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battydora · 11 months

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"YEAH, WE ARE A LITTLE CLICHE!"

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pairing: kyojuro rengoku, reader

content: sfw, college au, modern au, gn reader, friends to lovers, too tooth rooting fluff to my taste, kyo is a blushing and awkward mess, soft shit overall i love him so much, barely proof read!!

note: MAN THIS TOOK FOREVER. it's finally done. this is my first kyojuro fic in a long time omg i missed writing for him i'm so happy!!! also this is for @renhoeku 's kyojuro's birthday collab, i'm so excited because this is the very first collab i join to as a fic writer too!!! thanks for letting me join, this is so niche and cliche but i'm still a sucker for cliche tropes, i can't help myself, i hope you enjoy it! ♡

music inspo: this playlist ♡

wc: 3.4k

you are running late to your second class that day because you got distracted with your friends from other courses. a few books you borrowed from the library are being held by your hands about to fall thanks to your turbulent running.

would it really be that cliche and dumb to crash into someone midway? yes, and you are right, you just crashed into someone unexpectedly, all your books are now spread across the hallway and you're on the floor. you make your best to quickly sit down to apologize to the person you just basically slammed into, who seems to be a boy around your age you are sure you never seen before. what is up with his hair?

“oh my god, i am so sorry! are you okay?!” your voice filled with concern when you se the stranger on the floor rubbing his head in ache, who turns his gaze to you at your question.

“yes, i am fine! you shall not worry! are you alright?” his voice is loud and cheerful, luckily he isn't showing any signs of injury or such so you sigh relieved.

“yes! yes, i'm fine, god this is so embarassing and cliche” you sigh again now collecting your books, seeing how the boy was doing the same with his stuff. he finishes quickly so he is able to lend you a hand and he hands you a few of your notes.

“there you go” he says with a bright smile, now that you had a chance to look at him upclose, you find yourself staring at a charming face that sends you vibes of a person with a bright personality, kinda blessing if you are honest, his red eyes as shiny as his curious looking yellow and red hair, you zone out for a few seconds staring at the stranger before you snap back when he speaks to you.

“thank you, and i'm so sorry again!” you bend down in order to apologize to him.

“do not worry, i am not in pain! you seemed in a rush so it is totally alright, you can head to your class”

"yes, i'm already running late, so bye! thank you!" you say in a charismatic tone, you finally got up and start running again, leaving the kind stranger behind.

you got to class very late. you tried to catch up with your classmates but they were very ahead of you, you try to cheer yourself up by thinking the class was going to be short anyways and that coffee break was just around the corner. once the class is over, you start to head to a cafe near the campus, but before you can leave the building, you see the same kind stranger leaving his classroom. you lock gazes with eachother and he smiles at you when he sees you walking in his direction.

"ah, it's you!" he begins, an innocent enthusiasm captured his loud voice "did you make it to class?" he asks with an amused tone, yet sounding nice, no harm in his words. you chuckle out a sigh and smile in disbelief, your head lowers a bit.

"yes but i arrived quite late, all my classmates were already ahead of me" you sound dissapointed, wanting to forget about the misfortunate act.

"i see, that's a shame to hear" his smile fades just for a few seconds, pitting you a bit "where are you heading now?" he asks out of pure curiousity.

"oh, i'm going to the cafe nearby to have a coffee before going to my next class, i hope i'm not late this time" at your words the stranger chuckles out a loud laugh.

"i'm sure you won't, i was about to go to the cafe aswell. would you like to grab some coffee with me?" he asks looking at you, his smile flashing on his face again, it is almost as if his smile had a radiance of its own.

you can't deny his invitation, you liked this stranger, he seemed like a nice guy, everything about his vibes feel comforting and pleasant. why not?

"sure, let's go!"

in the way to the cafe, you exchange a few personal data, you get to know his name is kyojuro rengoku, he is a third year of his career like you and he is in an opposite class of yours. your schedules rarely alinged so it was almost impossible for you to see him around, however he was there today because he was taking extra classes for his upcoming exam next week, he also said he finds morning shift much more comfortable than the afternoon one so he is considering changing shifts. he is an interesting and nice guy, very cheerful and respectful in his manners, once at the cafe he asks you a few questions about yourself too, so you start to talk on and on about yourselves, exchanging thoughts and interests, slowly developing a friendly bond. he is very humoristic too, making little jokes and comments in order to make you laugh, some people around side eye at you both a small judgamental face at how loud you were laughing but it doesn't seem to bother any of you.

never was a coffee break this entretaining.

after 15 minutes you start heading back to classes alongside kyojuro, with a bright smile on your face, this dude is amazing! he made you completely forget about the mishap you went though earlier, his company is bright and lighthearted, you want to get to know him better if you are honest.

six months pass by and you and kyojuro developed a lovely friendship, you got to know him better as you proposed yourself too and he ended up being twice as interesting than you imagined, he was rising his younger brother on his own, his father was abscent but still made sure to pay for everything their sons needed, you feel pitty for him for having such a dick dad but he tells you to not pay him any attention, kyojuro is more than fine with the way he lives. he is overly optimistic but realistic at the same time, he knows his father is not the best dad but he still chooses to smile and hold his head high doing the best he can for his brother, this attitude of his makes your days lighter and this often makes you feel encouraged you to work hard or try new things you normally would've need a lot of courage to do. now that kyojuro changed shifts, you two use to go to the campus yard and sit on the grass to study or just talk, often letting your conversations continue until sunset, the lovely seasonal sunlight always witnessing your friendship's growth. other times you meet at any of your homes to study for upcoming exams, he is a great studying partner! you share some snacks and drinks during those study sessions and laugh a lot. this turned into a habit overtime.

you met a few people along the way, kyojuro introduced you to his friend group and now you spend plenty of time with them, everyone is so nice and fun to be around, this guy tengen is one extroverted and entretaining person, however the group (including yourself) tease him about him claiming to be the most flamoyant looking but then having a disastrous sense of fashion, he dresses well, yes, but his accessory choices are an absolute mess. you tease him often saying a headband full of glitter and plastic gems is an horrendous choice even if he says otherwise. then this girl shinobu, she is one of the quietest of the group but whenever she speaks you always engage in an interesting and thoughtful conversation, she is very smart and you get to exchange interesting and weird facts, conversations with her tend to be very fruitful (and she always has some gossip or embarassing stories of the other group members, she is truly so entretaining to be around too). there is this other guy, giyuu, who is the quiet introverted after shinobu, who sticks around his extroverted friends and always signs up to the chaotic ideas the three loudest members come up with, he is a man of few words but his group understand him perfectly without needing to speak to him. you try to talk to him, but it's just that it's difficult to draw his attention and have long chats with him if your interests don't align, however you made your way to his heart when you told him your favourite bands and they ended up being the same bands giyuu was into you so you always find time to talk about your favourite songs and their meanings, after that you got to know him a little better, turning out to be an interesting guy.and then finally is this girl, kanroji, who is kyojuro's childhood best friend, they met in kindergartden and since then they're inseparable, she knows kyojuro from head to toes; she is a very lovely girl, always full of compliments for everyone and is nice, even to strangers. she is sweet around you too and since you're kyojuro's friend, she whispers embarassing facts about younger rengoku for you to laugh and his only reaction is to laugh awkwardly at the weird kid he was in highschool, blushing out of embarassment, which only made you feel closer to him, everytime you got to know something new about him, you found yourself feeling more captivated by his sparkling personality, he is indeed a wonderful person.

you grew close to this group and spent a lot of time together after class, some weekends you went out for beer and spent so many amazing nights together, but there was some things you weren't quite aware of until the first five months you spent together, such as how kanroji and uzui teased kyojuro more than they usually did, specially when you were around. it was overall suspicious to you because it looked like the flamboyant boy and the lovely girl were up to something but you had no clues of what it could be. kyojuro's face would turn red at their statements and start telling them to cut it off. you asked shinobu what was up with those three and she would just laugh softly and answer "those are just uzui and mitsuri's antics, don't pay them any attention" but she knew quite well something was going on around rengoku for them to act the way they did and she did not want to tell you.

you didn't pay much attention to it at the moment because finals are now around the corner and you have to strive on passing, so your studying sessions with kyojuro took place at least three times a week, both you two were a bit stressed, there was a lot of content you had to study for both of your careers so you barely had time to spend doing anything else than studying. you are now at your place, you agreed with kyojuro to go to your house to study after class, it is around 6 PM now and you two are sitting at the living room table, notes and folders spread all over it and the floor. silence is all over the room, both of you two focused on your books, which is common in your studying sessions, you work better working in silence yet together in a way.

after like three hours, you sigh out of tiredness and throw yourself back, laying flat on the ground, a grunt of disbelief leaves your mouth as you frown completely exhausted. kyojuro just looks at you, raising his eyebrows at your motion.

