ᴍ ɴᴏᴛ ᴛʀʏɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ ʙʀᴀᴛᴛʏ ᴏʀ ᴀ ʙɪᴛᴄʜ. ʙᴜᴛ ɪᴍᴀɢɪɴᴇ ꜱʟᴇᴇᴘɪɴɢ ᴘᴇᴀᴄᴇꜰᴜʟʟʏ ᴀʀᴏᴜɴᴅ 3 ᴀᴍ ᴀɴᴅ ʏᴏᴜ ʜᴇᴀʀ ᴛʜᴇ ᴛ.ᴠ ᴀᴛ ʙʟᴀꜱᴛ 50 ᴠᴏʟᴜᴍᴇ. (ꜰᴏʀ ᴡᴇᴇᴋꜱ! ɴᴏ! ʏᴇᴀʀꜱ!).

ᴡʜᴇɴ ɪ ᴛᴏʟᴅ ᴍʏ ᴘᴀʀᴇɴᴛꜱ ɪ’ᴠᴇ ʜᴀᴅ ɪᴛ. ᴛʜᴇʏ ʙʀᴜꜱʜᴇᴅ ᴍᴇ ᴏꜰꜰ.

“ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ʙᴜʏ ᴀ ɴᴇᴡ ᴄᴏᴍᴘᴜᴛᴇʀ ᴄᴏʀᴅ”, ᴛʜᴇʏ ꜱᴀɪᴅ. ᴀꜱ ɪꜰ ɪᴛ’ꜱ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴇᴀꜱʏ, ɪᴛ’ꜱ ɴᴏᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ꜰɪʀꜱᴛ ᴅᴀᴍɴ ᴛɪᴍᴇ ᴛʜɪꜱ ʜᴀᴘᴘᴇɴᴇᴅ!

ɪ ꜱᴡᴇᴀʀ, ɪ’ᴍ ɴᴏᴛ ᴀɴ ᴇʟᴅᴇʀʟʏ ʜᴀᴛᴇʀ. ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴇʟᴅᴇʀʟʏ, ʙᴜᴛ ɪ ᴄᴀɴɴᴏᴛ ꜱᴛᴀɴᴅ ᴍʏ ɢʀᴀɴᴅᴍᴏᴛʜᴇʀ. ᴀꜱ ᴀ 17 ʏᴇᴀʀ-ᴏʟᴅ ɢɪʀʟ, ɪ ᴅᴏɴ’ᴛ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴘʀɪᴠᴀᴄʏ, ɪ ᴅᴏɴ’ᴛ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴇɴᴏᴜɢʜ ꜱʟᴇᴇᴘ, ɪ ᴅᴏɴ’ᴛ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴇɴᴏᴜɢʜ ꜱɪʟᴇɴᴄᴇ, ᴀɴᴅ ʟᴀꜱᴛʟʏ! ɪ ɴᴇᴠᴇʀ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴀ ᴄʜᴀɴᴄᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴀᴄᴛᴜᴀʟʟʏ ʙᴇ ꜰʀᴇᴇ.

#angry #it makes me so angry #anger #hate #fml #alone #im so tired #im alone

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𝒶𝓇𝑒 𝓌𝑒 𝒻𝓇𝒾𝑒𝓃𝒹𝓈?

ᴇᴀʀʟɪᴇʀ, ɪ ᴡᴀꜱ ʟɪᴠᴇ ꜱᴛʀᴇᴀᴍɪɴɢ ᴏɴ ɪɴꜱᴛᴀɢʀᴀᴍ. 

ʙᴇɪɴɢ ᴄᴏᴍᴘʟᴇᴛᴇʟʏ ʜᴏɴᴇꜱᴛ, ᴅᴏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴀᴄᴛ ʀᴜᴅᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴘᴇᴏᴘʟᴇ ᴅᴜʀɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴇ ꜰɪʀꜱᴛ ᴇɴᴄᴏᴜɴᴛᴇʀ? 

