screaming underwater
barça x teen reader. r is dealing with mistreatment on her national team. the barça girls find out.
warnings: descriptions of aforementioned mistreatment by national team.
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The news came out of nowhere. One minute, Alexia, Pina, Patri, and Mapi were at a restaurant eating lunch, and the next, Pina was staring at her phone in horror, all the color drained out of her face.
“Clau? What’s up?” Patri asked, catching the look on her best friend’s face. This halted the conversation between the other 2 girls, and Alexia and Mapi both turned to their younger teammate in concern.
Claudia shook her head, remaining silent as she handed her phone to Patri, standing up and leaving the table.
“I need some air,” she said shakily. Alexia and Mapi exchanged looks, focusing their attention back on Patri for the moment. Patri had a rather similar reaction to Pina’s, practically shoving the phone into Mapi’s hand, and taking off towards the door her best friend had left through.
“My god. Mapi, let me see.” Alexia complained, moving over so she could read over Mapi’s shoulder.
She read the whole article, finishing just after Mapi did. The defender was looking up at her captain, distraught.
“Fuck.” Alexia said. “Shit. Okay. We’ll go find Clau and Patri, and then we’ll call pequeña.”
Alexia was always a voice of reason, and Mapi nodded gratefully, rising to her feet, throwing some cash on the table, and heading out of the restaurant.
There was no longer any question of why her teammates had reacted the way they did. The contents of that article felt eerily similar. And if they were true, they had a lot to be worried about.
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You’d finished your morning training session, pulling out your phone the minute you returned to your hotel room, and saw the article. First, though, you had to scroll through the messages upon messages from your teammates expressing their concern. You didn’t spend too long reading those, knowing it would likely be too much for you right now.
It wasn’t as bad as it could have been; there were a lot of details omitted, some of the more worrying details. Still, it was more than the people in charge would want leaked to the media, especially when it painted them as the villains.
In short, the article detailed, via anonymous interviews with some of your teammates, the conditions that your u23 national team was under. Your coach was vile, the training staff always following his lead. There were recovery specialists that many of you guys refused to work with. The personnel themselves were an issue. More than that, though, what they did was the biggest problem. The team hadn’t been performing very well, and as a consequence, you and your teammates were being worked half to death. Running until you dropped, scrimmaging until you couldn’t feel your legs anymore. You were woken early in the morning for extra workouts, and kept up late to go over film. It was constant, exhausting, and completely demoralizing. The way you were spoken too was no better than what your body was being put through. Your coach had apparently decided that the right way to motivate the team was to rip everyone to shreds. He hurled cruel insults at you and your teammates. He didn’t just go after your playing abilities; he went after your fitness, your weight, your personal life, your personality, your appearance, your relationships within the team. There were no boundaries. There was no way to say no, no way to make it stop.
You were determined to handle it. You didn’t know any different when it came to your national team. Granted, it had never been this bad before, not in all your time with the team. You wanted it handled internally. You saw what your Spanish teammates went through when they tried to make a change, and their suffering wasn’t something you were willing to bring upon yourself and your teammates. You guys were all young, under the age of 23. If your Spanish teammates that were full adults couldn’t do it without winning a world cup, what chance did a bunch of kids have? No one would listen, it would only make it worse. Although, somewhere in the back of your mind, you knew you were suffering far more than you would be if you refused your call up. You didn’t give up, and you didn't ask for help. You’d never had the ability to do so, always wanting to be independent. International breaks became something you dreaded deeply, and something you attended all the same. It was a stagnant, constant torture, constant weight on your shoulders. Nothing really seemed like it would cause a change.
Until the article was published.
You didn’t know who’d spoken to the journalist, but you didn’t fault them. Though you’d never admit it, you were secretly glad that someone had been braver than you. Still, the verbal lashing you and your teammates got later that day was borderline abusive. The following punishment was worse. Your coach led the team to the stadium, into the stands, and instructed you all to begin running the stadium steps, until he felt you’d “learned your lesson.”
No one spoke up, no one argued. Everyone just set off with a resigned sigh. You all ran for a while. What must have been at least an hour, in the hot sun. Up and down and back up again. Until the world was spinning around you, and even though everyone asked for a water break, one was not given. You all kept going.
You went until you dropped, literally. Until you missed a step, fell forward, and smashed your head on the seat next to you. The pain in your whole body ceased, briefly, before it erupted again in your head, and then everything went black.
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At least you could leave early without seeming like a coward. No one could argue against the decision the team doctors had come to; you had a large gash on your forehead that needed stitches, a black eye, and a mild concussion. Your coach sneered at you, but dismissed you all the same, leaving you with a warning to remember to keep the team’s best interest in mind. You knew this meant that he expected you to remain silent, as you had been until this point. You planned to. What you didn’t necessarily plan for was your club teammates. You should have considered them, but you didn’t. That was your second mistake. The first was barely responding to anyone’s texts and calls after the article was published. You didn’t even tell anyone you were going home. Deciding the medical announcement from the team would be enough, you boarded your flight to Barcelona, completely ignoring the flood of messages you were receiving.
You just wanted to go home. Lay in your bed where you were safe, and far from the people that seemed hell bent on making your life a living hell several weeks out of the year. You didn’t want to talk, you didn’t want to see anyone. You ignored the multitude of texts from Pina, Patri, Mapi, Alexia, and Marta, asking you if you needed a ride home from the airport. You Ubered home from the airport instead, barely making it through your door before you tossed your bag aside and collapsed into your bed.
In order to avoid a break in from your teammates, you pulled your phone out before you fell asleep, opening your text thread with Alexia.��
Nena, I saw the article. Call me.
Are you okay?
Please respond, nena, we’re really worried about you.
Jona called, I heard about your injury. Are you okay?
When are you coming home?
When does your flight land?
Nena, please. Just message something to let me know you got home okay.
You sighed. You didn’t want to talk. Talking would only make it worse, you were sure. It hadn’t been that bad, not really. It was normal, a little harsh, but the team had been playing so poorly, what did you all expect? Rationalizing it was all you could do, really.
Hola Capi. I’m okay, I’m home now. Everything is fine, really. Don’t worry.
Alexia responded barely a minute after you’d hit send.
Okay, nena. If you need to talk, we’re all around for you, okay? Please, please call me if you need me, for anything. We can talk more tomorrow when you come for your medical eval. It’s at 9am and Mapi and I have media stuff then, but Pina and Patri are going to pick you up. Rest a lot, I’ll see you tomorrow.
Even though you were comfortably curled up in bed, incredibly sleep deprived, and concussed, you couldn’t fall asleep right away. You were rather busy trying to figure out how to act tomorrow. You felt so… weighed down from everything that had happened. You looked in the mirror barely recognizing yourself, and it had nothing to do with your injuries. You didn’t feel like you. You felt like the empty version of yourself that always returned from national duty, but 10x worse. You didn’t think you could smile if you tried. Convincing your teammates that you were okay was going to take a lot of energy that you simply didn’t have. You couldn’t do it, you were too exhausted, in the very core of your being. You fell into a fitful sleep, setting your alarm for the next morning even though it was only early evening and you hadn’t eaten anything. You weren’t sure how to act, or how to play this. All you knew was that letting anyone see how badly you were hurting was not an option.
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Your car ride to the Barça training grounds was painfully quiet. Pina and Patri had given up all attempts at making conversation; you’d made it clear that you didn’t want to talk. Neither of them were sure what to make of you right now. Your voice was steady, your body language rigid. You had a pair of huge sunglasses on, though, and a hood tugged up over your head. Neither of them could get a good glimpse at your face, to check on your injuries, or to see how you were really feeling. They supposed this was the point. Their worry only grew when you caught Patri’s arm before heading to the medical center. Her and Pina were headed for the locker room, but they both stopped in their tracks, looking back at you.
You wanted to thank them. Not just for picking you up, but for bringing you coffee and a granola bar, and the comforting way they both squeezed your hand when they saw you.
“Thanks for driving me. I really appreciate it.” You said softly. You never spoke quietly; you were incapable of doing so, normally. Today, however, both girls had to lean in to hear what you were saying.
“Of course.” Patri replied. Your eyes fell back to the floor underneath you, and you headed off without another word, leaving two very concerned teammates in your wake.
Patri stopped Pina just before walking into the locker room, very suddenly pulling the younger girl into a tight hug and not letting go.
“Patri. Why are you suffocating me?” Claudia asked after a minute.
The midfielder didn’t let up. “She’s acting like you did. After the last international break. I really don’t like it.” She explained.
Claudia pulled away, shaking her head. She didn’t like to think about that. “I’m fine, Patri. She’ll be fine too, yeah?”
“Hope so.” Patri said, giving her best friend a smile that didn’t quite reach her eyes.
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Alexia and Mapi knew it was just as bad as they were expecting when they saw the looks on their younger teammates' faces. They’d finished media up as fast as they could, practically running to the gym where Pina and Patri were working out.
It only took a shake of Patri’s head for both girls to whirl around, and set off for the medical center.
You finished your eval at around the same time. The team doctors hadn’t asked too many questions. Jona had been there when you arrived, and had asked if there was anything you’d like to talk to him about. You’d shook your head, and he’d sighed, but left the room. The doctors had received the report from your national team’s staff. They knew that you’d fallen, but that was it. Nothing that accounted for the deep exhaustion that was clear across your face, or the way you barely spoke to them. They told you the same things that your national team had, giving you a rough timeline of your return. Finally, they very obviously reminded you of the club psychologist, before telling you that you were free to go.
