#bringing it up again bc I’m still rewatching the show

[prehistoricmancunt]

everytime I’m watching wwdits and I’m like man nandor looks hot here I kick myself when I remember I dated his doppelgänger and I’m like how dare I be attracted to someone who looks like someone I dated who was not a good person I’m a fool

#bringing it up again bc I’m still rewatching the show #will stop when I’m done #text post #wwdits

[loveyourownsmiilee]

If I’m not mistaken (it’s a long interview and I could have missed something) he didn’t really say anything about where Buck and Tommy could be heading. He talk more about the mechanics of it all. Figuring out how they were gonna bring them together so a kiss was possible and making sure Oliver and Lou were on the same page beforehand. Not really anything about Buck’s feelings for Tommy or whether or not the relationship has any longevity.

The Buddie question on the other hand, he reiterated that he’s all for it if that’s the path they go down. He made a remark on their chemistry (before in the same interview also mentioned that while he was playing bi Buck in earlier seasons he’d acknowledge the chemistry he had with other male characters, but of course didn’t give any names then, lol). Then he gives us the hurdle that the writers would have to overcome to make sure bi representation respectful and avoid stereotypes. Now we already see in the show how the writers are trying to work through that.

Hello!! Yes I agree with you in terms of what he discussed when he was talking about Tommy. He was speaking openly about things we very much are aware of. Both in the interview with Zach and the interview that came out yesterday I’m not getting much of a longevity for their relationship. Maybe that’s just how I’m interpreting things. Bc again I just find it strange that Oliver himself isn’t really promoting this new relationship himself. He’s shared many articles and brought attention to his characters storyline but it seems to lack the Tommy portion of it. And him saying he hopes that Tommy sticks around as a friend and somewhat mentor was strange TO ME bc why wouldn’t he talk about hopes of them furthering their relationship to some extent? Idk I’m on the same page as you.

In terms of him already playing into it regardless of Tim mentioning something before this season, I’m sorry but who was he going to play into with??? He didn’t even know Lou was going to be on the show until Tim told him. So who on the show was he planning on leaning it into with? But also who in the show was he having chemistry with in prior seasons that if you went back and rewatched, you’d see bi Buck??? Hmmm the only logical answer to both of those questions is Eddie lol. He even confirmed that both he and Ryan have that chemistry and he knows it comes off across to everyone watching. So again, why would he be playing into that aspect of Buck when he didn’t even know a potential new love interest was being introduced??? And everyone else on the show is already paired off so like…he basically gave us an answer without really giving us an answer. And I’m still choosing to focus on how much the topic of Buddie is being brought up everywhere. In every interview and all the comments and even the official pages constantly posting Buddie. It’s all Buddie and if we’re meant to stop giving that ship any attention and really focus on him and Tommy, like why isn’t there more hype for it? And I’m speaking in terms of Oliver, Tim and stuff. I just idk, to me this all seems like it’s eventually being set up for Buddie and we’re obviously taking the slow route there but yeah lol.

#juju answers #chaosqueery #buddie #Oliver stark #tommy kinard #this is my thoughts and opinions #please don’t get upset if you don’t agree #I’m just answering how I think

[cantstoptheimagines]

Dating Them Would Include… 

Summary — Headcanons for Adora, Catra, and Perfuma from She-Ra & the Princesses of Power! 

Requests ➳ Anonymous — Hello. Can I request Adora (She-Ra) with sarcastic S/O? ➳ Anonymous — G’day. I recently found this blog and decided to make a request: Catra with S/O, who use razor boomerangs (S/O can both throw them and use as daggers) as a weapons. Could you, please, write it? P.S. Have a good day. ➳ Anonymous — Hi there. Mind if I request some headcanons of Perfuma dating pyromancer!S/O?

Warnings & Other Tags ➳ Fluff for Adora and Perfuma; a little toxicity for Catra because our baby needs therapy; I’m currently rewatching this show and realizing that I remember nothing from it.

Notes ➳ Word Count is 560. ➳ Reader is gender neutral (they/them). ➳ Multiple requests were combined for this work.

FAQ | Masterlist | Fandoms | Requests | Coming Soon | Schedule

adora

adora is literally feral sometimes

(all the time)

since she grew up in the horde, she has little to no social skills when you first meet her

so don’t even try making any sarcastic jokes or references to the rest of etheria because she will not understand lol

she eventually grows used to things outside of the horde and the two of you became fast friends

but then, one day, she watches you give a horde soldier a black eye

and there’s a little flutter in her stomach

she subtly brings it up to bow, who says she just had a case of butterflies, which was probably a mistake because she always takes things way too literally

so for a solid month, she’s convinced she has actual butterflies in her stomach that just won’t leave

eventually, though, they overwhelm her and she kisses you in the heat of battle

from then on, you’re a package deal

where you go, she goes

trails behind you like a lost puppy sometimes

soft adora fans rise!

catra

catra is hard to understand most of the time

one second, she’s solely focused on you

and the next, she’s on a rampage

sorry to say but a relationship with her would not be easy to maintain. it would take a lot of work on both sides

she’d need to control her impulsive temper and you’d need to have a very empathetic heart

once things settle down and she becomes friends with adora again, all that stress is lifted from her shoulders

she becomes kinder, more considerate, and softness envelopes her heart

even though you’ve told her a million times that her past mistakes are not a reflection of her current self, she continues trying to make up for them

but of course, this is catra we’re talking about

she often gives you new weapons, always opposed to more traditional items

your personal favorite being a twin set of razor-sharp daggers, which made your eyes glimmer with excitement upon opening them

she was proud of herself for that one

what she offers the most, however, is loyalty

she has betrayed and has been betrayed so many times that she swears to never do so again

she hopes you’ll do the same. because if you stick by her through thick and thin, she’ll eventually open up

all she needs is time

perfuma

super kind and very affectionate, even when you’re still “just friends” (side eye bc that doesn’t last long lol)

be prepared because you’ll constantly be smothered in affection by perfuma

if you have any elemental powers, like pyromancy, she’ll only love you more since that’s one more thing you both have in common

her love language is touch, no doubt, 100%

she’s constantly giving you warm hugs and squeezing your hand so tight that it goes numb

you can’t resist kissing her whenever she smiles at you with sparkling eyes and pink cheeks

always giving one another sweet compliments you greet each other

you can trust her no matter what. she’d never cause you pain and would be haunted by regret if she did

seriously, i don’t think she’d ever forgive herself

she’s just so loyal to the people she loves, especially you

you better like flowers because you’ll be getting fresh bouquets every day for the rest of your life

god i love her so much

#2024 #requested #dating them would include #she ra #she ra and the princesses of power #she ra x reader #she ra and the princesses of power x reader #she ra headcanon #she ra headcanons #she ra and the princesses of power headcanon #she ra and the princesses of power headcanons #adora x reader #catra x reader #perfuma x reader #adora headcanon #adora headcanons #catra headcanon #catra headcanons #perfuma headcanon #perfuma headcanons

[kymal]

on a rewatch it occurs to me that scanlan being the one to kill umbrasyl and fight his instinct to run away and in doing so, getting mythcarver back, is meant to sort of be a stand in for the city of brass when he awakens mythcarver fully

which makes sense bc again in the campaign scanlan earning his vestige wasn’t a full scale character arc like it was for the other members of the party. they went to the city of brass to get the plate of the dawn martyr for pike so i think animated series wise, they’ll try to focus those events fully on pike and thus scanlan’s character beat of awakening mythcarver by standing his ground and finishing the fight has to be placed elsewhere. it makes perfect sense then to slot it in here with the umbrasyl fight.

NOW I’M GOING TO TALK MAJOR SPOILERS FOR CAMPAIGN ONE SO LOOK AWAY IF YOU WANT TO EVENTUALLY BE TRAUMATIZED BY THE GNOME IN THE PUREST WAY POSSIBLE

this does still sort of leave me questioning if this wasn’t also meant to be a bard’s lament stand in if perhaps they don’t get the full 5 seasons i think sam mentioned wanting for the show. tonally, i think this works in favor to scanlan’s character provided we don’t get that big moment that is bard’s lament.

that said though, since i’ve studied that particular moment like one would a shakespeare play! still doing a bard’s lament beat after this would hit so good! play scanlan’s death during the raishan fight as everyone thinking he’s playing another joke on them at first. in the campaign it was played for laughs too! make the dawning horror on the party’s faces palpable as they realize that it’s not a joke this time! we still get our ‘fix him!’ we still get the rush the resurrect him bringing kaylie into the mix.

the sighs of relief when scanlan is still unconscious but breathing again! and it’s ok! scanlan’s ok! they can enjoy their victory! and hey now they can laugh and joke! it’s what scanlan would’ve wanted! and they’ve already alluded to how pike and percy did up his unconscious body with the whole kaylie thing so now just imagine how hard it’s gonna hit when he wakes up like that after dying and failing to be the hero he wanted to be for kaylie, huh? here he is right back in the position he started from.

i am thinking many thoughts. i am rotating the gnome in my mind. i am slipping the tlovm writers room $20.

