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monstersdownthepath · 10 days

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A collection of Fey entities

A little different from my usual "a collection of..." posts. Making statblocks isn't my forte, surprisingly; I can, but ADHD Hellbrain kicks in and typically prevents me from actually finishing them, my energy and motivation running out typically by the time I need to select feats. A few of the creatures on this list are victims of that very phenomenon, but rather than letting them languish in my drafts forever, I figure I can share what I DO have in the form of lore and some basic ideas.

So, here's a bunch of fairies!

One of them I was going to write down, the Harvest Lords, are a concept I've developed too much for me to put here; they're a group of Archfey with proper domains and Boons, and thus will get their own post. Eventually.

Warnings: There are unsanitary themes in the Brughyorb Gremlin spot, as well as Totagoda. The final entry (Rotten Crick) deals with themes of animal death and allusions to animal torture, dealing specifically with sea life.

Brughyorb Gremlins (CR 1/2 Chaotic Evil Small Fey) are small, round, filthy creatures that are almost all mouth and stomach, resembling fleshy cauldrons when they fully open their mouths and scamper about on their arms and legs, and are thus also known as Cauldron Gremlins, Burplings, and Bowlbellies. Their grinding teeth and powerful jaws are best suited for plant matter (wood is a delicacy to them), but they won't hesitate to feed on whatever carrion they manage to find, even though the majority of what they eat isn't actually digested.

Brughyorb Gremlins hold most of what they shovel into their maws in the first of their two stomachs, where their pungent gut juices fester and melt their food into noxious sludge so malodorous it's actually acidic. Slow and unbalanced even when they're empty, they lay in waiting for an innocent passerby to cross whatever hiding spot they've holed up in before leaping out with a wet shriek, and when their victim inhales in order to scream in surprise, the gremlins unleash a horrific belch directly into the victim's face. Overwhelming nausea is the most common result of such a sensory assault (though especially unlucky ones may catch the fatal Filth Fever), victims disoriented not only by the scare, but their entire world becoming overtaken by an indescribably vile stink, preventing them from fighting back as the gremlin takes whatever it wants from them and scampers off into the shadows, cackling with terrible glee.

Though they're larger than most gremlins, Brughyorb Gremlins are just as cowardly and prone to fleeing whenever someone even moderately well-armed comes along. If a foe proves especially dangerous and their burps aren't cutting it, they'll loose the contents of their stomachs to form slick, acidic pools that carry an eye-watering reek with them to trip up and potentially even kill their pursuers, either immediately through acid damage or eventually through disease. Being directly disgorged upon is an experience so profoundly unpleasant that most beings subjected to it immediately switch careers into something that will prevent this incident from ever happening again... though the fact a Brughyorb's stench is nearly impossible to scrub away and lingers for many weeks means the horrible little beasts can easily track the scent of their past victims in order to get them again.

Despite their foulness, their gut juice is an alchemical reagent highly prized by alchemists for its ability to break down and, with a bit of tinkering, ferment just about any organic matter, making them highly desirable for anyone hoping to create not just powerful acids, but potent fertilizers, fermented foods, or alcohol. Alchemists desiring the gremlin's gut juice, of course, rarely risk seeking it out themselves.

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Tintink Gremlins (CR 1 Chaotic Evil Tiny Fey) are also known as Nail Gremlins, Sharpener Pixies, Hammerlings, Nailbiters, Sharpies, and other such names. While most fey fear the touch of iron, Tintink Gremlins collect the substance in earnest despite being just as vulnerable to it as any other fey. Contact with cold iron burns and pains them, but rather than shrinking away from it, they revel in it, with many of them boldly wearing sharpened points of cold iron for the specific purpose of terrorizing and bullying other fairies, as well as protecting themselves from being bullied or terrorized by others.

Tintinks are obsessed with the collection and the sharpening of metal pins, tacks, screws, caltrops, and especially nails, pilfering such items from workshops, lumberyards, factories, and even homes. Loose items are of course the easiest for them to get, their tiny backpacks and leather aprons full to bursting with stacks of nails they sweep off workbenches, but they're also prone to using hammers, crowbars, and pliers sized for their tiny hands to wrench fasteners from whatever surface they're embedded in. Their hoarding slowly but surely destroys furniture, floors, rafters, and eventually entire structures one stolen screw at a time, fleeing only when the infested building collapses entirely.

Even when they're not destroying buildings, Tintinks are horrid menaces. Their wretched claws, coarse palms, and rough tongues can shave metal with the ease of a whetstone, and they use these to sharpen whatever points they get ahold of until they can pierce the thick leather of most common shoes or gloves... and they lay them out in preparation to do exactly that, cackling in wicked glee whenever someone impales their feet or hands on their sharps collections.

They are quite dangerous for a gremlin, capable of causing terrible wounds and even deaths if they're sufficiently motivated, but they are easily caught and removed by those who can take advantage of their fairy quirks. Their obsession with sharpening borders on an irresistible compulsion, and many Tintinks have been caught and exterminated by fey hunters leaving out piles of dull nails, bent forks, and chipped knives, which the gremlins cannot help but sit down among and work on, leaving them vulnerable to ambush.

