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ballcrusher74 · 4 months

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hello. are you. perhaps 👉👈 willing to talk about the inspector/faux. ive only seen cool arts and no context so im rather curious.

OK!!! I actually love rambling about my ocs so small questions like this make me day. I just get nervous LOL But! I will say, there's gonna probably be a bit I'm leaving out because it does involve my friends' characters and it's still an on-going thing atm (we tend to roleplay on lethal company as our guys. btw the oc group is called Cleanup Crew ! it explains the recent reblogs and new tags I've added on posts with this guy) AND this does also involve my own little interpretations of in-game mechanics and other things, but otherwise, I'll get the rest of him down!

Inspector, also originally known by the name of Terrance Conroy (or Terry), was a typical scavenger working under 'The Company' after a couple rough times on his home planet. (This information isn't necessarily set in stone, but the idea of him being a washed-up rock star before quitting his passion to get a job that pays his rent has been bouncing around in my brain.) He used to be a normal guy, trying to find a little hope in his desperate situation, and was a social butterfly. He tend to bounce from crew to crew, sometimes staying in some for only a couple days, and some for months. He was a very careful man, and looked out for his fellow crew members.

And then, one day, his first death on the job happens.

But instead of being greeted by a bright white light at the end of a tunnel, or complete pitch darkness, he appears on the ship again- completely physically fine.

This.. confuses him at first, yet he continues on.

And then he dies again. And again, and again. Over and over, the more deaths he's endured, the more he comes to a morbid realization that he can't truly die, nor can those around him. He tries to keep this truth hidden away from the others, as they seem to not have mentioned it at all before. He remembers everything. Every time he was ripped to shreds by an eyeless dog, every time he blew up into pieces from a landmine, every time he was shot multiple times, every time he was left behind or ejected as part of the disciplinary process- He felt it all and remembered it all. This goes on for the course of years (around 8-10 roughly) and over that course of time, he begins to grow very careless. What's the point of saving someone if they'll just come back? What's the use of tears when you're only a couple dollars off quota with a shovel in hand?

What's the point of it all? And with that carelessness comes selfishness into the picture. With how long he's been stuck in the cycle, he has become a very manipulative person, putting up a playful and nice persona on the outside- almost sickeningly sweet- in order to help other's do his bidding. He believes that if he were to cause so much chaos, disorder, and disruption within a crew, to where it's like animals mauling each other apart, he'd be able to break free from it himself. He doesn't care anymore about leaving others behind. He's desperate at this point to find a way out. Faux, who is an alter ego / disguise for Inspector, ties more into the on-going events right now, but I can give a basic rundown on his personality. He's a klutzy and quiet man, typically only talking to others when it's just him and them, and nobody else around, playing himself off as a selective mute. Since this is just Inspector in a jazzy little jester outfit, he still possesses all the traits of that man, just hidden away as to not blow his cover. He's still tugging on the strings in some way, people just don't realize. Sure, he's off putting and just a tad bit strange, but how can a goofy man like that be terrifying?

WOOOW ok that's a lot more typing than expected, but here's also a couple fun facts about the guy !

He stands at 6 feet and 1 inch, and is a very lanky guy compared to others, but this wasn't always the case. He used to just stand at 5 feet and 6 inches, and had more normal human proportions. With how many times he has died and how long it's been of the cycle, it has fucked up his appearance a LOT. Other things include : his 'skin' being grey, his voice constantly sounding like it's coming from a walkie talkie, no visible neck, his face becoming the helmet itself (it still bleeds, but there's nothing in there), and inhumanly flexible.

The only thing left of him that represents his last strand of humanity, is a singular, dim eye behind the tape on his visor.

He is very much not a rational man anymore. He is quick to jump to things, and won't hesitant with his actions.

When waiting to return from death, he is able to manifest in someone's head as a disembodied voice, and will typically mock them, or try and manipulate them further. In this state, he can see everything through the eyes of the person he's haunting. ^ Fun fact about this! This was originally based off a stupid bit where my friend was streaming LC to me with other buddies on the game and I kept telling them to step on landmines and then kill someone for a promotion, and then Inspector was born!

and UH I think that's about it I have for the guy atm! If the rest of the cleanup crew gets dropped than I'll update this accordingly perhaps. As of right now, enjoy my oc slop 👍

#lethal company #lethal company oc #oc #cleanup crew #that inspector that i hate #render

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cl0wntwn · 7 months

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I HAVE BEEN INSPIRED TO TALK ABOUT MY CATHAL INTERP

ok hi wow i'm posting something that isn't what i usually do but i want to share because. idk i'm autistic abt cathal and my personal interp could be taken as a mischaracterization(?) of the character so i want to ramble. it's a mix of projections, my interpretations of things cathal says/does, and headcanons. this is just gonna be a glorified bulletpoint list with little to no organization im so sorry. this obviously be inspired by this post cause i love it so much i'm rotating it in my mind please go check it out. this whole ramble was supposed to go into the tags of that post but i think i can organize it better in a text post. i can also share it easier. but please go read that post if u haven't :D

first things first, cathal is depressed.

ain't that a shocker? he's been depressed for a while, but it never really got to "i don't want to do anything ever" until he was hired at C.O.G.S. inc., and even then it's not really the main reason. it does make it hard for him to do things that he's asked of. he's not incapable of doing things though, unless he's like. super unmotivated or sad.

cathal is a papa's boy.

he loves his dad. ever since he was a kid, he's loved his dad. he appreciates the patience he has with him, he appreciates that his dad is willing to take hit for him not doing his work, his dad is first and foremost in his mind. his dad comes before his own wellbeing. which goes into my next point well...

seeing his dad being destroyed every day hurts cathal bad.

it is the main reason he hates working at C.O.G.S. inc.. yeah, the work sucks, it leaves him drained most of the time (which i will hit later), but the fact that he has to watch his own father basically fall to his death every day makes it all so much worse. not to mention he has a clear view of it from his office.

how does cathal cope with this stuff?

by distracting himself. and not doing his work at all. the work he has to do already drains him and what little energy his depression gives him, but i don't think seeing your dad dying every day helps with motivation. he distracts himself by watching tv and ignoring what he needs to do.

this is not to say that he is unaware of the work he has to do, he knows all the work he puts off piles up on him. but piles of work doesn't seem like the most easy thing to do... so he just keeps putting it off and putting it off, and his dad lets him get away with it by making excuses for him. it stresses him out, which makes him not want to do it more, and the cycle continues...

also believe it or not, cathal actually thinks about the future and is very stressed about it.

he knows that when his dad either retires or... can't work anymore, cathal's going to be the new department lead. and because he has literally no experience working where he is now. he's scared he's gonna get thrown into work he doesn't know how to do or doesn't want to do.

so why did cathal apply at C.O.G.S. inc. in the first place?

short answer, he wanted to make his dad proud and didn't process the gravity of applying to C.O.G.S. inc.. he didn't think it would take so much effort and energy to work a full time job. but now that he's been in it for a while, he's afraid to quit. he doesn't want to upset his dad or make the lack of work he's done worse by throwing it on others.

aaaand that's all i can think of. if i can think of anything else i'll edit this post and reblog it or smth. thank u for reading <3

#toontown corporate clash #ttcc #multislacker #cathal bravecog

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onboardsorasora · 22 days

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HELLO i LOVE dog days and i wondered if you'd share with us anything about your writing process/experience! particularly since it was for a trope you hate? <3

Hello Lovely Em! I'm so glad you liked it, honestly I was so worried when I posted it because it's such a new trope for me 🥴

Putting most of it under the cut because I did my fave thing and got into a bit of a ramble and it's spoilery lol

I didn't know where to start tbh and ended up taking inspiration from our other fave collective trope- hidden omega.

Daniel being a golden retriever was the first idea I had, that felt like a no brainier. I didn't even consider like Australian Shepherds or any other breed.

I wrote it all in one go like the day I claimed the trope...then I just like tagged it for editing and.. left it alone for three weeks lmao. Which worked because I added more when I was editing.

In my vague 'outline' I wanted them to get together during the confrontation scene when Daniel was sick. And he would sneeze and transform again and Max would kiss him on the snout. Daniel was supposed to be the one confessing. But when I was writing it, Daniel was absolutely not going for that 🤣

Max is hurt and betrayed that daniel never trusted him to tell him and that he didnt even try after everything and daniel eventually confesses and says he was trying to protect himself ‘From what?’ ‘You’ ‘Me?’ ‘I love you…and i know you don’t feel the same and i’m ok with it. Honestly.’ ‘What? Daniel–’ ‘Its ok Max. im sorry i like… i should have told you. Im sorry i didnt. I was afraid to make it awkward. But i did that anyway. I’m gonna go.’ “Daniel i love you too’ “You don’t have to–’ “You are so silly. I love you, i have for years. Ask charles.” “Max?” “Im going to kiss you now.” “Ok.” They kiss. Daniel pulls back and sneeze and turns into a dog. Max laughs at him and kisses his snout

All in all this was a fun trope to explore, a wonderful situation to put our boys in. They have lots of cuddles now at home and Daniel gets Lando to spill the beans on him and Martin and Max only knew cause he caught them making out or something. 🤣🤣🤣

#dog days was fun. im so glad everyone liked it #dog days #answered #powerful-owl 💕

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georgiarts · 4 years

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oh it’s been a bad bad day today but there’s the tiny moon

