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#it was so promising and it it could've been so loved I'm gonna cry
monado-stew · 11 months
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i really hope every "obsolete" piece of technology knows that it's still dearly loved, and that there are people who deeply cherish it despite its "failure"
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il-miele-che-scrive · 2 months
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the one where Y/n and Lando used to hookup and then fell out... or did they?
lowkey inspired by the interview where Oscar talks about spending time with his gf and Lando goes "awww" cus it got my brain making up scenarios
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yourusername Maybe I was too much but you could've been more and we both know it
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yourfriend1 Situationship survivor 💔
username1 Ah, she's posting half naked pics means they're done
yourfriend2 Girl I didn't cry that much over a 3 years long relationship
↳yourusername I'm not crying lmao
yourfriend2 We need to go on a girls trip
yourfriend1 I second this!!
username2 Lando's loss tbh
username3 Not Carlos nonchalantly in the likes 👀
↳username4 I can't believe he would take Lando's leftovers
username5 You two can chill, Y/n and Carlos have been friends, they're not gonna end it because of a failed situationship
username3 Exactly! Maybe they'll become something more...
username5 Carlos is Lando's best friend, he wouldn't do it to him
username3 I mean it's not like Y/n was his gf or anything, they were just hooking up
username5 Yeah maybe also say it was her fault she caught feelings after he did all the things mentioned on the 2nd pic
username6 How could he not wanna make it official with HER?
↳username4 He's rich and famous, he can have 10 girls like her if he wanted to
username7 It makes me feel better about being in a situationship myself knowing Y/n also went through it
↳yourusername Girl it's a sign to leave him, don't waste your time
username7 It's just for the plot 🤭
yourusername NOT worth it
username8 Stay strong, I promise it gets better and one day you'll find someone who'll truly care about you
↳yourusername Already did ❤️ @/yourfriend1 @/yourfriend2
username9 Well, I guess a relationship was a bit too much for little Lando Norris
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landonorris Catching little feelings, thought we had arrangements
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username1 HOW DARE HE????
↳username2 I guess men just have the audacity 🥲
yourfriend1 When you act like you're in a relationship with her so she thinks you wanna be in a relationship with her 🙄
↳username3 That's Y/n's best friend right there 😭
maxfewtrell Drunk Lando is the worst Lando I've ever had to deal with
↳landonorris we both know that's a lie cmon
angryginge13 I forgot how fun it is to go out with you
↳maxfewtrell I swear something got into him lately, like sure he always loved to party but have you seen how drunk he was?
angryginge13 tbh I barely remember that night lol
username4 AHA so Lando is also going through it
username5 as 👏 he 👏 should 👏
username6 What's wrong with men these days? All I see are situationships, fwbs, ons, what happened to feelings? What happened to love?
↳username7 I guess dating apps messed up our perception of relationships
username6 This is sad.
username8 Well, at least Y/n isn't out getting drunk
↳username9 We can't be sure, we know all she wants us to know, her life can be totally different than what she shows on social media
username10 They had arrangements as he said, it's her fault she fell in love
↳yourfriend1 Oh will you all just shut up?
username10 Someone's mad lol
username11 So many people idolizing Lando just because he can drive a fast car in circles but in reality he's just your average brit in his 20s with commitment issues
↳username12 He's still young, he doesn't have to get in a serious relationship if he doesn't want to
username11 But it was wrong of him to lead Y/n on
username12 Just as someone said already - not his fault that she caught feelings. These typa things aren't for everyone. Or maybe she was hoping he'll fall in love or something
username11 Yeah? How is it that men these days want the benefits of a relationship without the responsibilities?
username12 Did he force her into it? Nope. She could've said no it's not my thing bye. But she didn't. She stayed with him
username11 If you wanna have sex without commitment just pay for it, it's still a thing. You can't have stuff like this for free, at the cost of another person's feelings
A month later
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yourusername Kisses to my exes who don't give a shit about me
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yourfriend1 I'm glad you feel better now ❤️
↳yourusername I feel so much more alive now
username1 They all slaaaaay
yourfriend2 Remind me, why haven't we done this kinda trips before?
↳yourusername Cuz we're stupid 🫶
yourfriend1 We're not stupid, we're sillymates
yourusername Fuck soulmates when you can have sillymates
yourfriend2 Stupid choices were made tho
yourusername Neither of you stopped me lmao
carlossainz55 Wasn't it a little too cold to sit on the balcony like this?
↳yourusername The wine warmed us up!!
carlossainz55 Text me if you're ever curious about other ways to warm yourself up *this comment has been deleted*
carlossainz55 Good to know you're having fun!🍷
username3 Carlos, everyone saw that comment you deleted...
username2 Where's the person who said Carlos wouldn't do that to Lando? WHERE?!
username4 Y/n should post to the song enough for you, particularly this part "cause someday I'll be everything to somebody else"
↳username5 Ngl I feel like most Olivia's songs would fit her situation right now
maxfewtrell That looks familiar...
↳username5 Nah boy, get the hell out of this comment section
username6 Wait, let him speak, maybe he has new information
username7 I need to know what stupid choices is Y/n talking about and what Max means 😭
↳username8 They're feeding us breadcrumbs and they know what they're doing
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landonorris ice spice ❄
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charles_leclerc Ice ice baby 😂❄️
maxfewtrell The gossip pages gonna love this one
↳username1 So that's what Max meant when he said it looked familiar
username2 I'll wait for further explanation 😶
username3 I refuse to believe Y/n went through all the heartbreak just to hook up with him again in Finland
↳username4 Well, she liked this post so...
username3 She got the Stockholm syndrome or what? 😭
username5 At this point she deserves this
username6 @/yourusername I am very disappointed in your actions
↳username3 Bro casually tagging Y/n like she's gonna answer
↳username3 Btw it's not confirmed that they hooked up again
username7 Pls don't break her heart again
username8 I get a little heart attack every time Lando posts
username9 Guys it doesn't make sense, Y/n wouldn't go to Finland with Lando AND with her girls
↳username2 What if they went there separately and just happened to run into each other?
username9 Yeah, because there's no other places to go skiing. Someone had to arrange it or something, it cannot be a coincidence
username2 Look, the universe works in weird ways, do you know the invisible string theory?
username9 Oh no you're one of these people? 🤡
username2 All I'm saying is to me they seem like 'right people, wrong time' and maybe finally the timing is right for them
username7 No no no Y/n deserves way better, Lando is too toxic for her
username2 Do you know him? Maybe he was going thru something and it just wasn't the time for him to be in a relationship
username9 A delusional yapper is what you are
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yourusername Back home with a new passion
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yourfriend1 You gotta stop feeding me these 😭
↳yourusername What, you don't like them? 🥹
yourfriend1 I love them, that's the issue!!
username1 And Lando isn't with her
↳username2 Why would he be?
username1 I think everyone thought they're together again after Finland
username2 They were NEVER together
yourfriend2 Can you get your asses out of here?
landonorris Looks delicious (the food too)
↳username3 DON'T GIVE ME HOPE
username4 Don't worry, it's just an average text from a situationship you'd get after weeks of no contact
username5 Usually followed up by "you busy tonight?"
↳username6 Ariana what are you doing here
↳username7 Man saw that comment Carlos deleted and decided to gatekeep
username5 Bet that's not the only thing he did when he saw that
username7 wdym 😭
username5 There's no way they didn't fuck
↳username8 fr a way to mark his territory
↳yourfriend1 She said she blocked you after Finland
landonorris She didn't😁
yourfriend1 I'll make sure she does now
landonorris She won't😌
username7 We need to know what happened in Finland 😭
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username1 I wish he would share the secret
username2 Yeah, Oscar, don't be shy, share it with the class
username3 My bet is Y/n let Lando manipulate her again
↳username4 They're both adults like Y/n sweetie just say no it's that easy
username5 I'm gonna manifest Y/n and Lando announcing a relationship soon 🕯
username6 I mean have y'all seen Lando? I'm NOT surprised Y/n keeps coming back even if he's doing just the bare minimum
↳username7 He's average. The fact that he's famous and has money makes him more attractive
username6 Do you think he pays Y/n for... you know?
username7 🤷‍♀️
username8 Words cannot express how much this man gets on my nerves
↳username9 Same like man stop being blind and see that Y/n is gf material, not some hookup to be used and left
username10 I wish Oscar would've spoken😭
username11 Get your shit together Lando
↳username12 Well maybe Y/n doesn't mind
username11 It didn't seem like it
username12 People change 🤷‍♀️
username11 I wish Lando would've been the one to change 🙏
username13 Lando has NO RIGHT to speak on other people's relationships being a walking definition of commitment issues himself
↳username14 chill yo tits, I think he truly thought what Oscar said was cute
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yourusername We turned out to like each other way more than we originally planned
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yourfriend1 I'm tired of you both already
maxfewtrell It's gonna be one of those "they still together?" kinda relationships
↳yourusername We plan on being an insufferable pain in the ass together just for you 🫶
maxfewtrell I see Lando is already changing you for the worse
landonorris the process began way earlier
maxfewtrell But you didn't have the balls to commit
↳yourfriend2 She deserves so much better
yourfriend1 Yeah @/yourusername deserves so much better, I wish she would've read the comments
carlossainz55 Congrats, you finally tamed him👏
yourusername I hate you both ❤️
↳landonorris wow, I love supportive friends
yourfriend2 Who said we're your friends?
yourfriend1 We have to tolerate your ass but it doesn't mean we're suddenly friends
↳landonorris You've been waiting to see this happen
carlossainz55 Of course, I've been telling you to get a girlfriend for so long now
↳username1 ekhm...
↳username2 We will never forget
username3 HOW DOES IT FEEL TO LIVE MY DREAM?
username4 Miss girl needs to share her manifestation techniques with us
oscarpiastri Don't have to thank me
↳landonorris Yup, you did nothing
↳yourusername Thank you Oscahhh
username5 I MANIFESTED IT 🕯
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yourusername For our 6 months anniversary we forced our friends to go camping with us 🏕
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yourfriend1 It wasn't as bad as I thought
↳angryginge13 Worse?
yourfriend1 Oh definitely
landonorris I'm really surprised they got along
↳maxfewtrell What other choice we had?
↳yourfriend2 Anything for Y/n tbh
↳yourfriend1 Still doesn't mean we don't hate you
yourfriend2 Yeah, good friends will always say 'but she deserves better' (she really does)
maxfewtrell I didn't expect you to last that long
↳yourusername Excuse me? 🤨
maxfewtrell You know, it's Lando
yourusername I guess you're right lmao
landonorris Now what is that supposed to mean?
yourusername Nothing, don't be mad❤️
↳landonorris That's what she said
yourusername NO IT'S NOT WTF 😭
oscarpiastri What if I tag along the next time?
↳yourusername I'd be happy 🫶 if you bring Lily as well it would be perfect
username1 WAR IS OVER
username2 I love how winter break is always pure chaos and summer break is just fun and chill
danielricciardo When can I join you though?
↳landonorris I promise next time I visit you in Australia it'll be with Y/n
yourusername You didn't even ask me...
landonorris Well, do you wanna go?
yourusername DUH
↳username3 No cuz these pics have strong Danny Ricc energy, I'm surprised he wasn't there
username4 The friend groups were forced to unite, I'm afraid they're together for life (I'm manifesting🤞)
↳username5 I hope they are, I feel like Lando really matured with Y/n by his side
username4 He went from "I don't wanna mature, I'm happy where I am" to this 😭
username6 I wish all situationships would turn out like this
↳username7 World would be a better place
username8 Right people right time❤️
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heeliopheelia · 10 months
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"this is not your fault" (jake x reader)
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genre: angst, fluff word count: 0.8k requested by nonnie ♡
warnings: crying, mentions of an argument
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You check the clock for the nth time this night. 3:32 am. With your throat tight, you turn on your side, somehow unable to find a comfortable enough position on your couch. The guilt has been eating you from the inside for the past two hours.
You're well aware that you're the one who was in the wrong for the whole time. It took you three hours to let go of your pride and stubbornness and finally acknowledge that. All the yelling and mean words you spat on your boyfriend keep running over your mind like a broken record and you have to cover your face with your hands to try and somehow block these thoughts out for even couple minutes.
There are no excuses for your behavior, you know that. No bad day at work, no matter how frustrating, should ever make you snap like that and take all of the increasing tension out on your boyfriend. Jake has always been nothing but patient with you, calmly enduring your mood swings and every tiniest outbursts of yours. Which is why you feel such resentment towards yourself for hurting him this much.
You're facing the backrest of the couch, eyes squeezed tightly as you try to force the tears to stay unshed, so you get really caught off guard when you feel a fluffy blanket draping over your body.
"You're gonna catch a cold, silly," he mumbles quietly, thinking you're asleep.
He carefully tucks the blanket around your shivering body and your heart swells in its size at his kindness. The second that you hear him shuffling away from you, you swing your legs to the side and sit up on the couch, trapping his waist in between your arms.
"Don't go," you let out a whimper, letting all of the tears flow down your cheeks.
And he listens to you. Jake doesn't move an inch, hating to see you suffering so much. He's already used to dealing with your pride, and although he can't say you didn't hurt him today, he hates witnessing you breaking down even more. He can clearly hear the shortness of your breath as you sob quietly, fingers clenching tightly on his tank top.
You stay like that for couple minutes - you clinging onto him with all of your might, face buried in his stomach as his fingers gently comb through your hair. After another moment, he finally loosens your grip on his middle and crouches down in front of you, letting you snuggle into his neck instead.
His lips press to the crown of your head lovingly, hands holding you closely to his chest as your tears soak through his clothing.
"I'm sorry," you mumble incoherently, sniffling between your words. Your breathing comes out sharp and stuttered but Jake's hand still stroking your hair slowly starts to soothe you. "I'm so sorry."
"Hey, this is not your fault alone," he says, leaning his chin on your shoulder before placing a kiss on your neck. "I could've been more understanding too."
"No, this one's entirely on me," you manage to say as you clench your hands on the back of his tank top. "And I'm really sorry, Jake. Please forgive me. I'm never gonna let my frustrations out on you, I promise."
With a sigh, he pulls away and cups your face in between his slim fingers. Your tear-stained cheeks glisten in the dark room and Jake wipes them away with the back of his hand, leaning in to kiss your brow bone warmly.
"I forgave you the second I left the room. I came to check up on you cause you haven't come back to bed, love. If I knew you were here wide awake for all this time, I would've come and get you sooner instead of letting you cry in here all by yourself."
"It's what I deserved, Jake. How do you even still put up with me after all this time?" You ask, reaching your hand out to stroke his cheek softly. "You're so sweet. Way too good for me."
"Don't say that," he scolds you gently before leaning in and pressing your lips together. His kisses are slow and so full of love that you find yourself on the verge of breaking down again. You can feel his fingers swiping underneath your eyes, getting rid of all the tears that have managed to escape your eyes again. "No more crying, okay? Wanna go to bed now? We should probably get some sleep."
You nod your head, letting him wrap his arms around you and lift you up. He pulls you closely to his chest and pecks your head, muttering a quiet love you in your hair.
As all of the previous guilt and self-loathing slowly starts fading away, you catch yourself falling asleep the second your bodies hit the soft bed, safely tucked in Jake's arms.