"too much?" he asks in a calm tone, despite him being just as tired as you, he even shows small signs of having baggy eyes.

"yeah, i hate this career" you say, jokingly but yes, you are tired, he lets out a giggle.

"how about a break?" he suggests, putting his pen down and closing his notebook for a minute.

"that sounds great" you agree sitting back down, now looking at your phone cheking the time "oh my god, it's already 9 PM. don't you have to be home to senjuro?" you ask in concern, his little brother was left alone.

"oh, no don't worry, he is at a friend's house, he is staying over until tomorrow. however i should be heading back not too late because the street may turn dangerous if i walk too late" he says standing up, you copy his action.

"i don't have a problem with you staying over, though. if it gets too late you can sleep here" you offer.

"really?" he seems surprised, a sparkle of excitement shining in his eyes.

"yeah! we can prepare a nice meal and continue to study until we go to sleep" your smile widens as you speak, the idea of having an improvised pijama party with kyojuro.

"yes, i would love that!" his eyes seem to sparkle with joy at the proposal, you both start walking to the kitchen and open the fridge to check what you had.

"well, i went to the market the other day so i have plenty of things to prepare. how does udon sound for you?" you ask with a gentle smile.

"sounds great! let's do it"

and just like that, you two start preparing dinner. you put some music to make the cooking much more entretaining, you nor kyojuro can help but sing outloud, even dance, to your favourite songs, using kitchen utensils as microphones. the preparing overall is easy but what really made it entretaining and different from any other meal you ever prepared, is that you are doing it with good company, people say food tastes better when sharing it with someone and kyojuro is the living proof of the saying.

you cut the vegetables as he waits for the water to start boiling to finally cook the noodles, however, he walks behind you and rests his chin on your shoulder, checking on what you are doing, this isn't weird at all sometimes he would just do that affectionately.

"hi" you say in a sweet tone and a cute smile.

"hi" he answers with a wide smile on his face too, looking adorable as ever.

you go silent only for a few seconds until your body almost jumps for feeling kyojuro's hand making its way to the hand you are holding the knife with and lay it on the kitchen table as the other lands subtly on your waist, its a subtle motion but it is enough to make your face turn slightly red, wandering what he is thinking about now... not until he just starts tickling you making you to burst out laughing loudly, his fingers tickle all around your waist and armpits and laughs the moment you start fighting to stop him.

"k-kyojuro, s-stop! i'm al-almost peeing!" you protest between laughs, struggling to get some air in your lungs and trying to tickle him back, the attempt is useless because he's got you wrapped around his finger and all you can do is try to kneel down, as an attempt to escape from his grip, he follows as he continues laughing and sits on the ground wrapping your waist with his arm as the other continues to tickle you.

the laughter gets louder suddenly and in your last efforts to free yourself before giving up, you forcefully turn around to face him, a bit too clumsily, because this makes kyojuro fall back on his back, with you on top of him.

the blonde notices quickly the position you both ended up in and suddenly stops the tickling, giving you the chance to recover some air, you realize only a few seconds later the awkward situation you are left in the moment you look at kyojuro's face, his eyes are wide open, an awkward smile formed on his lips and a deep red blush covering the width and long of his face. your face turns inmediately red as you stare down at him, his hands resting again on your waist subtly, unsure of what he should do now. is this weird? is he being weird? no, why would he? it was just an accident, so why is he so nervous? what he should do? your wide open eyes are locked to his and now he is unsure if he should look away or not. the awkward silence goes on for a long time, you gulp and your heart is pounding, how did this happen all suddenly?

kyojuro meditates for a long while, is this a wrong time to make a move? he has been having mixed feelings about you, you two are amazing friends but he can't help but feel totally love-struck around you, you're so wonderful and smart... what if you don't like him back? what if he ruins the beautiful friendship you two have? he can't risk it... he doesn't want to push you away from his life.

but your body so close to his, your face looking his way, you can almost feel his heart jumping out of his chest... he just can't.

he bets everything to this very moment. his lips make a very small movement, as if he is trying to twist them into a kissing manner, noticeable to your eyes. your world falls apart when you see his head shyly trying to lean closer to you and your reaction is to blush even harder, everything is moving too fast, moments ago you were cooking and laughing and now you're suddenly on top of kyojuro on the floor, him trying to kiss you know, does that mean he likes you? or is it physical attraction only? how would this impact in your friendship? are you overthinking? you probably are. there are so many questions and so little time to answer each, he is already so close to your lips, his eyes are almost shut down entirely so you take a small breathe, choosing to relax and give in to the moment. your eyes close slowly, your head also leans in carefully and the distance between you two breaks, giving your friend a soft smooch on his lips.

it's sweet and gentle, shy one might say. not too long nor short, it's just enough for you two to implode out of happyness, kyojuro pulls away first out of nerves, he wants to see your face, he wants to know what are your thoughts in this very moment, he seems more nervous than you are. you two remain silent for a few instants before he speaks again.

"w-was that okay?" his face fails to go back to normal, it's still as red as before. you snort out a small giggle.

"it was sweet, i liked it" you smile warmly at him.

"gosh i'm so glad" he sighs in relief, throwing his head back for a second, trying to recover his composture, he was so scared he might mess up what you two had "i was mortified at the thought of... you know, scaring you away or seen as a weirdo by you"

you raise your brows and decide to finally move, you sit on the ground and grab kyojuro's hands to help him sit back down again, now getting the chance to talk normally.

"i don't think you would ever scare me away. perhaps, it was just a kiss" you pause only for a second "and i like you, how would a kiss be a reason to push me away"

"i... guess you are right" he laughs at his own thought, the nerves got the best of him, you are an amazing person, a kiss can't ruin everything "still, there is something i need to tell you..."

your face turns slightly pink at his words, your imagination wandering like crazy, is he really...? "yeah? what is it?" you try to stay calm, a small smile on your face, ready for his upcoming words. kyojuro seems a bit nervous again, he takes a deep breathe before talking again, his cheeks turning red once again.

"tengen will lose a bet to kanroji if i confess to you now, and i want him to lose." his statement is amusing, it makes you laugh, what is going to happen next is so obvious, his smile turns into a wide, warm and sincere one "there are feelings i want to confess to you right now, please listen to me"

thanks for reading!

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peachypaddys · 17 days

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okay i'll be honest i packed my bags up two days ago in regards to buddie bc i had read the leaked scripts and saw the "brother" on there and then while watching previous episodes i noticed all the big buddie hints were all more focused on buck than eddie (but then again 90% of the show is more focused on buck than eddie. not particularly mad about it but i'd like more of eddie) and i thought that it's over, because i thought the writers never thought of eddie as queer in any form ever and he's a straight man to them...

then the episode didn't have "brother" and THEN I FIND OUT THAT RIGHT UNTIL FILMING EPISODES 2 AND 3, EDDIE was supposed to kiss tommy?? and have the sexuality discovery arc?!?

now i'm back more than ever. just the fact that in the writers' minds, there is a possibility of queer eddie is enough for me. now eddie is literally gay to me, and nothing will change it, and all i need is for him to realize it (aka for the writers to actually put the words down)... tim also talked about how he actually intended to write stuff with natalia but then the actress left and he had to come up with something for marisol... oh we were so so close.

i think it can still happen btw. the words used were "fell through" and idk what the reasons are obviously (many ppl think it's bc ryan doesn't want to do it and i don't like him either but the switch up being so last minute makes me think not) and i hope it's just that they realized they need more time to dedicate to this for eddie bc his character would struggle a lot more with any kind of queerness than buck (he's not as experimental, repression king, catholic guilt, mexican macho man culture) and that would need way more than like 7 episodes to address and delve into.

i am happy for bi buck and glad he's gonna get a good, romcom-esque arc exploring himself along with tommy (i like bucktommy too) but god, i just caught up on seasons 5 and 6 and it made me love and connect so much more with eddie and even if not for buddie - although that would be a bonus (and logical next step) - i need eddie to figure out himself and come out and finally be free and happy and follow his heart.

#eddie diaz #911 on abc #911 abc #evan buckley #buddie #bucktommy #i like bucktommy btw but i don't want the lurkers who are gauging the reactions to think that we don't want queer eddie anymore #and i'm kinda annoyed that ppl think it's not necessary anymore like?????#so many ppl actually don't care that much about eddie lmao #i'm SO happy about bi buck you don't get it but eddie needs to be freed from that closet too #and i'm tired of 'buddies' who only really care about buck saying it's ok we don't need it anymore and jumping ship #you can ofc like both buddie and bucktommy but saying queer eddie no longer matters or is important.......#eddie diaz get behind me i'll pry you out of the closet with my own two hands

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writerscafehub · 5 months

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𝙸𝙽𝚃𝚁𝙾𝙳𝚄𝙲𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝙾𝚄𝚁 𝙱𝙰𝚁𝙸𝚂𝚃𝙰 𝙵𝙾𝚁 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝙳𝙰𝚈: @the-iceni-bitch

ೀ ㅤ۫ ㅤ۪ㅤ۫ ㅤ ♡ ㅤ . 𝐆𝐄𝐓 𝐓𝐎 𝐊𝐍𝐎𝐖 𝐍𝐀𝐓𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐄:

From one to five stars, how would you rate your writing? (No downplaying yourself!)

