#id LOVE that more than anything

[aastarions]

i think i'm gonna officially say that i'm on an indefinite writing hiatus, idk i just haven't been in the mood to sit down and write outside of maybe random blurbs or drabbles

#c shut up #and so with that #stay gold is on temporary hiatus OTL #writing is always a roller coaster for me of ups and downs in terms of motivation #and i do want to continue stay gold and eventually finish it #id LOVE that more than anything #but writing is so time consuming for me #with how slow i do it #and my time right now is taken up with playing genshin/watching shows/just relaxing/hanging out with friends/working a full time job #i spend most of my weekend with my fiance since we dont hang out during the week due to work #and our hour/50 mile distance between us LOL #sorry im rambling anyways things irl are really good right now and im trying to embrace that!! #and yeah #idk

[blended-ice]

One more kiss

#peas n guac #been listening to whatever it takes and having so many feelings about vaggie #DO WHATEVER IT TAKES ILL MAKE THE MISTAKES ILL SPEND MY LIFE BEING YOUR PARTNER #and the reprise of more than anything #so many lives you’ve changed so many souls you’ve touched #vaggie believes in her so wholly I CANT #i’m in love with their love #vaggie #charlie morningstar #hazbin hotel #chaggie #id in alt text #fanart

[sophiethewitch1]

gang i really just want to get to the part where the boys are hopelessly in love with reader to the point its genuinely pathetic

#sophie speaks #series:www #damian might write u poetry but nobody can beat dicks internal monologue #he is so geniunely in love with you #like yes the yans there but hes like. so self sacrificing hed swallow it all down just so you can be happy #he wants you to be happy more than anything #i kinda want to write a bit where reader can hear their thoughts for some reason or another and be like #super flustered by how much of dicks thought process is 'i love you. id die for you. you are the most beautiful thing on this earth. #i am so lucky i get to spend even the briefest moment of my life with you. i hope it will be forever but i know even this is more than i- #deserve.' and readers just gaping #and this shit is just on loop in his head man #is the worship kink coming out again it might be #i just think devotion in love is the sexiest thing ever okay???

[honeypleasejustkillme]

ngl i’ve always hated the if you can’t love yourself how are you gonna love somebody else sentiment, cause me struggling mentally does not mean i’m unlovable or incapable of loving?? i was put on this earth to care for people, there’s so much love inside me even if i’m not well

#actually bpd #actually mentally ill #bpd shitposting #actually borderline #bpd vent #bpd favorite person #bpd mood #bpd #bpd fp #bpd problems #it’s so fucking annoying #like yes i fucking can love someone else.. hell i love my fp more than i love myself #id do anything for him #so yes.. yes i can love and be mentally unwell #fuck you :)

[frenchublog]

how do you have the energy/time to colour in every piece you do? especially so detailed?

way too much turkish coffee

#i need to take a break #but for real though #i don't know i just ? draw #i draw what i love and what i always loved and i know for a fact 16 years old me would be jumping and screaming like a banshee #i'm healing my inner child #this is therapy #and in these trying times with Ai and stuff #i think this is important to cherish what we love #it's when everything is hopeless that hope is important #personal #ask box #anon ask #also yeah i'm spending more time to paint #so things take extra time haha #i think it's important to stay focused #“other artists are better than me” #sure !!! but is that gonna stop you ? #passion...you need that drive to take your pen and do stuff #not saying it's easy it's the hardest thing ever #when i was in class id say shit like “i'd love to do this...” my teacher would say “remove that ”would“ in your vocabulary #“do it” #we tend to be overcritical and have the “blank page syndrome” but “throwing up” anything on a blank canvas #is the key to start drawing #you cant do shit with nothing #you can do everything with something

[torturedblondhairedboy-child]

Can’t believe I forgot about the scene in ATBFTS where Hannibal and Will just got through their argument abt the dragon straight up attempting to murder his family at hannibals behest and he says some shit like “he craves change” And then looks at will like a kicked puppy and goes “dont you crave change?? ☹️☹️☹️☹️🥺🥺🥺🥺”

If i was Will i wouldve crashed through his little enclosure and absolutely bludgeoned him to death. Like straight up blunt force trauma so unimaginable. S3 hannibal is so fucking funny but wow if i was a character interacting with him i would be like someone put this bitch down he is ANNOYING!!!!!!!!

