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beanghostprincess · 5 months

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well since you asked so nicely, what are all your straw hats sexuality (and gender identity?) headcanons :D

ps you dont have to explain them all if it's too much for you ^^

I love you so much for this mwah mwah /p I love when people send me asks like this <33

: ̗̀➛ [Luffy] Sexuality: Aspec. I'm very, very specific with this so I would have to write a whole paragraph to explain it well, but I'll try to do it in fewer words. I used to headcanon Luffy as asexual but the demi-sexual headcanon is growing on me. Only sexual with Zoro, though. Like- I ship Luffy with more people but imo he only feels sexually attracted to Zoro. Something something 'the bond between a captain and his first mate'. Romantic attraction: I can see him being demi-romantic (once again only romantic with Zoro. Or Sanji, even) but I personally see their relationship very Aroaspec QPR. Aromantic and Demi-sexual with a very deep bond with his first mate and his cook. Gender: Transmasc. Demi-boy. He/They. I think he, like, resonates more with being a boy but still doesn't fit the binary enough to be one. And transmasc because. Well. Have you seen him?

: ̗̀➛ [Zoro] Sexuality: Homosexual. Gay. The gayest man you've ever seen. I think he's demi-sexual too in the sense that only Luffy or Sanji would make him go insane and aroused, but he would sleep with other men just because. Like fr, just because he can. Idk. Homosexual behavior everywhere. He's so fucking gay. If there was a gay contest between OP characters he would probably win or end up in a tie with Nami, Law, and Kid. Romantic attraction: Demi-romantic. This dude is obsessed with his captain only. First mate things. I seriously believe that being a first mate makes you inherently unable to fall in love with somebody else. Well, perhaps Sanji too, but I'm not that much of a Zosan so I don't think about how they would work. And still, he'd be Demiro anyway. Gender: Transmasc guy because, once again, have you seen him? Dude even has a scar on his chest. Man tits. Love him. He/Him.

: ̗̀➛ [Nami] Sexuality: Graysexual Lesbian. Some might argue with me on this because she has a different girlfriend every arc, but I honestly think that she only feels genuine sexual attraction sometimes and it's not often. Playfully flirting doesn't equal genuine sexual attraction. Romantic attraction: Grayromantic Lesbian. Because, once again, people might not agree with me, but I think she doesn't have crushes often and she falls into more of a romantic gray area. Never with men, though. God forbid. Never with men. That much is clear, I hope. Gender: Demi-girl. She/They. My babygirl. My girlboss. Like I said with Luffy, I think she embraces being a girl but still doesn't fall into that term exactly and doesn't mind They/Them or more androgynous looks/terms at all. In fact, she loves them.

: ̗̀➛ [Usopp] Sexuality: Bisexual. I love him. He be pulling blonde bitches everywhere and by blonde bitches I mean Kaya and Sanji. Something that always makes me and my BFF laugh is the fact that he's canonically very normal about women's bodies, unlike Brook or Sanji or even Franky. Like, he's pretty decent and respectful and he's, well, a normal human being. I appreciate the bare minimum when half of the characters are perverts sometimes. Romantic attraction: Birromantic. Pretty much the same thing I just said. Simple guy. So true, king. Although I like the Demi-romantic headcanon and I think he doesn't really get love at first sight and would be bothered by Sanji's view on this. I think Usopp is somebody who needs intimacy to develop a romantic crush on someone. So, yeah, I also like the demi-romantic thing but this could be just me trying to make everyone Arospec for no reason other than projecting. Gender: Non-binary. He/They but prefers They/Them, he just doesn't expect people to use those pronouns, and it isn't that big of a deal. Also transmasc. I'm obsessed with that, honestly. However, I think he wouldn't use the term Non-binary? I think he'd just use Unlabeled, perhaps.

: ̗̀➛ [Sanji] Sexuality: Bisexual with a high preference for girls. For obvious reasons. Romantic attraction: Birromantic too. He's a hopeless romantic. Believes in love at first sight and everything. Gender: Transfem. Genderfluid. Any pronouns. I love you, Sanji. You're real to me. And I'm not explaining my reasons for these headcanons because watching the show is enough for you to understand this, but between his trauma and Momoiro Island... Like... I know what you are, girly pop. The closet is glass and the egg is hatching and you need to come out. Oda, please, let her ou-

: ̗̀➛ [Chopper] This one's just, like, Chopper. Chopper is Chopper. I don't think about this much. He canonically likes female reindeer. I have nothing else to say. Gender? Little guy. Sexuality? Honestly, if somebody gives him a reindeer boyfriend I support that. So bisexual and birromantic, I guess. I don't know how it works for him. I don't think he cares. It's not that he's too young because he's canonically a teenager already, I just don't think they've encountered enough reindeer for me to form an opinion on this. Why the hell am I writing so much to say something so fucking stupid. I'm sorry. Let's move on.

: ̗̀➛ [Vivi] Sexuality: Demi-sexual Lesbian. I don't think she's ever thought about sex as something she wants or feels attracted to. At least not until Nami shows up. Romantic attraction: Lesbiab. Lebanese. Dyke. Bollera in Spanish. Girl kisser. Woman liker. Homosexual. No men allowed between her legs and her heart. Friend of Ellen, as Annie Edison would say. Gender: I think she's a cis girl. She/Her. Would literally punch violently anyone who misgendered somebody from the crew. My princess. My girlfriend, actually. Her pronouns are loveof/mylife.

: ̗̀➛ [Robin] Sexuality: Bisexual but also probably Graysexual because I don't think she feels attraction often and doesn't really get aroused if it doesn't come with other emotions. Preference for big, and gentle men. By big, gentle men I mean Franky and Jinbe. And by gentle I mean Brook. The four of them together, btw. Romantic attraction: Birromantic. I think she's just, like, vibing. Learning to love. She has so much trauma she deserves to be in a tender relationship and she just happens to be with four men but she knows how to appreciate a woman. Gender: Transfem. She/Her. You know those older trans women who give the most comforting, calm, mature energy in the world? That's Nico Robin. Gonna keep it SFW but she tops Franky 100%. And also helped Sanji with her transition. I love this. Please adopt me, Robin. She's perfect.

: ̗̀➛ [Franky] Sexuality: Bisexual. If a man doesn't know how to appreciate another man's beauty, then he isn't manly enough. Women are perfect. Men are perfect. He's wonderful. I love him. Romantic attraction: Birromantic. I swear to fucking god he has something going on with Jinbe and Brook and Robin. I am so not normal about them- Gender: Cis man but he'd probably consider being a cyborg a third, secret gender, so I'm gonna let him have that too. He/Him.

: ̗̀➛ [Brook] Sexuality: Bisexual classy grandpa. The fact that he's a gentle grandpa has a lot to do with his sexuality (no it doesn't). He might be a pervert around women but at least he supports consent, so, he's better than Sanji here. Romantic attraction: Grayromantic because I feel he doesn't get real crushes easily. Especially since his boyfriend (his former captain) died. The trauma he probably has around romance now, damn. Gender: Hear me out he's the most Unlabeled thing ever. He/They. He's just bones and most people don't even know how to tell the difference between sexes when it comes to bones. Robin is actually the only one who knows his AGAB and she doesn't care anyway, so. Gender norms are bullshit and he's just the Soul King.

: ̗̀➛ [Jinbe] Sexuality: Graysexual and Bi. He's somewhere there in the Ace spectrum. I just don't know where. I think he's, like, not that interested in bodies and sex? He would only have sex with somebody he loves and it wouldn't even be for the arousal and the attraction. Romantic attraction: Demi-romantic, which is not the same as gray. Because I think he'd need, like, to spend time with Robin/Franky/Brook to form a deep bond and then he'd slowly and gently start falling for them individually. I swear I am so normal. Please, they should adopt me. I want the four of them to be my parents. Gender: Cis man. He/Him. Biggest trans supporter in the whole fucking world.

The Going Merry is actually called the Going Liberal and the Thousand Sunny is technically the Theysand Sunny and with the help of their ships the straw hats are trying to find the Woke Piece.

#one piece always saying trans rights #okay you might notice that i'm projecting on most of them but i like aroaspec characters #one piece #strawhat pirates #monkey d. luffy #roronoa zoro #nami #usopp #black leg sanji #tony tony chopper #nefertari vivi #nico robin #franky #brook #jinbe #not gonna tag the ships but yeah it's zolusan/sanuso/namivivi/and whatever the adults of this ship have going on

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warrenwaskilledbyadeer · 3 months

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Okayyy get ready because the time has come and we are doing this (disclaimer: these are just my personal views and I'm not trying to convince anybody to agree with me, this is just me listing which characters I think are aroacespec and why)

Amnesia aroacespec headcanons in order of least to most controversial

#4 - Henri Clement

Henri being aromantic just makes sense to me. Romance doesn't ever come up in his story, it's all about him and his best friend! An incident with a barmaid is mentioned, though unspecified, so I just don't really know what that's about??? But also the Bunker was released just around the same time as the first-ever international aromantic day of visibility, sooo... Also I don't know if he's also ace, but personally I think he probably is, he's at least the one on this list who in my opinion is the closest to being fully aroace (like me :D)

#3 - Justine Florbelle

Now I know we've already jumped to a ridiculously controversial character here, so you know the last two are really gonna be a doozy haha, but ANYway, Justine obviously loves having people be attracted to her, but she herself never experiences any attraction to any of her Suitors. She just loves to feel loved and feel "beautiful," but she doesn't love any of them in return. I don't know about her being ace honestly, I considered sex positive ace for her but maybe she does feel the sexual attraction but not the romantic? Definitely romance favorable aro, but I'm interested in other people's opinions on the sexual attraction part of it. But last but not least, let's address the elephant in the room- Clarice. I personally believe that Justine and Clarice are in an alterous relationship. It's not necessarily romantic but it's not necessarily platonic, it just is what it is between them and what's important to them is that they love each other, not exactly what kind of love that is. That's my take

#2 - Alexander von Brennenburg

Ohhh yeah here's where I'm really gonna lose people, but I'm gonna be totally honest... I don't understand why everyone in the fandom sees Alexander as a slut??? I don't see that in him in the game at all, he's CLEARLY wholly devoted to his love (who I personally believe to be Temaku based on a note in Rebirth). Everything Alexander does, spending hundreds of years just to open this portal, is all just to be with his love again. So why would he be sleeping around and falling in love with Agrippa, Weyer, Daniel, or ANYone? I don't get the fandom interpretation of Alexander being a whore or polyamorous, I think in the game he's monogamous to a disturbing and unhealthy degree and it's part of what makes his character... who he is. So in my eyes, Alexander is demigay (I do understand the take that Alexander seduced Daniel to manipulate him without actually being in love with Daniel, but not Alexander falling in love with him for real)

Last but not least...

#1 - Daniel

Cue the screaming

Look. LOOK. Okay. Every single protagonist, even the two others I've mentioned here, have mention of sex and/or romance in their personal stories. Justine, obviously, Oswald, ALL THE TIME, Tasi, had a husband and children, Henri, incident with the barmaid, but Daniel.... nothing. Zip. Zilch. Zero. Nada. It never comes up, and to me that's because he's not ever.. thinking about it. It's not something that's on his mind because it's not something that he feels or desires. He just really likes archeology and history and his sister and that's all :)

That being said...

I do think Daniel is not 100% aroace. I see him more in the gray or demi area, but it's very very very rare for him. Case in point, I do think he had a bit of a crush on Alexander, but I think that was his first crush so he didn't recognize what those feelings were or why he was feeling them. I think Alexander could tell that Daniel had a crush on him though, and thought it was cute and funny but also used it to his advantage (though not by outright seducing him since Daniel didn't know he had a crush). So Daniel in my head is also demigay, or graygay, but most of the time is pretty much aroace

Plus honorable mention - Tihana!! I think it fits with what little we hear about her backstory

Those are my thoughts and feelings I've been sitting on for a year because I'm tired of people bashing aroace headcanons, but that's been happening less and less the last couple years and I've been going through a lot so I think I deserve to indulge myself a little

Also just a reminder that I'm not claiming these to be canon or trying to convince anybody to see things my way! This is just what I think and why :))

#amnesia game #frictional games #amnesia the bunker #amnesia justine #amnesia the dark descent #henri clement #justine florbelle #alexander von brennenburg #alexander of brennenburg #daniel of mayfair #aroace headcanons #empress tihana

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put-qpac-in-situations · 3 months

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im bored. headcanon time for these slutty q!bitos.

Pac:

transmasc, post-top surgery but not bottom

the man is a slut, he likes things in his mouth, in his ass, in his pussy, just likes things

also has a really big oral fixation. generally just REALLY likes things in his mouth, even as an SFW thing.

he's a big masochist, likes being hurt and crying because of it. he wants to bleed and likes feeling like a rabbit in the jaws of an angry wolf who hasn't eaten for a week

he's not normally loud for if he's having "normal" sex, if anything he's just more focussed on his partner and making sure both of them are having a good time. the noise all comes off for show

he hates dresses and makeup, triggers bad dysphoria, BUT. he loves wearing cutesy skirts with fishnets or thigh-highs

he's a bottom, but he's down to dom.

also he's got a psychic link with Mike, which can cause some awkward situations

Cellbit:

He's on the ace spectrum, HOWEVER. not sex-repulsed, if anything pro-sex, especially for his partners. plus, sex does feel alright, it just isn't something he would do with any random person. think demi or gray for him.

the cannibalism is still a big thing for him, though he needs to be fully sure he can keep himself under control for his own comfort. doesn't mean he won't slip occasionally, but he's doing his best

he's a catboy, you can't stop me from adding some of those to him. he really likes to have his ears pet and hates having his tail touched at all. his tongue is also sandpaper texture, so being eaten out sure is an experience

put that man in a collar and on a leash and he is just. god, he loves it and cant stop purring. he'll relinquish that control (mainly to Roier)

generally he tops, but his husband gives him the strap of his life and when it comes to being a dom/sub, he's a switch

honestly he enjoys being a service top a lot, likes being able to make his partner see stars

Fit

Dom-top*, but he's really sweet and checks in regularly. can't do a scene for the life of him without breaking character to make sure everything is okay.