Oh god, a 3.5? I will admit that it’s very hard for me not to downplay myself, it’s what I’m best at. I will say that I have gotten much better as a writer since I took it back up.

2. What do you think makes your writing stand out from other works?

I think probably my dialogue. I find myself able to sink into relationship dynamics quite easily and am able to show a character’s personality through their conversation with other characters rather than just describing it.

3. Are there any writers that inspire you?

Well, I have to give credit where credit is due as @stargazingfangirl18 is the whole reason I started writing fanfic. Other fanfic authors I find myself drawing inspired from would be @angrythingstarlight, @boxofbonesfic, @slothspaghettiwrites, @onsunnyside, and @howdoyousleep3. For my non-fanfic writing I draw a lot of inspiration for Ursula LeGuin, George R.R. Martin, Robert Jordan, and Tolkien of course.

4. What’s the fic you’re most proud of?

Definitely In the Pines. It’s so different from anything else I’ve ever written and I honestly love it. It’s so haunting and I’m very proud of the prose.

5. Which character(s) do you find easiest to write and which do you find most difficult to write?

Easiest is absolutely the quadrouple - my Ransom/reader/Ari/Jake kinda polycule that’s part of my No Love Like Your Love AU. I also find it really easy to write for Natasha and her peach from that same AU. Most difficult? Oof, off the top of my head Mike Weiss, he’s just kinda depressing.

6. Who or what do you find yourself writing about most?

Again, the quadrouple. They’re my comfort characters for a reason. I also just love writing about people in relationships, about them being in love and working through tough times but coming out better for it. I love when two (or more) people are just completely open and honest with each other and do their best to make each other better.

7. Tell us about a WIP you’re excited about!

Fic wise all the upcoming stuff for the NLLYL verse, and there’s a lot. But I am most excited about my novel! It has so many characters that I love so much. It delves into stuff I’ve never written before but that I found surprisingly intriguing. And of course, there’s a ton of bangable characters. Blorbos for everyone.

8. First fandom you ever wrote for?

The Chris Evans fandom. I can’t help it, I want to fuck so many of that man’s characters.

9. Any guilty pleasure trope(s)?

Omegaverse for sure. Specifically knotting and scent. I just want a giant, masculine smelling animal of a man to fuck me and then have his cock locked inside me for an hour. And the snuggly vibes of nesting and just having a bunch of soft and comforting things around you that smell like someone you love feeds the marshmallow romantic inside me.

10. A trope you’ll never, ever write for.

Look, every time I say I’m never going to write for something I end up writing it. But I can hopefully say that scat will never happen.

11. Wildest fic you’ve ever written?

Probably the one where Deadpool is stuck in a self-insert fanfic. It breaks the fourth wall and it’s short but it’s weird as fuck.

12. Favorite pairing to write for? (platonic or romantic!)

Ari and Jake. They’re so soft and sweet and perfect and I am never going to let anything bad happen to them ever.

13. Do you listen to anything while you write?

With my ADHD I have to. It’s usually just the tv though. I’ll put some sitcom I’ve watched a million times on in the background.

14. One-shots or multi-chaptered works?

This is kinda tough! I love creating AUs but I feel like those are more a bunch of one shots that just happen to be for the same couples in the same setting. But I also really love the actual series I’ve done. So I’m going to say multi-chapter.

15. Have you ever daydreamed about side adventures/spin-offs from your fic? Tell us about them!

Constantly! I mean, if I daydream about it I typically add it to my WIPs which is why I have so many. It’s usually just about my characters being happy and living their best lives in some way.

16. Is there anything you’ve wanted to write, but you’ve been too scared to try?

Not yet! I will say I’m a little bit intimidated still about writing for a male reader but after my first foray into it I feel much more comfortable.

17. What’s the nicest comment you’ve ever received?

I can’t think of a specific one but I’ve gotten a few from people who have told me my fics provide a little bright spot for them and I always enjoy hearing that! There was also an ask I got where someone told me they recommend and discuss my writing more than they do real authors and that felt pretty good.

18. Have you ever gone outside of your comfort zone for a fic? How did it turn out?

This goes back to what I mentioned before but definitely writing for a male reader. The reason I wanted to do it was part curiosity to see if I could do it and part desire to write for an audience I hadn’t had a chance to connect with. It turned out really well and aside from some cliche accusations of fetishization I had a lot of positive engagement.

19. Tooth-rotting fluff or merciless angst?

Fluff, always fluff. If I do the angst I end up living in it for days and I hate it. (I say this while hosting a giant angst ask a thon on my blog)

20. Do you have any OCs? Tell us about them!

For my fics, aside from my reader characters who in spite of being inserts are basically OCs, there’s the second generation of my NLLYL core group. All the kids are so cute and when they grow up there’s a lot of fun to be had, new romances and I could just go on and on about them. For my novel, oh my god you guys. There’s the Viking pirate sealord, the feminist icon, the super hot himbo best friend, the tiny and fiery lady of the lakes, the sexy villain, the spoiled but handsome prince. And that’s not even all of them.

21. If you could enter the universe of any one of your fics, which would it be and why?

Would it surprise anyone if I said the NLLYL verse? Because that’s the one. It’s like my security blanket.

22. Is there anything you wish your audience knew about your writing or writing process?

Just that I have zero control over where my muse goes. If you’re craving the next installment in a series or an AU I am also craving it, but I’m also not going to force my muse to go somewhere and put something out that isn’t up to my standards.

23. Copy and paste an excerpt you’re particularly fond of.

“The cold wind whipped through your nightgown and tangled it around your limbs as you stared at the sky in rapture, bathed in the silvery light of the moon like some kind of goddess.” - In The Pines

24. Ramble about any fic-related thing you want!

I just love the community I’ve been able to cultivate in the fic writing community. Not just the members of this server but so many readers who leave thoughtful and sweet comments that always make my day.

#barista of the month #𖠰nat𖠰 #writer’s cafe ♡☕︎

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trutrustories · 6 months

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Just some thoughts I have, immediately after viewing ep 6.

spoilers! oh my god, oh my god! I´m honestly relieved! Can you believe it??? I´m SO GLAD endindg didn´t ruin the show! Quite the opposite, actually! I think that with the context of this ending, they actually made season 1 much BETTER. which is like... complete surprise for me! What the hell???? I seriously didn´t expect that! AT ALL! 🤯 It was funny, It was clever, it was epic, and absolutely heartbreaking 🥺😭 Ouroboros, Casey, Timely, and Sylvie... they all survived, and can live they lives however they choose! O. B. making the sequel of his bestseller is the best thing ever! And he has friends now!!! My precious boy!!! Good for him! He deserves it! And Loki and Mobius both survived as well THANK GOD!!!! And they still remember each other! (I was prepared for much worse scenarios, to be honest.)

Anyway, I´m sucker, for bitter sweet endings. So I´m FINE. ....except I´m not.

Because It´s so fucking tragic at the same time!!! God, what a love story! (what isn´t denied is allowed, so... ) they ended it with two of them, alone. Mobius isn´t actually getting back to his boys, because they already have Don. But he didn´t want to stay at TVA because Loki is not there anymore.

Last few shots are Mobius, just standing there, watching life he can´t have and for the first time he is free to wonder around the world on his own. he´s able to WASTE HIS TIME now. And then we see right after Loki, stuck on his throne, alone. And it is implied that he was able to hear Mobius (or see him, even!) And he looks lonely, but also happy for his man!!! GOSH. I was crying like a baby. whole sequence from that scene in a theatre room right until the end! And that freaking music!!! I only have one complaint, and that being: we should see Mobius actually enjoy some JETSKI! Or even better: last shots should have been Mobius happily steering a jet ski on the open sea (wind in the hair and all) AND then Loki on his throne with a smile on his face (because he´s watching him). Last thing: there is actually so much potential, after this finale. If not for actual Marvel project, then for fanfiction writers and for imagination. They left so much room for the good stuff! 😍 For example:

Mobius struggling to addapt to normal life on a timeline. And then he somehow finds out, Loki can see him/ hear him. And he will starts talking to him. And because Loki is so alone and unable to go anywhere, this starts to be his source of fun. Something that makes him happy. And he finds way, to talk to Mobius back somehow... or

Loki will find out that he can travel to his past selfs without having to leave his throne. He stays there, but his mind can travel to his body at any point before.

