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felizusnavidad · 2 months

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hey!! what happened? were people hating on you bc you supported Joe? that's so wrong, I'm so sorry that happened to you :// istg this fandom really annoys me at times.. especially since they're defending her even though Joe spoke up about palestine (it's not like travis is The Great Boyfriend/Person they all think he is😭)

hi! 🤍

so here's what happened: i reblogged some posts about joe supporting palestine, then all of a sudden a lot of my mutuals unfollowed me (so i'm guessing that was the reason). apparently when you're a swiftie you are obligated to hate joe, there's no other way. i got mad, i took a little break from tumblr (mostly because everybody on my dash either hates joe & calls him joebless or talks about travis being the most incredible man ever), but i am back, i unfollowed 100+ people because i don't want to see travis on my dash, i don't want to discuss taylor's personal life 24/7, i don't want to keep shitting on joe knowing only one side of the story & i want to criticize taylor when she deserves to be criticized. i swear to god, this is the most toxic fandom i've ever been in. just like you, i don't agree with travis being the most excellent boyfriend ever & i'm tired of seeing his face on my dash. i'm staying away from the fandom at the moment because none of this is exciting anymore & i guess i cannot call myself a real swiftie because i mostly care about the music & not her new perfect relationship that's very personal & not at all public.

#sorry for it being so long lol #once again: i'm not saying all swifties are crazy #but most of them yes #i'm still waiting for the album (although i'm not as excited as i used to be)#but i definitely need a break from all of it cause it's bad for my mental health #now my dash is clean & full of people i actually want to see #i'm sorry but i am really tired of taylor being everywhere & i've been a swiftie for more than half of my life #it's just too much #thank you so much for caring #you are always welcome here 🤍#this is a safe space for everyone who's not afraid to criticize taylor #because let's be honest she's not perfect #i saved every letter you wrote me*

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gloombeauty · 10 days

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Read your two reviews of Lana's Coachella show, you are not the only one who thinks thinks Lana's voice is gone. There are brave souls who will express a negative opinion on Lana's own Instagram page. These two did it today. I'm sure they were bullied and attacked after writing that. Lana is a terrible performer. I always said it but at least she use to be able to sing. I think they must be fixing her voice in the studio for her last few albums. She doesn't sound like she use to anymore.

I tried looking for these comments on Lana's Honeymoon account but I don't see it. Either Lana deleted it or they deleted the comments themselves after being bullied/death threated by a million psychotic Lana stans.

The Lana fan community is a dumpter fire. Between 200 million "mother is mothering" comments, there's 100 million of "she ate" in between them That is the full vocabulary you'll find in Lana's comments. How refreshing is it when there's a fan who actually has something to say that isn't "mother".

These two fans who wrote these comments on Lana's IG are brave souls. The majority of Lana stans are like the demonic mutant I was just talking about on my other post. If you are not kissing Lana's ass 100% of the time, 24/7 - you are brutally attacked by these types of online Lana fans. Most times, they threaten your life or the life of your children. If you think that's farfetch, look at the Beyhive and Swifty's. They are known to destroy the lives of people who don't worship their idols. Lana stans are the same.

Lana has never been a performer, that's the thing. She's not an entertainer either. She's a singer. And now...she barely sings. She needs the help of background vocal tracks playing loudly in the background of all her concerts. It's actually sad to watch especially when you can remember how she use to sing.

Look at both nights she played at Coachella. Night one she didn't have the background vocals playing and it was a disaster. The second night she had them loud and clear. She miraculously can "sing" again. It's really no different then lip syncing. It is cheating. But sadly, Lana can't sing as she use to. She probably feels more comfortable having her vocals playing loudly in the background 'just in case'. I imagine it's comforting for her to have it.

In case anyone forgot how Lana use to sing, here is a reminder:

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As for vaping - I have been saying it for the last 5 years that Lana's voice was decreasing in richness and volume. That she couldn't sing in low tones anymore. That she was damaging her vocal cords from all that vaping. I was called crazy. Am I fucking crazy now?

It might have been funny for some fans watching Lana running around different concert stages, looking for her vape pen. I thought she looked pathetic and sad. It showed everyone just how truly addicted she was to vaping.

Then she would post herself vaping on social media too. It was endless. I'm surprised she can still breathe and doesn't need a lung transplant. Some aren't so lucky.

Once that voice of hers is gone - it's gone. No going back. Not even Tessa Pietro can help her with her spiritual crap.

Again, I been saying this shit for 5 years and her fans would get pissed at me for spewing scientific facts. The amount of people who have died from vaping or needed lungs transplants is insane. Just Google it. It's happened time after time and time after time.

I guess we should be grateful Lana is alive and still literally breathing. I didn't see her vaping or running all over the stage at Coachella looking for her lost vape pen. I was surprised actually. Just as surprised when she lost all that weight. Maybe she quit vaping after losing weight and wants to lead a healthier life?

Anyway, great comments by those two people.

There's also the fact that these Coachella shows were not her best performances. I reviewed it and said it on my own page. I love that The Guardian spoke up too.

The fact that half the audience was gone on both nights before Lana even finished her shows - really spoke volumes. All you have to do is look at the audience video footage taken from the drones. I screen shot it too:

There's also this fact:

The truth is Lana was a weak Headliner. Bless her heart, she tried.

Everyone went for No Doubt and Doja Cat.

