#oh you just don’t like [insert thing] bc teenage girls like it

[fictionobsession]

I’m probably going to be crucified for this but I just need to say out loud that some people need to learn that “societally we look down on things that girls enjoy” and “content/person/thing enjoyed by teenage girls anyone should be looked at through a critical lens sometimes” are statements that can and should coexist

#I feel like we’ve gotten to a point where it’s like #oh you just don’t like [insert thing] bc teenage girls like it #and it’s like #no!! I love that teenage girls enjoy things! I was one of those! #but also I don’t enjoy [thing] because it’s not good! #or it has problems I can’t overlook #or any number of other reasons! #like if you choose to like media despite its flaws #that’s so cool! it’s okay! you’re allowed to like or enjoy things that are ‘bad’ #but me not liking them is not an antifeminist issue

[peach-and-bugs]

Yellowjacket dialogue requests

so, I'm getting back into writing regularly again and so I started with just jotting down different dialogues with varying feeling behind them and I thought they could pair really well with some Yellowjackets work bc I love my girls!

Willing to do self-insert or character x character, platonic, romantic, or smut. just pick a character/pair, a quote, and clarify if they're a teen or adult!

Also! Heads up!: I’ve been getting some requests without a quote with them, which is fine, but I’ll be privatizing those with requested quotes first!

Yellowjackets: romantically (➵ ) platonically (✸) or nsfw (✧)

Jackie Tayler (1996) ✸ ➵

Laura Lee (1996) ✸ ➵

Lottie Matthews (1996/2021) ✸ ➵ ✧

Misty Quigley (1996/2021) ✸ ➵ ✧

"Nat" Natalie Scatorccio (1996/2021) ✸ ➵ ✧

Shauna Sadecki (1996/2021) ✸ ➵ ✧

Taissa Turner (1996/2021) ✸ ➵ ✧

Travis Martinez (1996/2021) ✸ ➵

"Van" Vanessa Palmer (1996/2021) ✸ ➵ ✧

dialogue:

1. “You keep staring at me…” “Oh, do I? I hadn’t noticed.” “how do you not notice it when you're staring at someone for an extended period of time? Natalie (2021) x fem!reader

2. “You sound like you’re dad, you know that?” “ugh, don’t remind me,” Travis (1996) x reader

3. “I have a confession.” “you better not confess to a murder, because I can’t deal with that right now” Misty (2021) x fem!reader

4. “I thought you stopped smoking. You smell like cigarettes again” Natalie (2021) x fem!reader

5. “Wow, you really never got out of you’re angsty teenager phase, did you?” Shauna (1996) x fem!reader

6. “I feel like you’ve got a hand on me at all times,” “Maybe that’s because I’m irrationally afraid that you’ll disappear on me if I let go,” Shauna (2021) x fem!reader Lottie (2021) x fem!reader

7. “Please tell me you didn’t hold on to that all these years” Lottie (2021) x fem!reader

8. “Mmm, before we do anything else can you please go brush your teeth for me?” Lottie (1996) x fem!reader

9. “ok, chin up and take a breath for me. You’re tuning purple,” Van (1996) x fem!reader

10.  “When have I ever come across as a person that takes any interest in children to you? Van (2021) x fem!reader

11.  “Does every word out of your mouth need to be a movie quote?” “no, sometimes I quote television”

12.  “I didn’t miss you. But now you're here and… god, fuck me,” Natalie (1996) x fem!reader Lottie (1996) x fem!reader

13.  “You’re shirt’s inside out,” “How do you know I didn’t do that on purpose” Van (2021) x fem!reader

14.  “Don't be a smart ass right now, I'm not in the mood,” Misty (2021) x fem!reader

15.  “You look exhausted, you know that? Natalie (1996 pre-crash) x fem!reader

16.  “I can be happy with however you’ll have me,”

17.  “I don’t remember your hands being so callous,” Misty (2021) x fem!reader Travis (1996) x reader

18.  “My mother would end me if she found out about this”

19.  “Fuck, who doesn’t school prepare you for these kinds of things!”

20.  “Can you let go of my collar? You’re choking me a little,” “Aw, I thought you liked that?” Natalie (1996) x fem!reader Lottie (2021) x fem!reader Misty (2021) x fem!reader

#◛⑅·˚ ༘ ♡ kay's at it again♡ #yellowjackets #yellowjackets fanfic #yellowjackets x reader #yellowjackets requests

[transboysokka]

chris watches twilight for the first time

omg this blueish filter is wild is this like a Pacific Northwest thing

that girl is not tan enough to be from arizona

also I’m getting big gay energy from her so idk how this movie is gonna be like. plausible.

if the dad wasn’t a cop I’d definitely smash

do u guys remember though when they used to cast ACTUAL teenagers for teen roles? refreshing

wow this guy in the cowboy hat has MAJOR swag

oh nooo Taylor Lautner I grew up with him and he sucked (real)

idk why ppl always shat on kstew being like inexpressive in this??? seems fine??

all these vampire siblings date each other?? lolololol

so far this seems like a fun little teen drama idk. it’s so blue though

Edwards stare is so intense I KNOW rpat had a great time with this lolol

Lolllll imagine seeing someone try to switch classes to avoid u but u don’t even know them??

the daughter-distant father awkwardness is v nice, v realistic

ugh this dad is so hot

Does Edward have RED eyes girl that sounds like a red flag get away

Ok this soundtrack sucks

Wait so his eyes change? Why?

wow he stopped a bread van for her w his muscles how romanticccc

also how small is this school like how does everyone know her?

vampire doctor creeps me out

lol his name is carlisle what a square

taking bets at how soon he tells her he’s a vampire it’s probably pretty soon I’m gonna say like around the one hour mark

girl is she having sex dreams about him

God Edward really is so creepy eh

Lautner’s Michigan accent is sooo bad in this omggg I can’t

are these new vampires?? the whole eating people thing really disrupts the tone of the story

So gay of bella not to care about the dress shopping. And also just skipping prom lol

Edward just following her everywhere RUN GIRL

“I should make sure Bella gets something to eat” most awkward and obvious way to ask for a date

So she’s def a vegetarian and he def doesn’t eat people food

We’re like 40 minutes in and he’s already telling her lol

Anyway why can’t he read her mind is this like a soulmate thing

This is soooo fanfictiony lmao

So she finds out he can read minds and just lets it go lol

Edward is such a dumbass though she figured him out so easy lolllll

And now she’s having vampire sex dreams lmaoooo this movie is great

Oh here it comes the “I know what you are” “say it” lol I only know this scene bc it’s from a meme or something

lmao this speed animation

is he about to sparkle

BAHAHAHAHAHA THIS IS SO UNSERIOUS

god they’re both crazy girl why are you so into him and Edward why are you so obsessed w her

ok yeah some of these lines suck

First of all these kids are missing class and for what

Second of all I cannot IMAGINE being a teenage straight girl seeing this for the first time when it comes out and basing my ENTIRE personality on this shitty ass self-insert fanfic ass plot

Girl how the hell can you be in love with him already

That’s so high school, they’re only walking together and people somehow know they’re together?

oh wow so the doctor turns these kids to stop them from dying that’s neat

I used to live only off tofu and I was very satisfied thank u very much

Wow he’s special about reading minds that’s convenient

He’s such a kid w her that’s not what I was expecting but I like it

They’re making Italian food for her bc her name is Bella lmfao

WOW anger issues much

He doesn’t sleep, he doesn’t stop going to school, he doesn’t eat, terrible existence

Was that the author in the diner

HOLY FUCK HE SNEAKS INTO HER HOUSE AND WATCHES HER SLEEP RED ALERT

DONT KISS THE GUY WHO WANTS TO EAT YOU NOOOOO

there are so many problems here lol

Dad just messing w his gun at the kitchen table, so cop coded

So American coded actually lol

Wait Edward is gonna meet him w the gun there lmao

Vampire baseball lolllll

This is just one big incest nerd family

They could have tried a little harder w the cgi for such a big budget?? This looks like the CW. Feels like it too actually

FRENCH bad guy vampires??

These stakes seem suddenly way too high??

Don’t break the hot dads heart nooooo

This really does feel like the CW though

Yeah no Rosalie is right why does that family care about Bella so much like she’s a high school girlfriend not a wife lmao

I think I’m dumb but I don’t entirely understand what’s happening here like did Bella go back to Arizona?? Why did she have to go so far to get away from this guy

FUCK is he gonna run all the way to Arizona now lol

I just don’t know how things got so suddenly so dramatic like can’t this James guy just let it go why is he going to so much effort this just all seems so silly

Wow Black Swan

yeah again idk why everyone was hating on kstew’s performance in this, it’s good

How did Edward get there so fast is there like some portal between Arizona and Washington isn’t that like a 1-2 day drive?

This is a fancy ass ballet studio btw

Yeah this fight scene sucks

So Mufasa coded “Remember who you are”

What is happening to Bella now she doesn’t turn until the last book right? (I’ve never read it idk)

Why did that guy have venom?????

Wow finally creepy Edward gets what he wanted and can drink her up…… he ain’t gonna stop

Oh I get it he stops w the power of love. Okay. Whatever.

This SONG sucks

“You lost a lot of blood” yeah THANKS Edward

Oh god the old ass cellphones. Throwback.

Not sure why she’d need oxygen w the injuries she had tbh am I missing something or is it for drama

“You’re in here bc of me” damn straight

Go to Jacksonville Bella (I know she won’t)

Don’t be a baby about it Bella????

Oh fuck is she going to prom? THATS not gonna create School Drama at all…

“Alice lent me the dress” yeah you’re too gay to own any

I know it’s bc of my issues w lautner as a person but I hate Jacob and I ALSO hate that lautner claims to have “distant” indigenous heritage bc that is another thing that he didn’t have when we were kids so why is he playing this guy

“Should we dance?” “You’re serious?” Bro you came to prom together wtf did u think u we’re gonna do

All the music in this movie sucks ass

I don’t usually advocate for this with vampire stuff but I’d have less of a problem with the creepiness of this relationship if he DID turn her

If MY bf was a vampire I wouldn’t want to be human either wtf

Okay yeah I mean that movie was whatever. Glad I understand the pop culture references now I guess

Oh no oh wait oh god I gotta watch the rest of these movies now don’t I…. Please tell me they get better

#text #twilight liveblog

[blurrypop]

decided to watch that Heathers TV series. here are my thoughts on episode one (written as I’m watching it):

• I actually like the intro. watching JD’s mom kill herself was a good hook and the title sequence was fun

• it’s kinda surreal seeing Heathers in a modern setting. Veronica looks so different

• I kinda like the theme with Veronica not knowing who she is. I think it works well with her character in the movie and musical. Although, I don’t like it being framed through the “you need to be a minority” lens.