You were planning on waiting around somewhere secluded until Pina and Patri were done with their workout, stopping briefly to fill your water up. Your sunglasses were back on, hood pulled back up, depriving you of your peripheral vision, not to mention your rather swollen shut eye.
When you turned, you jumped slightly, finding Mapi and Alexia standing directly behind you, arms crossed over their chests like a pair of bodyguards. If this was their goal, they had arrived late. The damage to you was already done. You weren’t sure the scars would ever fade.
Alexia stepped closer to you slowly , as if you would startle and run away from her if she moved too fast, pulling your hood down, and reaching for your sunglasses very carefully.
“Ay dios mio” She murmured, taking your sunglasses off your face and carefully inspecting your wounds. “How did this happen?”
Her voice was uncharacteristically shaky and full of fear, and her eyes bore into your own, a dangerous glint to them. Mapi didn’t look any different, standing next to her captain and eyeing you very carefully.
“Fell.” You said simply. Not completely collapsing into their arms and telling them everything was much harder than you anticipated, so you stuck to one word answers for now.
“You fell? What, off a cliff?” Mapi asked, ignoring the elbow to the ribs she received from the blonde next to her.
You only shrugged in response, causing both girls to exchange a look.
“Amiga, did someone do this to you? You can tell us, I promise. We will keep you safe.” Alexia promised, words she’d been rehearsing all morning.
“No one did anything to me, I just fell.” You reiterated, and it wasn’t technically a lie. You were getting annoyed, uncharacteristically so. You didn’t want to answer these questions, and even though it was completely unfair, you were angry at Alexia. Promising to protect you now did nothing. Nothing at all. It was too late for that. You weren’t sure you’d ever feel safe again.
“I do not believe you. You are not clumsy, you do not fall.” Mapi cut in, her words wildly more aggressive than her tone. You didn’t respond, back to staring at your feet. “The article that came out,”
“It’s an exaggeration. Everything is fine. Nothing is wrong, everything is fine, and I just want to go home, okay?” You spit back, showing the most emotion you had all day.
And though everything you’d said was clearly a lie, it was also clear you weren’t ready to talk. Mapi and Alexia had already decided to back off if you didn’t want to talk right now. It could wait until later, until you were somewhere you felt safe, and somewhere much more private than the hall outside Barcelona’s gym. This wasn’t the place.
The older girls let you go with Patri and Pina, even though all of their instincts were telling them not to let you out of their sight. You were so jumpy, so obviously terrified, they couldn’t justify making you do something you didn’t want to right now.
Alexia watched you walk away with your teammates, startling slightly when she felt Mapi wrap her arms securely around the blonde. Mapi was holding tight to her best friend, and it was no secret as to why. Alexia hugged her back, just as tight.
“She’s acting just like all the younger girls did after the Euros. It’s happening again, to her this time, and we can’t do anything to stop it.” Mapi mumbled.
Alexia wanted to disagree, but she couldn’t. She wanted to promise Mapi that they’d fix it, but she wasn’t sure they had the power to. Watching someone you love suffer is always hard, and this was no different. It seemed so out of their control, and it was excruciating to watch the effects of whatever happened at that national camp wreak havoc on you, and know they couldn’t stop it.
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The ride home was just as quiet as the ride there had been. This time, though, the girls didn’t let you go without speaking. The tension in the car had been different this time, and you knew one of them was planning to say something. You thought it would be Patri; she was one of the captains, she was older, you were closer with her. To your surprise, it was Pina that spoke up.
Patri had just pulled into your driveway when Pina turned around, looking hesitantly at you. Maybe it was her clear anxiety that made you listen, really listen to what she had to say.
“I don’t know exactly what’s going on, but I can tell you aren’t okay. I just wanted to say that talking about it is way less painful than keeping it all inside. Everyone wants to help you, and I know you might feel embarrassed, or like you can handle it yourself, but you shouldn’t have to. We’re all here for you, whether you want to talk, or you just need some company. Okay?”
You could tell it had taken a lot for Pina to say all that. She didn’t talk about her experience, ever, unless it was to Mapi or Patri, and even then, she preferred to pretend it hadn’t happened. She was putting that aside for you, though, and you couldn’t ignore the significance of that.
“Thanks Clau. Really, thank you.” You said, reaching out to squeeze her arm, before stepping out of the car. It was all you could manage right now, but you hoped it got your point across.
It did. And even though tears welled in Claudia’s eyes on the way home, and she clung to Patri’s hand rather tightly, she was glad she’d spoken up. It was what she’d needed to hear all those months ago, and she hoped that it would make things easier for you.
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You were curled up on the floor near your couch when you made the decision. Tremors were wracking your whole body, and you had been crying for so long that your chest hurt. It seemed that everything had caught up with you, but the breaking point had been the message from your national team coach, reminding you, again, to think of the team, and to stay out of the public eye until your visible injuries healed. There was no please, no thank you. It was just assumed that you’d do it. That really got you; that you’d been pliant for them for so long that they didn’t doubt that you’d go along with whatever they told you to.
You just felt so alone, and so scared. So incredibly scared. It was this fear that had you reaching for your phone. You couldn’t do it anymore, couldn’t keep it all in. You couldn’t tell another lie, and you didn’t want to. You just wanted someone to come and tell you that everything was going to be okay. You wanted someone to protect you, in the way you should have been protected this whole time.
There were people that you trusted to do this for you, and you’d lost all the strength to deny yourself the comfort and the care you ached for.
The phone had barely rung once before it was picked up.
“Nena? Are you okay?” Alexia asked softly.
“No,” you replied, your voice barely more than a sob.
“Oh, cariño. What can I do?”
“Come over, please. I can’t do this alone anymore.” You gasped out, wiping harshly at the tears streaming down your face.
“I am on my way, pequeña, okay? Just sit tight, Mapi and I will be there in a few minutes.”
“Okay,” you said miserably. You hung up the phone, curling up against the side of the couch once again, muffling your cries in the cushions next to you. It felt like you might never stop crying.
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The sight that Alexia and Mapi were met with when they walked through your front door wasn’t one they ever wanted to see again.
You were curled in on yourself on the floor, gasping and clawing at your chest as you cried, looking so panicked, and so terrified, neither of them were very confident that they’d be able to help you. Alexia was at your side in an instant, physically pushing your coffee table out of the way so she could crouch down next to you, and pull you into her arms.
“Okay, okay. It’s alright. You are safe, nena, I promise you.” She murmured, allowing you to hide your face in her neck. You were still trembling, still sobbing, when Mapi sat down next to the two of you, looking helplessly at her captain.
You couldn’t speak, even though you kind of wanted to. You were so overwhelmed and so exhausted, the only thing keeping you from really dissolving into an irreversible state of panic being Alexia’s arms around you, and her and Mapi’s voices in your ear.
They promised, over and over, that you’d be safe, that they’d keep you safe. You supposed the only way they’d be able to do this was if you told them everything. And even though it terrified you to do so, the thought of going back to camp next break like nothing had happened was paralyzing.
You had to trust Alexia and Mapi. You didn’t think you’d be able to keep going if you didn’t trust them, if you didn’t let them in. You resolved to talk, to be honest, as soon as you were able. As soon as you stopped crying. You weren’t sure when that would be, honestly, because it didn’t seem like you were calming down at all. For now, you gripped Mapi’s hand, focused on the feeling of Alexia’s hand on your back, and willed yourself to be calm. They had you. They’d keep you safe.
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I'm the protagonist, bitch!
What if SY transmigrated as Luo Binghe and had to go through the main trials and abuse under the scum villain Shen Qingqiu?
And in typical SY fashion, ends up deluding himself and no longer cares what Sqq is doing?
Since Luo Binghe knows he's going to go into literal hell everything sqq does seem tame in comparison?
He starts thinking "If being whipped is making me cry...how will I be when I lose a limb in the abyss!?"
Then he starts seeing this as inpromptu training, he gives SQQ the peerless cucumber roast of a lifetime JUST to get more punishment! He has to get stronger!
And of course in true Scum villain fashion, SQQ backs off and starts treating LBH as a disciple and just ignores him.
This is grossley unfair!
Shen Yuan AS Luo Binghe.
So SY transmigrates as Luo Binghe and already doesnt feel comfortable as a grown ass man taking wives who were mostly Binghes age with the occasional milf thrown in there. So he decides fuck it, he’ll get stronger deal with he abyss when he gets to it and at first wanted revenge on SQQ then decided it was too much hassle. He just wanted to be left alone. But the scum villain keeps bothering him, and actually seems to like him- why? What changed!? The hell!?
-SY transmigrates as Luo Binghe.
Has the horror that as the protagonist his lufe is a living hell, continous tortourous chores, being whipped and beaten for the tiniest offense how will a millenial survive!
[Welcome Host you can you up! As the protagonist you are the workds child and no lasting harm will befall you-]
“Yeah but I’ll still be harmed.”
[An over powered protagnosit at the start if his journey is too unrealistic.
Tasks for hosts are;
Create a harem.
Fall into the endless abyss.
Take revenge on Shen Qingqiu.
Merge the realms!]
“I dont want to do any if that!”
[System has heard users complaints and sees that Host will only do one scenario!]
Oh thank god
[System has taken the liberty of choosing the task- endless abyss arc!]
You fuck!
-SY stole a manual. If he wanted to survive the abyss he had to be stronger. Having an unstable core will do him no favours…
So far he was able to keep his head down but realised something. When he first transmigrated the first thing that happened he was beaten. And it hurt.