ʜᴇʟʟ ɴᴏ! , ɪ’ʟʟ ɢɪᴠᴇ ꜱᴏᴍᴇ ᴄᴏɴᴛᴇxᴛ. ɪ ᴡᴀꜱ ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴡʜᴀᴛ ꜰʀɪᴇɴᴅꜱ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴀ ɢɪʀʟ ɪɴ ᴍɪᴅᴅʟᴇ ꜱᴄʜᴏᴏʟ. ʟᴇᴛ’ꜱ ɢɪᴠᴇ ʜᴇʀ ᴛʜᴇ ɴᴀᴍᴇ, (ɢɪʀʟ ᴀ).

ꜱʜᴇ ꜱᴛᴀʀᴛᴇᴅ ᴀᴄᴛɪɴɢ ᴀ ʙɪᴛ ᴛᴏxɪᴄ ᴛᴏ ᴍᴇ, ᴡᴀɴᴛɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ꜱᴘᴇɴᴅ ᴛɪᴍᴇ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ꜰʀɪᴇɴᴅꜱ.

ꜱᴏ ɪ ᴄᴏᴍᴘʟᴇᴛᴇʟʏ Qᴜɪᴛ ʙᴇɪɴɢ ʜᴇʀ ꜰʀɪᴇɴᴅ. ᴏꜰ ᴄᴏᴜʀꜱᴇ ɪ ꜰᴇᴇʟ ʙᴀᴅ.

ʙᴜᴛ ɪ ᴅɪᴅɴ’ᴛ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ ᴄᴀᴜɢʜᴛ ɪɴ ᴀ ᴛᴏxɪᴄ ꜰʀɪᴇɴᴅꜱʜɪᴘ.

ᴀ ꜰᴇᴡ ʏᴇᴀʀꜱ ʟᴀᴛᴇʀ, (2020). ꜱʜᴇ ᴊᴏɪɴᴇᴅ ᴍʏ ɪɴꜱᴛᴀɢʀᴀᴍ ʟɪᴠᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ᴡᴇ ᴄʜᴀᴛᴛᴇᴅ.

ɪ ʙᴇʟɪᴇᴠᴇᴅ ᴀꜰᴛᴇʀ ᴀ ꜰᴇᴡ ʏᴇᴀʀꜱ, ꜱʜᴇ ᴍᴜꜱᴛ’ᴠᴇ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇᴅ. ᴡᴇ ʙᴏᴛʜ ᴄᴀᴍᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴛᴇʀᴍꜱ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴛʜᴇ ᴘᴀꜱᴛ ᴀɴᴅ ᴀᴄᴄᴇᴘᴛᴇᴅ ᴀʟʟ ᴛʜᴇ ᴘʀᴏʙʟᴇᴍꜱ. ɪᴛ ᴡᴀꜱ ɴɪᴄᴇ.

ᴜɴᴛɪʟ (ɢɪʀʟ ᴀ) ꜱᴛᴀʀᴛᴇᴅ ᴀꜱᴋɪɴɢ ᴍʏ ꜰʀɪᴇɴᴅꜱ ᴀɴᴅ ɪ ʜᴇʟᴘ ꜰᴏʀ ʜᴇʀ ᴘʀᴏᴊᴇᴄᴛ. (ᴡᴇ ᴅᴏɴ’ᴛ ɢᴏ ᴛᴏ ʜᴇʀ ꜱᴄʜᴏᴏʟ).

ᴡᴇ ᴀʟʟ ᴛᴏʟᴅ ʜᴇʀ, “ᴡᴇ’ʀᴇ ʙᴜꜱʏ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴏᴜʀ ᴏᴡɴ ᴀꜱꜱɪɢɴᴍᴇɴᴛꜱ/ᴘʀᴏᴊᴇᴄᴛꜱ ᴛᴏᴏ, (ɢɪʀʟ ᴀ).”

ꜱʜᴇ ᴛʀɪᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴍᴀᴋᴇ ᴇxᴄᴜꜱᴇꜱ ᴀɴᴅ ᴛʀɪᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴍᴀɴɪᴘᴜʟᴀᴛᴇ ᴜꜱ ᴛᴏ ᴡᴏʀᴋ ᴏɴ ɪᴛ. 