#lana del rey

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lightgaswaterelectricityrent · 11 days

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taylor swift is a weird topic for me because I love her music and I love it because I started listening to her at the very beginning when I was just a little younger than her and the songs were all like appropriate to hit my feelings as time went on for the things I was experiencing and let's face it we have very similar life experiences (I mean other than her extreme fame at this point obviously but like, the background) so idk it just is music for me and it's good. I think people who have to get over the top screaming angry nasty about how it's worthless consumerist poisoned non-art or whatever are doing way too much because it is good music and she does write it herself. If it's not your taste to listen to pop/pop folk/country or whatever I get it but like chill on the criticism if you don't have the same heat for dua lipa or whoever. That being said I feel like 75% of her fans at this point just need to buy a word search book and move on because the stuff they're talking about....like it isn't even real. Like you're pepe silvia-ing fictional songs into meaning something about a billionaire's love life and starring in your own private national treasure over shapes in an album logo to try to figure out if she's going to rerelease an album we........know she's going to rerelease. And like yeah the soooo mentally ill institution-core theme is a little goofy and transparent to me but it's a concept, it's a theme for the album and it expresses real emotions, but you're out here talking about how she's actually so psycho and personality disordered now come on. Do you really believe that. Once again that's not real it's in a song. So I guess what I'm saying is is Taylor innocent in lathering up her fans into being absolutely ridiculous, no. And they are, and I wish I didn't have to be associated with them in order to be truthful and say I like taylor and her music is important to me. But I also think the way people are like, literally blaming all of society's ills on some music they don't like because I guess they feel like the woman who makes it isn't very interesting is crazy. That also sounds crazy. You are as lathered up as the swifties

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pomegranateboba · 1 month

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Hello, it's me again! I really love the headcanons, really simple yet written nicely! I'll be your daily requestor, sending asks for only twice a week so that you can have some rest.

Here's my second one. I hope it isn't too much for you. How about ArTw men with a MC who is a huge Swiftie? (because I'm a Swiftie too, I love all Taylor's albums) Honestly, many people ignore asks that involves Taylor Swift and I don't know why 😭 Anyway, that's all for today. Thank you!

Hello hello again :) Personally, I'm not a Swiftie, but half my school's population is, so I think I can do this

A Summoner who is a Swiftie

Arcturus:

Wants to hear some of the songs (I hope you can sing bestie)

Can and will listen to you rant of Taylor Swift and her songs and/or albums

Realistically speaking you can't just travel so casually to and from the boundary, but lets just say you can, just because

Will willingly go for the Eras Tour with you

Becomes a Swiftie himself

You guys will listen to her at 3am when Arcky knits and cuddles you

Spica

He is honestly surprised at how many songs she has, it's literally amazing

If you really are a hardcore Swiftie, he would find everyway possible to get her to perform in the boundary, or take you to Mid Earthium himself

He will spend money to get you tickets for the Eras Tours (sugar daddy fr)

Will get you merch for your birthday

Listens to her when doing paperwork

It helps him calm down when Alpheratz doesn't show up for yet another meeting

Alpheratz

He first found out about this when you subconsciously hummed a song under your breath

Now he wants to know who is artist of said song (I don't know what song either I don't listen to Taylor Swift)

Does his best to stay awake when you rant to him about how amazing Taylor is

Secretly thinks you're cute when talk so happily like that

Listens to her when sleeping

Would probably put her on full volume in earphones so that he wouldn't have to hear Spica nag at him

Pollux

He gives paper rings vibes to me, honestly (I'm not sure actually, but I like the perkiness)

Almost immediately becomes a Swiftie too

You both could go on hours talking about her

The 2 of you go bug Spica to bring you both to see the Eras Tour

He would buy merch for you both if he had money

You both blast it at full volume in your rooms (Spica has filed a noise complaint, you 2 simply don't care)

Both of you have one earphone in during classes (My friend did that once)

Vega

He may or may not already know this fact, considering you both were childhood friends

Is used to listening to you rant about Taylor Swift, and will do it again

Also thinks you are super cute when you do that

This is pretty nostalgic for him as well, it was something you both listened too in Mid Earthium

Isn't that big of a fan, but if you are happy so is he

Concerts aren't his thing either, but he would gladly go with you if it means he can spend more time with you

Sirius

HE IS CRUEL SUMMER BUT HUMAN FIGHT ME

Will definitely tease you a little about how much you love Taylor Swift

But would eventually start liking her music as well

Do yall also think Sirius can sing? I do, he will sing for you.

Maybe. If you bug him enough, or if he's in the mood

He can kinda relate to some songs (I'll let you pick which ones)

Ughhhh Sirius gives Cruel Summer fr

Will find a way to get you merch, I mean he literally already does illegal stuff, I'm sure he can get you merch from Mid Earthium

Don't blame me, love made me crazy, if it doesn't you ain't doing it right

Okay this is way shorter than I normally write but as a non-swiftie I hope I got it

Remember to stay hydrated and get enough sleep :)

#arcana twilight #arcana twilight arcturus #arcana twilight spica #arcana twilight vega #arcana twilight sirius #arcana twilight pollux #arcana twilight alpheratz #arcana twilight summoner #arcana twilight h

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thatsgay-writes · 3 years

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Korra x She-ra!Reader Part 2

You looked at Swift Wind in confusion, "Vaatu? Who is that?" "Back in Adora's time, their was a great evil that went around the universe and would take over plants... After a long struggle over Etheria, She-ra managed to defeat Vaatu, or Horde Prime as he was called in our time, but some of his dark power was left and has been regenerating itself ever since. Growing stronger each day." You sit and consider what to do with this type of information.

"So if he's out now, that means he had to bond with someone... Who would want that type of power?" Swift Wind shook his head, "Someone crazy but we need to speed up your training, you need to be able to change to She-ra if you want a chance to defeat Vaatu."