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Hi I wanted to know if you could do a headcannon based off this TikTok
https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMYx3JsUQ/
And just other random pregnant reader hcs with 141, König , Alejandro and the whole gang y’know if you can’t that’s perfectly fine. ❤️❤️❤️ love your work ❤️❤️❤️
Thank you for this one!!❤️ Hope this is along the lines of what you were looking for! Added some fluff for some of our boys😅🙈
141+ Alejandro, Rudy, and Konig w/ Pregnant Reader Headcannons
Warnings: crying, swearing, mild sexual references, fluff, mild angst
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Simon Ghost Riley-
Scared as shit at first when you told him you were pregnant
He ended up ghosting you for a few days after he found out, as he needed to sort some things out mentally. He'd never in his life thought children were in the cards for him. It was a lot for him to take in.
Eventually came around and was very vocal to you about his concerns, but told you that if this is what you wanted, he would support you no matter what, and would remain by your side indefinitely
110% becomes more protective of you, now that you're carrying his child
Kept a small picture of your ultrasound in his vest pocket
Always had his arm around you in public even though he disliked PDA and very rarely let you go anywhere without him or one of your close friends.
Once your bump started to form, it became more real to Simon that the two of you were bringing a child into this world, and a small part of him started to grow excited.
Whenever he'd be out on shopping trips, he'd always pick up little things he thought the baby might like
Very hands-on with you, and doesn't like to see you do much, other than taking it easy
Unbeknownst to you, towards the end of your pregnancy, Simon would often find himself talking to the unborn child as he stroked your belly while you were sleeping
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You were out cold one night, with Simon curled up into you from behind. He was absentmidently rubbing at your very pregnant belly, lost in thought. He'd shifted slightly, careful not to wake you, and pressed his lips to your stomach.
"Hey, kid. I know you can't even hear me, but that's a'right. Gonna make a promise to you, okay? I'm gonna be the best dad I possibly can. I love your mom so fucking much, I'd do anything for her. And you, now. I'll be nothing like him. I'll be good. For you and mom."
And he was. Simon was the best father to your son that you could've ever asked for.
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Johnny Soap MacTavish-
Man had truly thought you were pranking him at first. The two of you shared quite the playful relationship, so he honestly wouldn't have put it past you
When he found out that you truly were pregnant, he was elated
The day after he found out, he told nearly everyone he knew
Totally the kind of guy who found any excuse to bring you being pregnant into a conversation with someone
Constantly touching your stomach.
Went insane when he could feel your child kicking, his face would light up every single time
Developed a small kink of having you wear his hoodies while you were pregnant
He spent a lot of his free time watching tik toks on different ways to alleviate some of your pregnancy symptoms, and often found himself trying out various things on you.
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"Lass, can I try something with you?" Your husband asked, approaching you with a wicked grin.
You'd given him a questioning gaze, before nodding your head.
"Aye! Stand up. Will ya? Turn your back to me."
"What are you on about, Johnny." You chuckled, but did as he asked.
"Saw this on Tik Tok, bear with me, okay?" He asked as he wrapped his arms below your belly and lifted up slightly.
The relief you felt was immediate. Some of the weight you've been carrying for months was literally being lifted off of you. You sighed deeply and laid your head back onto Johnny's shoulder.
"Feel good?" He smirked, pressing a kiss to your hair.
"Mmmmhmm. I'm not letting you go back to work now. Gonna make you do this all day every day until the little one comes." You chuckled.
"I won't say no to that."
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Alejandro-
You and Alejandro had been trying for a child for some time
You were a civilian, and you two had been together for long enough that you felt you were ready to have a family
He was overjoyed when you'd shared the news with him. He was away from home for a few weeks, and you had told him over video chat.
Once he'd gotten home, he'd engulfed you in a massive hug, spinning you around.
"Vas a ser una madre tan hermosa" (You are going to be such a beautiful mother) he'd whispered in your ear
Keeps your pregnancy on the DL, only tells a few people, including Rodolfo
Was over the moon when you were okay with having Rudy as the godfather
Literally always finds an excuse to touch you in some way, and you often find him staring at you admiringly, more than he had before.
LOVES kissing your belly, especially right after the baby kicked. He adored your little giggles that ensued from it.
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The two of you were home on a quiet weekend night, Alejandro cleaning up from dinner while you washed the dishes.
You had a slow Spanish dance song playing softly in the background, and you found yourself swaying your hips along with the music.
Alejandro looked over to you and smiled to himself before putting down what he was working on. He made his way over to you, hugging you from behind and wrapping his arms underneath your pregnant bump. He pulled up softly, easing some of the tension in your back, as you were pressed into his abdomen. "You are so beautiful, amor de mi vida."
He swayed along with you, a comfortable silence falling over the two of you. Both of you ended up staying like that even as the song ended, too content in each other's arms to move.
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Rudy-
Man was literally over the moon when the two of you found out you were pregnant
A few weeks into you being pregnant, he was already suggesting baby names
Absolute sweetheart to you throughout your entire pregnancy, unbelievably caring
Like Alejandro, he kept your pregnancy rather quiet, but it was very hard for him not to tell anyone and everyone
Cried when he felt your baby kick for the first time
Loved going shopping with you, finding little clothes and toys for the baby
Him and Alejandro had spent weeks building the nursery, and he was so excited to show you
Literally just the best baby daddy, he was so incredibly caring and sweet throughout the entire time you were pregnant
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One day, late into your pregnancy, you found yourself pacing the hallway of your home nervously. Your due date was rapidly approaching, and your nerves were starting to overwhelm you.
"Cariño?" Rudy asked, walking into the room. "Baby, what's wrong?"
"I'm scared, Rodolfo. What if I won't be a good mom? What if I can't do this?" You gestured to your stomach, tears pooling in your eyes.
"Hey, none of that, okay? You are so amazing, amar. Please don't think anything else. You're gonna be the best mom, and im gonna be with you the entire time. In this together, always, you and me." He came up behind you, placing a kiss to your shoulder. He looped his arms around the under side of your belly, pulling upward slightly.
You leaned your head back to press a kiss to your lover's chin and sighed in content as he continued to hold your belly. "I love you, mi amor."
"Yo tambien te amo, por siempre" (I love you too, forever)
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John Price-
Man's jaw dropped to the floor when you told him that you were pregnant
Was slightly nervous at first, considering this would be your guys' first child, but the thought of your belly swelling with HIS child? Man was a goner.
He definitely got hornier throughout your pregnancy. There was something about seeing your swollen belly that had his cock constantly straining in his pants.
Doted on you like crazy. Loved cooking for you, and found your pregnancy cravings disgusting, yet hilarious
Totally became a handyman and loved being able to build your child's nursery on his own
Kept a tiny picture of the ultrasound in his wallet
You'd somehow managed to convince John to join you in childbirth classes, and he'd shyly admit he actually liked going with you
"Alright, everyone, today we will be learning a technique that allows the mom's to have a bit of weight relief. Partners, if you don't mind stepping up behind the mom, and put your hands on the underside of their belly." The instructor called out, as everyone moved to stand behind their partner.
Price came up behind you and pressed a kiss just beneath your ear. "Looking ravishing today, love."
"You've seen me all day. You're just now telling me this?" You giggled, pressing your back into your husband's chest.
"Can't I tell my wife that she looks divine?" He teased, making a tisking sound in your ear. "Maybe I'll just have to show you later then."
"John!" You playfully slapped his arms that were moving to encompass your lower abdomen.
"Alright, partners gently lift the belly upward, be careful not to apply too much pressure. This should help some of the pain the moms are experiencing."
Price did as instructed, and lifted some of the weight from your swollen belly. "Does this actually help, sweetheart?"
"Ooooh fuck yes." Your eyes fluttered shut and your head lulled back to his shoulder.
He chuckled softly and started to caress the skin there. He pressed his lips to your shoulder and mumbled, "I can't wait to start our family with you, my love."
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Kyle Gaz Garrick-
You and Gaz had conversations here and there about having children in the future, but nothing ever truly came of it. You both knew you wanted kids, though.
He nearly cried when you told him you were pregnant. Though he was slightly nervous, he couldn't be more excited to start a family with you
Makes it a point to cater to your every need
Feet hurt? He'll give you a foot rub. Hungry? He'll grab you a snack at any given hour
Immediately tells his family and friends that you're pregnant
Always there for you. Doesn't get offended by your mood swings at ALL
He's one to try your pregnancy cravings with you, no matter how revolting he finds it
Will literally drop what he's doing to come and help you if you need it
"Fricking crap dick!" You groaned, shifting on the couch to get more comfortable.
Kyle's ears perked up at your words, and he came over to see if you were okay "Babe? You alright?"
"Yeah, sorry, babys just moving a bit much, and my stomachs just sore. Can't get comfy."
Kyle smiled at you softly and grabbed your hand to help you up. "Come on then, come upstairs with me."
You waddled after him, following him into your shared bathroom. You watched as he drew a warm bath (he made extra sure it wasn't too hot) with your favorite bubble bath.
He gestured for you to climb in after helping remove your clothes, and proceeded to climb in behind you.
His hands found his way to your belly, massaging your flesh ever so gently, causing a small moan to emit from your lips.
Kyle kept you tucked in his arms til the bath ran cold, his fingers only stopping their kneading when he moved to replace the warm water. The pain and discomfort were long forgotten, as you dozed off in your partners arms.
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König-
Was speechless when the two of you found out you were expecting
He was rather anxious about the prospect of having a child, as it was something he'd never really thought he'd have the chance to experience
110% supportive of you, and stayed by your side lovingly throughout the entire pregnancy
His heart swelled with pride once your bump started to show, knowing that you were carrying his child
Often, he finds himself watching videos on what to expect when you're expecting
Legit cried when he felt your baby kick for the first time, and didn't move from your belly for hours
Will sit on YouTube for hours, watching various methods to help ease the pain you're experiencing, what sorts of things to look out for, and things such as what sorts of foods to eat, or avoid
Will do literally ANYTHING for you, name it, and he'll do it immediately
Was SO happy when you asked him to join you in some childbirthing classes
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He'd come across a video of a pregnant couple, where the husband had lifted the pregnant woman's belly to help take some of the weight off of her. His eyes had lit up, and he grew excited. He was so attuned to you, and he knew you were struggling with all of the extra weight.
He ran over to where you were standing in the kitchen, and hugged you tightly from behind. "Maus."
"Hey, Kö." You turned your head to look at your partner and gave him a warm smile. "You oka- oh my gosh."
Königs arms had found their way under your belly and gently pulled upwards to alleviate some of the weight from you. You sighed deeply, falling back into your partner. "Feels so much better. You're too good to me, my love."
"Nein, you are the one carrying our child. What I do pales in comparison." He kissed the side of your brow, and continued to hold you like that for awhile.
After seeing how much you enjoyed it, he frequently had come up to you whenever you were doing various tasks around the house and would proceed to "hold his weight" as he lovingly put it.
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pairing: dad!bucky barnes x au pair!reader
warnings: age gap (reader is 10 years younger than bucky), smut (18+, dni if under 18)
author’s note: i got given a vinyl of go your own way/silver springs last week by my mum that she bought when she was younger, so i've been playing it time and time again and it bled onto this chapter.
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i know i could've loved you but you would not let me.
Bucky knew Y/N was upset. That's all he knew. He knew she'd come from her date and ever since she'd been quiet as a mouse and that was something considering Y/N gave her opinion anytime the opportunity presented itself. He'd even change the order her mugs in, to see if she would say something, instead she just grabbed a mug and went upstairs to her room whenever he was home to watch Sadie. If he was looking after Sadie, then Y/N would not be found for long stretches of time, instead looked into her bedroom with note and after note typing aggressively - a routine which made Bucky thankful he'd never pursued a PhD or anything other than a bachelors. He'd started to leave little snacks around her room whenever she went out, a pack of Oreos stashed in her nightstand, dehydrated mango slices from the brand she liked on top of her computer, little pots of coconut yoghurt. He knew she was always in that bedroom and he also knew she wouldn't come out no matter if it was breakfast, lunch or dinner.
He was sure there was only one person to blame - Christopher. Sure, Y/N and Bucky fought about it before she went on her date, they always did, but it never resulted in her becoming a hermit, locked in her room. As such, Chris was now enemy number one and Bucky was sure if HR discovered, he would get in trouble. He wasn't making the kid's life too hard, he was just making him work nights and overtimes and weekends. He'd also sent Chris on a coffee run. Yet Y/N continued in her little cocoon of sadness and tonight was no difference. Bucky had ordered Italian in and ended up the evening watching Beauty and the Beast with Sadie. The redhead had fallen asleep at the midpoint and as Bucky was ready to call it a night, he heard the soft steps of Y/N's coming down the stairs, holding a stack of plates and mugs. She was in her little white vintage chenille robe embroidered with blue and pink flowers, her hair up with a way too big claw clip and white fuzzy socks. If Bucky wasn't worried about her, he'd be wondering about what was under her robe.
      - You want some Italian? - Bucky got up to follow her from the kitchen. - I got some of that weird spinach pasta you like. Extra mozzarella balls just as you like.
      - No. - she placed the plates in the sink, starting to wash them with the cranberry dish soap that she always bought the moment the first autumn leaf fell.
      - You didn't come up of your little cocoon today. You know, the cleaning maid is wondering if I'm cutting your pay since you're keeping one bedroom and one bathroom hostage.
      - I can move to the guest bedroom. - she moved to grab a plate but the slippery porcelain slipped, crashing into a thousand bits to the ground. She sighed, her lip quivering and almost as if by seconds, she started crying.
Y/N went down to her knees, grabbing at the pieces of porcelain and shards, as if pushing them together would bring it back.
      - Y/N, shit, darling ... - he went back to his knees to put his hands on her arms to pull her up. - It's ok, don't pick them up, you'll get hurt.
      - I'm sorry. - she sniffled, her hands attempting to go and rub her eyes but Bucky stopped them in case she had little shards of porcelain stuck to her palms. - I'll clean it up, I promise.
      - It's fine. - Bucky kicked the big shards away. - What's wrong, Y/N? Is it Chris? Did he hurt you?
      - I'm gonna fail my viva. - she sniffled once more. - And I'm gonna have to go back to Ohio and I'm not made to live in Ohio.
      - Why would you go back to Ohio?
      - My parents bought a farm there after retiring. I am not Ohio farm material, Bucky. I'm afraid of horses.
      - Why would you even fail your viva? You're a smart woman, you're at a good university, you are okay. - Bucky wrapped his arms around her. - Probably not for long if you keep not eating. Go seat and I'll get you your disgusting pasta.
      - It is not disgusting. - Y/N rolled her eyes before making her way to the table. - Buck? Can I become your secretary if I fail my viva?
      - No. Your skirts aren't as short as I'd like. - he joked, bringing her pasta in a plate and pushing it towards her. - You're too fucking smart to be my secretary, if you were in my company you'd be CEO or something.
      - I worked my entire life for this. - she toyed around with her food, looking up with eyes still wet. - You know? I didn't come from legacy families or families who could actually afford to send me to college, I worked my ass off because I thought if I did I'd get somewhere. I'd be someone, I wouldn't have to count my pennies, I would be respected. Instead, everyone thinks I'm a joke on track to become your unfuckable housewife.
      - Now c'mon, if you do become my housewife, I would fuck you at least once a night. - he joked trying to lighten the mood but Y/N merely deadpanned at him. - Twice actually. You have a nice ass.
      - Not helping.
      - Because you're being ridiculous. You wanna know the reason I hired you? You had zero experience but you were smart and you were fiery and independent and I wanted my daughter to be like that.
      - You're just saying that because you're tired of bathing, Sadie.
      - I'm saying that because you're a great student and you're a smart woman. Besides, if they fail you, we'll just have to bribe the university. We'll donate a building for you.