*He does like being tied up and that tends to make him more submissive, but he also tends to have a time limit. like, two rounds at most and he can only have his arms tied up, nowhere else. learned that the hard way.

Did I hear someone say robo-dick? Listen, he has a prosthetic arm that is fully functional and he got it in Florida2b2t. Someone definitely also gave him a robo-dick.

He likes carrying his partners, in general but especially during sex. a little proof of his strength plus he just enjoys how comfortable it feels

Somehow I got angel imagery in for him and man, can't stop thinking about it. He's got six angel wings, very soft, and he only lets the people he trusts the most touch them. he'll use them as a blanket and also often uses them to hide his partners from the world if he's in a mood or if they're in a mood. usually it's him.

Mike

Also on the ace spectrum! And very aromantic, just don't pull him into anything romantic and he's fine.

Psychic link with Pac. Someone please help him, he is stuck with all the cannibalism thoughts and the weird romance that he has with Fit.

The psychic link does mean that he knows how to make Pac feel the absolute best, and he also knows when to stop when he's edging him

Mike, the tinkering little fucker he is, makes the craziest sex toys and contraptions ever and usually gets Pac to test them out.

He just likes watching things, mainly. he's fine taking a step back, but he's also rather go-with-the-flow. If you ask, he might say yes, if the stars say so.

Roier

Switch through and through.

Transmasc as well, on T but doesn't plan any surgeries, he's fully fine with his body

Dressing in drag because he knows he's hot and knows other people think so as well.

He's a spider, which mean he has: venom (something to cause either minor and temporary paralysis or to just knock you out. beware getting bit by him), a bunch of eyes (the extra ones are small and easy to hide, they're all around his main two), and extra legs (proper spider legs that stick out from his shoulders)

He WILL tie up his partners and just watch them squirm and whimper as they're unsure what to do. and he WILL ride them to death or strap them until they can't think.

He loves leaving marks, whether they're bites or from his nails, he loves making sure the whole server knows it was probably him who fucked you up <3

#maybe i'll do another batch later #but these guys are the main polycule in my mind.#but I'm tired #and i dont wanna write anymore #ship tags (fucking implied i guess idk)#cell/tw #fit/pac #spider/bit #tazer/craft #spider/pac #fit/bit #fit/craft #tags brought to you by pacbite. im too lazy to make most of them and i don't usually make original mcyt content. god I'm tired.#finished writing at 23:40-ish. my head hurts i need sleep ive got stuff to do tomorrow.#qsmpnsfw #qsmpnsfwblr

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yea-baiyi · 2 years

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I will be honest here (and please let me know if you think I am reaching) but I think mxtx herself has been working through an gray or demi ace thing through her stories. Because like. Shen Yuan? That guy reads as someone who has no idea what love or attraction is even supposed to be. Wei Wuxian (while flirting with quite a few people) has Lan Wangji as his one and only romantic love of both lifetimes. And Xie Lian- as you've stated- is definitely experiencing all these new romantic and sexual feelings for the first time and is overwhelmed.

Now, I have ventured outside of mxtx (not...a lot, but still) and I havent seen anything to suggest that this is a genre convention?? For example, Chu Wanning or Zhou Zishu do not give me this vibe. Maybe I am reading the wrong books haha, but I have started to get the feeling she was definitely working through something (authors always put more of themselves in their work than they think)

hi anon, sorry this took me so long (i’m honestly still marinating in my own possibly grey-aroace revelation and so this ask sent me into a spiral of sorts). i think you have a point — idk about mxtx herself, but all 3 of her protagonists can be read as different types of grey/demi/aroace narratives.

what they all have in common is this particular total obliviousness to the romantic situation unfolding. not that they’re blind to what is happening, but it’s as if they have zero frame of reference for what that they are feeling. they don’t think, oh it’s a crush, i’m having romantic feelings for this person. instead the reaction is more like, ?????? suddenly i want to kiss???? why do i like them so much???????

off the top of my head, wwx’s blossoming feelings for lwj are a good example here. in the novel, he genuinely doesn’t have romantic feelings towards lwj at first — he may have had a bit of a crush back in cloud recesses, but he never perceived his interest in lwj as romantic. he slowly falls for lwj over the course of the novel. how it happens is (imo) a very demi-aroace process: it goes from > hanguang-jun is so good looking and admirable > omg he is so funny and great > i like him so much idk why??? > wtf i want to kiss him > i wanna jump on that dick

that strikes me as very non-allo?? it’s not that he’s in denial about how he feels, more that he has no idea what these feelings mean, which sounds very much like someone who has hardly, if ever, experienced sexual or romantic attraction before. iirc we never see wwx express any sort of specifically sexual attraction to lwj before developing feelings for him (literally sleeping in that guys arms seems a perfect recipe for unfortunate boner hijinks and yet it never seemed to happen?) — compelling argument for demi reading imo.

and it’s the same for sqq and xie lian, though their journeys are slightly different to wwx’s. i can’t imagine that this sort of narrative is at all common in the genre? i can’t speak to other c-novels but zhou zishu certainly doesn’t read that way, and from my general knowledge of BL/danmei, it doesn’t seem like a common romantic trope. i absolutely love it though, now you’ve pointed it out it makes sense why i connect so strongly with these stories. and certainly if mxtx managed to work this into all 3 of her stories, i’d want to know how she feels about it herself.

now excuse me i’m going down an a-spec analysis spiral for mxtx novels

#anon #ask #mxtx #mdzs #tgcf #aroace #demisexual #mdzs meta #wwx #wangxian #sorta #i could do an in depth analysis. for all 3 novels tbh. someone ask me to do it #meta stuff #sorry this took aaaaages #idk if this is coherent i drafted this like 4 times #this is just my opinion tho i’m still working through #my understanding of sexuality and romantic attraction #i’m definitely not all the way there yet

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aro-sora · 11 months

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Arospec ask for Sora!

Arospec Sora my beloved 💚

What arospec identities do they have? (Can be as specific or vague as desired)

I generally just call him aro but more specifically: non-sam aro, heartless, and quoiromantic

How proud of being arospec are they?

He's very proud! Just a little nervous about showing it at first

Are they out? If so, how did they come out, and to whom?

Only to Strelitzia, who helps him figure out how he wants to come out. When he returns from Quadratum he first tells Kairi and Riku, then Roxas, Xion, and Ventus.

When he talks to Kairi and Riku they're super happy and supportive. For Roxas and Xion he causally mentions being aro in conversation. Ventus actually comes out to Sora as aro and then Sora is like "me too!"

How do they feel about romance? Romance-favorable? Romance-neutral? Romance-repulsed? Or does it fluctuate?

Fluctuates between indifferent, favorable, and averse. Sora is very affectionate but he's uncomfortable with calling it romantic. Sometimes ok with a soft romo relationship if things are clearly discussed first. I don't really see him as being romance-repulsed. He can tell when other people are in love and cheers them on from the sidelines. His own relationships though? Quoiromantic confusion

Have they ever experienced arophobia? If so, how?

Not really malicious arophobia, but sometimes people will make some arophobic/amatonormative comments about him and his friends without thinking

How do they show their arospec pride?

A white aro ring engraved with his crown emblem! Once he's out to his friends he's more open about showing his pride by wearing a pin and talking about aromanticism

Do they actively try to combat amatonormativity in their daily lives or elsewhere? If so, how?

He corrects people who make assumptions about his relationships and he'll talk to people about aromanticism when they're willing to listen

Was it easy for them to label themselves arospec, or was there a long period of questioning? How many labels did they have to try before landing on the one they use now?

He knew he was arospec pretty quickly once he first learned what aromanticism is, though he alternated using other arospec labels like demi or gray before settling on quoiromantic. He uses the heartless label after meeting Strelitzia

Would they be interested in a QPR? Why or why not?

Maybe? I like both partnering and non-partnering arospec Sora so it really depends on my mood tbh. My favorite qpps for Sora are Riku, Kairi, and Roxas (but I could also get behind a qpr with other characters too)

Final thoughts?

These are my specific headcanons and any version of arospec Sora is good to me 💚

Thanks for the ask!

#kh #aro sora #ask #haveievermentioned

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mum-hen · 3 years

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Asexual Book Recs

In honor of Ace Week, I wanted to share my favorite asexual characters in books! This is a bit of a repost from last year, but there are a lot of new additions to this list. Even now, it’s still pretty rate for books to have confirmed ace-spectrum characters, but it’s always a delight when I do find them. It’s so amazing to have representation, and a lot of these books helped me figure out my own sexuality. For all my fellow asexuals and other ace-spectrum folks, I hope you enjoy this list!

Radio Silence by Alice Oseman. This was the first book I ever read that had some sort of asexual representation. One of the main characters, Aled, is homoromantic demisexual. Throughout the book, he slowly comes to terms with his demisexuality and his feelings for his friend Daniel. At the time I was reading this, I thought I might be demisexual, so having this representation was really important to me.

Loveless by Alice Oseman. This is probably one of my favorite books! It’s another one by Alice Oseman, who is aro-ace just like the main character Georgia. Georgia is a college freshman who has never been in love or had a crush, but desperately wants a fanfic-level romance. Just for the hell of it, she joins the Pride Society at her university and is sort of mentored by the society president, who is gay-ace. Eventually she comes to terms with her sexuality and realizes that platonic love can be just as wonderful and all-encompassing as romantic and sexual love. I feel like with ace representation in books, not many of them actually focus on the actual coming out/realization phase. Not that there’s a problem with that (your sexuality doesn’t define you), but it is nice to have that token coming out story like so many other parts of the LGBTQ+ community have. This book was incredibly important to me, and actually helped me realize that I’m aro-ace!

Vicious and Vengeful by Victoria Schwab. Romance is a minimal part of these books, and it turns out that it’s because the main character, Victor Vale, is asexual. When mentioning a girl he knew in college, he says something along the lines of wanting her attention, and even her love, but not her sex. So definitely asexual, probably heteroromantic or biromantic. These are two of my favorite books of all time, just because of how amazing the plot and the characters are, and knowing that Victor is ace just makes me love them even more.

Defy the Stars by Claudia Gray. Another one of my favorite books of all time! Abel, one of the main characters, is on the ace spectrum. In the first book, he alludes to being somewhere on the ace spectrum. He falls in love with the other main character, Noemi, but since he is a robot his programming only allows him to experience sexual desire after his feelings are reciprocated. In the third book, he is confirmed to be demi-panromantic.

She Who Became the Sun by Shelley Parker-Chan. I read this over the summer and it blew me away! I could write a novel about how amazing this book is, but that’s for another post. It’s about a girl during the Ming Dynasty who disguises herself as her dead brother in order to fulfil his destiny of becoming great. The main character, Zhu Chongba, is genderqueer and asexual. I appreciated that even though she’s very clearly asexual, she still has a loving, sexual relationship with her girlfriend Ma. They’re really great about setting boundaries and communicating their different needs with each other. This book gave me a lot of asexual feels and Gender Thoughts (tm), so definitely give it a read!

Six of Crows and Crooked Kingdom by Leigh Bardugo. This is a bit of a controversial one, since Kaz Brekker’s sexuality is kind of up for debate. His PTSD and trauma give him a strong aversion to touch, and he’s sex repulsed in most cases. However, there are specific instances where he’s able to feel sexual attraction (see: Inej and Imogen). Therefore, I view Kaz as demisexual, but I think he’s definately somewhere on the grey-ace spectrum.

Good Omens: The Nice and Accurate Prophecies of Agnes Nutter, Witch by Neil Gaiman and Terry Pratchett. The two main characters, Aziraphale and Crowley, do not have any confirmed sexual or gender identity, and Neil Gaiman has said it’s completely open to interpretation. I, personally, interpreted them as asexual, and a lot of the ace community has claimed them as well. We love our asexual ineffable husbands!

Dread Nation and Deathless Divide by Justina Ireland. I read this last year and really enjoyed it! In the beginning of the story, I was definitely getting queer vibes from one of the main characters, Katherine, and she turned out to be ace! I have not read the sequel, so I don’t know how much it’s talked about there, but it’s still nice to have that rep. The point of view character for the book, Jane, is also bisexual.

The Priory of the Orange Tree by Samantha Shannon. I read this at the beginning of quarantine and immediately fell in love with it. It is a pretty big book, so just make sure you’re fully committed before you decide to read this one! The author has confirmed not one, but two of the main characters to be on the ace spectrum: Tane and Loth. Tane is asexual, and she says that Loth is probably greysexual, but she isn’t 100% sure yet. This book in general is just full of queer characters and was a delight to read, so if you’re looking for queer fantasy characters I would totally recommend it.