#ugh gonna ramble in the tags otherwise ill never be able to sleep #my grandmas cat died today and i dont think i handled it very well when we were there #its sinking in now and im feeling worried that i wasnt sympathetic enough at all #i just could not process anything in the moment and i had to carry him back and help her look at his body and it was not ok #i had to walk away and i was panicked and she was looking for answers and all i could see it as was her torturing herself when really it #was maybe the opposite maybe searching for answers was her attempt to bringing herself comfort #she was already annoyed at me for not coming over the night before and had been complaining about me to other family members #so i think i came in already annoyed at her and then we didnt even get into the house before her and another lady were crying at the door #so then i didnt know how to handle that and didnt feel ok with her moving his body so much to kinda inspect him #i had to leave after getting a glimpse at how she’d moved him #i couldnt handle him looking like that #and her and my mum hadnt seen each other in months #im the only one in the family who sees her now because shes ostracised everyone else #so that was extra hard #and now i feel bad for how short i was with her but i was just panicking #but gosh imagine how she feels #i should have just gone along with everything for her sake because shes the one who has an empty home now #and now i have to go back tomorrow and bury him probably by myself and i am so worried #i just dont think i acted okay but i was just so wired and out of it and angry in the moment i dont even know #sorry for the thousands of tags i didnt want to write a post but i had to get it out somehow agh #what do i even tag this as i feel like it should have trigger warnings #tw: death #tw: animal injury #tw: animal death

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tobi-momo · 3 years

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Coming Out to the Boys as Lesbian :) (fem!reader)

Request:

Ofcofcofcofc i love this request and im glad yall keep coming to me for this😭 it makes me so happy that i can give you guys comfort

Type: Headcanon

Genre: A little angst, Fluff!, COMFORT

Pairings: NOTE THAT YOU ARE BEST FRIENDS NOT DATING (obvs?) Bakugou x Reader, Kirishima x Reader, Kaminari x Reader

Warnings: coming out, homophobic parents

Bakugou

when you come out to this man, it will probably be on accident- him probably teasing you or something because you were staring at a random guy

you said “no im staring at the girl”

he already knew tho- you didnt have to tell him

you would still freak out tho like ohmygodohmygodohmygod

he would look at you with a smirk bc you finally told him

hed be like “ya? it was fuckin obvious anyways.”

you would exhale sharply and relax a tiny bit before realizing something

“please dont tell anyone, oh my god especially not my parents they’ll probably kick me out or something” you rambled

hed look back at you like ‘wtf do you mean? why would they kick you out?’

so he asks just that.

and you tell him about your parents thoughts, feelings, beliefs on being a lesbian, or a part of the lgbtq+ community in general and he gets M A D

this man is your best friend- hes been to your house plenty of times and he knows your parents- like he never thought that they would be like this

you are gonna need to restrain this mf from actually killing your parents im not kidding

he will adopt you AJHFKD

he will make sure that you are okay to go through and this man is especially good at faking about you being straight if needed

i feel like if he finds you staring at a girl or flirting with one he would silently egg you on to go talk to her or shoot your shot (he would act like your a nuisance ab it lets be honest)

he really cares for you tho and will protect you from your mean parents

this did not make any sense? ohmygod sorry i hope you get the point sdjhsf

Kirishima

this man is shocked to say the least

he thought- he thought- he thought you were into guys???

you finally gain the courage to tell your best friend and he is SO mf happy for you but so shocked

he actually knows your parent’s beliefs and wrong opinions on being a part of the lovely community and so he is already hugging you

bc he knows it was really hard for you to do this and its still really scary to do this to literally anyone so he understand and is here for you :)

he will buy you things and make you feel comfortable to talk about these things with him

yall would be walking down the street and hed be like ‘hey look at that super cute girl!’

he would be sooo mf casual w you ab it

it would be hard for him to keep in the fact that youre gay tho- youll have to remind him a bunch to not tell anyone

will totally think hes your wing man too BAHHAH

<33 he loves you

Kaminari

this mf didnt even hear you while he was flirting with you

and when you told him and he was listening it didnt even process LMFAO

he fucking said “aw, dang!” bc he couldnt have you omfg

then he would proceed to flirt with you after

when you tell him not to tell anyone hed be like “i can do that!” then tells LITERALLY EVERYONE IN THE CLASS

luckily the ppl in class are trustable (except for grape juice cuz *gag*) so they didnt tell anyone (m*neta is the type to be like “you just havent been with the right man yet *wink wink*)

but once you tell him URGENTLY not to tell him bc of your parents hes like “oh shit. ok” - like it finally clicks?

he still flirts with you asf tho- what else did you expect?

he feels really bad for you so he helps you get girls hehe

he thinks hes so good at girl advice jfksjdfg but you just hear him out

he will just come up to you one day and be like “so, where we goin? i heard there’s a couple cute girls at the mall~” he wiggles his eyebrows oml such a goof

hes so cute tho and wouldnt trade you for anyone else so <3

wow i am terrible at this jc- but please enjoy hehe

tag list: @zerohawks @combat-wombatus @hitosushi

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sillyguyhotline · 3 years

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k. i finished logic route today and i'm beginning to play emotion route, but ngl, i'm not exactly sure if i'm the biggest fan of 3-1b so far? i sort of mentioned it in some of my ramblings last night but i do feel like the sense nankidai created earlier in the game, that everyone's actions have severe impact, have been diminished slightly. i feel like part of that is because of the introduction of the dolls; when you have a mechanic where an exact replica of the dead can be brought back to life, deaths begin to feel like they have less meaning. hence the whole q-taro thing. i do think that he got a satisfactory ending to his character arc, and his death definitely made me sad, but his doll just showing up and being like "yeah im not actually him im a doll lollll" and then fucking dying felt so rushed. same with alice/reko's death. maybe it's just because there's nobody left to significantly grieve the surviving yabusame sibling, but i honestly feel like everyone forgot about them dying as soon as they did. sara should have been a lot angrier imo. plus, we got 2 major human deaths and all the dummies got killed off. in the span of HALF a chapter. that just doesn't rub me the right way. it amazes me that a chapter segment that took me 9 hours to complete managed to feel so rushed, but it definitely did. deaths in this game don't feel consequential anymore, and it doesn't feel like nankidai did that on prupose. like i said yesterday, one of my favorite things about the game prior to chapter 3 was how human the deaths and the grief suffered afterwards felt. but now barely anyone bothers to acknowledge the deaths that occurred before this chapter, and the ones that do happen in this chapter don't feel processed that well. i'm really, REALLY hoping that this is because everything that's happened to sara in the logic route has desensitized her and that it'll be different in the emotion route, but that's probably not going to be the case.

i also mentioned this as a joke a few days ago, but the stakes feel so much lower. i mentioned that midori was just sort of fucking around and not really doing anything, and i don't like that very much. the group is essentially held to their own objectives. there's a timer for how long keiji has until he's incinerated, but it doesn't actually come into play in the game. in chapter 1, the threat of the oh-so-suspicious Main Game was looming over everyone's head. in chapter 2, the characters were held to clear time limits. even in 3-1a, they have a clear, floormaster-motivated objective of tagging him. now everyone, including the floormaster, is just fucking around and doing whatever and i'm not a huge fan of that.

shin just also isn't a threat during this chapter. at all. he has one offhanded line about how he views everyone as no different from midori (a sentiment that he already voiced almost word for word in 3-1a anyway) and that's it. my thoughts on this are kind of mixed. on one hand, i think it's kind of interesting that as much as shin promised to be a threat and to avenge kanna, the threat posed by saving him is actually the toll that his actions had on sara. his manipulation motivated sara to put more value into her own life, which consequently led to her voicing those thoughts to ranmaru and ranmaru literally fucking hanging either alice or reko. he turns sara into the monster she never wanted to be and compromises her leadership. i sort of like that. however, while that makes sense in terms of writing, it doesn't in terms of the story itself. you're telling me that he showed her one shitty ai and then was like "ok cool im just gonna be a chill member of the group now" ??? it just seems like another example of things no longer having consequence and i'm not a huge fan of that.

overall, it feels like nankidai set himself up to accomplish too much this chapter. he introduced too many new characters and too many new plot points, and addressing all of them came at the consequence of character development and the writing style from the previous chapters.

#ok im done whining for now lolol time to play the emotion route #3b spoilers

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seokjinsdisciple · 4 years

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Switched

jinyoung x reader

when you switch places with your twin sister to teach English in South Korea. You quickly find you’re worse at the job than you think. Luckily, kindergarten teacher Jinyoung helps you navigate the waters of teaching and help your class pass their end of the year exams.

requested, unedited

warnings: oh boy where do i even begin, sub jinyoung, baby boy and mommy used excessively (im not sorry), overstimulation (sort of), nipple play, jinyoung is just really subby and cute ok, let me know if im missing anything bc this is a mess

word count: 3.1 k

There was a certain way that your twin sister had about her that made it impossible to say no. She had used this against you her entire life, and it hadn’t stopped as you grew out of teenagers and became adults. In fact, her requests got more and more demanding. Which is how you found yourself on a 15-hour flight to South Korea.

It was a simple switch really, she had gotten pregnant and wanted you to fill in for her. She had spent about half of the year teaching English to 6th graders and couldn’t leave for half of the year. You were pretty positive that she had just told you that so she wouldn’t have to pay rent on the year-long lease she had signed, but honestly, you were kinda excited. Not about the kids, you had no idea what to do with them, but more so about living in a different country kinda thing.

The flight was long, and you spent the whole time watching movies, unable to sleep. So, admittedly you were exhausted when you stood in front of your new apartment. You made your way inside, and you had to be honest, the apartment was way nicer than your home back in the States. It was nowhere near as big, but it was filled with nicer, comfier furniture and a giant bed that you couldn’t resist.

