#what if i died forever

[absentmoon]

White is for Witching — Helen Oyeyemi

#what if i died forever #shes feasting on plaster she's attacking her cage with the only tool she has UGHHHH #daisy.txt #horror cw

[suncaptor]

like I don't want PEM it shouldn't be a thing :( but it would explain SO much. but like the way I improve is obsessive overextension of myself and also it's necessary for how I've lived my life like what do you want from me :( I need to cure it so i cure the rest!

#it would make SO much sense but the idea is sooooooo upsetting :( #"Patients need to be advised about “push and crash” cycles: patients sometimes respond to having a “good day” by subsequently doing too muc #and then relapsing.' #'may also experience triggering or worsening of symptoms when moving to and/or maintaining an upright posture.' #what if i died forever #also the way mental exertion is included and also adhd pills can cause relapse bc someone pushes themself on it :*( SHUT UP FOREVER #like it's so upsetting like girl i have adhd i need to be capable of functioning in intense bursts or I'll die #but also none of the ways i used to be able to compensate work anymore so it's not. it's not like. it's not like. #but i just want it to be my fault so it can be in my control :( tell me i need to exercise MORE #do MOREEEEEEE #maybe I should try it again like be really really focused on it #like these symptoms ARE since the covid vaccine. like if i had them before it was a fraction of the degree #so what if i meticulously over extended myself and worked my body for a few weeks on end and just SEE how much I crash? #(says the guy who can't make to his class bc by the time he gets there he crashes often literally just passes out :/) #UGHHHHH #and it isn't being that out of shape it's like. i prommy #though I am sure I could be in more shape since that always happens #i bet i could WIN if I tried hard enough #against the PEM symptoms #like if i tried HARD enough surely i could bypass it and win #right right right right right (is insane) #i cannot live my life like this #delete #vent

[spaciebabie]

springtrap says the EVIL sex word because hes so so SCARY and evil and PURPLE AAAAA!!!!!! AAAAAA!!! SEX!!!!!!! MOUMMY!! HEEELP!!!!

#fnaf #five nights at freddy's #springtrap #purple guy #william afton #springtrap fnaf #you all should listen ta the hit album 'sex in minecraft' by joel varg #a classic if i do say so myself #GRANDMA HAS DIED BUT I STIIIIIIIILLLL HAVE SEX IN MINECRAAAAAAAAAAAFT #what is up w/him and grandma first the ghostbusters album now this #glitchtrap #vanny fnaf #this has been stuck in my head for forever #this is what insanity looks like :\ #oh well already knew thattun #i wasnt supposed ta draw this taday. it was supposed ta be. something else. #weeeeeereeeerrrrghgh #bye #suggestive #i guess #spacie scribbles

[applestruda]

Small comic thingy in reference to one of the rambles that wonderful anon wrote about

#*falls on the ground and dies* #i #i wish i could say this was low effort #but comics arent my strong suit so this took forever #and i dont even like it that much #but you know i had to do it #what anon wrote was so so good #boatem knights au #goodtimeswithscar #grian #vex scar #guys i swear the other knights are here #i just-- #i didnt have the strength to draw them #my art

[arthursfuckinghat]

The tragedy that is Arthur Morgan is something that keeps me up at night.

That man lived day to day thinking life was just a tally chart of his sins and that he was forever damned, to the point where he was silently suicidal.

He lived and died thinking that no matter what good he did, it would never make up for his existence - in the type of life he didn't get to choose.

And what's worse is that he still tried. He tried and gave absolutely everything to the people he cared about, to the people he loved, and he watched all of it crumble before him.

He was a dog that was tricked into thinking it was a wolf, a stag who was taught to be a moose, that died to unwavering loyalty.

#they were right #he is a shakespearian tragic hero #oh arthur #oh how often I mourn for a man who dies when I let him #when I play the game as intended #what choice do I have? #your fate is sealed #I'm no god #I cannot change the game #I may only bend the rules #but nothing is forever #rdr2 #red dead redemption 2 #mick squeaks #arthur morgan #mick rants #red dead redemption 2 spoilers

[ganondoodle]

there goes my favorite drawing software ...

i defended their plans for the version2 and all, bc i didnt see much wrong with it and liked csp alot, but i guess i should have become a hater back then already

after that one big mistake that sparked so much outrage they really said but how can we actually lose EVERYONE, they saw deviantart doing it and thought BET I CAN DO IT FASTER

(they say they dont use user data but are basing it on stable diffusion of all things, they literally only ask people to think morally/ethically when using it to not use stolen stuff like thats ever worked with anything ever, plus "we cant guarantee that there will be no copyright infringement" OH YOU DONT SAY)

#ganondoodles talks #clip studio #AI crap #RIGHT when i was slowly getting back into everything #after having to come to terms with the fact that twitter is turning into a facists dreamland #WHY CSP WHY #i had FAITH #after deviantart pulled this shit why would you do it too #god i am fuming #fuck his hell world #see how you do once art disappears #you cant treat artists like replaceable dirt soup forever #since they said they will dis continue it once vers2 comes out #guess im never buying that new version and stay with 1 forever #i really yall spam their damn feedback survey once its out #maybe ... MAYBE if we yell enough at them #the hope for them to turn around on this is thinner than a spiders thread #and yet im trying to hold onto it #whats left really

