can you do a request where the reader struggled with depression/anxiety and Ashton is there to help her ? he’s there to comfort her through it all :)
I'll Take Care of It
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Summary: Above
Pairing: Ashton x feminine reader
Warnings: Depression, anxiety, talks of medication and sh
Word Count: 819
A/N: I hope you love it! Supportive boyfriend Ashton is so lovable and snuggly :)
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You sighed, pulling the comforter over your head. Today was just one of your blue days. Nothing seemed to be enjoyable enough to pull you out of bed and your bad thoughts were running wild in your brain, making you doubt yourself and your relationship.
You had struggled with anxiety and depression since you were thirteen. You had good days and bad days just like any other human, but when you had bad days, absolutely nothing got done.
Downstairs, Ashton was practicing his drums, rehearsing for tour later this month. You longed to go to him, to just sit on his lap and cry until you felt all better, but you knew you couldn't. He was so busy and stressed lately that it would be unfair of you to burden him with your problems too.
And so, you wallowed alone in your misery. You had always been a late sleeper, so Ash wouldn't see anything suspicious about it being just gone ten and you weren't up yet. Sleep wouldn't seem to come to you, though.
The longer you laid in bed, the guiltier you felt. You had strayed off your anti-anxiety and anti-depressants lately because they made you feel so blah. You wren't happy when you took the medicine; the pills took away the things that made you you. Ashton didn't know this, however. You knew he would scold you about your health if you told him.
You sighed, rolling onto your back and running your thumb gently over your scarred forearm. You had stopped self-harming since being with Ashton, but sometimes you wondered if it would help at all to get a break from the immense emotional pain you experienced for seemingly no reason.
Deep in thought, you barely heard your boyfriend enter the bedroom quietly, his footsteps muted by the plush carpet.
"I'm awake..." You whispered softly, hoping Ashton could hear you since your voice was muffled by the blankets.
"Oh! Good morning then, love!" he said cheerfully, going to open the blinds. "I hope I didn't wake you."
"You didn't." You sighed.
"Something wrong?" Ashton asked, looking up from putting away his laundry. "You're awfully quiet."
You stayed silent. You didn't know how to answer Ash's question. "I'm fine. Just tired." You said eventually.
Ashton paused his laundry and walked over to your shared bed, sitting down beside you. He had been with you long enough to notice your moods and when you were slipping into a more depressed state. "Would you like a hug?"
You nodded, peeking your head out from the covers. You could feel tears pooling in your eyes, and you tried your best to keep them at bay. Ash immediately wrapped you in a hug, holding you in his strong arms.
"I know when something's wrong." he hummed quietly, chin resting atop your head.
"I just..." You trailed off, sniffling against his chest.
Ashton didn't urge you to speak. Instead, he simply ran a hand up and down your back until you were ready to talk again.
"I've just been feeling anxious and depressed lately and I don't know why." You huffed.
"Oh sweetie," he cooed. "It's okay to not know why. We all have feelings and sometimes we can't understand why we have to go through misery and hurt."
"There's no explanation." You began to cry again. "I have a perfect life. I'm dating you, my writing has been going well, I'm not struggling."
"And sometimes there won't be an explanation," Ashton said softly. "All you can do is try your best to make it through and that's exactly what you're doing."
You sniffled against his chest once more before quietly speaking. "I haven't been taking my meds either..."
Your boyfriend was quiet for a moment as he thought up a response. "Well, I know how much you hate taking them; I would never want you to be miserable. But I do want you to get the help you need." he said softly.
You shrugged against his chest. "Maybe I should talk to the psychiatrist again..."
"That's a good idea," Ashton said gently. "They can help you get the correct things you need without hurting you."
You didn't know what else to say, so you simply snuggled yourself further into Ashton's chest, burrowing in his strong, muscular arms. You two stayed like that for quite some time, with Ashton rocking you gently and mumbling soft things to you.
Eventually, the honey-blond spoke. "Would you like some breakfast, lovely?"
You nodded your head. Despite being rather anxious, you were still pretty hungry. Besides, Saturdays were your and Ashton's "pancake days".
Ash smiled, helping you up and into one of his big hoodies. Once you were ready, he helped you downstairs and to the kitchen, smiling as he sat you down with a warm cup of coffee.
"You just sit here and relax," he cooed, kissing your cheek. "I'll take care of it."
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