ᴛʜᴇ ᴘʀᴏʙʟᴇᴍ ᴡᴀꜱ ꜱʜᴇ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅ ʙᴇ ɴɪᴄᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ᴄᴀʟʟ ᴜꜱ “ꜰʀɪᴇɴᴅꜱ”.

ᴀʟʟ ᴏꜰ ᴍʏ ꜰʀɪᴇɴᴅꜱ ᴅᴏɴ’ᴛ ᴇxᴀᴄᴛʟʏ ꜰɪɴᴅ ʜᴇʀ ᴀꜱ ᴀ “ꜰʀɪᴇɴᴅ”, ᴍᴏʀᴇ ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴀɴ “ᴀᴄQᴜᴀɪɴᴛᴀɴᴄᴇ”. ᴡʜɪᴄʜ ɪ ᴄᴏᴍᴘʟᴇᴛᴇʟʏ ᴀɢʀᴇᴇ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴛᴏᴏ.

ᴀɴʏᴡᴀʏ ʙᴀᴄᴋ ᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴀɪɴ ᴛᴏᴘɪᴄ, ᴀꜰᴛᴇʀ ʟɪᴠᴇ ꜱᴛʀᴇᴀᴍɪɴɢ ᴏɴ ɪɴꜱᴛᴀɢʀᴀᴍ, ꜱʜᴇ ᴊᴏɪɴᴇᴅ. 

ᴍᴇ ʙᴇɪɴɢ ᴍᴇ, ɪ ᴡᴀꜱ ꜱʜᴀʀɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴇᴏʀɪᴇꜱ, ᴀʀᴛ, & ɢᴀᴍɪɴɢ. ᴀʟꜱᴏ ɪ ᴡᴀꜱ ᴏɴ ᴀ ᴄᴀʟʟ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴍʏ ꜰʀɪᴇɴᴅ. ɪ’ʟʟ ᴄᴀʟʟ ʜɪᴍ, (ʙᴏʏ ᴀ).

(ʙᴏʏ ᴀ) ᴀɴᴅ ɪ ᴡᴇʀᴇ ʙᴏᴛʜ ᴏɴ ᴄᴀʟʟ, ᴡᴏʀᴋɪɴɢ ᴏɴ ᴀɴʏ ᴍɪꜱꜱɪɴɢ ᴀꜱꜱɪɢɴᴍᴇɴᴛꜱ ᴛᴏɢᴇᴛʜᴇʀ. ᴛʜɪɴɢ ɪꜱ, (ɢɪʀʟ ᴀ) ꜰᴏᴜɴᴅ ᴏᴜᴛ ɪ ᴡᴀꜱ ᴏɴ ᴀ ᴄᴀʟʟ ᴏɴ ᴅɪꜱᴄᴏʀᴅ.

ꜱᴏ ꜱʜᴇ ᴄᴀʟʟᴇᴅ (ʙᴏʏ ᴀ). ᴀꜱᴋᴇᴅ Qᴜᴇꜱᴛɪᴏɴꜱ ꜱᴜᴄʜ ᴀꜱ, 

“ᴡʜʏ ᴅᴏɴ’ᴛ ᴡᴇ ᴛᴀʟᴋ ᴀɴʏᴍᴏʀᴇ?” & “ʏᴏᴜ ꜱʜᴏᴜʟᴅ ᴀɴꜱᴡᴇʀ ᴡʜᴇɴ ɪ ᴍᴇꜱꜱᴀɢᴇ ᴏʀ ᴄᴀʟʟ”.

ᴀɴᴅ ᴍᴜᴄʜ, ᴍᴜᴄʜ ᴍᴏʀᴇ. (ʙᴏʏ ᴀ) ᴡᴏɴᴅᴇʀᴇᴅ ᴡʜʏ ꜱʜᴇ ᴄᴀʟʟᴇᴅ, ɪ ɢᴀᴠᴇ ʜɪᴍ ᴛʜᴇ ᴄᴏɴᴛᴇxᴛ. 

ɪꜰ ꜱʜᴇ ᴇᴠᴇʀ ꜱᴇᴇꜱ ᴛʜɪꜱ, ᴘʟᴇᴀꜱᴇ ᴋɴᴏᴡ. 