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Steraba (CR 2 Neutral Good Diminutive Fey) are also known as Honey Fairies, Porridge Pixies, Mice Fey, and other such names. They resemble miniature humanoids with mouse-like features such as dewy eyes, rounded ears, long tails, paws, or combinations thereof (sometimes to the point they're just anthropomorphic mice), scarcely larger than the pests they resemble. Despite their appearance, Steraba are not pests themselves and are in fact one of many helpful fey known as House Spirits, and can be a genuinely helpful force in one's home... if one forgives their tendency to pilfer easily-missed items left in their field of vision.

Steraba make their homes in mouseholes inside occupied buildings, living among families of mice (never rats, they despise rats) which they take great pains to keep safe, healthy, and out of sight of the mortals with whom they share a space. Their lives are spent going on frequent, exciting 'raids' with their mice families (whom they can both communicate with and easily train), scampering unseen through homes like a spy trying to avoid being spotted by guards as they run missions such as 'read the next chapter of a book,' 'steal the button,' 'get to the grain stores,' 'slay the attic spider,' 'push out the rats,' and other such objectives. Between missions, they engage in surprisingly elaborate crafting projects; anything inedible they steal is used to decorate their tiny homes, if not by itself, then as part of a greater project. Unknowing families may have entire miniature art galleries in their walls!

Like most House Spirits, Steraba dislike being seen or acknowledged, and spending too long looking at one or talking about its existence aloud with one's family or neighbors is a sure way to drive it off completely. Even more than this, harming a mouse is a grave insult to the Mouse Pixies, who may respond by pilfering valuable or treasured items with Mage Hand, performing acts of vandalism with Prestidigitation and mundane tools, and even causing painful or humiliating household accidents against repeat and grievous offenders. Treating the mice with the calmness and respect one would treat a neighbor, however, will see a household blessed by the tiny pixies who use their talents--magical and mundane--to slay more harmful pests, drive off more malevolent fey, and provide just as well for their "big families" as they do the "small families." A Steraba can magically turn a single grain into a whole loaf of hot bread or a bowl of nutritious porridge that's filling even for a Medium-sized creature, letting them stretch the most meager of food stores for days or weeks on end, and can conjure small amounts of honey, sugar, and jam each day to assure the meals are never boring. A Steraba who has lived in a home for many years and established a positive relationship with its big family may even begin gifting the mortals with pieces of art it has made, which act as good luck charms so long as the owner takes care to say it was a 'gift from my neighbor' if they are ever asked where the trinket came from.

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The Filoxenia (CR 11 Neutral Medium Fey) are humanoid fey with golden skin and hair like stalks of wheat, so rare that it was believed there was only one for quite some time. These are fey many cautionary tales are spoken of, fey for whom the Laws of Sacred Hospitality are absolutes and generosity is the holiest of virtues. These fey take on the shapes of beggars, wanderers, and vagrants of various ancestries as they travel the world in the search of kindness, visiting the lowest muckrakers in their hovels, to the meager homes of farmers, to the mansions of nobles and royals to test their treatment of visitors. How, exactly, they perform their tests always varies, but it almost always begins with a simple request: Shelter, just for one night, and a meal of whatever the host can provide, just enough to let them see the next dawn.

The Filoxenia cannot be identified while they're in disguise, their own magic thwarting magical attempts to pierce it; the most reliable way to tell that you've encountered one is the gentle smell of honey and wheat which accompanies them, a scent they take pains to hide with mud and dusty clothes or, in rare cases, perfumes, but which they can never completely cover. Even if you know, however, it is in your best interest to play along and not allow it to sway your decision! Treating your new guest as you would any other is part of the test.

These fey exist to test mortals in their proficiency with and knowledge of the Laws of Sacred Hospitality, and each one has different means of both testing and rendering judgment. More lawful Filoxenia typically treat their task with the utmost of seriousness, and have a mental checklist they gradually move down during their stay in a mortal's home where failing even one step fails the whole test. More chaotic Filoxenia are much more likely to act as unruly guests, assessing the patience of their host, making gradually more unreasonable requests to see just how far the host is willing to go and rendering their judgment based on the host's breaking point; too soon (strict) or too late (lenient) and they fail.

The reward for passing their test is often simple but always beneficial; they may arrange for a parcel of valuable gems to be delivered to the host, repair flaws in their home, or magically enchant a tool or piece of furniture the host owns in a way which will always be useful to them. Impressing the fey may cause them to perform feats such as keeping the host's food stores full for a year and a day, blessing the host with a boon of good luck and health, grant them a useful magical item, blessing their livestock with health and virility, or introducing a helpful House Spirit into the home... but for all their potential blessings, their curses are the stuff of legends and horror stories.

Providing the bare minimum of hospitality is one thing (which earns the stingy host naught but a bowl of gruel or perhaps a new pair of socks for their trouble), but treating the Filoxenia poorly or, most damnably, rejecting their plea for mercy and assistance at one's doorstep? Such a host would be lucky if the worst thing that happened to them was the death of their livestock. An especially offended Filoxenia, such as one physically harmed by the host, can go as far as to curse an entire household to experience grave misfortune which, eventually, will lead to the death of all within in no more than a year.

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Totagoda, the Uninvited Guest (CR 13 Chaotic Evil Large Fey) is a unique fey entity, an object of both scorn and amusement in the First World and a downright blight in the Universe whenever he deigns to enter it. He is a wild combination of a bloated toad and a gluttonous goat, standing on his back two legs as a man does, with three bulbous eyes always surveying the area as he searches for his next meal, the remains of which are added to the breathtaking tapestry of reeking stains over his clothing and skin.

