#still chasing for that feeling

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Lan Wangji Goes To Lotus Pier AU: Part 3: Enveloping Feelings.

(Part 1, Part 2, Part 4 (soon))

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #lan wangji #Yungmeng Jiang training arc AU #I wanted to try out a different paneling style for this one - sorry I'm a day late! (there will still be a post tomorrow to keep on track) #The original 3 panel comic idea was fine but the point of this new schedule was to take time to push myself a bit more. #I was taking a look back through some comic artists I felt inspired by #and I really loved how Lynda Barry fills her gutters with patterns and doodles! #Obviously I'm not going as absolutely wild with it as she does but it was a great exercise! #I truly think the gutters are the most important and most overlooked part of any comic. There's lots going on in that space. #It's the same with timeskips. The implied movement between moments that we don't see changes depending on how wide that gap is #You're here for the funny tags so here's some that ties this time talk together: #I think LWJ was thinking about that second note from day 2 but it took him 7 days of hazing to commit it to paper. #I think he sends it a day later and immediately regrets it. Chasing down the messenger and everything. #You know if something actually happened to his brother he would never ever forgive himself for putting the bad vibes out there. #Third time skip was the hardest because there was so many possible flavours of jokes here. Day 8/9 was a personal favourite. #day 14 was also funny (week by week). I think the debate on 'how long does lwj take to catch feelings' is more or less: #'how long does it take for him to arrive at a particular stage of grief and yearning (and awareness of it all) #This is a symphony. There is an act by act structure. Every day he is fighting to keep his old sensibilities. He is losing so badly. #(I'll be returning to the main comic soon but there is more of this AU to come!)

[somewhereincairparavel]

a little thought to ruin your day: After Piper broke up with Jason, he had to deal with his heartache all by himself, isolated in a mortal boarding school with nobody to comfort him. No family. No friends.

#I hope your day is ruined #bc mine is #This man gives me a heartache it's not even funny anymore. Like it's just one after the other for him tumbling down. #I can imagine Jason looking out the windowsill all sad :( omgg #He loved piper so much :( #He basically died for her even after they became exes #I just wanna wrap him in a fluffy blanket #It's kinda hard for me to not resent Piper for this sorry. #I mean #I'm glad she didnt cheat on him or smth and just broke up w him to not play w his feelings #But yeah. Still pretty upset. They'd been dating for a year at that point. So Jason must've had it pretty bad. #pjo #jason grace #pjo hoo #pjo fandom #percy jackson #pjo series #pjo hoo toa #pjo toa #toa #piper mclean #hazel levesque #leo valdez #annabeth chase #frank zhang

[sourtoasterstrudel]

in honour of the show that will be coming out eventually (and the fact i've been obsessed with this series since middle school) i drew these three. i swear i'm trying to work on my own stuff but then i draw fanart then have zero energy left to draw what i actually want to

#not sure how happy i am with annabeth something just feels off about her #pjo #percy jackson #annabeth chase #still art blocked i think that's why it looks weird to me #soursart #i just drew percy in my favourite basic bitch pose #now that i know what i want them to look like if i ever draw them again it'll probably go better

[diamondsunbursts-and-marblehalls]

always and forever love and cherish annabeth chase for proving to my 14-year-old self that being a super-intelligent badass that people admire and look up to can co-exist with the part of you that is upset and insanely jealous when you find out that your best friend and boy you've been in love with since you were 12 is friends with other girls.

because fr she watches him stand there like a dead fish while this rando writes her number on his hand, says it's fine, and then replies with one-syllable answers every time he tries to talk to her for like a whole 24 hours.

he's out here acting like he doesn't even want to know this girl, and she's out here like fine, if you know another girl what if i'm just super rude to her and then don't talk to you for the rest of your life. what then?

the best part is that she's so mad at him because he knows other girls, and then mad at herself for being mad at him for knowing other girls and he's so oblivious as to why she's mad because to him she's the only girl ever.

#they are goals #they are the blueprint #absolutely nothing like the blind rage you feel when you boy you fell for at 12 knows other girls #of course they're not dating but she's still pissed #she is me #thanks for validating everyone ever rick #me and the homies appreciate it #percy jackson #annabeth chase #percy and annabeth #percabeth #percy jackson and the olympians #percy jackon and the olympians #pjo series #pjo #the battle of the labyrinth #the last olympian #annabeth chase pjo

[avocadoghost0]

#percy jackson #annabeth chase #jason grace #piper mclean #frank zhang #hazel levesque #reyna avila ramirez arellano #nico di angelo #jiper #i know they broke up but still #percabeth #frazel #there were so many more characters i wanted to put in here but i couldnt fit them all #riordanverse #the seven pjo #the seven #plus nico and reyna #idk how i feel about the existential crisis ones #but whatever

[arthursfuckinghat]

"I was gonna say you're like a son to me.. but you're more than that."

