#eating together is a sense of love and friendship and affection that is hard to parallel in any other way

[theostrophywife]

green with envy.

pairing: theodore nott x reader.

request: omg i need more of theo x reader with a hint of flirty draco

song inspiration: jealous by nick jonas.

author's note: ask and you shall receive. here's draco scheming to make theo jealous, which we all know won't end well. happy new year's my loves. we're staring 2024 off with a bang 😉

“Merlin, they can’t possibly be serious.” Draco muttered in disbelief. “Those two truly aren’t fooling anyone.”

Blaise glanced up from his book, searching for the cause of Malfoy’s offense. The Three Broomsticks was packed, but it wasn’t hard to spot the reason for his friend’s griping. Tucked into a secluded corner of the tavern, you and Theo gravitated towards each other like magnets, leaning into one another, foreheads pressed together, talking and laughing like you were the only people in the world. 

It had been this way ever since Blaise could remember.

As always, Theo wore that stupid love-struck expression on his face as he listened to you talk, chuckling softly as you waved your arms around animatedly. You, on the other hand, seemed completely oblivious to the pining and yearning coming from Nott’s end. Anyone with an ounce of common sense could see that Theo was clearly in love with you, yet you remained blind to his affections. 

“They’ve made it very clear that they’re just friends,” Blaise replied, repeating the same tired words that you and Theodore declared over and over again over the course of your friendship.

“And you believe them?” 

“Of course not.” Blaise affirmed as he flipped through the pages of his book once more. “But who am I to burst their blissful bubble of ignorance?” 

“They’re clearly in denial,” Draco remarked, watching intently as you picked a nonexistent piece of lint off of Theo’s quidditch sweater. “It’s been seven years of this pathetic teetering between will they or won’t they territory. I can’t stomach another day of it, Blaise. Someone needs to do something.” 

“Whatever half-arsed plan you’ve cooked up in that ferret brain of yours, I want no part in it.” 

Draco tapped his fingers against the wooden table, a familiar smirk curving at his lips. Blaise sighed in exasperation. He knew that look. He hated that look. It usually meant that Malfoy was hatching a scheme that spelled nothing but trouble for Blaise. 

“I’m serious, Draco.” Blaise said in a stern voice.

“So am I,” the blonde replied. “Those two need a push and I’m more than willing to provide it for them.” 

“I already know that I’m going to regret asking, but what exactly are you planning?” 

Draco smirked. Blaise swore to Salazar that there was an evil gleam in his friend’s eyes as he turned over to face him. “I’m going to flirt with Y/N.” 

“Are you mental?” Blaise exclaimed. “Nott will send you to an early grave. Did you see what he did to Pucey for trying to chat Y/N up? Poor bastard had to eat his meals through a straw for weeks.”

“Then I guess it’s your job to prevent that from happening, Zabini.” 

There were a million protests on Blaise’s lips. Everyone knew that Theo was overprotective of his best friend. It was an unspoken rule that you were off-limits and Blaise had seen first hand the consequences that befell anyone that dared to hit on you. It usually ended with someone in the infirmary and that someone was never Theo. 

Draco was well aware of this fact as well, but he seemed to have a death wish. Before Blaise could stop him, Malfoy scooped two glasses of butterbeer from the counter and made his way over to you just as Theo excused himself for a smoke. You looked up just as Draco slipped into the booth, sliding beside you to take up the vacant spot your best friend left. 

“Fancy seeing you here, Y/N.” 

“Hi, Dray.” You greeted the blonde with a smile. “I didn’t know you were here, too.” 

“How could you?” He drawled playfully. “Theodore seems content keeping you all to himself.” 

You rolled your eyes fondly. “You could’ve easily just come over to join us.”

“That’s exactly what I’m doing, darling.” Draco set a mug of ice cold butterbeer down in front of you. “And I brought your favorite.” 

“How sweet of you.” You beamed, totally unaware of his schemes as you clinked your glass against his. “Cheers, Draco.” 

“Cheers, Y/N.” 

The sweetness of the butterbeer lingered on your tongue and the foam rested on your upper lip as you savored the taste. Your tongue peeked out, trying to lick the remnants away. Silver eyes flashed mischievously as he clocked the action, a smirk curling against his lips. 

“Here, let me.” Draco brushed his thumb over your upper lip, wiping away the foam with ease. His fingers were soft and featherlight and nothing like the calloused feel of Theo’s hands. 

Your best friend had a bad habit of burning his fingertips from the countless blunts and cigarettes he smoked. Despite the fact that you offered to heal them with magic, Theo always refused. He said it made him more manly. Though you rolled your eyes at him, you found that you didn’t really mind his scars and calluses. It only made him that much more endearing. Why you were thinking of Theo while another man was touching you, you had no idea. Or perhaps you did and you were just in deep, deep denial about it. 

“Have I lost you, love?” 

With a blink, you found yourself staring back at Malfoy. “Sorry, Draco. What were you saying?” 

“I asked if you were using a new shampoo,” said your friend. He twirled a strand of your hair between his fingers, using the ends to tickle your cheek. “Your hair smells divine.” 

You paused, narrowing your eyes at Draco. “What are you doing, Dray?” 

“I’m not doing anything.” 

“You’re up to something.” 

That much was obvious to you. Years of friendship told you just as much. Draco was currently plotting something. Before you could question him further, a shadow loomed over the both of you. When Theo had left for his smoke break, he was carefree and grinning, but now tension colored your best friend’s features. As he glared down at Draco, Theo clenched his jaw and balled his fists at his side.

“Keep your hands to yourself, Malfoy.” 

“Teddy, he was just helping me with—“ 

“Draco doesn’t need to help you with anything.” Theo’s eyes flashed with anger, the blues and greens of his irises turning stormy as his gaze dropped to the lock of hair tangled through Draco’s fingers. “What he needs is to walk away before I break his fucking jaw.” 

Draco raised his palms up. “I don’t want any trouble, Nott.” 

Despite his statement, you sensed that trouble was exactly what Draco was aiming for. Instead of walking away like he should’ve, Malfoy leaned over and kissed your cheek in parting, which only further incensed Theo. If you hadn’t grabbed hold of the end of his coat, Theo would’ve hurled himself at Draco and punched the cocky smirk off of your friend’s face. 

You tugged at Theo and placed yourself between him and Draco, watching as the blonde returned to the table Blaise was currently sitting at. For good measure, he winked at the two of you as though Theo wasn’t already pissed enough as it was. 

“What the hell’s gotten into you?” Theo’s gaze flickered back to you, his eyes darkening as they met yours. 

“Why the fuck are you letting him touch you like that?” 

The bite in his voice puzzled you. Theo never snapped at you, so you weren’t quite sure how to react. He almost sounded…jealous. Not that Theo had any reason to be. Right?

“What are you on about? Draco was literally just wiping the foam off of my mouth. It’s not a big deal.” 

Downplaying the interaction seemed to rile Theo up even further. “Yes it fucking is,” he gritted out. “He’s flirting with you, Y/N. How can you not see that?” 

The accusation of Draco Malfoy flirting with you was entirely laughable. Though you were accustomed to Theo’s overzealous tendencies, you usually didn’t mind his overprotectiveness since it deterred creepy guys from making advances towards you. But this was Draco, for Godric’s sake. You’ve known each other since you were in diapers. There was no way in hell he was actually trying to make a move on you. 

“You’re being ridiculous, Teddy. Malfoy was not flirting with me.” 

“Of course he was! Did you not see the way he looked at you? The bloody git was all over you, playing with your hair, touching your lips. I should his bash his fucking head in for even glancing in your direction.“ 

The rest of Theo’s rant was incoherent, a mixture between English and Italian curses that drew the attention of those around you. With a grimace, you tugged Theo towards the back of the Three Broomsticks. He continued swearing as you led him away, dead eyes filled with fury as you ushered him into the bathroom. 

There was a murderous expression on his face as he spewed threats and curses. You locked the door behind you, sighing as you surveyed the angry boy before you. Knowing Theo, his constant ranting would only fuel the fire of his anger. You needed to calm him down before he made good on his promise to pummel Draco into the ground. 

Unfortunately, Theo had already worked himself up to a fit. A frown was evident on his face, his knuckles turning white as he clenched his fists, the veins on his forearms protruding as violence threatened to spill over. You said his name a few times, but he didn’t seem to hear you. He was too angry to take notice. 

While dealing with an angry Theo was by no means a new occurrence for you, it seemed harder to pull him out of it this time. You had never seen him this furious. A small part of you was mad at his overreaction, but another part of you was oddly flattered that he cared so much. 

Perhaps it was foolish to do so, but you relished in the fact that such a small action could elicit such a response from him. If you didn’t know any better, you would’ve surmised that Theo was acting out of jealousy. His possessive behavior had always given you a strange sort of thrill. It made you feel wanted, it made you feel desired, and that in itself was more dangerous than any drug. 

“Theodore.” 

Theo paced back and forth, contemplating acts of violence against one of his oldest and closest friends.

“Theo.” 

He wondered how much trouble he’d get into for beating Draco into a bloody pulp. Would they suspend him? Theo reckoned it would be worth it. 

“Teddy.” 

The sight of Draco brushing foam off of your lips flashed through his mind again, playing on a torturous loop. Malfoy didn’t get to touch you like that. No one got to touch you like that. At least not without Theo breaking every bone in their hand. 

“Oh for Salazar’s fucking sake.” 

You grabbed the front of Theo’s sweater and dragged him down to your level. There was absolutely no thought process behind your actions besides stopping his rant. With your lips pressed firmly against his, you accomplished just that. Theo froze for a second, his eyes fluttering close as you kissed him. The tension left his body, his anger melting away to give room for a different sort of heat to spread through him. 

The minute his body language changed, you pulled away. Theo looked down at you, his dead eyes burning with searing passion. You felt his gaze piercing right through you. There was danger lurking within him. Like he was the predator and you were the prey. You’ve never seen him look like that before. Theo looked…feral. Theo looked hungry. 

“I’m sorry, Teddy. I was just trying to calm you down—”

You reeled back as Theo cupped your face in his hands and smashed your lips together once more. This time, there was no surprise in the kiss. There was just fervent passion, arduous desire, and mutual destruction between you. Theo didn’t kiss you like he wanted you. He kissed you like he needed you. 

As he pinned you against the wall, Theo gripped your hips and pressed his body against yours. The kisses grew sloppy and desperate, the two of you scrabbling for more. You groaned as his erection brushed against your thigh, leaving him the perfect opening to slide his tongue past the seam of your lips. You were vaguely aware of banging into the pictures on the walls, the sound of them clattering to the ground registering somewhere in the back of your mind. 

The two of you were like a tornado, knocking decor and toiletries around as you continued to sloppily make out. You were sure that you were making enough noise to alert the whole tavern. Yet you couldn’t bring yourself to care as Theo bit down on your bottom lip. You moaned into his mouth as he set you down on the counter. One hand gripped your throat while the other slipped underneath your skirt. 

Theo dragged you closer by your thighs, wrapping your legs around his waist as he grinded his hardness against your throbbing core. 

“Malfoy couldn’t touch you like this, bella.” The low rasp of his voice sent shivers down your spine. His hold on you was possessive and utterly fucking sexy. Heat rushed between your thighs as his fingers tightened around your throat. “Only I can touch you like this. Do you understand, dolcezza?” 

“Yes,” you answered breathlessly. “It’s you, Teddy. Only you.” 

Pleased with your response, Theo smirked as he ripped off your tights. Your eyes nearly rolled to the back of your head when he rubbed his hand against your clothed sex. He palmed you through your panties, swearing when he felt how wet you were for him. 

“You’re fucking mine,” he growled against your ear while he slid your panties to the side and teased along your folds. Slender fingers curled inside of you, eliciting a filthy moan that echoed through the walls. “This is all for me.” 

Watercolour eyes seized the breath from your lungs. The declaration hung in the air with finality. There was no room for question or doubt. Theo was merely stating the truth.

You were his. You always have been. 

Theo withdrew his hand, fingers dripping with your arousal. He refused to break eye contact as he stuck them into his mouth, licking each digit clean. 

You whimpered, pulling him in by his belt loop. He moaned as you impatiently tugged his jeans down, palming him through his boxers. He felt big. Bigger than you’ve ever had before. 

But you wanted it. You wanted him. 

“I need you, Theo. Please.” 

“I’m yours, Y/N.” Theo panted into your mouth as you released his cock from the constraints of his boxers. “Always.” 

You swallowed thickly as you looked down at his impressive size. His cock was hard and throbbing in your hands, precum leaking from the tip. Theo was massive. You had no idea how he was going to fit. Still, the challenge thrilled you. 

Spreading your legs open, you bit your lip as Theo positioned the head of his cock at your entrance. He kissed your lips sweetly before pulling back and nuzzling his nose against yours. 

“Deep breaths, baby.” You nodded, inhaling and exhaling as he pushed the tip in. “You’re so tight. Gonna let me stretch you wide open, bella?”

Tears pricked at your eyes as he breached your walls, stretching you just between the line of pain and pleasure. “You’re so big, Theo. I don't—I don't know if it’s going to fit.” 

“We’ll make it fit, Y/N,” he promised, pushing further in and groaning as your walls hugged tightly around him. “Just like that. You’re doing so well, sweetheart.” 

Once Theo was fully sheathed inside of you, his movements stilled. He caressed your cheek and pecked your lips. “Can I move, baby?” 

“Yes,” you exhaled. 

“Good girl.” 

You fluttered at his words and Theo cursed as your walls gripped him like a vice. “Fuck, pretty pussy’s squeezing me so tight. You drive me fucking insane, you know that? I get so jealous of anyone who even looks at you.” 

“I like when you get jealous,” you admitted, wrapping your legs tighter around his waist. “You’re sexy when you’re angry.” 

Theo flipped you over so that you were facing the mirror. As you gripped the marble countertop, he thrusted sharply inside of you and watched as your face contorted into pleasure. Whispering praises into your ear, Theo picked up the pace. He intertwined your fingers together and placed each palm against the mirror.