      - You're not funny. - she swallowed in a giggle before taking the first forkful of pasta.
      - No, really, we'll get you a building. - he moved to seat next to her. - Maybe an astronomy one.
      - How swell.
      - I mean, maybe an astronomy building will be too much. Maybe a farming one.
      - God, I'm never telling you anything ever again. - she took another forkful of food. Bucky was glad he'd distracted her enough where she was eating, genuinely eating. - How's Sadie?
      - Sadie is doing well. She's supposed to go back to kindie next week but I was taking of taking her to the office for a bit. You know? I don't trust the roudy kids.
      - It's a private kindergarten. The senator's grandchild goes there, Bucky. I doubt they have their own fight club.
      - Have you ever seen a bunch of 2 year olds? They're terrifying and Sadie is a sensitive baby.
      - So you'll take her to a corporate office?
      - It's gonna be her company one day. Start them young. - he joked once more. - You want some ice cream? I tried to look for one that would be suitable for 2 year olds but then I came home and goggle it and they said I should blend frozen bananas instead.
Truth was, he'd bought a bunch of flavours thinking one would be Y/N's favourite and would entice her to eat something. That had ended up with him holding over 10 flavours of ice cream in his freezer. He came back with a selection of flavours he thought he wanted in a nice little dish. Y/N always liked nice little dishes.
      - Maybe I just don't belong, you know? - Y/N sighed. - In academic research. Most people come from well off families or are really smart, I'm just ...
      - You're just you. - Bucky said, leaning his chin on his hand to stare at her.
      - Yeah. I'm just me. Plain, old, me. Daughter of working class parents, me. Mediocre grade at masters, me. - she sighed once more, looking at the melting ice cream. - I can't even keep a relationship from falling apart.
      - Chris broke up with you?
      - I am not dating Chris so he can't technically break up with me. Besides, it wasn't like it would actually work.
      - I'm sorry.
      - No, you're not. - she looked at him, cocking her head to the side. - You'll probably be dancing in the grave of my situationship.
      - I don't dance, Y/N. I'm a respectable man. - he once again tried to make light of the situation. - What happened?
      - Guess I'm not suitable or good enough or don't do enough. One of the three. Whatever. - she chuckled dryly. - It was nice to have someone like me even if the me they liked was someone I'm not.
      - You act as if other people don't like you.
      - It's not that they don't like me but they also don't like me. You know what I mean? They put up with me, they are alright with me, they are cordial but they don't like me. They don't tolerate me.
      - I like you. - those words flew out of his lips like it was the most natural thing for him to say. As if he were stating an irrefutable fact like the sky looks blue or the Earth is round. - I like you. Just the way you are.
Y/N's lips parted as she waited for something to compliment the sentence. I like you just the way you are but less difficult, I like you just the way you are but prettier, I like you just the way you are but less argumentative, I like you just the way you are but as a friend. Yet those words never came and she found herself instead staring at the man in front of her, staring into those blue eyes like some sailor drawn to the sea.
      - Daddy? - Bucky recognised his daughter's voice. Bad timing, bad, bad timing.
      - Hey bug. - Y/N got up from her chair and walked up to the 2 year old, kneeling down to her level. - Are you alright?
      - Nightmare.
      - Aw that's awful, bug. I'll go and tuck you in and stay there while you fall asleep. Sounds good?
(...)
      - I'm telling you, Steve. I fucked up.
      - When you said we needed to have an urgent meeting, I didn't think this would be it.
Bucky had called Steve in London, the meeting screen showing Steve in his office. Yet, instead of one of their regular meetings to check with the state of the London office, it was Bucky talking to Steve. He'd fucked up, he'd fucked up badly and he'd only realise he'd fucked up once he woke up this morning and Y/N had left, leaving a note merely saying she had gone down to Ohio to be with her parents for a bit.
      - You just said you liked her, so what? At least you didn't tell her you loved her. It could have been interpreted differently.
      - You don't understand, Steve. I told her I liked her just the way she is.
      - Alright, Mark Darcy, pipe down. Have you considered that maybe, just maybe, Y/N wants to go see her parents because she hasn't seen them in ages? Maybe because she's upset and wants to be with her mum and dad?
      - I'm telling you, she's gonna quit.
      - She's not gonna quit, Barnes. She likes Sadie too much, besides, isn't she with Chris Davis anyway? - Steve leaned against his chair, staring at Bucky through his screen. - Just relax.
(...)
A week had gone by and Y/N woke up with the sun shinning on her face. Being here was different than being in New York, it was quieter, calmer and all the sounds she could hear were the wind and the animals allowed close enough to the main house. This wasn't her childhood home, her parents had bought it yet it was comfortable. The furniture was the same and the feeling of her home was still available, it made her calm. Things were ... too much right now and she needed to be away from the hustle and bustle of the city.
She moved herself to the kitchen, pouring herself a cup of tea and seating on the wooden chair with her feet on top of the seat. Her mother walked into the kitchen a few moments later, kissing the top of her head before sitting down next to her daughter.
      - Do you want me to make you some eggs, shortcake?
      - I'm okay, mum. - she smiled at her mother. - Where's dad?
      - I sent him out to get some groceries. I wanted to talk to you alone.
      - That's never good.
      - Shortcake, I love having you here. You're my only daughter and I love it when you come to visit but it feels like you're running away.
      - I'm not running away, mum. I just came to visit.
      - When you're 3 days away from defending your thesis? In the middle of the night? I've known you for 27 years, shortcake. You're not visiting, you're running.
      - I'm failing. - she sighed, with a scared laugh. - I've looked through my papers time and time again and in 3 days I'll make a fool of myself.
      - Y/N, c'mon. - her mother put her hand on her shoulder. - You said that about your undergraduate and your masters. You've never actually came to me and told me something is going well academically.
      - This is different. I've invested almost four years of my life into this and I'm just so tired. The thought of failing is just ... terrifying.
      - You've always doubted yourself, always put so much weight onto your own shoulders. You don't need to be the best, Y/N. You don't need to impress us or make us proud, we've been proud and impressed by you since the moment you were born. Running away here is not gonna solve how you feel and you, Y/N, have never been a quitter. - her mother caressed her face, tucking a strand of hair behind her ear. - You gave it your best, that's all you can do.
      - There's more. - since she was airing out things, maybe she should talk about this. It wasn't like she could talk to her friends, she didn't have many and she couldn't talk to her colleagues about it either. - There's this guy.
      - Christopher?
      - Not Christopher. Another guy ... He told me he liked me and it just ... it freaked me out.
      - Do you like him?
      - I ... I don't actually know. I, I never really allowed myself to think of him like that. He's different.
      - How different?
      - I never considered ending up with someone like him, you know? He's not what I'd envision ever but he feels, he feels like the only person who seems me. He seems me not postdoctoral student Y/N, not who I may be if I succeed or if I fail. Just me.
      - Then what is the problem?
      - I think he also doesn't consider himself ending up with someone like me. I think .... I think I could love him but he would never let me because I'm not the ending that he pictured. I'm just not the one.
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Still My Beautiful Girl
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Pairing: Mafia!Bucky Barnes x Pregnant!Reader
Warnings: Angst, Body Shaming, Cursing, Fluff, and Mentions of Killing.
Word Count: 2,279
Summary: Bucky's guards begin to gossip about your stretch marks, but Bucky assures you that they're beautiful, and shows his guards to keep your name out their mouths.
A/N: I got inspired by a prompt I saw in a prompt generator about stretch marks, so here's this story. Hope You Enjoy!
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You woke up to the sound of something being knocked over, following a muffled curse word.
You groaned as you turned, your sore, heavy body aching. Just then, Bucky came into view, hair wet, and only in a towel.
When he saw you attempting to get up, he quickly rushed over to your side to help. "Woah, slow down, doll. Let me help you." You let Bucky help you sit up, with him making sure you had a lot of pillows on your back.
"Mmm, you smell nice, where are you going?" You asked him, eyes closing at the fresh smell of his clean body. "Got a meeting for a possible trade." Your mouth turned into a small pout, sadness taking over your features.
Bucky groaned, throwing his head back. "Awe, don't look at me like that! It's not gonna take long, only an hour or 2. I promise." Bucky lastly said, leaning down and kissing your forehead.
He then leaned down to your 8 month pregnant stomach and pressed another soft kiss to it as well. "Daddy will be home soon, princess." You giggled as Bucky talked to your belly.
Over the last couple of months, Bucky started talking to your bump. It started late at night when he would come back home from a meeting or a gruesome fight.
He would say things like; "I can't wait until you get brought into this world. I'm gonna spoil you so much." And "How's your day been? You haven't been giving Mama any trouble, have you?" And the baby kicked, almost as if she was responding to him.
That really got the Mafia boss crying, holding you until you fell asleep.
Your thoughts were ripped apart from you when Bucky came into your vision, dressed up in a black suit. He had your favorite smoothie, peanuts, and a small yogurt in hand.
"This is for when you get thirsty, when you want something salty, and something sweet, but healthy, so you shouldn't need to get up for anything." Once again, you giggled at his words.
Every single time Bucky leaves the house, even if it’s for 2 minutes, he gets you snacks that can check off all your needs while he's gone just so you won't get.
(You still do, but he doesn't need to know that.)
Bucky gave you a serious look and kissed your lips. "I'll be back soon, I love you." You repeated it, back, feeling a little bit sleepy. Bucky noticed and helped you lay back some, making sure you were tucked in, and left for his meeting.
While he was gone and you were asleep, you had a weird dream. For some odd reason, you were dreaming about Pizza. Pizza Hut to be exact.
The thought of the red sauce, with nice pepperoni, and warm cheese had your mouth watering in your dream.
When you woke up, you instantly thought of it, ignoring the snacks that were on the nightstand and slowly got up.
You held your bump, letting out a breath. "Jesus Becca, you're gonna take mommy's back out." You muttered to yourself as you back started hurting.
Bucky doesn't know it yet, but you plan on naming your little girl Rebecca, after his sister that died. As soon as you found out it was a girl her name popped in your head.
You made your way downstairs, and just as you hit the corner, maids were there, cleaning the living room. "Mrs. Barnes, you should be up right now!" One of the maids named Mary called out.
She rushed to your side, guiding you to the couch. "Oh Mary, you're starting to sound like Bucky." You joked, but a smile didn't come to her face.
"What are you doing down here? If you needed anything, you could've just called me and I would've came upstairs." You smiled at her worried tone. "I'm actually really craving pizza right now." Mary laughed, shaking her head.
This isn't the first time you've craved a pizza after having a dream. "I'll order it, Mrs. Barnes." She already knew what you wanted and where you wanted it from, so it was only a matter of time until your well deserved meal came.
You watched TV in the living room until a knock at the door came. You got up fast, excited for your cheesy goodness.
You opened the door and there the pizza man was, standing almost 6 feet away from the door due to the guards armed with guns. You walked over to the man with a smile. "Y/n?" You nodded your head.
The pizza man gave you the pizza. "Thank you, here's the tip." $20 tip? The pizza man almost cried in happiness.
You smiled at him and went back in the house, ready to eat, but as you closed the door, the sound guards talking caught your attention.
"My god, did you see Barnes' girl? Her stomach is huge." Your eyebrows furrowed in confusion. Why were they talking about your stomach? "I mean, she is pregnant, but those stretch marks are ugly." You looked at the bottom of your stomach and saw stretch marks.
A frown came upon your lips, as you rubbed them. "They're not that bad, are they?" You questioned yourself. You started to overthink about everything. Has Bucky always felt this way about them?
You don't know why, but you felt tears come to your eyes. "Usually stretch marks are fine, but why do they look like that? Her body is so chubby." One of the guards pointed out.
"It's probably because she's eating so damn much." Another one added. The whole group began laughing, still making faint comments about your stomach.
The tears finally fell, a sob racking from your throat. Mary came around the corner at the sound of your cries, concern laced on her face. "Mrs, Barnes, what's wrong, why are you crying?" She grabbed the pizza box, putting it down on the coffee table, and led you to the couch.
"Alright, calm down. What happened?" You wiped your tears, blaming your stupid hormones for all the crying. "The guards, they were talking about me. They were saying how big my stomach was, and that my stretch marks are ugly." You finished the sentence with a small cry.
Mary looked worried, not knowing what to say or do. This is too much stress on you. "Okay, shhh, it's okay, stop crying, please." Mary hugged you, swaying you side to side.
She was a sweet woman, in her mid 30s. You even looked up to her as a second Mom.
Once your cries calmed down, she let you go. "Please don't tell Bucky about this. He'll go crazy." Mary looked unsure. She didn't want to lie to you, but she has to tell Bucky. "Okay, I won't." You gave her a grateful smile and then went upstairs.
Even though Mary told you she wasn't gonna tell Bucky a thing about what just happened, she knew what had to be done.
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Bucky opened the door, walking in with a huge smile on his face. He couldn't wait to tell you the news about the trade.
As he walked near the stairs, Mary came out of nowhere with a weird look on her face. "Mr. Barnes, may I speak with you?" Bucky was taken back slightly at the question, but agreed.
Mary went to the kitchen, looking around to make sure no one else was near. "What's going on, Mary? Did something happen today?" Bucky asked, voice getting low.
Mary looked nervous as she spoke. "Actually, yes. Today Mrs. Barnes wanted pizza, so I ordered it for her, but when she went to go get it, she said the guards were talking about her. Apparently, they were talking about her stretch marks and it made her cry."
Bucky could feel himself get angrier at every word that came out of Mary's mouth.
Did he just hear that right?
His guards, the men who are supposed to protect his family, are body shaming, and making his wife cry? He's not gonna let that slide.
Mary saw how his eyes darkened and quickly tried reasoning with him. "Mr. Barnes, she made me promise her not to tell you, please don't do anything bad!" Bucky stared at Mary, not saying anything, but she knew that meant he was gonna do the opposite.
Bucky could feel all his anger rise inside him at the words Mary said. All he heard was 'guards talking about stretch marks' and 'making you cry.'
Bucky didn't say a word as he made his way upstairs to your shared room. He opened the door and saw you standing in front of the mirror, looking at your belly, touching your stretch marks.
He cursed under his breath, walking over behind you. "Doll, I need you to come with me." You jumped at his deep voice in your ear, spinning around to look at him.
"H-Hey, Buck, didn't know you'd be home so early." Bucky ignored you, grabbing your wrist and dragging you down the steps, with slow movements, of course.
"Bucky, where are you taking me? Baby?" You kept asking, but Bucky ignored you. He kept walking down the stairs until y'all reached the living room and put you in front of the window.
"Stand here and watch." He opened it, walking down the expensive looking driveway that was littered in beautiful flowers that you planted.
You looked confused as to why he was out there. "Bucky, what are you doing?" You asked him through the window. "Who said it?" He asked, causing the men to look puzzled as well.
What was he talking about? "Said what, Buck?" You asked him. Bucky looked at you and that's when you saw it. His eyes were dark, the sparkle he usually has in them now gone.
“Who was talking about my wife's stretch marks?" Your eyes grew wide, realizing what this is about. Mary most definitely told him about everything.
It was silent as his men looked scared, knowing everyone was responsible for the jokes. Bucky's tongue poked through his cheek, shaking his head in acceptance that no one was gonna speak.
“So nobody wants to talk, huh?" Again, it was quiet until Bucky's hand reached down to his waist. You didn't have enough time to react as he pulled his gun out, shooting the nearest guard. He fell to the floor, the other men letting out a terrified scream.