Then he was whipped and it hurt but…
Luo Binghe was going into the abyss- even with his demon blood awakened he would face a ton of horrors and so much pain his own arm ripped of.
“A-lou? You look pale,” His shiejie spoke placing a hand over his head.
If he wanted to survive he would have to build up his pain tolerence…
Steadying his rabid heartbeat Luo Binghe smiled.
“This one is fine.”
He purposfully acts out, and tried not to cry- it was just intimidating okay! That he was being whipped while his Shizun supervised-
Did Shen Qjngqiu really have to sit there and watch the sadistic fuck!
Even so, he built himself up stronger.
He accidently proposed to Ming fan that he had no intention of seeing Ning Yinying that way as she was like a sister.
But seeing a man bully someone they percoeved as their little brother how would you react? If Ming Fan acted kind to Binghe he could also hang oht with Ning Yingying.
“You can have one on one time with Ning Yingying, she’ll be happy that we’re getting along.”
“You just want me to help with your chores-“
“Of course not. This one will do extra and Ning Yingying likes to talk or gets bored easily you can stop and play with her instead.”
And just like that he matchmaked the two, and had all the wood chopping to himself.
It was frustrating coming from a modern eorld you’d think he knew hie to get stronger.
But that was all er-ge. He knew the difference between working out and only looking like a model but was weak and unfit. Meanwhile people who gained weight and looked bigger were often stronger.
Even so, Luo Binghe used the kitchens to his advantage while eating he would study and in his own time would train even dyring the night.
And if he felt tired he would purposfully sleep in during his Shizuns lessons.
Extra points for snowing loudly.
Of course he rejoiced in the day he no longer felt pain on his back. He even told Shen Qingqiu himself that what point was the punishment if he now felt nothing?
So now he had to sit on pins, hanging off the mountain and not fall to his death because his arms got tired.
Even so it’d make him stronger.
“Ah binghe can you take this to Peak Lord Shen?”
He blinked then stared at the food.
And he suddenly had a wicked idea.
He may not want revenge kn his scumbag shizun, even though he deserved it. Lucky for him he was so lazy!
But this would be the most sweetest revenge.
He decided to take the food up for Shen Qingqiu passing it to Mong Fan.
“What are you doing with Shizuns food?”
“I was already in the kitchen, while the cooks told me to bring it.”
Ming Fan looked suspicious and Luo Binghe held the urge to roll his eyes.
“You can taste test it if you eant although, Shizun wont be pleased by the delay.”
To be fair, Shizun never ate. He never slept either. The only time he oerked was when he went doen the mountain. He sure had an addiction.
Luo Binghe almost said nothing then remembered he needed to get in trouble and punished!
“Visiting the brothel, again, Shizun?”
The other gaped at his audacity, to be fair, Shen Qingqiu could kick him of the mountain, but after reassuring with the system that would never happen.
Shen Qingqiu paused and only glanced back, cold eyes sneering down at Luo Binghe.
Luo Binghe shivered, he sure was the scum villain alright, so scary!
Such a waste of good looks too.
“Luo Binghe to the wood shed.”
He bowed, “Yes, Shizun.”
Unknwowing that to others he was practically going whth a slring in his step.
“Why do you rebel against your master so? Are you a glutton for punishment?”
Luo Binghe was forced to kneel before Shen Qingqiu, his legs bloodied and skin torn.
The original goods would’ve broken Shen Qingqius legs for that.
But kneoing he may lose a leg in the endless abyss he was fine with it.
“This disciple has nothing but respect for Shen Qjngqiu.”
Hah as if! He wished for nothing but Shen Qingqius castration!
“This disciple is aware how…behind he is compared to everybody else and only wishes to be stronger. After being whipped to the point of no linger feeling pain?”
He missed the wide eyes of Shen Qjngqiu as he kept speaking.
“This disciple knows many more trails are to come and this one has to be stronger to face them. So far the punishments have given this Binghe so much thatvhe can’t hope to ever repay. But as the years passed noticed less punishments…”
It was strange usually this was when Qjngqiu got worse.
“This Binghe never wanted to lose all that progress and so…to continue this disciple had to…escalate such things to get what I wanted.”
When he glanced up he blanched, he’d never seen Shen Qingqiu look so enraged!
Luo Binghe realised what he said then bowed, face red in shame.
“This disciple apologises! He should have spoken with Shizun first! And never went about his own training in such a way! This disciple was wrong!”
“Oh, so now you understand?”
Easy for you! Binghe was focused on survivng the abyss! Not your ego!
“It seems this Shizun was rewarding such behaviour. Are you truly a masochist?”
Shen Qingqiu used his foot to raise Luo Binghes chin from the floor!
Luo Binghe kept hos face impassive the only thing giving him away was a small twitch.
He did not want that type of attention from his scumbag Shizun! God damn it!
“N-no Shizun this lowly one only wanted-“
The foot moved, and before Binghe could even relax, Shen Qingqiu rose as he stepped on his head pushing him intk the floor, Luo Binghe turned his nose just in time befkre it made contact.
He grunted, unable to move. Only riding it out until his scum Shizun got it out of his system. But this sucked.
“What a degenrate beast, thinking he can take advantage of his Shizun. You don’t care aboht getting stronger only using that as an axcuse to get away with being disrespectful.”
Luo Binghe opened his mouth then closed it, to be fair…Luo Binghe did enjoy being able to clap back and roast Shen Qingqiu and even being beaten bloody and blue he thought-
Worth it!
Shen Qingqiu noticed then pushed his foot down harder.
Luo Binghe scowled.
“With this type of punishment sometimes wonder werher you get off on this, Shizun.”
Shen Qingqiu paused, “What did you say?”
“Visiting all those brothels, and favouring Ning Yingying so, what if sineone where to walk in right now and see this, wouldn’t they jump to conclusions?”
Shen Qingqiu gripped his fan- ha a reaction! Even the original goods had never made him break his fan!
Luo Binghe wanted a record, lips twitching.
“Whose the degenerate now? Pervert Shizun.”
Shen Qingqiu grabbed his hair yanking it back then slammed him into the floor.
It was too quick to hurt.
All Luo Binghe knew was the blood pouring down his nose all over Shizuns lamenated flooring.
“Clean yourself up. Then come back and clean this mess and if this stains this master will,”
Luo Binghe looked up at him tiredly, raisng an eyebrow.
He’ll what? Beat him, burn him?
Kill him?
Ha! he can try he’s the motherfucking protagonist!
Shen Qingqiu paused, eyes narrowing and Luo Binghe had to inwardly cackle.
Ha he did it! He broke Shen Qingqiu!
Who knew his tried and true method of pissing of trolls online was apathy and not caring! Peerless cucumber for the win!
Luo Binghe bowed, “if that’ll be all Shizun, this Binghe will return to clean his mess.”
That you made, he left unsaid.
After that things went…wrong.
Shen Qingqiu ignored him.
No one bullied him, no one hit him. Even when Luo Binghe poured tea all over Shen Qingqius head, it was scalding hot too!
He wasn’t punished.
No. No. No. no-
The endless abyss was only a year away!
And are you freaking kidding me! What wanting to get punished made Shen Qingqiu finally act like a decent Shizun!?
That asshole.
Whenever he saw him Luo Binghe couldn’t help but glare his scowl darkening and saw the smug bastards smirk.
It was awful, Luo Binghe was so used to being on the attack and on guard.
So now he jumped at the slighest sound, thank god no one was there to see him flinch away from a bunny!
And his workload was depleted! He barely had any chores and suddenly realised he had so much free time!
Damn that scumbag!
Its funny, the lriginal goods would give his left leg to be treated this way…as an actual disciple of Qing Jing Peak and yet…
It felt wrong. Luo Binghe was completely thrown off it almost affected his appetite!
…
Wait.
Luo Binghe paused, the endless abyss was a matter of survival.
He was going to have to get used to not drinking water or finding food as well as fighting.
Luo Binghe, who was going through the motions as he sparred with the rest of the disciples, going through the qing jing peak forms-
He never did before, too busy doing chores to never realise his manual was fake.
…he could’ve went to Mu Qingfang but knew his meridians were healthy and could easily be called a liar.
So he instead left two manuals on Shen Qingqius desk and wrote in the best caligraphy to ever grace the earth;
“I know this is a fake asshole.”
Of course Luo Binghes writing was awful in lessons! But now that Shen Qingqiu was no longer punishing him. Luo Binghe didnt hold back or doodle anymore.
Instead writing as many pages as he could neatly and was done befkre the glass.
The only irritation when Shen Qingqiu realised was a slight eye twitch.
As well as other lessons, easily able to create the object they were supposed to paint before Shen Qingqiu could even critisice him Luo Binghe beat him to it.
“The perspective is off and the bounce light is coming from the wrong direction. This disciple apologises for wasting paint.” He spoke in a bored tone.
The other disciples whose work was way worse felt themselves drop in shame.
If Luo Binghes was bad how in the fuck where they going to compete!?
With all this three time, he decided to spend every moment in the library and study demonic beasts.
His memory was good and he of course knew every single weakness how cluld he not? The monsters were the only redemable thing in PIDW.
Poor Binghe he deserved better!
He could train with Liu Qingge? Maybe say hey my Shizun is better than you and I can prove it fight me!
Huh thats a plan.
But the fact that Liu Qingge was alive was weird, after asking around it turns out Shang Qinghua had something to do with that…
It was strange- but he didnt have time for that he had to focus! And being hungry was really making it hard.