“Open your eyes, bella. I want you to watch while I ruin you.” 

Your eyes snapped to your reflection, taking in your flushed cheeks and mussed hair. Behind you, Theo fucked into you with a punishing pace. He groaned as he watched himself slide in and out of you, relishing at the perfect fit. It was like you were made for him. As your moans grew louder, Theo stuffed his fingers down your throat and gagged you. 

“God, fuck.” Theo hissed, his eyes meeting yours in the reflection. “Harder, baby. You can take it. Let me fuck out my frustrations.” 

“You. Belong. To. Me.” 

Theo punctuated every word with a thrust, hitting the sweet spot within your walls with each rut. 

“I’m yours, Teddy.” You said breathlessly. “All yours.” 

He smiled, placing a tender kiss against your neck as his fingers slipped between your legs. Theo rubbed at your clit, urging you closer and closer to your orgasm. 

“Are you close, principessa? I can feel you squeezing me, milking me dry. Take it all, dolcezza. You’re mine, but I’m yours too.” 

“My hands are yours.” Theo squeezed your tits, flicking his thumb over your nipples.

“My lips are yours.” He angled your chin towards him, claiming your mouth with open mouthed kisses.

“My cock is yours.” He drove deeper inside of you, making you arch as you cried out his name. 

Theo swallowed your moans before capturing your lips with his. “My heart is yours, too.” 

“It’s all yours, Y/N.”

Your heart squeezed at his declaration. Nothing had ever sounded more beautiful than Theo pledging every part of himself to you.  

“Oh god. Fuck, Theo. Please. I’m gonna cum.” 

“Cum for me, bella.” 

Stars dotted your vision as the orgasm rocked through your body. Theo kissed your neck, marking his territory, while you squeezed around him. The heat of his touch seared your skin as he held you. If it weren’t for his strong arms wrapped around you, you would’ve collapsed. 

“So fucking perfect,” Theo said between pants. “My beautiful girl.” 

Your name tumbled off of Theo’s lips as he came. It was the sweetest sound you’ve ever heard. Coming from the most beautiful boy you’ve ever seen. 

The two of you slid down to the floor. Theo wrapped an arm around you, cheeks red and hair disheveled. His pretty eyes fluttered open as he traced over the hickies and bruises he’d left on your body, admiring each mark gently. With his brows scrunched with concern, he brushed a thumb over the bite mark on your shoulder. 

“Was I too rough?” Theo whispered, kissing over the spot. “Did I hurt you, Y/N?”

You smiled at his gentleness, smoothing at the worry lines creasing his forehead. “No, it was perfect. God, you're fucking hot when you're jealous.” 

Theo chuckled, kissing the inside of your wrist. The playfulness in his expression faltered as concern and hesitation bled through. “Did you—I mean, fuck, did you enjoy it? I didn’t—you still want to be my friend, right?” 

“No.” 

Theo felt his heart drop down to his stomach. He’d fucked it up. The one good thing in his life and he’d fucked it up. You brushed your fingers over his cheekbones, tilting his chin so that you were face to face. 

“I want to be so much more than just your friend, Teddy.” The sigh of relief that he released made you grin. You leaned in, giving him a soft peck on the lips. “My heart is yours, too. It’s always been yours.” 

The weight of his smile made your heart ache. “Now that you know how I feel, there’s no need to be jealous anymore.” 

“Are you kidding? I’m going to be even more insufferable now. I need everyone to know that you’re mine.” 

“They already know, Teddy. We were the only ones living in denial.” 

“We made it pretty damn obvious, didn’t we?” 

“You threatened every guy who dared to even look at me.”

“Please,” Theo started, a smile tugging at his lips. “I saw the dirty looks you gave to the girls who tried to flirt with me.” 

You chuckled. “Okay, so maybe we’re both a little…”

“Possessive? Obsessed? Head over heels insane for each other?” 

“All of the above.” You declared, tugging at his hand. “Now come on, Teddy. Before someone figures out what we were really doing in here.” 

“I think they know, love.” Theo teased. “You were pretty loud.” 

“Like you weren’t loud yourself, Nott.” 

You rolled your eyes fondly as he helped you up. Theo straightened your skirt and smoothed your hair down, kissing your temple. He reached for the doorknob with one hand and linked his fingers with yours with the other. 

Fortunately, there weren’t too many people waiting for the loo. You would’ve been embarrassed to walk out together hand in hand, but Theo made sure that every set of prying eyes quickly found something else to look at. With a cheeky grin, he lifted your knuckles to his lips and placed a lingering kiss upon your skin. 

As you walked out into the main hall, a wolf-whistle rang out from one of the tables. Draco raised a toast in your direction while Blaise shook his head. 

“Can’t believe that half-arsed plan of yours actually worked,” Zabini said. 

Theo furrowed his brows. “What plan?” 

“The one where Malfoy flirts with Y/N in an attempt to make you jealous.” 

“I knew you were up to something,” you said with narrowed eyes. “What an idiotic plan.” 

“Is it idiotic if it worked?” 

Theo shook his head in disbelief. “You’re mental, Malfoy. I truly considered tearing you to pieces.” 

“You’re welcome,” Draco said with a smirk. “Clearly that jealousy was put to good use.” 

The blonde winked at you, making Theo’s fingers tighten around yours. “Oh, Teddy’s going to kill you. This time, I have no plans of stopping him.” 

Draco’s silver eyes widened as you released Theo. “Zabini? A little help here?” 

“I’d start running if I were you, Malfoy.” 

Without hesitation, Draco bolted out the door. You snickered as the blonde disappeared down the snowy street, his platinum blonde head bobbing through the crowd. To his credit, Theo gave him a proper head start. 

“I’ll be right back, dolcezza.” 

“Don’t be gone too long, Teddy.” Theo smiled, leaning in to press a soft kiss on your lips. “And try not to hurt Draco too badly, yeah?” 

Despite his pout, Theo nodded as you tugged him down for a proper kiss. He smiled against your lips before peppering kisses on your nose and cheeks.

“Fine, but only because you asked nicely, principessa.” 

You smiled, watching as Theo chased after Draco. Beside you, Blaise grinned. 

“It’s about damn time.” 

With a flush, you rolled your eyes at your friend. “Oh shut it, Zabini.” 

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Piotr Rasputin/Colossus SFW Alphabet

hi, I'm still alive I promise! Still working on fics, but wanted to throw this out here as a fun little writing exercise with the SFW alphabet! So, without further ado...

taglist: @master-sass-blast @osmiumamygdala @black-but-mildly-sunny @seconds-2-midnight

A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)

Piotr is a very physically affectionate man - pats on the back, a hand up if you’re struggling to climb over an obstacle, a hand on your shoulder and a squeeze as he passes. He would struggle at first if you didn’t like physical affection or were uncomfortable with being touched, but his next go-to would be acts of service. Dishes needed to be washed? Done. Laundry needs to be folded? He’s already on it and put on your favorite show so you can watch as you two pair the socks together; he likes making your life easier if he can. 

B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)

He’s the type of best friend who you know that if you go to for help, he’s going to help in whatever capacity he can. That being said, he’s the type to offer you solutions and advice as he’s doing it; if you need to vent, you’re going to have to tell him otherwise he’s going to try and fix it as best he can. The type of best friend to give you a lecture for ending up in a bad situation, but still comes to your rescue even if you're an hour away and it’s 3AM on a weeknight. 

The friendship starts naturally, you’re a colleague of his at Xavier’s or a friend of a friend and Piotr just…fits in your life. He slots in and makes a home for himself in your life, and you in his. 

C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)

He’s a big fan of cuddles, although always very hesitant to initiate since he is one - very large and heavy - and two - covered in a hard metallic armor almost 85% of the time. You’re going to have to initiate and assure him you’re comfortable, and only then will he willingly cuddle up.

That being said, he’s a big fan of laying on his back with you nestled up to his side and your head on his chest. He’s got an arm draped over your side, lazily tracing patterns on your skin and holding you close. 

D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)

On paper he’d love to settle down, but knows the reality comes with conditions that he could never willingly ask a partner to be okay with. He’s still a superhero, and so many people would still need his help; if he had to choose between a mission where lives are at stake and you asking him to stay, he hates to admit how difficult a decision it would be. He doesn’t know if he could ever ‘retire’ in the traditional sense, settle down and leave the hero work on the shelf, but if anyone could persuade him, it’d be you.

He’s an alright cleaner in the fact he doesn’t make much of a mess to begin with. Piotr always picks up after himself, and is a very big fan of Marie Kondo’s mantra of keeping a clean and tidy space. As far as cooking goes, he’s good at cooking very specific dishes - Russian comfort food, anyone? But beyond that his cooking is a bit bland; the type to eat chicken breasts and steamed vegetables for every meal because it’s quick, easy, and keeps him fueled. You’re going to need to teach him to use seasonings. 

E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)

If there is one man in the world who gives people too many chances, it’s Piotr. He always wants to give people the benefit of the doubt, the chance to change or improve. That being said, the point where the relationship would end would be if a major boundary was crossed; at that point, it’s time to reevaluate and have a serious conversation about the trajectory of the relationship. It would be awkward, and uncomfortable, because he would never want to intentionally hurt his partner, but also he would be quick to the point. Not wanting to drag it on any longer than it’s already gone. 

F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)

Piotr likes the idea of commitment, of having a partner to share things with. Not so much having a ‘better half’ but just having someone there for him, and someone he can be there for in turn. It would probably take him 3-4 years of serious dating before he would want to get married, although he’s the type to dream about it around 6 months into the relationship. 

G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)

As Colossus, he had to teach himself to be gentle - to not accidentally crush someone’s hand in a handshake or put his foot through the floor with each step - it’s carried over even when he’s not armored up. He’s extremely gentle, very aware of the strength of his hands or how his large frame fills a room and could very easily knock over an end table (or, god forbid, a person) with the slightest brush of his hip. 

He would need to teach himself to be gentle with his emotions as well, his frustration or anxiety coming off as overbearing or lecturing at first (again, you’ll need to specifically tell him not to offer solutions when you just need to vent). That being said, he’s not the type that’s prone to emotional outbursts, but rather has the need to channel his negative emotions into action rather than sitting with them and fully processing them. 

H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)

Loves hugs, is perfect for hugs, hugs his friends often (if they are okay with it). He’s a big bear hugger, the type to pick the other person up by the armpits and swing them around if the occasion calls for it.  

I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?)

As soon as he knows the other person feels the same, he’s going to say it. Not the type to be subtle in his affections for his friends or romantic partners, so at most maybe 6 months into the relationship. 

J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?)

Piotr doesn’t get jealous; if you’re in a relationship together, then he trusts you and knows not to be jealous if you’re spending time with anyone else or aren’t giving him your full undivided attention. He knows you have a life outside of him and your relationship, and he actively encourages it. 

Of course, that doesn’t mean he isn’t going to be protective. He’s not jealous because somebody is taking up all your attention, but he is absolutely moving and putting an arm around you if you show any outward sign of being uncomfortable; he’s going to physically move you behind him, if needed. He’s going to check up on you when you’re with your friends, a quick text to make sure you’re having fun and then another to ask when you’ll be home; he’ll wait up for you to come home and breathe a little easier when you walk through the door. 

K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)

If he’s armored up, his skin is cool to the touch and his lips are no different as they gently brush against yours. Butterfly soft, the smallest amount of pressure as if he’s afraid you’ll break under him. He’s a big fan of forehead kisses (it’s the easiest kiss to give when you’re almost seven feet tall) but also kisses to both your cheeks and then a soft, final press of his lips against yours. 

Kiss his knuckles, his palms, and he’s a goner. He’s so used to his hands being used to smash through walls and push through obstacles, that the gentle press of your lips against his joints has him stopped dead in his tracks. 

L = Little ones (How are they around children?)

Loves kids, is fantastic around kids. He is very large and is the perfect jungle gym for rambunctious children, but also can be very gentle and encouraging with any of the shyer ones who are intimidated by a large man made of metal. He’s still a bit of a stickler for rules and structure, no desserts before dinner and all vegetables must be eaten, but makes up for it by just being a really fun adult that kids kind of gravitate towards. 

M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)

Piotr’s mornings are typically his busiest time; if he’s not working out in the morning, then he’s preparing for the day ahead with his various lessons. Is a very early riser as well, has an internal alarm clock that goes off at 6AM regardless of whether or not it’s a weekend and makes it so he cannot fall back asleep. 

Of course, that leads to morning cuddles if it’s the rare occasion where he actually doesn’t have a million things to do that day. He never takes those mornings for granted, holding you close and inhaling the scent of your shampoo and molding his body to spoon yours. If there’s nothing  else to do that day, he’ll spend the entire morning like that. 

N = Night (How are nights spent with them?)

Piotr’s night time routine is less strict than his morning one, mostly focusing on winding down for the evening and getting comfortable before going to bed. A nice shower, pajamas and a chapter of the latest book he’s reading before turning off the lights and waiting for sleep to come. He tries to avoid any screen time before bed, if he can help it, but absolutely will get invested in whatever show you’re watching and will watch an episode with you before bed. 

O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)

Piotr is a fairly open type of person as far as revealing things about himself, although isn’t the type to say it out of nowhere without a proper relationship being established. If you ask him anything, he’ll almost always give you a straightforward answer, but won’t necessarily give the nitty gritty details until a proper relationship and mutual trust is created. 

P = Patience (How easily angered are they?)

Patience of a saint, it takes so much to get him to show any frustration beyond general annoyance or displeasure. True anger is difficult to get from Piotr, and is usually reserved for very specific circumstances or people. 

Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)

He is the type to make notes in his phone if you mention you like a certain brand of something or a specific snack. Those flowers you mentioned offhand? He has a note in his phone and a reminder to place an order to the florist on Valentine’s Day and your birthday. It's an effort, and doesn’t necessarily come naturally to him to remember all the little details, but wants to make you happy so keeps a running list of things that make you happy. 

R = Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?)

There’s a moment in the relationship where the dynamic shifts, where it’s less ‘I am trying to impress/entice this person into a relationship’ and it becomes more ‘this is my friend who I love but also am romantically involved with and would tear this world down for’. That moment would be Piotr’s favorite, and it would be a casual moment; the two of you in pajamas, perhaps both in the same room but idly doing your own thing. And it’s then that Piotr looks over at you, in one of his t-shirts and a face mask while you scroll absentmindedly on your phone,and  there’s something in that moment when you look up at him and smile that makes his heart clench. There’s nothing particularly special, but it’s you and him and he feels so…at peace in your presence. 

It’s at that moment he knows you could ask him to do anything, ask him to jump and he’d ask how high, and it both frightens and exhilarates him to know that you - wonderful, imperfectly perfect you - have this much power over him. A man who regularly faces life or death for a cause bigger than himself as casually as some people court lovers, and he’d throw it all down for the person sitting next to him. 

S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)

He’d wrap you in bubble wrap if he could, carry you down every flight of stairs if it meant your safety. Not because he doubts your ability or because he wants to undermine your autonomy, but because the thought of you getting hurt - especially when he could have prevented it - would kill him. If he can’t protect you, what is he? He’s the shield for his team, the battering ram when the situation calls for it, but for you he’ll be an entire suit of armor. 

Of course he knows that’s not feasible to always be there to save you, but it doesn’t stop him from always watching you a bit closer, having a hand at your side, or walking on the side of you that faces traffic. If you’d try to do the same for him, step in front of him or try to shield his body with your own - at first he won’t know what to think. He’s so used to being the one to take the hits, and to have someone willing to take them for him? Well, it’s going to take some getting used to, and it probably contributes to him falling for you a bit faster than he usually would. 

T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)

He puts in a lot more effort than he puts on when it comes to dates and anniversaries and holidays. He has it planned down to the letter - your favorite restaurant, the flowers that you mentioned offhandedly that you liked, and the outfit you said he looked so handsome in. Of course, it’s played off as effortless, just another part of his routine, and you’ll quickly see the cracks start to form if something goes off course.

Just kiss his hand and assure him it’s perfect, as long as he’s there beside you,  and he’ll quickly resume sweeping you off your feet. 

U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)

Stickler for routine, needs structure or else he will quickly fall into bad habits fueled by self doubt. Often questions his place in the grand scheme of things if he feels like he is not fulfilling his role as a protector, and can spiral very quickly into depression or self destructive habits. 

Also, he will wear shorts and a tank top no matter how cold it gets. He’s that kid, you know the one. 

V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)

Piotr’s interesting in this regard - he doesn’t so much care for his looks as far as aesthetics go. I’ve touched on this in previous asks and various drabbles, but he lifts and works out to be strong rather than to look a certain way. It’s functional, and he's more of a strongman than a bodybuilder, if that makes sense. He works out and stays fit because it suits his lifestyle and helps him be the Colossus his team needs him to be, getting ripped isn’t so much the prerogative. Of course, he enjoys looking strong and like he could tear the doors off a car without trying, and he’s the type to change if he notices a stain on his shirt, but for the most part he’s not a very vain person as far as looks are concerned. He dresses for comfort and utility rather than fashion most of the time, but he has the capacity to dress up if needed. 

W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)

Incomplete isn’t the right word. He’d feel like something was lacking, like he was missing something that would otherwise make him happy, but he would still be able to function. You don’t make him Piotr, just like he doesn’t make you…well, you. It’s an added bonus of having another person around, and it would be great if you were there and he’ll certainly miss you if you aren’t there, but he’ll be able to function without you. He’ll have to, at least that’s what he tells himself. 

X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.)

Okay, so the Russian stereotype of drinking vodka like it’s water is very prevalent, and yeah Piotr’s able to drink a lot and stay relatively sober, but he doesn’t really like the feeling of being inebriated beyond a slight buzz. It’s a dangerous game to get him really drunk, not only for anyone trying to keep up with him, but also for him. Drunk Piotr is a sad, sappy Piotr who is going to hold onto his friends or significant other and cry into their shoulder while forgetting his own strength. He has absolutely broken a few barstools (and a few bars) by getting too inebriated for his own good and completely forgetting that he can smash through most surfaces with little to no effort. 

Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?)

I think Piotr wouldn’t be a fan of people who are completely resistant to change or self improvement - he wants to grow and try new things with you! You can be hesitant, you’ll work up to it together and he’ll be the most supportive person in your corner, but to completely shut him down or resist it altogether would really dishearten him. I also think a lack of ambition would really turn him off - if you have a goal, no matter how small, he wants to be there to help you achieve it. 

Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habits of theirs?)

Once he settles down and is fully out cold, he does not move. Absolutely still, he’s conditioned himself to not to move or throw out an arm in fear it’ll strike out and break another bedside table. This will be doubled if you are sleeping beside him, he would be terrified of accidentally rolling over in his sleep on top of you!

#colossus #piotr rasputin #colossus x reader #marvel x reader #xmen x reader #stone writings #xmen #marvel #peter rasputin

[hoshigaki]

headcannons for itakisa 😌 continued from here

kisame and itachi are so. like itachi is a weirdo with no friends and kisame is a lonely dude who doesnt believe in friendship and yet they dont talk to each other as coworkers like they do with other akatsuki members, theyre so normal?? with each other i think they see each other as equals in the way only they could

so what happens when you put two bootlicking rule following brainwashed top of the class super soldiers who recently had a nervous breakdown about their role in society together on a team for terrorists? the most tender hand holding of all time. the most tragic vulnerability. the most timid notion of love while they know the other will die before they ever can enjoy it.

and maybe sexual intimacy as a form of self harm because one of them is used to using his strength as a punishing tool and one of them thinks he deserve to be punished while he waits until he dies.

i think at 17 after Itachi learns what romance and sex is he starts analyzing his physical and emotional reaction towards other people. after the confrontation in konoha in the failed kidnap mission kisame wouldve made some joke about running into itachis exes and then itachi says super deadpanned "i used to have a crush on kakashi" and kisame goes well that makes sense youre the two prettiest people in the village and then itachi like every teenage girl thinks too hard about that compliment and devises a strategic plan of action to receive more compliments for no particular reason.

kisame and itachi are truly quality time and acts of service lovers, and their affection for each other grows from them naturally doing things. moments of silence arent weird, itachi will always look out to whatever kisame has pointed out in the horizon, kisame will eat anything itachi cooks even if its burnt since the taste doesnt matter the act does, they both get annoyed at the same things and find the same people stupid which amplifies their "youre the only person i want to be around" feelings

because itachi is a sickly waif hes always cold and kisame doesn't generate as much heat as one would think which means they both like being in warm places and they will spend more time than necessary in hot springs or in the valley during summertime so they can bask in the sun

kisame doesn't like soft things like i said in my other post, but he does like silk and itachi's hair is perfectly silky to run fingers through

#kisaita #itakisa #kisame #itachi #mine #professional-gay-hermit #asks

[fanficonly]

Wenclair- In Denial

Chapter 1

Thought I would post to Tumblr as well let me know what you think😋 Link to my Ao3 account for this chapter is also on my page.

Wenclair and a little Yokovina as well!

Summary: Both Wednesday and Enid are in denial about their feelings for one another and it becomes increasingly hard for them to hide their affections around others when they do often let their feelings show in private, through affirmations and sly remarks.

Again... Bad at summaries just enjoy 😋

She was beautiful. Mesmerising. Absolutely charming. Incredibly disarming and all together Perfect. But that didn't mean she wanted to couple up with her. She just enjoyed being around her is all.

Enid Sinclair. The bane and reason for Wednesday's continued existence on this wretched planet. She would never have guessed that such a positive, happy, upbeat person could make her feel so ... Content. But she loved being around Enid. Going on adventures with Enid. Eating with Enid. Talking to Enid. Sitting in silence with Enid. Everything and Anything as long as it was with Enid.

But she was never allowed to be the one to initiate such communications. Another reason she seemed to like being around her was that she never had to show interest yet Enid would drag her along to whatever activity sparked her interest that day. And of course Wednesday had no choice but to follow. Enid needed her... For ... Protection. She was so innocent and full of life and the Addams girl knew how cruel and dark the world could be. She vowed to always shield the blonde from all things painful and or traumatising, ever since the first spark of feelings hit Wednesday the day Enid had embraced her.

So when Enid burst into their shared dorm in a hyperactive happiness spree jumping on Wednesdays bed to wake her up, she didn't immediately attempt to murder her but instead indulged the Blonde.

"Wednesdayyyyy wake uuuuuup" she howled, bouncing up and down on the bed like she was on a pogo stick.

This prompted the Addams girl to shoot up and turn towards the feral half wolf that was on the verge of howling and scratching at the sheets beneath.

"Do you have no sense of personal space Piccola Lupa?" she somewhat groggily woke up, rubbing her temples to soothe the impending headache that threatened her pain receptors. Enid had become accustomed to Wednesday's continued nicknames for her but she never really understood what they meant. Among the lot of Italian, French and Spanish affirmations she never even looked them up. At first she had just assumed the Addams girl was hurling insults her way considering she would usually do it in the privacy of their dorm after Enid had been mildly(or moderately) irritating.

The one time she had absentmindedly asked Yoko what "Cucciola" meant she was startled by Wednesday popping up behind her, dangerously close, whispering "Puppy" in her ear. This prompted Enid never to ask again. It confused her too much, made her feel things that she knew were perilous and would make for a treacherous journey ahead in thier "Friendship". So she chose to just enjoy the little terms of endearment without reading too much into it.

"Nope" she popped the 'P' and grinned widely at Wednesday, flashing her fangs and causing the girl to admittedly forgive her without a second thought.

"What is it, Enid?" She asked now fully conscious and more aware of how she presented herself to her werewolf roommate.

"It's the annual Nevermore Fair! And I signed us up for set up crew" she beamed as if she had just told Wednesday she won the lottery.

"What on Earth would prompt you to do that?" She furrowed her brow in confusion, bewildered as to why Enid was so excited about a foolish school fair.

"Wens you know I love getting involved in school activities" she jumped off of Wednesday's legs and knelt beside her on the bed.

"Yes but why would you involve me?" She asked "You know I would rather cover myself in birdseed and hang myself from the nearest tree to allow the crows to peck out my eyeballs, than participate in school activities" she vividly explained, prompting a grunt from Enid while her face twisted into one of disgust. This only caused Wednesday to smirk at the girl's reaction.

"Graphic depictions of your death aside..." She shook the thought from her brain and continued "You have to do it Wednesday" she reasoned weakly.

"I think you're mistaken I don't have to do anything" she said as a matter of factly. This girl would be the death of Wednesday she was sure of it. As even the early wake up call, the invading of her personal space and the admission of forcing her into a mind numbing social event that she had already planned to avoid, she still wasn't mad at her. She even considered it for a split second and had to force the compulsion away with a weak grunt.

"Wednesdaaaaaay you do! We do everything together" her smile faltered a little bit she was still not disparaged.

"Not everything" Wednesday spoke rather defensively as if spending time with Enid willingly was forbidden.

"Well... enough things" Enid shrugged.

"Irrelevant" Wednesday spoke plainly but this didn't seem to deter the wolf in any way. In fact it only challenged her to try even harder for her attention, a toxic trait she knew she had but always found a way to justify it.

"Come ooooon" she whined grabbing Wednesday and shaking her a little much to the pigtailed girl's dismay. She just drifted, a deadeye stare past Enid's face trying to contemplate why she was allowing the blonde to touch her.

When Wednesday disassociated, Enid moved her own face into the girls eyeline and begged "Pleeeeaaaaase" she used her best puppy dog stare, her eyes practically glistening as she looked into Wednesday's wide eyes.

Wednesday sighed and Enid was sure she had succeeded until she watched her eyes flick away from Enid's as she said "No." Bluntly

"For me?" She blinked rapidly and dramatically moving her face to once again be in view of Wednesday.

"Enid you can't just say For me everytime and expect me to agree to your terms" she scolded the wolf with no empathy.

"Why not? It's worked up until now" she winked proudly and had to suppress the giggle that rose up in the back of her throat.

"That's alarming" Wednesday mumbled this to herself and was unable to stop the cluster of thoughts that swirled around in her brain, trying to explain her tolerance of her roommate.

Enid huffed out irritated but she had a plan B so it was ok "Listen you need to anyway for you're community service this would count for 6 hours at least annnnnd you will have me to keep you company" she raised her eyebrows hopeful for an agreeable response.

"Hmm ...I suppose" Wednesday gritted her teeth as she begrudgingly agreed.

"Yay! Let's go" she jumped off the bed resuming her hyperactive happy state she previously adhered too.

"Am I atleast permitted to change first?" She asked, a slight hint of sarcasm evident in her tone.

"Oh right of course!" She chuckled "See you down there!" She yelled as she ran out the door, letting it slam shut behind her

"Urrrgh" Wednesday allowed herself to let out a groan as she fell back on the bed.

Enid Sinclair. She will be the death of Wednesday Addams.

...

"There's no way she's coming" Yoko laughed handing Enid a piece of rope to connect to the metal pole. She skipped towards it looking over her shoulder and saying

"Don't be so negative" making a fake angry face at her vampire bestie.

"I thought you'd like it seeing as your type is negative, blood and people" Yoko winked "Paired with dark humoured goth girls with serious issues I thought you'd appreciate it" she teased as Enid returned to her side.

"Is not!" She defended but her voice came out rather squeaky as she lied through her fangs.

"Yeah sorry I gotta side with Yoko on this one" Divina chimed in after overhearing the conversation as she approached the two. She draped her arm over Yoko's shoulder placing a kiss on her cheek in greeting them, holding her fist out for Enid to fist bump while still attached to Yoko's side.

Enid being the overly affectionate person she is slapped her fist away "Get that away from me" she laughed then dived at Divina attacking her with a hug. She knew Divina enjoyed her hugs and only didn't go for one because she was obsessed with being close to Yoko.

