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bonny-kookoo · 1 year

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Jungkook: Lacrymaria olor 2

In which a talk with Jimin clears up some very important questions about Jungkook.

Tags/Warnings: Alien AU, Alien!Jungkook, Human!Reader, Angst, Blood and Violence, Strangers to I don't know?

Additional Chapter Warnings: human!Jimin makes an appearance, Namjoon being forced to babysit lol, some talk about JK, lore?, soft JK oh my

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"You better take care of her, or I will pull your throat out of your neck, got it?" Jungkook smiles as he hugs you, eyes closed while his words are directed at Namjoon who clenches his jaw for a second, presumably biting back any comment he might have.

"Jungkook you're gonna be late-" you say, and he whines for a second before he parts from you, a pout on his lips while his hand caresses your cheek.

"I'll be back before the sun sets, promise." He tells you, and for a second, your breath stops when he leans in, to press a kiss to your forehead.

You're almost disappointed.

The moment he leaves, someone else puts a hand on your shoulder, friendly face coming into view next to you the moment you turn to check who it might be. "I'm Jimin. Namjoon has told me about you already." He offers, and you smile, relaxing now that you know there's no danger around.

"I've heard about you too." You mention a bit shyly, following him into the small home Namjoon owns together with the human.

"Only good things I hope!" Jimin chirps, leading you to a seating area near large windows, where he invites you with a pat on the blankets. "So, you're the king's obsession. Can't say I was surprised when I heard how infatuated he is with you." He chuckles.

"I.. honestly don't know why." You admit. "It's odd to me."

"It really isn't." Jimin responds, offering you something that looks like chocolate. "Temian people always follow strength. That's how society works for them." He shrugs.

"But.. then it makes even less sense." You say, surprised at the odd but pleasant taste of the candy. "I'm literally nothing but a bug compared to him. He basically crushed a guy's face in with his knee last week! And it didn't even look like he put much effort into it!" You argue, eyes wide while Jimin cringes a bit.

"Hm, I can imagine." He shudders. "But, they don't define strength as solely physical. You've survived on your own on a foreign planet for years after having the intention to sacrifice yourself for a friend. Dont worry, Namjoon dug up some things about you." He says. "So it makes sense he sees you as attractive."

You cough at that, looking at the fellow human as if he'd just grown a new head. "He what?!"

"Temians don't care about visual attractiveness, or even gender, you know? They only care about actions and character." He says. "Namjoon, for example, sees me as a partner just because I don't shy away from speaking my mind with him. It's weird how that works."

"So.. he's got a crush on me because I was homeless and illegally living on his planet?" You raise your eyebrow, making another person laugh- Namjoon, who sets down two steaming mugs of something herbal smelling.

"Jungkook deems you platonically and sexually attractive, yes. It is very obvious by the admittedly disgusting behavior he displays around you." He chuckles. "He's impressed by your past achievements. No other human would've dared to do what you did." The Temian explains.

"But.." you become a bit uncomfortable now, unsure.

"Dont be worried about any forced actions taken by him. I know that he can be.. a lot, especially in the departments of affection, but don't worry about accidentally saying something that could harm you. Against what your race believes, we're not animals." Namjoon tells you calmly. "A no is a no. The act of intertwining isn't one we take lightly."

"What he's saying is that sex is an almost sacred thing." Jimin explains rather bluntly, making your cheeks heat up a little.

"And Jungkook has been betrayed once before." Namjoon offers, his gaze a bit distant. "To see him like this again, fills me with comfort. For a long time, this side of him had not been seen by anyone." He says.

"He.." you start, and Jimin shrugs.

"His past lover left for a human mate she'd been screwing around with for a while. Jungkook knew, after all their senses are pretty sharp- but he always thought that she at least always came back to him." He tells you. "Until she didn't."

"Thays horrible." You say, unable to imagine the emotions that the king must've gone through. Until now, you had only seen him as either a carefree, impish young man or a very determined king - but this changed your perspective a bit.

Maybe you've judged him too quickly. Maybe there's more to him than what you've assumed.

You don't know when exactly you fell asleep, but after that tea and the warm conversations with Jimin, you simply couldn't help but nap away the rest of the day, knowing that Namjoon would watch over you, and Jungkook would pick you up later.

The young king in question is heard laughing a bit under his breath as he carefully looks at you, and you act asleep to find out what he might say if he was to think you weren't conscious yet.

"We spoke to her about Hana." Namjoon speaks somewhere in the background, and Jungkook's hand instantly leaves your body.

"Why? She doesn't need to know about that snake." He spits, and for a short moment, it's quiet before he speaks again. "And it's not like it concerns her anyways."

"You're clearly more than infatuated with her. She deserves to know you, and not just the you that stands here right now." The older Temian says.

"I do not pry at her past either, do I?" Jungkook bites back, clearly sounding irritated now. "Since when do we ever care about things that we can not change anyways? Is your human spoiling your brain?" He jokingly stabs.

"You're right." Namjoon caves in. "I'm just happy for you."

"How so?" He wonders, carefully removing the blanket you snuggled under.

Namjoon chuckles. "You seem happy."

"I am happy." He chuckles. "I receive honesty from her." He hums, carefully picking you up.

Bringing you home with him, back where you belong.

#bts imagine #bts fanfic #bts fic #jungkook imagine #jungkook x reader #jungkook imagines #alien jungkook #alien!jungkook

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ndoandou · 9 months

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Ikevamp bois playing modern games part 2

Vincent

Vincent is way into.. gartic phone

Qnd perhaps skribble.io

Like way into it

He would sit down 12 hours in front of the computer and guess what HES BEEN PLAYING GARTIC PHONE AND SKRIBBLE.IO IN A LOBBY OF RANDOMS

12 HRS IN HES STILL NOT DONE WITH BOTH GAMES

Hed obv speedrun a drawing in a short period of time and manage to make it look *chefs kiss*

Imagine if skribble.io had a vc feature tho

No no, like imagine if people were actually toxic in this goofy ahh game

They would yell down vincent down the mic telling him to go play with photoshop

Randoms are salty that vincent can draw and portray even the most ridicilous prompts which results him with the highest score always

Not to mention hes really good at guessing even the shittiest drawimgs from other ppl

"Broer how- that persons drawing looks ridicilous, even arthur's dog could draw that"

"Don't be mean theo! I could guess the drawing from the emotional connection i felt from it"

Jean

Jean has a shitty brick nokia phone

And he really loves playing snake II

No im serious

Well i suppose momte doesnt trust him with any other phones than that

the last time he was given a smartphone he downloaded some hack and slash game

took the word slash literally and then proceeded to cut the phone into two

comte was too stunned to speak

momte didn’t want his kids to miss out on gadgets but he cant have jean destroying his smartphone

BINGO! a nokia 3310 it is!

jean didnt know how to react at first, but he found it easier to navigate and thats when he found out baout snake II

found it a bit pointless at first but despite saying that, he doesnt realize that thats the only thing he does besids fencing

snake II is his pre workout

the only thing he will be doing before his fencing practice

before meals

and before bed

‘‘jean are you sure you haven’t had enough of snake II..?’‘ comte asked causiously as he never know how his son Jean would react

jean looked at comte and stayed silent for a hot minute

‘‘no’‘

Napoleon

OK FLASH BACK TO MY E BOY NAPOLEON FANART FROM 2021

its official

He plays league of legends

Napoleon is deffo a jungle/top main

Jungle preferabbly

Bros actually cracked coz hed turn any non meta champs into an absolute beast

I see him being especially good with pantheon jungle

Hed play league with jean tbh

And jean would be a dedicated top

But i dont see jean being the best player..

No, like imagine napoleon defending jean from "top troll" and getting spammed "?" On his lane

Napo would literally go to that persons lane just to steal their minion last hits

If hes feeling extra hed even use pantheons ult to yeet over to that player to ks all the minions on that person's lane 😭

"Jgl troll gg"

Ok napo is actually not toxic and is rly nice to play with

Hed even supp for you if ur learning a new champ

Hes only toxic to people who are toxic to his buddies

Comte

Ill be honest

Comte looks like someone who would download all games from every ad pop up he gets

And im talking about anything gacha related

He does not care whether the game is explicit or not as long as he can collect pretty characters

Is he interested in the gameplay??? Probably not.

"For what reason did you spend $$$$$$ on xxx game???" Leonardo asked as he scrolled through comte's in game billings, cocking an eyebrow

"Hm? Well i simply wanted to collect all of these lovely looking characters."