Totagoda is a gluttonous, wretched beast of a fey, his primary modus operandi involving taking the shape of beggars, wanderers, and vagrants, hoping to gain invitation into the home of unsuspecting mortals who do not realize just what's standing at the door. Unfortunately, as one may surmise from his title, he is quite liberal with determining what qualifies as an 'invitation' into someone's home, with even strained conversation or simply holding a door open for too long becoming cause for him to push past his unfortunate host and slip inside. Only slamming the door in his face and refusing to speak will cause him to move on. Once inside, he takes a seat at the kitchen table and bullies his hosts into providing for him, often relying on the victim's fear or good manners (or both) to prevent them from seeking aid even as he wolfs down whatever food (or anything close to food) they can provide.

Victims of the Uninvited Guest quickly find themselves eaten out of house and home as his loud demands for food grow ever more violent and unreasonable, his monstrous form gradually revealing itself as he gorges himself. By the point he's revealed as a true and literal monster, it's far too late for his host, with him threatening their belongings, their health, or their very lives if they don't comply, the foul fey holding their treasured belongings or even their family members hostage to force their hand. When all the food in the house is exhausted, victims are forced into the marketplaces where they're expected to spend all their remaining money on a further banquet for the fey. Victims who can give no more may find themselves ensorcelled and forced to provide against their will, butchering their livestock, pets, or their unfortunate neighbors to feed Totagoda, until eventually he grows bored with the current fare and snaps up his host whole and alive with his massive tongue, moving on and leaving any surviving family members nothing but a destroyed home and horrific memories.

Sending out invitations to a party or celebration when Totagoda is stalking an area is a dangerous affair, because no matter the intended celebration, one can be assured it will end in tragedy and horror; many malevolent fey have, in fact, wielded the Uninvited Guest as a weapon by gifting him invitations to the party of a rival or hated enemy. When feeling especially peckish and shameless, he will use the public nature of taverns, restaurants, markets, and other such spaces where food may be found to barge in and begin stuffing his face, using threats, charming magic, or outright mystic domination against the owners, forcing them to ignore his crimes until they become too great to rationalize even with his spellwork clouding their minds. He prefers the 'thrill' of forcing his way into the homes of helpless mortals who cannot seek aid to feed him, using public eateries as a last resort, as he despises the concept of experiencing consequences (which is why he flees the First World as much as possible; he has made many enemies among Archfey and Eldest). Despite his considerable power and unnatural resilience, Totagoda is a coward and a bully, and at the first sign of any trouble (even trouble he could easily deal with) he is more likely to flee than fight, flinging his disease-ridden, acidic dung and unleashing nauseating belches at any pursuers until he can finally escape.

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That Old and Rotten Crick, (CR 15 Neutral Evil Medium Fey), also known as Rotten Old Crick (and variants thereof), the Devil Fisherman, the Demon Angler, the Barnacle, Captain Hook, and a thousand other names with varying levels of fear or vitriol, is among one of the strangest denizens of the First World. Appearance-wise, he is a humanoid being, though not a hint of true flesh can be seen through the coverall-clothing of an angler that he wears; what isn't covered by clothes is studded with barnacles or coral growth. His vest is adorned by countless hooks, flies, whatever equipment he wishes to keep on hand rather than in his beaten up but magical tacklebox (the Artifact known as the Tomb of Karaphas), and extra parts for his Artifact-level fishing rod and primary weapon, the Tidepool Reaper. His face (if he has one) perpetually hidden in the shadow of his fishing cap, and he speaks with the smooth cadence of a devil and maniacal purpose of a daemon.

Nearly an Archfey in terms of power, Rotten Crick does not seek influence and remains outside of whatever political nonsense the others have going on... though his actions have a great many Archfey and even one of the Eldest furious with his very existence. Rotten Crick, you see, despises all life in the sea, especially the lives of any creature which could be called a 'fish.' His absolute hatred for all sealife has earned him a many enemies among waterway guardians and sea-dwelling fey, but just as many allies, though not for the reasons one may think; many stories circulate across many worlds of a mysterious angler approaching a fisherman or sailor with promises of rods, reels, baits, hooks, and nets which will assuredly catch enough fish to feed not only them, but their families and the families of their neighbors as well. Indeed, Rotten Crick has no animosity towards most mortal life, and is actually quite amicable, willing to help any down-on-their-luck man on the coast fish enough to live, or even make a business! There are rare stories of him going out of his way to save fishermen whose lives are endangered by the sea... but it is all for the singular goal of eliminating as many fish as possible and inspiring others to do the same. He will sit with other mortal anglers for many hours, fishing alongside them and making occasional, casual conversation, but anyone who knows what they're dealing with is advised to keep it casual, because any extended conversation with him will gradually turn towards alarmingly enthusiastic diatribes on how terribly fish suffer when hooked and dragged from the water, or disturbingly thorough explanations of the many deaths caused by sea beasts all over the world, in order to justify their torture and extermination.

He doesn't even eat any of his catches, enraged by the very idea of putting a fish in his body. If there is no one nearby to gift them to, he either abandons them on the shore to rot or, if feeling especially spiteful, slices them apart with fillet knives and hooks and leaves the disassembled bodies for the birds. He holds no love for creatures he calls "betrayers," which includes dolphins, whales, and seals, such unfortunates earning swift and terrible ends by his hands. Intelligent sea beings, especially merfolk, are in danger of torturous disassembly while still alive, as he draws sadistic joy from hearing their cries.