• Oh the Heathers’ fashion sense dose NOT slay. IDK it just doesn’t feel right

• No way in hell did Heather C just say “How Banana Republic“” (although I will give them props for the third nipple line. I can imagine Heather C saying that)”

• I feel like in a real life high school the Heathers would be outcasts if they pulled the political activist bullshit they did to Ram

• JD has his first speaking lines and he’s already spewing nihilistic and possibly conservative bs. 10/10

• “No girls on the girls restroom” actually made me chuckle.

• I’m starting to get a vibe that the showrighters are trying to make this edgy and appeal to teenagers by just inserting “shocking” or “pop culture” words in normal sentences (oh my clit, my third nipple, banana republic, latte). it feels kinda forced most of the time

• Veronica’s parents being glued to their iPads makes sense

• Heather C did not want to be embarrassed at a party- she decided to wear an ugly cat outfit that I would’ve found cool when I was 6 (i’m all for wearing what makes you happy, but for the love of god don’t make your alpha bitch popular girl character dress like a 6 y/o)

• I’m not even halfway through ep 1 and this show feels like a right-wing interpretation of leftist youth that you’d find in those memes labeled as “satire” or “dark humor.” like, it’s not a good satire, but it also isn’t a very good critique

• why did JD just climb through Veronica’s window and read her diary? like, they talked once. at least have them kiss

• If they don’t make gay Ram and Kurt a thing in this show then I will be thoroughly disappointed in the writers

• The party scene at the snappy snack shack was actually super cute

• ISTG these writers are just taking random lines from Heathers, changing them a bit, and putting them in the completely wrong place. like the nazi bullet line dose not work with pills bc why would hitler carry around a pill to induce vomiting?

• i- i don’t think slipping a pill into a bag of corn nuts would kill heather cause like… she’d notice the pill. but they also passed up a great opportunity to comment on drug culture among teens. like- have Heather C be addicted and take unknown drugs from Veronica and JD

• JD definitely didn’t grab the “wrong pills.”

• Why were the adults so concerned with which minority group was “popular?”

• Why is everyone teaming up against Heather M?

• what is LGBTQQIAP?

• Betty Finn taking the stand to give Heather C’s eulogy. What a twist! I love you Betty.

• Man, now I’m wondering how they would handle Martha Dunnstock. Honestly, she could have been used to critique how body positivity can oftentimes exclude people

• JD’s dad was done well. I can see how JD turned out the way he is because of his dad.

• WTF? Heather C is alive??? The internet is gonna hate her when they find out she’s alive

#heathers #heathers tv #tv review #tv shows #tv series

[paperw0rmz]

wut's a trend from the 90s/early 2000s u wanna see make a comeback? :0

THANK YOU FOR ASKING

For those who don’t know Hi I’m Grave and I am obsessed with 90’s-2012 things and have archives and logs of media, specifically web, of things from those eras

1:Radio shack

As someone who is getting into ham radio and also just misses being able to get funky little add ons to computers and shit, I think we should all as a collective demand a radio shack. “Oh bUt yOu hAvE bEst bUy” I will literally slit your throat if you are dumb enough to think that that ugly wanna be ikea shit is anything remotely similar to big daddy Radio Shack

2:Chatrooms

Was I way too young to be on them back when they were popular? Yes. Did that result into trauma? Yes. But I’ve learned my lesson and now I want this shit back so bad. I LOVE chat rooms. “YeAh wE hAvE dIscOrd aNd DMS” ITS NOT THE SAME FUCKING THING AND YOU KNOW IT.

Bring back chatzy, bring back IRC (I’m active on a few), I’m even on Wireclub if anyone wants to join my chat rooms there!!! And pesterchum

3: physical copies of media

I hate streaming services. I hate it. There is nothing but zombie glossy eyed, let’s market to the brain dead, shit on there. Like yes, I love some of the shows, but we have lost so much shit from moving to streaming services. Remember on a VHS or DVD where you could watch behind the scenes, bloopers, play movie/show related games all on a tape/disk???? It’s the same with any physical music media too. I think it makes you more so focused on what entertainment you actually like. Too many people just like things because it’s popular or trending, which is fine, but when it comes down to it do you actively want to OWN something physical from the media? If not then is it something you’re willing to put time into then? Why not do something else?

4:Arcades

I’m not talking about that Dave and buster shit. I’m talking not scam (at least not as bad as it is now) arcades that was on every Main Street, in every mall, like in a mall now of days is a small as shit arcade if it’s NOT Dave and busters. I hate Dave and busters mainly bc they ruined a genre. It was marketed as a arcade for adults but then they added kid I pad games and now it’s just an awkward overpriced place to be where you can see a seven year old play cross road or angry birds on a glorified I pad and also see grown men get shit faced drunk.

5:MAGAZINES

Literally so hard to find good magazines now of days. Especially for a cost that won’t fucking kill you. I managed to get most of mine second hand, but it’s so hard to find anyplace that sells magazines especially ones that are to kids without being too babyish. I go to a grocery store and if I look for a young girls/boys magazine it’s about very YOUNG things to the point I don’t think the market audience can even read??? That or it’s just guns or gardening. Which is cool, but there isn’t anything for teenagers really anymore. Like yes there are, but you have to sign up online for it which is fine, but I miss being excited to go to the corner store to see if there is any latest addition of the magazine I loved there.

6:social interactions

You would jus stay outside or inside right next to your phone/computer waiting for someone to come by and tell you where everyone else is at. Like having to go walk to every gas station and corner store to see if your friends are there and getting excited when they are actually there. I am thankful for being able to easily like meet up with people, but like the feeling you get when you run into people and then go fuck off is so fun

7:The video games

Video game quality has gone down hill. I’m not talking about highly detailed story based games, no. I’m talking about app games, free to play games, all that shit. It is now a click bait, league clone, or clash clone. And it’s BORING. It’s all ad based and trying to suck as much money from you as possible and it’s all so ugly in that ugly 3D art style.

8:intelligence

*insert the tweet about how if you say you like waffles people will just assume it means you hate pancakes* people today do not have common sense anymore.

9: sense of community

#coquette #grassfromthegardencore #corefromcore

Like yes, back then was also elitist, but not as bad and forced as it is now. So many people today are so focused on aesthetic labels instead of just focusing on what they just like. Like yes, labels are comforting, but to the point you’re desperately asking what aesthetic this is so you can then throw out and change your aesthetic to match it and then repeat over and over? Gross.

10: early web memes

Memes arnt long lasting today as it was back then. There aren’t even memes today. Just a tiktok video that was posted on Twitter. I hate it.

#ask #anon #fun ask #autism #90s #y2k

[kindaconfusingme]

Since it's the end of november, I thought I'd give an update on my reading for the Autumn Reading Challenge 2.0 :)

I am working on a few other prompts atm so I think I will be through kind of soon. I have decided to pick books I already own for all of these so I can use this challenge as motivation to reduce my tbr. I fear this post will be kind of long so be prepared :D

Number in the title: Million Girl Vol.1-3 by Kotori Momoyuki

I read the 1rst and 2nd volume of this years ago when I was a teenager and bought vol 3 secondhand for this challenge bc I always wanted to finish it. It’s about a girl at a very elite high school who finds out that her family owes a lot of money to the yakuza. To repay them, she enters the Money Game that is established at her school, which consists of multiple rounds of competing against different opponents in different challenges, cheating is allowed. While I enjoyed the atmosphere and the reading experience, I’m not the biggest fan of anything beyond the first volume. It gets a little absurd and one does not get the chance to solve the mysteries of the rounds alongside the protagonist, which I would’ve liked to try.

Book with riddles: Ready Player One by Ernest Cline

I love the movie, so I hoped to like the book as well. Sadly, I was disappointed :(

I think one of the problems with it was the pacing, because a lot of the moments that are essential for the plot and should be interesting to read are just really hard to transfer to written text (while looking cool on screen). It’s not that interesting to hear Wade talk about how he has to beat a Pacman-high score. Moments like these were either boring to listen to (audiobook) or skipped over by the author, the latter option being weird as well because some of these moments were quite important. I also found Wade to be pretty annoying and full of himself. I think he compensated a lot of his low self esteem by feeling like the absolute best at knowing niche pop culture details. I kind of relate to that bc my self-esteem is held up by similar things, but I would like to think that I am not as insufferable. Or maybe I am but nobody notices bc nobody can read my thoughts. And I had to listen to Wade’s through the whole book, which made me want to scream sometimes. Artemis was pretty cool, but I felt like a lot of her character was the way it was to make sure she’s the ideal girl that lonely gamer guys wish to meet somewhen (spoken in cliches, I don’t want to shame lonely gamer guys in general here). I guess you can read this book either as a homage to 80s pop culture and be happy about a virtual reality adventure or it reads as a slightly problematic self-insert. … Idk, the book had its moments but ultimately it was a bit of a letdown. I will stick to the movie. And I still love the premise of this story a lot.

Nostalgic read: Sieben Pfoten für Penny – Freiheit für einen Delfin by Thomas Brezina

This book is part of a large series of books about a teenage girl named Penny who gets involved in different stories with animals that usually need saving. Like Flipper 2, the dolphin this book is about – or rather: Should be about. The story of saving this dolphin would be enough to tell a compelling story, if it was detailed enough. Instead, a lot of different side plots get introduced and solved within a few scenes and everything just felt rushed, mismatched and weird. I wondered whether that was because I am reading this as an adult now or if it was because of the way it was written and I landed on the latter since I read plenty of children’s books as an adult that I enjoyed a lot.

Nonfiction: Interest and Investment in fictional Romances (van Monsjou & Mar, 2019)

I stumbled upon this study while researching for my thesis and downloaded it bc boy oh boy am I myself invested in fictional romances – so why not find out what science says about it. I will not go into detail here bc there are too many tiny findings for that, but I was expecting what the authors were expecting as well: That high involvement in fictional romances compensates one’s one loneliness/dissatisfaction with love life and correlates with attachment anxiety. Interestingly enough, the attachment anxiety part was more or less there (they listed some statistically insignificant findings as well though and I don’t remember whether this was one of them and I also don’t remember whether it was found in all studies that included the attachment anxiety measurement). The loneliness/dissatisfaction thing was not found, instead people who were more interested in fictional romances seemed to use those as an exploration for their own romantic wishes – which makes sense, I guess. It is to be said though that the sample was taken from people who were not very involved in fandom over all, only a slight number of participants read or wrote fanfiction for example. As well as the authors, I do think that in a sample that consists of people who are actually involved in shipping and stuff, the results could be more consistent with the expectations, because I do think there is a big difference in the reasons for enjoying the chemistry of a fictional couple casually and being extremely invested in a fictional couple to the point of obsession. Therefore, I’d like to read follow-up studies that have these samples; so far, I have not seen these anywhere.