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So you worked hard, day and night. Mastering the sword and its other forms and trying to turn into She-ra. "The time is coming..." Swift Wind said to you as you walked up for your daily training. "I can feel Vaatu's power growing... It's almost time for you to return, your friend will need you help." You felt your heart drop to your stomach with dread. You had been trying to push Korra to the back of your mind since you left the South Pole. You felt terrible for ghosting Korra, not even at least telling her you were okay. You gathered yourself and pulled out your sword, "Let's do this."

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You were woken from your slumber, feeling Swift Wind's horn poke you repeatedly in the back. "Hmmm... What?" You mumble trying to shake yourself awake. "It's time, y/n." "What? Five more minutes?" Swift just continues to poke you, harder this time. "It is time y/n!" You sit up immediately, letting the blankets fall off your body. "What but I haven't even been able to transform yet!?" You said worriedly as you scrambled around to dress yourself, hopping on one foot as you try and put on a boot and follow Swift Wind. "Well..." Swift Wind shrugged, "You're just going to have to use what you know. Who knows maybe you'll transform once your in the heat of battle?" "In the heat of battle!?" You gaped at Swift Wind, who in turn rolled his eyes. "Duh."

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You ride Swift Wind towards where he felt movement and were surprised to see 6 benders fighting against an army of evil spirits. "Fly me over and drop me!" You say to Swift Wind as you get closer. "You sure?" "Yeah... It's what you've been training me for right?" Swift Wind nods his head and speeds up over the spirit army. You take a deep breath and let yourself slide off of Swift Wind. "For the honor of grayskull!" You yell and almost laugh out of joy for finally being able to transform.

"Who is that!?" A earth bender below you yells as he watches your form fall from the sky, a bright light surrounding the body for a few seconds before hitting the ground. The benders stop for a second, to catch their breath, as all the spirits turn on you as you slam into the ground. You spend the next 5 minutes cutting through the spirits, gaining only a few cuts and scratches, none of them fazing you.

You cut through the last one and let yourself take a breath and look at your new form. Your hair was super long and blonde while your body was covered in a white and gold body suit with a gold crown. "This is so cool!" You exclaim before looking at the benders that you had helped. "Are you guys okay?" A boy dressed in green nodded his head as a bald man seemed to be in a more defensive stance. "Great... Swifty!" You yell out and feel the alicorn land behind you. "Okay, now we need to find Korra... You guys don't happen to know where she is, do you?" This time, before the boy in green could speak, the bald guy spoke. "And what business do you have with the Avatar?" You give the bald guy a fake pout, "Come on Tenzin, I know we only met a handful of times but I'm not one to be forgotten." You transform and watch as recognition shows in Tenzin's eyes. "Y/n?" You smile, "The one and only."

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After greeting Tenzin and getting a brief rundown of what was happening, you and Swift Wind were flying above Republic City, watching a giant Korra and Vaatu fight. "You know this it not what I imagined the city to look like." Swift Wind commented and you rolled your eyes. "I haven't been here before but I am sure it isn't usually covered in vines." "Yeah, well-" Whatever Swift Wind was about to say was cut off by a bright yellow light. "What is that?" You ask as Swift Wind flies closer to the source of light. "It looks like a girl..." "Holy shit is that Jinora!? Aww, she's so pretty."

"Y/n, focus." "Yes, right, focus. What is she doing?" You ask as you finally collect yourself. "By the spirits, she's holding Raava!" Swift Wind yells out and you look confused, "I really should have payed attention." "She is trying to put Raava into Vaatu but it seems like she can't get through." "Well that's were we come in." You say, confident in your ability as She-ra after transforming the first time. "Fly me over and drop me" Swift Wind looks concerned, you were pretty high up. "And then catch me before I hit the ground." Swift nods in confirmation and flies above Vaatu, where Jinora is still trying to insert Raava into Vaatu's body. "Lets do this." You say as you let yourself slide off of Swift Wind's back again, kind of wishing you could fly. "Incoming!" You yell to get Jinora's attention so you don't accidently stab her or something. Jinora's eyes widen as she watches you seemingly fall from the sky. "For the honor of grayskull!" You transform and stab your sword into Vaatu's chest, letting your momentum carry you and cut through the spirits body.

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You didn't return to the spirt world with Korra and Jinora, instead you had Swift Wind drop you off at Air Temple Island with Pema, Ikki, Meelo, and Rohan. Swift Wind had deemed that you were ready to be She-ra on your own and that he could finally move on and be with his She-ra. You would miss Swift Wind. You spent the time until Korra returned, catching up with Pema and getting to know Rohan. You almost cried the first night catching up with Pema, seeing how motherly she was towards her children made you miss your own mother.

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"Now Korra, I do have a surprise for you when we get to the island." Tenzin announces as they get closer to Air Temple Island. Bolin and Mako both holding small smiles as they remember how sad Korra was when she learned that you had disappeared and how happy she will be when the two of you get reunited.

Everyone got off of the bison as soon as they got to the island. Some of the people were confused as they saw you in your She-ra form, playing with Tenzin's children. You stopped playing with the children when you felt eyes on you and turned around. You gained a huge smile when you saw Korra and turned back to normal. Korra's eyes went wide when she saw you transform and she immediately ran towards you.

You let out a laugh as she wrapped you in a hug and swung you around. "Spirits! You're here and you were blonde! Wait, were you that person from the battle? That doesn't matter, where have you been? Why didn't you tell me your mother passed?" Korra rambled out as she held you and you laughed into her shoulder. "I missed you so much." You tell her as you pull back from the hug some to make eye contact with her.