#i love him. #id do anything for him. #i want him dead. #i want him in my pocket. #hannibal nbc #hannibal #will graham #mads mikkelsen #hugh dancy #hannibal lecter #hannibal s3 #and the beast from the sea #wills poor dogs </3 #id be more mad abt that than my family if i were him just saying

[junipum]

my mother said reading hilson fic would be weird because it's two older men and that it would be cringe for me to read for them. ma'am you can't speak you openly admitted to reading MULTIPLE hannigram abo fics. silence

#love my mother more than anything but id rather get drafted than tell her my ao3 account #'i just occasionally read fix-it fics or the highest rated E but just for violence' #LIE. THEY FUCK NASTY #but in a gut-wrenchingly painful and beautiful way #but ykwim #house md #gregory house #hate crimes md #james wilson #hilson #hatecrimes md #fanfiction

[a-penchant-for-the-lethe]

I'm watching Supernatural for the first time and it's actually so adorable. No spoilers cuz I'm only on s2 e9 but like how come I didn't even know Sam was a character? Like I've heard a lot about this show but I knew more about some angel dude I haven't even met yet (Cassian?) than I did about the main character. I seriously didn't know he existed. I thought Dean was like the main guy ™️ and his brother was some dude lmao that's crazy

#no offeense or anything I fricken love Sam now lol #just think it's funny that i didn't know bout him considering the sheer magnitude of Spoilers i have from this show via osmosis #also i know shockingly little about the actual plot #i thought id be a lot more prepared going into this than i was 😅 #supernatural #samwinterchester #deanwinchtser

[hecksupremechips]

Okay this is actually kinda really cute

#persona #persona 5 #akira kurusu #ren amamiya #goro akechi #akeshu #shuake #yeah mementos mission is pretty good its got so many charming character moments for everyone #i just love that akira is like ‘i may need a disguise…lemme just girl!!!’ #and my god did he girl #id do anything for her for ms watson my queen ms watson #and i appreciate that they didnt get like. absurdly transphobic like persona usually does #like akechi laughs but its more out of surprise and delight than out of transphobia #and its just cute i am framing this on my wall 💙

[volfoss]

i think honestly what irritates me about yoshidas work SO much is that people will tell you that banana fish is THE gay manga (ignoring the many things that came before it and were more groundbreaking, ie MW literally having on screen (or like. on panel but still.) gay sex in it and that came out like a decade before BF did) when there really isn't barely any gay rep outside of the pedophiles and the one time ash drops the f slur. like im sorry but somehow yasha, a work she wrote in 1996, has more gay rep in it but also has the same issues.

i truly do not get how people can enjoy banana fish with the rampant racism every 2 pages or the rampant sexual assault plotlines (on women and ash bc he is just... written like how yoshida writes women lmao) that are handled IMPOSSIBLY bad and sincerely i hoped yasha would be better because it had been like a decade or so between works. and then it proceeds to continue with the heres our blonde genius protagonist who everyone is weird as fuck to and will sexually harrass and everyone finds it a VERY funny joke to point out how feminine he is when theres barely any women in the work (if you exclude the ones that are being raped/killed/creepy to minors. which to be fair yasha has toned down the sa a LOT) and that its funny that hes kind of gay except not really!! and its just absurd to me how it just persists in all of her stuff because she is not an author that handles gay stuff well. like the scene in banana fish where ash is completely ok getting gang raped and did it solely to get into the hospital when its been SHOWN that he has a lot of trauma with that. and then right after his friend makes a joke at ash's expense about that. like sincerely and genuinely is this what we are hyping up as the old retro gay manga. go read some tezuka and stop reading shit that the most the main characters do is share a kiss in a nonromantic sense and is obsessed w making every gay person be evil!!

#twist rambles #sorry mw u will always be famous to me (horrible fucking manga to experience for like 50% of the time but also it rocksss and theres #about anything tw worthy in there but i wish more ppl did read it) #sorry im like. i like to read her stuff bc her art is interesting to me but oh my god it makes me so angryyyy #rape mention #ask to tag #like... you do not understand my one sided rivalry w her it is SO intense like... bf was one of the worst reading experiences ive ever had #my tzk gay recs are: black jack (protag literally has a transmasc ex bf) and mw (for aforementioned reasons but its like. genuinely bonkers #and honestly there r a lot of minor characters that r lgbt in his works and like. can we please read smth that doesnt suck 100% of the time #like idk god bf is so baffling to me bc theres NOTHING there other than like. the new horrors every chapter. and yasha seems to be reusing #some plot points so it double sucks. haunted by the one analysis showing how the two had similar themes and point 1 was literally child #exploitation like... man. god it sucks. like not that mw is perfect bc its not and its a media i have a lot of thoughts on but man. id take #that over bf anyday bc like... sincerely how is anyone looking past the horrors there!! the story is a jumbled mess and it rly doesnt have #much to sayyyy but whatever lol!! id love if the characters were in a better media id love if ash didnt end the story feeling positively #towards the man who groomed him but whateverrrr lol #this is super disorganized as a post but like. genuinely it is so infuriating bc some of the plot concepts in yasha have potential and then #she keeps doing this like!!