The Bone Season by Samantha Shannon. I have not read this book yet, but it’s on my TBR. I started it after reading Priory, but I was too busy to finish it. The main character, Paige, is confirmed to be demisexual, and I think the author said this would be explored more in the following books. Another character, Jaxon, is also asexual.

While I was making this list, I realized that a lot of my favorite books coincidentally have characters on the ace spectrum. Looking back, I can’t believe it took me so long to realize I was ace. I think that’s why it’s so important to have ace rep in books - so people can educate themselves about this and potentially come to terms with their own sexuality.

To all my fellow ace-spectrum folks out there: you are not broken. You are allowed to be proud of who you are. You deserve loving relationships, no matter the forms those relationships may take. Happy ace week to all, and to all a good night!

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westwiiind · 3 years

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I made a post about how I headcanon the httyd characters’ sexualities a while back on my main blog, but I’ve changed my mind about a lot of them so I’m gonna make another!!

Hiccup: honestly racked my brain for this one but I feel like hiccup is.....the token straight lmao. He has very strong bi wife energy though. Like VERY strong.

Astrid: why shes the bi wife of course. I think astrid is bi simply because she gives off that vibe, and I also think she’s demi and arospec. I feel like her being demi is pretty self explanatory, but her being arospec is something that may seem odd at first but makes a LOT of sense the more you think about her relationship with hiccup, especially in race to the edge. (Yes I could make an entire post about arospec astrid)

Fishlegs: poly bi/pan/etc methinks. Mayyybe cupioromantic aro? Maybe even cupioromantic aroace??

Snotlout: poly bi as well!!! Thor bonecrusher was definitely snotlout’s bi awakening I think we can all agree lmao

Ruffnut: aro pan poly. (Why yes, I do headcanon that she, snotlout, and fishlegs are in a relationship. Yes I do.) i headcanon that ruffnut’s attraction is queerplatonic rather than romantic.

Tuffnut: definitely aroace. This seems pretty self explanatory lol

Gobber: I don’t need a headcanon for him because it’s already canon that he’s gay!!

Stoick: honestly we don’t really get to see a whole lot of stoick in terms of his interpersonal relationships, so I don’t really have a headcanon for him. He loves valka, so I don’t think he’s gay or aro/ace, but anything more specific than that I just don’t know.

Valka: aspec. Definitely aspec, but not aro/ace. I think she’s demi or gray or even aroflux/aceflux.

Eret: gayyyy this man is gay. Maybe demi/gray though too.

Heather: demiro lesbian. I headcanon that the reason things didn’t pan out with fishlegs was because her attraction to him was a combination of very strong platonic/quasiplatonic attraction and comphet. She just gives off very lesbian energy you know?? And I love her relationship with fishlegs as platonic/qp but not romantic. Romantic heathlegs just never seemed to have chemistry to me, and it felt awkward and forced lol. Sweet, but not romantic.

Atali: gaaaay. Maybe ace lesbian? Honestly we didn’t get to see a whole lot of her so I’m not really sure but she definitely gave off gay vibes to me. Idk maybe being the leader of a mystical tribe of all-female warriors has something to do with it lol.

Dagur: bi/pan/etc, but generally with a preference for men. I would hc him as gay but I honestly really liked his and Mala’s relationship and it seemed pretty authentic and believable to me. I mean what more could you want in a relationship than a girlboss x malewife dynamic????

Mala: not a clue. Not a clue in the world. She kept her personality VERY close to the vest. I guess I kind of think of her as either demi/gray or cupioromantic aroace, i don’t really know. Probably aspec in some way.

#heyyy 2024 update i no longer think it’s super amazing to analyze in great detail the #sexuality of animated characters but a lot of ppl are still greatly enjoying this post so i will leave it up😗#httyd #rtte #httyd headcanons #queer headcanons #how to train your dragon #httyd rtte #httyd race to the edge #race to the edge

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geektasticwoodles · 3 years

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Hyper Specific Tropes I Love + some headcanons: Fairy Tail Edition

•so as I think we all know there are some tropes that tend to pop up more or in specific ways with different fandoms. Or certain trope-y headcanons that float around. So this series will for these types of things that I love within specific fandoms. Starting with Fairy Tail!•

Note: this will resolve around my main ships but I’m a multishipper so yeah.

Natsu being only slightly confused oblivious. Like I don’t like the “super innocent” but I think he’d be at least some what stupid in regards to emotions as they pertain to romance specifically.

Gray and Natsu being best bros. Like a very brother like relationship with exactly as much teaching as the show. All good natured. But Gray, being more observant, 100% teasing Natsu about his crush on Lucy. Like RELENTLESSLY teasing.

Natsu’s (well all the Dragon Slayers) super hearing and smell. I ADORE the trope of Natsu hearing Lucy whisper his name in her sleep from another room. Or smelling her getting pregnancy because it’s a new smell. Or Gray teasing Natsu under his breath. Natsu and Gajeel insulting each other under their breath and having conversations.

I love Gray and Lucy being like brother and sister with teasing and such.

I love Gruvia + FWB relationship that develops into more. Like Gray saying “this doesn’t mean I love you back” and Juvia being like “I don’t care. I’m just happy to enjoy this moment”. But over time Gray starts letting his guard down and falling in actual love with Juvia, or rather, he lets himself admit it.

Erza and Jellal + Strawberry Cake picnics. Nuff said.

I’m a sucker for WELL WRITTEN Dragon Slayer Mating Season. It’s not common to find it super well written. But I’ll even read 1st person on that one of the rest of the fic/story is well done enough. I don’t like it when it has non-con elements to it though so it’s tricky. Like, they can be intensely horny and want their mates and still respect “no”. Like they might be whiny but I know Natsu would be respectful AF no matter what. He would never hurt Lucy. Ever. Same with Gajeel and Levy. I also like with Laxus also goes through it but in a slightly different way because his is from Lacrama and not being a naturally trained slayer. Like maybe Laxus just gets extremely cuddly and such. Idk I think it’d be funny.

I love when Natsu gets extremely jealous but it’s mostly internal because he hates when Lucy is mad at him so he’s just extra pissy at everyone else. And sort of cold to Lucy because he can’t deal with the emotions.

Lucy seeing the soft sides of Natsu on some missions and falling in love with every part of him.

Happy “they looooovvveeeee youuu” constantly.

Loke coming down with his own magic to slap Natsu for being an idiot/accidentally hurting Lucy.

Loke and Lucy having best friend style sleep overs. Natsu invites himself over. Gray too. And of course Juvia has to come over. She calls Lucy her “Love Rival”. They play spin the bottle. There is one Gratsu Kiss. Loke ends up Kissing Gray. Juvia is either NOT A FAN and super jealous. On her turn she gets Gray. And then passes out. There’s a NaLu kiss. But it’s super awkward and the tensions are HIGH.

Erza and Gray bro/sis relationship.

Erza crying over dropped cake. The guild cowers.

Bacchus and Cana getting WASTED. And getting drunk married. Guildarts cried when he wasn’t invited.

Happy, Carla, and Panther Lily trading notes on their Dragon Slayers.

MiraJane being the Guild shipper. And total fan girl over her ships sailing.

MiraJane not being interested in anyone. I don’t know why I just feel like she’s the type to not want to be in a relationship as much as she wants others to be in them. Also I just can’t ship her with anyone.

Bi!Lucy who before she gets in a relationship with Natsu is SUPER open about all her crushes on girls and Natsu is SO CONFUSED.

Bi!Gray

Natsu is only attracted to Lucy. He’s literally never had a crush on anyone else. So he doesn’t get any of it. I say he’s probably Demi.

Nashi and Gruvia’s son getting into a relationship when they are older and the resulting chaos between the in-laws.

Gray confiding in Juvia one night under the stars. All his hurt he just lets it out. Juvia simply holds his hand and lets him know she’s there.

Ridiculous and pointless contests and battles that lead to romantic situations (I read a “kissing contest” one recently and it was AMAZING!!)

#Nalu #fairy tail #hyper specific fic stuffs #gratsu #GrUvia #Loke the lion #fraxus #Cana x Bacchus #jellal x erza #fairy tail headcanon

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thebookworm0001 · 2 years

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@riza03shinigans asked me to talk about my oc and while i have many ellana has my heart so she's getting an info dump

Ellana Lavellan is my canon inquisitor for dragon age:inquisition. she's about 27 years old at the start of the game, leaving her around 29 at the end of trespasser. in my canon worldstate, she's the granddaughter of Clan Lavellan's Keeper. her magic came in later than her peers, but with a bit more spectacle (she was hanging out on a dread wolf statue when some templars wandered close. she, understandably freaking out, stood up and hit her head on the wolf's jaw. in her first act of magic, she set part of the forest on fire to get away. very eventful but luckily no one in the clan got hurt. this is where her in-game scar comes from.) she was very dedicated to her studies and to her duty as future keeper and found a deep love for learning and discovery. eventually, she fell for another clan member, Ahnen, whose hunt to bring back a bonding gift ended with both his prey and him dying. She would use the bear pelt he brought back as a blanket and mantle through the rest of her life. A combination of her grief and desire to learn more than she thought she was capable while serving her clan led her to depart - electing to be a wandering keeper to search for lost knowledge, care for her people as they traveled between clans, and find some distance from painful memories. The first place she was asked to visit was the Conclave. That went fairly poorly. and turns out the man she fell in love with was responsible for it all.

Ellana is intensely curious and feels things very deeply. she's gained the skills over her life to temper her emotions with logic - a necessary ability both as Keeper and Inquisitor - but does find the former overwhelming on occasion, especially when faced with great loss. She is deeply kind, intelligent, loyal, and committed to justice. As Inquisitor, she seeks to have people atone, righting the wrongs they have committed and serving those they have harmed - though how that presents can vary. Those she cares for may find themselves beholden only to her opinion of them. Those she does not may find themselves at the mercy of the many they have injured. Other times she lets her boyfriend straight-up kill you for corrupting his spirit friend.

On an unrelated note, she is very short. She is 4'11" and just. so tiny. she's not necessarily thin, though. before she came into her magic, she trained with daggers and continued to do so after to ensure she would never be left without the skills to defend herself. not to mention her staves aren't exactly light, so she's got a fair bit of muscle. she's not taking down Bull or anything, but she could knock Cullen on his ass in a fair fight.

Ellana is also aro-ace. getting specific with labels, i'd say she's demi or gray. either way the important thing is she's not attracted to people almost ever and it usually requires a previous established relationship. Ahnen she was romantically attracted to but never developed a sexual attraction to him. She's also in several aus with @roseategales ' Eludysia, where she's in a poly relationship with her and solas. their relationship is my favorite thing ever.

lets see what else can I info dump... uh, varric's nickname for her is violet on account of her green thumb. and the bright purple eyes and vallaslin. she's a dumbass who puts a magic mirror in her house after finding out her ex-boyfriend is using said magic-mirrors in his plans to reshape the world. she's a fire mage primarily and so is something of a living space heater. she is a Mom FriendTM. She's got a full-back vallaslin that has representations of all the elven gods within the design. 4 of my 6 published fics feature her - two of them are very smutty. one of the smutty ones is just horribly heartbreaking and i'm very proud of that. she can't hold her liquor she is a lightweight. she's got resting bitch face. she can be incredibly sassy when she wants to be - or when she's tired.

#ellana lavellan #then she put pen to paper #if you have specifics you would like to know please ask #otherwise #have some ramblings #lmao

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kiliinstinct · 2 years

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Jet for the headcanons! <3

I hadn't done the headcanons meme in awhile, but I'll do it for it Jet! Sexuality Headcanon: My own love of Aro/Ace characters makes me want to claim Jet as Demi Romantic as well as Demisexual. Mostly because of his obvious interest in Levy at the beginning of the series and how he never really.. gave much romantic interest in anyone else. (this is ignoring the side claims of him asking others out. I would like to SEE it happening please. And that doesn't mean you can't be demi.) I like to feel that's because Levy had been on his team since they were children so he had a long time to form that bond with her in order to have that attract to her. 'But Kili!' Some may say, 'He tried spying on the girls with the other guys that one time, remember? How can he be this then?' **Whaps with Newspaper** Being Demi anything doesn't mean a guy can't be curious and a bit pervy, or easily susceptible to peer pressure - and he and the other dudes deserved what they got.