You expect Korra to repeat the sentiment but instead she just holds eye contact with you quietly. "Korra I-" You get cut off as Korra presses her lips to yours. Your eyes widen for a second before letting yourself relax and return the affection. You both pull away when you hear someone clear their throat and you then remember that everyone was still around and watching your reunion. You blush heavily and pull away from Korra. "I... Um..." Korra on the other hand, ignores the fact that people are there and pulls you in for another kiss.

#korra x reader #legend of korra #lok #lok x reader #x reader #female reader #female x reader #wlw

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bybdolan · 2 years

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i loooooved reading your rep breakdown. i have a homemade tracklist of rep that, as far as taylor songs go, only contains lwymmd, idsb, so it goes, delicate, getaway car and false god. i also have on it a few melodrama tracks (homemade dynamite + liability reprise + sober ii), sufjan stevens tracks (i want to be well + the age of adz), fear & delight by the correspondents, and BLOOD. by kendrick, which is the opening song (ending before the fox news sample bit). these are the vibes i wanted.

i'm glad you mention some of her clear musical inspirations throughout rep bc i agree they pale in comparison. i think of all her albums, rep is the one that is the most blatantly derivative, but perhaps it only seems that way to me because a lot of the songs don't succeed in what they set out to do.

i feel like she hinted at a gothic/cyberpunk/bond girl amalgamation in various mvs, tour stage sets, and a few songs, but she whimped out and made the album about the boy she hid away with while the rest of the world collapsed. which is cute and all, but imo such a waste of her designated 1 (one) bad girl era.

Not to quote two white male YouTube music critics, but I distinctly remember ARTV and Anthony Fantano calling reputation (and, in ARTV’s case, specifically LWYMMD) out for being too Lorde-ish in sound and seemingly heavily inspired by Melodrama (which is probably kind of the result of Jack producing both albums in a relatively short period of time), and ARTV said something about how Taylor shouldn’t follow trends, she should set them. Which she has, time and time again. Taylor is a musical genius and a trailblazer, which is probably why it is such a shame that rep is what it is. The fact that fans often refer to it as her “most experimental” album just adds to that – not to play the “Swifties should listen to other artists” card, but it feels like an appropriate thing to say now, even though, to be fair, the Lorde and Halsey vibes of the album were often talked about in the fandom, if I recall correctly. Reputation is by no means a bad album – in terms of telling a complete story over the course of an album I’d argue it’s her best, and I don’t even take issue with the subject matter, I just find the execution to be lacking. In a track breakdown on folklore and evermore I am currently working on I mentioned that I think Taylor is at her best when she tells a big story in details and reputation is too big-scale for my taste, especially during the “persona” songs. And I feel like we see her mainly as a lover or as a public figure, rarely as a person. Who is she outside of her relations to other people? Though, to be fair and with added context of Lover etc., that is arguably a result of her still being very, very hurt at the time she wrote the album. I wonder if her feeling that she HAD to write this album and put it out led to the soundscape being less refined than on other albums.

I’ve talked time and time again about how I think reputation is an album that primarily works for fans, and how it isn’t a bad thing per se that critics etc. do not “get it”. Part of the mixed reception is definitely as result of Taylor being such a polarizing public figure, but there is an undeniable backlash that simply stems from the album being. Not that interesting. (MicTheSnare’s breakdown “Repetition” on YouTube is a great video about that.) If the “bait” of a “bait and switch” is more interesting then the “switch”, it didn’t really work imo. One of my friends at the time the album came out once said “After the singles you expected this really crazy thing, but it’s kind of just another Taylor Swift album”, and I think I would somewhat agree. Taylor’s attitude and her way of presenting herself and her work during rep era splits her career into two different sections – pre-rep and post-rep – and the album is undoubtedly insanely important to her artistic and personal journey, and it has left its mark in pop culture, but as a work of art it’s. Not really all it could have been?

#ask #poembyneruda #my bad this got long #i'll also listen to the song you emntioned for sure! the more 'what rep could have been' input the better

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anonymous-swiftie · 3 years

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If you are on twitter, please retweet this:

https://twitter.com/ASwiftie00/status/1334245577933148164?s=19

Dear #Swifties,

I'm new on tumblr, and I really don't know how to use it.

I know you are the best supporters of the music industry and I'm here to ask your help.

I'm fighting with a crippling depression, that due this covid situation just got worse.

I'm at my lowest, I truly don't know if I will make it through this time.

I always dreamed to talk to Taylor, since I was a teenager. She is the only one that make me feel like I do fit in this world.

I've created this account because I know she is very active here, and I'm trying to reach her with this part of my story.

You can read everything below.

I didn't write any personal information because I don't want this to be seen by my family or somebody that can recognise me.

I don't want upset anyone.

I know that everyone hope to meet or chat with her, and so you are probably wondering why you have to share this here.

You're totally right, maybe it's a stupid idea to ask you this, but I haven't anything left in my pocket to fight this situation, and you're my only hope right now.

Thank you.

#taylor #swift

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Dear Taylor,

I keep writing and deleting this, over and over again.

I feel so dumb to write my personal story here, but this truly is my last chance to feel better and try to overcome this giant monster called depression.

I genuinly don't know if I can make it through this year. It's the worst period of my entire life and i don't even know if it's worth living this hell anymore.

I know you have millions of supporters (that probably write you every single day, and they are all better fans than I am, that's for sure) but I know that you proved, time after time, to be so down to earth and to use your time to read your fans messages.. so, in this moment, I'm just trying to share a part of my story with you.