I am actually mad, I have no time to write fanfics right know (but hey, my english is totally tragic and terrible, so it´s probably a good thing 😅)

Anyway. I feel sad, and also happy. And inspired and satisfied. And I´m still sobbing. All at once! It was beautiful, and I enjoyed every second of it! Can´t remember last time marvel actually managed to do that to me.

*standing ovation* I applaud to creators, actors and everyone involved. You guys did a fenomenal job! (at least that is how I see it)

👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏

#loki #lokius #loki spoilers #loki season 2 #mobius #mobius m mobius #loki and mobius #loki spoiler #marvel #mcu #finale #glorious purpose

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cillianhead · 3 months

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Thank You

guys i know this is all really cheesy but i genuinely do want to say thank you for being so patient with me, i know i've barely been posted any fics lately and i have been working for so long to get this part three done and i'm sort of reaching the end of it so it'll definitely be out by the end of the week (if all goes well)!

i love you guys and i love writing and posting fics for you guys, hearing your responses and comments literally makes my week and i remember everything single one of them and smile

and also thank you to all the cool friends i've made on here i appreciate y'all :) (many of whom are also other very talented writers!!)

i have just been going through some stuff lately and also dealing with writer's block is so UGHHH

but also continuously loving and being obsessed with cillian murphy

he is a light in this dark world for many and god i love the films and tv shows he's been in and i love him as a person too

i know how fan fiction is an outlet and a release for a lot of people and a way to forget the chaotic world outside

i just love you all and i am so appreciative of you guys!!

1,000 followers!! I remember when I hit 100 followers and thought WOW I HAVE A 100 TUMBLR FOLLOWERS AHHHH but now it's like... woah... it's not all about numbers lol and i know 1k isn't like the largest following ever but it's pretty significant!!

i also will always remember when i would look up to certain writers on here (still do) and when they'd follow me i'd screenshot it. i think it was when @mrkdvidal1989 followed me that i was like WHAT

(just an example of many different ppl (also @darlingsfandom))

it was cartoonish the way it felt and i don't know, tumblr has been a really safe space for me to be honest and i'm glad that it is.

anyway rant over i just want to reiterate THAT I AM SO FULL OF LOVE, I AM AN OVERFLOWING POOL OF EMOTIONS AND LOVE IS SOARING FROM MY SOUL AND INTO YOU GUYS

I'm always here for anyone who ever wants to talk :) whether it just be wanting to have a goofy chat or a deep serious conversation, I know I do a lot of rambling but I much prefer listening than talking about myself so don't feel afraid to message me! if you ever feel alone, YOU'RE NOT.... I'M HERE, I PROMISE YOU.

You are so loved and appreciated.

Sincerely, Scarlet <3

#cillian murphy

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hannahssimblr · 4 months

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For Simblr Gratitude Day!

This year, 2023 has been a really really amazing year for me creatively. I wrote over 270K words, I started and finished both parts 2 and 3 of Lucky Girl and I started Lucky Boy! When I began writing last year I really didn't see myself at this point, having written so much, having improved so much, and most importantly, having falling completely head over heels for this amazing community

Without the support and amazing feedback from so many people I would have quit a long time ago, but coming here and talking to you guys and being so incredibly inspired by other work is what really pushed me past the finish line. I want to express my gratitude for every single person who engaged with me this year, for those who liked and commented and shared and left me questions and anon asks, and even those who didn't, and just read along in silence - I see you there! You can't hide! Thank you so much.

This graph only shows my top 10, but I reached over 50 countries this year! that's pure mad.

You can see that it's the Americans and the British who really came through for me, and I'm sorry for poking gentle fun at you in my story - I know you are more than semi-automatic machine guns, UFOs & undesirable tourists, you know how it is, we're like the ignored middle child between you two and I'd be going against my cultural heritage if I didn't act up a little bit.

Most importantly I want to thank specific people today! Starting with @armoricaroyalty for making this day happen, and @daniigh0ul for coming up with the idea. I'm really excited to get to know you both much better in the new year & finally find the time to start reading your stuff - I've heard only good things.

to @sirianasims for poking me to join the writers group that has now absolutely swallowed up my free time (in a good way lmao) and for being hilarious and fun and just generally a gorgeous, open and supportive person. I've been reading Siri's story lately and I INSIST you check it out - I'm on gen 3 and completely obsessed by the thought that goes into this, the complexity of the relationships and really sensitive exploration of difficult material.

to @lynzishell for always being so positive and engaged, always taking the time to leave thoughtful comments and get genuinely excited over everyone's work! I'm DUG INTO her legacy, which is still on gen 1 and it makes my day better every single time I see an update from her - and I'm not even just saying that to be nice. It's an honest to god thrill for me to get to read about her characters. I'm beyond excited for what she's going to do in the new year

@mannylikessims deserves a shout out too for writing some of the best and funniest simlit I've had the pleasure of reading in a long time. Those Villarreal kids (and Jacques, obviously) have me on the edge of my seat. I feel insatiable for this story, like, give me more, all of the time. Just shovel it into my mouth. Manny has also brought me to literal tears with her comments. It's rare enough that you meet a reader that seems to truly understand what you're trying to say in your work - like, right to the heart of it, and Manny is one of those people.

I've just recently started reading @rebouks Somnium and Forever In Between (Don't do what I did if you haven't read yet - start with Somnium) and when I say I am HOOKED I mean it. The visuals alone are enough to make me want to burst into tears with the knowledge that I will never wrangle something so beautiful from the game, but you know what, that's okay, because I can come here and sob over Becca's work instead. I'm not even halfway through and I'm already bowled over by the character development, the dialogue, the humour, everything. The only thing I wish is that I had unlimited free time and 0 commitments so I could absolutely consume this work in one sitting, but I guess savoring it is good too.. Thank you Becca for pure inspiration <3

@pixelnrd for The Langston Legacy, a decades challenge which was actually the first sims 4 legacy I ever read - I stumbled across it on my very first day on simblr and I've loved loved loved it every since. The visuals are gorgeous, the story lines are always engaging, and just about every topic under the sun has been covered now. The dedication to accuracy is really admirable, and now that we've reached the 80s I'm genuinely beginning to feel nostalgic. I always find myself wanting more. I'm so much looking forward to the 90s! (And I can't believe you've made it this far, that's an achievement and a half)

Other storytellers and creators I want to shout out are @simstrashkingdom, @bakersimmer @simmysunset @igglemouse @simsstuph - You guys have created some really great stories this year, and I so long forward to reading more!

To @nexility-sims for creating our wonderful writing group (and for pairing with me) I'm dying to start reading your work properly, because even the small bits I've read have been so beautiful.

And to everyone else in the writing group! I know I have so many stories to catch up on, and I'm very intimidated by that fact, but I know that it means that 2024 holds a lot of exciting times! I want to learn from you all and be inspired and support you, so this is the year I'm going to do it <3

#simblr gratitude day #there's so much #so many people to thank #i'm so sorry if i forgot someone i'm overwhelmed

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“Blizzard is currently trying to somewhat mend them“

Correction make worse, the writing has doubled down on orcs, trolls, goblins and Tauren are evil.

The latest book literally talks about how trolls are dumber on a genetic level than trolls.

This is even far worse than the mid 90s and early 2000s Warcraft which already was not great. Also it attracts real world racists if you want to hear.

Oh I know well about the stupid book, it made me so angry as someone who was hoping after 13 years the game would change for the better and also as a Khadgar lover (he would NOT say that, not after WoD and Legion and Dragonflight lol)

When I said that they are trying to somewhat mend it, I feel like I wanted to say they are trying to give these characters more diverse roles instead of just the stereotypes they wrote them in, like make them more three dimensional characters and we get to see them behaving in new ways (like instead of just orcs being warmorgering brutes we see them in roles like scholars, explorers, archeologists, Kirin Tor mages etc).

However that's why I added in the end that it's hard to do because the foundation is built on this racism, so you can't take it out without rewriting the whole worldbuilding. And it's so sad that they are still using the outdated stereotypes about the races like in that book and that it's part of their internal world building/lorebooks they give to these writers.

Also for your last sentence, I was surprised when I shouldn't have been that there are honest to God elf supremacists on Twitter and Reddit that think (white) Blood Elves are the pinnacle of creation along with (white) humans and that trolls are truly 'savage beasts'. Truly the level of derangement I should've expected.

I am sorry this was a very incoherent mess of a reply, but I am not eloquent with words and I have a lot of beef with WoW's racism (and misogyny!) I think that even if they are trying to diversify the cast, the cultural appropriation this is built on will always exist and the racism will always find its way around. I like some old stuff like "The Last Guardian" and its filled with racism to the brim. Sadly this is why I hope WoW fans talk about these things and don't shut down the discussion, in fact I encourage it.