Bucky whipped around, looking at all his scared men. "Anyone wanna speak now? Tell me, who was making fun of my wife!" He demanded.
Your face was covered in shock, at the scene in front of you. "Bucky, stop! Why are you killing them?!" You yelled out the window. All you could do was talk. You wouldn’t dare go out there with him, especially with what he's doing.
“Because they made you cry and nobody makes you cry.” You sighed, knowing you can’t stop him. All you can do is watch. “Speak up, now!” Another shot rang through the air as another one of Bucky’s men fell to his death.
His men began crying like babies, like actually babies, tears spilling from their eyes as they begged. “Mr. Barnes, Sir, please stop, we didn’t-” Bucky didn't let the man finish as he shot him. “Are you trying to lie to me right now, huh?” He screamed at the dead man’s body.
Bucky began going on a rampage, shooting all the men, no matter if they said anything about you, or not.
He was just pissed that they were lying to him because he knows you wouldn’t just be crying over nothing like that. Especially after he caught you looking at yourself in the mirror.
“You’re all a bunch of cowards! Making fun of my wife when she’s carrying my baby. Now tell me, who was talking about her!” Bucky screamed, veins almost popping out his head.
It was then when half of his men were on the ground, bleeding out their heads when the last man spoke up. “It was me sir! A-All I said was her stretch marks were u-ugly and that-”
The man didn’t say another word after ‘ugly’ due to Bucky shooting him. He looked down at the man, even going for the over kill, shooting his body repeatedly.
He finally felt like the man was dead enough as got up, running a hand through his now disheveled hair.
He turned to the door and saw the group of maids with the look of horror on their faces. “One of y’all call Steve or Sam to clean this shit up, and get me new guards!” He ordered the maids.
Bucky then looked at you, his whole body softening at the sight of you. He slowly walked over to you, holding his hand out. “C’mere, doll, let’s go upstairs.” You hesitantly took his hand, letting him guide you back upstairs and into your shared room.
He walked you over to the mirror, gently pulling the shirt that was getting too small for your stomach, from over your head, leaving you in nothing.
He stood behind you, cupping your huge bump, his soft hands gliding across your marks. “Doll.” He called, but you avoided his eyes. “Baby, look at me.” He repeated, causing you to finally look at him.
"No matter how many stretch marks you have, or how big they are, you're still my beautiful girl, okay?" You nodded your head, wiping the tears that threatened to fall.
After your daughter was born, the new guards were made sure to NEVER talk about your body, no matter how it looked.
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hushedlover · 1 year
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Xavier comforting reader who’s just been really emotional lately?
Ur page is so aesthetically pleasing by the way 🫶🏻
literally having a breakdown rn so this is perfect </3
also thank you so much I try to make it look nice hahaha
You were shaking and your eyes were watering and everything was so loud and everything made you want to cry. It had been like this for at least a week. It felt like forever. Rationally you knee you hadn't always felt like this, it had only been a little while of the emotional rollercoaster. But it felt like ages.
Because of this, you had been avoiding your oh-so-lovely boyfriend. Xavier. just the thought of him made the tears start to form even faster. you missed him. you felt so guilty. but once the onslaught of emotions started you didn't know what to do. So you locked yourself in your room, throwing some excuse about being sick at your teachers and friends. You had stuck with this for 3 days now.
The past days had been filled with crying, tossing and turning in bed, more crying, throwing things around the room in anger, guilt, more crying, and finally, a few short hours of sleep before it all repeated. Currently, you were in the guilt stage. Rocking yourself back and forth in your bed, wrapped in a blanket with only your face showing. You were being consumed by your thoughts. Guilt, shame, anxiety, and insecurities flow over you in waves. You were gasping for breath through the waters of emotions, looking for anything to save you. You thought it would never come. But it did. A knock at your door.
That was weird. Your roomate had told your friends not to bother you and she would just walk in. Who would be at the door? Your question was answered when a voice called through the wood.
"Hello? Babe I know you're in there."
Shit. Xavier.
You searched through your piles of blankets to find your phone, only to see the 27 missed texts and 18 missed calls from the boy. Cursing you threw the phone down and padded your way to the door.
"go away xavier," you called tentatively.
"No. We need to talk."
You're heart clenched with anxiety.
oh no he's angry. he's gonna break up with you. moron. you knew it would happen. you're not good enough for him. not like Bianca. he's better with her, he-
You didn't remember opening the door, but suddenly xavier was pushing his way past you and into your room. He was already spewing words.
"I talked to all your friends, all your teachers. You haven't answered any of my goddamn texts or calls. I thought you were dead! Do you understand that?!," he was pacing in front of you, tugging his hair. "Do you want to break up with me? God of course you do. I knew this day was coming. You could've just fucking told me. Instead of disappearing like that I mean-"
Xavier cut himself off at the sound of your sniffle. He looked at where you were standing in front of him. You were twisting your (his) sweater in your hands, and even though you were looking down to avoid his eyes, he could tell you were crying. Immediately he rushed forward. His hands were on your shoulders and petting your hair back, desperately trying to get you to look at him. He didn't mean to make you cry.
"Honey I'm sorry I didn't mean to upset you. What's going on? talk to me please," He was practically begging at this point. "you can yell at me, hit me, anything just please please look at me."
So you finally did. You looked at him with huge doe eyes filled with tears and the minute you made eye contact you burst into tears.
"I'm so sorry Xavier," you wailed. "I just have been having so many things going on in my head and I don't understand why I'm feeling so much and I didn't want to make you mad or make you not want to be with me anymore and-"
Xavier quickly wrapped you in his arms and shushed you.
"You're okay, it's okay. I'm not mad. I love you so so much. You just have to talk to me honey, I was so worried about you. I promise you're okay. We're okay."
He guided you towards your bed, kicking his shoes off along the way.
"Why don't we just lay here for a little and help you calm down, yeah?"
You mumbled out a quiet agreement and buried yourself in his chest. You didn't know how, but Xavier made everything better. He was what saved you.
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Hi, i loved ur "nightmares" jo fanfic and wanted to request an ot9 reaction where they have a nightmare where they lose their s/o and can't find their s/o (and they like cry a lil cuz i feel like nicho cuz he's a softie and maki would a bit but let's leave it at that cuz it's a ot9 reaction) and srry for my vad english, anyway i love ur writing so yeh bye-bye 💗💗
Hello! :) I like this idea, I think it's absolutely adorable. . . also, what does everyone have with nightmares? Do you guys need someone to talk to or something? I'm glad you like my writing and your English is good enough for me to understand so, you're good. <3
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&Team reaction to waking up from a nightmare and not finding you
Warnings: fluff, angst, sad &team
Word Count: 1359
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-K
He wakes up in the middle of the night with a thin layer of sweat on his forehead. The recent events of his nightmare still fresh in his mind, he reaches out to find you but somehow can't.
He quickly opens his eyes and looks around. The spot on the bed where you would usually be is empty and right now he really would've loved your support. He looks around before remembering that you are currently at your house because you have to wake up early tomorrow.
He turns on the lights, sits up on his bed and stares at his phone on his nightstand. He has a discussion in his head, contemplating whether or not to call you but he decides against it. 'It was just a nightmare anyways' he would tell himself.
(He would tell you the next morning and you'd both talk about it which makes him feel better)
-Fuma
He has had livid dreams, sure, but never did he have such a livid nightmare and honestly, it scares him. He opens his eyes and looks around wildly only to find your side of the bed empty.
"y/n?" His voice is shaky but he tries to hide his fear as much as possible. He throws the blankets off of him and stumbles through the hallway. He hears faint voices come from the living room and decides to check it out only to find you watching tik-toks on the couch.
"Hey, baby." You say, smiling softly.
"What are you doing here?" Fuma asks, sitting down next to you. You close your phone and put it down next to you.
"I had a nightmare and didn't want to wake you."
"Me too." Fuma replies and wraps his arms around you. "We shouldn't have watched Nightmares on Elmstreet last night."
-Nicholas
His nightmares are usually about bad performances or something but this one was much, much worse. He lost you, the love of his life, after an argument which he could've fixed. When he wanted to apologize, he got the news that you had died in a car accident.
It all felt so real.
Especially because you two fought literally right before going to bed. He reaches out once he wakes up but you're gone. Instant panic spreads through his body. Did you walk away? Did something happen? Are you gonna break up with him?
You walk inside the room two minutes later to find your boyfriend crying on the bed. "Nico?" You ask, your voice is soft as to not scare him. He looks up, his eyes red and there are tear stains on his cheek. You had never seen him like this.
"I'm sorry." He whispers, you run to his side and sit down next to him. "We fought and you left and then you died! I couldn't say how much I love you, I couldn't say how much you mean to me--" *Hiccup* "You were just gone."
"I'm here, love." You assure him. "I'm not going anywhere, I promise." You pull him in your arms. "I love you, doesn't matter how much we fight I will always love you."
-EJ
He is stressed out. He has been ever since he got the role of leader which meant that he now has so many responsibilities meanwhile he also tries to take care of you. . . it's a lot. Nightmares aren't very uncommon but you not being there is.
He wraps a blanket around his shaking body and he is off to find the love of his life in the middle of the night in the dark dorm. Boy is determined to find you and ultimately does. He sees you stand at the kitchen counter with a cup of milk in your hands.
He walks over and embraces you from behind, letting his body weight fall on you. You jump slightly but laugh when you realize it's your own personalized teddy bear.
"Hey, baby. What's wrong?" You ask, taking another sip of your drink.
"Nightmare." EJ mumbles back. "You weren't there."
"Oh, I'm sorry, bubba. Want some milk to make up for my absence?"
-Yuma
He is absolutely terrified but will pretend he isn't just for the sake of being the protective boyfriend who doesn't need protection but the moment he realizes you're not there. . . he freaks the hell out!
"Princess?" He sits up and looks around with sleepy eyes. "Angel?" A scary sound comes from outside and he's up. "Sweetheart?" He asks again. Nothing. "Bab---AAAAAHHHH!!!!"
You slam your hand over his mouth to stop him from waking the other boys though you're sure they're awake by now. "What's wrong?" You ask but Yuma doesn't reply, no, he wraps his arms around you and holds onto you like you're his lifeline.
"I thought you were kidnapped!" You chuckle and rub your hand through his hair gently.
"Let's go back to bed, shall we?"
-Jo
My baby. ( ˘͈ ᵕ ˘͈♡) Anyways, he would wake up and stare at the ceiling unable to move. When he finally catches his breath he feels around the mattress with his hand only to find that you're not there.
He would want to go look for you but he's absolutely terrified to even as much leave his bed so he waits this one out. When you finally return to the room he does sit up and looks at you with teary eyes.
"What's wrong?" You ask, cradling his face in your hands. He sobs lightly and you gently wipe his tears away.
"Just a nightmare, it's stupid." You reassure him that it isn't stupid and climb in beside him. Jo holds onto you like a koala for the rest of the night, just making sure you won't leave again.
-Harua
Has a dilemma when he wakes up. Harua had positioned himself against the wall with his phone in his hands, your contact is visible but he isn't sure if he should call you. You were at home, asleep peacefully, he shouldn't wake you but he had clicked 'call' before he could stop himself.
"Yes?" Your groggy morning voice sounds. Harua feels so damn guilty about waking you up. "Harua?"
"M sorry." He reaches to end the call but your voice stops him.
"What happened?" You sound so worried, so caring.
"Nightmare."
"Want to talk about it?" You ask. He hears blankets shuffle and knows you're sitting up now too. So he decides to talk to you about it.
-Taki
He feels indifferent. He had a nightmare but he has had them many times before. . . then why is he currently grabbing onto his phone like an idiot? It rings four times before you pick up.
"Yes?"
"Where are you?" Taki asks, knowing you should've been besides him but you weren't.
"Bathroom."
"Oh, ok." He hangs up and stumbles out of bed. He walks towards the bathroom and knocks a couple of times.
"Yes?" You ask again, still tired from waking up only seconds ago. The door suddenly opens and Taki walks inside. You're glad you just pulled your pants up before he came in. "Hello, a bit of privacy?"
"I had a nightmare." Taki tells you, he looks rather shaken up. You quickly wrap your arms around him and comfort him the best you can.
-Maki
Pain. He feels pain. So much that he can't breathe properly and tears stream down his face. It looked and felt so real. He reaches for his phone and calls you immediately.
"Sorry for waking you." He apologizes when you have picked up. "But I had a nightmare and didn't know what else to do." You were up, you couldn't sleep so this sounded like the perfect opportunity to go to the dorms since you live close by.
"On my way." You arrive about seven minutes later and find him on the couch. His hair is messy and he is still wiping away his tears. "Oh, Maki." You say softly and sit down next to him.
He clings to you and buries his face in the crook of your neck. You chuckle lightly and rub up and down his back, comforting him.
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thezombieprostitute · 4 months
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Oh no, you’ve been exposed to sex pollen!
Which babe would you want around to help you ride it out?
And which other babe would you wanna run away from (but you can’t, so you’re just gonna need to let him help you whether you like it or not)? 😈
The babe I want around:
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He knows what it's like to not be in control of your own body so he'll be understanding. And the super soldier stamina is going to come in handy.
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"I'm so sorry," you say on repeat, crying into his chest after yet another round.
"it's not your fault," Bucky reassures. "I know it's the pollen. You're not at fault here." He picks you up and carries you to the bathtub. You've been too out of it, too horny, to take any care of yourself so he's been going above and beyond.
"I feel like I'm using you," you sob. "That's not fair to you at all! I basically got you into a no choice scenario and I'm so sorry for that."
"I had a choice," Bucky asserts. "I could've just let you suffer until a different cure was found."
You snort at that, "no, you couldn't have. You're a good man who wouldn't want me to suffer."
"I'll grant that I'd never want to see you suffer. But it's not your fault that this happened. I chose to help you. I want you, have wanted you. Just didn't think it'd be like this."
"Promise?"
"I promise."
"We're going to have to have a long talk after this is out of my system. Because I've wanted you, too."
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The babe I'd at least try to run from:
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He's not a good guy. He's very scary to me. But I could count on him to be quietly smug about finally making me beg for him, as opposed to Random or Lloyd who would be openly smug.
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He watches you, strapped to the cot, whimpering as the pollen takes full effect. You're writhing, trying to get any kind of friction to help you, but you refuse to ask him to help you. He takes a sip before walking up to you, placing a hand on your cheek. You can't help but lean into it.
"Why do you fight me," he whispers. "I could be so good to you."
"M- monster. Y-you hurt children."
"No, I threatened to kill them. There's a big difference, Sweetheart."
"You. Hurt. Them."
"I wasn't going to kill them," he shakes his head. "I knew how to apply pressure to get one of those women to crack. That's all it was."
You keep shaking your head, not letting him try to paint himself as anything but the monster you know him to be.
He chuckles, "but you're not too wrong. I can be horrible. Because I always know how much pressure to apply," he toys with your nipples, causing you to moan loudly, "and what buttons to press," he moves one hand to your clit, causing your hips to buck, "to break a person." He removes his hands from your body and you whine.
"But I can also reward those who are good for me," he says as pushes two fingers into your cunt. You start crying from the temporary relief. "Just tell me you want me, that you'll be mine, and you'll be given everything you could want."
You shake your head vigorously, whispering "monster". He removes his fingers and you see the cold harshness he could never hide from you before he smacks your overly sensitive pussy and you cry out.
"I will break you, Sweetheart," he growls. "And you will love me as much as you fear me."