You are the one that make feel understood, since I was like 13teen.

I'm so sorry if my English isn't very good but I'll do my best.

I'm not very active on social media , because I'm very shy when I have to talk about myself.. but If this could work, I must do it.

I will try to send a letter, If I can find the strength to mark this feeling on paper.

**IF I'M WRITING TO SOMEBODY FROM HER STAFF, PLEASE JUST LET THIS MESSAGE REACH TAYLOR**

I'll try now to resume, because I don't want to bother you too much.

This has been a crazy year so far, and the all the time I spent by myself during the lockdown didn't help at all.

This situation brought me back to childhood.

I spent a lot of my days back and forth in hospitals, due to my allergies.

I had to wear a mask all the time I wanted to go outside to avoid severe allergic reaction (that's why this Covid thing awakened some hurting memories)

I didn't have real friends back then, 'cause I've spent most of the summers at home, watching other kids playing around, from my window, or from the windows of my classroom.

It was so hard to make new friends, because the only thing that other kids saw was my mask.

I was the masked kid.

I was the strange kid.

I couldn't play with them.

Everytime I tried to play with them, the only thing I heard was "oh you are ill , I don't wanna be like you so stay away".

This situation made me start to write things in my personal diary.

I wrote small sentences, as a kid, and that was the only thing I could do alone inside an empty classroom during all summer.

This situation continued for many years.

I wasn't the cool kid before, I wasn't the cool guy after.

The only things that let me enjoy those days were writing and listening to your songs.

I started to listen to your music thanks to my English teacher. She was a fan of folk and country music and she gave me a pic in which you were singing near a lake (I still have that photo somewhere, I strongly remember the white banner with your name written in red on it) and told me to listen to the cd she gave me that day.

I immediately fell in love (I think I still have a crush on you, I'm sorry).

I loved your album. I loved your voice. I loved the lyrics.

I remember having a "test" in school: each one of the class had to write their favourite lyrics and let the others guess the song.

If the someone guessed It, We could play the cd.

I chose Love Story and I translated it in Italian.

The class guessed the song, and I played it.

After the lunch break I went back to my desk and I saw some bullies that were breaking my cd-album and they started to laugh at me because I loved your music an I loved writing poems.

I was a boy so I was a loser because I enjoyed those things.

That felt terrible, but I continued to love your songs even more .

Those were my inspiration to write and to study english.

I felt so good when I listened to your album and this still happens.

Then I went to a private high-school.

Nothing changed, I still was the nerd guy that always got good grades and I have to say that the first year was quite good, but the second year was the start of the apocalypse.

I choose that school because two girls that I knew from childhood went there.

One of the cool new guys started to spread a fake "news" about me.

He said to everyone that I was the boyfriend of one of the two girls that I mentioned before.

So he was the cool guy and one of the girls believed him and told me to f*** myself.

The other girl was her best friend, so you could imagine by what happened next.

After 14 year spent together, I was nobody.

I didn't have "friends" in that class anymore.

I didn't say hello to anybody for 4 years, and nobody would say anything to me.

Nobody to talked with me.

That's great when you're a teenager.

I hated to wake up every morning.

I had an eating disorder, I lost like 22pounds in less than a month. Got hospitalized twice. I kept vomiting for 3 years, every single morning before school.

During that time I only talked with one of my cousins, who lived like 2 hours by car from me.

He was older than me but he always tried to help.

He knew that I loved to write poems so he started to give me guitar lessons.

I made it through a lot of things thanks to him.

I'm sorry, It's hard for me to write this part of the story.

I still get emotional when I think about this.

On the 10TH of December 2013 (some days after his birthday) we received a phone call from his mother: She warned us that he didn't return home after the last working shift.

I wrote a message to him like 3 hours prior to that phone call.

Never had the opportunity to get a reply again.

This year is the seventh year that he is missing.

That destroyed me.

I felt empty.

I felt like nothing couldn't help me.

I still feel that everytime I care about someone in my life, it will disappear someday.

This have happened several other times.

You know when ignorants say that men don't cry, is real bullshit. Men cry. I cried a lot.

I wrote so many poems , lyrics, thoughts in that period of time, that I destroyed my hands.

That was the only way to close my eyes and let me reach another reality because the real one was way too much for me.

Be a sensible man in this world is somehow a curse.

All these things made me afraid even to hug someone 'cause I feel I'm too ugly or just to scared to be refused.

I will stop here my story, but there's so much more to tell.

I make it through all of these things and memories because I keep dreaming that one day I could meet you and we could talk together.

Dreaming about the fact I could spend a day with you made me find the power to battle my depression.

I'm 25 now and this year I'm not dreaming anymore.

I was going to start again university, I wanted to get a degree in marketing and have the chance to live in the us.

For years I believed that I would make it and hopefully be part of your marketing team.

I'm so stupid. All these years I kept dreaming to avoid pain.

I wanted to pursue my passion and continue to write lyrics but all I was doing was putting myself in unrealistic realities.

This covid situation made everything clear.

When everyone had someone to facetime (or video call) I was alone.

When everyone had someone asking them "how are you?" I only had myself looking in the mirror saying: "Will I ever feel better?"

I've never been the one for anybody, and I think I'll never be.

I won't be the one among all your fans to realize his dream.

Nobody likes me, and I'm exposing myself once again just because I want the opportunity to smile at something that could happen to me.

I'm tired to smile only for others best moments.

I've always seen the sun through a window.

I want to feel happy.

I want to burn my face with the sun.