Though, if that doesn't satisfy you I'm find with seeing him as Het or Bi too. Though I feel it would take him a long time before he realized he was Bi, but I can see it happening, Gender Headcanon: I feel Jet is very open about Gender for everyone and what they could identify as, but I never really thought about his own specifically. He could be CIS or he could be Trans in any media I see and I'd consume them both just as happily. A ship I have with said character: A shocker for some, but JetxLevy actually. JetxDroy next, but I love them as a Brotp just as much. I like imagining Levy eventually realizing she cares for Jet (or Droy) more than she initially thought when they're older and something actually springing of it. I've also thought he and Cana could be cute together, but I never really explored that. Though, asides from that, I never thought too far into it, but I think Jet could be great with a lot of people, possibly. I'd like to SEE it! A BROTP I have with said character: As above: Droy. Definitely Droy. They're such good besties. But I also think He'd get along great with the others too. Would have been nice to see more of his friendship with Levy actually. I feel that sort of got forgotten about with them the moment Gajeel sorta .. took the scene. But ignoring that! I'd love to see Jet just hanging out with Gray and Natsu. (Or even Loke before he was saved by Lucy.) Also Cana. I bet they'd have some fun times. A NOTP I have with said character: Never thought about this so I'll just say: anyone whose a minor and anyone whose super old. I haven't seen him paired with anyone else much to have any other ideas for what I could notp him with. A random headcanon: One time, Jet thought it would be cool to try and start smoking (or chewing tobacco) and while he and Gray had some bonding time smoking together, Levy's disgust over spitting tobacco and her immense worry (and load of books on the subject she dumped on his lap one day) made him quickly stop the latter. The former he still does from time to time, but not very often. He's not much of a drinker but can somehow take shots of whiskey like a champ with barely any changes in his personality and one time made others think he may possibly have a chance at drinking Cana under the table with it. They were wrong and Jet hated himself the next day, feeling absolutely awful. General Opinion over said character: I honestly have a deep love for Jet (and also Droy.) Team Shadowgear was always one of my favorites at the beginning of the series and I always wanted to see and learn more about them. Those character splash pages in the manga were NOT ENOUGH! Also, I think the guy seriously needs some style help. Someone needs to take him shopping and show him some different clothes to wear cause the clothes Mashima draws him in makes me question his taste in clothing. Sir, your magic is based on speed, your outfit is not aerodynamic! I can also get a bit bitter with his character just because of how.. forgotten he and Droy seem to be after a point in the series. Catch me still mad Levy chose to join the counsel with Gajeel after Tartarus instead of staying with her best friends since childhood. I really wish I could have seen more of him, basically. And that his so-called friendship with Levy had been built up on more than just... never shown much after Tenrou. (If at all, let's be honest here. :< )

Before I ramble too long, I'll end this here. Note to people reading this: These are headcanons. Meaning they are just opinions. If you don't like them, you do not have to follow them, and you do not have to read them. Don't clown on this post or send me arguments in my inbox, because it's simply a waste of your time.

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twigstarpikachutroll22 · 3 years

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A breakdown of my broppy playlist

Nocreature asked for this, but I'm doing it anyway because I want to.

Strange Sight (from Tinker Bell: Legend of the Neverbeast): Somecreature recommended it on Wattpad at some point (I don’t remember who and can’t find the link now, sorry) and I didn’t know how I hadn’t realized sooner how right they were. It perfectly fits how Poppy saw him since before much of the movie’s story happened. That he was all rough and gray and unfriendly on the outside, but she was drawn to him and was certain there was goodness hidden under that and refused to give up on bringing it out.

I Won’t Say I’m In Love (from Hercules): An iconic tsundere anthem that I 100% see for Branch early on.

(By the way, I always debate with myself over whether to replace this with Not Another Song About Love, by Hollywood Ending, another tsundere anthem that fits just as well.)

King Of Anything (by Sara Bareilles): The version from Emma! A Pop Musical, where it’s arranged as a musical argument between two people. Honestly, with the way Poppy and Branch’s different views clash at times, it fits them so SO well. I put it just before The Other Side, like it could stand in for the disagreements they had before much of the first movie’s events (e.g. Poppy wanting Branch to give parties, singing, dancing, hugging, happiness, etc. a chance, Branch wanting Poppy to be more concerned about the bergens). It does bug me that I couldn’t find a video of this version of the song that just had the song without the conversation beforehand, but I’d rather have this than the normal version of the song as then people might not realize I’m envisioning it as a duet.

The Other Side (from The Greatest Showman): I can picture a whole AMV of this with Poppy as P.T. Barnum and Branch as Carlyle. It lines up with Poppy trying to convince Branch into taking this crazy adventure with her.

The Other Side Of The Storm (from TTBGO): An amazing duet between them from TTBGO. With their different perspectives, optimism vs pessimism, clashing like this while they’re on an adventure. Probably my favorite TTBGO song to this day. I decided to bump it up to the point where they were going on the journey to Bergen Town to save the Snack Pack. They did clash like this a lot on the way.

Give Your Heart A Break (by Demi Lovato): Got the idea from a drawing by Dawnbuneary using this as a song from Poppy to Branch. For hurt/comfort. And like...yeah. It works. I put it at this point to stand in for when he’s opened up about his grandmother.

Fearless (by Taylor Swift): This is SUCH a broppy song, y’all, I swear. With how Poppy keeps pulling him into Branch sorts of crazy, risky things he’d NEVER attempt on his own but finds himself able to roll with as long as it’s her? It’s just perfect and beautiful and I love it so much.

Friends (from the Angry Birds Movie): So at this point in the movie, before the True Colors scene but after Branch’s backstory and everything, we can see Poppy and Branch getting closer to each other. Neither confirms it as romantic at this point, but whether romantically or platonically, you can see it. The high-five-too-slow bit, the way they work together when they’re getting the locket, etc. And I put this song here ‘cause it kinda captures that. How this unlikely bond has been formed, though not explicitly romantic at this point.

Flashlight (FM Reset cover): I found this AMV on YouTube and it’s so, SO great. It fits them so well. Lifting each other up when they’re down, lighting each other’s way when they’re lost in the dark. Or in grayness. I love it. I love it so much.

True Colors (Trolls film scene version): Do I even need to explain this one?

September (Trolls end credits version): OR this one???

Faith (from Sing): Guydiiamond made an AMV of the second verse with them, and now that I think of it, this fits them too. And it’s, y’know, it’s fun. Somehow, I think the whole vibe fits them around the end of the first movie’s events.

Man I Think I Love Her (by Stereo Skyline): Oh, what’s this? Two people who love each other and also fight and get on each other’s nerves all the time? Don’t try to tell me that’s not Poppy and Branch right there. These two bicker like a cross between siblings and an old married couple and y’all know it. I cannot in good conscience make a broppy playlist without a few songs of that spice. Oh, and by the way this is the first song on the playlist that I imagine as standing in for the TTBGO times. I don’t know why I felt the need to use this AMV of another ship from another fandom, just go with it

Better In Stereo (from Liv and Maddie): Another song about how they have their differences and can clash and get on each other’s nerves but they still love each other and balance each other out and bring out the best in each other. This one not necessarily in the context of a romantic relationship. Definitely has the TTBGO broppy vibes, can totally see an AMV of it.

La Da Dee (by Cody Simpson): This is just a really sweet song, and I can see it for Branch’s POV during the TTBGO times, while he and Poppy are getting closer as friends, with him just silently crushing hard on her the whole time.

Jump Then Fall (by Taylor Swift): I felt like this playlist needed another song or two from Poppy’s POV, particularly from before they get together, and honestly, I can see this one being that. It’s her once again encouraging him to take a chance, and it’s her being proud of all the progress he’s making from the movie events onwards, and it’s her wanting to be there for him through all his struggles.

Friends Don’t (by Maddie and Tae): TTBGO does like to insist up and down that they’re friends while sneaking all the obvious ship teases that they can and winking at us. So of course us broppy shippers imagine that during this time, neither Branch nor Poppy knows if the other likes them as anything other than a friend or not so they try to proceed with their relationship as a friendship, but the romantic feelings are most definitely THERE. And this song is basically about a pair of friends starting to realize they both like each other as something else, so...yep. I especially like to imagine the words of the bridge coming from Poppy. (“I keep telling myself this might be nothing / but one look in your eyes and god there’s something / you can lie to me and say you don’t / but i know you do / and i love you too”) I dunno, we don’t QUITE get to see enough of Poppy’s side of this in canon so I like the idea of her being the one to get to that first.

Shut Up And Dance (by Walk The Moon): This song is a LOT of fun and I can totally see this happening with them at a party. Also, narrative note, I believe Dreamsinger-rose mentioned that for Branch to be trying to tell Poppy early in TWT how he feels, it seems quite possible that something would’ve happened between them not long before the events of TWT to sort of nudge him towards that. So this song and the next one are kind of meant to stand for this. And yes I used a PMV what about it?

Sparks Fly (by Taylor Swift): I can see this for a really sweet romance moment (or, for this point in the narrative, ALLLLMOST-romance moment) between Poppy and Branch. And I can see them trading off parts for this. Like, “My mind forgets to tell me you’re a bad idea” is Branch. Most of the chorus is either or both of them. Most of the bridge can be Poppy. Second verse’s “I’m on my guard with the rest of the world, but with you I know it’s no good”? THAT’S BRANCH. The following “I could wait patiently but I really wish you would / Drop everything now”? THAT’S POPPY.

Trolls Just Wanna Have Fun (from Trolls World Tour): So this is where we hit TWT. I absolutely had to include this, there was no way I could leave it off, I mean BRANCH’S VERSE AND HOW HE CALLS POPPY BEAUTIFUL AND SAYS “JUST NEED THE GUTS TO TELL HER THAT SHE’S THE ONE” AND THIS IS CANON GUYS ASDFGHJKL this is where they first made it EXPLICITLY canon to us.

Things I’ll Never Say (by Avril Lavigne): Honestly, from the first time I listened to this song all I could think of was Branch thinking of Poppy, with ALLLLLL the Pining TM. I ended up moving it here after Trolls Just Wanna Have Fun because it fits that part of TWT when he nervously and awkwardly tries to confess his feelings to her, ends up not being able to spit it out, and gets friendzoned. Oof. Poor guy. Look at him. Look at that thing he does after the high five fiasco, hand on his chest like he’s literally been shot in the heart. Ouch. You’re killin’ him, Poppy, you’re killin’ him.

Perfect For Me (from Trolls World Tour): I...do not think I need to explain this.

My Life Would Suck Without You (by Kelly Clarkson): It’s pretty much about a dysfunctional pair that split after a particularly bad fight, but then missed each other really bad and ended up getting back together with new appreciation for each other, even the parts of each other that make them clash at times. And this TOTALLY fits Poppy and Branch near the end of TWT. The way the climax ends up with them patching things up having learned to appreciate differences and all after the fight and everything they had earlier. MMPH, I love this. It fits so well. I love it.

I’m Yours (by Jason Mraz): Not gonna lie, first time I heard this song, all I could think of was Branch confessing his love to Poppy. I don’t know why, I just did. So because this seems to have officially happened in TWT, I positioned it here. Why did I specifically use a ukulele playalong video? I dunno I just liked the vibes of the bright colors in it better than the lyric videos that were all black and gray and I thought it fit somehow ‘cause it’s Trolls I dunno man why am I calling more attention to these things I need to stop kgjfslg

I Can Do Better Than That (from The Last Five Years): Bunkerbranch posted about when they listen to Anna Kendrick’s rendition of this they keep picturing Poppy singing it. I listened to it and YES, YES, A THOUSAND TIMES YES!!!!!

Beautiful Crazy (by Luke Combs): I found this AMV of it and just… Bro. Just freaking listen to the words. Watch the AMV. It’s amazing. I could not in good conscience leave it out.

11/17/21 edit: Together Now (from Trolls: Holiday In Harmony): Obviously I had to fit this into the playlist after seeing Holiday In Harmony. Not sure if that special took place at exactly at this point in the timeline I've made here, but it seems pretty early in their relationship anyway, and I feel like the lyrics work for them having just gotten together too, so I put it here.

You (by Hollywood Ending): Recommended by Trollitup/Rmg91. I didn’t totally see it for awhile but...somehow after TWT, I just suddenly got it. I can totally picture a TWT AMV of it, and yes, it 100% has the TWT broppy vibes.

Walking On Sunshine (by Katrina and the Waves): This song is SUCH a Poppy song and I can totally see her singing this and just dancing and rocking out to it one morning when she and Branch have just gotten together and she’s still super giddy over it.

Classic (by MKTO): Discovered this one when George Beard made a kinda-sorta-AMV of this once with the same two Trolls clips (well, one TWT clip and one Trolls Holiday clip) looping over and over, which has been taken down now. And honestly, yeah, I do get the Trolls vibes from it, and I can see it for Branch wanting to impress Poppy and, like, be a good boyfriend and all, once they’re together.

Never Ever Getting Rid Of Me (from Waitress): I can totally imagine Poppy singing this to Branch when he’s in a pit of self-doubt not thinking he’s good enough for her. It’s just SO her.

Teenage Dream (cover by Boyce Avenue): Discovered this from a no-longer-available post somecreature made saying it’s the ultimate broppy theme song. Honestly, yeah, the broppy vibes are pretty strong and it’s so, SO sweet. And the line “I wasn’t happy until you became my queen”???? BROOOOOOO. I think. I think that one speaks for itself.

Anything You Can Do I Can Do Better (from Annie Get Your Gun): Again, as sweet as Poppy and Branch’s relationship can be, they bicker like a cross between siblings and an old married couple and drive each other nuts. I don’t that’s ever totally going to stop, and I wouldn’t want it to. This playlist wouldn’t be complete without more than one song of that, and Writerofberk made an excellent AMV of this song with the two of them, so I threw it in here.

Rather Be (by Clean Bandit): I can see this for some Poppy-and-Branch-being-happy-together fun fluffy sweetness. Perhaps especially since they and the Snack Pack sang this for some karaoke at a sleepover in a Dawnbuneary fanfic.

Can I Have This Dance (from High School Musical 3): Look, I’m an aroace and don’t know much about romance, but this song is peak romance to me. I don’t know, something about the way they phrase how they feel about each other and the helping each other through the ups and downs of life and stuff and having it all connected to dancing together--I don’t know, it’s just SO sweet and wonderful and gives me ALL the feels, and I can absolutely see this being Poppy and Branch.