"Without leveling up your characters?"

"Non"

"Do you understand how to play this game?"

Comte only looked at him with his unwavering smile

"honestly this is the most ridicilous spending ive witness from you, heh" Leo snorted

"Much appreciated, but i dont recal asking for any input, old friend" comte retorted

Leo looked at him and sighed

"Honestly at this point i shouldn't be surprised"

This took me forever to upload because i coulndn't figure what type of game comte would play then one day i was like AHAAAAA

Also i didn't proof read as always so pls dont chop my head off :"))

#ikevamp #ikemen vampire #ikevamp vincent #ikevamp napoleon #ikevamp jean #ikevamp comte #ikevamp leonardo #ikemen series #cybird #ikevamp headcanons

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commander-gloryforge · 26 days

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hm (kinda a rant/vent/i just wanna get things off my chest and actually TALK about whats been bothering me)

so. theres this person that has kind of been the cause of my recent mental lows/imposter syndrome getting worse/fear of connecting to people and general distance from literally every community i enter. i think ive ranted about them before. theyre a writer and in a community i used to be active in, and in the beginning i got along pretty well with them because we both enjoyed similar themes and metaphors in our writing but they ended up kind of dropping me, coincidentally at the same time they gave my actual writing/current wip a shot, and ever since then theyve been sub posting about me in really weird and elitist ways and it kind of had ruined my spirit, especially considering that i did really look up to them as a writer since theyre very into actual technicalities, writing theory, they speak about writing very academically. their odd vague posting ended up seriously knocking down my confidence and ive been spiraling into this strange mindset ever since that i’m incredibly stupid/can never improve/am not a real or proper writer by virtue of the things i write. they talk highly about writing techniques and concepts every writer needs to know, very subtly punch down at those who dont seem to know, yet dont care to make that knowledge easy to understand or accessible to obtain.

on top of that theyve been getting quite close with another new friend i made recently thats very dear to me and seeing them talk about things i cant seem to keep up with because i am too ‘stupid’ has just made me very anxious and brought up old feelings and fears that ive worked very hard on to let go off. this person is keeping me from interacting with a community i love because i cant seem to get ovr the fact that some people just dont like me, because im getting paranoid, because i think their every word is directed towards me, because theyre popular and well liked and everyone always agrees with them, even when what they say goes against what what i do and like.

it really sucks, its been bothering me so much, especially the fact that i cant just let it go. that i cant just ignore them and move on and do what i like without feeling like its wrong or cringe or weird. everytime i think im ready to go back i suddenly see them talking again with my friends that have offered me so much support whenever ive opened up about my struggles and now they suddenly agree and praise that person for having opinions that directly oppose me and the things they were so keen on supporting me on.

but recently i remembered something they said. they said that they dont want to be self indulgent in their writing, that ‘there’s nothing necessarily wrong with self indulgence but it reflects in the writings quality’, that you can ‘tell’ and they dont like that. when they first posted that i just read it and went. oh :( my writing is self indulgent :( does this reflect in my quality as well? is that why they dropped my writing and me, because i like being loud about self indulgence and cringe? and now i remembered that post, and suddenly it kind of clicked

this person very obviously does not write for the same reason as i do. they very obviously do not feel about writing thhe way i feel about it. they talk about it as though it is a science. like its something that needs to be perfected. now, it’s clear that they do love writing, that they have a passion for it, and their technical knowledge very much reflects on their art- and that impresses people. im not like that. i want to learn writing techniques and i want to improve my craft and i want to be taught, properly so, i obviously want to be a good writer, and im going to be a little self obsessed and say that i am a good writer, or at least not a bad one. but there is a difference in how each of us sees writing.

i want to be self indulgent. i want to write what i love. i fucking love writing and story telling and yes, the fact hat my writing is self indulgent does impact the quality of my work, because it makes it better. i am passionate about my worlds and stories and characters because its exactly what i want it to be and thats why is fucking good. because it makes me want to put effort in and learn how to get better. i dont write for a grade, i dont write to make something perfect and deep and meaningful and serious, i dont write to impress someone, i dont write to squeeze as many smart things and references to classic literature in as i can, i write because i want to fucking write what i like.

so im stupid. so im cringe and bad and insecure and a loser and i dont fit into the good writers club but at least what i write makes me happy. whatever. let some fucking whimsy into your life and stop treating me like im an idiot for having different motivations than you.

#also both of us literally write on wattpad so fucking humble yourself for half a second #dios wisdom #JESUS. i needed to. let things out.#also any tips on How To Ignore A Large Figure In Your Fandom/Community are welcome #how to get over someone that makes you feel sad even though you know you dont have to feel sad #how to stop being paranoid #etc

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tamelee · 9 months

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Okay maybe controversial opinion: I dont like seeing ocs in fics. Isnt ur story about sns? Why wuld we need ur ocs? I think it is just a way for people to selfinsert into their story through an oc no one knows. It kinda sucks because I was excited for ur story too. So yeah thats just how I feel

I don't think that is so controversial. That's just your preference and that is fine. You don't need to read anything you don't like, right? I'm not sure whether you meant me in particular or in a general sense so I'll just answer for myself why I needed an (/a few minor/background) OC('s); It IS a story about Naruto x Sasuke but I personally like story a lot. Meaning that events, conflict and even things like Setting are connected to convey a message. With that also other characters.

These elements can be used to enhance all that. (If done correctly though, it CAN become muddy.) To me that is a lot more meaningful than going from scene to scene "just because". BUT, I do enjoy fics solely for the fact that we can experience SNS through an authors mind in infinite different ways and AUs even if they only write about Naruto and Sasuke and whatever it is they're doing at that moment. A clear linear story that brings you from A to B. I can understand when people then especially don't want to read entire paragraphs about a character they don't know (or care about) and want to skip to the reason they started reading in the first place. In my case, I'm not very good at writing/describing things the way I want to. Not even in my own language. I think I have a better chance of conveying what I want to tell visually which is why I choose to create a DJ instead. But then "show don't tell" is different as it is literally shown. Every panel matters. And I feel like I need a new character to help me do that and create conflict for the sake of telling a more interesting story regarding my message. I think it would be boring for me if everything is well, rainbows and happiness right from the start because what is left for me to do? And with Canon-compliant stories, it's not very believable to me. (Again, not saying these stories aren't good, this is just for me given the trouble I'll put them in anyway. Fics are often already well-established for good reasons as we already know the characters, like fluff for e.g. and I can enjoy them.) But any existing characters don't really fit here you know? It definitely, for me, isn't a self-insert but it is inevitable that there can be relatable elements because of my chosen Theme. Hm~ you can see it as a (fanmade-)movie arc, but then placed during the blank period. Those arcs always have new characters and at the end of it you don't really (or ever) see them again. But here I tried to weave them through the OG-story nonetheless. I may be a bit self-indulgent though as this will be a very long project. I was actually thinking of uploading some sketches of the OC in a bit and introduce.. him 👀 But of course, you don't need to read it at all. In fact, it's very likely that many won't considering the heavy subjects. But I do hope this clarified it a tiny bit Nonee.

#asktamelee #story project

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fruit-trio-kins · 2 months

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Hi! Not sure if you do requests pertaining to Monster High. May I please request positivity for a Draculaura (monster high g1) fictionkin? I am not really sure how positivity works but perhaps maybe pertaining to being plus-sized and also AU kin? I struggle a lot with myself because of how I vary from the canon Draculaura. Kin tags are fine but please no fandom tags! The monster high fandom is.. Not really good. Thank you so much if you do this. :>

HELLOO!! So, a Draculaura kin? That is honestly great! Both g1 and g3 are sooo scary cool! I am a plus size person myself and I know that its hard. I feel you and your struggles are valid. But remember - just because you are not skinny, it does not mean that you are not absolutely stunning. Because you are! Sure, there are people who think that plus size people are not pretty but I promise you, that there are a lot and i mean it - A LOT, who think otherwise. Me included! I find plus size people aesthetically pleasing, especially when they wear what they actually want to wear. The freedom, the style, dang! /pos /p. But also. Who cares what other people think? Love yourself. Wear anything you want, look at yourself in the mirror and notice how pretty you are. Not perfect - nobody is. And its okay. Actually, those things that make us imperfect make us unique! And we all love unique dont we? You are unique. Special. And the only one that opinions on your body actually matters. Once again, love yourself because you are amazing no matter your shape and size, media or irl, time or place, or clothes! Be yourself. Thats enough :3 As for positivity about an AU Kin – TWINSSSS I AM ALSO AN AU KIN!! And honestly again from experience I can tell you that this is the most amazing thing that happened to us. Like we are so unique and cool!! Like pfft sure maybe we are different than our canon, but isnt that actually so fun? Because instead of remembering thing that everyone have seen already, we remember something different and its like..yk, special. Its only ours, not everybody elses. Then, even if you meet your doubles you KNOW that you are yourself. And of course, every kin is different from each other but when it comes to an au and a lot of changes are there, then you are even more hm..personal? Because there is a low chance that your double will remember themselves the way you do. Come onn its cool, you know it is!! Smile and say it outloud, you are cool and special and interesting! :DD

— 🍎

#mod 🍎#fictionkin #kin request #kin blog #positivity

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seoz-seoz · 1 year

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Why do you like obito(like in what made his character interesting to you)?