Why, precisely, he harbors such irrational hatred for sealife is something he has never explained to anyone who's asked, and likely never will. At the very least, any grand and far-reaching plans he may actually have to depopulate the seas of Golarion are slow going, if they're happening at all, held back by the sadism and hatred which drives him; it has been explained to him many times (primarily by daemons) that he could efficiently depopulate the seas by way of pollution, poison, and industrial expansion, but his hate is so great that he seems to prefer the more visceral, personal approach.

#original concepts

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chipper-smol · 2 years

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I totally understand Brownies (from Fairy lore) now

for those who don’t know what Brownies are; they’re smallish fae spirits that do household chores around the house (or barn if you’re a farmer) while you’re asleep. They’re depicted as small men or funky little furry creatures.

They do things like sweeping, dusting, and laundry. In return they expect just a simple meal and for you to leave them alone. However, if you try to pay them or give them clothes they feel insulted and leave.

When I heard about Brownies growing up and chores were daunting and draining I was like??? why wouldn’t you want to get paid??? Isn’t it a bit rude of them?? That’s an overreaction to being given money and/or fresh clothes. That person was just trying to be nice!!

now i’m like

-Oh, my sister wasn’t able to do all of her laundry before work! I’mma just finish it up before she gets home :)! -I’m gonna vacuum today, I know it’s been stressing my sister out how dirty the carpet is -I have energy to reorganize the pantry! I’m doing that so I can cross off another big chore off the list!

I like making people’s lives easier by doing tasks when they’re away.

I can see why a Brownie would be insulted by being gifted money. They don’t want these tasks to be work. They just want to be appreciated. When they’re given money, these tasks go from being small gestures of kindness to something that is expected. Gifts and gestures are so much easier to perform if you know its going to be a surprise.

From an adhd point of view, I can see why a Brownie would be insulted by being gifted new clothes. It insinuates that the Brownie can’t take care of themself. I do sometimes struggle to maintain healthy habits but I’m not gross. If it was an actual problem that is enough of a motivator to get me to change my ways. From the Brownie’s perspective, they’re doing just fine and they don’t appreciate you implying they can’t take care of themselves.

or maybe there are confirmed explanations of why Brownies don’t like money or new clothes that I didn’t find in my brief research-- but the above two points are from my personal experience.

Brownies just want to help make your stressful life easier, and in return they just want a cup of hot chocy and maybe a small chat after you get home from work

#G muses #scottish folklore #brownies #funky lil guys #brownies are neurodivergent and get upset when you take away their source of dopamine

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sleeplessinunova · 7 months

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Pokemon type specialist stereotypes

Normal - “I like bread” damn ur boring. Normal type. Fucking normal type. I feel bad for anyone whos tried to text you cause you’re definitely the the to reply “k” and “ig” to everything

Fire - “RAAAAHHHH” Fire type trainers have no chill and they also think very highly of themselves, unfortunately without their booties theyre useless. Never seen a fire type trainer who texted in lowercase

Water - “Guys lets swim in a thunder storm itll be ok g—“ weirdly athletic. Like ig that makes sense but alot of water specialists are more built than fighting specialists. Or you’re a jolly old fisher.

Grass - “photosynthesis is real” believes in crystal healings and also calls themselves cottagecore while living in like…lumios city. You are not “eepy” you are 26 and unemployed, take a fucking shower.

Electric - Nothing distinct from Fire type, but they don’t have to invest all their money into boots. Definitely has unmedicated adhd

Ice - “chill out! Haha…haha…ha…” you’re either old or a sadist. Theirs no in between. Like you’re either a sweet old man who loves the snow or you think that frostbite is the funniest thing since comedy, get help.

Fighting - “HIT ME!! HIT ME!! NEVER GIVE UP!!” You think you’re a shonen protag when you’re actually the comic relief. Musclehead who chugs protien shakes and punches their poliwrath for 6 hours straight before going to football practice.

Poison - “The poison is already erroding your pokemon’s poor health…” you THINK you’re the sadist ice type trainer but you’ll never be them, stop trying. You have a salazzle because otherwise a single steel type ruins your whole month

Ground - “*earthquake property damage joke*” you and the steel type trainer will not shut the fuck up about how competitive your types are. Quit your wiglett measuring contest. Meta this, meta that, have you ever MET A GIRL???

Flying - You don’t exist

Psychic - “i gaze into the great beyond” may or may not be actually psychic. You’re who the ghost girl wishes she was. But you also have your head very far up your own ass and won’t stop reliving the glory days of when your type was considered powerful. You think you’re so above everyone and you’re probably using the psychic type to have a nerd revenge fantasy against the fighting type jocks who shoved you into a locker in high school

Bug - “im no standard bug catcher” yes you are timmy shut the fuck up. You didn’t actually like bug types that much at first but you made them your entire personality when you saw how mean everyone else was being

Rock - you became the ground type trainer after realizing they were you but better

Ghost - “Guys im a ghost trainer isnt that quirky, aren’t i spooky and scary guys im a ghost trainer guys guys where are you going—“ prolly lives in a “cottagecore” house and does nothing but scroll on joltiktok. Uses aesthetic as their personality. Definitely traumatized. Wants lavender town to go back to how it was in the 90s

Dragon - “The majestic dragon can only be tamed by the strongest trainers” you want to be lance so fucking badly its pathetic. Definitely plays dnd. Definitely owns a cape and is either too ashamed to ever wear it, or wears it EVERYWHERE

Dark - “absol is just a misunderstood bapy” you think your takes about dark types are subversive when they aren’t. No one cares about how your hydreigon would “never do something like that” KAREN—wait thats an actual dark type trainers name fuck

Steel - Basically the ground type trainer. You’re also guaranteed to have a metagross and you have a framed photo of steven stone over your bed so you forget how alone you are.