#i am working on it #have fun reading me thoughts on some books #studyblr w/knives reading challenge #autumn reading challenge 2.0 #bookblr

[madame-mozart]

TIME TO PIT ALL MY MARY SUE OCS AGAINST EACH OTHER WOOO

Okay, these aren’t entirely all of my bland Mary Sue special snowflake characters, I have quite a bit of others. But the point is, these are some of the ones I remember the most. Oh, and I also already had art/dolls saved of them in my Google Photos/Tumblr accounts.  I used the Kisekae 2 doll program to make some of these as well as some Doll Divine/Azalea’s/Rinmaru games. I think only three of these were drawn on bases that I don’t remember the original sources of. Oh, and “aesthetic” filters AHOY

💖 Who will be the most special, unique Mary Sue of them all? Well, this Labor Day, they’ll be able to fight for it... 💖

also i’m not going to bother tagging every single one of these characters bc tumblr is stingy about the amount of tags you can put in your posts and the fact that it’ll only make the first 30 tags visible to others and whatnot so whatever i ain’t going to bother with all this

✨ Read more about them below this cut! Otherwise, click HERE to proceed to the games... ✨

District 1 features Charlotte, the absolute worst of the Sues who thought she was super unique and special because she enjoyed classical music and was the composer Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart’s number one fan and even girlfriend. She’s paired with Franziska, who was supposed to be kind of a “remake” of Charlotte in the self-insert/persona sense, but ended up being just as bad with a physical appearance that resembled any other teenage Caucasian Starbucks girl out there... and she still thought she was special and unique just because she liked classical music.

District 2 features the French twins Christianne and Marie-Anne, who were the new girls at this high school and were for some reason already very popular just because they were twins and French. Yeah, I don’t know.

District 3 features Lucy, the edgy Creepypasta killer girl thrown in a mental asylum for absolutely no reason and was abused until she went insane; and Pandora, the pity-me-woe-is-me character who was also abused until she was murdered and now haunts everyone.

District 4 features Becky, who was fawned over by everyone despite being a cookie cutter popular girl; and Christiana, an ancient Roman character who came out whitewashed despite having an Egyptian mother and wanted to be a strong and independent bookkeeper instead of a traditionally feminine role like the other girls her age.

District 5 features Jackie, the daughter and/or sister of Jack Frost from Rise of the Guardians who could control the ice and snow as well as (perhaps even better) her male counterpart; and Iris, the Fluttershy knockoff who was the daughter of the Greek god Uranus and could control storms, the air/wind, and clouds.

District 6 features Florence, a Renaissance character who was just as r/notliketheothergirls as Christiana and wanted to be an inventor like her father instead of being a goody goody stay-at-home wife and mother; and Chadthaniel (who happens to be the only male character featured here), the humorously nicknamed early incarnation of my much better, revamped character Nathaniel. He was good at absolutely everything, from swordfighting to the sciences because he was a Renaissance man and he won the hearts of almost every lady ever because of it.

District 7 features V1 Rose, the early incarnation of my much better, revamped character Rose. She was a princess (turned queen/empress) with gold eyes who was an Elsa knockoff with the power of ice and snow as well as earth, water, and air-related powers; and Self-insert Nannerl, who was actually supposed to be Nannerl Mozart, the real-life sister of the composer W.A. Mozart, except given additional traits such as glasses, the ability to draw and invent things, and probably other things that I liked and wanted to be.

District 8 features two of my rainbow princess alicorn (from the My Little Pony universe) sisters, Iridescence and Prismatic Portrait (except I humanized them). They dressed beautifully and created the most gorgeous art ever, like I’m pretty sure they were super popular and loved, too.

District 9 features the other rainbow princess alicorn sister, White Masterpiece; and Melusina, a mermaid featured in a story I posted on my old DeviantArt account. She has the power to communicate telepathically with humans as well as the ability to transform into a human herself! Yet for some reason, instead of escaping the tank she’s trapped in like any other sane individual, she stays trapped because an old grandpa told her to do so.

District 10 features another set of sisters, Anthousa the fairy and Amphitrite the mermaid. Both of them apparently ran away from home (well, Anthousa was kidnapped) and magically gained their wings and tail because... potatoes. Or magic, I don’t know.

District 11 features Rainbow Sorbet, one of my old Sugar Rush/Wreck it Ralph OCs who had multicolored hair and eyes for some reason; and Rhea, the daughter of Link and Zelda, of all people. She also had fire powers because reasons.

And finally, District 12 features Erzebet, my old Alice in Wonderland OC who was the spoiled daughter of the Red Queen (and known as the Black Queen because she’s edgy) who both hated everyone in Wonderland and was “misunderstood” because everyone thinks she’s like her mother; and Andromeda, the other sister of the two mentioned in district 10. She also ran away from home, found an abandoned castle, and decided to crown herself princess. Because again, reasons.

#maddy's ocs #original characters #ocs #brantsteele hunger games #funny #my characters #not my art #long post

[bubblegum-and-ciggarettes]

“I Am Not Starfire” Review

I would like to preface this by saying these are my own opinions and you are allowed to like/dislike this comic:)))

Okay, first off I’m getting straight to the point in that I did not like this graphic novel. The art and colors were nice and some of the concepts were good, but it was poorly executed and on the line of being harmful.

No, I do not mean “sjw” harmful in which the majority of backlash for this graphic novel came from. I don’t care that Mandy(Stars daughter) is a lesbian. And I don’t care that she’s overweight. In fact, I applaud the comic for at least not mentioning anything wrong with being lgbt and barely mentioning the fact that Mandy is overweight.

We need to learn that yes, addressing things like homophobia, racism, body shaming, sexism is an issue, but we need to normalize it in media and speak out about it in person. Even if catcalling, rape, homophobia is depicted as wrong in a comic, it still fuels that hatred from those people instead of normalizing these things. Hence why being called straight and white are “normal” to those hateful people. (Which I don’t agree with obviously.)

And on that note, THAT is why this comic is harmful. Not ONLY is Star slut shamed by her own daughter, who, btw, rags on Star not liking her appearance even though Star literally has not said anything about it and is supportive of her, but she’s also talked about how hot she is by other students/people in a degrading manner.

There’s nothing wrong with being sexy, but this comic both insults Star for being sexy while also tries to show being objectified is wrong bc the people who do so are assholes. You can call a character pretty without having at least one male character shout something gross, which leads back to my whole normalizing argument.

It is harmful for Mandy, the main character we’re supposed to be rooting for, to shame her own mother for dressing how she likes, and then complains her mother doesn’t like how she looks or acts. Which??? Star doesn’t??? She never says anything about Mandys weight, hair, attitude, or grades except for the fight about Mandy walking out of the SAT.

That’s not okay. You can’t have a character wanting to be excepted for who she is while hating on everyone else.

She literally has the “I’m not like other girls” attitude and that is the best way to describe it.

Probably doesn’t help she was made practically as a self insert by a woman who clearly doesn’t know how teenagers work and was cast aside during her high school years.

I mean, seriously? Having two popular kids be mean and talk about leggings and carbs while their most popular friend rolls their eyes? Which 2000 teen movie is this one from? And like, leggings have been in style for a while now. LuLu Lemon leggings? Ever heard of them? Literally every popular so called “basic” girl has them?

What would’ve been cool is to see Mandy grow out of her “I hate girls faze”, which, is a thing most girls go through in middle school/high school until they learn slut shaming isn’t okay. That would’ve been a nice way to reconcile with her mother. The realization that “oh shit I’ve been hating my mother because of what OTHER people think and say about her. I’ve been shaming her in my head for wearing “revealing” clothes because I’m mad at how other people flock to her while I’m an outcast.” Would’ve been way better.

And the whole Blackfire thing was super rushed, and brings more questions. Why didn’t Star just fight her? She clearly can. Star would never let Blackfire hurt anyone, let alone her daughter. And what’s the point of Mandy complaining shes different and won’t live up to expectations of the PEOPLE AROUND HER not her mother, if she does in the end? She didn’t NEED to get powers, even though it was pretty obvious she would. And it would’ve tied up the story nicely if she didn’t. Hell, Star doesn’t even WANT her to be a hero.

Lastly, the love interest. She was sweet, kind, popular, and accepting. Everything Star is. I thought maybe this graphic novel would have a part where Mandy is upset because she feels Star likes her crush as a better daughter than her, but, no. She’s just a sweet girl who’s way too good for Mandy. Their whole conflict was bc she posted a picture of her with the Titans, when it was established she always posts pictures of her face and is seemed to be outgoing. And she did it because of a dare? Like literally nothing was her own fault. And even if it was, she met a bunch of heroes. Who wouldn’t take a picture with them and post it?

Mandy should’ve seen her taking the photo right? So why didn’t she just say “hey please don’t post that right now?”

Also there’s the whole mystery of her father. Which both slightly slut shames Kori because of the possibilities but at the same time heavily implies Dick is her father. Why Dick wouldn’t stay with his own daughter or let her know? Idk.

In conclusion, this comic was very bad. Not because of Mandys appearance and sexual orientation, but because of her character. Her whole thing is “I’m not like other girls”, “it’s not a phase mom”, and “you just don’t understand me.” That’s the best way to sum up her character. Star was so sweet while she was bratty. Her love interest was like a mini Star who she loved even though they have the same personality and everything. Mandy never really learned anything until Star was presumed dead/badly injured by Blackfire. Mandy was rude, slut shamed Star, and was written by someone who doesn’t understand high school and hates the “popular” kids. Lovely art and colors, shitty writing and concepts.

Overall rating: 1/10. I really did not like this comic. Dick was the best part for me which I hope says a lot.

#dc #dc comics #robin #I am not starfire #dick Grayson #nightwing #starfire #kori anders #Mandy #mandy anders #mandy grayson???

[owlmylove]

Just had the very distressing thought that if I ever want to have a girlfriend I'm gonna have to TALK to a girl?!?!??!?!?!?