ɪ ʀᴇꜱᴘᴇᴄᴛᴇᴅ ʏᴏᴜ, ʟɪᴋᴇᴅ ʏᴏᴜ, & ʜᴏᴘᴇ ꜰᴏʀ ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴇꜱᴛ ꜰᴏʀ ʏᴏᴜ ᴀꜱ ᴀɴ ᴇx-ꜰʀɪᴇɴᴅ. ʙᴜᴛ ᴅᴏɴ’ᴛ ᴛʀʏ ᴛᴏ ᴍᴀɴɪᴘᴜʟᴀᴛᴇ ᴀɴʏ ᴏꜰ ᴍʏ ꜰʀɪᴇɴᴅꜱ ᴏʀ ᴍᴇ. ɪᴛ’ꜱ ᴠᴇʀʏ ᴏʙᴠɪᴏᴜꜱ ᴀɴᴅ ɪꜱɴ’ᴛ ɴɪᴄᴇ. ɪ’ᴠᴇ ɴᴇᴠᴇʀ ᴡɪꜱʜᴇᴅ ꜰᴏʀ ʏᴏᴜ ᴛᴏ ᴛʀᴀɴꜱꜰᴇʀ ꜱᴄʜᴏᴏʟꜱ ɴᴏʀ ᴀɴʏᴏɴᴇ ᴛᴏ ʙᴜʟʟʏ ʏᴏᴜ. ɪ’ᴍ ꜰɪɴᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ᴄᴀᴍᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴛᴇʀᴍꜱ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴍʏꜱᴇʟꜰ ᴀɴᴅ ᴏᴜʀ ᴏʟᴅ ꜰʀɪᴇɴᴅꜱʜɪᴘ. ʜᴏᴘᴇꜰᴜʟʟʏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴄᴀɴ ᴛᴏᴏ, ᴡᴇ ᴄᴀɴ ꜱᴛᴀʏ ᴀꜱ ᴀᴄQᴜᴀɪɴᴛᴀɴᴄᴇꜱ ʙᴜᴛ ᴡᴇ ᴄᴀɴ ɴᴏ ʟᴏɴɢᴇʀ ʙᴇ ꜰʀɪᴇɴᴅꜱ.

#acquaintances #unfriended #friends #diary #livestream #friendship #end of friendship #toxic #toxic friends #toxic friendship

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“I am prepared for the worst, but hope for the best.”

Benjamin Disraeli

#quote #lifestyle #life quote

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ᴍʏ ᴄᴜʀʀᴇɴᴛ ᴍᴏᴏᴅ ᴡɪʟʟ ʙʟᴇᴇᴅ ᴀʟᴏɴɢ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴍʏ ꜰᴀᴠᴏʀɪᴛᴇ ꜱᴏɴɢ.

#favorite song #song #spotify #current mood #mood

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𝑔𝒽𝑜𝓈𝓉

ᴀ ɢʜᴏꜱᴛ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴅɪᴅɴ'ᴛ ʙᴇʟɪᴇᴠᴇ ɪᴛ ᴄᴀɴ ʙʟᴇᴇᴅ.

#art #procreate #abstract #original art

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𝑔𝓇𝑜𝓊𝓅 𝒸𝒽𝒶𝓉

ᴀɴʏᴏɴᴇ ᴇᴠᴇʀ ʙᴇᴇɴ ᴜɴᴄᴏᴍꜰᴏʀᴛᴀʙʟᴇ ᴡɪᴛʜ ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴡʜᴏʟᴇ ꜰʀɪᴇɴᴅ ɢʀᴏᴜᴘ ᴄʜᴀᴛ ʙᴇꜰᴏʀᴇ?

ɪ ᴍᴇᴀɴ, ʏᴇꜱᴛᴇʀᴅᴀʏ ᴍʏ ʙᴇꜱᴛ (ʙʀᴏ) ꜰʀɪᴇɴᴅ ᴛᴏʟᴅ ᴍᴇ ʜᴇ ʜᴀꜱ ᴀ ᴄʀᴜꜱʜ ᴏɴ ᴛʜᴇ ɢɪʀʟ ᴡᴇ ɪɴᴠɪᴛᴇᴅ ɪɴᴛᴏ ᴏᴜʀ ɢʀᴏᴜᴘ ᴄʜᴀᴛ.