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Hello okay request for the injury dialogue prompts:
7 + 8 + 13
TechPhee with an injured Tech- maybe he’s just been revealed to be CX-2 and is himself again- and with a comforting Phee
I love hurt comfort sm so I swear there better be no angst…maybe just a lil bit…but don’t kill him
thank you :)
Hello hi yes I know you said NO angst..... however. I bring you this with the promise of a part 2.
with NO hurt, full comfort. I swear it.
I simply couldn't stop the direction this one took 😔 its a "gets worse before it gets better" i SWEAR
Prompts:
"No, no, stop. Stop talking like that. You're gonna be fine."
"Okay. Okay, here's what we're gonna do– fuck."
"I would believe that you're fine, but you have a goddamn knife sticking out of your leg, so."
Warnings: violence/implied abuse
Pabu, her only home, was burning. She could hear faintly, over her own harsh breathing, people screaming as they ran and fled the chaos. She felt people hitting her as they rushed past.
She could hear Omega in the crowd, yelling refusals as Wrecker held her tight, gunning it for the Marauder. She heard Hunter speaking to Crosshair, ordering him around.
"Phee!" She heard. "Phee, we have to go!"
And Phee spotted him, then, across the courtyard. Hunter was still limping, bleeding from their fight. The Imperial, the aggressor.
Oh, but how could Phee be angry? How could Phee be anything but glad as she looked across and saw the eyes that haunted her every dream?
How could she go, when Brown Eyes- when her Tech was so close?
"Phee!" Hunter shouted as she took off in a sprint, rushing across the courtyard to get to the Imperial, who's mask had shattered and cracked, revealing one dull eye for her.
"Tech!" She hadn't realised she had regained the power to speak until she was screaming, knocking through people to get to him. To hold him and to take him away. "Tech-!"
Phee watched his eyes widen, watched the fear glaze over, watched him scrambled and run away. She slowed only for a moment, confused.
He was running away from her? Why would he–? Tech didn't run. Not Tech, not her—
Hunter grabbed her arm, and tore their way back to the Marauder. They watched Pabu burn as they escaped with as many as they could gather.
Phee had swore. She had screamed, she may have even cried, she wasn't sure all she knew was she was angry.
"You told me he was dead!" She shouted. "You said there was nothing you could've done!"
"Phee–" Hunter's hands were slapped away.
"No!" She yelled. "No- no, you left him." She glared at him. "You left him there."
The trip was quite. Phee could feel the grief rolling off the ship. Or maybe its just her.
She left them on the first planet they land on. Told them not to look, not to contact, not to ask. She only felt a small stab of regret as she listened to Omega cry.
She wouldn't go back. Not until she could prove she was right.
So, she searched. She searched and looked until she found him again. Looked until she could get them a moment alone.
It wasn't perfect. He was distracted, pained and panic-struck. Rex's rebels were looking for him. His leg was bleeding.
Phee took that opportunity to grab him, to hide them. She heard his breath hitch, watched him struggle to escape her grip.
Watched how wide his eyes were when she finally figured out how to get his blasted helmet off his head, throwing it roughly to the side.
"Tech," Phee breathed. She watched him freeze. Watched his resolve crumble as his eyes grew glassy again.
"Phee." He responded in kind.
And just like that, her composure was lost, and she grappled him into a hug so tight, his ribs creaked, and she could feel them through his suit.
"The Empire starve their assassins now?" Phee joked, a wet laugh leaving her. Tech snorted, clutching her tight.
"I guess." He mumbled into her hair, sniffling.
They stayed there for an age before she finally pulled back, looking him over. "Are you hurt?" She asked.
He smiled through the pain, nodding. "I'm fine." He assured. Phee raised a brow.
"See," She rolled her eyes. "I would believe that you're fine, but you have a goddamn knife sticking out of your leg, so."
Tech blinked, looking to it. "Ah," He murmured. "That is not ideal."
"I'll say." Phee reached to help, only for him to flinch harshly, pulling back. She froze, hands outstretched as she glanced up to him.
"Don't–" He gasped suddenly. "–please." He added hastily. "I can handle it."
She slowly retreated. He nodded greatfully, breathing easier before he reached down, yanking the knife out of his leg with a short cry.
That should've hurt more, Phee thought distantly. Instead, she dropped to her knees with him, hesitating to reach out again.
"Tech?" She said. He hummed, patching himself up. "Come with me."
Tech froze, looking up to her. "Come home to me, to your brother's," She pleaded. "We miss you, we're—"
Tech shot forward, covering her mouth. "Don't." He breathed. "Don't tell me where you are. Don't tell me anything."
"Brown Eyes," She pushed his hand away. "It's–" She let out a small breath. "Whatever they did to you, we can fix it–"
"No." Tech said firmly, eyes shining. "No, you can't– you can't fix me."
Phee frowned. "They–" Tech hesitated, eyes downcast. "He-... I can't be fixed." He said shakily. "He made sure of that."
She hesitated. "Hemlock?" She asked in a whisper. Tech nodded shortly, refusing to look at her. "What did he do?"
"I–" Tech drew up, eyes alight with nothing short of fear before he looked away again. From under his blacks, Phee caught sight of a surgical scar.
She reached forward, fingers brushing against it. Tech flinched hard, throwing himself backwards with a strangled cry.
Phee jumped. "I'm sorry–!" She reached to help him up. "I'm sorry, I wasn't thinking–"
Only Tech wasn't listening. Covering his ears, he laid curled up on the grass, slurred strings of nonsense leaving him. Phee only caught apologies, and a term she hadn't heard since Crosshair finally told her what had happened to him.
"Good soldiers follow orders."
"Did he–" Phee asked, grasping his arms to break him out of whatever frenzy he had worked himself into. "–did he chip you?"
"Good–" Tech choked out. "–follow orders- follow orders—"
He gasped wetly in her hold, forehead pressed into her shoulder. "Ruined," He sniffed. "He ruined–"
Phee gasped sharply. "No, no, stop. Stop talking like that. You're gonna be fine." She rubbed his back gently, rocking in time with him as he burrowed into her. "He hasn't ruined you. We're going to figure this out, alright?"
Tech said nothing, only sniffling as he pressed further against her. She held him close, mumbling into his hair as she rubbed his back.
"It's alright," She whispered, pressing a kiss against his lips when he finally drew back. "We're going to figure this out. I swear it."
"Phee–" Tech choked out around a sob. She hushed him, pulling him closer.
"Just relax," She encouraged. "Just take a breath, alright? I'm not going anywhere."
Tech wasn't sure how long they sat there, curled up together. His hands fisted in her clothes, her hands delicate in their touch. It was the softest touch he had felt in months.
His being wracked with sobs at the sheer gentleness she held him with. The delicacy in her hold seemed to shattered him.
He slumped into her arms, breathing shakily as she kissed his head gently. "There we go," She whispered. "There's my Tech"
He sniffed tiredly, burrowing into her. "I've missed you so much," She murmured. "You have no idea how long I looked. Even when they told me–"
Her breath hitched, her grip tightened. "I didn't wanna believe it." She admitted. "A guy as smart as you? My Tech? It didn't seem real."
He felt her pull him closer. "I'm so glad it wasn't," She breathed. "You must've been through so much in those labs."
Again, tears pricked at Tech's eyes. He was so tired.
"I know," Phee seemed to respond, running her hand through his hair. "You must be exhausted. You look it."
He was. He was tired and sore and scared. He wanted to go home.
Fresh pain blossomed in him when he remembered it was him that took their home away—
"Shh," Phee was there, grounding him with small circles in his shoulder blades. "Shh, love, I'm here. I've got you."
The comm on his wrist began to beep, and Tech clutched her tighter, a short sound of fear escaping. "Phee," He whispered, terrified.
"What is it, love?" She asked, brows furrowed.
"It's–" An Imperial ship moved overhead. That seemed to answer her question.
She looked to him, eyes wide. "We have to go–" She said in a rush, getting up and pulling him with her. "Come on, we can get you some sort of disguise—"
Tech's heart broke. "Phee—"
"We can find a ship,"
"Phee–"
"We'll contact your brother's, or that Rex guy– or- or—"
"Phee."
She turned to him, eyes shining. He stared back, dark circles under his eyes. He looked as shattered as Phee felt as he took her hand in his.
"I can't go," He whispered what they both knew. "I can't leave."
"Yes you can." She said firmly, jaw set. "We can– or—"
"Phee."
"I'm not ready to lose you again!" She shouted, finally. She felt her chest tighten as Tech flinched, spine straightening.
"I–" She slumped in defeat. "I'm sorry, I didn't meant to yell."
"I know," Tech squeezed her hand. "It's okay."
They both winced at the sound of a ramp lowering. Phee looked to Tech, lost. She hated that he stared back, just as stuck as she was.
There was no way out of this. Tech seemed to tense with the voice that called from the ramp.
Phee recognised the voice only from the small audio recording Echo had recovered from Tech's goggles.
Hemlock.
Tech's breath quickened. "I can't go back–" He admitted suddenly. "Phee-"
"I know." She whispered back, hiding them in the fauna. She tried her best to think, think- find a way out. Find a way to safety.
"Okay. Okay, here's what we're gonna do– fuck." She swore, drawing a blank. There wasn't a way out of this. Tech could be tracked. Tech said they couldn't tell him anything. She didnt know what that meant yet.
From above her, stray tears dropped onto her. "Phee," He clasped her, drawing her up for one desperate, searing kiss. She returned in full, rubbing the tears from his face as she did.
"I'm so sorry." He murmured against her, head bent in shame.
"Don't be," She assured mindlessly. "I'm coming back for you. You're coming home."
He smiled, thoroughly disbelieving her.
Then, he let her go. Phee watched, hidden, as Tech picked up his helmet. Watched it click into place as Tech disappeared under it, becoming someone else.
Phee watched him finally join Hemlock at the ramp. Watched him approach Tech, take his face in his hand and examine him.
Phee felt disgust curl up her spine as he removed his helmet easily, taking his face closer, just how Phee had moments ago.
She nearly shouted in rage when Hemlock's hand streaked across Tech's face, slapping him solidly.
And Phee watched.
Watched the last remains of her home disappear into an Imperial cruiser. Watched Tech walk back into something neither of them were sure he'd walk away from.
Stray tears fell from her eyes as she was stuck on the ground, watching.
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criminalmindswhore · 8 months
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Love Story
I am feeding you whores today. I'm taking everything from my wattpad and putting here.
TW: mentions of abuse, pregnancy, death, loosing a friend and a baby
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A loud sigh was heard throughout the bullpen as I looked at my phone, my fiancé was calling again. I answered it keeping my voice low, "I am literally at work saving lives right now." My fiancé immediately shot back, "I don't give a damn about your job. When are you gonna quit anyways? It's a pointless job and all it does is take you away from my watch." My fiancé was always an abusive bitch, I could take down serial killers all day, but never could leave her. This, this was the final straw, "My pointless job, saves hundreds if not thousands of lives a year. And I don't plan on leaving anytime soon. This team, is my family." She chuckled, "Like that bitch Emily. You've always liked her." I threw my file closed and took a long, deep, calming breath. "You're obviously correct Savannah, I have." I was speaking at a normal level now. I'm sandwiched between Emily and Morgan so they could hear me. Concerned they looked at me, "Just like you've always liked every guy who walked your direction. Don't act innocent, I've always been fully aware of your games. When I get home tonight, I want you and your shit, out of MY house. I worked my ass off for that house. Am I clear?" My tone was clear, DO NOT FUCK WITH ME. Emily was growing more worried with every second that passed, you were so angry but so calm at the same time. "You could've declined my proposal-" "Oh so you could hit me into saying yes? I have work to do. Burn in hell." I threw my phone down and laid my head on your desk. Emily wanted to ask, but you seemed you wanted to be left alone so she pulled out a sticky note and a pen, "Just making sure you don't need a hug. <3"  She stuck it on a file and slipped it onto your desk. A few minutes later after I calmed down I noticed it. I smiled as you read it and looked at her nodding. The bullpen was busy and loud so when Prentiss took me into her arms and held me tight, no one could hear her heart beating out of her chest. See Emily Prentiss has been head over heels for Y/n since the day Hotch introduced her. The way she giggled, argued, took down shots of whiskey likes it's nothing. All of her amazed Emily. When I finally pulled away from her, I had tears threatening to spill and Emily saw them grabbed my hand and pulling me into the conference room. She quickly closed the door and pulled me back into her arms. Where I instantly fell apart, "I'm so sorry. I should've said something, you guys could've helped me. I was just so scared o-of her." Emily didn't need an explanation she just nodded, rubbed my back and said, "It's okay."
As I finished my paperwork for the day I groaned remembering the mess I had to go home to. I starting gathering my stuff when Emily stood up, grabbing her things too. "Let me drive you home. If she's still there, we'll grab you some clothes and leave. If she isn't, I'm staying the night to make sure she doesn't come back." I was taken aback, "Em, you don't have to do that. I'll be fine I-" "Y/n, you said you were fine the past 4 years. Get your stuff let's go." I simply nodded and grabbed my keys along with my other stuff. The two of us chatted about random things until we slipped into her car. She started it and looked at me, "I promise you, as long as I'm there, she cannot touch you." She meant it too, she would die before Savannah ever touched your incredibly soft skin again. I reached over and hugged her, "Thank you." When she pulled into my driveway I felt a knot form in my stomach. "Her cars not here." I stated as I unlocked the door, clicking the door open and switching on the lights. I gasped at the sight in front of me, she had broken everything that mattered to me. Emily was frozen in place as I carefully picked things up crying. Eventually the brunette closed the door behind her and I looked at her. "She broke everything that had meaning. Memories. Good ones and bad." You looked so defeated it broke Emily's heart. She wanted to pick up all the pieces and fix everything, but it was all broken beyond repair.
The next few hours we spent picking up broken things and explaining their meaning to me. Some I explained, others I moved past. We were almost done cleaning with Emily she spotted a broken frame with what looked like an ultrasound picture beside it. She swallowed hard and picked up the picture, "Y/n/n, you might want to keep this." When I turned around I went pale and my heart dropped to my toes. My biggest secret was just exposed to someone who probably already thought I was the biggest mess. I took the picture from her and let a tear slip, "It's not my kid. My best friend in high school got pregnant in college, I went to every appointment with her because the kid's father was a jerk. After one of her appointments, she was killed in a hit-and-run outside the doctor's office. They did everything they could but she and the baby died in my arms. I immediately changed my major and made it my goal to save lives." For what seemed like the 100th time that day, I cried and Emily held me. "Listen to me, you are the strongest person I know, and I got staked in the stomach." We both chuckled and I pulled away still close to her though. "You are beautiful, and so amazing. Some girl would be incredibly lucky to have you." My heart fluttered hearing those words leave her mouth. Savannah always knew it even when I didn't, I loved Prentiss. It was at that very moment, surrounded by trash bags full of broken glass, pottery, and pillow stuffing, that we both knew. Emily's heart was racing but she couldn't stand it anymore, she reached forwards and grabbed my waist pulling me into her and I grabbed her shirt collar pulling her face inches from mine. My palms were sweaty but the butterflies I felt in my stomach overpowered the palm sweat. "Kiss me please Y/n." And that's all it took for me to crash my lips onto her incredibly soft ones. I took another half step towards her wanting more contact and Emily gripped my waist for dear life. Her tongue slipped into my mouth and what felt like a perfect kiss was the start to the best love story.