"Oof!" The siren let out before smiling while shaking her head at the overly hyper werewolf girl.

"Okay please release my girlfriend from you're overly affectionate ass" Yoko jokingly demanded trying to pry Enid's arms off a currently suffocated Divina.

"Jealous?" Enid turned her head, not letting go out of pure spite and giggling lightly.

"No" she scoffed "buuuuut she might be" Yoko pointed behind Enid at the small shadowy figure that glided toward them.

"Wednesday you came!" She ran excitedly towards her as she usually did but stopped before she was unable to control the urge to hug her lovingly.

"Of course Pup" She smirked, giving her a small nod to recognise her roommates restraint in not man handling her.

Yoko practically choked in shock "What did you just call her?!" Her vampire ears pricked up at the nickname.

Wednesday's eyes widened. She had been so distracted by Enid's violently happy approach and sickeningly sweet smile that she hadn't even realised that the other 2 girls could hear her.

Divina slapped her girlfriend and gave her a little disapproving look. "Ow! What?" She gritted her teeth at her girlfriend. Wednesday chose this distraction to divert the conversation, she had had one to many slip ups lately when it came to Enid and she needed to be more cautious and aware of her uncontrollable impulses she had recently acquired.

"I'm here Enid" she emphasised her name slightly, scolding herself in her own head at her blatant lack of resistance. Yoko smirked at this as Wednesday continued "What do you require of me?" She flicked her eyes to Yoko in order to observe whether the vampire was going to push the issue before returning to Enid's gaze.

"A smile" Yoko snorted again, earning another disapproving look from Divina as she crossed her arms.

"In your nightmares" Wednesday deadpanned and then let out a little noise as Enid grabbed her wrist and led her to the rest of the fair to give her a job to do.

"You need to cool it" Divina laughed as she watched Enid drag Wednesday to her worst nightmare. The two hung back for a minute to give their friends some alone time.

"With what?" She shrugged and rolled her eyes at the brunette. Of course everyone at Nevermore were rooting for Wednesday and Enid to finally admit thier feelings for one another, especially the entire friendship group. And lately Wednesday was being just as obvious as Enid was in her own little way. This wasn't the first time she had been caught by outsiders calling Enid by an affectionate nickname or allowing her to make physical contact with her person.

"You know what" She booped Yoko on the nose faking a mad face.

"Babe they are so clueless sometimes" Yoko threw her head back to the sky in annoyance "Like come ooooon" she mumbled "Remember last week!" She practically yelled remembering back

Flashback*

It was lunchtime and the usual lot were enjoying eachothers company, except Wednesday who just ignored the chaotic good around her.

Enid skipped towards the lunch table a bright smile on her face and once reaching her destination she leaned down and draped her arms over Wednesday's shoulder in a tame show of affection. She knew she shouldn't. Wednesday had talked to her about this ... Only ever in private but she was in such a good mood after her talk with Wednesday the night before that she didn't care.

"Hows my dark-spirited friend today?" She lightly teased. The word 'friend' causing a little comfort to wash over Wednesday. This was fine. This was normal. They were friends.

She took a small but deep breath in then looked up at Enid saying

"Very well Mon Chiot and You?" Very prepared to deal with the fallout of not scolding Enid for her casual show of affection.

"I'm great!" she bounced on her toes still giddy

"What the F-" Bianca accidentally spoke her thoughts aloud, mouth agape trying to make sense of what she had just witnessed, along with everyone else at the table.

Wednesday's ear pricked up at the low mumble from the siren and she smirked

"Problem?" She queried raising an eyebrow at the dumbfounded girl.

Bianca had to compose herself in order to deflect the stutter that reared its ugly head as she said "You-" she breathed rethinking her sentence ""She's touching you?" She questioned pointing at Enid and then scanning her eyes across to Divina, Yoko and Kent for support. They all kind of awkwardly tried not to get involved worried about what Wednesday would do. " And did you just call her a pet name?" She then looked towards Ajax, Xavier and Eugene instead but again they all followed suit and just nervously averted thier eyes.

"I have no idea what you're talking about" Wednesday spoke plainly, ready to shoot down any attempt Bianca made at bringing attention to the earlier display.

"You're kidding you just-" she began but was rudely interrupted again by Wednesday.

"You must be hearing and seeing things Barclay" she spoke as if daring her to try again "How troubling" she feined concern.

"Yeah totally seeing things" Enid agreed before taking a life threatening risk by leaning down to plant small kiss on Wednesdays cheek casually before skipping off happily, leaving everyone at the table confused and unsure of how to handle the situation.

The Addams Girl was absolutely seething with rage for a spilt second as she felt everyone's eyes at the table on her awaiting her reaction. They were obviously expecting a somewhat graphic attempt a bodily harm or atleast some very violent words. Instead, the lingering feeling of Enid's soft lips drew out her loving and compassionate side because that feeling, THE feeling was incredible enough to block out her need to be perceived as threatening and unstable to those around her and she settled.

She was pulled from the abyss that was her thoughts of Enid when Bianca started to say "What?! She just-"

So rather than admit that what had happened was not a hallucination, she chose to further gaslight Bianca by saying "Honestly Bianca you should really see someone about that" only remaining at the table to insure none of her friends would have a chance to discuss what had just occured. Instead of making a swift dramatic exit she sat thee unbothered while the rest of the group exchanged suspicious looks

Present day*

"Yes I'm aware babe but we need to let them get there on their own" Divina chuckled pulling Yoko from her thoughts. The two girls had had plenty of conversations regarding Wednesday and Enid's complete obliviousness to each others pining. It always made them laugh how obvious it was that they loved one another and of course it made for an interesting bet between the queer ladies as well.

Yoko grinned mischievously, contemplating all the ways she could meddle in their affairs.She felt like it was the right time.

"On. Their. Own. Yoko." Divina chided knowing exactly what her devious girlfriend was thinking. Honestly she was almost as uncontrollable as Wednesday when it came to her impulses.

"Don't Yoko me" she grimaced at the use of her name rather than the reaffirming 'babe' she would usually receive.

"I will Yoko you if I wanna Yoko you" she placed her hand on her hip, pulling away from the vampire to tilt her head and challenge her.

The vampire just but her lip trying to tame the beast within "Fuck You" Yoko decided to say but couldn't stop the smile that tugged at her lips.

"Please do" Divina winked flirtatiously. She then granted the vampire a lingering kiss before moving towards their friends to help set up the fair.

Yoko just stared after her slightly stunned at the response before coming to her senses and trailing after her. "Hey Wait up!" She yelled still slightly drunk on Divina's touch.

#wenclair #enid sinclair #wednesday addams #wednesday #wenclair fanfic #wednesday x enid #yokovina #yoko tanaka #divina wednesday #wenclair in denial #yoko x divina #wenclair In denial chapter 1 #bianca barclay

[thestobingirlie]

hi! i’m the anon who asked about your opinion on stancy and nancy’s selfishness a few days ago. thanks so much for your reply! i saw the tags your reblogged to that ask, and i actually wanted to add one something to the discussion.

i hope this doesn’t come across as trying to counter your answer. that’s not at all what i want to do. i actually completely agree that if nancy worked on some of here tendencies, stancy could be a pretty decent ship, and i also like the parallel of her presence wanting stve to be a beter person, and the opposite happening. i also agree that nancy’s relationships with other people have a lot of unexplored potential and that many of her issues are due to the writing.

i think the part where my opinion differs is because without the narrative supporting nancy, i have a hard time seeing stancy without steve’s anger, at least initially, about the way he was treated in their relationship. he knows nancy was using him, to an extent, when she called thier relationshp bullshit. she said they both murdered barb. steve may or may not know about the cheating, but he does know she got together with jonathan within a few days of their fight/break up, which would have raised some questions. and for me, i think this anger is as important as nancy’s grief over barb was, in that i can’t see stancy without it, in fandom or canon.

i guess robin is another example, although hostility, instead of anger, may be a better word. robin and nancy know each other as steve’s friend and steve’s ex. robn holds grudges; she was pissed at steve for eating a bagel wrong. it doesn’t make sense for her to follow around the girl who dumped him with starry eyes. i can’t really buy any of robin and nancy’s s4 friendship, because, for me, robin’s hostility should have been central to it. yes, nancy is a traumatized teen, but she's not the only traumatized teen the group.

again, i hope this doesn’t come across as me trying to counter your answer. i love your more positive takes on stancy, and i honestly think that having more positive views of characters can lead to a much better fandom experience.

i wanted to send this in more for discussion. i thought it was interesting how focusing on slightly different aspects of a character or their relationships (i.e. the potential for nancy and steve to grow vs focusing on steve's anger) could result in very different ideas on how we want their storyline to go. if you have any thoughts on this, i’d love to hear them!

thanks in advance :)

hey anon, that’s actually a really good point!!

i think when it comes to steve’s reaction to the break up at large (i’ll get into the cheating in a second), i can more forgive it than the way nancy’s actions are treated elsewhere because steve is just so totally in love with her. he can accept that he’s not the one she wants because he just wants her to be happy. which is why he steps aside. his love for nancy overrides any resentment he may feel.

i do however think as he gains distance from the relationship, he would kinda think… maybe i deserve better than that. maybe nancy shouldn’t have stuck by me if she thought we killed barb. maybe she should’ve just waited for jonathan. but i think with time and the two of them growing as people, this is totally something they can have a conversation about, and look back on more maturely etc.

but the cheating is slightly different. even if you only recognise it as more emotional cheating than physical, it’s still a major issue of steve’s. especially if the person cheating is someone he wants a long, serious relationship with. i don’t think steve would go nuclear like he did in s1, he’s grown a lot emotionally since then, and he cares a lot more for nancy, so i just don’t think he’d want to do that to her. but that doesn’t mean it wouldn’t affect him. at what point, and who he found out from would depend on how deeply he was wounded. i do think it’d probably make him take a step back, and reevaluate the relationship. and i think if it wasn’t nancy that told him, that could really have a bad impact on stancy. i kinda waver on whether i think nancy telling him in s2 vs s4 would be better. in s2 it’s a lot more raw, but at least he would know immediately. and in s4, he’s healed more from the relationship, but it’s been kept from him for so long.

but regardless (if it was one of better reveal options), i do ultimately think it’s something they could come back from. they’re young, and they’ve both made mistakes, and i think if nancy totally admitted she fucked up with the cheating, their relationship could recover. though i do think if we allowed steve to truly feel betrayed and angry, stancy wouldn’t be getting together anytime soon. at least until steve’s gotten over his mommy and daddy’s issues lmao.

and i think you’re totally right about robin too. it would make so much sense for her to hold a little grudge against nancy. for a couple reasons: 1. stancy shit. 2. nancy not knowing her at starcourt despite being in the same grade. 3. the barb shit (if we go by the books, which i wish we did!!!! makes them so much more interesting). i just think friction between robin and nancy could elicit so much growth for nancy. less so for robin i suppose, because i think a lot of her friendship with steve did that kind of work, but it would still have impact!

and don’t worry! i do really love discussions like these! focusing on characters in a more positive light is really enjoyable, but it can still be fun to pick apart the more fucked up things they’ve done. and i’m a hater at heart so ❤️ lmao

#nancy wheeler #steve harrington #robin buckley #stancy #stranger things #asks #anon

[menacetosocietyy]

If you do not mind my request, I wonder how Joey and Frank from DbD asked male!reader out? (Separately or together are okay) And what would their daily life together look like as a couple?

I'm so sorry that it took me so long. There isn't much excuse for it so I really hope that you at least enjoy what I've written.

There is a clump of words with no spaces, so for anyone that struggles with reading those I put what it says in brackets afterwards!

THE PICTURES ARE NOT MINE, CREDIT TO THE OWNERS.

Joey:

A bit romantic, and sheepish

Gets you some flowers and your favourite sweets, or favourite snacks if you don’t like sweets.

Shyly asks you while he is blushing. He took his mask off just for this.

“Y/N, I’ve uhh... I’ve had feelings for you for quite a while and… Iwasjustwonderingifyouwouldpossiblygooutwithme. It’s okay if not uhm… I hope this didn’t ruin our friendship-” (the big clump says: “I was just wondering if you would possibly go out with me.” He just says it super fast.).

You would have to cut him off from digging himself a hole because he’s so nervous and worried.

When you say yes, he has the BIGGEST smile, like a little kid on Christmas that got everything they asked for.

Will take you on the sweetest date, he listened to everything you said so he knows all your favourite things and had planned accordingly. 

It’s the most incredible date ever btw.

Such a caring boyfriend, a true simp.

Afterwards, if you guys don’t have a sleepover, he will take you home and with your consent, give you the softest, most loving kiss ever. You will have the wind knocked out of you and also become a simp.

Mutual simping proceeds.

If you do have a sleepover, at his place, he will lend you his clothes for you to wear. Cutest shit he has ever seen.

Idc if you're bigger than him, mans bought something in your size and made it smell like him, if you’re like me and allergic to cologne he just wore them until his smell was on ‘em. If not, he sprayed his cologne on them. Get fucked.

If you are a touchy person, you get ALL of the affection and cuddles while you guys watch movies or play games until you fall asleep.

If not, then you just watch movies or play games until you fall asleep. He will let you have your space because he is a respectful man.

We love this man.

The end.

PS: Makes some bomb-ass breakfast in the morning. Your favourite, obviously. The dude really did his research bc he didn’t wanna fuck it up.

Once y’all live together he’s a dream.

Will make breakfast for you both on the weekends so you can wake up to the smell of his immaculate cooking instead of the fire department (That will make sense soon).

On other mornings he would wake you up with kisses.

He makes sure to keep you out of the mess of his friend group because he doesn’t want you to get hurt.

I think he’s a decently neat person- like he’s not a clean freak but he’s not a messy person.

If you hated a chore he’d do it instead.

He’s just… thoughtful, and not afraid to show it.

Always makes sure you are absolutely okay with everything. Like what you’re going to eat, going out to do/buy, etc.