I'd have to talk to a girl that I LIKE and HAVE A CRUSH ON?!?!? Impossible! Please help a distressed lesbian if you have any advice

okay so: in my personal experience 90% of all lesbian flirting is eyeing up fellow women to discreetly try to determine if they, too, are wlw. then you compliment each others button downs and never speak to each other again

BUT if you would like to painstakingly attempt to challenge the starfish fallacy then read on for my comprehensive guide on flirting w/ women! (credentials: i have accidentally flirted with So Many Women oh my god)

first up: start with the art of compliments! if you're too shy to tell a girl they're gorg out of nowhere, then focus on their clothing, their haircuts, their cool shoes, the patches on their denim jackets, etc. opening a convo with a compliment is one of the easiest shortcuts, as it neatly prevents you from having to come up w/ a witty rejoinder right off the bat (save those for later)

physical proximity makes it easy to do this to someone standing or sitting next to you. if, however, they're on the other side of the room/otherwise engaged, it gets trickier. if ur confident enough to walk up to a girl in a coffeeshop + compliment her, GO FOR IT. but if you're too anxious to just coldcall her, approach with a question.

you can warp the compliment to fit the question, i.e. "Hey! Sorry to interrupt [your reading], but your book looks super interesting/I've seen it around & am debating whether to buy it. Would you recommend it?" or, re: outfits/haircuts "Hey! Your ____ is super cute, can I ask where you got it [done]?" if they're a classmate/coworker, you can make it even less direct: "Hey! Do you know when we're scheduled to do ____?" (<- this one comes w/ the perk of, pending her response, immediately asking for her # to swap shifts or trade notes, which can quickly allow for inviting her to a study group/after work drinks with coworkers. speedrun!!)

once Conversation is Initiated, maintain eye contact, listen attentively to their replies, and keep smiling/smizing. if they're reticent, follow up with more questions unless you're getting fuck off vibes ("I'm trying to get more into reading lately, would you have any other reccs?" or, "I haven't found a hairstylist yet since I moved here from _____, are there any other local spots you'd recommend?")

BUT if they're returning eye contact, smiling, and keeping open body language towards you, make it a full-on convo! offer some personal details in return, don't be afraid to make (non-risky!!!!) jokes, and (if you can control when & where you're moving, i.e. not during a job or class) have a built-in exit.

even if convos are going good, it's polite (+ leaves them wanting more via scarcity principle, etc. etc.) to end a brief first-time convo after a few minutes, ideally before the energy winds down & you're left feeling awkward. "it's been so lovely meeting you! [insert name here], right? I've got to get going, but thanks for the ___!" if you wanna play the long game/are in a coffeeshop/aren't confident enough yet (no shame!) ask if she comes here regularly and say you hope to see her around sometime soon.

if you've managed to get a good enough energy going: ask if she has an insta/social media you could get for _____ purpose, i.e. letting her know if you like the book/music/media she recc'd or asking for more local spots. IF, however, you don't wanna put yourself at the whim of her generosity: give yourself a cheat code during the initial conversation.

namely; reference something you'd recommend, think she'd find funny, or can't believe she hasn't seen yet, etc. etc. then, at the end of the convo, you can naturally offer "Oh! Lemme send you that X I mentioned--do you have an insta/social?" et voila. asking for social is always less awk/direct than asking for phone numbers, AND it lets the flirtee decide whether she wants to offer that level of trust just yet

if you're not coldcall flirting a girl in public, but rather have an object of your affections at work or school: this formula works p. much the same, but on a slower scale (if you don't use my speedrun ofc) start building a rapport via compliments/questions, progress to chatting briefly whenever you see each other, and third step: say "I saw something yesterday that totally reminded me of you/I just have to send to you!! Here-do I have your insta yet?"

once you have someone's insta: continue chatting when you see them irl/replying to their stories over social, and see if you can pay close enough attention to what she likes to do. judging by the number of accidental lesbian dates i've been on, it's probably

art museum

botanical gardens, or

burlesque shows

however, hikes, used bookstores, underground shows, and grocery shopping together for a subsequent picnic also feature prominently. invite her to do whatever activity you think you'd both enjoy most (over social or irl, whichever you're comfortable with [tho irl gives you a better judge of facial expressions/body language]) and boom. if she says yes, shoot back "it's a date!" after setting the day/time, bc if she's anywhere near as clueless as i am (i'm so sorry wlw) they may honestly think you're still just friends.

if, over the course of your irl convos or DMs, you have the chance to casually mention your sexuality (patches, pride is coming up, mention "my teenage crush/my ex-girlfriend") and ask for hers, go for it. if you can be direct: ask directly. it will save you time, trouble, and mild heartbreak. but if you suffer from the conflict avoidance that plagues lo so many of us: just lean into the subtext.

offer your celebrity crushes and ask what hers are. mention an ex (BRIEFLY, in connection to another topic entirely [she recc'd this cool band to me!] and always in a positive context). wear birkenstocks or docs and say Portrait of a Lady on Fire is the best film of all time, say you listen to girl in red or w/e those charming youths do. just lay the foundation in barely-subtext and keep an eye on her responses, while accepting the risk of wooing what may or may not be a fellow wlw

once you are, in point of fact, ON the date: standard rules and rates apply. relax! be urself!! enjoy spending time with a cool person, regardless of what may or may not come of it!!!! if she seems into it lean into physical proximity, do the whole Tarzan hand-comparison wlw are addicted to, offer to feed her bites of food or swap sips of each other's drinks, and casually set intentions for future plans ("I've never heard of X cafe--we'll have to do that next time!" or, the infamous buy-her-smth-secretly and then offer "You can get mine next time c:")

again, the most important thing is to be sincere. it's good not to place too many expectations on the other person, but don't force yourself to be overly "chill" if you are not, in point of fact, a chill person. dating is always a process of getting to know one another, and it's important to be polite but pls don't feel like you have to follow a script or be someone you're not. just be you babe: you're already plenty lovable. godspeed + good luck!!<33

#long post #lesbian #wlw #how to flirt #lesbian dating advice #dating advice #sorry for the stereotypes but sometimes they're useful!!! #anonymous #reply

[what-the-fic-khr]

this hit me if only bc I thought “wouldn’t it be funny if Lambo just fucking sniffed someone lol” and then realised I’d have to come up with smth to surround it, here we are. anyways Bianchi’s about like, 22 here, and reader is the same age so. if Tsuna and co. were mostly 14 and I believe Bianchi was 17, that makes them 19, Ryohei 20. Lambo is 10 lol

character/s: bianchi, sawada tsunayoshi, gokudera hayato, lambo, reader-insert (gender-neutral)

word count: 803

warnings: alludes to having slept with Bianchi, all gender-neutral and not at all explicit tho. maybe dialogue heavy it’s what I’m best at lol

prompt: you and Bianchi are incredibly close “friends”

Bianchi was someone you knew well. The first meeting had been rocky, but you thought she was rather cool, and very pretty. She was fun to be around; a lot more so than others in this line of work.

It was only natural that at some point upon hearing about her chasing after Reborn, in another exciting attempt to murder some poor kid that didn’t know any better, you’d end up following eventually. You did, after some time.

Being as close as you were, you frequented the Sawada household quite often, too. Which didn’t bother you, or anyone else, really. Nana was a wonderfully kind woman to you, very welcoming. You’d then naturally met the younger occupants. Well…

You wouldn’t really say you were fond of kids, including teenagers. But you’d learnt they were actually quite funny, and all a little stupid, which made things a lot more fun. You’d learnt early that out of the four boys, two girls, three children and Reborn, only four had any true book smarts. Two of them were children. You’d say three, but Reborn would kill you.

You liked the girls; a little ditzy and airheaded, but cute and attentive of others. The boys… they were good. You still had a lot to learn about them.

This was prompted by one of the youngest—

A deep inhale at your side had jerked you out of your thoughts, and you whipped around to stare down at the child incredulously.

“Did you just fucking sniff me?”

He was a child. He was a child, he was a child, he was a-

“Huh? Yeah, obviously.”

He was a goddamn child. Calm down.

You shot Tsuna a cautious look, and he had the decency to look half mortified. “Does he… usually sniff people?”

“Uh, no- Um, I’m not sure what he’s doing.”

Hayato’s snort caused you to twitch. You got along with the kids just fine, they were exciting to be around. Bianchi had told you you would get along with them, though her younger brother had not taken a shine to you. Expected.

You returned your attention to Lambo, shifting. “Why did you sniff me-?”

“You smell different!”

Breathe in. Out.

“Do I…? What exactly do I usually smell like…?”

“Like you!”

Not helpful, but direct and to the point. That was typically how he handled things.

“What do I smell like now…?” Oh, you were nervous.

“Huh… Bianchi!”

You froze, staring down at him in silence before visibly twitching this time when Reborn let out an amused noise.

Now… you’d met the kids a few years ago. They were a lot younger, and a lot dumber, and, well, a lot more innocent. They’d gotten older since then. You wish they hadn’t.

“How do you know what she smells like?”

“You stayed over, right?”

God, this kid was persistent.

“I did.”

The two of you stared at each other, as collected as possible on your side.

“In her room? Why?”

“Because we’re friends…?” You offered carefully. “Right?”

“Oh, that makes sense.”

You watched him leave the room, and it was silent for a good, tense second.

“Gross!”

“Shut up! Don’t talk to me!”

“I wasn’t going to!”

You stormed off at the sound of Hayato fake gagging, a ‘bleugh’ echoing as you stomped down to Bianchi’s room.

She wasn’t surprised when you threw her room open.

“Yes-?”

“Lambo fucking sniffed me and said I smelt like you and now your shitty little brother knows I stayed the night!”

Bianchi stopped for a moment before snorting, shoulders shaking as you threw her door shut and trudged up to her. “Did he?”

“Yes! Don’t laugh!”

She pet her lap, and you obeyed immediately, getting comfortable on her legs. She swung her desk chair side to side in an attempt to comfort you.

“Well, this could be an opening to get to know him.”

“Hah?” You stared at her for a moment. “Are you dumb? He didn’t even talk to me before this, why would he now? He’s a little punk, you know. He’s mean.”

She pet your hair down, nodding in understanding. “Push through adversity-“

“What part of this is adversity? Tell him to be nicer to me.”

“I actually think it’s rather funny. Do it yourself.”

You gaped, hitting her shoulder. Soft enough it wouldn’t hurt, hard enough to make her move with the motion.

“That’s terrible! Isn’t this your job as his sister?!”

Bianchi blinked up at you slowly before guiding your head down to her chest. “Don’t worry about it too much. He still has to grow a bit more.”

You huffed, draping your arms over the back of her chair, turning your head to get as comfy as the position would allow. “These brats are all weird as hell.”

“I thought you liked them?”

“They’re still little weirdos.”