I'm so sick of hiding my pain,

sick to cry when I'm alone in my car before going to work,

sick to let my eyes rain on my pillow every night.

I'm sick to say to my mother that I'm fine, just because I don't want to make her feel bad.

It's not her fault.

She is battling with a degenerative autoimmune disease, why I should put other weight on her shoulders?

I didn't give up to my weakness before because I don't want to hurt her.

I always say to her that soon she will feel better, that's why your song It's stuck in my head.

But when she won't be here anymore, how I can go through all of that?

I don't even know if will ever get better for me.

Will this pain ever stop?

Sometimes it's so hard to live and so easy to die.

Hope that my dream to spend some time with you can become true.

Thank you for everything, you gave me the strength to go on for many years.. But this time is so hard to put on my armor and continue this battle.

But is this even worth if thy I try to surround myself with people and I always feel lonely?

@taylorswift @taylornation @jackleopards-thedolphinclub

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hogwartsmysteryho · 3 years

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Omg, I love the Swiftie game maybe a little too much, ngl 👀 You are amazing!

Seeing as I'm the most terrible person at choosing and you said multiple requests were fine....

How about Seliot, Lizion, and Dylanielle? 💛💛💛

(If you only want to do one, that's so fine!)

eeeeeeeek let’s talk some taylor!!!!!!!!!!

seliot - “The Way I Loved You” (Fearless) eliot belongs to the marvelous @kc-and-oc

“He is sensible and so incredible /And all my single friends are jealous” this is pretty straightforward: eliot is a very sensible ravenclaw, and there’s a reason selene is into him in the first place. and i too would be jealous of anyone dating adam brody’s face.

“He opens up my door and I get into his car / And he says you look beautiful tonight / And I feel perfectly fine” eliot is quite the courteous little gentlemen when the two are getting along, and i feel like this line fits with that one wildflower prompt u did for these guys!

“But I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain / And it's 2AM and I'm cursing your name / You're so in love that you act insane / And that's the way I loved you” if i could only use one word to describe seliot, i’d say passionate. and that includes their breakups and heartache as well as their good times. the chorus of this song really captures that passion that i associate so strongly with seliot.

“Breaking down and coming undone / It's a roller coaster kind of rush / And I never knew I could feel that much / And that's the way I loved you” rollercoaster is one way to put it, and a really perfect, really fitting way to put it i think. i especially love the “i never knew i could feel that much” because hey, it’s their first love, and it’s very intense!

there’s another verse about some more positive and cute relationship things, and then the chorus repeats. then we get the bridge: “He can't see the smile I'm faking / And my heart's not breaking / 'Cause I'm not feeling anything at all / And you were wild and crazy / Just so frustrating / Intoxicating, complicated” seliot is many things, but it’s never boring, and there’s never any question how real the feelings are behind it. this song compares a seemingly perfect relationship to a wild and passionate one, claiming that those feelings just weren’t there in the perfect one, and that it’s through all of the crazy fights and breakups that they know how strongly they feel for each other.

hehe if u need some good bitter breakup songs for these two, i am, once again, dropping this album here :)

lizion - “Wonderland” (1989 Deluxe Edition)

“Flashing lights and we / Took a wrong turn and we / Fell down a rabbit hole” all right so this would be that part in aob where lizzie is realizing her feelings for orion, and she’s metaphorically falling into this rabbit hole because of all of the drama.

“You held on tight to me/ 'Cause nothing's as it seems / And spinning out of control” lizzie’s whole world is falling apart- she’s fighting with rowan, charlie, and sometimes skye while going through this big emotional crisis. but, throughout it all, she has orion to hold onto.

“Didn't they tell us don't rush into things? / Didn't you flash your green eyes at me? / Haven't you heard what becomes of curious minds? / Ooh, didn't it all seem new and exciting? / I felt your arms twistin' around me / I should have slept with one eye open at night” the astronomy tower scene! lizzie gets caught up in her feelings and alcohol and gets a little too rash, which has disasterous consequences.

“We found Wonderland / You and I got lost in it / And we pretended it could last forever (Eh, eh) / We found Wonderland / You and I got lost in it / And life was never worse but never better (Eh, eh)” orion is such a wonderlandiful guy, isn’t he? the vibe that lizion gives off to me is that they seem like they can be in their own little absolutely adorable world together (especially in rockstar au!) “life was never worse but never better” i’m not sure what to add it just feels like it fits, you know?

“But there were strangers watching / And whispers turned to talking / And talking turned to screams” frigging rumors. but, another important point of their relationship and obstacles in aob!

“I reached for you, but you were gone / I knew I had to go back home” that point when lizzie chooses rowan over orion

“And in the end, in Wonderland / We both went mad” well, they didn’t actually, but there was a point when i was worried they were gonna go mad from all that stress!

side note - wildest dreams totally gives me rockstar! lizion vibes, even though orion doesn’t really fit the bad boy narrative the song has :)

dylanielle - “You Are In Love” (1989 Deluxe Edition)

“One look, dark room / Meant just for you” c’mon now, these two are totally the make-eye-contact-across-the-classroom-and-smile type.

“Buttons on a coat, lighthearted joke / No proof, not much, but you saw enough” one of the most important parts of this beautiful friends-to-lovers ship is that they show their love through little interactions (*cough* shadow puppets *cough*), rather than reallly grand romantic gestures. it’s not huge proof, but it’s enough to know theyre in love.