If you have a bad day he’d be the best listener. Hype you up, comfort you, and call you out gently where it’s needed. He’s the best.

Frank:

Ah, this fucker.

So he isn’t great with emotions

Isn’t great with anything at all, tbh.

Him asking you out? Nah. He demands you go out with him.

“Hey, shithead. We’re going to dinner tonight at 7PM. I’m buying. Be ready.”

No, you don’t have a say in this, in case you’re wondering.

He also did his research, but won’t admit it.

He throws in some stuff to make it seem like he totally wasn’t planning this whole thing for a week, no not at all. (Sarcasm)

Is anxiously making sure you’re enjoying yourself, but play it off because he totally gives no fucks noo not at all. (Sarcasm x2)

Grunts and looks away at any kind of affection you show him, he’s hiding his blush, dw.

VERY jealous if anyone even so much dares to look at you the wrong way. Will kiss you hard on the mouth and make eye contact with them. 

Will walk you away from them with his arm around you or just whatever you’re comfortable with (Ass preferably)

You’d have a wonderful date with him, and afterwards, it would be nearly midnight because he just wouldn’t want to let you go. But don’t let him know that you know that.

Or do, watch him get flustered and deny it. It’s funny.

Would “casually” invite you for a sleepover, like he doesn’t care or whatever (Say yes. It’s the correct answer.)

So, since you said yes, the sleepover would likely be at your place, ngl.

Would probably borrow your clothes. He looks great in them, very attractive. Menace approved.

Call him cute, he will blush and tell you to shut the fuck up.

You guys would spend the night with you underneath his arm while on the couch.

I don’t think he’s the super touchy type but he does enjoy some cuddles.

If you’re not super touchy then that's perfect! You guys can just vibe on the couch while you watch shitty horror movies (or whatever you’d like to watch).

In the morning he’d try to surprise you with breakfast which results in him: nearly burning your house down, and then telling you that you should be grateful for the burnt toast he made. He is an awful cook. 

He will pay for any damages, dw.

Once you guys settle in together, have a home together and all that jazz I think he wouldn’t change much.

Occasionally waking you up with your local fire department at your door. The usual.

He’s mostly cuddly at night, he enjoys holding you while he sleeps.

Or the other way around but he will never outright admit he likes being the little spoon sometimes.

He’s the type to randomly buy you a gift since he’s absolutely dogshit with words.

Looked at an expensive wristwatch for a little too long?

Whoops, it’s on your dresser a few days later.

Don’t ask if he paid for it, there’s a 50/50 chance of him having just stolen it.

Flynn Rider wannabe lookin’ ass.

Anyway, he’s not the most expressive, a very angry man, and can’t admit that he’s soft for you BUT- he is thoughtful.

Will make sure that if you have any pet peeves he doesn’t bother them- like let's say you hate a messy house? Well, he is a walking dumpster fire but he will begin to clean up after himself more. Not completely- but more.

He’s not the greatest listener and I do believe that if he was in a bad mood he would definitely brush you off or accidentally take it out on you, but if you had a bad day and he wasn’t in one of his moods he would listen. He’s not as good as Joey but he tries. He’d probably ask outright what you needed.

He’d also be not so great/gentle at calling you out.

Would probably ask if you need the person bothering you to “disappear”.

Give points where they’re due.

#writer #fanfic #fanfic writing #fandom #fanfic writer #fanfiction #dbd x reader #dbd headcanons #dbd fanfiction #dbd fanfic #dbd killer #joey dead by daylight #dead by daylight x reader #dead by daylight #dead by daylight killer #frank dead by daylight #frank dbd #frank morrison #frank morrison dbd #joey dbd #dbd #joey dbd x reader #x male y/n #x male reader #male reader #male!y/n #male!reader

[linettefox]

Could you do a tarot for the identities of the Wonderful Precure midseason Cures?

Absolutely! First off I have Amigo as an assistant this morning, he helped shuffle by knocking them out of my hand and tried to eat the manual. Everyone say thank you to my son.

Secondly here are your cards:

The image is a bit hard to see but I will list them now.

Present: 6 of Cups

Past: Ace of Swords

Future: The Sun

Reason: 5 of Coins

Potential: 10 of Cups

Now to go over their meanings together.

The Present

Thoughts of childhood. Nostalgia. The sweetness of memory. A desire for the old, without measuring the true worth of the past. At times, the future.

The Past

A great effort leading to an overwhelming victory. Strength, power, success and fertility. A conquest for the sake of a conquest. Excessive behavior. Deep emotion.

The Future

Satisfaction, accomplishment and success. Love and friendship. Reveling in the pleasures of life. Freedom from boredom. Happiness. New or old friends.

Reason

Trouble. Destitution. Insoluble problems with family or lovers. Failure in a goal or attempted gain.

Potential

Home and hearth. Serenity of a familiar place. All that comes with family and friends. Someone looking out for querent's (The asker's) interests.

My Interpretation

"The sweetness of memory" and "desire for the old" perhaps whoever the mid season will be has an important memory with the main cast. "Strength, power" maybe referring to the current cures and their efforts throughout the show. Maybe they rescued the mid season and that's the sweet memory of something else relating to this history. "Success", "Love and friendship" perhaps the character is someone who is already close to the main team and they successfully join their side. "Trouble" maybe the conflict that causes them to want to transform and help their friends. "All that comes with family and friends" this character must love whoever is in the main cast very much.

My best guess for the mid season even before this was Satoru and his bunny, I really want these two to be cures an interpretation the cards as leaning towards them just makes sense. However "New or old friends" maybe a new character will be introduced that has history with some other cast member and they become the mid season. Perhaps both this new character and Satoru and Daufuku all get to be cures. These are just my theories based on what is said so take what you will from it.

Interesting note about the Planetary Hour

According to the Key of Solomon which is the grimoire that kicked off my study of witchcraft and the magical arts such as tarot. The time and date for this reading was 7 am on a Friday. Which together that would be the Sun's day on the Sun's hour, and the third card I pulled for the day was The Sun. I wonder if that affects anything?

In the notes I took the magic of the Sun's day is as follows: Love, wealth, hope, gain, fortune, divination, favor of Princes, dissolve hostility, make friends.

Despite the obvious that fortune telling is stronger at this hour some of these are similar to the meaning of the cards. A lot of cards about love and friends at the hour of that magic. It's interesting.

#precure #pretty cure #tarot cards #card reading #mid season #wonderful precure #predictions #my witch arc

[beastofmoss]

Companion: Deshan Lavellan

Introduction: After meeting Mother Giselle in Hinterlands, a Dalish trader will approach the Herald-offering their services to the cause.

If the Herald is Dalish:

A Lavellan Herald will be able to set their relationship with Deshan with certain dialogue choices. If Lavellan is a mage, Deshan's younger brother -Viveras- will be the Clan's second.

Deshan's answers will be clearer or vaguer depending on the relationship set by Lavellan. They will mention that many Keepers are interested in what the Inquisition will have planned after the Breach is closed. 

If their relationship is set as friends- they will mention that they're a spy and can gather information for Leliana.

Deshan will be more open and friendly with another Lavellan. 

If Herald is non-Dalish:

Deshan will offer crafters to work with Ironbark and information-only hints at their spy position.

Deshan will call the Herald/Inquisitor by their last name unless asked otherwise.

Romance:

Deshan can be romanced by any race or gender. Flirting is possible, although romance scenes can appear after the High approval/Friendship scene. Romance can be affected by Hardening or Softening Deshan.

Hardening/Softening can be affected by five event:

The five events are: After In Your Heart Shall Burn, Two Peas in a Pod(Intro to Viveras), After Wicked Eyes and Wicked Hearts, After What Pride had Wrought, Innocence Lost (Personal quest)

I choosed 5 events due to trying to avoid what they did with Leliana(I hardened her accidentally during my first playthrough of DAI). You can choose hard options, yet get a soften Deshan-all you need to do is to make sure that 3/5 events you choose the soften option. If that makes sense?

Hardened:

 This is when Deshan will throw themselves into their work as a spy, pushing away their loved ones for the "greater good" of the elves. In a sense, they die as a person to fill their role as Spy/Assassian. If romanced, Deshan will break up with the Inquisitor. The Inquisitor can still have high approval with them, but they will emotionally close off to them (still with a warm smile on their face). They will stay with the Inqusitior between the end of the game to Trespasser, although they are working as Spy for Solas and they will join him by the end of Trespasser.

Softened:

This is when Deshan will take a step back from their work, letting their loved ones in and healing from their past trauma. If High approval, they will stay with the Inquisition, and stay by the Inquisitor's side during the two years before Trespasser. They are more emotionally open with the Inquisitor. If Romanced, Deshan can be available for marriage in Trespasser.

If neither Solas nor Deshan is romanced, they will start a relationship together. Although they will break up after What Pride had Wrought (Crestwood scene). 

If high approval and soften, The Inquisitor could comfort them. Especially after the loss of their vallaslin. 

If hardened, Deshan will just smile and assure the Inquisitor that they are fine. 

High approval V. Low approval:

Deshan's high approval scene will be them roping in the Inquisitor into stealing oranges with them and eating them out in the rain. They will talk about how during Arlathven-they stole oranges with their little brother and ate them in the rain like this. They will admit that the inquisitor surprised them and that they enjoy the inquisitor’s friendship thanking the Inquisitor.

Deshan’s low approval scene is them gently confronting the Inqusitior with a smile on their face, questioning their methods and beliefs with calm yet directed anger. They will keep their words vague, but they will threaten the Inquisitior with honeyed words. 

Personal Quest:

Two Peas in a Pod- This is where Viveras is introduced and can be added into the Inner circle. He will show up much to Deshan's surprise. Deshan will demand that Viveras return home. The Inquisitor can choose to have Viveras join (soften although with disapproval), or send him away (hardened with approval). 

Innocence Lost- Work in progress, but it's more or less confronting Deshan's guilt about deaths on their hands. When they were younger, they were set on a warpath to avenge their parents- only to realize too late the damage they have caused.

Still a wip. This will happen after What Pride had Wrought and will be determined to soften or harden Deshan.

Tarot Cards:

Deshan will start with Hanged Man. If softened, their card will be Death and if not, their card will be the Devil. 

If Deshan is softened and in a romance, their card will be Ten of Pentacles. If Deshan is hardened and in romance, their card will be Three of Swords. 

Battle Comments

Killing An Enemy:

Ir Abelas

Halam Sahlin

Ar tu na’lin emma mi

I will make this swift.

May the Dread Wolf take you!

Dirthara-ma!

Falon’Din enasal enaste.

Low Health:

I need a little help over here.

Ma halani! Help me!

I’m bleeding!

Fen’harel’s naked tit, someone help me!

Low Health Companions:

Fenedhis!

Inquisitor:

Cadash/Lavellan/Adaar/Treveylan needs help!

If romanced:

Emma lath, hold on!

Cole: 

Nene needs help!

Cole, back off!

Viveras:

Pollito come back!

Fenedhis, Viveras! Get back here.

Solas:

Solas needs help!

Solas looks paler than normal!

Dorian:

Mustache needs help!

Dorian, let me help!

Fallen Companions:

Inquisitor:

Cadash/Lavellan/Adaar/Treveylen’s down!

You okay?

If romanced:

I won’t let them take you!

Stay with me, emma lath!

Don’t leave me!

Viveras:

Pollito, I told you to stay back!

Fenedhis, Viveras-stay with me!

I can’t lose you, too!

Cole:

Cole’s down!

Cole! 

We’re almost done, Cole, hold on!

Solas:

Solas, I told you to back off!

Fen’harel’s naked tit, Solas!

Stay with me!

If Solas/Deshan romanced:

Emma lath, hold on!

I won’t let them take you!

Stay with me, please!

Dorian:

Dorian!

Hold on, Dorian, I’ll get you!

#deshan lavellan #im so mentally ill #i love thinking of my blorbos as companions for stuff #:D #dragon age inquisition #dragon age #? #a bit of #solavellan

[kidfoundonstreets]

i'm glad to hear you enjoyed the coffin of andy and leyley, as well as no-good noelle! sorry for only just getting back to you on this—it completely slipped my mind until now

i agree that it was definitely a delight to see the improvements in tcoaal compared to earlier games, and yes! it was very much made in rpgmaker. i'm ALWAYS a massive sucker for comic panel-styled cgs

and i think what andrew meant by discarding andy and leyley to die in the coffin was him essentially. swearing to drop the power imbalance he and ashley once had as children and instead have the both of them stand on equal footing? i'm not sure, but that's what it read to me.

as for the parasite thing—who knows? nemlei apparently did go through with making a continuation to this game, so maybe we'll learn more about it there. the fact they're siblings roughly around the same age is also so tastefully fucked up by the way because like… how do i explain it. siblings usually live together ever since childhood so they have more time to affect each other growing up, and there's ALSO this general """agreement""" that family should always be your no. 1 priority when it comes to the people you choose to keep in your life or whatever, so it's like. yeah

(this is NOT meant in a weird way btw i'm a youngest sibling with two older sisters myself)

anyways yule nogoodnoelle is built different and i would drench him in milk until he's sopping wet before slamming him against the wall. real. 💯

DONT WORTRY ABOUT IT!! i apologize for the laytre response as well :3

discussing this with you is v fun i love hearing your thoughts on it,,

the equal footing makes a lot more sense! it literally says in the description of the game "co-dependency" and discarding how it's been for years is just so. well took a couple murders to get to that moment but yk (it was also mentioned i think they've had these types of arguments before and i find that interesting though im sure its never gone this far) anyway it also reminds me of a song called Evelyn Evelyn. don't know how well that works though. i need to stop getting off track

stuck with eachother and moving towards something that doesn't have the other as a doormat or the other as the boss . i don't know how possible that is for them but if there is a continuation id love to see it <3

heyy youngest kids gang. the "agreement" of family being no.1 priority and the same ages.. i didnt even think of thst but aaa. "your priority should be me!" as the rules say aswell its also like andy since the start his personality wasnt stronger than leyleys anyway he ended up as the quick go to (you live with him, it feels like obligation, he's as bendable as a rubber band) and i guess there's a line of friendship and family that is hard to clear unless you get rid of all the formalities and morals- which is also like. not only are your lives centered around your family now it also could be centered around a stranger,, but once that person is gone it'll forever have a gaping hole you can't get rid of unless theyre back. because youve known them so long. adapting to everything especially the tough situations that argumens and misunderstandings make your bond stronger

i dont know what im saying or what that means but i will eat your ideas ok

that's one of the most perfect descriptions of yule you get it you literally do. playing ivys route made me feel dirty after goig throigh all of yules bullshit (i would willingly click play on him again while insulting him)

#chris no looksie #long post

[forabeatofadrum]

Trope Grading game

Thank you @artsyunderstudy for the tag. This is fun.