[bl-inkstone]

changed my tune so fast just bc of youtube autoplay lmao ok here have some sagau diluc thoughts

the player, diluc thinks, is an incredibly endearing being.

he's come a long way from the curt and wary attitude he used to put on around the traveler (and by extension, you), and today is one of those days where he finds himself privately thanking whatever powers there may be that allowed your paths to cross, with him staring at the reflection of you hidden deep within the traveler's eyes in the wake of his fight with the abyss that fateful night in mondstadt.

as one of the first people to have their constellations manifest in the sky of teyvat, diluc is more than aware that the fact that you still choose to ask for his company in your (or, well, the traveler's) journey is a gift he must treasure deeply. he knows that it is your presence in this world that gives vision bearers a chance to become something greater than they presently are. he also knows that he is no longer as impressive of a companion in battle as he used to be from back when the sky wasn't as bright as it is now (when the world you knew was smaller and he was still a figure that you could look to and proudly call "your main").

but you always come back to him. when he least expects it, you invite him back to your party and diluc can't help but privately think, privately wish, that it's because you're as fond of him as he is of you.

standing in silent prayer while you bestow upon him artifacts that thrum with divine power is an experience he can never tire of. the claymores you give him, the food he eats, all the materials he needs to reach a breakthrough in his capabilities... he understands that you aren't teyvat's creator, but this world and everything in it seems to exist just for you. you, the provider, the sustainer, the beloved of all. sometimes, diluc feels that everything he has and ever worked for have all been for the sake of one day meeting you.

he's not a religious man by principle, and he loathes people of absolute power. the only exception to this, however, is you. he's not foolish enough to believe you're some omnipotent, omniscient being that lords above all. no, you're not like that. he knows this because the longer he journeys with the traveler and feels their bond strengthen, the faint whispers he used to strain himself to hear grow clearer and clearer until finally, one day, he hears you.

you're both nothing and everything he thought you'd be. you view the world of teyvat with so much awe and joy that it's infectious, and he finds himself smiling more often than not to the privilege of finally hearing you. the traveler always looks at him with an understanding smile when diluc slows down in their travels to listen to you. he lives for the moments when you talk to yourself or to someone else (a companion of your own, maybe? from your place beyond the stars?) because this is how he learns. your favorite food, your favorite nations, your favorite "characters" and more. he holds every morsel of information you unknowingly give close to his chest where all his affections and wishes hide. he likes to think that this way, he can be closer and better for you.

but he knows he's not the only one who hears you, and it is the traveler that is closest to you out of all them. even so, diluc harbors no ill will to the avatar you chose to see and travel the world through. you're so fond of the traveler, and how could he ever come to loathe anything graced by your love?

he knows how to play nice. it helps that most of your other chosen are people he can find himself enjoying the company of as well. diluc understands that as much as he wants to be the sole holder of your attention, the world does not function that way. he's willing to extend an olive branch so long as they can all work together to keep you present in teyvat. he can worry about his more aggressive competition later when they aren't at risk of being caught in such an unsightly state by you — all that matters to him, right now, is how to keep your gaze on him for just a little longer and keep you from leaving him again.

it's a daunting thing to be so close to your grace. you take diluc to lands he'd never thought he'd visit again, to ruins of civilizations long past, domains with unimaginable horrors and have him run, claymore and vision burning at his hip, into fight after fight at your command. it's tiring at best and painful at worst, but you always take care to heal him and his companions before leaving, and you always lead them somewhere safe to rest until teyvat brightens and you come again.

his current companions (his "supports", he inwardly preens) rest and talk amongst themselves once they feel your presence leave. it used to be something they, your chosen, would panic over, but now that they've gotten more used to you and all the signs that pointed that yes, this is your will, they've grown to be able to tolerate the harrowing chill that comes when your warmth leaves them. diluc leans back on his chair in front of good hunter to observe them. they're all people he's come to grow fond of in time: diona was prickly, yes, but ha become pleasant to be around once they grew past their misunderstandings. the young master of the feiyun commerce guild, xingqiu, was also a reliable companion both in and outside of battle, and for all his faults, venti has proven himself to be a devout believer, unwilling to be a burden to you or the party you've guided him towards.