“Small talk, he drives / Coffee at midnight / The light reflects the chain on your neck / He says, "Look up" / And your shoulders brush / No proof, one touch, but you felt enough” even when they had one scene that they featured in that zadie and reva story, it was very clear that they were a couple from their casual and normal activities, like studying together, or getting coffee at midnight. and they’re totally the type to accidentally brush shoulders!

“You can hear it in the silence (Silence), silence (Silence), you / You can feel it on the way home (Way home), way home (Way home), you / You can see it with the lights out (Lights out), lights out (Lights out) / You are in love, true love / You are in love” all these two have to do is walk next to each other, and you can just tell!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

then we get some more little things lyrics that totally fits them, and we get this gem: “And for once, you let go / Of your fears and your ghosts / One step, not much, but it said enough” they both have the same ghost: this looming quidditch legacy draping over both of their heads! it’s through each other that they can help themselves in that regard.

“One night, he wakes / Strange look on his face / Pauses, then says "You're my best friend" / And you knew what it was, he is in love” it… it just sounds exactly like them! are we sure this song is older than this ship? it just fits too well!

“And you understand now / Why they lost their minds and fought the wars / And why I've spent my whole life trying to put it into words” no specific comment, just ugh these lyrics r so good!

send me a character or relationship and i’ll break down a t swift song i think suits them!

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bellasprettywords · 3 years

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✨Get to know me✨

Hi!! Once again, thank you all for being here, for your support and for being such a welcoming community!!🥰

Don't forget to participate in the other dynamics, as writing for you is my way of saying thank you😚💖

I feel completely grateful for each and everyone of you that takes the time to scroll through my blog, to read my work and to interact with it; y'all are my biggets motivation to keep writing HP fanfic, and as part of the celebratory activities, I'll give you 50 random facts about me (yes, a fact for each one of u, I can't help being cheesy)🤭💕

1. People call me Bella

2. I'm happy, free, confused and lonely at the same time (aka, I'm 22)

3. I'm currently studying a double major in Law and Political Science

4. I have my 🌞 in Virgo

4. My love language is physical touch

5. I love writing, tbh it's one of my favorite things in the world

6. I'm quite shy when it comes to posting it (I guess that's why it took me so long to open this blog)

7. I consider myself a feminist

8. My favorite color is pink

9. I have a boyfriend, who encouraged me to open this blog

10. I write a weekly column on political issues in a small online newspaper

11. I looooove watching romcoms

12. I'm terrible at maths, like seriously, Idk how I've gotten this far without knowing numbers

13. I'm a huge swiftie

14. I love watching Disney shows

15. Before covid, I used to go out a looooot, but now I'm a couch potato

16. I can't drive, like, theorically I know how to, but I don't like it, so I don't do it

17. I fell in love with photography when I got an instant camera

18. I'm a stress baker

19. I love reading romance novels, history books, and feminist books/essays

20. Elektra Natchios (from the Daredevil comics) is my queen

21. I'm incredibly sensitive

22. I have crazy wavy hair, like, it's a mess

23. Crash Landing on You is my favorite K-drama

24. A close second is Strong Woman Do Bong So

25. Cinnamon tea is my bae

26. Owls are my favorite animals, I find them aestheticaly pleasing

27. I have a lot of stuffed animals

28. My rolemodel is Lydia Martin (from Teen Wolf)

29. I'm really camera shy

30. Floral dresses and skirts are my signature looks

31. Fall is my favorite season

32. I do tarot readings

33. Fashion is one of my hobbies

34. I admire Gloria Steinem, Mary Wollstonecraft and Betty Friedan

35. The champagne problems x all too well remix breaks my heart every single time I listen to it

36. I don't drink much coffee, but when I do, I like putting chocolate ice cream to it and a little cinnamon tea (or a lot of plain cinnamon)

37. I'm always listening to music

38. Sometimes I review books on my Goodreads account

39. I speak Spanish really fluently

40. I also studied French, but I can read it/understand it more than I can speak it (my brain doesn't care I've been studying French for at least four years, I still can't make fluid sentences when it comes to speaking)

41. As well, I understand Portuguese (although I can speak more Portuguese than French bc life is never fair)

42. And my first year in uni I took Italian classes, but it was too much for me

43. I'm that annoying kid who always participates in classes

44. I also love taking handwritten colorful notes

45. I try to always have my nails in a color that matches my mood

46. Going to museums is one of my favorite activities

47. I cannot separate the artist from the art

48. Some of my favorite Tay Swift songs are unrealesed, so here's hoping they come as Vault Tracks (help a girl out blondie @taylorswift)

49. My dreamhome is an apartment with everything pink with Barbie-ish vibres

50. I don't proof read my writings, because I overthink and feel my work is kinda meh

#hufflepuffwrites #Bella's personal💛#50 followers celebration💕#get to know me

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overdramaticandtrue1989 · 4 years

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@taylorswift I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!! You are truely amazing! I just wanted you to know that!!! and thank you for everything you have done for me!! Sorry its long... there is point I promise.

Day one, I was born... oops wrong letter...

I started listening to your music during fearless, but truly became a swiftie when Red came out! That album helped me get through some tough relationships ( at that time I kept my relationships secret from everyone because I was still in the closet which caused the problems. )The emotion on that album just makes me cry as I can relate to the heartbreak and beginning again. Kinda wish went to that concert, but i couldn't get tickets then, maybe do a red redo concert just for me? Mmm no that would be selfish on my part.... anyways,

1989 came out and well and so did I!!!🌈 What an album! Its the one that I just shook everything off from the past and moved on. I started to say fuck it, began to life to the fullest!! I also met my now husband that era!💖 I know places taught me to just not let others get involved because there will always be that one person who tries to ruin it or get involved and cause problems. Now I have to be honest, I may ( once or twice) got involved in some friends relationships. I didnt ruin it or anything but did start some drama... they were honesty asking for it! I know know still no excuse...