Mirrors (by Justin Timberlake): I always, always imagine Branch singing this about/to Poppy when I listen to it. It’s beautiful on so many levels and it works with their development and growth and it’s by Justin Timberlake to boot and it was even in a chapter of a great fanfic by WaruiOkami and I LOVE IT SO MUCH.

Stay Stay Stay (by Taylor Swift): I can 100% see this from Poppy’s POV and it’s fun and super sweet and just works so well for them. With her talking about how sweet and loyal and dependable Branch is and how much he really knows her and cares about her and all.

ME! (by Taylor Swift): It’s a very fun, colorful song, especially with a music video like THAT. Speedforcespector made a mini-AMV of it because it just gave them so many Trolls vibes, and yeah, I can see that. And like, from the first time I listened to this song, the idea that came to my mind was of a couple of people who both have very strong personalities and tend to clash, but at the end of the day they love each other all the more for that. And, yeah, that can fit Poppy and Branch pretty well.

Paper Rings (by Taylor Swift): Super fun, super sweet, can totally see it for when they’ve been together for awhile and are at the point where they actually could get married. Especially love the bridge. “I want to drive away with you / I want your complications too / I want your dreary Mondays” I can’t not love imagining those lines between the two of them.

7/14/22 edit: Get This Right (deleted song from Frozen 2): I can't remember who, and I can't remember where so I can link it, but I remembered somecreature had told me this song totally had broppy vibes. I finally got around to listening to it (no idea why the frick it took me this long slkdjlkfg) and honestly? Yeah! That's exactly Branch's kind of awkwardness and insecurity when it comes to this entire relationship. There are lines that fit entirely too well. ("Gorgeous, funny, brave and brilliant / Beautiful, won't give up on anyone" I'm sorry you can't tell me these exact words aren't Branch describing Poppy skljglkfsjg). And tbh it definitely highlights how much these two are honestly a couple of goofballs. Still, I wasn't totally sure about it for awhile, and then I heard Anna go ahead and shout out the "will you marry me" herself, and then it was like. .....OKAY YEAH Y'KNOW WHAT THIS IS TOTALLY GOING ON HERE. Part of me is still a little on the fence for some reason, I might take it off later, I might put it back again, I dunno. For now it's on there.

For The Dancing And The Dreaming (as sung by Stoick and Valka in How to Train Your Dragon 2): Awhile ago I rewatched this clip, and I could totally see Branch in Stoick’s place (he even mentions poetry! And protecting her from all harm!!) and Poppy in Valka’s place...and also Cloud Guy in Gobber’s place with the interruption momentarily killing the mood (causing Stoick/Branch to scowl at him for a bit) and the overenthusiastically dancing along and holding the last note way too long at the end. RobotMonkeyGirl91 even made a drabble where Branch actually uses this song to propose to Poppy and it was BEAUTIFUL and I loved it. So yeah, I decided to throw this in at the point in this narrative where I could see a proposal as being.

Surprise Yourself (from The Fresh Beat Band): FYI, this was played at a wedding in an episode of The Fresh Beat Band. With Poppy and Branch actually helping push each other and helping each other be better in different ways, plus how fun and upbeat of a song it is so it easily fits into the Trolls franchise, I imagine by this point it would totally work as a wedding song for them too!

Lover (by Taylor Swift): I can see this for some of the really soft and tender moments between these two when they’ve been together for awhile already. Like, say, the 2-years-later epilogue of The Woes and Antics of Living Together, by RobotMonkeyGirl91, and some of the things written by Lollytea and/or Ask-artsy-oncie for married broppy. It gives me that kind of vibe.

#broppy #dreamworks trolls #trolls the beat goes on #ttbgo #trolls world tour #twt #twt spoilers #trolls world tour spoilers #dreamwork trolls spoilers #trolls spoilers #major trolls spoilers #major twt spoilers #trolls fandom #favorite

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adhdfixations · 2 years

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🎶🏳️‍🌈 hehe :3c

WASSUP HOMIE same as before I’ll be doing Gravity Falls (🌲) and Over the Garden Wall (🍂) because I LOVE THEM SO MUCH sorry it’s so long

🎶 - If your hyperfixation has songs/an ost, what is your favorite song from it?

🌲 - Of COURSE the intro, come on. That shit is a BANGER. Legendary.

🍂 - This one is MUCH harder the music is so good. My faves are Prelude, Patient is the Night, Like Ships and The Fight is Over, but if I had to pick ONE I’d say Prelude. Literally every time I hear that goddamn cello I have to happy wiggle it just scratches the brain so good. But I whistle Patient is the Night a lot, I love the Drama(TM) of The Fight is Over, and the duet in Like Ships is SO CUTE Wirt is so sappy.

🏳️‍🌈 - Do you have any headcanons (lgbt, race, neuro, etc) that are important to you?

🌲 - Most of my headcanons are for my favorite characters, so this’ll be Dipper and Mabel centric. I totally see Dipper and Mabel as being He/They and She/They. They just have that VIBE. I’ve never seen it in any fanfic though. I also like that either both are bisexual or Dipper is bi and Mabel is pan. I could also see Mabel as poly. And I could imagine one or both of them being trans, but especially Dipper, since that’s a big whole post I can make all on its own. I also know that canonically they’re Jewish (blink and you’ll miss it, though), but that’s not in fanart and fanfiction anywhere NEAR enough. And both of those kids are neurodivergent. You wanna look at them and tell me they’re neurotypical? Nah. I like the idea that they’re either ADHD or autistic (or both). I liked ADHD because they both have different symptoms of the same disorder, which would be a nice nod to their “two sides of the same coin” dynamic, but autistic works just as well there, too.

🍂 - This is a lot more interpretive, since the series was so short and a lot of characterization is only implied. Greg is too little for me to guess at sexuality. I LOVE that Wirt “doesn’t really like labels,” it fits him so well. He’s just.. Wirt. Yet another reason I can relate to him. But if I had to slap a label just to answer the question, I’d say he’d probably fit under bi or pan and also demi/gray/asexual. I also think pronouns don’t matter to him, so he’d go by he/she/they and not really care. Race is a little challenging - the show’s art style is so stylized that it’s difficult to make out any smaller racial details aside from skin color, but they’re both clearly lighter skinned. I like the idea that Wirt has different ancestry than Greg (because of their different dads) which would be a nice nod to their physical differences, but as to specific races/ethnicities I don’t have anything definitive. I imagine Wirt maybe being bilingual too, with English being his native language, and his second language being either French (because he loves the romantic drama) or whatever his ancestral language is. And for neurodivergent headcanons - I like Wirt being ADHD and Greg being autistic. Unlike Mabel and Dipper, who I imagine having the same disorder, I can’t imagine Wirt and Greg sharing the same one, simply because it’s another push at how different they are (but really not that much different at all). Greg has a hard time picking up social cues and responding to dangerous situations. I’d imagine he has a hard time with emotional regulation (he’s ALWAYS happy even when he’s not). Wirt being ADHD works well with what we’ve seen in canon - he’s clumsy, spacey, goes off on tangents, and has a hard time paying attention (especially when he’s not entirely interested, like watching Greg). It’s obvious he has anxiety and depression, but I imagine most of the depression comes from his obvious anxiety. The social anxiety, rejection sensitivity, nervous stims and stuttering in show pretty much make it obvious, and the creator implied heavily that he was suicidal. But for Wirt I’m always fond of any sort of stim mention. He’s very withdrawn, so he probably masks a lot and his stims are less of him interacting with his environment (tapping on a desk, chewing something, clicking a pen) and more of him drawing inward (wringing hands, playing with his hair). I am the same way, and I run my thumb across my knuckles when I’m deep in thought, and I’ve been told that it’s something that could signal touch starvation, which I think Wirt definitely suffers from, so I love the idea of him doing that. Hugging himself, running his thumb across his knuckles/fingers, rubbing his lips, just gentle touches when he’s deep in thought (as well as his anxious hand wringing). I also like the idea that Wirt likes soft things, which is why he wears sweaters (alongside his goofy “vintage” aesthetic) and has a rug literally on a carpet in his room, so he likes to snuggle up in blankets or other soft things too. I’d just imagine his stims as touch starvation or anxious behaviors. I don’t see that a lot in fanfic, and I’d definitely like to see more!

#sorry it’s so dang long I have so many ideas for Wirt since so little is in canon #thank you!!#text post #ask me #answered #over the garden wall #gravity falls

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zed-the-buggy · 3 years

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Hoshizawa maximumn infodump !

As a pre-note also, this is almost an ultimate guide (as of now.) If any details here conflict with previous details, this one is the correct one. They shouldn't, but I'm not omniscient (infact I'm pretty small brain actually.) Also restating stuff I've mentioned before just to include the full dining experience. And no, I still don't have his casual outfit. It's not here. (i know what it looks like am jus lazy...)

this includes stuff directly from some previous posts too because hdfsjklsdh ya-

I'll try to keep this updated too but no promises i'm lazzy asf.

Very long post ahead! (3.5k words. many. words.)

Hobbies & Stuff (L)

He likes to go outside and sit, usually. Look at the grass and rocks, hold whatever bugs come crawling by, say hi to some birdies, etc. He tries to make friends with the crows, but he keeps forgetting. In his off time, it's not uncommon to find him sitting in the grass (or lying in the grass which can be a bit disconcerting if he's also spaced out 😥)

He can also play the guitar pretty well. "Hey Hoshiz, Play Wonderwall." Usually he spends more time playing guitar than usual if he can’t see. Not always well, just having fun with it. He also grew into playing one song that’s fairly easy to play that he has memorized.

He likes to produce music as well. He's picked up the hobby since a younger age, and still works hard at it today. He’s not stunning or amazing, but he makes good music. While he likes to share it with others as well, he usually just keeps his music saved for himself. He has a laptop that’s a bit dinky at this point, but plenty competent for his purposes. He does more upbeat and experimental electronica(?) music.

He's greatly enamored with dragons as well, and has a collection of books about dragons too. He's creative as well -- he has and continues to pour a significant amount of energy and time into creating and maintaining a pantheon and world of dragons he's created. He keeps a few notebooks with him to write stuff about them in. They're almost like his version of a diary even with the amount of allusions he tends to make, and his collection stretches back to just after they moved. There are a couple notebooks from before the move, but he doesn't really touch them anymore, and most of the pages are ripped out. He tends to drop references to his dragons in conversations as though everyone knows what he means (they don't) and will GLADLY rant about dragons if anyone asks.

He has two plushies with matching designs - one is more keychain/handheld size that he brings with him everywhere, (usually in his bag or pocket or something, or clipped onto his clothes) and a bigger one that he usually keeps inside or on his bed. It's a little white and purple dragon, he says her name is Blushie. The little keychain is “Happie Blushie” - his happy charm that he takes out if he's upset. The bigger one he keeps on his bed is "Huggie Blushie." He's had both for as long as he can remember, gifted by his grandma, custom made based off of some of the drawings he’d sent her. Both are fairly worn, but Huggie especially. He loves his Blushies, and even asked for parts of his hero outfit to include motifs similar to the Blushies, and a special pocket to keep Happie Blushie with him at all times.

He doesn’t really have a favorite color. If you press him about it he'll probably just start listing different colors and what he does/doesn't like about each of them with at least a few dragon references.

His approach to gender & pronouns is precisely the Knuckles pronouns meme, I think I'll draw it at some point. And his sexual/romantic orientation is pretty much the same way as well, though it's probably gray/demi and omni?

He basically refuses to cut his hair, or at least to any short length, and still only trusts his mom to cut his hair. He likes to keep his hair clean and nice, and likes it when others touch/play/mess/etc with his hair, though he does prefer that it's expected.

He only just got a phone before attending UA, and it's already filled with pictures of his pets, several wild critters he saw, cool leaves and plants, pictures of his drawings, and a lot of just dumb stuff. He’s really bad at taking pictures though. He also was able to keep his laptop with him, so he can produce his music while there.

He hadn't grown up with texting. He is a very slow texter, and usually talks in proper grammatical sentences. Scary. Most acronyms especially (but a lot of slang as a whole) are lost on him. He does not know about many memes outside of what his schoolmates show him, but he’s trying to learn… somewhat. Despite this he’s not a complete brick wall to text, and will engage well in any conversation that piques his interest. Just be patient...

Personality (L)

He's not exactly outgoing, but not timid or shy either. He's very open to talking with others, and will happily and readily engage in conversation. He rarely kicks off with small talk, or talk just to Talk though. He'd much rather start a conversation about some random thought he had. He doesn't talk about himself much either, as he doesn’t really know what to say.

He's quite forgetful, and tends to forget things even a few seconds later. He also misremembers major details about people sometimes, even if he's seen them recently. "Oh, you dyed your hair, I like it." "...No I didn't??" "Oh."

He's quite creative. He's one of those types to burst into a conversation without warning with some random thought he just had, whether related to the current topic, a topic from 5 minutes ago, or something else completely different.

He has pretty strictly "good" morals, but can be easily convinced or deceived into believing something is right. Like, he does things because he thinks it’s the right thing, but doesn’t think through it all that far, and often fails to notice subtleties unless they are Pointed Out At Him. He also believes the same of everyone else by default, and often expects others to hold similar values and morals to him. He does not expect others to just lie about something, just as he wouldn’t lie.