under normal circumstances, he never would've met and forged such strong bonds with these people. if not for your own interference, he never would've bothered getting to know any of them at all. though he may have his own gripes and complaints at times of how their dynamic works when you're not around, diluc is still fond of them. he's grateful for the opportunity to grow close to people again, and traveling the world alongside them and the traveler has become one of the few things he's begun to look forward to outside of his duties as "diluc, master of dawn winery." when the day is done and he can sit and relax with them in the tables in front of good hunter, he can rest in the company of others who understand the near-maddening pull in his chest that draws him to try and get closer, closer, to you.

it's days like these where diluc quietly thanks whatever it is brought you to them, and prays that one day, he will no longer have to search through the traveler's eyes to see you.

#miyo.muses #diluc.togo #i wrote this all in one sitting please i love him so much #i hope my research did you justice sir #if he sounds awkward or anything id appreciate feedback on how to improve! #diluc is one of my faves honestly and i wanna write more for him #and as you can see #he is a very generous muse #this is worse than when i wrote for zhongli oml #i wanted to keep this short n sweet #just a silly little hcs or brainrot post #but no #this happened #but im not that mad lmao diluc gets a free pass <3 #also pls dont flame the team ok i asked a friend what their diluc team looks like and they said “diona + xing + venti” #dsdhewu i have a very skewed view on what's considered a long or short post but just to play it safe #i added the read more this time bc id hate to be the person who clogs up the tags with super long posts #ok thats it rambling over i hope u guys enjoy <3 #genshin impact #sagau #self aware genshin #genshin diluc #diluc x reader

[woodenfawn]

He then proceeded to, among *many* other things, punch him in the face, literally bite his hand, and spit blood on his clothes

#re zero #re:zero #natsuki subaru #subaru natsuki #vincent vollachia #abel re zero #I cannot get over their dynamic. It is SO interesting!!!! The way they both claim to hate each other so so much but also #helping each other and abel's absolute trust of him in other senses. The fact they can literally hold each other at knifepoint #And scream at each other and let their emotions out the way they dont with anyone else #But will protect each other from any outside harm #If you thought julius and subaru had a complex relationship this is like that squared #Subaru's relationships keep getting more and more aggressive dont they #Emilia: oh youre so sweet youre the love of my life!!! Ill do anything for you!!!! #Reinhardt: Friend!!!! Buddy!!!! Handsomest coolest knight!!! #Rem: we're a little more than a bit codependent but thats only due to the circumstances :)) we're both in pain but we support each other :) #Julius: I wont get over you beating me up and being too handsome therefore i will be tsundere >:( #Otto: You'll punch me in the face and I'll laugh at your feelings #we'll torment each other a lot but hey we're buddies. #And then abel and subaru are just. Completely concerning as a duo but somehow id hesitate to call it toxic #I dont know what they are. Except maybe gay idiots #You cant tell me abel's not gay #Can you tell the Chisha Gold chapter and the shut the hell up/vincent & subaru chapters stuck with me a lot #Btw im caught up with re zero's web novel!!!! (Besides the last 3 chapters)

[cerealmonster15]

Hello!! :D if you’re still taking art reqs for the drawing meme maybe 1A or 2A for Autumn Oak/Linda Stampler please?

THANK YOU!!! :] 

YES this is how i know i've made it as a dndads fanartist - the rite of passage of receiving the autumn/linda request jsklfjdsl MILESTONE ACHIEVED!!!

i had to kinda fumble around my brain a bit to come up w/some designs so maybe theyll change!! who knows!!!

[send a pose prompt!]

#asks #lex-the-lesbian #dndads #autumn oak #linda stampler #cereal tries to draw #<- btw is that her actual name or like a fandom given name?? #i was doing some research today to see if they had a canon appearance #[i couldnt find anything for either of them so my bad if they do and i missed it LOL] #but the transcripts just called her Rons Mom #and the wiki says she has no name but also the wiki isnt exactly accurate #[we ARE talking about Rons Mom here right fjkldsjfldsjf] #thats the context clues id gotten from skulking around dndads tags a while ago #anyway. ANYWAY i hope this is ok!! #again s o r r y i. need more practice drawing Older People fkldsjlf ILL GET THERE. EVENTUALLY 😭 #BUT this is cute FUCK their husbands they could learn to love again 2gether #mutual support... yea... #im p much always open to suggestions in general #may or may not do em depending on if im busy/comfortable/NERVOUS but #more often than not i will lol #it's good practice :3 anyway again lol THANKS FOR THE PROMPT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #OKAY WAIT sorry i skulked ur blog i see the name linda came from a poll jksfjdsk #glad i wasnt missing Important Lore Somewhere ok carry on 🕺