Hi thanks for sending this ask :) hm so I'm really bad at collecting my thoughts and saying things clearly but I'll try. I wish I could write excellent meta like some ppl. Like it's all in my brain, but it's just a swirly blob of half thoughts. But ok here are some of my personal thoughts about obito and why I like him as a character.

There's a lot I like about obito… I think most of what I like is pretty common among fans. But I mean theres also things in his character and life that have always resonated with me personally. In my life i have dealt with a lot of trauma, injury, disability, loss, etc and i have kinda projected my experiences into my hc's of obito.. especially regarding his healing process post cave collapse and abuse from madara. I felt a lot of things i assume he would have felt after I also suffered a major injury, and after other traumatic things with major ramifications…

Almost his entire life was altered by, and almost nearly defined by his traumas. How he deals with his it, (or doesnt really) is so painful to watch, but to me his strength is commendable. I wonder sometimes if he would've given up if it hadn't been for his heart seal, if his strength of will would've withered away from neglect. But then, after kks removed the seal, it kind of proved (at that point in his journey at least) that he still believed in his goal of a better world, and he wasn't ready to give up. How much of his strength of will was his own? How mych was madaras influence? It's hard to say. What role do we play in creating our own identities, and how much control do we give others- or is taken away?

There's a lot of unknowns, a lot of grey when it comes to obito. Nothing is pretty or neat when it comes to him.

I am also SO fascinated by his relationship to love. I think on the surface he thinks he doesnt care, he has no love left to give. But i personally believe love is at the core of all his actions (like sasuke!! I am on the sasuke defense squad...) i mean yeah, his relationship with his emotions (love especially) is toxic and unhealthy no doubt... but ultimately what's important to me is that his love and joy were so so strong as a child- and so nearly destroyed- that he later clings so tightly to the little he has left. I think trauma can do this to us. It can make us jaded and resentful and hurt others, to try to make things better. But often what's at the core of all that is this desire for things to be better. For the suffering to go away.

Like ok. Obito wants to violently destroy the world that hurt him and his loved ones. And not just destroy it, but rather create a better world in its place. A world that promises no more pain ot suffering. That is telling. I think that others in his situation would gladly see the world rot into oblivion, and not feel bad about making it burn a little faster. But not obito. He wants to burn it all (perhaps as fast as possible!) in order to create a utopia. But here’s the kicker... it’s a utopia in which he will never find peace himself, where he will wonder alone for eternity. Oof.

I wont try to say if he was totally right or wrong/good or bad/selfless or selfish, just that i can empathize with his motives and his trauma. Most of all i dont think its fair to categorize him as either a villian or a hero. He exists outside of that binary and obviously exhibits traits of both which is a lot more interesting to me. I definitely like the duality/ficklness of his nature. He's hard to pin down, he doesn't fit in a box, he's kind AND he's cruel. Obito is good and bad and none of the above. He's multiple people all in one. Idk I just think he's neat.

I wish his journey in canon was cathartic for him but i dont know. It wasn't for me in the end chapters. Thats why i like au's :) (Side note, I think rin should have roundhouse kicked his ass when he saw her in the end. And thennnn they could hug and make up).

Hmm ok this was all over the place sorry I hope this makes sense. If u made it this for thanks for reading my unedited essay. I really like obito. Sending u love and joy.

#obito #seoz answers #seoz talks #is this meta?#idk

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safetycar-restart · 2 years

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The housewarming cookies being past d/s au seb + formal wear! (Which is. Hm. mostly suffering sorry 'bout that. Cw for the first half being a major ouch idk why i made it so bad please dont sue me??)

Okay so Seb doesn’t like formal events much as is, too many people to meet, things to do, and all of it ultimately just a giant waste of time, but the ex Ferrari Dom was making those functions an actual living hell.

They would always come with to keep an eye on him and Charles, but what they would actually do is almost turn the whole thing into a demo of showing off what good boys they are, except in a very, very not-fun way, because being good wasn’t actually an option. Nothing they ever tried ever made the Dom happy, harsh orders and comments whispered in their ears whenever the Dom got hold of either of them, and on top of that there would usually be a “wind-down” session scheduled after the event, even though going through the thing itself was already bad enough. At the end of the day there was nothing for them but crawling to bed and passing out—except Seb was deep into his insomnia by this point, so sometimes, frustratingly, even all of that wouldn’t be enough for him to switch off, so he would be left staring at the ceiling and going through the “worst moments of sebastian vettel — greatest hits” slide-show in his head, Charles cuddled into his side (at least he was always tired enough to go numb instead of distraught, leaching onto the first source of genuine human warmth provided to him and passing out the moment Seb got them under the covers).

I think there was a point at which Seb would seek out harsher, more exhausting scenes, maybe even trying to deliberately provoke the Dom, just to get some goddamn sleep. He’d stop after realising it didn’t help much; but I digress.

So! He moves to aston and has a new Dom which is you! And it’s going so well? You get him to take naps, and keep an eye on what and when he eats even though he has a dietician to do that, and praise him so much, especially compared to what was before, that he often doesn’t know what to do with himself. He is so much happier, and is actually getting better now; he brought you flowers the first time he slept through the night.

Except there is a sponsor event hovering on the horizon, and something is clearly off. You haven’t been to any formal AM event yet, since you’re also new to the team and maybe your contract was signed pretty late too, so you weren’t at the launch and pre-season functions, and generally decided it was better to settle in and get to know your subs first before chaperoning them like that. And it seems to be a very good decision, because Seb clearly has some sort of hang up about the upcoming event which is supposed to be your first one.

It takes ages to get him to fess up, and it’s more like tiny granules of information that he drops here and there mostly on accident, that you then have to piece together to figure out at least generally what was going on. Even with what little he let slip, your first instinct is to find the bastard and screw their head off, because how does one hurt another human being like that, especially such a sweet, gentle and trusting one? How dare they?

You check with Lance (who just shrugs: his old Dom didn’t go to any events, so he doesn’t really care), and then sit Seb down and tell him you don’t have to go if it makes him uncomfortable. And it’s clear by how he perks up that he would really prefer if you didn’t go, but he still squirms guiltily because you haven’t done anything wrong? You are so, so good to him, and now on top of all that you give him he is preventing you from going to a party and having fun? Just because he has a stupid hang-up that he can’t be an adult about and get over?

It takes a couple of rounds of him making sure you really don’t mind staying behind, and when he is convinced it’s okay and you both agree that you won’t go, he is just. He is so visibly relieved.

Maybe the event is on a race week Wednesday, and there is a soft nock on the door of your hotel room closer to midnight. Seb is hovering on the doorstep, anxious, still in a pristine white shirt and and actual proper bow-tie. You tell him how good he looks, and he relaxes just a little bit.

“Is that for me?” you ask, pointing at a food container in his hands, when he still doesn’t say anything. He blinks, trusts the box into your hands; he almost has too lean forward to reach you, with how far away he’s standing.

“Do you want to come in?” you ask, and he freezes like a deer in headlights. “It’s okay, you don’t need to do anything. I’m watching a movie, you can just watch with me if you like.”

When he still doesn’t say anything, you decide to prod him again one last time: “Do you need anything? You know you can always ask.” This makes him mumble an ‘I don’t know’, so you look around and kick one of your sneakers into the door frame to stop the door from closing. “Think about it, okay? If you want to come in, I’ll be right inside.”

You return to your room, switch the movie back on; open the box he brought you (it’s full of crab puffs. You remember joking while you were convincing him that you didn’t care about the party that you wouldn’t be missing much unless there were crab puffs on the menu. It’s only tomorrow, when it comes up in conversation with someone else, it transpires that the puffs weren’t actually on the menu; he must’ve gotten them somewhere else in the middle of the night)

He comes in eventually, and you mute the movie to turn and see if he’d talk to you know, and in the silence the click of the door locking automatically behind him is like a gunshot.