Hoshizawa is frequently listening when you don't expect him to, and not listening when you want him to. He doesn't shy around bringing up or making known that he overheard you either.

He isn't vivid with his emotions usually?? He can tend to bottle up or hide his emotions in general, unless it's something big at the moment, in which case he can very easily default to crying. He doesn’t really actively hide his emotions, but more so a mix of not knowing how to talk about them, and not knowing that it’s not just normal or standard and just doesn’t realize how he’s feeling at all and doesn’t really pinpoint it.

He is honest to a fault, or at least he tells his truth to the best of his ability. It can be very convoluted or confusing, and he often misremembers details. Sometimes this can come off as deceptive to someone suspicious, but it's not his intention. He doesn't skirt around denying something, raising an objection, or pointing something out either. He only really skirts around talking about himself when he was younger - he won’t lie, but often won't explain in any discernible detail.

On honesty, including when talking about people. It's rare he dislikes, especially hates someone, but he won't skirt around how he feels about someone. He doesn't typically go up to someone and just say if he doesn’t like them, but if they ask he wouldn't lie.

He very much lives in his head. He frequently spaces out when not very much is going on, and can be completely unreachable. He can ignore others by mistake, and can space out in the middle of interactions.

A bad habit is he tends to say something the moment a thought comes to his head, and often ends up interrupting others because he just had a thought.

When he gets accused of lying, he stops talking about it as a whole and moves on to a lighter subject where applicable, or just ends the conversation. He doesn't try to justify himself to someone who won't listen. In fact, he generally tends to just disengage and mute conflict.

While he means well, he's just not the person you would want to go to if you need to vent. If he doesn't just try to change the topic he can be unintentionally dismissive of someone's issues, or give Really Bad nonsense advice. He's like, negative therapist friend, honestly. He doesn't mean to be rude, but definitely better to come to if you want a distraction, and not advice or comfort. Also in the traditional Squishizawa ways, he will gladly give you a hug.

He’s not “facts over feeling hEhE” but he does take a very logical/analytical approach to trying to understand emotions and whatnot when he doesn’t understand them. Hence the amount of references and connections he makes in emotional situations. He often has a hard time exiting the box of the implications of an emotion, if that makes sense (i hope it does because I don’t understand it either…)

He's not afraid of bugs or critters, or really any animals. Probably to a ridiculous and dumb point. No matter how many times he gets stung by wasps or something, he’d probably hold one. He's strongly against killing animals or bugs for nothing, and will often try to protect them wherever he can. He's the one that takes the spiders outside. Please do not stomp on them. He already named it :(

He loves physical contact. If you ever need a hug, Squishizawa is always here. He will not turn down a hug.

Yummy snackies!! (S)

He's not terribly picky, but if he dislikes something, he will not eat it, and rather avoid it. He's very obvious about this. Usually he'll try to give it back or pass it on to someone who would like it more at least.

Sweets are kind-of always in the meh zone (he'll almost always eat it but typically tries to pass it on to someone who likes candy more first) except Bontans, which are his favorite.

Meats are something he eats infrequently, but he likes it fine nonetheless, and he'll eat it. Sushi & raw meats is a complete no go though.

He likes vegetables a good bit, and loves nearly every fruit (given it's not spicy or too sour.) His favorite food as a whole is watermelon, but is not picky with fruits and veggies. Fruit is his candy.

He does not like sour. Some sour is okay, but anything too sour he won't do.

He will probably cry if he eats spicy foods.

He's a pretty competent cook also! He's not a super amazing chef, but he can definitely hold for himself in the kitchen, and is proficient in cooking.

Home life & Past (S)

Still hiding most of it hehe I might share more eventually <3

He moved away from his birth town in Southern Japan in late primary school, after having been held back a grade for medical reasons.

He had been quite reliant on his parents, as they played a more possessive role in his life and he remained dependent on that. Strictly home-schooled since moving, he hadn't had much contact with other people his age either. Any time he had the chance to reach out, he was rejected.

Now in UA, he will still call his parents frequently. He gets a bit sick of it, but at the same time it gives him a sort of necessary comfort. He genuinely loves his parents, and, where possible, will rarely make a big decision without at least consulting them, in which he will always take their advice.

His mother used to be a sidekick. While she didn't have much success going much further than that, she still lived comfortably at home soon following their move. She was a lot more consistently close with Hoshizawa, and most on board for allowing Hoshizawa to attend UA. Her quirk allows her to fling volleys of star-like "shurikens" at a target that burst into harmless sparks on impact.

Quirk details (XL)

His father currently works a much tamer job in comparison, as a computer hardware engineer. He wasn't as engaged in Hoshizawa's life directly, as he worked most of the day, but held more control over the household and other decisions. He has a quirk that allows him to create small, orb-like light sources of any varying intensity.

Whenever talking about his past himself beyond that, he tends to be fairly inconsistent, and it's not hard to find that it doesn't line up, whether because it seems too weird, or details don't line up.

Generally, his quirk allows him to create and manipulate miniature, (millimeters sorta small) cyan and yellow stars that produce similarly colored clouds of stardust which he can also control. The tiny stars themselves are bright, but the clouds of stardust they make can be disorienting, and temporarily blinding to those who look at it for long. The thinner, or further away a cloud is, the slower it acts in causing these effects though. As he uses it, he takes on the same effects it causes, however.

Hoshizawa knows how to use his quirk in a couple of ways. He can create the stars in his hand and throw them out, create stardust from his body to float around him, and bring the stars and stardust tightly together to make a loud flash of light. When creating stars to throw, they float past and eventually come to a stop midair. Once they're flying, they start to create a dim (relative) trail of stardust, which soon turns into a proper cloud once they've separated and come to a stop. When he creates a cloud around himself, it's usually not a lot at once without straining himself. He can however shake himself (or other similar body movement like if he falls & hits the ground) while doing this to increase how much there is at once. The flash brings together a collection of stardust already in the air, and makes a small burst of light, as well as making a loud, twinkling “pop” noise. It would absolutely be extra of me to make an audio for what I’m thinking, so that’s why I might at some point.

Once he creates a cloud, it doesn't take a long look at it to be blinded. Likely just more than a couple seconds of a look can trigger the effects, and a few seconds more can be blinding. Also depending on how dense it is, or how close someone is. When under the effects, one can quickly be horribly disoriented or faint feeling, as well as being temporarily blinded.

Standing in a cloud isn't worse for any particular reason beyond the effects setting in Much Quicker because You Are in a Cloud of Blinding Light??? The closer you are, the less effective external eye protection is, and once within the light, unless one is wearing very specific, strong eye protection, it is basically useless.

A quick glance past a cloud, or with your eyes shut tight or otherwise obscured usually wouldn't be an issue. As well, powerful solar eye protection (ex. eclipse glasses) would work: this way it's possible to see any stars or stardust clouds without disorientation (the less it is, the dimmer, but still possible to see with a sharp eye.) but only be able to see things of similar brightness. One will get as disoriented as they are blinded, meaning if someone is unaffected by the blinding properties, they won't be disoriented either.

However, his quirk doesn't come without cost. While looking at the stardust is completely ineffective in blinding him, as he uses his quirk, he slowly starts to take on the same effects. Any amount of use will cause the side effects, but he is able to hold up remaining sighted for a while. He experiences disorientation as well after a while too.

Typically the worst of the side effects stay for around a day, and go away over time depending on how bad it is, but rarely it can last even longer periods of time. The disorientation effects can get pretty bad, but don't last as long - a couple days tops to go away completely but usually worst around a few hours to a whole day depending on severity. It's not entirely consistent either just by chance, and if he's less strained/stressed/tired/etc. he is able to go longer and recover faster.

While recovering from major use (gets to a point where he's lost most/all of his sight) it's just not worth using his quirk again. He has to expend a lot more energy (and sight+centeredness) to get half as much good out of using it. 99% of the time he's going to take that time off. Worse so, overusing it while recovering can make the recovery take twice as long or more. The effect continues to worsen exponentially if he keeps trying to use his quirk while recovering, but he says it's never happened to such an extreme extent.

When his body creates the stardust while he's using his quirk, he will glow with the stardust himself. This is nowhere near the blinding clouds, and is more like a cat's eye or other similarly mirrored light but appearing more like glitter. It can be found in slight amounts in the air or surfaces he recently visited (around 10-ish or so minutes at most) or where he is currently. The amount of dust is relative to how much he used his quirk: the more he used his quirk at once, the more extra stardust there will be. Hoshizawa tends to not even notice it, as the more light he ends up actually giving off, the less he can typically see. This effect lasts for a couple hours. However this does not happen if he used his quirk while still recovering from overuse.

Yes, he can look directly at the sun (and other similarly bright things) without his eyes frying. Both the sun and the stardust aren’t fun to look at either way, but more like staring at a shaded lamp than burning his eyes off, which he can get used to anyways. Sometimes he can space off staring at bright lights or something and it's weird. Despite this he will usually see as normal. However, in darker spaces he can't see quite as well. His eyes just can't adjust to dark environments as well. Like when you're up at 1:30 am staring at your bright phone screen all night and look up - that first second is how well he usually sees in the dark.

One usage of his quirk he used only once before, during his entrance exam

He discovered and showed an extreme version of his regular burst during his entrance exam. Similar to the flash, but bringing together and "igniting" all existing stardust he's made up to that point (including currently still inside him) to make a much greater flash focused on himself that can even physically blast away anyone or anything nearby in a burst of light. using it just wiped him out completely, and he fainted on the spot. Following this incident, his quirk stopped working for a while, for which he experienced some other ill effects, as well as the familiar blindness and extreme disorientation. While he doesn't know why it happened, even if he knew, he is far from keen to try it again.

UA entrance exams (M)

Convincing his restrictive parents after so many years of homeschooling to apply to one of the largest, most prestigious and grandest hero schools was more than a task. Fortunately his mom sided with Hoshizawa, and applied him to UA, only sort of behind his dad's back.

The day of entrance exams and all soon came. He passed the written exam very well, definitely in a higher grade of scores. However, the practical gave him a bit more issue as his quirk was a lot more of a special effect, couldn't actually hurt something alone, and would seem ineffective on mechs. Despite this, he managed to score a lot of points by figuring out generally how and where the robots sense the world, and using the light and noise from his quirk just enough to screw with their detection to trick them into breaking themselves. Most of the exam he tried to keep distance from others, as he was afraid his quirk may affect other test takers. Due to this he scored less rescue points which he had to make up in overcoming more of the mechs.

He used his quirk in an extreme way during his practical exam, in a way he hadn't even expected himself. He discovered and showed this extreme version of his regular burst. Towards the end of the exam, he was struggling to see and walk straight. He had lots of stardust still in the air that hadn’t completely dissipated, He got several points for managing to destroy several of the mechs with it, however, using it just wiped him out. Fortunately for him though, time was almost out anyway.

His parents were freaked out by this, and they had a big talk over everything, considering trying to take him out of the school. He assured them he still really wanted to go, and that he would be safe. A lot of debating later, and they finally came with a compromise, choosing to let him continue at UA if he made it. Fortunately, he received the acceptance letter not long after, and he was able to attend UA, following their other terms as well.

#bnha oc comeback #tano hoshizawa #tano hoshizawa // astro #hoshizawa info

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hoe-doroki · 4 years

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We’ll See

Happy birthday, to my sweet boy, Kiri. Glad I managed to just barely get this out in time for you.

pairing: Kirishima x demisexual!fem!reader

genre: gen, light romance, light fluff, light comfort

word count: 6.3k

summary: After a fateful meeting where he saves you from a villain attack, you and Kirishima keep running into each other. And although he’s so nice, you only feel fear around the fact that he might be interested in you. Even though all you want is, for once, to let yourself be happy and maybe fall in love, you can’t seem to be able to. You just can’t.

a/n: I’ve been trying to think about what a comfort fic might look like for a demi reader because romance stories never match my lived experience and sometimes make me feel worse. I think I’ve finally managed something here. I hope this provides comfort to anyone who has difficult romantically/sexually for any reason, especially those of us who are acespec. My ask box is always open for acespec or similar requests as well. <3

edit: I no longer write x reader but here’s my old masterlist - mobile | desktop

For a moment, you thought it was hail. Little flecks of white—not quite white, really—falling from the sky at a more precipitous pace than snow, and bigger, more irregular. More dangerous.

Then, when you looked up, you didn’t know how you’d missed it.

You were always attentive when walking in the city, even in your Sisyphean commute to work: home, walk, train, walk, work, day after day. You held your bag close on your shoulder, had your pepper spray at the ready, and didn’t bother changing into heels until you got to the office. You always had your eyes on the surroundings, so, just before it happened, you could have told the cops that it had been a lovely spring day, white and pink flowers just beginning to bloom, but still jacket weather—not at all a day for hail. The streets had been congested with people just like you, all headed to work or school. The woman in front of you had been wearing a brightly striped sweater, standing out against the sea of black suits.

Then, concrete had begun raining down.

You looked up in time to see a slab from one of the old concrete buildings give way, suddenly casting shade right where you were standing. And the next thing you knew, you were on your back, and there was a man on top of you. Your first thought was that he must have been a dragon. Hard scales, sharp teeth, all jagged edges sharp enough to scratch grooves into the pavement below. He could kill you in an instant.