Rules: How much do these tropes affect your decision to click on a fic?

-10 -> very dissuaded

0 - don’t care either way

+10 -> very enticed

nope -> if it’s a hard no and you’d never click on a fic with that tag or or you even have the tag blocked or you’d insta click out of the fic if it wasn’t tagged

Bonus points for explaining the rating and whether it’s conditional.

Age gap: -10

Define age gap. I don't think I will actively look for it, regardless of age gap, but what kind of age gap does matter. Obviously, I am not fond of, for example, one of them being 16 and the other being 26, but one being 26 and the other 36? Sure. As I always say, it's not about the amount of years, but whether people are in a similar moment in life.

Codependency: +5

Okay, yeah, remember how fiction is all about exploring themes that would be a big no no in real life? This is one of them. I am such a sucker for fics that explore codependency, especially since it can be quite toxic or it can stem from, for example, of inadequacy which... give me ANGST.

Or also, what happens when people seem to be different in how much of themselves they want to give? Like, with Klaine, I am a big "Kurt needs to learn how to let people in and Blaine needs to learn to care for himself" truther.

Obsession/Possessiveness, jealousy: +3

Kinda same thing as what I wrote above, but somehow I am less interested in it. I like to explore it if it stems from some internal conflict. As Ashton said, Simon's jealousy come from his own insecurities and I eat that shit up, but I would never think it's a cutesy thing.

Opposites (grumpy/sunshine etc): +5

Yeah, sure. I like the idea that people compliment each other, but I also like the idea of having a lot in common. So I do like it, but I am not nuts about it.

Enemies to lovers, Enemies with benefits: +5

"I don't really care for enemies to lovers" I say, as I ship Snowbaz and Firstprince and Zimbits.

I mean, it depends on what constitutes as enemies. If "enemies to lovers" is just being used as a way to have two terrible people forcibly end up together, then no thanks. It needs to make sense. It needs to show how people and the relationships evolve.

Enemies with benefits.... meh. Not really? Feels kinda weird to group these two categories together, since they're wildly different and I am just not into this one. Mostly. Sure. I mean, I do flail over Restoration Ecology by @captain-aralias. I cannot shut the fuck up about that fic and Simon thinks of Baz as his enemy so you know.

Friends with benefits: -5

No thanks. Not opposed to it, but just not for me.

Sex to feelings: still figuring it out

Can I redirect you to this long ass reply that I wrote about how my entire feelings with smut is *cha cha real smooth* super weird at the moment and also the main reason I am not into friends/enemies with benefits but how I am slowly, like, accepting (it makes sense if you read the post) that I do like smut when there's feelings?

Fake dating/relationship: -5

Honestly, I never got this trope. I don't hate it. I don't think it's a bad thing, I just never liked it that much and I didn't get the appeal and it's been done.

Friends to lovers: +10

OH YEAH. I am a big "date your best friend" believer. I think friendship can be a great foundation for romantic love and my angst loving ass also likes the whole "but will this ruin it?" stuff, although that has been a bit overdone, but also, two cakes principle.

Found Family: +10

I AM SUCH A BITCH FOR FOUND FAMILY WHY ELSE DO YOU THINK I ALWAYS TRY TO GIVE MY CHARACTERS A GROUP OF FRIENDS IN FICS.

There are so many goddamn good fanfics with this trope BUT the first one that comes to mind is like a handprint on my heart by @alphacrone, like this fic wrecked me to no end (affectionate).

Hurt/Comfort: +10

YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEES

Love Triangle: -10

Fucking hate this. Sorry. I do. Well, not sorry, actually, because I think the media's obsession with love triangles is so fucking tiring anyway and I often find the dilemma to be widely stupid and not fun to read. This is why I am a big fan of shows like Sense8, The Legend of Korra, and Ted Lasso who ended their big love triangle stories in an unexpected way. More of that please, but then technically speaking it wouldn't be a love triangle.

Poly, open relationships: -5

Offline, in real life, I am not opposed to poly stuff, and in media I am all for more poly rep, but I am just one of those people who cannot multiship for life. So it depends on whether the ship/character in question is already poly, if that makes sense. I know I just said I like how Ted Lasso just fucking did nothing, but give me that good Roy/Jamie/Keeley shit, but for the love of God stay away from Klaine or Snowbaz with someone else.

Mistaken/hidden identity: 0

Hm, I wrote an entire fic about catfishing and how it's a messed up way to start a relationship since you don't really know the person in question. I think it can be interesting, and even comedic, but it really depends on how the fake identity came to be.

Monsterfucking: none

No thanks, but again, this has more to do with me not liking smut. Mostly. Again, I made a whole ass post about it. Idk, if you're just starting to figure out what you like, monsterfucking feels too daunting. Nope.

Pregnancy: none

No thanks. Mpreg is a big no for me and also just pregnancy in general is meh. Don't like it. Like many things on this list, I am not, like "morally opposed" to it, I just do not vibe with it at all.

Second Chance: +100000

BUT I DO FUCKING VIBE WITH THIS I AM SO FUCKING DOWN FOR THE REUNION FIC TROPE I ALWAYS SAY IT'S MY FAVOURITE. As much as I think it is a good thing for couples to work shit through as a couple, I am such a bitch for the idea of people finding themselves and growing as a person without the idea of being tied to someone AND then they fall in love with these improved versions of the other and also relearn to love the person they used to be. God yeah, I love this crap. Sign me up.

There are a lot of *chef's kiss* reunion fics in the world, but I need to give a shout out to the Woods verse by @flowerfan2, which I need to reread soon because I recently fell into the Into the Woods 2022 rabbit hole.

Slowburn: +7

I say I like it, but I am also impatient. But yeah, it is definitely something I would click on.

Soulmates: 0

Hm. Mixed bag, mostly since, like fake dating, it has become such a been there done that thing in my head. Oh, the world becomes colourful! Oh, you can write on your body and it shows up on the other's body. Oh, tattoos of your lover's first words! Oh, red string! (I keep saying I do want to write a soulmate fic where I fuck with these ideas, but idk how yet.)

So I don't actively click on it, but that being said, I love fics that throw what we know of soulmate fics out of the window or give their own spin to it. The Check, Please! fandom has some really good ones, especially with the angst potential of Jack "dying" in 2009. A really good one is i'll see you with your laughter lines, also written by @alphacrone. If you want a less angsty one, Those Tangled Olive Threads of Fate by @mcbangle is a hilarious way to fuck with the "red string" trope.

Anyway, thanks for reading. I am fucking tired now. I should sleep. And I am lazy because of it so I will tag everyone who wants to do it.

#tag game

[kimium]

For the character ask meme: Joker (Fire Force), Stanley (Dr. Stone), and Dazai (BSD)💜🥰

(From this ask meme HERE)

Thanks for the ask, friend! Let's get started! This is long, so the rest is under a cut. Also, there are some spoilers for my answers, so tread carefully!

Joker (Fire Force)

Sexuality headcanon

I think Joker is demisexual. Being raised as a solider for the Church of Sol, Joker wasn't encouraged to consider himself as a person. Thus, he never really experienced exploring his sexuality. Nor do I think it was something on his mind as a priority. Though, Joker fully understands carnal desires and physical attraction, but he's met pretty people who are horrible monsters. So, personality and a deeper connection matter the most to him, especially since Joker also wasn't able to form deep, personal connections until he left the church.

2. OTP

Joker/Licht. I've discussed this OTP at great lengths in other asks, but I'll sum my thoughts up quickly. Both Joker and Licht have a sense of justice and a desire to execute their justice by any means necessary. This doesn't mean they don't have morals, but they're not afraid to get their hands dirty or stick their necks out for their ideals. Then, there is the fact the two worked as partners before teaming up with Company 8. Joker had opportunities to learn about Licht and see the fire and passion in his heart and soul, something Joker would find attractive.

3. BROTP

Joker and Benimaru. They're both cut from the same "fuck the Church of Sol" cloth and both aren't afraid to go on their own and trash the church together. Sure, their personalities might clash, especially since Benimaru is prickly to anyone except Konro (and Company 8), but they respect one another and that leads to a friendship.

4. NOTP

I don't know... Captain Burns, maybe? I mean, I can see where that comes from: Captain Burns is one of the first people to give hope and companionship to Joker. They both share the experience of and Adolla Burst/seeing the Evangelist, thus both losing the opposite eye of one another. However, Burns is so much older than Joker, so I think their relationship is more mentor/student or father/son.

5. First headcanon that pops into my head

Joker loves hard candies, especially sour ones like lemon or citrus flavours. This stems from him not able to eat sweets growing up and only discovering them once he left the church. If he's trying to stop his smoking habit, I think he'd use lollipops to help. (Not that I think the smoke affects his lungs. My other headcanon is: Joker can control everything he smokes and uses his abilities to keep his lungs clean. He'd only stop smoking because he doesn't want to give Licht second-hand smoke.)

6. Favourite line from this character

I tried to think of one, but couldn't. The line I sort of remember (and had to look up) is this line: "I'm 'The Midnight Thinker.' I'm 'The Smoker.' I'm 'The Joker.'" There probably is another line, but I'm blanking.

7. One way in which I relate to this character

I relate strongly to Joker's desire to want to change things for the better. While I'm not an extremist like Joker, I understand wanting to burn all the bad parts of society to ashes. Sometimes we need destruction to bring about change.

8. Thing that give me second hand embarrassment about this character

Uh, nothing that I can think of? There are moments to Joker that make me uncomfortable though, but those aren't his fault.

9. Cinnamon Roll or Problematic Fave?

I don't think Joker fits neatly into these categories, but if we make this a spectrum then he skews closer to Problematic Fave.

Stanley (Dr. Stone)

Sexuality headcanon

Stanley is gay AF in my heart. He's super comfortable with his sexuality and how he presents himself too! Stanley may appear a little more "feminine" and enjoys aspects that society deems "feminine" such as lipstick and make-up, but he will not change those parts of himself. Which I think is wonderful, especially since Stanley is in the military.

2. OTP

Stanley/Xeno. Look, they canonically knew each other as children (which I am going to read as childhood best friends) and that instantly adds bonus points for me. Then, the way Stanley tried to protect Xeno when the petrification wave spread across the world??? Where he was frozen, his fingertips grazing Xeno's cheek? That's gay, Stanley. Also, he kept his mind going by trusting in Xeno for over 3,000 years. Again, that's gay, Stanley.

3. BROTP

I think Stanley gets along excellently with Dr. Brody! Mostly because I think Dr. Brody is a Family Man and Stanley loves talking about Xeno, so the two can exchange stories about their respective partners (and in Dr. Brody's case, children because I headcanon he has at least two kids).

4. NOTP

Uh... I guess Senku since most people want to pair Senku off with everyone? I think it's unnecessary since Stanley already has his "Senku" (Xeno) and even though Senku is an adult when they meet timeline wise, he'd still view Senku as a child... a child he's going to ADOPT.

5. First headcanon that pops into my head

Stanley and Xeno were married before the events of the manga. Stanley has his wedding ring tattooed on his finger (and a ring on a chain). He doesn't reveal this to anyone until after the petrification event. So basically, the fic I wrote two years ago LOL.

6. Favourite line from this character

"There's probably no dodging the petrifying light, but... the real battle begins afterwards! Don't let your minds fade!!"

What I like about this line is, they are experiencing something horrific and terrifying: the unknown petrification light. Yet, in his last moments before the light hits, Stanley thinks about his comrades, the people he commands. It shows he's a caring person who thinks of others, even when he knows they can do nothing. Also, this is the scene where he's trying to protect Xeno with that hand to his face... so romantic...

7. One way in which I relate to this character

I relate to his undying and unyielding trust in Xeno. Stanley is not a man of science to the degree Xeno and Senku are. Half of what Xeno says Stanley doesn't understand, but he trusts Xeno and his knowledge. So, if Xeno asks Stanley to do something Stanley doesn't question it and acts in faith. I trust people's expertise and have no problems following what they say should they need me to help or assist.

8. Thing that give me second hand embarrassment about this character

Stanley is a professional sniper and military man yet in his arc he still allows his husband to be kidnapped by a bunch of rag-tag teenagers/young adults. That's so funny, yet so embarrassing for Stanley.

9. Cinnamon roll or Problematic Fave?

Uh, Stanley is cleanly in the middle of the spectrum for me. He's not quite a cinnamon roll but he's not quite a problematic fave. He's just an interesting and fun character.

Dazai Osamu (Bungou Stray Dogs)

Sexuality headcanon

Dazai is either bi/pan with a strong incline towards men. And by men I mean Chuuya. I also think he only forms bonds with those he truly respects and admires, so while he may be fine with any gender, that doesn't mean he's already ready to form romantic relations.

2. OTP

SOUKOKU (Dazai/Chuuya). I've talked about this OTP in great lengths in another ask meme, but Oh Boy do I ship these two HARD. They're two sides of the same coin, opposite yet the same. They have unwavering trust towards the other, yet the other is "the worst pain in the ass" to them. They have both married and divorced energy x5. They're arguing one second and making out passionately the next. God, I love them.