#pls if you ever feel like correcting me or venting I am down because I think fandom doesn't talk about this games racism enough #world of warcraft

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Writing Lesson: Remembering the Past

I moved from the United States of America to Australia and since then I’ve tried to rewatch some cartoons from my childhood, mainly ones from either Cartoon Network or Boomerang and I can't find them. They're not on any streaming services and I can’t buy physical copies because they’re extremely expensive. Sure Tubi might have some old cartoons such as Popeye or the original Superman, but I didn’t grow up with them. I wanted to rewatch cartoons from the 60s-early 2000s, shows such as The Jetsons, Flintstones, Yogi Bear, the original Animaniacs, Dexters Laboratory, you get the picture.

So why am I bringing all of this up when it comes to writing? Well it got me thinking that yes, while these shows were racist, and aged like milk being left out in the sun, I would argue that it’s still important to rewatch them. Not just for nostalgia shake but as a writer it’s a good idea to remember the past so we don’t repeat it.

I know, “if you don’t remember the past you’ll be doomed to repeat it” but the thing about that saying is, it’s not actually wrong, but I think it get’s overused so no one understands why we say it.

Stories change and evolve over time. The stories we read and were told as kids, might not be the same ones we tell our children because it doesn’t work for them and that’s ok. Stories are supposed to evolve over the years because they show that we as humans are evolving as well. However, if we start to no longer show the past what lessons can we learn to improve?

You see history is a funny thing, if we know our history and the lessons it brings we can do stuff to avoid making the same mistakes as the previous generations. However, if the previous generation's mistakes are lost in time, how can we avoid them if we don’t know what those mistakes are to begin with?

That’s what the saying means. Remember the mistakes our parents, grandparents, great grandparents and so on so we don’t make those same mistakes. This is one of the reasons why every couple of generations society seems to go backwards since the mistakes of the past are being forgotten or ignored and we do them again.

Now I’m not one of those people who think we should stay in the past, life was better back in the old days because let’s be honest, it wasn’t. We were just kids and didn’t understand how the world works. I think we should be able to tell new stories while also not wiping the old ones from existence just because the old ones no longer make money. Of course, they aren’t going to make money the people who like old things are old and there'll always be fewer old people compared to younger ones.

All I'm saying is that if we could keep the old stuff available for as long as possible, we should try and do so. Is the past embarrassing and racist? Yes, but so are we. As a society, many stories are being told that I already know aren’t going to age well in the next couple of decades but we shouldn’t forget about them. Keep learning, keep improving, keep being better.

If you want to reread some old books as a bit of a history project I got some for you. "The Giving Tree", "Gone with the Wind", "Lolita" (my god is that a bad story, why was that ever popular?) "The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn", "Stranger in a Strange Land". I could go on but those are some classic stories that it would be best not to forget about them. It’s important to understand why they were popular and what newer lessons we can get from them.

I also understand history for most people is kind of a boring subject, and while I don’t have advice on how to make learning fun. Perhaps if you’re a writer, and don’t want to read some old books in the genre you writing in, there might be a Youtube video you could put on or something? I’m not asking anyone to do a ten-page history report, just to try and remember some of the mistakes that were being taught in the old days so we could create new and more progressive ones instead of just repeating the same mistakes and never moving forward.

#writing #writeblr #book #books #history #writers of tumblr #authors of tumblr #bookblr #the giving tree #Stranger in a strange land #gone with the wind #The adventures of Huckleberry Finn #mark twain #writing lessons #the jetsons #the flintstones #dexters laboratory #yogi bear #animaniacs

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I really am fucking obsessed with 2.07 tho. Like

S: When it's just the three of us, it's fine, but anytime she gets a new guy, she stepfords out and lets him make all the decisions.

E: I don't think that's what's happening.

S: Remember when we had to move to Chamonix because German Klaus wanted to ski all year round?

E: That wasn't so bad.

S: But what about Paolo—the raw food diet? Family colonics? Or Sameer? I know I enjoyed our—

E: I see what you mean.

See that. That would’ve been enough—Serena didn’t spend her entire childhood in the Upper East Side. That tiny fragment alone is fascinating! But the overall point that Lily repeatedly changes herself for men and that affects her parenting style, meaning that Serena and Eric’s home life was even more unstable than previously thought? That’s something to chew on. But wait—there’s more:

B: Oh, your mother. Remember how she always used to just jet off to Mustique or Ibiza without warning while you and Eric were still in school?

S: Eleanor always knew when we showed up with our overnight bags. Lily had a new boyfriend. We tried alternating between you and the archibalds so you guys never knew how bad it really was.

B: We knew.

Like, this is in-text neglect. This is “Lily was in no way ready or able to be a parent” level stuff. (And then you think about the Scott of it all and you have to wonder if Serena was in any way planned or if Lily just couldn’t do that again. You have to wonder.)

And there’s the idea of Blair and Nate and the first time that they ever really added how much time Eric and Serena had been spending at their houses, and the idea of these tiny kids doing their best to make it okay as much as possible, and Serena is trying really hard to parent Eric and make it seem as okay as possible, but Eric is entirely aware even if he can’t say anything because that would make Serena’s life hard, and so everyone’s lying to everyone else and they’re all trying very hard not to talk about how not okay it is.

Someone write the fic.

Still, we continue:

S: I remember this one time, um, when I was eleven. Eric and I wanted a white christmas. Luckily, mom's husband was a raging cokehead, so he left blow everywhere.

L: Oh my god.

E: It wasn't everywhere—just on the smooth, shiny surfaces.

S: Was that, um, German Klaus with a "k," or was it Danish Claus with a "c"? I can't ever remember which ones she actually married or which she just decided were more important than her children.

Like, wow. And you wonder why your kids have issues.

(And I focus a lot on how Lily is bringing unsafe people into her kids’ lives, but she’s also bringing them into her life. Just makes me wanna grab the gossip girl writers by the lapels and shake them until all the explorations of trauma fall out.)

L: Eric, my darling, you are always honest with me. It isn't true, is it?

E: I know Serena’s timing sucked, but she did pretty much raise me all those years. You just weren't here, you know?

L: I wasn't that bad.

E: Our ringtone for you was "Since U Been Gone.” Vanya the doorman used to sign our permission slips from school.

When I put that last bit into i won’t cross these streets, I got several comments re: ow. Because it is, in fact, painful.

But it’s also canon, and it’s one of the multitude of anecdotes that Eric and Serena give us about the pre-series era in this episode—like, the “Since U Been Gone” thing? That’s a whole dark joke coping mechanism shared between them, which means that Eric and Serena chose it together. Maybe it was as simple as Eric getting his first phone and being excited to give reverting custom ringtones, or maybe one of them straight up had a breakdown and the joke was part of a way to calm down. It’s not just saying Lily wasn’t there, it’s giving us all the little parts of what that meant—in anecdotes, in Serena’s stress response focusing so much on Protect Eric, in Eric talking Serena down at the start of the episode and coolly backing her up when she finally loses it

It’s a fucking gift that just keeps giving

#serena van der woodsen #eric van der woodsen #lily rhodes #the van der woodsens #blairenate #child neglect /#drugs /#original nonsense #this is a meta tag #not my deepest analysis but it’s thinking thoughts nonetheless

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I was bored so decided to write some minor stuff.

Favorite couples of Greek Mythology! (Canon and Non-Canon)

I’ll be honest some of my reasons or explanations will sound like crack. Some I actually want to make a fanfic of! (Even though I’m still in the process of writing a Non-King one, but writers block there). Keep in mind I am tired so all these are randomly explained without full reason why I like them.

Canon Mythology:

Hera / Zeus: Alright this one is probably the one that gets most trashed on, but it’s honestly great! Yes they have issues, but they do love each other. It’s complicated, but they’re gods- I can’t even explain why it’s great as thousands of thoughts run through my head about them, but yeah.

Ariadne / Dionysus: This one I found rather neat! Theseus was a prick and left her on an island, then Dionysus and his party bus came along and picked her up, then later on turned to husband and wife! I mean they’ve never even fought in any myths that I’m aware of, and just seem so chill.

Aphrodite / Ares: Ngl, this is my all time favorite one. Ares literally fought on her side in the Trojan war, going against his mother! And he’s like a devoted son, and he picked Aphrodite- love. And yes they both have their own lovers, but they just have a thing that feels like it’d be constant.

bonus ones I won’t go much into, enjoy but don’t think of too much:

- Achilles / Patroclus: Had to be obvious, but I haven’t read the Iliad in a few years so can’t explain much.

- Apollo / Hyacinthus: Love the tragedy of it all, like it seemed genuinely sweet, then the discuss came along.

Non-Canon Favorite couples of Greek Mythology!