You awoke with a start, rubbing your eyes and groaning. You had no time to waste since your first day in the classroom was supposed to be today. You hadn’t made any plans for your students, but you didn’t have enough time to make one. Scurrying around the apartment you pulled together a business casual outfit, grabbing a piece of toast from the toaster and hurrying out of the apartment with only one shoe on. The other shoe balanced delicately in your hands with a cup of coffee, and your toast.

By the time you made it into the school, You were more put together. You were still extremely nervous about meeting the students and you were praying that they would be nice to you. You weren’t too fond of kids, and, unlike your sister, you were terrible at interacting with them.

Your thoughts of the day were taking over, and as you desperately searched for your sister's classroom, you bumped into a broad chest.

“Hey, you ok y/s/n?” A handsome man asked, his sweater showing off his broad shoulders. You had no idea who this guy was, but damn your sister for failing to mention that someone so handsome existed. You smiled at him, your cheeks heating up as you stared, looking for some sort of name tag. You couldn’t find one.

“I’m ok, just kinda lost for some reason,” you laughed, “My brain hasn’t started yet, I guess.”

“Ah, well maybe I can point you in the right direction?” The man said, looking at you quizzically, you were clearly failing at convincing him you were actually your sister. If he had any questions, though, he didn’t ask them. Instead leading you down a winding hallway and into a classroom.

“Ah, it’s good to be back,” you smiled, praying that he wouldn’t be too suspicious, “Thanks for your help!”

The man just took one glance behind him, before deciding to just close the door of the classroom.

“So you’re the twin, right?”

“Uh, I don’t know what you mean…” You tried, glancing at the desk and seeing the picture of you and your sister. She could be a real idiot sometimes. The man just raised an eyebrow at you, glancing at the picture on the desk and then back at you.

“Listen, I know you aren’t y/s/n,” he stated, “she’s never this nice to me. Plus, what kind of teacher forgets where their classroom is?”

You let out a nervous chuckle at his accusation, it was only the first day and you had already been found out.

“Don’t worry,” he added, “I’m not gonna tell anyone. My name’s Jinyoung. It's nice to meet you…”

“YN,” you said, taking his outstretched hand and shaking it, “I really don’t want to get my sister in trouble, so it would be really great if you kept it a secret.”

“Like I said, I am not gonna tell anyone,” he smiled, “but you are going to need to learn everyone else's names if you are going to try and pull this off.”

That was how you found yourself studying the school’s website, trying to memorize faces and names, with Jinyoung’s tips about their respective personalities. One thing you learned was that your sister wasn’t liked here, probably another reason she hadn’t wanted to tell you who she was working with. You got to talking with Jinyoung and learned that he was a kindergarten teacher. You and Jinyoung talked through your planning period, at least that’s what he called it, and when you told him you had no clue what you were doing, he suggested putting on a movie, an English movie of course.

You stared at the list of names on your roster, Jinyoung laughing at your pathetic attempts to pronounce their names. He had to write out the pronunciation just so you could get it somewhat recognizable. As you called the students of your class up during the first period, you had them write an English name that you could call them by. It was just easier and the kids seemed to be relieved that you weren’t going to butcher their names, although you did feel kinda bad about not calling them by their names. You explained to them that you'd be spending this semester watching and dissecting movies before putting one on.

As time passed, this became your teaching method, watch a movie with the kids, and go over any questions about words that they had after the movie. You weren’t really sure if this was an effective way to teach English, but you didn’t have any better ideas. Jinyoung had become your only friend, as the rest of your school hated your sister, it just made sense. Especially because he knew about your little secret. It had become apparent that the two of you were attracted to each other. Both your students and he had started asking if the two of you were dating. You, of course, denied it, because he was just your friend. No matter how handsome he was. You shook thoughts of Jinyoung out of your head as you started to clean up the pizza party you had to help calm down the kids. You had never met kids who were as stressed out like these ones. Plus their exams were in a few days, and they needed a little break.

You let out a quiet curse word as a cough rang out from behind you.

“Any pizza left for me?” Jinyoung asked, his presence beside you sending you into the same thought process that you had been in before. You cleared your throat, reaching for a plate to hand to him.

“The leftovers are all yours,” you smiled, chuckling at his over-exaggerated hand heart that he sent your way.

“I was wondering if you wanted to get a drink tonight?” Jinyoung asked, a mouthful of pizza making his words hard to understand.

“What?” You laughed, “Chew your food first you monster.”

He just laughed with you, covering his mouth as he chewed, “Sorry, I was wondering if maybe you would want to get a drink with me tonight?”

“Ms. Y/L/N, you have to go with him!” One of your students whined, apparently he had forgotten his coat for recess. Jinyoung just grinned at you, and you couldn’t help but roll your eyes.

“Stay out of it,” you warned, shooing the boy back to recess. Your focused honed in, ignoring a grinning Jinyoung and busying yourself with tidying the plates and napkins.

“You should listen to him,” Jinyoung sang, heat flaming your cheeks as you looked at him.

“I’ll get drinks with you, but only if you SWEAR not to tell your kindergarteners, deal?”

At this, Jinyoung just chuckled, “It’s a deal, I’ll pick you up outside of your room at promptly at 4:30.”

It was your turn to laugh, the banter that the two of you often shared making a warm fuzz to fill your tummy. The fuzz that was normally only achieved through alcohol. You ignored the periods after lunch, your thoughts filling with Jinyoung. To be fair, most of the conversations your students were having were about you and Jinyoung too. The word of the date spreading quickly through the 6th grade, and you were assuming through the rest of the school.

Your nerves didn’t pick up until your students were dismissed. Frankly, you couldn’t stand the thought of grading worksheets when you knew what was in store for you later. You needed some time to relieve some stress, and you had a feeling that Jinyoung would help provide that for you.

Jinyoung was at the door of your classroom right when he said he would be, and his over the top bow made you chuckle as you collected your things. You weren’t sure exactly where you were going, but you knew Jinyoung would take you somewhere nice. He did.

When you walked into the Korean Barbeque restaurant, the smell of cooking meat filled your nose, and the sound of it sizzling on the grill had your heart beating faster. You hadn’t realized how hungry you are until you sat down and heard your stomach grumble.

“You should really take care of that,” Jinyoung laughed, lazily perusing the menu.

“Well then, order me some food,” you smiled, taking your hair down from the bun it was in. When you look back at Jinyoung, his eyes were darker, and if you could’ve seen his crotch, you were certain there would be a noticeable bulge.

“Excited for the food?” you asked, quirking an eyebrow at him.

“I’m thinking about dessert,” he smirked, his tongue wetting his lips.

This flirty banter continued all throughout dinner, your arousal growing by the time the both of you had finished your 3rd soju bottle.

Jinyoung’s cheeks were flushed red and you couldn’t help but smile at his drunken ramblings. When he paid for the dinner and stood up, he wobbled a little bit.

“Woah, there,” you laughed, watching his ears burn red as he steadied himself.

You walked together out of the door, his balance much better than it had been when he stood up.

“Listen, I’m not that drunk, just feeling a little fuzzy,” he said, his already red cheeks flushing even more.

“It’s ok Jinyoung, I’m feeling fuzzy too.”

You walked in silence for a moment, but you could feel Jinyoung’s eyes burning a hole into the side of your face. When you turned to look at him, he had a goofy grin on his face, and you couldn’t help but let out a laugh.

“I like making you laugh,” he whispered, grabbing your hand and interlocking it with his own. His hands were cold, but they warmed you up from the inside out. His thumb rubbing gently over your hand as you walked. He had your heart beating out of your chest, and by the time you made it to your front door, his body was pressed flush against you. His arms wrapped around your waist, and you both waddled into your apartment, Jinyoung refusing to let you go. When his face landed in the crook of your neck, your stomach flipped.

“Your hair smells good,” he sighed, his soft tone making you close your eyes and rest your head on his shoulder. You stood like that for a while, peaceful silence almost causing you to fall asleep. When Jinyoung started tonguing at your neck, you couldn’t help but let out a low whine. His actions sped up, and when you were desperate enough, you pulled him along behind you to your bedroom. Your lips found his, softly pressing against each other. His hands roamed your shirt, squeezing your boobs he deepened the kiss. When you pulled away, you both threw your shirts off, his hand reaching around to undo your bra. That’s when you first noticed it.

One hand became two hands trying to remove the garment, and then with two hands came a pout. You held back a smile as you reached behind yourself and unclasped the bra in one go. His pout just deepened, and ears so red they could probably be seen from miles away.

“Jinyoung,” you whispered, placing a chaste kiss on his lips as you pushed him gently down on the bed, “are you a virgin?”

Jinyoung’s hands found your waist, and as he pulled you onto his lap, he buried his head into your chest. You ran your fingers through his hair as he gently shook his head no.

“I’m just inexperienced,” he whispered, his head refusing to come out from your chest. You continued to massage his head, a whine leaving his throat as you helped him relax. When he started to nuzzle into your boobs, you weren’t expecting him to lick your nipple, and then take it into his mouth to harden it. He repeated his actions on the other side, your breaths hitching every so often as he sucked and bit. When he finally looked up and met your eyes, you almost squealed at how cute he was. His nose and cheeks were flushed a deep red, and his eyes were watery.

“Oh, baby boy,” you whispered as his pout deepened a low whine leaving his lips at the nickname, “What’s wrong?”

“-m ard,” he mumbled, hiding into your chest again. You just cooed at him, running your hands through his hair again.