3. BROTP

Dazai/Odasaku. There is just something so sweet and languid about their friendship. Both soften each other's edges, with Odasaku helping ease some of the pain and hardness in Dazai's heart. They're both cut from the same cloth, but Odasaku found peace and tranquility faster and easier than Dazai. Truly, I think their love transcends time and space in a way that makes it both the most romantic yet the most unconditional platonic love in the series. (I also ship them, but not to the soul crushing degree of Soukoku. Though, I am not opposed to an OT3 with Dazai/Chuuya/Odasaku.)

4. NOTP

I have two for Dazai.

First one is Dazai/Kunikida. I know people like the whole "bickering" aspect to them, but I think unlike Chuuya, who can keep up with Dazai and has found ways to cope with Dazai's BS, Kunikida can't. For Kunikida I think Dazai would actually drive him to madness should Dazai so choose. That kind of dynamic isn't something I'm interested in.

Next is Dazai/Atsushi. Again, I get why people may like this: the whole mentor/pupil aspect the two have is cute. I like that Dazai is the one to give Atsushi a chance and a home, but while Atsushi really isn't too much younger than Dazai, to me Dazai is more of a mentor to Atsushi and nothing more.

5. First headcanon that pops into my head

Dazai and Chuuya got married for a mission and since they never nullified the documentation, they're technically still married. Dazai remembers this but Chuuya does not. This causes Dazai to mercilessly tease Chuuya about "forgetting their wedding".

(Oh also, they 100% fucked after their scene in Dead Apple.)

6. Favourite line from this character

I have two lines and they both come from the same episode.

"He's the one with the strongest power, and he acts like a sheep in the eyes of a wolf."

"He has the ability to choose for himself how to use his power. Even a kid could figure that much out."

The first quote relates to how Chuuya interacts with the two members. They're tying him down, making him feel guilty for not using his abilities for their benefit. Chuuya should be in control, but he isn't. I love how in an instant, Dazai sees a problem and instead of ignoring it, helps Chuuya out.

After Dazai releases the hostages, giving the Port Mafia nothing to blackmail Chuuya over, he tells the Sheep members that they are treating Chuuya like a tool for their own benefit and are acting selfishly when Chuuya makes a choice for himself. In an instant, Dazai grants Chuuya, someone I think he's grown to respect more than others around him, autonomy.

Dazai can see Chuuya has never had the freedom to do what he wants and he deserves at least that much since Chuuya is not a tool; he's human and I think Dazai is one of the first people to truly see Chuuya as Chuuya and nothing else.

7. One way in which I relate to this character

Dazai has a lot of inner loneliness and I can relate to that. While our sources of loneliness aren't the same, I understand there are times I don't feel like I can connect with others and it makes me sad.

8. Thing that give me second hand embarrassment about this character

Any time Dazai flirts with a woman on screen. Like, I know this is in tune with the IRL inspiration of Dazai Osamu himself, but Dazai... you're married to Chuuya.

I'm kidding. I don't really have a lot of second hand embarrassment regarding Dazai.

9. Cinnamon roll or Problematic Fave?

He's 100% a problematic favourite. Without a doubt if you opened up a dictionary for "problematic favourite" he'd be one of the many characters listed underneath.

#personal #replies #ask meme #character ask meme #fire force #dr stone #bungou stray dogs #feel free to ask me more if you want

[princess-pill-enjoyer]

I didn't think I'd really need to come back here after everything. It's so stupid. My dad has given me my own weed and it is way stronger than the pills. So many different ways it affects me. But I've been mostly sober since the attempt that started all this. Ig partially out of respect.. I feel like it wouldn't be fair to my parents if I continue my junkie ways after they had to listen to me scream and yell about how I felt trapped and then when things open up, boom still doing it

I dunno if that makes sense tbh.. lemme know ik I suck at explaining things correctly.

Anyway I've been sober 99% of the time since. I kinda don't like smoking as much now. It made my teeth hurt and I hallucinate when I get high. It's nothing crazy no where near as vivid the dph hallucinations get ofc. Tho it still scares me so bad. It can range anywhere to a few small & constant noises that makes everything hard to hear unless I'm focusing to hallucinations that put me in a state of delusion. I get so scared about ts I can't move. 9 times out of 10 I get this weird feeling someone or something is there and if I make a sound they'll come up to me. Those are the worst feeling ones dude I know there's no reason for me to assume anything is there but I just stiff up and cry as quietly as I can until I can work up the courage to check if they're "still there"

I used to do that when I was coming down from benadryl actually. I'd be too forgetful to be scared of anything like that mid high but all hell broke once it was wearing off

It makes me so annoyed. It makes me wonder if that's something I'll just have to deal with from here on or should I just stay sober from here on and hope for the best. It all makes me miss the pills so fucking bad. I was taking those for so long and it just felt like I knew pretty much anyway they'd effect me atp. It was straightforward

Dph made my heartbeat harder -> also made my heart sore when I'm not on it

The pills dehydrated me -> annnd if I took it too far, I'd go acidic and jaundice (which im ngl happened way more often than I wanted to admit.. when I tried to od again in December I was quite literally neon!)

Taking so many at once making my stomach have to dissolve anywhere from four to high twenties worth of pills at a time -> which led my stomach to get irritated and eager to get that shit out and made various issues there

But now? What. I don't even have anyway to measure so it's just a thing of.. o guess it kicked in, ig I can't hear rn. Oop dang ig I got too high now I physically have to focus on not freaking out over something that is not fucking happening. Oh what ig these stupid fucking edibles make my head hurt instead of making me high. Fun!!

I'm so over this shit. Im trying so hard to stay away. I didn't like dph after a while. You can scroll back and see so many things I hated about it. And yet I think about it every single day. I miss it so much. I used to be able to take a few pills and then poof blank out for a little while. As long as I took care after the fact, I'd be mostly fine. But now I have to deal with the unpredictability of my own mind or whatever nonsense I have to feel when I smoke/eat edibles

R has been really bumpy for me too. I don't know why like.. I've really been happy about our friendship lately. I feel like seeing how fucked up I had to be to my parents to make them listen gave me a new appreciation for her. I haven't blown up at her in a while but omfg I've done it a lot throughout our time together. Tho, she's still here for me. Nothing really changed. And I love her for that. I'm really just a random person online fr. At any point she could just decide she's fed up with me and ghost. But she endured my nonsense and still pushed me to look at things different. I never know how to bring that up without sounding like it's a romantic thing

Which has been eating at me so bad as of late. I don't know what th I feel towards her. If im still in love I wouldn't be shocked but it feels different from how I felt before the whole blowup a lil bit after she broke up with her ex. She's my safe space but she is also kinda fucked up to me sometimes. But I really can't help myself. I still worry about her all the time, I genuinely try to know everything and anything going on with her wherever possible, and I let so much go unspoken not blowing up and trying to keep her perspective in mind where I can.. I want her to not have to worry sm I hate that my presence has become a double edged sword. I love her so much it's become overbearing and hard to hide. I know it makes her feel pressure to hide stuff to keep up appearances/impressions. Shit sucks. It makes me feel like I'm in a parent's position atp..

Tho all that being said I feel like she still interprets my actions as some elaborate way to make her like me. Or me tryna be nice so that she falls in love with me. Some shit. And ik that sounds so paranoid and baseless but its been a pattern atp.

Everytime I get cheery and tryna treat her like ya know, my best friend, its like she takes that shit diff and mentions her ex as a way to tell me to back off. And I don't get it. Like no dummy I'm not excitedly talking about shit to lure you in YOU ARE MY FRIEND. MY CLOSESTTT. I know that she won't judge me for me and since she knows me so well, I rarely have to give too much of a backstory to talk about anything. It's nice. And I guess I abuse that privilege a lot. Maybe I should be better about not running to her about everything. But then like me being concerned and interested about what she's up to makes her do it as well. She briefly got with someone else (they've already broken up she ain't getting a codename 🥴) and I noticed her using her for that purpose too for a bit. Well. Before she got annoyed with her existence lolol

But yeah anyway like.. has that pattern already been there and I haven't noticed? Am I overthinking this action too hard and twisting it? It's frustrating me so bad cause I don't get why she interprets it like that. Am I just so oblivious I don't see how obviously in love I am and she's tryna push me out of that...? Or is she being self destructive and can't view my love as anything but manipulation.

Confessing to her has become one of my biggest regrets. It changed so much I hate myself for believing I was in lala land. Stupid fucking girl. All I could see was how much I liked talking wth her and it just slipped out. I didn't realize just how many fucking consequences it'd bring after the fact. I feel like im constantly dancing around shit. I wish I never said anything. Im so tired of having to study my every action to make sure I don't seem too eager to speak. I forget it happened some days but it feels like that's all she sees me as. I don't understand what to do atp. I don't want to lose her, we are completely ride or die aside from this. But my GOD I CANT TAKE IT. I feel like it's become such a giant elephant and it's going to rift everything once it's brought up. I don't want to piss her off and lose her for good

Between her and my ex.. I lowkey think I'm done with the whole romance thing this feeling is the absolute worst. Any time I express that myself in that way I come out of it feeling so stupid. It stings so much worse this time around. Least with my ex even though the shit only lasted a few months IT HAPPENED. I feel crazy feeling this exact same stupid feeling with someone I haven't even dated before. And for me to feel WORSE.. HOW?? I've avoided dating specifically so I wouldn't feel this way and then I stumbled and did the shit AGAIN! Let myself fall into even deeper feelings with someone that didn't even like me. Again. And I'm stinging worse than I ever was before. Crazy. I hope I never like anyone again.

I've been feeling blank as of late. Even with my family life improving and my health improving I still feel empty. The same I did before. It feels like now I'm performing a different role, but still feel the same. It felt so good to have everything in the open and finally dropping dph for good (probably) originally. But I really feel no better now that the dust has settled. Everything just shifted some

I try to be more open and honest about myself and what I feel but the central issues I don't know how to express. It feels unfair to air that shit out to R, my family or any of my friends since I know I won't believe them. It's so easy to say the right thing. So easy to assure me you love me. You care. But do you mean it? Or are you saying it because that's what you're "expected" to say and do? I dont trust a word out any of their mouths when it comes to shit like that. Looking at their unconscious actions and how and what they say feels like the most honest view of their thoughts. And a whole lot of that made me feel the way I feel. What's words going to fix when I can physically SEEE AND HEAR all the shit proving otherwise replaying in my head? Why listen to you try to cover your own ass when the evidence is already there? We both see the cards on the table. There's no point trying to sway me into looking at them different.

But I feel bad not being able to shake that sense. I know part of my thinking is irrational. It's fucked up I can't listen and change my view. It's like theyre speaking to a brick wall. It's almost like they can never fuck up since I can't let ts go once I've noticed it. I try to keep myself together because of that. I hate the grandiose acting I have to do to get through the day

I won't lie. I really sit there and wish I would've died that day. It's like ever since that last time ever since I got all my ducks in a row and decided I'm okay with no taking part in life, it suddenly made everything feel tedioussss. It gets on my nerves so bad I've been so angry. I wish I would've just kept my mouth shut and let things finally crumble down on its own so I could be left to pop pills til I either got it right and ended myself or guzzle em until I fucked myself up so bad I'd die without my intervention 💀💀

None of this seems to be worth it and I'm kinda over it. I made my decision. It fucking sucks that I'm still being forced along this stupid junk when I already decided it was all worthless. I wish I could hide away and just stop participating in society. Never talk again. Never play another game. Never spend a single cent. Just total isolation. I wish all the games I play were single player so no one would think to chat with me while we're playing. I wish the world was filled with robots so that I could go in and out of a store without thinking bout if the employees are thinking I'm stealing or wondering if anyone thinks I look as cool as I think I look

I wish it were just a lil bubble just for me. Go into a store, grab what I want, walk out. Dress up anywhere and take 10000 pictures that no one'll see. But idc cause i look so prettyyy and I like seeing myself in all my cute lil outfits. Eat what I want and how weirdly I want without people looking at me crazy. I swear it's all doable but it all feels like I'd have to completely ignore the outside world for me to be happy. Even shit like having to say good morning to my parents or thank you to someone holding the door open for me pisses me off. When I'm not in the mood for speaking, I aint in the mood for any and all speaking no matter how small. And lately uh it's been all I feeling

I don't know why I don't feel the motivation to try to kill myself again. Ig I don't even care enough to atp. I've been so over it now. I've been feeling kinda apathetic to everything to a degree. Not that it hasn't been nice to have clarity on everything. But I don't care to fix any of it anymore. I was done that day i tried to kill myself you know? Being here still didn't really change anything in my perspective. If I had a button right in front of me that'd instantly end me 100% guaranteed I'd put on a nice lil outfit then push that shit with a swiftness

I'd be shocked if don't end up relapsing atp. I'm tired of thinking

#dph addiction #dph #benadryl #diphenhydramine #vent #excessively long

[hopingforjustice]

* 𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐜𝐚𝐧𝐨𝐧𝐬.