#cr spoilers #tlovm spoilers #tlovm #scanlan shorthalt #tlovm meta #I hope this makes sense I’m typing this from mobile when i should be trying to sleep lmao

[coredrill]

perhaps my most insane collection of brvn thots yet

do we think lulu is from the moon. i think this for three reasons. one: when she told superbia she was going to ride him the moon was quite large and prominent in the shot. symbolism. two: when she got her fancy hairdo, she had two little buns that looked like moons. three: “lulu” could come from “luna” the same way it could come from the first syllable of smith’s name. why would she become spanish? don’t worry abt it. also if she’s from there then maybe the “final battle” which obari allegedly said would take place in an unexpected location will indeed be on the moon (pls dont ask for a source on this bc i don’t think i could find it again but it was one of the like. EARLY early interviews iirc. or it was just a rumor. this part of the post is a joke anyways LMAO). however this IS a super robot show so i feel like the moon in general is actually a more expected location for me than like. idk. cleveland

everyone pointing out the animation differences maybe indicating different timelines is so funny to me cause like. if it’s NOT intentional, the fans are putting together a list of fixes to make for the bluray on a silver platter LMAO. also god i hope we get a western bluray release, i honestly am considering getting the jp one if it somehow winds up w eng subs though just cause i know it’s such a long shot for CRUNCHYROLL of all motherfuckers to put one together 🥲 discotek ur our only hope………………

i keep thinking abt the like. pacing of the previous fight scenes being reused in ep9 in such a smart way…………like with smith/lulu v superbia - isami/bravern v cupiridas AND with smith/lulu v knuth - isami/bravern v pessimism/vanitas they kept doing the quick jumps between each of the two fights in a way that made it clear that isami and smith were in conversation even if they were doing completely different shit, and then bringing that completely to the forefront this ep while isami is asking smith why he died and at the same time smith is refusing to die bc of his promise with isami. BLEW MY FUCKIN MIND to see the pattern reused like that, i swear to GOD everyone talks about how fun and hype this show is but it’s so damn GOOD too 😭😭 and then after that the fuckin. symmetrical docking ass cut and then later the gattai which has been held off for SO long bc they are no longer separate conversations. JESUS

called my shots too early tho w smith not melting ppl’s minds in a kaworu manner where they convolute the story x1000 to try to make him seem straight 😭 congrats white boy, your days are numbered until ppl start saying you love isami like he’s your pet dog……….also in a related fashion the giant naked smith fanarts are taking me out LMAO

you can tell idk shit abt fuck when it comes to time travel fuckery cause i rly am just here like ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ atp LMAO, the serious theorizing is GONE. i trust the show to finish out in a satisfying manner and also in a way that my pea brain can understand and i’m rly looking forward to savouring these last 3 episodes :] and then rewatching the whole thing from the beginning once the remaining twists have been revealed and i Know :3 like not to get way too sentimental w 3 whole episodes left but we are so lucky to be following this story in real time you guys 😭 like i’m just gonna put the same post i made back after episode ONE here cause it’s true but times a million with what we’ve seen so far, truly this is such a special experience to have and i’m so glad this show waited until i got into mecha to get made so that i could like. Understand it yknow. anyways good for january 14 2024 version of me, you are so excited andyet still have NO idea the kind of treat you are in for 😭

“lewis” jumpscare tho omg. i forgot it took me like a week to figure out what the hell was goin on with all the characters first and last names LMAO. anyways everybody go look at sumiisa sekiha love love tenkyouken right now i am no longer asking

#a: bravern #bravern spoilers #t.bbbb #i think u can rly tell i wrote this at 3am in an airport LMAO

[andro-dino]

uwaaa how about some little tidbits with ezekial and luther.... like once ezekial pulls up and luther's life turns upside down how does he cope with it

OH ive been thinking about this too but how many aus do you have revolving around your ocs ??? im curious :3

SHEKEL. I AM LOOKING AT YOU WITH VERY BIG AUTISTIC EYES.

I’m going to answer the second question first bc it’s shorter I think. I actually don’t have like a ton of aus as a whole. Juno’s got the most variations though bc I’m insane about digivalen <3 For them I’ve got

- shogunswap (where juno stays part of the main gang)

- shogunswap (where Juno’s with DNA instead)

- mermaid au

And I could’ve sworn I had another one but I can’t remember it at the moment.

EDIT: I REMEMBERED!!! MANGA JUNO! Idk if that really counts as like an au au but manga compliant juno and anime compliant juno are very different so I count it. That also brings up manga Victoria as an au for her too, since anime compliant Victoria dies while Sakyo’s still young while manga Victoria’s still kicking 🫡

The other that immediately comes to mind is Ezekial and Luther au where Luther’s family is actually completely fine and normal and nothing goes wrong and everyone’s fine. That one’s uuuunrealistiiiic :]

When I was younger I was super into Undertale aus though and I had an underfell version of my main ocs at the time where they were all just edgy and mean and sad. fun times <3

OH YK I did just remember I do have mfb wakfu au from when I was rewatching wakfu. Juno was an eniripsa, Axyl’s an eliatrope, and then bc of that I have two different Wakfu Essi’s. Alone, I can definitely see her as an iop, but in wakfu lore, all eliatrope’s have a shapeshifting dragon sibling who come from the same egg as them, so that also opens the door for dragon essi (I actually have doodled eliatrope Axyl and dragon essi before I’ll have to find those when I get home.) For the other characters, feca kite and eight for sure, sacrier chao xin (I also have sacrier Chao Xin somewhere I will also be finding those later), and I never fully settled on a species for the garcias but ecaflips were the main option in my head.

Then for Ezekial and Luther. smile :)

Luther is a whole mess of emotions when Ezekial shows back up. When his goons essentially “capture” Ezekial while he’s snooping around, the bring him to Luther, who looks down on Ezekial very intensely and very coldly. Their entire first interaction there is completely cold on Luther’s end. Ezekial is ECSTATIC to finally see him again but Luther is really intent on keeping up his professional demeanor. At first, he’s willing to let Ezekial go unharmed and just leave it at that, but when Ezekial refuses to go, Luther tries to be a little bit more “convincing,” and in that moment is especially trying to emphasize (both to Ezekial and to himself) that he’s a different person that he once was and isn’t so merciful. Even then, Ezekial persists, and the more he pushes, the more Luther finds himself enraged for reasons he can’t quite understand. Luther has a reputation for usually being able to prevent his own hands from getting dirty, but he can’t help but shut Ezekial’s whole speech about how he knows that “his best friend is still in there somewhere” down with a firm kick to the gut from his own boot. This is not the last time something like this will happen, and it’s notable that Ezekial is the only person who’s ever been able to rile Luther up enough that other people see him lose his temper and put his hands on someone. It’s notable also that it’s not just rage behind Luther’s eyes, but a deep unsteadiness and what could be considered fear.

Luther from there on out decides to keep Ezekial “prisoner” basically, not necessarily because he wants him around but because he knows Ezekial can cause problems for him if left to his own devices and wants to keep an eye on him. That is how The Problems start and continue to develop into A Plot :]

There is actually one scenario I’ve thought A LOT about because it’s a really important scene for these two. Maybe the first night Ezekial is there, maybe not, but it’s still relatively early into them being reunited, Luther lets Ezekial into his room one night. Ezekial is there kind of awkwardly twiddling his thumbs while Luther showers ((((((IN A SEPERATE ROOM)))))) ((((((LUTHER HAS A BATHROOM ATTACHED TO HIS BEDROOM)))))) ((((((EZEKIAL IS AWKWARDLY SITTING AROUND IN LUTHER’S BEDROOM WHEN THIS HAPPENS))))), notably the most unsupervised Luther has left him at this point, and when Luther comes out, he still barely acknowledges Ezekial but instead walks past him onto the balcony. He leaves the door open, a silent invitation, as Ezekial follows him out and finds Luther lighting a cigarette, leaning against the railing. Ezekial stiffly copies the action and the two sit in a tense (well, tense for Ezekial at least) silence before Luther is the one to start the conversation and the two just. Talk. It’s the most vulnerable Luther has left himself in front of Ezekial and the closest thing Ezekial’s gotten to feeling like he’s connecting to the real Luther again. When this conversation is over, they’ll go back to how it was before, but it’ll stay in both of their minds, and it definitely won’t be the last of its kind despite that.