"It ain't that complicated!"

How quickly that shoulder pat of comfort turned into a condescending one.

#he makes me feel so emo #this life was never meant for you but your fate was forced #the way dutch (and hosea) talks to arthur like he's stupid will never sit right with me #like they've been by his side over 20 years they KNOW he isn't stupid because if he was he would have been gone a long time ago #not only is arthur incredibly emotionally smart but he's a trained conman vault breaker gunslinger horse rider you name it #the fact that his own adoptive parents break him down like that hurts #it's a manipulation tactic on dutch's end - break your victims self esteem to make them chase your praise and approval #hosea I believe has just gone along with that kind of attitude but in a different way he just likes to jest lightheartedly #arthur doesn't see the difference though and it's understandable but he takes it to heart #the worst part is that hosea sees through his tough guy act and has called arthur out on it #his act is a defence mechanism to protect himself from being too vulnerable - in arthur's mind #and it isn't a sudden thing it's very likely something that has built over the years given the life he has lived #and hosea notices he knows this #but they still jab at arthur #oh it hurts #is he your son dutch? or is he your guard dog? your personal workhorse? #playing through the second time is opening my eyes more and more #rdr2 #red dead redemption 2 #mick squeaks #mick rants #mick gifs #arthur morgan #dutch van der linde #liveblogging #you guys gotta understand - arthur seeks and longs for dutch's approval he'll never say it but it's the key motive behind his loyalty #and arthur *rejects* dutch's comfort #he doesn't *want* dutch to pat him on the shoulder because he knows dutch is digging them an even deeper hole #he doesn't want that touch he craves #it's so insanely monumental for such a small scene because it shows us how arthur feels without telling us

[shkika]

I just hope you don’t come to regret it..

You can think of this comic as a part 2 to the UI leaking the rot comic. Please check it out! (x)

#rainworld #rain world #unparalleled innocence #grey wind #chasing wind #rw comic #my art #i can finally faint im so tired haha #this was alot of work #excuse any mistakes i might have made especially near the end #a lot of it was done quite late #anyway this has been on my mind for a while #grey knows how it feels to be misunderstood #so while everyone else takes UI’s silence as telling #grey decides to investigate what happened. and figured she judged her wrong #this is pretty much how their friendship starts! #UI is right by saying she has a short lifespan. by the time of riv shes gone #even pebbles with his intense rot was still standing #ill take a break and look into my inbox later today #thank you for the patience! #hope the comic is enjoyable

[uncanny-tranny]

The sheer pity party some alloromantics expect of aromantics is really funny to me. The expectation is that we ought to feel broken or afraid that we will never be worthy of anything if not for a romantic relationship, but as the years go on, I've been so much less inclined to feel those ways.

People expect aromanticism to feel like a prison, and I think that's looking at it wrong. My aromanticism never imprisoned me - amatonormativity did. Being aromantic taught me that I can never and will never be "made whole" through romantic attraction. Amatonormativity teaches that to be whole is to be pursued, to be in love, to be possessed, essentially. Being aromantic has freed me of those expectations because I had to break those chains in order to truly understand what will make my life worth living.

I've been finding more and more that being allo will never appeal to me - I don't give a flying fuck about allo being "normal," and frankly if being normal means being allo, I simply just won't be normal.

#aro #aromantic #lgbt #lgbtq #throw a pity party for me because i died in this video game i'm playing (i am booboo the fool who refuses to eat health items) #bro why must i be so fucking stubborn like. 'ooh look at me i'm at three hearts but i won't eat the hoards of health items i have.' #like. come ON. #but yeah. if somebody expects me to be groveling about how i'm not alloromantic and allosexual i will chase them and bite them #i will make sure they have to get a rabies shot (hyperbole but you get the spirit of how strongly i feel about this) #like i'm not even *that* aro but i still hate the idea that i need to be mournful about it. i'm celebrating this actually #it's one less thing for me to stress about yo

[yenvengerberg]

since the trailer for teen wolf: the movie just dropped, i feel like now is an excellent time to inform/remind everyone of the treatment of arden cho.

arden, who played the show’s only lead woc, was written off the show with zero warning - the excuse being that there wasn’t enough room for her storyline. in fact, she had been doing press saying she was excited to see what the next season would bring. she also had to announce this herself via her youtube and her character, who had been the main character’s love interest, didn’t even get a proper goodbye.

then, the teen wolf movie came around. you would think this would be an opportunity for kira to be treated better and finally get her ending, but no: arden cho was offered less than half the salary of her female counterparts to return.

so what did teen wolf do about this? they decided to replace her with another actress who would only be offered basic pay.

after the release of the trailer today, it’s become increasingly obvious that arden’s character kira was a crucial part of this movie. the movie brings back several ‘big bads’ that were introduced because of kira, the nogitsune and the oni. so why wasn’t arden offered equal pay? why make the mythology that was centered around your lead woc as the plotline for this film, but not treat her equally?

i’m begging everyone to not financially support this movie. if you're that desperate to watch it there are ways to do so without paying (i’ll even help you find a link if you need it!). but please, don’t sweep this under the rug. let this movie flop.