“But baby, I have barely even touched you,” you said, “Do you want me to help you?”

You just tsked when Jinyoung nodded into your chest, speaking a little louder than before, “Use your words, baby boy.”

Jinyoung looked up at you, his lip trembling at your harsh tone. You caressed his cheek to soothe him, and that's when he said, “will you- will you please touch me?”

That was it, you were done for. You normally considered yourself to be a more sub leaning switch, but boy was this subby little baby making you go crazy. You pressed your lips onto him, reaching your hand down and pressing on his bulge. Jinyoung almost didn’t let go of you as you climbed off of his lap, but one glance at him had him looking down and loosening his arms from around your waist.

When you undid the button of his pants and allowed you to pull them down his legs you praised him. His pretty cock bobbing at your words.

“Do you like being complimented baby boy?”

Jinyoung nodded again, letting out a whimper as you slapped the inside of his thigh, “Yes, I do mommy.”

If you thought you were a goner before, you didn’t know what to think now. It was clear Jinyoung was going deeper into subspace, and holy shit you didn’t know how much you liked being called mommy.

“You’re such a good little boy, Jinyoungie,” you smiled, pressing a kiss to the tip of his cock, “and you have such a pretty cock.”

His whines at your teasing only intensified as you complimented him, “Look how big it is, baby,” you smirked, wrapping a hand around his cock and tugging once,” but you don’t even know what to do with a cock like this, do you baby?”

“N-, no mommy,” he hiccupped as you sank your mouth all the way down his length.

“It’s ok, love,” you smiled up at him, “Mommy will take care of you.”

His sniffles were just so cute, you couldn’t stand to tease him anymore. You slipped your skirt off, placing both of your hands on Jinyoung’s cheeks.

“Are you sure about this?” you asked, running your thumbs gently over his cheeks as he nodded, “Words, Jinyoung.”

“Yeah, god yeah, please,” he whined, gulping as you straddled him, sinking down until you had all of his length inside of you.

“You tell me if you wanna stop, ok baby?”

“Yes,” Jinyoung whined, letting out a broken moan as you began to ride him. His fingers gripped your hips, pretty moan after pretty moan leaving his mouth as you chased your high. You were worked up, he had worked you up. He was just so good, and once you set eyes on his cock you knew you wanted to feel him in you. Now, you could maneuver yourself so that he was hitting you in all of the right places. And your sweet little love was so so close, you could tell. His hips were almost running from you, sinking as far as he could into the bed to try to take some of the pleasure away. His moans gave him away as he clung to you.

“Mo-mommy, need to, need to come,” he whimpered, tears pricking his eyes at your silence. You kissed his nose and picked up your pace.

“You can come, little love,” you moaned, your heat clenching around him. He muttered a string of thank-yous, as you felt his cock twitching inside of you. You just kissed him, not wanting to hear his overstimulated moans as you kept riding him. But his mouth broke away, scrunched face as he moaned.

“M, mommy,” he whined, face still red and scrunched. You tried to calm him, slowing your hips to try to relieve some of the overstimulation, but that's when you felt it. His cock twitching in you again. You let out a groan and came with him. Your eyes rolling back into your head as you clenched around him. You relaxed around him, your hands finding his cheeks as you took a deep breath. You quickly looked up when you felt the wetness on his cheeks.

“What’s wrong love?”

“I was bad,” he sniffed, “Youngie came without permission.”

“You weren’t bad baby,” You smiled, pressing several kisses all over his face until he laughed, “you were the best boy.”

You let him pull you down across the bed, snuggling into your side and nuzzling into your neck. You fell asleep, and so did he soon after, both of you worn out.

You and Jinyoung spent the entire weekend together, laughing, making out and growing his experience. When you arrived at school on Monday, you were glowing. Your kids begged you to tell them if you went on that date, but you refused. At least until it was time for them to start their exam. In fact, you promised to tell them what happened (minus some details of course) if, and only if, they passed their exams.

Not a single person in your class failed.

#jinyoung x reader #jinyoung smut #jinyoung fluff #jinyoung scenarios #jinyoung angst #sub jinyoung #got7 smut #got7 scenarios #sub got7 #got7 fanfic #got7 fluff #got7 angst #got7 #jinyoung

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aurltas · 4 years

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author interview tag (!)

aaAAAA ty to @backcountry-deltora for tagging me!!! much loveee <333 i haven’t been looped into a tag game for so so long and this is making me feel 10000% better about the fact that i have not written a single fic related thing in MONTHS o)-( but i love to talk about writing and myself so here we go,,

Name: i went by crystal silvera on ffn and here for the longest time so a lot of ppl know me as crystal but my Real(TM) name is dani and my ao3 name is auritas so like take ur pick haha

Fandoms: currently in mxtx hell (im a mdzs main, to the shock of no one) but my og fandoms that i am still very much attached to are deltora quest (the OG og), young wizards, the raven cycle, and yuri on ice

Where you post: ao3 alllll the way babey (but i originated from ffn and still have some stuff up there.......it’s Not Good tho)

Most popular one-shot: oh boy i knew this was gonna be a popular one bc i only wrote like?? rambly reflective thematic pieces(?) before this, my First Attempt At Fluff lmao. even then, But we’re alive (because we bleed) still exceeded my expectations by far in terms of reception, probs bc mdzs was such an up and coming fandom at the time and i posted it right on the crest of that cql wave

Most popular multi-chapter fic: obviously where the light goes, also known as my beloved CHILD !!!! i don’t write multichaps anymore but this is 2 long ass chapters so ig that’s Technically a multichap haha,,, yeah i knew this one was gonna be popular for the same reasons as the previous one + the very intentional tipping of the scale i did here with the balance of fluff and other things. like this is just pure distilled sugar it’s so so fluffy

Favourite story you’ve written so far: oh mannnn i gotta say where the light goes. especially that first chapter, just,, damn. what was i ON ?? its so good!! what the heck!!! quite proud of my metaphor work there, even if balancing prose/poetry feel is very stilted at times . in terms of that balance i think i did a Really good job with and neither did the both of us bc i went back and reread where the light goes for inspiration and i was like “oh god this is DROWNING in metaphors i need to lighten it up a little”

Fic you were nervous to post: i was nervous about where the light goes bc i had such high expectations going in, like i Knew people were craving what i had but i was like, did i do it right?? will this be my breakthrough in the mdzs fandom??? and it sort of was and sort of wasn’t, which,, fair. also SUPER nervous for astriferous bc i had written it all in like, one (1) day and it was for an exchange LMFAOOO (and you can really tell it was all written in one go......it was only when i hit the end that it got Good)

How you choose your titles: when i write fic i’m often scrapbooking a TON of different things together so titles are often just whatever it is i’m already drawing from. there are a few exceptions, like here, then, begins the mending, or and i need nothing more where a phrase popped into my head during the writing/drafting/brainstorming process and i was like OH THAT’S REALLY GOOD. TITLE IT IS

Do you outline?: usually only if it’s plot-driven, like my (incomplete for . Reasons) (ok i was being pestered bc i took it as a prompt and my promptee was. hm) YW multichap equilibrium, for which i outlined EVERYTHING. it was so annoying but i also lowkey liked it because these were MY messy outline notes and i could go as ham as i’d like

Complete: everything that’s posted !! except equilibrium ofc . that’s gonna stay where it is unless by some miracle of nature i get my momentum back for it

In progress: i am working on another jaslief oneshot!!! and for my mdzs folks i have been working on a rly long lesbian songxiao oneshot for a Very long time and it’s . mwah (i showed it to one of my friends and she lost her mind so i think i can say that with confidence)

Coming soon: probably nothing until i’m released from ochem/thesis hell hahahahahahahaaa but if anything were to come out this year it would be the songxiao most likely !

Do you accept prompts?: not after what happened last time !!!! ;o; until i’m done with school altogether, i really need writing to remain something For Me

Upcoming story you’re the most excited to write?: i wanna finish my jaslief SOOOO bad oh my god . i put in so much self-indulgence in there and used what i learned from where the light goes to make it REALLY good n thematic. like don’t get me wrong i am also so excited for my songxiao but i wrote it with some uhhhhh Influence from things i was going through irl and it feels weighty now?? idk i’ll work it out eventually,, i’ve also had oubing fic brewing in my head for literally a year and i REALLY wanna write some pynch in the barns/cabeswater content. let me write about dreamthings and nATURE

Upcoming story you’re most excited about?: bold of u to assume i read multichapters anymore HAHAHA i rotate through the same library of 100 one-shots i have bookmarked now......but back when i did read multichaps i was REALLY into the work of iruutciv + orchids_and_fictional_cities team from yoi, they were absolute LEGENDS and their fic and miles to go before i sleep changed me as a person lmao (i also did read part of their ongoing but monsters are always hungry, darling and i’m actually still in their discord for it but it is SO so intricately crafted and i fell out of the loop and didn’t rly get back in) . currently i follow megafaunatic aka etymologyplayground’s work the most closely for my mxtx fix (my fav from them currently is probably you, asleep and dreaming)

tagging: @lenawin4 and uhhhhhhh anyone else who feels like doing this?? for my life i cannot recall any other writers off the top of my head rn o)-(

#i yell #tag games #I WISH I COULD WRITE MORE all i do now is learn my silly little organic chemistry reactions and do my silly little physics example problems #and dont forget my silly little thesis !!!!!!!!#but i Have been writing poetry this whole time mainly bc it's a lot more time friendly so my poetry chops are A+++ idk abt prose tho lmfao

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snakuchan · 5 years

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get to know me tag~~

Nobody on this site loves me more than @13-scoups im just speaking teh factss. No but really thank you Steph!! This one’s basically the same get to me know tag game i did, so hopefully this won’t be too boring :)

Nickname: Cindy by my family members only. Ew, I get weirded out when friends or strangers try calling me that so just Cynthia is fine in case y’all don’t know

Gender: cis female, she/her

Zodiac: Sagittarius babey 🤪

Height: 5 feet and 3 quarters. Let me have my 3 quarters

Age: 19 (im 20 in a little less than 5 months and that’s just Not Real)

Time: 11:56 pm and im absolutely wired

Favorite bands/solo artists: oof a whole lot. BTS, Seventeen, Monsta X, Ateez, NCT, Twice, Red Velvet, Stray Kids, HyunA, and so many more i actively stan and so many more I casually listen to

Song stuck in my head: Heartbeat - BTS and Dream Glow - BTS. Because of fuckin BTS World, it’s just those two back and forth in a vicious cycle and my wittle brain hurts

Last movie I saw: oof i can’t even remember. In theaters? Probably Captain Marvel. And I think Terrifier on Netflix. Uhh interesting little gory number that one...