“Please,” he asks, panicked, grabbing for the handle. “Please, can I leave?”

He is out of your room the second you give him permission.

He’d come tomorrow for his session with eyes downcast guiltily and curl into your side, saying that he is so sorry for yesterday, and he knows you would never hurt him, but he’s just—just— You comfort him of course, because you would never want him to force himself do something he wasn’t ready for, even if it breaks you heart to see how much he struggles and for once being unable to help: if you tried to step closer yesterday you actually think he might’ve suffered a breakdown.

It’s actually Lance who asks if they can hang out with you before getting ready for their next event: he doesn’t really like those either, so he thinks it would be nice to get to relax a little before going. You cuddle with them before helping them get dressed and all pretty and sending them on their way, telling them how good they look and how proud you’re of them. Lance beams at you; Seb can’t quite meet your eye.

When he comes to you again after the event he is in his sleeping clothes and his hair looks like he deliberately messed it up. He spends the evening across the table from you while you play checkers on your tablet.

A few events after that, he falls asleep on your couch while you’re making you two some tea; you really don’t want to wake him up, especially since he still struggles to sleep sometimes, but you’re afraid he might freak out if he wakes up in the middle of the night in the dark in his Dom’s room. It completely pays off when you usher him to his own room and he hugs you and sleepily asks you to put him to bed, something he tries to do less now that he is overall better, just to show you that he is okay, that he trusts you to take care of him.

He asks you to go to the next event aston is hosting. It’s less of a boring sponsor-pleasing exercise and more an actual party (though still formal), so he probably feels safer since he wouldn’t need to perform as much, and also says he wants you to go out with them and have some fun.

When you rsvp to the admin team that you’re going to attend this one, they try to schedule a scene for afterwards because it’s kind of a general practice, and you barely manage to catch that before your subs get a notification for a schedule update.

The thing is, after the three of you are done with the ritual of pre-event-care and start getting ready, they see you all dressed up and they can’t take their eyes off of you? Seb in particular, bc I think it would be not long after he got his sex drive back and now he just, randomly gets stupid horny at the slightest provocation sometimes. And you in formal wear is not a slight provocation.

They keep pulling you to dance with them through the night, and the three of you are actually having a great time, and at some point during the evening you see them plotting something in a corner before making a pincer movement on you and asking you to scene with them for a bit after the party is done. You agree, of course, and it’s lazy and comfortable and perfect, and quite frankly one of the hottest scenes you’ve ever done.

You start going to all of the events from then on, taking extra precautions with Seb to make sure you don’t accidentally say or do something dominating that would through him for a loop, until he starts coming to you for instructions and permissions himself? So you decide to test the waters and order his food for him at the next banquet, and he just—beams at you. He is so fucking happy. Formal events for him went from a proper nightmare to something he looks forward to, because now that he has his Dom to take care of him he can focus on doing his job in the PR department and also gets to have some fun, which means it’s not half as draining as it was before, and he is never alone there, AND he gets to see you in formal wear, AND most days he would get to scene with you or sometimes you and Lance and then fall asleep tired but good-tired and sleep through the night, and he is not sure when his life took such a turn that he gets to have all of this but he will fight anyone who tries to mess with it.

Hoping i get it to you in time for kinktober,

Lemon 🍋💜🍪

lmaooooo this is so long im so sorry

Never ever apologise for a long ask because this is so good I am in shock. I just… I can’t even…. This is amazing. Every single person who follows me needs to personally thank lemon 🍋 again because this is incredible. I’m gonna try and add some thoughts but this is already perfect.

Firstly, I’m obsessed with the idea that events were always excuses for seb’s old Dom to show him off. Maybe he would even have ‘practice’ scenes for events? Where his Dom would ask him questions like a party guest and punish him if he said the wrong thing.

Seb used to hate those evenings the most, even more then the other scenes he had to do which were objectively worse.

And I think that’s because Seb HATES public humiliation? He likes a little bit of teasing and being made fun of in the safety and privacy of a scene. But in public? No no. He wants to be protected by his Dom in those spaces, not ridiculed and put on display. But his old dom never cared. And Ferrari certainly didn’t care because Seb was behaving and driving well.

But then you come along and you’re nothing like his old Dom at all. It takes him a while to realise that of course, but even before he realises it, he always sees you as safe? Eve before he fully trusted you, he knew you were safe. He knew that you were his space place, even before he was ready to truly take advantage of that.

And I actually think your choice to not attend events in the beginning ends up being the wrong one? Because Seb never got to see you protecting him and helping him during events from the beginning the same way he got to see for all other aspects of his relationship with you.

He has a new image in his head of scening is like because of you, what aftercare is like, what care and love are like.

But he’s never attended an event with you before and so, his memories of his Dom being at an event with him are all memories of his past Dom?

And he know it doesn’t make sense, he knows, but somehow he’s completely convinced that your behaviour at events will be same as his old Dom because he didn’t see that aspect of his life change at the same time the others did.

When he asks you not to attend the next event, I think part of it is testing you? He wants to see what you will do if he puts a firm boundary in place. His old Dom would have laughed at his request and he needs to see you have a different reaction, needs to see you acknowledge him.

And he’s honestly shocked when you immediately agree, promising that you won’t attend any events until he’s 100% comfortable with you doing so.

To be honest, Seb goes through the entire event in a state of disbelief because he genuinely can’t believe that you just let him do that. He knew. He knew you weren’t coming because you agreed not to come. But he’s still so shocked to not see you all evening.

And maybe that’s why he ends up outside your door when the event is over? He doesn’t need comfort or to submit, honestly he’s fine. But he just…. He needs to make sure that you’re actually real, that he didn’t dream up a Dom who respects his boundaries enough to miss official events.

And then there you are? In your PJs with messy hair and smiling so sweetly at him, asking how the event was and if he needs anything. He’s relieved to see you, but also he’s so overwhelmed and that’s why he just bolts.

But he kicks himself when he’s back in his room, because he realises he could have cuddled with you. He adores when you put him bed and he could have had that, he knows you would have done it for him.

And that’s why he shows up ready for bed after the next event. Because the events always tire him out and now he’s beginning to understand that he can ask you for what he needs. And he really does need to be tucked into bed and given a forehead kiss and kept company until he falls asleep.

I think the decision to ask you to join him at an event happens because he starts to look for you? A shift happens after a while and instead of trying to hide from an imaginary Dom that isn’t there at events, Seb starts looking for his real Dom.

He wants you there, not only to provide support and comfort, but also to joke around with and to judge people’s outfits and to complain about the ridiculous fancy food.

Though Seb does miscalculate a little because he fails to consider the fact that he has to see you in formal clothes. He fully malfunctions, has to go the entire evening half hard and trying desperately not to look at you for too long or else he’ll have a full boner that can’t be hidden by a skilfully placed hand.

The scene afterwards is so perfect. And he can sleep. Properly sleep.

Events aren’t so bad after that.

#past d/s au #nsfw.#sub!sebastian #sv #gn!reader #🍋

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bird primary + snake secondary (bird model)

hi! apologies if this is all over the place, im going a little crazy. so, i am going absolutely crazy trying to figure out my primary and secondary. i used to think i was a snake bird (modeling badger snake), but then i started thinking about it and went “hm. maybe im actually a double snake?” and now im thinking i might be a lion snake or . something. i have absolutely no idea. i do know ive either exploded or burnt both primary and secondary at some point though.

So some Exploding or Burning, probably an Internal primary (Snake or Lion) with an I Move secondary (Bird or Snake.) Let’s see what we have.

so, ive always thought i must be a snake primary because i’m very people-oriented (and i regard people with a certain type of possessiveness), but thats mostly because like… i have an intrinsic fear of being alone thanks to lgbt things (im aromantic - so the internalized arophobia and fear of dying alone is REAL big, esp considering my ex was just straight-up an arophobe) and mental illness issues (i have autism and ptsd that both mesh together to create my being incredibly anxious when around new people/situations - which doesnt lend itself well to interacting with others, so when i do latch onto someone, i latch on HARD).

Just breathe. It’s okay. But yeah, that’s survival mode human stuff. We do have Burnt secondary language “not good at dealing with new people/situations” etch. And you *did* apologize to me first thing, which is my favorite litmus test for whether a secondary is burnt or not.

i would not feel bad dropping each and every person in my life for literally zero reason other than i didnt like their vibes. in fact, i really wish i felt comfortable enough to do that!