Hades / Prometheus: Some who actually read my blog could tell this is my all time favorite pairing. Yes there’s like no myths of them together- but the concept! I personally imagine they met during the Titanomachy, and had a quiet companionship. Later on when humanity came along, Hades helped a tiny bit- gave the basic idea for a soul while Prometheus did the rest, and led to Hades making the Underworld comfortable for the deceased, since it was his beloved friends creation. And the possible angst?? Prometheus getting his wife or when he gets chained to the mountain, and Hades mourning in silence.

Demeter / Hecate: They seem neat, what can I say? Hecate helped Demeter search for her daughter, even though she’s typically seen as a resident of the underworld- she helped! I like to just imagine women tired of others bs, and if I was confident in writing I’d likely have made 100 fics revolved around them.

Aphrodite / Persephone: The two considered the most beautiful! When I read the whole myth focusing on Psyche, I immediately thought rivals to lovers for this pairing. The whole box of beauty, sending a death curse back. Just two incredible goddesses. I’d like to imagine the two of them were friends when Persephone was younger! Though of course in my AU (I’m gonna call it Mykos verse or smth) since Persephone and Aphrodite aren’t married, the two of them would have likely hung out a lot.

Additional ones I like but don’t think of often:

- Apollo and Ares: Saw a few posts of them, and thought they were cute!

- Hera/Zeus’s former lovers: Now that one was interesting, can’t remember the blog but the whole thing and incorrect quotes was rather sweet.

- Poseidon/Hades: This is Greek mythology, definitely not the worst pairing. I read a fic of it once, and thought it was kinda nice. Besides the whole idea started when I heard of the Hadalpelagic zone in the ocean, and thought it could be a fun meeting spot between the two.

And that’s the end!

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ceilingfan5 · 5 months

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20 Questions for fic writers

Tagged by @holdmecloser-gandydancer

tagging you, the person reading this and wishing someone tagged you, yes you, i mean it

1. How many works do you have on A03?

total? 73. TAZ? 37. oh man. palindrome

2. What's your total A03 word count? 703,033 baby ive been here for Ten Years

3. What fandoms do you write for?

recently taz. before that, aftg, haikyuu!! etc. but man it has been taz for a While

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

OF TAZ WORKS (all my top 5 are old old) 1. Sticker Stars (of course) 2. Run Away With Me 3. Rub This On Your Body 4.Little Shop of Horny and 5. Apply Directly to the Forehead (one of my first taz fics!!) all of those make sense as contenders but i am surprised revenge plus one is #8

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

i................have to be honest..........................................i'm so...sorry............

[id: a screenshot of "Inbox (3402)" indicating no, no I do not]

(please understand this is from years and years and years and years)

i pretty much only reply if i am directly asked a question i have an answer to or it makes me cry in a good way....not because i'm an asshole or because i don't appreciate them!!!! comments mean truly so much to me!! i just don't know what to say besides thank you, so i usually write an emphatic thank you on each chapter and hope people know i mean it.... please don't think i don't care...please............. i care so much

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

we don't do that here

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

“But like,” words fall out of Taako’s mouth before he can stop them. “Live your life, dude, go a little nuts, feel like a whole person, give me $200, participate in the universe, get your back blown out on demand, fucking-” he laughs. “Have a collection, experience joy, buy a cat, get diagnosed with autism, fall in love-”

“What was that last part??”

if that (from revenge plus one) isn't a happy ending what is (i'm hoping the people who care enough to read a post like this have either read it already or are going to go. oh my god i have to read revenge plus one tonight)

8. Do you get hate on fics?

no and if i did i would block and delete em, there's no time for that. fuck em. this is a joy pursuit (i would cry though. don't. what the hell. just close the tab like a normal person. someone MADE THAT.)

9. Do you write smut?

oh baby DO I

i do intend to write some more publishable stuff soon. most of my personal stuff has gotten Way Too Weird. but look out for some horny supervillain taakitz soon if thats your cup of hot chocolate with too many marshmallows in it 👀👀👀👀

10. Do you write crossovers?

sorry i am obsessed with one thing at a time.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

hope not! if so i cast a billion death spiders on them. smooch. partake in the joyous act of baring your soul via dumbfucks yourself, coward

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

once, i think? im not sure they finished

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

absolutely, some of my best stuff was originally rp!!! i am so sorry @holdmecloser-gandydancer @noodyl-blasstal for not continuing some super exciting projects, my brain is electric soup and my life is a circus. someday. someday we will play again. i must believe

14. What's your all-time favourite ship?

if you did not expect taakitz i have 29+ fics you should read

15. What's the WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

everything is possible until you give up. so who knows!!!!!!!!!!! it sure does help to know there are people that will still read things if and when they are ever finished though

16. What are your writing strengths?

VOICE! dialogue. fun

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

planning fucking ahead

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

caution necessary but i mean live your life, just be aware of the err of google translate

19. First fandom you wrote for?

on ao3? wtnv

before that? squints. maybe homestuck or............no it was shakespeare

man. fuck

20. Favourite fic you've ever written?

revenge plus one, probably, i miss living in it

nothing says passion like 90k and baby's first adhd medication!!!!!!!!!

really though please go read it. if you have 90k worth of attention and time and interest

also hey? in general? if you read this far? keep writing. and enjoy it. self indulgence isn't just nice, it's what makes life worth living. make for you, and then the comments and appreciation are bonus. snare a few friends in your web and you're living, baby

keep reaching for the stars

#ask game #hi guys it's been a bit my life has been insane and my brain has been pudding with chunks

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yellowocaballero · 2 months

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I’ve done this thing several times where I read one of your fics for a fandom I don’t know, enjoy it immensely, and then go into the wider AO3 tag like yeah more of this!!!!!! And then it’s all this stuff that’s totally different. Anyway, thank you SO MUCH for always writing fic that hits so hard and is executed so well u are honest to god one of my favorite fic writers ever. Watching ur (fic) career w great interest 🫡

Thank you!!! This message is so funny to me...I'm sorry, I am genuinely being a freak in literally everything I write. Sometimes it's freak in the sense of 'this fic is just genuinely weird' and sometimes it's freak in the sense of 'there are not a lot of longer genfics in this fandom'.

I think it helps that I don't read that much fic, especially for something that I know I plan on writing. I read a very small handful of FE3H fics before writing Weekenders (basically long enough to go 'wow almost none of these are what I want') and although I wrote for TMA for like a year I read very little TMA fic because I didn't care about Jonmartin lol. It leaves me pretty out of touch with fanon or popular character depictions. Which is. Um. Usually good. And of course sometimes I am very familiar with fic depictions of characters and I disagree so much I end up spite-writing lol.

#my asks #my writing #l usually don't know if my HCs are uncommon or not #they usually are #live fast die young i guess

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ofstoriesandstardust · 2 years

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blood of the covenant (natasha “phoenix” trace)

a/n: there is criminally not enough fics for our dear nat. so i finally decided to try my hand at writing for her. as a bisexual woman, knowing i probably won’t be able to come out to my parents is disheartening and upsetting because all i’ve ever wanted is acceptance. so i decided to write some found family/chosen family fluff with nat because that’s what the world needs. cool? cool.

(also: @a-reader-and-a-writer-for-all wrote a very awesome coming out fic with phoenix that if you like this, should go read. or even if you don’t like mine. anyways.)

summary: (bisexual!reader) growing up in a military family, you know what will happen if the Iron Daggers find out about your relationship to their fellow pilot. she doesn’t seem to agree with you on the certain doom you’re expecting.

callsign: Ace

main masterlist | top gun: maverick masterlist

warnings: discussion of past experiences with homophobia from family members, outing as retaliation, mentions of being disowned, swearing, dear god please have mercy i am so in love with natasha, bob is bisexual and i stand by this, he’s also the best friend, Mav is the resident father figure i don’t make the rules, is it obvious i have the flirting skills of a rock, i’m not labelling Nat’s sexuality because everyone has different opinions on it, idk if this is clear but it takes place post-suicide mission, i have no idea if I got Nat’s character right

word count: 3,904

The feeling of Nat lightly moving her fingertips up and down your arm, the steadiness of her chest rising and falling, the muted sounds of the TV playing, all were slowly lulling you to sleep. Natasha gently shifted under you and you hummed, peeking an eye open at her. “Baby?” She asked softly.

"Yeah?”

“How do- how do you feel about telling the team?” She asked and you glanced up at her. “About us?” You shifted, moving to look at her fully and she moved to an upright position, keeping her arms wrapped loosely around your waist.

“I mean, I don’t know, it freaks me out a little bit to be honest.”

“Why honey?” She asked, moving a stray piece of hair behind your ear. You shrugged.

“I know how military folks are, and I know that they aren’t gonna be supportive so- why-”

“Baby, it’s okay. We don’t have to tell them right now, not if you don’t want to. But I don’t think they’re gonna be mean about it.”

“Nat-”

“Just think about it okay?” You nodded, the look of pure love in her eyes overwhelming you. “I love you.” She whispered, placing a soft kiss to your cheek.

“I love you.”