NAME. Sugimoto Reimi. ROMANTIC ORIENTATION. Panromantic. PREFERRED PET NAMES. Angel is her favorite! Babe, darling, honey, sweetheart, gorgeous are great too. Something cute in their mother tongue if they are foreigners. RELATIONSHIP STATUS. Single by default. FAVORITE CANON SHIP. N/A. FAVORITE NON-CANON SHIP. I love all my ships and how diverse and interesting they are: from part 3, 4 and 5, canon and OCs, AUs and even crossovers! So it’s hard to choose just one, but I will say Okuyasu x Reimi because it was the first ship I thought of when I started writing, there’s not much content but some fanarts and fanfics melt my heart. I'm pretty open-minded though, as long as there is chemistry between the muses, I can easily ship her with virtually anyone. OPINION ON TRUE LOVE. The best thing that can ever happen to someone! Reimi loves having couples around her, she thinks it's beautiful to see them interacting and dreams of the day when she can do the same thing. She believes there's a person out there for everyone that will love their strengths, weaknesses and everything in between from the day they meet until the day they die. Idealistic to a fault, but remember that she is still, for all intents and purposes, a teenager, and a very romantic girl too. OPINION ON LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT. All sorts of things that can result in a classic fairy tale are valid to her. Although love at first sight is a classic, Reimi prefers another concept called Koi No Yokan — a Japanese phrase about 'the premonition of love', the feeling upon first meeting someone that you will inevitably fall in love with them. In other words, love at second sight! It makes sense since she can't see herself falling in love with someone she doesn't have a connection with. In the long run, friendship is the foundation upon which all lasting relationships are built. HOW ROMANTIC ARE THEY? A hopeless romantic and proud of it. Reimi is a cliché when it comes to love; in fact, she looks forward to the day when something like this happens. Being in a relationship, having a unique person by her side that completes her in every way and together being happy forever are her golden dreams. Of course, things are a little more difficult now, but she never gave up hope. Fate has a fair share of responsibility as well so she just lets things happen naturally, doing her best to stay alert to the signs and keeping her heart open no matter what comes. IDEAL PHYSICAL TRAITS. Beauty can take many, many forms, but she has a thing for taller people and long legs, delicate hands and soft skin, dark hair and bright eyes, a charming smile that puts another one on her face every single time. IDEAL PERSONALITY TRAITS. Kindness but knowing the moments to say no, even to her. Honesty but not the harsh type, everything can be said but be mindful when it comes to your words. A strong resolve is always appealing to her heart, since she is the definition of a dreamer. Loyalty above all, through good and bad times. UNATTRACTIVE PHYSICAL TRAITS. She can find beauty in most physical appearances and doesn't sidestep someone based upon their looks alone, but a total lack of hygiene will put her off for sure. UNATTRACTIVE PERSONALITY TRAITS. Cruelty and needless pettiness, being an unpleasant presence just because they can. Excessive pride or superiority, making her feel underestimated or unable to do something on her own. Reimi cannot stand injustice of any sort, more than anything. IDEAL DATE. A beautiful place, a cherished person by her side, enough time for deep conversations and an opportunity for a little physical affection... Romantic walks. Just walking around while they talk about everything and get to know each other better. Natural landscapes are ideal, especially beaches or parks, places calm enough so one can understand the words of the other. A break to eat something, preferably sweet and then accompany her 'home'. She will probably ask them to stay a little longer and sit anywhere to continue the conversation for hours. DO THEY HAVE A TYPE? Reimi has a soft spot for people honest with themselves, who act more with the heart than the brain despite the consequences. Someone who has emotions and isn't afraid to show them, because for sure she doesn't think twice before doing this. They don't have to be the talkative type, she can keep the conversation going on her own very well — but it's essential that they are good listeners. Deep down she is a bit spoiled, so she wants to be treated like a princess. AVERAGE RELATIONSHIP LENGHT. She has never had a significant other but Reimi isn’t the sort to settle for short relationships, investing into romance with the intention to make it last. However, she is aware of the complications of dating a ghost — so she enjoys what she has with her partner as much as possible and if they end things between them she would respect their decision. PREFERRED NON-SEXUAL INTIMACY. Holding hands. Expressing affection through physical closeness comes naturally to her, so it's the quickest way to make her feel loved and appreciated. Reimi is well aware that her ghostly nature makes things complicated, and that can discourage people from touching her — but that’s precisely why such a simple gesture becomes so precious. The best way to make her feel respected is to show her that you don’t care about what she is, only who she is. COMMITMENT LEVEL. Reimi gives her entire self into her relationships and with romance it would be no different. Completely loyal to her partner, she is capable of devotion beyond recognition. The one who wins her heart will be rewarded with the greatest and most dedicated love of all. OPINION OF PUBLIC AFFECTION. Depends on the environment, if there are only common people around it might look awkward for her partner. In the presence of friends, she expresses her affection through small gestures: holding hands while talking, wiping a strand of hair away from their face or tucking a lock behind their ear, pressing a gentle kiss to their cheek or temple... She doesn't need a special reason, just because they can and want is more than enough for her.  PAST RELATIONSHIPS? Nothing official, the closest thing to it was the guy she had her first kiss with — a bad experience that made her avoid love affairs for quite a while. Reimi met nicest boys later on, had a few dates here and there, but that's it. Kissed a girl once and had mixed feelings about it, she is okay with her sexuality nowadays.

#( ✥ ghost stories. / headcanons. ) #( it's time for some romance 😌 )

[basicsofislam]

BASICS OF ISLAM: Fasting: What are the benefits of fasting for the society?

a. Fasting ensures the unity and harmony of society

Fasting (especially when observed in Ramadan) leads to a positive change in the attitudes of the believers towards each other. 

The sense of empathy it invokes helps the faster understand other people better and makes it easier for them to make friends and socialize. The usual activities of Ramadan that are common to all believers, such as fasting during the same month, waiting for the time to break the fast in the evening, congregational Tarawih Prayers observed in the mosque after breaking the fast, and getting up at night to have the pre-dawn meal (sahur) before beginning the fast all foster the brotherhood and affection among the believers. In particular, the Night of Power (Laylat al-Qadr) and the Eid celebration (Eid al-Fitr) at the end of Ramadan strengthen the social ties among believers.

Allah’s Messenger says:

“The similitude of believers in regard to mutual love, affection, and fellow-feeling is that of one body; when any limb aches, the whole body aches because of sleeplessness and fever.”

Therefore, believers feel themselves to be the limbs of one body and this feeling strengthens the solidarity and friendship in the community.

Actually, during Ramadan all members of a family sit at the table and wait together for the time to break the fast; in Islam it is recommended that all family members sit at the dining table together. Inviting relatives, friends, neighbors and even strangers to iftar (the meal that one eats to break the fast) is highly recommended as well. Friends converse and wait together for the same event, and experience the same feelings. They feel tenderhearted toward each other, and in fact toward all living beings, because of the hunger they feel. They have neither time nor energy for enmity or grudges. These affectionate feelings continue after Ramadan, for fasting is a period of training.

b. Fasting raises awareness of the situation of the poor

Fasting teaches the rich, who eat good, nutritious food and never suffer from hunger, what hunger is. 

When they stay hungry and thirsty for a period they begin to think about the poor and feel empathy for them. The rich then desire to help the poor and needy, as fasting makes it possible for them to empathize with the poor and to see the hard and challenging conditions they live in. On the other hand, because of the kindness and compassion of the rich, the poor are less likely to feel envy and hatred toward those who are better off. Thus, a change of attitude on both sides can occur. The enmity between both social strata can be brought to an end in this way with peace and security prevailing in society. The idea of restoring social justice, security, and peace so easily is quite exciting as well as being difficult to believe. However, this is a fact based on experience and on the teachings of Islam.

The Messenger of Allah says:

“Those who are full while their neighbors are hungry are not of us.”

It is clear that there is deep wisdom in obeying the rules prescribed by Allah and carrying out such acts of worship that have many personal and social benefits, even if only some of these benefits have been made known to us. Abstaining from food not only makes us healthy, but also makes us a perfect member of the community.

c. Fasting develops dignity

People who have persevered against hardships, such as hunger and thirst, and have thus trained their body and soul, can challenge and overcome every difficulty they may encounter in life. 

Hunger and thirst cease to be great threats for such people. Hunger pains are no longer a chain that holds them back. Such people can protect their self-respect and dignity at any cost. They will not beg for money or food, even when they are hungry.

Yogis can go on living without food or drink for six months, even though they are not seeking the pleasure of Allah, therefore it is not hard to understand how believers feel secure that with the help and consent of their Lord they can easily endure more physical suffering without degrading themselves before other people if they fall on hard times. But those who have never fasted and thus immunized their body against hunger will most probably abase themselves and begin to beg for food in order to satisfy their hunger when they find themselves having to do without.

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Introduction to the Sariraka Upanishad, the Exploration of the Mysteries of the Anatomy.

Sariraka Upanishad “The Exploration of the Mysteries of the Anatomy.”

The Sariraka Upamishad was written around 1200 AD. It is numbered 52 of 108.

Invocation to the Upanishad:

Om ! May He protect us both together; may He nourish us both together;

May we work conjointly with great energy,

May our study be vigorous and effective;

May we not mutually dispute (or may we not hate any).

Om ! Let there be Peace in me !

Let there be Peace in my environment !

Let there be Peace in the forces that act on me !

Let us reflect for a moment on the substance of the Saraswati Rahasya Upanishad which preceded this one, which involved the translation of the mind and heart’s core intentions to actions of friendliness, elevated speech and romance.

Not what one might expect out of an ancient Hindu scripture but this is why I am publicizing their importance. Without the study of the Upanishads, to attempt the foundation of any religious practice is moot.

So now that we know we must discover the root causes of why we must snog deep within the Self, let us see what role the anatomy plays in what happens next.

Here begins the Sariraka Upansihad, the Exploration of the Mysteries of the Body:

Then, the body is a combination of the five elements like earth. What is hard is earth, what is liquid is water, what is hot is fire, what moves is air, what is porous is space.

The organs of sense are ear etc.: the ear is in the sky (space), the sense of touch (skin) is in the air, the eye in the fire, tongue in water, smell in earth. Thus for the senses sound etc., are the objects. The organs of action are: tongue, hands, feet, arms and genitals.

Their objects are: speech, catching, walking, voiding and joy. These have arisen from earth etc., respectively.

The first thing a good religionite needs to learn is we are inserted into a body, our own, made by God and it looks, feels, and functions in certain ways. About these, there is nothing we can do but observe. Food, air, light, and experiences go in, they are processed, they are voided out. In and out, in and out.

The goal of religious study is to become as fully acquainted with the miracle of these things and deny all influences that suggest or seek to impose anti-truth about them.

The nerve of so many pundits, “prophets”, priests, and publishers to suggest you can eat something that is otherwise inoffensive to the system and offend God is ridiculous. To suggest you can look at, listen, to touch, or taste in a way the body finds pleasurable and cause displeasure to the Supreme is outrageous.

Notice if you can the connection between self-knowing and self-beholding: The Saraswati Upanishad sets the stage by saying why we must prepare the interior thought framework to give and receive love and friendship, and be infatuated, now the Sariraka says how the mind finds them in the phenomenal world:

Thus for the senses sound etc., are the objects. The organs of action are: tongue, hands, feet, arms and genitals. Their objects are: speech, catching, walking, voiding and joy.

The mind and body of the sage, the knower of truth accepts the ways these separate entities acquire information and their unity in the heart and mind as a Direct Experience of Self, as the acme of embodied life.

There is no such thing as basic sin associated with a body that lives, thinks, feels, and interacts with the world God made for it to operate in. As for sin, which does tempt us, God gave us higher faculties to help us with this:

Mind, Intellect, Egoism and Self-conscious mind are the four inner senses. Their scopes are volition and doubt, determination, affection, decision. The mind is at the tip of the neck, intellect at the face, egoism at the heart, self-conscious mind at the navel.

In the Saraswati Upanishad, the sage says we must seek friendship and romantic company with sweet talkin’ guys. This is echoed in the Torah. Both texts say the process of bating and mating, however, must be done with the utmost intelligence lest the process turn corrupt; become a mere act of adultery or idolatry. He can look like a god, but he can’t act like one or be treated like one. OM, PREM, and Ruff!

In the section before we learned about the parts of the anatomy that sense the world around them each in a unique way. Their inputs are pulled together and made into sense by the Self.

When disciplined by Grace and humanity, the mind makes all the determinations necessary to further the causes of civilized contact with the world through the behaviors of the body. It doubts that which is false and delusory which includes anything for which there is no proof or empirical evidence.

This is a huge problem for humanity, accepting how profoundly we must doubt. The facts state we are in charge of ourselves; we are not purposefully nor duty bound to running amok like this, causing all the trouble we have caused. 

As the Upanishad says we have developed a rationale and stubborn determination to wreck things and make ourselves and other persons miserable. We are responding to the wrong instincts for reasons that have no substance at all. There is nothing to be gained, but we persist and cling to bizarre ideas – pages in books, slogans by political parties, rote ridiculous statements of faith by backwoods TV personalities.

More doubt, more determination is needed to turn the body round and the mind inside it. As the Sariraka says, affection illuminates self, it illuminates all proper decisions, it is a drawstring the squeezes the ego out and gathers self and selves together.

Finally, it makes us “self-conscious” under the navel, an experience none spurns if they are sane.

To think, feel, act, fantasize or civilize in a manner contrary to these principals is a sin of the greatest magnitude and constitutes very bad, wrong decisions that have to be changed immediately upon recognition.

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PAT & PRAN ↳ food as a love language ♡

#bad buddy #asianlgbtqdramas #ohm pawat #nanon korapat #patpran #pranpat #pat x pran #pran x pat #'the world begins at a kitchen table. no matter what - we must eat to live.' #do you think pran and pat watched each other quietly all throughout high school to know what the other liked to eat most? #do you think that pran can't look at those drinks anymore without thinking of that time where he wanted to stretch out an olive #branch and was immediately cut down in his attempt? do you think that pat smiles whenever he sees 3 wontons in someone's bowl? #do you think - back when they were little and easing into their uncertain relationship after pran saved pha - that they were kids? #do you think pat reluctantly shared his ice lolly with pran - sticky artificial lemon melting down their fingers - to say thank you? #it just really hits because food is such an integral and unmissable part of asian culture. it's something you do with friends and family. #we see countless times in the series how the individual groups eat together and how they check up on each other while eating #eating together is a sense of love and friendship and affection that is hard to parallel in any other way #and pran and pat were robbed of that when they were younger. eating together is vulnerable - you expose your manners and your #favourite foods and you need to keep the conversation going - and so they never did it because they were never friends. #but we see now ... how they reclaim the idea of food as a metaphor for love in asian culture by easing into it together. #pran saying 'have you eaten?' holds multitudes of meaning. it speaks testament to how much he loves and cares about pat. #them eating together and wiping the rice away from each other's mouths ... oh man. #'the people who give you food give you their heart.' #or better put: 'food is symbolic of love when words are inadequate.' #rahul.gif #*bb