Cool. That’s kinda badass. Make me think Idealist primary... and probably Lion, who are classically the most comfortable being loners.

im so tired all the time, and being the resident mom friend doesnt help that at all.

ooooh we’ve got a burnt secondary, compensating Badger secondary model. (Or possibly just badger secondary.)

ive honestly started getting a bit resentful of my friends bc i feel like theyre making me take care of them (though i know they arent).

That’s a common problem with Badger secondary people who aren’t *really* protective of their boundaries.

so… i guess it would be helpful to explain my morals and motivations, huh?? to be blunt, i really dont know what they currently are. ive started pulling away from relying on other people. which is really healthy for me i think. i used to rely on my ex in particular to handle all of my morals (with them convincing me i was actually evil in the process - they were abusive) and im really glad that im healing enough to stop outsourcing at least that, but im still trying to build up… something to rely on.

You’re the second SortMe post in a row that to use the specific phrase “outsourcing my morals,” but I don’t think I’m going to sort you the same way, and I’ll tell you why.

Mainly what I am doing here is making what I consider to be statistically likely guesses. I’ve read a lot of these, and it’s enough to start seeing patterns. And I can tell you that “gaslighting ex” is MUCH more of Burnt Bird primary story, than a Burnt Lion primary story. Put that together with “I’m trying to build up... something to rely on”... and I’d be very surprised if you weren’t a Bird, friend.

i really dont ever feel quite secure. especially not enough to actually express myself as myself. hopping from relationship to relationship has been my stand-in for support up to now, but relationships are just … augh. i dont like them. ive always also felt a drive to protect and care for people (and animals! i wanted to do wildlife rehab growing up, and on the people side ive been interested in anthropology) in need

Sounds like a pretty good start to building a system.

which sounds very badgery on paper, but honestly i cant relate to badgers really at all. something about it just doesnt really fit me, i guess? i cant relate to the community aspect of it. like yes, every person is a person, but also like. thats not whats important to me. i want to do good things, and be good, or at least better than i was before, and yes that involves taking care of those in need (to me at least), but its not… like how badgers are typically described. i dont even have anything against badgers, i really like them, but im just. not that.

You’re not a Badger. You like some of the values, but your life is not built out of communities, and you seem to like it that way.

i have also almost never forgiven anyone in my life. the few times i have ended up being mistakes, so never again.

There was another Bird primary post that made the important distinction that there’s forgiving someone... and then there’s letting them back in to do the same thing again.

on the snake side, i feel like i might have used to rank people according to how important they are to me, but i think that was more of a learned thing than anything else. i really admire snakes, and i want to be one, but i feel more like im just . not being genuine when i think of myself as one, even though thats what i get each time i take the official shc test (which i have recently taken the 2.0 one) and what ive considered myself to be for years now. its stopped fully fitting (unless im somehow gaslighting myself here) and i really dont know what to do about that.

You also weren’t in a very healthy place recently, and it’s a lot harder to get a read on yourself when you’re not doing okay. (Not impossible, just... harder.)

like, ill live, its really not that big of a deal, but i still have emotions and its still difficult. i dont like being wrong.

That’s also sounding pretty Bird to me. Both “I don’t like being wrong” and the “my emotions are difficult.” If you were a Lion, those emotions would be your compass, but Birds don’t work that way.

on the how i do things side - i tend to react very aggressively when what/who i care about gets fucked over, and see no problem with being vicious or lying, acting, whatever i need to do to get my point across. i dont view it as bad. whatever works, works yknow?

Okay, so you’re probably a Snake or a Bird secondary (which you knew.) And I do see where that Snake primary false positive is coming from. You have some Snake values in your system for sure, but you don’t sound like a Snake when you talk.

i do like planning at least an outline before things, but im also perfectly content throwing it out the window. though i do enjoy collecting little bits of info i can use later! and learning! and using what i learn! but its very much a “oooohhh this is fun!!!” type thing.

So that’s at least a fun Bird model (and it seems like every single neurodivergent person has a Bird model, so that’s not all that surprising.)

i am not a hard worker. at all. i HATE doing things the badger sec way. it sucks and i hate it and i just want to get things done with immediately right now.

Hmm. Now that sounds very In-the-Moment, doesn’t it? I’m starting to lean Snake.

one thing i very clearly remember from childhood is that once, in middle school, i hung out with a group of mostly boys and we were like. the loner weirdo kids. and one guy smacked me across the face for whatever reason and i immediately went “if you do that again, i will kick you directly in the crotch,” and then he went “i like you!” and we were. ig friends? from then on. Guys.. idk

Guys are known to socialize like that sometimes.

i didnt really have that much of an opinion on him that i can remember. i thought i was a bird for a while because of the aforementioned “oh learning fun!” thing and my reliance on at least a light plan, but then i thought about what i do under pressure. and i realized that i go fully improv, and that i feel better doing that than planning.

Yeah, I bet it does.

because planning also sucks and i dont really like it. ive tried using planners before and its…. so hard to keep up with….. now, my mom is a lion sec and i dont understand her AT ALL. like yeah, i can imitate her and also push through things directly, but my god is it uncomfy. id prefer to poke around and get a handle on things first, so i can have more of a finesse to what i do.

Oh this is such classic Snake secondary stuff. Right down to the way that Snake Secondaries do not get Lions, and vice-versa. Also, I dunno, from all the examples given, I would not describe you as “not good at interacting with others.”

i tend to favor seduction and assassination or rogue-ish routes in games, if that helps any.

It does. (Snake.)

sometimes my mom will be set on doing things a certain way and will be metaphorically banging her head on a wall,

like a Lion

and ill be in the corner desperately just like “mom please let me do this please let me hand you a different way to do this oh my god you are killing me here that isnt going to work”

Yeah, that seems like a pretty clear communication disconnect.

#submission #sortme #wisteria sorts #bird snake #bird primary #snake secondary #bird secondary model #sortinghatchats #shc

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hm for asks, can you talk about hetalia characters you find cool in concept but never bother with? Or about your mutuals' favourite characters!

Tell us about a character you liked but dont really care anymore, and about a character you dislike a lot!

Talk about characters who's fans you dont like, and about characters who's fans are "ah, fellow people with sophisticated taste"!

Talk about a character you like in theory but not in any interpretation or depiction, that is, character you like as a character but dont think they are fit to be in hetalia

I think Yao/Ch!na is a really interesting dude. Ancient man, seen a lotta shit, been through a lotta different styles of government. China has a long and rich history you could do quite a bit with. I took two classes on it in undergrad and, while I don't remember a lot of the details now of who did what/why/when, I found it immensely enlightening from a 'why China is what is is today' perspective, which is what I ultimately got. I don't write him for that reason and, honestly, don't know how I'd fit him into what I'm writing unless I pivoted to making Lutz and Al main characters (which I'm not). I would love some good recs from people who read historically-based stuff that includes Yao. This applies for In/dia too for much the same reasons. What does it mean to be so old when you're immortal? How do you avoid apathy? How do you keep life interesting? Could also go into weightier topics with them as well - how it feels to have been both colonizer and colonized, not sure if it applies to In/dia as well but certainly Yao - but the writer would have to be knowledgeable and skilled enough to pull it off. I don't think your generic fanfic author can - I get nervous about publicly toeing the line myself

I used to be an Alfred and Arthur stan. They were my favorite characters in the entire series!!! They had the benefit of being the countries I'm most familiar with because, if you haven't heard, I got that dual citizenship dudes. Now, don't get me wrong, I still enjoy writing them whenever they appear naturally and have a lot of Thoughts on how they should be characterized, what their relationships with each other/everyone else should be, etc but they're not the main focus of 90% of my fics now. They're guest stars that I love to have on set (goddamn that's trite). As for who I don't like, I've never been a Matthew person. I think it's doing a disservice to an entire country to just have his personality be 'forgettable' and 'soft-spoken.' Which like yeah sure, I follow people who have done more with him and have made him an actually interesting character (credit to Foxholes, whose url changed and now I can't find them and don't wanna tag their history blog), but beyond the one or two characterizations of him, I don't care. Man smells like stale bong water

Eh, I'm gonna plead the fifth on that one. I don't wanna gripe about specific fans because there's good and bad in every subset. Plus, no reason to go hurting feelings. Though those Gilbo stans can be real freaks. Who the fuck likes a country called Prussia?