You giggled at your girlfriend as she approached the showers in the locker room. “You’re gross.” You said as she set her stuff down.

“Yeah, Hangman left Bob and I out to dry again and it cost us the game and my not-having-to-do-200-pushups-in-95-degree-heat.” You snickered.

“When will he learn?” You teased, admiring how your girlfriend managed to be exceptionally pretty even while sweaty and disgusting. She shot you a smirk, moving towards you, despite the fact that you had just gotten out of the shower yourself. “Oh, no, no, Phoenix, you’ll get me all gross too.” You groaned as she moved towards you.

“Oh no, guess you’ll have to shower with me then.” She said smirking as she placed her hands on your cheeks, pulling you in for a kiss. Your hands found her waist as she slowly deepened the kiss. Sweat be damned, you couldn’t get enough of her.

“Jesus Christ, you two!” Halo yelled and you leaped away from Phoenix, heart beating against your chest.

“Sorry Halo.” Phoenix apologized, a laugh gracing her features. You felt nauseous and put a hand out against the tile of one of the showers to steady yourself. Halo was still covering her eyes, making Nat laugh harder. “You’re fine Halo, I promise I won’t go back to making out with my girlfriend. Least not while you’re here.”

“Last time I forget my stuff.” She grumbled, moving towards one of the showers. “Wait- girlfriend? The two of you are-”

“Halo, you can’t tell anyone.” You found yourself saying, a pit of ice forming in your stomach at the sheer horror of the thought.

“You let the wrong person find out then.”

“Halo, I’m serious.” You said firmly. “No one can find out.” A flash of hurt crossed Phoenix’s face but almost as quickly as it arrived, it was gone. Halo raised her hands in surrender.

“Fine, I can keep my mouth shut about this one. But maybe the two of you should consider keeping your hands off of each other in public if you don’t want people knowing.” You flipped her off as she snickered, disappearing back into the rest of the locker room. You turned back to your girlfriend, still feeling slightly nauseous. She shook her head and turned on the water to the shower.

“Nat.” You groaned, already feeling that she was angry with you. You were greeted with the shower curtain shutting in your face and you sighed as you moved back to your locker.

Maverick had decided to reward the team with a day of dogfight football, given the San Diego heat wave happening and per usual, it turned into a day of utter chaos. You sat off to the side with Bob after a few hours, sipping beer as you watched Rooster and Hangman stand in a very heated debate about who had actually scored the point for their team. “Nix is mad at you.” He said softly as you watch Phoenix pull Rooster away from Hangman.

“I know.” Bob was the only one on the team who knew your relationship and the WSO had been sworn to secrecy, only being told after confessing his own bisexuality to you and Nat late one night.

“Are you gonna fix it?”

“Explain to me how I’m gonna fix it Bob.”

“You could start by telling them.” Before he’d even finished his sentence, you were shaking your head. “Why are you so against telling them?”

“Because it’s not safe. Because I know how this ends.”

“How does it end?”

“With me losing my friends and the only decent father figure I’ve ever had and I can’t- I can’t go through that again.” Bob took a sip of his drink, studying you carefully.

“Your family isn’t supportive, are they?”

“I’m living in sin. This isn’t what’s expected of me and until I start acting like I’m supposed to, there’s no place for me among the greats.” You whispered, repeating the words your Dad had said the night he’d kicked you out and cut off contact.

“What are we girlies gossiping about?” Coyote asked, placing himself in between you and Bob and you startled. Bob rolled his eyes at Coyote as Hangman, Rooster, and Phoenix made their way over, Fanboy and Payback not far behind them. Halo was currently trying throw Fritz into the ocean while Harvard and Yale cheered her on. Omaha was nowhere to be found and if you had to guess, he was probably down the beach talking to some girl who’d caught his attention. If you turned just slightly, Maverick was stood on the porch of the Hard Deck talking to Penny.

“You done already?” Bob called out, choosing to ignore Coyote’s question.

“You quit like halfway through, man.” Coyote said.

“Who won?” You called, also ignoring Coyote. Coyote threw his hands up in the air in exasperation as he grabbed a beer from the cooler. Phoenix chuckled.

“No one. Hangman and Rooster kept forgetting they were on the same team.”

“Will there ever be a day where we can live with peace and harmony between the two of you?” You asked as the group arrived. “I mean, the bickering was entertaining for like, the first 5 minutes, but now the two of you just sound like an old married couple.” The two boys immediately began protesting at your words as Phoenix sat down next to you. You shot her a smile and she returned it. Things had been weird ever since Halo had found out about your relationship and although she’d kept her word, you knew keeping the relationship from the team was tearing at your relationship. Ignoring the two men who had now devolved to bickering with one another and a muttered agreement from the team about throwing them in the ocean, Payback and Fanboy sat down with the group.

“What were you and Bob chatting about up here?” Fanboy asked as he popped his beer open.

“Man, y’all are so nosy.” You muttered and Phoenix shot you a side glance.

“Ace, you keep so many secrets from us, you never tell us anything.” Coyote groaned and you raised your eyebrows.

“Hey Ace, is your Dad Admiral Frank Roberts?” Maverick called as he and Penny moved towards the group. “Penny thinks so but I think she’s wrong.” You slowly nodded.

“I didn’t know you’re from a military family.” Rooster said, clearly having lost interest in his argument with Hangman as he grabbed a beer of his own, sitting down in the sand with the rest of the group. You shrugged.

“It doesn’t matter. I don’t talk to them.” You felt Nat’s eyes on you as the group turned to look at you.

“How come?” Coyote asked and you shrugged again, not loving all the attention.

“It’s complicated.” Rooster waved his hand, expecting you to continue and you shook your head.

“Nope, that’s all you’re getting Bradshaw.” Maverick made a face and almost gave half a laugh and you turned to look at him. “What?”

He shook his head. “Nothing, I’ve just never had that great of experiences with your Dad.”

“Yeah, well, that makes two of us.” He looked at you, studying for a minute.

“Well, despite that, you turned out pretty damn good kid.” Your cheeks burned, and you hoped everyone would think it was the beginning of a sunburn.

“Thanks Mav.” You whispered and he patted your shoulder. Maverick quickly changed the topic, telling a story from his early days as a pilot. Phoenix nudged your shoulder as you tried to blink back tears.

“You okay?” She whispered and you nodded, but quickly got up and walked away from the group. You couldn’t let them see you cry.

You stood in the kitchen of your apartment, quietly getting a glass of water. Natasha had come over that night but things had been awkward and she’d long since fallen asleep in your bed anyways. Your brain was too busy weighing the events of the day, the ghosts of your past, the dilemmas of the present, so no, sleep was not exactly an option. You hadn’t wanted to wake Natasha so you stood in the kitchen, arms keeping you upright against the sink as you looked out over your yard. After you had left the group, Bob had come and found you and urged to let Nat in, tell her about why you didn’t want to tell the team. She knew you didn’t talk to your family but not why. There was no reason to project onto her or upset her. It would merely cause problems.

But now this was causing problems. You knew that the two of you were at a standstill in your relationship and you knew, that on some level, Nat being able to be authentically herself with her friends was a top priority for her. And she couldn’t do that if she was in a relationship she was hiding. You swallowed, taking a sip of water as you thought about where the two of you would go from here. So lost in thought, you hadn’t heard your girlfriend come into the kitchen until her arms were wrapped around your waist and her head tucked up on your shoulder. “It’s late baby.” She muttered, still sleepy. “Why’re you up?” You shrugged.

“Couldn’t sleep.”

“Why baby?” She whispered and you thought about telling her the truth as you eyes burned with tears. You knew where this was headed.

“Are you going to break me up with me if we don’t tell them?” You whispered, keeping your attention on the garden. She startled up, blinking away the sleep on her face.

“Baby...”

“Answer the question.”

“Baby, I just wish you’d tell me why you don’t want them to know. Why you freaked out so bad when Halo found out.” You shook your head, moving away from her.

“You’re avoiding the question.” She sighed, biting her lip.

“Please don’t make me do this.” She whispered and you shook your head, trying to blink back the unshed tears.

“Nat, I can’t- I can’t tell them.” You said, the first few tears starting to fall. “I can’t.”

“Baby, what’s going on? Talk to me.”

“I love you Nat, I do, but I can’t lose my family again. I just finally got one.” She moved towards you and you didn’t stop her from wrapping her arms around your chest, bringing you to hers. Your head fell into the crook of her neck as you cried, shoulders heaving with sobs. She held you tightly, whispering soft nothings in your ears as you broke down. You chest ached with the pain of knowing you’d lose your second family over this, but also maybe that you’d lose Nat too. Being with you wasn’t easy, and you knew you gave the pilot a run for her money. Eventually, after what felt like hours but was probably only a few minutes, when it felt like you had no tears left to cry, you tried to pull away from Nat. She kept her grip firmly on your waist, not letting you go far.