Last thing I googled: mystic messenger endings. Ok listen I’ve had this damn game for two years now and dammit im gonna get all the endings

Other blog: this is my one and only personal shithole corner

Do I get asks: from like my best friend every now and then taunting me. Trying to get me to fall for Monsta X’s Minhyuk. Like im gonna leave Mr. Yoo Kihyun 🙄

Why I chose my username: ok so snaku = snakes. cause i like snakes. chan = cause anime. Basically a shitty nickname my best friend gave me. She says she doesn’t even like think my real name her mind just instantly goes to snakuchan whenever she thinks of me and im gonna murder her

Following: 413. It’s actually a smaller number compared to 3 months ago hehe. Gotta unfollow all those inactive blogs

Average amount of sleep: 5-8 hours. I refuse to wake up past 8:00 am and if i get only 5 hours of sleep So Be It

Lucky number: 7 i guess

What am I wearing: very old pajamas I got these when I was 14 and they still fit. Like height wise they fit and Im Big Mad

Dream job: physician of some sorts. We’ll see what I’d like to specialize in in the future

Dream trip: anywhere outside of Florida like god pls

Favorite food: my mom’s ropa vieja which is like a shredded beef steak made in a stew

Favorite song: I guess right now it’s Aurora by Ateez. It really does change everyday tho

Hair color: reddish undertone light brown hair with blonde highlights. She’s an interesting color and depends on lighting

Eye color: light brown

Most iconic song: Honestly, Steph, I’m gonna have to agree. TVXQ’s Mirotic is a timeless bop never forget her

Languages you speak: Spanish and English. I’m in the process of learning Korean and boy oh boy is verb conjugation a bitch

Random fact: im gonna use this to gush about the albums I got today. I got Mingi for Treasure EP 1 and Wooyoung for both versions of EP 3 im :((( BIG UWUING. No but are we just gonna forget Pirate King era Kim Hongjoong? I mean...shit. I also got Seventeen’s Teen, Age White ver and why did I avoid ordering that for so longgggg I really want to complete my Seventeen collection so bad :^((

Describe yourself as an aesthetic: going out to dinner late at night, napping through a rainy day, the tingle of mint, fields of flowers, the view of the sunrise from an apartment window, gated houses

I always word vomit these posts so I hope you enjoy my ramblings at what’s currently 12:27 am. I’ll be tagging: @tatyneedshalp @noir-deserves-better @hingmao @pinkladygriffon @beomgyutie @kinosangel @yeeunsus. Some of you, I’ve been mutuals with for a while or a short while and I’d love to get to know you better :)) Also some are my followers but I still see you and want to know Whats Up :))

BUT OF COURSE YOU DONT HAVE TO IF YOU DONT WANT TO. I’m a shy fuck and just tagging all these new people has my heart racing so pls if you dont want me to bother you in these sorts of things, just send me a message!!

#im not sleepy one bit huh #if there's any typos i'll fucking die #dont let this flop #im kidding but im really anxious euuuuuueu #im on desktop so formatting might be fucked but ok #also tati u better be asleep bitch #tag game #personal

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redwoodrroad · 5 years

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ramblings on guild wars 2 storytelling

im thinking about.... the shadow of the dragon

like ok idk if i should tag this as spoilers at all because it’s all old news, but im really thinking about the shear cleverness that the writers at arenanet had for the shadow of the dragon. like in the dream / prologue quest for sylvari, even caithe doesnt know what the shadow of the dragon is--she says it’s like nightmare court influence, and shit man! the quest is even called “Fighting the Nightmare” like a big fuckin red herring to what the shadow of the dragon really is. and ok upon writing more, im gonna put everything under a cut and tag it anyway because there are definitely spoilers for everything between the ending of the personal story to the end of living world season 2. let me know what you think !! also heres a hot pic of my sylvari but go ahead and read the rest below:

so.... the dream. caithe tells you one thing, but you even go to the pale tree eventually and shes like “this is a sign that you must fight and defeat the elder dragon. uh zhaitan, i mean--definitely--definitely zhaitan, no one--no one else, nope, all zhaitan.” and you as the player just Accept It. and why wouldn’t you accept it! you TRUST her, she’s the first leader figure you know of when you first start as a sylvari, and if youre playing the game for the first time as a sylvari, she’s really the ONLY leader figure you know of, and it’s fascinating and immersive. you really feel like you can trust the pale tree because everyone sets her up to be the wisest among the sylvari, and the widely-accepted assumption is that she created the sylvari anyway. even if you chose the green knight sub-dream thing and meet Malyck, learning that he probably came from another tree, the theories just stop there: there must be other trees. of course, some researchers would take note that there were several seeds in the cave from which Ventari got the one seed, and their next question had always been, “but where did the seeds come from?” and who would even think about there being some overarching thing like a dragon being the source of the seeds??

back to the dragon: what i really wanted to get at was the Wyld Hunt. caithe helps you fight the shadow of the dragon, and the pale tree tells you it’s your wyld hunt to track down the aspects of the dream--the image you see (the white stag, the green knight, or the shield of the moon), the aphorism of ventari, and Zhaitan. she tells you that a major part of your wyld hunt is to kill zhaitan. to me, i feel like the other two things are smaller; theyre less awe-inspiring and amazing and risky, and the game sets them up to be solved over the course of like.... a couple days. once you’re at the right level, of course. the zhaitan campaign is LONG and requires the three orders of tyria to come together, and you form an entire guild, you fight for and lose Claw Island, the main lookout spot for the trade center of all of central tyria, like there’s weight to the zhaitan campaign that the other two sub-dream things just don’t have, and not only does the game set it up that way, but the writing itself makes you FEEL the weight of it. you even lose your mentor to zhaitan, so that really, to me, solidifies zhaitan as the Pinnacle sylvari player character antagonist.

snap cut to Trahearne cleansing Orr. this is his wyld hunt, and it’s Big for him. think about it--he’s been working towards this for thirty years; he’s the FIRST firstborn, and he has been working towards his wyld hunt for the entirety of the sylvari existence. when you help him cleanse orr, and you’re standing there watching him bask in realizing that he was able to complete that task, you can just feel how meaningful that moment is to him. in my mind, the sylvari player character expects that to be what they’re gonna feel when they defeat zhaitan--remember, they probably didn’t get that with the other two accomplishments, even though those things were also major parts of the dream.

so you fight zhaitan, and..... you win. the pact wins, zhaitan goes down, and theres a huge party in fort trinity. there’s no.... like..... game mechanic that would give you the feeling or satisfaction of completing a wyld hunt, and the time that i first played the personal story, it felt..... underwhelming. if i was to imagine it from a sylvari perspective, at least (my commander is human, but my sylvari is with him through the story, so ideally he would get the sylvari-centered dialogue). even when you talk to caithe, she says, “Our shared Wyld Hunt started together, so it's fitting that we end it together.” caithe Says that you completed your wyld hunt, and that’s really the only validation you get as a sylvari in this epilogue. on first glance, that really seems like.... kind of bad. like a bad wrap-up. thats it? thats my wyld hunt? what about trahearne’s moment of exhilaration? and you even talk to him later and hes like realizing how much of a weight was lifted off of him in finishing his wyld hunt, and hes absolutely living for it--but for the sylvari player character? you get none of that. like i said, at first glance, this almost sort of seems like a weird cop-out, like the writers just didnt know what to do or how to translate that feeling from trahearne to the player character. even when the character says “yes! i completed my wyld hunt!” it’s.... sort of dry. in my mind, it’s meant to feel dry: like even the player character can’t convince themselves that they really completed it, and of course, we’re not convinced either as the players.

flash forward to scarlett’s war. flash further to living world season 2. if you played it, you know exactly where im going: you go to the leadership summit in the omphalos chamber in the grove to talk about the new elder dragon situation, and lo and behold.... the shadow of the dragon appears. for non-sylvari player characters, this is just kind of a whatever moment--it’s WILD, and it’s surprising, and you realize there’s really more trouble brewing than anyone expected, especially any of the racial leaders, right?--but it’s not..... a discerning, familiar, ironically-terrifying moment. when youre a sylvari player character, you practically saw this coming. I really imagine this as the moment--the Defining moment--that the sylvari player character realizes that their wyld hunt isnt actually over and only just began with the death of zhaitan.