#katekyo hitman reborn #khr #mine #self indulgent love you queen #bianchi #gokudera bianchi #complain about my tags and I’ll attack you #88 #khr imagines #katekyo hitman reborn imagines #katekyo hitman reborn x reader #khr x reader #bianchi x reader #i really thought she was 19 but idk where I got that from #think her age was given in the khr 77 book thing

[akkpipitphattana]

I don't understand why some people take such pleasure in saying "oh elu are shit, they're gonna break up, they're not realistic". Let's be real, it's skam france, nothing about it is realistic, including lola and maya relationship. It's a low budget web series people like to watch for enjoyment and a distraction from life. And if people want to adore some fictional relationship to get some joy from a fucked up world, it seems really petty to tear down either the fans ("they're crazy elu stans") or the fictional couple the fans adore ("there's no way they'd be together in real life") just to... I dunno, make some point? Make you feel superior or like you know better than the lowly elu fans? I don't just *you* personally, I mean so many on here.

i mean have you considered making fun of aspects of the show is how WE get enjoyment? you’re right, skam france isn’t at all realistic and that’s why we poke fun at it, including the way that they set up elu to have so many issues in their relationship and yet are somehow the “perfect couple.” it’s funny to talk about them getting a divorce and i enjoy talking about the way they wouldn’t last a day in real life, like i’m not being petty here. most of the time when i make fun of them as a couple, i’m not even coming for the fans, but it’s the elu stans that choose to insert themselves and defend their ship tooth and nail to a stranger on the internet who they could very easily block. that’s literally what i do when i see people talk about my beloved ships and characters in a way i don’t like, i block them or ignore it. so when they do decide to insert themselves, or i see them holding teenage girls to a higher standard than their precious boys, i’m gonna make fun of them a little. especially if they’re choosing the comment on my post about it or comment on an ask i got about them not being realistic like…. you didn’t have to do all that?

also it’s very obvious some of them aren’t getting enjoyment out of it??? one of my posts was literally about how some people are insisting they’re healthy and others are ignoring canon bc the idea of elu fighting at all made them upset like. some of them very obviously only want to think about a certain version of them. and that’s fine! do you! but if that’s what you want, don’t get mad at other people when they point out the bad things about the ship?? or just don’t like them??

#like yeah i agree if i were actively harassing any elu stans that’d be fucked up #but you don’t have to come to my blog! you don’t have to insert yourself onto my posts! you can block me! #also unimportant but mayla is definitely one of the more realistic aspects of the show like skdkdkd #they literally broke up bc of their issues like. huh #skam france #asks #nonnies

[iampikachuhearmeroar]

another unsolicited relationship advice post:

okay. i know that there’s probably thousands of relationship advice posts on here. but anyway. to my younger followers, if i have any:

if anyone that you’ve just met declares that you’re “girlfriend material” or “boyfriend material” and that you must simply meet their parents NOW! or some other ridiculously short interval (like a week say), instead of, idek, like a month or two into your relationship, know that that is a possible red flag for trying to push the relationship too fast.

i say this as again, bc on some buzzfeed fb post about supposed “nice guys” i commented about my high school stalker/creeper from 2012/2013. who, when i first met him in 2012 at public school, he insisted that after two days of knowing him that i simply “have to meet my (his) mum and my sisters right now! bc you’re girlfriend material and i LOVE you!”

like woah! dude! i’ve known you for a grand total of two fucking days! i absolutely don’t have to meet your family RIGHT NOW (although if i’d ever been stupid enough to actually date my stalker back then, i would’ve had to meet his mum or one of his 4 sisters/all of them at once; at some point anyway…. bc they would’ve had to drive us to dates etc bc neither of us had our Ps (provisional drivers licence here in aus) yet at the time)). because i’m pretty sure the normal window is about 1-2 months? maybe 3-4 months? why the fuck are you so obsessed with the term “girlfriend material”??? what the actual FUCK does that EVEN mean?? get away from me. bc this isn’t love. it’s something else, that i can’t put my finger on.

compare this to clear braces boy from catholic school, who literally took almost 3 years to ask me out; and to even ask for my number. when he’d finally asked for my number right before one set of the winter holidays at the end of term 2/before the start of term 3 in 2010, i was so oblivious as to why he wanted my number…. when he’d never wanted it/asked for it before.

so when he called me, while i was still on the bus home from school, i was panicking like “OH FUCK THATS WHY HE WANTED MY NUMBER!!! HE WANTS TO ASK ME OUT!!!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!! WHY THE FUCK AM I SO SLOW AND FUCKING DUMB???!!!” he never pressured me to meet his parents (although at 14/15 it was very obvious that that was a standard practice since we couldn’t drive ourselves anywhere lmao). we were basically on equal footing, except for my slowness with cottoning onto him asking me out and why he asked for my number lol.

CBB had never pressured and harassed me about my virginity. he had NEVER harassed me with porn, most especially while at school, unlike mr creeper who LOVED pulling out his porn filled phone and school laptop to show me his overly violent, degrading and aggressive porn. CBB’s flirting method was showing me norwegian black metal bands (or normal metal bands like parkway drive) and making me watch repeats of family guy on his ipod at lunch bc he loved family guy. he never brought up the term “girlfriend material” ever. he treated me like an actual person. and not his own personal fuck doll, that had holes that were conveniently for sticking his useless and clueless ass teenage dick in, again unlike creeper who was hellbent on wanting to act out his favourite violent etc porn on me to let him “take your virginity in a wonderful weekend of sex down the coast and you have to do all things that I LIKE BC THAT’S THAT AND I SAID SO!!!” 🤮🤮. although if i had progressed further than those few weeks with cbb, and my constant *karen from mean girls voice* *fake cough, fake cough* i’m sick *regina george voice* boo, you whore!” act every time i didn’t turn up on date that he’d asked me on…. maybe he could’ve treated me like that. but i’ll never know lol.

so cbb was unlike mr stalker; who was obsessed with my supposed “girlfriend material” status. mr stalker was obsessed with the fact that i had the ability and audacity to basically tell him “no”, by coyly letting him down with “my dad says i can’t date bc it distracts me from school and getting good marks 🙄😑” (which probably wasn’t true, looking back lmao)….. where he then whined PUBLICLY on facebook about it, with a status like “today sucks”… and then naming and shaming me in the comments when someone asked in the post comments what was wrong like: “*insert my name here* said no! she’s being a bitch!”. that at the time, made me roll my eyes and still does today when i think about it. because bro. i had literally only known you for two fucking days at that point. of course i’m going to say no. what the hell??? two days is nowhere near enough time to know a person well enough (although the conversation we had together on misguided trip to his house one day while we were wagging (skipping class/playing hooky for americans) aboriginal studies told me MORE THAN ENOUGH about his piece of shitness tbh) to “date” them imo.

because to me, the title “girlfriend material” doesn’t mean any fucking thing. but when it comes from a creep like mr stalker; it means “you’ll be my girlfriend forever and have my kids bc you’re such a nice girl and you’ll fix me bc that’s what nice girls like you do; bc you’re SO LOYAL AND NICE!” which i also saw as a MASSIVE RED FLAG back then, because we were literally 16yo kids (he literally told me this when we were on his bed in his bedroom in the aforementioned misguided trip to his house). and i also saw it as a red flag bc…. just because i’m “loyal” and “nice” doesn’t mean that i’ll spend LITERAL Y E A R S trying to “fix you” while you fuck around and never bother to change your behaviour all bc you think it’s “girly” to do just that. it definitely DOES NOT MEAN that i’ll have KIDS with you, what the actual fuck. like i’m a hopeless romantic, to an extent, mr creeper. but not to the extent where i’ll give myself up to someone like you, all because i’m “nice and caring” and it’s apparently what “nice girls do!!!” or whatever else fucked up guilt trip views you’ve got on why girls/women supposedly have to waste their time with and on you.

and also, on another front. CBB never FOLLOWED me home (considering he lived in a suburb 20mins away from mine lmao and we both lived at least 15mins away from the catholic school we attended) despite me telling him REPEATEDLY to “fuck off and walk home your way”….. whereas unfortunately, mr creeper lived just over the other side of my suburb.

so one day mr creeper decided to stalk me home (despite me saying the above “fuck off and walk home your way” comment constantly to him in the 10min walk home). and then when we got to my street and in front of my house he decided to joke that “oh now i know where your house and bedroom are, i’ll come to hide under your bed naked one day!!!! and when you get home (bc i’ll obvs do it when you’re out doing something), you’ll just have to FUCK ME because you’ll be so surprised that im there and ready to fuck you!” as if i’d be so overcome with supposed lust & love for him, after knowing that he’d broken into my room against my will and messed with my shit….. all for some cutesy love prank…. like in, idk, love actually (???) or himym (specifically the “naked man!” episode from season 4) or some other shitty romcom. bc no. you’re overstepping SO MANY fucking boundaries that i’d literally call the police on your stupid fucking stalker ass. what the actual fuck.

finally, cbb never forced me to try to kiss him, unlike mr stalker…. who whenever he got the chance, he’d grab my head and force me to kiss him…. and then gave me back the utterly disgusting & controlling GALL to tell me that i was “kissing wrong” and whinge/bitch that i “wasn’t into it”. and then he’d force me to kiss him again with a “im so sorry does this fix it 🥰🥺???” like NO???!!! forcefully kissing me DOES NOT FUCKING FIX ANYTHING YOU STUPID CUNT! please just get the FUCK away from me. like if you force me into anything, of course i’m not going to enthusiastically enjoy it??? and moreover, don’t you think it’s YOU who is “kissing wrong” (whatever the FUCK that bullshit actually means) and not me???? why do you think GRABBING MY HEAD and FORCING me to kiss you is appropriate in ANY of these situations????

just. to end this. to anyone and everyone, regardless of their gender/sexuality/age etc. NEVER trust anyone who uses the term “girlfriend material”/“boyfriend material”, to describe you, most especially when you’ve JUST MET them.

they’re using it as a means to control you and possibly trap you into an unhealthy (or potentially abusive) relationship like i would’ve had with my stalker/creeper. but most especially, this goes out to my younger followers, if i have any. be aware of this. watch out for the small red flags and run at the earliest time.

#life #about me #shut up ilona #relationships i guess #i’ve probably said this before lol #i can’t remember though

[itaruchi]

Obey me shopping date w the brothers hc + bonus lingerie store

Some obey me hc I made a while back

context: the brothers shopping date w/ mc or their s/o

Lucifer

both of you always wanted to go out on a shopping date however, he is kinda busy so it probably took longer before you two finally were able to go out shopping.

he doesn’t want others to know especially his bros cuz he thinks they’ll ruin your date.

(just like from a text in his card i forgot) he asks you to sneak out too right after he leaves so that it won’t be suspicious

After that, you finally met him at the mall and you two went on your shopping date.

he glanced at the lingerie store and now he has that devilish smirk on his face again

you were nervous cuz you have an idea what’s he thinking,, you bet he bought you some of those and he said he wants to see those on you

and other stuff you guys would probably need for alone time

Satan

he’s the one who asked you out on a shopping date

you were so happy and excited, you two often go out on coffee dates and stuff but this time, it will be a shopping date!