Hmm, interesting question. All the major nations don't bother me and make sense for why they're there. I also appreciate HRE being around, but I'm not crazy about a lot of things about his characterization. I especially hate the bad Italian accent he has in the English dub. Have never gotten that because, as Voltaire once put it, that empire ain't Roman. I think there's a lotta cool stuff you can do with HRE (@kisamesopelagic 's Karl is awesome and parts of theirs has served as inspiration for mine, who tends to linger just-offscreen) but the canon one is very meh. As for one's who I don't think belong point blank period, the entirety of the micronations. I have a hard time buying that Sealand is out here running around like a menace but state, provinces, prefectures, etc aren't. A fucking rusty ass fort in the middle of the Atlantic versus Quebec? Get outta here dude. Plus, besides some of their designs, all their personalities grate on my nerves. A whole ass African continent with next to no characters depicted but yay we got Kugelmugel. Jfc

#writing the country names like that because i hate going into the real tags for them #real shit is happening there no one looking for news needs to think about hetalia lol #asks #anonymous #helltalia #as always i find a reason to shit talk matthew #its really not his fault its the prucan fans on da from 09-12 #you guys were annoying as hell and honestly? i definitely was too

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Hm, so hi :)

I saw that you opened your match ups, and I wanted to ask you for one, please

(Also, I'm so sorry if this is too long, I just get so excited over this things and I just start so ramble I'm so sorry—)

I wanted to ask for a jjk and mha match up, please, and if it's too much, you can just do the mha one

I'm 17 (next month i'll be an adult wtfff) and I mainly use he/they, but pronouns dont really matter to me that much. I'm ftm, tho, and I'm a bit uncomfortable at being called by feminine terms, like princess and doll etc. (I do like being called pretty, but it feels different, idk??)

Im a Libra, and an ENFP, if that matters, and my love language is physical touch.

I've had some people tell me I'm pretty funny, so that's a thing about me. Mostly, people know me because I'm really talkative and cheerful, and besides being a little worried about annoying people by talking to them, I like to think I'm pretty sociable. (I do have ADHD, so maybe that's a tell)

I like to comfort people, and my main concern is to make everyone around me as comfortable as I can, so I end up being the psychologist friend of my group, especially since (according to my friends) I give pretty good advice and I'm always the one that people actually listen to.

I'm at the alt scene, so mostly, I dress pretty over the top, with a lot of chains, fishnets all over the place, a lot of black, heavy makeup and heavy boots. I'm also black, and most of the days I dress kinda fem, (dresses, skirts and more revealing clothes) unless disforia is hitting really hard, and then i dress more masc.

This is my appearance most of the time:

(I'm such a cute guy, I knooow)

((Also, I'm 5'2, but I use a lot of heels, so when I'm out, I'm usually 5'4))

I like to read, to draw and to sing, and that's mainly what I'm doing this days. I'm pagan and a witch, so I have a lot of nature based things in my room. A lot of crystals, trees branches, candles, bones, tarot and things like that.

I'm also what my friends like to call the alpha friend, which is a dumb way so say that I take the more dominant role in most of my relationships. I like to buy people things, to comfort, to help and guide, I like to make people feel safe, walk on the side of the road where cars pass, to have everyone in line of sight and things like that. I just like to take care of people I love.

Idk I'm a bit shy rn, and I think that maybe o wrote too much, I'm so sorry bye :)

of course! don't worry about writing a lot :)

i match you with...

𝕚𝕟𝕦𝕞𝕒𝕜𝕚 𝕥𝕠𝕘𝕖

𝕜𝕒𝕞𝕚𝕟𝕒𝕣𝕚 𝕕𝕖𝕟𝕜𝕚

#{🌼 - wildflowers}#mha matchup #mha matchups #bnha matchups #bnha matchup #jjk matchup #jjk matchups #jujutsu kaisen matchup #jujutsu kaisen matchups #inumaki #inumaki toge #denki #denki kaminari

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yuwhala · 2 years

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Here's me complaining about s4 on the internet because I have no friend

BEWARE, there will be a LOT of SPOILERS about STRANGER THINGS SEASON 4. Also I have a very annoying style of writing but I can't give two shit about fixing it for the moment.

The way I felt so NUMB watching this season.

I was SO hyped because I love stranger things and the first two seasons were awesome and I liked the fun and freshness that season 3 bring along

But GOSH was this season not good. I had HOPES for the last two eps, thinking the first sevens were kind of an introduction to the big finale but lol. They were the worst. So many things felt random.

I would have been fine about Eddie dying if this would have made sense. I felt like he died because it was easier than finding a way to redeem him for the Hawkins people. "I didn't run" ????? you were dumb huh ? The fact that you decided to stay in the upside down in the first place was already you NOT RUNNING. You didn't have to stay put in one place waiting for the bats to kill you. That makes no SENSE. "Not running" in that context was to be meant METAPHORICALLY you dumb SHIT. Like not running away from your problems not, not running physically. Gosh I'm so angry and I didn't even particularly liked this character.

Don't get me started about the way Mike and Will had no reason to be on this season at all. "oh but Mike helped El in the end" waouw AWESOME, clap clap, I DONT CARE. It's like on the last day on the set the writers wondered who that blue shirt guy was and suddenly remembered "OH YES !!!! Him!!!!" and gave one (1) useful line at the end ??????? As useful as his father, I see.

The way they used Will was a disgrace.

"And that people, is a gay little dude"

"Oh ! Ok ! So, hm, does he do something or ?"

"Yes. He's, listen to that awesome thing : sad gaying"

"No no, I meant, does he do something useful story-wise, like is the fact that he is in the story making any difference at all ?"

"He's gay. And sad. Isn't that enough already :D ?! Also he draws. "

URGH. I love Will and we didn't get to see him tortured for TWO seasons to just have him wandering in the back doing nothing but be gay and having a cold neck from time to time for two whole seasons.

When RandomWeedDude that I don't even recall the name of had more importance and good scenes than two of your main characters, maybe this is a sign that stuff are no that great.

Another thing I really didn't like (shocker, I know) was : THE PACING. You don't get to spend 5 billions hours with eleven in Nina just to tell us Papa was a bad man (would could have guessed. MAYBE EVERYONE WHO WATCHED THE FIRST SEASON ALONE), but like he wasn't just a bad man, no it’s way worse than that kiddo, he was a really really REALLY bad man :o !!!! And Ok the twist with 001 was nice but did we need to spent that much time uncovering the fucking memory of how papa was bad and that mystery blond dude might not be a good person after all. And yes, Eleven is not a bad person nor a monster, nice that she knows that, I admit. The pacing just sucks.

I'm not against having multiple teams doing multiples differents things at the same times but the way it was done in the last episode was not it. It became boring quickly because there were toooooo many teams to follow, toooooo many dangers and tooooo many characters and new rules and new powers and and and URGH. When it jumped from a scene to another I barely had time to adjust to the "Oh wait, what were those guys doing already ? Is this the frightening, sad or funny situation?" that it jumped to another scene. So the tension was kind of ruined for me. Especially when it make things like Steve, Robin and Nancy choke for 30 minutes of the episode. I don't get to be scared for them or their safety because it cuts back and forth to being choked "to death". For 30 long minutes. So I know there is no way they're dying. Wasn't scared a second for hopper because he just doesn't die, because he's a cowboy and his mean and determined face is enough to just not die. He's just in Russia for 9 episodes. Good times. Please never do that again. I would have rather watch him miraculously reappear randomly in the season like "hey guess who fought the commies" and never explain how he did it.

The different arcs were way too long. From episode 3 to 8, El is in the lab, from episode 3 to 8 the pizza guys are in a van, from episode 1 to 9 Hopper is in Russia. It just felt redundant and boring especially considering how long the ep are.

Let's talk about Vecna, because why not. He is goofy. It's the first season of stranger things where I'm not scared a single bit. The clocks and the things he does to his victims and how he uses their guilt against them : NICE. His body : Not Nice. Everytime I saw him in a scene it just killed the vibe. You're not scary in a humanly form. I'm not saying the make up or the costume aren't well made, I'm just saying, Billy being possessed and sweaty was way scarier. Shadow monster was scary. Demogorgons were scary. Vecna is just dumb looking.

There is many more things that I didn’t like about this season (Steve and Nancy fake romantic interest why ? To what end ?) but I’m hungry and most of my annoyance is gone just writing it all off.