“Darling, please tell me what’s going on. I’m worried about you.” She whispered, reaching up to tuck a piece of hair behind your ear.

“God, it’s so stupid.” You muttered, shaking your head.

“It’s not, sweetheart.” She assured and the use of the name she reserved for you and you only made your heart flutter, no matter the circumstances. You bit your lip, glancing away from her and reaching up to wipe away the remnants of your tears.

“Penny’s right, that my Dad is Admiral Frank Roberts. And he, uh, he’s very clear on how his children are expected to act. And uh, being bisexual is on the very long list of dishonorable ways to behave. According to him, it’s a sin and isn’t right, and below the standards we were raised. And, well, in my early 20′s, my sister and I were fighting about, god I don’t even remember what-” Your voice faltered as you thought back to the painful nigh that took everything from you.

The kitchen door slammed behind your sister and your heart sank. You knew what she was about to do and with a deep breath, you followed behind her. Your parents, who had been in the middle of eating dinner, paused, listening to her as she angrily told them she had something to tell them. You froze in the doorway, heart beating against your ribcage.

“(Y/N)’s bisexual. She’s got a girlfriend and everything.” Your sister spat and you briefly closed your eyes. You Dad dangerously lowered his fork to this plate, eyes narrowed.

“(Y/N), is this true?” He asked slowly, the venom clear in his eyes. You knew there was no point in lying, knew with one look through your phone, it would show the truth. You nodded slowly as your Dad rose from the table. He paused in front of you, dangerously close to your face. You willed yourself to remain firm, defiant. “You know how I feel about those kinds of people.” He hissed and you swallowed. “You know how I feel about my kids being associated with those kinds of people.” He took a step back. “You’re living in sin, what you’re doing. This isn’t what’s expected of you and as far as I’m concerned you are no daughter of mine. There is no place for people like you among the greats like me.”

“Dad-”

“You’re a disappointment and a disgrace to the Roberts name and legacy. You always will be.” You took a shallow breath as he took every shot at you that he could.

“Frank-” Your mom protested but he turned to her.

“Can you honestly say that that is the kid we raised?” He asked pointing to you. She shook her head slowly, a distance in her eyes. He turned back to you, anger radiating off of him.

“Get out of my house.”

“-well, to make a horrible story short, she outed me to my parents and my Dad disowned me.” Phoenix took in a sharp breath as you finished your sentence.

“Darling, I don’t-” She took a deep breath to steady herself and moved her hands up to grasp your face, forcing you to make eye contact with her. “Darling, there is nothing wrong with you, do you hear me? It’s not a sin, or dishonorable, or anything else that he might have said to you. You love who you love. You’re human. You’re so, so well-loved. By me, by Bob, by Mav, hell, even Hangman’s got a soft spot for you.” You snorted at that and she gave you a soft, albeit watery, chuckle. “I love you, and I’m so proud of you. I know your parents probably aren’t saying it. What your sister did, well-” She took a deep breath as a flicker of anger crossed her face. “Well, it was shitty and it was cruel and you didn’t deserve that. You didn’t deserve any of that.” You nodded, feeling the tears once again crawl up your throat again, but this time for a different reason. “I’m proud of you and I wake up grateful every day that you chose me to stick out life with and I want to shout it from the rooftops and rub it in our friends faces every goddamn day.” You chuckled and she smiled, rubbing your cheekbone with one of her thumbs. “We don’t have to ever tell the team if you don’t want to but they’re not going to react they way you think they’re going to, the way your family did. And if anybody dared to speak to you that way, hell, I’d be getting in my F18 getting ready to take a dishonorable discharge for crushing them.” You let an outright laugh at that, a warm feeling settling in your chest. You nodded, pulling Nat into a hug.

“Thank you.” You murmured into her shoulder. You weren’t sure what you were thanking her for specifically but you wanted her to know how grateful you were she was there with you. As if hearing your thoughts, she pressed a soft kiss to your neck.

“I wouldn’t want to be anywhere else baby.”

You took a deep breath as the two of you entered the Hard Deck, holding her hand. You had made the decision to tell the team tonight and you were willing to brave any reaction they had, so long as Phoenix was by your side. You appeared at the pool table, where everyone was located, minus Mav. Phoenix squeezed your hand gently as the two of you stopped and attention turned to the two of you. “Alright fuckers, listen up. Ace and I are dating and we love each other very much. If anybody has a problem this, you can take it up with me.” The table stared back at her in shock as you gripped onto her hand, sure your knuckles were going white.

“You all owe me so much money.” Rooster said finally, turning back to the group. Nat raised an eyebrow.

“Bradshaw, you bet on my relationship?”

“Oh, hell yeah. You two were not exactly subtle. We just placed bets on when you’d tell us.” Nat cocked her head as you spluttered.

“Halo, you promised!” The team looked over to her, curious.

“You knew?” Coyote asked incredulously. She shrugged her shoulders.

“I walked in on them making out.”

“But she was sworn to secrecy.” Phoenix reassured, watching as Rosoter’s eyes went wide.

“As was I.” Bob said from his seat on the side. The team swiveled to him.

“Trace, I can not believe you didn’t tell me!” Rooster exclaimed and she chuckled.

“Rooster, don’t blame her, it was my decision.” You protested as he stared in shock at Nat. After a few minutes, when the shock wore off, the table picked up it’s normal chatter as Bob hugged you.

“Proud of you Ace.” He whispered and you squeezed him.

“Thanks Bob.” You pulled away and glanced over to the bar, seeing Maverick talking to Penny.

“Does he know?” He asked and you shook your head. You took a deep breath and turned back to Phoenix.

“Hey, I’m gonna go talk to Maverick real quick.” She nodded, pressing a chaste kiss to your lips.

“I love you.” She whispered, and you smiled.

“I love you too.” You shook out your nerves as you walked over to the bar and towards Penny and Maverick. They smiled at you and you had to remind yourself that this was Maverick. “Hey Mav.” You said and he greeted you. “Could I possibly- could we go talk outside for a moment?” His eyes flickered over to Penny but he nodded. He grabbed his beer and the two you left the relatively busy Hard Deck and out to the beach. He sat down on the bench and you sat next to him, taking a deep breath. You felt his eyes watch you carefully as you fiddled with the rings on your hand.

“You okay, kiddo?” You shook your head, feeling on the verge of an anxiety attack. He shifted as his position went from casual to concerned. “What’s wrong?”

“Well, nothing really, I’ve just- just got something to tell you and I’m scared.” He took a sip of his beer, nodding slowly.

“Well kid, I’m ready to hear it whenever you want to say it.”

“Um, well, okay, here goes nothing I guess. Um, I’m bisexual. Phoenix and I are dating, have been for the past few months.” He was silent for a minute.

“You worried I’m gonna get the two of you in trouble? Cause I won’t-” You cut him off with a shake of your head.

“No, um, it’s kind of embarrassing actually. Um, well, you’re kind of like my father figure, uhm, especially because I don’t talk to mine, and uh, well this is the reason why I don’t.” Maverick took in your words.

“I don’t think that’s embarrassing at all.” He said finally and you let out a watery laugh, not realizing you were close to tears. “I love you all, and yeah, I guess I’ve kind of taken on the role of Dad figure, haven’t I?” You nodded as he pulled you into a side-hug. “Kiddo, if we’re being honest, I’ve known about you and Phoenix since she ripped Coyote a new one for screwing you over during training.” You gave a small laugh and he shook your shoulders. “But, uh, being in the military for as long as I have, I’ve heard a thing or two about your Dad.”

“Oh yeah?” He grimaced, nodding.

“Yeah, you- you hear a thing or two about how he treats his kids too.” You looked over at Mav.

“Does, he- does he talk about what he did?” Mav nodded slowly.

“He’s very proud of how he treated you. And, uh, when I first met you, I thought ‘There’s no way this kid is his.’ Because Ace, you are an outstanding pilot and an even better woman and in no way compare to the vileness that is your father.” You sniffed.

“Thanks Mav.” He smiled at you.

“I love you kid, and I’m happy that you’re happy. I’m happy that Phoenix make you happy because you deserve it. And I know that the Navy loves to tout it’s diversity, but I also know you know how it really is. So thank you for trusting me with this, because I know it’s not easy.” Maverick squeezed your shoulder. “What the saying, blood is thicker than water?”

“The blood of the covenant is thicker than the water of the womb.” You corrected and he laughed.

“Of course you know that. Anyways, my point is, you’ve got a pretty good group of friends in there, who really care about you and Trace. And, uh, your family might not have been supportive but they sure as hell will be.” You smiled, not realizing how badly you needed to hear those words.

“Thank you, Maverick. You really- really don’t understand how much this means to me.”

“Of course, kid. Your family’s always gonna be here for you. Never gonna lose them again.”

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