ᴛʜɪꜱ ꜰʀɪᴇɴᴅ ᴀʟꜱᴏ ᴀꜱᴋᴇᴅ ꜰᴏʀ ᴍʏ ᴏᴘɪɴɪᴏɴ ᴏɴ ᴛʜᴇᴍ, ᴡʜɪᴄʜ ɪ ᴍᴇᴀɴ.. ɪ ᴅᴏɴ’ᴛ ʜᴀᴛᴇ ʜᴇʀ ɴᴏʀ ᴅᴏ ɪ ʟɪᴋᴇ ʜᴇʀ ᴇɪᴛʜᴇʀ. ɪ ᴡᴀꜱ ʙᴀꜱɪᴄᴀʟʟʏ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ɴᴇᴜᴛʀᴀʟ.

ꜱᴏ ɪ ᴛᴏʟᴅ ʜɪᴍ, “ʏᴇᴀʜ, ɪ’ᴍ ᴄʜɪʟʟ ᴡɪᴛʜ ʏᴏᴜ ɢᴜʏꜱ ʙᴇᴄᴏᴍɪɴɢ ᴀ ᴄᴏᴜᴘʟᴇ”.

ɴᴇxᴛ ᴅᴀʏ, (ᴛᴏᴅᴀʏ) ɪ ʜᴇᴀʀ ɴᴏᴛɪꜰɪᴄᴀᴛɪᴏɴꜱ ɢᴏɪɴɢ ᴏꜰꜰ ɪɴ ᴏᴜʀ ᴅɪꜱᴄᴏʀᴅ ɢʀᴏᴜᴘ ᴄʜᴀᴛ ᴀɴᴅ ʟᴇᴛ ᴍᴇ ꜱᴀʏ, ɪ ᴡᴀꜱ ᴜɴᴄᴏᴍꜰᴏʀᴛᴀʙʟᴇ.

ɪ ᴅɪᴅɴ’ᴛ ᴇxᴘᴇᴄᴛ ᴛʜᴇᴍ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ ᴠᴇʀʏ.. ᴡʜᴀᴛ’ꜱ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴏʀᴅ? ᴏᴘᴇɴ? ʜᴍᴍ.. ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ’ꜱ ᴀ ꜱᴘᴇᴄɪꜰɪᴄ ᴡᴏʀᴅ ꜰᴏʀ ɪᴛ ʙᴜᴛ ɪ ᴄᴀɴ’ᴛ ʀᴇᴍᴇᴍʙᴇʀ.

ɪ’ʟʟ ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ꜱᴀʏ ɪ ᴅɪᴅɴ’ᴛ ᴇxᴘᴇᴄᴛ ᴛʜᴇᴍ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ ᴠᴇʀʏ ᴏᴘᴇɴ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴛʜᴇɪʀ ʀᴇʟᴀᴛɪᴏɴꜱʜɪᴘ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ɢʀᴏᴜᴘ ᴄʜᴀᴛ. ʜᴇ ᴡᴀɴᴛᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴋᴇᴇᴘ ɪᴛ ᴘʀɪᴠᴀᴛᴇ, ʙᴜᴛ ꜱʜᴇ ꜱᴛᴀʀᴛᴇᴅ ʙᴇɪɴɢ ᴏᴘᴇɴ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ɪᴛ.

ʟɪᴋᴇ, ɢᴏᴏᴅ ꜰᴏʀ ʜᴇʀ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ꜱʜᴇ ꜰᴏᴜɴᴅ ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴏɴᴇ. ʙᴜᴛ ʙᴇɪɴɢ ᴄᴏᴍᴘʟᴇᴛᴇʟʏ ʜᴏɴᴇꜱᴛ, ɪ ᴅᴏɴ’ᴛ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴄʜᴇᴄᴋ ᴍʏ ᴘʜᴏɴᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ꜱᴇᴇ ᴍᴇꜱꜱᴀɢᴇꜱ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ʙʀᴀᴛꜱ ᴀɴᴅ ꜱᴜʙꜱ.