Fairy - You live in delulu land. You have never left delulu land. And you’re best friends with the ghost type trainer. Take your medication sweetums.

#pokeblog roleplay #pokeblog rp #pokeblogging #pokeblr #rotomblr #pkmn irl #pokemon irl

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copperbadge · 6 months

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Hey Sam, I have a weird question for you! So Michaelis adopted Noah, and then Gregory and Eddie, excuse me, Theophile adopted Joan. The whole family adopted Caleb and Buck... So when are Gerald and Alanna going to find some random person to adopt? Will it be a kid at the Maritime Academy making the adults around them crazy in their own, wildly neurotypical way? A young adult disaster doing the best they can until Gregory says "wait a minute kid, have you been tested for ADHD? No? let me get you a referral." Maybe its just some nerdy preteen who writes to Gerald in his capacity as Grand (Evil) Vizier with questions/comments on some aspect of governance that he's involved in. I have my headcanon that it's the third option, which morphs into the first when Gerald gets all Fairy Godfather about them.

"Look Greg, I'm just saying, Uncle Mike has his Minion, you have a minion, and I don't have one yet. I'm going to have to get one just for self defense. And fairness!" Greg looks wearily at Alanna who just says "I'm ok with it as long as some one else provides the adult supervision here."

Anyhoo, love the Shivadh verse, thanks for writing it!

Oh, I think Gerald went pretty hardcore on adopting Caleb. Friend To Drag Royalty and ADHD-haver Duke Gerald saw Caleb onstage at the National Final and went "Oh, neurodivergent genderfucker? Same hat. That one's mine," and immediately began Brothering at him. The whole family did take Caleb in, to an extent, and certainly Michaelis also added Caleb (and Buck) to his collection of Tavats, but it's Gerald's job to make sure he's looked after. Caleb's a full adult but he's also still quite young to be as famous as he is, so someone's got to make sure nobody tramples him. And Al is there to make sure Gerald doesn't exuberantly also trample Caleb by accident. :D

Although this is an interesting thought you've put before me, because in the football novel, presumably the next in the series (I'm doing some date-juggling) Gerald is a more present force than the rest of the royals -- he's the main character's friend from their party days, and tends to be the link between the football program and the palace. He's also the one who brings Caleb in for a cameo, to mentor a young trans man in the program.

Now, possibly not in the football novel since there's no real narrative space for it there, but possibly in a future novel, it would absolutely be in line with Gerald and Alanna's arc to semi-adopt a kid or kids from the football program. Gerald's starting to open up more publicly about his ADHD, and I can see one of the kids sidling up to him to ask about it; I can see there being a significant number of kids with ADHD in the program, since it's a lot of running around and yelling. Also the program's academic side is pretty lenient with the kids, making it a more welcoming space for a child who can't learn traditionally (a lot of the more intensive program kids do half-day study at Maritime, too). I'm making a note, that's a fun idea.

#shivadhverse

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spale-vosver · 4 months

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Exclusionists (ALL TYPES), antisemites/islamophobes/racists/queerphobes/ableists/bigots/etc, if you think queer is a slur, if you think minorities have to be "nice" or "polite" to earn your support, if you use "Zionist" to mean "Jew I don't like", antitheists, exvangelicals/exmos/etc who refuse to deconstruct their cultural Christianity, and probably more I forgot to mention. I'm not going to humor your shit. I will block you.

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sarahowritesostucky · 12 days

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It's like Pulling Teeth Sometimes, I Swear

Writing for me has been very, very difficult these past few months, but this past month especially has been super painful. I've talked with some of you about how I feel like I've developed writer's ADHD, and am never able to focus on a story for long or even get into my writer's headspace at all. Couple that with mental illness, my day job that saps all my energy, and my efforts to get back to That Gym Life™️, and it is very hard to make the writing happen a lot of days. I was extremely fit before my accident, and getting back to that level is not easy, to say the least. I know it is a temporary problem, but it still feels awful and fuels my anxiety that I'm not pumping out enough content for the people who have decided to follow me. Thank you to everyone who's been sending me asks because that literally brings a huge smile to my face every time I see one of y'all's questions in my inbox. It's the best.

Without making absolute promises that'll only stress me out further, I thought I'd update y'all on my writing schedule (if you can even all it that), and what projects I'm working on right now or will be in the near future:

Carter Academy: Currently writing. Will be out this weekend 🤞🏽

Happy Little Family: Hoping to have time to add the next part to this story next week.

Temporary Custody: I know where it's going next, but the inspiration fairy has hopped onto a couple of other projects, so I won't come back to it too terribly soon. BUT the good news is that this next chapter is going to be a big breakthrough chapter, you guys.

Blood Moon Rising: this is another one I've been inspired on recently so that will likely see the next part out in the next couple of weeks.

Stories that are written but need tweaked before I upload them: "Taste of You," "Alpha, Beta & (Omega)."