[dizzybevvie]

Playing the new OL2 Demo and finding out the friendgroup is lowkey falling apart by step 2

#KAJNSDKJAS IM BEING DRAMATIC #but the opening narration was talkin about how the trio dont usually walk together now and i was in tears on the floor #LIKE WDYM WE ARENT BESTIES FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER?????????????? #Maybe OL1 just spoiled me with the friendship with Cove but my GOD #also Tamarack???? STOP BEING SAD ITS MAKING ME SAD :(((((((( #our life #our life now and forever #ol2 #tamarack baumann #olnf qiu #qiu lin #olnf #olnf tamarack #olnf mc #“Tamarack and Qiu were no longer friends” What if i died. what then

[silveme]

Cmon Sigma nation! Let’s get sickeningggggg!

#what kind of sigma stan would I be if I DIDNT draw this skin cmon nowwww #but by god this took forever I hope the hype hasn’t died down lol #this is based off “the count of monte cristo” by mead schaeffer #sigma #overwatch #galactic emperor sigma #original art #sigma overwatch #digital art #artists on tumblr #fanart #seibren de kuiper #art

[showmey0urfangs]

Jacob Anderson and Sam Reid, The Street of Immortality

#what if i cried forever #and died #what then? #iwtv #iwtv cast #jam reiderson #jacob anderson #louis de pointe du lac #sam reid #lestat de lioncourt #interview with the vampire #sdcc 2023

[noahmullariii]

the rage I feel when reading Blood of Olympus chapters 45-56 is almost equivalent in magnitude to the absolute joy I experience when reading The Last Olympian chapters 1-23.

remember when percabeth was good? when they meant the world to each other but had other people they cared about (nico, for one. both of them. so much), other worries and other storylines aside from their romantic plot? and when nico's completed arc wasn't repeated for no reason other than to dump more trauma on the youngest character in the series? when background characters were included in the story not for all the unnecessary last minute romantic subplots but because they were fun and fascinating to learn more about? and were actually friends with main characters? remember when grover was percy and annabeth's best friend forever? and antagonists were actually interesting and intimidating and had compelling goals? and the story revolved around friendship and family and loyalty? and death was definite and loss was palpable and battles were thrilling?

yeah. good times.

#rr crit #pjo #hoo #hoo crit #percy jackson #annabeth chase #percabeth #oh how i love them in pjo. how they loved. #grover underwood #<- remember him? #nico di angelo #will solace #dumpster fire of a canon relationship -> #solangelo #anyway! #last olympian will forever be the best book this man wrote #how can you finish one of your series so perfectly then fuck up so bad while ending the next story #cuz goddamn does blood of olympus boil MY blood #ESPECIALLY those last fucking chapters omg #why would you massacre my boys rick #putting nico and will in a room together for the first time just to turn will into a total asshole. great move thanks a lot! #will had so much potential from his previous appearances #you could've left it at that dream message nico had #that was nice!!! actually!! #instead you ruined all of it with a few chapters #justice for tlo-tlh will solace cuz that was one nice background character with potential to become a great main one day #nico deserves THAT will. not this piece of shit he meets #also nico and percy friendship in hoo is... nonexistent??? #what is that about #fucking hell richard

[granitxhka]

#MARTIN ØDEGAARD #ARSENAL #IDK IF SOMONE UPLOADED THIS ALREADY BUT THIS IS WHAT IT MEANS TO HIM IM LITERALLY ENDING IT ALLLL #SOMETHING ABOUT HE WOULD HAVE DIED FOR THIS 😭 #IN SUCH A SHORT TIME WHEN YOU THINK ABOUT IT HE HAS MEANT EVERYTHING TO ME!!!! #I HOPE I REMEMBER THIS FOREVER. I LOVE THIS TEAM SM

[pineappical]

very good friends

#severance #severance fanart #mark scout #peter kilmer #i loveee petey so much.. s2 flashbacks of petey please please please please 🥺 #guhh i want to know what theyre like soo much together in the office.. petey forever in my heart.. gone too soon </33 #pn.art #i dont want to draw chairs or backgrounds so theyre sitting in the void dont worry about it #petey is just sososo tragic i love him it breaks my heart that his final moments were with his 'best friend' who doesnt Know Him because #his real best friend is inside lumon where he cant go back to anymore. him and this version of mark are strangers and he did nothing during #That Scene... he just up and left and tried to cover up his tracks because outie mark doesnt know him AUHHGG #does innie!mark ever find out that petey died ? and the other version of himself did nothing about it ? i actually cant remember if he #found out but guhhh.... :((( #*sniffs* i just care them alot..... aheem....

[cozymochi]

ALTERNATIVELY TO MY PREV QUESTION <3

Is there any saved something you have which needs context, and that you definitely could write a whole post essay about, and maybe even wanted to, if someone had only asked or only the opportunity had arisen?