ɪᴛ ᴍᴀᴋᴇꜱ ᴍᴇ ᴠᴇʀʏ ᴜɴᴄᴏᴍꜰᴏʀᴛᴀʙʟᴇ.

#groupchat #uncomfortable #dating #group chat #friends

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𝓂𝑜𝓃𝒹𝒶𝓎 𝓂𝑜𝓇𝓃𝒾𝓃𝑔

ᴇᴄᴏɴ ᴡᴀꜱɴ’ᴛ ʙᴀᴅ ʀᴏᴜɴᴅ’ 9 ᴀᴍ. ɪᴛ ᴡᴀꜱ ᴀ ɪɴᴛᴇʀᴇꜱᴛɪɴɢ ᴘᴇʀɪᴏᴅ.

ɪ’ʟʟ ʙᴇ ɢᴏɪɴɢ ʟᴀᴛᴇʀ ᴛᴏ ɢᴇᴛ ᴍʏ ᴄᴏꜰꜰᴇᴇ & ʟᴜɴᴄʜ ʙʏ ᴍʏꜱᴇʟꜰ ᴀꜱ ᴀʟᴡᴀʏꜱ.

ɪ’ᴅ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴛᴏ ꜱᴘᴇɴᴛ ᴛɪᴍᴇ ᴡ/ ᴍʏ ꜰʀɪᴇɴᴅꜱ ᴀɴᴅ ᴀʟʟ ᴛʜᴀᴛ, ��ᴜᴛ ɪ’ᴅ ʀᴀᴛʜᴇʀ ɴᴏᴛ ᴀᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴏᴍᴇɴᴛ.

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𝓅𝑒𝓇𝓈𝑜𝓃𝒶𝓁 𝒾𝓃𝓉𝓇𝑜𝒹𝓊𝒸𝓉𝒾𝑜𝓃

ᴀꜱ ɪ ᴍᴇɴᴛɪᴏɴᴇᴅ ᴇᴀʀʟɪᴇʀ, ɪ’ʟʟ ʀᴇꜰᴇʀ ᴍʏꜱᴇʟꜰ ᴀꜱ “ʜᴀɴɴᴀᴍ”.

ɪ’ᴍ ᴇxᴀᴄᴛʟʏ 17.

ᴍʏ ʙɪʀᴛʜᴅᴀʏ ɪꜱ ꜱᴇᴘᴛᴇᴍʙᴇʀ 18, 2003.

ᴍʏ ꜰᴀᴠᴏʀɪᴛᴇ ᴄᴏʟᴏʀꜱ ʀᴇᴀʟʟʏ ᴅᴇᴘᴇɴᴅ ᴏɴ ᴍʏ ᴍᴏᴏᴅ, ᴜꜱᴜᴀʟʟʏ ɪᴛ’ꜱ ᴍᴜꜱᴛᴀʀᴅ ʏᴇʟʟᴏᴡ, ʙʟᴀᴄᴋ, ᴡʜɪᴛᴇ, ᴀɴᴅ ʙᴜʀɢᴜɴᴅʏ. ᴀʟꜱᴏ ᴄᴀᴄᴛᴜꜱ ɢʀᴇᴇɴ!

ɪ ꜱᴛɪᴄᴋ ᴡɪᴛʜ ꜱʜᴇ/ʜᴇʀ ᴘʀᴏɴᴏᴜɴꜱ, ᴀɴᴅ ɪ’ᴍ ʙɪꜱᴇxᴜᴀʟ.

ɪ’ᴍ ɴᴏᴛ ɢᴏɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ ꜱᴘᴇᴄɪꜰɪᴄ ɪɴ ᴡʜᴇʀᴇ ɪ ʟɪᴠᴇ, ʙᴜᴛ ɪ ᴅᴏ ʟɪᴠᴇ ɪɴ ᴄᴀʟɪꜰᴏʀɴɪᴀ.

ᴍʏ ᴇᴛʜɴɪᴄɪᴛʏ ɪꜱ ᴀꜱɪᴀɴ.

ɪ ᴄᴀɴ ʙᴇ ʀᴇᴀʟʟʏ ꜰʀɪᴇɴᴅʟʏ ᴏʀ ᴍᴏʀᴇ ꜱɴɪᴘ ꜱɴᴀᴘᴘʏ.