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Soooo, me again :) (I asked about your rules and things) long story short: I'm being a simp for stardew valley Sam at the moment and I have a feeling that there aren't a lot of os about him :( just can't decide on which idea to ask, if it's ok with you could you please choose one you feel most likely to write for?
° Tattoo date to zuzu city
° some comfort after y/n stands in front of his door to stay for the night because their parents had fought again like everyday and needs some time away (romantic or platonic)
° y/n sees him backstage after the concert kissing penny, thinking they won't have a chance but turns out he doesn't like penny and that's all a misunderstanding (you can choose if it should involve smut or not)
° saving his crush (y/n, what a surprise) from her toxic relationship and showing her how much better he could treat her (also, fluff or smut
Sorry if it's a lot to choose from qwq I just have so many things I think would be nice to read about him qwq
I was so tempted to do the penny one but chose to do the toxic relationship prompt instead. I'm definitely gonna keep that penny idea in mind though. Thank you so much for your request I loved all of these ideas! hope you enjoy!!
Radiant
(Sam stardew valley x reader)
Leaving zuzu city was the best thing you could've done for yourself right? Or so you thought, a raging voice was leaking through your cellphones speaker. They were on another drunken stupor, crying and yelling for you to come back. To sell the farm house and just come back. Aren't they more important? Than your stupid fantasy of being able to live off the the land.
"You'll starve!" They said. "What's even out there that has you wanting to stay so bad? It's been a few months.....you probably met someone didn't you?" Before they could continue you interrupted them.
"I'm done. Call me tomorrow morning when you're not drunk." You flatly stated and hung up. You were sure you'd wake up to many angry texts tomorrow morning, followed by a string of apologies. Promising they'll never say those things again, they didn't know what they were thinking. They just miss you so much that it's hard to cope.
You laid down in bed and hugged your pillow tight. Curling into a ball around it, you reminisced on your situation. For the past few months, you'd be lying if you didn't admit your empty bed brought you comfort. After a few years of living with your partner you'd grown used to their arms holding you down as you slept, unable to toss or turn. There was no room to breathe, no space to stretch. But ever since living on the farm you'd grown accustomed to the freedom. More than just physically but mentally too. Regardless of this you still longed for their companionship.
Sometimes the emptiness of the farm house was too much, you supposed.
Silencing the swirling thoughts in your head you thought of someone sweeter. A radiant light that showed itself on a dark night.
You were sat at the pier near Willy's cabin staring into the depths of the ocean. You'd only lived in stardew valley for a week and you were already begging your significant other not to come pick you up. You'd already turned off your phone at that point and were gazing at waters moonlit surface. You were drowning in your thoughts when you met him.
Light steps etched closer before he sat next to you on the pier. He talked to you as if he'd known you for years.
"What's got you out here so late?" He asked as crossed one leg under the other. "Stargazing?"
"No.. the stars are beautiful tonight though." Your raspy voice answered. Pointing your attention to the sky, Sparkling little glimmers shined happily. Blissfully unaware of any and all earthly issues. He was silent for a moment before he spoke again.
"Are you ok? Wanna talk about it?" He questioned. You thought on it for a second. Who was this guy? Worrying over someone he's never met. Regardless you found yourself gravitating towards his kindness. Maybe he was someone you'd like to know.
"What's your name?" You countered with a different question, finally looking over at him.
"Sam. and you?" He said. A small smile shown as he took in your features. He couldn't help but wonder what got someone so cute upset like that. It was dark but he could still see the reflection of the tears on your cheeks in the moonlight. Though you were a stranger, it upset him. He wouldn't pry though.
"Y/n." You said as you rubbed your face dry. "What brings you here?" You asked genuinely curious why anyone else would be out so late.
"Well honestly I came out here and thought you were my friend sebastian at first." He said with a small laugh, hand bashfully behind his head. "I was gonna ask him for a cig but instead I saw a cute girl and thought I'd introduce myself." He winked pointing a finer gun at you before putting it away. You blushed at that but smiled none the less. Something you hadn't done that whole day.
"Well unfortunately I'm taken but I appreciate it." You softly stated. At the time you couldn't quite place why you felt dissatisfied with that statement.
He let out a 'aww' but still stayed in his spot next to you. "Unfortunately? That doesn't sound too good." He prodded.
"Yeah......things aren't too good at the moment. But every relationship has a few rough patches right?" You sighed. It was mostly a question for yourself honestly.
You picked up your phone and saw through the blinding light that it was 1am. Knowing you had to wake up early in the morning, you sadly had to say goodbye. "Sorry sam. It was nice meeting you but I have to go to bed soon. It was nice taking to you." You said as you got up and dusted off your pants. You gave a small wave and turned to leave only taking a few steps before getting stopped.
"Wait!" He yelled still seated. "You wanna hang out sometime?" He asked. The pleading look in his eyes was something you couldn't say no to.
"Sure, you free tomorrow morning?" You asked almost too eagerly. Sam silently cursed in his head. He had work tomorrow morning and his boss was already annoyed with him. But to hell with all that.
"Yeah I'm free."
You awoke from your slumber still glued to the pillow you had fallen asleep with. Getting up and untangling yourself from all your blankets, you were able to finally escape your mess of a mattress. You stretched and some of your bones popped from being still for so long. You groaned, you felt like you'd been asleep for days.
You made your way to the kitchen with a yawn and poured a glass of water. The drink successfully woke you up and you rubbed some of the drowsiness out of your eyes. Drink in hand, you went back to your bedroom to do the inevitable. Check your phone.
With a heavy sigh you unplugged it and dived deep into the various messages that had been sent throughout the night. As you had predicted most of them were from last night. Messages about how they just want the best for you. How they were hurt that you actively choose a dead dream over your relationship. But they love you and they're sorry for what they said. But what they said next made your heart race. And you didn't know if it was in a good way.
'Please y/n can you forget about everything? Just for tonight? I'm coming to visit you. I don't care about our problems anymore I want to see you, I miss you. I'll be there tonight.'
You texted them back that you needed time. You weren't going to just ignore everything now that they wanted you to. It'd been a while since their last visit but you were too upset to even fathom seeing them. They didn't reply.
After exiting the text, you opened up one from an hour ago from somene who knows how to cheer you up.
Sam wanted to know if you were free in a few hours so you could go with him to the beach. Jas and Vincent wanted to go play by the ocean and he wanted to know if you wanted to tag along so he wouldn't be bored. You smiled to yourself and texted him back.
'Of course! I'll see you in a bit, gotta take care of some things on the farm then I'll head that way.'
You threw your phone on the bed and changed into your outfit. After throwing on your shoes and successfully tying them up, you made your way outside. Forgetting your phone on the bed.
After feeding the chickens and watering the crops you felt much better. Something about doing little things on your farm were fulfilling to you. Putting your watering can back in its place you made your way to the beach, hoping he didn't wait too long for you to get there.
As you got closer to where he stood on the beach, you made sure to stay silent. Finally standing next to him, he jumped a bit when he noticed you before laughing nervously.
"Jeez! Do you like doing that? How are you so quiet all the time?" He asked placing a hand over his racing heart. You did like doing this. Who wouldn't like to see that face he makes?
"Sorry, it's just so easy sometimes." You laughed. He gave you playful glare before looking back out toward the kids. After confirming they were ok and still on beach he turned his attention back to you. The sun made his blond hair shine more than usual and you could see that some of it was actually bleached from so much exposure to it.
"So? Got anything planned today? You could come hang out at the saloon tonight if you want. Me, seb, and Abby are gonna play pool tonight. It'd be nice to have some good luck on my side." He said elbowing your arm lightly. You smiled and seriously thought about taking him up on the offer. Sadly the life of the farmer isn't as free as you'd originally thought.
"Sorry, I bought a bunch of seeds from Pierre's yesterday and didn't get around to planting them. I'll probably be tilling the land all day." You sighed, already anticipating how bad your arms would hurt tomorrow.
"Aww I can help! It can't be too complicated right?" He offered. He wasn't unually one to volunteer to do work but in his mind, any time with you is a good time.
"It's ok I wouldn't want to put you through that pain." You half joked. "Also you have work tomorrow, it's gonna suck stocking shelves with sore arms." He went to argue but you stopped him. "Really, it's ok. Go have fun tonight you have to hang out with your other friends too you know." You both laughed knowing the two of you have been stuck to the hip since you met.
"Alright alright, if you say so." He said playfully. He looked out into the distance once again noting jas and Vincent's locations before looking back at you. He also noted how beautiful you always looked without ever trying. You eyes were squinting at him in the sunlight before you brought up your hand to shield your eyes. The wind gently blew through your hair and the sound of your voice carried over the sound if the waves. You were just perfect to him, nothing less.
A few hours had passed and you two talked about different things. You inquired about his band and he happily told you in detail all his plans and how he's always dreamed of doing it. You felt like you could stay and speak with him for the rest of the day, but heard tiny footsteps quickly approaching.
"Sam!! Im hungry!" Vincent ran up and looked at him patiently waiting for an answer. Jas quietly laughed to herself.
"Yeah i guess im a little hungry too." He said looking at the time. His expression changed to slight panic before he put his phone away. "So uh... I gotta go, dinner was done an hour ago and mom is pissed, heh" He nervously laughed. "Come on kids! Let's go home!" He said as they both ran towards the exit of the beach.
"I'll see you later Sam. Tell the others I said hi!" You said referring to Sebastian and Abigail.
"I will! And good luck on the farm you're gonna need it." He gave a salute before running after the kids. You watched as they all disappeared past the trees separating the town and the beach. Your heart ached a bit. If only time didn't go by so fast.
As you made your way home you tried to calculate just how much you could get done before midnight. Visions of seeds and gold unraveled in your mind as you approached your property. As you stepped up the porch something didn't feel quite right. Your chickens didnt approach you like they unually did and you heard your tv on the other side of the door. You swore you turned it off. Scared but armed with various farming equipment you made the decision to enter your home.
A show played on the TV making the figure on your couch clear as day. It looks like your partner decided to come anyway.
"What are you doing here?" You asked as calmly as you could.
"Sorry I was already on the way over and you still hadn't texted me back, thought I'd wait here a bit longer before going to look for you." They said.
"That's not my point. I said I needed time." You stated firmly.
"Listen... y/n I'm sorry, I really am. I know I hurt you deeply and I just wanted to say sorry in person." They said, tear pricked their eyes but never leaked out. You felt kind of bad for them. "I won't talk about any of that..... I just wanted to see you again." They claimed. You were hesitant to accept their compromise but did none the less. With your guard still up you sat on your couch beside them.
"Are you hungry? I thought you'd be hungry by now so I made Alfredo." They said.
After not eating all day you gut made itself known with a loud growl. You frowned before getting up to make yourself a plate. Eating some of it on your way back to the couch you stomach finally stopped it's noises. "Thank you, it's really good."
"No problem, I already ate so eat as much as you want." They said before turning to watch the rest of the movie. And just like that, back to normal.
It was getting late and you could hear the rain on the roof. Thunder lightly rumbled out side and you were cuddled into your partners side. The TV had already played a few things and you were getting tired. You had planned to fall asleep in your spot on the couch before your partner spoke.
"Y/n. What do you like about this place?" They quietly asked. That instantly woke you up.
"I like plenty of things about it. This cabin, the land, the wildlife. The townspeople are nice. I love everything about it." You passionately expressed. Their brows furrowed at that.
"I don't understand. You can live in the city and still visit these places." They said. You were already tired and really didn't want to talk about this right now.
"What happened to not caring about our problems anymore?" You questioned. They were silent for a second before continuing.
"What happened to being together for the rest of our lives? You left me in the city!" Their words cut deep and sparked rage instantly.
"Why can't you just drop it! Why can't you see that I'm doing this for you too! Shouldn't you be happy for me? We're living in an economy where you end up paying thousands of dollars every year just to stay alive and now I have this opportunity and you just want me to throw it away!?! Why do you have to have everything your way all the damn time!" You yelled as you got up from the couch and crossed your arms.
"No! You're the one being selfish! We already had a life in the city that you uprooted for this stupid fucking dream of yours!" They screamed at you from the couch. "This is unrealistic! It's not sustainable! And just.... UGH it's fucked!!" They yelled standing just to punching the wall. Fortunately your house was sturdy and wouldn't get damaged so easy. You were already crying by the time they were done yelling, and after seeing your face it just made them angrier. You wanted to just curl up in your room in a ball like usual but you knew you couldn't this time. They'd just follow you.
You needed to leave.
You walked towards the door as they kept ranting.
"Where are you going!? It's raining and its midnight!" They yelled walking towards you.
"GET AWAY FROM ME!" You cried. They seemed to snap out of their angry haze and looked at you shocked. "I'm leaving until you get out of here. Go home!! Just leave me alone!" You screamed as you opened the door and slammed it. Cold wet wind immediately blew into your already tired body but the adrenaline allowed you to push through. Thunder clapped in the skies and sobs wracked through your body. There was only one place you could go this late. You'd hoped he'd still be up practicing on his guitar or something.
Mud squelched under your feet as your made your trek into town. Cold rain poured down on you and you could see the dull light of Sam's porch light coming into view. You knew his family was asleep so you went over to his window. Faint strums from a guitar lightly played behind the glass. You sighed in relief at the sound. You lightly knocked on the window and waited patiently. A few seconds passed before the blinds on the other side lifted. As soon as he saw it was you he opened up his window and helped you climb inside.
"You're drenched! Are you ok?" He bombarded you with questions. Your shivering form and puffy eyes were enough to give him some signs as to what had happened.
"No." You sighed as you sat on the floor in front of the window. Your exhaustion quickly caught up with you and the rain made your clothes feel ten pounds heavier. You brought your knees to your chest and wrapped your arms around them. Sam got a blanket off his bed and threw it over your shoulders before sitting next to you
"My partner was waiting for me at home today. I didnt have my phone so I had no idea." You said. "We had a fight the night before but they seemed to want to move past that so I let them stay. I should've just kicked them out. They're never going to understand what i do. What i want l, or who i want to be" You said, tears pricked your eyes. "I'm doing this for them too.... and all they do is call me stupid for it." You cried. "Why do they love to hate me?" You felt bad that you were dumping all this on your friend but you just wanted support. "My farm isn't some stupid dream i came up with on the fly."
A comforting hand rubbed your back as Sam held his tongue. There were only a few other times where you'd kinda let him in on what was really happening. But he'd heard enough to piece together that this person was an asshole. How could someone like that end up with someone as sweet as you.
"You're right. It's not some stupid dream, so why do you keep letting them tell you that?" He asked. Maybe that was a little too blunt. But he was tired of seeing you seeing you caught in their web, not even attempting to escape. You were silent. If anything that made you cry a bit harder. He immediately regretted what he said and rubbed your back a little harder out of stress.
But he's right, all the things they do happen becaue you let it. You never felt powerful enough to stop them, all you could ever do is run away.
"Because.... I'm scared." You confessed. "Whenever I want to say anything to them, something in the back of my head tells me not to. Like my premonition is telling me something bad will happen."
"Y/n.....that's terrible." He said. "You don't deserve that."
"I feel like I do." You replied. The comforting hand on your back stopped and instead moved to caress your cheek. You turned to look at him. He looked back with sad eyes. Almost as if he could cry with you.
"You don't." He said firmly. "You deserve someone who's going to support you no matter what. Someone who'll be there when you cry, even if it's something simple like stepping on your favorite flower." You smiled. You remembered that day. Rip Petunia. His thumb wiped the tears from underneath your swollen eyes. His touch was warm, and made your heart beat just a little faster.