His arms were caged around you covered in fabric. But upon closer look at his exposed neck, you saw he didn’t have scales; his skin was like rock. Rocks that hadn’t yet been touched by the erosion of wind or water. They were new ones that were unbroken.

It took a moment of stillness, a moment of him trembling under the weight of the concrete wall for you to realize he wasn’t here to brutalize you—he was saving you. And when you realized that, your brain snapped into focus. There was chaos around you—you could hear the screams. Maybe they were civilians who were worried that you’d just been flattened to a pancake, but maybe they had greater fears than that. There was probably a villain on the loose, and this hero was wasting his time on you—just one person.

“Go!” you shouted, making eye contact with him for the first time. Red eyes like uncut rubies encased in cracked ivory. “I’ll be fine!”

For a moment, he struggled to lift the broken remnant of the building off of you both, but then you honed your focus. You stared at the concrete and it lifted off of the hero’s back, watched as his shoulders settled in relief. He looked at you in confusion for a second, taking in your furrowed brow and tense mouth, frozen body. Then, he took you in his arms and carried you to safety before you gasped, and the concrete fell with a smash.

He left you gasping on the sidewalk and ran into the fray, where it looked like a villain with a power-up quirk had crashed through the office building onto the sidewalk, where they were now wreaking havoc.

Someone offered a hand to help you up and you took it. Telekinesis always took a lot out of you, especially when an object was as heavy as, oh, say, a side of a building, but you shook it off as best you could, just focusing on getting your breathing under you.

More pro heroes were turning up, either drawn by the noise or the masses of pedestrians fleeing the area. The latter of which was exactly what you should have been doing.

But you couldn’t.

You’d never desired to be a pro hero. Yeah, you admired them, but as a job it sounded, well, awful? Seeking out trouble, always in danger of major corporeal damage, a constant target on your back—you’d never be able to handle the stress. You desired consistency in your life and, even if it wasn’t saving the world, an office job gave you that. Still, you’d always told yourself that if you even found yourself in a situation where you could help, where your quirk would be useful and it would be a net gain for you to stay instead of run, you would help. It was your duty.

Awfully hard to live up to when the situation actually came, though.

“Get out of here!” you said to the guy who’d helped you up as you staggered forward, hands on your knees. You were fine, you were standing. You didn’t have to fight—you absolutely shouldn’t fight—but if there was anyone who needed your help, you’d provide it.

As you pushed yourself up straight, the guy threw you one last look and then joined the crowd running from the scene while you stood, planted in it.

The fight was moving away from the building as multiple heroes took on the one huge villain, whose club-like arms were able to send them flying back before anyone could restrain him. But that was perfect. The building was still crumbling and you could check if anyone was stuck.

As you got closer, it looked as though you’d been the one hit by the biggest piece of debris—which, frankly, was a miracle. You were likely the one person in the crowd with any chance of surviving that, and the red-eyed hero had been there to save you anyway. But there was a lamppost that had been knocked over, thankfully pulled out of the ground so you could hold your breath and levitate it, vision just turning black around the edges as you dropped it harmlessly back to the ground. The victim likely had a broken leg, but some others managed to haul them out of the fray and hopefully to a hospital. One person saved.

The move left you capsized, back on your knees as you blinked color back into your vision. Fortunately, there wasn’t too much rubble—not yet, anyway—so all else there was to do was find a couple of the people who’d been knocked down or injured and send them out of the line of fire to where someone else could take care of them. You could use your quirk to keep back, not have to get too dangerously close to the fray in order to help these people. So you did your best to stay in the shadows of the punched-out building where there’d be no attention on you. Each time left you strained, but not broken. You just needed a little rest, and then you could keep moving.

You’d fallen to hands and knees after the last person, wheezing greedy gulps of dusty air. It felt like there were hands around your chest, squeezing palms against your heart and thick fingers against your throat. You weren’t practiced enough with your quirk to move this many heavy things successively, but you’d also never overused your quirk before. Never had to. You didn’t know where the line was, but so long as you were conscious, you’d keep moving.

But you felt lightheaded. The weight was suddenly off of your knees and wrists and you wondered if you were about to faint. Suddenly, the you felt a new compression around your waist as you were flipped upright, and you opened your eyes, looking down to see gray, damp skin pressed against your middle, and your feet dangling off the ground.

Oh, shit.

This was why civilians weren’t supposed to get involved when villains were around. You could become a liability for the heroes. Now they wouldn’t be able to fight all out against the villain, because you were effectively a meat shield. A hostage.

This wasn’t a net gain. Sure, you’d saved a handful of people, but now the villain couldn’t be caught. They had more power than just their quirk—they had leverage.

You thought quickly. You weren’t going to be the reason these heroes’ mission failed. You needed to take control of the situation so that no one else would get hurt. You needed to get the net gain back on your side.

You closed your eyes and took a couple breaths. After one last big one, you sent the villain up in the air, and you with it. As your ears began to ring, the last thing you heard were worried cries rumbling out from the chest you were pressed against. You felt the air as you both rose up in the sky, and then their arms loosened around you.

And then, you began to fall.

The next thing you heard was beeping. Gentle, even beeping to the rhythm of your gentle, even breaths. You weren’t heaving, weren’t gasping anymore. You must have been feeling better.

You took a breath and tried to push yourself up, instantly regretting it as your ears began to ring. Again. Suddenly, you remembered where you’d just been, what you’d just done.

Ugh, you were an idiot.

“Woah, you okay?”

You cracked your eyes open and saw a man in front of you. Definitely not a doctor, if his total lack of a shirt was anything to go by. You could feel your heartbeat in both ears, pulsing like a rock concert and waking up a headache you hadn’t realized you had. You closed your eyes and relaxed back down again.

“I’m okay,” you tried, but your voice came out all raspy. You wondered if dust had come out with it, expelling like smoke from your dry lungs.

“Here, let me get you some water.”

You blinked your eyes open and saw a straw being held up to your lips. You craned your neck up enough to purse your lips around it and took a small sip. Better.

The man in front of you had strange cuffs on his shoulders and something almost like a cape around his waist. But when you saw the wire piece around his face, you were finally able to place him.

“You’re the rock dragon,” you said.

The man laughed and you saw how young he was. When he’d been in his rocky form he could have been any age. No wrinkles or actual hair to go by. But now it was obvious that he was likely in his early twenties, just like you. Impressive for him to be a hero.

“Rock dragon?” he echoed. “I’ll take that.”

“Did you guys get the villain?”

That’s all you wanted to know. It didn’t really matter what had happened to you—evidently you were in one piece, so it was all but irrelevant.

The hero nodded. “They’re locked up, not too many major injuries on the scene. Thanks to you.”

“Urgh,” you groaned. “I’m so sorry. Usually I don’t do stuff like that.”

“Stuff like what?” he asked. “Save the day?”

“No, just…” You were glowing under his praise, but you didn’t want to. What you’d done had been idiotic and so easily could have gone sideways. More so than it seemed like it had. “I’m not usually so impulsive.”

“Must be good to know that you have good impulses then,” he said. “Although, I gotta ask, what was your plan there at the end?”

Plan? There hadn’t been any plan, and judging by his cheeky smile, bumping one cheekbone up against his wire mask, he realized that.

“I figured if I levitated that villain, then they wouldn’t be able to do any damage to anyone except me,” you said. “Of course, then there were a million questions about what could happen after, but the worst case scenario was that only both of us got hurt.”

“Very self-sacrificing,” he said. “You should be a hero. Although, we usually have to get the self-sacrificing impulses beat out of us a bit. But still, you’ve got the quirk for it. I have a friend who’s got a similar one. The world would love you.”

“No,” you said, shaking your head and feeling your brain slap against each side of your skull. “I think this was my first and last foray.”

He clutched his heart jokingly. “Oof, really one to break hearts, aren’t you?”

You froze. Suddenly the pulse that had been between your ears and behind your eyes moved back to your chest and was squeezing uncomfortably. Had he been saying that flirtatiously? Was it a joke you were just taking too seriously? Did this guy just use his hero costume to lay a bunch of girls and you should be kicking him out before he got any ideas?

“I’m really not,” you mumbled, reaching for the water glass again and drinking from it yourself. You felt the tug of an IV hooked up to your arm and you were only part way through the drip. You were stuck, unable to go anywhere until it was done. The good news was, your limbs felt generally fine. Just a little stiff and achy. The only real pain was in your head—the aftermath of using a psychic quirk.

“No,” Kirishima agreed. “You seem too nice for that. And, hero or not, the world was really lucky to have you today. So I just wanted to thank you for helping and, you know, make sure you were okay.”

“I think I’m okay,” you said.

“That’s what the doctor said,” he confirmed. “I’m just glad I caught you.”

So that’s what had happened. You weren’t sure if you’d passed out before or after the villain had landed, but you remembered focusing on trying to lower them to the ground slowly before everything had gone black. But you couldn’t use your telekinesis on yourself, so you’d resigned yourself to plunging to the ground. Not that you’d had much time to make peace with it.

“Sorry you had to save me twice,” you mumbled.

“I’ll save you as many times as I need to.”

Okay, that definitely felt like flirting. His smile was so open and genuine—he didn’t look like a fuckboy, but it didn’t matter. You didn’t want him interested in you, even if he was a hero. Even if he was attractive. Even if he was nice. You couldn’t deal with it. So you put the water back and pursed your lips awkwardly, unsure what to say.

“Oh, I’m Red Riot, by the way,” he said, extending a hand towards you.

You took it, feeling how callused his hand was. It wasn’t hard, like it had looked back when he’d been made of rock and gemstone, but had the feel of a fighter. Yours were soft as a baby’s. “Y/N,” you said.

“I know,” Red Riot said with a grin—his teeth were sharp even when he wasn’t transformed. “We found your ID in your wallet when you were being admitted. So you’re not a Jane Doe.”

“Oh.”

You supposed that was comforting. If you had fallen and broken every bone in your body, at least your family would have found out.

Your attention was diverted when someone walked into your room—a woman in a white coat and definitely wearing a shirt. This must be the doctor.

“Red Riot, you were supposed to press the button when she woke up,” the doctor chastised, though her voice was light.

“Sorry, doc, I was just seeing if she was lucid,” he said with a grin. “She remembers her name and everything that happened.”

“Right,” the doctor said, not looking especially amused. Still, there was a friendly energy between the two of them, and you wondered if heroes had close relationships with hospital staff. They probably found themselves in hospitals often enough—it would make sense. “That will be all, Red Riot.”

“Yes, ma’am,” he said, standing up from the folding chair he’d been planted in and pushing it against the wall. Then he turned back to you. “I really can’t thank you enough for what you did today. You’re a really good person.”

“Oh, uh, thanks,” you said, not sure what to do with the praise.

“Anytime.”

He waved and gave you one last smile before heading back, returning to duty. And as you were able to breathe easy again, answering the doctor’s routine questions and making sure that you actually were okay, it felt like Red Riot’s lingering smile never left.

The first thing you learned afterwards was that most ‘life-changing’ events weren’t actually life changing. They confirmed what they confirmed in your worldview, but, largely, life went on as normal. Like, now you knew for sure that you were the kind of person who could act in a crisis. But that was the story you’d been telling yourself before too, so what was the difference? After your day of heroics—and a day of rest, necessitated by the doctor—you went back to work and life became about staring at numbers on a screen once again.

Some of your coworkers asked about what the rescue had been like—apparently bits and pieces had reached the news, and there’d been footage of Red Riot and the others, but thankfully nothing official about you. They were suddenly very interested in your quirk—your quirk had never been a bad one, but you’d never made a habit of talking about it. And they wanted to know about the heroes.

Apparently, Red Riot was a name that some people knew. You didn’t tend to watch news about heroes and villains—you didn’t figure you needed to know much more than a bit of politics and the weather in your day to day—but those who did knew who Red Riot was. He was a rising star in the hero rankings and had graduated a few years ago from an apparently notorious class at U.A.

Even you knew what U.A. was.

You told everyone he was very nice but that you didn’t know much else. You hadn’t talked to any of the other heroes and if wasn’t like you were besties with Red Riot now. You didn’t even know his real name. Or you hadn’t, until some of your more eager coworkers informed you it was Kirishima Eijirou.

But…you didn’t like the questions. You didn’t like people asking you about how attractive or fit he was, people talking about how in love with him they were, as if you should be drooling and agreeing. Because, nice as the boy was, you didn’t feel that way. A pretty face was a pretty face and a kind soul was a kind soul. But you didn’t have a crush because, well, you almost never had crushes.

And the reminder of that, how different you were from your fantasy-having, simpering peers made you remember just how alone you were. How without those feelings, playful though they were, you felt like you would always be alone. Destined to shy away whenever a sweet boy flirted with you, to say no whenever one asked you out, to cry in your too-large bed on the days where you couldn’t convince yourself that just because you’d always been single, didn’t mean you always would be.

The second thing you learned was that, in actuality, life was always changing. Down to a simple train ride.

Public transit was one of your favorite things about living in the city. Sure, waiting for trains was irritating when you were running late, but you loved that on your morning commute you could read a book or do work instead of staring at a license plate in front of you, trying not to shout into gridlocked traffic.

You always made a habit of pausing your reading the stop before yours, just so that you could double check that your bag was tucked close, still zipped, and that all of your belongings were still on your person. You didn’t like fumbling with a bookmark and your purse just as the doors were opening and stumbling out, hoping you hadn’t left something on the seat—on the days that you were lucky enough to get a seat, that was. This time you’d been stuck, pressed against the window at the back of the car, but, when the stop before yours came, you put your book away and began pushing toward the door.