“do you need some help with those?” offers to carry ur stuff for u <3

as u two walk you spot a lingerie store

satan wondered what were u looking at, so he followed ur gaze

“do you want to check that one out y/n?”

u obvs didn’t see that one coming

u are now blushing, and told him “if it’s not too much....”

you bet he says it isn’t, and now the two of u entered

and of course u tried on some,, dude’s a fan of the lace ones, and he ended up picking one for you.

“you know, y/n...” he gets in real close, and whispers to your ear yes as the two of you are walking. 

“since i helped you out there, you wouldn’t mind to pay back the favor sometime, would you?”

Mammon

let’s be real, you were surprised when he asked you out on a shopping date.

“u-umm... y/n you wouldn’t happen to...uh-- er, well you just looked so lonely so now i’m doing you a favor! be grateful! you’ll be going on shopping w me!”

you: but i didn’t—

but before u could finish, he heads off he was probably denying and fighting w/ Levi about how he ain’t a ‘tsundere’

ends up being the one who buys a lot, and even tries to ‘bargain’ at some shops

you facepalmed a lot that day

but he bought u something.... he gave it to u when u two got home

u were feeling soft and shit but then he goes the typical “be thankful the great mammon took time to get you that!”

which sends u rolling ur eyes but smiling bc u were actually happy <3

Levi

it was ur rest day, u have no classes nor schoolworks. this day was supposed to be your ‘pamper’ day for yourself

but nah, levi had other plans

he barges into ur room early in the morning “GET UP NORMIE, WE’RE GOING SHOPPING”

you fell down your bed face first

“I SAID GET UP! WE’RE GOING TO BE LATE! THE GAME I’VE BEEN WANTING FOR SO LONG is on sale and they don’t do deliveries!”

he leaves you in your room, feeling like shit but u mutter something but you know you have no choice but to come

it ended up as the two of you waiting in a long ass line outside of a game store

“ugh, this is your fault y/n! If we weren’t late, i could’ve been playing right now!” insert more complains etc and how iTs sO uNfAir

needless to say it’s as if you were with a child, couple of hrs later he buys the game he wants and the two of u went home

he texts u “yo, come to my room” and so you did, the two of you ended up playing all night.

Asmodeus

you two actually have the ‘shopping dates’ scheduled

he tells u in advance, and maybe he keeps reminding you that actually... “don’t forget our shopping date y/n!” a lot of times in a day

maybe bc he’s scared no one would carry his shopping bags for him

but yes. that’s usually how it goes. you two shop ‘til your feet are about to give up

“y/n, would you be a dear and hold this for meeee~?” he says, not bothering to let u answer as he shoves all the shopping bags to you

you see a chair inside a store and it’s as if the gods heard your prayers

as expected he becomes a lil too extra and buys things he doesn’t need

and that goes for you as well. he actually bought you a lot of new dresses, outfits etc. even tho you insisted you weren’t going to use it

but shopping dates with asmo are actually fun, it’s just u become some kinda guard each time lol

Beelzebub

you two were just hanging around in your room then his stomach grumbles lol

“you hungry?” you asked the obvious. he nods and you laugh

you invited beel to eat outside, and maybe hang while u guys are at it

you guys couldn’t decide where to eat tbh

so the first restaurant you see it is!

but wait there’s more. i mean duh, it’s beel

it ended up as you guys eating in at least ten restaurants

you were already full after the first one so it’s just beel eating

but you wanted to keep him company soooo.... you just stood there like some lovestruck teenage girl watching her bf eat for the first time

when you guys got home, he thanked you for accompanying him

he was about to give you a goodnight kiss

but his stomach grumbled once again

he blushes in embarrassment, but you just laughed and you bet you ordered food and had a movie marathon that night.

Belphegor

 “Belphie, let’s go” zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

oh yes you two planned a shopping date but you’re struggling to get him off the bed.

but when he saw the look on your face, he couldn’t resist so dude got up fast LMAO

he was kinda complaining while the two of you were shopping 

there was a time where he fell asleep waiting for you

you would’ve thought “aww <3″ but then you remembered you guys were in public, so you woke his ass up

you felt bad for making him wait so you told him you two were going home.

when you got home, you tried the lingerie you bought again

cue: someone opening the door

it was belphie, he stood there in shock but his face was RED AF

you are as red as a tomato as well, but you asked why was he here

he said he was going to sleep in your room but now that he saw you, you guys now have other plans

#obey me #shall we date obey me #obey me shall we date #obey me! #obey me one master to rule them all #devildom #obey me headcanons #lucifer headcanons #asmodeus headcanons #satan headcanons #leviathan headcanons #mammon headcanons

[writingsteph]

This is kind of a weird request... for the mal and christen thing (or christen x reader insert if you’d like; I like both), could there be a thing where christen gets jelly when some other person starts become like a mama bear and takes care of mal (or the reader if you do it), bc christen was away for a bit. When she comes back she notices that even though their baby is happy she’s back, she also likes being around the other mama bear. Chris gets jelly and insecure, but her baby chooses her.

Here you go! Also, imagine a world where the whole USNWT team always live together? What?! I wish lol....I didn’t explain why Christen was gone just imagine that for yourself I suppose. 

Christen scanned the airport after exiting her plane. It’d been a hard two weeks away from her team, but it was especially hard to be away from their youngest forward. Her Mal Bear. They’d texted and called each other but it just wasn’t enough for the more experienced player. She couldn’t wait to spend time with her. 

“Christen! Chris! Mama!” The older woman’s ears found Mal before her eyes could. Her legs sped up and finally she saw Mallory with Kelly just a few steps behind. The girl was wearing short jean shorts and a large Nike tshirt that almost swallowed her whole. A sight that the older forward had sorely missed. Press stopped, dropping her bag and bending down with her arms open for the girl. 

Mallory jumped into them and felt as Christen easily stood up while holding her. “I missed you Mal Pal.”

Mallory only responded by nuzzling into the woman’s shoulder. She’d missed her mama Press too!

Christen looked over while adjusting Mallory in her arms, placing her on her hip, “Hey Kelly.”

Kelly smiled wide. Mallory was such a mama’s girl. She did her best to keep it hidden from the younger players on the team but all of the veterans knew their dynamic well, “We all missed you over here.” She grabbed the woman’s bag and led them towards the car, “Mal and I had a lot of fun though.”

“We did!” Mallory moved her head up from Christen’s shoulder excitedly, “Kelly and I played lotsa pranks. It was so fun!”

Press chuckled and shook her head, “Did you get aunty Tobin good?”

“Yeah! She fell when we scared her and I almost peed my pants laughing.” Mallory started giggling just thinking about it, “Aunty Tobin was so mad she wrestled aunt Kelley to the floor!”

“Yeah and gave me a whole bruise!” Kelly chimed in clumsily placing Christen’s luggage in the car. Christen patted Mallory’s bottom softly as Kelley adjusted the luggage in the trunk.

“Alright ladybug, time to put you down so we can get in the car.”

Mallory whined but allowed the movement, “Can I get shotgun?” She asked Christen. The older woman hid her surprise, she had fully expected the girl to want to sit with her in the back, “Sure, baby. Go ahead.”

The whole way to the hotel Mallory kept telling stories about all the things she and Kelley did. Christen listened intently and laughed along, but there was a twinge of jealousy at the center of her chest. It seemed that they were inseperable. And honestly, Kelley was a free spirit and playful in a way that Christen wasn’t. 

Doubt bubbled up in her stomach. Did Mallory prefer Kelly over her now?

Shit, stop thinking like that!

Once at the hotel, Christen dropped her things off in her designated room, feeling rather sullen. Mallory had told her motherly figure that she would be in Kelley’s room. 

“I’ll leave the door open for you, if you wanna join us.” Kelly offered, “We’re trying to finish this series we started. Well, more like binge, but you know what I mean.”

They had three days off before training started and Christen had wanted to spend as much of it with Mallory as she could, but it seemed her little one had other plans. Taking it on the chin, Christen acted as if it didn't bother her. Worst of all, when she went to check on them Mallory was cuddled into Kelly’s side!

Kelly put a finger up to her lips, “She’s sleepy.” The defender whispered, running her hands through Mallory’s hair, the teenager’s eyes were fluttering open and closed. 

Christen stood by the wall, a forlorn smile on her face. Her little one looked so small and vulnerable, “Can you make sure she doesn’t sleep more than an two hours? She’ll sleep for days if I let her.”

“No worries.” Kelly nodded, her voice still hushed, “I know she’s a pill to get to sleep so I usually only let her take 45 minute naps.”

Christen swallowed the lump in her throat, “She’s been sleeping with you?” Mallory hadn’t mentioned that. 

“At first it was because she really missed you and Tobin wasn’t around. Now, she just comes into my room because it’s closer than Tobin’s.”

“Aunnnttiiieeeee.” Mallory moaned. All this noise was bothering her!, “Sleeeeepppyyy.”

Kelly chuckled, “Okay baby. Take a nap. I’m sorry, we’ll stop talking.”

Christen took in a breath and walked further in, only to give her little one a small kiss before walking back out. All the while she wished it could be her in Kelly’s place. She wanted to be the one cuddling her ladybug.

“Well if it isn’t my bestest BEST friend.” She heard Tobin’s voice the moment she opened her room door. 

That certainly made Christen smile. Shoulders that were once tense, fell to a relaxed position as she moved to hug the midfielder. 

“What’s wrong Press? I saw your face when you walked in that door. It was like someone ran over your puppy or something.”

Christen sighed, letting herself fall onto the bed. Tobin copied her position, “Mallory seems so....enamored, with Kelly.”

Tobin smirked a bit. Ahhh, yes. Press was jealous. “She’s been spending a lot of time with her. But mostly because Kelly is crazy and keeps Mal laughing.”

“But it seems more than that. She’s taking a nap with her, and they held hands walking into the hotel. I just, I don’t know, it’s been two weeks since I’ve seen her! And, and it seems like she doesn’t need me.”

Tobin shook her head and turned to lazily place an arm around Christen’s body, “C, let me tell you how far from the truth that is. When we landed earlier than you did and it hit her that you wouldn’t be here for a while she was a mess. She broke down crying and was going to call you but Lindsey had teased her for it.”

Christen sat up, feeling incredibly protective, “Why didn’t you tell me?!”

“Whoah, whoah, whoah. Let me finish telling you everything, THEN you can rake me over the coals.”

The forward narrowed her eyes at her friend, “Fine. Continue.”

