I have to admit I'm kinda dissapointed with Ezra not bullying Thrawn all the time. Like I wouldn't allow this blue b*tch to have a single fucking minute of peace and our blueberry allowed him to rebuild his ship and possibly ressurect his crew???
(Not my art, I would give credit if I knew the artist)
I don't know if sharing is going to help, but I hope it does.
I have some pretty long episodes of dissociation. It impacts my life in really weird ways.
My therapist is aware of the episodes and I am trying to add a regular grounding routine to my life as a preventative measure, but even if it helps, it's going to take time.
Currently nothing untoward has happened during an episode. The daily requirements are getting done (meds are going at the correct rate, cat care, financial stuff, Healthcare appointments). I just feel like I've really built myself the life I want, and I'm not getting to experience it. And there's more I want to do that I can't add until I get this sorted... at least somewhat.
I hope that by being more open about it I can maintain the friendships and other relationships (temple, etc) that I've been making.
I am starting my "announcement" here because while I don't hide this account, it is by far the least used site by my friends.
I want my friends to know that I'm not trying to be standoffish or flaky. I'm afraid to make too many commitments because I don't know if I will be there mentally. And it sucks.
So, there it is. I'm Ezra and I have dissociative episodes and memory loss due to trauma.
Honestly can we just push the entire schedule of the world down 4 hours- who the hell just WAKES UP at 7am- that’s the fakest shit I’ve ever heard in my life
We don’t have to wake up so early- the farm isn’t in need of plowing and cows don’t need to be milked (at least for a large majority of people- I’m not talking to the actual farmer-types of America), make businesses open later and stay open later,, how many fucking times have you needed to go someplace and the hours are like 8am-6pm- YEAH IF IM WORKING IN THOSE HOURS HOW CAN I DO ANYTHING. Getting off work when you work a closing shift somewhere is like “well you better have nothing else you need to do bc nothing is open- you can’t get dinner you can’t grocery shop you can go home and have sleep as dinner and reward”
Why does society as a whole have to operate under these bitch-ass hours- how tired are we- how tired are YOU- don’t you just wanna sleep a lil longer and stay out a lil longer- let’s fucking shake this shit upPpPppp I’m so over itttttt 😩😩😭
imagine being ahsoka. you've survived order 66 and the siege of mandalore, and then 16 years later this teenage boy enthusiasticaly tells you "i brought help!". you wait to see who he found only for him to show up with fucking maul
you ever think about how dean projects his masculinity issues onto sam by teasing him for being "feminine." you ever think about dean's rise from the grave representing coming out. you ever think about the guns and bottles as metaphors. well i think about all of these things
happy slutty, slutty 45th birthday dean winchester <3