Still, Kudos to people who worked on the sets and to all of the actors and actresses, you were the reason I stayed. Directing wise it was a nice experience to witness and the music and use of sounds were always a banger. I’m not even a single bit planning of ever watching season 5 (please Act as if I never wrote this if you see me complaining about the newest episode in two or three years) but I was still glad I got to watch the first three seasons.

To finish this wonderful essay, I’d like to say : I don’t care that my rambling doesn’t make sense or that I’m too harsh or that I’m wrong. I’m right to me and that’s all I care about. I finally get it most of it out of my chest thanks to this hellsite.

#stranger things #st4 #st4 spoilers #stranger things 4

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thinking about the scene in my head where the crew finally gets their shit together and meets up to plan for the session, like who still needs their planet quests done and who knows where their quest bed is. and discussing how exactly the battlefield is going to be restored, and how the genesis breeding is going. and then theyre wondering how exactly the "win" thing works. if their new universe is at the end...

alexi's pretty blunt "can we take finn with us?" because its not wrong to assume game 'constructs' wont be able to leave the medium.

everyone goes silent while finn sorta deflects and haws his way around a no. he didnt even see the ultimate reward in his own game, and he probably wouldnt have remembered anyway. "but please, dont worry about it. the most important thing is getting everyone to the end in one piece :)" and because hes sweet and atp more attatched to this group than his own co-players

"i really want you guys to win, more than anything" very sentimental and smiley. but piers isnt having any of that. "we. you are a part of this team now finn, if we win youre winning with us."

and more silence bc its awkward and tbh piers and kastri are the ones who know finn the best atp. finn is surprised and has to hide that... he doesnt really feel that way. but he thanks piers and asks frixaa to move on discussing the plans.

piers is more blunt and well, not grumpy but yk. for the rest of that meeting. and afterwards. everyone splits up to go questing and piers goes back home for more tedious insect science. and after floating around checking on the others for a bit, finn ends up on piers' planet like he usually does.

its hard to tell, but piers is upset with him. or something related to finn? he's a grumpy cynical person anyway, but piers when he's really upset is distant and cold, using work as a barrier to the world while he seethes quietly. finn tries to talk to him, just how they normally would, but piers is uhh. yea

neither of them are super 'beat around the bush' people, so finn just asks. "is it about the meeting?" and piers has to put his tools down. "i'm flattered you think of me as one of you all, really. but the reality is that,.. im not even supposed to be here. i'm only... not alive but resurrected, because of a whole lot of glitches that lined up to revive me."

"im not a player here. my planet isnt here, i dont have a spot on either of the moons, there sure isnt a quest bed out there for me. ive no reason to assume ill be able to enter the new universe with you, and i dont want to... pretend that its true."

piers: "you dont know! im not going to delude myself into thinking that either, but you just... dismiss that it could happen... and i dont care whatever the game thinks, youre- ugh" he doesnt usually get this emotional with arguments..

finn is still... listen. its a self worth thing, the only vital thing he did for his session was die. and so far, he hasnt done anything other than provide the information sprites are supposed to anyway. hes a useful messenger, and he's good at talking to people, but hes not a combatant or magic wielder or planner. he knows hes a coward.

"i just... dont want to get anyones hopes up. yours or mine." he says. "and if i cant leave with you, or something else happens- i dont want you all to hesitate in getting the reward you really deserve..."

piers stands up from his desk, "you deserve it too! and theres a difference between... between hoping itll turn out fine and being just... defeatist and cynical!"

finn half laughs. "hm, i thought you were supposed to be the cynical one." piers deflates, that feeling where you know you arent persuasive enough to convince someone to change their mind, especially about themselves.

#npc writes

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idislikefrenchclass · 5 months

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hiiii! List 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the askbox for the last 10 people who liked or reblogged something from you! Get to know your mutuals, followers and all the wonderful people on here! happy new year and all the best :)

hello! i dont know how to ask other people i have basically no idea how tumblr works besides from posting haha but heres my list :)

-my dog and my family. my dog is the greatest being i have ever met and my family is very nice and i love them all. sometimes i HATE going on walks with my dog but this is how i get my time alone to think so i actually do like it!!

-my friends! i dont have many but the ones i have i love too. they make school survivable 4 me, but especially my best friend. whenever i wish the world were ending i can call her up and well do the dumbest shit (well literally climb trees or lie around doing nothing. i mean really dumb shit. yesterday we set styrofoam on fire) and i feel like a human being again

-music. whatever i do normally theres music playing in the background. well not now since im writing something i need to think about so not always. most of the time i listen to shit alt rock but i also have a couple cds and cassettes which are.. also shit alt rock *shhshs radiohead, csh, and weezer*. i have a björk cassette from the 90s DUHHHH

-drinking tea or coffee and reading, i love tea. i have a couple of nice cups too but my favourite has to be my dads southpark cup. i usually read books that my friends recommend to me or that i find online or at the book store and think "hm this book looks cool ill buy it" (currently "the secret history" its great). theres this book shop that has a cafe in it kinda near where i live, i like going there. usually by bike but when its cold i go by tram because i love being on the tram. its like a little treat i give myself when i find am unused tram ticket on the ground or just buy one but let me tell you thats pain in the ass since theyre so fucking expensive it hurts my brain

-making/seeing art. i like drawing, painting, making collages, writing, taking photos, making music, putting makeup on my face, making cool outfits. all sorts of art. it doesnt have to be good, i just have to like it. my writing in english is kinda meh but in german its fun to write since my writing is actually good and i can put lots of weird words in it that i dont know in english and the grammar just feels so much more natural. it soothes my brain to have written something i like. going to museums is aaah too. especially the modern art ones, historical ones are just boring tbh.

-i know it said 5 things but im extra so hihi. being outside!!! when im inside for too long i just feel like im a rotting piece of meat. which is gross because i dont like meat. and milk. and eggs. AND TOMATOES THEYRE SO GROSS. did i ever say im vegeterian? like almost vegan even. anyways, i love being outside just watching the clouds or listening to the silence. i love quiet but i also love noise.

thats all i think. hope this is not too long or fuck it i dont care

#blog intro #your mom

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onereallygoodlambonastick · 2 years

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id rather not fine-tune myself into a machine and then end up three months later lookign back like what happened and also why did i do any of that

#issues have occurred #if taking on another role is going to take attention away from all these other things and degrade how i am able to pay attention #then i dont think its worth it! especially when its for something i can take on a later date. even if i would get paid to do it #i REALLY dont want to spend my last quarter just ruthlessly/mindlessly speedrunning thru what is already ten weeks and then nothing #it passes in a blur sure but i also want to be able to get a grip and plant my feet in something and uh hhuhhh do not think #taking on an paid role at this short notice is going to do me any favors in that direction #even if it was something i was looking for two quarters ago :-/ not right now ! its the home stretch and im writhing already #like. if i take on MORE arent i asking or amping the ground to basically render myself into some kinda machine in five diff directions #:-/#i also dont want to work for another white prof lol! i told this to my mom and it was ✋🏽 my mistake bc she cant tell the difference between #bias and imperial inheritances but . i am working with plenty of other white ppl already i am not particularly interested in adding more #but the resume ://///// <-prob not worth it. maybe it is.#i dont want to fling myself into circumstances (that i do have a measure of control over) that will end up sucking the life out of me #thesis-writing plus community work are HIGHLY attentive and demanding and potentially rewarding work for me. IF i create the space for mysel #to attend and care for them properly. and girlguy do i want that #i also want time to do absolutely nothing and dream about fake people. so theres that :/#my mom telling me i have a bias against white people is so fucking funny 😭😭 still thinking about it. going insane #my capacity is lessened at the get-go and id rather not work from an already emptying cup; i want to focus on returning n getting generative #or whater #hm yea i guess that can be deciding factor - im already emptying and i ought to focus on that. start from where i am at.#LOL i think this the least of all things i should be feeling guilty over - i feel much more guilty over potentially dropping a course #on polynesian navigators and the original moonshot led by a native professor ive been meaning to learn from #like if i am going to feel guilty i should feel guilty over THAT yknow. but anyways i know the guilt is unproductive yea yea i know #hm yea i dont want to keep thinking on this -#im just not doing it!#soy talks shit

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gogolstoelicker · 2 years

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Can you do a cyan reader from show by rock for twst boys. also what animes have you watched I’d like to know?