This is like, fairly old art that I don’t like anymore, but I did kinda draw out part of this scene.

#axel’s silly little thoughts #Ezekial and Luther #tw smoking #I am actively insane #kosuke got the short end of the wakfu au stick #I think I could see him as a xelor or a sacrier but I would have to look more into it #was writing about that scene and realized how weird it sounded without clarification of the architecture here #there’s other coping mechanisms that Luther probably turns to during that time but I cannot talk about that here

[ging333rgesus-v-uphurglingelwiwi]

I Don't Like how I Feel abt JJK S2

aka making sense of my very confused watch and thusly, my very confusing feelings

what i feel is JJK 2's biggest fault is a lack of a concrete voice, particularly in terms of tonal fluidity and character dynamics + characterization, which is what made JJK 1 so amazing to begin with. this really dampens the stakes, especially when, apart from mahito, the fight mechanics and raw physicality that JJK 1 & 0 so effortlessly captured seem to be absent. like yk you're fcking up when u have a shounen bro asking for less fight scenes.

i just feel as if, other than sotosugu, which geto is carrying on his hunching, scoliosis riddled back, i don't GET the dynamics. none of the characters made me care, they didn't connect with me beyond a superficial level, which is maybe a skill issue but ik its entirely possible when the show became #great-again and made me give 100% of a fawk about geto in TWO episodes. the tonal mastery on display there, the pacing, his sense of isolation, his deteriorating sense of self, its all conveyed so eloquently, like we are IN his head.

it also makes amanai's loss tangible, it gives us consequences and stakes and demonstrates the weight of that raw, human friendship. it nuances geto in a way i felt was absent in the other characters and thusly made them feel flat and insignificant. — having written more now, i think what stands out to me is how filed down the characters feel, like i just realized yuuji doesn’t feel RIGHT anymore, like i’m missing a sort of energy he used to bring to the table which made his softer moments feel more authentic yet pronounced, and i think that’s what’s plagued the new characters as well, a lack of concrete ENERGY.

long post!!

and jjk doesn't really do that sort of thing, its strength USED to lie in the compelling nature of its dynamics and character relations, but now that that's suffered under the transition of authorial voice, i think they've struck GOLD with the introspective storytelling method.

part of what made JJK 1 & 0 so great is it felt as if its light beats were ALSO in service of either narrative, plot or progression of the dynamics and we got to invest in and learn more abt the respective characters through every tonal beat we were taken through, what they got serious abt, what triggered them, how they relate to others. but with the first 3 or so episodes of JJK 2, which are very little in retrospect, but GLARING in an episode by episode watch approach, especially when contrasted again JJK 0, or JJK 1 (which, while cringe at first cause i watched downloaded eps and i used to have a shameful penchant for dub so obviously the cringe was threatening to disengage me, plus a few odd shots which had me like damn, amateur hour — which btw i STILL feel/felt that way abt s2. despite the animation being so amazing that upon teasers first dropping I was pretty much assured that it would be a sensory delight no matter what, but gorgeous moving pictures does not a good show make it seems. like you are NOT sam levinson my dudes, you don’t convey the sheer SPECTACLE that makes that approach work —, but that feeling was dispelled within an episode and I was just as hyped as i’ve always felt upon JJK rewatches), it has a timeless quality to it, its very sure in its direction and its characters and how they interlink. plus the fights are great and often used to convey smth abt the characters or their relationships.

while s2 has me like… ok so what happened in the first 3 episodes? everything felt like filler, everything felt inconsequential, everything felt shallow.

and that’s in NO part bc of the new (sort of) cast of characters, i gaf abt JJK 0, like yuta wasn’t bbg but i loved watching him form relationships with the other characters (especially inumaki, yuta x inumaki otp you heard it here first. like at first i didn’t GET inumaki but upon a rewatch i started to catch onto his linguistic patterns and how soft of a character he REALLY is, like inumaki is so baby 🥺, and the two connecting over being edgy soft boys had me SEATED.

especially when yuta got over his preconceptions abt inumaki borne of the fact that he doesn’t communicate conventionally, and he had thusly fashioned a personality FOR inumaki that stemmed from him being different. but it didn’t feel so extreme that i felt undercurrents of discrimination, poor boy is just traumatized and views ppl who are cold to him as antagonistic, so i get it, especially bc his reactions were more on the softer comedic side. but he then realizes that dude is just the nicest guy ever and not being able to speak doesn’t mean you’re a scary or odd person), and while his whole thing with rika was kind of saccharine and had fbi ON speed dial, i came to really appreciate HOW he cursed rika and how her love for him was so pure, like it felt universal and unrestrained by any label and that’s smth beautiful to me cause things could’ve gone ban from seven deadly sins REAL fast and they subverted that.

but i also don’t feel that its coincidence that i felt more engaged by preestablished characters and their dynamics (the main trio and their reintroduction into the story). they have a shorthand, a familiarity that gojosquad lacked, and i’ve come to realize as i write that that’s intrinsic to always being the highest in the room (wink wink), but if that’s the case then that needs to be tangibly demonstrated, give small tells that despite wanting or trying to, gojo lacks the capacity for intimate human bonds outside of one guy, he’s a product of jujutsu society, which will always distance him from conventionality and attachments. give it significance and intention within the story bc without it being written in, it makes the show feel tonally disjointed and unrefined.

give us personal moments between sugusoto, shorthands or glances or shifts in tone or whatever that capture the duration and depth of their bond, show us them caring abt each other in a way only two untouchable people can, how their eyes always find each other first, how even when with others gojo is always watching geto, like i need moments™ (it doesn’t have to be showboating and glamorized depictions of interactions ALL the time, the quiet moments matter too). like don’t get me wrong i FAWKED with the aquarium scene but i think its telling how long it took me to recall it bc it was ONE moment, yk. like i want to FEEL how despite the loss or uncertainty of those around them they always have each other. THAT’S what’s missing. meggy and yu to the uji had that with their sukuna fight and megumi pledging to protect those he cares abt, in fact meggy came in swinging bc you had a strong sense of who he was and that he cared from day 1. i need their priorities and drives established, i need to know WHO they are. like yes the: who are you and what do you want scene from JJK 0 was ham-fisted and made retrieving my eyeballs from where they’d lodged into the back of my skull quite difficult, but stuff like that is needed and CAN be done tactfully. like i feel this season is all abt subtlety and undercurrents so that when the sheer shitshow that is obviously going to burst forth comes about we’re #shook but its called balance, and its initially what made JJK so great.

and with 1/3rd of the characters i still feel have a strong presence (mahito, gojo, todo – u will ALWAYS be famous… and mei mei) allegedly, supposedly, apparently being taken out of the narrative which is TOTALLY something i am having a well-adjusted and normal reaction to, i am FINE! shut up shut up shut up HGRLSOPFHUJWVOBEFBUQUUI!!!?!? ARGGHHH! NBHQYIJHVQJH!!!!?!!! BANGS TABLE BITES WALLS SEETHES IN A VERY UNAFFECTED MANNER ROLLS AROUND THRASHING AND SWEATING fine i am, fine yes yes. FINE!

well, its made me very apprehensive abt how JJK could progress. bc while i think the reintroduction into modern day was done well, i also acknowledge the slippery slope of its shortcomings, and how eliminating such MAJOR players and flavors in the JJKverse can leave a void too wide to be filled. if they can’t keep up the character dynamics and characterizations they have now the show, to me, is doomed, plain and simple.

bc on one hand you have the great mechamaru mahito fight, which actually works MORE bc it wasn’t afraid to be a little camp and tropey and FUN, but then you have yuuji fighting that bug and its like ???? or the toji gojo fight where istg, no limbs touched, not one, no kicks, no weight, no fight mechanics, just hella blur and faith in the lord. like i should not have to wait until the end of the fight to see some IMPACT, some goɾe, some injury, some STAKES.

with the absolute feral levels i get at the intro song (their best one and one of the best i’ve seen in anime tbh, in terms of visuals, aesthetics, music, it just- it makes me SO VIOL3NT, I LOVE IT HBWEVFHWJEFWKF) i want to see these obvious pools of potential realized, i don’t want or even like JJK when its good, i like JJK bc at its core its GREAT, and if they play their cards right we could be looking at one of the best animes of, dare i say all time.

like the villains feel foreboding, they feel ALIVE, they carry weight and i want that for the mains too. so far i’m happy with their handling of the main trio, with the episode dedicated to yuuji’s old crush being genuinely emotional, paced proficiently and ACTUALLY funny, like i’m not saying that the first 3 eps weren’t funny in their own way, but it wasn’t GIVING jujutsu kaisen, at its inception it wasn’t giving JJK with the way the season felt more like a thriller at first, but it was done so well that i wasn’t mad at it, then the levity and relationships came in and were just so underwhelming man. it was literally like being hit by a train tbh.