And if so, would you like to use this ask as a perfect excuse to do so~? ;)

One time I conceptualized a 1st year sleepover at Ramshackle event type thingy. They’ve had them before but what can i say— im a sucker. It’s was more so catered specifically towards things involving my MC and their specific issues, but, for brevities sake— it involved trying to cheer up the Prefect, then in trying to come up with something cool to do, one guy has a brilliant plan and it suddenly becomes an unwanted escape room/home-invasion horror movie thanks to a magic skeleton key that fucked with Ramshackle. I never ironed out the details. But here are 5 out of 6 hypothetical “cards” I drew for it.

These are all hella old, and the only thing that bugs (aside from never finishing Ace’s rip, sorry😭 ) is that I drew them on a canvas that was too small and I didn’t notice until it was too late!! Then i had the grand idea to make them bigger, but that made them more jank. So the quality has been compromised across the board. There’s a lot I’d change design wise nowadays. BUT I’M STILL a fan of Deuce and Ortho’s appearances specifically (even if there are minor things i’d adjust, like maybe Ortho’s pose since i wasnt comfy drawing him and his machinery aesthetic yet.)

Hypothetical “SSR” belongs to Sebek because at the time he didn’t have an event specific one. This era was a throw a bone W. Nowadays I just want the guy to always have Ws.

It’s a little janky presentation wise across the board imo, so if I ever come back to this one day with more refinement, everyone is getting redone. And maybe Ace can be an “SSR” too to make up for never finishing his image (not showing the old wip). No promises though, even dropping this much in the states they’re in is enough to shoot my nerves tbh. I like the base idea fine, but it could do with a lot more refinement everywhere. AND NEXT TIME I’D REMEMBER THE RESOLUTION SIZE. BUT YEAH THATS IT REALLY the end. This wasn’t an essay this was venting lmfao rip

#cozy ask #my art #twisted wonderland #jack howl #epel felmier #deuce spade #ortho shroud #sebek zigvolt #It’s all pretty jank if i look too closely #Especially since at the time it was my earliest attempts at drawing any of them #not FIRST just early- #I could pick at these forever 🚪🚶 #twstposting #I find early stuff embarassing in general. i waaaanna say im better NOW and more comfy but thats a toss up too #I know what i’d change i think. #THEN I SAW LATER SONEBODY ELSE CAME UP WITH THE SAMR THING AND I DIRD #I DIED. funny how what these creechers would wear and their asethetics are mostly agreed upon

[lambmotifz]

thinking about how dean making the deal was out of love for sam and of selfishness. he did it for sam as much as for himself. i think they pretty much blatantly said it in the crossroad blues where he and sam were once again paralleled to a married couple (dean chewing out the guy that made the deal to save his dying wife by saying “did you ever think about her in all this?” and “i think you did it for yourself so you wouldn’t have to live without her” and “guess what, she’s gonna have to live without you now”. and then he did the same thing to sam). he wanted his little brother back so bad he didn’t care about the consequences and how it’d affect sam (remember mystery spot and how dean’s death was driving sam insane?), or how sam would feel knowing his resurrection costed such a price. he just did it. because sam was always the centre of his world and he wanted him all to himself and to keep him forever. he couldn’t imagine or even handle living without sam and he didn’t care or didn’t think about sam having to live without him. and i love him for that. yes, it was selfish, but also beautiful and tragic and sexy

#“because i couldn’t live with you dead couldn’t do it.” “what you did was selfish” oh i’m gonna go insane #they really said dean is the only one who decides if sam lives or dies. because sam belongs to him #btw it’s not a dean hate post on the contrary i love how unhinged he is about sam #and i love the unhinged choices he makes to keep his baby brother with him forever #wincest #samdean #sam winchester #dean winchester #spn

[shadowtraveled]

“will you do it? will you do it? i will help you.” this is it for me

#for essek to say this right after refusing to turn back time to undo his own treason. shadowgast makes me so insane you do not understand #‘i think this is a bad idea. too many things could go wrong and i’m unwilling to risk trading my guilt for something that could rival the #calamity. if you want to though. we can do it together. and we’ll make sure it works.’ #what if i fucking died. what if that killed me #essek thelyss your lines in this episode will live inside me forever #what a problem #critical role #essek thelyss

[iamhereinthebg]

The Meis deserved to have the 11th cover 

#toilet bound hanako kun #tbhk #jshk #shijima mei #I died but it was for the greater good #they deserve so much covers #why AidaIro #it was a lil challenge with Mari yay #I didn't give up because of Mei :))) #jibaku shonen hanako kun #jibaku shonen hanako kun fanart #tbhk fanart #jshk fanart #It was really interesting to copy AIdaIro's artstyle too #I rarely use references so copying an artstyle was something ahah #and yes I gave them the 11th cover because I find the real one ugly af and an insult to what is happening in this volume #like Hanako doesn't appear at all #It's Mei's story and she doesn't have the cover I will forever be salty for that