and then you go through the rest of season 2. you follow caithe’s memories in order to find her, and in these memories, she and faolain are trying to track down another firstborn whom Knows something. you go through three significant memories, and once you get to the cave that houses the third memory...... and you realize exactly where the sylvari came from. beyond the pale tree, beyond ventari, beyond malyck, beyond the seeds, beyond the cave--it all comes down to the dragon. the dragon Mordremoth. if you’re sylvari, you realize it on a level beyond that which anyone else in the immediate vicinity can even comprehend. for my characters, my human commander learns the truth, and his sylvari boyfriend has to just watch him turn around and process the information in silent horror. then of course, you face the shadow of the dragon for Real. and THIS is the moment the sylvari player character’s wyld hunt is truly completed. i imagine that after defeating it, the sylvari player character actually Has that moment of satisfaction that trahearne experienced the year before, and it feels spectacular. it’s everything they expected it to be!

but it’s instantly overshadowed by the full realization that sylvari are dragon minions to modremoth. small victories and huge defeats, much like we’ve seen in many of the more recent chapters. much like we saw with the end of the mordremoth campaign too, much later.

really i made this post out of my own complete realization that the magnitude of the sylvari wyld hunt wasn’t cruelly brushed aside or downplayed in the personal story; rather, it was purposefully downplayed because the sylvari player character hadnt completed their wyld hunt as the pale tree “wisely” suggested. and to bring that back in season 2 and Continue to utilize this concept of small victories crossed with massive defeats.... look i just think this stuff is great, i just keep learning more and more about this game and all its compelling uses of storytelling, and i hope this made sense because it’s 2:30am as im writing this sentence, and i ALSO hope you find it as compelling as i do

i also hope im not reiterating a point someone else has already made once haha, and if so..... same hat! :D and thank you @luxaleigh for listening to me ramble on about this earlier tonight this stuff is so fun to think about

#guild wars 2 #living world season 2 #pact commander #heart of thorns spoilers #guild wars 2 spoilers #i guess?? i know some of my followers havent finished the personal story so i want to protect the innocente #gw2 #arkus tag #eridunis tag #redwoods words #i Sincerely hope this makes sense because it legit gave me chills thinking about the plot in this game

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just-an-anxious-mess · 6 years

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Old Habits (Part 2 of 2)

Part 1

Trigger Warning: mentions of self harm

Patton froze as he watched Virgil disappear through the door leading to the inactive part of the mindspace and he grabbed Roman before he could try to follow.

"Why are you stopping me?" Roman exclaimed.

"That door leads to the inactive part of the mindspace, if you go in your influence over Thomas lessens and there's a high likelihood of you getting lost." Logan said, also grabbing hold of Roman to stop him chasing after Virgil.

"But Virgil just...." Roman started and was cut off by Deciet.

"It's not the first time he's been there and it's likely it won't be the last. He used to go there to escape all the hostility from you lot and I first found out what he was doing because I stumbled across him there once."

Patton immediately turned his attention to Deciet. "What? What is it that he's started again?"

Deciet sighed. "Virgil used to self harm as a way to cope with everything. I came across him doing it in the inactive part of the mindspace and he tried to say it wasn't what it looked like but he couldn't lie to me. He was so distraught as he begged me not to tell anyone that I agreed, under the conditions that if he ever felt like doing something more extreme then he had to come to me first. He managed to find other ways of coping eventually and, until recently, was completely clean for a couple years."

Patton gasped in horror as Logan said "That's why Thomas was rubbing his arm earlier. That must mean he only started again today."

Romans eyes were wide as he muttered "That's what he was doing in the bathroom when I talked to him about dinner. It must be."

Patton was shaking his head, tears running down his face as he whispered "He told me he'd done something stupid and must have been trying to tell me but panicked and lied at the last second."

Deciet glanced around at all of the sides with a frown. He didn't particularly get on with any of them but he didn't wish to see any of them trying to go after Virgil because, not only would that have bad effects on Thomas, it would also just create a bigger mess in the first place.

He knew his way around the inactive mind space well enough that he could go in to find Virgil himself but there was a liklihood that he'd just run for it again.

"I have an idea." Deciet announced, rolling his eyes at the looks of mistrust on Logan and Romans faces.

"What's your idea?" Patton asked, wiping his face.

"Well, I know my way around the inactive mindspace well enough that I could find Virgil but if he saw me he'd make a run for it. What I could do is disguise myself as one of you to try and lure him out."

"No, we're not deceiving him like that! We're not like you." Roman responded immediately with a glare.

"Well, although I may not like you, that does sound like a plan that could work. If that is our only option then it's better than leaving Virgil to spend hours in the inactive part of the mindspace. That would only cause more issues." Logan stated, his face showing his reluctance.

Patton felt everyones eyes on him as they waited for his input. He was morality, the trait that helped Thomas understand right from wrong so his input in this would be the decider as to whether or not Deciet would go through with it.

The issue was Patton was conflicted. On one hand Patton hated lying and tricking people, the idea of doing that to lure Virgil out made him grimace. However, if Virgil stayed in the inactive mindspace there was no telling what effects it could have on both Virgil and Thomas.

The consequences, if Virgil found out they'd played a part in tricking him, would be horrific though.

Patton swallowed nervously and said "I don't think we should try and trick him, if he found out it would only make matters worse."

Deciet sighed "I guess that means I'll just have to go in like this and hope he doesn't make a run for it."

Deciet didn't stick around to hear what the others were saying, he walked straight through the door and began walking down the dark corridors.

It didn't take too long for Deceit to find Virgil, he rounded the corner and found him slumped on the floor, panting for breath.

"You can't just run away from your problems Virgil." he said in a soft voice that still made Virgil jump.

"W... What are you doing here? G... Go away!" Virgil panted, trying to get to his feet again but he'd exhausted himself from running so he merely collapsed again.

Deceit stepped closer and took a seat next to Virgil. "I'm here because three other traits can't come after you due to where we are. They're worried about you."

Virgil sent a half hearted scowl at Deciet. "I'm pretty sure I told you to go away!"

Deciet raised an unimpressed eyebrow. "Fine, shall I go back and tell the others you wouldn't come out? That you just told me to go away? Because we both know that they'd try to come talk to you themselves."

"N... No they wouldn't. They wouldn't endanger Thomas like that." Virgil said, looking at his lap with a small frown.

"I'm not so sure of that. If it weren't for Logan and Pattons quick reflexes Roman would have burst in here after you and probably gotten lost. Even after it was explained why he couldn't follow you he seemed ready to run in and find you. None of them were particularly happy they had to rely on me to get you." Deceit said, watching as Virgils frown slowly faded to be replaced with a sad defeated expression.

"Even when I'm not there I'm a hassle." he mumbled to himself and Deceit felt like face-palming.

"That's not right. What that means is they care about you and are worried. Worried enough that they would risk Thomas's safety just to make sure you are OK. If I come out of here without you there's nothing that would stop them coming in to find you themselves."

Virgil still looked unconvinced and Deciet rolled his eyes. He was done trying to talk Virgil into coming with him. It was time to resort to the other tactic.

"Well I guess I'll just go back and tell them you didn't want to come out. They'll probably come to try and find you and get lost in the process and then everything will turn into one big mess. But I don't really care, it's not like they're my friends or anything, I could care less if anything happened to them." Deceit said, getting to his feet and starting to walk away.

"Wait!" Virgil cried out, his eyes wide in alarm. "d... Don't go."

Deciet stopped and looked round at Virgil with an unimpressed expression. "I have better things to do than baby sit you all day Virgil. I'm going back with or without you. Make your decision."

Virgil scrambled to his feet and mumbled "I'll go back with you" Deceit nodded and started walking back to the main mindspace, Virgil following behind him in silence.

Deciet opened the door and stepped out to see Logan and Patton sitting on a struggling Roman.

"There's no telling what that creepy snake face is doing to Virgil in there! Let me go!" Roman shouted and Deceit scoffed.

"If that's the thanks I get for helping return Virgil then I don't want to know how you'd act if I actually did something harmful."

The three traits jumped in surprise at his voice and immediately stood up at the sight of Virgil cowering behind him, looking as if he wanted the ground to swallow him whole.

"Virgil?" Patton asked as Deceit stepped out of the way and Virgil raised his head, his eyes darting from each of their faces before tears rolled down his cheeks.

"I.... I don't know why or how it happened! I... I'm s... Sorry."Virgil spluttered and Patton immediately pulled him in for a hug.

"There's nothing to apologise for kiddo, we don't need an explanation or reason. We just need to know if you're alright." Patton said holding Virgil tightly.

Logan and Roman joined the hug and Deceit stood awkwardly off to the side, rolling his eyes at the emotional main traits.

"Well, now that's sorted I'm gonna go compose a song about how much I hate you all or something. All this being nice is making me feel sick." he said and walked off ignoring the small laugh from Patton.

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loghainmactir · 6 years

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to get it out of my system, under the cut is basically a rundown of what has happened over the last 2 days n is why i havent been around (as much?). if there’s no READ MORE im very sorry i’m tagging this as long post so y’all can avoid it if it doesn’t. tw for talk of parents w mental illness, threats/violence etc i guess? Idk it’s a mess

basically what happened is my sister messaged me like “lol guess who’s in the psychiatric ward” yesterday night. i was pretty unsurprised bc basically up until now my dad has been SUPER wishy-washy: smoking a LOT of weed daily, going from friendly and approachable one minute & wanting to talk to my sister (because her and her boyfriend almost always have weed) to whipping around and threatening to “tear her face off in strips” over a misunderstanding where my sister went to his & his mum’s place, cigarettes “went missing”, and it turned out that he’d taken them, etc the next.

basically, his mental illness was gradually getting worse and worse until he snapped, bc his mum?? didn’t know how to deal with it (or was scared to ask him if he needed help? idk)

ANYWAY. cut to yesterday. cam messages me. i’m like... ok. cool. i hope he finds the help he needs.