Hydra Sanatorium: This fic has one last chapter that will wrap everything up in its official happy ending, but it is slightly on the backburner compared the aforementioned fics.

Music that I've been writing to and is really good for writing the Happy Little Family Story especially

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#writing fanfiction #fanfiction #fanfic #mcu #marvel #sebastian stan #stucky #work in progress #fanfic authors #fanfic writers #tumblr fanfic #Youtube

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xx-theblack-vixen-xx · 8 months

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INTRO POST!!!

Heya! i'm vixen! dis is my Blogsona!

This is a hole made of Productive procrastination

DONT BE AFRAID TO DM ME!!!

I LIKE TALKING TO PPL BUT MY ANXIETY KEEPS ME FROM INITIATING THE CONVO!!

Mbti: INTP-t

♒️ ♓️ cusp! Birthday is February 17!

Autism, anxiety, adhd <- diagnosed

Shame based identity, Rejection sensitive dysphoria,

Maladaptive daydreaming, RSD, depression, auditory processing disorder, sensory processing disorder, … <- undiagnosed

DNI IF YOU ARE T.R.A.S.H

T- Transphobic

R- Racist

A- Ableist

S- Sexist

H- Homophobic

A list of ALL my (not shared) blogs:

KEY: vixen talks/reblogs. FANDOM ASK BLOGS, OC ASK BLOGS! Shitposting hiatus

@vixentheforestdweller Posts more focused on my personal life!

@vixen-infodumps I post stuff here when i don't want to bug my main blog's followers I AM MUCH MORE ACTIVE ON THIS BLOG

@vixen-hornytimes where i post suggestive stuff!!

@methirstingforcharacters you get the idea @starbies-hellhole My TADC oc rp Blog!

@vixen-vent Where i post/reblog vent posts

@maker-of-shitposts pretty empty, random shit that crosses my mind

@askcupcrossovers MY MOST POPULAR BLOG, ITS A CUPHEAD ASK BLOG THAT YOU SHOULD CHECK OUT! (HIATUS)

@ask-the-aces-casino My casino oc ask blog!

@ask-solo-and-casino-cups MY CASINO CUPS OC ASK BLOG!!

@ask-outoforder EMPTY FOR NOW! BUT IS IN THE SAME UNIVERSE AS @ask-the-aces-casino!! (i might even make a crossover episode!!!!)

JOIN MY DISCORD!! vv

A list of fandoms i'm into is:

Cuphead, Batim, hollow knight, Undertale/Deltarune, FNaF, Minecraft,

tadc, dhmis (show and web series), the world of Mr. plant,

Invader zim, the dragon prince, ROTTMNT, TMNT 2012, Mutant mayhem, HOW TO TRAIN YOUR DRAGON, DINOTRUX, TRANSFORMERS PRIME,

DEAD PLATE, YOUR BOYFRIEND, JOHN DOE, MY DEAR HATCHET MAN, GAVRIL,

the owl house, svtfoe, gravity falls, dead end (paranormal park),

Hazbin hotel, helluva boss, lackadaisy, murder drones,

Demon slayer, Boku no hero academia, death note, SPY x FAMILY, fairy tail.

THIS WILL BE UPDATED OVER TIME!!

A FOOL’S GUIDE WHEN YOU’RE GONE

SOME FAV POSTS OF MINE

ALL TAKES/Hair…?

#idk what im doing #tumblr chaos #shitpost #intro post #introduction #introductory post #pinned intro #blog intro #introducing myself

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hxhhasmysoul · 8 months

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5 Favourite Fics I’ve written

rule: 5 favourite fics you’ve written and pass it on to 5 other writers

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thank you @cursedvibes for the tag. it took me a while to do it because i don't really like the fics i've written, idk, writing for me is dealing with my adhd brain and the results never really make me happy they just give me relief. i think part of it is that i despise my writing style, the language, i have no turn of phrase. i find it unpleasant to read. but at the same time i like the process of planning a story and its setting. so the fics i will list are those which i really enjoyed making up a setting for, which i think have fun world building and/or plots/intrigues. these are from oldest to newest.

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Fairytale kingdom, nightmare castle

it's my first fic ever, it's actually huge (157,059 words) but unfinished, i want to get back to it but it needs 2 action filled chapters and i'm scared of that. it's actually a killugon fic with canary as the third protagonist, hxh power system but in an empire/regency inspired aesthetic. it's very plot driven, world building heavy, has scenes from many povs. it has a courtly/political intrigue.

rating E

Levels

this fic is special to me because i made a friend through it. but also it's one of two fics on this list that are a vibe... like it kinda has a plot but it's mostly a vibe and to some extent a vague musing about the hxh story line plus a tribute to Blame! aesthetic. oh it's a killugon. it's also my one and only attempt at horror, it's not really scary or creepy, i can't do mood writing to save my life.

rating T

Conventional Wisdom

this fic is also basically a vibe, it's a fic i wrote during the pandemic and it's about loneliness and craving connection. it's also a killugon. this one is an urban fantasy au, gon's a magical creature killua is a human. i didn't set out to write them both ace in this fic, it just kinda turned out like that.

rating T

Trapped

this is me going against all my instincts honestly. i usually dislike fairy tale retellings and here i'm kinda writing one. granted i made it my comfort zone so it's as not fairytalesque as i could. but it has the trappings of the beauty and the beast. it's world building and plot heavy. it's a sukuita fic, also a pairing i never expected myself to like, even less to write for.