“You know how your Mal Pal is about the girls catching her at her most childish. Kelly came to the rescue though. She scolded Lindsey reminding her that she always cries when tournaments are over and we part ways. Mal kind of stuck to her after that. But Kelly and me have had to console her about the fact that you haven’t been here about 3 times at least.”

“I don’t understand why she didnt call me to tell me. I told her she could text or call me if she missed me!” Christen sighed, feeling awful that Mallory had been struggling as much as she had and hiding it. 

“Because you know she tries hard to act tough.”

Christen let out an exasperated huff, “I dare Lindsey to make fun of her in front of me. If she hadn’t bruised my baby girl’s ego, she would’ve called me. God damn it.”

Tobin rolled her eyes, “Don’t worry, when I caught Linds in the hallway by herself I set her straight.”

Press rose her eyebrow curiously, “What did you do?”

“I gave her a few smacks to her seat, just like Hope used to do with me when I got out of line.” She was thoroughly embarrassed and apologetic, I don’t think she’ll be making fun of Mallory about her missing you again. 

“Good.” Press murmured, laying right back down. 

Ten minutes later Tobin had convinced Press to come to the pool. Christen had just put on her bikini top when a knock on her door was heard. She moved to open it clad in her shorts and white bikini top. She was surprised to see Kelly, but her worried look set her on edge, “Hey Kels. Is everything okay?”

“Mal had a bit of a bad dream and she wanted me to get you. I called your phone but you didn’t answer.”

Her phone was still on airplane mode. She had completely forgotten to turn it off! Not thinking twice Christen told Tobin to go on without her and left the room with Kelly behind. 

The midfielder shook her head, “I could’ve guessed that. Give her a kiss from me!”

“Mally, sweetheart?” Christen came in and saw her baby in the middle of the bed crying. She knew that the girl had just worked herself up even more since having woken up from the dream. Her face was red and she was sweating.

Hearing Christen’s concerned voice was all Mal needed to break down even more. She wanted her mommy to make everything better. Aunt Kelly tried, but it just wasn’t the same, and she didn’t have to settle for her aunties because Christen was here now!

Her cries turned harder and she outstretched her hands, “M-ma-ma!! Ihadabaddreaaammm!!!” 

“Oh honey.” Christen cooed sitting on the bed, “Shhhh. Mama’s here. It’s okay.” She rocked the girl in her arms, “It must’ve been a scary one, huh?”

There was no place like mama’s arms, “Y-yes!! You, you had to leave again, mama!!” She cried some more and tightened her hold onto Christen. 

“I’m gonna get her some water.” Kelly said quietly, hoping to give the mother and daughter some privacy. 

Press’ heart sagged. Her poor baby. She hated that she had ever even thought that her place in Mal’s life was replaceable. They needed each other. 

“I’m not leaving. I’m right here. Hmmmm? You see me, right?” 

Mallory nodded as she hiccupped. 

“And you can hear me and I’m right here hugging you and giving you snuggles just like my little Mal Bear likes!” She shook them both a little making Mallory giggle through her cries. 

“I missed you so much mommy.” Mallory finally admitted. 

“Oh Mallie, I missed you so much too.” Christen felt the tears in her eyes. She tried to will them back. Maybe she hadn’t realized how much she missed Mallory as well. They stayed in this embrace until Mallory’s cries waned. Kelly had dropped the water off and decided to leave them alone, giving Christen a wink as she closed the door. 

The motherly figure gave the teen’s forehead a gentle kiss, “Let’s get you out of that t shirt honey. You’re so sweaty.”

Mallory complied and lifted her arms as Christen manuevered the shirt off of her, leaving the child in a sports bra and fruit covered panties. Christen held in her eye roll. Mallory preferred having as little material as possible on her legs and when in the comfort of a room she’d shed her bottoms immediately. 

“Did you take your shorts off, love?”

“Mhm.” Mal answered rubbing her eyes. She had finally noticed Christen’s attire, “Are you going swimming mama?” Her voice was hoarse from crying. 

“Nope! I’m staying with you.”

“Can we go to your room? And can I put one of your shirts on?” Mallory asked shyly. Christen’s scent soothed her. 

“Of course babe.” Christen found the girl’s shorts and handed them to her. The girl put them on and stared sadly at the hand that Press offered for her to take.

“What’s wrong ladybug?” 

“Can you carry me?”

“Always.”

#uswnt imagines #uswnt fic #mama press #baby mal #christen press #mallory pugh #christen press x Mallory pugh

[isolctions]

...........so let’s finally talk abt what the actual fucking fuck is wrong with ai’rina rue castillo, huh gang? :-)

(everyone go thank @armsdealing & @durcgs beating the anxiety out of me in order to post this info-dump.)

...before we get into things, now’s the part where i establish a warning for triggers to be discussed in this lengthy headcanon post. there’s gonna be some talks of mental illness, slight alcohol abuse, & breaking down topics of familial abuse, mental abuse, religious abuse, emotional manipulation, and elements of non-con. be warned.

a’ight, so look. i’ve hinted in between threads & development that rue had a not-so-fantastic upbringing that impacted how she perceives herself, how she interacts with others, (in terms of her career, at least) and how she views personal relationships, but i didn’t realize how........severely her upbringing messed with her mental health until i started working through how i wanted to plot out rue’s behavior for her next album release. at first, i had the idea that she decided to take more time for herself & sort of distance herself from the public / media circus plaguing her life so that she can create much more authentic music. then i actually listened to the EP that i’m basing her album off of and thought “...oh.” THEN, i looked over old meme responses & old threads / mentions of her family and how she grew up and thought, not for the last time since piecing everything together: “....oh. oh fucking boy.”

so, that horrible realization dawning on me, let’s talk about rue’s childhood.

i wrote a thing like, two years ago almost (that upon looking for last night, i realized i didn’t actually share it w/ anyone but alex in our discord server & only mentioned a portion of it in rue’s moodboard that i made) that talked vaguely about how rue felt growing up. and it’s worth noting that...she’s the middle of ten fucking siblings. and that’s just the brothers & sisters she knew of that stayed with their mother. and on top of that, not all of those siblings are the product of rue’s father, or even rue’s mother for that matter. and it’s also worth noting that rue not only grew up in poverty, but she grew up never having any actual space that had solely been her own, or even an article of clothing that had belonged entirely to her. so naturally, as a young child, rue sort of became torn between starved for attention & wanting someone to pay attention to her (whether that be her older siblings including her in something, whatever teacher they had for the next six months to call on her for something, for her mother to miraculously show up with her unknown father in tow one day, & for literally anyone to be her friend, pls god Notice her!!!) and for people to simply leave her the hell alone. obviously, this carried into adulthood.

and branching off from the whole “lack of space” point i made, rue wound up growing up to become increasingly more private as time went on because she literally cannot remember a single moment where she wasn’t squished between a bunch of people. driving around in their minivan? rue’s packed in the middle of the second row. nowhere to sleep while on the road? rue’s smacked between gigantic older brothers & clingy little siblings. need to use to bathroom? lmao, she better off going outside!!! gotta change clothes? yeah, good luck with that. it was to the point where, when rue got her first period, she was humiliated by it — not because ‘omg, am i a woman now?? wtf is this???’, but because she ruined the one good sheet that she slept on with her sisters & they were super pissed at her and her mother withheld pay from her for weeks. >:/

already, rue grew up never having shit to herself until the record deal. but she also dealt with literally...so much abuse from her mother. rue thought this was the norm growing up, because all of her siblings faced their mother’s wrath at some point & all of them eventually learned to just deal with the shit and do what she says if they wanted to avoid it. they all compartmentalized and repressed to varying degrees. there’s a lot in which rue has repressed so deeply, she doesn’t even remember if it seriously happened or if she was just making it up bc it was so fucking bizarre for a parent to act that way towards their child, lol?? (and this behavior of “i’m just going to do what you say bc i don’t want to deal with whatever bullshit you’re up to if i say no” also carried into business / personal relationships, which is...very Yikes it’s amazing she didn’t get scammed or worse!) 

so sure, people have complimented her for her exceptional manners & her cleanliness & how quiet / polite she is & how amazing her posture is, bc seriously, this girl will never experience back problems in her life bc her posture is so on par. but where rue typically smiles / responds bashfully, she can’t exactly just up and say: “oh, yeah, my mom used to slap the shit out of me ‘til i bruised if i spoke out of turn or talked back, and if i reached for anything in the store or put my elbows on the table she’d slap a ruler against my palms ‘til i got welts, and she’d make me read verses all night without sleep if i did anything wrong and make me straighten up and kneel on rice if i slouched or took a nap in church and humiliated me in public if i so much as looked at someone of the opposite sex on the street n oh, did i mention i also cleaned houses for rich millionaire snobs from ages twelve to sixteen and if they said or did literally anything to me i wasn’t allowed to defend myself?? ya i’m real proper :)”

(and normal ppl will go: “...................what the FUCK is WRONG with you????”)

but oh man, babe, we’re not done yet!!! rue, being the product of both a highly religious and a highly exploitative household...had difficulty when she started reaching puberty & noticing her classmates. plural, because it wasn’t just boys that she began to secretly have crushes on / fantasize abt, sexually or domestically. she also realized, oh shit, that she started looking at girls differently too. and that literally put the fear of god into her heart, bc if her mother ever found out that she was having non-platonic feelings for the girls in her classrooms, she wasn’t going to be pissed. her mom might have actually tried to kill her. or have her exorcised or something. she knew the shit would be severe, and she wanted no fucking parts of her mother or her siblings inserting the church into her personal life, thank u very much! so rue started suppressing her romantic feelings for people to the point where if adult rue receives intimacy, she’s like “...is this allowed? is this not illegal??????” while simultaneously being like “i will be a slut. just this once. as a Treat to teenage me. :>” regardless, rue learned to molotov cocktail literally any emotion or thought she had, bc she was paranoid that it would give her mother a vision.

now, onto the perils of exploitation...she should’ve been used to it really, what with her mother forcing herself & siblings to lure customers into their shop with promises of visions and palm readings and the wonders of the cards and overexerting their abilities. same with housekeeping, like being of service to people was normal! but when seventeen year old rue decided to sign a record deal and break from home, she wasn’t thinking critically about what the fuck all of this would entail. and as described in this headcanon post abt her discography, her early music was the product of allowing people much older & powerful than you to influence your work & manipulate your values. so rue was very much parading around as someone she wasn’t, someone much more confident and badass and self-assured than she really was, and she was so impressionable back then that it literally makes her sick to think back on it now. she calls it her puppy phase and phrases the eagerness to please execs as ‘tongue wagging’. homegirl hardly even knew her name anymore, bc all she was and all she would ever be was rue, the star, the vocal temptress. not ai’rina, the help or ai’rina, the seer, ai’rina, the weak little nobody. but later on, the subtle manipulation was less about decision making & how they wanted her to sound, and more about how they wanted to present the latest trophy star — because after all, she was pretty. people liked her. she sung really well. suitors weren’t too far off into the distant future. so why not kill two birds with one stone by having a high ranking label artist keep tabloids talking by being seen in public with a few heart throbs? surely, there’s no harm in manipulating an eighteen/nineteen year old’s love life! under the guise of improving her social skills & relations with fellow artists and the media and the like, rue gave into the pressures and let herself be taken out on dates & seen at awards shows with a few guys. no big deal. it was only for a night or so, she could handle the attention. then, one night appearances turned into week long appearances. pretending to date for only a month! completely innocent, positive exposure. :)