#arden cho #arden cho deserves better #teen wolf #tw racism #i should sleep but i'm sat here getting angry about this AGAIN #i feel like everyone's just shut up about this and i'm still sat here FUMING #seriously idc if you want to watch it to laugh at it or to chase the nostalgia #just PLEASE don't pay for it

[time-woods]

Coming from what you just posted on Kofi, does being torn into feel good for Sidus? I know you wrote something along the lines of it hurting, but he wants Carma to do it... or is it more of the intimacy/trust that comes with it, maybe along the lines of revealing Sidus's "true" form?

good ask anon

it does hurt- but for certain reasons (that come up in the fic im doing)) sensations are weird for him- experiences in general. but it is also very much an intimacy thing- having someone be able to be that close to you- be that close to *what* you are, is a big part of it. (also yea def a trust thing- this also becomes relevant in the fic))

the best way i can explain how it feels for Sīdus would be like- i dont know how many of you have nerve damage but ill try to explain that sensation too (my experiences with it at least)- so when you touch your skin you feel it yea? that but you still feel it but not quite right- its like having the feeling under the skin but not on the skin your touching, just whats under it. its like the sensation of it is foggy and dull but you can still feel it- it can still hurt too. But for Sīdus its that really strange dampened sensory feeling

#chasing stars au #asks #its really hard to describe the feeling of technically the lack of feeling but still feeling #me ? projecting more of my own experiences ? neeever #but yea this can def just be read as an autistic view of sensory feelings in intimacy (mecore)

[blueskittlesart]

cold fruit in a hot kitchen (so i had this great watermelon last weekend)

#so I had this great watermelon last weekend. and the thing is it probably wasn't even that great of a watermelon #but I was four hours into an eight hour shift and we had thrown out all the watermelon salad because no one was eating it #and then our manager ran in and yelled that the client really fucking wanted watermelon salad. #so like six of us servers started frantically chopping watermelon. and the kitchen got really hot #in the way it does when everyone inside it is really stressed because there's no fucking watermelon salad #and after we chopped all the watermelon and the client got their fucking watermelon we all had a moment #where we looked at the remaining watermelon and we were so hot and cocktail hour was almost over anyway and the salads were all plated #and we all went for the watermelon and we ate it with the kind of rabid intensity you only get while eating cold watermelon in a hot kitche #and it was the best watermelon I have ever tasted and several days later i am still chasing the high of that fucking watermelon #and the thing is i know it isn't even the watermelon i'm actually missing #it's the feeling of cool liquid on hot skin and the feeling of a crisis averted and the feeling of camaraderie #that comes with devouring a watermelon in a hot kitchen with six other people who you have nothing in common with except that watermelon. #i don't dream of labor but i am dreaming now of being 4 hours into an eight hour shift eating watermelon in a hot kitchen. #i dream of laughing around the cold fruit in my mouth. I crave that watermelon like i'll die without it. #< honest to god this is real and that watermelon left such an impact on me that i had to draw it and write this. having a normal one #maybe this is insane but working in a team of people you truly like to do something you actually enjoy is so underrated #if only they fucking paid me i could work as a server for the rest of my life. unironically #skribbles

[haunted-xander]

Something something kh2 Sora's outfit being primarily dark colors despite being associated with light and Riku's outfit being primarily light colors despite being associated with darkness

#something something riku letting himself be eclipsed by darkness (taking on ansem sods form + black coat) to preserve soras light from afar #only to cast it off and return to light (true form + lighter colored outfit) once hes reunited with sora #ALSO something something riku using a blindfold to shield himself from the light (sora/his feelings for sora) to ensure he remains in the da #rk #ALSO soras red (sunset-dawn-light) to rikus blue/purple (midnight-dusk-dark) #but they still both have traces of yellow (sun-stars-moon-union of day and night) #the sun chasing the moon but never fully catches up until the moon aligns itself with it- a solar eclipse #a union that takes both parties meeting halfway to achieve- a chase that ends when the target wants it to- connection and love and wanting #im getting off track my point is FOILS!!!!! OPPOSITES!!!!!! SHOWING CONNECTION THROUGH ASSOCIATIONS #brb im going insane #sora #riku #soriku #kingdom hearts #kingdom hearts 2 #kh #kh2 #xander rambles

[drawnfamiliarfaces]

i've never even seen the show First is from and yet i love your First x Chase Young ship so i have to ask. If anything did HAPPEN between the two of them what sort of emotions would they be dealing with afterwards?