ꜰᴀᴠᴏʀɪᴛᴇ ɢᴀᴍᴇꜱ? ꜰᴏʀ ɴᴏᴡ, ɢᴇɴꜱʜɪɴ ɪᴍᴘᴀᴄᴛ (ʜᴇʜᴇ). ᴀʟᴛʜᴏᴜɢʜ ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ɢᴀᴍᴇꜱ ᴛᴏᴏ!

ꜱᴘᴏʀᴛꜱ?ɪ ᴜꜱᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴘʟᴀʏ ʙᴀᴅᴍɪɴᴛᴏɴ & ʙᴀꜱᴋᴇᴛʙᴀʟʟ ᴀʟᴏᴛ! ɪ ᴀʟꜱᴏ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ʀᴜɴɴɪɴɢ ᴛᴏᴏ!

ɪ ʟɪᴋᴇ ʜᴏᴡ ɪ ᴄᴀɴ ɢᴇᴛ ᴀʟᴏɴɢ ᴡᴇʟʟ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴏᴛʜᴇʀꜱ! ᴀɴᴅ ʜᴏᴡ ɪ ᴄᴀɴ ʙᴇ ᴠᴇʀʏ ᴄʀᴇᴀᴛɪᴠᴇ ꜰʀᴏᴍ ᴛɪᴍᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴛɪᴍᴇ.

ɪ ᴅᴏɴ’ᴛ ʟɪᴋᴇ ʜᴏᴡ ᴄʜᴜᴍᴍʏ ɪ ɢᴇᴛ ᴡɪᴛʜ ɢᴜʏꜱ, (ꜰᴇᴇʟꜱ ʟɪᴋᴇ ɪ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ʙʀᴏᴛʜᴇʀꜱ)

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𝓈𝓂𝒶𝓁𝓁 𝒾𝓃𝓉𝓇𝑜𝒹𝓊𝒸𝓉𝒾𝑜𝓃

ʜᴇʟʟᴏ ᴛᴏ ᴀɴʏ ʀᴀɴᴅᴏᴍ ᴡᴇʟᴄᴏᴍᴇᴅ ᴠɪᴇᴡᴇʀꜱ,

ɪ’ᴍ (ʜᴀɴɴᴀᴍ)

ɪ’ᴍ ɴᴏᴛ ʀᴇᴀᴅʏ ᴛᴏ ɪɴᴛʀᴏᴅᴜᴄᴇ ᴍʏꜱᴇʟꜰ ᴘᴇʀꜱᴏɴᴀʟʟʏ ʏᴇᴛ. (ʜᴀʜᴀ ꜱᴏʀʀʏ)

ʙᴜᴛ, ɪ’ᴍ 17 ᴀɴᴅ ʀᴇᴀᴅʏ ᴛᴏ ꜱᴇᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ! & ᴍᴇᴇᴛ ɴᴇᴡ ᴘᴇᴏᴘʟᴇ/ꜰʀɪᴇɴᴅꜱ.

ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ɢᴀᴍɪɴɢ, (ʙᴀꜱɪᴄᴀʟʟʏ ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴏɴᴇ) & ᴀɴɪᴍᴇ (ɪ’ᴍ ɢᴇᴇᴋʏ).

ɪ’ʟʟ ʙᴇ ɢᴏɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ᴄᴏᴍᴍᴜɴɪᴛʏ ᴄᴏʟʟᴇɢᴇ ꜱᴏᴏɴ ᴛᴏ ʟᴇᴀʀɴ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴋɪɴᴇꜱɪᴏʟᴏɢʏ.

ᴀꜱ ᴍᴜᴄʜ ᴀꜱ ɪ’ᴍ ᴇxᴄɪᴛᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ɢʀᴏᴡ ᴜᴘ, ɪ’ᴍ ʀᴇᴀʟʟʏ ꜱᴄᴀʀᴇᴅ.. ᴍᴏʀᴇ ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴀɴxɪᴏᴜꜱ.

ʜᴏᴘᴇꜰᴜʟʟʏ ɪ’ʟʟ ʙᴇ ᴏᴋᴀʏ!

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