anyway, i’ve belaboured the point, all i have to say before talking abt the fɑscist in the room is that i was PHYSICALLLY and PERSONALLY pained by the diminishment of the fight scenes. ooooo going from todo yuuji, yuta geto, sukuna megumi, even gojo v that black dude (sorry idk his name and also justice for him that sht was a hate crime fr fr) honestly all the fights in the tournament between the jujutsu schools, to what we got in s2, that hurt me and me specifically and it is only grace from some celestial force that has kept me from doing smth drastic and unethical in retaliation.

anyways, what i feel could’ve capitalized on JJK 2’s strengths from the get go is centring get o (wink wink) and creating more tonal contrast or whiplash / a sense of bubbling foreboding which erupts at the climax of the season half’s finale, it would make everything sm more pronounced and eerie and meaningful, just generally imbuing more nuance into their portrayal could’ve made it LEAGUES better but then geto would have lost all mobile functionality of his spine bc he would’ve crashed under the weight of the show long before he crashed under the weight of his own mind. bro CARRIED.

to the point where he’s such a caricature of a fashie character now and i STILL have immense love for him, he’s like lightside eren jeager — if voldy and eren had a baby it would be geto (and part of the reason why geto works where eren doesn’t is bc they make a point to villainize him and verbalize how fashie his rhetoric is, which HURTS bc i am black and hearing him call humans monkeys has me like i can’t keep defending my maga bf like this, why is my taste in men so flagellatory???!! STAND 👏🏿UP 👏🏿! — only those of a certain hue are allowed to laugh @ that joke i am in ur walls) and while i wished they nuanced him more and factored in how he cared abt amanai into his descent, i also appreciate that that intimacy i was talking abt prior popped up. geto became who he thought he was supposed to be to carry out smth so incongruous to his former ideology and identity, he feels like a caricature bc he IS a caricature, but once the mask slips the softness and purity of his core personality is revealed and its ONLY for gojo, like JEQFBJHBFJQEJ

i don’t even ship sugusoto (like that). they’re both just so great that by brute force i intellectually recognize the excellence of their dynamic, like it just doesn’t make SENSE to not give sugusoto their tens bc of how intertwined within each other they are. like sorry, did not give a singular FAWK abt them before (when i had no familiarity with their material/dynamic) and now they have me crying out of sheer respect no one’s doing it like them.

and what makes empathizing with a character like geto so natural, and produces such a well crafted character in general is his NUANCE, i feel like, similar to eren jeager, you can’t find him endearing or sympathetic in any capacity without first giving significance to, not only the nature of his moral decline, but the inherent complexities of his character. liking geto without acknowledging that he touts rɑce science and plans to genocıde ppl he sees as biologically inferior is a YIKES, you can’t ignore that shite without seeming like a member of a third subsect yourself idk, like its not insignificant, and woobifying an active fɑscıst is existential horror if i’ve ever seen it.

its why aot falls flat for many but JJK excels in that department, bc geto is condemned and for good reason, HOWEVER, i think there was a way we could’ve muddled even the lens through which he’s condemned / the immensity of empathy we feel for him, and that’s bringing amanai into his ideological realignment.

amanai was the source of his moral turn and it feels like a missed opportunity to not have her be more core to its after effects, like HER dyıng is what gets geto so why wouldn’t the weight of her legacy and the purity of her character weigh on him more. the star platinum followers were human yes, but so was amanai, and having geto hyperfocus on one part of the equation when the other is arguably just as significant is a HUGE missed opportunity to say the least. like given his new outlook how does geto FEEL abt someone like amanai now, has he condemned her, and if so, why didn’t we see that more explicitly? like i feel its pretty inevitable that he has, since he sights human weakness and the sacrifice of jujutsu sorcerers for humans as his point of contention, which stems from him being unable to exercise justice against the religious group, but ALSO parallels gojo seemingly dyıng for amanai, someone who put them all in harms way through her ineptitude and the [to geto in retrospect, ultimately] false debt they felt towards her. like at first he idolizes THAT aspect of human innocence but as he sees its consequences does it not make sense that his turn would come from explicitly writing off its source?

OR even more powerfully, being plagued by knowing that good humans exist but valuing people like gojo, who he sees as the real unprotected and collateral of society, more than he values amanai. like in canon he’s so tired of fighting for ppl who underappreciate and can manifest such heinous forms of evil but it would’ve been an elevation to add him being tired of fighting for a shred of goodness that ever since he’s only seen its dark side, he comes to realize is gone anyway, so WHY is he still fighting? the mental fracture that brings and his conveyance of guilt and buried pain could be SO good cause deep down geto could ultimately agree with gojo that human life is precious, but that he can’t stop himself from HATING that, resenting that he can’t see himself or anyone else around him as precious too.

like oooooh would’ve made him best character of all time i fear. like caricature geto serves a purpose, but ANGSTY geto, the ppl were NOT ready! but regardless, i am MORE than happy with the geto we got. More than. i cant even fully articulate the depths i feel geto has and what we could’ve gotten out of him, like bro is the gift that KEEPS ON giving!

anyways, that’s it from me i think. overall i think JJK needs to realize that what made s1 so iconic isn’t bombastic shots or glamorous aesthetics, its all these masterfully conveyed moving parts coming together to create smth better than the sum of its parts. it’s the nitty gritty of character dynamics and characterization and meaningful fights and the mundanities of friendship, it’s the quiet moments which make the big moments so loud! it’s the dialectical nature of the show.

i WANT to trust JJK S2 to stick the landing, the gold is THERE, they just need to dig. and if a hyperfixation of mine goes to shite, well we can all pretend it was a fever dream and continue reading metas on the manga or smth, idk 🤷🏿‍♂️ will continue biting my nails till the very end.

#jujutsu kaisen #jjk spoilers #writing criticism #jjk season 2 #jjk meta #geto meta #jjk 0 movie #shibuya incident #sugusato #geto suguru #gojo saturo #yuta okkotsu #yuji itadori #nobara #megumi fushiguro #long post #jjk gojo #gojo satoru #geto #jjk #jjk itadori #meta #gojo simp #satoru x suguru

[romantichomicide95]

hello :3 i was wondering whats ur least/ most fav aot arcs and plot twists?

i really liked the female titan arc. everyone i talk to abt aot HATES annie but i was lowkey rooting for her titan idk🤭

i would say anything after s3 is my least favourite arc bc i havent watched s4 or read the manga, so none of it makes sense to me.

one of the best plot twists i think was reiner killing marco and him having split personalities (?). when it was revealed i was so shocked it was so interesting i think. ALSO i love how ymir figured out that reiner was a traitor in the castles episodes bc she knew he could read the language on the food cans (pls correct me if im wrong haha) byeee <333

-🍰

Hello! Oof this is such a cool question thanks for asking.

I actually strongly dislike Annie, and still didn’t like her in the end but I think it’s fine that you do!

My favorite plot arc is probably S3 when the battle turns from Titans to people. Everything with Kenny and the MPs. Finally finding out answers to a lot of the questions the series has been building up. The battles with Kenny and his team. The animation of the use of ODM gear. (Hello the iconic “kennny” and Levis use of the gear is the most amazing thing I’ve ever seen). Everything was just perfect, and than afterwards when they finally head to the basement and we get the epic Beast Titan battle which is one of my top favorite scenes of the whole show. I obviously love Levi and we all knew up to that point how badass and strong he was but the Beast Titan at that point seemed like some big Titan leader and seeing Levi take him on with ease was just amazing. If I could watch anything again for the first time it would be that fight.

My least favorite arc is the beginning of season 4 because I didn’t and still couldn’t give a shit about any of the new characters from Marley except Reiner. Super unpopular opinion but it’s just how I feel. I won’t spoil it for you though.

My favorite plot twist was probably Reiner/Berthdolt being the armored and collosal titans! The way Reiner just casually tells Eren like in the background was just done so well for me. It was like a blink and you miss it and than all of sudden shit gets serious.

I also like the twist of the titans being former humans which at the time we learned of that was just so heavy. We thought of them as these mindless monsters so to know we’d been rooting against people who were turned without consent was heartbreaking.

Also another one of my favorite scenes is then making it to the ocean. It fills me with goosebumps and brings me to tears when I watch it. It’s like from the time they were kids Armin and Eren just wanted to see the ocean. Idk it’s fucking heartbreaking. Also when Eren says “If we kill all our enemies will we finally be free”(I’m paraphrasing I can’t remember the exact quote). That moment kills me every time. Especially on rewatch knowing that he knew what he was going to do!