Even so better doing this now in an enviroment where the wkrst thing that can happen is him collapsing.
Other than the abyss where he might end up dying.
His head was splitting, he could barely sleep because of the pain.
There had to be good spots in the abyss for water but airplane skipped it!
Oh no the porn was more improtant than survival! Dumb fuck!
Even so, he had to be lerfect in class, as well as remain consistent in his spars and able to face off against disciples.
And he was doing great! He wasnt hungry as much he could still fight okay the headaches he had grown used to so its fine!
If he couldn’t fight hand to hand with a freakin disciple then how the fuck was he going to last one day in the abyss!
What Luo Binghe didnt know was he was the world child and the abyss wouldn’t be so bad in the sense it was supposed to make him stronger.
In the original story, Luo Binghe only clawed his way out for his hatred for Shen Qingqiu.
The system was very aware that this Luo Binghe…had no ambition.
With nothing to keep him motivated, Luo Binghe may give up and so the system had no choice but to make the abyss easier.
Although technically it wasn’t unlike the original goods who was tossed in unprepared, terrible base, and ignorant.
This Luo Binghe has been training so of course it was going to be easier.
But seriously host was damaging himself!
Luo Binghe, was panting harshly, his hands weak.
He had to pace himself.
He knew his stomach would shrink if he stopped eating, he couldnt over indulge or he might hurt hinself or his stkmach might explode.
He had to get used to smaller bites.
And learn how to ration food.
It got to the point where even Shen Qingqius food which used to smell heavenly just smelled.
It was still good. But he didnt want to eat it.
He knew logically his food tasted good, he just didnt care for it.
When he delivered placing it down before his Shizun.
Remebering the time Shizun found out his meals were cooked by Binghe! Was pricless he looked like he could cough up blood!
The truth cane out when Binghes hands were injured, and of course he couldn’t train so he bawled telling Shizun not his hands how will he cook for him!?
Thats when Shen Qjngqiu found out, and he had the most darkest mood ever.
The disciples of course took it out on Binghe, then he remembered oh yeah, Luo Binghe lost a limb in the abyss! Ergo more training!
So he was able to dodge and fight his way out with just his legs!
The fact that he was in a tree when Shen Qingqiu found him, with a ton of disciples tormening him he almkst laughed at Shen Qingqius face!
Oh if only he still had a cellphone.
Ah if only his hands could work and take one too!
Instead Luo Binghe decided to paint Shen Qingqiu and it had to be his best work yet!
He had to admit it was the only healthy way to get the aggresion out his system.
Art was therapytic no matter what Qingqiu said!
And his woodshed was…covered.
On one hand he wanted to hide them, on the other?
He wanted someone to see and get pissed and punish him for it.
Now, Luo Binghe thought bored, he never gets punished. He was starting to miss it.
doodling another Shen Qingqiu, his fault for being so handsome!
He drew Ming fan occasionally as well as the other male disciples.
Ying shijie always pouted that he never drew her as his french girl.
But he couldn’t!
Knowing the relationship the two had, anything could trigger a romance he did t want to risk it!
Men were safer!
He just said drawing ugly people was better to learn, Ning Yingying is too lretty unfortunatly!
She flushed then decided to say nothing else.
Even so, Ming Fan was growing into his looks, he wasnt as gokd looking as Binghe but he no longer looked like an awful mini Scum.
Luo Binghe was so tired he found his limbs shaking.
His clothes were too big and he kept tripping on them.
And his head was pounding.
One foot then-
He blinked his eyes open to see a ceiling, what?
He tried to get up until a hand grabbed his head and lushed him back down.
Luo Binghe yelped, looking up to see Shen Qingqius dark face.
What? Was he upset Binghe was still alive? Well sorry oh great and bountiful Shizun this Binghe will try harder next time!
Shen Qingqius lips twitched into a sneer.
“Luo Shizi. Please don’t try to kill yourself no matter how much you want praise from someone.”
Luo Binghe blanched, did he say that outloud?
“Now, might want me to explain why Luo Shizi is neglecting hinself?”
Mu Qingfang asked sktging before Luo Binghe.
It was…weird seeing two peaklords staring him down…
“Um, This Binghe wanted to be prepared in case…at any point found himself somewhere with no food or water and had to survive.”
He spoke, it was a very valid fear! Anything can happen to a cultivator!
“Why would you think that would happen to you- to take such an extreme risk such as this, to prevent it?”
Luo Binghe’s eyes flickered to Shen Qingqiu for a split second but it was enough to make Shen Qingqiu snap.
“You really believe this Lord will do that to you?”
Luo Binghe stared at him and Shen Qingqiu looked more annoyed.
“Stop looking at me like that!”
Like what? Was he pulling a face?
(He was, he always gave Shen Qingqiu that look when he thought the kfher was being fumb)
“Luo Shizu has Shen Qingqiu done something to make you act this way, has he hurt you?”
“No.”
Both spoke at the same time, Shen Qingqiu looked surprised at Luo Binghe who stared straight ahead at Mu Qingfang.
“This Binghe, has never been harmed by Shizun. In fact this one has been spoiled! This Binghe only wants to get stronger and prove that Shizun didnt make a mistake in making me his disciple!”
Mu Qingfang melted “Oh Shizi, you don't have to prove yourself. Afterall most of the peak knows that you are a gifted young student!”
Now Luo Binghe paused, sorry what? Since when!?
“So theres no need to push yourself. You are a growing boy! And developing an eating disorder in this stage could damage your cultivation!”
Luo Binghe blinked, well…no it won't matter to a heavenly demon.
To a human sure, maybe but he was the protagonist he would be fine!
“Shen Qingqiu, you’ll have to watch him.”
Oh sweet! Shen Qingqiu wouldn’t give a shit! As long as Luo Binghe was careful and ate a little bit he wouldn’t collapse and be more careful he should be fine!
Both noticed Luo Binghe perk, Mu Qingfang felt something ease to know how much the disciples loved their Shizun.
Meanwhile Shen Qingqiu gave the other a narrowed eyed stare on why the thought of Shen Qingqiu watching him would being him delight?
As soon as they walked back to Qing Jing Peak, Luo Binghe turned in the direction of the wood shed to continue reading his books until he choked as the back of his collar was tugged yanking him back.
“Where do you think you’re going?”
Shen Qingqiu asked, lightly fanning his face while holding Binghe by the scruff like a misbehaving dog.
“My…room?”
Shen Qingqiu’s eyes twitched.
“You really believe this lord is going to leave you unsupervised?”
Luo Binghe gave him that look again.
And Shen Qingqiu’s first impulse was to slap him.
He held back, knowing his wayward disciple probably enjoyed that!
“Since this Shizun has been so neglectful of his poor student,”
Luo Binghe twitched, tensing up waiting for the guillotine.
What was his Shizun up to?
“This Lord will have to personally take care of you hinself.”
Luo Binghe blinked then froze.
Shit.
Shit!
He had no idea this could happen- but to be fair he thought his Shizun would bite off his own tongue rather than pretend to be caring for someone like Binghe!
“From now on you will be living with me in the side room at the bamboo house.”
If Shen Qingqiu wasn’t holding him Luo Binghe would’ve fell on his ass.
What?
“Come on, what meagee things did you need at your room that you were in a hurry to get?”
Luo Bknghe grit his teeth and had to turn stiffly as he walked towards the wood shed and entered.
Shen Qingqiu stayed at the doorway not entering, and instead watching Luo Binghe gather his books and manual.
He checked the contents making sure it wasn't another fake one the shoved it in a quirken pouch.
He wasn't stupid or had an eating disorder for christ's sake!
He just could be reliant on constant fokd only to die of something silly like starvation or hunger day 3 in the abyss!
And Shen Qingqiu did not even comment on the wood shed being his room other than the dorms.
The bastard.
“I’m ready, Shizun.”
Instead Shen Qingqiu didn't move, baring his exit while he stood on the doorway.
“Aren’t you forgetting something?”
His eyes flickered to the back wall.
…that was full of his paintings and charcoal sketches of Shen Qingqiu and…others.
Okay sure after fighting Liu Qingge he had to draw him too!
Luo Binghe didn't move.
“The disciples can use it as tinder for the fire if needed. So why move them?”
Luo Binghe tilted his head, “And Shizun does not expect this disciple to live in the side room for the next foreseeable future this Binghe will return back to the woodshed in no time so why move them?” He asked, tilting his head to the side.
Shen Qingqku snapped his fan shut and turned with a flourish of his robes.
How unfair, Binghe was still in his disciple era and can't do that yet.
With each step he followed Shen Qingqiu to his new home, mulish expression on his face.
The other disciples scowled darkly at him in envy.
Afterall its the first time any one other than the head disciple had been so close to the peak lord.
Luo Binghe went straight to the side room and started tidying.
He’ll have to sort out the linen sheets and wash them, dust, then wipe the floor, open the window for ventilation-
He ended up washing the sheets outside and once they were dry with a tailsman he brought then back then paused to see his room was done.
Somebody had already cleaned and wiped down the floor.
The window was open allowing a nice cool breeze in the warn room.
“Ming Fan had finished your room. All you have to do is put your things away. You are under direct orders from Mu Qingfang not to over exert yourself.”
Luo Binghe scowled “Yes, Shizun.”
It was a nightmare.
His Shizun would demand lunch and watch Luo Binghe eat then would make sure he didn't go to the bathroom to throw it up-
Like he would!