(adult rue, looking back @ younger rue: you stupid fucking BITCH-)

yeah, so once her label/management realized that she was turning into a hot commodity, they lost no sleep at allowing their nineteen year old artist to be seen ‘dating’ 20-24+ year old men occasionally. and whatever happened after their public appearances were none of their business. plus, she was good at pretending and being arm candy — so rue experienced her first kiss, her first dates, and her first times with people who she’s almost certain hardly remember their time with her, and really only got involved with her for a mutual career boost. very few of them does she actually remember in a positive light, and the ones that were positive, still depress her bc lmao all of it was fake, even if they were really nice & made it less like a chore and more like they actually wanted to be with her!! even fewer of them were actual relationships. meaning, said person asked her out of their own volition, not bc their managers thought it’d be a decent match on camera. it was evil, really, what her old label made of her. (like, she makes funny jokes that her first time having sex was awkward bc she had a vision halfway through that bummed her out but in reality it was just...really more of a transaction that made her feel icky n progressively worse abt herself until it happened more often and now she just doesn’t care anymore. sex is just sex, u know?? everything’s fake. why you gotta make it personal.) this whole fiasco took over the larger part of rue’s career from like, age nineteen to age twenty-two or so, and she suffered dramatically from this because what is even a genuine, authentic relationship at this point? what do u mean you want to get to know me? did ur manager tell you to ask so many damn questions & try to get to know me? obviously you want something from me bc that’s why everyone gets into a relationship or has sex with me, stop confessing feelings for me u fucking loser. >:/

like...rue doesn’t even have friends. outside of her relationship with marcelo / @armsdealing​ (which, AGAIN, i think was initially arranged to promote her song be honest, how fucking IRONIC), rue does not have any personal relationships with anyone. i mean, she likes her latest management team since switching labels...her hair stylist is rly cool & her make up artist is fun to vacation with...she met a few other celebrities at events that she occasionally texts & has dinner with...yeah, she’s basically a pretty hermit. her family is more or less out of the question — the few brothers & sisters she does still have a positive relationship with (like, four of them lol), they don’t see each other in person often / mainly communicate via groupchat and facetime calls when all of them have time. she tried visiting with her mother over the years, but the verbal & emotional abuse/curses placed on her/accusations of being an imp of satan for singing to the public/memories of being forced to perform psychic shows & clean for chump change keeps her from trying to mend that relationship. like, being gaslit by ur mother isn’t really the vibe, u know? and bottom line, rue simply is a very shy and socially stunted individual who does not know how to communicate like a normal human being anymore. hell, her life revolves around pretending for strangers at this point!

now, onto how...all of That ties into her behavior / state of mind during this next album. so, after riding the wave of success from her third album & the circus that came with that. rue sort of had a fucking existential crisis. came out of absolutely nowhere. (not nowhere — one of her brothers called her out of the blue and called her ai’rina and she literally went “who the fuck is that?”) told her label that she was taking some time in between albums bc she was creatively zapped or whatever bullshit excuse she came up with that somehow worked bc this new label was a little more understanding than the last. vacationed for a little, did some hot girl shit, bought a house, tried to see her mother again for whatever reason then got the shit slapped out of her and finally screamed at her to never touch her again unless she wanted to Throw Hands. cried and got drunk abt it. that took six months. bullshat to her label again, dropped like two songs to smooth things over, decided to focus on magic for a little to ground her, started partying with label mates then going home shitfaced & hungover every other morning. that took eight months. dropped one last song, promptly deleted her twitter, tried to write songs again, got a call from her mother and panicked and got drunk. that took a year. vacationed some more, got even drunker, was bed ridden for like three months because holy shit i’m having so many visions and if i see One More Thing my brain is going to explode, couldn’t separate the present from the future for weeks after that, told absolutely no one about that, cried every day & had an identity crisis, dyed her hair to appease the identity crisis goblins. that took a year and a half.

now, she just chilling. dyed her hair again. scaring her siblings halfway to death bc she keeps going on benders & sending cryptic texts abt the visions she’s getting but they’re so incomprehensible that they’re seriously considering moving in to get her fucking shit together. had a vision that she was married with kids and had a two week identity crisis appeased only by moving houses. (she was in a neighborhood with families...too much Drama and visions. turned into a really cool song tho.) started calling herself by her birth name of ai’rina in private. reactivated twitter to send cryptic tweets that her album is coming. working on said album. trying to drink less but kinda failing bc how is one simply supposed to make a highly personal dual album without alcohol??? prbly somewhere crying in marcelo’s lap or smthn. just vibes.

like...i feel like, in my head, the Theme of her project is wrapped up in identity. her relationship with fame and whatnot. trying to coax her childhood self out of its’ shell so that she can function like a normal goddamn person for once and re-establish her values. like, if someone went to any of rue’s residences right now, it’s just songbooks everywhere and wine glasses and her crystals and shit, bc she still has people’s futures to read for money. (yes, she never really got out of that portion of her childhood, but hey it pays.) it was all very confusing to experience at once while in bed at four in the morning & even though i tried organizing and debated on this, it’s still a Lot. which is why i am once again asking for plots that would allow her to dissect all these Things

so yeah. album four otw, with a side of confronting our childhood & facing our traumas!

#rue — facts #imagine me making a cohesive hc post #it wont happen but like imagine how sexy that would be #anyway this is long and me thinks stream of conscious hc posting is both therapeutic and Exhausting #but i had a lot of thots abt her that needed to be shared to...yeah #abuse tw #alcoholism tw #long post tw #i feel like that its always sunny meme??? yall know which one #but anyways this is somehow overwhelming n embarrassing that i typed so much so i am going to hiding! #UNLESS!...........u want to plot with this Disaster of a woman :eyes:

[madmadmilk]

tbh no offense but your post about white male centric media thing is kind of weird? i feel like it's super hypocritical bc you literally have a blog that predominantly writes about a white male actor in modern day settings (unlike mcu, star wars, and stranger things which are sci-fi).

also, like, does it make you feel "better" not being into predominantly white media and why? bc i see a lot of ppl on tumblr nowadays who are like "oh i'm into kpop (or any other poc artists/actors) now, thank god i stop liking *insert white artist/actor*" which just screams "i'm better than u bc i don't like white ppl". i mean i get it if these white ppl are problematic but most of them are not so i don't get why ppl do that??

🤷🏻‍♀️ lol again, i wasn’t gonna answer this cos i don’t wanna ‘be negative’ on ur feeds but lemme just clarify what i meant in > the post in question. <  lol you’re confusing the context of what i said.

first, i’m not offended by this. ppl are entitled to watch (or not watch) what they please, just as i am not obligated to watch every lil thing a pretty white boy is in. i already said it in the original post, but i don’t feel like sitting through a white male struggle movie, written by white men for a white (male) audience. that’s it lol, there’s no need to poke more at that. if you enjoy it, good for you! but not every film is going to b relevant to YOU. 

and just to help ya understand, here are some ‘critically acclaimed and recognizable’ movies/shows/series i simply do not care about:

Recent Oscar Noms like: Once Upon a Time in Hollywood, Marriage Story, Ford V. Ferrari

lmao actually, all Quentin Tarantino movies make me queasy, i,.e. Pulp Fiction, Kill Bill etc.

The Revenant and ‘bros in the wild’ stuff like that

La La Land

The Wolf of Wall Street

any movie set in like medieval europe & centers around a king

and while growing up, Pretty Little Liars, The Secret Life of an American Teenager, The Hunger Games series, The Divergent series, The Maze Runner series, Teen Wolf series –– i feel nothing towards them

it took my boyfriend A LOT of coaxing to get me to even start watching Marvel Movies, Star Wars, The Lord of the Rings, Game of Thrones

lol and i’ve never seen a lot of “famous american christmas classics”

lol keep in mind i’m like a lil filipino girl in america. admittedly, i’m pick and sensitive and i didn’t care much about movies growing up but now i have so much enthusiasm and love to give!! it’s just that sometimes some stories just do not resonate or reach out to you. i’ve really only felt seen by movies a handful of times. I know not every movie is going to have a version of “me” in it, but..... i’m also not going to sit and watch stuff i don’t care about.

now about fanfic: >>> not necessarily an ‘exception to the rule’ but, fantasy and fiction are usually fair and fine. a lot of fanfiction (i read/write) is written by women, people of color, of varied sexualities, of different identities, of diverse personalities–– that’s The Distinction. that’s already a drastic change of perspective, consideration, and understanding from mainstream hollywood. i’m literally here rn stomping my foot thinking about a milllion shitty action movie ‘hero-gets-the-girl™’ plotlines that are just absolute shit to me, because it lacks a certain touch. but to each their own~

and lol if you’re trying to apply that stereotype & generalization to me–– you don’t know or understand me at all. lol which is fair, we’re just two randoms on the internet but–– where the hell did i ever give you that impression? i simply said i’m not interested in most white-male-centric films. i’m passive towards them, not hateful, critical, and often pay it no mind. i just felt like saying it that day lol.

TBH, u need to look inside yourself if you feel offended by ppl saying “i like kpop, glad i dropped x-actor.” their transition of enjoyment shouldn’t mean anything to you, no matter how heavy-handed they do it. i don’t really condone ‘celebrity/media’ bashing, because it’s a waste of time but–– don’t take it personally lmao. if you perceive it as “i'm better than u bc i don't like white ppl” instead of “i’ve branched out and chosen to support POC music, actors, & media” then................ . .. . . ..  .. . .. ....  .. . .. .. .. ... .. .. .. .. . 🤷🏻‍♀️

we watch and support different movies and media because they make us feel something. we all have different tastes. enjoy what you enjoy, and just skip over things you don’t care about. don’t take someone’s differing opinions to heart, and if they make u upset lol just unfollow them. that’s it 👏🏼👏🏼.

#Anonymous #lol does this make sense #personal #madmadmilk #madwatch #long post