rating E

The Only One

this is another first one for me, when i really consciously and purposefully wrote a character to be quite ooc. i just needed that. it's also extremely tropey, royalty au, harem au (like it takes place in a harem, there isn't a harem of lovers to choose from), there are fabrics and linguistics, there's a palace intrigue. it's an author pleaser, i wrote it to make myself feel good. it's a sukuita fic, sweet and angsty.

rating E

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Tagging, but only if you feel like it: @subdee, @voidcat-senket, @yuujispinkhair, @canzie-gumm, @ishouldgetatumbler

#tag game #fanfic #my trash writing #hxh #jjk #killugon #sukuita #honestly my thing is deep deep codependency #and mid to long form aus #if you feel like giving any of those a try read the tags please

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mermaidsirennikita · 7 months

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ARC Review: Never Met a Duke Like You by Amalie Howard

4.25/5. Releases 11/14/2023.

Vibes: childhood best friends to enemies (Iite) to lovers, nerd in the streets freak in the sheets, actual factual social issues, and a very good cat/kitty joke.

This is a retelling of Clueless, which is a retelling of Emma, which in theory sounds very messy but ultimately worked out in a historical romcom I really liked. It touches on some serious problems of the time (heads up: a lot of discussion of asylums and their abuses) and there's a great chemistry between our leads. She's a flighty eye-catching popular type, he wants to hunt for dinosaur bones, and they haven't seen each other for years but have been building up to this since childhood. It's a good mix.

Quick Takes:

--I was honestly a little "why do we need this" when I first understood the concept. Yes, the previous book in the series, Always Be My Duchess, is a retelling of Pretty Woman, which is a retelling of My Fairy Lady (and MFL is a retelling of Pygmalion). But Emma is an Austen novel, and such a clear precursor to historical romance subgenre of today. I was a little worried about how that would work.

But here's the thing. Clueless is very much not a direct retelling of Emma, and you change a lot in the Emma/Knightley dynamic when you switch it up from a girl and her neighbor/friend who's like 17 years her senior and held her when she was a baby, to a girl and her somewhat older former stepbrother (no shade, Emma is my favorite Austen and I adore Clueless). If you like Cher and Josh, that's the sweet spot Vesper and Aspen hit. It's very much that sequence in The Swan Princess wherein Derek and Odette bug each other as kids, then realize as adults that they wanna bang it out--but with a bit more of a friendship slant. In the childhood days. When they're adults, there's an edge added by their years of separation and misunderstandings. And I'll admit, I eat a "childhood friends separated and reunited as adults" dynamic right up. If that's your itch, this book will definitely scratch it.

--Aspen is really into DINOSAURS, and I personally loved that angle. He was nerdy enough for me to call him a nerdy hero (and Vesper does love his glasses) but he wasn't a cliche nerdy hero. Yes, he loves to look at fossils and discourse over prehistoric creatures, but he's also confident, snarky, and quite prone to putting it down. Honestly, I arguably could've used more dinosaur content (though Howard definitely uses it at just the right moment).

--A big part of this book is mental illness and the absolutely horrible was in which it was addressed at this point in time. Aspen's father was confined to an asylum and abused in that asylum--exactly how that happened is a major point in the book. Additionally, its specter hangs over Aspen's head, his father's "diagnosis" (I hesitate to call it legitimate) a potential means through which his own committal could be justified. It's rough, dude.

And I will say, I suspect that some readers will be dissatisfied with the comeuppance the villain of this book receives. For me, it worked--because it was realistic, and because I really couldn't think of any way through which the issue could be resolved without taking away from Aspen and Vesper's relationship. The point of this story isn't really punishing the bad guy--it's making it so Aspen and Vesper can have a healthy relationship without this threat in the midst of it all.

As an added note, Vesper has ADHD, which isn't a massive part of the novel but does figure into her character and journey. I thought it was a nice touch--people with ADHD didn't just suddenly pop into existence in the twentieth century, and the rep is good to see.

--The thing I really liked about Aspen and Vesper's dynamic is that there really was this undercurrent of childlike... knowledge, and playfulness. They've changed a lot, and there are a lot of confused feelings between them; but you still get the sense that at one point, these people really knew each other. And that sense of knowing and affection remains.

I also really loved the moments when the childhood besties jumped out--there's a teasing vibe to the relationship, this sense that they kind of want to kiss each other and kind of want to poke each other (non-sexually). It makes the tone of the book a bit bubblier, which is key, I think, when you're dealing with subject matter as dark as Aspen's backstory could be.

The Sex:

It's hot. These two have a very clear physical connection, and it's immediately noticeable. You get a lot of double entendres in this book, a lot of teasing that goes just over the line--like when Aspen casually tells Vesper she looks like she's just had an orgasm in public. Very normal thing to say to the former childhood friend you're not interested in! At all!

One sex scene in particular was so delightful--the perfect mixture of hot and funny, which sums up the tone of the book pretty well. I mean, this dude is really about his fossils, and they definitely play into the... plot. More than you might think. (Not in that way, in THAT way. Don't worry about it. Read the book.)

Frothy yet not without substance, Never Met a Duke Like You is another enjoyable entry from Amalie Howard. If I'm being real, I think I liked it a bit more than Always Be My Duchess (also a good book). Would recommend!