Shen Qjngqiu even told him to stop eating when he seemed to realise it was too much for Binghes recovering stomach before even he knew.
Even so he was monitored, made sure he slept and didn't read well into the night.
When Shen Qingqiu learned this he ended up tying Binghe in immortal binding cables and laying him in bed.
Shen Qjngqiu was more aggrieved to learn that's why he was sleeping through his lessons.
He couldn’t train as much, and usually Luo Binghe would act cool and aloof.
But this was killing him.
Ming Fan was taking some sick delight out of this he knew it.
And Luo Binghe’s temper was growing short, the immortal alliance was coming up soon and with the way this was going he was not going to survive.
[Host! In order to complete the endless abyss arc- user has to prove he can enter the immortal alliance conference or he may be dropped from the list!]
…what?
“I- I can skil the abyss?”
[Luo Binghe must enter the abyss. Failure to do so Hkst will be ejected from his body and restored to the original one]
Luo Binghe blinked, placing a hand over his chest at the thought.
He had to get better or he wont jump to his possible death?
What was the point?
Luo Binghe clutched his arms, and made himself smaller in the room.
Okay. Okay he can deal with this.
The next morning, Luo Binghe felt as if he was run over by a truck.
His emotions were all over the place… probably from his fucked up diet.
He glanced up at Shen Qingqiu who ate with poise.
Mu Qingfang told him it was better if Binghe ate with someone. And that someone had to be his scumbag shizun.
He really didn't understand him…you'd think he’d encourage this type of behaviour?
“Stop staring and eat your food, mongrel.”
What a dick.
Luo Binghe was pushing his food around and forced himself to take a bite.
“Shizun?”
“What.”
Luo Binghe stared down at his food.
“If this disciple regulated his eating habits only to then fall back into the same habits later down in the future- what would happen?”
“You would die.”
Shit-fuck!
“So this disciple should stop eating now instead-“
He was hot with a fan.
It was less painful that anything Shen Qingqiu has done to him before. It just surprised him.
“Why prepare for something that may never happen? Why not just build your own grave then lie in it and be done with it? Theres no point wasting this masters time by making you a disciple just to watch you throw it away. You can’t be trusted, that is no longer your body. It’s mine, not one scratch, not one bruise and not one bone protruding without my say so.”
Luo Binghe scowled down at his food.
So now he cares?
“This one can still function as a disciple discreetly if you're worried about what others think. Contrary to popular belief I don't want to die.”
Shen Qingqiu looked unimpressed,
“Then what do you call this? Do you miss those punishments so much you would reduce yourself to self harm?”
Luo Binghe blinked, “Self harm? This is only to get stronger, now this Binghe can function without headaches after skipping meals compared to before-“
“Stop.” Shen Qingqiu really looked irritated.
“You are a cultivator, if you don't want to eat work on your core instead, so you have inedia.”
He would but Meng Mo told him if he pushes his core anymore his demonic cultivation will throw it out of balance. So far he’s been working on building that up.
By the systems calculations he wouldn’t be able to unlock that ability for the abyss.
To make it more angsty for the readers.
For fucks sake.
So now he was back at square one. Couldn’t train like before and had to go back to the same amount of chores as the others. Finishing quicker but befkre he could even help Shen Qingqiu would aopear like his fucking shadow and punish the ones Luo Binghe helped.
Shen Qingqiu realised he was fine with punishments but when others got hurt on his account Luo Binghe would back off!
Why!?
The original Luo Binghe would be ecstatjc to have such a kind and caring Shizun! But he had to wonder what the fuck changed!?
Luo Binghe in PIDW did everything to get Shizuns approval but was kicked into the abyss for it! He was punished for breathing!
Now Luo Binghe would give anything to chop wood till his fingers bled or feel the burn of the whip on his back!
And it wasn’t weird he was just under stimulated!
He needed to do something!
So he ended up in the kitchen aggressively cooking deserts.
And it smelled nice.
He already over cooked a ton to feed the entire peak!
He sighed after pulling out his last batch.
May as well give them out, wouldn’t want to waste food.
“Strange how you can cook such delicious foods yet treat them so callously.”
Luo Binghe flinched, fuck me!
He didn't even hear the devil come in!
Luo Binghe glared, another thing he would’ve been punished for, and yet Shen Qingqiu only seemed amused by it.
…was his Shizun bipolar or what!?
Luo Binghe glanced away.
“This disciple was only stress baking, I bought the ingredients myself so it's not wasting Qing Jing Peaks resources.”
Shen Qingqiu picked up one of the steam pead flour cakes he just baked and tasted it.
Luo Binghe waited for the verdict.
He hoped Shen Qingqiu wasn’t going to make him eat all this food he may actually develop an ED if he did.
“Eat this.”
Luo Binghe fucking called it.
Before he could even reach for one, Shen Qingqiu pushed the food towards his mouth, Luo Binghe had to eat otherwise it would make a mess.
Suddenly flavour exploded on his tongue.
It tasted so good, of course it was the protagonist cooking!
He slowly chewed then swallowed it.
“How did it taste?”
“Good.”
What was Shen Qingqiu getting at?
“So what is the problem,”
Luo Binghe tilted his head. Was it bothering him that much that Binghe refused food?
“Its not the taste of the food. Its the fear that I’ll grow so dependent on it and find that I suddenly cant have it.”
“But getting stronger and studying beasts, what's the point in that if you run your body into the ground.”
Luo Binghe had enough, throwing the tray of food to the side.
“Why do you suddenly care!? You whipped me because I talked back but you dont do that now- I starved in that wood shed you never cared, my back was bloody my hands mangled you did not care. So why start now? You may be fine with acting like the kind Shizun. The great Xiu ya Peak Lord Shen, but excuse me for not buying it. For waiting for the other shoe to drop.
So what will it be next? After this would it be sleeping? Is that going to be our new thing once this is done? How many mkre ways do you need to torture me.”
“You torture yourself. I did nothing.”
Yet.
But he will throw Luo Binghe of a cliff into the abyss to kill him.
“You hurt yourself then blame me. You enjoyed those punishments as training, so I stopped realising it was teaching you the wrong lesson. You’re different from other disciples, stupid. To think this is how any respectable cultivator would train-“
“I’m not a cultivator.” Luo Binghe spoke tiredly, looking at Shen Qingqiu with a bored expression on his face.
It riled Shen Qingqiu up.
“This one was an unwanted disciple, a waste. All because Ning Shiejie wanted a shidi and you wanted to win one over Liu Qingge. Because he wanted me first.”
Shen Qingqius eyes widened and Luo Binghe looked down.
“You never wanted this disciple, and this Binghe is fine with that. But after giving me a fake cultivation manual, making me fight elder hammer with posion that could kill me. How can you blame this one for flinching waiting for a third blow?”
Shen Qingqiu looked shocked that Luo Binghe even knew that much.
He walked past, ignoring the food plans of distributing it around the peak forgotten.
Luo Binghe sat before Shen Qingqiu. Forgetting that he had to eat with the devil.
The only thing that gets Luo Binghe through the day is karma.
Everytime something unfortunate happens to Shen Qingqiu (who had such unfortunate luck)
He would bare witness to it.
Being bested in a duel by Qi Qingqi. He ended up cheering her on the loudest.
Seeing Shen Qingqiu try to practise sword fighting and making a huge hole in qing jing peak.
He acted like he did it on purpose but Luk Bknghe was fascinated by his tells and knew the man was embarrassed.
Dropping a tea kettle on his foot he even hopped up and down with a yelp.
That was the best one!
Thoughts like that got him through.
He ate mindlessly not tasting anything. And had to stop when his stomach ached.
“Keep eating.”
Luo Binghe paused, “What?”
“Keep eating. After all this Shizun is cruel and would force poor Binghe to starve so keep eating.”
What a petty bitch.
Luo Binghe did staring right at Shen Qingqiu and kept eating. Until his bowl was finished.
His stomach was killing him.
But he ignored it.
Then he began to swallow more, saliva pooling in his mouth, and-
Luo Binghes eyes widened, he dropped his bowl into the floor and lunged for the bathroom, even Shen Qingqiu flinched at the breakneck speed then grimaced when he heard Luo Binghe throw up.
Luo Binghe didnt eat the next day.
And Shen Qingqiu was begging to lose his temper.
“If you don’t eat properlly you’re not going to the immortal alliance conference!”
God dammit!
Luo Binghe had to admit defeat.
He had half a year left, it would make it more difficult but he had no choice.
He started slow, eating fruits out in the open after training where everyone would see.
Starting off small.
Sharing snacks and eating them himself, and when it came to big meals, would still leave food left but not as much as before.
Its fine, when he’s in the abyss he knows what to expect.
He faces monsters in the beginning, has to keep moving into the centre where he finally finds some springs for water, but no food. Maybe he can prepare a quirken pouch to take supplies.
After all what if water is stored in things, like plants, or trees or even rocks!
It can happen!
If he has tools to store water, and food and make it last then thats eight out of ten problems.
Then theres madam meiyans adventures with the succubus clan…hmm, he really wants to skip it.
Losing his first time in an abyss is not the best place, but he would need new clothes…
He had no idea while he was recovering eating, passing Mu Qingfangs bill of health.
Everyone even peaklords praised Shen Qingqiu for being there for his disciple and helping him through somethimg so trying.
It pissed him off.
No one gave a shut ablut his eating habits, he sweats mu Qingfangs care for his own disciple than his fellow maritial sibling.
And Shen Qingqiu knew Luo Binghe.