"If only someone like that existed." You weakly laughed. He just looked at you. Debating if he was gonna say what he actually wanted to say. He felt like if he passed this opportunity up there'd be no second chances.
"He does, I'm right here." He confessed.
You were always ashamed when you gave in to his incessant flirting. Comments here and there, 'accidental' touches, wanting to be around each other all the time. Though you were in a relationship, the longer you were in stardew valley the more you realized how much your partner drained you. How much you longed for a real connection, someone who loved you.
"Really?" Was all you could utter, not conveying how happy you really were.
"Yeah, really." He confirmed. A scarlet hue started to take over his face but he was still serious. Something about the way he looked at you told you to trust him. There was a special bond between the two of you and you'd know it from the start. You just denied it. You wanted to cry again, knowing someone like him had been in your life for a while now. A supporter, a friend, and maybe, if you let him. Something more.
You didn't really know what to say. Your words wouldn't be able to convey how you felt so you just curled into his side. Taking in his warmth. His body was stiff but eased up after a second. His arm fell naturally on your shoulders and pulled you closer. You'd never felt so anxious around Sam as you did right now. Heart racing, cheeks hot. Alot of feelings you'd pushed down over the months had resurfaced in an instant.
"You're still drenched. Do you want some of my clothes? You're gonna freeze in here." He fretted. The question made you aware of just how cold and uncomfortable you were in your still wet clothes.
"That'd be nice." You smiled standing up from your spot. You left the cover on the floor and walked with Sam to his dresser. He handed you a t-shirt and a pair of basketball shorts and showed you where the restroom was.
You closed the door behind you and changed out of your muddy clothes. You washed off any mud you got on your body before putting on the nice clean clothes, you took a second to take in your state in the mirror. You've looked better. Your eyes were still red from crying so long and your hair got tangled in the harsh rain. You took a moment to run your fingers through your hair only being able to tame half of it. You left the restroom and headed back to Sam's room. Your hand rested above the door handle and you debated how you were going to ask him if you could stay the night. You couldn't go back home, not until tomorrow at least and there's no one else you were close enough with to ask. And besides. You wanted to stay, he made you feel safe. You were able to be vulnerable around him and you knew he'd never chastise you over it.
Entering the room you saw he'd already made a spot on the floor for himself. A few blankets and pillows positioned how he liked. You evaluated what was happening before you said something.
"Sam?" You looked at him laying on his makeshift bed. He smiled.
"Well, I didn't think you'd be going home tonight. It's storming outside and I wouldn't want you to go home anyway considering the situation." He said. Gesturing to his bed. "It's all yours, come lay down, I know you're tired." He concluded. You were slightly taken aback. He already anticipated you staying the night and was really sweet about it. You walked over and laid down in his bed. It was a different type of comfort. Different from your own bed, your always felt cold and empty. Comforting only because you weren't constricted by a possessive embrace. But in his it was almost like the bed could swallow you up. Various pillows and a giant cover made you feel like you were in a little nest. Safe and secure. You rolled on your side so you could look at Sam who met your gaze from the floor.
"Thank you.. you're doing alot for me tonight." You expressed your gratitude. He grinned.
"Your worth doing so much for." He said in a soft voice. It made your heart flutter.
With a content sigh you laid on your back and closed your eyes. You were absolutely exhausted. But no matter how long you kept your eyes closed sleep wouldn't come. Tiny recaps of your night kept playing over and over again, keeping you in your restless state. You shyly looked over at Sam's now sleeping figure and couldn't help but wonder if he'd be able to purge all your thoughts for you. As if he heard you in his dreams he woke up and caught your lingering gaze.
"You ok?" He yawned, rubbing one of his eyes. You were silently debating in your head if it was ok to ask if he could hold you. You knew he probably wouldn't mind, but you couldn't help but wonder if it broke any of his boundaries.
"Can you come here?" You asked. The dark room did well to hide the blush taking over your face. He was quiet but you could hear the sound of him getting up before he sat on the edge of the bed.
"You ok?" He asked you again, in slightly more worried tone this time.
"I will be, ....can you just hold me?...Sorry if thats weird to ask." You mumbled fingers fidgeting with hem of one of the pillows. He laughed.
"Sure weirdo, scoot over." He instructed as you moved closer to the wall. You didn't expect for him to actually climb into bed with you for some reason, and you didn't exactly know how to go about what you just asked for.
Luckily for you he wasn't so shy. After he made himself comfortable under the covers he pulled you into his chest. His chin rested on top of your head and his arm draped over you. When he held you it wasn't uncomfortable. His arms were loose and inviting, not the constriction you were used to. Yesterday, you would've never thought you'd end up here. Where you were meant to be.
"Thank you." You mumbled into his chest.
"No, thank you. For trusting me. From now on you don't have to worry about anything" He said planting a kiss on your head. "I'll make it all better." He whispered. The intimacy of his voice in your ear really did make those words stick in your mind. You wrapped your arm around his torso, ready to fully embrace his warmth. As you drifted off into a peaceful slumber you thanked the world for giving you Sam.
A radiant light that you were lucky enough to see.
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beanghostprincess · 8 months
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My take on OPLA's "Zoro vs. Mihawk" fight because I love to criticize the things I like
I'm gonna start by saying that I love the live-action. I'm obsessed. The casting is great and the set is stunning. However, despite enjoying OPLA I do have a lot of complaining to do about it because I absolutely love analyzing media and characters. That being said, I don't want this post to make it look like I am disregarding the directors and writers here. They did a good job with what they had but I personally think I would've done it a lot differently.
So... Let's start!
The thing that bothers me the most about episode 5 (episode that I honestly consider to be the worst in a lot of ways and for a lot of reasons) is that they intend to make it look like Zoro has this intense and personal connection with Luffy. A devotion that makes him so damn worried and self-conscious about losing the fight that he starts crying (or at least they tried to make Mackenyu cry? I'm not sure there. But he cries in the manga so, yeah. 'Frustration' perhaps is a better word). And Zoro does feel that devotion towards Luffy from the very beginning. The guy literally changed his life! But that is obvious and visible in the manga/anime because we can see Luffy making promises and being demanding and direct and literally a damn sunshine to Zoro. They have this conversation about him getting back his swords, about being the king of the pirates... There's this connection between them. One that says:
"You'll be my first mate" and "I'd literally give my life for you"
Damn, if there was a trope for love at first sight only for captains and their first mates? They would be the damn blueprint.
But OPLA wasn't able to make them show that connection because most of the scenes are rushed and/or skipped. And I understand. I truly do. It's just a live-action and the manga is long as hell. But the thing is... Don't expect me to believe Zoro's devotion is real if you haven't even shown me how it started. The root of the problem isn't the fight or his speech in episode 5, but the lack of emotional connection in episode 1 that they could've easily fixed by reordering the scenes.
So, regarding everything pre-ep 5: If they had shown us their relationship better, episode 5 wouldn't have felt so... Rushed? Out of character? And I don't mean out of character in a 'Zoro wouldn't say/do this' way (because of course he would, and did canonically) but in a 'OPLA!Zoro wouldn't say/do this because he hasn't experienced the exact same things that manga!Zoro has' way.
Yes, it's a live-action, but as a stand-alone? Zoro's behavior doesn't make any sense. That also happens with Nami, but this post isn't about our weather queen. Not today, at least.
Before I get into the fight I must also say that, even if I appreciated Zoro/Nami's dynamic and scenes, I find them completely unnecessary and useless. Firstly, because those scenes would've been better if they had used them to build their relationship with Luffy and not only between them. Secondly, because the writers do absolutely nothing with them. The relationship is only used as a plot device to foreshadow Arlong Park. And it bothers me because they could've done that without taking scenes from Luffy/Zoro and Luffy/Nami. This also happened because they decided to put so many scenes with the Marine, by the way, but I guess everyone is aware of that already.
The thing about the straw hat pirates is that they're a family. There are different connections/relationships/dynamics between them. But the main focus and reason why they joined is always Luffy and only Luffy. OPLA wanted to make them all a family in the first episodes and share all the important scenes together when actually that doesn't work like that. Everyone in the crew builds different dynamics with Luffy with personal and private scenes, and I think they took that magic away from them in OPLA wanting them all to share the same experiences for no reason. They don't build private connections (besides Nami/Zoro, but that doesn't even work in the end). This is why I like OPLA!Sanji so so much! His scenes with Luffy are immaculate.
Basically: The writers decided that since it's a live-action and most of the viewers will be already OP fans, it doesn't matter if they make Zoro's devotion exist without actually showing it because we already know he's devoted to his captain. So they take that info, make it happen, and they give no explanation to new watchers as to why the hell this dude who is supposed to not trust people easily, suddenly trusts Luffy so much. Even if it's a live-action, you should never take things for granted as a writer.
Now that I've established how it doesn't make sense for Zoro to act the way he does due to the lack of scenes with Luffy pre-episode 5, I'm gonna talk about my overall opinion about the fight itself and Zoro's pretty iconic speech to Luffy.
I'm no expert with fighting scenes but I've watched enough movies and animes (and you don't even need to, to be honest) to know that it is incredibly rushed. There's no tension. And the choreography is so... Dull. The only fight scenes I enjoyed were the ones in episode 1. This, in my opinion, is mostly the director's fault. The shots are either boring or too exaggerated and the whole fight is just not enjoyable to watch. The setting also makes it really empty. Everyone is just... There... Together... Netflix, don't be so scared of putting space between characters, I'm begging you. A bit of theatre directing is what this scene needs.
Also, Sanji isn't there and it bothers me a lot. Like a whole lot. Like a lot lot. And the fact that Nami is there when she shouldn't be (and also holds Usopp's hand? Like girl, chill, you've only interacted twice? They should've added Usopp to that drinking game scene if they wanted them to grow closer like that before the fight. But of course, Usopp is just the comedy relief for Netflix) also bothers me a lot lot lot.
In general, OPLA's shots aren't my cup of tea, and the overuse of comic-like moments dividing the screen made me cringe more than once (the first time was funny. Referencing the manga. But then it gets tiring. Mostly because the shots are just too close to their faces). Also, what's up with the corners being blurry all the time and the shots being extremely close to their faces? I don't know if it's just me but it's uncomfortable to watch.
Leaving that aside, Mackenyu did a great job with the fighting scenes. Love him to death. Kissing him from a distance. Great work.
Now, the thing that bothers me the most...
Zoro's speech.
Not only do they skip the important part where Zoro calls Luffy "The king of the pirates" but they also make it extremely dull and boring. It's not Mackenyu's fault. He's a good actor. However, I do think that this scene didn't need a close approach between the characters.
What this scene needs is passion. Frustration. Tears. Screaming. Relief when Zoro realizes Luffy isn't disappointed. Determination when he decides to keep fighting and training to become the world's greatest swordsman. And I think Mackenyu's performance would've been way better if they had given him the right indications and space between him and Iñaki.
I always say that physical space is great for scenes like this one because it challenges the actor to express their emotions without physical contact. A close and sweet approach is also good, but I think they should've just used that for the scene in episode 6 where Zoro wakes up. Them being physically close then is good, because there's a bond and they want and crave touching each other. However, after losing a fight and almost disappointing his captain? What Zoro needed was to openly cry to the sky and yell at Luffy that he would become the world's greatest swordsman. For himself. For Kuina. And for Luffy, his captain.
It's a very emotional scene and I get that it's complicated to do the same thing the manga does... But it really isn't that hard to give Mackenyu space so he has to yell and be openly frustrated. It seems like he wanted to cry. Like he was trying to cry. But the tears didn't come out because having Iñaki and the others so damn close didn't give him the space he needed to yell his emotions.
On the other hand, even if I don't like this scene and I prefer Luffy and Zoro to not be so close to each other, this would've kind of worked if they had had some connection and scenes pre-episode 5. But they don't. So, yeah, whatever.
Also (and this is just me being me) I wouldn't have used an aerial shot of them for the final scene. Zoro is satisfied now. He faints but he's happy. He proceeds to wake up happy in the next episode. So why not end it with his smiling face as he faints? That's also a recurring topic in the One Piece world! Make it reference Roger and foreshadow Loguetown and Marineford. These directors aren't being creative, let me tell you.
Overall, you can tell that I didn't like how they portrayed this episode, especially this fight/speech. However, before I end this post I want to say that I am aware of how hard it is to make a live-action and it's completely understandable to make scenes shorter and rushed. It's obvious that everyone working on this live-action loves One Piece, and even if I don't like a lot of the things they're doing, that doesn't mean I can't feel the effort and love they put (mostly the actors. The cast is outstanding and extremely sweet!) making this show.
I have more complaints about episode 5 (mostly about Nami's character) but this was just to talk about Zoro and the fight! Let me know in my inbox if you want more of my opinions on OPLA or just want to tell me something! <3
Editing TikTok account where I'm posting my One Piece edits: seraspring
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csprslvt · 9 months
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you and i, and her. pt 3
Chapter two (see rest of the chapters for context)
Summary: Ellie comforts (or tries to) reader who is in misery from the loss of her past and her life before. Joel and Tommy go missing and Ellie watches her father figures life fall away. (Joels death)
Warnings: GRAPHIC DESCRIPTION OF JOELS DEATH, obvious spoilers, reader is depressed, TORTURE, THE GOLF CLUB SCENE, MAJOR CHARACTER DEATH, traumatized Ellie.
Overtime, routine took place, Ellie would come get you in the mornings when she wasn't patrolling, you'd visit the horses and didn't run into Dina again after the incident weeks prior. But still despite the fact that you had a friend again. Your heart ached with every thought of Abby.
You would lay in bed at night disconnected from reality, trying so hard to remember where she would be, how you came about to be bloody and lost in the woods, and why she hadn't come looking for you yet.
It was better for your aching chest to assume she had passed on rather than thinking she had truly left you behind and would never come back. And in the darkness of the night, all you wanted was to mourn but you couldn't seem to cry. It left bubbled up emotion in your chest that would take your mood for days at a time. Pretending to be okay was not reliable anymore. And one morning you had ignored Ellies calls. Figuring she would walk away.
But Ellie was oh so persistent.
Laying in bed, you seemed a mess, holding onto your locket and rubbing the cool metal. 
Ellie stormed in, kicking open the door with a hurried frenzy. 
You jumped.
“Ellie! What the fuck!”
“You asshole, you've been ignoring me! I've been knocking for like five minutes, I thought you died!” Ellie looked at you, clearly displeased. But upon seeing your empty, woeful eyes she softened and sat beside you.
“You gonna tell me what's up?”
“Nothing is up.”
“Nuh uh, don't lie to me. You haven't gotten up at all. You ignored me which, you never do, and you haven't been… yourself”
You sighed, pulling the covers over your head.
“ I can't tell you.”
“What? Why not? I'm a good listener!”
“ I know you are Ellie but there are certain things I'm not even sure about.”
“ You're worried about how you got here again.”
“Ellie-”
“y/n, I dont know what happened to you but I knew from the look on your face that it was bad. You were covered in blood and tired, I could've killed you and you didn't even seem fazed…but whatever happened, you're safe now. That's what matters”
You removed the covers and looked at Ellie, making eye contact.
“ I feel like…like I left something behind. Something important, and I can't shake it off! Every night im having these dreams and-”
“What dreams?”
You flushed,
Your nights were filled with Abby. Her hands, her touches, her words, her whispered ‘I love yous’ . But they were also filled with blood, fear and the smell of putrid death. They were filled with the intense feeling of abandonment, shame and loss.
“I just feel so empty.”