THEN she messages me like. oh. actually, he never went to the hospital and now he’s missing.

Like, what? So I called my gran/his mum: he’d snapped at her and became verbally aggressive/abusive (apparently, I found out today, because he’d been trying to explain that their telephone provider was a waste of time... while being manic). so she called the cops.

LMAO. so they came over, basically BULLIED her into taking their sheet for an intervention order, and then took dad to the station. they did a “mental stability test” involving his name, date and location (sounding more like it was intended for drug addicts but u kno!!!), decided that his manic rambling & behaviour Checked Out 100%, and decided to let him go.

THE POLICE LET A MAN CLEARLY IN NEED OF SUPPORT JUST FUCKING GO. They offered him homeless support, and he declined, showed SEVERAL signs of severe mental illness, and they just let him go. This was three nights ago.

So, what does dad do? He walks. For 15 hours. To Bacchus Marsh, intending to get to Melbourne. In the rain, in the dark, from 6:30pm.

(Sometime between then and when we got to him, he also closed his bank account, sold his phone for $50, tried to cancel his Disability Support Pension and dropped his wallet off willingly at Centrelink.)

He also stole a small bottle of milk from a convenience store bc he had no money; he literally drank it in front of the woman at the counter and said he had no money.

Apparently he also ran into a transport officer, asked for directions back home once he realized walking to Melbourne wasn’t exactly feasible (I’m REAL fucking shocked & disgusted no one tried to help him by now tbh). He got home in time for the intervention order trial, napped in front of the police station beforehand... and then started walking again.

This time, from the court to my sister’s place. He spooked one of her roommates and then went to her boyfriend’s place. He hung out there until we got to him, and when we got to him he was in a state. He hadn’t eaten or showered since Wednesday, so we let him eat and shower.

I don’t think my sister knew what to do, and so for a while she was accidentally encouraging his thought processes and his ideas of avoiding the hospital. i managed to track it back and suggest that the hospital had warm, soft beds for him, because he’s literally homeless now, and nice food.

then for the next 6? hours i went with him, alone, and we went to the hospital. i got him in for a psych eval and admitted. the entire time from leaving cam’s boyfriend’s place to the time i left, he could not stop talking. it was like he had a million things in his head, and he wanted to talk about one thing, but then he jumped to the next as soon as an opportunity arrived.

Last time i saw him they hadn’t gotten him a bed/room in the psych ward bc it was full, so they aimed for the hospital rooms instead. i feel really bad for leaving him there but it was literally 11.30, my eyes & head hurt and i was hungry. like, i’m hopefully gonna scrounge up some change to go visit tomorrow (or get mum to take me in) n i’ll bring him some cake, but i just.

It’s really fucking hard seeing your dad like that when you hadn’t talked for a while leading to that. I felt like I was doing things myself & still am— I’m gonna let him use my savings account (it only has like 50c now) for his Disability payments since he doesn’t have one and at least that way he can’t be tempted to spend all of it (bc my account). like, i’m so exhausted.

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theday · 6 years

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🎁 🎄 >:)

miss ayesha... u know ID DIE FOR YOU um got a little long here whoops

compliment: bitch u already know wht im gonna talk about :-/ firstsofall.... ur fics are so wonderfully written and really bring out any and every sort of emotion in me like?? i already told u but ghost au made me so warm and happy and when the *ngst came i got so :-( you rly tug on my heart strings ur just that amazing..... jungle au is doing amazing as well and its heading in such a lighthearted direction i Love this Song??? idk all ur fics never fail 2 amaze and make me happy ur impact..! and!! whenever we discuss our hh ideas i get so happy im just.. smiley all the time now whenever we talk i love it thank u for always indulging me

why i followed you: thank god this is easy for my fish memory i was hunting for hh fics while in i was resting in japan and guess what i came across! the legendary ghost au fic and i read the first chap,, saw ur links and smashed that follow button also i got so excited when you made this post after i commented on chapter 2 :-( ayesha fuck my life i rly went through ur blog and after that i played myself bc of all the mh posts... i died i mcfucking died ! hes so cute i love minhyuk so much anyway i dont even know what the fuck i was saying hold on ok yes right why i followed u long story short i followed you bc of ghost au there u have it ! also that hh spam i did im laughing i cant believe you followed back bc of that and look at where we are now... talking abt minhyuk being a b*tt*m bc hes the ventricle wyfhsddhjhs also that chapter 2 text post was made on oct 19th that means we’ve really only been buddies for ~2 months thats wild hey i dont say this muhc but i fucking love u?

what i like most about you: fuck my life u know ur the sweetest friend i have?? i meant tjats redacted i love all my buds theyre all gorgeous and have hearts of gold but u miss ayesha.. truly... u reached throguh my skin cells and physically + emotionally touched my squishy heart :-( this sounds terrible but u know when u wrote me that birthday fic i rly fucking. i almsot cried this is an exaggeration bc im literally earth and dirt so i dont cry but please if i was a water sign id be mcfucking bawling just know that alright and i mean i kind of expected it bc of “what do you think of soulmates au”, “dont interact with soulmate aus” and then “tell me when its 12am your time” please ayesha please i just god i wish i couldve told you in words but clearly i coudlnt bc of fucking character limit on ao3 but u know i was really so happy i was about to make a whole psot for you but then u sent me this so i was like YEs i get to express my LOVE and everything for u so here i am, rambling :^( you really wrote 6k words for me and thats the most anyone has done for me i dont . i dnt celebrate my birthday here but you.. you went out of your way to write somethiing for me??? it was for me?? i still havent even properly processed that fact because its just??? i have never ever gotten such a ??? thoughtful gift?? in my whole 16 years of living and breathing so ayesha you reallY!!! and you stayed up to write it??? just... thank you so much i wish i couldve done the same and you know what else??? we arent even friends for like 6 months no its just about 65 days maybe and yet!!! and yet you still wrote soemthing for me (and the hh tag since its dry as shit) but . the thought still stands.. you really wrote a birthday fic for me.... thank you so much ayesha :~( i know we bully each other constantly nd u might be expecting this to me like mean but i cant bc whtf the fuck! i love u so much youve done so much for the hyunghyuks and me?? you really brighten up my days and whenever you approve of a song rec thats possibly hh i get so fuckign happy im just one sappy piece of earth rn but!!!! i really really appreciate you and im jsut?? thank you for being born thank you for existing thank you for being my friend i love u :( youre so supportive too i feel so at ease sharing what i write with you you make everything so easy and god i bever shut the fuck up but please...... discussing hyunghyuk aus/ideas with you is my only saving grace at times and juts!! thank u so much again hhhhhh ur so considerate and supportive thank u... also (for the nth time) u always never ffail 2 make me laugh especially with jungle au the banter... god i love it :( basically i like everything abt u wtf legened omg just remembered but whenever we have a same brainwaves moment i get so happy too it rly gets my heart bumping its like im dong cardio wtdhhdhjssjhdhj i love it thank u always

IM CRYING IT GOT SO LONG.... thank u for sending it in i rly wanted to thank you

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Dirk Strider is made out of love, prince of my heart, i love him so much.

You didnt ask for this but you put Dirk and love in the same sentence and this is what i’ve been thinking about so lets goIm gonna ramble about how much Dirk would love John Egbert and Jade Harley like, instantly, he did conceptually before he even met them but the instant they meet Dirk is permanently owned and has that many more people he’d happily die for because: Dirk loves Jane and Jake more than life itself, and John and Jade are…their kids basically. And early on Dirk cannot unsee that. The biggest treason this fandom has ever committed to my person is ignoring the fact that Dirk Strider would fucking melt himself to death even looking at John Egbert or Jade Harley and deconstructing all the little ways they’re like Jake and Jane and thinking about his typical self-loathing shit like “god those two would’ve been so happy together I’m such an ass for getting in the way look at them their kids are perfect they’re so good–”

before Jake like puts his arm around Dirk’s shoulders and all thoughts immediately stop if they’re dating again, it’s probably a source of great angst for Dirk before they are and one of the bigger reasons he stays away. Maybe Jake and Jane will get the idea and be happy together. Someone write this for me thanks.