Thanks to Netgalley and Forever for providing me with a copy of this book in exchange for an honest review.

#romance novel blogging #arc reviews #netgalley #book recs #books #book reviews

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yoshimickster · 3 months

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I'M DONE-oh thank all that is dark and pure I am DONE with Wish!

I don't know if its an ADHD thing, but when I see something overwhelmingly STUPID I need to take several minute breaks.

I started this movie a little before 10. It is 5:26 when I'm typing this.

Like the climax was KINDA okay, but Magnifico was horribly written, Queen Amaya should've been evil as well, and I want my god damn romance between a sorceress in training and a STAR PRINCE dammit!

ALSO...wwwwwwwwwwwhy the seven dwarves?! Like, Asha is supposed to be the god damn Fairy Godmother, yet they make her friends NOT ONLY characters from another story, but characters who are ALLEGORIES of characters from another story!

And OH WOW-the wish granting villain ended up turning into the Evil Mirror, haven't seen that since "Once upon a time" only it somehow feels even MORE stupid!

UGH-bad movie, glad I watched it so I can appreciate the beauty of all around me but UGH could've been so much beter.

#wish #disney wish #wish disney

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animanightmate · 2 years

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Strange Ideas About Magic

Random thought that just smacked me on the back of the head:

Jonathan Strange & Mr Norrell is about neurodivergence, its different forms, how it can be utilised, and how acceptable it is in society (including who is allowed to exhibit traits of it), using magic as a metaphor.

(I’ll be talking about the books here – I don’t think that the TV show really captured this.)

Strange is almost a caricature of ADHD: fast-thinking; leaves everything to the last minute; very easily distracted; creative; extremely fast skills acquisition; hyperfixates then wanders off.

Norrell is full-on autist cliché: everything has to be neat and orderly, done in the correct fashion; he does not understand “normal people” (and doesn’t really want to) and his social skills are vestigial at best; precise, obsessive; given to infodumping; fearful of and resistant to change. When he finds someone he can actually talk to about his passions, he falls for them hard.

Magical experiences are described using synaesthesia a great deal, senses blending in ways that those who aren’t used to it find either exhilarating or distressing.

Fairies are described, essentially, as having a very intense set of neurodivergent traits, including their relationships with animals and objects, let alone their sensory differences from humanity, how less tethered they are to linear time, etc., though their lack of comprehension/ appreciation for normal/ human needs is taken to an extreme that appears cruel (and sometimes is deliberately, in the cases of some of the more powerful beings like The Gentleman With The Thistledown Hair).

The Raven King makes up his own language, for example, and I’ve lost count of how many ND people of my acquaintance (including me) have done that.

Even the book, with its many footnotes, uses a nested explanations/ off-shooting narrative/ presentation that is vastly reminiscent of the communication styles (and thought pathways) of many ND people (again, myself included)...

Then there’s the social acceptability factor: rich, white men are permitted the eccentricity of magical obsession and use of the skills that come with innate brain difference. They are given the time and space to study and perfect their use of said traits. Their personality differences are excused as eccentricity. Its potential is literally weaponised by the government and by e.g. Wellington (who advises that corralling a magician requires set goals, frequent check-ins, and supervision by/ support from “normal” people), though they struggle to think how to use magicians in peacetime. (I’m reminded here of e.g. wartime codebreakers (especially women) who found themselves unwanted by the establishment afterwards.)

It’s massively frowned on in working class people, women, and people of colour at the time of the novel. The fairies’ more intense level of divergence (and thereby superior strength and talent) is utilised by said rich, white men, but scorned as both uncomfortably exotic and too indulgent compared to what is acceptable in rich, white, academic men with milder presentation. Lady Pole’s experience is seen as hysteria. Steven Black has to mask daily, and both grow increasingly tired and misanthropic as a result. Working-class Childermass is talented, perceptive, and knowledgeable about magic, but never granted the title “magician”. Similarly, Vinculus, with all his genetic burden and talent, is not permitted the learning that might elevate him to respectability (and even then, that might only be possible post-Norrell). He is, as Childermass points out (seemingly unaware of the irony), the polar opposite of all the academic, unmagical gentlemen magicians. The tipping point between where being able to perceive reality differently is “useful” versus “a disability” is subtly woven into all sorts of parts of the book, including the various discussions about societal perceptions and treatments of “insanity”, etc. (Of particular interest is Strange’s decision to deliberately induce a form of psychosis in himself in order to alter his perceptions.)

Consider even the more “enlightened” attitudes of Strange and his pupils – Tom Levy, the more talented, non-noble, Jewish student is, on the surface, accepted despite (or because?) of the controversy of doing so, yet treated by the other students as a (usefully bright) servant. Strange (for the most part refreshingly gender-blind/ aware of the restrictions placed on women and firmly against that hypocrisy) frets that tedious social rules means that he cannot teach women without a female chaperone, yet takes the easier path of not going out of his way to find one.

And magical talent/ perception is given a different scope in the “modern”, “enlightened” times of the book in the early 19th century from how much more commonplace and acceptable it was across more social strata and genders in Mediaeval times.

I’ve been obsessed with these books since 2008, and only just seeing this parallel explicitly and consciously now is making my brain explode a bit.

Knowing my luck, I’m probably vastly behind other fandom takes on this, but I felt I just had to write it all out of my head. What are other people’s thoughts on this?

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