Anyway sorry that was so long! I can talk about AOT all day. Thanks for the question anon! ❤️

#attack on titan #aot #levi aot #levi ackerman #aot fandom #shingeki no kyojin #anon asks #answered #snk

[minimoefoe]

Thirteen Era Rewatch: Revolution of the Daleks

I'm re-watching Thirteen's era in lead up to the Centenary and since this is likely going to be my last full re-watch for a while I thought I'd do a post on each ep where I just go over all the things I love, hate or just have some general thoughts on.

I literally skipped the first 8 minutes idgaf

I love that she talks to the other prisoners like ofc she does lmao

Obviously Ryan has never been as attached to 13 as Yaz but I wonder if part of why it’s easier for him to move on and get on with life even if probs especially at the beginning he did miss her is bc he’s had to deal with similar shit with his dad leaving him

Yaz literally living in the TARDIS and just her general obsessive vibe in the first scene she’s in is chef’s kiss actually

The fact this ep was low-key presented as being the fam figuring shit out while the Doctor is in prison but then that doesn’t even happen is weird to me like I don’t even care that they Don’t do all that themselves, it’s just weird that it was kinda implied in the marketing

When I first saw 13 and Jack reunite when the ep aired I literally started crying. And I cried again when they hugged. It doesn’t get me quite as fucked up now but I do still love it a lot. Bringing Jack back was a cool idea, shame John is a twat

There’s just something about 13’s face when they hug like she’s been away from people for so long and she’s generally not that touchy but this is Jack and UGH I’m fine

The whole scene of Jack and 13 in the TARDIS is cute tbh, I love their vibe together

Imo ‘rough few decades’ implies she spent at least 30 years but probably more like 40 years in prison

Yaz’s hope/desperation here is my fave

The way she just jumps out the TARDIS and exclaims she was in ‘space jail’ like it was a fun time fucks me up like the mask is back on right away

God bless the shove

This is so uncomfortable like I think Jack’s flirting is funny but Graham’s reaction is insane like he does not want to be there at all. I remember from this scene some ppl were like lol Graham is flustered like no bro Graham is fearing for his life. Weird choice idk

I know the main focus is on how Yaz is fucked up by the Doctor leaving but God you can tell it got to Ryan too, his whole vibe is different, like he feels annoyed/let down

I love the Rose reference, just casual as fuck. Part of me wishes we coulda seen 13 face’s when she was brought up but i imagine she probably wouldn’t have had much of a reaction

Jack and Yaz’s chat is chef’s kiss. The way I’m watching all this and she is literally leaving in a couple weeks oh I want to die. Also Mandip plays this so well !!

I love past companions giving current companions advice inject it into my veins!!

I remember when we saw the Dalek land on Yaz in the trailer I thought it was gonna be fr and 13 was gonna go off tryna save Yaz lmao

The entire scene with 13 and Ryan is God tier. One of my fave eps of the show. The growth from Ryan where he’s now the one making ppl open up, them both knowing shit has changed. I know Thasmin is a thing but low-key I’ve always liked the idea that Ryan is 13’s fave

I don’t know if it’s the intention or not but I wonder if the reason Ryan managed to get that info out of 13 is bc she kinda knew that he was gonna choose to leave anyway and knowing he wasn’t gonna stick around made it easier for her to tell him

I’m a fan of the height difference.

‘one day’ aka literally for four years in series 13 and then for ever in just under two irl weeks

I also love that that scene is Yaz kinda starting to get frustrated with the Doctor not telling her shit and then it continues into S13

This shot? This scene? Chef’s kiss

This is so odd like why did he need to announce that idek. Just feels like a trailer moment. Also I don’t feel too passionate about the fact Jack never died in this ep, like it would’ve been nice but like it’s not the end of the world idk

I don’t get why people care about 13 letting that TARDIS dies or whatever tbh

Robertson is way less annoying in this ep which is weird bc he still feels kinda comically ridiculous idk. But somehow it just works better than in Arachnids

The way she smiles when she comes out of the Ryan hug. Like she’s almost not letting herself be really upset in front of him

remember thinking Ryan and Graham just walking out would be kinda boring but UGH I love it so much and it makes so much sense for their characters to go that way it makes me crazy

Her face in this makes me fucking depressed idek what to say

Such a simple line and yet I am sobbing thank you Chris Chibnall

13 literally considering messing with the timelines to get Ryan and Graham back fucks me up. Also the way Yaz response and the way she says ‘It’s okay to be sad’ is my fave

Ryan and Graham wearing the same outfits as in 11.01 is a bit cringe I can’t lie. I also used to think Grace showing up was really weird but idk, I didn’t mind it this time round

In conclusion, other than the first 8 minutes being an absolute slog that I couldn’t care less about, this ep is chef’s kiss and has so many 10/10 amazing moments. Loved it more than i thought I did tbh

#doctor who #thirteenth doctor #yasmin khan #ryan sinclair #graham o'brien #dw meta #nataliechats

[septembersghost]

Hi! I wanted to ask you about your thoughts on “who poisoned Brock” discussion. I’ve spent hours pondering about this and still am unable to arrive to any definite conclusion. I don’t believe, or I don’t want to believe, that Jimmy could ever do such a thing. Knowing him, it sounds like nonsense, partly because I believe that, despite everything, there was a smidge of his core kindness and humanity left in ‘Saul Goodman’ persona, and also because the last episodes of BCS confirmed there are still lines Jimmy wouldn’t cross (he didn’t hit the terminally ill man with his dog’s ashes jar, he didn’t strangle Marion with a telephone cord). The moment Marion whispers “I trusted you”, he looks ashamed and backs away, with a clear look of “what have I done” on his face. This is not a man who can poison an innocent child who likes him and trusts him. Also him doing that would render the ending of BCS kinda pointless, because what would be the point of Nippy, Waterworks, Saul Gone if Jimmy was already so bad and rotten he almost killed a child? There would be no reason to show just how far he’s fallen from grace in Waterworks and no point to his confession in Saul Gone either. So, no, Jimmy, ‘our best friend pathetic little meow meow wet can of a man’ Jimmy didn’t do it. But who? It was Walter White’s bidding, of course, he poisoned Brock, but I can’t see him doing it himself because it’s somehow… physically impossible? The first time Andrea and Brock met him was in Jesse’s house after Gus Fring’s death, they didn’t know him or ever spoke to him before that. Did he just sneak into their garden, all ninja-like, put lily of the valley berries there and hid behind the bush, waiting until Brock eats them? Did he have someone deliver them anonymously – if yes, who? Would Andrea just let her kid eat some strange berries that came from who knows where? Or maybe he did meet Brock but without Andrea around – maybe followed Brock to his school like some creep and gave him the berries at the schoolyard? I don’t know which of these versions is creepier or more unsettling. (pt 1)

(pt 2) Also I was listening to a BCS podcast yesterday covering Uno and Mijo episodes (not Insider, though I listen to that too and enjoy it immensely). It was said that Saul Goodman, as he was in Breaking Bad, would just walk away and leave the twins to die in the desert. I also wanted to know your thoughts on this because I… don’t necessarily agree with this take? It’s obvious that Jimmy ends up doing horrible things and during his Saul Goodman era he’s as morally depraved as ever (except Gene Takovic and his “serial killer” vibes behavior with both the cancer man and  Marion), and he’s perfectly okay to suggest killing Jesse and Combo and there are all his ‘lovely’ Belize references (genuinely, Jimmy, what the fuck), and he’s also A-okay visiting a recovering heroin addict who just lost his girlfriend and suggesting the said addict started making some meth, or came into contact with his abuser so he would start making meth, because money (again, Jimmy, what the fuck). It’s very deplorable. But I also remember him not giving away Jesse’s location to Mike, even though Mike threatened him, even though Jimmy knew Mike was dangerous and he was working for dangerous people. He was putting himself in a dangerous situation to protect Jesse, after all, even though I fully expected him to betray Jesse the first time I was watching and he surprised me. I think that Jimmy gives off this impression of being sleazy, unreliable, treacherous, but there is some humanity left in him, just a little? Maybe if he was put into the same situation with the twins as ‘Saul Goodman’ he would still try to save them? I feel like I really should rewatch Breaking Bad but can’t bring myself to do it.  I think of his Saul Goodman persona there and I just want to cry. Jimmy, what have you become, Jimmy. You’re killing me. I’m sorry for a long rant! As always, it’s very interesting to me to hear your thoughts on this.