That look in his face when he was alone, the anxiety, and panic before settling down.
It was refreshing. Before Luo Binghe would always show that fake smile and act friendly but underneath Shen Qjngqku knew something was wrong with the kid.
The relief when he finally showed his true colours and stopped pretending.
If its one thing, Shen Qingqiu hates its liars.
But no, Luo Binghe may be showing signs he was okay maybe he really is over this bad habit.
But now its when a new habit appears.
He mentioned sleeping so now Shen Qingqiu is more vigilant making sure he goes to bed on time and stops studying those demon books.
Why is Binghe even writing notes on how to defeat a monty python rhino?
He’s too young to be fighting that- he was given a list on what to fight in the alliance why was he studying something else!?
“Maybe he’s trying to copy you?”
Shen Qingqiu paused, lowering the tea cup from his lips.
“Excuse me?”
Mu Qingfang only looked at him cooly.
“Its not a secret that Shen Qingqiu doesnt sleep, is a bright young man but is weak in his cultivation, and is too skinny.”
Shen Qingqiu scowled. “Thats ludicrous and untrue. He’s never went to a brothel.”
So there!
“Not yet, maybe it’ll happen in time.”
“Why would Binghe copy me?”
“Most do, to someone they respect, or idolise. Maybe wanted to understand you better.”
No. Mu Qingfang is definitely wrong at this.
“Binghe is making his own mistakes. He’s not following mine.”
Mu Qingfang hummed, “Its only a theory, unless he starts showing…signs. Maybe you might have to have the talk.”
Shen Qingqku stared then his eyes narrowed “Certainly not. That's the hallmasters job!”
“Maybe there's a lot of things he doesn't know-“
“He had a mother. She would’ve told him.”
…
“What?”
As Luo Binghe came back ho- the bamboo house he wanted to collapse onto his bed.
He wanted to skip dinner so bad but he had to eat now.
Like a respectful adult ugh!
“Binghe!”
“I have moon cakes! I’m eating moon cakes from Ning Yingying!”
He snapped back, he just got into bed! Now he had to stomp because Shizun would want him face to face.
The typical parent yelling for their kid then not answering when they respond.
“Not that, impertinent brat. Sit.”
Luo Binghe sat. What? What could his bipolar Shizun want now?
“If you visit brothels or make nong yingying pregnant I will castrate you,”
Whoa- what!?
Luo Binghe blinked “Shizun, this disciple must have hit his head at sparring today and didnt hear you right. Can you please repeat that?”
What the fuck?
Shen QingQiu sneered down at him.
“Someone brought to my attention that you like to copy me.”
Luo Binghe started looking around and Shen Qingqiu scowled.
“What are you doing.”
“Looking for my fan. But I can’t seem to find it.”
As well as tge stick up my ass but thats not there either so clearly he’s not copying!
“Being a recluse, hiding away from others and assuming the worst of others and your strange relationship with food then you mentioned sleeping habits….”
Luo Binghe glanced back up, surprised.
Even Shen Qingqiu…?
Luo Binghe glanced back down then realised where Shen Qingqiu was going with this-
“I don't need the talk!” He yelped face red. He did not-
He stood up walking away.
“I’m not copying you- I’m not going to end up in a brothel with tons of women-!”
Although original Binghe would’ve-
That wasnt him!
He wasnt interested in a harem! Maybe find some girl settle down study beasts get a bet one.
Oh how cool would that be?
The protagonist with a giant fucking wolf as his companion?
Yeah a big heckin chihuahua.
Luo Binghe had to start cooking something or he was going to go nuts.
…Shen Qingqiubeas seriously starting ti scare him.
When his diet was back to normal, his workout began again. And now he was studying arrays.
Fucking stupid, he was.
Why didn't he think of this before? Keeping food hot or frozen to last longer.
And even have inside pockets so he wint lose his shit willy nilly!
He soent all his tike studying, and sewing and-
Bang!
Most of it exploded in his face.
“Shizun!”
“Don’t tell Shizun!”
It was an accident! It wasn’t on purpose!
But Nong Yingying snitched and now he had to go over sewing techniques and arrary work with the hallmaster again.
And when they saw what he was trying to make they laughed. Claiming it was impossible.
Luo Binghe gree mullish, fuck you he’s the protagonist he can fucking do it!
After hiding away from prying eyed and working on smaller fabrics was able to make a heating AND freezing charm.
He experimented with cold foods first to see if they stayed frozen in the pouch then crowed with delight that it worked!
Now to make it bigger!
And just like that he was able to store large amounts of food in his pouch oldest at the friend newest at the back sk nothing got too spoiled.
He was so giddy.
After making tons of pouches and even showing them off and how they worked and why they existed.
Shen Qingqiu cleared his throat.
“Write your progress into a report. We’ll place your findings in the library with the rest.”
Huh…huh!?
“And Binghe.”
Luo Binghe stood at attention as Shen Qingqiu gazed down at him.
“You are approved to go to the immortal alliance. Do not disappoint me.”
What oh- oh fuck YES!
-he wanted to ditch these disciples why join kf they’re going to struggle!?
Then the demons arrive! About time! Ah these were mich better to fight than the easy ones!
Even the spiders were easy!
“Everyone! There is a snow flower that is a deterent to demons! Up this way!”
Once they were safe did Luo Binghe sigh with relief.
At least now, its all on him.
“I’ll go find help!”
He left the disciples before they could utter a word.
Now alone all he had to do was wander aimlessly until the abyss opened.
He was nervous, like exams, dentist, and blood tests all into one.
He just wanted it over with. As soon as he was in the abyss the better.
“Binghe.”
“Fu- Shizun!?” He nearly died- what the hell?
Oh yeah, Shizun was supposed to toss him in.
“What is Shizun doing here?”
Shen Qingqiu scowled, “Rescuing disciples such as yourself. Come on.”
Mobei-jun comes in, and Luo Binghe feels his hands shaking as he watched as Shang Qinghua was hit into a tree.
This was wrong.
Shen Qingqiu was actually fighting a demon and telling Binghe to run?
“Hmm, what a weak cultivator.”
Shen Qingqiu growled, “You demonic spawn- this Peak Lord is the Xiu ya sword! And you will fall by my blade!”
Shizun was hurt.
Shen Qingqiu evaded the most of the ice crystals, but was pinned to a tree by a viscious one.
Shen Qingqiu may die.
Luo Binghe moved, not even aware just lunging for the ice demon with a yell, swiping his sword down.
He’d forgotten all of his training, only using his bare hands as Mobei-jun looked at him with interest.
“Binghe- run stupid boy!”
Luo Binghe wasn’t paying attention, instead he evaded even getting slammed into the ground, almost breaking his arm he ignored it, until Mobei-jun grabbed his head.
“Hmm, human but not.”
Wait- the monty python…
Luo Binghes eyes widened as a clawed hand reached towards his face, he screamed at the pure agony in his forehead as he was dropped to the floor.
He clutched his skull feeling the mark of sin burn into his forehead his whole body becoming liquid fire when his demonic core burned through his meridians along side his spirtual veins.
Luo Binghe panted, fuck he felt awful.
Mobei-jun replaced the rhino… why was it different?
“Beast.”
Luo Binghe looked up, eyes drooped and out of it. Until a sword touched his neck.
Luo Binghe stiffened, remembering where he was and what he was supposed to do.
“Shizun? Want to tell me what your doing?”
“Who are you calling Shizun, demon mutt?”
Ah back to pet names huh? Luo Binghe hummed, “This disciple is just as surprised as you.”
He glanced to the side and saw Zheng Lang destroyed.
“Shizun, can you do this one a favour?”
“No.”
Luo Binghe shifted back, and stood up, Shen Qingqiu held his sword high, green eyes almost black with the dark scowl on his face.
Luo Binghe took another step back, then another.
His eyes remained on his sword, he really…wanted to take the sword with him…having a sword would be easier in the abyss now he can’t.
He missed the wide eyes look of his Shizun, missed the panic as Binghe took another step back.
“Shizun, can you fix my sword? Say…Luo Binghe died…a human.”
Shen Qingqkus eyes widened, his sword faltering, as Luo Binghe took another step back.
Then felt the ledge under his foot and paused.
“This one has always trained for this…You were never a good Shizun, but this past year…” Luo Binghe turned to look down at the abyss, his chest suddenly tightening, it was terrifying, he was scared. Who wouldn’t be?
He was procrastinating at this point, the timer ticking down.
“I think I might miss you. Shen Qingqiu.” Luo Binghe smiled, showing all his teeth no different to how he looked before he did something to piss Shen Qingqiu off.
Then he fell, falling back into the abyss, eyes squeezed tight breathing heavily to hold in his scream.
The rift shut with a snap.
Leaving Shen Qingqiu with his hand held out, eyes wide in shock.
He fell to his knees, wounded, in pain…and numb.
All this time he wanted to do away with that brat, he dreamed off it-
Now?
“Shen Qingqiu!”
“Shen-Shidi!”
His eyes slid over to the broken sword…he moved and began to pick up the pieces.
He may as well honour that brat. And do this one thing for him.
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Luo Binghe almost collapsed against the broken stairway, almost there.
He lost track of time of how long he was in the abyss. He barely had time to think or feel, just respond to each attack and survive.
The only reprieve was when he found a little oasis when the system would pipe up.
And tell him hints with b-points that he earned in the development arc Disciple days.
Luo Binghe almost slumped with relief, food and water was scarce, it was worse than Qing Jing Peak, he knew if he woke up he would be halfway down a beasts mouth.