Now REPUTATION took the cake! WHAT AN ERA! That was when this swiftie cried and started to become a super swiftie ( maybe crazy at times) with a pince of obsession lol, but im not like that anymore... ( except when @taylornation has a listening party, and I want them to notice me). I just love king of my heart! Its mine and my husbands song. I am his Canadian queen! ( see what if did there?)🤭

I also got to sing and dance with you in the snake pit ( which was a mind blowing and crazy experience!)

Ya.. Reputation was my all time favourite album until.... folklore came out.

Now LOVER was a fantastic album! When you did "you need to calm down" i started to feel even closer to you! Knocking the haters off of their pedestal and supporting the gays. Also ME when you got Benjamin!! That was soo cute!! What a colorful era too! London Boy is one of my favourite songs because it reminds me of my husband who grew up in Barrow-in-Furness, UK. I totally agree with you; god I love the English!

Now folklore just blew me away! The calm folk like music with powerful lyrics and the stories! I'm in love with all of it. Plus I like the key you sing in because I can sing in that key lol.. well maybe I have to sing falsetto for some parts! Hehe

Its hard to choose a favourite song off of that album, but if someone said my life will come to an end if I don't choose a favourite song, well then I would have to say invisble string! No wait! last great american dynasty.. mmm but I do love my tears ricochete! See my dilemma?

Anyways, I am not even sure if you will see this, but I hope you do ( as I just spilled my emotions and heart to everyone... hiiiii...everyone on the internet😳

Anyways I love you like a best friend ( my husband may see this 🤭) and

I would love to give you the worlds biggest hug and thank you for everything you have done for me!! It would honestly make my life!

After covid of course... and... of course if im allowed🤭

Anyways, love ya!

Chris

Xoxo

P.S- My other social media just incase you don't know it already...

Instagram: overdramaticandtrue1989 and cgrieve22

Twitter: ChrisGrieve22

#taylorswift #taylornation #taylor swift13 #swifties #taylorswiftfan #swiftie #folklore #reputation #1989 album #red album #lover #fearless #speak now #love #lwymmd #betty

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sheerioswifties · 5 years

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So I've got something to say after what's been a really horrific day following a terrible few months following a nightmare few years and so on... and I've just had a complete breakdown here in this hospital bed and I want to say some things to Taylor, just put it into the void. This will come off silly and cheesy to most but I know you guys understand and I cannot thank you enough for that.

Dear Taylor,

I, like everyone who has had their lives touched by you, have so very much I want to say to you but this will be short as I'm very sick and can't type much. I'm in the hospital for the ??????th time dealing with issues from my chronic debilitating illnesses- long stories- just, the point is that I needed to write you from this hospital bed right now, through tears and just thank you. Thank you, Taylor, for SO much, but specifically in this moment- I need to thank you for bringing this next chapter sooner, the timing... it's perfect. I need to thank you for this countdown- though it's been quite a ride and driving us all crazy you know we love it and I have realized that your daily 4.26 countdown posts are literally keeping me going right now. Keeping me fighting. I'm going through the roughest time a human can right now, and looking forward to seeing these posts gives me a reason to smile at least once each day. Something fun and good for even just a moment each day- that's *huge* right now. And more importantly, knowing that I've got to make it to 4.26 keeps me going, keeps me fighting- it's an exciting goal that sits in my mind every day to focus on, to know there is something really amazing to look forward to while I'm in the middle of all the misery. And then, knowing that whatever starts on 4.26 will set another something to look forward to, to fight to make it to see, and so on. Taylor... you are literally keeping me going, keeping me fighting through times when my body has exhausted me so much that it's very hard not to give up- but you. You give me something to focus on in the future and that really is everything right now. I really look forward to and hope with all my heart that I'll get to see and hear TS7. I don't know if I'll be able to go to the tour and that's something I cannot reasonably get hopes up for right now. But just knowing an album and all kinds of your unique and wonderful Swiftian content is just on the horizon really is everything, I cannot explain or emphasize that enough. Honestly I'll be so happy just to see what happens on 4.26. Just that alone, like I've said, keeps me going. And!!! Taylor!!! Your fandom!!! I cannot speak highly enough of some of the amazing, incredible, beautiful souls I've met and become friends with on here because of you! The friendships that are real; here's to my REAL friends indeed... mean the world to me and truly are a bigger factor in keeping me going as well. I wish I could tell you about each and every one of them, how special they are and what they've done, how supportive and loving they are- shout out to you guys, I love you SO much. And I love that I can go off about how Taylor freaking Swift is saving my life and you guys actually understand and won't think this is silly. We get each other and we've got each other and that really IS everything. Okay I've now typed a lot more than I intended and need to wrap this up, so... I just... I need Taylor to know. I don't need a like or notice or anything, I just am really hoping that somehow @taylorswift will at least see this so she knows. That I love you Taylor, I thank you, I cannot put into words what you've meant to me. A million times thank you!!!!!!

And so, my Swiftie fam, I ask in this moment of weakness what I wouldn't normally, again; please if you guys can reblog this or if any of you by chance have direct lines to Taylor that could even just tell her, just tell her thank you for me. That's all. I know she's so busy and this has become way too long a post now so I'm just really hoping someone can just let her know she's had this huge impact on this little life. Just tell her thank you and I love you for me. Somehow that really is everything.

I love you guys. I thank you from the depths of my heart.

Brynn💕

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