the situation with brock's poisoning has always been a bit ambiguous and confusing - as is lydia's poisoning with the ricin - and one of those moments where we have to stretch credulity and believe walt was capable of doing these things unnoticed, because i believe (iirc, it's been a LONG time since i listened to interviews about brba, so if anyone has a clearer picture of this, please chime in!) bryan always stated that walt carried those things off himself. walt somehow got the lily of the valley into something brock ate, school is the most likely option, we just don't know WHEN because we don't see it. it's doubtful he'd entrust anyone else with that mission given how sensitive and heinous it is, and how he NEEDS jesse to believe it was gus. and walt sneaks the ricin into the stevia packet and reseals it, which we also don't see. my personal take - even before getting to know jimmy as well as we do - was saul (and huell by extension) didn't know what walt was planning (walt doesn't trust them or find them entirely competent anyway), what they DO is steal the ricin back from jesse's cigarette pack without knowing the reason. but when saul says he didn't know the kid was going to end up in the hospital, i just don't think he had any cognizance that brock would be poisoned at all, because i still do think there are lines he would've drawn. that plan is so maniacal, it has to be purely walt in my mind to make sense.

i can't remember if i mentioned this before (i feel like i did?), but i saw someone on twitter say that their difficulties with S6B were not saul becoming gene, but rather jimmy becoming the final iteration of saul, because they couldn't bridge some of those characterization gaps, and i...apologize for saying this, but i agree. i don't think they ever logically showed us how jimmy, who watched howard die in front of him, who lost kim because of that tragedy, could be okay with casual murder in any circumstance. trauma isn't enough for me to explain that. descending into the greedy, ostentatious depravity of the saul persona isn't enough to explain it either, it's a very big leap from him being concerned about things going too far or people being killed (see: his worry about domingo) to casually mentioning shankings. personally i feel like they fell so in love with jimmy that they never wanted him to get to dark enough of a place, and we did too, but it makes that a bit jarring. but even at his worst, like you said, he doesn't hit the guy over the head (that was super horrifying for me, a person who has her beloved dog's ashes...), he doesn't harm marion and does come to his senses as soon as she says she trusted him. it's a LOW bar at that point, but there is still humanity in him. i honestly don't believe saul would've stood there and watched two hapless but innocent guys get murdered in the desert - and even out of self-preservation, because once they're dead, what's to stop you from getting knocked off too? i don't feel he'd ever have actually been okay with murder committed in front of him. he's visibly shaken about mike. he DOES make that choice to protect jesse.

I think that Jimmy gives off this impression of being sleazy, unreliable, treacherous, but there is some humanity left in him, just a little? so much is a facade and him trying to perpetuate it, but there definitely is humanity in him and we do see that come to the surface on occasion. furthermore, if he DIDN'T have that, he would never have done what he did at the end, and would've taken the easier way. much as i struggle with some of how that was presented, the point remains that he reclaimed his name, his humanity, and his love by doing that and by telling the truth. someone devoid of those things wouldn't bother.

i agree that rewatching (either show) will be very difficult now because that tragedy is far more palpable than it even was before. i'm glad i've seen them both several times through, because i'm not sure when i'll have the emotional fortitude to go back. they're so exquisitely done and i'm very grateful for them, but it is undeniably a heavy toll on the heart.

#idk if this answers your question well enough but i always appreciate your thoughts #snowstormserenade #letterbox #better call saul #jimmy mcgill #saul goodman #breaking bad #sorry yet again for tag invasion i'd space them out so they only showed up on my blog if the system still worked that way sdklfdlkjg

[colnerys]

lemme throw a tldr here — it’s just me ranting abt how much i hate dick berman and what he did to kira. also in terms of this blog i will have the divergences to stay more faithful to what nana visitor wanted vs what’s actually portrayed. anyways.

okay, i know i’ve been complaining about this a lot lately but in my defense, i’m also actively rewatching ds/9. full disclosure: i love w.or.f a lot. i relate deeply to his narrative of not feeling quite klingon and not fitting in with humans (the diaspora allegory hits y’all) but i really hate how he was introduced in ds9 as a way to directly undermine kira’s authority, and narratively, you can see him beginning to replace her in the place of the friend group. 

starting s4, you really start to see kira hanging out with dax, julian, and even miles waaaay less than she did in the previous season. instead, she’s replaced by w0rf most of the time —— as if they can’t have more than one “outsider” trying to integrate in the group. to top that off, he’s given the position of being defiant’s executive officer even though kira was the XO since the defiant was brought onto the show. in fact, it’s not even given much thought to it. you don’t see sisko talking to kira about the transition, you don’t see kira’s reaction to it. no, he’s just given that position despite the fact that kira has more experience with the ship, that kira knows the kinks of the defiant, and that kira has the most professional synergy with the engineering team (at least, at that point in canon). 

this makes me think about how nana visitor had anxieties and reservations about bringing w0rf onto ds9 because she didn’t want him to replace kira. w0rf was brought onto ds9 to bring up ratings, and it’s very obvious in retrospect too when we think about how worf’s life on ds9 is never brought up again after the show ended. 

on top of all that, they “physically” softened kira up. this is something we know happened because it was to please the men viewing the show, and the women who’re so into policing other women for not being “feminine” enough. not only do they change her uniform drastically — it’s just her’s too! other bajoran militia members still have their utilitarian uniforms! they have shoulder pads, belts, realistic boots for people who work on their feet all day whilst kira’s wearing fucking booties with heels all because nana visitor “walked like john wayne” 

paying close attention, i see them pushing kira away from her friends and pushing her more towards o/do as if to subtly set them up for a romance plot. to top that off, she has more notable interactions with fucking DUKAT than she does with dax, who we’re supposed to believe is her best friend. the same DAX who provided her with a sounding board of reason (ie. look at “duet - 1x18″). this is also the season where dukat begins to SHAMELESSLY and RELENTLESSLY hit on her, harass her even more than he already does. oh and the cherry on top? she’s paired with shakaar, who was most definitely a grown ass adult man that met her when nerys was a literal child. the obvious inclination of pairing kira with all these men who are significantly older than her starting this season is, as we know, a common and incredibly misogynistic hollywood trope. 

the producer, executive, writer who we shall not name being the main driving force of why kira was changed the way she was makes it hard to ignore the misogyny that drove this change. it’s not what nana wanted, but it was something she had to compromise on because she loved kira. still, i cannot help but to think about the amount of gross storylines that kira’s been thrown into / almost thrown into (ie. romance with .... du....kat)

whilst nana absolutely killed it at kira and did all she could to protect the integrity of her character, she was 100% a victim of 90′s misogyny and in some ways, even homophobia (bc never forget nana and terry wanted kiradax canon :)) 

#* 𝐏𝐎𝐒𝐓 : ooc #ask to tag / #UHHH yeah we have bick derman here

[carltonlassie]

I've been tagged by @youandthemountains and I'm using this as an opportunity to brain dump gjfhdhs you will suffer my posts boy

last song: The Avalanches - Because I'm Me

last show: better call saul

currently watching: i'm in the middle of so many shows.. bcs for one, then there's black sails, russian doll, killing eve s4 (which idk if i should continue watching =.=), what we do in the shadows, attorney woo, rewatch of elementary LOL they're all slowly getting watched whenever i feel like i need something new....... all of the shows i listed in the beginning need so much commitment to fully enjoy them so it takes forever for me to start watching again, but then when i start watching i can't stop. and when i do stop i don't pick up for a while gjhdfhgd

currently reading: I'm still making my way through house of leaves shfhgfhg i was reading it and then the entire month of july happened, so. yeah. i haven't picked that one up again yet. Though I'm reading an e-book of Mohōhan (模倣犯, The Copycat) by Miyuki Miyabe. It was a book popular among my friends in middle school (maybe just that one friend LOL idk), and I saw a copy of it in korea when i visited a used book store! I thought about buying it but there was no way i can bring it back with my single backpack so I bought an e-book and started reading it and it's. it's good so far. Idk if I like japanese novels or i just like reading novels in korean -- that part is unknown but I wanna try to get more contemporary korean novels after this! Oh. yeah. the book is about girls going missing & this guy who went through his entire family getting massacred finding the body part of one of the missing girls... and the story goes from there. it's a murder mystery so far. but also it's not a story dealing with a mystery so great and complex, but more with the psychological state of the victim's families, the boy's, the society's reactions, etc. etc. not sure why it's called The Copycat, but there are two more volumes of this to go through and i'm only on the first one >_<

current obessions: obsessed with home improvement/decor atm LOL bc i'm at a new apartment. The post about getting a microwave/air fryer/oven combo...... I'm still on that lmaoooo. I also just finished covering up the fuse box?circuit breaker thingie? the grey ugly box on the wall with a mushroom tapestry and i feel immense satisfaction. I think i need to get a lamp that looks like a mushroom and complete my mushroom shrine in this area tbh. If I can't find one I'll make one idgaf

I knew the previous tenants and they left us a lot of furniture, but they're either busted or just WAY too dark and heavy and it making the place look so much smaller/darker.. so I might get a new coffee table and a cover for the couch bc DARK BROWN couches make it look so depressing 😭 currently it's covered with flat sheets lmaooo but it doesn't stay in place so I'll prob get a cover sometime soon. I need to get more lighting fixtures for the place as well bc the lights on the ceiling are so strangely placed + ALL of them are different in temperatures and it's driving me slightly crazy. But all of this needs to happen without going over budget so I'll prob check out a thrift/antique store I saw downtown

Currently playing (this was not in the original list of questions but I'm adding it anyways): Stray! I finally figured out how to play games on my TV yifjdhf did u know u can stream whatever's going on on your laptop to the TV without any cables involved????? I didn't know either but I figured it out yesterday and played some of the kitty catty game. I thought I'd be bad at it bc games in first person/games where I have to react fast and press multiple buttons are so hard lmfao but Legend of Zelda has been building my game confidence and playing Stray last night was a p enjoyable activity.