[widevibratobitch]

Since we're both as unwell about him as we are I consider you to be someone who knows a fair amount and what do you genuinely think the real James Fitzjames would feel if he saw the Terror's depiction of him? (As in watching the whole show)

HUH good question. first of all i think he'd be a little discombobulated by the very experience of watching a tv show but personally i choose to believe he'd at least be happy he was made into one of the main characters?? and that so many cool and sexy insane people are obsessed with him now <3

having said that. as much as i love show!fitzjames they did nerf him down A LOT. they robbed him of the joyous whimsy that was such a characteristic trait of the real jokester supreme fitzjames (show!fitzjames also has little to no relationship with his irl lieutenant buddies which. sad.)

we also know now that. most probably. he was actually fully english so i can only imagine he'd be Not Pleased about the cairn scene to say it lightly lmao imagine you and your adoptive family making significant efforts throughout your whole life to disguise the fact of your illegitimate birth and then 150 years later some people make a high rating show where they babygirlify you not only spill your secret to the millions of people watching (or secrets, plural, and make you call yourself a fake as a cherry on top lol) but they also get it wrong and make it Even Worse (from a victorian englishman's perspective) like stop guys he's already dead lmfao

having said that. he would have loved the britannia costume and the your nails are a terror line. i know he would.

#look. i personally think it'd be SO funny #like. look. listen. we reblog pictures and memes of him and say how hot and funny he was and it is all true. #dude was incredible and funny as shit and he did do drag and kick ceilings and id give anything to fuck him woah who said that #but he was ALSO an early 19th century white englishboy colonialist lol #(so is show!fitzjames like please my beautiful racist wife is so much more than just her gender issues and stigmata guys....) #and we dont really know much of his actual feelings on crozier (sick owl... i think of that one a lot) so who knows #maybe they did end up in a fucked up yet heartfelt and deeply intimate homoerotic relationship in the end #but it'd be much funnier if they didn't and actually ended up really fucking hating each other lol #id love to lock them both in a room with nothing but a tv screen playing a compilation of their scenes together on a loop #(the 'are we brothers' scene itself is looped three times for maximum awkwardness damage) #ANYWAY #obv we know francis crozier said rpf is fine but we dont know what's fitzjames's stance on that one.... #it doesnt matter anyway. get gendered yaoid and portuguesed idiot #the terror #james fitzjames #og jfj #i wish they'd given tobias the signature forehead curl that makes me lose my mind on the real fiztjimbles #but i want to believe he'd enjoy being portrayed as god's most beautiful specialest little princess in a james ross wig

[arsenicflame]

ive been thinking and 'I have... love for you, Edward' is actually just a really aro way of putting it

#like; i /have/ love for you #i have it. i possess it; i dont feel it #its not directly romantic but its more than just friendship #there is something there that is different #i respect you i admire you id do anything for you isnt that love? isnt that what love feels like? #i dont know #i have it #i dont understand what it means to love someone but i think its this #if i had it i would want it to be this #ofmd #our flag means death #ofmd s2 spoilers #izzy hands #israel hands #aromanticism #aromantic izzy hands #nyxtalks #ive decided im aro and ive immediately made it izzys problem #ohhh your want to project onto him you want to project onto him so bad

[camellia-salazar]

Ok starting off this month is.. something I've wanted to post last month but forgor.

I got lazy with the coloring. I'll do better next time I draw them. At first I was gonna draw just wooly once, but then I felt like I should draw Amanda too.

Then I suddenly got too into the game.. oops. ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯

#amanda the adventurer fan art #pbh amanda the adventurer #amanda the adventurer #wooly the sheep #i think this game also got me back into ptp as well #just like how welcome home got me back into raggedy ann and andy stuff #mostly the musical adventure #god id watch anything huh? #also its not just the game itself that got me back into a fandom its the fandom itself #same with welcome home #someone mentioned how wally sounded like raggedy Andy which got me to watch the movie #and now people compare Amanda the adventurer to Popee the performer which caused me to watch the show again #i love it when fandoms are like 'hey remember this? its just like this in a way!' #and i get into more than one or two things the entire month #but yeah sorry for the #tag rant