Twisted Wonderland with a Cyan!MC

notes: •honestly i don't watch anime much since i kind of lose interest easily KSKSKS (i might missed some but) i think I've watched owari no seraph, bungo stray dogs, yuukoku no moriarty, vanitas no carte(?), assassination classroom, fairy tail, death note and karnival(i think I'm missing smth so I'll be adding if i remember)

•and i honestly read manhwas more (e: the return of the 8th class magician, who made me a princess etc)

•pls tell me i got her character right

Heartslabyul:

YOU'RE IN A BAND BEFORE???? WELL, HE IS HERE TO PROMOTE HIS CLUB;D

as soon as cater mentioned abt being in a band, your full attention is on him and he had never been more than happy

will tell u abt the club and will ask u to consider joining them (since they're in desperate need of a new member)

immediate relief when u actually join them not too long after

the one who spread you were an idol in ur world (probably how a certain someone finds out too)

tries to get a pic with u EVERYTIME

#withmyfavidol #chilling #theysofab😘

someone pls stop him

that someone being trey and riddle so yey⁉️

trey is more than happy to have u around

he knows cats have bad breathe (my cats.) so he made sure u took care of that

would take away ur pastries privileges if u refuse to take care of ur mouth

riddle is quite curious abt u

and he really likes ur style too!!

ur personality is smth he really likes and appreciates

tho, it would get on his nerves if you're against him since he's not really good with retaliation

ace and deuce experiments on u

actually, it was all ace's idea

deuce thought it was bad but got convinced into ace's plan

yknow that one grass that people wave around for cats to play with? yeah thats them

guess who lost their heads btw

Savanaclaw:

you have animal ears, they have animal ears

kinship???? /JOKE

anyways u probably have ur cat nap with leona sometimes

cat things ig

ruggie shitting tears bc now he have two people to wake up

well at least u dont take a nap every second and is hard to wake up unlike a certain someone

sometimes takes advantage of how you never suspects anyone but shh🤫 u didn't hear that from him

Jack is the one who suspects people for u

will be the one on the lookout for anyone that's trying to take advantage of ur gentle personality and how u never suspect anyone of anything bad

sometimes prays that u will so that u won't get into anything bad (COUGH COUGH azul's deal COUGH COUGH)

insists that he's only doing this for repayment of that thing with savanaclaw evil plan to win some sports

he lied, we all know he did, he actually enjoyed ur company

cheers u on abt u being in a band

in his own way ofc, he's not gonna be THAT obvious🙄🙄*proceeds to be exact that*

sometimes if u invite him, he will actually make time to attend one of ur concerts

u didn't hear this from me tho

leona? leona.

he doesn't care much

just a fellow cat, nothing much here

tho u are a breathe of fresh air from what he's used to

he quite enjoys ur company too but he would rather die than admit it

he especially enjoy ur afternoon cat naps together

Octavinelle:

doesn't matter what species u are, floyd will always want to squeeze u /pos

/neg if u hate being squeezed or just dislike physical touch

azul is like 🤔 hm. maybe we need a performer in here don't you think?

and then stare right into ur soul👁👁

fret not, he'll pay you!! will even prepare anything necessary for ur performance!

the deal is set and now u occasionally perform in monstro lounge

sometimes floyd tried to join in but jade grabbed him by the collar and made sure he does not step foot on the stage

jade is the mad scientist that tried to study u

u are technically a cat🤔do u play what cats play? do u eat those cat foods? can cats like u perhaps... eat mushrooms?👁👁

oh no run

don't worry! azul is here to save u!

by grabbing u by the collar and running away from jade who have his mushroom food in one hand

even floyd ran away, sometimes he'll hoist u up in the air and just carry u like a sack and run like that

speaking of which, they, azul specifically, likes ur personality

esp if u gave a honest feedback on smth for the lounge or them as a person

and ue gentleness is more than welcomed‼️

floyd specifically liked that abt u‼️

Scarabia:

HELLO‼️‼️‼️‼️- kalim to you

jamil trying to shush him bc he's yelling too loud in the hallways

kalim tried to get you to join the light music club!

he even gave u a tour and introduced u to who's the members‼️

he even tried to state the pros and cons of joining them‼️

which doesn't really take much convincing bc u literally said yes

one performance in and so suddenly yall got famous

so famous, other schools even heard of y'all and majority are yalls fans🤔

kalim is more excited than the whole group combined about that

now he believes you're their lucky charm

uh oh

better start asking jamil to turn that belief around

speaking of jamil, he's more than happy to have u around

you're not too loud and is up to troubles like a certain someone he knows and is actually prettu gentle

you're a breathe of fresh air

tho your straightforwardness might get on his nerves a bit🤔

just a bit tho

mostly when u disagree with him

other than that, totally no problems with u

more than happy to leave kalim in ur capable hands as he go and get his rest for once

also!! he's really happy how u still see him as him and not as kalim's shadow

it was really much appreciated that he just

Pomefiore:

oh vil and rook loves your style

gothic lolita??? and u look SO good in it???? MMM.

maybe u wanna join their dorm? hahaha that was a joke that was a joke

or was it.

if u asked, they'll be more than happy to dress u up😁

they got all the frills and ribbons here just. just come over.

don't play with the ribbons tho, this is a warning from vil

he appreciates that you're honest and would give a honest feedback abt smth he asked or with how he dolled u up

he's a celebrity and you're apparently in a band with the light music club that got so popular so suddenly so he can understand if u feel stress etc and would actually offer a spa day‼️

rook watching u from above the trees almost everyday like👁👁

u wondering why is ur senses tingling like someone is watching u or smth🤔

rook actually wrote u a poem sometimes to just appreciate u

someone needs to drag him away bc his poem seems like it will never end

felines(?) should be strong too right??🤔 - epel's first impression

you're strong or not, who knows. just show epel and we'll know ig

actually had his eyes on ur ears like 👁👁

like father like son ig (rook is the dad, no u can't argue with me on this one)

it looks soft so like uh one soft pat?😁pls?😁

likes ur gentle personality actually, that way, he can look and be manlier next to you

when uh, vil isn't around ofc

Ignihyde:

idia going ballistic bc omg!! someone who's in a band who's actually good at singing and actually had sone experience and is actually really good and is ac-

we get it idia:/

actually vibrates in his seat when u turn to look at the tablet he used to go to school

like wow! his idol is looking right at him!

yes, it's a tablet but it's his tablet so you have technically noticed him;D!

don't even ask how u became his idol so quick

probably the one who spreads about u that u just became so popular even outside of school

you're welcome btw

ortho is happy to have a new friend!

he doesn't have many felines or beastman friends (since the savanaclaw people are not really the friendliest), so he's happy that he got u as a friend!

he sometimes watch some youtube videos abt cats and what they play and test it on u🤔

like laser? those feather on a idk string???

probably a bridge for u and idia to start talking too

since he noticed how much of a big fan his brother is of you🤔

idia at first was a mess, he can barely get a word out

but at least he got that autograph💪‼️ (and picture he screenshot from the cctv HELP)

u might need to give him a few weeks for him to even start talking to u normally

Diasomnia:

goth with the goths

you were in a band back in ur world? kewl, how about u join the light music club and be in another band with mister lilia vanrouge over here;D~?!

definitely tries to get u to join the light music club, which does not take long bc u said yes abt it right away to being in a band🤔

since u like to shop for antiques, he is more than happy to indulge u in it!

lilia had lived for thousands of years, of course he have seen and own some antiques himself!

he's even more than happy to explain their history if it have some or maybe the artist if its a piece of art

since you're a cat, lilia had so much fun playing around with u

literally tried to test if you're just like a cat by pointing laser so u can chase it

sebek does think you're talented and made sure you know of it

may or may not have tried getting u to write a song about malleus but shh

he appreciates talents and is not afraid to let you know of it, even as an anti human

he also appreciates that you're honest, that way he can trust u more🤔‼️

i legit do not know how to write more for sebek

just think of sebek as a big chunky protector of his cat friend prefect with their cat monster

silver? silver (silver coloured emoji)

he likes your gentle personality

sometimes, he fell asleep in ur presence

like "oh its prefe- zzzzz"

can u blame him? it's soothing and a breathe of fresh air from what he's used to seeing and tolerating

malleus? over the moon.

like you're gentle and straightforward? 🤩🤩🤩🤩😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘

he is just so happy to have u as a friend that he almost brought u a new instrument as a gift

oh he's more than happy to indulge u in some antiques he personally knows too

while he has not live for as long as lilia or travelled the world like him, he does know his fair share of antiques stuff in his long life

would even gift u them if u asked

if you allow it, he'll pet ur ears😁pls.

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