What's goin on in your world @birdkeeperklink @lassiesspanishaccent @zaxal @goobzoop @avatoh @figsandfandoms @deputychairman!! + Anyone else wants to inflict posts upon others

#tagged #obvs do it only if u wanna

[not-close-to-straight]

so i've accidentally reread LAL and SSS because i was doing research on kiss scenes (again) and it's been so long since i've actually read them (i don't think i've actually read them since they ended???) but my heart???????? my fucking HEART????????

gods, the flash flood still sends chills down my spine, and so does the fire. knowing what's coming doesn't change that in the least. i so badly wish i had the ability to make gifs and/or videos bc i know exactly what the CMT "next time on: Lassos and Lilies" post-episode thingies would look like and i can't share them and it's a damn shame 😭 the drama, the music, the beautifully cut together scenes...

also SSS still holds my entire fucking heart. GODS its so fucking cute, i need more sugar daddy steve because holee SHIT is it the cutest thing in the world. i love that little world you created. yu talk about such heavy things in the best kind of way, and it's the same characters as always, but i fall in love with them all over again and it's just 😭😭😭 ALSO, also this is my favorite version of clint. i love Fair Game clint, he's perfect and adorable, but SSS clint is just somethin else. you got the humor so perfectly right in this story, balanced perfectly with the shitty reality, it's one of my favorites and i'd forgotten it until just now.

OH and another also before i go: something i'm trying to do with my own story right now is showing/saying "i love you" before they actually say "i love you" and that's another reason i'm doing my research with your writing because gods DAMN you do that so well. you can FEEL how much they love each other before they ever even utter the words, that by the time they do, it just makes sense. it's a "well duh" kinda moment.

okay, i'm done gushing now. i've not had a lot of time to read lately between work and my own projects, but i just wanted you to know that i love everything you do, and that i'm using your writing for research purposes for my own stories because you write romance to a level i aspire to 💖 i hope you have a lovely day!!

You “accidentally reread” almost 400k worth of fic for research?

That’s what I saw when I rewatch Thor Ragnarok for the “plot” 😂

Anyway!

The flash flood and fire scenes in LAL are so intense. I worked so hard on them to bring up those like, classic western/adventure film feelings and vibes while also making it gut punch emotionally brutal for my readers. When I set out to write LAL I thought “we’re gonna hit every western trope including flood fire cattle drives a hanging a rich landowner and a whorehouse— all of it” and by god did I try to deliver on it!

And SSS- I’m not saying this lightly, I think SSS might be one of the best stories I’ve ever written. I’m honestly so proud of it. Of Stonys individual journeys, of their dating and falling in love, Tony’s issues and the way Steve is an actual knight in shining armor, BuckyNat with their own story and dynamics, Omega!Clint and how previously AWFUL he is 😂 I think especially with the pandemic SSS hit so hard on so many levels for us, with the money struggles and the loneliness and the fear and anxiety and inevitable relief… plus baby!peter just stole every single scene he showed up and that was excellent.

Doing your research in my writing is just— you have no idea how cool it is to think my writing helps someone else’s writing?? Especially since 9/10 times I’m pretty sure I have no idea what I’m doing 😂 100/100 top tier compliment, THANK YOU

I DO feel like In any media if we get to the “I love you” confession and we’re surprised/not thrilled by it, then it’s not a good story. Unless it’s an out of the blue strangers to lovers unrequited love situation, the actual love confession should feel like a “oh of course they do” moment and not in a boring sort of “saw that coming” way but in a “I can breathe again” sort of moment?

And I try really hard to SHOW it all in my fics, especially the Omegaverse or soulmate trope cos sometimes the actual love story can get rushed through as a result of the mate bond/fated lover dynamic and that’s not why we read romance! We don’t want to rush through to the love confession we want to see it in all these thousand different ways that makes those three words the most important but also sort of the most irrelevant words in the book. We don’t need to read/see/hear them, we already KNOW and when “I love you” can be honestly answered with a joyful “I know”— I mean, is there anything better than that??

[sapphograce]

healing

Idk how to slow down or calm down

I’ve been in therapy for idk how many months now but at least 18 and I’m still not at all sure how to relax or destress

So far what has worked best is journaling (which I hate bc I think much faster than I can write and I think everything I write is cringe this blog is my exposure therapy in a way double therapy) AND age regression

Idk if I’m using that term(?) right but basically what I’ve actually been calling it in my life is kid time “but the way an adult would do it”

So basically that means I engage in activities I wouldve liked as a middle schooler (such as drawing, watching kid shows, painting, gaming, dressing up, other interests stereotypically enjoyed by children) and I enjoy them in an age-appropriate manner

like I’ve been rewatching my little pony or I started bluey and I watch it while I color in an adult coloring book with my favorite colors and tools

So like yes kind of a childish activity but I’m doing it the way a 25 year old can enjoy it, and I do

My friends and I even have a craft night we do every week and I kind of see it as a play date like we all bring a dinner item and a craft and it feels like the good ol days again when we were kids at daycare

#inner child #my post #the way an adult would do it

[wgstrs]

Apple recently announced a new journaling app that is coming out with iOS 17…. what a way to change things up when i just decided to give this a go huh?

haven’t gotten much proper sleep lately but i do know why, i’m in my head once again. it’s time to go back soon and i’ll miss everyone — especially oscar. that being said, i’m still so excited to go back…. i like doing the things i used to always do, especially alone ; but who knows? maybe i won’t be so alone this time around… she is really cute after all ☺️

i did go out of my way and got myself a budget 35mm film camera… i want to capture some nostalgic moments & memories while aiming to start a new hobby. learning all about it is generally pretty exciting. the type of film camera it is, how well it operates on different types of films, finding out places to process it & thinking of what to capture with it are some of the thoughts & actions i’ve been going through as of late.

that aside, lately i’ve been reminiscing my teenage days. mainly because i’m rewatching horimiya once more and the setting of the show reminds me of my high school years. i remember the first true thought i had when i started watching the series ‘if only things were so easy’ & it was also really wholesome so it got into my feels. a simple slice of life anime that hits you in the kokoro. doesn’t help too when you’re going through post breakup traumas. it’s not that bad but i was such a lost child 😅.

which brings me to my thought of what happened? we recently caught up just after my surgery, i’m happy for her and how she’s doing but after catching up it seemed that she blocked and unblocked me…. maybe it’s bc of my then ex girlfriend at that time or is it because she felt bad for what i was going through? i guess i’ll never know as i’m always left in this position of afterthought.

these wholesome anime’s always makes you feel the emptiness you have when you’re not doing life with that someone, but my experiences haven’t been the greatest too yet i’m still here…. — hoping? at times like these i do get jealous, i do wanna go through the motions of life with someone but i truly think it takes time… & most definitely some level of luck. but for now, i’m very contented with what & who i have with me. thank you to everyone that still fucks with me & y’all know who you are 💗. i’m more than blessed to be in this situation right now. i guess the saying always goes though right? ‘we always want what we don’t have’

at the end of the day, some things are better off not knowing where else some times it would be great if i knew some things. thanks for taking your time to read my unspoken thoughts, if you’re reading this i hope that you have a wonderful day ahead of you 😇🫶🏻.