-gets a dog
-loses a dog
System makes him go to madam meiyan.
“You upled the difficulty on purpose!?”
[stop doing side quests and go to madam meiyan! You need new clothes and then you can get Xin Mo!]
Luo Binghe paused, Xin Mo?
“Why didn’t you say so?”
Like an autistic stuck in a closet and forgotten about, Luo Binghe was actually getting used to the abyss.
But after the loss of Pear…
Yeah, he wanted to call him mini peerless cucumber but that was a mouthful in the abyss. But he wanted it affiliated wkth fruit and thought Pear was a good name.
When Pear was ripped to shreds in front of him, Binghe drove off any cute baby animal that got too close.
He thought that as the protagonist- he really wanted to go home with lear, watch him get bigger and be an intimadating badass!
The system knew he was dodging basic Luo Binghe plots and waa dojng his own thing so to give him angst it decided to make him break down.
Losing his pet, his one stability, his confirt in this wasteland. Shen Qingqiu never betrayed him, so he had to accept loss in one way or another.
It just sucked!
And so after finally trudging up to Madam Meiyan, reluctently, then felt bad because she was nice.
He told her he didnt want anything to happen in the abyss, not until he was safe.
She patged his hand yet still helped him get new clothes.
She didnt act like the femme fatale side fling of Luo Binghe. She acted like a caring older sister.
He slumped in gratitude, and finally adorned the black and red robes.
He checked himsekf oht in the mirror lerking up.
Now that is a protagonist!
Complete lady killer! But not in this world!
Luo Binghe, as a reader, always thought if at any point he would have to marry?
It’d be Liu mingyan.
She was smart, strong and cool. Best girl.
Even so Madam Meiyan was so kind, it almost made Luo Binghe cry.
Even so, he couldn’t stay in the den long, thats just inviting disaster.
He began his journey again, rationing his food and thankful that other than the beggining, at least food was no loner scarce and he could eat and not have to worry.
[That could also be inedia]
Or that too!
Even so, the monsters had to get stronger thats how you level up!
And Luo Binghe wasted no time grinding he wasnt a newb!
He was going to keep fighti bf every single demon he could lay his on to get stronger.
[Host is procastinating to avoid Xin Mo]
He was not!
…maybe- even so he needed duel cultivation to deal with it.
And he didnt want to deal with it.
So when he finally made it up the stairwell, leaning heavily on the wall and leaving blood and ichor on the pale stone,
He saw Xin Mo in tge centre of the room.
Before he was scared, now he had to get over it.
He beat his training, he was literally having a vacation in the abyss, after Xin Mo magbe that will no linger be a problem.
He approached extending his hand and grasped the handle.
Quiet.
Then a sudden flood of screams, intense rage and anger swarmed into him.
He grimaced falling to his knees, breathing his throat aching when he realised he was screaming too.
[Host! Soend b-points to temper Xin Mo?]
Yes yes a hundred times yes!
The screams didnt stop, but dulled down to a feint baackgfound noise.
God how did Luo Binghe deal with this.
He raised his arm and sliced downwards into an arc and a portal opened up.
Luo Binghe gazed at it like the first sunset honest delight on his face.
He didnt think it would work the first time!
As he stepped through the portal still open he glanced at the sword and three it back into the portal.
“Yeet.”
Instead it slung back missing his neck to slam into the tree behind him.
The portal closed.
[Host and Xin Mo are bonded for life. Only destrkying Xin Mo can release its hold.]
Luo Binghe brushed a hand over his face, really?
At least that was his new goal. Destroy Xin Mo.
The system even had the nerve to make that as a bullet point on his list lf tasks.
[What else will host do now that he’s free?]
Well other than the abyss, he didnt have to do the other plot points.
He didnt have to return to cang Qiong. Or even go to Huan Hua.
He coukd just wander PIDW to his hearts content and fight monsters, rescue damsels, without marrying them.
It sounds like a dream-
[Warning! Character arrival! Task: defeat important character!]
Mobei-jun appeared even seeming surprised to see Luo Binghe.
What? Why? Why!?
[To fix plot holes ;)]
You tricked me!
Luo Binghe leaped back, evading Mobei-Jun attack- it was weird.
How weaker Mobei-Jun was.
He could kill him, just use Xin Mo and sate it for now…but Mobei-Jun was a loyal fighter…
And he wont be able to spar with Liu-Shishu again. As Luo Binghe kept dodging, considering expression on his face, he was unaware it kept pissing off Mobei-Jun.
“Take this seriously!”
Oh? Ah he was being rude. Compared to when he was a child, he was easily slammed into the ground.
Luo Binghes claws extended as he grabbed Mobei-Jun by the throat and slammed him into the ground.
Mobei-Jun grunted eyes wide to see Luo Binghe straddling on top of him heavenly sigil glowing with red demonic eyes looking down at Mobei-Jun like he was an interesting bug he decided to play with knstead of squish into the dirt beneith his biot.
“Do you lield and swear your loyalty to me, or should this one kill you know and save myself ghe trouble?”
Mobei-Jun swallowed eyes bright.
“This one will follow you, Junshang.”
[Congragulations! Luo Binghe is now a lord! Next task- defeat the saintess Sha Hualing to claim title as demon emporoer!]
Luo Binghe stood up leaving Mobei-Jun on the ground, onlivious to the ice kings new sexual awakening-
And stared at the system.
“Are you telling me that I HAVE to do those plots?”
[Yes! Become a demon emporer! And also be adopted into Huan Hua! Investigate plot points! Revenge on Shen Qingqiu is optional!]
Oh?
[Merging the realms is also optional!]
Hmm.
Even so, the reason Luo Binghe merged the realms was because of paper work.
He’ll need people, unlike the og Binghe who couldn’t trust anyone and had to hold his empire himself but also going on adventures and picking up flowers every five minutes? Garunteed his rule wouldn’t be great especially since Mobei-Jun kills his spy who also HAPPENED to be tge advisor.
“Mobei-Jun.” He glanced over, time to start planning.
“Not to be a pain, but this Binghe is tired. Can you be accomidating and give me a room? Prefferbly in your northern palace of course.”
Mobei-Jun looked stiff then nodded with a small bow.
“Of course Junshang.”
He opened up a portal and and was soon making his way to his new home.
Luo Binghe never liked the cold, in his former life or this one.
But he’ll have to deal.
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First order of buisness after dealing wkth Mobei-Juns unruly court.
Linguang-Jun had to go.
Any infatuation Mobei-Jun had fizzled. Luo Binghe only sneered down at the blood smear of what was left of his uncle and said.
“Just some cannon fodder who didnt add to the plot, bound to backstab for further gain when given the chance.”
He had a point but still.
Then he demaded to see Shang Qinghua.
“Relax, Mobei. This lord only wants to reunite with his precious Shang-Shishu.”
Mobei-Jun kelt giving excuses, making Shamg Qinghua overworked on purpose so he would never meet their ecentric demon Lord.
Luo Binghe must have grown tired breaking Mobei-Juns hand and warning him that he was being polite but now enough was enough.
The three kf them sat at a table together, Luo Binghe spread like king, relaxed. A contrast to both Qinghua and Mobei-Jun who sat stiffly.
“So your the spy who ruined the immortal alliance and backstabbed Cang Qiong to align with demons! Never knew you had it in you Shishu!”
Shang Qinghua looked like he was going to vomit.
Hmm, the man was always…different.
More cold. And evil.
This guy was a gerbil.
“Hmm, first order of buisness. Mobei-Jun.” Luo Binghe looked up glaring at him.
“No killing Shang Qinghua. No matter what, even if he betrays yourself or this Lord being him to me to punish, understood?”
That seemed to surprise both.
“J-Junshang? Thank you for the order on my behalf, but ks there any reaoson…to…”
Shang Qinghua lost his vouce the more Luo Binghe stared at him.
What? Whys he so scared for- he doesnt know me yet or how string I am-
[Host has a resting scary face]
That was just cruel.
“This lord…likes paperwork.” Luo Binghe spoke aving his sleeves and moving forward to pour tea.
“Its calming, helps keep my thoughts organised. Excessive paper work, redundent paper work, incompetant paperwork is something I’d rather not do. If this lord plans on conquering the south or even plans on dessimating Huan Hua-“
Here Shang Qinghua twitched.
Other times he would’ve missed it.
But in the abyss any movement reflects so much.
“Havkng a base in the human realm and demon realm garuntess my hands will be full. Shang Qinghua is managing the northern realm as well as Cang qiong. Someone that competant will lighten the load.”
After making the tea he sliced his hand calmly watching the blood pour into the cup.
He saw from the corner of his eye, Shang Qinghua breath hitched, his face pale.
“Here Shishu, drink. Swear your loyalty to this demon lord.”
He wondered why Luo Binghe never did this to his close subordinates in the first place.
Make sure he’d never get betrayed and reward people under his emply with healing beneifts.
Join Luo Binghe we have health care!
“Hmm, why so hesitent Shang-Shishu. You wont bettay this lord so what worry is there?”
Shang Qimghua gulped then grabbed the cup chugging it down.
Luo Binghe laced his fingers together as he gazed at Qinghua.
“Hmm? Does Shang Qinghua know something?”
Shang Qinghua was back to his pale trembling self.
“N-no Junshang. This Qinghua knows nothing.”
…he’s lying.
Luo Binghe dropped the playful act and tilted his head.
Shang Qinghua immedietly started sweating buckets.