When the doors pinged open, you were one of the first ones out, flooding onto the platform as a crowd eagerly waited to take your spot, the train destined to stay full until sundown. You’d almost made it out of the station when you heard your name shouted above the din of the train pulling away.

You turned back abruptly, forcing the people behind you to split around you as you wondered if you’d made it up, heard a phantom voice without a source. But then you saw someone pushing through the crowd toward you, sharp grin present on his face.

His torso was hidden under a graphic tee, appropriate for how much warmer the weather had gotten in the past few weeks, but you’d recognize him anywhere. Really, even if you hadn’t had the reminders of people shoving phones with his picture in your face, he was unmistakable from his hair to his eyes to his teeth.

“Red Riot?” you said with surprise, noticing that he was getting a few stares from passersby.

“Ah, you can call me Kirishima,” he said, rubbing the back of his head. “Red Riot’s just the guy in the uniform.”

“What are you doing here?” you asked, wondering if this man, Kirishima, was going to be imprinting himself on all ends of your commute by the end of the year.

“Day off with my friends.”

Kirishima gestured behind him at a few other people, visible now that the station was thinning out. There was a scowling blond who looked vaguely familiar—probably another hero—two other boys and a pink girl with horns.

“You’re coming home from work?”

You looked down. You were one of the youngest people in the office, so you always tried hard to look the part by dressing as professionally as possible in a button-down and slacks. It definitely stood out against his friends’ casual wear. “Guess it’s pretty obvious, huh?”

Kirishima nodded and you wondered if this was your cue to leave. Cool to see you again, bro, but I’ve got a hot date with Netflix and some leftovers, so why don’t you and your friends enjoy a real Friday night while I begin my descent into my final crotchety cat lady persona?

“Kiri’s told us all about your awesome quirk,” the pink girl said, dark eyes sparkling. “He said you were really brave.”

“And he told us how pretty you were, but man, he didn’t do you justice,” one of the boys—the blond who wasn’t frowning—said.

You bit your lip. The praise was flattering but…uncomfortable. The boy’s brows were raised in what could be interpreted as a suggestive manner, and you wondered what Kirishima had said. Something like She was really brave, cool quirk, kinda cute too or Next time I see her I wanna tap that ass.

Honestly, they made you about equally uncomfortable.

“Cut it out, Kaminari,” Kirishima said, having the decency to flush a little bit. “Listen, we were just going to go to the park and hang out if you wanted to come along?”

“Oh, I…”

You glanced at his friends. All of them—except the one—were smiling and looked like friendly, genuine people. And you usually did like hanging out with people when you actually got up the gumption to do so.

But…your mind was always ready to supply you with a lot of ‘buts.’

But, you’d just gotten off work, looked like an idiot in your slacks and needed to get changed.

But, it was uncomfortable to be in a group where everyone knew each other but you.

But, what if any of these boys were interested in you and tried to get with you?

The last thought always felt so stupid—who did you think you were to assume that any man who looked at you might be thinking about you in that way? Not that you honestly assumed they did, but you feared it. And that didn’t feel much less stupid, to be honest.

“That’s really nice of you,” you said, putting extra cheer and enthusiasm in your voice so it didn’t sound so much like a rejection. “But I haven’t had dinner and work was rough, so I don’t think I’d make a very good impression.”

“Oh, no worries!” Kirishima said, his voice holding the same false merriment as yours. Or maybe you were projecting and he was being totally genuine. “Maybe next time.”

“Yeah,” you agreed, managing a laugh. “If you manage to catch me on another part of my commute—and there’s no villain involved—I’ll make sure to say hey.”

“All right, Y/N,” Kirishima said as he and his friends began to walk on. “I’m counting on it.”

And the third thing you learned was something you’d actually known for a long time. When things changed, usually they changed slowly.

You’d only said what you’d said to Kirishima last time because you figured there was no way in hell you’d be seeing him again. After all, it was a big city with hundreds of thousands of residents, and it wasn’t exactly like accountants and pro heroes ran in the same spheres.

But it seemed life was getting a kick out of keeping you to your word these days.

It was a weekend and you’d actually managed to leave your apartment to hang out with friends. As predicted, you actually did have a good time, though that didn’t keep you from dipping out early—mostly because you were never excited about heading home alone at night. So, purse clutched close to your side, you walked through the streets, reassuringly lit by friendly lampposts and the many bars that were still open.

When you saw the shocking head of red hair, you thought your brain was making up. Because why would he be here, walking the streets on your route home again?

Judging by his shirtless state, it was because he was on patrol. Which, you know, made sense.

It didn’t take him long to spot you. Because while you were attentive—and especially alert, since it was after dark—he was a hero. Trained not to miss a thing.

His face brightened at the sight of you and he jogged over.

“Y/N!” he said. “I thought you were gonna say hello next time you saw me.”

“I said on my commute,” you quipped, feeling the burn of awkwardness that he’d caught you looking at him. “I thought heroes needed to be detail-oriented.”

“Touché,” he said. “Well, it seems you’re spared again. Can’t hang out while I’m working.”

“But you can do this?” you asked, gesturing between the two of you.

Kirishima grinned. “Of course! This is just me building a relationship with the citizens!”

You didn’t know if that was a thing or not, but it sounded legit enough for you. At the very least, it you were in no place to accuse Kirishima of not being good at his job.

“So, I know why I’m here,” Kirishima continued. “What are you up to?”

“Oh, I was just hanging out with friends,” you said. “Heading home now.”

“But that stop that we got off at a few weeks back,” he said. “That’s the stop for your house, right? That’s still pretty far from here.”

Ah, so he was attentive. You had to give him points for that, even if the fact that he’d paid so much attention made you feel…squirmy. Your flight reflexes were humming under your skin, waiting for the moment he said something that made you think too close, too far, too soon.

“I feel safer walking,” you said, subconsciously gripping onto your purse’s strap.

Some people felt safer taking the train home in the evening, but even if it doubled, tripled the length of the trip, you preferred being in a space where you could run away if necessary. And in the city, there were always potential witnesses outside, if you were ever to need them.

Kirishima’s brows furrowed a bit. “Do you want me to walk you? I can go with you at least to the end of my beat.”

The humming increased. His offer was gentlemanly, chivalrous. It reminded you of old-timey courting—and you were being crazy. You didn’t want to walk home alone and a hero was offering to accompany you part way. You ignored your nerves “That would be really sweet, thank you.”

So you walked and talked. He had more to say about your quirk and you told him that you’d never had much interest in them. Rather, you were an accountant who worked nine to five and quite happy living a quiet life with modest success. You didn’t need a lot—certainly not fame or recognition—and you were mostly content. You didn’t mention the chronic loneliness or bouts of fear around dying alone, but that was how you got by. Loneliness was something you were always trying to outrun, and most days you managed to. Letting it catch up and thinking about it never made you feel better and talking about it rarely did either. It was something you felt powerless to change, so the best thing you could do was try to be happy with the rest of your life and hope for the best.

“I’ll admit, the fame is pretty different in real life from what you think it’ll be as a teenager,” Kirishima said.

“Oh, I don’t know,” you said. “I thought about famous bands and stuff and even when I was a kid I didn’t want the kind of notoriety that they have.”

“I’m not sure I ever wanted that either,” Kirishima said. “I just wanted people to look up to me the way I looked up to Crimson Riot. And now that I’m starting to have that, I like that people can rely on me, even if they don’t know me personally.”

You smiled. “That’s a pretty nice way to look at it.”

“You think?”

“I do.” You nodded. “I can see you on the street and feel safer for your being there.”

Kirishima’s shark teeth showed through his smile. “That’s exactly why I’m allowed to talk to you during my patrol.”

“I see,” you said, beginning to think that there was a lot more to heroes than you’d thought.

“Speaking of which,” he said. “I’d love to take you all the way home, but I can’t abandon my post. And this is kind of the end of it.”

You looked at where you were, about to cross a major intersection. You wondered if there was a hero on the other side who would be happy to walk you to the edge of their patrol too.

“No, thank you so much for walking with me this far,” you said. “You didn’t have to do that and it was really sweet.”

“I was happy to do it!” he insisted. You moved to keep going, about to wave your hand in goodbye when he said, “Wait!”

You stopped, heart beating loudly. Flight, flight, flight.

“I was wondering if you’d like to hang out sometime?” he said, a hint of nervousness and hope on his face. Too much hope. “On purpose, you know?”

“Oh,” you said, wishing you could go back in time. Wishing you could have left faster or maybe not even walked with him, even though the walk had been pleasant and comforting. Wishing you were a different person entirely. “I, um, can’t.”

“Oh, do you have a boyfriend?” he asked, the nerves eclipsing the hope. “If so, I’m really sorry if it seemed like I was assu—”

“No, no, I don’t have a boyfriend,” the words almost pulling a wry laugh out of you. A sardonic choke. “I just…I don’t really date.”

“Oh,” Kirishima said again, short brows scrunching in confusion. “Um, sorry, and you don’t have to answer but…what do you mean?”

“I’m on the asexuality spectrum?” you began, hating how apologetic the words sounded. Hating that you couldn’t seem to find a way to be proud of your sexuality, that you could only wear it as a burden. “I’m demisexual. Which means that I can’t feel attracted to people that I barely know. So dating is just…really hard.”

Kirishima’s brows raised. “So…you need to get to know people really well before you’d even be interested?” he asked slowly, clarifying.

“Yeah,” you said. “Very…slow burn.”

“So you’re saying,” he continued, his face becoming warm with a smile again, “that I’d have to see you more often before seeing you officially.”

“Oh, yeah, uh, not that simple,” you said, nervous and confused that he hadn’t let it go yet. “I don’t casual date either. Like, I wouldn’t want someone showing interest in me and then dating other people while they wait to see if I come around. Which I know isn’t fair. Basically, seeing me would be a lot of risk for potentially no reward, because even if we do spend time together, I might never like you. So, yeah, you understand the dilemma.”

The concern was back on his face, and, somehow, your entire urge to flee went away. You’d scared him off, and there was some comfort in that. Sure, maybe it was running away from your problems, but you were able to trick yourself into thinking it was the mature thing to do because you were telling the truth. You were being honest about what the situation was.

“So this really is hard for you.” There was compassion in his voice that took you aback. That wasn’t him running. That wasn’t him being scared off.

“Um, yeah, it kinda sucks,” you said.

“I’m really sorry about that,” Kirishima said, and you thought, hoped that would be the end of it. But he kept going. “But, honestly, spending more time with you sounds like a really nice thing, even without any expectations or anything on it.”

Some boys had made this offer in the past. And it sounded nice on paper, but no matter what you did, you couldn’t remove the expectations in your mind. The fact that you knew why they’d looked at you in the first place, what they were looking for, and that you were still in a position to lead them on. You always made it so hard for yourself, even though you just wanted with everything in your heart for it to be easy.

“And, just so you know,” Kirishima said, glancing down shyly, “I don’t date a lot either. I’m not sure what kind of impression I’ve given off, but really, I don’t have that much time because of this career, and the time that I do I try to spend with my friends. So, it would make more sense to, you know, try and do that anyway. I just…as a hero, I often see the worst of people and so I want to spend all my other time with good ones. And you seem like a really good person.”

“I…” You had one last shot. One last thing to show the worst of yourself and see if he’d turn around on you. “When I’ve tried dating before, I’m not the best version of myself. I get really uncomfortable, so I treat people in a way that’s less than they deserve. I don’t think you’d like that version of me.”

“It’s a good thing we wouldn’t be dating then,” Kirishima said. “Just…two friends trying to become better people.”

You were at war with yourself. He was saying all the right things but you were still so scared. Of someone liking you when you couldn’t like them. Of you falling for them after they’d put you in the friend zone. Of falling in love and it not working out. Of falling in love and getting everything.

“How about this,” Kirishima said. “I’ll be here tomorrow—my shift starts at six. And if we happen to bump into each other by accident, well, that seems to be our pattern, so how bad could it be?”

You smiled, having a quick response for that one. “I could be held hostage by a villain, pass out, and need you to take me to the hospital.”

“Well, at least we know we can get out of that one.”

“I suppose so,” you said. It was casual. It was literally the lowest stakes invitation you’d ever heard in your life. If you couldn’t say yes to this, then what were you doing? “I…okay. I might see you tomorrow.”

He grinned at you and you became immediately convinced that his cheer was totally genuine. He was just a happy guy, and maybe nothing he said had any innuendo or hidden meaning to it. It probably never had. “Is it okay if I give you my number? I just want to know that you get home safe.”

In the bright lights of the busy street, you’d almost forgotten that it was quickly becoming the middle of the night, and that you’d had such unease when you’d first stepped out into it. You’d felt totally safe for a minute, even in this strange world you lived in.

“Okay,” you said. “If I’m not home in twenty minutes, you have permission to get worried.”

“I’ll send a search party,” he said. “I know a guy.”

You laughed. “Sounds good. Otherwise…”

“Otherwise…”

“Tomorrow.”

“We’ll see.”

He nodded. “We’ll see.”

It was half a promise, the start of a maybe friendship. It was probably nothing at all, you had to remind yourself for the whole walk home, otherwise you might go crazy with nerves.

But, also, it might be good.

Time would only tell.

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