#journaling #late night thoughts #horimiya #reminiscing #love

[chryzure-archive]

ALSO I just started watching SPN (I KNOW, 17 years after it came out,,, skdjdjfj) and I am OBSESSED. I am looking so disrespectfully at both Winchester brothers. But I wanna know, do you have any AUs with Chrysi and Jacks where they just drive around hunting down ghouls and demons and creatures… what is the worst one they faced. What is a time where one had to save the other (or better yet: one DIED or got possessed or turned ….). What hijinks do they get up to (supernatural and otherwise) - Kai

STOPPPPP, WAIT, NO, SUPERNATURAL DID LASTING DAMAGE TO MY PSYCHE BACK WHEN I WATCHED IT IN MIDDLE SCHOOL <///3 I ALWAYS HAVE A SPN AU FOR MY SHIPS BC MONSTER OF THE WEEK FORMAT IS MY FAV <//3 also……. listen, listen ……. both winchester brothers are attractive for WHAT. 

so generally, in my spn-specific au, it’s more of chrysi going on a hunt and jacks is in the same town, seeing her at a café (bc chrysi frequents cafés more often than bars… she does NOT like alcohol) like “………………hi. again.” and chrysi’s like “why the FUCK is it always YOU” 

they have a weird relationship where jacks is always dragged into helping her on hunts, until one day he wakes up and realizes that he’s literally been on a road trip with chrysi for over a month. he didn’t stop to consider leaving to do his own thing. now he’s permanently along for the ride. alTHOUGH, he sure wants to leave sometimes, with the way chrysi will always use him as bait 

((of course, i like imagining chrysi and azure going on hunts together as a couple, until azure realizes his bad luck is beginning to affect chrysi and he doesn’t want to cause her doom, so. off he fucks to go figure out a way to stop his bad luck, but he doesn’t fucking tell her. he gets back and chrysi and jacks are dating and he’s like “are you SERIOUS” ….tho, to be fair, he IS also going through other shit to warrant not telling chrysi any information. still. it hurts her.))

worst one they faced…. oohhh, that’s definitely gotta be sephera? like, how do you fight the being that’s inside your girlfriend’s blood? and you know it’s bad when previous villains are trying to help you stop sephera awakening (literally am in love with eris cursing the ever loving shit out of jacks, then turning around and being like “soooo, you like chrysi? interesting! she’s going to die if you don’t accept my help :>” great….. also, can i jst say that i adore when villains end up teaming up with the heroes bc of aligning interests? OUGH.)

generally, curses are annoying for both chrysi and jacks to deal with as well, but i think the hardest one for them to deal with then was jacks being hit with a love curse and being all over chrysi. she’s like “so normally he’s obsessed w me, but this is… a lot more annoying than usual.” also an eris curse. eris is defs the recurring villain :3 listen, it’s jst convenient for her to try and get her hands on chrysi since chrysi can bring desdemona back. (chrysi and jacks thought that desdemona would b the big bad villain, but NO. ANCIENT BEING IN THE BLOOD INSTEAD. WHOOPS.)

((also, side note: i have no clue how clear i’m being rn sldkjflskdjfsdlkjf. i jst get rlly excited talking abt this sort of thing bc i have sooooo many fic ideas i could be working on w this monster of the week format. i should rewatch some eps of supernatural, bc tbh… that show is rlly rlly fun))

chrysi has to save jacks every week. he has no clue why he’s always the damsel in distress, since he normally creates damsels in distress. chrysi says it’s because the monsters must seem to think it’s hilarious—but i would love it if there were, like, a mid-season finale that reveals that being chrysi’s partner genuinely has a sort of curse where you constantly become the damsel in distress as a result. actually… there is a canonical reason, and it has to do w sephera 🤐 bc sephera is trying to take over chrysi, but the faetelle gets triggered badly whenever chrysi’s cursed, which then puts sephera deeper to sleep—so she essentially transfers all curses over to whoever is closest (emotionally) to chrysi (within a certain range of influence, of course). this doesn’t always work, which is why chrysi is sometimes in danger, but YES, HER MEN ALL ARE DAMSELS IN DISTRESS FOR ACTUAL PLOT REASONS. 

anyway, a specific time that chrysi saved jacks that makes me go fucking FERAL is when he was cursed into an unnatural sleep and kidnapped by someone. so not only did she have to chase him down, but she also had to kiss him to bring him back…. true love’s kiss and everything. this is before they realized they loved each other, so chrysi’s going through the five stages of grief when jacks wakes up (like, yes, some part of her is happy he loves her back, but a larger part of herself is horrified that she loves him in the first place). then she has to drag a still-delirious jacks out of a monster’s den—bc jacks takes foreverrrrrrr to wake up. and he still passes out as soon as they’re out of danger. chrysi’s like “are you serious???? you were just sleeping from a curse—aren’t you ready to be awake now?????????????” no. he is not. let him get his beauty sleep, chrysi. he has to compete with azure—this is the only way he can get an edge on him.

i’m also fond of jacks being trapped in a card again, but that’s jst a general thing i like :) that one’s eris’s fault. she thought he’d be a nice addition to her art collection, and she’d be objectively right. unfortunately, she has to deal w chrysi’s outrage at the same time, so. perhaps not a great decision in that situation. 

OKAY, JACKS HAS TO SAVE CHRYSI FROM HERSELF. like, she’s not… possessed, per se, but she’s defs not normal??? like, she’s cursed and she no longer has any emotions (like s6 sam, i believe??? i might b getting my seasons wrong, since i stopped watching after 7), so jacks is desperately trying to get her to love him again. OKAY, so, actually—it’s not that she doesn’t have emotions, but they’re severely dulled, save for frivolity and cruelty. she doesn’t exactly remember jacks (nor azure, who is also there, bc once he found out jacks was chrysi’s new partner, he made jacks swear that he’d keep chrysi safe—complete w a magic oath—and, uhh, azure could tell the moment the oath was broken + he showed up to fix things. it did not work.), so there’s fun emotional scenes of him begging at her feet to remember him (and kiss him 👁👁 after all, true love’s kiss can break the spell), but chrysi’s too preoccupied thinking about how lovely he’d look broken and bleeding on the floor <33 clearly, elias bloom cursed her to be like this—bc he wanted to have her be his. it didn’t exactly work, as jacks and azure later find him chained up in his room and bleeding. they both decide to leave him there to sweat it out. it’s very funny.

((although it’s not very funny when the curse is broken and chrysi sees azure and gets emotional. jacks doesn’t like the reminder that they’re soulmates, despite the fact that azure chose to leave chrysi))

also saving chrysi from being possessed by sephera, but that’s some fucking WORK. it stresses jacks out so much. he’s so scared chrysi’s been burned right out of her own body and he’s looking for any scrap of her in those pale gold eyes. he doesn’t think he can see her—but she can see him, and she’s too weak to try and claw her way out :(((

GOD, as for hijinks… chrysi’s likely to drive away from the motel before jacks wakes up, so he has to despondently call simeon to drive over and pick him up ( “of course. where are you?” “wyoming.” “WHY ARE YOU IN WYOMING, THAT’S A DAY AND A HALF DRIVE” ). then his gf comes back w a new bag of apples like “???? you thought i’d actually left you??” “YOU DIDN’T LEAVE A NOTE” “it’s literally on your nightstand?” “oh.”

to be fair, chrysi did leave him behind a lot when they first started out together. in her defense, though, i think she forgot she was traveling with another person. sometimes. sorta. jacks is traumatized.

also, whenever they have to go into a high-end establishment, jacks is like “yes. it’s my time.” and puts chrysi in the prettiest dress known to mankind….. except she can’t fucking fight in it, idiot. he’s like “that’s alright, i can fight 🥰” “i MEANT monsters” “oh.” my dude’s thinking about other matters entirely. 

i want to include a little karaoke scene as well, primarily bc i think it would b funny if chrysi and jacks agreed to sing only if they got to choose what the other would sing. jacks chooses “touch-a, touch-a, touch me” from rocky horror picture show (when chrysi sees the lyrics, she turns to him with murder in her eyes) and chrysi chooses “barbie girl” by aqua. he is displeased. 

i can’t think of anything else, but i guarantee you, i’ll be thinking of the typical fun magical episodes that are mostly there as a breath of fresh air (like azure being on a hunt w them and it’s real awkward… and it gets even more awkward when azure and jacks are hit w a spell that swaps their bodies) BUT I’M THINKING ABT THIS VERY INTENSELY RN. VERY, VERY INTENSELY. 

(if you’re ever interested in another “monster of the week” sort of au, but more based in a sleepy beach town in the north where jacks and chrysi have a relationship that culminates in him being stuck in a card, then getting out and pretending he no longer can love + he doesn’t remember chrysi… hmu. it’s based on the show “haven” and that show also did permanent damage to me in my middle school years) 

#.asks #s.chrysijacks #s.chryzure #m.kai💛 #you’re awakening something in me again kai. i hope ur ready for the fallout sldkjfalskdjflkdj