“Do you like reading Shang Qinghua?”
The other nodded “Y-yeah?”
Hmm.
“Theres a book this lord can’t stand, the worst literay piece ever known to man. I regret laying my eyes on such drivel. Its called Proud Immortal Demon way, has Shang Qinghua heard of it?”
It was instant, Shamg Qinghua almlst stopped breathing.
“Yes.”
Luo Binghe felt himself relax, and in turn Shang Qinghua looked like his strings were snapped.
Luo Binghe almost felt nad for him.
“Yes I didnt like that story, so I decided to change a few things in it.”
Shang Qinghua began to oerk.
And in turn Mobei-Jun began to glower-
Itvwas strange woth how a fee words he had Qinghua relaxing and leaning in closer.
Mobei-Jun would’ve guessed it was the blood but he felt no different.
…or maybe…
No. He felt no different.
Of course when Shang Qinghua came running to him screaming he of course hid him out the way until it was junshang trucking towards them.
“Airplane!”
“Ah dont kill me!”
Mobei-Jun stood stiff “Mobei-Jun get out kf my way.”
“No killing Qinghua. Your order.”
Luo Binghe blinked then scowled at Qinghua who stuck his tongue out at him.
The killing intent was string even Mobei-Jun almlst buckled from it.
Luo Binghe scowled “Fine!”
“If I wanted to kill you, I would’ve used my blood parasites dipshkt.”
“Oh yeah.”
“Hmm hmm.”
“Your inside me-“
“What? Ew why are you like this!?”
A/n:
Shen Yuan: Luo Binghe was influenced by Xin Mo it wasnt his fault.
Shen Yuan as Luo Binghe with Xin Mo: does nothing inappropriote and is a distinguished gentlemen.
-Shen Qingqiu trial
Luo Binghe wanted nothing to do with the scumbag and just let the consequences of his actions continue their course.
As Luo Binghe was investigating the origins if his parents (since the system was adament ablut it for some reason) he didnt think his inlut mattered.
But then it was his reputation that came into it.
He realised he should have….maybe…thought this through.
“Is it true that Shen Qingqiu abused his disciples?”
If it was one thing, Luo Binghe wanted to be fair. Shen Qingqiu never abused him, but he may have murdered Qui Haitangs brother.
But if Luo Binghe expressed nothing was wrong then the whole cultivation world will see him as a backstabbing disciple!
Luo Binghe was also…curious, why the original goods never invaded both dreams to see what really happened. Verify the evidence so to say.
“This Binghe has his own personal reasons to remain here at Huan Hua.”
Not to mention, Shen Qingqiu could blackmail him as being a heavenly demon.
Luo Binghe already felt like he could t relax and retire not with this threat looming at him.
“And Shen Qingqiu has never abused me.”
Here he saw Shen Qingqius twitch, and ignored it.
“But his past with Qui Haitang is something I am unfamiliar with.” He could tell the tide was changing against him.
To stand aside while his Shizun was being condemned? How unfilial.
“And so this Binghe has decided to personally investigate this case as a neutral party.”
Qui Haitang looked his way-
“What!? So you can hide evidence and help your scumbag Shizun!?” She yelled and Luo Binghe spoke.
“On the contrary, a rogue cultivator claiming a Peak Lord had murdered her entire family with only servants to survive? Where are such servants why is there not more witnessed to confirm this case? This could just as easily paint you Miss Haitang in a poor light with just the right defense.”
Luo Binghe gave her his best charming look, hoping to give off friendly big brother vibes to aplease her.
“Dont worry Miss Haitang. This Binghe will only uncover the truth on what happened that night and help you find peace.”
[Congragulations! +50 Charisma points for Miss Haitang! Possible love arc begin-]
No no no- it wasnt- no! Cancel love arc CANCEL!
-uses his dreams and finds out the truth from both.
Speaks to Shen Qingqiu in the water prison.
Hunts down servants. Who are scarred and reveal the abuse of Qui Jianlou and his crimes. How they speak kindly lf Shen Qingqiu who got them out.
How Luo Binghe accidently saved Shen Qinqqiu-
“Why help this Master? It can’t be because you want to play the part pf a loving disciple? After all,”
Shen Qinqgiu leaned close, speaking softly so others wouldn’t hear.
“This master tried to kill you three times after all.”
Luo Binghe smiled, “This Binghe knew he had bigger threats to face, after knowing the trials I had to overcome…you didn’t seem that scary all of a sudden. And this Binghe knows of worse things to come that taking revenge on my scum Shizun seems like a waste of time to me.”
After Luo Binghe removed the red immortal binding cables, tenderly holding Shen Qingqius hand and unwrapping each rope, his eyes furrowed at how thin Shen Qingqius wrists had become. Shen Qinqqiu had lost weight-
“Luo-Shizi.” Luo Binghe straightened, “ah Sect Leader Yue!” He bowed hastily.
“Apologies, this unfilial disciple never meant to disrespect Cang Qiong mountain-“
Instead the sect leader took his hands and made Luo Binghe look up, the look on his face was stra ge and made Luo Binghe uncomfortable.
And the worst thing happened.
The sect leader bowed to him!
“It was Cang Qiong who has done a great disservice to Luo Binghe.” Everyone in the room heard such a thing, Huan Hua bristled but all the lthers practically hungered for the drama.
“That we had failed in such a way that you felt that you couldn’t return and felt undeserving. Cang Qiong doors will always be open to Luo Binghe, he doesnt have to prove his worth or fear rejection to come home.”
Oh- oh!
He had to admit, Yue Qingyuan was similar to him, killing them with kindness. Making it seem as if they were the perfect sect family outside, and creating this humble narrative that Luo Binghe didnt deviate and spit on Cang Qiong but it was in fact a simple miscommunication!
Then Shen Qingqiu spoke as well, “Yes. Qing Jing Peak is your home, unless Luo Binghe doesn’t want to return to the mountain that took him in?”
Oh, now everyone was watching Luo Binghe.
But…they both could accuse him of being a demon, so why not use that instead?
Even so, both of them were looking at him expectantly, they all were.
“This Luo Binghe is grateful, and relieved to know that his worries were unnescary and that Cang Qiong still accepts me.”
Shen Qingqiu smirked, looking like he was about to win- until…
“But this Binghe is ungrateful. Huan Hua took me in after I was injured and this one wanted to repay that debt, maybe even foster good relations to both sects. And further more…This Binghe wanted to learn more about his past, the Luo River is closer to Huan Hua where I was born and wanted to learn about my past.”
Luo Binghe gave them both beseaching looks.
“Can this one still stay at Huan Hua until I find the answers I am looking for?”
Shen Qingqiu looked annoyed, the Palace Master even inturupted.
“Yes! Why Luo Binghe was forced to find sanctuary here and never returned to Cang Qiong is a mystery! And Shen Qinqgiu! You claimed he had died at the immortal alliance!”
Shen Qinqqiu gritted his teeth, and the others became more rowdy.
“Luo Binghe will remain here, until he feels comfortable speaking the truth and has no fear of the power and influence both of you have.”
Luo Binghe was touched this father figure was coming to his aid, but he couldn’t be more wrong, he was a demon emporer. He had a lot of power and influence.
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“Afterall I’m the scum Shizun! And you are the victim! Always blaming me when in reality you hurt yourself,” luo Binghe paused huh?
“What? No- never ind that.” Why was Shen Qingqiu upset anyway? “Look I’m at Huan Hua now, far away from you. And we can both pretend the other doesn't exist!” Then Luo Binghe paused.
“What are you doing taking missions so close to Huan Hua in the first place?”
Shen Qinqgiu ignored him.
“What this master does with his own time is his own buisness.”
Okay.
Even so, Luo Binghe figured Madam Meiyan may help with Xin Mo, he can only spend so many b-points on suppressing it, but if it acted up in Huan Hua he may accidently trigger a papapa scene with one of the women and he didnt need that!
Why was it that no matter what mission and what he wanted to do, Shen Qingqiu was there!?
Always in trouble, always causing trouble, really playing the petty scum villain and being an overall pain in the neck!
Xin Mo kept telling Luo Binghe to just kill him and one of these days he may just listen to it!
-wife plot with SQQ
He had no idea why, Luo Binghe was on his way to another peak to investigate his mothers origins Meng Mo found a lead of a familair disciple who knew Binghes ‘mother’
Also the imposter syndrome he figured Origianal goods would lose face but this Luo Binghe was only looking into the plot, if his parents were alive he doubted they would be close,
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And this is where I lost steam and had no idea what to write next, that LBH/sy is ignoring sqq and focusing on himself but when the others in trouble he goes "Ah well its the scum villain who cares...but I have to ask questions I'm the protagonist, and I want to ask questions about this plothole and such-" accidently uncovers Sqq past and reveals it was self-defense.
Whoops?
Now SQQ wants Luo Binghe back at Cang Qiong NOT because he cares about the little beast- it looks bad on HIM as a Peak Lord that he has some unruly disciple avoiding his peak like he's some abused little maiden running away from her husband.
Shen Qingqiu would break his fan at the thought, that little brat loved it! Shen Qingqiu has never raised a hand to the beast in years!
Luo Binghe even claims he hates him, that he's a scum Shizun and never cared so why does Binghe go out of his way to save Shen Qingqiu? instead of washing his hands of him, it doesn't make sense....
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Yeah I do want SQQ and Binghe to be end game, like SY is fascinated by SQQ as a character and has more interest in him than the women of the harem.
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