Anyway that got too sad so back to Dirk’s relationship with the ectokids. Early on in Earth C John gets the impression Dirk hates him early on and pranks him pretty hard and often but while it kind of annoys Dirk when all his meticulously set up horsecam figurines get their heads swapped (and john breaks some of them in the process) he’s mostly just reminded that things with him and Jane are still awkward enough that he hasn’t gotten this from HER and he’s a torn up bag of “Fuck I miss her” and “Fuck I can’t believe how much I care about her goober ecto-son already” and NONE of this gets across his stoic demeanor so all john gets is that poker face. It takes them fucking forever to be actual friends and I’m not sure what does it but its probably the formidable teamwork of Jake and Dave who get sick of the awkwardness eventually. Meanwhile Dirk is 100% in awe of and terrified of disappointing Jade Harley who he A) cannot stop thinking about as JAKE’S GRANDMA and “OH GOD WHAT IF SHE DISSAPROVES WHAT IF I’M NOT GOOD ENOUGH WHAT IF-”- and B) Cannot stop thinking about as SO MUCH like Jane it kills him. She’s so no-nonsense and down to business and whenever he starts rambling too much about philosophy or some bullshit she just looks at him like … and he’s like “Ok I’ll shut up.” The way Jade moves in a science lab is EXACTLY like Jane moves in a kitchen (or later, a business meeting) and Dirk knows because he learned the ins and outs of that movement by heart across so many video cam sessions growing up. Everything about Jade Harley destroys Dirk and he thinks she’s the fucking coolest and there’s basically no part of him that didn’t love her from the word go Dirk manages to work up the will to keep everyone else (but Jake) out of his private garage but not Jade, Dirk’s got all this futuretech practice and as SOON as Jade catches wind of this she’s like “Hey dirk! Alt!Callie handed me the secrets of the universe and basically i need a bigger workshop and better science can you help me out” and that’s basically his main project for the next two years is catching Jade up on 400 years of scientific progress (Jake tags along) and having to work on his weirdo animatronic shit that he was GOING to use his garage for originally in like, one of the cramped floors of Jake’s jungle globe insteadBut it’s fine cause it makes Jade happy and getting to be helpful to Jade is like a dream come fucking true and Jake is so happy whenever he and Jade get to talking about some interesting intersection of philosophy and science or furries or whatever. The first time Jade gives him a friendly smack on the back Dirk jumps so hard he hits the roof.

Give Dirk Strider love thanks

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lifescominguproses · 7 years

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TJLC Thoughts

Ok so..... I know I’m not a TJLC blog (even though the only reason I come on tumblr nowadays is to look at the tag ha) but I need to vent and process...... because I literally feel like I’m going insane. So bear with me lovelies, (this shit’s gonna be long and probably full of grammatical errors).

I absolutely love Sherlock, have done for awhile, even though I didn’t get into it as soon as it came out. I knew about Johnlock and TJLC way before I started watching, and didn’t really think much of it at the time. Then.... (there’s always a but) it became everything. I was obsessed. I not only loved the show because of its mystery and brilliant writing/plot lines, but also because of the obvious, heart-wrenching, all-consuming love between Sherlock and John.

Of course I saw it. Of course I thought “how can these two brilliant characters not be totally and utterly in love with each other?” I’ll admit, sadly, that I was the only one in my family who saw it that way. Does that make me smarter than them in the context of watching the show? I have absolutely no idea. Because right now, in the lead up to TFP, I’ve never been so nervous, so unsure, and so disappointed.

Because, I’m now 99% convinced that the way we all saw it, was not the way the writers intended it to be seen at all. To us, it was obvious, they (JxS) were *in* love. Does anything else need to be said? Yes, yes it does. Although its a very ‘base - level’ example, I feel like I should point to the picture (randomly found, but felt extremely relevant to my poor obsessed brain).

Maybe this whole time we were looking *too* deep; reading into subtext when there really wasn’t any (although I’ll get to this in a minute, Moftiss you fucks.) This is essentially my first ‘meta’ so I’m just going to go ahead and ramble. Yes Johnlock is about friendship, and yes its even a romance. But in the context of the show, does it really matter which one prevails? Can’t a relationship feel like both without the need for sex? Could John and Sherlock really be ‘soulmates’ and ‘life partners’ that don’t feel the need to “have sex or make out on the couch” every night? Because I feel like that's what Moftiss was trying to tell us all along; that we were being too ‘pedestrian’ (can’t think of another word so eh) when we should have been using ‘higher - level thinking’. (I have a feeling the whole “it is what it is” comes into it here, but im way too tired to go into that ahah).

Now, as much as this is what I believe is truly going on, I absolutely fucking hate it. Of course as Johnlock shippers we want them to be explicit in their love. And for some of us this means said “making out on the couch” scenes need to be shown. But after reading practically everything to do with TJLC, Moftiss and TFP spoilers, I really don’t think that’s ever going to happen. What I think WILL happen, is that we’ll keep seeing exactly what we have been seeing, which to us appears spectacularly obvious yet annoyingly ambiguous at the same time. That is, we’ll keep seeing them pining over each other when they’re apart (even because it’s their own choice *cough* John Watson *cough*), we’ll keep seeing them saving each other from the danger that is their lives, we’ll keep seeing them spiral into depression without the other one around to help, we’ll keep seeing declarations of love masked by words like “mate”, we’ll keep seeing them choose each other again and again. Because that’s just the way it is between them, they know it, the writers know it, and even we know it. We just wanted *it* to be different. We just wanted *it* to be shown in a different, more explicit, way. To the writers it doesn’t even need explaining.

Now onto my brief (hahah yea right) “fuck you moftiss rant.”

WHY THE EVER-LOVING FUCK CAN’T IT BE SHOWN THE WAY WE WANT?! Every single adaption of Sherlock Holmes has the same relationship aesthetic. The “John and Sherlock against the rest of the world” type thing is literally fucking everywhere. It’s even in the fucking video games. I mean, I get it. I get that you guys wanted to keep this part of the story alive, its great, it’s beautiful and it warms our hearts. But it is supposed to be a modern adaption after all. And you know what one of the biggest fucking modern issues is? Yeah you guessed it, LGBTIQ rights. Now, I should probably point out here that I am completely 100% straight. I’m a girl that likes guys and all that shit. But I live in a country where where same-sex marriage isn’t a reality (my hatred for that fact is a whole other point) and where same sex couples get treated differently to those in hetero-sexual relationships (seriously, fuck you Australia).

Now I know it’s highly unlikely that moftiss were to ever intentionally queer bait us, being the type of people I think that they are, but man they didn’t think some things through. I know in the first season/s the constant questioning and subtext over John and Sherlock’s sexuality (”confirmed bachelor”, “will you be needing two bedrooms”, “isn’t really my area,” “I’m not actually gay”..... ffs moftiss really?!) was meant to be both an outlet for humor and a throw-back to TPLOSH. But come on! Like seriously! At some point a repeated joke stops being funny! If they didn’t intend for it to mean anything in the grand scheme of the show, why continue to use it as a plot device? Obviously to some people (like my parents) it was just a joke; a running gag if you will, that wasn’t meant to be read into (I’m not sure whether I pity or envy you lot). Why would moftiss put all this effort into making us question John and Sherlock’s sexuality (ahem Irene fucking Adler) just to disregard it in the end? I seriously don’t even know. Maybe just to show that Sherlock really is human after all? Yeah I got no clue.

Now, onto TFP.

To me, going along this whole “we’re being too pedestrian” theory, the “love conquers all” thing is actually pretty simple. Love will conquer all, but we’re not talking love in any sort of specific sense here. We’re talking in pretty general terms. I feel like the massive climax to this episode (and apparently the whole show) will be to explain Sherlock. That is, we’ll see his past and his (probably) traumatic childhood where some shit happened with the siblings and Sherlock became an emotionally repressed drug addict because of that. We’ll essentially be seeing the reason as to why Sherlock is the way that he is. Of course love’s going to come into that. My bet is that ‘love’ in whatever sense of the term, will be the thing to save Sherlock and everyone else in the end. He’s finally going to allow himself to love (in whatever way) after being an emotionally repressed idiot for so long. Therefore, I’m betting the iconic “I Love You” is damn important, just not in the way we want it to be.

Now, I don’t know exactly how any of that will make ‘lets make television history’, ‘insane wish-fulfillment’, etc make any sense. I mean sure, Mycroft or Molly or John or even Sherlock could die, Moriarty could come back from the dead, he could even be related to Sherlock and have been playing a ‘long game’ since their childhood (although Moriarty and Sherlock related would actually be really freaking cool in terms of the story). I’ve got these thoughts and more going through my head as to what could possibly be the “plot reason” for all of moftiss’s promotional spiel. It’s going to be different for everyone as to what ‘makes television history’. So lets be honest, moftiss are probs just laying it on too thick ahah.

I mean, I’d love Johnlock to happen in the way that we want it to. I’d die if he said “I love you” to John, I’d probably explode if they kissed. But its just not going to happen that way. Honestly, even if it did, wouldn’t it just take away from every other single aspect of the episode? Wouldn’t the most important part of this episode be the mystery? (aka, Sherlock’s backstory arc etc)? If Johnlock happened in this episode, it would be the only thing every single viewer (shipper or not) would be thinking about. Shippers would be going nuts, non-shippers would just be confused as hell for the rest of the show.

Yes, they could do Johnlock at the end in the “apparently missing 4 minutes” (credits, people) after everything’s resolved, but again it would be the only thing people remember. Is that what moftiss want’s the audience to remember more than anything else? I don’t think that it is.

I know they’re giant freaking liars and we shouldn’t trust absolutely anything that they say, but going on the countless times where they basically shut us all down (they could have done that in a nicer way tbh and I’m frankly pissed off about that), I’m not betting on explicit Johnlock at all. I mean, to them, its already been done.

I could be completely wrong.God, I hope I’m completely wrong. I just don’t want to be disappointed. Because I already feel soul-crushingly disappointed and it sucks. The whole show is doing my head in and I just want some bloody answers. So yeah, this is my way of trying to make sense of everything’s that been stuck in my head for the past few weeks, and it may not make any sense to you guys at all. Just thought I’d put it out there.

By the way if anyone out there has anything to add I’d love to hear, I’d love to discuss..... I Haven’t really actively gotten into the fandom until now but I’ve observed from the outside and I must say, I freaking love you guys, and I live off fanart and fanfiction! :D xoxo

#tjlc #johnlock #sherlock #bbc sherlock #moftiss #tfp #the final problem #johnlock doubts #im in sherlock hell #save me #tjlc meta #sherlock meta #johnlock meta #fandom hell

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