Wow, this is such an unexpectedly nice compliment for me? Cause it means, you are a Chase/XS fan, who saw my crack ship and went 'I don't know what's going on, but I enjoy your silly little ship, funny crossover shipper.' and you know what? It's very nice and made me happy. ;) Thank you!

And well who said nothing ever happened between them lol IF anything happened between those two (be it emotional or physical ;3), their default way of dealing it would be DENIAL DENIAL DENIAL, in similar but also in slightly different ways.

Chase Young is a man who seemingly doesn't do softer emotions. Any possible feelings and reactions who could be attributed to him actually caring about First Ninja, are re-labeled in his head into him doing all of this because he is trying to manipulate First on his side (and he totally still is, but he also now wants to feed that man, talk with him during long evenings and perhaps take a nap with him, you know, disgusting cute domestic stuff amidst oh i dunno- taking over the world and being evil together. >;))

First Ninja on the other hand, is very much aware that for things to go this far means that he is absolutely having emotions about Chase. But he is also in denial, because how can he betray all of his moral standing and beliefs, if he starting to care about someone like Chase Young? So he shoves it so far deep, he is in denial about denial, and turns completely blind to anything even resembling them being something more than opponents who tentavely respect one another.

#que? #ninja showdown #my immortal soul #is it strange that out of those two i absolutely view Chase is the one who would voice out his wishes& feelings first #if only because Chase Young isn't one to deny himself things he really wants #(of course he has to realize that he wants them in that way first and that might take awhile) #and First Ninja is the one who WOULD deny himself anything just because it doesnt line up with his responsibilities and morals #even if he most likely will be the one to realize his emotions first. he also would have hard time believing sincerity of Chase's feelings #a very strange juxtaposition between the one who puts himself first and the one who never puts himself first #also not gonna lie. I wrote out. like several paragraphs about my headcanons about physical intimacy between those two &how they view it #but than I realized that its probably TMI for an anon ask that didnt ask for that xD so i decided not to subject you to my rants &deletedit #but still sorry

[ur-favorite-basil-enthusiast]

something something...........deciding to work with house equating to deciding to ruin yourself. he corrodes everything. that's just who he is. thats why all of his fellows are so fucked up; thats why cameron left chase. thats why they cant be happy!! because he is The Father and they are the Sons, and there isnt a way for them to escape that. if you even care

#is this even anything #im feeling slightly insane idk if i got what i wanted across at all #house #house md #hatecrimes md #greg house #gregory house #robert chase #SOOO chase. like it goes for chase especially #eric foreman #allison cameron #thirteen #remy hadley #remy thirteen hadley #and #lisa cuddy #for her it was different. but it was still there #LIKE IDK GUYS. IT RUNS IN THE FAMILY WHAT CAN I SAY. it runs in yhe famiu #my post

[shokushii]

hello echo enjoyers. im now suffering from brainrot also.

also also idk why but the stock image thing really tickled me. love this slow-typing ass office gila and his toothpicks <3

(and the horrors) (lmao)

#chase hunter #flynn moore #echo project #echo vn #my art #artists on tumblr #digital art #art #clip studio paint #shoku.scribbles #anywho! #im going through this in the wackiest possible route order i feel like lmao #i went flynn -> leo -> tj -> jenna (still in the middle of it rn) #after doing carls im gonna do flynns again before goin to the other games #felt like flynns route was the most packed and charged route so far but maybe im saying that because its the first one i played even though #i now keep seeing people to leave his for last lmaoo #well i wasnt gonna be an asshole and leave him to sulk of course i followed him at the river dsjkfsdk #anywho anywho the real mvp of this game is kudzu. give that poor guy a break #ill draw him next i think #anywho anywho anywho. yeah. what a game. yes im delaying thinking about the horrors by drawing shut up <3 #also im very happy with how this came out :-)

[notecardpasta]

[ That body was too delicate, anyways. ]

#my art #anthro #design #monster #this is optional lore but I picture their real body is still running around piloted by the demon thats having the time of its life right no #whoever ends up purchasing this guy has a great opportunity for some post-deal regrets and wild goose chases #I should probably have adopts available to claim on tumblr but it feels forbidden somehow