At this Ellie looked extremely concerned, she placed a hand on your back rubbing circles and she tried to comfort you as best as she knew how.
“Is there…are you empty because you're depressed or are you empty because you miss somebody?” Ellie questioned, she knew the feeling well, especially after Dina.
“I just, I remember being so happy despite everything, I remember little bits and pieces of the life I had and then at the same time, I left it behind and I can't figure out why and I hate myself for ruining it all.”
Ellie moves and goes to hold your hand.
“y/n, you must've left for a reason, you were covered in blood for god's sake, clearly you just need to rest and let yourself feel rather than hiding it all. I promise you, here you'll be safe and you can start another chance to be happy again. I understand things are hard, but you won't feel this way forever…It'll be okay.”
You held Ellies hand tightly as if she was your life line. Needing something to keep you grounded.
“I know”
Ellie signed, “I know I'm not the best at communicating but I'm so glad I have a friend around again. And I want you to be happy, I care about you. And you can always talk to me about what's on your mind.”
The thing is, I can't. I can't talk about Abby, I can't talk about the people I've killed and the nightmares I have about it.It's just too much.
“Okay.”
Ellie gazed at you one last time, clearly noticing you can't be soothed. You needed something she couldn't provide and what exactly that thing was, she was unsure. 
Ellie got up, letting go of your hand. “I’ll bring you something to eat”
You smiled a little. She was just trying to help you.
“Okay Ellie”
As she opened the door you spoke again,
“Ellie?”
“Yea?”
“Thank you.”
“Dont worry about it.” 
The girl then left your sight, closing the door behind her.
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To say Ellie was worried was an understatement.
The moment she left your cabin, her face showed pure panic.
What if y/n leaves jackson? What if you look for whoever it was that you'd abandoned and never returned? What if, what if, what if….
Her mind was racing, sure, you being sad was concerning because she cared, she wanted your happiness, you were her only real friend. But it was also a concern of you leaving her alone. She couldn't.
For the better (or for the worst) Her thoughts were interrupted by Dina approaching her right as she stepped out of your cabin.
Fuck.
“Hey Ellie, I see you've gotten comfy with y/n, crawling out of her cabin like that”
“Dina, it's not like that. She's my friend, and we were just talking…” Ellie spoke with a high, nervous pitch
God Dammit now I seem suspicious 
“Sure, let me see her, I need to talk with her”
Ellies face changed with a confused stare.
“With y/n?”
“Yes. With y/n, that's whose house you're sneaking out of isn't it?”
“Oh my god Dina it isn't like that. Listen, she's having a hard time, leave her alone.”
“Why so hostile Ellie?”
Ellie tensed up.
“You know why.”
Dina sighed, her eyes softened, she reached out to grasp Ellies shoulder but the girl flinched away.
“Ellie, I'm sorry, it was for the better.”
“Don't give me that bullshit, we could've made it work”
Dina pinched the bridge of her nose.
“I don't have time for this.”
“What do you want to talk to y/n for”
“Listen, I've been patrolling and there's someone-”
“Ellie! Ellie!”
A frantic voice yells, running to Ellie pausing the conversation,
“Jesse? What's wrong”
“It's Joel and Tommy, they haven't come back.”
“What?” a cold sweat presperates across Ellie's brow. The hair on the back of her neck stood up with a deathly chill going up her spine.
Something in Jesse’s face led Ellie to believe something sinister had happened and without thinking, she ran to the stables and grabbed her gear.
She had been riding for a while, until she heard a scream. A loud, terrifying, blood curdling scream. 
“Joel.”
It repeated over and over again, until Ellie wanted to bash her head in to stop the noises but she continued, trying to find him. A crazed look on her face, she was hyperventilating, her chest tight and her heart crushing with only the worst thoughts coming to her, filling her mind, body and soul.
Please no.
She eventually stopped at a house and her stomach felt like it would drop at any second. 
She wandered into the building and the screams got louder. She knew it was him, she would recognize that voice anywhere.
The pained noises lead her to an ominous hallway. The shouting became gurgling almost as if someone was being waterboarded. Or drowning in their own blood.
Readying her weapon and slammed open the door. Joel was on the floor, beaten and bloody. A woman stood above him with a golf club in her hands.
A bloody golf club.
No. Please no.
She held up her gun but before she was given time to react her body fell to the floor, being attacked from the side. 
“Get off of me!”
“Tie her hands!”
“Get the fuck off of me!”
Ellie struggled against her attacker's hold. 
“Bitch.”
Two, maybe three kicks hit her stomach, hard, it felt like a deep intense pressure, strangling her insides in the worst way possible.The force of steel toe boots on her guts made her feel like she would vomit.
Another man came, restraining the person beating her relentlessly.
“You got her okay? You got her”
“Let go!”
Ellies throat filled with blood and she tasted its metallic drip falling from her nose.
“Youre gonna fucking die!”
“What's going on?” A tall built male walked towards Joel's abuser. Ellie is still struggling for release of the hold on her.
“Let him go!”
“Who is that?” a woman questioned obviously
“She snuck in…”
They spoke amongst themselves, and Ellie stared at them, wildly moving, trying, pleading, hoping she would muster up the strength to make them all pay.
“Why aren't you posted outside?”
“We didn't think anyone would show up”
“The hell did you expect?”
“We gotta get out of here before the whole town is on top of us”
The man turned to the woman, she was built like an Ox, tall, with a blond braid down her back.
“You're done.”
“You want what I want, right?”
“End it .Now”
The women turned towards Joel, a crumpled mess on the floor.
“Joel, get up”
He did nothing but blink.
“Joel, fucking get up.” Ellie begged, she felt like her world was ending with his life fading away. 
“Please stop!” Ellie was never one to say please but she was filled with desperation.
“Please don't do this..” The golf club raised
“Joel please get up!”
A sickening crunch played in Ellie's ears as the golf club bashed into Joel's head, at full strength.
“No!”
Sobs wracked through Ellies body. Her lungs filled with blood and her nose drenched in it. Snot ran down her lips.
“Burn in hell, pendejo” a kick.
Rage made its way to Ellie’s spine, the burning, crippling need for vengeance rang through her entirely. Beginning to consume her.
The man had taken a gun and pointed it to her.
All she could say was no
“Ill fucking kill you” she spoke, before the voices became muffled noises and consciousness left her. Unable to fight back.
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Eventually, she awoke, and there you were, by her side. 
“I'm sorry Ellie.”
“Jesse, they're down here!”
Somehow you had ended up looking for Ellie when you started getting anxious about how you left off, Jesse had told you she had gone looking for Joel. And you being you, followed her.
You had heard screams but didn't make it in time. You only discovered the area had been evacuated with Ellies body on the floor. You gasped when your eyes fell on Joel. He was without a pulse.
He was gone.
“Oh Ellie I'm so sorry” you had whispered again and again, trying to wake her up.
Eventually she came too, weak and trembling, 
“No, no no no” She cried.
You'd taken her back, while Jesse carried the body of Joel, still warm but his heart had stopped.
You shielded her eyes from her body, trying to not traumatize her further with the site but she wouldn't stop staring. She was a shell. She would never be the same.
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fullstcp · 1 month
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"Eyes Wide Open" by Sabrina Carpenter Sentence Starters
EYES WIDE OPEN
"Everybody loves to tell me that I was born an old soul."
"There's so much that I don't know."
"Never felt so all alone."
"I can almost hear him/her/them now."
"I gotta make him/her/them proud."
"I keep my eyes wide open."
"I'm about to make my way."
"I can't see two steps ahead of me."
"I never thought I'd miss the rain."
"Lord knows how long it's been."
"I can't just let it go."
"There's still so much that I don't know."
"All I have is just this moment."
"I don't wanna miss a second."
"It could all be gone in an instant."
CAN'T BLAME A GIRL FOR TRYING
"Here I am again, the same old situation."
"Why does the guy thing have to be so complicated?"
"I should've played it cool, instead, I made a fool."
"Cause I'm young and I'm dumb."
"I do stupid things when it comes to love."
"Even if I always end up crying, you can't blame a girl for trying."
"I should've shut my mouth."
"I could've kept it quiet."
"I might've freaked him/her/them out cause I was so excited."
"I just couldn't wait."
"I took a leap of faith."
"I think sometimes I tend to be my own worst enemy."
THE MIDDLE OF STARTING OVER
"Now that I'm free, there's nothing but blue skies, paradise in front of me."
"I hold my breath and just believe."
"Tired of all the troubles, they've been wasting my time."
"I don't wanna fight."
"I'm in the middle of starting over."
"Life gives you pennies, turn them into dimes."
"Now this is home."
"Make the best of something new."
"The colors and the stars seem a little brighter."
"Tomorrow isn't far away."
"I'm working towards a happy ending."
WE'LL BE THE STARS
"We are young, we are gold."
"All our fears became our hopes."
"We can reach the constellations."
"Trust me, all our dreams are breaking out."
"No, we're never gonna turn to dust."
"All we really need is us."
"Don't be scared to close your eyes."
"No, we're never gonna die. We'll be the stars."
"We're holding onto who we are."
"When it's time to close our eyes, they will see us in the sky. We'll be the stars."
"Hold me close."
"It's in our reach."
"We're breaking out."
TWO YOUNG HEARTS
"It's a narrow line I'm walking."
"Better watch my step."
"We got everybody talking."
"Maybe in another lifetime."
"I've already made up my mind."
"And yes, I know what love is."
"We can run."
"I will follow you to the end of the earth."
"They can never tear us apart."
"I could lie awake in darkness just to dream of you."
"We're gonna keep on running."
"We want it all or nothing."
"We knew it right from the start."
YOUR LOVE'S LIKE
"Sometimes life gets bitter."
"I get strung out."
"I just need a little taste of paradise."
"I know a place I can escape to."
"My head is clearer."
"I got peace of mind when I fall into your eyes."
"Your love's the feeling I get when my favorite song's spinning in my head."
"Why can't it just be only you and me all the time?"
"There's no better rush than your love."
TOO YOUNG
"Everyone tells me I gotta go slow."
"It's gonna hurt sometimes, no matter what you do."
"Nothing can change my mind."
"If I'm too young to fall in love, why do you keep running through my brain?"
"If I'm too young to know anything, then why do I know that I'm just not the same?"
"Don't tell me I won't."
"Don't tell me I can't feel."
"What I'm feeling is real."
"But I've got to fall to fly."
SEAMLESS
"I'll see you in the evening."
"My best friend 'til the end."
"My better half, no pretend."
"You and me together."
"I know all your secrets. And I promise you, I'm gonna keep them."
"I'll be there when you are feeling clueless."
"You and me, we're seamless."
"We're partners in crime."
"You're stuck with me your whole life."
"You're right by my side whenever I need you."
"Through the hardest times, I'll be there for you."
"I won't be hard to find."
RIGHT NOW
"We'll never be as young as we are right now."
"We'll never see the world like we do right now."
"I have a way of getting stuck on yesterday."
"I tend to miss the little things that come my way."
"Time moves so quickly, without or with me."
"I've got to take a breath."
"I've gotta pace myself."
The present is our future past."
"We've gotta make this moment last."
"That's your intuition."
DARLING I'M A MESS
"This might be wrong, but he's/she's/they're all I know."
"I'll try to make our hearts beat in time."
"I'm a mess without your love."
"I'm trying to get by."
"All I need is one more goodbye kiss."
"I can't let you go."
"I won't forget, all that you said."
WHITE FLAG
"Take it all away."
"Save my heart for another day."
"I'm way too proud."
"Something's gotta happen."
"Something's gotta give."
"I know someday it's gonna happen."
"It won't upset me."
"I'll throw the white flag of surrender."
"Not forever, just for now."
BEST THING I GOT
"So what if I just want to be a little bit out of my mind?"
"I let you take my heart and I like it."
"So what if I just happen to be a little bit out of my mind?"
"I bet I'll steal your heart and you'll like it."
"I don't think it's any kind of secret."
"I feel you from a million miles away."
"Your love is the best thing I got."
"It's only just begun, but it's never gonna stop."
"I know sometimes it seems like I am just a little bit behind."
"I get back on the beat and you know it."
"I make you skip a beat and I know it."
"I think of you a billion times a day."
"Don't feel lonely tonight."
"Don't go out of your mind."
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prcmptly · 8 months
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𝐃𝐀𝐈𝐒𝐘 𝐉𝐎𝐍𝐄𝐒 & 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐒𝐈𝐗: ❝ 𝐀𝐔𝐑𝐎𝐑𝐀 ❞ 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒
❝ you're my morning sun. ❞ ❝ i kinda think i wanna make it last forever. ❞ ❝ you regret me and i regret you. ❞ ❝ you couldn't handle your liquor and you can't seem to handle the truth. ❞ ❝ meet me in the parlor with your keys. ❞ ❝ i'll do anything you please. ❞ ❝ i don't know who i am. ❞ ❝ do you know who you are? ❞ ❝ is there too much we don't want to know? ❞ ❝ i wish it was easy but it isn't so. ❞ ❝ no where do we stand? ❞ ❝ did we unravel a long time ago? ❞ ❝ tell me why you've been crying in the dark. ❞ ❝ you found me lost in a daydream. ❞ ❝ doesn't mean i couldn't believe it. ❞ ❝ doesn't mean i won't believe it still. ❞ ❝ every lie is true at the time, baby, that's the thrill. ❞ ❝ if you're gonna let me down, let me down easy. ❞ ❝ don't you go and tell me that you love me while you're leaving. ❞ ❝ i got you under my skin now. ❞ ❝ why do you make it so hard? ❞ ❝ i swear i've done nothing wrong. ❞ ❝ i want all of your tears to be gone. ❞ ❝ come on home. ❞ ❝ could the truth ever untell those lies? ❞ ❝ could a promise ever be unbroken? ❞ ❝ would it kill you to try? ❞ ❝ since i found you i can't stop laughing. ❞ ❝ i need you, babe, you're my better half. ❞ ❝ you've got no damn right to be so damn heartbroken. ❞ ❝ let me come home to you. ❞ ❝ it seems you have a choice to make. ❞ ❝ all i need's a promise i can keep to myself. ❞ ❝ i know those mornings were as good as it ever could be. ❞ ❝ the future is over now. ❞ ❝ nothing ever seems to stay that way, not for too long. ❞ ❝ where were you? ❞ ❝ when i needed you, you were gone. ❞ ❝ every story has an ending, and it's not our job to stay. ❞ ❝ just forget it like it's gone. ❞ ❝ i still need a drink. ❞ ❝ i'm fine with what's left of what's mine. ❞ ❝ i almost took you by mistake for someone else. ❞ ❝ it took guts to think that i would buy that wink. ❞ ❝ another shot at just the wrong place and time. ❞ ❝ please, i'm down on my knees. ❞ ❝ it's an awful disease. ❞ ❝ i'm the worst at these. ❞ ❝ i could've sworn this was the way. ❞ ❝ why do we stay on such a lonely road? ❞ ❝ we're on the same side. ❞ ❝ will it stay with you and never let you leave on me? ❞ ❝ you had a choice i couldn't make. ❞ ❝ where does it end? ❞ ❝ where do we start? ❞ ❝ will you stay with me forever? ❞ ❝ i know i lost you here. ❞ ❝ i know i love you now. ❞ ❝ i just don't know the words for what i'm trying to write. ❞ ❝ everything i've tried so far just doesn't feel right. ❞ ❝ if all i can do is stare at you, don't take it the wrong way. ❞ ❝ i just don't know the words to tell you what i mean. ❞
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